Aetheraeon Notebook 9

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1/10/24

  One of the things I'm looking to explore lately is the connection between the metaphysics that I've discussed surrounding substance refinement and the various meridians involves and the biochemical reactions that unfold as a result of this, that they're manifestations of the metaphysic playing out on all these various levels and why manifestation cannot be isolated to any one level. The psychological elements aren't existent in a vacuum and must also reflect in the physiological elements which correspond. This is the metaphysic made manifest. Anything that is satanic is something that draws you away from moving forward and compels you to stay in comfort zones of safety. That's why Satan in the bible is referred to as the tempter. It's about safety and pleasure over pursuit of greatness and glory which is proportionate to greater process, God being your personal greater consciousness. The more power you have and the more nourished you are the more influence you will have over others. Facing the fire purifies your field geometry and moves you into greater proportionality with greater consciousness. Facing the fire is purifying, in every way because it's a metaphysical process. Holding back into safety and comfort is what's holding back your satisfaction. Going all the way into your thematic resonance is your supply of nourishment and the pathway to immortality. The alchemist spoke about this being the box, but I'm relating to that to the idea of safety. Going beyond the safety zone with courage is transforming, going all the way. When we age we lose that competitive essence, which is one level of manifestation of this principle I'm talking about. This principle of enduring pressure all the way in a direction that's correct for our consciousness is truly what brings us satisfaction and nourishment.
The metaphysic of lust is the thing that destroys vitality and satisfaction.

Fasting from the senses. It really does make you coherent with the divine. The metaphysical significance of everything we do here applies. Manifesting is all metaphysical, from start to finish. Everything is metaphysical. Everything we do and don’t do has metaphysical correspondence. It’s just crazy to really see and experience this. Like the level of “casualness” you get when you’re engaging in previous big deal things is off the charts. It’s like you can just remain so calm and so centred in yourself knowing your value because you’re nourished. Magic happens out of this state.


Fasting from the senses brings about higher order coherency with divine processes. It’s just like in the bible where it’s spoken about all things unclean and degenerate and they’re always relating to the overconsumption of sensory phenomena that’s stimulating and pleasurable. All of it. Like every level of that metaphysic drains vitality and actually lowers your degree of baseline nourishment because the senses consume essence to be experienced. This is why we age afterall. Restoring physical vitality to be at the level it once was when we were younger requires us to fast from the senses and physical restoration unfolds along with pushing the limits we have in comfort zones too as a means of letting go of resistance that drains further vitality. This is made manifest on all levels including the psychological and physiological and the imaginal aspects at once. They all will correspond because the principles underlying these must always be made manifest in all those levels as signs and conditions that reflect the metaphysical composition of your consciousness. That’s the point. That’s the magic. The magic is the automatic implied represented manifest level that is experienced. It’s unconscious because it’s the mechanics of reality which always unfold through us as God. It’s all correspondent to metaphysical processes and purity manifests true satisfying abundance through and through.

2/10/24

I know without a shadow of a doubt based on my experiments lately that going all the way is the way by which you attain satisfaction within you and thus provides nourishment and a sense of self compatible with the end you're sinking into. It will come through you naturally and it will be effortless because you've got the constituent components expressed in your consciousness to take that upon you as who you're being. Being purified under the purifying sacred blue fire grants you power and going all the way with that is what brings you the coherency with your thematic resonance to flow through you naturally. It's natural. As always.

I'm at the point now where I know how I can make anything happen. I know the formula and I know through massive amounts of experiments that it's never forced it's always natural and comes through you. Satisfying manifestations require pressure and transformation.

So capacitive charge is reflected in the subconscious capacity. Your subconscious mind is a capacitor and most people have no voltage in it. Tesla called voltage "tension". Tension and pressure are analogous and this pressure or tension emanates from the capacitive potential out of the root which feeds the energy to the sacral which then determines what it does and doesn't have energy for. If you spend energy incorrectly you deplete subconscious capacity but also anything that's overstimulating to the senses as that stored charge as vitality is dissipated on the periphery through the senses which are the outlets of qi. Retaining vitality on all levels has everything to do with keeping the internal capacitive charge high and out of that higher order substances will naturally form through hitting on new degrees of Fibonacci progression as the capacity compounds in potential. This always requires there to be sufficient substance present to be the carrier for the qi. The fact is the bible and other such texts which all speak of the pleasures of the flesh as sinful and that God (the mechanics of process unfolding ) will punish you is completely correct but it's not moral based it's mechanical based. The punishment is the depletion to your field geometry, which is that you're entropic and will decay. If you expend vitality through the sacral correct drive out of it's response then you're not going to deplete vitality because it's going to reflect your thematic resonance and actually provide you a supply but it's excessive and unnecessary stimulation that depletes vitality. The senses are evil and sinful under the context that using them as cope for pain and moving away from transformation to indulge in easy comforting things is the point as this metaphysic is the element of compromise I speak on. This ties into the post I made a while ago about negating the decisions out of the senses and being driven through the thematic resonance in the form and just being there to observe. That's how you cultivate vitality while living your life, that's if it drives you into these directions. Your buffer vitality is basically representing your ability to regenerate your form to the point where it can maintain complete youthfulness around the age of 18. Quintessence I believe is one of the most potent forms to make that happen as it almost forces you to transform through an intense regenerative effect, specifically with Melissa ens which is what I've made. Thing is my alchemy lab still isn't fully functional so making this stuff to high purify is a pain, I'm missing sieve to purify the spirits to maximum purify. You require maximum purity or you'll destroy the batch. This process is extremely intensive though and nobody sells it so you just have to make it yourself. 

 

I want to also speak more on fasting, physically speaking under the context of fasting from food but also the senses and the metaphysic at play here. We all know that dopamine fasting increases sensitivity to pleasure with less stimulus. Fasting from food also makes the taste far more sensitive to tastes and you realise that most of the modern food is extremely salty and sweet to a point that's almost gross in some cases. Fasting from the senses in general seems to build sensitivity, and sensitivity is a manifestation of qi coherency with substance circulating in the circuits. What seems to be present here is that sensitivity is a sign of increased vitality, but not necessarily buffer capacity as a measure of subconscious capacity. It's more so a function that's restoring the function that should be there at baseline in everyone anyway. That process also applies to other elements including fasting from comfort zones and safety nets and how when you go all the way consistently in all elements of reality you seem to also boost the benefits of other fasting methods. My point is that there's a metaphysical association here between fasting from easy comfort level nourishment and attaining increased vitality. Physical muscle growth through hypertrophy and aerobic growth as vo2 max for example only benefits when you break the comfort zones and go all the way. Weight loss is the same for the most part, fasting increases spleen qi which tones the form and dispels dampness. The same happens with dissolving psychological trauma, unless you really go all the way with it it's not going away. This metaphysic is what I'm talking about, it seems to be made manifest in so so many levels of reality that I cannot ignore this as a primary function of consciousness, whatever it is. I don't even know what to label it currently but I'm sure the correct term will come in time. It seems that fasting from the system the program, and all the elements it presents us with to seek comfort and easy pleasure in is part of how it's progressing it's construct of the universal Ajna through basically manipulating us into buying into easy comfort in exchange for our vitality and capacity to complete the great work. We've been told that it's normal to accept these comforts but I personally see all of this as compromise, even a little level of it and when I look at my life and the times I've fallen backwards it's always resulted in my respect being lowered, even if just a little bit. This metaphysic seems to affect manifestation in general on all levels and I believe it's relating to what the bible speaks of about the need to disregard the pleasures of the world. It's literal but the mechanics of it aren't really known by anyone. It's almost like Venus represents Sin and when you really look at the archetype there it really is driving transformation through it's magnetism into sensory pleasure which we accept and buy into and yet that's the trap which causes us to hook into a degenerative cycle and our vitality is drained. The degree to which this happens is always different depending on what's engaged in but the principle is clear to me. The "luck" people attain comes from being closer to negating the need for pleasures in the world through sourcing nourishment from the sacral supply in the decisions made. Manifestation requires this to work in a consistent and satisfying manner, otherwise if you're depleted and imagine the best you'll get is partial results or signs or something limiting like that which of course will always reflect the feeling of lack which is correspondent to the depletion of your vitality from disregarding your internal supply. It reminds me of Odin dying, or the saying of how those who die in battle go to Valhalla. It seems the idea of self sacrifice pertains to going all the way into releasing attachment to the pleasures of the world and fully expressing your internal thematic resonance as a supply to complete the great work, which corresponds to all these levels that are made manifest. That's the metaphysic. It's made manifest on all these levels because the only thing that actually exists is the principle and all the degrees of sensory level correspondence are all "markers" for the quality of that metaphysic within our field geometry. This get's really esoteric to think about but it's the highest level. That's what determines the purity of our supply of nourishment and thus the degree of vitality we can emanate and cultivate to manifest with in the world, naturally, where the thoughts and feelings come through you that are correspondent. It really does come down to being driven by greater consciousness instead of the program and it's conditioning as that's your infinite supply. This explains on more levels my idea of being yourself without compromise. A further refinement at least.

If that doesn't connect more dots I don't know what will. Crazy insights that came through. Reality Synthesis is really taking form into a complete working model. So long as I continue to push forward with this work I will continue to refine this until it's complete, whenever that may be I don't know. I just have to accept where I'm driven and play into that. You're the same. Own it. 

Interesting was when I did that 3 month fast from all forms of modern world stimulus. I didn't touch any screen for that time, except for like a few times once every few weeks for important business and communication reasons. What I found was people were just drawn to me like a magnet, everybody was respecting me even though I rarely ever thought of that manifesting. It was implied through the thematic composition of my field geometry. It just takes time to restore vitality. 

Matt 6:13 "And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen." How powerful is that under this context. God being process and through us being correct we are one with God, meaning greater consciousness we're proportionate towards through supplying vitality from that principle vs the false pleasures of the corporeal senses. NG obviously didn't understand the bible, he really didn't, else he'd be talking about these metaphysics which is also mostly why the so called law of assumption is so whacked where most people (~96%) of people who work with it fail. Temptation. There's a reason why popular culture is so degenerate. The program and it's drive for us through the mind and buying into the conditioning that's around every corner to tempt. The people who win don't play the pleasure game, including the law systems and disregarding false authority for God is the only true authority. To be that powerful requires hardcore discipline and there's no way around that. The manifest results on the mental level come out of that. Being "holy" is someone who values their vitality and all the way it can be drained in the world of the senses through resisting temptation. Makes sense.

 

Being a person of God is to be proportionate means to be your own supply of nourishment and to deny temptation to be drawn into the world where we can be conditioned and buy into false desires. Temptation is the contrast to watch for. Temptation. Temptation to accept degeneracy. Temptation to deny divinity. You see how this works. Living by this and making decisions from this principle is the wholistic approach to refining the sense of self. 

 

3/10/24

Why modern culture sucks and why most people are weak and depleted? They’re encouraged to seek comfort and to spread that it’s ok to be tempted or even command others to accept there weakness. Competitive spirit and enduring difficulty (the metaphysic of growth and transformation under pressure) has been encouraged to be actively avoided because we shouldn’t have to or because only a select group should. Everybody who lives in a well functioning society would have this mindset towards life. That society will flourish immensely. This culture built on avoiding and coping with pressure is the sign of a heavily declining society, except it’s global, because the degeneracy is a function of how greater process is unfolding for a natural way for us to go and be replaced.

Can it be changed? Technically yes but you’re going to have to perfect your existence yo have a level of influence that’s even going to scratch the surface. Considering how convenient and easy it now is to compromise on facing pressure with modern tech it’s accelerated the decline of collective vitality. If there’s less opportunity for compromise then there’s less means to deplete vitality. Pushing the boundaries under pressure was more normalised before in the decades gone but now as it’s more normalised to accept degeneracy it means there’s even more of a challenge to achieve collective satisfaction. Of course making decisions out of inner authority is still always the foundation here but my main point is that people back then given the context of their experiences on a collective level it seems more often than not people were driven more through their generator nature vs the mind else they’d not be nourished and satisfied. There’s a scale to this too it’s not a black or white thing. Accepting comfort has degrees but the truth is that any level of compromise will drain you even if just a bit. It literally dissolved a part of your soul, you’re depleting the subconscious buffer capacity every time you accept and buy into compromise and make decisions from that place and this is why the people who cannot manifest consistently satisfying experiences cannot transform because the acceptance of easy convenient solutions vs going all the way is the answer now. That’s what this entire community is built on. Most of them would say this is limiting beliefs because they still deny the metaphysical and alchemical nature of reality and fail to grasp the actual mechanics at play. These people want to stay comfortable and have abundance in the most limiting way possible without requiring any level of transformation beyond what’s accepted. 

A vast majority of modern issues are made manifest through this metaphysic I call compromise. Degeneracy. Sin. Real sin is compromise on the drive your form has for the correct use of your vitality vs seeking comfort and easy solutions. There’s never innovation or evolutionary transformation which unfolds through the easy way. Once again this doesn’t involve the idea that we’re to constantly suffer under the pain and pressure of life at every turn but it’s just to simply use your vitality in ways that is negentropic and generative vs depleting.

Remember that thread I connected like a year ago.  The one about when you’ve lived a fulfilling day you go to sleep feeling satisfied every night. The satisfaction from that, this feeling of nourishment cannot be attained through living out of compromise. Ever. NG and the people he worked with in his lectures likely lived this way, and were told that it’s all assumption. What a joke. I can’t believe how ignorant this community is. Buying into popular influencer manifesting wasted the best years of my life mindlessly affirming non stop for weeks months. No wonder I wanted to jump off a cliff because I was so filled with unsatisfaction from living incorrectly making decisions out of the mind. I can recall so many times I played tug of war with my form where I was feeling intuitive impulse but denied it. The only thing that kept me going with a supply was my work on developing RS in the physics space. The people we have today are weak and don’t understand how manifesting actually works and now this once sacred practise is being taught like an easy lifestyle hack to resolve all your problems. What a load of fools. I use to be one of them though so no fingers pointed, but it’s time for transformation.

All I know is that the primary factor underlying the sense of self is an undying desire for perfection and going all the way in embodying that archetypal composition that you’re resonant with. That is manifesting because you’re mediating real power through you just as it says in the bible. The bible is a text about transformation of the components of consciousness not an airy fairy text about imaginal experiences create reality. That’s one element but it comes through you, always, otherwise it will not be satisfying. You know this so live and breathe it. The more I interpret the bible this way under the alchemical context the more I understand about it. I already knew that was the case but the theme of going all the way is what’s missing. Raw masculine power. The purified Yang is uncompromising in its thrusting into the world as a literal embodiment of that principle which flows through you but you fail to accept this reality and instead seek comfort which takes you away from correct expression and satisfaction because it’s easy. That’s the point, the free will to make decisions determines your personal reality, and what goes through your head is but a small part of that process because alchemically speaking it’s made manifest on all corresponding levels of corporeal existence not just in the mind. When we avoid transformation we deny our divinity and our vitality becomes depleted and we die as we’re the embodiment of compromise and degeneracy. That’s is how God punishes us, it’s simply a mechanical function and not a morality thing where there’s a being judging you for sin. Sin and degeneracy are mechanical aspects of consciousness.

I seem to be the only one who sees it this way I’ve never heard anyone else say it like that before with all the study I’ve done in this subject and yet it makes the most sense on all levels. Is Reality Synthesis truly the model to replace law of assumption? Seems like it. I’m just the vessel by which this is made manifest through, I am the corporeal being that’s driven by greater conciseness through my intuitive impulse and if I accept where I’m driven I will succeed and be satisfied. Owning it uncompromisingly and going all the way no matter what. That’s why circumstances don’t matter. How many more dots do I need to connect before we realise this? I’ve written so much every day on how this works and I’ve truly explained every function of consciousness and it’s relationship to the phenomena of manifestation and thoroughly refuted the law of assumption and what NG says about imagination is god, in a practical sense. How much more is there to go? I don’t know. 

The thing I do know is that I killed the law of assumption and the work of Neville Goddard. The law of assumption is dead. Too bad. 

Courage. Rebellion against the status quo and false authority. Safety nets and comfort zones. Raw unfiltered merciless masculine fury. The fury of Odin. “He cried” (in fury) as he died on the world tree. He. Yang. 

Neville Goddard failed to provide us anything on this regard except the whole “dare to assume it” idea. There was no power behind that, no transformation. No courage. Neville Goddard taught the world that being a fantasiser is the secret. He never connected courage to how we live. There’s a few quotes that would seem to be this way I’ve written out in past pages but they’re few and far between so as far as I’m concerned he failed to provide this in a meaningful way. 

When we live in a world where being weak is seen as a good thing to be celebrated you know it’s the end of that world and these people will be forced to transform through their ignorance one way or another. The drive only comes out when it's needed. People don't have the contrast present to bring it out by force and it's only when things get worse and worse and worse and worse that they accept it and make different decisions to end the degenerate streak. This is what will happen on a collective. Thing cannot change collectively unless this process of transformation unfolds, under pressure. However that happens.

 

We live in a world where the yin dominates. Why do women manifest easier than men? Because the balance is shifted in their favour. We live in an emotionally dominated world, feeling is the secret NG says (under an emotional and thematic sense though who knows if he really meant thematics or not). He's parroting this metaphysic and failed to understand the true nature of manifesting. We're depleted and stagnant. Why is manifestation so popular for both sides? Because it appeases to the fantasies of both sides which is the cope for them not owning themselves. You're never going to experience an exponential upwards trend, ever. It's going to involve peaks and dips because that's the nature of the cyclical nature of self recursion and it manifests in literally everything in reality. All natural phenomena follow this process.

The sacral is primarily a yin based center actually because it's below the G and the heart but what it generates is yang, just as the liver distributes the peripheral circulation and distribution of Qi. Qi being a substance of yang, Jing in motion or a yang transformation of Jing under those conditions. The sacral is the most powerful motor, it drives us with immense power and harnesses the essential function for growth, transformation. The Root is the supply of that for the Sacral. If we wish to generate further vitality then we are required to use that vitliaty it's generating correctly or it'll be wasted and become pathogenic which is the heat pattern in TCM. Damp heat. Stagnation and excess pathogenic fire that's not being moved. Those with damp heat are manifesting the metaphysic of that in their physiology. TCM is wonderful in establishing someone's composition. When we can own the drive the sacral has to conquer and go all the way (the not self theme of the undefined sacral is not knowing how far to go) then we're utilising the heat pouring out of the root and transforming that through our decisions under pressure into form and manifestation in the world. Our entire field geometry is a reflection of this alchemical formula at play and yet we've been told we need to hold it back.

We should be tearing the spines out of the people in power today if we held nothing back and had supply. Completely merciless and pure savage destruction of degeneracy that's accepted by this world. Nobody has guts to destroy these people because they're weak and pitiful. I remember writing on chalk all over the roads when I could back in 2021 about the Talmudic influence and nobody cared. Israel is what created the degenerate popular culture in our world and shaped the common beliefs and normalised those for generations. Now that it's established about what's happening in that sphere to the common people what I said years ago is now taken seriously. The context has shifted. Contrast is more present to draw the shift in context. Gradually things are noticed to get worse and worse until that primal drive in the sacral wakes up and the power emanates as it should've centuries ago and nothing can stop the sacral being when it's operating correctly. The world is made of generators and it's only a matter of time until transformation unfolds. This macrocosmic process unfolds within our microcosm too. Own it.

 

When you've got increased subconscious capacity the field emanating from the sacral is amplified and is much bigger in size and in influence. The thing is that the sacral is basically the manifestation of vitality, like it literally is life manifest in form, root being the source that unfolds into this, like a seed growing into a tree. The power of the sacral really is everything. It gives you the courage to be driven and to make those moves into the world that really matter.

 

The deeper I go into this sensation of being the more I understand it and what I've been trying to explain with all these process I've spoken about. The natural progression of normalisation has a yang based quality to it. The complete embodiment of this yang principle is like it's the unforgiving merciless "I'm going to destroy everything I see" kind of fury. The unstoppable force. You must have capacity to feel it fully, else it'll be weak and pitiful. Real power comes through having the design and the capacity for it. I've spoken about stories of my times at high school years ago where I was able to achieve seemingly impossible things when I was in the state, when I felt the "rising" sensation that's like my head being listed up by an invisible force and my legs feel like they're made of lightning. It's not qigong it's just an alchemical transformation. Without sufficient capacity it will not work, it can't. I just feel such intense power when I sink into this state I can't describe it's different to the tingles I get from lightning qigong probably because it's working through the sacral instead of the heart motor which is what that targets I believe. There's more experimenting that needs to be done, and further cultivation which can take months. I want to reach a breakthrough where I streak for like 9 months if I can. 3 months isn't enough time unfortunately but I've ordered 1 kg of high HDA royal jelly so that'll boost Jing production substantially. I just want to focus on the tangible aspect of the immortality work and see how it impacts the gazing because I'm certain that what the alchemist doesn't get is that root pressure and a receptive sacral is required for quickenings to fire to their potential. I feel so empowered it's crazy I can't describe like lets go.

 

My method is simply going to be to work with the metaphysics of this process purely and bypass all the "science" stuff promoted because that's all correspondent to the metaphysics anyway. Promote substance cultivation and transform it through hitting intensity in your experience, perform under pressure in the world and make those tough decisions you've been compromising on your body is driving you towards. Listen to your body. Just do the work to an uncompromising level regardless of the circumstances because breaking those limits will mediate the current you're wanting in the now and before you know it the transformation would already have taken place. The immortality side of this work is the end goal really, and the simple truth is that for men specifically the pathway there is about building immense root pressure and having a sacral drive which you surrender to and accept as your guidance mechanism for life. Feeding the root with substance to build pressure with will provide the sacral more juice to drive you with. You'll gradually restore physical vitality and likely reverse aging if you go all the way, though the level of age reversal I believe will be dependent on the baseline chu so unless you're like under 25 you've got basically no chance of restoring vitality to 18 year old levels of all units of chu present without pure quintessence that's even beyond what I know how to make. One day I'll figure that out. The alchemist looks about 28-32 or so at 56 I believe he is now so the method absolutely works but unless you take it all the way it won't work and that's where all the doubt comes from. Temptation is the thing that keeps us away from proportionality with our greater consciousness as the supply. It keeps the generative functions of the sacral weak. If you want a strong sacral with a powerful motor to drive your consciousness around in then you've got to push those safety nets and feed the root substance to use as pressure to transform. We need to go all the way. All the way and don't let anyone in this world drain your vitality. Value your vitality like it's your soul, because it literally is.

Anyway that's the work. Just go all the way. Pathway work of course should be consistently done at least once a week but I've been doing it every day or 3 at least because I'm connecting so many dots lately. Go all the way and recognise that going all the way is required even on the days when you don't feel like it because even on those times when you can commit then you've really got the foundation there working for you. Bring up the context regularly. Sink into that thematic sensation, feel the currents circulate, if you've got the capacity to feel them. Avoid overstimulation. Breathe. Just live in the body and be driven by it and where it needs you to go. The imaginal stuff will flow through you for nightly SATS naturally if you're satisfied and nourished through making correct decisions. Sink into it and own it. Just own it like it's that simple.

I believe that there's not many more dots to connect for now but once again I'm likely to be proven wrong so we will see.

I'm just so driven towards this aspect of the work now as I believe the element of this uncompromising principle is what's been missing from my personal experience for a while now. I always had bits of it but knowing now and connecting all the dots here has just blown my mind like this basis has been rolled up and now it's been unrolled, mostly. I also manifested free stuff today that I didn't expect and I also got an email from a client who's told me they got a huge raise in their job (they enjoy it) after just 2 weeks so that's cool too. There's just so much here and the last week has been crazy the level of coherency with divine process has been immense. It's like I'm burning away more every day. Words simply cannot describe how it feels, and yet I know I have so much work still to complete. Build pressure and flow with where that pressure drives you. That's how we're going to be ourselves without compromise in a natural manner. Make those decisions and it works like magic. 

Immortality. Forever wise and filled with power. These old wise men we hear about obviously failed at understanding this because they died. Why should we die if we're generative and can become negentropic by accepting it's drive which mediates the transformation of the substances within us to restore vitality and regenerate the corporeal form to continue mutation. Would that not be a function of our existence? Why does it have to on a macrocosmic level have to always result in birth into death, why can't there be a generative function between those two? It's because we live in a world filled with degeneracy and temptation screws us all over. That's the only reason why. We're weak and filled with sin. That's why the lords prayer is powerful. Give me power to resist temptation so I may experience your glory. Greater consciousness. I lay down my life, my mental control, to you, and your drive for my life as a corporeal being. I will surrender and serve your will and how my being is moved. I will accept whatever comes up to fulfil and swiftly complete this work, no matter how much fire I must walk through to be purified.

I was actually going through pathway work today and nearly shed a tear because I felt such intense pressure to push forward and it genuinely felt satisfying to sit through, I let go of a part of me that's been stuck. I released something just by going all the way with that process. Do you see? That's manifestation. It's all natural. Going all the way releases resistance. That's what I know now as a fact because I've replicated it more times than can be counted. Going all the way is the natural level manifestation of the metaphysic. I just feel so much energy I want to explode it's unbelievable like I can fly or something it's indescribable. 

If this is the level of power I can wield being this degenerate still then just think how crazy it'll be when I'm like 9 more months into this process. Missing out if you're not doing the work I never want to go back to compromise ever again it feel so bad.

 

 

4/10/24

It seems when you're coherent with greater consciousness more people notice you, your field is literally bigger and as a result things just tend to amplify in terms of "reality". It's a function of increased subconscious capacity for the most part but it amplifies both self and not self tendencies. You become more receptive and more of a source of supply for what's fixed. This expanded field I believe is fractally integrated within greater process and has no limits on distance, though it seems physical proximity amplifies the intensity. I don't know but there must be an influence over distance and this gets into phase conjugate processes that can integrate multiple circuits into one system which basically creates a zero distance state where even if there's physical distance it's not experienced as such because those two separate points are merged together as one thing. It's like a pole that's the size of the earth that moves from one side to the other instantly and "breaks" the so called laws of physics. It's not breaking anything really it's just that action at a distance was too spooky for one stone to figure out.

Yang is required to keep boundaries in place.

 

Turning ourselves inside out and colliding the principle components of consciousness together to create higher order condensates which when combined together once again eventually should lead to the generation of original essence that settles into it's throne and rules over the form. The greater conjunction and getting off the wheel of circulation where your greater process reflects the microcosmic represented wheels in an entirely proportionate manner without resistance. You still peak and dip as this is the nature of being but you'll see clearly through that. You'll become capable of interacting with the subtle levels of reality due to the increase in baseline subconscious capacity, which is once again just the phenomena of the turning inside out of the senses. People who have this ability are mildly on the path towards immortality but haven't completed the conjugations to form the substances for renewal. Wish I had all this land in my lap a decade ago and actually KNOW it, like have all my current experience back then. It's able to be attained through the negation of the desire for sensory stimulus to instead attain true stimulus from the inverse senses. The thematic senses, which we experience in the form reflected as the alchemical correspondences that unfold as this process plays out. We experience manifestation inside of us, our own principle reality within becomes the realm of experience. Turning ourselves inside out is the greatest function of immortality. Nobody else seems to understand that online that I know of, other than the alchemist whom much of my foundation came from, with immense gratitude. The gazing is one of the only specialised practises needed to attain immortality, you don't need yoga or qigong technically though they can have their own benefits.

 

Manifestation is 100% a metaphysical phenomena. 

 

The very notion that we must even "resist" temptation is a false notion that even misses the point. We shouldn't even need to resist anything, the temptation shouldn't be experienced to behind with because feeling and thinking about temptation alone has already catalysed the Jing and destroyed your vitality. The fact is that the mere thought alone of temptations to seek pleasure from the senses that's to appease the mind (not how greater consciousness drives through you to act) means there's contrast, meaning conditioning present to provide that impulse. We are to turn desire inside out and while in this inverse state we transform it because it cannot be transformed into it's potential thematic components through the senses which will only burn it through that experience. Theurgy is required for this. I'm not even at that level yet personally which takes many many years of intense gazing to attain. One must be purified by the sacred light of life for the inner environment to externalise. All this relates back to my understanding of physics and how energy is made manifest out of seemingly thin air. All forms of energy is God, process, process in principle is potential form for expression and so as you "open the door" through electromagnetic induction the condition is met for process to take form and manifest as the current we measure and use to run electronics. God can be tapped from within the same way by providing the correct conditions for potential to be made manifest through us, except we want to keep the door open and not close it. The interior environment is like going inside that open space which the phenomena of electromagnetic induction "unfolds" and so manifests energy except it's metaphysically correspondent to the archetypal powers within us vs a magnet and coil. We become the circuit and we flip the switch by interacting the components within us to create new substances out of their conjugation. When they stick we dissolve one level of "default" that the baseline arrangement of these principles take when we are born and when all the defaults are reversed into their open positions through transforming them then you've attained an infinite supply of vitality. This can be seen like where the switch on the wall is constantly turned on without a way of turning it off again. You cannot go back, as far as I know at least.

This is the goal of the immortality work, at least when you look at it from the lens of how vitality is made manifest. It's a catalysing of inverse potential triggered through the senses that thematically relate to the conditions by which the switch can open. You burn Jing when you open the switch, the battery has a fixed voltage and as you age the voltage decreases. The gazing takes you inside the battery and gives you access to the cells to restore their charge through the theurgy process. I still do not have personal access to the complete process I only have the initial level understanding of how this is attained as the alchemist hasn't revealed that to me yet until I'm ready for it, as a good teacher should. It's all up to me to get to that level for he is the only one I look up to and learn from in this world. He has proven irrefutably that immortality and age reversal is possible and I will go all the way in this work to complete the puzzle no matter the time it takes.

All I know is that we are metaphysical beings and that manifestation corresponds to what is within us. Thoughts are just one level of that correspondence and are really not principle in nature but are a distortion of true power. Thought should be the thing we seek to refine, to think without thinking, and feel without feeling. That is the essence of manifestation for we deal with thematics instead of the manifestation of inverse potential burned through the senses as thoughts. Thought burns Jing. Desire burns Jing. Living outside the interior environment burns Jing, for even the generative functions of the sacral still require a supply of essence from the root which is where Jing is initially catalysed and transformed into the steam that warms the sacral engine. The sacral doesn't generate power out of thin air, I don't see correspondence to this idea, though perhaps there's something I'm missing. I don't know for sure but everything I understand about alchemy tells me the root is where power that's manifest in the form originates and it's released through desire that drives us towards experience which only really serves the program we're integrated within and are bound by. It makes me wonder if through the theurgy process there's a way to negate the influence of the receptive nature of our consciousness and live as a supply, though if that were the case you'd likely crease to exist as a human for the gates that represent the various levels of experience must be present in some form for your existence to correspond to corporeal reality. Perhaps they become refined and purified, where they're to become one substance that's essentially refined into one single process comprised of all these channels within it, like processes within processes instead of a collection of separate processes sharing a series of highways. The nature of human existence is a real puzzle. How oh how does this all work. The answers will come when my metaphysical composition is compatible, the state.

I'm going to define a state as a composition of thematics that represent a corresponding experience of the senses, that's the implication that's naturally unfolding as a result of these thematic components interacting together as one. Appropriating a state is as simple as withdrawing from the world and targeting those sensations and the thoughts will naturally flow through that. That state needs to be resonant to your fixed thematics else you're not going to experience satisfaction though, for you'll be sinking into a state of receptive nature and not from a supply within you. I also know I said that your supply is dependent on what's within your thematic resonance but I more so mean that under the idea of efficiency, and the generative function is that Jing is used proportionately into directions that aren't lust based which is ultimately what burns it the most. You'll never experience satisfaction out of lust for things in this world, which is why I believe that nobody naturally is driven towards lust and all of that is through conditioning of the senses. We've been taught that the animal instincts, as in the sacral itself and other base centers are what drive these impulses but I don't believe that's the case I believe that it's because of how we've normalised the free expression of lust without a context that causes unnatural drive to unfold in us for we'd be nourished from within at baseline anyway, with that innocence of youth. Looking at the world with wonder and mystery instead of the desire to control and pedestalise themselves above the rest. Some are driven towards this, but more often than not that's not a natural inclination and came out of conditioning from childhood. Who truly is driven towards degeneracy as a child? The curse of generational degeneracy continues evermore. Environment matters in building the baseline context in how the senses relate to the world to not catalyse Jing excessively and provide a good basis to complete the great work through. The generative function can in those cases be generative for the intake will increase Jing without constantly being leaked through the lusts of the senses. Purity of the heart transforms these seemingly lustful thematics into refined sensations of satisfaction and naturalness. Competitive nature is pure, playful, natural, and not filled with hatred to be better than others for ego sake. Those who have natural ego will know their position and not feel the "need" to be that, for nourishment comes out of their naturally imagined scenes of being in that palce. Their natural imagined experiences will correspond to the thematics within them and thus drive their manifest experiences from those seeds within.

We've all got a proportionate pathway to attain vitality through, a path of least resistance. Owning that and making decisions out of that is the basis of holding the Jing from being catalysed. Seeing the same sensory experiences under a refined context is the sign of refinement, and really gets to the primary point I made when I started this session. If you even feel lust and temptation it means you've got impurities to refine for those thematics are related to a degenerative context that's normalised. Perhaps do pathway work on these and see what comes up. This was just exploring more ideas and not really laying out new formulas. There's a lot to go over here still I've not touched on yet. Jing is depleted simply from thinking of tempting thoughts, but they come through us as a result of our baseline that's established degenerate context. Going all the way with pushing comfort zones as well as negating sensory phenomena that's beyond what intuitive impulse necessitates will be a big step in the right direction. Our interior environment must shift to alter the baseline contextual association we have to these same sensory stimulus for the more primitive functions of the senses and the "needs" for material experiences. Why did all the ancient texts speak of the world as bad? Because you cannot become immortal through the world, you require the inversion of the world to complete that work and that requires a metaphysical lens to view reality from. The senses deplete Jing. The interior senses comprise the elements Jing forms into through the corporeal senses. We associate the thematics to experience and satisfaction over the corporeal senses as without a supply of nourishment through the interior senses then you'll forever be bound by the drives of the design which is why completing the great work requires the design and personality to become one thing where the interior environment becomes the realm of exploring satisfaction and the design simply is driven in the world without any control of the conscious mind as it's experiencing the pure thematic levels of that experience. There's no desire or temptation to control anything for it's less nourishing at that point, thus the natural tendency to need things of the world vanishes. The only reason we desire worldly experience is because that's where the supply is, at least until the senses get turned inside out and coherently become one process to shift how the door to energy opens and nourishes us. It's always thematic in nature but we peel back the veil and the senses then comes through us instead of because of us, we don't need the senses of the corporeal being and ultimate detachment is attained.

Many people don't like the idea of giving up control of the form but that's the point. That's how we burn suffering as there's no way we can make decisions that are unsatisfying, transformation is done from within us. Taking this message into the mainstream is yet another challenge. Putting together a coherent model of how the immortality work is done and all the principles involved is a start.

Giving up control of the form and surrendering to intuitive impulse, facing those uncomfortable feelings and surrendering to how the form needs to move to fulfil it's thematic functions is the basis everyone starts with. Remember that all that exists is the metaphysical thematics. The form is just being moved to fulfil those as it's the way the door can naturally open through experience if you surrender fully. This doesn't mean it'll reverse your age but it'll maintain a supply of Jing that's available. Creating new Jing, or more specifically keeping the door open to not even need a fixed supply is the goal where consciousness can express purely thematic resonance as it's experience of reality and dream the dream of life naturally out of that for eternity. We experience every part of our being and reality from it's core thematic sensation, and naturally flow through the ripple effects of that in the world through the form and go along for the ride without any need or desire to control or change a thing because we are so perfectly nourished from within us. That's where we're moving into with this whole immortality stuff and what manifestation becomes for those on that level. It becomes like a lucid dream in essence, as in life happens simply through us naturally and without the contrast of the desires and temptations to buy into false nourishment which only further depletes us as it's a limited manifestation of the inverse principle it represents.

The person who accepts the interior reality as the only reality is the one who will complete the great work. We cannot force this, it must naturally unfold through us just as we know about the sense of self and manifesting a specific person or a sum of money. It's that but taken to a whole new level, it's what's past "manifesting" as we think about it where we're just negating the need for anything in the corporeal world. We flow through the corporeal world with wonder and innocence in our eyes expressed through the channels of resonance that defines the design and its affinities. The key thing to grasp is the detachment from needing, and without needing then you withdraw from the desire for pleasures of the senses because there is an even greater experience within the interior supply. That's the magic.

I could be wrong about all this stuff but it makes sense. I have nobody but the alchemist to ask for answers on this level and correct me if I am wrong.

 

5/10/24

As we shift deeper into normalising the state the thematic composition becomes more focused. That supply we emanate which others are receptive towards becomes amplified and we manifest “higher value” outcomes that are most satisfying. I see the sacral as responding to whatever it has available in terms of receptive processes to integrate within that will bring satisfying outcomes but if it’s got more current available then it will drive you towards even further satisfying outcomes. Why wouldn’t it if the amplifying current is there? Specific outcomes with people whom have significant capacity require an equal or greater current to be drawn towards, it’s alchemy. Both then get transformed. The density of the currents being mediated between the two parties will stir up significant transformation in both if they’re correctly responding. It seems that for a generator, generating vitality is the primary function and the correct usage of this vitality is the expression of natural striving towards higher order. Giving the sacral more current on the Yang side will basically give you the ability to manifest anything that’s resonant to the highest degree of satisfaction. Lower baseline capacity means the satisfaction will result in a lesser satisfaction but still satisfying.

Ultimately we’re looking to attain the internal or inverse satisfaction which is supreme. 

 

Another interesting area of exploration is the effects of stretching on manifesting too. Unlocking currents. 

 

I believe that Jing accumulates as a purely substantive form uncatalysed if we drop the sensation of desire for things and when intuitive impulse arises we accept the drive and move with it. You’ll get to a point where you almost won’t be able to help but be moved anyway. It seems that simply normalising this process of being driven instead of fantasising about it when the impulse arises (depending on your inner authority type) is how we properly conserve Jing. Magnetism seems to emanate from unperturbed Jing that’s in buffer.  

 

Purity of the mind is the essence we're attaining. That's the metaphysic of vitality and clarity.

 

So Jing is in essence still aetheric substance if we're taking the physics approach, it's both the "blueprint" which represents your potential capacity for proportionate alignment with greater consciousness and the "quantity" of Jing is basically represented as the proportionality of that relationship as it unfolds. Keep in mind that Jing as a quantity should be seen as a function of proportionality and surrender to that natural striving. It's said that Shen emanates into Dao, which is process and transcends even still aether (base Jing) so it's the "heavenly" template by which Jing exists under and Dao I do believe is representing that infinite inverse supply that when the door is opened manifestation unfolds. Proportionality is the means to open that door, so it wouldn't be that Jing is "refilled" so to say but that it becomes transformed further and the "genetic" profile of the Jing as the seed is purified. What does this imply for physical immortality? It would imply that your existence isn't something of a human growing up and living life as you do as you basically have "beaten" the human level metaphysic of the Dao and you transcend needing human reality where the thematics become your reality. I believe this relates more to the idea of the personality crystal transcending the need for control as the profile and such shifts. Why would it not, if Jing means "arrangement of substance" as potential for unfolding then it would represent when transformed the nature of a refined potential for unfolding, a more subtle path. Your means of metaphysical experience shifts. Living your design corresponds directly with this principle, which is something almost everybody in alchemy forums miss and see the substances in a vacuum. It's both a seed like potential as a blueprint (which is what the alchemist calls it which we experience through turning inside out) and the "quantity" of it basically represents your alignment with that potential. The things we do that leak Jing are things that are degenerate and not in our pathway because they are the mind controlling, the form would never leak Jing. Surrendering to greater consciousness is how we at least conserve Jing and when critical thresholds are reached in the immortality level alchemy work (being yourself without compromise as a metaphysic) then it would provide us new seed and new life which fills us up to attain this potential for transformation. That's how you open the door to inverse potential and manifest infinite vitality, you live correctly. You cannot escape transformation. Living as though there's nothing but the drive through greater consciousness is the pathway towards immortality and no matter how many Jing tonics one takes the benefits that will have will always be on the level of getting you closer to your path. 

Why do we age? We try and take control. Most infants don't try to control their lives but as soon as they begin to take control over the design it's game over for development. The people who are the strongest in this world are the people who both inherited strong parental Jing and followed their path of least resistance. This metaphysic is something to further be explored in depth. Manifestation is a part of this because manifestation unfolds through us when we're correct as I've established. If this process is the means by which our influence over reality increases (by living top down and letting go of control) then it means that if taken all the way into the pressure to transform and complete the great work is the function of that pressure towards proportionality. If there's no Jing there's no metaphysical arrangement to transform, no pressure, no seed to refine, thus we don't exist. We exist on that level, as metaphysically composed forms which are experiencing that composition in our experience. Completing that function and going all the way is the path of the immortal. You cannot run from it and no matter what you assume it cannot change that. Going all the way and dying to your mental need to control and seek corporeal pleasure as a supply is what's killing you. That's the Sin and takes you away from proportionate relationship with greater consciousness which is your salvation. Owning your process and dying in battle as the Norse tradition says is the function of your consciousness. You're a walking talking living breathing alchemy ritual and if you own that nature then you'll complete the ritual, else you need to do it again until you succeed, if you ever do. The alchemist said pretty much the same thing I've established here. Filling up Jing happens as a result of living correctly. That's all we can do because that's our function and manifestation unfolds through us naturally as a result. It's all metaphysical. ALL of it. I hope I've outlined enough to reveal that nature here by destroying the law of assumption forever. It's long dead and I was the one who killed it.

Jing. Jing is such an interesting idea when related to the aether. Still aether can also be seen as seed too, for it's unperturbed and contains the potential for all manner of expressions. The Daoists say that living a life of excess pleasure depletes Jing. I know why now. I know why the bible says what it does. I know how manifestation unfolds. I know all this stuff it's crazy. Knowing it doesn't mean you're going all the way though and that quality of consciousness is all that matters. Dying to your limitations and going all the way is accepting immortality. Dying to the need to control is immortality. Dying in battle. The people who live the longest are the ones who do well in battle, and the ones who never die are the ones who died completely in battle and were reborn. The bible is a text that is metaphysical so the NG interpretation is just one level of it, it works on all levels because it's principle in nature. It's not right or wrong on any of these levels but the fact is that manifestation is not what the bible is about as that's just one level of what it represents in the processes and principles it speaks of. 

Jing tonics get you on track and will more so just refine your process but it's not going to force you to die in battle for only your correctness can make that happen. Seeing Jing as purely a substance that's got a quantity that fills us up is limited because that's not the real essence of what's going on, that's a measure of proportionality if anything. Essence as a condensate of Jing relating more to yin filling up is what would be closer to that, which is the most related element of Jing to tangible substance. It would be interesting to see this from a more refined biochemical perspective about shen and how correct living impacts physiology. 

Seeing everything through the metaphysical lens reveals all secrets, providing you have a framework to follow to relate phenomena to. This is why nobody can manifest immortality and NG said you cannot stop death. He failed to understand this principle, else he'd talk about correct living. We all must face pressure to transform, this is an alchemical fact. Dying in battle can be analogous, which is the way the Norse coin the pressure to transform. Going all the way is dying in battle which is why Odin hung himself on the world tree and died. He died to himself, gave up control and need for the world. The levels on the world tree representing the elements within our fixed nature. Walking your path is the thing that matters because that's the means by which we truly unfold the Jing. The Jing we can see as the rolled up inverse potential for proportionality by which vitality is made manifest through when it's moving, as in we're unfolding our process "moving" and perturbing the aether. Turning our consciousness inside out is a function of increased Shen, which once again is a threshold where coherency with your path can unfold through you. Manifestation being one of those levels which responds. By aligning all the thematic elements within us to be proportionate and refining our consciousness fully we "open the door" for vitality to manifest through us but I believe when this happens we are transformed to a degree that it might actually lead to a completely new process unlocking. I honestly don't know. The alchemist hasn't said anything above that level either. I say it's that we turn inwards to be reborn and basically "reverse" our vitality back to it's original highest form where youthfulness restores through going all the way into that path of refinement. Simply walking your path while still entropic will not result in great benefits to your physical vitality and age reversal until the door opens to inverse potential to be made manifest. This metaphysic of rolled up essence and inverse potential is one to explore further. If the rolled up progression of our path is represented as Jing, the potential, then when we've completely unrolled it why wouldn't we be able to roll it back up into the perfected form and cease the depletion of physical vitality because that would relate to the same metaphysic of aging through incorrect living. Correct living that's anchored with the door open would imply complete physical vitality as the seed as essence is refined and integrated as the complete self recursive circuit. An inverse state that's re-rolled into a new form that's stabilised. This would reflect in the assumptions naturally as manifestation of this unfolds.

Base Jing exists for the function of the unfolding of your consciousness, you ARE the Jing in movement, the lesser principle is the corporeal being you experience phenomena through as the complete process is rolled up and as you live correctly you unroll it and the core of which contains the same essence that brought about your existence. You reclaim your Jing, or more specifically complete your Jing. Ra would have us think there's no end to the process of correct living, but I don't know if I fully agree considering the work the alchemist has done. Internal alchemy and living correctly remember are one in the same thing, because through following intuitive impulse through acting correctly in the word without compromise means you're experiencing the same essential thematics that the inner work would drive you through too as they come up to be experienced. No matter how you slice it there seems to be a progression of the unrolling of the Jing on a thematic level and the means by which it's experienced doesn't matter so long as the principles are refined under pressure. That's why reality is so amazing because it's all alchemical and everything works so long as you're correctly doing the work. All levels of it facilitate all other levels. To me that's what the great work truly represents and what the path of the immortal looks like. This is why sins are all seen as incorrect living. Missing the mark. What's the mark then? The correct level of thematic experience you're being driven to transform by greater consciousness as the Jing unrolls as it requires your corporeal being to be transformed under the pressure of fulfilling that process. It requires you to complete this work, without you actually being put under pressure and going all the way you're not going to complete this work. This is why the world has always been filled with degeneracy as a manifestation of sin but also truths like we speak about here as a pathway to immortality. Immortality is a metaphysical process 100%.

Comfort and pressure are the things we must learn to accept as temporary as we are moved in and out of our process. So to cultivate original Jing we must unroll ourselves in the ritual of life completely and the only way to do that is to be transformed under that process. Resistance is control which is Sin. You see how this all works now? We're all on the path but don't really know it yet because we're born into a reality filled with distractions and comforts and everything to please the mind and the senses. That's why the senses deplete vitality is that buying into false reality takes us away from that proportionate relationship which is where our vitality is cultivated. Going all the way is the point. The only question at this point becomes knowing your inner authority and surrendering to it. Appropriating a state that's not satisfying for generators isn't the path to immortality, even if it's getting you things in the world for whatever the thematic progression that represents your unique form of art, music, must be followed precisely or the song will not sound right and the Gods will not dance to your tune. If the Gods dance to your tune then you will be rewarded. Play your music correctly and immortality is yours. What else could it be? It's all correspondent and everything connects. Everything.

I will say that the essence of correct living is that the thematic "tones" your consciousness rings like playing the piano forms a satisfying series of processes your consciousness unfolds and is purified through and this represents your correct direction of resonance. This is why I've always said that being yourself without compromise is the essence of manifestation because the music you play has corresponding manifestation that it represents, in fact the song IS the manifestation of those notes being played which can only be performed by you going all the way. Compromise is depletion and degeneracy and sin. Compromise from your complete path is destruction of your seed to transform. You will die in your sins. 

I'm sure there's many more levels to this that can be understood I've not had flow through me yet but I've got a solid basis here to work with. I can't believe how much work I've done in the last few months alone. 605 pages of notes on RS.

 

This makes me think that what NG spoke of about the end always related to a satisfying experience that's resonant that you experience internally which fulfils a function of your consciousness. The end represented a thematic process you're driven to fulfil and imagining the end in that place rung that note in your consciousness. This is how people can seemingly heal themselves as they're just getting back on track with their path. The units of chu available become filled, but "depleted" chu still requires restoration for further filling to take place.

 

Another level of Jing is that it's representing what the alchemist called the "aetheric template" which represents your potential for unfolding into a proportionate form to greater consciousness. He says it's called the "robe of glory". Glory in this case being he who has completed the great work and attained what he calls "the stellar body" which of course would reflect the simulacrum of reality. Gazing and doing divine pathway work are his essential processes to unlocking the first stage of the work where you can turn your consciousness inside out to work with the archetypes and thematic processes directly to mediate powers. So Jing in this case is basically the perfected form that represents your body "beautiful" version to put it in his own terms, which is androgynous and neither male or female because they're to become one thing which is the simulacrum of God manifest through you. Process without specific form that's polar because the door to inverse potential has opened and this can only open when the container is primed (completed the conjugations to conjoin male and female) and capable of being the vessel for pure "god force" in his terms to be made manifest through us, except this time it really IS us. As we complete the great work we will invariably restore functions of our physiology that have been lost, as in re-growing limbs, eyes, teeth, organs even. Anything, because it's the field geometry template being made manifest through you and it must correspond to that perfection for the work to be complete. Becoming physically perfect is just as important as the dropping of the need to control reality through the mind, for really in essence they're one in the same thing and reflect the principles of each other in how the physical body is manifest. Since I've been born with deficiencies in Jing, as in my genetics and bones and organs are malformed from birth that will become what it is in it's potential for transformation and I will attain the appearance I was truly designed to experience within my principle composition. You'll be the same too but the work must be done, else you degenerate. 

We need to understand that the physical look we have literally reflects the degree of proportionality we have with our perfected template. Aging of the physical form is proof of the metaphysic and cannot be hidden, you're still distanced from your perfected form and those who are born with higher order coherency are at baseline closer to their proportionate self which means they've less work to be done, generally speaking for that's a reflection of the metaphysical aspects of their consciousness. This has no bearing on the morality of their actions because it's only a matter of correctness and action with intuitive impulse without conditions or need to control. However that's made manifest that's correct for them will result in their transcendence, though most don't go all the way into what's correct and so they degenerate and hold onto limitations they believe are more important than being themselves. We all must play out our design in this reality for that too corresponds to the principle components of consciousness and determines the manifestations that unfold for us.

Doing the work and accepting where you're driven is the thing we must focus on above all else. Valuing your vitality is valuing your proportionality to greater consciousness. Gazing every day. Divine pathway work. Create the space. If you're heavily depleted then focus on making those decisions you've compromised on. Cut out the trash and accept where you're running away from. Own it. Do pathway work and discover the structure of your mind to tap into a refined thematic resonance with the senses to bring it up and be driven by that sensation. Own it. Own it all and walk with the confidence of the .1% of the .1%. Remember to ask yourself the questions and look for a response. If no response comes then ask another time or wait for the answer spontaneously. It could just come through you when you least expect it. Allow greater consciousness to drive you. It's always driving you but you're resisting it, you're desensitised to it but with cultivating space the sensations of intuitive impulse will arise, however that's made manifest in your consciousness. Being driven is fulfilling the metaphysical element of having your center moved by powers greater than you as a corporeal simulacrum. Own that power and make it manifest through you.

 

 

Mewing is another thing that connects the mind to the root. People use it to restructure their face but I think that the physical effects on the face are more to do with the current that’s circulating in orbit which the tongue posture collects. It collects the condensate from the mind and feeds it gracefully down to the root and with enough pressure from the root to the mind thus cohering the sea of marrows. It’s all alchemy. We’re a walking talking alchemy ritual. 

 

6/10/24

Very very early morning post. 1AM. Must be important. Jing is connected to genetics, the substantive “template” through which your structure emanated in a corporeal sense. If we look at Jing in isolation we can see that it’s a fractal progression which actually branches off into all the ancestry in the blood, meaning the coherency of the generations to greater consciousness that represents the collective body of your existence. It’s that all iterations of your existence have relationship back to your Jing as one process, processes within process. The alchemist taught me very early on that the gazing is “clearing the ancestry” and he said much of what comes up in the gazing we experience is elements of disproportionate connection to greater consciousness. We’re needing to refine the entire pathway, which is why I do believe that my current iteration having been born into significant lack when it comes to constitutional makeup and having weak prenatal Jing and you can see the circumstances of your birth reflecting this with physical genetic elements from your parents that correspond to the metaphysical characteristics that you inherit to complete the great work. 

I know for certain that the gazing has impacts on all the “hidden” elements of consciousness that are rolled up and the genetic structure of your greater consciousness is what we are moving into and perfecting in the form as a fully reflective process thus completing the proportionate transformation which as I mentioned yesterday opens the door for vitality to manifest. This doesn’t mean you can’t restore vitality to a degree in the corporeal being for optimising available units of chu that are available can restore the greatest degree of function you can have at your age. Either way I do believe that as we complete the work and become more proportionate to greater consciousness the depletion rate of vitality slows significantly anyway because of the function of unrolling more of the Jing which is literally you moving into your perfection. 

All of the elements that comprise your body are all purely metaphysically related, remember that all form in the manifest reality have subtle thematic basis and fractal processes that determine their arrangement and “timelines”. If we wish to “reverse” our timeline then we simply have to nourish the field geometry fully. I know of people who have gained height doing seed retention so for those people their available Jing was higher than they expressed in the world, but likely suffered in growth early on because of deficiencies of correctness and or nutritional supply. This is the thing here it’s that we’re just accessing again what was always there, all the Jing is actually just rolled up and as we age it’s that we “lose” it through incorrect decision making. Now with the people for example who grow taller through doing the work and becoming more coherent with greater consciousness means they’re able to fully utilise what’s already there. Opening the door to that infinite supply of vitality simply means to become one with it, proportionately. To complete the great work means to fully unroll the Jing and become one with it, on every correspondent level. Gazing facilitates this among other processes. 

I think the biggest thing to grasp is that you’re not aging because you’re eating wrong or you’re too stressed or you’re giving into lusts and drinking too much or whatever the sin is, because it’s all just sin. Sun as I’ve described as being decisions that move us away from proportionality with greater consciousness and thus away from the door of vitality, the rolled up bundle. Crystal bundle. The idea that I’m TCM prenatal Jing cannot be restored is silly because in essence the prenatal Jing just represents your potential unfolding that can occur through correct decisions and making them under pressure when they’re ready to come up. The whole process is alchemical, taking substances and purifying them, and it’s corresponding to all levels of your existence. 

Jing is said to be the most dense form of Yin, density in this case meaning structure that’s fixed in essence, and that would imply a fixed form of expression. The various “bodies” the alchemist speaks of rings this bell and metaphysically speaking the Jing can be represented as these too  because Jing has no physical manifestation when it comes to the “invisible” rolled up inverse potential level because it’s anti space, the space between space. Space seconds. It’s a different mathematical concept, Eric Dollard deals with this extensively in his theory which was a basis for my understanding of physics and likely how I grasped the essence of metaphysics because they were closely linked.

I see the process of making correct decisions as a way of us returning to the completion that exists as a potential, it’s rolled up as an implication for the existence of all the principles required that simply need to be arranged correctly. Dancing your dance of life means literally to align these through and unfold your potential. Partly I don’t even believe that pre-natal Jing is consumed at all, but that we just move away from its access by making incorrect decisions. Most people start to age after puberty, sexual maturity means the root pressures increase and the drive to conform to conditioning amplifies which only makes the incoherency to this greater process unfolding in us more disproportionate which in turn manifests as degeneration just as it says in the bible. That’s the “punishment” because it’s the mechanics of consciousness. Ye shall not taste of death, if you do the work. Assumptions come out of that naturally, even your mental state and beliefs conform to the Jing as you process through it or away from it. Conditioning is opposite from flow as you take on pathways that aren’t proportionate to your process which of course manifests as degeneracy. The real reason why almost nobody has truly demonstrated anti aging is I believe mostly because of how we’re all conditioned by our culture to fit in and conform where as the few who own part of themselves that are correct still don’t go all the way and aren’t familiar with more inner alchemy methods. I’m sure you don’t need internal alchemy to do this work because it’s all alchemical and can be done in any correspondent way but to complete the work through the medium of correct action out of response and strategy is likely the most challenging of all. Those who also are doing the gazing still require basis in correct action unless they go all the way into the inner work. It’s a balance it seems but so long as the metaphysic is aligning then you’re doing the work. 

I must experiment further with these elements in the world to see how far it goes. The element of manifestation the way we’ve been taught by NG with imagining the end I also believe is actually important to this work. We know that thematic resonance brings supply of vitality so sinking into imaginal elements that represent your correct expression that’s satisfying will take you along that path and mediate power in the world. You can manifest though that naturally as you go through your process. The desire that’s driving you through intuitive impulse is the subtle influence (the natural hysteresis cycle of the rolled up Jing uncoiling like the kundalini serpent through pressure) emanating from your greater consciousness through the authority of your design. Making those decisions without compromise means you don’t deplete vitality and you are on your proportionate path with greater consciousness. Compromise again is what causes aging for it’s distancing us from ourselves and the supply we seek is external instead of within. 

This should all explain too how manifesting works. The one who imagines satisfying outcomes is moving through their correct experience and moving into greater consciousness. Manifesting vitality through thought and concept is impossible because it can only come through this mechanism naturally as that’s how the supply of vitality is nourishing your correspondent corporal being which is moving into becoming one with the greater consciousness thus keeping the door open. Attachment to the need for the world keeps us away from that for the world simply exists for us to play our song and dance our moves in accordance with the natural flow that proceeds through us. People like me who have the natural rhythm channel defined unconsciously you’d think would have benefit because it’s said that we have a much larger field of influence (I can attest to this) as well as how this channel is present in all living things. It means to me that the sacral in essence through being the generative force unfolds the inverse potential through us as a microcosmic reflection of that element of greater conciseness and explains why it’s a primary inner authority in most of the people on earth. 

 

So I've recognised the importance of both nourishment and correct thematic resonance in the pursuit of perfection. You require both, though both feed into each other. The essence of your vitality arises out of this proportionate connection to greater consciousness, by being yourself you're tapping the postnatal supply of vitality.

 

Doing metaphysical manifesting is crazy. We simply work with the principle thematic elements that comprise the experience and have the sensory level association direct that experience at it naturally unfolds through us. This is true manifestation.

 

7/10/24

I'm starting to suspect that the metaphysic of Yang is essential to reversing aging. Qi specifically. Peripheral delivery of vitality nourishes the appearance. It also nourishes the inner authority response. It nourishes so much of our being on all levels. Just the general metaphysic here seems to work wonders for our general vitality and sense of self and what we're manifesting.

 

8/10/24

Derma rolling (micro needling), massage, even topical testosterone products can all improve the "youthfulness" of skin and kill signs of aging if taken far enough. Of course these are external means and aren't what we really want but they're a good indicator of what's going to result in anti aging internally. I would be interested in studying the effects of the Melissa ens on hormone levels because the alchemist looks very lean and defined for his age so there must be a knock on effect on the metaphysical association to hormonal regulation and supply. It could also impact androgen receptor too but I don't know there needs to be more study on the biochemistry of quintessence and such. Either way it seems to me that youthfulness has almost everything to do with the regulation of hormones (specifically sex hormones) and the relationship of those to the root of vitality as emanations of Jing being catalysed. As I said before elevating Jing improves the base release of substance for nourishment of the field geometry and of course the hormones will be one level of manifestation of that. The Jing is something that still must be explored further, the deeper means of it's manifestation and supply specifically and how that unfolds into the hormonal impacts which determines our physical and mental vitality.

 

Just thought about this. Jing is the densest substance, qi is the second most and shen is the most rarefied and sparse. This idea to me represents process within process to some extent, that Jing is the processes at principle level, qi is the bind between them and shen is the greater process that the Jing and the qi integrate and support.

It also seems to me that Jing can be increased through pushing limits. I don't read this anywhere in source material but the principle I've explored lately would have you think so. HGH for example and testosterone and serotonin and other hormones that relate to physical and psychological growth all seem to correspond to releases of substances of Jing. To me it seems that the entire process of living correctly facilitates the natural nourishment of these principles.

 

Derma stamping and rolling and derma pens simply stimulate qi to gather in a disrupted area. They're not actually anti aging or whatever it's just that our periphery is so depleted of qi that we need to stimulate the response for it to nourish the skin or whatever the aim is. Naturally if you had sufficient qi internally that would nourish the absolute periphery then you'd be immortal however the depletion happens over time due to disproportionalities that drain our vitality. Making correct decisions and especially the ones under pressure can and will improve the circulation of qi to the periphery, but don't expect it to magically restore skin issues because the change is likely to be extremely minor and will require cumulative effects of multiple processes all working together for noticeable anti aging to work.

 

9/10/24

When the alchemist spoke of "interacting with powers greater than you" as a means to "shift your center" I know he spoke of that in a contrast perspective but I want to connect it more so to the idea of being under pressure and that this process of theurgy mirrors alchemy. Alchemy and manifestation are the same thing as we should know by now, well manifestation is the result of alchemical process. So when we're put under pressure (in any form imaginable) when we are having our center shifted. He has spoken that "you are humbled" by the Gods when you stand before them face to face, that you are shown the doorway to power only through taking that pressure being around them and allowing that higher order process to literally force resistance out of you. He has not spoke about this with me specifically, I am guessing here, but I believe theurgy is just a significantly higher level of any other resistance work we can do ourselves. Theurgy is simply a means to bring up the archetypal representation of our resistance and face it through the inverse space created by turning ourselves inside out. We literally interact with our consciousness on a thematic level and we feel all of those elements being processed. Once again I do not know that as he's not confirmed anything to me but I believe that's the case based on everything I've revealed lately.

It's profound to contemplate on this idea, and that the literal door to immortality can be opened simply by going all the way into your correct thematic direction of experience. Those who know know. You need to realise that our entire existence is an alchemical ritual and we're constantly being "tested" under pressure to see how far we can go. Every thematic element of our lives, every concept we consciously buy into and accept, all of them have a function to play in the literal unfolding of our consciousness. We're experiencing phenomena akin to a process of unrolling or unfolding the Jing, I believe, and in doing so we become more whole and complete with the greater aspects of the greater elements we represent as a simulacrum of God. This process is evident in every single aspect of reality imaginable, I cannot see anything that this doesn't apply to. Thus the saying goes, if it's true on one level it must also be true on all other levels. If everything connects then it must be the facts of how it works.

 

Just going through another NG lecture, a good one. He said "you're not going to change the pigment of your skin". Just one more proof of what I say.

 

10/10/24

Magic number

So script out your thematic sense with both words and images. Form a coherent connection with your thematic resonance and allow the response to come through you and drive you. That's the state desired that nourishes you. In that go all the way, compromise on nothing. You have the response because you have a supply of nourishment to fulfil this process in transforming your consciousness. That's why you're being driven, the form wants to move you for a reason. You're supply of vitality will provide to others what they need too.

I've been seeing lots of content on manifesting about "letting go" and "detaching" as they call it. As we should now know it's actually a function of nourishment, letting go actually means either facing transformation (IE the classroom example) or by accepting nourishment (owning a disowned desire). Letting go really is the point, we're dying to the old self, but you cannot own the new state unless that's able to provide a supply of nourishment which of course must be thematically resonant which will reflect the sensory conceptual level imaginary experience. I mean what else is there? What else is there to be done but to accept what is and drop what is not? Be driven into satisfying thematically resonant experiences and disown what's not. If you're going part of the way into what's correct but you're still holding back and you're in this limbo state of being partially comfortable and uncomfortable then going all the way will solve your issues. Simply go all the way and you win.

We simply need to create ourselves an environment that consistently stimulates and raises up vitality for the sacral to respond to and drive us into the experience for the testimony. Our environment in my opinion is the most important factor. The environment, meaning the physical environment, the people, the habits you play into in that environment, the general context of that environment. 

When I listen to music I did when I was younger all kinds of memories show up relating to that. Now according to NG this is a new state we're taking on, well it's already established because we've got testimony which is why there's memories there. This state simply presents to us what's contextually relevant and of course will actually provide a supply of nourishment to us if this is resonant. Dispenza has apparently shown that telomeres are lengthened when older people listen to music from their past that they enjoyed, that they resonate with, that brings up thematic resonance. Telomeres being lengthened reveals to me that there's an influence on the Jing to some degree, which is interesting. I'm going deeper into the mystery of the Jing and I'm certain that the Jing represents the potential that we have to be correct in this reality, the potential specifically. It's a function of the folded up pattern with potential to unfold, it represents the pattern in it's potential and in it's current state of unfolding. This is why in TCM seeds most often represent Jing tonics, postnatal Jing that is, their influence would simply provide more base substance for transforming as it's required via the Kidney channels. The thing I've understood about Jing that nobody in TCM seems to connect is that it should be capable of being restored through living correctly (to an extent at least) the same way like eating certain foods have an effect. Music being one of them according to Dispenza. Now I don't know if the telomeres specifically are a manifestation of Jing but considering genetics is the closest thing in our manifest physiology representing the Jing then I would say so, it's literally representing the idea of a "seed" which has all the information for a tree to grow. It's this potential element of folded up unmanifest capacity that's representing the Jing.

When we think about Jing under a revision perspective then, and how we tap thematic supply, and how we are driven through that, would we not be able to then "live" the supply of Jing instead of just needing tonics? This is all metaphysical after all. If there's correspondence then it should manifest that way and unfold in our consciousness as actual age reversal, as in the supply of the hormones more so would be the manifestation that has the cascading effects on physiology as these are what correlate the most with aging. TCM presents Jing as a fuel like substance, oil that burns for example. It's said to be translated as many different terms but it's mostly related to the terms of "quiet, still, gentle, essence, spirit, clear, crystal and even "capital city". It's like this subtle essential scroll of substance. It's also translated as "silent, still, motionless, static". It's a "quality, state, condition" in translation. There's also a translation relating to "uncountable". I also read one says "path" which to me represents the idea of what I've been talking about.

Oh yeah also NG mentioned that the "Ferrar Fenton Bible" is the best bible.

With all these translations of Jing it seems clear to me that this idea best suits the term "seed". Jing and Ojas as far as I know also relate to the same term, it translates literally as "vigour" but I read somewhere a while ago that Ojas means "on demand" or the idea that I have about the "door open" process that manifests energy out of inverse potential unfolding and the "quantity" of it we have relates to the "alignment" we have to greater process which provides a proportionate process by which the condition of the door can open. Again I don't know I'm just exploring this stuff. The qualities of Ojas are: "oily, unctuous" consistency". Seems like it's inverse dampness, divine dampness if you wish. Ojas and Jing both are seen to be the "fuel for the fire" substances but once again if we look at this as a metaphysical element relating to nourishment, the condition by which energy is made manifest (because all energy manifests through one source that is just emanating through a proportionate circuit as the conditions are correct for it) then we can see it's not really a thing of fixed quantity but would reflect the capacity for perfection in our experience of reality and that being in alignment with that supply means we cannot be depleted. It's not like a battery being drained simply by existing, it's just that as we live incorrectly it gets drained faster, and the TCM texts agree with this idea that living incorrectly does drain it faster but they see it purely as cause and effect and not as a part of a metaphysical structure of elements providing supply when in proportion. This very principle is the very essence of manifestation as I've discussed. Why would Jing simply be a fixed supply when it represents the essential principle of inverse potential "rolled up" into a "seed" and that as it unfolds it's "burning" it up. Perhaps the unrolling of it into a direction that's not thematically resonant is what drains it. I just don't see how the inverse potential capacity we have in the proportionate circuit can be limited, prenatal or postnatal it doesn't matter because if it's a correct direction of unfolding then it must be nourishing and thus must not deplete this substance. Nourishment is everything. What is your supply. The supply simply opens the door, really we could even see the depletion of it as the substance that's what opens the door to manifestation, and that when it's depleting the supply from the door opening dwindles because it cannot open as far and thus the metaphysical composition our consciousness can take that reflects physically diminishes as the door closes. Keeping the door open is the secret to immortality, and also free energy. The only way to do this as far as I know is to become one with greater process, to complete the alchemical ritual.

There's such depth here to be explored still. The unfolding is everything. The nourishment through that is everything. Explaining this in a video is next to impossible for the heathen. The heathen cannot see things for what they are because they have no context or frame of reference to compare to, they need a framework.

The nature of manifestation is a metaphysical unfolding process, a thematic composition defines our state. Getting back to my point before, age reversal through music. This stimulates the senses and draws the consciousness into a more aligned process, but the senses must be negated in order to actually sink into the deeper level of that experience and conjugate the thematic elements as we do in theurgy. Simply sensory stimulus bringing up the resonance in the mind doesn't stick it's not stabilised because nothing has been transformed, we've not gone all the way. To go all the way the elements must be purified under pressure and this pressure cannot be sourced at the highest level through the senses we must transcend the sensory level of the theme and touch directly on the thematic level itself. I just don't see anyone on earth here who's completed this work who's done it purely through living experiences, though theoretically it's possible I believe that it can only go so far, that you can reach a certain degree of mastery over the sensory level which of course mediates the thematic elements but you're just casting shadows instead of moving the subtle elements themselves. We must turn the senses inside out and experience the interior environment and directly interact with the elements themselves and allow those interactions to be our supply of greater pressure. Those archetypal powers when you stand before you will humble you no matter how your worldly status is, it's a function of how "spiritually" mature you are and how well you know yourself. You're not standing in front of another person, you're standing in front of a pure thematic embodiment of God. Ultimately it's just the principle there but your senses must pick up on something to represent it and so an image will come before your mind to reflect this and it will be made manifest according to your worldview and understanding of reality. To the ones who follow biblical figures it will be those characters and to the Vedic's it will be the avatars. Whatever personification to the person reflects that element of reality is what will be experienced. This is what the alchemist made clear to me, and he also said more often than not it's in the blood and not in the mind and conditioning. It's in the blood. It's a primordial process relationship, not a mental programming one. What's in the form is what we experience and we really don't have a say over what that is, it just comes through us. For me I will guess it will be more pagan but I don't know I've had limited interaction with these elements of consciousness. I just seem to have resonance with that level more so than anything else, that's likely what drew me to the Norse mythos naturally over my friend who for example is really into Greek mythos. It's in the blood, and the form will respond to what's correct and that will determine what you're interested in and resonate with, not the conditioning. People can be raised in a Christian environment but if that's not in the blood the it doesn't matter that will not be what you experience. Sometimes it will overlap though. 

 

Words bind us into limitation. The senses bind us into limitation. The senses are the supply of limitation. We must go THROUGH the senses to get to the core, because the senses are the translation layer of divine thematics. We must manifest through the thematics, yet attempting to explain the means to the heathen is a challenge without a framework. I remember saying that the senses simply represent information, information really is thematic resonance, that's what vibration is, a perturbance of the aether that's consciousness made manifest into form which is structured and representative of what we experience through the senses. This is the dilemma of the senses, because we need them in order to become complete, we need to use them to receive and provide supply if we don't have a direct touch with the principle thematics and yet building that dependency means we cannot have the subconscious capacity to turn ourselves inside out at will as we naturally should have the potential for. This is indeed where manifestation unfolds after all. The conscious mind simply is there to observe is it not, it's there to receive the input required for it to see what it needs to see and hear what it needs to hear for its folded up capacity to fully unfold, like a series of puzzle pieces being placed together. The more we accept our path and allow our form to drive us and our mind to accept what comes out of that the more effectively we can unfold our puzzle and supply our Jing, our nourishment for life on the most pure level possible. The more I see this whole thing, the totality of it all, the more I see a simple folded up puzzle that requires a specific sequence of experiences to act like the keys for the locks to open on the doors of vitality that nourish and complete us, that provide us naturally what we need as we process through this journey and discover ourselves.

Am I the only one on earth who has a model like this because I've never heard anyone else speaking of anything on this level, for not even Ra as far as I know spoke about this. Am I the only one? I don't know. All I know is that I've gone deeper than anyone else I've ever read or studied yet, other than perhaps the alchemist himself. Aether. That's his name by the way, it was revealed to him when he died. Coincidence. That man is a God, literally. It's all revealed I mean what more is there now? How much deeper does this go? 

The process of working through resistance is the procession of required thematics that relate to the false identification is it not? We bring it "up" under pressure and accept it and go all the way through it, into the fire we become transformed. Is this not alchemy? Is this not how literally everything imaginable works, processes of alchemy within processes of alchemy? Manifestation therefore is a "proof" of this fact. None of this is magical or probabilistic, it's all alchemical and it's unfolding exactly as it's designed to and we're going along for the ride. That's all there is. Everything we experience is levels of limitation on that folded up process unfolding. That's what manifestation is. If it's true on one level it must be true on all other levels. 

 

11/10/24

It seems to me that a big part of what NG taught was just recognising the divinity of your true nature, and allowing that to be a supply of nourishment. There was no specific thematic element to it other than to just own what you are on the greater level. That washes over you and allows the context to shift which then leads to a nourishing state of resonance with whatever your thematics are as the thoughts that correspond arise in your mind, naturally. Whenever I think of my "perfect" version I think of someone who can just walk up to anyone with such casual confidence because I'm on the top of the ranks, nobody is above me on the pedestal. That's what it's like, that nourishment you have within you is what grants you that state, but it must be stabilised and without a correct supply that's resonant you'll just peak and dip and waste vitality. We must be correct, we must respond to thematic resonance and we must accept how we're being driven in this reality for any semblance of stability to ensue out of those state streaks. If you were to become complete and whole in every level, for your physical vitality to reflect this you'd need to literally embody the thematics of that in consciousness. That's really what NG means with the whole states, it's a thematic arrangement, and you own that at baseline and it's normal for you. It's baseline. Then there's no contrast, no wavering, it's a casual knowing of self value and the nourishment out of thematic resonance is what that's supplied from. When you're proportionate to greater consciousness the door opens for vitality to manifest, circulate, fulfil and nourish our field geometry. We cannot be unsatisfied in this state for we are flowing with who we are, we are one with it, we respond to impulse without compromise and we allow our form to dance the thematic dance it's designed to dance.

 

It seems that the physical vitality has everything to do with the function of the endocrine system.

 

Another way I want to look at this is that vitality is used to hold onto degeneracy. It's that the vitality that could be used for nourishing us is used instead to grasp onto comfort zones that keep us in that limbo.

From what I've gathered based on all the work I've done here it seems that much of this theory can actually be boiled down to simple yin and yang elements. People in my comments say I've overcomplicated manifesting, NG teaches a single principle, I AM, while I teach the emanation of I AM and how we experience that on all the various levels it's made manifest. 

 

Much of what we imagine ourselves doing actually doesn't turn out to be satisfying if we actually experienced it for real. The idea that imaginal senses must always correspond to real experiences is silly.

 

13/10/24

Just read the term "nerve force" and thought it was a good term to describe subconscious capacity. 

 

"Death can have me when it earns me." - Kratos

That line embodies the idea of complete empowerment. You're so nourished that nothing including death (the decay of supply) can take you. We've been told that life and death are natural cycles, like sunrise and sunset. I don't agree. I see life and death as a function of supply and demand. The difference with us is that we're complete simulacrums of reality, we're not on a fixed trajectory with limited capacity for consciousness we can experience thematics and refine the alignment we have with our greater consciousness as an infinite supply that transcends time on this world. Why do we continue to wallow in the world of mediocrity, continue to see ourselves as limited like everyone else around us. Why are we not tapping our supply from the highest of high and disregarding everything of the senses that is not proportionate.

 

What I've learned about weakness is a lack of focus, usually, and this manifests as buying into not self decision making which more often than not is about being drawn into comfort zones. You do what's easy. distracting, wasting your time away, drawing you away from your Jing, it's a function of sin and represents missing the mark. Being embodied into anything that's not correct is going to deplete vitality because it's not satisfying. What we must be drawn into consistently is that which is satisfying, even if it takes years for the satisfaction to fully unfold. It's the whole idea of delayed gratification, it's that we are moving into a process that's proportionate and nourishing but that also "tests" us about who we serve. We can only serve one master. One master alone, and that is because there's only one greater consciousness that we are proportionate towards. Owning that is required for immortality to unfold because that's where our Jing is sourced. We must attain focus into this direction, to accept intuitive impulse and to be driven by that into decisions that even though in the moment may not seem satisfying for the mind but for the coherency with greater consciousness absolutely is in the long term. This is what we're moving into. To go all out, to be uncompromising, to fully own your divine sense of self and to die to the degeneracy means simply to go all the way into this process and be unwavering. To be completely engrossed in your process of satisfaction, even if it's painful to move into fully. Where there is pain there is a lesson to be learned, an element about our consciousness to discover that we've been ignoring and running away from. Owning that is required for the immortality work to be complete, to face the pressures of your divine process head on and be completely purified under the sacred blue fire. 

That kratos quote reminded me of the essential component of what NG's message was about. I really wish he made it more clear, that he didn't speak in as much allegory and simply said it how it was because dancing around this idea is what makes us all miss the point. The point is that when you discover yourself, the "I AM" which is really not God but the greater consciousness representation of yourself that's perfect (the robe of glory) which represents your proportionate connection to the infinite supply of nourishment and vitality. My recent debates on LOA have led me further into reading between the lines of what NG said instead of taking him literally and using what is arguably an incorrect explanation with his own (popular) words. The lecture "changing the feeling of I" is a good one I went through last week. 

We just need to recognise our limits and simply break them. Comfort zones, safety nets, easy paths, distractions, the lack of "drive" is what's causing us to just throw our power away. When we simply accept that our form can deliver us infinite power if we accept it and go along for the ride then there's no more struggle. The whole peak and dip cycle at that level is simply the alchemical process of being purified under pressure leading to satisfying outcomes, that metaphysical function I've discussed endlessly here as the basis of manifesting a refined sense of self. Naturally out of that the attraction you desire will show up. 

People think touching I AM is about some magical state, it's not at all it's simply that you're touching on a more proportionate and more primitive level of experience which has purifying effects. Touching that level hurts, if you were to truly touch I AM you'd be burned to ashes in an instant and as you're forced to turn inside out the degree of trauma you'd go through would be immeasurable. You'd have no chance of processing anything that comes out of that at all which is why nobody who says they've reached a state of I AM has ever actually done it because from what I've done and understand about theurgy work is that standing before primitive levels of reality humbles you in the wake of their sheer ungodly power. It's like stepping in front of a person in the world that intimidates you and brings up all the lacks, except thousands of times over. That's where the real purification comes about and really is what I was saying like a week ago about how we need people in our lives to provide that contrast to us where we can be tested and purified on a regular basis. If we're staying comfortable and not touching the purifying fire of life then we're degenerating. Degeneracy. When we own it and fully play it out without compromise then we win, we tap our supply and we embody that state to a degree of naturalness that unwavering confidence manifests. I felt this partially yesterday actually, it reminded me of the years back when I was 15 in high school doing gazing for the first few months and experiencing this state of confidence that comes out of what you get with the after effects of gazing, that "curious" confidence. Like this innocent confidence that comes out of simply having a more "expanded" perspective on other people. My view put me on the pedestal, not out of any feat I attained, not out of having "proof" of being greater but simply because I knew I was greater in the state of expanded subconscious space. I naturally flowed, I naturally was seeing myself on a level where every movement I made had character behind it, I oozed the character of me and everyone picked up on it. My unique signature that I was emanating was so refined that people wanted a taste of it. Attraction comes out of emanating your signature, and owning it, and walking with it and speaking it and dancing it with the flavour of your unique song of life.

Do you get it now, that's what NG really meant about the "secret self". It's this perfect version of you that's on the pedestal on all levels, that fears nobody and doesn't need feats to prove it. This is truly what a "state of consciousness" is in my terminology, it's a degree of proportionality with the greater consciousness which represents your potential for the Jing to unfold.

As soon as you have one moment of realisation, one memory come to mind, your entire "state" shifts and this will either reflect as being more or less you, being more or less on the pedestal, naturally. So we ask ourselves, what stimulus are we bringing into our consciousness that will provide the essence of the state we take upon ourselves? Imagination draws us into states, between states, degrees of alignment and proportionality, through the senses which corresponds to thematics. When we imagine what's proportionate, what's correct for our thematics we are then unable to help but be moved into a satisfying direction. NG said that "an uncontrolled imagination" is the issue, though in this case I'm going to say an uncontrolled thematic anchor is the issue. The senses simply represents thematics, they bring up thematics through the targeting sense and in this we are drawn into a state where the senses are the agent that markets to us who we are being. If we only imagined the end that represents our satisfaction and owned it and went all the way regardless of the pain of breaking the comfort zones then we'd win. Like do you get it? When we surround ourselves with stimulus in the world and we bring before our minds the stimulus that has a similar purifying effect then we are always pushing forward and always being driven into our natural striving towards higher order instead of accepting normalcy.

So what is it that we're bringing before our minds? Are we accepting normalcy still? Why can't we continue to be driven? Why can't we continue to process into supreme satisfaction? Going all the way is the most satisfying thing imaginable. What's your end? What's the most satisfying experience conceivable? I say it's simply to know yourself as the one above all, to not fear competition. To laugh in the face of competition as simply fun and games. To basically make fun of life, to just enjoy the experience as it is. The place where you don't have to be compared and contrasted, and have resistance brought up to purify. That place to me sounds like the most satisfying because we can simply freely flow through experiences as passengers for the satisfying ride of life, whatever that entails. We enjoy the grind at that point, becoming the ultimate form of ourselves. What more could anyone want? We get caught up in the idea of wanting to achieve something big, and that's more often than not correct for us to play out, but we need to have a balance of what's pressing vs what's not. The dynamic dance of pressure and relaxation. There's always comfort that's going to naturally unfold through us when we've gone through a complete process but we need to reflect on what's truly delivering us satisfaction.

That kratos quote. Has death earned us? Do we genuinely feel nourished to a degree where we are not afraid of death itself, where we transcend the limitations of mediocrity? The sense of self, going all the way. The paradox of effort here is that the experience of applying effort makes us believe that we're improving and yet it really represents pushing against ourselves. Nourishment is the only way to attain this experience of the reality of having that sense of self and as I've said the only way we can be nourished is by going all the way to the end. In other words how can we have an unshakable sense of self if we're still where we are living the same life doing the same things expecting us to be on the top? The sense of self naturally is refined by us living our lives the way we're designed to, it's natural and a product of being ourselves. Thinking that we can bypass this is folly, but at the same time going through the pressure requires a degree of "effort" because that pressure exists as a challenge to our baseline. There's tension, there's contrast, there's pressure to be refined and purified. Temporary discomfort is required for this to unfold, being under the metaphysical fire of life hurts but that's the point. That very experience in itself is what opens the door, when it's accepted in a direction that's correct that is. Being driven into suffering endlessly over a direction that's not correct is silly and wasting time. Go all the way.

Script out and find images and acts you can experience that represents the unique emanation of consciousness. What represents that? What are people going to desire from you? How will people view you? How will people respond to  you? How will people experience you and what will they project on you? How will your sense of self be experienced? This will more than likely put you into the "state" of consciousness of being the more proportionate form of yourself where you're more respected and all that which of course will represent the state of being nourished. If we imagine ourselves in states that imply we're well nourished and we feel that way then we've got good scenes. Really imagining from the end represents imagining the state of nourishment that you're moving into through satisfaction. We're going to then be moved not to manifest that specific end but to manifest the state of being, the degree of nourishment and proportionality that represents in our thematics. This is the only reason that sensory specifics matter, because when those sensory level experiences represent your nourished state then you're going to need to be moved into that end. That's the point, I believe. NG SATS is a purifying technique that serves multiple functions. Those should be clearly evident at this point. Imagining yourself having something desired represents the state of being nourished in that end, which also explains why when you're imagining things like having already received a million dollars and you do it from a place of seeming indifference but without genuine satisfaction and nourishment then you're going to certainly manifest that in a limited way, else if you went all the way into the sensation of being nourished in that place then however money shows up (the concept X the sense of self) you'd get a satisfying end because you went all the way.

 

Odin sitting on his throne. Just being. The thematic metaphysic of the experience manifests.

Immortality is a function of having such a top level sense of self that you transcend the limitation of buying into conditioning because you know yourself completely. 

 

The idea of death is an acceptance of limitation. Buying into the idea that you sense of self is bound to a seemingly commonly accepted fate. Why accept death. Why accept limitation. Why accept degeneracy. Remember that overnight SP manifesting story I've told many times that taught me much about the phenomena of manifestation. I was filled with fury and disposition for myself for buying into the limiting beliefs that I was bound to accepting that fate. I just decided then with every fibre of my being that it was over. This same "decision" factor applies for everything else, including death, aging, physical limitations of any form. Why do we accept them when we have the capacity to transcend them all. When we are so nourished in our sense of self, when we do the whole reminding ourselves of who we are and bring up that greater context it drives us through that nourishment to go further than ever before. It becomes standard at that point, normal, expected, a part of who we are. The way we walk, talk, stand, breathe, take up space, look around, everything. It all oozes our character, our sense of self, our vitality and value, what we emanate naturally that everyone around us is naturally receptive towards. Owning your sense of self is owning your supply of nourishment and vitality is owning the breaking of limitations others believe are unbreakable. Only through a point of measure that's beyond the standards can we elevate. We require a power greater than us for our sense of self to be refined. It's required, else the contrast cannot drive us to be humbled. It's a metaphysical process in it's entirety and it's the only way we can experience refinement. This is what the alchemist said by "we require powers greater than us to move out center". It's that these powers greater than us (on the corporeal level) bring up the context and the opportunity we have to be refined and go all the way into a new level of acceptance, and out of that nourishment naturally arises. Satisfaction. Naturalness of being now the one who's on the pedestal. That's alchemy. That's manifestation. That's everything in reality imaginable. 

Neville Goddard completely failed to properly explain this process of alchemy, yet he claimed to have understood the bible. How can we accept the word of NG when such fundamental processes of consciousness that can be observed in everyone in existence are missed and ignored. To those who say I am wrong to critique NG, you must provide context for this process in his work that correctly outlines what we're attaining in refining the sense of self. NG didn't provide us a framework to apply on this level because he was all about how "I AM" cleans us of all sin, yet never outlines how we can experience this other than that is happens when it's ready to happen. Never any alchemical principles it's just the same trash we hear from all the rest who peddle wishful thinking without mechanics to back it up. The very essence underlying his work, what's between the lines, there's value there but it's not specifically implied you have to interpret his words in ways he might not have wanted and that's the issue. NG's work is so vague and changes much over the course of his career that there's no real consistent message to work with there. He was just all about diving into the experience of I AM. That's what almost all of this bible references were about. He did however speak about the conjunction of lesser and greater elements of consciousness in the lecture "changing the feeling of I" where he was talking about how Daivd is the product that we're creating. He seemed to be outlining that the corporeal being and the I AM (greater consciousness) can become one thing, to be taken up and purified as the alchemist would say. He did seem to see this but it's almost as if he saw the alchemical functions but without actually connecting the mechanics of it. That's what makes his work so confusing, it's like he's claiming there's a process involved but that there's no mechanics to it that are fundamental, like there's no alchemy but that there is indirectly. Attempting to explain this to the common folk who just want to manifest specific people is really pointless, they're not even ready for this stuff let alone to actually comprehend these levels.

 

Be worshipped. Be valued by the world. Be the one who they all look up to, not because you want it but because it's just a thing that happens when you be yourself. You don't care about fame, but it comes naturally as a result of your influence. You provide thematic essence for the world to receive and reflect and respond to and continue to process in the collective consciousness. This principle alone provides endless power for your consciousness to receive in thematic resonance, your unique signature being amplified and further provided as hope for others to buy into and have as their supply of contrast. You become the one who purifies others. That makes you immortal on a spiritual level. It's the concept of how an ideology cannot be killed, it can only be forgotten and then come back again when it's found by those who apply it and propagate it further once again. Arguably the senses are the most powerful bind we have, we are so heavily limited by the senses that we're bound in corporeal being with them both in the physical and the imaginary levels. The senses when transcended provides to us a foundation of immense influence over reality for we will be driven purely by the sensations of being over the represented conceptual levels of sensory experience.

 

I'm manifesting passing thoughts every day. Literally I remember having it come up. The way it manifested had almost nothing to do with me though, but it still showed up. It was actually about someone I remembered who had a discount card for a local shop, just the thought of using it to get cheaper stuff would be cool and then the next day they tell me they lost it. Surprising. These types of manifestations have happened multiple times lately for some reason. Passing thoughts have impacts in that way. 

 

 

14/10/24

Buying into distractions and staying in the comfort zones means avoiding transforming to own your divine power.

The dynamic dance between yin and yang. We must require Yang as we face the pressure of transformation, currents rise up and purify us from our roots, and yin is present through the acceptance and reception of our true nature. Desires naturally unfold through us.

Through the potential of being embodied through these primary principle elements of consciousness it seems to me that the yang is where we are weakest. The yin is what dominates this world. Reception and lust for the easy way out. The denial of pure raw unrelenting merciless power. This calling has always been present within me, like a voice speaking through the sensations. It's begging me to be driven through it, to ride the waves of satisfaction of going all the way into that. Uncompromising and unstoppable power. I cannot describe it any other way. For years I made animations about this, speed and power and fantastic feats of divine sensation, it came out of me in the most safe and comfortable ways possible. I never actually went all the way and I never fully acknowledged that calling. This was my downfall into the degeneracy I suffered for most of my life. I accepted being "good" and compromising instead of shining that light. Every time it came up I would flow freely with abundance, I would walk and talk and express mannerisms according to this sensation, and people would respond to me with respect simply from this state. My nourishment was significant and they could feel that. This is being embodied in the correct state, there was no end, it was all just me. I was the end. I was the technique. The thematic sensation I owned fully in those brief moments gave me immense influence over the people around me when I did, even though it was heavily limited.

Making decisions out of this place was effortless. I instantly had the courage to say no to people crossing my lines. I always looked them dead in the eye with fire blazing behind them telling them exactly how I felt without holding back. I was satisfied. Satisfied. Uncompromising. Don't you get it!? It's going all the way, completely owning the thematic elements of consciousness that are resonant. I don't know from experience what it's like to experience other thematic elements that aren't mine because I'm fixed in my own ways, but to you, that will be a natural striving towards higher order. A pathway of least resistance just waiting for you to own it and take that supply and express it into the world and provide that through you that others will receive freely. You see it's only when contrast comes up that we actually have perspective to see beyond the normalcy and break limits, to make decisions under pressure and normalise a new baseline. Without that then what is there to work with? What inspiration is there to own your true nature that you're still denying. We are thematic metaphysical beings, not I AM. I AM takes form through us, and living completely as the expressed consciousness of your fixed thematics where you're driven by those almost completely unconsciously and naturally into the related experiences is the point. You just are, you just emanate this thematic arrangement of consciousness. There's no in or out it's just who you are. If you own your supply the sacral will drive you with infinite vitality into expressing that, the response will be strong and naturally drive you. It's only because we've been weakened by accepting the mediocracy of the compromised people around us that we have no point of contrast to compare to that can uplift our spirit and raise the currents of life within us.

To be a god is to become the embodiment of that element of consciousness to the complete extent imaginable. You know no limits because you're simply the uncompromising supply of that themtic. YOU ARE THE SUPPLY. You're not a corporeal being manifesting it you ARE that. Like does that connect? You're not trying to become because that element already exists within you but you're just disowning it. Your drive is waiting for you to wake up and accept it. Cultivating space and all that naturally will unfold through these experiences. You'll be led into the silence after the moments of expression to sink into that expanse. You'll be driven and not need to drive. You'll simply observe the metaphysic in action through your form. Your form is the perfect representation of that metaphysic but your need to fit into the normalcy of this world and conform to expectations and limitations is what's holding back literally unimaginable infinite power. One can only break their limits through denying the senses and going to the root of the thematic supply. You literally become the walking talking living embodiment of that supply and everyone who interacts with you will feel that and be humbled by your presence just as you are humbled in theurgy work by the primordial elements themselves. We are to become the gods of this world, not slaves to the Talmudic Jews who make sin so easy to fall into. Sin is degeneracy. Why would a God accept degeneracy and limit the supply through falling into false identification, by buying into the lusts of the world and false promises of pleasure and influence. What a joke, these people are fools. You're not satisfied because you're still compromising. Still compromising. How do I know this. Because I learned the hard way.

There is no magical state that exists outside of these mechanics that bypasses this. NG spoke about what I'm preaching as the mechanics of manifestation right here. There is no deeper level, it doesn't exist. If it was not for seeing myself as above NG and the rest then I'd never be able to own this and manifest that outcome. My state is responsible for this. My form drives me, I do not intend any of this. It's natural. It's effortless. It's just who I am and that's why. There are other thematic elements within us that we are denying that we are driven to own and accept and become the embodiment for as a means of expression in this world and yet we continue to disown and deny our divine power. I have the gate of power, so my resonance with that is significantly more conscious which is why I naturally am drawn into this context vs others but the same principle applies there too it's just depending on how you consistently are driven towards embodiment. If you've done pathway work then you'd extrapolate those elements and understand who you really are on a thematic level. That's all that exists, everything else is just noise. It's all distracting noise that you're naturally receptive to but falsely assume and buy into vs providing your supply. It's so easy when you see it, but going all the way and fully being driven is the challenge because that requires a quality of consciousness which cannot really be measured. It's truly what faith represents. The knowing of your thematic resonance and that natural striving. That's faith in my opinion. I've defined faith different ways under different contexts but for this example faith is simply the knowing of who you are and being driven by that, by the context of being. 

Own it or die. literally, if we don't we're degenerating and degeneracy is sin. Don't you see the connections yet? The bible teaches us to go all the way into the alchemical ritual that we are and unfold the potential that exists within us for a unique arrangement of supply of consciousness to play out through us. Disowning that is degeneracy. Yet you'll read this as usual and continue to go about living the same way instead of accepting where we're unsatisfied and breaking patterns. Isn't that right? It's how we all operate because comfort is easy. Sin is easy. That's why we all die here and waste a vast majority of our potential for satisfaction. True satisfaction, not this half done stuff but the full extent of your potential, going all the way and owning it completely. That right there is what almost nobody on earth is capable of because it's the challenge of human existence. Facing the pressure of transformation. That's why we exist as alchemical rituals. That potential within to unfold, the Jing, we are constantly depleting ourselves assuming we can accept mediocrity and continue as always. Living correctly to the complete extent is the function of manifestation, and vice versa. 

Look around at the people we live with. Living lives distracted with degeneracy promoted by the minds of marketing gurus roping us into false identification. Manipulation. This whole world and economic system is built upon manipulation, driving people into being not self. It's degenerate and nobody has the guts to call it for what it is and why the reality we live in sucks on a collective level and why Talmudic filth still runs amuck. It's almost like the matrix. People in the NG sphere will tell me that this is a negative outlook on life and I will manifest negative experiences that will confirm this to me, and yet the very influence mechanisms I speak of are driving these people into buying into what NG says about faith and "it will not be late" under the context of just imagining something desired and letting it be. This is not alchemy this is degeneracy that denies our divine creative essence on the thematic level. NG failed to explore these elements completely and if he was so great in his message then why are we still debating about what he meant? Why was he so vague and roundabout with the mechanisms and how he changed them over the years of his lectures and writings. The alchemical process I've outlined is the only process we need to apply to experience anything desired. The deeper you tap into your supply of essence the more satisfaction there is for you. That's your supply of nourishment. Infinite supply, simply from going all the way.

We buy into ease, comfort, mediocrity, sin. Why accept less than perfection? That's our challenge, the contrast truly is to compare to our potential, for the Jing to take it's true form in us and for us to emanate our unique song and dance in this world, whatever that thematically represents. Going all the way garners respect. Those who compromise are disrespected because they disrespect themselves. They deny their divine power and it shows. They feel intimidated by everybody and need to compensate for that lack. Degeneracy. How many connections to I need to make. 

This thematic sensation is familiar. I remember many times when I made radical changes through it and allowed it to transform me. I remember it was similar to the thematic that I reference in my SP manifesting story. Going all the way. One of the best things that NG said was that we needed a "radical change of attitude". That's probably the best way to describe how that feels. It's like getting into the stream of power and influence and nourishment where you have the courage to make the decisions you'd otherwise be paralysed to make.

 

17/10/24

Time flies.

What I've experienced once again is what I've said this whole time. No confirmation bias. I simply know without a shadow of a doubt that living from a more spacious field geometry increases baseline sense of self. When you're more "distanced" from the corporeal being you're literally more detached, this is an element of nourishment too as being closer to the incorporeal greater consciousness is nourishing in itself, so when we view reality from "top down" we can more naturally be ourselves and make decisions that are satisfying instead of playing tug of war with the mind using logic to make decisions. You accept intuitive impulse and flow with it. If you're heavily undernourished with no space and stuff then working through the body in making decisions is going to be significantly harder.

I've noticed though that when I owned my affinities more so than I even have been since I decided to own them years ago I felt "relieved" and it took a moment of courage to break my limits but it worked and I'm respected even more now by the people I personally interact with. I have an aura of more natural and effortless confidence, again it's a manifestation of baseline capacity. Without nourishment you're unable to actually experience this and the distance will be present but in a contrasting way between your desired end and where you are now. Closing the gap involves actually being nourished and being relieved that it's done, because you went all the way. It takes simple decisions to have profound effects, especially if these decisions have been where you're compromising for years and have attachment to. Simply focusing on the end means going all the way into that pressure and making those decisions you're compromising on. If you're an emotional wave authority it'll most likely manifest in your consciousness as a constant reminder of this feeling and this is where human design is important to know how someone experiences pressure. Either way going all the way and utilising available vitality will inevitably lead to satisfaction which is one function of nourishment and represents you literally being closer to greater consciousness as your supply of vitality because you're unfolding the Jing correctly and not depleting it. 

I also recognised that even after you've seemingly gone all the way into fulfilling a condition of resistance there's further benefits to be attained by holding that "driven" state of being and continuing to use that momentum into satisfying directions in other ways. I walked with such immense confidence I can't even describe. I was moving like flowing water and it felt incredible. Like I was dancing my way through life basically. Most of that comes through my rhythm channel that's unconsciously defined and just comes out of me naturally but it manifested more as a result seemingly of me carrying this "I'm on the pedestal" sense of self relative to literally everyone around me. Like this field emanating and oozing power and influence. That's the kind of experience I'm talking about. Part of this I believe relates to the intensive royal jelly regime I'm on lately which is a significantly powerful Jing tonic when used correctly that will basically fore you to resolve your trash and provide immense root pressure to transform and make correct decisions. People will bend their comfort zones for you if you request them to do things beyond that level because they feel they'll benefit from this influence you have over them. Cultivating baseline sense of self resolves all manifesting dilemmas. Nourishment. I've connected all the dots like what more is there as I always say. 

Work from the root up and from the top down. This means provide the kidney meridian (the supply of root pressure primarily through the hormone of testosterone manifest as Yang Jing stored and propagated through the kidney meridian as qi with blood carried with it) while also ensuring a well running motor (sacral/liver meridian clear of dampness and qi stagnations meaning proper storage of blood and smooth flow of qi which nourishes the endocrine glands resulting in the production of the hormones that manifest root pressure and natural transformation) by running it fully in the way it's designed to be run. The sacral requires working out, like a muscle almost, and when you compromise then your sacral will be weakened through the emanation pathway I described from root pressure. It requires both elements to function properly in a vacuum anyway but together they must be coherent. This is irrelevant to definition, though definition can provide subtle influences over how this manifests. The sacral invariably is the main production motor for the manifestation of vitality. It doesn't require a root pressure to be generative but in us as wholistic 9 center beings it means that we must work with our circuits fully and utilise their capacity as is unfolding through the Jing. Failure to do so of course will result in deficiency on many levels and that will cause a warped sense of self and thus manifestations that confirm the lacking nourishment we wallow around in day by day without realising it. 

If only I knew this years back. My suffering was necessary for this to unfold through me though, that pressure to transform threw me way beyond what I'd normally have accepted because of how badly I needed to transform. It just naturally manifested through me as a result, even though I was in significant lack I was still able to see quite clearly and connect many dots but when you're lacking context that's greater like I'm explaining today you just can't see that these dots even exist to connect and believe that what's available is all you need. That's never the case as you continue to unfold this process it's a cumulative exponential means of insight. Deeper and deeper levels of realisation come through me as I continue to do this work even though my sources haven't expanded much since 2022. Most of the new information I stumbled into I found back in 2019-2020 when I went hardcore into study of physics and biology and history and stuff and connecting those dots to alchemy and metaphysics came a few years later when that became my primary focus. The cumulative context is something you cannot rush or bypass in any way it simply takes time to unfold as you process information. The Jing unfolds. The time it takes depends entirely on the degree to which you go all the way. I happen to have started my questioning of authority back in 2015 when I realised we were collectively being fed trash info and I knew there was more to be discovered. I still remember that time I looked at myself in the mirror and just said one day after school around 6:30PM or so "there's got to be more to life than this" and boom it unfolded through me naturally. I never intended to manifest this it was just who I was and I held little to no resistance towards this so it was one of those effortless manifestations for me. If I held resistance towards the idea of refuting false authority then I'd not end up in this process as easily or even really at all to a similar degree because I'd need to go all the way through that to "unlock" how the Jing is to unfold through me. This is the same with every other level of our experience and how our circuits are nourished. When we own our definition and disown what's receptive then we win.

I really can't emphasise enough how important it is to go all the way and just own your divinity. Realisation of ones divinity doesn't have to manifest as some "holy" experience it's simply the experience of nourishment as this is naturally what we all experience regardless of the cultural context behind it. We require an essence of casualness surrounding our divinity and with that nourishment we can feel casual about our value where confidence to manifest what we desire unfolds naturally through us. Refining the sense of self is all about performing imaginal acts and making decisions under pressure in the world that fulfil the alchemical functions of where our nourishment is being stagnated. Refining the sense of self has nothing to do with repeating affirmations or visualising ideal outcomes that are stimulating, it's all about nourishment that's leading to a satisfying end be it in a "positive" or "negative" direction because they're both performing the same alchemical process of purification anyway. They say excitement and fear feel similar, it's simply because both are a supply of pressure. In TCM experiencing too much joy can deplete the heart qi and actually result in emotional distress. Peak and dip cycle. Seeking heights of stimulation as a way of numbing your true resistance from coming up is going to only further cause your Jing to deplete as you're literally going against the flow. You'll age and die in your sins faster. 

I'm not manifesting anything. It's coming through me. I'm the representation of my greater consciousness manifest as a human, as a simulacrum of all the elements of creation. That's why we can experience everything imaginable that we do. It comes through us, naturally. Do you understand why trying to control reality is pointless and will always lead to unsatisfying outcomes? Satisfaction only arises through going all the way into the drives that your greater consciousness has through you and by you dissolving resistance you're becoming more of yourself, unfolding the Jing fully and experiencing the fruits of that in the world. The assumptions come through us, they represent the thematics and they are not primary, they're the result. NG didn't understand this it seems and so we must dispel this myth that mental assumptions dictate phenomenal reality because there's an uncountable number of examples where even in my own life I felt worthy of far less than I received and vice versa. Those experiences where you affirm "I haven't heard from X person" in years and they show up, implying negative context where you're not hearing from them. The supporters of this will claim that because you said that it manifested as them coming in so you could then find yourself saying that again but if that logic applies then why doesn't that work for other cases most commonly? It comes through us, we naturally think of this as a representation of the targeted thematic element that comprises the experience reflected and you'll find that same thematic come up again when the manifestation unfolds regardless of the words used. I tell myself all the time certain things that I don't have any feeling towards, that they're casual and normal. These words manifest through me all the time, but they're reflecting the thematic elements of my consciousness that I resonate with, thus we understand the origins of assumptions.

Thoughts on a verbal level as I've explained are limitation manifest just like the rest of the senses. They're represented theamtics of consciousness. We know this because as you unfold the most limited to the most primordial you get to the place where you simply exist without "thinking" where thought comes through you and feeling comes through you on a thematic level. That manifests as thought in your consciousness because that's how your filters process this information but the archetypes themselves we interact with in theurgy work can meld to suit the cosmology someone is viewing them through. The principles of reality precede cosmological abstraction we form to make sense of them and the alchemist made clear to me that different cultures see different beings but they're simply all manifestations of the same principle personifications of reality. You're interacting with a literal personification of an element of reality. It's personified because your limited senses require a means to filter it and of course depending on your cultural cosmology that you believe in will shape the form it takes for you as you interface with it. Once again you're not interacting with a fixed sensory level being it's a represented personified element of reality because these elements are what on a lesser level comprise your consciousness. They just must take form on the sensory level for the corporeal reality we experience to have formation that's consistent. We all buy into the senses as all there is, and I even said that without the senses there is nothing but the fact is that the senses are representing the thematic elements and not the other way around. Before there was limited sensory experience there were the unfolding thematic element of consciousness which as a result of our corporeal consciousness having filters requires there to be a "translation" of that into what our senses can make sense of since we're do dependent on them for experience.

The more we distance ourselves from the corporeal being the more influence we hold over reality, not in a controlling manner because it's all just us being ourselves without resistance and mental decision making but because we're operating more from that top down frame of reference. We're nourished in that and so naturally we can be ourselves. Our unique formation of the elements of consciousness can unfold proportionately and manifest through us exactly what is the most satisfying for our process which of course provides substance for others to play off of and further process in their experiences. This is all fractal. One process manifesting as and through all things. God unfolding. Consciousness is God unfolding because God must unfold by the nature of its existence. It just is. I AM. I AM that I AM. God unfolds through us, we are representations of God and thus we are God in principle elements. That's why creation is done because all the elements for the trajectory of reality to unfold exist as they must already. We cannot create anything new because we exist in the realm of limitation which is just the emanation of the results of these primordial elements of consciousness unfolding through us. We're the puppets in the play act that don't realise we've got all these strings attached to us being moved by God. That's why we're God, we're God in extension and in manifestation as a result of what God does. That's why creation is done and why we don't have any control over it to any real degree of significance because it all happens top down. That's how manifestation in a conscious manner happens, and if that's correct it will always be satisfying. You cannot dictate the terms of satisfaction for your consciousness, that's really where we are bound to our fixed thematics. We don't have any ability to control those fixed thematics and in the nature of our existence we're bound to them because that's our unique satisfying "dance" of life. If there was no fixed point of comparison to be contrasting against then there'd be no order, no proportionality, no means for the inner response to drive us and no satisfaction as the conditions of satisfaction would shift all the time with the wind. There'd be no pressure and no fundamental alchemical process that unfolds through us and expands our capacity. Solipsistic reality that's promoted in this community is whacked and has no connection to how things actually work. We'd be unable to even know what is or isn't satisfying without a fixed point of comparison and that point of comparison is our greater consciousness which by creating space we embody more of and are nourished by. That's how the sense of self is refined in essence and touches on one of the hidden meanings of what NG spoke of about knowing your place in divinity and owning it without compromise. He never outlined it in that way he just said that you get to know your "secret self" and that's what this is referring to. Awakening to this is a natural unfolding of the sense of self into proportionate experience with what's desired. You're not intimidated by anyone or anything and contrast is negated which means you don't feel the need to control when you're living from that frame of reference. Once again it's a natural process and all the elements that comprise it connect together. 

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A vast majority of manifestation simply is us seeing (feeling/feeling nourished) ourselves being the person that's resonant to us. Experiencing the fulfilment means we've got the state to reflect that in the world. It's not some magic it's field geometry interactions, supply and reception. Yesterday I was feeling into that state of nourishment and fully feeling into each principle present in my consciousness. I felt mostly that it was a dominating sensation, like I was almost overexpressing the control over my surroundings, my field emanated that intimidating vibe I use to feel from others who had what I wanted. The difference here was the way it manifested was through my movement. People don't see how I move on camera, they don't get a sense for the vitality from the appearance alone because that's not the path by which is manifests most visibly, though I've been asked by security many times for ID because they think I'm under 18 at venues even up until just last week when I went to an event locally. Very surprising as this was one of my affirmations I smashed into my head for moths before I got insanely sick some years back that left me almost disabled and unable to do anything strenuous for months. I'd get out of breath just getting out of bed and my head would spin and I would have my consciousness almost begin to fade when I'd bend over a few too many times that's how bad it was. Couldn't work. Either way that seems to be a thematic resonance I have else it wouldn't have stuck, though it's still not fully satisfying in the complete manner I'd like but I know why and I'm dissolving those levels of resistance more every day. Having other people perceive you as younger than you are vs actually looking younger in reality notably to yourself is very different. I've had people in my comments mention I'm 17 too. It's wild to think that most people think I'm still a minor. There must be a manifestation through the channel of rhythm there as I've heard Ra talk about how it's one of the essential channels for vitality to manifest and since it's unconsciously defined I must have a deeper supply to influence through that. It might also explain part of my fascination with attaining immortality, despite having significantly diminished pre-natal Jing vs most other people I knew being way shorter and all that. I identified with that shorter and more agile version of me and I don't actually think that's truly resonant as there's more of a power based sensation I'm feeling lately as I go through transformation further. It's like a mixture of the two sensations, both agile and powerful, confidence and flow combined in how I move and respond. Effortlessly acrobatic in my movements. My affinities for parkour and wushu must be there for a reason as an extension to make these thematics manifest. When I own them I instantly tap into that distanced sensation of being where others around me are like "linking" into my field geometry and feeling that flow emanating from me that they can't avoid. I seem to not have that contrast affect how my power is made manifest. It's very interesting to say the least that attraction is based on so many elements and owning your supply is the primary one of those, whatever that supply is and however it's made manifest it will attract the right people to you who are supremely satisfying and fulfilling. 

You can almost just look at a character or another person and feel into their essence and take that upon yourself and carry it with you.

There's layers to this whole power thing too. Eventually you get past the experience of feeling aura that's "intimidating" and you get to the place of just pure abundance and satisfaction just from existing. I believe that the embodiment of feeling an immense power emanating from your field is more so a mastery of the lower level of the conjugate elements of consciousness (the lower yin and yang becoming one in the lesser marriage) which the result of that would be the outcome of the above mentioned sense of "casual power" so to say, like power isn't experienced it's just "fun" to throw around so to say, like you're just "toying" with the world. That's the idea of what I'm saying by effortless effort and what more of a top down perspective really means. You're just toying with the world because you don't feel challenge. You've faced the fire and have been purified under that pressure and so you don't feel any sense of intimidation or need to even intimidate. It's a function of simple casual effortless power, toying with the world and the people you interact with like they're children you're throwing around for fun. That casualness is the result I believe of completely nourishing the lower elements though I don't know because I'm not there yet. I'm still working through my own process, as we all are. Either way it's interesting to put these experiences of consciousness into perspective and the degree of nourishment and the filters that's viewed through.

As far as I know power is almost all made manifest through the lower principles.

 

Youre more often than not going to manifest people into your life who are on a similar level of nourishment to you. This is meaning the people who you have closer connection with and not randoms. You’ll all likely play into eachothers compromise patterns and confirm all your senses of self. You’ll see the compromise patterns for what they are and they’ll also confirm who you’re being too. Taking a long hard look at the people around you can reveal things about yourself through your interactions with them.

 

18/10/24

I've been taking very high quality premium royal jelly I paid a ton for over a few days now and I've noticed significantly increased influence over reality and my naturalness in response to how I'm being driven. The world is responding to me accordingly. I've gotten more emails of people asking to work with me than I ever have before in one night and I've got old contacts reaching out wanting to spend time with me. I never thought about these things. My subconscious capacity has grown for sure I can feel it when I operate in the world and the degree by which I can actually act correctly under pressure is even more natural.

People likely wont agree with this but I cannot refute this point that root pressure manifest as libido is the essential component that drives us into transformation. This goes back to what Wilhelm Reich wrote about whom I've mentioned before in past pages and was someone very important to my study of how reality works. He basically saw people who were successful in life as those who owned their libido and used it to drive them in their lives. These were people who were "orgastically potent" and people who are drained and have no root pressure (people who are overstimulated and eat trash and don't sleep and deplete their Jing) lived completely different lives and the people who had orgastic potency as he put it (a sub function of subconscious capacity) were actually able to naturally have the courage and drive to go through the pressure to transform where they felt satisfied at the end. I believe this has everything to do with generator power emanating from the sacral relying on the root pressure to feed it fuel (Yin mostly) by which then the established connection between greater consciousness and corporeal being can be proportionately accessed and felt and naturally unfolded through your consciousness. The thoughts that naturally come through us that are fleeting but have powerful manifesting ability (like how I manifested accidentally a whole new road being paved on my street yesterday when I was riding my new e scooter I got and wanted a smoother surface like the neighbouring street) only tends to happen when there's a supply of "nutrients" in the form of the yin raising up from the root to nourishing the upper level circuits. It's that the pressure in the root builds up like a volcano ready to explode (except in a good way) and the heat rises as a result to nourish the circuits that normally wouldn't receive substance to work with and would need to "try" to establish a connection.

Royal Jelly is one of those substances that builds immense power in very little time providing you're not already extremely drained. I took about 10g a day. I overdid it a little yesterday taking around 12g (I'm guessing based on the amount on a teaspoon) and I got some slight nausea which can happen so my max seems to be around 10g and for someone of my size that's a lot so it explains how I've had immense benefits in no time. Trials in studies I've read on royal jelly say that 0.3-3g is ideal. I say that's nonsense if you're not getting at least 4-5g you're missing out. I suggest everybody use this stuff themselves and see what happens.

My point here is being that those who take this libido boost and use it to drain themselves instead of using that pressure to sink deeper into the uncomfortable sensations they're stuck with normally because of a lack of root pressure are the ones who will transform resistance vs those who don't have a supply of it. This seems to be a big part of what actually provides the essential supply of nourishment on the base substance level which metaphysically corresponds to the base metals being transmuted into gold through being separated and purified under pressure that alchemy represents. I wrote briefly about this idea last year around the time I put up my first long video as I had that insight at night where I recognised the link between what I now know as root pressure and intuitive impulse and insight that comes through that naturally. More root pressure means more responsibility to transform but it generally increases the "magnetism" of your field where people will just want to be around you because you emanate a more coherent supply that your circuits are nourished from. When you're drained they'll feel it and if you've seen the reactions from people who you're around regularly you'll clearly tell the difference in how much they naturally respect you. I believe that the most potent way to dissolve resistance is to have a supply of root pressure rooted in the Jing (natural striving towards higher order integration with greater consciousness) which will provide the both the Yin and Yang elements required for the sacral to provide a response for you to be driven by and it will most likely be natural and mostly unconscious because you'll just have the correct perceptions enter your mind that correspond to the satisfying direction and decisions that need to be made. It's like this is our naturally built in drive to transform but most of us are depleting it and don't have a supply of it that we can utilise. Jing boosters more often than not result in increased libido and I believe this is for this exact reason and connects with what I said before about the hormones and how they're manifestations of the pressure we feel to transform into satisfaction.

People who are younger have more of that drive naturally for a reason, they're more supplied with root pressure but of course since they're all in their heads and make dumb decisions that gets wasted most of the time on useless activities that deplete space and overstimulate the nervous system. Most of the time this buffer they have isn't felt until years later where continued degeneracy destroys them as it did with me until things got bad enough to want to change. That's also the point here too is that it brings up more of the resistance to be dissolved when you're cultivating root pressure. It basically forces you to either transform or seek comfort and drain yourself. Like the very experience of the need to transform emanates out of the root pressure and provides that sacral response to go through the pressure because the context has been shifted from feeling that root pressure. This is something that I believe NG really meant by "burning desire" because desire more often than not is this pressure to fulfil that we don't have and it requires root pressure to even feel burning desire. Without that root pressure the "need" to transform base substances into higher order ones simply isn't there and so the sacral cannot respond to what it needs to without sufficient current. Ra has said so many times that the sacral response is either a yes or a no and it's always based on what it has energy to act on that it knows will be satisfying. Now that's not to say you won't get sacral response without libido but it's going to be numbed, in fact sacral response IS literally the experience of libido, I believe. That's why it's natural and effortless when we have it and it's correctly used and how satisfying outcomes manifest without ever even having to use manifesting techniques.  

This is also why I believe that seed retention once again is another means of transformation that's powerful as you're simply holding the root pressure and allowing it to build up to where it gets so intense that you basically cannot ignore it and it forces you to transform and face the pressure. It provides you sufficient pressure to go through the pressure of transformation because you're nourished. This is why I said a while back that without sufficient nourishment (representing the sense of self) then transforming resistance isn't going to be as efficient as your capacity to meet resistance with opposing nourishing current will be reduced and thus "effort" will be experienced. Applying effort means you're deficient and not nourished. In TCM the libido is manifest as the minister fire rising up which is the manifestation of kidney yang catalysing the kidney yin which both are emanations of Jing stored between and slightly below the kidneys. This fire is fuelled when thoughts that are leading to a usage of this substance come to mind which relates to Ojas and the translation of "on demand" I heard a while back because it doesn't come out unless there's a stimulus to trigger it. It will make you more sensitive but without the stimulus there won't be a response, likely the feeling of the sacral going "yes" or no as the rising sensation that can manifest as an involuntary "mmhhm" noise. 

Now artificial libido boosting doesn't have the same impact because you're basically scraping the Jing and forcing premature catalysing of the substances without a coherent and proportionate ratio that's nourishing which is why you'll end up drained after. It must come from something that provides base Jing like royal jelly instead of other sources that can cause pathogenic fire and actually disrupt the sacral and spleen and such because the fire requires yin to anchor it too else it rises out of control and causes heat which leads to stagnation and further psychological mess. 

I also noticed that I'm more able to just speak my mind without care. I experience this as my resonant state being where I operate from coming through me more naturally as what drives my context. I just return there without needing to do context building like I did in the past so it seems there's a link here between these elements. I experience it like the direction I know I'm moving in that's satisfying overshadows the silly need to buy into the fear of compromising and so I just have courage flow through me. The context is present to allow that and I never had to  consciously and deliberately make that context shift in my favour it was just natural. You're just naturally able to withdraw "care" for situations that don't serve you and it's like the boundaries are just clear and obvious to hold firm with, you don't need to remind yourself of them in this place of power especially if there's been space created and work done to normalise these states. The ability to face pressure and effectively transform it where you either further drive in or withdraw from situations that will be correct and satisfying based on the inner authority is increased with more root pressure. It's happened way too many times to say that this isn't a factor. Ra as far as I know never spoke about the root in this way or at least didn't emphasise the importance of root pressure in transforming and having a supply for the sacral to respond to to drive consciousness instead of consciousness needing to control things because it's seeking nourishment.

When you're nourished you cannot fail and root pressure the base level of nourishment we all require to have powerful sacral response that drives us into satisfying experiences despite the pressure. It's almost representing the most primordial level of masculine power manifest through us, that drive to conquer and dominate. That's what I had the experience of when in this place, those thematics are made manifest through you when you've got the circuits nourished. It's not coming from a place of the need to control kind of dominate but simply the direction you're driven in that's satisfying because that competitive spirit exists as a result of nourishing your circuits to be the best you and that plays off other people as well. I've read books about successful business owners who had a similar experience and drive and had that competitive essence, especially in the early 1910-20's when the electrical system was being first established and all the new technologies that were created. The sacral is said to be the source of creative essence but I say that it requires a connection to the throat (manifestation/expression of these more primordial currents into sensory level expression) to take form in the world as the sacral in itself cannot manifest complex things it's a binary response system. 

I just can't emphasise the importance of this point. Root pressure in all forms is a requirement to undergo the alchemical process of transformation. NG once again failed to provide us a complete working model and dismissed the alchemical functions of consciousness.

 

I believe that “edge” comes out of sacral drive. We’ve lost edge on a collective level. Everything has been sanitised and watered down and made safe. This is the manifestation of the depletion of root pressure. Nobody wants to accept the pressure to transform and wants to suppress it. That’s why creative essence is dead and everything is “mediocre” at best now in all elements of society. All common forms of art lack that essence too now, music, cinema, gaming even use to have compelling stories and gameplay mechanics. That’s what the rainbow culture is a manifestation of. Nobody can own their sacral drive now it’s all seen as negative to have edge and be competitive and call out false authority in its place without a shred of care for the consequences. This essence is what I’m talking about. That edge must be refined through mastering the essence that drives us. 

 

When you face the pressure of transformation and you feel the tears of pain building up under your eyes you have no where to go but through it all the way to the end. 

The reason why things can take time too is also because of the natural transition between the baseline sense of self and where you were. When you continue to sink into your abundance and satisfaction and go all the way through the darkness to reveal what's on the other side then and only then can the natural unfolding of the thoughts that represent your desire fulfilled come through you without effort. That is TRUE transformation where it's a genuine expression of self out of being instead of trying to be. That's the difference. It's not done until it's done.

 

It's an interesting idea that fate (the fixed thematic resonance we're unconsciously bound to play out in our existence as a function of God) will make sure we never compromise on our path. We will always feel bad about not self because it's impure, it's not resonant with the proportionality to greater consciousness and therefore fate binds all of us as a function of our existence. We cannot ever escape this. The 3 norns literally "weave" the fates of all of existence because they are the personifications of these principles that describe how our consciousness is driven by alchemical process into expanding God. We expand God through God as God.

What principles of consciousness are you the embodiment of?

 

If someone is chucking a fit and breaking down then let them wallow in their own misery. Don't try and help them and interrupt their alchemical process. You're providing them a way out, you don't want that because they then won't go through the sacred purifying fire of life. They require that pressure to be fully felt and experienced (the purging of the emotional wave in solar plex authority for example like me) and out of that a realisation will come over them when the storm has cleared and they'll see how stupid it was to carry on. You'll literally be engaging in their whacked context thinking that you can help but in reality you cannot help at all you need to make fun of things and withdraw care from their situation. If you overextend then good luck winning. Yin yang dynamics at play here.

Listening to how NG speaks of imagination makes me think about how we can think of imagination not as the imaginal senses but as the means of targeting the thematic senses. He says that experiences existed within him "for I am the whole world pushed out", and to me that represents what I've been saying about how creation is already done under the context that all of the elements of consciousness already exist within you.

 

 

19/10/24

There's so many more insights I have running through my head right now. I've been working on a new project lately and just going into that has provided me further progress on understanding more about the manifesting process. Ultimately it's all going to go back to thematic resonance. Are we making decisions from the correct state of being or are we still holding onto not self conditioning. That's what we need to ask ourselves every day and make decisions out of those responses.

The level that's deeper than this is that all of your thoughts (traced back to a thematic sensation of being) that correspond to your manifest reality which come through you are the proof of who you're being. NG said to make this sinking into the "radical" change in attitude regular as possible. I agree completely looking at it this way because you're basically keeping your resonance as fine tuned as possible to elicit inner response that then drives us. We can tap that inner response on demand and have it provide to us what we need in terms of thought and all that through the conscious mind as it's arguably just here to "allow" the experience to unfold through it. This is what I believe manifesting is really about at it's core, it's that you "experience" being a certain person in a manner that's thematically resonant and that draws out of your inner authority the response that drives every other element of your consciousness towards that place naturally and without effort. The only thing we need to keep on top of is continuing to lean into that thematic resonance because I can guarantee that if you do you will be forced to change as who you are as a result because it's going to bring up the contrast and pressure of the purifying fire of life which cleanses us of impurity. You won't be able to help but to be that person and everything implied under those thematic sensations that's reflected in the imaginal experiences that come through your mind at the right moments to naturally be dropped and unfolded like the seed analogy NG makes. All the seeds of manifestation exist as that correct thematic resonance, the seeds in this case are the ones that are satisfying and not just any old seeds that aren't for our garden. 

Just be the person you are drawn towards being. Hold no judgement for that state from the mind simply exist as the form being driven and accept how that unfolds. The contrast that comes up will naturally be negated as you own the state and go through it for you cannot fail with a firm sensation of thematic resonance you return to. That's the "reference state" I use to talk about ages ago when I did my early coaching and came up with this term. Little did I know back then there was thematic elements involved. If you feel your form respond to stimulus out of the sacral (if you're a generator) then you've got the right direction right there to work with. Just be driven is the key. Screw this whole imaginal stuff you don't need any of that simply anchoring yourself into a state of abundance and "deciding" to be yourself without compromise means you win. Just thinking about going all the way would likely bring up anxiety in your mind if you're compromising and that's exactly the proof you need to know you're tapping into the correct direction for you because it's scary to be yourself and to own your divinity. NG said in one of his lectures that when you see the contrast between who you've been playing as vs who you really are you're going to see the lacking state as a sad sorry little person whom you feel pity for. You completely die to that limitation, just as Odin did. Odin represents the Christos or the incorporeal consciousness we're moving into and becoming one with by doing this work. In the Norse myths there's a saying about those who die in battle go to Valhalla. This simply refers to dying to your limitations in the world, the battle is the "struggle" that Jacob went through as he wrestled with God representing being yourself without compromise and going through the alchemical process of transformation.

That's all there is at it's core. Strategy and authority is one way of looking at it but I say that when you're at a certain degree of power your strategy and authority will naturally manifest out of you anyway. The real work is to be done in the direction of owning who you are and eliciting the alchemical process. The alchemist said we cannot do anything more than to speed it up as it's always unfolding in us by the nature of our existence. The alchemical process of transformation into higher order cannot be avoided for you exist in the form and are nailed to the cross until you either complete the great work or die in your sins. Owning it without compromise and going through that experience is why we exist because without the limitation of the senses then that expansion under pressure through undergoing alchemical transformation would be impossible. The very process of being placed under pressure and going through that IS alchemy embodied and unfolded. That's Gods power. That's the law. That's manifestation. 

Go all the way and hold nothing back. Be uncompromising and unrelenting and merciless and filled with the fury of Odin. 

 

Here's a process.

We don't want to consciously and deliberately think anything. I've realised that the thoughts that come through us have different manifesting power than the ones we deliberately think from the mind vs the ones that we have come through the mind that we simply observe. It's the thoughts that rise up from the root vs the thoughts that sink down from the mind. The thoughts that are results of the seeds of manifestation are the ones that have undergone conditioning (conditioning under this context meaning like kneading dough to "condition" it as NG used this term under that context too) through our circuits. This process is something that you need to own fully as it's representing how you take a base substance and purify it into something of real nourishing value. This is the point. We've been taught in this community to manifest from the mind but we cannot as this is effectively impossible, meaning you cannot manifest satisfying experiences this way if you're not comfortable with the implication of that because it's bringing up limitation you've bought into and accepted to drive you vs the thematic sensations that your form experiences that drives you. You're going to move into the direction of learning about these thematic sensations and becoming friends with them. Get to know the contents and structure of your mind and what drives you into satisfying and unsatisfying directions. 

You'll notice that when you change others around you can also respond negatively to that. The reason why this is is not because of any negative thoughts on your part but because you're emanating a nourishing vitality that they're uncomfortable with because it's threatening their safety and comfort zones. The ONLY thing that makes us feel uncomfortable is what causes us to be pushed beyond our comfort zones. That's it. 

It all starts with feeling pressure to transform because you're unsatisfied. This IS desire. That's what desire is all about. True desire is natural striving towards higher order and it's for the function of transformation of the consciousness to provide a unique signature to reality as you comprise reality. Out of this desire you can either accept it and fulfil it or you can run away from the responsibility of fulfilling it and retreat into the safety and conform to the conditions you've bought into against where your natural striving is driving you. The cause of suffering is buying into the conditions of the world you've taken upon yourself as important and need to compromise on the experience of how your natural striving is driving you towards satisfaction. You cannot change unless you take back your inner authority and the essence of this is how the sense of self manifests. It's that taking back your inner authority is nourishing and empowering and provides you vitality and out of this naturally the thoughts that represent the seeds of manifestation unfolding through you will be observed when they're ready and the corresponding experience will show up in your corporeal existence. That's the only way that manifestation can be done completely correctly. We must own who we are and take back those thematic elements of consciousness that are ours to claim and own and express without compromise. That IS us and giving that away is committing spiritual suicide. You die in your sins as a result of continuing this. 

It's so clear and it all makes complete sense on almost all levels here. You cannot avoid this because it's a fundamental function of your consciousness that's constantly driving the negative peak dip cycle you're going through. Root pressure takes time to build up and as it reaches that critical threshold it's going to force out of you the compromise patterns for the conscious mind to observe. It takes substance from the root and propagates it through the circuit into the thematic currents that represent the compromise pattern and thus the conscious mind must experience it. You're not making that happen because it's coming through you naturally as a result of who you're being. This exact same process happens in the inverse but for satisfying experiences. We take the built up root pressure and use it to drive us into the direction that the form is telling us to go into and we will naturally be driven into that direction as a result. The conscious mind cannot do anything except "give in" or "resist" the currents. It can only draw contrast and divert it's attention and make decisions over the form because the context warps the driving current that's naturally going to move you in the world into a satisfying manner. The conscious mind and its need to control takes over and vetoes the natural process because it thinks that it has authority when the fact is that it's only able to experience what's coming up, literally. Almost all of the real magic happens down below the mind in the body where there's a literal cauldron boiling transforming substances as you exist that drive every function of your consciousness. The mind can only experience a tiny tiny tiny tiny little fraction of a percentage of what's actually going on. If the mind is constantly experience the same unsatisfying stuff then it means that what's being processed down below it is obviously not satisfying to any meaningful degree and that generates the frustration you feel because disowning your divine thematic resonance disconnects you from your supply of nourishment. 

That's what this is all about. Nourishment. Sense of self. Do you have the sense of self (authority) to be yourself? Giving yourself what you cannot get in the world currently is the function of the imagination as it provides to us a personal playground by which we can formulate the elements of consciousness in such a manner that it can bring about our nourishing current and provide us the authority we've compromised on as an experience. If we experience our inner authority in contrast to where we are in the compromise pattern then it will invariably bring up within us the need to change, it will come through us, the imaginal scenes come up into our minds and we cannot stop that because it's the thematic elements being processed and transformed by the brain into sensory level sensations that those represent. This is proof of a state change and a shift in the alchemical process unfolding through us. Do you understand now what's going on? It's all alchemy from top to bottom. All of it. The mind can only compare and contrast and out of that it can influence the thematic elements of consciousness that we draw into but those are once again driven primarily by the thematic sensations that are either satisfying or not because we're all bound to the peak and dip cycle as a result of this as those thoughts come through us without any conscious intent. They're there to provide us a clue as to what's going on within our internal state of nourishment. We cannot change that unless we fulfil what's actually causing these dips, as in disowned themes that are resistive and generating stagnations and heat which rises and disturbs the shen and or hun out of that root pressure. Those who also have no root pressure will live comfortable uncomfortable lives. They will willingly suffer degeneracy because they've got no root pressure to drive transformation. They cannot see beyond the utter degeneracy they've bought into in limited context but the moment they've got real root pressure present they're going to be in for a rude shock. More often than not seeing someone that they "like" and are attracted to that they want will wake them up because this provides them that root pressure to transform. It's the most primitive element of root pressure and it's something we should all be utilising as a primary function of consciousness to drive transformation. This doesn't mean that person is the correct person for you it's just that it's bringing up the lack within you because that's thematically something you've compromised on that you actually desire, as everybody really does.

Taking this a step further we go into pathway work. Pathway work reveals to us these elements that are stagnant and warped and generating frustration within us. Pathway work is there to bring up naturally what's within us that we're running away from and avoiding facing the pressure of. Going all the way into these places and shining the light in the darkness provides clarity on where we're compromised as most of this is unconscious until it's shown to the mind to compare and contrast. 

The way we do pathway work is simply to draw out the series of thoughts that come up for any given subject. Once you've hit the bottom you're going to provide themes to what this experience represents. Say you've got experiences of being stuck financially forever and it's annoying you. What came up was someone telling you that you're never going to have money because your family is poor. You bought into that because it's your environment and it's safe and it's familiar and you didn't want to rock the boat with the status quo as a child. You've bought into this and so by tracing the memories you can place on them the theme of "opportunity" and "responsibility" and "receiving" and "providing". Your parents likely compromised in their own paths and disowned their own thematics which meant that if you went beyond them they'd feel uncomfortable and want to take you down to their size. That's natural because it's what's coming up in them that you're reminding them of that they're running away from. What you're going to do with then now is with these identified memories and themes is do both pathway revisions and along with that owning your thematics and fulfilling them. Pathway revision is going into these experiences and fully sinking into the experience of that lack of financial abundance all the way, you're going to feel it fully on all levels and while there simply see it as who you use to be and out of that provide a shift in perspective on all of it into the correct direction which frames all of that into a satisfying and nourishing manner. If you go all the way you're going to feel relief. The active level work with this is applying yourself into the direction of owning this during the day and being driven by what comes out of that. You're going to repeatedly bring it up and surround yourself with that in your environment and sink into experiencing the drive that comes through that without compromise. However you're driven to make decisions out of that you're going to accept it and not listen to what the mind is bringing into the context from the limited sense of self that has no authority,. You're going to remind yourself of your divine essence and that this is your life and your terms and your decisions to make and not anybody else's and own that drive completely and go all the way into that uncomfortable sensation. Go all the way and make the decisions you'd not dare to before. You're going to uncompromisingly be yourself and provide your unique signature to the world that's been purified under the divine purifying fire emanating as root pressure. 

If you do this then you cannot fail. You're not going to repetitively think anything except the thoughts and imaginal experiences and thematics that represent what your correctly nourished sense of self feels like. You're going to just continue to be experiencing your authority, your inner authority and have it drive you. It doesn't matter what your emotional state is you're just going to break the limitations you had that you gave up control over to the conditions you identified in pathway work. Doing pathway work is something to be done every day really for weeks and months as new things will come up over time to add to the list of themes and memories where you're going to eventually create a complete map of your field geometry.

The real essence of manifesting is to be yourself and out of that everything flows. This means going all the way into owning it. Claiming that divinity without a shred of compromise and making decisions as though nobody cares or has any influence over you because you're on the pedestal and you determine the rules of engagement. You're so nourished that you bring up the resistance in everybody else not the other way around. You're the walking talking embodiment of the sacred purifying fire of life and you naturally manifest everything you desire automatically because they flow through you without any contrast there to attach to and need because you're already satisfied in yourself. That's where we're going to be moving into, that's what a manifesting master looks like. Someone who has mastered themselves is someone who's faced their own demons in battle and defeated them all. There's no skeletons in the closet left to deal with and you're pure and divine in your light of life and everybody can feel that. You compromise for nobody because you don't want to, you don't need to, you can say yes or no without facing pressure because you're nourished and casually have the correct response flow through you. You manifest everything with ease. That's where we want to be.

 

21/10/24

Seeing someone who's bringing out what's lacking in yourself is critically important to refining yourself. If you're not doing theurgy work then you're going to need stimulus from the corporeal senses to bring that out. I'm thinking I've hit the wall again with understanding. There's more to talk about here but it's tiny refinements on what's already been said. It seems to me that the sacral does indeed not need supply from the root to receive nourishment, it can but it doesn't need it. We need it more than single cells do which have the same channel of rhythm I have defined as their only channel. If we can operate as a whole then we can utilise the root pressure to drive the generative capacity the sacral has. The sacral does generate it's own vitality too of course because that's where Jing is unfolded as it's transformed which is made manifest as vitality through us. 

In my experience seeing pure feminine representation, and I mean PURE RAW RECEPTIVE feminine power is unbelievably purifying to a degree that I can't even describe. Utilising that current that's brought up to drive you into BEING the person your inner authority is striving for instead of chasing pretty objects then you'll be generating unbelievable levels of vitality and nourishment. I know that people in the occult circles say that avoiding the senses is necessary because it's going to draw you into temptation to deplete yourself in fruitless endeavours but being there to "play" with that realm and allow those currents to come up and flow THROUGH you is the trick. It requires you to be fully in tune with yourself in those places but I've experimented with this over the last week and it's been once again profound. Utilising the stimulus that brings up and reminds us of who we are through immediate contrast is unbelievably powerful. Just bringing to mind that thematic that's resonant and brings up who we can be in expressing that, that's what NG described as imagining the end. It's the same process of purification. He missed the fixed elements of how the form responds though which is why his model doesn't work and why people go into imagining things they really don't need to be satisfied. Imagining your thematic resonance is where we need to play in as that's of course our supply. Contrast.

I also rearranged my desk this morning too because I felt compelled to and it was very satisfying. It's even just these simple things that make a huge difference in your overall vitality. 

The feminine WANTS to look up to you (if they're owning their own power and not compromising that is just like the masculine most often chickens out of facing challenge and going all the way hence why he's not respected) if you provide that supply of polarity. SP manifesting is just so easy I tell you it's so simple all you need to do is own your polarity and go all the way with it. Boom you win. 

I've found that when you've got an excess in Jing (as in you're unfolding your "genetic" potential) then you're going to be physically at that level too and reflect what that looks like. I've said this before but quintessence has been said to have regrown the limbs and bones of people who lost them before. This to me would imply they're increasing baseline Jing else there'd not be the substantive potential for the form to reflect that capacity of youth. There needs to be sufficient genetic potential existent in the form to play that out and I believe that the channel of rhythm is a huge part in how that plays out, as I believe that stem cells reflect this channel as a generative function. Stem cells are pure sacral power which to me seems like it's the manifestation of what Jing can become when a proportionate circuit is present to manifest through. When we're all whacked then obviously it's not going to work. There's a certain "rhythm" to how the Jing "unfolds" and I believe this is the secret to immortality. It's that when we're playing our correct tune then we cannot decay. It's only out of wavering from expressing the literal metaphysical key signature that corresponds to the "notes" you play in the life you live that you're going to decay and die. This is sin. Death is a failure because you've got your entire genetic potential existing here to fulfil and as a simulacrum of reality you can unfold that completely. 

Whenever I remind myself of that channel (which is actually by imagining myself expressing the corresponding metaphysically related experience to that rhythm channel) then I experience the "rising" sensation and I am driven to act in the instant. Most of the time. It's natural and happens when stimulus enters the mind that draws the currents to those channels. I will study this channel further in detail and understand what the essence of this is really about when it comes to generative power because it really seems to be "generative" in the most pure sense and since I've got it unconsciously defined I should have access to a significantly greater flow of this youthful current. Perhaps this is why people still think I'm a minor when they see me as I've experienced multiple times this last month despite being much older. There seems to be an influence with this channel that manifests through me as this general vitality that's nourishing, and the "rhythm" element of this is more than just what we could call rhythm in terms of musical rhythm but I believe it represents the very rhythm that's closely linked to how the Jing is designed to unfold which "opens the door" for power to manifest through that. It's about proportionality, the correct ratios of all the elements of the music of life that this channel represents is what we're aligning to. Man just thinking about this is making me want to dance it's so resonant.

It's all natural though, it's that we just flow with it and be that without compromise. You're naturally being in flow, in rhythm, in alignment, nourished, correctly responding and being driven into satisfying experiences. Like what more is there to say.

I just feel so nourished and abundant it's like I want to explode with vitality it's almost overwhelming. Just dancing.

Just own it like be yourself without a shred of unnaturalness to it. Contrast leading into false identification throws you out of naturalness. 

 

Naturalness is everything that we need to recognise is the solution to all our issues in life. I see naturalness as a part of having correct response, you don't need to "think" about response because it should just naturally come through you when you're being yourself. It should all be natural and effortless and that's the point. You should naturally own your polarity and thematics and express them without compromise. It should all be natural because that's where the power comes from, you're not doing then you're just being and doing is the natural result that unfolds and is basically manifest through you.

 

22/10/24

I had someone offer me a free block of land today when I was out walking. Interesting. It was an acre size too.

 

23/10/24

We are the Jing in manifestation. The Jing unfolds into us. Mastering the Jing is mastering yourself. The most direct manifestation of the Jing is the skeleton, bones, bone marrow, brain, spine. These elements constitute the most direct manifestation of Jing.

How I see this is that as TCM presents Jing as a fixed amount of substance that's being "leaked" through living incorrectly and that it cannot be restored. Prenatal Jing that is of course. If you're wanting to restore pre-natal Jing then simply living correctly will stop the leaking and by going into the metaphysical level experience of what youthful vigour is then you can and will be capable of restoring that substance on a pre-natal level because that's it's manifestation. I don't believe that one can restore prenatal Jing without living in a youthful manner, because they're correspondent. We must become what we manifest. That's the essence here anyway but plugging the leaks by dissolving resistance and going all the way is essential. 

Casualness. Casualness is power. Baseline casualness. 

 

24/10/24

The magic number again.

So it's clear to me that since Jing is Yin, meaning inactive and stillness, it's meaning that preserving it means not changing and being still. The mind being still I see this more so as than the body as the body is driven naturally. 

There was a cool breeze that just blew through my room and it felt amazing. It guess that tells me about the damp heat pattern and why I feel that way about these things. It seems different field geometries are more prone to certain feelings than others.

Either way I believe that stillness in terms of being "still" as the Jing unfolds through us is the point. That's what I really mean about the mind being still. It seems that age reversal means that we have to undo movement in the incorrect direction and "uncreate" ourselves so to speak to attain the coherency with our genetic potential and be in proportion to how the Jing unfolds through us. Technically the Jing has completed it's unfolding in a physical sense by the time you're 16-18. Sounds too young but the fact is that's when true vitality peaks if you've made correct decisions. The proof of this is the hormones being their highest in these years. The hormones are a reflection of your vitality. To get those back to those same levels we simply have to be in touch with the essence of what that's like to be in that place, and to be complete in this sense of self. To own it and be driven by it. 

The idea that we are "regaining" pre-natal Jing is stilly because you don't really lose it you just move away from your correct unfolding process and thus "deplete" it because the proportionality is what that represents. You'll find that the people who live from their body live the longest, as in their minds are still and follow where the form AKA their greater consciousness guides them through intuitive impulse. 

Just own your eternal power. Own it. Freaking own it without a shred of compromise. Go all the way. The way we do that is submit all power the mind has to make decisions and accept who and what we are and what we are capable of as immortal Gods of reality containing unbridled power to influence anything and everything we're driven towards naturally. Own it. Own it. Stop wasting time and own it and flow with it. Just do it. Just make those decisions and break the mental conditioning. Go all the way and never look back. Get on your path of unfolding Jing and claim your immortality. Hold not a shred of mercy. I can't describe it any more powerfully even though I feel it. I feel such insane density of charge coming through my fingers as they hit the keys but the keys lie and don't hold the power the fingers are presenting. It's off the charts. Just be.

 

Just be.

You only feel lack because you're disconnected from who you are and your supply of vitality that unfolds through that. Own your supply. If you're reversing your aging then it's because you're functioning backwards, there's no resistance in who you're being. You become as still aether being perturbed purely through the Jing. The Jing is who we are, we ARE the Jing in motion and when we become one with the Jing then we cannot fail. Your Jing has already unfolded. It's done is that. You're being in perfect flow without resistance. Resistance that arises is part of your natural process of unfolding. Unfolding is complete and change is resistance. You're playing the correct song and it's in phase with what's correct for your consciousness. 

 

 

Just found this. Interesting read. https://www.mdpi.com/2077-1444/14/11/1392

"Reversal is the movement of the way"

This seems to correlate with exactly what I was just saying about the movement of the way being negentropic and how we reverse our age and open the door to energy manifesting. Free energy.

Finally someone's writing can stretch my legs. Plotinus was the last one I read that broke me.

"Looking and yet not seeing it

We thus call it “elusive”.

Listening and yet not hearing it

We thus call it “inaudible”.

Groping and yet not getting it

We thus call it “intangible”.

Because in sight, sound, and touch it is beyond determination."

Thematic elements that are still and yet resonant in their vibration seems to be this idea. 

"Zhuangzi delineates this process as “Where there is birth, there must be death. Where there is death, there must be birth”."

"Zhuangzi thus continues this theory of their simultaneous generation:

Their divisions are formations, their formations are destructions.

Thus all things are also free of formation and destruction,

for these also open into one another, connecting to form a oneness."

The Zhuangzi is a text I've not read since like 2018 or something and back then I had like 10% of my understanding now. It all seems to go back to just existing and being and accepting the flow of things and naturally unfolding the path as your means of negentropy. You cannot "make" negentropy happen ever at all on any level because that's implying distance and contrast and we don't want to exist in contrast to the path (The genetic potential and structure of the Jing as the "path") but to become the path. You're a literal embodiment of the path and the Jing literally unfolds through you, that's actually what the genetics are. Wonderful isn't it.

The death is the death not of the physical form but of the philosophical form. This is what the alchemist experienced and has reversed his age, the only one to demonstrate it irrefutably. You must die to your sins and become pure for purity of the soul is the resonance with the Jing and is reflective of the one and only way to immortality. Death is a death to who you think you are, a death of the contrast where you cease to exist as the person you view yourself as today. That person must die, forever. We must die and accept this for this gives us eternal life. The fools who preach the trash of immortality being impossible because all things in the natural world are entropic are failing to understand that we are the only things in existence that are simulacrums and have the genetic potential to unfold ourselves and turn ourselves inside out. Nothing else can do this because they are missing components of consciousness to complete this work. That's why we exist here as we do. This work is what we're all doing no matter what we do or don't believe. The fact that suffering is the only guaranteed thing proves that we're all on this path together and there's no escaping it. You cannot and will not ever be able to avoid this path because it IS who you are. You're resisting the natural flow of things because the illusions of the mind bind you to the world of limitations because they're comfortable and easy to buy into. Death is uncomfortable but we must die to be reborn because we are all born into Sin. That's why nobody can just believe themselves to be immortal because you have to go all the way, else you've not died. Death is the only way to life. Death is what we should strive for. Death is our objective. Death as I said in one of my old videos is the natural striving for all of us through how the form is guiding our decisions we deny as divine which binds us to the false life. 

Wake up in the dream. All this so called "spiritual" stuff is ALL about the process of dying to ones self and just being as greater consciousness made manifest through the form. The limited thinking mind dies, it becomes one with the lesser yin and thus the subconscious mind is fully created and ready for integration within greater yang as the lesser conjunction of lesser yin and yang takes those up into the greater yin and out of that the greater conjunction can unfold where we fully die and become one with incorporeal consciousness. This is where we reverse our age and become immortal because the door has been opened and it's locked open forever. This is the immortality work. Dissolving everything that is not self as a purifying process of consciousness which cannot be faked without going through the pressure of that process for real. Death hurts but only to the false identification. The form is driving you towards death but you're ignoring it. Let go of yourself and accept your fate as an immortal being.

 

25/10/24

The fact is going all the way into the acceptance of your reality and looking hard at exactly what you’re compromising on is so important to gaining context on how it is you’re still stuck in dip cycles which more often than not had certain decisions you keep making that are keeping you there. 

Truly the cause of all suffering is accepting the marketing of the lesser mind in decision making. What more is there? Sin is buying into the marketing of the lesser mind. Challenge is disregarding the mind. That’s the pressure we face. The tug of war in those moments you’re driven to make a bodily decision is a tug of war against your greater consciousness. You play tug of war with your consciousness you’ll end up depleting yourself because you’re introducing contrast between these natural states you’re driven towards. The lesser mind needs to understand it’s place and be sublimated by the greater mind which speaks to us through our inner authority in the form. Being driven by this and accepting that is all we can do to manifest satisfaction.  

This is very important here. Often people will mentally force themselves into a state of mind (building context) that will provide a response to going in this direction and likely see positive results out of that however the most common issue is the experience of burnout and being unable to consistently land into this state of being. Why is this? It’s mostly because they’re depleting their buffer subconscious capacity because of basically overstimulating their minds. It’s a function of how much “effort” they’re putting in to keep the contrast down between their actual baseline in lack ha this pseudo state of abundance. The way you normalise the state of abundance is by fulfilling what’s under it that you’re layering over the top of and most often this will involve actually making decisions that are mostly unrelated to manifesting the desire because those are the source of unstisfying feelings in the sense of self. If you consistently land into this lacking sense of self and don’t feel comfortable going through making those decisions then it’s proof that you’re still weak and powerless in trying to control your situation and that giving up control to accept and surrender to the drives of the body is your solution. That hurts the false sense of self and literally kills it but that right there is how we are reborn. That is alchemical purification at it’s finest example. This is the direction that everyone who is successful at manifesting unfolds through. Literally unfolds. The Jing unfolds through you and what is contained within on the thematic level will reflect in a satisfying way and you will increase in your vitality. 

Last nights entry led me to going through how taking substances to prolong the dissipation of the Jing is a futile attempt to promote immortality because the source of the leaking of the Jing is still not plugged. TCM fails to grasp the correct decisions idea in a meaningful way too. TCM does have the idea that making decisions that are authentic is going to help resolve emotional stuff but it doesn’t have the overarching themetic elements behind how we’re leaning into the Jing through this instead of just slowing down its depletion because the only way to actually stop Jing loss and in effect “reclaim” the Jing you have in your genetic potential is to simply die. The more the lesser mind buys into its idea of control and makes decisions for you is the degree to which you’re going to die physically because the conjunction with greater Yin which is your supply of substance through the Jing has not been completed and the only way to do that is to accept the death of the lesser mind. This is what literally everything leads into anyway. Giving up control to the natural flow of how we are driven by processes greater than the lesser Yang. You exist with a lesser Yang because greater consciousness requires your lesser Yang in order for it to have the subconscious mind cultivated through your correct interactions with the world so that is can complete its function through your work. 

This whole idea that imagination creates reality is a joke and in most instances where we imagine to try and control it backfires and sends us right back to the realisation that we really are powerless and have no control over reality. This whole industry about manifesting SP and money and bla bla bla is a joke the only way you can efficiently manifest abundance in the way that’s satisfying is to die and that’s exactly what we’re taught not to do. We’re taught to control and imagine to manipulate reality thinking that we control how it unfolds because apparently NG says imagination is god. You cannot demonstrate that on any meaningful way whatsoever because the manifestations that unfold through you that aren’t important to you are the ones you give up control over and allow to come through you. The thematics of greater consciousness flow through your lesser mind filter and because there’s no compromise patterns involved in those themes then you can effectively manifest what’s been imagined but this doesn’t imply we’re controlling anything because satisfying manifestation allllllways comes through us. Through. Top down without exception. You’ll realise this when you’re expernced enough. Those we are testing the so called law with the alai scripting list method aren’t proving anything other than that you’re allowing yourself to write with greater consciousness moving the pen. 

Back when I learned how to do rune readings I was told that it’s all unconscious about how you pick the tubes and that the exact runes you’re going to pick have already been decided before you start. This same idea works with the splenic authority to a degree as well as the intutive sense seems to come through you ahead of time which of course would be a proportionate connection with greater process else “time reversal” would be impossible which is basically what it’s doing. I spoke to someone who was a projector with splenic authority and they told me that it’s like this bubble of time where they can just make the decision without thinking about it as a conscious thought, like their body just moves ahead of their thoughts reacting in real-time to what’s happening and then after the quick decision is made they consciously recognise it. This also plays into how time is said to flow from the future to the past to the present back to the future in Norse myth in that cycle.

Time reversal is what manifestation is because it’s the same thing with the inner authority and how we have the inner experience of the thematics and out of that the mind describes what came through us naturally without us having to input the stimulus to make that happen. The lesser mind is not providing the stimulus it’s greater consciousness providing the stimulus through us when the unfolding of the Jing is ready for that thematic to flow through you. Thus we have a working model for how we have no control over reality. Some people who read this won’t like that idea but that’s the point. Death is the only answer, to accept that the lesser Yang simply exists for the purpose of observation and to gather unique testimony and nothing more. It’s only function is to observe and draw contrast between its marketing and the sensations coming through it. 

I might be the only one in the LOA community to see things this way. That’s because I’m on a whole other level and I’m designed for this function. 

I want everyone to get that your body is literally how greater consciousness communicates through you naturally. Naturally. Understand that the essential elements of what provides you vitality flow through you naturally when you’re in proportion with this flow. This is how physics works and how power is made manifest. Power is a manifestation of a proportionate self recursive circuit operating as one thing which introduces actual time reversal and negentropic energy where power can be moved back and forward in so called time which we experience time as the individual circuit within greater circuits and our position relative to that whole circuit. It’s like the dot in the circle moving around, all the power exists in the circle but you’re only able to experience a certain degree of it at once. Opening the door to u locking the entire circle requires the dot to become one with the circle. This is proportionality manifest and what alchemy is driving in essence. That’s natural striving towards higher order because greater consciousness is driving you into that state so that it can take the corporeal consciousness up into that whole so that it can experience the testimony of the Christos which is what consciousness expanding is all about as it needs us to undergo the alchemical transformation under pressure. It can’t do that because it doesn’t have the limited elements of consciousness integrated proportionately they only exist as genetic potential, as the Jing, and the Jing needs to unfold correctly for the formula of proportionality to be correct for the testimony it needs for conjugation to occur. Process within process. 

As I said before you won’t read this anywhere else in this community or really at all. NG has in fact references these ideas before but under the limited context of pure biblical personifications and not as mechanics of consciousness, at least that’s how it seems he’s interpreting these alchemical functions. It’s all alchemy. Everything imaginable is alchemy. You cannot avoid your existence as the Jing. If you want to not die then this is the only way you can become immortal. The only way. Only. There is no other way. Just as it says in the bible. 

 

26/10/24

Over the last few days I've been able to "change" my SP to become exactly the way I wrote down on my script years ago. Completely. It showed signs of it before but it never fully manifested in a satisfying way. Now it has. I believe it has everything to do with me seeing myself in the correct light and actually consistently breaking limits I've compromised on in the past. I've gone pretty hard lately in living in the end and being driven by the sensations in my body and doing pathway work on where my emotional waves lead me and all that. The thing I've learned the most really is that going all the way into where you're being driven and also providing supply for the sacral to respond to is important.

I've spoken about this before but from my experience the sacral requires something to respond to, but its response will always depend on the available vitality. If you don't have a supply of Jing that's circulating then you're going to be depleted and your sacral will not have anything to respond to and thus your effective drive will be next to nothing. Those who hold currents that nourish the sacral will invariably naturally find themselves driven into directions they've not consciously thoughts about moving into, or we could say that they stopped playing tug of war with the sacral because the response is so powerful and the context of their mental atmosphere has been shifted into that direction naturally as a result of QI circulating and nourishing their periphery providing them the right thoughts to unfold things naturally.

This is what I mean by providing supply to the sacral. Ra didn't speak about this and I believe this is a factor at play he missed. If he did talk about it I've just not heard it but from experience I've had and experiments I've done would entertain that with a more powerful supply of Jing and a "fluid" circulation of that current which nourishes the sacral provides you immensely more powerful drive that's natural and I believe a large part of this manifests in the stability and "potency" of the endocrine system and the nervous system as a result. This is what I now coin as "nerve force" where the connection between greater consciousness and your lesser yang is more proportionate and this would invariable constitute an element of subconscious capacity, or at least the potential to cultivate it if work is done on that level. My experiences with this would tell me that those who cultivate subconscious capacity the fastest are the people who have coherent endocrine systems. Most often younger, more driven, they just need to get a hold on what's them and what's not. As you lose Jing from aging then you've got less potential for the cultivation of subconscious capacity and many would probably disagree with me on that but I don't see how something that's the product of a refined set of substances which have undergone circulation can unfold without those substances being present in sufficient quantifies to begin with. How can someone with depleted essence of the form be delivered intense visceral sensations from greater consciousness without the substances being present to facilitate that? They will always receive those impulses but the intensity will be diminished and that's really the difference between younger and older people in cultivating subconscious capacity. The intensity that can be harnessed is diminished at baseline, however that intensity can be regenerated by actually listening to it and further continuing to cultivate space for that mechanism to unfold. 

The more space one has the more of the components that comprise it must invariably be coherent together, in correct proportion. Both yin and yang must be proportionate which is the point I make about the body being required to have coherency on the endocrine level especially. You still cannot force transformation this way and there's degrees of this that must naturally process to cultivate those refined substances which is why you can't just go inject yourself with synthetic hormones and become coherent with greater consciousness because the alchemy must unfold. These people who think they can bypass the alchemy are the same people in this community who think they can just think all the time and "replicate" the state synthetically when it's impossible for a natural unfolding to flow through you without actual top down transformation that's driven by greater consciousness. That's required and there's no bypassing it. I believe that we do have a small degree of influence over this element but we must bring up before the mind what we know relates to our thematics and experience imaginal scenes that reflect those being fulfilled which of course will elicit the bodily sensation which is greater consciousness simply telling you "YES" or even a "no" but that response will demonstrate where you're going to be driven. By doing this I've found you can set up the body to naturally be driven as these scenes can in essence circulate Qi to give you the illusion of more baseline capacity but that's not going to last unless you accept the drives and the intuitive impulses as they come up vs giving into playing tug of war with the body under the context of staying safe in limitation. 

We cannot fake natural expression of the state. We cannot ever fake it. It must naturally unfold through us and we require correct coherency with our greater consciousness for that to unfold. When we cultivate nerve force the thematic sensations that flow through us are far more intense and they will drive us. I've connected so many more dots there in like 3 weeks it's crazy. Courage comes through you naturally. The sacral connects to the gall bladder meridian which relates to the idea of "willpower" and how natural that expression is. When you're overthinking and being unable to make decisions AKA playing tug of war with yourself then it's because the sacral response is weak. Is this not the case? I can guarantee you that MOST of these people have whacked endocrine and nervous systems which is a natural manifestation of this incoherency. Every function of our form relates. I believe a huge part of the issues we face in being unable to be driven is that we interpret the sensations of the form as cravings for comfort like giving into addictions and such to numb them instead of going into them and letting them drive us because giving into them requires going through pressure and that's why we seek comfort to dissolve that current. The people who are satisfied go with the drives instead of numbing them. If we focus on not numbing those drives and accept where the sacral is moving us and what we're going to respond to then we're going to invariably face transformation because that's what it's there for. The sacral (for generators) is there to drive our transformation but if we deny that then we're going to suffer. 

Isn't that right? Isn't this the fact of the matter. Isn't this how manifestation unfolds through us naturally. It must involve seeing all the manifestations of the metaphysics we experience, not just the mental level. This is what RS has connected before anyone else on earth has and as I continue to build this out more and more will become evident. Those who catch on will learn and those who don't will be lost in mentalism and continue to suffer. 

There's many more degrees of this but that will come through me when it's ready. The royal jelly absolutely is providing me another degree of nourishment to the Jing as I've felt more powerful response than I've had in a while. I use to get responses this powerful maybe a few times a week tops but now it's like every day multiple times day and it's very hard to actually be driven in all cases because it's so challenging to my sense of self as I'm basically being given more and more opportunities to transform because of it. This is what Jing tonics basically do. They provide us the elements that fuel the minister fire and the essence that circulates through the channels with Qi that catalyses the response through the sacral to transform those substances as a function of us living correctly. WE ARE the alchemy ritual. Literally the way we live is the alchemy ritual it's always unfolding. The Jing tonics provide us the base substances that represent our correct path towards natural conjugation with greater consciousness which of course implies that there will require coherent endocrine and nervous systems which is why it manifests in this way, it's alllll correspondent.

If that doesn't blow your mind I don't know what will because it certainly blew my mind as I was typing this out. I've circulated these ideas in my head as of lately but never completely connected those dots like that. It's crazy how much more I've taken Reality Synthesis into the direction of completion with connecting more dots relating to how our biochemistry relates to metaphysics and alchemy. So many more connections to be made I'm literally creating a whole new theory of everything right here in seeing how everything exists for the function of bringing us into complete coherency with divinity. It's just blowing my mind as I type this out and as I've said before this come through me I'm not sitting here and logically contemplating which words to type I just have the impulse to go to my pc and load up the notebook and type something and here it is.

 

I just want to remind everyone who's reading this that the consistent drive towards pushing your limits must be applied. Consistently. The thing with this is that going all the way with where your thematics are naturally driving you should in itself be transforming and push you to your limits and provide new levels to experience but if you compromise on that and go out of your way to push your limits in other ways then it's likely to backfire and waste your time. 

 

27/10/24

There's always more layers to go through. Once again as you go through one level there's one more under it. You end up in another dip and no matter how coherent you think you are those compromise patterns will come up and you'll be forced to face them. I went through something that started like almost 15 years ago or so but I forgot about however it seemingly came back up in circumstances I faced over the last few days building up. I recognised the compromise pattern yesterday but I fell back into the trap once again today and it hit that peak where the dip brought it all up. It's a natural correction mechanism in consciousness that makes us deal with the unprocessed compromise patterns that only really hurt because we're going against where we're naturally driven. 

People think I'm like free from resistance and stuff because I do this work but the truth is that unless you're actually at the level of at least the lesser conjunction then you're still just as whacked as everyone else out there. I'm no different from anyone else I've just got a design that's able to process information differently. That's it. Either way what I learned today is what I said the day before about listening to your body and where it's driving you. If you "feel" that it's wrong to make a decision but you think that the marketing the mind brings up is worth buying into then you're going to 100% of the time end up in a situation of compromise, even if just to a small degree. There's always resistance present in these states and you will be forced to face every single decision you made that was incorrect at some point so that the complete harmonic ratios of your complete proportionate field geometry can be correct and you can actually keep the door of vitality open. We only age because we compromise and get "stuck in the past" so to say where the way the Jing unfolds is warped and in an incorrect pattern for greater consciousness. The sensations we experience through the body are all we have to guide us and unless we tap into them consistently and live from those sensations then you've got no chance. Making decisions from your mind will always invariably result in compromise patterns especially if they're there to keep you anchored in comfort instead of being correctly oriented. It's all geometry of themes and the "lines" that represent fractal patterns others integrate within and interact with. 

Understand that this mechanism cannot ever be overridden on any level of assumption no matter how seemingly natural. The ONLY way to become immortal is to be yourself without compromise. The moment you accept the conditioning of the mind in deciding the way you are directed in your life then you've lost. The people who suffer the most are driven by their mind the most. The people who live the longest are the ones who live through the form the most. The ones who win at the so called game of life are the only ones who actually know how to play it and nobody has been taught this in a way that's made complete sense until systems like HD and now RS have come along. There's no magic here it's all geometry. Geometry is the language of reality. It's all there. I can't describe any deeper than this I really can't it's just about making authentic decisions that greater consciousness is driving you to make through the sensations in your body. If there was no inner natural striving towards higher order then you'd not be able to even feel bad but we do and the reason why is because we've got a fixed point of comparison that requires expression for without correct decisions you're going to lose vitality. Compromise depletes your sense of self, depletes your space, depletes your Jing and all the substances that are refined levels of that. You've got nothing without correct decisions and manifestation is ALL about making correct decisions. There's ZERO mind magic involved at all it's all metaphysically  correspondent to the themes you play out and every experience represents that without exception.

When you grasp that the essence of manifestation always comes back to operating out of the "secret self" AKA the drives the form delivers unto you all day every day then you'll never know what it means to value your vitality. Listening to those IS valuing your vitality and going all the way through them is working that magic. I don't care if someone writes on a piece of paper that "____ is married to me" and they get the ring on the finger days later that's completely irrelevant to you going through the direction that's driven from your body. If this manifests and it's satisfying then you're winning but if it's not satisfying (you've gone all the way and thus it's "done" as Ng says) then you've got no chance at immortality. That's the ONLY path that matters and no amount of buying into the trash we believe we need provides any value to our process of expressing our unique signature. All that is just distraction the world wants you to buy into to throw you off your correct direction. Valuing your vitality is valuing that direction and making decisions out of your body and where you're constantly being pulled but are running away from. It's these consistent drives to make certain decisions you're running away from that are keeping you in a destructive cycle. You're going to be completely destroyed by holding onto this trash and that's really what holding on means, it's holding onto what's keeping you safe and comfortable but that safety is parasitic and people around you will reflect that. You've got no chance at feeling satisfied unless you can fast from the world and cultivate some subconscious capacity and get in touch with your secret self. Getting in touch with that and being driven by it and getting out of your head will dissolve most of those stupid thoughts that come up which mean nothing of value to you and your path, you think how you're going to stop these thoughts but they will naturally decline in time when you go all the way. They're only there as symptoms of your compromise as your mind is looking for ways to process the compromise patterns in the safety nets. Those thoughts are manifestations of the lack and holding onto the comfort. Letting go means those thoughts stop because there's no stuck past compromised sense of self you're grasping onto to avoid the transformation. Going all the way with that transformation is required for them to get lost. 

Everything will get better when you just face the pressure and go all the way. Even if you're in a completely suboptimal place where nothing seemingly will work if you make this decision you're going to make it anyway. No matter what. That's what faith really is, faith in the end is faith in where you're being driven by greater consciousness and that is faith in the Christ because that's one level of manifestation of the Christ. If you believe unto him (greater yang) then you're going to be saved. What more is there to be said? Just accept how greater yang is driving you and you win. It's said to be this way in every text of real significant  metaphysical source material there is, to believe means to show faith and showing faith cannot be faked. You must be transformed because believing unto him fully will force you to go all the way and be transformed they're all part of the one process unfolding. Alchemy. I've connected more dots there than I've done in ages. It can make all the logical sense but accepting it is totally different.

Authentic expression of self is the point and the way towards immortality. The best thing we can do to facilitate this process is to firstly know what your inner authority is by getting in touch with human design and the basics of it (you don't need any more than to understand how you experience your inner authority) and to do pathway work to elicit response from the secret self through the body that's going to lead you into a direction of thematic experience which is resonant and nourishing. The thing is that unless we've got sufficient capacity available in nourishing substances then I don't believe we can really process deeply rooted stuff. This I believe is what the whole experience of peeling back layers is about. It's that as one layer gets peeled back another one shows up because the baseline capacity is increased and thus the "spill over" of nourishment can bring up another level to be dissolved where if you're lacking nourishment those things that could be nourished will either not come up or they will not be able to be dissolved. You're going to require sufficient nourishing substance as Jing (by making correct decisions in ways that you naturally can without needing to process deep layers) in order to actually provide the metaphysical elements that are required to "build" out the correctly structured Jing. You require Jing and it's catalysed ferments that reflect the proportionate geometry that's resonant with how your pattern is designed to unfold if any negentropic effects are to be experienced for real. It's the ONLY way. There's no getting around that and as I've failed over the years to actually establish a reliable formula that sticks for age reversal it's becoming more and more clear to me that taking worldly substances like Jing tonics are only useful to the degree of aiding in this process of transformation and that no matter how much you take unless the compromise patterns holding it in place are dissolved you're going to continue to experience dips which are stressful and will cause you to age.

No getting around that because they're natural manifestations of the field geometry being disproportionate. No getting around that on any level ever. This is why the only way towards attaining immortality is through the pressure which is why nobody can walk around as a perfected immortal being because this is the nature of the world we live in. It's not assumption based too because there's billions on earth and we've never seen anyone demonstrate this with literally hundreds of millions of accounts existing now and all forms of media that inspire this making these ideas more accessible now than ever. Nobody can prove it on an assumption believe manifestation LOA style level. Not one. The reason why is obvious and the few people on earth who know this that are applying it all the way are the only ones who will ever experience immortality. It's impossible no matter how much nei gong you do or quintessence you take or anything because it's all dependent on this process of being transformed under pressure. No matter what ever. We cannot fake transformation and we cannot fake the alchemical process that is always naturally unfolding through us because it happens to everyone every day and determines the very nature of human existence. Everything is this process unfolding through us and the experience of that natural striving in how our feelings are driven and such. That's what everything is. Having learned this in my early 20's is crazy to think about because you'd think old wise men would be the ones to figure this out but that's not the case because it's mechanical and highly logical. The experience of it however is all body sensation and that's where wisdom cannot be reliably imparted in a way that impacts everyone the same because everyone is different in how they interpret the drives of the secret self. 

Gazing means you're going to face the secret self. Literally. If you're not gazing then stop wasting time. Gazing is why we're here. Do the work.

 

There’s a lot of very interesting metaphysics connected to RS now and I really feel that there’s a natural expression that’s just under the surface that’s showing it’s head every now and then being up a more valued sense of self to be driven by. The way it feels when that stimulus shows up is so profound. We must recognise the consistent supply of both pressure and vitality and how we’re experiencing them to truly know what’s most necessary to face. The themes you continue to face over and over are the ones you need to dissolve the fastest if your want your vitality back to peak for your form. Going all the way as always is required for it to be done. If you want it to be done then we must complete the work of facing the pressure as the secret self and go through what needs fulfilling which represents the element we’ve continued to compromise on.

Remmeber that SATS as a method of purification involves giving to ourselves through virtual experience what represents the fulfillment of the correct thematic direction we compromised on. That is revision and why I’m going to argue that all forms of SATS are a form of revision even so called future memories. There is only one pattern that exists as a superimposed capacity so to say of the Jing as your potential for past present and future experiences to unfold correctly and provide nourishment. Going all the way into that is what we need. Trying to intellectually grasp this isn’t really going to hell in those moments where you play tug of war it’s only going to be that recognising the theme your form is driving you into and out of that providing the mind surrounding context for it to buy into and flow with is what will really sink you into your satisfaction. 

I’m going to say that the only practical help the mind has is in being used to cultivate greater context on a coherent thematic level but we also must understand that for this to work we must have sufficient momentum working for us and abundant vitality to purify the resistance. Without a baseline that’s already got context to draw from and lead deeper into the sensation the fork is driving you into then the natural manifestation likely won’t unfold. 

It’s late and I need sleep. 

 

 

28/10/24

Just got up with an insight. Interesting that most often when I go to sleep in one of these states is when the insights just flood in. So it’s got me thinking more about how we become one with greater consciousness as the mechanism of actual manifestation. This is the basis of what NG taught when you read between the lines of the language he used. He seemed to understand alchemy to some degree without actually speaking about the principles of it. The essence underlying manifesting as we should know by now is that all manifestation happens top down, “good” and “bad” of course. There is no good or bad though it’s just correct direction that’s proportionate. This proportionality is the point, that’s nourishing and what’s nourishing is self valuing. We’re not talking about false comfort but comfort that comes through relief not the need to overlay excessive mental momentum over the top of negative stuff. My point is that as our substances circulate they’re “picking up” resonance each time building momentum. This would assume there’s a frequency of oscillation of the resonance of the sense of self which modulates the embodied frequency and elements of consciousness which comprise it. The thing to understand here is that the magic works through you as a result of you being proportionate meaning as one with and nourished by greater consciousness through accepting and being driven. This is the only way that we can actually experience real satisfaction. If you tap into the thematic metaphysic of that experience you’ll begin to understand what this is about. Write this down somewhere and put it on your wall. Make it something you’re reminded of all the time. Sink into that and then do pathway work on what comes up. This can provide insights that are valuable to understand what the compromise patterns are which of course means you’ll have context for why the sensation comes up when it does. 

Understanding that the only real conscious work we have to do is all refining the sense of self means that living in the end simply means sinking into the experiences that elicit body response to drive you and that experience of course is the mechanism above. You’re becoming one with greater consciousness, the secret self is what’s manifesting through you. That’s where all the power comes from you’re not “wishing” anything for any external consciousness to unfold you’re becoming one with that greater consciousness which moves you through your body and the sensations you experience are what provide context as to resonance with different thematic elements that are in the mind. This is what we’re doing. Normalising that and being driven by it are one in the same thing. Naturalness is being driven top down where you don’t live from the corporeal consciousness but as greater consciousness through you on that unconscious level. You’re operating in two places at once without realising it but that naturalness is the indicator of flow and really “rhythm” which reflects the flow of your unique signature like a perfectly designed piece of music. This is probably the greatest insight that RS has provided to metaphysics in the modern day. It all came out of my study into aetheric physics and understanding process within process as to how light functions and how most of the seeming probabilistic phenomena observed reflects the exact mechanism I just spoke of above. It’s all connected and works together as one. That’s the magic of this because if it’s true on one level it must always correspond. 

 

Growing stronger requires pressure. Growing stronger is coherency with greater consciousness. I don't just mean physical strength here but the idea of having access to more "essence" to fuel your expression. More power basically. It's that having more power comes out of having more coherency with your divine flow. You cannot fake this it can only be realised through going all the way. 

There's an interesting idea here about how our fixed thematics can be made into strengths instead of things to disown out of conditioning. Having defined ego for example requires you own your ego completely. The more definition you have the more you can draw upon but that also means that there's more intense blind spots in what's open, they ring more powerfully in your consciousness so mastering your open themes are more of a challenge typically even if there's less of them due to the intensity. Intensity is the balancing element of what defines strength. As an example of this, owning my more "destructive" and transformational nature in exposing false authority is what generates many thematic that are resonant and provide me intuitive impulse to act. Much of my work with RS was born out of this nature after all as I've spoken about. The form responds to what it faces, but there's also the position that what it faces is directed by greater consciousness too. Reconciling both of these elements 

As I said before too it's that increase in pre-natal Jing is an increase in the coherency between your current trajectory and the correct notes that represents how your Jing is designed to unfold. The peak dip cycle represents you controlling the notes played which is foolish and destroys your youthful vigour. Failing to flow and holding onto trash that's not yours is what depletes your vitality. As a simulacrum which contains all the elements of consciousness imaginable (all of the themes of reality that can be made manifest) you're designed with a certain amount of these potential themes of experience defined and others open. Mastering your immortality is purifying those themes to bring them all together into one form where greater consciousness takes up lesser consciousness (who you believe you are) and becomes one with it with it's unique thematic elements and how it's undergone the transformations under pressure that greater consciousness cannot in its form as it requires the lesser yin to facilitate that through the field geometry. This is what playing your unique signature is about. Manifesting is this, manifesting (satisfying experiences) is experiencing the correct thematics for your design and going through the transformations required that purify your consciousness. You cannot be purified without pressure. Ever. It's impossible. Heat breaks down elements, this is a fundamental in physics and is a metaphysical principle corresponding to this. Your psychological state follows this too it's no different because as I've said it's all thematics, that's all that exists. All that the senses experience are just compounds of these thematics provided with a corporeal substrate to express them. The senses are required for the thematics to be made manifest to the corporeal being, lesser yin and yang exist on the integrated process under the themtaics which is why turning ourselves inside out is a necessary function of gazing as we begin then to tap into the thematics themselves without the corporeal senses overlaying those manifestations. The corporeal senses MAKE MANIFEST the thematics. Hope that makes sense.

Anyway my point before about how living in tune with your thematic nature is required for your potential to be reached (the Jing to be made manifest in its most pure proportionate form) and that your vitality is actually made manifest through these elements. It's not exclusively manifest through them but it's that these defined thematics have consistent supply and so are your primary source. Everybody contains all the thematic elements but the degree to which they're made manifest always depends on your capacity to own them, meaning express them and make them manifest through you. You're the vessel by which power is made manifest and the "filters" are these thematic elements which that power takes form through so the more you can accept and surrender to the response the form has to stimulus that brings up those thematics to take expression is the degree to which your influence over reality in providing those themes will be made manifest. Those themes are who you are because they're the notes the Jing has in it's composition you're required to play. It's literally required of you to play your notes else you die and death is a failure to complete your evolutionary function. You can complete the evolutionary function of conjoining lesser yin and yang to create new life but that's not the greater function that's got next to nothing to do with how your Jing is truly designed to be made manifest in this world. Damaged Jing can only be restored through correct expression of self. Negentropy is only unfolded through correctly proportionate circuits that open the door for power to be made manifest, integration of divinely proportionate processes that are designed for each other to become one thing. Higher order is negentropic and higher order is your natural striving. Denying this is denying your divinity and denying your divinity is utter degeneracy to the highest degree imaginable. 

Do you see now why manifestation and the pathway towards immortality are one in the same thing? They're not separate you cannot "manifest" immortality or really manifest anything because that doesn't exist it's all a function of thematics being made "manifest" through us and our experiences of them that are either correctly aligned to your composition of notes or not which determines if you're satisfied or not. The magic all happens through us naturally because you're being driven unconsciously without realising it and this always happens as a result of moving into your flow, even if you're in a dip if you're still moving into the direction you're driven in then you're winning. That's what determines who succeeds in those places. We just need to grasp that moving into your thematic resonance and how the notes are driving your consciousness is all that matters in everything imaginable. That's the metaphysical nature of your existence and everything you experience is under this idea. All of it. Having anything in the world physically speaking that's not designed for you is wasting your vitality. When you become a perfect match for your unique signature then and only then can your vitality be truly manifest. 

My point clearly expressed here is that your true power is made manifest in unique ways that are specifically designed for you and you only. There are of course archetypes that many share but it's truly unique in the means by which is unfolds through you and how the leading of the context naturally brings it out of you. The body and its response is what builds up that current which if course is the response from greater consciousness saying "yes yes yes yes" as you come closer and closer to that resonance. Power is made manifest through a closely linked resonance and you cannot tap into that power without the resonance as greater consciousness can only ever manifest itself through your form. The subconscious mind is its doorway to influence over your consciousness, which requires the lesser yin to be generated and manifest to your lesser yang which is the other half of the subconscious mind. 

I feel like I'm writing out a manual about how to dominate the world or something it's crazy what's coming through me right now. As you can see I'm not thinking this stuff up as I type it I'm just here and my fingers are moving on the keyboard as they wish. I become the channel for my greater consciousness to be made manifest through me and my surrender to it is what facilitates my flow. Flow is one of the primary means that greater consciousness is manifest through me actually which is a massive strength I have over others but that also means that I must be accepting of flow no matter what and I have zero control over that and when it's made manifest through me. I am led and I must bend my knee and surrender to my divine mind else I suffer. I do Gods work or I sin. That's all there is to this. If I fail in doing the work of God then I fail in my function I'm designed for because my lesser mind got in the way and wanted to hold onto illusions in the world. It had no faith and it had no focus on the sensations that drove it. People always say how do I gain more awareness over my body in the moment instead of reacting. Well the solution is to just have the courage to act when those impulses arise and stop trying to continue the direction. If contrast shows up to stop you and it's coming out of your body then accept it and be driven by it instead of running into the fire without being directed by greater intelligence that your lesser mind always wants to control which invariably only leads to suffering.

I look at all the intellectuals of this world and they all look so decayed and destroyed like they're weak pitiful excuses for humans. There's almost none of these people who reflect vigour and power. They're all so utterly degenerate and completely lacking in anything that is attractive. Why do these people who tend to master the sciences lack power? Because they're so driven by the mind in thinking and buying into it over their form. It's completely degenerate and disgusts me as a so called "intellectual" myself. I believe that one should only be mentally stimulated to the degree they're driven to and I do not buy that anyone would be correctly driven to destroy their youthful vigour in pursuit of knowledge about how any subject works or the mastery of it. That's degeneracy quite literally attaining a form that's highly attractive is a fundamental part of being perfect in your manifestation of the Jing. Ojas literally means "vigor" and those who are so depleted lack Vigor on all levels. They're so weak it's unbelievable and recognising myself having gone down that path for years before I snapped out of that degeneracy myself I learned how destructive living that life is. My physics studied led me into that direction because it was coming out of a need to compromise for knowledge which was providing my mind safety instead of making correct decisions. Getting back that lost Jing still hasn't been completed and I may not for a very very very long time due to the immense levels of purifying fire I must now face as a result of my sin. Facing that purifying fire in ALL aspects of life, not just the big decisions but ALL the aspects that we play out no matter how big or small the people who are filled with more vigour are the people who face the fire on a regular basis instead of running away from it. Courage. You're weak and depleted and have no courage and that's what happens when you age your hormones are whacked and you've got no vigour to challenge life through. The less Jing you have to access to even face the transformation the harder it is then to be purified and get back on track so doing it young is absolutely required else your process will involve making up for all the years of failure and satisfaction. The more satisfaction you've gone through the more fire you will be forced to face either at once or gradually in small doses. It's that simple isn't it. There's always an equivalent exchange in power and thinking that the lesser yang mind can override this with mind magic is stupid. Any manifestation of change comes out of the mind observing and experiencing what the form is driving it to fulfil in imagination which is how alignment can be had with SATS. You're just giving to yourself what you can't get in the world to align your consciousness correctly.

The fact of the matter here is that unless we've gone all the way into what we've been driven to fulfil through the impulse you receive then you're compromising and compromise destroys you. Unless you play those thematic notes in your experience of consciousness then you're unsatisfied and that's going to further drive you into the mind to make sense of the feelings instead of just accepting them and being driven into the direction you're trying to override. Going through those impulses all the way will fulfil them it's not hard but the pain you're forced to face while going through that is what keeps us from going through them because it means the death of what we're holding onto and seek supply of nourishment falsely from. The temporary supply that always runs out when you seemingly need it most. This is the delusion of modern manifestation. Thinking that thinking does anything is delusional, all you'll get is signs that you're not on the right track. Signs are reality telling you to wake up and start playing the right notes instead of these notes you've bought into that aren't for you. You must grasp that all that matters is playing your unique song in life. Nothing else imaginable matters at all because that's all your consciousness exists for. 

I believe the thing we can do to optimise this is to place sensory thematics around the house and our environment in whatever way we can to bring up the drives that the form can respond to when it's able. I honestly don't know if drives come up spontaneously through us or not, and I really do mean spontaneously. Intuitive impulse from the sacral is "yes I have energy to do this" but it's always a response to something, be it an idea running through the mind or something else. I believe that we can elicit response through providing the sacral with stimulus which when flowing into should be satisfying. If this is the case then optimising your environment to provide thematic sensory impressions for the form to respond to is an important factor. It reminds me of art, like paintings and statues of the gods and the architecture and all these things that bring up thematics that are resonant and further bring you into coherency as your environment is bringing up these resonant thematics to respond to and be driven by which is your supply. That's my idea at least. It makes sense because I can count many times where rearranging my environment affected my responses and I was naturally driven more consistently as a result, but then there's also the question of was it the state of feeling valued enough to rearrange that which carried a momentum with it which elicited the response. It's likely a bit of both.

So buying into conditioning from the world that draws you away from expressing your absolutely pure thematic and however you imagine that to represent which elicits the response from the form will be your cause of death. Being driven by that thematic is your supply. Play those notes, bring up those thematics and own them with everything you've got because going all the way is completing the alchemical process. Denying your divine supply is degeneracy. What more is there to be said? You know exactly what to do so surround yourself with an environment that autosuggests this. Don't enable the patterns that draw you out of thematic resonance and even when those 1% intensity impulses arise to make a correct decision still be driven by that 1% drive. Those small ones can have profound effects on your purifying process regardless of what you believe. People who manifest satisfying outcomes are people who just flow and most often they're not intellectual. They don't have logic circuit defined and they don't buy into the mental conditioning of others. They just move. You need to just move. Just be yourself without compromise because that's all you can do.

Owning what's defined and having those thematics circulate in the mind is correct. The role of thought in this is through having the thoughts (all thoughts are imaginary in nature and reflect thematic elements) which elicit natural striving from the form is what we are suppose to be thinking. The thoughts should be leading you there and it should be satisfying. There should always be a degree of "pushing" the limits with these thoughts too because if they're defined then there's continued growth to be had out of this supply as that's where you're tested too, not just through the open areas. You can have definition but disown it through an open center. Owning it also means dissolving not self open conditioning too. Either way the thoughts that come through you that are resonant will always have the thematics that are defined as their nature AND that they're going to be satisfying, not comfortable. The experience of satisfaction requires the correct usage of energy into a direction that's challenging and that because it's something the form has energy to complete it will be satisfying as a result through going into it all the way. That's the point, the mental processes we're led into reflect the alchemy too. People probably ask this question who read this stuff, where do mental trains of thought play into this. Well gradually your thought will be more and more refined and it will not come out of comfort and safety but out of going through just another degree of manifestation of the thematics playing out through you.

For me this lesson means owning my destructive nature, as in destroying peoples world views as well as expressing myself through movement to a degree that's challenging my form further and further. I've recognised this stimulus I get when I perform tricks is a resonant sensation which is nourishing and people respond to me more favourably when I own it. Just expressing that refines my signature because it's an element of that composition. Disowning it destroys my signature. The most challenging levels of my own path was owning my destructive nature because we live in a world where the heretics are seen as bad people and yet we facilitate transformation. Owning that nature is required for me to play my part. Everything else that I have when it comes to the mind comes through me without resistance. My body and physical elements are refined lately more so than ever too. I've recognised that physically pushing yourself extremely hard benefits almost all levels of consciousness too. Sprinting fast and hard and going to the point of breaking myself into particles is extremely transformational. That is alchemy made manifest through a simple routine. There's a reason HIIT training boosts test and HGH through the root and that's because all of us are designed to respond to alchemy and alchemy is reflective of HIIT training. No surprise I'm probably one of the few on earth to see that. Once again my nature simply just naturally sees these things so owning that and having a sense of ego over it is something I'm designed for. It's what provides me what I need to influence others as part of my function in transforming consciousness. It's that if I take this into a direction it's not designed for then I'll be screwed. 

If I immerse myself completely into the experience of being this person, as in completely and utterly consume my consciousness with this thematic in thought and emotional sensation as well as somatic visceral sensation along with the imaginal elements that comprise that experience then I am going all the way. Imagination should be used for the function of going all the way and it should represent the fulfilment of compromised patterns you've disowned. That should be the themes and you should own them without a shred of compromise. We are to just immerse ourselves into our natural drive of those thematics, and allow our consciousness to be consumed by those because that's representing entirely the process of going through the transformation of owning self which refines our natural expression that automatically manifests through us as a result. We become more of a living breathing embodiment of our definition. That's the term I need to use. We are to become a walking talking living breathing embodiment of the thematics that define who we are and the power that animates this is greater yang. In order for our thematics to be made manifest with power then we must surrender to them completely and accept who we really are from top down. Give up control and completely immerse yourself in the destruction (conjugation implying destruction of separation) of the lesser yang into becoming one with the form where the form drives the thoughts through the inner response. This is how the mind is correctly subjugated, through correct experience. This has nothing to do with suppression as that's only going to cause more contrast between these elements and isn't natural. That's why these so called monks are weak as water and all die eventually. They're degenerates who don't understand what I just said. Subjugation cannot be forced only accepted. You let go of what's holding back opening that door to your supply of infinite vitality and vigour and own it. You cannot own it through the mind alone because the form needs to drive the mind and the mind simply observes as it experiences the trains pf thought that are thematically reflective of the transformation unfolding. Thinking that you can force thought into the mind to mirror this natural unfolding is utter ignorance that's peddled by the most illiterate fools in this community. We can only ever manifest satisfying experience through going all the way and I've irrefutably proven that on all levels!

That notebook entry was satisfying beyond measure. 

Getting your mind correct is a natural unfolding of how the thematics are manifest through you, just the same as when you naturally think or imagine something and it manifests in the world without even trying. That's the point, it's that it's coming through you. Completely. You (lesser yang) yield all control in these moments and this reflects correct nature of surrendering to your signature. This can manifest in multiple ways as I said before depending on the nature of the thematics being expressed. If you're more of a splenic in the moment type then you're going to be more empty of thought but if you're emotional like I am then you're going to go through the range of emotional waves as a natural flow. It's that all of these types are correct if they're defined, neither is better than the other they're just different designs and are experienced differently. The thoughts never stop they are only refined and eventually refined to the point where there are only the fundamental thematics that are manifest in the consciousness. For me I am to completely immerse myself into the experience of being that person and being driven by that context, whereas the splenic or pure sacral will be driven in the moment intuitively without realising they're really being driven they'll just move so long as they're not caught up in their mind. If I make instant decisions like this I lose but I am able to gain perception and see patterns in things the splenic form cannot see to gradually break down their not self and exploit it. 

We need to own who we are and go all the way.

 

Theres just so much to talk about here with the mechanics of manifesting. Manifesting things is the idea that we’ve been marketed to which can solve all our problems. What does that sound like? Problems with solutions make money because people trade for that value that they think can bring them out of their suffering. Fact is suffering is a necessary part of life. Owning that and being driven by it is essential. 

Bring up in your environment what’s resonant with your thematics. Why not remind ourselves of what brings up the frustration. Have that drive you. Surround yourself with what the frustrating stagnant position is you’re in and have that contrast throw you into the direction of natural striving as a result. We’ve been told that “negative” concepts that enter the mind are bad but I’m going to say that’s stupid trash that needs to get lost because the most profound changes happen when things get so bad they can’t be ignored anymore and transformation is forced as a result. It’s still natural but it’s forced. Bring up the frustrating compromise patterns when they’re not in your face and have them purify your consciousness have them drive you where you’d normally not have contrast to bring up that response. Have the opposite of your end provide the context to slingshot the sense of self desires up into your awareness without effort. If trying to land in the positive state through thinking of yourself as more valuable or whatever with leading the context that’s not working then do the opposite and simulate what happens when you’re going through a dip cycle. Being up the trash and let that be your supply of contrast because where there’s contrast a positive direction can and will show up a result to balance that direction. I just thought of this in the shower surprisingly. It reminded me of the times I was going through dip cycles at certain times of the day all the time because of a certain stimulus that brought up in me the lacking sense of self through a compromise pattern I held onto for dear life for various reasons. Dropping that and fulfilling the direction I was scared of facing dissolved the feeling but it took bringing up the negative stuff to provide me the stimulus that I needed to respond to as my environment at baseline wasn’t uncomfortable enough to provide that context to drive transformation. Putting it in your face is powerful. That’s what gazing does afterall. 

 

 

29/10/24

Challenge is required for children to grow up. Children don’t become adults (psychologically mature) until they’ve gone through the presssures of life and faced it without the safety nets of the parents passing off that responsibility. The ones growing up today have no opportunity to develop skills because they’re afraid of challenge. They’re afraid of failure and fear not having access to their safety nets if something didn’t work out. I know I faced this with my parents when I was younger too and it in part screwed my own development when I should’ve been playing my own game living my own authority. It’s always a lacking sense of self issue. They don’t believe in the elders because there’s no contrast to inspire them to be themselves and on top of that there’s no nourishing current available to draw from which can push them through that pressure. 

Unless you’re facing people more powerful than you then there’s no contrast to drive the pressure of transformation. I know some reading this would disagree with this statement but it’s alchemy here and is the underlying principle as to how theurgy works. 

Being afraid of upsetting others is what will destroy your sense of self in life. If you’re driven to speak your mind then don’t compromise. Compromise is unsatisfying and ruins your access to vitality. Drop the need to conform and pave your path your way. Play your notes without a care in the world. That’s how you win. 

I know some people will also disagree with my point here about how striving to be highly attractive is a fundamental aspect of living correctly. I don’t believe that anyone who actually has divine sense of self that’s playing through themselves from greater consciousness is not going to care about how their corporeal being is presented before others. If you’re attractive you bring out the flaws in others and this is just another level of supply that works through your yin aspect to purify others around you. Looking compromised from how you’re naturally feeling to express your thematics and having compromised movement in the world is degenerate the same way you’d compromise on speaking your mind around others. It all goes hand in hand and to think that looks don’t matter is cope to the degree that destroys peoples vitality because it’s your mental argument against what your form naturally is striving for. Having dismissed this most of my own life and having been experimenting with fully owning it and going all the way with it has demonstrated to me how important aligning allllllll the levels of manifestation of the thematic elements really is. All degrees by which the thematics can be made manifest are to be aligned and it will feel correct because your body will absolutely respond accordingly. It will tell you if you’re playing your part physically or not. Once again this doesn’t need to be on the level of comparing to anyone else but to how your inner response drives you to look a certain way and move a certain way and speak a certain way and all the levels of how the thematic is made manifest through you. Owning that without compromise is massively important and letting go of the need to appear a certain way to fit in will open you up to significantly more pure notes you play. Why would this be something that doesn’t have impact if it’s another piece of the thematic manifestation of your corporeal being?

 

An interesting study is on the nature of how we gain deeper insights out of dips which I've done before in past entries but the nature of this is most easily explained through the redirection of mental momentum and how context shifts once pressure has been dropped. Having a consistent baseline to sink into is a big thing. When you're constantly filled with compromise you're going to feel far more unstable and not really have any consistency in who you're being.

 

I think the essence of "manifesting" is purely to simply be driven by the thematic experience of embodying those principles in their entirety. That literally explains everything about experience and the phenomena of manifesting. Break down states into thematic elements that are resonant and experience those as yourself. The Christos assumes the form and flows through your corporeal being to experience being that form. That's essentially this whole process, minus the alchemical functions of purification. 

I simply see perfection as the most raw and embodied form as the thematic elements themselves which are fixed and defined within us. This is blowing my mind the feelings that come through me when I write this is off the charts intense. It's almost as if what I write now is destroying part of me it's crazy.

 

When you go all out you can feel your body, the sacral, you can feel it moving you and shifting your tone of voice when you speak and lifting your arms and legs as they move you can feel it driving your entire being from top down. You can't help but feel it and accept it for resisting it will destroy you. Resisting this power will destroy you completely. It just feels so intense. 

 

It seems to me that where this is going is about tracing from pure yin yang into the 3 treasures into the 5 elements and 8 directions and so on into a unique individual line. This basically is what Ra did but I'm going to reverse engineer it differently and extract different views from it that we can work with. Purely thematics. 

It’s just so amazing I tell you just the feeling of being in proper flow and accepting yourself completely. Accepting who you are and owning it and letting all the attachment go. Dropping it all and just being yourself. Being as you’re designed to be. Allowing greater consciousness to come through you without trying to control and change how your experience is no matter how it feels you move with the currents that guide you. Living becomes a breeze even though you still face pressure it doesn’t affect you and you still move into your flow and lean into leading that state streak where the casual experience can just unfold. You csn be different people when the time is right that contrast can still be present you can resonate with one split one time and another split another time and that’s fine. Being you means accepting these seeming flaws we have and just owning them and leaning into them for what they are. My design has some serious weaknesses when it comes to the communication between my fixed thematics but that’s ok because I recognise when ik not linked up and just go with it anyway even if it’s not optimal it doesn’t matter. All that matters is that I just accept to be moved and the more I cultivate power in my sacral the stronger the response becomes to the point where I cannot ignore my inner guidance system any longer. 

I believe a huge element of the work really is cultivating vitality to feel more intense drive from greater consciousness through your inner authority. The intensity of this guidance system naturally is present when your endocrine and nervous system are coherent. I’ve just had so much vitality lately I looked at myself in the mirror the other day and saw myself literally glowing like I was back when I was 15 first doing the gazing. Least to say my power has increased and I believe a big part of that was consistently taking mega doses of Royal jelly to elevate my Jing along with having the effects of that drive me naturally. The insights that have come through me lately have been crazy too. The Jing tonics cannot magically reverse your age or whatever but that they provide you the substance by which can be used to nourish your circuits and bring up the compromise patterns for purification out of that. Where there is nourishment your resistance will be forced out of you. That’s what this does. If we hold on then that Jing tonic will most likely turn pathogenic and destroy your vitality. We do not want that which is why mega dosing on powerful Jing tonics is dangerous when you’re not experienced. Least to say applying this process has benefited my profess greatly. Pathway work has been very useful in understanding where I’m compromising and what’s keeping me in place. Very powerful insights when applied completely. 

 

30/10/24

Wow.

So meeting the bare minimum and just doing certain methods or whatever isn't going to result in transformation. I need you to understand that pushing your limits IS transformation. That cannot be faked it cannot be falsely replicated with methods it can only be genuinely gone THROUGH and have the testimony of that. Think of it like this. Until you've got the testimony and the story of playing your notes to the point of complete satisfaction then you've not gone all the way. It's irrelevant what other people have or haven't achieved by going what they say is half way or whatever you're bound by the same alchemical process as the rest of us here and that process involves placing yourself under the sacred blue flame of purifying fire and accepting the pressure to transform by walking all the way through that fire. This fire you feel, that uncomfortable feeling of pushing yourself, that's what we're going to attain results through in EVERY SINGLE INSTANCE EVER! Take a long look at your life and you'll realise that every big shift came out of pushing your limits. We've been told it's all easy and effortless and bla bla bla bla bla but the fact is nobody on earth has ever or will ever transcend limitation without going through the pressure of the purifying fire. NOBODY! Stop trying to look for examples to excuse you and give you some seeming reason to bypass going through the pressure. The fact that you're even trying to avoid the pressure is itself proof of my point. Until we own who we are and play our notes to the complete degree we're naturally driven towards (playing tug of war with yourself in these moments and compromising is not playing your notes) then you're going to face pressure to transform which is the natural correction mechanism built into your guidance system to get you on track with your immortal path. If you continue to endure suffering and not go through the fire into the correct direction but sit with the feelings of lack and still wallow on the outside afraid of going into the fire then you're going to forever be stuck and grow old and die. That's failure. Don't miss your opportunity to fulfil your potential because completing your function as consciousness can only be attained through going all the way with where you're driven and unfolding the Jing into it's correct geometry to become the literal embodiment of the thematics that comprise it. That's what we're going through, it's taking a limited corporeal consciousness and taking that through a series of themtaic events that you're driven towards through your body which transform you from simply just potential components of consciousness into one whole complete perfected geometry of thematics that's become the natural embodiment of the Jing. You cannot fake that you can only realise it by completing your function. Don't be a degenerate and die.

Ra didn't speak about this in much depth from what I'm aware of, as in the "goal" of where we're heading. He spoke of the prophesy and the cosmology of where things are going on a collective level but didn't speak about the personal direction other than just the experience of your self theme to it's completion. I believe that this completion is the alchemical perfection that we have embryonic capacity for as the alchemist calls it that represents who we are designed to become by going through the purifying process. If that metaphysic is reflected in all elements of life then why would it not apply on this level?

 

If I listen to a track I use to back when I was in highschool I experience this immediate "time reversal" sensation. I believe that nostalgia and the feeling of this is partly a good thing and corresponds to how we experience time reversal. Thing is we need to go into it and not experience it from contrast. The contrast needs to be collapsed for the reality of experience to sink in. It's almost as if I become a different person to some degree just by listening to this old music, it's like it's reminding me of that time period when I had significantly more vitality and I "knew" I had access to this. It was just there when I needed it and I never thought twice about it. As you continue to live in compromise you're going to deplete that vitality further and further and wonder where it went as time passes. Time doesn't pass though that's the illusion, you're still stuck playing notes that aren't yours thinking that time is passing but in your correct proportionate pathway you've been stagnant in the same place. The progression of notes has been whacked and we need to reverse our entire experience back to that point and correct the notes we played to where we never even played wrong notes. 

There's more to be explored when it comes to applying revision and the mechanics of this. I believe that there's a structure that exists we can tap into and map completely which is really what the field geometry graph is all about. Applying this to actually attain the desired result is the challenge. Advanced gazing should be capable of doing this because that's one of it's primary functions in digging up long lost unconscious stuff and dissolving it but I believe the Jing we have access too (really the coherency of the nervous and endocrine systems) must be to our level of available chu at its peak to actually begin to have a spill over into generating higher order substances and increase baseline chu. There's a whole formula here I'm uncovering and each piece puts it together more and more coherently every day. It just takes time. I know this is part of my notes but I'm out of order myself still especially in other areas. I must be demonstrating this theory personally instead of just speaking about this and assuming the mechanics of this. 

 

I also believe that a big part of operating correctly is to actually know what is designed for your consciousness and what is not. To know that is a relief in itself. Like owning who you are is owning your themes, and how you have identified the experience of that being how you anchor into the sensation of without trying to change is because a contrast of measure shows up that makes you believe you have to be like that to be correct when you don't. That's something I've probably tried to say before but just being here running laps here it comes up in a better way when I least expect it. 

 

I also want to say that the modern western world is being set up to fail. Hard. The cross of planning is over.

 

1/11/24

Got the 3 1's.

I just went through my HD arrows again and realised that part of my motivation is "separatist". When I've noticed I feel inspired the most it's almost always coming from a place of destroying other peoples views and breaking apart what's been established. I've got so much in my chart relating to "extremes" so that's explaining a lot about the nature of why I'm driven to develop Reality Synthesis as a new model of reality that's about replacing what's been established. My life is highly mutative in nature and it can be challenging at times but owning it is where the flow comes. Disowning it destroys me which is why I suffered for so long. Going against the grain is literally what greater consciousness is driving me towards as my function and everyone else has a specific function they're designed for too. 

 

I just got a comment that I couldn't post my reply to because the tube wouldn't let it be visible likely because it's talking about death or something so here it is:

Yes I'm talking about real immortality with perfect health and never dying. The alchemist has been the only one who has demonstrated this nobody in the LOA community has proven real age reversal and he did it through a very advanced process that I'm reverse engineering and applying with RS immortality training. There is much work to be done still in refining this but it's getting far closer now to answering all the questions and outlining a clear practical process to apply. Having seen on and off results in my own life when it comes to the age reversal stuff it's still a work in progress as it's different for everybody and is highly specific, though I have had many many incidents with security at various events I've been to over the last few months who think I'm a minor and ask for my ID so that's definitely progress that can't be faked. Going through advanced gazing is a requirement which I don't teach publicly. The death thing is very complex to explain on a comment and to be honest I'm still refining that explanation. To be brief though it's mostly because they're receptive to that experience unfolding due to rejecting themselves which thematically relates to those experiences or they experienced that as a sort of "end" to their process in experiencing what greater consciousness required them to in the role they played. That's where things get complicated to go into because there's many variables relating to personal journeys and collective impact in what they're designed to provide for others to receive. You'll find people who have highly defeatist sense of self who always want to die end up being saved from certain death over and over and that's likely part of what they're suppose to experience that drives their consciousness out of contrast towards seeing what they're suppose to see to be refined. Different people are designed to see different thematics and I believe those who have more "extremes" in their thematics often end up in near death experiences such as myself. I'm designed to experience extremes as a thematic in so many different ways in life and for some people NDE can just be a part of that and even more so if they've got storytelling channels which provide impact through those who are receptive to that supply. It's not a simple imagine and experience thing because people imagine dying all the time in very bad ways like car accidents and yet those never manifest even years later. Those imaginal scenes likely come through them to reflect their thematic nature to provide contrast to their current state which can cause a shift in perspective out of that contrast. Remember we're driven by greater consciousness and what comes through us naturally is what we're to experience consistently not just what we deliberately imagine in the mind. The people who imagine these once as it comes through them and end up in those experiences are more likely to die as a result which once again what comes through us that's naturally arising out of greater consciousness on a thematic level is what we drop and what manifests which is why likely someone who's "trying" to imagine themselves dying to manifest that likely won't experience that as the contrast that's driving that need to even imagine that is what greater consciousness will continue to manifest as a result vs the death manifestation. It's the same with any other area of compromise and thinking you can imagine something to avoid authentic transformation, so the people who actually manifest death don't try to avoid anything in that sense as it's at that point natural to them as crazy as that sounds but it's the only way it would make sense really.

 

3/11/24

I find that when I increase Jing other people around me want to do the same. Interesting resonance there. Perhaps there's a thematic nature that's reflected here that's fundamental. 

Undertones or underthemes. Underthemes really means the same thing as undertones. This idea I just came up with in the shower again. Undertones represents the unconscious association with the thematics playing out in consciousness. These are the natural themes that come through us. Identifying the underthemes/tones of a scenario you’re having come through you when it does (good or bad) will be beneficial in understanding what’s driving your consciousness and how you’re led into this direction to identify the sensory level associations which bring that up. This will be the basis of a program in the making that’s going to change everything. I’m going to destroy these fools who think they know how manifesting works and create a formula that works 100% of the time without exception. 

 

4/11/24

The power is unreal. I just can't describe it like it's either the royal jelly is providing such intense boosts in Jing that it's driving me with serious root pressure or I'm just accepting my fate more, or both. Both lead into each other anyway. It seems to me that the Jing tonics force transformation through providing that root pressure because that's where Jing is stored catalysed as a thematic element. It's the genetic imperative but of course since I've unlocked that secret a few weeks ago we know now that the genetic potential is also manifest as the seeds of manifestation within you which represent the correct notes for you to play in your life to attain nourishment and embody your fixed thematics. This process can be elevated in intensity with taking Jing supplements as it's literally taking a substance that fuels your genetic imperative. Eating food also provides this too, but there's other balancing elements involved there that aren't as directly potent because digestion requires the consumption of Jing to attain Jing out which more often than not isn't a significant boost unless you're eating correctly. This is why I say that taking royal Jelly is so powerful because it's a direct substance that's not taking on the digestion. That's what all tonics are in reality, they're providing nourishment without taxing the breakdown process of alchemical transformation of whatever you're ingesting. We're almost taking that substance in as a pure thematic like a quintessence but way less potent of course. It would be interesting to figure out which quintessence would be the most potent when it comes to Jing boosting. I know the Melissa ens can do that but the degree of potency isn't as powerful as mineral quintessence. I believe that either brighter gemstones or darker gemstones will be what provides the Jing we're looking for. Rarely is it on the colour spectrum it's usually greyscale in manifestation which of course reflects the metaphysic of potential by which the colour of the seeds of manifestation can fill out through our experience of it. 

I could have everything taken from me and I'd not care because I'm just that nourished right now. I know that I've still got serious work to get done but it's just crazy the degree of flow I'm playing out lately. I literally transcended limitations I've been attempting to deal with in discreet manners in the past just through this process. I always understood pressure and supply and demand and all that but it's like you're more in the process now when there's more base substance to nourish your circuits.

Being driven is absolutely the function we're striving for and dropping the need to control. Now the interesting thing about that is that the natural thoughts of desiring control can actually be correct for ones direction that's thematically resonant.  The specific thoughts do not matter at all in reality, it's just that those thoughts reflect the resonant thematic that's unfolding THROUGH you that's the thematic the seed of manifestation you're unfolding is structured by. The seeds of manifestation are all containing thematic elements of consciousness that you're going to experience as thoughts that come through your mind. These are the fixed "beliefs" we have about ourselves in essence, how we see ourselves in a correct resonant manner. These perceptions are how we experience the thematics of the seeds that are "folded" up as they unfold through us when we allow them to by dropping attachment to needing them to unfold in a certain way. I want to repost a response to question in the discord I answered here.

"If it were natural it would come through you with or without emotional charge. What I mean by come through is that you'd unfold the existing seed of manifestation within you and as that unfolds the thematics associated would make manifest in your consciousness the corresponding imaginal experience. The imaginal experience comes THROUGH you based on it's fixed thematic resonance that defines the "note of music" which that specific seed represents as we unfold our potential by owning who we are (the Jing/ those seeds). This is assuming you're nourished and open to unfolding those seeds where you're not holding onto things that aren't allowing it to unfold.

If you're holding onto compromise patterns still then going through those (as in going through the uncomfortable emotional charge and playing out the thematic involved you're avoiding facing) will dissolve that and provide you the nourishment you require for the natural unfolding of the seeds of manifestation to play out in your consciousness in the way described above.

It's simply that the emotional charge comes out of the identification we have to something and will confirm the relationship of the sense of self to that thematic element you're desiring to experience which of course is the root pressure coming up from below "nagging" your consciousness to let go and accept what's designed for you to experience. This is why negating emotional charges by going through them is important. If you imagine while still holding on then all you'll get is unsatisfying results, be it signs of partial hot and cold stuff or whatever brings up the themtatic of compromise which of course is the natural self corrective mechanism of consciousness telling you to let go and play your notes correctly.

Read more of the noteboook to figure that out in more depth."

This is the essence of what I'm talking about. The idea that what comes through us is all thematic is really the secret that I've been continuing to go deeper and deeper into understanding the true essence of every day. This is the true hidden secret of manifestation, which was the name of my last video and why I pointed out that the thoughts that we have don't manifest in their own value but that the thematic elements that those thoughts represent to us is what manifests. We're not manifesting imaginal experiences we're manifesting associated thematics. It's all thematic. Everything is thematic. The potential for your satisfaction unfolds through the fixed seeds of manifestation that already exist within you. By making decisions through your inner authority vs conditioning from the world that's causing you to play notes that aren't yours then you're always going to play the right notes at the right time because that bodily response is quite literally the manifestation of that seed providing you an opportunity to unfold it. If you deny that unfolding of that seed then you destroy yourself because you're depleting the Jing by wavering from your correct thematic direction in life. These seeds are unfolding according to how greater process requires our consciousness requires us to play out these thematic experience for it to complete the alchemical process of purification through you and complete the conjugations. That's what that's all for, you're being driven by the natural striving manifesting through you as the intuitive impulse to get into the pathway of the seeds of manifestation to unfold and provide nourishment for that greater consciousness process. The greater process here drives how and when the seeds manifest and also how others respond to that according to their fixed and receptive supply. We're all like chess pieces on a board which can be moved based on how we respond to our inner authority. We're all parts of a grand play that we have no control over, but that when we drop the control and accept and flow then the experience of our play becomes supremely satisfying and the illusion that control provides you better satisfying experiences completely drops away because your corporeal consciousness cannot view reality from the top down perspective that greater consciousness has over the great stage act of life and how and when the seeds of manifestation are timed to unfold in the most perfect way possible.

This is what NG failed to properly grasp and explain. Once again the real underlying essence that he spoke of about "ways and means we know not of" is to a degree correct because we don't know we don't have access to that greater process perspective and we assume that our decisions in the world are all there is but it's not because the only link we have to greater consciousness and that process it's unfolding through us by way of the seeds of manifestation showing up as the thought and imaginal experiences is the body and it's sensations that drive us. The endocrine and nervous systems are so important in the establishment of this connection. The endocrine system really is one of the most discreet manifestations of the Jing in us and if that's way out of whack then you've got basically no connection to your greater consciousness so how do you expect to manifest abundance if you're not able to be driven correctly? Without a sense of how greater consciousness is driving you through the form then you've got no sense of what's correct for you to experience or what seeds of manifestation are actually within you to own and play out. You'll be experiencing all sorts of thoughts that aren't coming from within you but from the world around you conditioning your process and causing you to be distracted into buying into not self and continuing to go through the peak dip cycles of frustration.

When you get a real supply of root pressure then you've got a supply of essential components of consciousness that drive you into satisfaction. When you aren't overstimulated and aren't constantly distracted by temptation (bible meaning) to waver from your notes of manifestation then you're going to be satisfied. Even if in the moment you're going to face uncomfortable feelings to do something you're driven to do then accept it and move through it because going through that in itself is satisfying and purifying for consciousness. That satisfaction out of facing pressure and going through it IS the thing that cannot be faked which purifies thematic elements and forms them out of the chaos of the elements into a coherent whole representing the nourishing structure that that seed of manifestation was designed to unfold through you and by extension provide the world around you what it's receptive towards. You and only you can play that role. That's your influence over the play of life. Playing your part and speaking your lines so to speak is how you get "rewarded" by God for your work, if that's how we're going to put it. It's that nourishment and satisfaction are natural experiences that happen when you're proportionate to greater consciousness and the seeds unfolding through you. The idea that NG said that we have to plant seeds is stupid because in that sense we control the direction of our lives but we don't. The only "control" we have is the ability to accept or deny natural striving. You can experience anything but that doesn't mean it's going to be satisfying and that's the point. You realise that control is pointless because you're trying to control the stage act which you really don't need to involve yourself in because your corporeal consciousness cannot tap into the way greater consciousness is orchestrating this play. Thinking that your corporeal consciousness has any degree of influence over the world in a way that's satisfying is ignorance about how the nature of the mechanics of reality play out and it seems part of what NG said was about this idea of planting seeds of desire without those conforming to the natural strivings of the form that greater consciousness is providing. 

The point is to surrender to greater consciousness completely and without a shred of compromise. You become an extension of greater consciousness as it unfolds through you through the seeds of manifestation representing the thematics that draw out of your consciousness the thoughts and imaginal sensory experiences that represent your satisfying end. That's why they keep coming up and coming through you, that's why you get intuitive impulse and the natural striving towards this direction but your corporeal consciousness needs the contrast and need to control the direction that you move which only destroys you. You cannot avoid being destroyed by needing to control, you will be destroyed and that's the consequence of being out of natural rhythm with your natural striving. All those thoughts that come though you, no matter how intense they are, they come through you for a very specific function and its your function to accept and be driven by them and for your corporeal consciousness to become the vehicle by which the alchemical transformation greater consciousness requires you to play out to be done for it to complete it's function through you. It needs you just as much as you need it because you're one process in capacity. Subconscious. The point is to become one with greater consciousness and the only way to do that is to operate correctly according to how you're being driven. Human design of course provides insights into those fixed thematics.

Until and unless you actually just accept this and stop searching for some magic solution to justify you avoiding facing this responsibility then you're never ever going to be satisfied. Ever. It's impossible because it's mechanically opposite of what you're designed for. You're trying to bend the laws of physics because you feel uncomfortable. How degenerate is that. I can't believe I use to buy into that trash back in the day when I was first learning about manifesting listening to these utterly illiterate fools talk about such an insanely complex subject with next to no experience in understanding how and why it works the way it does. It was only because I failed over and over and over and faced trial by fire, quite literally, that I ended up seeing things the way I do today. I could never see these things if I was still compromised trying to hold onto the idea that I control anything. I had elementary understanding of these ideas many years ago and understood that they were right within me but I could never demonstrate how or why. I had to uncreated myself and be destroyed for this to come through me. If I resisted any of what I say it wouldn't come through me. These thoughts correspond to the thematic state I now accept instead of playing tug of war with the contrast. The way these thoughts naturally flow through me is the same way the thoughts that correspond to manifesting any other element of experience comes through you naturally without needing to buy into contrast and play tug of war. Letting go is dropping the need to play tug of war and accepting your fixed thematic drive and the perception that's unfolding through you out of that. It's accepting greater consciousness to come through you, God to come through you, literally. To be driven is to be one with God and that's where true power is made manifest. 

How many bible verses does that explain in a mechanical manner? I just refuted centuries of religious indoctrination in an instant with that one. It's so profound the level of depth and experience that unfolds through me I  don't ever have to try it just works because I accepted. Keep in mind it took years for me to get here, but the degree to which you can accept and let go and surrender is the degree to which you can and will be nourished by the most powerful and influential force imaginable and that's simply waiting for you to play your correct thematic notes of consciousness. Play those notes and stand naked on the stage of reality dancing your moves without a shred of compromise. That's owning your divinity, owning being one with God. That's how ALL power is made manifest, though us, because we gave up control and let go of the illusion that we are separate. Isn't that the essential teaching of all major psychospiritual texts? This fundamental point is what we're being told over and over and over and over and somehow it's been interpreted as purely a magical spiritual lesson almost as a specific belief structure and not a fundamental metaphysical principle that underlies everyone's experience of reality. This idea that we control anything in life is stupid and nobody can ever demonstrate even a shred of manifesting capacity without owning and surrendering to the seeds that are unfolding through them. You have zero influence over anything in your reality without that drive, and in fact your very corporeal existence relies on those seeds coming through you else you'd not exist as a human because the very nature of that embryonic capacity to become immortal means that you are bound by the desires that unfold through you. You cannot escape this function because it's what you're designed for and what we're all going to experience. 

Going deeper and deeper and deeper it just never ends until greater consciousness says it's over. I will continue to unfold what I'm driven to unfold here and play out my function regardless of how big or small my message gets propagated through the world because that's not for me to determine. I simply play my notes and sit with the resonance of what comes out of that. I hold no attachment to needing this to come out of me faster than it does and if those thoughts come through me I log down the thematic that's reflected and associated pathways to see that it's actually not this specific process being desired to speed up more but somewhere else that I'm compromising on that's spilling over and using this as justification for why I feel that way. This is how the mind works, it will use any pathway structure to justify if it can be believed. That's why resistance is always to easy to buy into because it's the path of least resistance towards revealing the root cause of your compromise patterns and satisfaction, if only you'd listen to them instead of buying into them  Just observe them and see what they're telling you vs actually buying into it and making decisions from it. Recognise the pattern of compromise that this pathway reflects and fulfil it. That's revision, believe it or not. That's why I said all manifesting methods are fundamentally a form of revision because they're all arising out of past compromise decisions you're holding onto still which determine how you're being driven and what you're accepting. That's what depletes the Jing and destroys you.

697.5 pages of notes now to get to this point. This is just what's in this notebook too that's not counting the notes I've been logging in other pages that aren't here. It's so much.

 

The mechanic of contrast in thoughts and natural drives and refining the sense of self is this. Every time I see a success story I see someone who looked at what they're running away from and owing it. This is uncomfortable and the only reason why they actually manifested the specific person or the money or whatever "they way I scripted" or whatever is because they dropped the need to control the way it unfolds in holding onto not self patterns that aren't reflective of playing the correct notes representing the seeds that unfold through them. They're being driven to unfold in a certain way, and these drives and seeds existed before the foundation of the world (as it says in the bible because it's all pre-determined greater process driving you even before you existed) but because they compromised and have testimony of experience that seems to go against their natural striving they're believing that what the world presents to them now is what holds authority and so the thoughts and somatic sensations will basically tell them to give into temptation and avoid going into and through what they're actually designed for. That how all success unfolds, it's going through where you're running away from and disowning the compromise patterns and habits that take the place and numb the intuitive impulses you're receiving from greater consciousness. You're trying to use something to numb the root pressure driving you to transform because it means you're going to need to take responsibility for your situation and not continue to pass off responsibility to circumstances like a degenerate. Do you now understand that the only way someone can succeed and be satisfied is by undergoing the process of alchemical purification which means being driven by the root pressure and accepting it and allowing it to become natural for you.

When someone scripts out something that they desire to experience, be it a specific person or a sum of money or a new house or whatever it is, they're not controlling reality to make that experience happen. That's coming through them, the thematic nature of what they're designed to experience is reflected in the words they write. They're simply expressing in words the thematics and the reason why these techniques work is because it's a process you can specifically open up to having what's there unfold through you. When it comes through you then it's done, providing you're open to accepting it and not needing to control and experience contrast at every corner when it comes up. Grasp that these techniques aren't magical in any way but that they're simply means by which you can open yourself up to having greater consciousness and the seeds of manifestation that exist within you to take a form of expression through you. When they come though you then they're naturally manifesting and the degree to which there's contrast associated to them confirms the degree to which you're attached and needing to control them because you're still buying into compromise patterns as I discussed before. If there's no contrast and they can just casually come through you without a care in the world with or without emotional charge then you're going to manifest them no matter what because those a simply the seeds of manifestation unfolding through you and taking form as the words on the page or the affirmation or the visualised scene or the inner conversation with someone. It cannot be avoided, all sensory experience has underlying thematic representation that's associated to a seed of manifestation within you. That's the only reason you even have the desire to begin with, and having it come through you and allowing it to do so without contrast means it's fulfilled and it's done. That's why basic methods such as scripting and such can be so powerful. You're just allowing the seeds of manifestation to come through you and thus manifest.

The technique holds zero power in itself without the thematic resonance coming through you. That's what spells are in magick. The alchemist said many times that it's what comes through us that we experience. Intelligences must come through us for us to be able to experience them and of course there's a thematic association to that level of experience. The same goes with manifesting methods. They hold no power except for that which we give them by allowing them to flow through us, IE giving up control and just being the vessel by which they can naturally come through. Your testimony will tell you that you deliberately though of them but you really didn't because that impulse to have those thoughts just the same as how I'm typing this out now came through you and you didn't realise that those are the seeds of manifestation with the related thematic taking form through your consciousness. That's why nobody can seem to trace the cause here because they don't get what I just said. I don't blame them for being ignorant really I mean it took me many years to even begin to see this point. It was only because I continued to fail that I learned more. I had to analyse my reality and understand it and out of that extract more insights that previously weren't obviously visible. The testimony of the Christ is what we're experiencing as the seeds unfold through us. That's where the magic lies and explains why we can't just manifest anything. If you wrote on paper that you died in a car accident you'd not manifest that if you're in flow because those seeds don't exist within your consciousness, unless of course they do, but I don't think that would be the case. You'll find that only certain manifestations unfold that you script and the reason for this is because of either resistance to them or that those seeds simply aren't yours, which in essence is resistance anyway. Those seeds would then simply bring up within you what you're avoiding again as the compromise pattern which is the self correcting mechanism greater consciousness has to get you back on track. We really are like chess pieces who can't move themselves but only accept to be moved. 

This is why scripting once and letting it go works the same as constantly affirming it (for some people at least) and that's because it's just coming through them, regardless of the means by which it comes through you it's always going to take form to some degree. No matter what you cannot avoid this. This is what dropping the seed means in reality and why you can't "do" it. You can't do "drop the seed" because doing it implies contrast and attachment and a lack of nourishment and acceptance of self. You can only just have those seeds come through you you can never force them because you don't control them. If you seemed to have used your free will to manifest them then those seeds existed within you to unfold and you accepted them, else you'll always be reminded of your unsatisfying compromise patterns which will force you to continue to look at yourself and own what's compromised else you'll continue to suffer. If what you seemed to have written down on paper manifested without effort and you thought it was because of your free will then you'd be wrong because that desire to actually write it down was experienced as thematic resonance which of course has to take form in your consciousness as a pathway of thought you buy into and believe is your free will consciousness thinking (yet pathway work provides us insight that we simply accept what comes through us instead of deciding every thought specifically which nobody can do and also explains why we think so many thoughts every day despite rarely ever deciding to think these things because it's all thematics unfolding in a natural way for our sensory filters)  but the truth was that those automatic thoughts were originating as the integrated thematic processes which naturally unfolded through you experienced as conscious thought and thus the seeming association to techniques being the cause.

I think that's the best explanation I've ever had on explaining what techniques do. It's so deep. We're now at 700.6 pages. Perfect. There's the relief and satisfaction washing over me. I thought that I was done when I hit 697 pages but no I felt more root pressure to stay here and continue and what do you know I've done it without "trying". I just unfolded it. This same idea is the same for anyone who naturally feels they can manifest money or specific people or whatever. Do you get it now? It's all coming through us because that's the Jing. Taking Jing tonics amplifies root pressure to be driven through your inner authority which means you're going to unfold correct thematics and experience satisfaction because you have the vitality available for the alchemical functions to unfold through you naturally. So many more dots connected. Reality Synthesis is the greatest model of manifestation on earth and nobody else even comes close. I'm probably one of if not the only people on earth to understand things this way and it feels normal to me I have no intense emotional charge it's just who I am and what I do. That's I AM.

 

When NG talks about the feeling of something he's really in essence referring to the thematic sensation of something. That's the targeting sense I've used to describe the feeling in that video on the feeling. When you assume the state of something you're just sinking into the thematic sensation of that which of course will "manifest" thoughts that come through you which you think are causing the manifestation in the world when the truth is it was your acceptance to take upon yourself what was already there. That desire that existed as a "nagging" sensation you've now owned and so it's fulfilled because you went through it. Do you see? States and such are simply composed of thematic elements that surround the mental environment and lead us into experience of those thematics. When they come through us that's when we have experience of them in the corporeal world as manifestation. Specific person manifesting is the same thing. Same with money. When you accept what's coming through you without contrast then you win. The thing about accepting it and dissolving the contrast that you're facing currently that's throwing you out of natural flow with what's coming through you is that we must fulfil what's keeping those elements of contrast in place. If you fulfil what's keeping the contrast in place by no longer running away from fulfilling it and facing the pressure to transform then you'll be nourished naturally and out of that nourishment you'll be detached and out of being detached you'll have those seeds naturally unfold through you and be capable of dropping them without effort because it's just you being yourself and doing what you do correctly at that point as the contrast is gone that warps how you feel about that and experience the mental environment and context.

That's what techniques actually do and that's what the feeling actually is. You cannot not feel the feeling because all sensory level experience has underlying thematic elements which comprise them. This is the nature of manifestation and its interaction with the form which filters those thematics through your consciousness as the various sensory level experiences you have be it physical with scripting or otherwise because it's all originating as thematics. This is why NG says that imagination creates reality because in essence all your senses originate as these "imagined" thematics which are incorporeal in experience. Corporeal experience is how those seeds are filtered through your consciousness and unfolded then into the physical manifestation. Imagination has no magical power and I've irrefutably proven that because you can imagine something to such depth and repeatedly over and over and still manifest signs that only confirm your limited sense of self and brings up the compromise patterns that are uncomfortable you're still running away from vs the actual satisfying manifestation. NG failed to explain the role of transformation in manifesting and a big part of why his message is so popular is because it's giving people justification to continue to compromise thinking that if they just imagine something real enough then it'll give them a free pass to bypass the need to go through their resistance towards being themselves. This is the delusion NG propagated through our world and the only reason he's popular is because of how his works justify the delusions of the masses into thinking that their imagination is their saviour. What a load of nonsense that's completely missing the alchemical functions that govern all processes of consciousness. NG played his part for those like myself to play my role later on and break down his work into its components and demonstrate how the seeming magic works and why imagination is not god in the pure sense of the idea.

Imagination is our interface with the thematics on a conscious level, just like the body is our interface with grater consciousness and the seeds of manifestation. That's all it is. It's our interface by which our lesser yang can interpret incorporeal thematic elements of reality and thus provide a natural mechanism by which belief can be formed. It's all to provide us what we need to unfold what we're designed for, it's how the hardware of our body interfaces with the code of the OS you could say. That's all imagination is. Imagination has no magical power, in fact if you're physically very sick your imaginal senses will function differently. The imaginal senses can be hyper vivid if you're very sick actually because I've experienced this and that's because the contrast between corporeal and incorporeal consciousness breaks down as your physical senses begin to malfunction so there's more "bandwidth" for the imaginal senses to express as the overlap has shifted. The same goes for being physically well and having coherent field geometry. When you're filled with vitality it will be more vivid. If you're also having your consciousness fading because of how sick you are your ability to even form coherent thoughts in your mind will be warped you'll be unable to string together a sentence. I know this because of what I went though when I was in that place. The imaginal senses aren't above everything and that isn't the so called "law" because the law quite literally means the mechanics of reality. When you understand this fully and go to the depths of that understanding then you'll realise that all manifestation happens top down and that the corporeal consciousness simply accepts and surrenders, but to the already accepting consciousness there's no contrast it's all natural and that's the point. It's all natural and effortless. That's why manifestation and the words used to describe it have been taken way out of context with the actual metaphysical meanings because that's all that there is and anyone who thinks otherwise is a metaphysically illiterate fool who's way out of their league. I've irrefutable proven this through creating the most complete model of reality there ever has been on the idea of manifesting using modern language and examples and nobody can demonstrate how anything I've concluded here is incorrect or incomplete. I'm at that point now where I do believe I can say that knowing it's the fact which is where I was always headed because this is who I am.

 

5/11/24

It's what comes through us through being led into the reality of the experience is the function.

Resistance actually is the holding onto needing the seeds of manifestation to be a certain way. If you know who you are and what you do and what's nourishing and you don't feel you can own it then that's because you're still holding onto thematic elements that aren't resonant and that's meaning you're not allowing that natural unfolding of the seeds of manifestation within to to unfold as they may. You're preventing yourself from accepting yourself and who you really are. The person who has the SP or the money or whatever it is, you can imagine that and feel into that, but you can't go all the way and so as a result what you're unconsciously allowing to come through you (what's coming through from greater consciousness to "play" you like a puppet really) is blocked off because of your refusal to accept that natural striving towards nourishment. You're denying your divinity and think that if you hold on you can control the circumstances through imagining over and over and yet you realise that what you consciously imagine never unfolds in a satisfying way which only proves that giving up and allowing greater consciousness to imagine through you and for you to just observe and accept that fully and with complete servitude is the solution. The solution is to let go and give up trying to hold onto what's not who you really are driven to be. What's coming through you is trying to penetrate your consciousness but you're holding on. Greater consciousness needs you to accept what's within you for it to complete it's function through you, and since you're both one process you're naturally going to experience satisfying outcomes as a result regardless of what that looks like. 

The moment you can just surrender and accept what's naturally unfolding through you that you can't accept because you're feeling the need to compromise to keep circumstances in the world familiar and comfortable is the moment everything changes.

Root pressure provides us that drive. Honestly it almost all comes from root pressure, regardless of the definition. The Jing is held here and unfolds through the rest of the circuits, at least in TCM. HD seems different in that way as there seems to be no origin in the root and if anything the origin would be in the sacral and hence why sacral beings are called generators. Generative power emanates from the sacral, but in that case where is the Jing unfolding from?

Any time you feel that root pressure to be driven to break compromise patterns and get uncomfortable and you try and distract yourself from it you're literally disobeying your greater consciousness's commands for you to accept impulse and be moving into uncomfortable situations which is exactly why that sensation comes up, because you've got energy for it, else it wouldn't be there. Literally root pressure exists for the function of breaking patterns of lack and yet you're ignoring it and washing it away because it means facing uncomfortable sensations. That root pressure is your ONLY way of transcending limitations naturally as this IS the feeling of contrast which determines how you're comparing against yourself, where you're driven vs where you're at. The alchemist called this "divine discontent" for a reason. You're so driven into temptation that you're just distracting yourself with trash that you don't need to so you can avoid going through the uncomfortable sensations and owning the responsibility to be yourself. Your live cannot ever improve until we go all the way through that, and greater consciousness cannot deliver unto you the abundance you desire unless you've let go and are open to receiving that divine inspiration. It's not greater consciousness it's your lesser yin and yang that's holding onto limitation that's warping how the received thematics that come though you are interpreted and compared to. Why is it that when you drop the need to try that things work out? Because you're letting go of holding onto expectations and you're just accepting that maybe you do need to make different changes and not rely on mind magic to solve your problems which is what a vast majority of people who come through here think. They want someone to solve their problems without them needing to face their true self and own it.

This is the dilemma we face on a collective level and it's destroying the lives of everyone who buys into this need to stay comfortable. Why does the modern world suck so badly? Because passing off responsibility to be yourself is easier than ever. Greater consciousness is always delivering unto you the drive you need to be given opportunities to manifest abundance but it's that you're unwilling to go through with that natural drive because of the illusions you believe that make it seem too hard to own and go through. This is the issue the bible talks about with Sin and giving into temptation and all that. Giving into temptation is destroying your vitality. Notice that when you're so sick of how bad things are they often make radical changes, temporarily at least. That's my point, you're so badly in the dip that you've just got no option but to act on your impulses to be yourself and play your notes because the suffering is to extreme that you can't take it anymore. It's only until things get so bad that you want to change. That's truly the story of everybody who has been through that experience, just as I know from my experience of nearly ending up homeless living under a tree in the forest because I hated money so badly and it was all some stupid illusion I held onto to appease my lack of responsibility to be myself. You'll hold onto anything you can seemingly use to justify your scenario over going through the uncomfortable situation. You'll see everybody else getting what they want and you're left wasting away watching your life be destroyed with no hope in sight, all because you're unable to have the guts in that moment to just do it and own it and live as yourself for once.

You're so far from yourself that the thought of being yourself is just some fantasy in your mind. Does this not prove my point that imaginal senses alone do nothing of value for us? We can all fantasise but very few have the courage to live in their imagination to the degree that transforms them. We're all doing SATS and stuff without pressure, you're doing it as an escape and to feel better instead of using it as a means of transformation. This is your problem. Going through SATS to own who you are and expressing your genuine authentic drives is what has power because you're ringing your resonant thematics in those acts. What are you doing in imagination? The essence that will grant you power is the acceptance of self, and that is the acceptance of how greater consciousness drives your consciousness without compromise. You're one with God so own it and walk with and as God.

The thing that will change your reality and transform your life into one of flow and seemingly effortless effort is to just accept being uncomfortable. You're still not going through that if you're stuck that's the #1 common thread underlying everybody ever who transforms their lives. Everybody without exception just goes through it and owns it and takes responsibility for your vitality and abundance. You're still a little child passing off that responsibility to others and thinking that you've got any reason other than your own lack of self respect as the cause of these continued sins is utter foolishness. I know what that feels like because I use to have that as my day to day life living as a complete degenerate blaming whatever situation I could bring up to pass off the responsibility of being myself, even if that logically was a valid position to take. The fact is that no matter what you use as your reasoning it's still passing off and attempting to bypass the obvious compromises you're still continuing to make every day without end. Your life sucks because you're still unable to be who you really want to be and to be your own supply of nourishment and no matter what happens that will always be the common thread that comes up in everybody in that position. No matter what. That's the only reason why your life sucks. It's because you're holding onto the mental reasoning that excuses you as to why you can't just own it and be yourself. That's degeneracy and causes you to age and die, or worse. 

This proves my point then. Facing the pressure to transform is the only way through no matter how uncomfortable it is. You cannot magically transform this unless you feel it all the way through. That's the fact that cannot and will not ever be changed no matter what seeming miracle solution comes your way. No matter what it will always involve you facing the pressure. No matter what the solutions that we need will always come through us because that's not our job to determine how and why but to just accept and surrender to greater consciousness. It will be natural if we accept and flow with what comes through us. Those notes we're designed to play at the perfect time we could never devise as corporeal consciousness but greater consciousness being integrated within processes greater and more aware than we are on this level can know and see all things that are and are to be and in doing so deliver unto us the perfect direction to move into, if only we accept that and live by it. It's not something of contrast to us naturally though the contrast only comes up when we're compromising and holding onto patterns that aren't self. 

You think all kinds of things that may or may not be true about your circumstances that seemingly justify why you're stuck but none of them factor in the drives of greater consciousness for yourself and for other people which spontaneously come through those who need them to drive the perfect satisfying outcomes for all parties involved. Giving yourself permission to be yourself and feel into that experience will transform your life completely. 

 

6/11/24

Still can't believe that it's November already.

I just wanted to mention how most people here need to understand the importance of dropping coping mechanisms and to allow yourself to feel the pressure to transform fully and move into what's driving you. Most people think that imagination creates reality gives them an excuse to bypass taking responsibility for their state and owning who they are where they live in some fantasy world and hype themselves up to avoid facing the pressures they're running away from. The more you indulge in the fantasy of your ideal reality where everything is perfect and how you're constantly thinking that you can think your way out of feeling your way through the resistance then the further away from actually manifesting that in a satisfying way will be possible for you. The more ruthless you are in facing the pressures and feeling uncomfortable in the right directions to be purified and realise through going through that that you're able to be yourself and that you never needed to compromise to begin with. Owning who you are and going all the way is uncomfortable but that's the variable that separates those who succeed from those who fail. Going all the way with the natural striving you're driven towards.

I just can't emphasise enough that the secret truly is to be yourself without compromise and own it fully. That involves feeling uncomfortable and is why we have some people who succeed and others who fail. Those who face the pressure to be themselves and own it fully win and those who still continue to run away from it lose. That's the determining factor in success. Going through with playing your correct notes and not backing down when challenge and doubt comes up. That's how you're "tempted" by the devil so to say which of course has been endlessly spoken about in the bible in all the examples of sin. Sin is avoiding the responsibility of playing your part and being the victim buying into excuses your mind comes up with to justify why you can't face the pressure. This is true with every situation where people aren't able to manifest what they want no matter what. You're still avoiding being yourself and thinking that the mental conditioning you've bought into matters more than how you're driven in this world by your body which is how greater consciousness communicates through us..

 

7/11/24

I've said this before but the importance of sacral and root pressure is of immense important as I believe this is where generators actually get the natural drive to actually act differently instead of experiencing contrast. This is as much a biochemical process as it is a psychological process. To assume different would be ignorance because both correlate to the same thematic elements. Own it dammit just own it. Your ability to own it relies significantly on having sufficient  subconscious capacity because that space is conducive to actually having the thematics from greater consciousness spontaneously flow through you when you're ready. My point is that it seems the biochemical aspect also matters a lot in how the psychological side plays out. Once again reality is no psychological it's thematic and the psychological level is just one level of manifestation of those thematics, the same as the biochemical side. There's really no difference it's just that one is unconscious mostly and the other is more conscious. Androgen receptivity for example is a huge part in how "comfortable" you're going to feel under pressure and be able to go through it. Of course embodying that state of being by leading yourself there and making decisions out of that will also benefit androgen receptivity and aid in the endocrine function but that's not a one way street because you're still contrasting the mind against the body. Ultimately making decisions out of your inner authority is what matters the most. 

Everything is a dynamic dance of thematic elements that we're driven to express when needed. In my experience fasting from the world (in all forms) and taking Jing tonics such as royal jelly can absolutely benefit your baseline endocrine function and the metaphysic related to that being a subset of subconscious capacity as correct endocrine function requires sufficient nourishment of the lower yin based meridians and sufficient qi that's able to reach the periphery fully. Being overstimulated destroys your endocrine function and destroys subconscious capacity and makes you more anxious and less stable. This is an irrefutable fact that everybody who I've spoken to who's demonstrated this to me has shown and once the fasting plays out they're more calm on almost every level. They can handle pressure more easily and be themselves with sufficient ease as to where it's natural. That naturalness isn't some magic subjective thing and when I say you're having those manifestations flow through you I really do mean that but if you're incoherent and "incompatible" so to say with that state given your current disproportionality then good luck making that a natural embodiment going from zero to 100 overnight. This isn't something to be speed running this is a marathon and gazing is absolutely a marathon. Sometimes you don't experience anything new for weeks or even months and it gets seemingly boring but you just continue to go at it because you know what it's doing and how most of the effects are on that unconscious level.

To my experience the thing that really gets you out of the gutter is generating sufficient subconscious capacity to be able to actually go through the resistance. I've said many times in prior notebook entries about the mechanics of dissolving resistance and how it requires sufficient degrees of nourishment available at baseline which will represent in this case a coherent nervous and endocrine system. You need that coherency or you'll forever be "lacking" something and feel anxious that it's not there. That nourishment IS what grants then the temporarily subjectively embodied state that comes through you to take more of your consciousness to manifest it. There won't be contrast when those thematics flow through you because there's sufficient nourishment available for the sacral especially to respond with "yes I have the energy for this" instead of anxiety when faced with thematics that the sacral cannot generate vitality to fulfil meaning you experience anxiety and fear. When the sacral is powerful enough (the coherency of the liver meridian primarily which also is what the gazing mostly targets) then you'll have the "authority" to own your desire as it comes through you instead of experiencing that contrast and seeing it from the outside.

Every time you give into temptation you deplete that sacral power because you're not using it and it turns into heat and generates disrupted qi flow and stagnation in the liver meridian which then disturbs the shen which makes you more anxious and less free flowing. Shen is required for yang Jing to be cultivated. That should've connected sufficient dots at this point to know what to do with this whole manifesting thing.

It seems the basis of strategy and authority really is all you need to manifest because the assumption side of things just naturally comes through you anyway when you're operating correctly. That's really the essence and Ra was 100% correct on that. I just didn't connect enough dots to see how powerful the simplicity of that really is. I've been working with a projector lately and I've learned some new things because I rarely get to speak with them usually I speak with generators who are all about using their energy without wasting or stagnating it. The generators issue is stuck or deficient energy. The projectors issue is manifestor and generator conditioning taking them into directions that aren't based on their inner authority. Projectors really really need to master their inner authority the most and be able to wait for things to come to them.

Generators work. Projectors don't work. Generators are moved more than projectors. Projectors accept invitations to take space and engage with those present who invited them in. Generators must use their vitality in the way that they're driven to else it's incorrectly used and it doesn't work. Satisfaction is liver stagnation but the movement of the currents in the liver meridian requires the root pressure to move through it which relates very closely to the endocrine system and even the coherency of the reproductive system. Generative essence is Jing and Jing is genetic potential, however that's made manifest in the world. As root pressure raises up into the sacral you get the "ugh" come out of the throat as a manifestation of that currency. That more primordial grunt sound is literally the sacral being moved by the current and that intelligence in your form saying "use that energy". 

 

Thinking without thinking and feeling without feeling is having greater consciousness manifest through you. You accept that you're playing the puppet role and be driven by your natural striving and give up control.

 

The cross of planning isn't something anyone decided was going to happen. No this was greater process playing out our collective trajectory regardless of what anybody does or does not think they can or cannot control in this world. You cannot under any circumstances (apart from a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a percentage of people who have a tiny degree of influence over) influence how greater process drives you. It's impossible for you to drive greater process from the limited corporeal mind. Thinking you can is ignorance and foolishness, the seeming influence is what's naturally coming through you anyway as your part of the play unfolds without you realising you're playing a part in a play. That's the true secret, and you cannot make anything happen that's not suppose to happen for you in a satisfying manner. If you desire it and it's satisfying to unfold then it's for you because it's a correct usage of your vitality, else it's not for you and you're trying to control grater process. When we accept and surrender to greater consciousness driving us through the thematic intuitive impulses then we will always win because what greater consciousness is delivering us to play out will always benefit us and those around us in their processes. Grasp that our individual lives where we're driven to respond or not is all determined by greater consciousness and not by our thinking minds. Our path is predetermined, every interaction and opportunity we make comes through us and not because of us. Manifestation is a function of acceptance of self. Complete acceptance of self and true self concept as it's called is a complete surrender of ones control over your direction over to greater consciousness and to let go of needing anything to be any way. 

Waiting is a big part of that. Waiting for the response and accepting that and being nourished by it is a big part for generators and projectors and reflectors. 

 

8/11/24

Generators experience desire differently than projectors and such. They experience root pressure in a more intense manner I believe and the way that desire is satisfied is by going through it. So much of the notebook is written for generators.

 

The more in tune with yourself you are the more what NG says will work. The less in tune with yourself you are the less it will work, generally speaking.

 

9/11/24

It's that time of year again. Zion worked its magic on the world.

It really makes me think just how silly this whole idea of manifestation is, like the idea that we're creating a reality and "manifesting" things out of thin air to experience is stupid beyond all measure. I almost see how pointing out the delusional nature of this community will actually benefit the progression of reality synthesis more than just speaking of how things work because there's contrast and contrast plays with peoples feelings. I mean that's what all marketing is after all. Manipulation of peoples state of being to make them need something to solve their problems.

 

I swear kidney Yin (the most direct manifestation of Jing) is like the magic juice that powers up your response ability to inner authority. It's both yin and yang, yang relies on the yin as the fuel to ignite and catalyse for root pressure to be experienced. More fuel = more steam given sufficient fire.

 

It seems that as solar cycles move the census ideas in the collective consciousness shift as events take place to justify that reasoning. We have scenarios that build up pressure and as things get worse that pressure releases and people own what they've been sweeping under the rug. This is a collective and an individual process, because the individuals make up the collective.

 

You should be to hooked into being yourself that your SP will want to move the earth to spend time with you. She/he should DESIRE you not just a one way street. This trash I constantly get where people come to me and think that I can manifest their SP while they can be the same person filled with degenerate patterns of compromise that makes him/her run away for someone else. Nobody wants that, nobody does and you can't change that. It just means that you get who you're being as the person who's right for you when you're driven by your inner authority will always be right for you instead of trying to manifest a person to desire you over everything in the world because you think they'll solve your problems. Any time you're placing your escape route from taking responsibility of being yourself onto another person or whatever then you know exactly what's disowned and exactly where to move into to own your supply which will then naturally attract them. You should light fires under your SP just when they think about you. You should be their supply and the only way you can be that supply is to be yourself and the correct person who's receptive to that will show up. Trying to change them while being yourself won't even be of interest because they'll just not interest you at all at that level, you'll naturally manifest who you want and you'll personally feel deserving of more at baseline.

You need to be the god walking among flawed mortal men who won't accept their divine nature. Knowing it and expressing it are totally different things through. If you've disowned your true vision for yourself the way that you're resonant with your whole life and you're so old now and you don't think you can ever manifest what you want then die and be reborn in the image of yourself. Completely recreate your environment and take responsibility for owning it. Firstly I want you to own your correct environment and sink into that, imagine yourself then fulfilling the primary 3 areas of compromise, whatever those themes are. Fulfil them and go all the way and take full responsibility for your immortality.

Almost every guy I've ever spoken to on coaching who wants an SP has compromises they're holding back on, especially with relations to how they're responding to other women who show interest. If they're showing interest and you fall at their knees you've screwed instantly. Do you know why? You're throwing away your supply to them without holding anything of value within you, they won't get anything from you and so they'll treat you like trash because they can because you take it thinking you can be the same and just make some shift in mind and they'll magically fall at your feet. Even if they do fall at your feet and they show up differently you're instantly going to once again give your authority away to them without question like a degenerate who's got no vitality of their own and needs to suck it out of everybody else. You don't know how to say "no" and "I don't like that". If you've never held a solid boundary with another women in your life then you're never going to get that respect from them. Ever. You need to learn to say no and that in itself is going to elevate your sense of self further as you're living it, you're literally BEING the person who does express value in their vitality and doesn't allow others to suck it out of them. Screw that trash the moment you begin to withdraw and hold within then you'll gather magnetism and like magic you'll have them falling at your feet.

Cultivate the vitality and it will manifest. More Jing means more attraction. Being attractive is a part of being correct and anyone who says otherwise is speaking out of cope. Women want hot guys and if you're compromising you're missing the point, it's all manifestation of a strong supply of coherent Jing. Being attractive isn't just about the look but also about how you value your vitality as I said before. Just drop the trash and move on. Let go. Just move on and be driven. Drop it all and leave it all behind without a care. Don't hype yourself up just act out of pure coldness towards the degeneracy and move on. Metaphysically turn around and walk off with the cold shoulder to the degeneracy. Don't deplete subconscious capacity by amping yourself up and burning all that Jing to try and move it, you don't need that. You simply need to just refine the thematic and starve it. Just kill it, Odin died to himself for this very reason. Walk away from unattractiveness and this gross "nice guy" trash that you're always bending the knee and wanting from others. Command them by responding correctly, respond with no when the boundary is pushed and don't let anyone cross the line. If they cross the line don't tell them about the consequences just walk the cold shoulder and withdraw. Don't deplete your vitality debating with logic you can't do that ever it won't work, just move on and don't look back. That's the best way to really be optimal in your expenditure of Jing. So many times we deplete Jing just making dumb decisions and the whole SP thing is the biggest area where people make dumb decisions, myself included at times of course, but that's how I learn these things. I never studied dating coach tips or whatever trash people follow I just look at things on a metaphysical level and grasp the essence of what supply and demand means in how we respond.

Understanding that we're going to be blindsided often with pure raw feminine beauty when it shows up and you'll want to compromise just to be in that presence, understand that these moments happen but always bring to mind in these places your vision of yourself and let them come to you and see if they're going to play stupid games or if they're going to accept to play life by your side and don't try and disrespect you. I see this happen all the time, in fact whenever I find myself being pulled into these scenarios myself being blinded by just the sheer aura I'm being drawn into by the pure yin I am sometimes reminded of my own lacks in certain areas but that rarely happens around these parts. I tend to find the ones who have really pure energy to be ones working for small country town cafes or small shops, ones who aren't looking for attention in large areas. When it comes to attraction Jing is all that speaks. Game is nothing in reality it's all a temporary act that is setting up false expectations. There's nothing coming through you when you're trying to play game, how you respond must come through you and have greater consciousness drive you. It always goes back to just owning self and having that thematic drive your decisions. Just allow it to happen and be as it may, if you feel the impulse to say yes then do it, but really it should all be automatic anyway you'd not need to think. You'd think but you'd not realise you're thinking. That's the point, it'll be 100% natural and just like any other thought process you experience. Drop all the trash and move on. Seriously just make that decision and move them on if they're playing stupid games thinking they can waste your time. If they're genuine and you feel that then provide your supply and move into their space and allow them to move with you, otherwise just withdraw until someone who's pure and truly feminine shows up. I don't waste my time with anyone who pushes the boundaries, ever, under any circumstances. ZERO tolerance. Accepting any overextension into your field is depleting and the harsh truth is that any and all forms of depletion must be removed from your experience if you wish to truly cultivate Jing.

That's how God plays the game with us and if we are to live correctly we hold no compromises for the simulacrums of our lives representing the expression of God through us. We are to become simulacrums of perfection in ourselves else we cannot become immortal. Every decision we make that inner authority doesn't provide impulse to make is going to deplete us and ultimately destroy us. This is the brutal nature of reality and life as a simulacrum of God, we must be as perfect as our father in heaven if we are to not taste of death. It's required of us else we're going to fail and no matter what mental state we try and justify this with we will always backslide and falter. We must be perfect as perfect can be and be pure as the pure we strive to experience in our SP. We must meet them with the same purity of consciousness as we demand. To think otherwise us utter degeneracy and cope to avoid taking responsibility for your own vitality. Owning it is how you begin the process if purifying your consciousness. Own your vitality and you'll have an internal supply which will naturally manifest correct responses through you automatically. You don't have to consciously listen to it because you'll just know what to do in these moments because your circuits are functioning and communicating together correctly. It's all automatic. Just freaking do it mate stop wasting time. Just do it. Just delete the draining trash and be relieved and be purified under that. Just do it. Drop all the trash and you'll realise how stupid you were when you look back once there's contrast in a positive direction instead of always being driven by feeling things getting worse. Feel that power driving you and experience the purity of it. Be driven. I've said it so many times now dammit just do it drop the degeneracy and move on. 

Gazing will not solve your problems. Taking anything will not solve it. All that can do is work with the metaphysic that's preventing it from coming up and eventually out of you through subtle levels, but the real intense stuff always happens through spontaneous decisions that you know are correct to make. The ones you know that keep coming up that feel uncomfortable to make, these ones you don't need to consult the inner authority because that is a clear path towards purification. Purification burns but that's the point. Those who have been burned the most are the ones who are the most pure. You don't see that but it's how it works. Just accept the purifying fire and build your reality around it. Be mercilessly thrown into the fires and purified under the most painful and difficult decisions you can make. The harder you go into that the more you'll manifest abundance because you've got no skeletons in the closet playing on your mind. You walked through the hot coals and all those skeletons got burned off. You'll then realise just how whacked everybody else is around you when you're in that place.

I remember experiencing this when I was 15 when I first started to do gazing periodically like I said in my video on gazing and seeing the fields of others. I just had so many more spontaneous interactions from others, despite having serious seeming flaws that I was consciously aware of it just didn't seem to matter then and people actually went out of their way to cater for me, just from gazing. I mostly explain this with an increase in subconscious capacity making me slower to react and more aware of myself, like time was slower generally speaking. I felt more "me" and it just made me respond with a different aura. I walked with a different vibe and it rubbed off on others. Getting that vitality back is my goal. I've been through such unbelievable pain and trauma since then that I've got so much work to do in purifying myself further. Just getting to this level isn't even close to enough, there's more work to be done and accepting that is the only way forward instead of thinking I can change anything out of bypassing transformation. 

Every time I log into any social media platform and I see any form of content showing up all I ever sense is degeneracy. It's all fake none of this stuff is real it's just attention wasting garbage and you don't see that unless you actually experience value in yourself consistently otherwise it's up and down and it's driven by your emotional waves instead of actual space. Feeling like that's just the realm of degenerates and flawed mortal men is what I've naturally realised is how the world really works. It's built out of frustration of disowning self and so everybody builds up these systems that are kept running out of the compromise patterns of everybody around them. Social media is a degenerate echo chamber that's filled with a vast majority of trash that validates people to bypass their responsibilities they have to their greater consciousness in being themselves. It's conditioning to the highest order and the comparisons and comfort they provide is unbelievable. Truly if you wish to be purified then don't engage in the trash out there and allow into your space only that which is worthy of your space because it is sacred. Your space is divinely sacred and worth everything in this world. Nobody is worth more than your space so cultivate it and allow it to move you without effort and thus life becomes the 10/10 movie we all want to watch. The movie will never end. 

 

10/11/24

We must become the supply of what we're manifesting. You cannot manifest anything that you're not a supply for.

 

11/11/24

I just realised that pure ruthlessness in invalidating other peoples feelings is actually a good thing and people (who are correctly living) who make you feel bad are to be sought out so they can be your mirror. You don't neeeeeed that to know yourself but it's useful for being a means of revealing more contrast.

 

Peaches are insanely powerful qi tonics. So simple yet so incredibly powerful. 

 

Sharp angles are harder than rounded curves.

 

The 4 archetypes of Yang

The king

The Warrior

The Magician

The Lover

 

 

I have to write. It's like certain music brings up trash in the psyche that's been buried with stuff piled on top so we can't feel or see it but when the right series of thematics show up and bring resonance to this section of the unconscious mind then the feelings associated show up and emotional charge wells to a significant degree. What do you do with this? I believe movement for generators as a means of moving it is necessary, at least to some degree. I can just be sitting here and listen to a certain piece of music and then all of a sudden my intuitive impulse shows up and I'm being moved to run as hard as I can out on the road in the middle of the night until I can barely move anymore. The sheer power that comes out of the sacral when it's fired up is incredible, even if your root pressure is limited. It seems to me that the idea that I had before about needing certain degrees of vitality in order to actually effectively catalyse the resistance to be burned off is only true to an extent, an extent that I can't really quantify. I believe this is because the series of thematics that build out the mental environment in those moments is what opens the door for the vitality to manifest from top down/inside out and it moves through you.

If you get the impulse to move it's literally your greater consciousness driving your corporeal consciousness through the body in a perfect sequence of actions that is thematically designed to apply currents in the right polarities and amplitudes to clear out what needs clearing. Thinking that you can logically analyse that and break it down and reverse engineer this infinite intelligence (it is the intelligence because it is the mechanics of consciousness) is such a foolish position to take because you're not even on the level of it's pinky finger. You're so far from being on that level it's not even funny, even me, the one who "created" reality synthesis cannot even begin to touch the means I was driven to fulfil through movement the correct series of thematis required at the right intensities to move the currents and perform the alchemical ritual required to move resistance buried that I didn't have access to.

It was always there but since the conscious mind is so tiny in the bandwidth it can process we can only experience a fraction of a percentage of what's there at once. This is why music and media (or anything really) that can bring up the thematics that are compromised in that resistance is so powerful because it works on the unconscious level. All the people who think that they're clean from impurity are so far from reality it's crazy because everybody who's still living here and aging is filled with unconscious resistance that's depleting your vitality on the levels that it's associated to regardless of what you experience in the moment or not. You can experience true peace and satisfaction and success and all that and still be absolutely filled with utter trash that's so degenerate it's not even describable. Gazing expands subconscious capacity which means the conscious mind has more bandwidth to process more at once, among other things. This is something that can have profound impacts on those especially with well defined logic circuits because that's often where you'll have the resistance held and where the impacts will manifest as overthinking and compromise on the levels of seeking value through that mental definition vs the other more resonant definition, assuming that's the case with your design.

Either way being moved is how this all works. You have no power to do anything with the conscious mind other than to experience what the design is driving you through and thinking that the mind can control and manipulate is foolishness. The deeper you go into this the more you realise that manifestation as a control idea is silly and based on not self trash which makes us feel more in control and "secure" in that seeming knowledge. You manifest people or sums of money or whatever and think that because you can make these things show up that you can be anyone and have anything. This is nonsense because what's satisfying is almost never what you consciously want if you're filled with resistance and are overstimulated by the programming of the world. There's no power whatsoever that your mind has to control your pathways towards immortality and try as I might to cling to this idea in my past and find mechanics to justify it, that simply doesn't work and the more I begin to accept and surrender to that and be moved by it against what my mind tells me, the more I experience what that means. It's entirely something to accept and something to just let go of this need to mentally expend energy to control. You don't control anything in this world and the sooner you realise that the sooner you'll begin to stop aging and not die.

Aging is disgusting it's not something that proportionate self recursive circuits are designed for and no the cycling of the yin into the yang isn't life and death there is only coherency of circuits that are proportionate and thus are able to draw upon life (process) infinitely because there's no resistance, or not. Aging is a function (in humans, not other life forms that aren't simulacrums who don't have access to the same currents and alchemical formulas as we do) of aetheric drag which is like rough wind blowing loosely held parts off you (playing the wrong notes as the Jing unfolds and thus you "lose" access to substance to manifest the proportionate form in it's genetic potential) the longer you stay holding onto the need to move against the flow. You're against the natural rhythm of life when you hold on and play the wrong notes. Realising that your path is pre-determined and accepting this completely means to let go and be driven where you then can allow your greater consciousness to move through you and play all the correct notes in your life without resistance. You cannot ever manifest immortality without undergoing this process completely. It's literally impossible, this is the great work. The great work is to accept and surrender to our path of least resistance and be moved without moving and to simply go along for the ride. This is a completely natural process mind you with dips and peaks along the way but the thing is that you never hold onto anything and need to control when these moments show up because the body drives you vs you trying to drive this infinitely complex series of hidden notes you're designed to play without any real mechanism to know what they are at any given moment.

Manifesting things in the world out of SATS or whatever with the idea of "planting seeds' is simply that you're imagining the fulfilment of a series of implied thematics that you're letting go of control over and having come through you naturally where you're being setup for natural flow through without resistance, or at least resistance on the levels that you're use to going through. Understand that resistance isn't a thing that exists within you that's like a thorn you've stumbled into and are stuck with, no it's simply a thematic that's part of your consciousness that you're holding onto control over in the way that it's manifest because you believe that this keeps you safe and comfortable. That's what the mind is holding onto, it's childish tendencies must hold onto the limited sense of safety it has in any given moment because of its significantly reduced bandwidth. It can't experience the unconscious process you're being driven through which is perfect for you at any moment all it sees is the limited context of a tiny percentage and makes judgements out of that. This mental environment is temporary, it shifts moment to moment day by day and as it holds onto these limited moments whenever they come up it's only keeping you stuck holding onto a false sense of security out of the illusion of the reality and immersion in the moment of that experience. This is likely why to me my most profound insights when manifest SP stuff years back was recognising that it's always temporary and that it doesn't matter. It's always temporary and that's the truth no matter what. You can feel it and be moved through it because it's going to fade and if you let go and accept whatever it coming through you in those moments when you're most vulnerable and open to letting go means you can actually move on. That's how the alchemy is done and that pressure the conscious mind feels is necessary because it's the rising fire that brings up these held thematics which is why no matter what they're always going to be felt as uncomfortable sensations for everybody. It's a fundamental process that's alchemical and applies to every level of experience of every element of reality.

That is why accepting where the body is moving is your solution instead of what the mind thinks it needs to do, regardless of what the circumstances present because your limited corporeal mind has no awareness of the path already laid out before you that you're being driven on that's going to always be satisfying. Knowing this means you can accept and surrender and feel whatever needs to be felt for your process to unfold and to let go of what's keeping you playing notes that aren't yours. This is how we do the great work and naturally then manifest what we desire. Allowing it to unfold through us completely and to be moved by it and however it's comging through us is where the magic happens. 

I always tell this story because it taught me something. My homeopathy teacher Mellissa Krupsch or however you spell her name told me a story about how she took a remedy (a thematic you drink like a quintessence except on a lower amplitude and fractal relationship) and had this spontaneous release of emotional charge that was held in her at the table eating dinner one night about how her parents did these things to her as a child that she didn't approve of and she couldn't stop it. Her disease went away right after. This was so profound to me and demonstrated this process completely. She was forced to be moved by that remedy to have that come through her in the perfect way with the words and all that which needed to be said to move the thematic elements of compromise out and through her consciousness for a proportionate connection to be made which is how she let go and moved past what was keeping the disease in place. She couldn't have figured out that logically in the exact manner it unfolded, the intelligence of the mechanics of consciousness and the alchemical functions within just worked their magic and it unfolded as it needed to. This is what I'm saying.

Thinking that we can imagine something that can work this same process with the logical mind is stupid and I believe that what NG taught as SATS is totally incorrect as a process of purification and only really works in those who are already clear to a significant degree because it will always then be natural. The scene looping is the issue. You don't want to stabilise a state and have control you want to allow associated thoughts to arise as they may and have your feelings be guided in the correct manner to dissolve the resistance. The act should be natural, it should come through you and not as a result of what the conscious mind thinks it needs because it doesn't. We need to understand that the seeds of manifestation already exist within us and are seeking unfolding through us at all times. The sooner we accept this and stop trying to control the scenes in the mind then the sooner we can move through what we need to for our satisfaction to unfold, for the relief to play out. The only looping that can be done is the complete scene that came through you that you acted out without thinking about it, thinking from means immersion and immersion requires the mind to let go of control which introduces contrast which breaks the naturalness of the flow that the process is taking you through. If you go through that specific process within the process that the scene represents fully and all the way as many times as is required to dissolve all that is there just like when I ended up running as hard as I could outside then you will feel the relief and manifest what's for you without ever needing to try. That is how I believe this works with my most refined knowledge on this process. It all needs to come through us. Control is the issue. Control is what causes opposite results and signs and frustration and a depletion of capacity. Letting go is natural.

Now I feel my relief because I went all the way. I was so tired when I was writing this but I needed to and my sacral had enough energy to do what needed to be done. You're the same. Do what needs to be done and play it out to its end. That's the secret hidden mechanics of SATS and what NG failed to explain in how and why it works the way it does. SATS is a method of purification IF done correctly. 

That is the essence of detachment and being nourished and “dropping seeds”. All the seeds already exist within you though and the roots of our experiences we are grown up into are reflective of what we’re suppose to see to formulate the assumptions that would generate the psychologist train of thought that justifies to us why we are the way we are when in reality those are all manifestations of the thematics moving through us at all times. It’s all thematic. This profound understanding and sense of experience in life transforms you completely. It’s just so powerful to not just assume or think that something is true but to feel the depth of your being resonate with that truth is truly reality shattering. Being purified under that perspective is the greatest feeling there is despite how painful it is in the moment. It’s almost like this whole idea of “delayed gratification” is how manifestation works. The harder you try and push the process forward the harder you’ll backslide and fall over because your limited conscious mind simply cannot maintain that energy, it must be moved through the experience otherwise you’re applying effort and experiment contrast all the time which we know now is the cause of limited results like signs and such frustrating outcomes. If you want the frustration gone for good then let go and be driven into what you’re being moved into. 

Just letting go. That’s all we need to do. Let go of what’s not us so that we can be purified in our natural expression of self where our unique outer authority can be made manifest through us. That’s how the lesser Yang becomes purified. 

Part of me wants to say that it was the qi tonics that resulted in the moving of the resistance out of me but the other part says that of course it was that was lighting the fire of passion to provide the contrast I needed for the dip to then play out in a more intense manner to dissolve what’s deeper under the surface. Higher highs always result in lower lows. Always. 

 

12/11/24

What we believe is our natural thoughts that come through us as impulses of resonance towards certain directions and concepts are not really us but pre-determined seeds within us unfolding through us at the right time for us to see certain thematics in the world. This most often is experienced as "insight" in the moment and it almost forces us to be moved. We can't help but need to because the body will almost pull you towards it without any questions asked. I always felt this and described this in my early writings on manifesting theory. Most people who naturally manifest things are naturally driven in these directions. Most often this involves them being in tune with themselves, because you're being driven, and if you're stuck holding onto limitation and contrast then you cannot be driven and you'll be thrown out of flow, even if that flow involves seemingly negative experiences that you're being led through. The profile for example can determine much of this base thematic experienced, which for me is significantly the 3rd line. Trial by fire. 

The naturalness of all of this is so profound when you really understand that you're not doing any of it when it happens. That's what "don't lift a finger to make it happen" really means. It means letting go and accepting. There's serious depth in what NG writes that I even failed to comprehend when I've read through it multiple times and the reason why is because of his language and lack of alchemical and technical understanding. There's no analogies that can be likened from his writings to anything else we can draw metaphysical significance from, but when you read between the lines and dig under the surface you can see elements of alchemy and Reality Synthesis there. I still disagree with him on SATS as I mentioned in my last entry but many layers of his work has depth that nobody else out there seems to be talking about or recognising. It's something that I don't believe really anyone in this LOA community understands, and really it's all backwards anyway. It almost makes me think that the LOA community was created to divert people away from the deeper understanding for the motive of making money off of the ignorance of the masses in thinking they just need to "think and grow rich" as Napoleon Hill says which was a really badly written book. I have read it through like 4 times and I see nothing of value to be gained out of it, the keys to success or whatever it's called is a much better text with actual practical processes to work with.

The issues we all seem to face with the idea of manifesting things is with regards to letting go of control and accepting self completely, or in other words actually giving up control over your destiny and being driven by the secret self over the temporary mental state we get trapped into believing is all there is. This is mostly a symptom of being malnourished, on all levels, and as a result we cannot have a clear view of what we're designed to see and experience which is why we feel aimless and missing value in the world. The secret here is really about simply knowing self and bringing self up and allowing yourself to be moved wherever you're driven to be moved and to recognise how that reliably manifests through you as the inner authority. I can talk about techniques to control your states and all this stuff but the issue with this is that the very need to even apply these manipulation methods is because you're avoiding facing the part of you that's holding back the nourishing current of self that would naturally manifest through you if you just let go. This is the point, letting go is nourishing but we don't see it that way in the moment because all we see and feel is the lack of having the thing we're attached to that we believe will be our supply when the truth is that we are always our own supply through greater consciousness. Always. That's the only way you can ever manifest nourishment that's satisfying. 

Manifesting for others is an interesting point to discuss too. Manifesting for others seemingly is another one of those magical things that makes people change. I read stories on the NG subreddit every now and then about how they got an SP to break up with a 3P and move in with them in a matter of days and it seems that this is like mind control magic to the uninitiated. How can someone have such influence? This phenomena is really what the whole basis of LOA is founded on as it's reason for existing as it does with seeming credibility. Explaining this and breaking it down and exposing the secret mechanics will completely destroy LOA. 

The phenomena of manifesting changes in people comes as a result of supply and demand, as all things do. You become a supply for the person you're "targeting" for them to experience contrast through and make decisions out of accordingly. Now these 3P situations will almost invariably not work with relationships that are satisfying for both parties, the person trying to manifest the SP in that situation will most likely be the one who feels lack. Someone trying to manifest an SP out of lack will at best have hot and cold behaviour, but remember that people are always motivated by how they're feeling and if they're filled with resistance that can often be driven out of not self tendencies and so if you're providing them a thematic that caters to their not self conditioning where they're receptive then you're going to effectively seduce them without even trying simply because you're a supply for what they want which will provide contrast in their minds for different decisions to be made and provide the "reasoning" for the 3P to split. It's always natural.

Think about your current issues in relationships, if there's any to speak of, and think of those except amplified by like 10X in the moment when it comes up and you'll naturally just want to break with them anyway because you'll think of the person who you believe will be better for you as the option you desire. Do you see? It's always natural and that the thing I want you to really grasp. You're not controlling them at all, all you can do is play with their receptive nature and provide them thematics that they're receptive to where they'll then as a result want to think of you because you're what comes through them to be that supply and they'll want to reach out to you. You're not planting thoughts in their mind all you're doing is providing them what they don't have that they want and or what they're suppose to see and experience through their resonant process if you're more designed for each other. You're marketing to them on a subtle level, it's the thematics that land the thoughts into the peoples minds who are involved. It's all thematics and the thoughts naturally are going to lead them into that experience of that thematic and it will be completely natural to them where they'll think it's all their ideas and such when in reality it was a subtle influence of supply driving them to making those decisions without realising it. It's always natural. 

I hope that opens you up to recognising that manifestation as we understand it is a complete joke and really it needs to die and be burned alive never to be seen again because it doesn't work, for obvious reasons I've demonstrated as one of the seemingly few people on earth who's doing this work. This was all what came through me, I never learned this from anyone really on any level. You won't hear anything I'm talking about in the NG community and yet there's an entire world of people who believe NG was about mind magic and that we're dreaming a dream in the mind of god where anything we imagine is like projecting images into the world without restrictions. Whatever is imagined will be manifest. That's irrefutably incorrect purely because if that was true then we'd be experiencing things that would be impossible to us physically like jumping to different plants and teleporting into stars and breathing underwater and spawning gold out of thin air and all these things we're alchemically not designed for at all.

None of that works for anyone who's in that community and the reason why is because imagining it doesn't manifest it, it only "impresses" the thematic elements that comprise that experience which comes through us and is translated by the mind as the images and sounds and such that we experience in imagination. You're only ever able to think in terms of thematics, but it's so real to you that you don't realise it and all you think of is words. Words define thematics as sound which we use to communicate. Without the senses then corporeal consciousness can't exist. Don't you see the simplicity of this? It's so profoundly complex to even grasp the essence of this idea because you need endless examples to provide that context but underlying that is all the simple nature of how thematic elements of consciousness only really are what exist as refractions of the singular light of consciousness. One light refracted into all the parts taking a unique form of the one supply of emanation. It's these unique refractions of light that then are cast upon the shadow of the form and generate a means by which the soul can be made manifest for the soul doesn't exist as its own element of consciousness and relies on the interactions of the refraction of light and the absorbing substance of yin to swallow it up and provide the anchor by which purification can unfold through. Without an anchor then you'd disembody at the sensation of pain, so you're stuck for the function of expansion by turning the light and taking the shadow up into the crystal that's refracting the light so that they can become one thing. That alchemical process is fundamental to all things in reality and manifestation is what that process is in experience. 

Once I get rhythm and flow going I can't stop. That's how my energy to complete tasks comes about. I need intuitive impulse to drive me into and the flow means I can't stop until it's either done or I run out of time and need to return to it later. Looking back I was always able to complete work I needed to when I got moving into a powerful flow, and it's like that with so many things. I don't experience contrast much, or the need to seek comfort in the tension of working on something that's challenging. Going through that pressure is required for expansion and purification to take place as the pressure separates the components of consciousness and allows them to be individually unfolded into a new form. This cannot be faked, as I've said so many times. Going through this is required every time and it's why hard times are what develop us and provide us satisfaction by going through it, instead of running away from it which is where you're going to be unsatisfied as you're not using your energy correctly. Manifesting what's satisfying means going through the pressure to be transformed out of natural inclination by the inner authority.

 

13/11/24

Interesting idea. I've already written about this before to some degree but the idea of giving word based description to the thematics you're experiencing can shed some serious light and actually bring up more refined thematics out of those the more detail you build out with the senses to describe what's coming up. Say there's a pattern of thinking people see you as less than you are. This is an internal perception and you've identified specific memories that are the testimony for this. In that case you can instead of just talking about the limitation itself talk about it in its thematic nature and write words to describe it, and then opposite words that provide a sensation of response from the body that drives you. Feel the resonance. The body is part of the "feeling" is the secret too because that's what's coming through you too remember. Describe the thematics that are compromise and then build out further contrast with opposing words that elicit response.

Me an my environment of "valleys" for example. I also resonate with open areas, deserts, beaches with open sea views, hills and actual literal valleys like on a rolling countryside, I resonate with a cool breeze blowing by like you'd get on the top of a hill. These thematics of being in an open and elevated area is what I resonate with in that sense. 

 

 

A client I'm talking to revealed to me something interesting. His affirmations came out of the thematic, it didn't bring it up. We're driven by the seeds unfolding. The thoughts come out of that.

 

Letting go is leaving the need to continue playing false notes.

 

"I am the solution"

 

14/11/14

The nature of SP manifesting. They can only be "attracted" to what they are not, meaning what they're going to receive in supply from you. That's the polarity dynamic. 

 

15/11/24

So manifesting SP stuff. Once again the topic of discussion. I find that more often than not there's a weak man and a women who's never been put through pressure. This process of sitting with feelings and recognising what they represent within that's not nourished is what most of the women are unable to do and so this emotional immaturity comes out in needing to make the man attack himself through admitting he was wrong since she can't even have a chance at refuting his points. More often than not this is is how it is and I've experienced this myself in the past too. Most women especially of my generation and a bit earlier (when common decency and respect was thrown out the window for the mainstream nature of feminism trash where they think they can play both roles) have never been properly disciplined by a strong father figure. 

It starts with a strong father figure who isn't afraid of saying "no" and not agreeing just because there's tension and allowing the girl to fit with her feelings and process them and over time of trying different methods she learns that she either has to change or continue to feel this way. Any leeway she sees in your guard she will use and take advantage of and see as an opening so an absolute solid wall needs to surround her so that she has a certain degree of "fear" when trying to push the buttons. You need to teach her she can't get away with the trash without any way of pressing for ground. It's like the take one step and they'll take a mile. You can't give a single step or they'll use it against you because that's how they're going to avoid facing their feelings and they'll do anything to avoid going through the pressure of seeing their own blind spots. 

This is required in romantic relationships too. The man basically needs to pick up where the father figure failed and make her feel smaller than him. This is required, it's not being overbearing or any of this it's masculine feminine dynamics and these feminists have been so good at gaslighting men into throwing away their power which is exactly what the weak women want us to do so we throw ourselves away and put up with their trash. If you put up with it no matter what it is she's going to be like the childlike version who sees an opening to get what she wants and will grasp onto that for dear life as justification to allow her to avoid looking at her own feelings.

Now this isn't to say men can't also be emotionally immature because they absolutely can and will if they didn't have a solid wall put up around them too. There's the whole thing about aura type and all that in how you respond to them when this happens and whatnot but these principles apply fundamentally as yin and yang dynamics. It's fundamental here and applies regardless of the type or profiling or whatever, this isn't about specific things of their behaviours but about avoiding looking at ones self because of what they might find. This is entirely about avoiding the pressure to transform which is a function of conditioning where they'll do whatever they can to stay in the box even if it means costing the other. Women will go as far as to threaten you with hurting themselves to avoid feeling their own pain and will make you blame yourself before they'll stop and say you're the reason they're like that. They'll do literally everything possible to make you bend down to validate her feelings in these places even when it's all just their weakness and that coddling them won't actually help it because it'll come up against because you're not the cause. They'll feel like this even when it doesn't involve you because it's them disowning themselves. I faced this in the past and it's extremely toxic and you can't ever change it in them unless you respect yourself because that's how you'll change them. I've discussed the mechanics of manifesting changes in others before. It all goes back to you providing supply for them to bounce off, being the one who doesn't play the games and makes them look at their own feelings when nothing works. That's the only real way you'll be able to manifest changes in people is through being correct yourself and valuing your vitality completely. 

It simply comes down to are you going to devalue yourself because someone else is unable to face their own feelings? If you devalue yourself then they're going to continue to get away with it because that's their ticket to falsely boosting themselves up into a position of power which the women aren't designed for and really are in a position of inversion which is disgusting to men who know their value. It's utterly abhorrent and gross and I want nothing to do with any of that degeneracy. The same goes for women seeing weak men who run away from the responsibility of being themselves. It's as I've said before if you're looking for external justification to avoid facing the responsibility of making correct decisions then you're the problem here. This doesn't mean you don't have justification to feel resentment towards those who abused you if it was genuine but that's a different situation where the victim hasn't received the contrast to be able to take back their own authority in the way that's correct for them. The men simply must have the self respect and value their inner authority and take those risks where they don't agree with the women and doesn't validate her feelings because that's the only way you're going to get her to look at herself. You become the immovable object and the unstoppable force will stop and break apart and be forced to put itself back together again. You must be the contrast. There is nothing more powerful to a correct man than a woman who's correct in herself and isn't afraid of being led and simply being a partner for life over using the man to avoid owning her feminine power she's afraid of owning for whatever reason. You cannot as a man discuss this with women because they're more likely unable or unwilling to open up about their true feelings about how depreciated they are because they know it'll mean they lose so as I said they'll play games to avoid this because it's the only way they can win. If women could threaten you more intensely then they would if it came to that. This fear of looking into ones self is the fear you're dealing with in relationships with degenerate partners, on both sexes. It's simply that the person you're with doesn't feel comfortable owning who they are and accepting it and surrendering and going through those feelings that they're running away from and blaming you for. That's what you're dealing with it's nothing personal.

There's also the element of how the modern world has provided women a platform to take away the natural power leverage that men have in providing resources and such. It's that when you give more and more (the degenerate Jooo run state giving that is) to women that are compromised the harder they'll lean into that conditioning and will be able to get away with more as there's no consequences for disrespecting men. In the past the women had a certain degree of fear over their man because if they didn't respect him then they'd lose access to a lot of physical safety which is what they really want to feel but in todays age that's not really a thing anymore and it's by design. It sucks because population collapse is inevitable unless things turn around soon. It's the way things are going to provide contrast which will force change, since as individuals we can't face our responsibility in our own space we're being collectively moved to do so. You'll notice many times people will project responsibility onto a leader like Trumpet to justify them avoiding looking at themselves when these people are all actors in the play just as the rest who got all the laws passed that made this mess legal to begin with. Man I could write pages and pages on just how stupid the idea of a legal system is too and how it doesn't actually really solve any problems with people being immoral.

Most women have been brought up in the position where they cannot do wrong and that all her needs must be met or the people who don't bend the knee to her demands are bad. This issue is what plagues the modern world where our culture has been built around appeasing the needs of women who cannot provide substance in return outside the abundance of Jing which will deplete as they continue to act out of incorrect decisions. There's no pressure they've gone through to be refined. The only women of value are the ones who have gone through the pressure of being themselves and compares themselves to themselves, died as Odin did. We must reflect and recognise that the only measure of value in ones life isn't what you're born with but what you've earned through being yourself correctly in this world. Those who have had everything handed to them have been conditioned to believe they don't need anything more than the abundance of Jing to get their way when the fact is the the shallow nature of the inner being is crying out for purpose and function but they're too afraid to own it and so will project that feeling onto the world to avoid taking responsibility for it. Men can be the same too if they're disowning their path as well, as I did.

When you can go through your feelings and own who you really are then everything you desire will manifest. Period. I don't care if you're a generator or a projector this fact will always be the truth for everybody period. Don't debate you simply stand over and become the immovable object that's going to force them to feel their feelings IF you're in a position of self respect to do so, else you withdraw if you know that's not going to work and they're just so degenerate, like if they're hurting themselves if you don't bend the knee and accept their justifications. You're dealing with a child who's not grown up yet. Treat them as such and be the one who breaks their cycle of avoiding the responsibility of being themselves because that's all we can do. Imagining them differently can work in the temporary sense but as I've said unless you also change at baseline nothing will stick. That's the illusion of imagining them being different, it's that you'll see changes on some levels but those changes will be inconsistent and or you'll end up in a hard dip after. The reason why is because you're using imagination to avoid facing the part of you that's needing to be looked at. You're thinking that manifestation gives you a reason to bypass being purified. This is what I mean by manifesting partial results, because you're forcing something to happen but that experience will always bring up in your the lack and usually in a hardcore manner that hurts more. 

It's really just plain and simply that you don't want to involve yourself with degenerate people and that people who are correct won't want to involve themselves with you if you're a degenerate. If you're experiencing lack then it's because you're accepting degeneracy (which is a form of degeneracy itself because you're devaluing yourself by putting up with it) or that you're the one who's projecting feelings because you don't want to face yourself and take responsibility for it which is why nobody respects you. It's that simple. Are you respected or seen as a degenerate? You manifest who you are because being the degenerate with things you're holding onto that's not self will be the contrast to your true desires and seeds naturally unfolding where you'll feel bad if it's not there and not realise it's because you're disowning parts of yourself.

Another interesting idea is this whole self entitlement attitude that many women have that they deserve a certain amount of this or that even if they're knowingly got low self value. It's like a cultural thing that's been thrown into everybody and it's just accepted without question. This idea that they can be treated well just because they exist as they do is a huge issue and then when that becomes the foundation of their identity because they don't get it then it becomes a massive problem of conditioning. Now the interesting part of this is about manifesting things. If LOA works on assumptions and they have this genuine assumption then how come they still feel so much lack? They can seemingly manifest things into their lives but it never shows up in a satisfying manner. This power that I've found many women to have surprises me and it's an interesting study. This idea that they never have to look at themselves critically is the issue, we've been conditioned to validate the external appearance and never dig below the surface to see who's really under the skin. Doing that is bad and it's finding faults and yet this is the only way that we can be refined, contrast. When women are able to look at themselves critically and own what's been disowned and disregard not self conditioning and make decisions that are correct then they'll be nourished and as a result other people will respect them. They will be then able to embrace true feminine essence and be led without it seeming like control. This is essential for the culture to embrace if we are going to experience an abundant world. 

 

Men with high testosterone are driven to be the expressions of the thematic of "expanse" as in "big" natured and well respected, someone who's above the rest at something they're driven towards. This is the exact opposite of women, when women cross over past the point of the middle ground and into the realm of masculine traits then it becomes degenerate. Men when they're holding back and seem to accept being small and weak and powerless are seen as degenerates because they're taking on feminine traits. Do we grasp the dynamic? Men regardless of their design are inherently dominant. Why is this so hard to understand? A correctly functioning endocrine system will reflect this in both sexes it will be dominant and submissive/follower. Women follow men, men are led by their greater yang the their lesser yang follows. Women follow their greater yang the same way in decisions but by nature they're not going to be driven into those roles because it's not what they're designed for on an endocrine level. Women inspire men and men inspire women, it's that simple. The degeneracy comes when they try and take over the other polarity and disregard their nature. If the genetic potential of all men is to have high testosterone and represent that theamtic then owning that is correct, period. Why are we not understanding this? Even in my own life I can see compromises on expressing this and it makes me question about if the sense of self value is accepting and open to being this way. The body will respond with a yes IF there is energy available but the thing is the endocrine system represents that energy availability and so it makes me think how the intensity of body drive for generators especially is determined by that factor and the compromising on seeing yourself as that highly dominant type who just moves without question is the real issue. Conditioning to make us accept being weak, and that when it's brought up then you realise the weakness and make the decisions differently. Once again this doesn't mean dominant in the sense of being a manifestor it means being completely driven by who you are and expressing that and not being submissive to anybody. You are your own authority and going through the pressure of making those decisions is the point. You'll find people in that place naturally will have more coherent endocrine and nervous systems anyway. Jing boosters work most directly with the nervous and endocrine systems. This must be for a reason. It's moving you closer to your genetic potential which is my point. We don't see that or even really feel that response because there's not enough definition there (mental environmental definition) to provide a clear outline of that that seed of manifestation is like. That seed must come up to be felt but we don't have many examples of this in the modern world. There's almost nobody out there to bring that out of us and remind us of our genetic potential, because we get lost in the echo chambers of limitation and forget who and what we are and what we're capable of. Gazing brings stuff up but it's usually not on these levels. When you fast from the world and have an example to bring up what's within then you can have an end to be moved towards. Men are suppose to be competitive. Once again if you've never had a powerful endocrine system you won't feel this. It's natural and should be owned by all men period. I know there are some who think that not everybody is here to see that but I disagree that's filtered within the lens of a functioning endocrine system. Manifestation has a lot to do with this because it relates to the natural manifestation of how your body is able to process incoming sensory signalling to be calm and clear in your direction instead of wavering.

The coherency of your endocrine system determines how you see yourself and the world and how connected you are with greater consciousness.

The common thread between those who are successful in this life however that is for them is that they've all got coherent nervous and endocrine systems. All of those methods simply plug Jing leaks which bring you closer to your genetic potential. No surprises that manifesting specific people as someone who's whacked won't work. Honestly it's that nerve force is required to manifest because it's the natural means by which you'll attract what you're designed for and the form can respond to what it needs to since it's got the coherency to go through it. You'll be more stable. Like it's just so obvious. Thinking that you can bypass this is silly.

 

We are to defeat the hungers of the false self. Starve it out. Literally. Make space for your true consciousness to shine through you.

NG speaks of manifesting as the satiation of hunger. This proves my point about how a coherent endocrine and nervous system being directly related to your capacity to have greater consciousness come through you. Fasting from the senses. It's just so obvious. The feminine (the less yin) receives the purified masculine (genetic potential as made manifest through your lesser yang as the greater yang/greater consciousness) and you're subjugated just as the feminine is reflected in relationships as a surrendering. The thematic process here is reflected on all levels. Strong men who aren't driven by weakness and hunger for cheap stimulation are the ones who achieve greatness as they're the ones who receive more of greater yang as impulse to be moved. I've said this before and I'll say it again but your ability to be driven depends on having the energy available in the form to actually be driven. Energy doesn't show up out of thin air you must provide the correct thematics for the form to respond.

 

16/11/24

This is a repost of a comment I made on the discord. It seems I had this flow through me when responding to his comment.

Greatly appreciate your dedication to reading the whole notebook and keeping up with my latest entries. There's likely going to be more I'll be writing on that in future.

One of the most common threads I find is that men who have coherent endocrine systems are like magnets to the feminine without a shred of effort and all the mental stuff almost doesn't matter at that point because it just comes through you. You don't need to know anything about manifesting if you just focus on that aspect because it's the main factor in the degree to which your form will drive your consciousness which for the people with low TEST they'll be stuck in their heads as a result and think that thinking will solve their issues when it's simply a symptom of another issue. Now matter what these people do manifestation just doesn't work consistently for them because they're not nourished within.

This whole manifesting thing isn't above everything else tangible it works side by side with those elements and the deeper you go the more you realize that you don't "do" manifesting, it "does" you when you're nourished. The seeds of manifestation unfold through you because your form can respond with sufficient vitality to where it's being driven by greater consciousness.

Because NG failed to explain these elements we've all been thinking this is about "reprogramming the subconscious mind" when in fact the foundation of your subconscious mind IS the form and its coherency with greater consciousness as a product of the interaction of the conscious and the unconscious. I also have found that manifesting for men and women is different, given the endocrine systems are different, the Jing is utilized and catalyses different thematics of consciousness in both. You must become a supply of the thematic polarity you're manifesting. If you're unable to be a supply for that because you've disowned it then how can your thematics interact with that polarity in a powerful way?

Imaginal work (from a perspective of trying and not having the seeds unfold through you) simply is a way for us to adjust our bufffer thematics through experience to tip us over the edge which is why many people experience hot and cold behaviors because their baseline is still coming from an incoherent endocrine and nervous system. Assumptions come through us. Everybody with a coherent endocrine system has functional mental health and stability, it's a well known sign of well balanced hormones with sufficient androgen sensitivity to utilize TEST and dopamine.

There's significant biochemical research I've seen direct correlations through to mental and physical vitality. Physical immortality requires a coherent endocrine system, it's all part of the same process I believe. Collectively we can see that as our endocrine and nervous system health goes down the assumptions we hold follow with to reflect that disproportionality. It comes through you because of your relationship to the form. Most people in this community don't take this seriously though and think it's all imagination which couldn't be further from the truth. A vast majority here use manifestation to avoid the responsibility of owning their polarity dynamic and going through it, because it's uncomfortable to them but that's the point of purification that cannot be faked which expands capacity. The imagination is our interface that the subconscious can be experienced, which is the substance generated through the interaction between greater and lesser corporeal consciousness. It all works together.

Manifesting someone of significant coherency with themselves who's not whacked and filled with resistance of their own (manifesting specific people will only really work effectively in attracting someone who's on your level of coherency too because your correctness will bring out of them their own limitations just as others do for you. NG oversimplified it leaving too much interpretation.

Just some more interesting bits to contemplate on.

The function of the form should be worked with directly with the assumptions side because they both must function as one because that IS the subconscious mind. If the form is incoherent then the subconscious cannot be expanded with space to experience correctly what is within unfolding through you. NG disregarded the functions of the form which is why his methods rarely works for people. The alchemy is clear as day when you connect the dots.

 

I've just realised I manifested a change in someone but it came out in a way that's not ideal. It's like I basically controlled their mind, they've taken up a bad habit and they feel worse but they did exactly what came through me. This proves my point that it's all supply and demand and that you can't pull people on strings without them facing their stuff. It's always natural.

 

My experiments with fasting (from the world in all ways) has demonstrated to me that attraction is indeed not based on assumptions but that assumptions work alongside nerve force. The common thread is nerve force and how coherent the form is with where it's supply of vitality is and having the conscious mind surrender and be moved. I'm going to have to break the news to the LOA buffs and destroy the illusion of mentalism. Going to need a massive amount of resourced to prove my point through because I'm running up against their beliefs, but that's a good thing. It's me doing my function correctly. Your internal alchemy is all about having a coherent and well functioning form because that's the basis that your conscious mind exists in. To think otherwise is utter ignorance and I will destroy that position swiftly. It's almost as if nothing else really matters because it's all working through the form because the form is how greater consciousness communicates to us. The fact is attraction is entirely based on nerve force as a primary function which is the manifestation of having a coherently functioning form as this enables the subconscious to expand further.

 

The research says that temporary bouts of stress doesn't increase cortisol but instead boosts testosterone further. It's only when you've got extended periods of stress that cortisol is increased and test is decreased. This to me seems to relate to the metaphysic of compromise on your natural drive and holding back from going through pressure. Going through pressure is positive and beneficial for your vitality, when it's correct, because it's purifying. Once again this doesn't involve magic happy thinking living from the end so called methods because they tell you not to go through pressure they say experiencing pressure is bad but it's not and there's clear biochemical pathways that reveal this. The pathways by which acute stress is beneficial for test and androgen receptor functioning is very closely linked to how the neurotransmitters related with acute stress response like dopamine and norepinephrine and glutamate. All of the biochemistry is reflected in Reality Synthesis. Zinc, magnesium, Vitamin D, Omega-3s, Vitamin A and other nutrients are all beneficial for androgen sensitivity. Eating trash screws your endocrine function up big time, same with getting trash sleep. You cannot overcome this with thoughts. Period. Now I understand how I was able to recover from being in the pits of despair when my functioning broke down badly and that fasting from the world was my solution, just as the Christos says. We think it's about fasting from stimulation but it's that this process works through the endocrine functioning. You can't avoid that because it's the same in everybody without exception. If you're lacking in nutrition (thematic nutrition) your androgen function will be whacked. Women don't have this issue the same way because they don't leak Jing from erotic thoughts like men do which is why mastering your libido functions is extremely important. Sexual fantasy will destroy your androgen receptivity. This is a massive part of why so many men are weak and depleted is because they go off into fantasy to cope with the fact that they can't endure pressure in the world and go through the resistance. Seed retention has proven this too and has a huge benefit on endocrine function. Royal Jelly is something that will amplify this effect because it's a supply of baseline Jing which unfolds the genetic potential and brings up resistance to be processed AS the drive to make correct decisions. RJ boosts root pressure, in essence.

Foods that block androgen receptors which contain the following ingredients are to be avoided:

Polyphenols, Flavenoids (very common), Isoflavins, Lignans (also very common), Curcumin, Catechines, Epigallocatechin gallate (EGCG), Resvertarol (too bad I like blueberries), Quercitin, DIM, Berberine, Ginistein, Sulfourofane, Lycopene and even the magic green stuff people think is powerful called marajuana, which it's not because my studies into TCM and helping people with this addiction have revealed it just burns Jing like crazy which is basically the exact opposite of an immortality herb. 

 

Another level to this is very simply that your natural habits will adjust where unconsciously you'll find yourself doing different things that would correlate to the processes on the biochemical level that mediate the currents to provide the supply which attracts what's desired and within the seeds of manifestation. It's like if someone imagines themselves to be filled with vitality. This will naturally driven them to eat differently and move differently and spend less time overstimulating their minds and all that stuff. People who are younger have buffer capacity so it doesn't impact them as much but for the older people it absolutely will. There's always a natural process involved with manifestation. Always.

 

It seems to me that there is no real way of avoiding the natural biochemical pathways that would lead to someone manifesting what they desire. The way I see this is that attraction to SP (someone of high value and coherency who's going to be a good supply for you just as you would be for them) relies almost entirely on having coherent endocrine function, but the thing is we've been told that this is all a mental active process that we have to work with. That's an issue because there's an uncountable number of people, mostly men, who throughout history naturally recognised the alchemical process of purification I speak of and how it's reflected in the biochemical elements that they just applied and it ended up in them being moved correctly to be the supply for what they desire. The form must be on board with the direction you're moving in, and without sufficient vitality (endocrine function) then you're not going to be able to experience that without contrast because it will be effort.

 

Less is more.

 

17/11/24

There's no doubt in my mind anymore that what NG is actually speaking about is the natural process of manifestation that exists within our potential for experience. NG wrote about wishing and faith and all that stuff under a bible context but what that really is is thematic which associates to every level that is manifest through that. What I’m trying to put into words here is that all the language he used is talking about how manifestation is a function of being moved by greater consciousness through experience. When the idea of “acceptance” comes up its talking about under his context (the feeling being “the acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled”) its representing that you’ve got the currents available to move you into that experience. You can’t make acceptance happen it has to happen through you and that the missing link it’s all happening through you meaning almost unconsciously. The form must respond for acceptance to be actually experienced. You cannot fake this and the stuff I was talking about before with endocrine function and all that is representing bio markers that we can measure in the body that gives us an idea of the currents available to it for your consciousness to experience actual acceptance. Without those currents your natural striving cannot function because the form is what’s really being moved and your consciousness is pulled along with it. Thinking that experiencing with the conscious mind alone is what manifesting is is completely backwards it’s that the form is going to do alllll the work and the conscious mind simply exists within that and that’s what acceptance is. NG failed to explain this which is why we all think it’s come mental game we play with ourselves to “reprogram the subconscious mind” and all this ignorant trash you hear too often from people who don’t understand anything about the alchemy of this. 

You cannot make manifestation happen it must happen through you by having the subconscious capacity to facilitate that process. It’s required. Gazing can amplify this (which is open eye SATS when used to stabilise a thematic to experience) but then people go off into their day to day lives continuously depleting themselves without realising it and then wonder why their imaginal work failed. Part of the reason why is because they’re depleted (people back in the days of NG had more coherent endocrine functions and you can clearly see the depletion of these functions over time as the years pass, for example testosterone going down over 1.3% per year since 2011 which is HUGE and explains why most people of my generation are so mentally unstable and are seen as gross by women because there’s no vitality to be a supply with) and that they don’t realise that they’re being depleted and so the unconscious aspect is warping their stability of state and their conscious mind is being thrown around within this tiny subconscious space thinking that feeling good will manifest what they want. What they want often times is also missing the point because usually it’s them passing off the responsibility of owning their vitality and endocrine coherency and other systems because the challenge for them is to actually stabilise the form to be capable of having the energy available to respond. So much of this work is about increasing subconscious capacity which is a result of living correctly and all that stuff I talk about here. This once again has next to no way of being influenced with the conscious mind it must be applied through a change in habit which then has a knock on effect on how stable consciousness can be for the lesser Yang thinking mind. This

of course reflects an increase in subconscious capacity and that “glow” will be experienced by others as attraction, literally they’ll see you glowing as I experienced when I first started gazing when I was very young. Since then I destroyed myself so badly that my capacity still isn’t at that level consistently, else I’d be manifesting effortlessly like I did back then which I still have some resistance come up to work through. The reason why I’m glad I fell so far and depleted myself so badly was that it gave me perspective and experience of living in such lack that people saw me as disgusting and were repealed by my presence. I know what that’s like and without those experiences I couldn’t know how these mechanics play out fully from actually feeling what it was like in the body and being unstable. Experiencing such degeneracy and instability that my body was in serious decline gave me more insights about how the unconscious works than I could ever read about in any book. This is also partly why I seem to have a unique perspective because I went through the full spectrum of contrast of both sides of abundance and degeneracy. Subconscious capacity cannot consistently grow unless you’re working with the form first and foremost. That’s the substance of your field geometry and it’s what anchors all currents. You require a coherent body function to manifest anything in an abundant manner because your conscious mind cannot accept and actually have faith without it. You cannot fake this and no matter how hard you try it won’t work because it’s alchemically impossible. Both elements need to work together for abundance to manifest. It’s required. Thinking that you have an abundant supply of vitality will not magically manifest that it will require you to either already have sufficient capacity in which it will just be made known to you as you’re already comfortable or it will move you through a purifying process which will challenge your mind to accept where your being driven. That’s the acceptance it’s about letting go of what’s not self that’s warping your form function where vitality can radiate and you can have the supply which manifests the abundance you desire. 

Abundance is not an assumption it’s an unconscious function of the form. It’s entirely an unconscious factor where you feel abundant because the form is coherent with greater consciousness and it has been accepted as such by lesser Yang. You won’t be able to help but experience abundance in this state. I think I said before that states really should be seen as degrees of vitality and nourishment that we accept and not as belief structures that they’re commonly seen as. The alchemist made clear to me that a state is a degree of “consciousness” which of course reflects how much of greater consciousness you’ve become one with. States (thematic personifications and characters) in the bible as NG calls them are also reflecting alchemical functions in the system between greater and lesser process. This cannot be faked because it’s alchemical and alchemy is what consciousness does as a function of natural striving towards higher order. That’s why you feel bad or good or anything in between, it’s reflecting your degree of order with greater consciousness which is your supply which you’re moving away from by not accepting where you’re being moved to experience. Holding on is not accepting. Not having faith is holding onto false directions of desire. Holding on is holding you back from being nourished and accepting.

All the stuff that NG talks about is entirely relating to alchemy but decoding that from between the lines takes a certain degree of time and insight that washes over me spontaneously. I can’t make it happen. Nobody can. NG had a functional form that wasn’t depleted and all he had to do was consciously get on board with where he was being driven and accept his responsibility to his greater consciousness. He took responsibility for his vitality and directed it correctly where he was being driven instead of trying to control. What he manifested came through him, he did no control anything because he can’t. Nobody can. Control is the illusion because control always leads to your reality confirming to you that your still unsatisfied and lacking. No matter what your conscious mind does or does not “manifest” in experience it will not ever be fully nourishing and satisfying if you’re not being driven by greater consciousness. If you have a highly functional endocrine system and nervous system then even without correctly acting on intuitive impulse your influence over others will be greatly increased and you’ll tell all these stories about how you manifested this person and this sim of money and this deal or whatever and it won’t matter because it’s still not satisfying your natural striving. You’re using that influence to move the form towards what your conscious mind wants, which you can do when vitality is sufficient because of the supply function I’ve gone into before and how people will be attracted to you just because you’re filled with nerve force but once again that doesn’t mean the end outcome of these experiences will be satisfying. It will be easier and you’ll seemingly have control and get it will still fail you because it’ll be driven by lust for influence over others and the world in using this power vs accepting and surrendering.

These processes are not the same thing and yes you can “control” to the degree that you have supply to influence that plays into other peoples thematic receptiveness for conditioning but that still doesn’t mean it’s correct for you. Being satisfied is all that matters because it’s the barometer of coherency with greater consciousness. You see these people who influence the world and control people through cultivating vitality to the degree that they have access to with the available Jing are only ever able to experience abundance on the level of the lower substances because truely abundant Shen requires a full supply of vitality from greater consciousness which is a higher order level of substance which can only really be cultivated through correct movement and acceptance. That’s where the immortality side comes in and separates the “celebrity status” types who have abundance of Jing from the immortal legends who had next to none of that or even cared because that’s not where they’re driven. Their legacy was left as breadcrumbs just enough to know their work. You need to grasp that vitality that’s arising out of greater consciousness through you through being aligned is negentropic and restores your physical vitality further and replenishes the Jing that was lost through moving away from playing your correct notes. When your life becomes a reflection of your unique signature song then you’ll become one with greater consciousness as we are to become one with that embryonic capacity within all of us to unfold into a proportionate reflection of greater consciousness. This cannot be faked with thoughts, nobody ever can manifest immortality without this alchemical process unfolding through them. 

I know there’s more questions to and to explain further about how manifesting works through seeming control vs being moved and the different paths and such but that will come in time. Simply speaking your manifesting ability reflects directly to your abundance of base substance that is cultivated and circulating and in supply for others to receive. Attraction is always based on aura interactions and it’s entirely unconscious because the conscious mind only experiences the sensory level of those thematics that the body is being moved to interact with. This cannot be faked.

When you’re abundant within the vitality of the form then your entire life will become easy. This is mostly why women who are highly attractive but have whacked beliefs can still manifest money and specific people and all that because they don’t burn Jing from endocrine dysfunction the same as men do which a vast majority of them end up depleted at a young age due to online activity and moving away from their competitive nature and expressing masculine qualities. The world we live in is designed to deplete those qualities and you’re born into it being depleted before you even realise it. Men are suffering the most because they’re weak on a base substance level and nobody wants to receive what they cannot supply and thus they’re broke and unattractive and suffer immense pain. Been there done that. Most women have an abundance of vitality within and even with degenerate beliefs they’ll still manifest abundance without as much effort because they’ve got that supply available which can’t be as easily depleted. Sounds opposite of what NG says but it’s actually the hidden meaning. The Jing determines everything. The Qi determines what comes out of that.

Men throughout history have always reproduced less than women, and this reason is because women aren’t depleted of Jing as easily as men and men aren’t as attractive when they’re depleted it’s that simple. This works in ways of money too. It there’s more nuance to that. Physical attraction plays a massive role in reflecting one’s Jing. You can tell when someone is fake and has all this extra stuff on to make up for weak Jing and that’s because endocrine function cannot be faked. Once again it will seem blasphemous to speak about such seeming limiting beliefs but it’s the fact and we can see this playing out on an individual and a collective level that’s influencing everybody. 

You hear about the stories where people will just casually imagine something without a shred of effort (it comes through them) and it manifests like they imagined and forgot about it until it showed up. They say that they can’t replicate this. The reason why is because they’re in contrast and this natural unfolding cannot be faked. It’s either they have deficient vitality to flow with what’s coming through them and to accept and burn off resistance to negate the contrast between the thematics coming in vs what’s expected or they’re controlling their direction and are holding on. Women to manifest SP most often have to simply own their Jing and accept what’s there which usually is a function of feeling through the deficiency to dissolve it given sufficient fire is present to break them apart and process it but men also go through the same process but under more of a natural unfolding process where the pressure to hold the vital currents and go through moments of temporary discomfort will naturally generate the conditions by which they can feel through it. Once again there’s no universal process because everybody has certain degrees of variance on this but it’s a general process.

These are the differences in how Jing is manifest between polarities. There’s more to unpack here I can feel it unfolding but it’s not taken sensory fork yet. This is the direction I’m moving in. It’s slightly uncomfortable but that’s good because it means I’m opening up new boundaries and it happens naturally. 

I’ve just heard NG talk about how everything in the world was first imagined. What he failed to grasp is that these things that were created were created out of what greater consciousness unfolded through them. He says that all things were made by god. Well that’s what that is, it’s acceptance of natural striving. Like what more needs to be said? Manifestation by the admiration of what NG says is a function of Reality Syntheses and what unfolds through us that’s moving us to manifest what those thematics represent to the senses as filtered through our unique design. There’s no magic to control here it’s just that the body responds to greater consciousness and the mind experiences that as it comes through us. 

It also makes me think that since greater Yang is the supply for greater consciousness unfolding the seeds of manifestation within as those imaginal scenes come through us then wouldn’t lesser Yang to the same degree be capable of driving the form if the form realises the reality of what’s coming through it? There must be sufficient capacity for this to work but it makes me wonder if the mechanism of seeming control in manifestation (not that it’s satisfying but still) is a function of the form having available vitality to manifest something even if it’s not the correct note to play and that this phenomena is what everybody is grasping into as manifesting and “conscious creation”. 

 

It's really just as simple as stop depleting your subconscious capacity and be driven by your body and how it feels over the mind and what you think you think you want in the moment. You look at other people having what you want and you only feel worse because you know you're undisciplined and continuing to compromise on your path. Naturally what you imagine will come through you and manifest and it's that simple you don't ever have to use techniques to be satisfied. This is no some secret stuff it's all alchemy. The only thing you need to do to manifest is go through the uncomfortable feelings that you're running away from that purifies your consciousness and expands your vitality which amplifies your supply for other people to receive and reflect in the world.

 

Generator manifesting method.

Listen to the sacral essence. If the feeling of "rising" comes up then move into it as the response. If the feeling of "sinking" comes up then drop it and move past it. Cultivating root pressure fuels the sacral response to be more intense. You can feel it in your spine and arms and head and all over you rising when it's powerful. It will not be mistaken. If it's weak because you're depleting it non stop and overstimulating yourself (depleting nerve force) then you've got no chance to feel a powerful yes or not response and it'll be more of a mental tug of war. most of the problems generators face in my experience is that they just don't have the ability to feel a powerful response and they second guess it. If the response is powerful then there's no mistaking it. That's your inner authority and that's the spark by which the seeds of desire unfold. If you end up playing any mental tug of war then you're going in the wrong direction. Recognise mental tug of war and drop it and move past it if a response is involved. If in your own space you find yourself going through tug of war then process what's coming up and recognise where the mental conditioning is warping your response. If the response is powerful enough you'll almost be unable to stop the decision from just coming through you and I believe that a vast majority of people who cultivate stronger nerve force (endocrine and nervous system power) just almost can't help but be moved because their response is just that strong and the mental conditioning is really pointless. There's also the function that a more powerful sacral (not specifically root pressure but instead what root pressure becomes as it unfolds as generative power) gives you a more powerful aura which of course will "attract" people to you more effectively than being weak and depleted. A strong aura is essential for the "wait" because if you're weak then it's not going to be as potent with both the response and opportunities that arise. You must be a supply for the current that others will interact with and be conditioned by, for better or worse. The other element of this is about splenic vs emotional vs pure sacral authority. This part is massively important in decision making. So if you're pure sacral then the rising sensation is to be acted on in the moment else you're compromising on your response. Splenic is very similar but it's instead of a rising sensation a sort of tingling sensation like the "safety tingle" you get when you sense danger, it's in the moment and a one off unlike the sacral response which can come up as often as it needs to. With splenic even if you get the "yes" sensation from the sacral with the rising current you don't act on that because that's no the authority. Emotional is tricky because even if you get a sacral response it'll make you want to act there and then like a pure sacral but you should only act on that if your solar plex is also in agreement with this. This means that if you've got emotional (not mental) indecision where you're not feeling sure about it even if you get the rising sensation then you wait and sit with it and see where it goes. If you're unsure and feel like it's not time then wait, even if your sacral is screaming at you to move. The sacral needs to be confirmed through the solar plex and unless that emotional clarity shows up then you're going to have to wait, because for emotional authority there's "no truth in the moment" as Ra says. This doesn't mean you can't make decisions in the now but the solar plex and sacral must shake hands together else it's not going to be satisfying because there's emotional hesitancy and this will likely result in the tug of war moments you find come up. Tug of war as I've said means there's mental conditioning that needs dissolving and it's best to do that outside of the moment by moment basis. Now I believe root pressure can actually provide the solar plex with more "clearing" power to shift out limiting stuff there that's causing the indecision. Uruz rune for example relates to this which is very closely linked to root which of course in TCM is likened to the kidney meridian as the supply of yin and yang for the whole body. If the purifying fire is weak then you're unable to transform those resistive feelings so if you want to act more like an in the moment generator then get your endocrine and nervous system together and you'll be able to have the handshake and make decisions without tug of war involved.. This process is the generator process and as an emotional (peak dip cycle specifically) manifesting generator it's clear to me how this works now after years of experimenting with this stuff. Without the handshake then decisions almost always result in unsatisfying outcomes. Being driven by the sacral is tempting because of the intense sensations but that's never the way we should act. There's also more details on what specific types of emotional waves feel like as some are more active than others, like being drawn out or more of like climbing a ladder with intensity increasing over time or with a sudden emotional spot that provides clarity. It's all about the specific emotional type that we respond to when the sacral is saying yes. When that's active then you win. Period. It's simply that if as an emotional generator you're feeling "comfortable" with something and you have the sacral response then you win, otherwise fulfilling what's keeping that uncomfortable sensation in place (if it's conditioning that is and not just thematic dissonance) to clear what's causing the uncomfortable sensation will be the solution. Simply experience the time outside of the peak of the emotional spike and ask yourself for the response and if it's still not "comfortable" then leave it be and drop it. The thing is sometimes these things come from instabilities in other circuits as knock on effects so ultimately the only way to know what's true for you is time to provide space to see what's what. There's also splits. I'll quote Ra. 

“Whenever you’re dealing with a split definition you have to recognize that the moment that you move from single definition to split definition to triple split definition to quadruple split definition, everything slows down.  You cannot expect a triple split to operate at the same speed as a single definition. A single definition integrates information completely the moment it receives it. A split definition does not.

In other words, it can receive information but those two sets of information as they operate through their design don’t have a relationship to each other.  You’re always waiting for the bridge. If you’ve got a triple split you can see that a triple split definition can’t just come to a conclusion. If you’re emotional and you’re a triple split, that’s an ideal.  It takes you forever to come to a decision anyway, so you might as well enjoy being emotional and take advantage of waiting out your wave. “ Ra Uru Hu

That's the generator process.

People always wonder why I take so long to make videos and draw conclusions. Well the big reason why is because I'm so split up as triple split aaand emotional authority that's ladder based where my solar plex has zero connection to my sacral. In other words I can't make decisions unless I'm feeling on board with it and that only comes through when it's ready to do so. It's fine because I can just continue to go through my process of refining as I do and it provides me time to log my thoughts on these things here on the notebook. While my conclusions may take longer I can sample a larger quantity and variety of data to consider before making those conclusions. This is a pro and a con, others move faster in their process of discovering what's right for them but at the same time the depth there is significantly decreased and so the unique quality of that work will not be the same. Both pros and cons. What I've learned through my design is that even though waiting can often times feel painful it's always beneficial to hold off on making decisions because an in the moment decision made out of mental conditioning and the need to get stuff out because of the pressure that's not been processes is going to more than likely throw you out of whack and play a wrong note. This burns Jing. Emotional authority highly split generators likely have increased capacity for cultivating vitality due to the slower nature of their decisions but at the same time being conditioned as I was and making all kinds of stupid decisions will utterly destroy your available vitality. Immortality work can be potentially easier but it just depends on how correct they life. 

I believe that as an manifesting generator or generator story it's that the emotional authority almost relies on having sufficient coherency of surrounding systems because as someone who's constantly been on edge having extreme anxiety in the past where literally every decision except a few felt uncomfortable it's almost impossible to actually make decisions and the way that I see it is that how is someone who's got dysfunction suppose to make correct decisions if their available vitality is rock bottom. Nothing they do can work. I've been there done that and it sucks. I can have unbelievably powerful sacral response that would be like driving me crazy literally smacking me in the face non stop every time a moment to respond would show up with intense levels of energy available but I'd still have this undertone of anxiety behind it. I see this as a weak endocrine system and to a degree a weak nervous system, which mostly relates to actual coherent root pressure that's cultivated higher order substances as it's unfolding through the sacral. it's an alchemical process. Without a coherently functioning solar plex then how is it possible to make correct decisions if nothing but anxiety and other negative feeling continue to arise no matter what you do. All the mental context shifting methods that I've created don't work in those cases because it's just going to shift it in the moment but when that's dissipated then you're going back to fear and doubt. Do we act out of faith in this place like NG says? The way to do it in my opinion is to become the supply for the thing that you feel uncomfortable with so that you influence it with the sacral and have clarity with the root pressure nourishing the solar plex through the biochemical mechanisms I've spoken of before. It's that if you're nourished with vital substances your solar plex will function more coherently with the sacral instead of there being discord between them. This is in my opinion how to address this issue. Stabilising the nervous system with less sensory stimulus as well as actually running the sacral motor regularly very hard with HIIT work for example and eating correctly and sleeping well. All the obvious well studied examples that provide a higher level of coherency. Take substances like the royal jelly and fast from the world. You will be more clear and the confidence and clarity will wash over you in moments where anxiety previously overshadowed the sacral response. Most people with solar plex authority who are powerful sacral beings require to have a coherent endocrine and nervous system else you're going to experience unbelievable levels of frustration and you'll be absolutely traumatised by it to a degree that's horrific. I've gone through that before over about 4 years or so, arguably 8 years but it's something I'm glad I did to some degree because I learned from those experiences and I can see clearly how correct response works. I see the whole time thing with waiting for the wave to circulate before asking for the response again as a limited perspective because that assumes you've already got a functional solar plex which many people don't because of unconscious stuff that's stuck in their circuits. I've discussed the alchemy of this before and how root pressure is required to actually transform these things, which I believe SATS relates to directly so that you can go through feeling and processing what needs to be dissolved where you'll then have a clear emotional response that should be there and it will enable then the sacral power to be utilised correctly instead of bathing deep in frustration. it involves going through pain and pressure to some degree but that's what's needed to clear the solar plex from degeneracy. that's just my opinion. Ra didn't talk about it but I see it as a big part of this and why I think I didn't fully grasp emotional waves when I first discovered HD like 3 years ago. Everybody needs to grasp when reading the notebook that a lot of what I speak about comes from extremes of degeneracy and divinity and not so much the middle ground where most people exist. I went through extreme ends of this to the point where I was basically unable to function in the world normally, where I couldn't walk outside for more than a few minutes without breaking down with anxiety. Almost all of that comes from whacked endocrine and or nervous system dysfunction. Nervous system mostly relates to stuck traumas and endocrine relates to things that disrupt the circulation of yin and yang in the body which of course will mean the solar plex isn't well nourished and results in the feelings of lack non stop where you're constantly up and down and never really stable in anything. There's always an undertone of anxiety about literally everything and when you've got both then it's just a recipe for disaster. You're screwed. The only way to get back on track in this place is to just dissolve the nervous system trash and clear it all out along with bring nourishment through the endocrine functions I spoke about. Cheap dopamine is the biggest destroyer of a nourished solar plex. The solar plex relates very very closely to the kidney meridian since it's connected to the root which means that the fundamental functions of the Jing must unfold through the emotional system and so if you're depleted then there's no way it will work correctly, even if the sacral is generating and you're getting that response. The energy must shake hands with the solar plex and without that there's no chance you're going to be abundant. This is why sooooooooooo many people who work on endocrine function which relates mostly to the kidney and spleen (metabolic specifically) and to a degree liver and lung meridians when it comes to qi which also nourishes the solar plex see such intense benefits from basic methods. It's not mind magic or placebo it's mechanics of reality and alchemy. Taking royal jelly as a supply topic for JIng to boost the solar plex and root pressure and not diving into erotic fantasy regularly (the most damaging next to cheap dopamine which can lead to intense negative spirals and feedback loops of lack) and cultivating space with gazing and other such methods like fasting can all benefit clearing the solar plex and allowing you to actually act more like how emotional authority is explained by Ra. You'll be more pure sacral the more in harmony these are together so supporting the solar plex is literally the most important part of this process if you're defined that way and are under serious lack and frustration. That's a long one.

Acting out of casualness and dissolving the need to even have emotional waves is a huge function of correct nature. Sounds counter to having solar plex defined but as far as I can experience and have heard from others who have had success it's almost 100% based on having a "comfortable" feeling about something where it's unfolding through you (the sacral response) and there being no emotional contrast to throw you out of that flow. Both positive and negative emotional peaks and dips are not what we want to be acting on, it's the clear still waters (kidney meridian governs the water element) that allow a clear reflection of the seed to be experiences where there's no ripples on the surface clouding the water and the view of what's unfolding through that. When we are calm and stable and steady then we as emotional authority win every time. You can act very much like pure generators when the solar plex is clear because the only difference between a pure sacral and an emotional authority is the waiting for that emotional wave to dissipate before finding clarity in the hopefully still waters. I believe that this relates very directly to how your thematic supply is emanating in these moments of emotional current running which will warp how the seed is naturally going to provide substance to those involved who receive it. The signature of that seed will be warped with emotional variability which is the point of waiting for that to clear. The note you play will be wrong as the thematics involved in that moment, the exactly tuned precise function you're going to embody and play out must be tuned correctly for what the sacral is driving you through so the solar plex being a motor of course will have very close relationship to the experience of sacral essence when in those places to make decisions under emotional charge. It seems that most people who can manifest specific things are those who have clear emotional currents where there's no contrast warping the seed that's unfolding through them and that they can just flow and accept and be as they are responding to the sacral rising movement. 

The satisfaction out of this is immaculate. I am so glad I went through that I could feel the sacral still raising currents up to come through me until the end and now it's been processed and the seed has unfolded. This "need" to type out these entries never has emotional current to it, it's just s sensation of urgency more than anything from my sacral pulling me to do these. I can't not do it because it's comfortable and the drive is so intense. I just have to. This is exactly what manifesting anything else is like. It's that the sacral is driving you to unfold the seeds of manifestation you're designed for and if there's no emotional contrast warping how you're feeling about it then it's absolutely going to be something you'll just NEED to do. You won't have any way of stopping you'll just find yourself going through it without realising it and by the end you'd look back and see what you've done. It's not you going through it, the sacral is driving you completely. My mind has nothing to do with this I don't sit down and think I just get the need to write these out and boom here I am. It's like hours pass without realising it. Often times I get these urges later in the day after I've taken all my calls so nothing gets in my way, though sometimes things come up and I have to tell them I can't go because this is more important than anything to me in those moments. To them it might seem disrespectful but that's beside the point I'm unfolding what my sacral says yes to. Being driven is the secret. You can't be driven if there's emotional contrast throwing you out of the expression of the thematics involved and so the work is simply to dissolve contrast by creating space and processing it with vital currents which nourish the solar plex and other circuits. That's the essence of this work. The point of negating the emotional contrast isn't to completely numb yourself to emotional wave but simply to be able to have the space to not have them be so influencing on your decisions where everything that's even somewhat challenging can be felt as negative. It's that you're desensitised to the draw of buying into the peaks and dips and are more focused on the sacral response itself, which of course makes you more of a direct generator at that point where you don't have to wait as long to attain clarity. There will always be waiting involved but it won't involve significant time, though for triple splits and such it will always rely on others to bridge the sacral to the solar plex and without that connection then your response can be influenced by that split when it's not correct.

 

It’s just so abundantly clear to me how all this works. There’s no doubt in my mind that the essence of manifestion is completely about being driven by greater consciousness as the seeds of desire unfold through us without contrast to them. 50% of people on earth have emotional authority which means that understanding its function and applying it correctly is extremely important to being satisfied. We must live correctly if we are not to age and die in our sins. We must refine ourselves to an extent that there’s nothing there which can throw us out of flow with our core essence. We must become as the embodiment of the thematics which unfold through us from the seeds of manifestation within. We are a piece of music that plays itself, but only if we focus on playing our correct tune. Being yourself is playing that correct tune where everything will be as it should and there will not be resistance. Challenges will be a part of how concsucousss expands and not something we get stuck on. If we are to reverse aging we must revise incorrect decisions up to the present and fulfil our process from here on our. Mastering ourselves is all there is to be done. Nothing else matters. This is who you are and what you do. 

Stablity is what we truly must strive for. Emotional instability is the curse that plagues the weak and causes collective suffering as the individuals comprising that college continue to pass off responsibility for their decisions. Cultivate space and go through it. Clear out your internal environment and be free flowing with your inner authority. Be pure and refined and proportionate to greater consciousness where your existence will attract literally everything you desire to you. It is effortless because being yourself is effortless. Refine your senses and cultivate the space of an immortal God walking among flawed mortal men. Embody that space and live and breathe it for that is your core essence of the secret self. 

I was our riding my scooter in the night yesterday and it felt absolutely blissful just like it did on Thursday. I felt such intense blissful sensations being so freely flowing that I almost exploded from the intensity. This is the kind of stuff that happens when you’ve got significant flow and resonance. It’s like you literally become one with divine supply in this place being a pure embodiment of your greater consciousness in corporal form and the flow you’re in reflects that. It’s so beautiful to experience because its literally your body telling you “yessss” to being yourself and that it’s absolutely a correct note to play. That reminds me of how I felt in that place and I just got a sacral response thinking of that experience. There’s so much there and the resonance is off the charts. Being yourself is the most amazing thing you can experience. No doubt. 

I believe that emotional stagnation when related to a badly running sacral will be the real cause of frustration in generators. Generators have to be able to feel free to make those sacral moves but the stuck feelings throw that out. It’s not even really the sacral energy being stuck but also the lack of coherency between the sacral and the solar plex. They must work together as one if emotional authority is defined. It will not work otherwise. The whole point of a defined emotional system is to provide a depth of experience that can reveal more about the nature of self. It almost forces introspection to understand these feelings and to listen to them and what they’re associated to and why you’re feeling this way. We don’t need to mentally analyse everything and go hunting for grains of sand on the beach to solve our problems but to just let go so the waves can wash the surface sand carrying the seed back into the ocean where it belongs to circulate as it may. Letting go means going through the experience that’s stagnant and allowing yourself to see through it for what it is. Going all the way is satisfying for a reason. There’s immense depth to someone who’s mastered their emotional circuits where they can feel their feelings as themselves and not as someone else. They can go through the feelings as they arise and be able to separate them from self where they can just exist and yet don’t influence the decisions. This stability where emotional intensity is refined and clear is where we’re looking to move into. You cannot turn off the solar plex and the emotions will always be there but mastering them simply means they don’t run your life and limit the sacral response. The sacral response is there simply as the primary motor to move your consciousness through experience. Then the solar llex becomes the main motor and it’s dysfunctional then of course the sacral will be frustrated and that depth will be lost in all the misery of self destruction. Letting go means letting go of the barriers to sacral response and being open to being driven when the sacral says yes. 

I believe SATS exists as NG describes it not mainly for the purpose of replicating imagined experiences but for the purpose of satiating desire as he said. Satiating desire under my context is more so about going through what you’re holding onto to open you up for the seeds to move you and the people involved towards your end, the end being the thematic nature that’s resonant as the seed unfolds. It’s what you need to go through that you’re holding onto that matters the most. What you’re holding onto is what’s holding back the sacral response from shaking hands with the solar plex and until we can normalise the sensation of being comfortable with this thing then we cannot accept it and negate the contrast from the natural flow the seeds are unfolding through us. Your emanates supply thematic that others pick up on will be warped in that place with emotional charge so mediating a comfortable current is necessary. If they pick up on a warped thematic then of course it’s not going to be correct because what they’re receptive to wasn’t what that seeds represents which is why you can’t force it and all you’ll get is unsatisfying outcomes. Mastering emotional contrast is a huge piece of the manifesting puzzle for everybody which emotional definition. We must get to the point where we can be able to accept ourselves completely if we are to be moved correctly. Sitting in that stable thematic sensation of resonance normalises it, though without pressure and a degree of discomfort it cannot truly be satisfied and processed. Without sufficent vitality reflected in the biochemical and reflected alchemical elements that transform resistance we cannot be satisfied either. Those base currents are required to move the disproportionate resistance so that we can fully go through it and unfold what is truly there for us. Cultivating vitality truly is the foundation of application. Pure generators don’t have that issue to face, they just have an open and amplifying emotional circuit to learn from and that the in the moment sacral response is all that matters and is how they process it. Less is more. This is why there’s no one size fits all process for manifesting anything. You require stability as an emotional authority to understand when it’s correct to make decisions because without that comfortability that’s really been “earned” through cultivating the vitality to support that state then you’ll always be thrown around at sea in the emotional waves without any way of letting go. Letting go requires vitality as a condition. This cannot be faked. 

 

18/11/24

Training lower body hard (root) boosts androgen receptor function significantly and really should be done by anyone with a response to do so.

 

The feminine only wants to receive if there's supply. Submission comes from a need to attain the yang that's locked within the masculine that the feminine can only receive through surrounding the Yang and making it surrender its power to the feminine. It has nothing to do with control and everything to do with energy dynamics. The feminine will WANT to submit IF there is sufficient nourishing current available to attain. Weak men can never manifest an SP. Weak women who aren't able to surrender will not receive the vital Yang they need. Both parties when they own their respective polarity will attain what they need to be nourished. Literally she will actually DESIRE your vital current if you're well nourished. You can target someone and with your available vitality feel "normal" being with them where they're receiving vitality out of your interaction which will influence their direction and make them leave their 3P for you, but ONLY if you're got available vitality for them, just as you want from the manifested SP. There must also be a sacral response for the manifestation to unfold as this is where your vitality emanates, literally the source of your nourishment as the field you're interacting with the world through. If you're a generator and you've got a weak aura then you're basically screwed as an energy type. You REQUIRE vital current to actually be open and enveloping on a thematic level to "attract" the right people to you for your process. It's not even that you're attracting them it's that you're becoming a brighter light that they can't help but move towards. You're just more attractive to those around you when you're filled with vitality and you won't be able to help it. You'll be magnetic to opportunity and the sacral will respond to everything and making correct decisions will be supremely satisfying. You'll basically pull peoples strings if you're highly defined and have significant vitality because it's all your conditioning influencing them because you're their supply. They need you to feel nourished because they're not nourished themselves, that's why they attach to you, that's what "love" is.

 

So nourishment and vitality and space and all those elements are effectively one in the same thing. You attract based on how strong your magnet is. I spent years trying to explain how this wasn’t true and how we could imagine it was powerful but no matter how deep I went to explain it that never happened and could be explained correctly. It just doesn’t work. Vitality is a fixed function that cannot be faked or imagined to increase. You cannot bypass this with imagination imagination is your interface to the thematics that are unfolding through your consciousness. It doesn’t create and it doesn’t have power over the form. It simply exists so that we can experience stable thematics (looping the scene) which are what our sacral drives us into and that we are open and accepting of. 

You must grasp that when you’re nourished you’re actually able to relax and feel satisfied and be able to sit back in the relief of completing what you’ve been driven to unfold. That relief cannot be faked. You must go through it and if you’re anxious and on edge and stuck in negative dips then providing your form with substances that nourish it like Royal jelly and even ginseng which is a strong sacral tonic then you’re going to have the ability in those moments to make correct decisions as there’s available vitality and go through the response to satisfaction. Your attraction will then amplify further and you’re going to end up manifesting things that you completely forgot about not because of dropping them but because you’ve gone through the unfolding of that seed to satisfaction and your vitality is sufficient to bring the desire in a satisfying manner. I also believe that the sacral will drive us towards experiences that can provide us vitality to further amplify our magnetism. If greater consciousness is moving us through the natural striving towards higher order then all response should serve our profession towards that. The end is satisfaction. Always.

There’s a reason why NG spoke about satisfaction and relief and the end. These things really mean that you’re replicating through imagination and SATS processes that complete thematic transformation of the sacral response to its end. Satisfaction. You’re taking that sacral response (the sensation of true desire) you feel and describe the result of it in how it can be satiated. Satiating hunger. This I believe functions for the purpose of clearing stagnations by catalysing resistance on the minister fire to go through you and so the end is brining out of you what the anchored limited themetic implication to be experienced and dissolved. You’re taking responsibility for your end in essence. You are bringing it up as a result. It’s not a one and done under this context because you’ll be processing bits of it and the degree to which that is dissolved depends on the available nourishing current to clear the resistance out. If you’re depleted it won’t work as essentially your sacral and emotional system will know you’re not a match for what you’re targeting and you’ll feel the lack as a result. It’s that you’re chipping away at increasing capacity as you continue to go through it until you reach the critical threshold and emotional waves dissolve where it’s comfortable and casual for you. I don’t see how manifesting out of a state of emotional peak is possible, nor even emotional dips.

I’ve manifested SP before when I felt significant resistance being dissolved through me and the only way I was able to do that is because I had sufficient nourishing current to move through that and dissolve it. They manifested but it wasn’t satisfying still because it was what my mind wanted over my body. My sacral didn’t respond favourably but it proved to me that you can absolutely manifest anybody who’s on your vitality level if you’ve got stabilised thematics you experience and use to “target” them. This once again doesn’t mean it’s going to be satisfying for you and that just because you can manifest contact out of thin air doesn’t mean it’s something you actually want. You often only get that just to prove your limiting beliefs correct and what’s holding back your vitality from reaching new heights.

Vitality cultivation is the essence of manifesting especially for men. Women it’s about accepting and being able to envelop the vitality you’re supplied with. Men must be that supply and when they’re weak then there’s no attraction, or it won’t last long. Most men who say women are crazy and out to get them are just weak and pathetic and depleted in their vitality. I see it all the time. The limited beliefs and feelings and experiences where they’re absolutely destroyed by their partner over time and they lose so much, it’s all a sign of weakness. Usually. Usually it’s that there’s no supply for her to receive and so she’s depleted as well out of that and all the testing comes out of a need to get reactions to open up her thematics of reception but of course there’s no vitality on the man’s side so it just ends up in arguments and trash. Without vitality on the man’s part then relationships are impossible. Unless the woman can receive then the man cannot provide that supply because she’s closed off. That’s how it works women naturally want to be moved by the Yang, to be subjugated and really become one with it as a shining light they can count on to be there (the feeling of safety they need) and when it’s gone then of course the lack comes out. A woman who’s well nourished and has mastered her own inner Yang will not need a man to feel nourished but will still attract them anyway. The man must cultivate the kidney yin (seed retention for example) and the Qi as the expression of the Yang the feminine receives. The more masculine essence the man has then the more powerful that polarity will be felt unconsciously and the more attractive you become to ou tree really everybody who’s looking for that supply. Money and love and opportunities flow in. The feminine only probes and provokes to get out of you your masculine essence, but since you’ve disowned it then she wins because there’s nothing there but limp weak depleted current. Pathetic. Attraction requires vitality. Period.

Embody that thematic as your polarity and you win. Manifesting becomes easy. Endocrine function is probably the best place to start cultivating that. This all depends if your sacral says yes or not though. Always listen to your inner authority. 

 

19/11/24

I've finally done it. I was about to go for a walk to the forest this morning to do my qigong routine and right as I stepped outside there it was. The sacral told me to go back inside and write.

The reason why we naturally are just driven to do things almost without realising after doing SATS correctly and even having other people seemingly manifest in our reality out of thin air (contact at least not literally teleporting) is because of the intensity of the available vitality for the sacral to drive us aaaaaaand the openness to be flowing with that body response due to the contrast being dissolved that previously would've thrown you out of that flow where the mental tug of war plays out and makes you become aware of your natural striving. The body dips out and it's not naturally flowing with the impulse the same in this place because the naturalness of "being" that person has been dissolved in the contrast. The contrast is the disproportionality between the natural seed unfolding through you that drives the sacral response and the conditions we've held onto in the mind that break that seed from unfolding due to the themtaics of that note you're playing to be out of alignment and resonance. The note must be resonant to how the seeds unfold and without that resonance a greater process of multiple notes becoming one melody in proportionality cannot be realised or experienced. You cannot become the embodiment of that which is without that naturalness and so SATS (if done correctly and having available vitality for purification) as a method of stabilising the sensation of being in that place negates contrast by living through it and thus giving the form the currents that are playing out as the sacral responds to that imagined experience. The form will respond to it, the sacral rising sensation can only really unfold when there's available vitality to do so, and the space one has enables a deeper degree of immersion to dissolve contrasting resistance through the normalising of the reality of experience. 

Simply put, for emotional generators SATS is a means by which you can normalise the emotional currents that come out of that thematic experience and work through the implications to become comfortable with that. You're dissolving the resistance by doing it. It's a purification method and through the sacral response that's meaning this is a satisfying experience you're able to target and refine the elements that are uncomfortable to bring them up and normalise them. Pathway work is a means by which we can log this and work through it. The whole "subconscious reprogramming" element only holds true for those who are normalising emotional irregularity and it's all done through providing a sensation of thematic resonance and comfort to the form. The mind can only watch. You're normalising it by going through it, with sufficient vitality. I've said this before but it's now making more sense from a HD perspective. 

Looking at the Just now chart it seems my root is hooked in. No wonder.

 

Ra mentioned a connection between liver cells and the G center in his PLL DLL talk.

Ra talks about how we're her to get lost in the movie of life and not realise we're in it. We're here to watch not play, from the mental level that is. The form is driven by greater consciousness and the corporeal lesser yang must be able to accept that and go along with it.

"You cannot transform the vehicle until you nourish the vehicle correctly" - Ra

I'm interested in studying more on the experience of the split between emotional system and sacral definition. In my chart for example. That split, how does that influence how resistance is dissolved. 

 

22/11/24

Link to page 10: https://realitysynthesis.com/pages/aetheraeon-notebook-10