Aetheraeon Notebook 23

Also there's the link to the NG quotes page as I will continue to update and add more to it over time. They will not be sorted as of now but they will be the most important quotes that I've listed. If you think quotes should be added then DM me and we can talk about that.

Redemption - Neville Goddard lecture - 1969

"We are told in Paul’s letter to the Romans that this world is a world of sorrow. Then he gives us the reason and the glorious end it produces, saying: “I consider the sufferings of this present time not worth comparing to the glory that is to be revealed in us. The creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God; for the creation was made subject unto futility . . not of its own will, but by the will of him who subjected it in hope; for the creation will be set free from its bondage to decay and obtain the glorious liberty of the children of God.”"

More quotes from Paul.

"Here we see that the redemption of the universe depends upon the revealing of ourselves, for, buried in this world, we are the sons of God but we do not know it. The world did not subject us; we subjected ourselves. No one took our lives; we laid them down ourselves. We have the power to lay our life down and the power to take it up again. Coming into this world for a purpose, we deliberately became what we are in the hope that one day we would rise and redeem the world by setting it free from its bondage to decay."

We are sons of God in CAPACITY. We have the components to make that realised. I'm not going to repeat the points we've already been over unless it's said in a different way. His lectures are mostly the same same with some slight shifts in each one that give us more info on his overarching doctrine. The later lectures post promise are better of course too. They're not just filled with stories about people manifesting huge sums of money and fortunes and such that he got popular for in his early writings and talks which led to the mind magic model coming out as a limited interpretation.

"Your connection with the plan of redemption called Jesus Christ can be told in this manner. It is like a visible history which is compressed within a few years, and the eternal history of salvation, which continually unfolds throughout the ages. At a certain moment in time these two histories come together to unite into one person, who is the Son of God and the unveiling of your true identity. You and I departed the world of eternity and came here for a divine purpose. And it is here where our real humanity and the true divinity of Jesus Christ unite and become one person."

He calls Jesus Christ the literal plan of redemption and in other lectures he calls Christ the pattern. Same idea. We came here for a divine purpose he says. We didn't show up here to manifest infinite wealth and romance and all this meaningless stuff we came here to purify limitations of the world. He says that we have a collective history (meaning there's an objective reality that's unfolding through every one of us being a part in that) and then a personal history which is our own unfolding of the components reflective of the macrocosm.

Below I will simply copy paste the entire transcript from here on because there's a lot of unique stuff here.

"Prior to this event Jesus knew himself to be the resurrection, and when he asked Martha if she believed, she answered in this manner: “Yes Lord, I believe that you are the Christ, the son of the Lord God who is coming into the world.” Notice the tense given here: he who is coming into the world; therefore, where is he being addressed? If you and I were speaking face to face would you not be here with me? So is the conversation not taking place within, as self speaking to self? Are you not telling yourself that you are the Lord who is coming into the world?

Now, when the command was given to remove the stone, the statement is made that there will be an offensive odor. This is a very important sign, for when the stone was removed, he said, “Lazarus, come out.” Then the one who was dead, bound hands and feet, with a napkin covering his head, came out. They unbound him and let him go.

You may think this is secular history, but I tell you it is not. John took events in divine history which were separated in time and wove them into this one grand experience. This I know to be true. John took the first event (which is resurrection) and the last event (which is the descent of the Holy Spirit in bodily form as a dove) and wove them into one grand complex picture; yet the events are separated in time by three and one-half years.

The resurrection of Christ in you and your birth from above are inseparable for “We are born again through the resurrection of Jesus Christ within us.” John takes the first event as someone he is going to raise, yet refers to it as the last event; and unless you have had the experience or know someone who has, you cannot understand it. I have books on the Bible at home, yet no scholar has touched this truth, for truth is not logically proved. It proves itself through revelation.

In my own case, the last event was when the Holy Spirit descended upon me in bodily form as a dove and smothered me with love. A woman at my side observed the descent, and said: “They avoid man because man gives off such an offensive odor. But he loves you and to demonstrate his love for you he has penetrated the ring of offense.”

Here we find the sign as an offensive odor. It was not just an odor, for an odor may be pleasant. The author was revealing the intensity of disgust felt regarding the world into which the sons of God had descended. Everything decays here . . but everything! No matter how long a thing seems to live, whether it be animate or inanimate, in time it decays and vanishes. And the generative organs in the state of decay have a peculiar, offensive odor. On many occasions I have awakened knowing a friend or relative has died because I have smelled his odor, only to received confirmation during the day. The odor is associated with the decay of God’s creative power upon which the world is built.

When the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove descended upon me, it was a woman . . not a man . . who told me of his love, saying: “They avoid man because man gives off such an offensive odor.” The creation, waiting with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God, avoids this odor. But at a moment in time, contact is made between the two histories: the human history of 6,000 years and the eternal history of salvation. They touch, and one new person is created, without loss of identity. You are aware of being touched and the being doing the touching. That being is Jesus Christ, the eternal, heavenly man.

Soon after that moment you will take off your garment of flesh and leave this world of death for the last time, for you will have come into your heavenly inheritance, which is the body of the Lord Jesus Christ. Creating anything at will, your every wish will become objectively real. That is the power you are inheriting, along with a body to fully appreciate it. Now, the creation waits for such contacts, for the creation has been subjected to futility . . not by its own will, but by the will of him who subjected it in the hope of revealing God’s sons, for such everyone is.

Now let me share a recent experience of a lady who received my eyes in vision about three years ago, at which time she was told that she was an incurrent eyewitness: one who gives passage to a current moving inward where reality is to be seen. In her recent vision she found herself with a group of people watching bolts of light move toward her. Then she began to feel a power so great she felt as though she could still the universe. Suddenly a man dressed in black stood before her and she recognized him as the embodiment of fear. But as she looked into his eyes her memory began to return, and she knew he came into being by usurping her power when she fell asleep. She also knew that now that she was waking and her memory was returning, he was on the verge of demise.

There is a rabbinical legend which states that man’s doubts, his unbelief, and frailties are always dressed in black. So she saw the personification of a being called Satan; and as she watched him try to cause her fear, she heard herself say to herself: “I am Paul and I am Jesus Christ.” And at that moment she felt as though she were a man, yet it did not seem strange to be so. This lady is a young mother of two expecting her third child, and is very much a woman: yet in her vision she was totally man. She knew she was Paul. Not a Paul, but the Paul; and she also knew that she was Jesus Christ, with all the power she formerly possessed, minus the portion memory had not yet revealed.

Now to continue her vision: Reaching out, she struck the man, and as he fell back on his elbows he looked at her with his piercing, fiery eyes and she knew he was trying to find some weakness where he could once again recapture the power he had taken from her when she fell asleep and forgot who she was; yet they both knew it was hopeless now. Then he spoke, saying: “You don’t remember when you met me, do you?” and as she started to reply she remembered an ancient dream of a tree and a man standing beneath it. It was he who told her to eat of the tree, and as she did she entered the dream of life and forgetfulness. Then he, the power of the world, became real. Appearing to be others, he was her very self; and the power she was going to redeem was returning to her, for she knew: “I am Paul and I am Jesus Christ.”

Now, who is Paul? His name was Saul, which means “to ask for.” Saul was ruled by his personified hate until he touched the eternal story, and the union of the two transformed Saul into Paul . . the redeemed man who knows he is man, yet also knows he is the Lord Jesus Christ. Everyone is destined to experience this awareness.

The authors of the gospel took the events in the divine history of the Lord Jesus Christ and . . taking liberties as poets do . . they took events widely separated in time and fused them into a complex picture, as though they happened at one moment in time. Our evangelists knew that something as great as this could not be spelled out so that a child in kindergarten could understand it. As Blake said: “That which can be told to the idiot’s understanding isn’t worth my care. The ancients discovered that which is not too explicit was best fitted for instruction.” Our gospels recorded events which were revealed and can never be understood logically. There truth will only be known from experience.

I am telling you what I have experienced based upon divine history. You will experience it in the manner I have told you. The evangelists did not give you the chronological order. They wove the events they had experienced into a story, because truth embodied in a tale shall enter in at lowly doors. Man finds it difficult to accept bare truth. He finds a thought easier to accept if it is put in picture form, where he reads the story of a man being raised from the dead. Then he can say to himself: “Isn’t that a mighty act!” But scripture is not speaking of resuscitation as our life guards revive those who are drowning at sea. The words used here are “four days,” because at that time the body was kept for three days in the belief that the soul hovered over it in the chance that the body could be revived. So when Martha said: “He has been dead four days,” she was telling him that there was no hope of resuscitation, as decay had set in and produced a stench.

I tell you: no man was placed in any little tomb here on earth. This is an adumbration, a foreshadowing in a not altogether conclusive or immediately evident way, of what you will one day experience. It is divine history which unfolds forever. It is not like human history, for it begins and ends, but this history is eternal. The moment you touch salvation history these things begin to unfold from within. Then you will know you are one with the body of the Lord Jesus Christ.

This union will produce one new man, and you will no longer bat your head against the world as Saul, but be Paul, one who knows he is Jesus Christ, the creator of it all. And you will discover that the things which are frowned upon here because of our moral codes are so natural there. It didn’t seem strange to her that she was man in that world, yet she is so much a woman here.

Now, the Book of John has two endings. The true ending is found in the 20th chapter, while the 21st chapter is an epilogue. In the 20th chapter this statement is made: “Many other signs did Jesus do which are not written in this book. But these are written that you may believe that Jesus is Christ, the Son of God and that believing, you will have life in his name.” There are a number of experiences you are going to have related to this eternal history that are not recorded, but everyone will experience the events written there. I have shared with you the series of visions I have had which fit into the given period of time; and I still have experiences related to divine history, because I can find their parallel in the Old Testament. My memory has returned, and I now know that the drama was experienced before we descended and lost our memory. But as our memory returns we have these experiences and can tell them; but we cannot share them with another, because they take place in a land unknown to mortal man.

This lady’s experience is true. She is Paul and she is Jesus Christ; yet she is very much a woman here. This is not reincarnation. Paul is only the personification of everyone who has been transformed from Saul to Paul. Called “The Way,” Saul was persecuting divine history, and when he heard the words: “Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?” he questions: “Who are you, Lord?” and the answer came: “Jesus, whom you are persecuting.”

Where did this conversation take place? In the mind! If, tonight you hear this story and refuse to accept it, you are persecuting the Lord by denial. But in the fullness of time the story of Jesus Christ will erupt within you and then you will know it was your very self you have been persecuting, for you will know from experience that you are the Lord Jesus Christ.

Who would have thought that simple little statement in the 11th chapter of John, “By this time he stinketh,” could be so profound. Yet we are told that the one upon whom the spirit descends is he who is the chosen one. Here is the elect, unveiling one more Son of God, and in the end all of the revealed sons will form the Father.

There is no book comparable to the Bible, which is revealed truth and not truth which has been discovered by any logical process. Everyone will hear the words of Martha. It was she who stood on my left and said in a very commanding voice: “They avoid man because man gives off the most offensive odor.” This is what the translators of the King James Version meant when they said: “he stinketh,” because every man stinks, causing the world to give off an offensive odor to those who watch in eternity. They are eagerly waiting for the stir telling them that they may come down and redeem the one that is but an externalization of themselves. And the moment the eternal one is touched, virtue goes out and the one who touched is healed. Then that one begins to move from here to eternity.

I can tell you . . as I have over the years . . the chronological manner in which the visions came to me, but whether it is a chronologically true story or not is unimportant.

The poets who wrote the gospels told their experiences in poetic form. One day [Aldous] Huxley said to me: “There are three kinds of writings . . journalism, literature, and scripture. Those who are considered to be literary giants can’t write scripture.” Huxley admitted he couldn’t, for it is revealed truth and therefore something entirely different. The journalist writes beautifully and excitingly, but no journalist would ever be considered a mental giant in the use of words as to real literature. On the other hand, those who write great literature couldn’t write scripture. And if you could understand scripture as it really is written, you would know it is inspired poetry, but our transcribers could not bring it into its poetic form. Everyone who reads scripture is moved by it, because it is speaking to the being in the depth of the soul; so don’t treat it as literature because it is not.

I saw in today’s paper that some ex-nun is teaching the Bible as literature at UCLA. You can do that if you want to, but that’s not religion. Scripture certainly is not history, as there is no place on this earth where a man was buried for four days . . having been proved dead . . who rose from the grave. But I tell you: you have been buried for thousands of years. You don’t know you are, but the watchers in eternity do, as they receive from you, multiplied by the billions of us here, a stench beyond the wildest dream of man. If you have ever visited the Chicago stockyards you know what a horrible odor is there. Well, multiply that smell by the population of the world and the stench will be beyond comprehension. But his love for you is so great he will, one day, penetrate this ring of offense. Then you will be Paul, a transformed being, joined to he who is Jesus Christ, and the two of you return together as one Lord.

When you read scripture don’t discount the simplest thought expressed there, for you are going to experience it. You will know that Lazarus is not someone on the outside. The word means “God has helped.” No man can redeem himself . . only God can do it; therefore God has helped. There are numberless schools teaching self-realization and self-development, promising you self-realization by doing as they say. If you want to believe that you must pay others to teach you, you will lose your money for they cannot deliver the goods. Grace and truth come through Jesus Christ. Let no one fool you into believing that by doing certain things you will be saved. Rather, set your hope fully upon the grace that is coming to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ in you.

Don’t reject this story. Firmly believe it and set your hope that without doing anything on the outside its revelation will come to you. And when it does and you share it with others not everyone will believe you. They may discount your experiences as wonderful dreams or hallucinations. Don’t expect, just because a man is intelligent, that he will understand when you speak of these depths, because they with their PhD’s can’t understand your words and will proclaim proudly that they are agnostics. I recently read this statement: “The man who prunes himself on agnosticism is only confessing that he is an ignoramus. This is the Latin word for ‘we do not know,’ as is the Greek word ‘agnostic.’ So he who prunes himself on agnosticism is confessing, in Greek, that he is a Latin ignoramus.” Tell that to someone who claims to be agnostic and chances are he will slap your face, but I tell you: the truth of which I speak is not acquired in universities. It doesn’t make sense logically, yet it is the eternally true story. Redemption is the wedding between visible history and salvation history; and when they meet they create a new being in one person, who is Paul, who is Jesus Christ."

Well that last part there about calling the agnostics literal ignoramuses is pretty straight to the point. He literally called them ignorant fools basically, which is what I use usually when referring to these people. Anyone who knocks me with that must therefore knock NG calling certain people who don't believe the so called truth to also be ignorant.

Come, O blessed - Neville Goddard lecture - 1967

"At times I discover that I take too much for granted. Just because I read scripture all day, I’m inclined to believe most people do . . and they don’t. Yesterday a doctor who has been coming here for quite a while came to see me, and I realized that I had not made myself clear; so tonight I shall try to make this a very practical lecture, yet you will find it profoundly spiritual.

In the 25th chapter of the Book of Matthew, you will read the words: “Come O blessed of my Father and inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.” Now, this entire chapter is made up of one parable after the other. It begins with the ten wise and foolish virgins. Then the story is told of the talents and their use or misuse, followed by this statement: “I was hungry and you gave me food, thirsty and you gave me drink. I was naked and you clothed me, a stranger and you received me. I was in prison and sick and you visited me.” Surprised that they are invited to inherit the kingdom prepared for them before the foundation of the world, they said to him: “When did we find you hungry and give you food, thirsty and give you drink? When did we see you as a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothed you? And when did we see you sick and imprisoned and visited you?” And he replied: “As you did it to the least of one of these, you did it unto me.”

Now, the world is looking for some external Christ, someone on the outside. Suppose right now someone in this community announces that Jesus Christ, an external being, is present. Do you know that the entire social world would turn itself over for the privilege of entertaining him? There would be quite a battle in the social world for the honor of giving him a piece of bread or a glass of water, to touch or talk to him, because they are looking for the wrong Christ. “Truly, I say to you, as you do it to one of the least of these, you do it unto me.” If you had the chance to do something for Christ, wouldn’t you jump at the opportunity? Well, every time you do anything to anyone in this world, you are doing it to Christ. Believe me, for he cannot come from without, as he is within you!

As William Blake said: “Awake! Awake you sleepers in the land of shadows, wake! Expand, I AM in you, and you in me, mutual in love divine: I AM not a God afar off, I AM a brother and friend; Within your bosoms I reside, and you reside in me; Lo! We are One;” But man, not believing it, turns down the valleys dark, looking for some external God who will save him.

So I said to my friend, the doctor: Whenever you are able to help the people who come into your office, you are serving Christ. For you see, Christ comes disguised. Sometimes he is wearing a black mask, or a white one, a yellow or a pink one and sometimes a sick one. Now, scripture makes no mention of any time when Jesus was sick, yet he makes the statement: “When I was sick you visited me.” And although he does not state that he was thirsty, there is one record where he asked for a drink, and when the woman of Samaria said: “You, a Jew, talk to me, a Samarian? Jews do not talk to Samarians.” Then Jesus explained the difference between the two waters saying: “If you had asked me, I would have given you living water so that you would never thirst.”

Now, for the first time Jesus reveals who he really is, and it’s to a woman. When she said: “I know the Messiah is coming and when he comes he will lead us into all things” he replied: “I who talk to you am he.” His first revelation is to a woman, and it’s to a woman that he first appears in the end. It is a bond that unfolds in this world. So if you will do anything to anyone believing you are really doing it to Christ, you will be amazed what will happen in your world!"

He's saying that doing things for the people in our world is doing them to ourselves. Should be common sense, because you couldn't give to others if you don't already have within you something to give.

"Now let me share with you two stories that were waiting for me when I returned from Barbados recently. This gentleman said: “A coworker and I have lunch almost every day together. For some time he spent the entire lunch period telling me about his financial problems, and although I appeared to be interested, I really wasn’t, and wondered to myself how he could possibly believe the things he was telling me. After hearing the same stories over and over again, I decided that indifference was not the answer, and I must do something about it, so in February of this year I began to listen with my inner ear. I began to hear him tell me he had more than enough money with plenty to spare.

In May he told me he came into an inheritance. He didn’t say how much, but the first thing he did was to buy himself a cabin cruiser that sleeps four. Then he sent his oldest son off to college, made extensive repairs on his home, bought himself a new wardrobe and a new car. But more important to me, I discovered that my awareness has power; that indifference is not enough . . I have to act!” My friend acted and “As he did it unto one of the least of these, he did it unto me.” Then he said: “Every week I have my hair cut by a certain barber and even though I have moved I continued to go to his shop every Saturday, until one day it was closed. Deciding to look locally, I found a shop with four barbers and sat in the owner’s chair. Each week, regardless of my request, he would not take off enough of my hair, so, having watched the other barbers, I decided to go to number four.” (If you know anything about a barber shop, the number four man is the last one to arrive, and is working his way up to number one.)

“While sitting in his chair, I asked him if he liked barbering and he replied that he loved it and would love to go to an internationally recognized school for barbering. Once I discovered that he really wanted, not to be just a barber, but to be the best barber possible, I began to listen with my inner ear and heard him tell me how he graduated from the school and how much he had learned. And do you know: he not only went to the school but was the top man in his class. Then he bought out the barber, changed the personnel, and even has a receptionist to answer the phones. Now I see him every Saturday at 11:00 A.M. by appointment.”

Here is a man who saw Christ in one of the least of these and clothed him in his desire, fed his desire, and gave him the living water to drink through the use of his imagination. In this world all kinds of services are needed. What if there were no barbers, only hippies and you had to cut your own hair! Suppose there were no waitresses or ladies who are willing to clean our homes! They are Christ! Each time Doris comes to clean our home, Christ walks through our door. One day she told me of a friend who had an accident. He wasn’t hurt, but the car was. Then I said: “Doris, you can always buy a car, but your friend was made by God, so rejoice because he was not injured.” Do you know that thought changed her completely? She attends the Catholic church, but was never told that God made her because he loved her. That he never made a thing he didn’t love. Man makes cars and can replace them, but no man can replace Doris. That’s how valuable she is in the eyes of God."

Remember NG is using these stories here under the context of being practical. His work is about bringing a more abundant and positive and "conscious" world into existence through who follows his teachings. This sounds FAR more correct than the mind magic trash. This example of the guy who made lots of money and the barber who became the best were both stories that benefited both people. The dream the barber had was the example of "desire" here, not about anything for personal gain. That's all we have now. People with this trash about personal gain with controlling people and financial situations and they're coming at this from an attention seeking perspective of wanting to be big and grand and all this to only spout nonsense about how things work like most coaches in LOA. It's a joke. None of these people are qualified in the subject. ZERO. I only consider myself qualified because I never went into this for the intent of making money, even though I charge a lot for my time I consider my time valuable either way considering the work I put into this giving away the bulk of the time I spend writing out entries here for free for all to read. I et told I should make courses or make books or whatever but I just don't find that of importance right now. I'm constantly discovering new insights. Understand that NG always approaches this from the "lovely" "wonderful" "fantastic" and all those kinds of words to describe his outlook on reality. That IS one of the things that makes what he did actually provide these insights, even if technically not complete. The underlying practical doctrine in this lecture is of immense value. Being of service to those around you in a beneficial way by seeing them in their best light is HUGE and I fully support this as a practical view on things. I remember when I did this I had more abundance experienced, specifically in the way people treated me. Money did show up more too but it was mostly more of a community support thing than anything else.

We often hear stories about people who have no wealth getting contact with someone who's very rich or inheriting finances that were forgotten about. These are very common and I too have received very very large sums of money this way, for better or worse. I personally find that when you're in flow on your path and genuinely desire money and that comes through you and you accept it then you'll very likely receive what's necessary so long as you're not running into compromise land avoiding being yourself. That's what I've found to be the most important part of this process. That flow the alchemist talks about is very very real.

"So here, let me give you the side benefits of praying for another. While my friend imagined these lovely things for his coworker, his three children were named beneficiaries of an estate of a man who died in the 1890’s. The estate had been in litigation for over seventy years and is only now being settled. Like Job, he prayed for his friends and his own captivity was lifted.

If I could only get you to realize that you dwell in everyone. That you are always looking at yourself pushed out! Unable to behold another, every being in the world is yourself made visible, so if you don’t see the Christ in another and you are only feeding the Christ, then you do not know who “I AM.”

“God, Himself enters death’s door with everyone who enters and lies down in the grave with him and shares his visions of eternity, until he awakes and sees Jesus and the linen clothes that the females have woven for him at the gate of the Father’s house.” (Wm. Blake) God himself, whose name is “I AM” entered death’s door in order for you to breathe. Being aware is saying “I AM” and that’s God. You will never find him in any cemetery on the outside, for God, your own wonderful human imagination, laid himself down in your skull to share your dreams of eternity until you awake. And when you do you will see the linen clothes and realize who “I AM.” You do not see Jesus as another, but you will know him as yourself when God’s only begotten Son calls you “Father.”

“I will tell you before it takes place, that when it does take place you may know that I AM in my Father and you are in me and I AM in you.” Read this in the 14th chapter of the Book of John. Well, if I am in my Father and you are in me, then are you not in my Father? Now he tells us in the 10th chapter of John that “I and my Father are one.” There is only one Father, only one body, and only one Son. There’s not a bunch of little David’s running around, or a bunch of little Fathers, but only the Father. So if David calls me Father and there is only one Father, and he calls you Father, are we not the one Father? So I tell you this before it takes place, so that when it does take place you may believe that “I AM” the Father. And because you dwell in me, when it takes place in you, you will say “I AM He!” In time the whole vast world will awaken to this wonderful plan and then we will have extended our creative power beyond what it was when we conceived the plan and entered death’s door, this limit of contraction."

Processes within processes that are proportionate become one thing. What he says about seeing the Christ in another is very similar to what I was saying before about what I use to do back when I was gazing constantly and seeing the energy in people and their field. He also says that the whole world is you pushed out under the context of seeing the energy in others, meaning you're of one supply of God, ultimately. Seedline doctrine says otherwise but that's more of a physical history thing.

"Now, I can’t tell you my thrill when, in this small audience, you so believe what I tell you that you take it into the depths of your dreams as this lady did. Meeting her boyfriend’s mother in dream, she was asked: “What do you think of God?” and she replied: “Christ is not external, he is within you.” When you carry this truth into dream, where attention is the servant of vision and not its master, and you answer and bring it back to your surface mind, your conviction is in the very depth of your being."

There's that "very depth of your being" again when it comes to conviction and belief. This idea comes from experience and KNOWING something, not because you're doing a technique better or worse. It's through the acceptance of self, which comes from going through how that's leading you to be unfolded to reveal that's invisible to you OUT OF that experience. Looking back is when you see it, usually.

"Now, a chap who has been coming only recently tells me that in his dream he is trying to find someone who is very important to him. Seeing a crowd of people discussing something he sees the group separate and a young man, standing alone points toward him and says, “You are Father.” Now, that’s a foreshadowing. It’s not the event, but a prefiguring of it. The mere fact that he saw the foreshadowing indicates that it is not far away. So I can’t tell you my thrill as I look out at this audience, for you are all awakening.

May I tell you: everything that you could possibly want is right here and ready for the taking. My friend prayed for the barber and his coworker, as his own children became beneficiaries of an estate which had been in litigation for many years. That’s the story of Job, the last chapter, the end of the journey. The unfolding of scripture could come to him suddenly, now, as it has to three of us present tonight. Having reached the end of the journey into the world of death, all of the evil that Lord had brought upon Job was removed. As we are told in the 9th chapter of John when the question was asked: “Who sinned, this man or his parents that he was born blind?” and the answer came: “Neither this man nor his parents, but that the works of the Lord be made manifest.” Everything has taken place in perfect order. Even though he has not had the mystical experience of the birth from above, he has reached the end of the journey."

Interesting. I've never heard that before, because the end of the journey SHOULD be attaining the birth of the child through joining conscious and unconscious into one. It's all the will of God in that case. Actually no I can see how that is possible from what the alchemist has said before, because he has said that you can have all the experiences but that the higher genius isn't ready to merge with you specifically because that's the will of God. It's all up to God. We receive communication from God under the context of intuitive impulse and desire to drive us and yet for us as individuals that may not ever result in anything for us that's of benefit but that it's for God and his glory that we go through what we did. Most people end up in that place.

"Now, just before I took the platform a couple came back to tell me that in a dream our friend Jan said to him: “I will not return anymore.” She hasn’t brought it back, but he did. In the depth, Jan told him she was not returning, and that means resurrection. In the 20th chapter of Luke, the question is asked: “Whose wife will she be in the resurrection?” and he answered: “You do not understand the scriptures. In this age they marry and are given in marriage, but those who are accounted worthy to attain to that age neither marry nor are they given in marriage, for they cannot die anymore. They are sons of God being sons of resurrection.” In the depth of her soul she told that one who heard it and he brought it to the surface to share with his wife. So I saw: the inner man is awakening, therefore it does not matter what the outer world looks like or what it does. The outer man goes on forever, for he is a part of this age of death."

Well there he is basically admitting that those who partake in the resurrection or what I'll assume is the integration of primary components which "resurrects" or brings out what's already there then they become a son of God. Not the other way around as NG seems to say at times assuming we're all sons of God all the time, when that's simply a capacity or as the alchemist calls it an attainment.

"But as I said earlier, who would not give their right arm to serve Jesus Christ? Don’t you think that if our cardinal knew that Jesus was in the city, that he would want to entertain him? And he would put Jesus at the head of the table saying: “The Lord is here” yet he would pass by one in need! You don’t give money to those you see in need unless you want them to remain there, needing money. Instead give them riches in your imagination! My friend didn’t give the man one penny . . he inherited his wealth; but he did give his friend the gift of his talent, thereby multiplying it. He is among those called O blessed of my Father, come inherit the Kingdom of God. Why?

Because he gave of the one talent God gave him and fed the hungry, gave drink to the thirsty, and clothed the naked. When his friend was financially in prison and sick at heart because of his limitation, he didn’t give him one nickel, but by exercising his God given talent, he multiplied it. This is what I am talking about. Use the talent that God gave you. Don’t bury it, afraid to test its power. Exercise each talent, and as you do, your five will make ten. If you can only use two, use them to the best of your ability and they will increase. Then you will be highly commended, for you are not called upon to share physically with others, but to use your imagination and see them as you would like to be seen, were you in their position. If you were in need, would you not appreciate someone imagining you are affluent? That’s what my friend did and that’s what I am asking you to do."

There's more of this imagine someone better and don't just give them stuff because it will only make their state of lack more reinforced. I say play both roles, because why not, I see that as going all the way. NG is telling us now simply to imagine ourselves in a plentiful state, not out of lust for it but to amplify what we already have and are moving through. The way I see this is that if I'm going all the way with following natural striving and I genuinely have a thought come through my head about "it would be nice if I had this house to put my alchemy lab in and have a view over the hills" then I would likely end up there if that's my trajectory. I've had impossible manifestations show up with random thoughts like this many times. It's how I find it happens most often in fact, random thoughts that come through you that end up manifesting without any conscious will at all. It was just there within you and came to the surface without contrast barriers. No debate or argument or anything to feel uncomfortable about. It just comes through me and it manifests without any intent for it to even show up at all. It's almost like I didn't notice those thoughts but looking back they just stuck out to me as the moment I had that intent. Was it something I did before the thought came through me? Possibly. I don't know but it was likely a series of events that led together because I was already comfortable with it. Being yourself manifests everything you desire without exception. It's simply about accepting who you are and being ok with temporary suffering as a possibility to learn and understand more and be of service as who you really are in the end which that suffering was necessary to build who you can become in capacity. Looking at others who seem to live life on easy mode doesn't mean they're on the same degree of progress in the great work, so don't look at anyone else as though if they have more then they're living more correctly. Simply see that as what they've been allotted to unfold because that's how they're moved and what God allows them to play out in their lives.

Anyway NG here is telling us to use our imaginal senses to test their limits. Fair enough, and using them to move into lusts and such will destroy you. I strongly believe that most of the people who try and manifest things for themselves are doing so from a lustful state, as in bypassing their responsibility to be themselves and are looking to attain pleasures of wealth and love and whatever else to satisfy them without actually unfolding their correct trajectory which is why even if you manifest those things as I have in the past they're fleeting and never last and don't feel satisfying. When I actually accepted maybe I won't get my SP then they showed up, not because I did anything other than that I learned the lesson that I needed. I'm allowed to have that. I don't get physically sick anymore from that like I did every time in the past. I satisfied the condition and it was only because I was so tired of suffering. That taught me what I needed to know. So NG tells us to exercise the senses and apply them to giving to others. See other people in your life successful, which is the opposite of giving to self under this satanic self indulgent self serving parasitic ideology that destroys your vitality as it did to mine for a long time. Never go down that route of manifesting things for just your own gain. It's almost always going to cause suffering. I swear. That's why I've always said that unnecessary stimulus and fantasising will absolutely destroy you!

I will say that this lecture is in fact the very basis of LOA in it's truth according to what NG taught. There's no mind magic in this lecture. None of this "what do you desire" stuff which only appeases to the fantasy and the lusts and the satanic ideology of gaining for your own pleasure, even if it seems innocent though trying to manifest another person to want you will cause you to suffer in that needing of another to be your supply instead of being your own on your own unique path. Nothing in this lecture is what's taught. Everybody is all about "how can I get this thing" instead of "how can I give to another", Giving to another is giving to self because it implies you've already got supply within you to provide. It means you're vitalised. This can and will likely burn out not self trash in the process and is likely how many people actually ended up attaining abundance. I did have this view more at baseline when I was 15 doing gazing on the regular seeing through people before I started questioning why I was the only one who understood these things and started to dislike others for not reciprocating what I was experiencing and it made me feel left out and separate and that I needed to prove to them that I was right all along, which is how I started RS way back before I knew anything about anything.

"Take me seriously and use your wonderful talent on the right side. We are told that as a shepherd separates the flock, placing the sheep on the right and the goats on the left, so will our heavenly Father separate us. It is said in a harsh way, that those on the left did not apply their talents and are therefore condemned to everlasting hell; but that simply means that when you seem to die here, you enter the same world and continue until you finally take your talent and use it. Everyone is going to die. That’s the greatest certainty in the world. If you tell someone who is about to be married that they will be parted in death, they would think you were horrid, so you don’t tell them. But when you die here you are instantly restored to life in a world just like this one, even though you may have given a million dollars to a church or a museum, for that’s not using your talent."

Wow so NG here is saying that there is judgement in a "harsh" way according to where the goats on the left get separated from the sheep and thus don't complete their work in reconciling their components through experiencing what's necessary. Those who don't apply this cannot finish the work because it's necessary to integrate.

"When you treat anyone as Christ, you do it unto me. And that joy you will feel as you do it! So I said to my friend, the doctor, regardless of who comes through your door, be it the richest man in town or the poorest, treat Christ and watch what happens in your world. When were you in want? When you saw it in another. And when you saw him thirsty, hungry, and naked and gave him not, that’s when you did not do it to me. It’s just as simple as that. If you put your hand in your pocket and give him anything, quite often you are simply perpetuating a bum; but when you think of him as well dressed, affluent and healthy in mind and body, that’s when you did it unto me. You are only doing it to yourself, really, for Christ is the reality, the true identity of every being. The lady of the evening is Christ making a living. Instead of condemning her, lift her up in your mind’s eye and see her affluent. She can still play the same part if she so desires, but take her out of the gutter. And remember: God is doing everything that man is doing, for God is man and there is nothing but God in the world. When you can see this, you will live by it and change your world.

Do what my friend did concerning the barber. He first made sure the man wanted to be a barber, then he gave out of his wonderful human imagination by seeing him successful. Desiring a barber in his neighbourhood so that he wouldn’t have to start looking for another, he anchored him there. Now the man owns the business and it is the busiest shop in town. And his coworker now discusses his weekend on the cabin cruiser, his new car, or the party he had in his enlarged home, for these are the things my friend gave him and the man is totally unaware of the giver!"

Well that's a decent conclusion. He sums it all up with do to others as you'd like done to you, which is a good thing to teach and should really be the foundation of all this work. That doesn't mean to be a doormat and just let the people of the world run over you, though trying to imagine to accelerate someone's so called spiritual awareness simply won't work else NG would've stated that and the alchemist has said many times that nobody can do the work for you. That's why it's an individual judgement thing.

I remember when - Neville Goddard lecture - 1968

"When I receive a great revelation concerning the creative power of God I cannot keep it to myself, but must share it with all that will listen. Here is one I received many years ago. I found myself, in Spirit, in the interior of a stately mansion in New York City. It was the kind of home the great financial giants lived in at the turn of the century. Fully awake and aware, I was visible to the three generations who were present. The son spoke to his children saying: ‘Your grandfather would stand on an empty lot and say: I remember when this was an empty lot.’ Then he would paint a word picture of his desire for that lot so vividly that those who heard him could see it completed right before their eyes. This is the grandfather who made the fortune we are now enjoying.”

I awoke, recorded the experience, returned to sleep, and re-dreamed the dream . . only this time I was the grandfather. Speaking to those present I said: ‘I remember when this was an empty lot.” Then I pictured the building placed there so vividly the very stones molded themselves into the form I envisioned.

This principle can be used in a destructive or constructive way. You can say: “I remember when this was a glorious building and look at it now” as you become aware of rubble where once a glorious building stood. Or you can stand on rubble and say: “I remember when this was all rubble,” as you imagine a glorious building. You can say: “I remember when my friend had nothing and now he has much,” or: “I remember when he had much and now he is so poor.” You can say: “I remember when she was healthy,” which could imply she is now ill, or “I remember when they were unknown,” implying they are now famous. So you see what power was in that revelation. It’s entirely up to you how you use your imagination, but the operation of your creative power is completely up to you. You make the decision, and are therefore responsible for its effect on the world.

In the 12th chapter of the Book of Numbers, we are told: ‘If there is a prophet among you, I the Lord will make myself known unto him in a vision and I will speak with him in a dream.” A scriptural prophet is not one who tells your fortune, but one who hears the Word of God and fulfills it. If you asked me if I were a prophet I would answer in the affirmative. I am not one who prophesies by looking into a crystal ball, teacup leaves, cards, or astrology, but one who has fulfilled scripture. I know I AM the central figure of scripture called ‘the Father.” I came into the world to fulfill scripture and share my revelations, my experiences concerning the power to create."

This is the I remember when method. A form of revision. Take it or leave it.

"In this simple way God revealed his power to create, his power to remember when! Having nothing, you can become aware of being surrounded by wealth, and feeling wealthy you can say: ‘I remember when I had nothing.” Does that statement not imply that the state of poverty no longer exists for you? I remember when I was unknown. I remember when I couldn’t sell a book. I remember when I couldn’t sell anything I wrote. I remember when. Now you fill in the events, the desires and the fulfillments. I remember when. Do not those words imply memory?"

This is simply him giving us methods to let go of not self stuff. This is not to make magic happen but to realise our capacity. Nothing more. This is not aimed at anything specifically other than the wishes given to us by God, as he says in his own words if you connect the dots. Too bad he never put it all together in the way I'm doing. Collecting quotes and placing them all together to understand the true doctrine, The first on earth as far as I know.

"In the first vision I heard of memory, but in the second vision I experienced it. As I stood on a vacant lot I remembered, and as I did a fabulous structure took form. And the dream was doubled, affirming that it was fixed, that the law was established by the Lord as told us in the 41st chapter of the Book of Genesis. I tell it to you now in the hope that you will put yourself in an I-remember-when mood and trust your memory, because memory is your own wonderful human imagination, the one and only creative power of God scripture calls Jesus Christ."

Now here he says that memory IS the imagination.

"Yes, Christ will come, but not in the way you were taught. Listen to these words from the 8th chapter of John carefully: ‘If you remain in my word you are my disciples and you will know the truth and the truth will set you free.” Questioning this statement, the people said: ‘We are sons of Abraham and have never been in bondage to anyone.” To this Christ replied: ‘He who commits sin is a slave to sin.” You were taught to believe that sinning is when you do something wrong, but I say you are sinning when you miss your mark in life by failing to move! If, tonight you find yourself in a state you no longer desire to express, you must learn how to move into your desired state. If you do not move (mentally) you continue to live your undesirable state, thereby sinning and missing your mark in life! Regardless of what you may desire, persist in feeling its fulfilment, for if you do, feeling will become believing."

Wow so here he says that sin is to mis the mark in life by failing to move. What does that specifically mean about "move"? Well to me it sounds like living in the not self buying into all the false expectations to be someone you're not, and thus not doing the work of going through natural striving to integrate necessary experience. After that it seems he defines this missing the mark sinning as staying in an undesirable state when a desired state cannot be accepted, which is failing to let go of not self, same thing. Missing your mark in life seems to relate simply to not fulfilling the wishes that God gives you, the natural striving, such as me doing this work here with RS. The movement means being able to move between correct states.

"As sons of Abraham, the people claimed to have never known bondage, yet Jesus told them: ‘If the Son sets you free you are free indeed.” This is true, for only when you recognize God’s Son, David, as your son are you really free. When David stands before you doubt flees, and as you feel this wonderful relationship, belief sets you free."

So David destroys doubt. If David is perfect form then accepting perfect form is how you make doubt flee. Moving through that, nothing more. Belief.

"In the beginning of creation the Spirit of God (his creative power called Christ) moved upon the face of the deep. Now, motion cannot be detected save by change in position relative to another object. Unless there is a fixed reference from which an object moves, no movement will appear. Let us use a weak, sick man as our fixed reference and looking into our mind see a strong, healthy man, and say: ‘I remember when he was weak and sick, but look at him now!” Do that and you have moved relative to the man."

This interpretation of gen 1:2 has issues because the alchemist made clear that it's actually about the creation of the elements of reality and their movement. The movement of the spirit over the deep is the circulation of the elements which you replicate in the lab when making quintessence. Moving one substance over another substance transforms the substances into something greater. That's what this means based on what the alchemist revealed to me in lab alchemy. It's the primary alchemical process right at the start of the bible. NG doesn't see it like this because he denied lab alchemy or any other traditions like kundalini work. You could argue that the NG interpretation here is the imaginal level of the process instead of just seeing it as lab side, which is true, though I don't see a complete process there. Elements need to be taken up into subtlety to purify them. I guess you could say SATS is representing that by taking the conscious into the unconscious though that's still a stretch. It's there if you want to reach for it, because he never explains this. The only elements he talks about are in seedtime and harvest and in the 4 mighty ones.

"Look at yourself in the mirror and dare to see radiant health and happiness reflected back to you. Then say within yourself: ‘I remember when my reflection was so different.” Persist in seeing your new image reflected there and you will resurrect that state. Your image, your concept of yourself or of another, is in your own wonderful human imagination who is Christ and Christ is the only God. God the Father and Christ your creative power are the same being, therefore he has never left you!"

If the persistence is in correct nature then you're doing it right because flow will come through you as a result of accepting who you are.

"Last night I visited many of my friends, not only those who are here but those such, as my brother, who have gone through that little gate the world calls death. You see, to me this world is no more real than the world I visited last night. My friends, although gone from this sphere, are having the same experiences they had while they were here: hating, liking, loving, disliking. They are the same people, only young, with the same problems they had here. This I know, for being fully aware that I have already died, I can close my eyes to this world and enter that world instantly. I spent my entire night in a world, which is not real to this one, yet so solid and real to those who inhabit it."

Right there. This is another example of NG with his seeming instant lucid dreaming. He can only do this once he's made atonement to those subtle senses.

"Now, in the 14th chapter of the Book of John the central character of scripture said to those who were beginning to fulfill scripture: ‘You heard me say to you, I go away and I will come to you.’ If you loved me you would have rejoiced because I go to the Father, for the Father is greater than I.” This statement appears to be conflicting, but it is not. In the audience tonight are three to whom I made this statement and they rejoiced, fulfilling scripture. Now I say to all: unless I go away I cannot come to you. If you love me you will rejoice in the depth of your soul, for you will know that, although I will be invisible I will never leave you. Becoming invisible, Christ became you, therefore, he cannot return. I have told you I AM the Father. That the Father dwells in me and I dwell in you and you dwell in me, so when you find me you find yourself as the Father. This is the unity of our being and there is no other."

There is no contradiction in seedline doctrine about the 3 aspects because they're actually alchemical and on that level can be recognised as so without being blasphemous. It's just the truth.

"May I urge you to always use your power in a loving way, for it can be used unlovingly with the same results. It is possible to take a business that belongs to another and tear it down. This is done many times unwittingly, but the effect is the same. A few years ago while in Barbados I asked my brother about the business and he replied quite innocently: ‘It is doing remarkably well. The man who owns two-thirds of it is a good manager, but his hours are long and I think he is getting tired.” Six months ago the man asked my brother to buy him out, stating that the hours were too long and the responsibility too great. My brother set that whole thing in motion, and because the man wanted out, my brother got the business at his price. Victor has done this many times before, but not from revelation unless my father told him. One day the two of them were standing on fifty acres of undeveloped land, which opened to the beach, when my father said: ‘You know Vic, this would be a good place to build homes and hotels.” The property was then owned by three sisters who were not interested in selling, but one day when they were ready to sell, the man who had really wanted the property was in Brazil so my father bought it."

Really. Both ways. I don't think so, though he's technically true. That'll cause suffering though.

"The thought expressed by my father seemed to be an idle one, but it wasn’t, for thought only takes a moment of intensity to be made alive. A kettle of water placed on a low flame is slow to boil, but when the flame is increased the boil is assured. I was so intense in my vision of being the grandfather, that I built a word picture so clear that those who heard it saw the building as something objective to them. The key is this: While in a state you no longer desire to express, you must move inwardly by claiming: ‘I remember when I was in a state I did not like.” If you can remember it you are no longer in it. Instead you are becoming aware of your new state as a present objective fact. And if you will remain faithful to your new awareness, it will crystallize. You will find yourself moving across a series of events which will lead you to the fulfillment of your desired state. How it will come about I do not know. I only know it will unfold."

This is correct, I've experienced this many times. He tells us the key, literally. He says that distance is separation and not being IN the state. This is what the very essence of subconscious capacity opens up, more ability to experience the distance on the spot. NG was so advanced in his work that he could seemingly project it outwards without trying. This is a real phenomena. This whole implication idea is really just about getting you to let go of not self. That's ALL this is.

"Start now to remember when your friend wasn’t well by imagining he is healthy. Remember when your daughter was single by imagining she is married. Go through life remembering when. Haven’t you heard people say: ‘Who does he think he is? I remember when he had nothing and was a nobody!” Now, you may have heard a little jealousy in their tone and that is good because envy adds fire to the statement, which causes the one spoken of to have more! He may never know who caused his success, but it was done by an act of remembrance with intensity."

Apparently adding a sense of emotional highness is good, with remembrance. Basically what I gather here is that he's placing himself into an experience where he's looking back and remembering his current circumstance in the circumstance desired. He's creating that distance and anchoring into it. I will actually try this myself to let go. That's all this is, it's a letting go and accepting of what's already there. It's not special, it's not magically creating something new because he himself said it's all there already and so do I. It's all there. Letting go through these methods leads to naturalness of unfolding natural striving which will manifest in the way those themes represent, and if it's based on the exact or similar scene then that's good because it means you were already on the edge of accepting that and you were able to intuit this experience ahead of time, which was already there before you even thought about it.

"My vision . . although experienced many years ago . . was doubled, thereby affirmed and made a principle for all to prove, so I ask you to try it. Compare what you want with what you have. If they differ you must make the effort to move. You must learn the secret of motion. Many years ago my friend Bob discovered this. In his vision he questioned me, saying: ‘How long have I been here?” and when I replied: ‘Two years” he asked: ‘Did I learn anything?” to which I answered: ‘Yes, you learned how to move.”"

Compare what you have now with what you want as in what I just said above. If there's contrast as in holding onto not self stuff then letting that go and having faith or trust in that and letting yourself accept it is the work he speaks of. We've fully decoded these methods. The secret of motion, this relates to what he said before about motion.

"You must have a frame of reference by which you can detect movement. Memory is such a frame. Perhaps your friends remember you as poor and unknown. You can move by assuming you have changed so much that they no longer recognize you, and from that frame of reference you can observe the expression on their faces. Those who love you will empathize. Those who do not will show envy. If you see envy don’t try to change it, for their envy will become a resisting force which will help you move forward. Everything needs resistance in order to move. I couldn’t leave this platform without it."

This references his talk before about genesis. Memory is the frame he uses to have the fixed point of comparison. Smart idea. It's all just letting go of what's not though, clearing the unconscious resistances, changing the motor movement in response and reaction which as he said determines how we experience life, among other aspects. Interestingly he says that their envy is powerful because it implies reality that you've attained. That's still not something I would say would be important though I believe he's saying that if you naturally have experiences where others are in a state of envy then let it be so. Allow it. Sounds kind of parasitic to me but whatever.

"You couldn’t drive your car without resistance, so if you discover one who desires to play the part of envy, let him play it. Dare to assume you are the one you really want to be. Use your same circle of friends, but this time see them from a different angle. Observe their faces and listen to their whispers as they look at the new you and remember when!"

Yeah but isn't this whole envy thing what you're placing them in by assuming that? Isn't that manifesting them to be in envy when they might not be? Sounds unlovely to me. That is actually an important point though, because I often have the thoughts about my opponents, naturally, who exist, who I don't assume in specific but I just feel that I have resistance to come up against and that in some sense drives me forward. That's how I'd have a take on that idea, in a way that's beneficial. I don't see this as a limiting factor for doing my work, because their envy over my truth in the work I've done only reveals the facts that I've revelled and speak without compromise. They will be there naturally, until they're not. Same idea.

"Now, some of you are having physical and emotional problems. As I told a friend tonight, no one ever promised you that it was going to be easy to bring forth the greatest gift in the world, so don’t expect it. There will be problems, horrible problems; but be of good cheer, for we are told in the 16th chapter of John: ‘When a woman is in travail she suffers, but when the child is born she forgets everything because of the joy that the child is born.” You are destined to know such joy, for the child to be born in you is Christ Jesus, the creative power of God.

I am not promising you complete relief from all physical problems, but I have given you a law which will cushion the blows of life. Things are going to happen and you will find all kinds of challenges, but you now have a law which states: ‘Whatsoever you desire believe you have received it and you will.” That’s a law, which will never fail you and there is no limit to your power of belief. It’s entirely up to you as to how and when these revealed laws of God are used, but I do know that you are going to conceive and bring forth the greatest thing in this world which is the birth of God, the birth of joy, as Blake said in his poem, ‘The Mental Traveler”:

Wow right there he's telling us limiting beliefs!! Nonense. He's telling us that we will face trials and that those trials are there to shape us. He's literally telling us that suffering is just another part of the process of our refinement and to not view it as needless. That's how I view challenge these days, since I've been through this for so long I just don't get caught up in things that I know are temporary.

"‘I traveled thro’ a Land of Men A Land of Men and Women too And heard and saw such dreadful things As cold Earth wanderers never knew

For there the Babe is born in joy That was begotten in dire woe Just as we Reap in joy the fruit Which we in bitter tears did sow.’

Here Blake is telling us what he saw in his mental journey, ending on this lovely note: ‘All is done as I have told.” And he meant exactly that. Everyone will experience scripture just as it was foretold: the resurrection, your birth from within, finding your Son David, your ascent into heaven, and the descent of the dove. This is your destiny, yours to experience when your memory is restored."

The poem, when it says reap in joy the fruit which we in bitter tears did sow is quite powerful.

25/5/25

Mirror date. Once a year.

The true knowledge of God - Neville Goddard lecture - 1969

"The attitude of the world towards the great mystery of Christ is due to their ignorance of who he really is. And only to the degree that the individual experiences the mystery, will he know that he is the heavenly being who came down and assumed the body of death to rise as Jesus Christ.

Follow me closely into the drama, as recorded in the 18th chapter of the Book of John, where Jesus is being questioned by Pilate. Now, the word “Pilate” means “closely pressed like a contracted form; the limit of contradiction; of opacity.” To see the characters of scripture as historical is to see truth tempered to the weakness of the human soul. They are not people such as you and I, but eternal states, attributes, and qualities of the individual. Pilate is the state of contraction the Father entered, and the story is taking place in you."

Pilate apparently represents opacity. We've heard this before where translucency is truth and opacity is the opposite.

"Questioning self, Pilate asked: “Are you the King of the Jews?” and Jesus answered, “Do you say this of your own accord, or did others tell you about me?” (Do you know this from experience, or it is hearsay?) He doesn’t deny that he is, but wonders if this contracted state has reached the point where the shell of it breaks, and knows from experience who he is. Then Pilate asked: “You are a king?” and Jesus answered: “You say that I AM. For this I was born and for this I came into the world to bear witness to the truth.” Then the contracted form asked: “What is truth?”"

This is a very interesting quote. Did this idea come from within your own inner truth or are you taking something else out there to validate the note self is what this means it seems.

"Based upon this level, it is true that I am standing at a podium and you are seated on chairs facing me; but I am not speaking of this truth, I am speaking of the true knowledge of God. I am not concerned with the world of science. Today we are on our way to the moon for the second time, but that is not the story of the Bible. I am speaking of the being who created Man, the heavens, and the earth, and sustains them. I am trying to tell everyone that the being who did this is now individualized, housed in his creation, and has forgotten who he really is.

Having come down into this limit of contraction and opacity, you now ask yourself the question: “Do I know this truth by my own accord, or was I told it by another? If it is hearsay, then I do not really know it; for the only way I can know God is through experience.” So to the degree that you experience scripture, will you understand it. The terms Pope, minister, or layman, mean nothing. You could be washing floors tonight and know, from experience, that you are the Lord Jesus Christ."

More of the above. The valid experience is actually what the alchemist says represents your ripeness, or readiness to move beyond limits. This in itself IS willingness to push those limits by running up against the edge, or running up against the limits of opacity to quote the terms NG uses.

"Now let us turn to the poet Robert Browning, who said:

“Truth is within ourselves. It takes no rise from outward things what’ere you may believe. There is an inmost center in us all where truth abides in fullness, And to know, rather consists in opening out a way whence the imprisoned splendor may escape, than an effective entry for a light supposed to be without.”

Here Browning took three of the mighty I AM statements from the Book of John: “I AM the truth; I AM the way, and I AM the light,” and incorporated them into this very short statement.

There is an inmost center in us all where truth abides, not just a little bit, but in fullness. He likens it to an imprisoned splendor, radiating from within. To think of some human Christ as coming from without is to completely misunderstand the great mystery of scripture."

More on experience. The quote from John saying he is the truth the way and the light to me represents simply the method of attaining truth through the experience of those aspects which come through you when you're willing to run up against your limits. That's how you attain understanding, and thus more of Christ, truth, the power of God, according to metaphysical bible doctrine.

"Sitting here now in this little room, you may seem so small and the universe so enormous. But it is here, in this contracted state called Pilate that you begin to stir and ask yourself these questions. The questioning within the individual causes the effluence within to roust itself and come out as the creator of the universe. This I know from experience. No matter what the world tells you, you are not some little tiny being. You have gone through hell and maybe will go through more in your search to find your true self, who is God the Father."

The alchemist relates to this as divine discontent, the natural striving to understand more, which means an unconscious yearning to attain higher order integration within your unrealised capacity.

"The true knowledge of God is recorded in scripture, but told in a strange and wonderful manner. Jesus said: “Go and say unto them, I AM the root and the offspring of David, the bright morning star.” Here you discover that “I AM” is the root, the origin, the Father; yet “I AM” the offspring of David. In other words, “I AM” is the Father of David and David’s offspring. Then we read: “I will bring up out of you, O David, a son that will come forth from your body. I will be his father and he shall be my son. And then you will say: ‘I and my Father are one.” God the Father created the universe (his son), then buried himself there, that he may . . in the fullness of time . . draw himself out of humanity (which is David) to know himself to be the root and the offspring . . the grandfather and the grandson."

Here NG literally defines David and the son as well. This is interesting because it kind of answers some other statements. He says that David is the son of God (why he said I AM is the father of David as yourself in greatest form from the NG non dual view) and yet also the offspring of David. Isn't NG here saying that David is the universe thus saying why David is the son of God (which would be us in capacity as simulacrums to realise) and then buried himself into that universe forming the incorporeal consciousness formed out of the elements arranging together. David then would represent all the components and the completion of David is the perfect form would it not? Then later he says that humanity is David. So he says that David is the brother of God in one statement, now he's the son of God and humanity is David, as well as the universe as we would imply. How does all this connect? Is David the substance of God which in a self recursive form represents Christ the creative power of God? Whenever you read about someone or something being called a son it's something that's a product of components interacting. If David is the son of God (implying what NG says about God being the father of David) and that mechanic applies then God unfolds into David, meaning a less specific form that contains all the elements, a different order substance.

"If you see David as the world does, you will never understand the mystery. David is humanity reduced to a single being. When you see him, you are seeing the sign that you have played all the parts you agreed to play in the beginning. Having extracted yourself from your creation, you redeem it as it condenses itself into a single youth, who stands before you as your son David of Biblical fame."

So he says that seeing David represents that you've played all your parts, meaning you've integrated all the components, meaning you've given birth to David as God through being inside God bringing the components of God together to create yourself again in a new individuated form and the template is the formulation that's invisibly held in capacity to realise what David is in you. As crazy as that sounds. I don't see this interpretation as fully accurate in reality but that's seemingly what NG is telling us.

"Speaking within himself, Jesus is made to say: “I AM from above; you are from below.” Above and within are one and the same, just as below and without are the same. He who comes from above (within) is spirit, above all and within all; while he who is from below (without) expresses that which is of the earth and earthly. Maybe you cannot pay your rent this night, and your cupboard is bare; but I tell you: you created the universe and you are sustaining it. There is no other God. “Hear O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one.” There is no room for two."

So Christ being born from above being the subtle capacity of God that when we're born again means we've integrated those components and made them one thing, thus why we've created a new substance greater than the sum of the parts. It's lab alchemy on the inside.

"When asked to name the greatest of all the commandments, Jesus didn’t mention any of the ten, but went directly to Israel’s confession of faith: “Hear O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one.” Then he gave the second commandment, as recorded in Deuteronomy as “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Why? Because your neighbor is yourself. The day will come when you will discover that only as you change your attitude towards the seeming other, can he change; for he cannot change of himself. Only as I change my attitude towards you, can you change towards me. I love him. Why? Because he first loved me. If you want someone to love you, or see you differently, change your attitude towards him. The world is yourself, projected. You want something different projected, you must change the film in the camera. You must change that which you are aware of. If you will, the world will conform to your change in thinking."

The whole projection film is thematic. Whenever you love someone as yourself you're projecting that experience through your field geometry. People will respond differently to you because you're a supply of light at that point. Advanced gazing takes you there.

"In the three oldest manuscripts of the Book of John, the 18th verse of the first chapter reads: “No one has ever seen God. He who is in the bosom of the Father, God’s only begotten, he has made him known.” In the 4th century the word “son” was substituted for the word “God” and the sentence rearranged from “God’s only begotten” to “the only begotten Son.” My mission is to let you know who that Son is. He is David, God’s only begotten, and there is no other Son. The churches cannot see it, because they have rearranged scripture to fit their purpose. But you have never heard any bold affirmation concerning I am the tradition or I am the convention. You will hear I AM the truth, I AM the way, I AM the life, I AM the resurrection . . but never I AM the convention, or I AM the tradition. We are hiding from ourselves when we keep traditions and conventions alive. Convention says Jesus Christ is God’s Son, but our Bible has been changed over and over again by men who . . having no vision . . cannot understand its truth."

Right there NG confirms what I just said. David is the only begotten son of God according to NG. I think I'm beginning to make sense of this.

"Here is a vision of a friend: In the vision she finds herself in a gambling casino. The owner approaches carrying a stick to count off her winnings which . . instead of being chips . . is a long loaf of French bread, sliced, but joined at the crust. She calls out $50 and he repeats the sum and cuts off a slice of bread. Then she said: “$100.” He repeated the amount and cut another slice. Every time she gave a figure he repeated it, becoming more and more frustrated with each slice, much to her enjoyment. Coming to the end of the loaf she said to herself: “What number shall I call next?” and she heard “$1,150.” As she called it and received the entire loaf, the loaf began to bleed like a rare piece of roast beef, and she awoke.

The figure 1,150 is important here as it totals the number tone [sic] seven, which is Spiritual perfection. In his 6th chapter, John speaks of bread as “my body,” saying: “Unless you eat my body and drink my blood you have no life in yourself.” Why? Because life is in the blood. Here is a perfect vision of the symbolism of scripture. She has completely accepted the truth that the body of God is her own wonderful human imagination. Life (blood) is flowing forth from her now, as she has accepted her imaginal body in its fullness and blames no one else now, for she knows he is only herself. When you reach the point where you cannot blame another because you have accepted your imagination as the sole cause of the phenomena of life, you have eaten the loaf and drank the blood."

The 7 is the integration of the components. The archetypes. When NG says she accepted her imaginal body it's not about believing in the imaginal senses, but the subtle forms of experience contained within the components. The imagination is the substrate of God, the components, the bodies which are separate in principle but in capacity can become one thing. All of these bodies are the imagination, the substrate of subtle sense, and she believed in that, not in the mind. THERE IS NO MENTALISM. THIS IS THE TRUTH ABOUT THE NG DOCTRINE IT'S NOT ABOUT IMAGINAL SENSES CREATE ALL THINGS!

"Your recent letters have thrilled me beyond measure. One gentleman found himself attending a concert at the Hollywood Bowl, listening to a long-haired gentleman who . . he intuitively knew . . would repeat the same performance. Instantly knowing it was being presented again, he became aware of a lady seated next to him, who said: “What is that in the sky?” Taking his binoculars, he looked up to see a multicolored bird resembling a parrot, who spoke, saying: “Get out of here. We don’t want any part of you.” Then it came down and touched his face with its wings.

This was no idle dream, but a wonderful adumbration of what will take place when the multi-colored parrot becomes a pure white dove. It was a woman in his vision, not a man. It will be a woman who will turn and say to him: “They avoid Man, but He so loves you He penetrated the ring of offense to demonstrate his love.” His vision was a foreshadowing of what is in store for him.

A lady, whose eyes are now open as an incurrent witness, saw me dying. In her vision she told her friend not to touch me, for if she did I would not be set free. Then, as she watched, I died. These are wonderful visions for her to have, for “Unless I die thou canst not live. But if I die I rise again and thou with me. Wouldst thou love one who never died for thee? Or ever die for one who has not died for thee? And if God dieth not for Man and giveth not Himself eternally for Man, Man could not exist. So God died.” I have awakened from the dream of life. I have been born from above, and the only one who is born from above is God, He who perpetually dies. Her vision was perfect, and I cannot congratulate her enough."

Interesting experience. Capacities in these visions, benchmark experiences as the alchemist calls them.

"I am not here to flatter you, but to tell you the truth as I have experienced it. There truly is an inmost center in us all, where truth abides in fullness; and to know the true knowledge of God we must stop trying to break through from without. Rather, we must release this imprisoned splendor from within."

Release the splendour meaning believe in the truth, on all levels.

"Listen to my story. Believe it implicitly, and the crust will break; and he who is radiant light will come out, transforming everything it touches into beauty and perfection, to reflect the perfection you know yourself to be. We are told in the 25th [chapter] of Matthew: “Come, blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.” This kingdom is a body of perfection. Awakening in that body of awareness, you know yourself to be that which the world is reflecting. And in that body you cannot come upon imperfection because you are perfect. That is what is in store for you. “Come, blessed of my Father, enter into and inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.”"

The kingdom is according to NG the body of perfection. The subtle body that you move into and experience as truth through increasing the subtle nature.

"In his 5th chapter, John tells those around him that they have never heard His voice or seen His form, but “I know thee, O Lord.” And in the 17th chapter, he turns to his disciples and says of them: “They know that thou hast sent me.” He knew he had found a few who really believed his story and would spread it. Then others would continue the telling, as it will grow and grow. The truth of which I speak has been heard through the hearing of your ear; but eventually you will know the true knowledge of God from experience."

True knowledge of God from experience. Integration of themes.

"I am not speaking of anyone on the outside. That is not the truth of which the scriptures speak. It makes no effort to change society, but rather urges all to “Render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar’s.” He doesn’t try to make the slave a free person, but leaves him just as he is. Today all of our energies are going into keeping records and changing things. I recently received a notice from the Department of Health, Education, and Welfare. I thought they were interested in my health, and since I have been paying their insurance since 1936, I went to see them today. The lady asked me many questions, none of which were related to my health. She said she knew everything else about me, which confirmed my suspicions that we are all computerized numbers. She needed proof that I would be 65 this coming February. I showed her my passport, for I have no driver’s license as I do not drive, but she wanted a birth certificate. I told her that on the island and in the year I was born, a birth certificate was too expensive; but I was baptized and somewhere I have that certificate. She urged me to write for it, and I will; but our visit made me realize that everything about the garment you wear is already known by the government, all carefully computerized and filed."

Well keep that in mind. NG himself BELIEVED in his own words that the gov views us as numbers in a machine. Sounds like he views gov and authority as non personal entities. He's literally telling you to not fear gov influence, which I see as a powerful way to view things. He also surprisingly doesn't drive, so in that case how did he get around.

"But you are not the garment, which . . in my case . . will be 65 in February. You created the world; so don’t let anyone scare you, as you and the one who is trying to frighten you, are one and the same being. There is no other God. You can prove my words by simply imagining you are already living in the state you desire. Do not raise one finger to make it so; simply believe it to be so. Go about your business as though it were true and it will happen, because that is the way you brought everything into being.

Can you imagine what it would be like if you were the man (the woman) you would like to be? Sustain that imaginal act as though it were true, and no power in the world can stop it from becoming true, because there is no other power. Try it beginning tonight. Take a glorious concept of life. Nothing less than the very best, and simply imagine it to be true about you and those you love. Start with your immediate circle and . . although at the moment your circle may deny it by reason of what they are doing . . persist in your assumption as though it were true, and it will harden into fact."

When you frame the statement don't lift a finger to make it happen under the context of following natural striving, it can sometimes seem like that, though I will say this only applies if you're doing this method correctly because you're facing the pressure through a letting go in imagination instead of facing it in the experience. No matter what you're integrating the experience of being that person and integrating those components. That's all there is, that's building David.

24/5/25

"The the one thing that is difficult for people to completely do is trust that when you're when you're really making an effort to do initiatory work and you're you're really doing the work and having these benchmark experiences along the way so you know that this is all real. You get to a certain point where you become more dedicated to that and it doesn't mean that you don't have to do things but the things that you need to do are provided. There's a flow. It comes to you. What you need comes to you. You just have to be able to recognize it and accept it and do whatever you need to do. But it comes to you easier than it did before. I I've had really um almost impossible things happen when I first moved here. Um I had gone through most of the savings that I had and we moved here and got here. There were all kinds of things we didn't know but we just decided we were going to do this. So we got here things were really super tight after we got here and even then I started working on transcendence works creating it and I had really very little nothing to make it out of if I hadn't been an e-commerce consultant and a web programmer like none of that would have happened but in the course of things that um on some of the videos I I wanted to make the symbol in um to look like Chrome, you know, to look like metal, which in Photoshop without a certain plugin is near impossible. It can be done. It's really incredibly tedious. Um and I'm not skilled in that at all, but there's a particular plugin for Photoshop that you have and it just does it. It was like 140 bucks. I'm like, well, all right. I can't really justify that right now, but I really would like this. The next web client I got was a guy that had a band. Guess what the band was called? Chrome. What did he need to make his Chrome logo look like Chrome? The plugin that makes look like Chrome. So they bought the plugin to make the thing. Universe just sorted it out. I only got, you know, 30 bucks a month for the website, whatever. That was fine. But the it can be like that specific, you know, you can't make these things up, but you'll notice the synchronicity of them happening. So, the more surrendered you are to the process, the more flow you have for what you need. And if you can learn to live on what you need rather than just everything you want, everything gets a lot simpler and then you have time to do the work. Um, and those are trade-offs a lot of people are not ready to make. So, uh, you know, everybody has to navigate that in their own way. But those are the choices I've made and, uh, I'm not the slightest bit unhappy with them. There's a lot to be said for um freeing yourself from certain kinds of entanglements and uh but you know you have to accept the fact that that comes with a series of trade-offs. Everything in life is um trade offs. You just accept one set of complications over a different one. The thing is to collect the set of uh complications that you want rather than the set that you don't want. And that takes some muddling through to figure out what you want, what you don't want. But once you get really clear about that, then reality can line up behind it. If you're not clear about it, then there's nothing to line up behind. Uh, and if you're resisting, you know, if if the higher genius is pushing you, um, if you're resisting it, then that can be painful. Um, if you choose to proactively go along with the flow, then that's much less painful. So, uh you know that that can be difficult with relationships, but um it's a little easier with business things, but whatever entanglements we've gotten ourselves into that aren't in alignment with our highest good at some point are going to be undone. Whether we wilfully consciously engage in it or just get steamrolled by it, one or the other. That's how it works. So, uh, I'm partial to the conscious participation route rather than the steamroll route because I've been steamrolled more than once and that's just not something I'm interested in doing too many more times. So, philosophical death is bad enough. I don't need to be steamrolled in addition. So uh but you know these are just personal choices that we have to make that we have to deal with and that we have to be um you know we have to be at peace with. And the one thing that I will say before we wrap this up is if anybody made it to the end of this video, which probably unlikely, but if they have, um, the one rule of thumb that I do have for these kinds of personal decisions is don't make decisions if you're not in a clear space. If you have too much going on and you're super stressed by everything and there's too much emotion and things haven't been distilled down, don't make major life altering decisions when you're in an unclear space like that because when you come out of it in the other side, you may think that you made wrong decisions. Uh and if you're removing lots of stress, you're probably not making the best decisions. So if you're in those kind of situations, allow that stuff to clear out if it's possible before you make major decisions because most of those can't be undone. And that's my only really main rule about it. Make sure you're clear before you make major changes."

This is more comments from the alchemist on manifestation. He calls this synchronicity and flow. Basically he says that manifestation works the way that common sense would say, that instead of controlling things (which I actually discussed with him about yesterday and he said you can do that but it will often backfire in the end) you'll simply be moving through what's necessary and whatever is needed for your natural striving to play out will be provided, so long as you go all the way of course. This sounds like what RS preaches. Same idea.

"There are certain requirements and certain particular paths that really are not conducive to um fully living. And if you repress those things, they just that energy just pops up in other places. It's it's like a you know like a like a pipe with six holes in it and you plug up one and everything just springs up the others in a more powerful manner. And um it's one thing to sublimate certain things, it's another thing to uh force arbitrary um restrictions. There's no Um and the thing is is that for the majority of them if you really um in studying the observances and the things that are restriction requirements of particular paths they are simply trying to control the senses in a forcible manner in their cheating by saying you can't do this and you can't do this and you can't do this. these observances that are supposed to cultivate spirituality are really nothing more than repression and and in the east apparently they like to do it that way. In the west it really backfires. It doesn't work very well. Um and it's uh it ends up causing more problem than benefit. At a certain point, it's natural for certain kinds of activities, proclivities, whatever you want to call them, to kind of fall away over time. Um, simply because just evolution has occurred. Um, but to try to force that prematurely is actually counterproductive. So, you know, live your life happy, follow your bliss, whatever. Do your practices. As long as you're doing your practices, evolutionary things are going to happen. And as long as evolutionary things are going to happen, you're still far ahead of the curve, regardless of the specifics of the dos and do not do that you're doing. So, I don't worry about all that. Yeah. Most of the some of the some of the religious observances have practical reason on a spiritual level, but a lot of it has to do with um just physical inability to control oneself. I mean, Muslim women are required to cover their bodies from their from their wrists to their ankles and their faces because the men have no ability to control themselves and they make that a religious thing. Well, you know, no offense to people who follow those practices and do that because it is a religious thing, but at the same time, it's a religious thing designed around the fact that men generally are unable to control themselves. So, you know, to call that religious is kind of a generous label, I suspect. But, um, that's just an example. But all the rest of them kind of follow along with it. And the truth is is that even with uh whether you look at the bows um that are taken in Buddhism or the ten commandments, they're all reflections of each other. They're not even doable. So in Buddhism, you you take vows of of um nonviolence, non-grasping, self-restraint, all of these things. But as a human existing in this polarity state that hasn't fully merged with its higher genius yet, you're not existing in a state of unity. So it's absolutely impossible not to grasp. It's impossible to um to practice the vow of of satcha or truthfulness when you are existing outside the level where universal truthfulness exists. So they take these vows and they try to live up to them and they think by not telling lies about particulars that happen on a physical level that they're practicing the vow of truthfulness. But on a deeper level, when you really understand that the vow of truthfulness is impossible until you reach a unified state where you are then automatically practicing all of the all of the vows and the vows are irrelevant, but yet taking the vows is part of the path. So the more you really understand the dynamic of what's actually real and what's not, you realize that most of that is kind of irrelevant. Um, you know, the whole thou shalt not kill is a little more specific for most people rather than truthfulness, which seems to come in shades of grey for a lot of people. But um even even in the extreme the the violence and the thou shalt not kill vow from a particular point of view is also rendered rather moot because if the level you exist in is at this lower level where you're separate from everything that's probably a good bow to take. But on a higher level where you realize the unified connection of everything, that killing thing on a certain lower level ends up being nothing more than sloughing off dead skin cells that you do when you take a shower. From the point of view that you look at it on the scale of relativity, what's a thing at one level becomes not a thing at another level. And um it It renders a lot of the vows. At a certain point, you realize you use those vows as as useful boundaries, which is tapas useful boundaries because that um focuses energy in a more laser-like way rather than kind of buckshot diffused energy. But even then, you reach a point where you have to let go of the bowels. So, we're all oath breakers. No matter what we do. Um, and in certain traditions, oath breaker is even a title. It's it's acknowledged that this is what you are. Um, even if you're trying not to be, that's what's going to happen. It's impossible not to. Um so uh finding the balance that works for you in the way that you know you can make evolutionary progress is is the most important thing."

The alchemist on restrictions in various traditions.

26/5/25

I've been going deeper into more of what the alchemist has said about theurgy and manifestation and such and I've come to understand that there are specific things that matter more than others. Becoming attuned to the solar and lunar aspects, primarily the solar aspect, is actually how you really get into those more subtle states. This is why advanced gazing is arranged the way it is, because it's an attunement to that current. He's said that so many times, and this is also an underlying aspects of the ENTIRE PURPOSE of imagining, or so I believe. You're moving more into a "state" where flow can unfold through you and this whole idea of needing to consciously think to make things happen is insane where as we can simply live in that exalted solar level and have the right thoughts naturally where there's no trying. Trying is because you're not attuned to what's correct. It's that simple. It really is.

"The most assured way of I think what you're really asking is whether or not the information that you're getting is real and clear and coming from a pure place higher place rather than something that's just rolling around and some part of your psyche masquerading as something. So in the beginning, you don't always know. So that's why I tell you guys don't make any rash choices or decisions about things particularly if you're moving a lot of stress and you don't feel very clear particularly when it comes around emotional things. We don't want to make decisions about things when we're moving a lot of emotional energy. We might make note of them, but those major things, you want to make sure you're in a grounded, clear state when you make those decisions, those choices. When it comes to being intuitive and picking up on things, the more you do the work that allows your subconscious level of mind to expand, the more those things are going to come. And the more that happens, the more generally reliable the purity of that information is. But the only way to really know for sure and to be able to verify it is when you learn to communicate with the higher genius or aspects of the higher genius in order to test and verify that the information is really coming from there as opposed to just something else. So those are skills that you learn um in initiatory magical work that are important so that um you don't just um randomly accept everything that plops into your head that seems like it came from a higher place. So even though that might all be true and well inaccurate, we don't really act on it in particular, especially if it's something strange um or something that seems strange, but you do get used to it. And then there's the times when it just yells at you and it's very clear that that's who's talking and it's trying to get your attention which is interesting because most of the time it doesn't. It wants us to make the effort and we have to make the effort. So um there's kind of a protocol for testing information and and it has to do with um um experience in vetting the intelligence that you're talking to in certain kinds of ways. And then you can establish a relationship. And the more that connection strengthens, then the more you know that that's where that's coming from as opposed to something coming from someplace else masquerading as something. So it can be a little tricky, but when you're connected to those things on a higher level, it can give you information that you've never been exposed to that you that you just didn't know that you can quite often go and verify after the fact. So there's that level as well. Trans work is kind of exhausting though. Um, it's why I made the oracle rather than having to go into trance to do that every time I wanted to know how a student was lined up. So, I made an oracle that didn't exist before for that express purpose basically because going into trance is exhausting. Um and that was my um my quirky way of working around the problem. Um but at some point everybody going through initiatory work has to find their sea legs with that problem and it just takes practice and um the right kind of structure. So we're we're moving in that direction."

The alchemist on knowing if information you receive is from higher or lower nature.

"Mhm. That's you entering the same state of consciousness while you're awake that you enter into what we call lucid dream state. The thing is is that lucid dream state doesn't depend on you being asleep. It is a state of consciousness. You can merge into that state of consciousness or move into that state of consciousness whether you're sleeping or not. It's just that for the most part predominantly it is only accessed in sleep. But it is its own state of consciousness. And when we talk about expanding that subconscious field um that lucid dream state field is very much a part of that level of consciousness. So the more we do work that causes that interaction, the more we are able to move into that expanded field when we give ourselves long enough time to practice and then eventually we acclimate to it. The subconscious mind, that aspect of mind that we're talking about, the expanded subconscious mind is the lower level of the higher functions of the mind of our higher genius. That's where things overlap. That's why it's so important. The more time we spend in that space, the more the higher genius can mold our reality, mold us, help us evolve. And the more time we spend in that state, the more that state expands. And when that state expands bigger than our normal conscious state, there's a flashover. And that flashover is when we move into being completely directed by our higher nature, no longer being directed by our lower nature. So it's a really big deal. And that is like one step before completely merging with a higher genius itself. So there's levels fortunately otherwise we wouldn't really be able to wrap our brains around this whole idea. But um moving into those states of awareness and experiencing them more often is a contributing factor to being able to more easily communicate with the higher genius. And when you get to the point where you can effectively communicate with the higher genius, you can ask it, "What do I need to do?" Once you can do that, you don't really need a teacher on the outside anymore. It's still helpful, but when you can clearly communicate with the higher genius, you don't need a teacher on the outside anymore because it's the one that will tell you what you need to do."

This is the alchemist on lucid dreaming, and what that means when you can access it.

I've been over this before with what NG has said but I STRONGLY believe that a VAST majority of what NG teaches is NOT about anything more than simply living more in that exalted solar state. I really do believe that is the case based on all the parts I've put together lately and understanding how thoughts come THROUGH you. Clearing unconscious trash allows exalted yang to come through you naturally, which as the alchemist said is part of higher genius where we receive intuitive impulse from more readily. He says that the more you live there the more you'll be in communication with that innate intelligence to move you, and thus to have thoughts come through you that are necessary. Contrast is diminished. NG did on the spot lucid dream states when he was imagining, though that wasn't what he taught in a vacuum because lullaby method doesn't require any imaginal senses, though I'll argue you're still in a seeming lucid dream type state. What most people think applying imaginal methods are isn't really what NG was teaching at all, and really isn't what RS proposes imaginal stuff should be used for either. This is why repetitive thought stuff is the worst, because you're only going to be feeding not self, most likely at least. Divine pathway work is what the alchemist teaches, using SPECIFIC thoughts that attune you to exalted solar by dismantling unconscious resistance. The solar level I believe is where that lucid dream state can naturally unfold and the more you attune to that the easier it is to slip into it on command, like it is when you've done gazing for long enough and you can just "do" it on the spot without needing to do anything other than shift into that "sense" of awareness for lack of a better term. It's another sense, and NG never taught us that importance of attuning to that, because he taught that you'll naturally attune to it by being yourself, effectively. That is correct, and I'd still argue that doing correct imaginal stuff can accelerate that but it's not necessary. The work that RS teaches as in gazing and pathway work and other distance cultivation processes and resistance clearing processes such as living uncompromisingly as yourself making decisions under pressure to get over resistance physically as well as nourishing yourself physically too all works with the same underlying process which IS why everybody is going through this all the time anyway, it's just less accelerated. The more levels you work with at once, the harder it'll likely be but the faster you'll dissolve resistance.

If I ever put together a program with all this then I feel like I must hold myself accountable to provide everybody a working model that can work with them no matter where they're at and have self organising processes that every level of resistance can be worked with. Physically and subtly based processes together in my opinion is where it's at, not just what the alchemist or NG teaches, but a level of both. I know that technically you don't NEED physical work to do any of this subtle stuff but I'll argue that from the experiments that I've done over the time that you'd only benefit from going all the way instead of thinking that one way is all there is. It's on the table if you are willing to go all the way, that's my point. I'll also say that natural hydration from sources such as melon or grapes and such is VERY important if you're doing a Jing building dietary regiment with organ meats and stuff because all that is VERY VERY dense and "thick" kind of substance that can actually stagnate qi flow. Learned that the hard way over the years of learning what does and doesn't work when it comes to these things and looking at the metaphysics of physical vitality. I will also say that physically working HARD and I mean VERY hard WILL increase qi as well. How that works? I still honestly cannot answer that other than that it metaphysically corresponds to building root qi and moving those substances though fasting biology makes that clear to me which we've studied in earlier pages. I will pull out the stuff that's on the seedline doctrine and put it all on one specific page focused on the application side of things instead of having it mixed in with the rest on those pages that will cause many people to jump ship because it crossed their comfort zones, even though it's correct and we see that in the world today. No matter what doing the subtle work and the physical work together is always going to benefit more than doing either in a vacuum, though they overlap to some extent anyway so you really can't go wrong working on either end of the spectrum. That's why RS is so insanely powerful; because no matter where you're at if you're applying these principles then you'll get results. There's no way to do it wrong.

Interestingly the word desire and divine discontent is what the alchemist used interchangeably in one talk. Desire is a form of pressure, as I've said many times before. NG when he said desire is still talking about pressure, because desire IS a pressure to have satisfaction of something you're drawn towards, even if there's pain to face in the middle when going through to the end. NG also mentioned there would be suffering which HE HIMSELF SAID and that there will be challenges to overcome. That's natural. Anyone thinking that challenge is something they don't have to face because they tell themselves that there's no such thing as resistance are utterly insane and have ZERO understanding of how life works, and are likely living in a place where challenge exists not on a material level but on more subtle levels where it absolutely reeks of suffering under the surface that's being avoided. Most of those types who preach these things do it for profit, knowingly, and because that's what manifests you can tell what's in the heart of those types. Nothing if given without taking. So when we pull out and view the big picture for what it is we can see that desire and discontent really are on the same spectrum of applying pressure to move you into a different direction of attention, which of course can be purifying with IS the point. The alchemist says that desire/discontent with circumstances has to be greater than the willingness to stay in the box. I will argue that when you've got more physically nourished biology you will naturally WANT to break those boxes especially if you're applied in a more subtle direction with that energy. Higher TEST drives the desire to break limits. That's what it's there for, kidney qi, heart qi, that pressure exists to move us through purifying process by giving us the inclination to be WILLING to face the fires of the furnace of life as NG says and thus transform that limit and integrate that. This is why I said before that prioritising exclusively this imaginal stuff in a vacuum without applying anything physically is going to arguably be shooting you in the foot knowing that more of that pressure (provided you can and will be able to handle it because just having more qi doesn't mean you WILL go through I) will be only beneficial for you to bring it all to the surface is in my opinion a VERY VERY powerful thing to have. You're increasing desire basically, increasing the natural striving mechanism and amplifying intuitive impulse where you FEEL that truth of what's necessary and what's not. It's there if you've done the experiments and been through these things yourself. I've not focused on that lately but when I was it was VERY impactful to overall attraction of abundance simply because I was able to meet contrast barriers without them seeming as big even if the circumstance is the same. That's what working physically challenging processes also will open up through you. Both levels of this matter, despite what people may say out there including the alchemist. I'll argue this because it's clearly visible and the data I've gathered on this is clear.

I will say though that doing the subtle work in my experience allows and opens up the physical side to be more refined in where that energy can be applied. My desires for things in this world have DRASTICALLY changed over the last few weeks really I've noticed more things I've held on for years to have been changing and I mean BIG things where they're still not fully fully gone but I almost feel adverse to engaging with thought on that level if it comes up which is far less common. Complexes I've had for over a decade are becoming conscious more and more, and that's the thing that this does. Advanced gazing and subtle sense attunement and all these things work on purifying those aspects that are not self unconsciously where the pressure is dissipated in a very gradual manner.

"Um if if we don't acclimate slowly um then it it becomes more counterproductive than productive. However, going slowly enough that you don't necessarily notice everything as it happens in relation to how significant that is until you look back on it and realize um that while you were busy doing these practices, you weren't paying attention to the fact that you stopped doing these six other things that used to be a problem that you haven't done in months and that you didn't even realize you weren't doing until you somehow looked back on it and realized and so patterns and programs and complexes, things get cleared. Um, our positions on things change and shift, but most of that happens in a more gradual way. And then sometimes things are more specific and we have to choose. But if we've cleared a lot of that gunk out by doing this groundwork, then it makes those things easier and it gives you time to come to certain kinds of awareness. Certain kinds of things will click and make sense. In the very beginning, if I told you, you don't actually have a soul in the context that people normally talk about it and have come to accept it. That terrifies people. They don't understand that the more eternal part of them that's hooked into their being is the spirit. It's not the soul. Soul is created by spirit coming into form. And that soul is incredibly significant because the soul has a fixed part and a volatile part which we get to learn a lot about when we do practical alchemy work. The majority of practical alchemy work is really coming to understand the sulfers which is the soul portion. So if it's true on one level, it has to be true on all levels or it's not really true. So I can prove that this is true by you taking the appropriate form of of a material that's a mercury and circulating it over a salt. you will get a sulfur. And it's not necessarily that the mercury is extracting the sulfur from the salt, although that can happen because the salt is also made of those three things. But sulfur gets created by the circulation of spirit over form. soul gets created by the circulation of spirit over structure over form. So when you come to understand that you can start to see what all the frenzies about from a religious point of view where people are wondering wandering around um all concerned about the fact that that they're going to lose their soul or something unpleasant is going to happen to them on a soul level. And that's because they're putting their um level of importance on the wrong thing. Yes. Our our idea of ourselves and our personality in this particular incarnation is far more integrated with the soul level than with the spirit level. But that's because we're working from the ground up. And the whole point of mystery work is to take what we're growing from the ground up and grow it up further to the point where it reconnects permanently with that other level. And if we succeed in doing that, then we don't have to worry about the losing your soul part that will happen when you die. The thing is is that before we even really make serious progress with this work, we have to accept the fact that that's entirely possible. Make peace with it. let it go. Get over it. Then we can do the work. If we spend the whole time worrying about what we're going to lose instead of focusing on doing the work, then we're not really ready to do the work. So all the different religions that exist that are focusing on different parts, they all have different pieces, but they don't have a context of how the pieces all fit together. And that's what causes them to have all kinds of crazy ideas. And the the uh the thing is is that if we don't attain a certain level of consciousness and evolution while we're in the body, when everything separates, all that stuff goes back into its own level and we come back again and start all over again from the ground up every time. And so there is an aspect to the fact that our personality goes through a disintegration over time and continues to experience things that may or may not be pleasant because we haven't completed that work. But those things are still all just temporary. They're they're alchemical processes. They're just things that happen. But the the permanent part of us is in the spirit part. It's not in the soul part. And so these things can be um explained on paper and they can be experimented with with lab work and to where you can see how it's true on one level versus how it's true on another level. which is the tricky part of truth because just because if it's true on one level, it has to be true on all levels, doesn't necessarily mean that how we um how we experience it in one level can be easily translated to being able to prove it on another level. We have to know how it's true in the different levels. And the fact that people don't know how it's true from a conceptual level or a non-physical level into actual physical laboratory work is part of why the the cohesion that was once part of mysteries that held all of that together has broken down over time and now everybody just has pieces parts."

The alchemist on the soul level of being and the temporary nature of our soul as something that will be destroyed if not conjoined together in this work. He's saying that your consciousness is NOT immortal, and that this can be fully proven on every level in lab work which I've also seen so. You can extract the sulphur out of the plant salt with the mercury and reconstitute them into one substance through further distillation of the solution which leaves the quintessence imprint in the flask knowing you've made an immortal essence. This cannot be faked.

"That's pure spirit though it's existence stems from that level. But the reality that we experience as this is also the higher genius because reality gets projected from that place. So and everything physical everything non-physical has a physical level of existence and everything physical has a non-physical level. So we are literally existing within a rolled out holographic version of our higher genius in a in a way that is that just defies anything from a normal understanding point of view from this particular level of experience. Because in order for all these levels to exist and stay the way they are, functions and forms and processes have to be put in place to keep things in those forms or everything would just collapse back on itself. So because we experience everything as incredibly reified as exactly what it is, it's difficult to wrap our brains around the fact that that's not actually what it is. And at the same time the part that the mysteries are um the viewpoint within the mysteries is that it's all very important. The things the ideas that circulate within more newagy kind of ideas are stemmed from eastern ideas transcendental ideas that don't take imminence into account. that because uh because this material level is preceded by the non-physical level that this material level is temporary and therefore it's unreal and therefore doesn't matter. The thing is that's very imbalanced. It does matter. It matters very much. Not from the context of, you know, um, we need to save the world and the whales and that's well and good. But that's not the context that I mean. I simply mean that this level of existence exists for a reason. It's not just to come here to torture us. It's for a reason. And there is no um negativity to it. But different religions in the past that have come to certain kinds of realizations and interactions with other levels of being have come to different conclusions about it. Gnostics in particular. While a lot of what I say and diagrams that I could draw and things that we do tie into ideas that are gnostic because of gnosis. The gnostic religion particularly um Christian gnostic religion was based very much on the idea that this was something being done to us as punishment. Not just these are the mechanics of how evolution happens to a spiritual being. We descend into a certain level. We build up a body out of the elements of that level. We learn to master them. We take the consciousness that we have at that level and we exound it to the point where it can connect to the consciousness on a spirit level. And then we've grown a spiritual being. then we've stepped into that level of evolution. That's what all of this is for. It's not about deciding that some parts of it are good and some parts of it are bad or any of that stuff, but that duality creeps into a lot of things because of the way um the non-physical and the physical are forced to be separate. So, we have to go through all this stuff until we get to the point where we realize that there's a path back to not being separate but still retaining our full individuation because that is exactly what we're here for. It just takes a lot of repeat sessions to get that far. So, it's like taking a a rough rock and throwing it in a rock tumbler with polish. It's going to come out really smooth. All the rough edges are gone. It's bright and it's shiny and it's pretty or whatever, but in but it starts off as a rough ugly rock. And so, that's kind of where we are. were the rough rocks and were thrown in the rock tumble for as long as it takes. The the mechanics of that and the other intelligences that oversee that and that hold the rest of the fabric of reality together so we can do that in certain religions are rather vilified just for doing their jobs. Um, and you know, the Gnostics, uh, wanted to make the archons evil. Um, and some of the things that they say you can't argue with, but the understanding that goes even deeper that underlies that is simply aware, being aware of the fact that those are just the mechanics of how things work. So um that's the part of what you have to come to acceptance of so you can move on and get on with the deal. Not just to get the stellar body. It already has the stellar body. It exists at the stellar level. What the higher genius needs is the the material part of that and once that piece descends into this level then what the being at this level needs is to merge back into that. So it is still the alchemical idea that which is volatile fixed and that which is fixed volatile. It needs this process to be able to step into the next level of evolution that can come from that from this angle down here. We need the inverse of that. But it's two sides of the same coin. There is a partnership in effect between that level and this level. It's the level in the middle where you learn to interface with that intelligence where you can then actually make more progress with um what you can do to accelerate the process or rather cooperate with aligning up with the process not to just put you back in the rock tumbler. it's going to win because it creates reality all around. It's got all the strings. It has all the raw materials. It has everything it needs and it will win. So, if you want this to be a lifetime, that means you don't have to come back and do it again. Not because it's bad or wrong, but just because you want to get on with it, then you have incentive to line up with the plan. And that's where some people run away. They don't really want to line up with the plan. Most of them thought they really wanted the plan. And then when they figure out that it's not really what they thought, they either don't want it anymore or they run away because they haven't been sublimated to the point where they're realizing that um or not realizing but sublimated to the point where the the non-productive things that get caked onto ego have been dissolved. And that what's left of ego is functionality and acceptance of the fact that this is just part of a bigger process and it doesn't result in annihilation of the individuation. It does result in a purging of dysfunctions and things that um when an ego is out of balance, when a psyche is really out of balance, then it it likes to cling to those things because it defines itself by those things even though it's not those things. Yeah. So, um and and the funny thing is that the more that you focus on it because you are aware of the things and then you focus on them to try to get rid of the things, the harder they are to get rid of. Which is why the hunting and pecking model of psychoanalysis can be useful for major problems. But as far as clearing out the less intense problems that are just a problem because of the quantity of them, even though they're not very big in and of themselves, the practice clears a lot of that stuff. It just clears it out of your system. You don't even you just don't have to know. You don't have to dig it in. And by being free of all that, you the have all the energy that was tied up holding on to all that crap is then available for something else."

The alchemist on reality as a manifestation of the higher genius, or the bottleneck for God to unfold into corporeal consciousness. He said that everything physical has a non physical correspondence. When you take it like that then you'll begin to see how "imagination" creates reality as NG says, even though it's not the imaginal senses. It's really the subtle elements which correspond to physical aspects which you can interface with on the subtle level to influence the physical manifestation, though that's how we naturally are being moved all the time anyway. NG I believe by saying imagination is God is saying that the subtle sense interaction with invisible themes for the functions of purifying who we are and thus the shift in the field geometry will correspond to the changes on the physical level. It was never that imaginal senses when repetitively used will force reality to magically conform, AKA mind magic. The fact that he himself said we will suffer proves that it's not all relative, else he wouldn't have said that.

Intuitive impulse right here. Remember and recollect are very similar. Re-member means the opposite of dis-member. To member means to organise. That's what a member is, a label for part of a collection of parts that comprise a whole. A member of a group. A mercury of the soul. So re-collection is the same idea, to collect the components together again, to remember is the same thing again. That's how memory ties into this, or what we believe as memory.

I've been going through another part of the alchemist talking about relationships in one part and he said something about a "setian mindset". That reminds me of the Egyptian god Set, as well as Satan, Setian. Very similar right. He was saying that the setian can "do as he may please". That's Satanism right there, as in holding no responsibility to other people. This is who many multi billionaires operate, and even multi millionaires. How do you get that much money without steamrolling the humanity out of a large amount of people? Effectively in todays day and age isn't a thing at all. It's possible but you'll need to produce something of ACTUAL value. Morality aside I found that interesting that he was saying this under the context of moving in and out of relationships that are necessary if that's needed and not holding a bond to someone outside of the purposes of his process in transforming unconscious resistance through that relationship. The alchemist made a comment on the idea of cheating and stuff and said that just because you're doing work doesn't mean you can really go out and change the rules of marriage without informing someone else that you're now playing by different rules and now want to go and do your own thing. Basically playing games with people and hiding things (like billionaires and Jewish elites in politics) is a disconnect with living from integrity. It's not about being in a satanic type of "I can do whatever I want" type of thing because that's just not true. He's mentioned before that you can make decisions in the past that will require undoing in terms of their impact when you reach certain levels of the work and that can be challenging to go through because you'll have to face all that shadow. Living with humanity and integrity is standard, and just because you're doing this work doesn't mean you're on a higher level of morality where you're not responsible for other peoples feelings, that is when it comes to your direct impact on them and not you simply bringing out stuff on their level that's their unresolved resistance. If both parties are unconsciously clean with their resistance (mostly) and someone goes and does something stupid then obviously the other person has a right to feel that their partner wronged them. Nobody can avoid this, pulling people like strings on a puppet to make them dance. This whole no free will thing is relating to the will of God, not about you controlling anyone to do anything. I'll argue that NG never taught there is no free will, but that free will that we have seemingly comes from the illusion that our thoughts are all our own and that thoughts which come from shadow vs correct nature aren't often discerned clearly. The whole no free will argument is simply that God is moving us all according to his will, and that's what's driving the overarching influence with divine order that you have no control over, but that's not how it's interpreted today. That idea of pulling people around like puppets is insane, even if you CAN do that. The LOA coaches who have the most "bad" attitudes are the most whacked when it comes to what's hidden under the surface and you'll find that almost all of these people are extremely fake and only do what they do to make money and receive approval from others for basically scamming people. What a joke. They need competition. You don't know what goes on behind the scenes in those peoples lives, how much shadow they're hiding.

Most of these rich kids either scam a ton of people selling huge promises and only deliver in very few cases, though they'll claim they've helped many people which wasn't the case or they hired people not qualified to do a job and used their skills to make themselves get paid top dollar on the front end, I know this because I've been in one of them myself some years ago and I saw all the scamming none of them have a sense of actual humanity it's all "I want to be the best". You can say that in terms of actually providing real value but that's VERY different when you're doing it like hiring cheap labour to do the task of someone who's promised to be high end and so these rich kids that have these coaching businesses or MLM type services where the top dog reaps all the money from everybody involved without them realising it which is VERY parasitic. That's how a lot of business is run now with these migrants from Asia in my country, they're not even getting paid in some cases and have made arrangements with the owners to have a room to stay in so long as they work and give the owner all their money to avoid extra taxes. It's all how can I be the most optimal parasite possible, Most people who do this stuff often already have a decent living standard but still do it anyway because they can get away with it without consequence. That's what this is always like, you'll keep doing whatever parasitic thing until consequences show up, and this happens in our personal lives with compromise patterns in other ways too. It's the same principle. Facing that stuff is the shadow that the alchemist says if it's not dealt with when you reach higher levels of the work will be amplified and turn you basically into a full on Satanist where there's no feelings for other people who you're harming along the way. That isn't even a factor because the only thing that matters to you is the money, and no matter what happens you'll get there, or whatever circumstance it is. Always keep that in mind when you see these people with all this wealth they're showing off to claim how much of a guru they are. I'm sure there's legit millionaires and stuff out there who actually have provided value on a mutually beneficial manner (which is informed transaction instead of hiding stuff like parasites do to take advantage of you) but from what I've seen that's very very rare especially now that cost of living is off the charts. These types of things only exist because parasitism is enabled and to some extent actually encouraged by the parasites marketing these ideas to others. There's a difference between being actually rich through providing real service and products that are beneficial to all (assuming the people WANT to receive benefit from it) parties and being a parasite who's hiding things from people to make money off them which most people in LOA thrive off because if their success rates were publicly available it would result in their authority going to ZERO overnight. Even my success rates aren't high either and that's often not really my issue because I find that the people who make the most progress with this, such as a client who's been working with me on the regular and I've actually been extending his personal service through BECAUSE HE'S CONSIATENT AND ACTUALLY GOING ALL THE WAY and so I WANT to see him succeed. He's gotten over his SP and doesn't have any "need" for her and is actually focusing his time and attention on other things now instead of the person basically being his whole purpose where he had all these negative feelings that are now all gone, That's usually what happens and it takes upwards of 3 months to FULLY dissolve the trash if you spend time on it every day. This is just what happens, and I could've given him methods to accelerate that but he was consistent and that's why he got results in terms of how nourished his life is without having unnecessary peak dip cycles and feeling angry and sad and all that. The qigong helped him a lot and I even stretched my understanding to help him. This is what I mean by giving mutually beneficial services, I gave him a personal payment plan where he's paid off half of it in one go then the other half over time which he has payed out. I gave an old client who needed emergency coaching recently a free 2 hour call to sort out and bring out unconscious resistance and they felt much better afterwards. The people who blast me saying I'm a scammer or whatever in my comments can get lost, that's just "I have no value so belittling others makes me feel bigger" stuff. It all works itself out in the end, because I keep getting free money showing up in my bank from whatever sources to keep my bills paid and some extra margin on top to buy stuff that I need for this work to get done. It just works itself out, and it's all moving to enable my process to unfold. When that finishes I don't know but I don't have attachment to the when because that's up to God. If I feel compelled to give away free coaching calls then I will, and sometimes with people who I've given a free call to and they ask for more I just cut them off because I feel that I shouldn't speak with them without a mutually beneficial transaction to open that up further. It's all based on how I feel what's right and wrong in that place of clarity that I'm familiar with and that's God communicating to me which decisions are necessary and which are not. If I follow this then no matter what happens I will end up making ENOUGH money to do the work I need to do, even with things as expensive as they are in Aus now which is insanely high. I'd say cost of living has pretty much doubled (depending on what it is though most stuff has and some are well over double the price too) in the last decade despite wages being barely any higher. People end up making these parasitic businesses because they don't have anything else to offer that's of actual value and so can't sell in a mutually beneficial manner. That's the thing, when you don't have wealth within (which really means you're in alignment with where natural striving leads you because that will "decode" your themes to give you what's necessary) then you can't receive it. It's not even about integrating the idea of wealth, though on some level that's the case, but that's not really how it works. Your vitality determines all of that stuff, from experience I can say that how nourished you feel determines the success you attain, and the willingness to go through pressure of course on top of that which vitality opens up the ability to process. It all plays into itself. Every part impacts every other part. This is why it's so difficult to really distil it all down to simple ideas because while they are there the essence of the message is still lost. Really it's just alchemy. Break down the components that are necessary and purify them under pressure and allow time for them to integrate and be put back together again in a newly arranged format that's guided by the invisible hand of God. That's how I'd summarise RS to be honest, because that's all there is here. That's done THROUGH being yourself without compromise (being WILLING to break boxes when you KNOW it's necessary to do so), cultivating vitality in all the different ways (which includes stuff like gazing and pathway work and physically nourishing yourself and such) and all that fulfils how you detach and naturally feel stable and have the correct thoughts and all the stuff that LOA tries to overlay while bypassing the ACTUAL mechanisms that even enable that to begin with. That's just how this works. You can deny it all you like but when you pay attention to the patterns that happen to everybody and the physically based correspondences then you'll clearly see what I'm talking about. RS and such comes from YEARS of observation of my own patterns and case studies from other people where I have enough information about their situation to see the underlying mechanics which played into their experience. It always comes back to operating from resistance or not, and breaking those patterns of compromise opens up natural stability and nourishment to "manifest" things which is in effect an alignment process by dissolving what's not self to leave remaining what IS self which then they can operate from and be abundant and naturally be themselves without compromise without the contrast barriers causing them to hesitate and hold back over false expectations and conditions that aren't theirs to hold onto.

That's a lot there but I'm sure it was pretty clear with these ideas. Here's what the alchemist says about this.

"I don't see it about agreeing or disagreeing. I understand what he's saying. At the same time, um so meeting someone who more naturally is a reflection of your own nama on the outside is all well and good. Um, but if that's important enough to you to spend time with that particular person, then as a grown man, he should basically have enough balls to go tell the truth and not be in the physical relationship that he's in and terminate it. If if if it's more important to him to do this other thing and walk this other path on this other level, so be it. I'm not gonna say I'm not gonna I'm not going to judge it as good or bad or whatever. I I get what he's saying on an energetic level and from a certain point of view and this is very difficult to grasp from the level that most of us are in most of the time. But our reality is a projection. Each of us have a projected reality and our projected realities overlap. When someone begins to shift into a much higher state of consciousness, their reality still overlaps, but they're also experiencing a higher level to that reality where they don't view things the same exact way anymore. I get that. But I also think that if someone is this major adept that all of that stuff that can be done with a nama can be done on an inner level and it doesn't have to be participated in on an outer level and if you're going to go and do that it's fine but step up and be a man be truthful and say this is how it is. And if it's if you're really functioning on a different level and you're really okay with that, then if it's good enough to do, it's good enough to talk about. Sneaking around, hiding, doing those kinds of things when you're supposed to be this adept is a is a somewhat set mindset. And people that get in The same mechanism that um is responsible for degrees of being a sociopath where you are able to just turn off aspects of feelings and emotions and humanity and caring about how your actions affect other people. um this is simply a higher octave of that. So people that go through deeper initiatory adept level work can have a tendency to slip into the Setian mindset where it's very easy to just say and accept that um that those things don't actually matter. And because they don't matter, they can just do as they please. So, it's not about right or wrong. I I see both levels. But as far as um the general rules of respect when a person is in a marriage, my viewpoint is is that if the rules of being in the marriage when you got married were not to go screw around with other people, if you decide to change the rules of how you want to play the game, you have to inform the person you're playing the game with. It's up to them to decide whether they want to accept it or not. but running around and cheating about it when you're supposed to be this person of higher consciousness um that's supposedly playing by a different rule set that that's a little bit of a as far as I'm concerned um a little bit of a disconnect in that um you know unless it's out there on the table as hey this is something I'm going to where the other person's informed that it's sneaking around. Sneaking around is not part of a higher level of operation. It isn't. So um people if you have a lot of shadow and you don't do things to sublimate the shadow when you step into degrees of more powerful work the shadow can get amplified too. And so if you're if you are not mindful and you don't purposefully deal with it then you can you know you're not only does your shadow increase but so does the capacity to justify things. So it's not it's not that how do I say this without this sounding terrible and recording. So, it's society that's decided that the that morality means we don't cheat on partners we're married to. That's a rule made up by society. That's not a rule made up by nature. Nature says people get together, they do these things, little kids pop out or they do other things where little kids don't pop out, but it's the same basic idea. That's the nature part. the the projecting of moral ideas onto these things are constructs of society. But at the same time, if you agreed to one of those constructs and then you're going to violate the construct, that's not an integrity. So um you know there there are multiple levels to um to consider and the dissolution process is messy. Okay. It just it's um and when you're going through dissolution, one of the reasons why you need a teacher to help you through certain things is because dissolution is literally a breaking down of the mental constructs that have previously held things in place. So while you're going through the middle of dissolution, things can be really weird and the decisions you make are not always the clearest best decisions. Which is why having someone continually reflect to you, this is a dissolution process. This is normal. Don't make any major life-changing decisions right now. you know, like so people get themselves into trouble because um they are not necessarily recognizing the level that they're in or what they're going through. It can be messy. So there's no judgment from my point of view about a person who does a thing or doesn't do a thing. It's it's simply common mutual respect that if something's good enough and I used to have a friend that was this was one of her favourite sayings which is why I say it if it's good enough to do it's good enough to talk about right so if you can't talk about it u why was it such a great thing to do you know u I mean not to say publish it in the newspaper But I'm saying the person you're married to. Um, you know, like if you're finding yourself doing things that you can't talk about with the person you're married to that are considered by society to be morally questionable, um, then you're not really operating in the highest space regardless of what label you want to use um, or what justification. So if you're really operating from that viewpoint where you're operating from a higher set of rules, you should be able to just say, "Hey, I'm doing this." Have the reaction you want to have, you know, but if you're hiding it, um, then that's just an excuse. So right I mean there is something to be said for slow acclamation to you know the accutrants of the art um but you know we don't um have as much external stuff as other kinds of magical groups in training. Most of our stuff is very practical on the outside and our initiatory magical work is all done on an inner level."

The essence here is that you don't violate contracts you make with people by setting up expectations that you then didn't hold to. Don't hide things from people and lead them on to expect something you're not actually delivering. That's the essence of what he's saying and what I said above applies to that on other levels too. This whole thing about "higher consciousness" is simply that you're aware of more of the subtle levels. Remember that you can have ENOUGH cleared out to open that up but still be holding onto things that God didn't see in that time as necessary for you to clear, or that you're just avoiding it more but that it's still not something holding back your progression. The alchemist has said before that you can "be an enlightened ass" having a brash attitude and such that's like the opposite of how NG approached things because the illuminating current didn't necessarily force that out, but that over time the rough edges get sanded down instead of it being driven by not self stuff. That might've been that persons natural self but amplified with the resistance as overlays, and so this process would only smooth the sharpness on that person in how they come across, and that's only the issue with the other people in how they interpret you at that point. We're not all built to be all lovey dovey, but we are all built to have the capacity to UNDERSTAND authentic expression from people vs inauthentic expression and simply see it all for what it is, overlays or authentic living. That's how this works.

"Um, but uh you know, it's it's just part of Energy given to one thing is energy taken away from something else. It's as simple as that. And the more in alignment you come into with doing the work to completely connect and merge with your higher genius, the less inclined you are to be interested in dealing with any of the stuff that comes with a lot of those other configurations. But it's personal. There's no right or wrong. There are plenty of people that have gone through initiatory levels of of deep work that have been married to spouses that are just not interested in that. But, you know, that doesn't mean you have to do it that way. Um, and it doesn't mean that the that the configuration you're in won't shift because remember as you shift things around you shift. So that can be twofold. It can mean that the people in your environment also go through shifts or it can mean that they get shifted right out of your environment. It doesn't have to be one or the other. Um, but you know specifically, but it can be. So you can find someone being suddenly more open-minded to things or or not, you know, there's no way to know for sure. That's the thing. It's um when people aren't really dedicated to something, no matter what it is, you could live with someone that wanted to be the best tennis pro ever and they're going to be dedicated to that. So, if they understand that you want to be the best this thing over here or whatever, and in order to do that, it means you have to be devoted and you have to be consistent and whatever. They don't have to understand what that is, but they get what being devoted to something is and what's required to be successful to master it. It it given rule of thumb that it's a minimum of 10,000 hours doing anything in order to become a master of it. I can say that that I found that to be somewhat, you know, without measuring things, I found that to be a pretty accurate assessment in the number of things that I have worked towards. And so you don't you don't have to be with someone who um gets exactly what it is that you're doing. But if it's someone that gets what dedication to becoming um adept at something is what that means, then they're going to get why you're devoted to what you're doing. People um rarely put in that kind of devotion to anything anymore. So it's far more common place for people to simply not get the whole concept. It's unfortunate, but that's where we are."

This is his comments on being with someone when doing the work. Here's some more on relationships.

"So um we're human. So we're not, you know, we we are social creatures to some extent, some of us more than others. But and people accuse me of not liking people. And I'm like, well, that's not true. I like people plenty. I like my people. I don't necessarily want to like other people's people, but that's okay. I don't have to like everyone. I love them all, but I don't have to like them. And I'm okay with that. I think that's honest. Um and uh the it's just part of the path. The further up the mountain you go, the less you're interested in the conversation happening at the bottom of the mountain. Just the way it is. Uh, and it's not that you can't have the best of both worlds. It can happen. If that's what's meant to happen, if that's what's in alignment with how things are going to flow for you, great. I'm not opposed to having that in my life and I'm not opposed to being very open to it. Um, but it has to be the right configuration. And I think that that's where a lot of people make mistakes in their relationships because they have the impulse to be with someone to have that thing and they get kind of swept away with the beginning emotional newness of things. Then feelings happen and then six months later they realize they have no idea who they're actually in a relationship with because it's all projection and learning not to project is something that takes a lot of practice which means we have to make several messes along the way until we figure it out. Most of us figure out what we want by getting very clear about what we don't want. And that only comes by stepping in the middle of it and having to find your way out of it. That's just the way we learn. That's a human thing. But once you really get it, you're really inclined to be very cautious about what you step into the middle of. Um, and that applies on all levels. Um, it's not just the dating world, but business commitments and um things like that. Like I I don't do business partnerships anymore, per se, because when you're in a business partnership, you you have a a level of fiduciary responsibility to the partner. And if you feel more inclined to doing more spiritual work at the time, you're not holding up your end of the fiduciary arrangement. Um, and it's a rare business partner that's going to find that to be acceptable. Those patterns other people don't get. And the older I've gotten, the clearer I've become on like joint partnerships might be okay, but full-on business partnerships just don't really work because if I go through a period of a few months where I really need to focus on inner work or lab work or whatever, other things don't get done to the same level. And that's not fair to the other person. Um, but also I don't want to deal with backlash and opinions for it. So, I just don't do that anymore. I do consulting here and there and um other things that I do outside of teaching work, but I've had to create that around the nature of how I am. So, one of the things that you get to deal with when you're um evolving through different levels is building your reality to function for you the way it needs to to support your ability to do the work, which might mean accepting the fact that you live on less money or you um you take less jobs or less work. So you have what you need, but there's not crazy abundant excess. But going after the crazy abundant excess doesn't necessarily leave time to actually do the work that's the most important. So those are the choices I have made, including moving to a part of the country with a lower cost of living specifically for these reasons. And that allows me to not have to worry about having to make more money as opposed to when I lived in New York or Houston or Nashville or places that were uh a lot more expensive cost of living. So I've made those trade-offs. Um and I did them on purpose. So we can recraft our lives around what works for us. It's just that it takes a little doing. Um, and that goes the same for relationships and everything else. That's just part of the deal."

"I wouldn't say that it changes because your purpose is set. The levels of it that you come to realize or the layers of it that you get to peel off at any one time may look like something going in that direction or it might not because there's something that you need to learn over here before you can go over there. Um but the more you come into alignment, the more it's your um desire and focus to come into alignment with your higher genius for the purpose of attaining the stellar body, the more you have to come in alignment. But it's not just about have to come into alignment. It will naturally happen. You you can't do one without the other. And you you can't just figure it out. At a certain point, you can communicate with it and then you can ask and it will tell you just there with your teeth in your mouth trying to decide whether how you feel about that. Um, for me it's not a it's not a weird thing because I'm doing it, but I have um been aware of other people who didn't want to line up with what they really needed to do to accelerate things to the next level, mostly because of attachments. Um, although there is always a way to navigate that. Um it's uh some people just don't and those are all still valuable experiences because the next time around when they come back they'll accelerate through that faster than they did in the current lifetime. Maybe then they'll be ready. So there is no you have to. It is free will. But at a certain point you realize that the only useful thing that you can do with free will is to surrender it to your higher genius because then you stop getting in your own way. And that also is something that comes along with divine discontent. By still holding on to that, um, you you just end up getting in your own way more than you would if you just gave it up. That doesn't mean that everything is still a bucket of roses. You still have to feel whatever you have to feel and you still have to deal with things that you'd rather not deal with, and you still have to do it. Um, but, uh, there is a lot more flow when you're totally lined up. If you're not resisting everything, there is more flow."

This is the alchemist on "finding your life path".

"It can be a reflection of that. Yes. Um, it's hard to know whether everybody that talks about experiencing synchronicity and that is experiencing it to some degree is really lined up or not. But if you are lined up, then that should be a reflection. It doesn't mean that people can't have it without not really being lined up. Sometimes they have it because they're just supposed to have the experience of synchronicity. It doesn't mean they're on the right trajectory, so to speak. Although at some point, I guess that's useful."

This is the alchemist on synchronicity or just generally things working out for you that are like magic. Basically that's what people wish they could create, but that it's just part of the process.

"Sometimes it's because all those obstacles are in your way because you're not supposed to go that way. And other times those obstacles are there for you to get the lessons of forging through them. And this is why the ability to communicate with the higher genius is helpful because if you need to do it, you can just ask if you're going the right way. And then if it's something that's totally non-productive, then you don't do it. There's a story in um Arthurian legends and I I don't remember the exact details so I'm really going to butcher this but basically there are two knights and they're both on a quest and one of them uh has to hack his way through all the bushes and the briars and the thorns and the woods and every step on the path. He has to hack it and clear it to make progress through that path. The other night just is riding down a road on his horse. But in the end, it turns out that the one riding down the road on his horse while on a path wasn't his path. the knight that had to hack his way through the brambles and the thorns and the bush and all that to hack his way through a path to make a path. He was he was on his path. So it being on your path and having some flow doesn't necessarily mean that it's not going to be harder than other things. It just means that for the most part, even when it sucks and you're in the middle of it, you know, like, God, this really sucks, there is still an underlying bizarre sense of contentment and joy, believe it or not, because you know you're on your path and there isn't anywhere else you want to be. Theoretically speaking, it doesn't mean you wouldn't rather be on a beach drinking a Mai than hacking your way through whatever you're doing. But there there is this blanket overarching um piece that comes with knowing in spite of the fact that you're having to do this sucky task that it's part of a bigger thing that means more to you than all the other stuff you could go distract yourself with. It's a weird kind of contentment."

The alchemist on going through difficult circumstances. That explanation is how the alchemist is explaining my life. I don't care about the big luxuries in life, even though I could manifest that I find more satisfaction writing entries here and making videos whenever I feel it's necessary to get something out into more eyes. It feels correct, and I ALWAYS receive what's necessary for me on the way. That doesn't mean that it's always easy and I don't have pressure to face but it's that the pressure doesn't mean much or stop me. If I find compromise patterns I distil them and purify those parts of me that haven't been integrated yet. If I continue to run up against a wall over and over and never get anywhere then I know I'm not fulfilling my purpose, or I'm avoiding natural striving is how I'd put it, That ALWAYS result in bad feelings, like I had before I made RS public. I had all this stuff boiling up inside me that I wasn't allowing to come out. Those resistances are pretty much gone but the vitality drain is still there, like the life that got leeched out of me still hasn't returned from before that was an issue, and that's why I'm so big on understanding the contrast in vitality feeling and such. I'm not talking about nourishment and satisfaction but actual physical vitality like literal youthfulness and such. There's always a metaphysical correspondence to a physical aspect.

"There is such thing as truly magical objects, but they are made by art by an adept. They're not, you know, just because you make something in the shape of a wand or whatever doesn't make it a magical object. And just because you have the intention for it to be doesn't make it a magical object. What makes something a magical object is when a person has enough adaptability to connect with the macro level symbol that relates archetypally to the object. and they can tap into that raw power and they can mediate that raw power into the physical object from a non-physical level. A magical object in an an object can be shaped in order to be an appropriate vessel for an archetypal power. That's what magical statues in ancient Egypt were for. That's what a lot of those things um were crafted for. And then power mediated into them. consciousness uh a channel for consciousness to indwell a physical object so that the consciousness can be anchored on a material level like it it's got its own little house and it radiates. And that's why there are um in a lot of writings there were statues that were considered animated statues and it doesn't necessarily mean that the statues moved. It meant that they were animated. Anima means soul. That's why um you have you have um spiritus which is spirit and you have which is the soul. That's why animals are called animals. Animals exist at a soul level. They don't exist at a spirit level. Not like we do. They're called animals because they are literally um exteriorized little individuations of mother spirits that exist at the soul level of the planet. They're animals. So when someone can contact a an archetype through a symbol to the point where it becomes a living symbol, the symbol appears differently at that point. One has then gained the power to mediate that living archetypal energy into other things. Now we do that kind of work specifically when we get into theurgy level ideas but it can be taken even further to the idea of mediating a particular archetypal power. So objects that have been used to hold that power so that that particular archetype could radiate in an environment those are magical objects. They are real. They do exist. They're not very common. They're few and far between. And they're certainly not on all the shelves in all the metaphysical stores that are all over the world. But the the ability for magical objects to exist is is very real. The same way that you can sit down in front of a mirror and the fables of mirror mirror on the wall yada yada yada. you know now are absolutely true. That's real magic. So um it is entirely possible to have objects that are handed down through generations, lineages and things that do um have or mediate certain levels of power. The thing is is that over time um those things generally Wayne. So at some point even when an object has been imbued with certain archetypal power a few thousand years later there might not really be much of anything left but maybe a residual charge. it's not it's not been interacted with on a regular basis to reinforce that channel or that conduit. So, think of it like like power, like electricity. The average person doesn't necessarily realize that um the amount of electricity running to your house is the same all the time. The part you get build for is the part you pulled that you use that can be metered, but the charge is running all the time. So with magical objects, it's like that except that if you don't if you don't create a pull eventually just kind of rolls back up to where it came from. You have to create a a a conduct. You have to conduct the power. So, magical temples, the reason why magical temples and magical lodge work is supposed to be in theory more powerful of an environment than just being a solo practitioner is because in a truly magical temple that has been done to everything in it. And then by being in the presence of that, it is supposed to thereby affect your consciousness. And if that had been done, that would indeed be the case. However, magical temples now are just shells of images that that don't that haven't been made into truly magical objects. So, they don't radiate the those archetypal powers to then affect you in your personal field in a way that causes a shift. That's not to say that magical logic work is entirely useless because it's not. But it's not anything to the level that it could be and that has been done in the past in ancient magical tradition. So the reason we have these knicknacky things and these tools and these remnants is because at one point those could have been very real magical things. those ideas. Now all we have is a trickle down mostly of the implements and ideas about them but not necessarily um very many people who can truly mediate that power to wield it in that particular way. That is the work. It's it's part of the work of real adept work. not necessarily to do that on purpose, but it the mechanics of how it's done you can't help but run into because it's part of the process. So being able to do that is interesting, but no adept is going to do that unless there's a reason. And the reason generally would be the creation of a temple. Unfortunately, most of the people running temples are not at that level of awareness. Not to mention how exhausting that would be. But it would still be worth doing because your temple would be real in in that sense of that context."

Random subject but this is the alchemist on "magical objects".

"Well, the higher genius is basically literally a an individuated piece of God. It's your it's your individuated piece of God that's also you. So if you imagine that there's this space, everything above my hands is this pure God space and everything below it is this creation. And along the periphery that there's this line or string or a uh like a balloon, you know that film and there are little dots, little marbles, little points of light, stars, whatever you however you want to think about them in between this space of pure God and creation. And each one of those points is a higher genius. So a higher genius is the level of individuated God that relates to uh a physical being, but it's the only way that a physical being can actually connect to pure God because you can't connect to the totality of pure God. It's your individuated being. So in the west, that's basically how we look at it. So it is God that you're seeing when you see the higher genius or holy guardian angel as an emanation array of the higher genius. It is God on a particular level but it's not God in totality. And as as archetypal powers condense further down into physical creation, at the last level where that happens, there is an anthropomorphic visage that goes with it because that is something that we can specifically relate to. So in um let's say western esoteric cab Cabala and the Zohar explains it really well actually but most people don't have Zohar to go dig deep through but in western Cabala they talk about these spheres or archetypes being Sephora and there's multiple levels of worlds and as a Sephora descends down into the world of formation which is the last level basically before this physical level. The uh intelligences that live at that level are called par. And a par is a personified being that exists at the level that's the last level of an extension of a Sephora. It's a little bit convoluted to try to explain outside of having actually prepared something for this to make sense. But the the reason most religions have anthropomorphic beings involved in the way things are depicted is because that literally is how they are structured to operate. Without that ability to have that and be able to communicate with those levels, we would never be able to reacend the ladder back to where we're trying to go. So, it's built into the creation mechanism that those levels have an intelligence and that intelligence has a personification. How that personification appears to different people may be different, but it'll always be in accordance with its true nature. Which means that if and when you see those things at those levels, they are quite stunningly magnificent, even if they look far stranger than what you would necessarily think that they would because they don't always look anthropomorphic. Sometimes they can be geometric or simply energetic, but you still have a gnosis of knowing when you're when you're connected, you you know what you're interacting with. And then when you come back down out of that, that's when everybody questions whether or not that really happened because they're not in that state of gnosis at the time they're doing questioning, which is rather normal, right? your personal subjective synthesis on a conscious level or on on a level conscious or otherwise."

This is the alchemist on the personifications of God and other forms of divinity into physical nature.

"There is part of your of your consciousness that has not accepted that on the other side of these experiences is something that's actually better. And because of that, that aspect of your consciousness resists that process. So while it's not the part of you that you would like to be the one that's in charge, it's the one that shows up and tries to run the show when these things start to happen because it does not yet completely accept that what's on the other side of this process is actually its own evolution and that it's good for it. why these incremental steps towards it are the way this is going for you because that part of you is hanging on uh to what it knows rather than accepting a level beyond it. The rationality is that that aspect of you that's doing that has formed the beliefs that it has because of past experiences whatever they may be whether you are conscious of them or not and that's why it's holding on to those things. So, you know, on one hand, you may not be able to do anything about that other than continuing to allow yourself to approach this thing and and have some catabolic process and then back off and then keep doing it. But at some point, you have to master the lower will and not let it run the show. The more you come into contact with that though, the more that aspect of yourself will begin to acclimate to understanding and accepting that that is actually a vital part of your evolution and there then it will not resist as much. That's just the the mechanism of it."

This is what the alchemist briefly defines as why you feel resistance towards anything. I find this to be very interesting. NG with his imaginal experience stuff could play into this directly simply to inspire you to go through what's not self and because you're attuned to more of that aligned nature in accepting this then it will seem "like" magic. So many levels this applies. We can see why NG was all about saying there's no limits, which I've pretty much proven in one of his quotes. He spoke like that to basically get people to go all the way, and that's the point, because going all the way can't be faked and it forces you to transform the resistance by going through it. He also mentioned that getting clear on what it is you actually want that you know you need to do and sitting with that and communicating that that to yourself in a mindful state will help you accept it, not to force it but to build a sort of reinforced idea that it's necessary to go through and not move away from resistance the moment you feel any form of pressure. That's common sense, unlike the NG stuff where you try and go to the end which for most people isn't possible. The end is simply pushing the limits of acceptance of authenticity.

"The thing is though, you should spend some time really sitting in meditation and contemplating what you really really want and communicate that repeatedly so that it helps that part of yourself accept the phase you're trying to move into of being combative. Not trying to force it because you can't force that aspect. You don't have the power to do that. But you can spend time reinforcing the idea that this is evolutionary etc. so that it begins to line up with the program because you can't you can't shift the conscious mind by pushing against the conscious mind. That's why we do these processes. If you could do that, there would be no mystery system and there would not actually be a problem with people attaining illumination because you could just say, "Okay, I want to do that." And you could go do it and then everybody would do it. But that's not how it works. We're given this puzzle box and it works a certain way. And you can't force the conscious mind with the conscious mind."

More of what I just said.

"So here's the thing with our practices. We all have lives and things that we have to deal with and contend with in order to deal with our responsibilities and you know shelter, food, etc. But reality really does line up around your priorities. It really does. Now, that doesn't mean that just because you make or or want to make your spiritual work the number one priority that everything else is less important. It just means that um when you can choose that over things that are not really important, when you find yourself choosing that over those things, then you'll know that you are making a shift to where spiritual work is actually your first priority. When other things are taking up a good chunk of time, that's time away from spiritual work and those things are not things that are necessary for your responsibilities to family or work or whatever needs to be done, then then that's a slight misplacement of priorities. And the thing is that it meets you on the level on which you meet And if you have places where you're not really totally lining up, you can't really expect it to do anything different. So, and I'm I'm not saying anybody is or isn't. I'm just putting this out there as a reminder to contemplate on your own paths, in your own way, in your own work, whether or not if this is really something you want, whether you are as lined up with it as you might think. And that doesn't mean you shouldn't take some time to do something personal that's fun or pleasant. We're not here to be miserable. But if too much of your time becomes having a good time and not really doing your work and you have a bunch of time you could be doing that you're not, then that's that's different. So it's up to everybody to really look at what they're saying is their priority and then the balance of how they're spending their time. Um, you know, and everybody's in a different configuration, so it's going to be different for everyone. But you know, the person who has lots of time and doesn't spend very much time doing practice versus the person who has very little time but spends as much of it as possible doing their practice is probably going to have more significant uh acceleration because they're giving everything they have. So think about it from that viewpoint. time. If you have time or if you need to make time, let that kind of be um a good compass for those decisions. Help a lot because it's a sentient awareness. You can't trick it. It knows whether what you're saying is really in alignment with how you really feel or whether you're saying it because you just want it to be true. And so while we can trick ourselves to some degree, um you you really can't trick your higher genius. It just laughs at you when you try to do those things."

The alchemist on going all the way.

"When you clear things on an energetic level, they still have to be purged from the body. And that purging is a detox process. And if you end up if that if the energy that gets cleared is a large sign which can happen because of the intensity of the fact that we're dealing with the dragon and evolutionary force etc. um even if it's not necessarily as incredibly intense um the burnoff from that is stuff that needs to be physically cleared from the body. So energy can't be held on the energetic level unless it exists in something on a physical level."

The alchemist on physical purging of not self stuff on different levels. This is why I say that physically nourishing your body can and will correspond to metaphysical levels too. It can force not self stuff out of you doing the subtle work and doing the physical work can also in essence have the same impact if it's actually generating higher order substances which is what the Daoist systems mostly work with going from base materials up to God. Physical cultivation of vitality matters in eastern side of things, and less so on the western side, though I'll argue that the way you should apply yourself on the side that's in the middle is to work with both but in a harmonious manner, which is what I teach with RS.

27/5/25

"I find that the more I distil things, the more that I simplify and uh simply focus on the things that are the most important and make sure that I keep doing the work. Everything else, it's not that you don't have to do it. You do have to do it, but it's not a big deal. And even things that happen that are major life events, you still have to go through those motions. You have to do those things, but there's a flow to it. Um, and it's you're you're not doing it by yourself. So, you have to go through it. You have to have the experience, but you're not doing it alone. No matter how heavy it seems, you're not carrying most of the weight. It doesn't mean it's fun experience, but you become aware of the fact that yeah, you have to go through these things, but that you're being given the exact amount that you need that you can handle. You're not being given any more, but you're not being given any less either. And um what you need, not necessarily everything you want, but what you need in order to move forward to the next thing always comes. It always comes. Um and it's been that way for a long time. Uh, and you know that that doesn't it's it's weird to say because when I was younger I was incredibly ambitious um and uh I wanted to do all these business things and accomplish all these things. And after a while, when as I matured and realized there were other things that were much more important to me, um, letting all those things go, there are still old patterns in there that try to pull you towards doing those things. And you have to use discipline to not let conscious thinking mind pull you in a direction that's that really doesn't serve you. And so you you end up through self-reflection asking yourself um that just because you could do something, is it something you should do? Because there's lots of coulds, but there's lots of coulds that pull us off track. So, it's it's a good thing to constantly just reassess and re-evaluate where your focus is and reconfirm where you want to put it and move forward from there. Um, even me, you know, I've had to take clients for internet consulting. It pays the bills. It helps me buy new things. There's a whole list of things I want for lab work that I need to buy, and that's just how that works. So, if I want um a bunch of gas bubblers and um a couple new retorts and some new boiling flasks and another heating mantle, well, I need to do more consulting work. That's just the way that works. But, um those clients come and they come whether I'm doing anything about it or not. And it, as strange as it seems, it almost seems like the less I pay attention to it, the more the right things show up. I'm not recommending that as a business strategy. I'm just saying that just seems to be how it works. And so I take a client, I do projects, I, you know, generate the revenue from that. And that allows me to spend the majority of my time focused on transcendence works and the order um because I can take one of these projects, get paid really well, and then have months where I don't have to do anything other than focus on on teaching in the order. So, right now having to focus on clients. It swings back around. Clients get about one/4 of the time. The other stuff gets the rest. And that's how I balance these things out. But if I said I was doing it, it would almost be untrue because I'm not really doing anything. Um, it just comes now. It comes because other things happen, referrals, whatever. The work that I'm doing for these people at some point will yield a referral. people will show up and it'll be totally perfect timing. Um, whenever that's needed, it shows up without having to ask for it. That still means I have to do the work. I have to deliver, but it's not hard for me. So, there's just this flow that happens once you're really on the right path, doing the right thing. It doesn't mean that you won't have to do other things. It just means that that's where your primary focus is. That's the direction you want to go. That's where that's what you spend your free time, your personal time contemplating and moving toward. That's what's important to you. Other stuff is just stuff you have to do. So I joke around like, you know, this work that I get paid for is the work that I do so that I can do the real work, which is work that I don't get paid for. But yet I consider that my real work. So um that's just how my life is structured. Um and it just flows. So, um, as you move more into alignment with you with really being in sync with your purpose, you the anxiety, the worry, the things that you that were more common parts of day-to-day life are things that you end up letting go of. uh it this it's like there's zero energy that really needs to be spent on worrying about things which is nonproductive anyway but it's a normal thing that people do when they're in particular situations. Um and uh as you shift away from that all that energy that gets tied up and all that non-productive stuff becomes available. So, it's a curious kind of thing that you live into as best you can every day. And you don't necessarily notice it when you're in the middle of it. But when you look back, you can then see things much more clearly. It's like when you're standing on a hot road looking right down, you don't see anything. But if you're standing on a hot road and you look way down the road and you see the heat rising off the road, you can see it because the the perspective that you have allows you to see it. Whereas when you're standing right on top of it, looking where you are, you you don't see it. But when you look back, you can. It it's it's rather like that. And then all the weird things that happen uh the even in in career things that I've had to learn and then all the magical alchemical things taken each and their pieces. I would not have thought that they necessarily would make the picture that they make now when you put them all together. And yet every single one of those things was a vital pixel in the overall picture. But I from my conscious thinking mind would never have put all that together and said, "Hey, I want to make this picture." That's not how it works. We can try, but that's really not how it works. And since I already know that beyond things that I'm absolutely certain that I'm supposed to do, planning to do other things and coming up with a bunch of crazy plans to make things happen that never work is a total waste of my energy. So I just don't do it anymore. But I used to get myself in hot water by doing it because I can create. I can create and create and create. I over created to the point where it almost killed me. Because once you create all these things, then you have to deal with them. And if you really really create, then what you create will just steamroll you until you realize that just because you can doesn't mean you should. Uh for um people who are able to create like that, that's a really important lesson. So now before I do anything, I take the temperature of it and say, "Okay, yes, I could do this, but should I really do this?" Because I'm the one that's going to have to deal with it after I create it. And that's why you don't see me running off creating things like a madman like I used to. So I used to have an assistant that had to deal with a lot of it, too. But that's beside the point. Um, it's it's a curious thing. So, the long and short of it is do what you need to do, but keep as much of your attention on the spiritual work as you can. Do your best and make that your primary reason for being because it is actually your primary reason for being. It's just most of the time we make that secondary to everything else. And when you do that things will come much more into alignment because of your intention. Not you're intending that you want flow because that's easier, but your intention to be more in alignment creates flow. Does that make sense? Those are two very different things. You can't um wanting flow just for the sake of wanting flow is like trying to push water uphill. You don't get flow unless you have alignment. So you have to do one not the other."

This is the alchemist more on manifestation and what he calls flow.

"Well, it's a is a by-product, but each of the techniques themselves essentially is a prayer, which in prayers and invocations are very closely aligned. So, they're already woven in there. by doing them more um you're not only shifting your personal um uh makeup but that shifts your field which shifts your environment which you know there's a cascading ripple effect. So the thing is with those other ideas um those are more um mysticism because attempts to open themselves directly to God without the stages and the things that we do in initiatory magic which is one things that the key differentiators between mysticism and magic. Although the the final goal is ostensibly the same, the way that we go about it in initiatory magical work is generally considered more practical because it's doable in pieces rather than just trying to open up to the totality of God all at one time. That's not something a human being can even grasp or process most of the time. And so the the mysteries are basically uh a system of taking the totality of everything and kind of dividing it up so that you can interface with pieces at a time and by interfacing with those pieces we have a catabolic reaction and then that causes a cascade through the rest of everything else. So you can look at it as a bit mystical but really it's um a really practical modality that accelerates the process of getting to that place because by separating something when you separate um like when we do lab work in alchemy we take something we separate it into its philosophical elements we purify each of those elements and then we have to recombine them in a way where they recombine that um when we do inner work we we don't notice um the the mechanics the same way although they are still happening. So what happens is is in this totality this chaos the unconscious when we focus on a particular aspect that's separating it when we focus on a particular aspect and we consciously interact with it we are separating that out of the chaos the same way we would a philosophical element from the chaos of the elements. And when we do that on on a in the way of working mysteries, it is the ferment of the light that exists on the divine level that permeates through everything that actually causes that purification. So we don't have to actually go into the subtle level and take something and manually like you know go through the motion of purifying it. The light does that. The ferment of the light does that but it can't do it unless we have separated it from the chaos and it gets purified simply from the act of separation itself is a purification. And that's why um we talk about um uh separating the atheric body from the physical body. When that happens, um not only is it an amazing experience and something that that's initiatory in and of itself, but when you come back in your body, you feel like you've been totally cleaned out because you have. I call it the cosmic rotorooer because that's how it feels like you know you you and you notice what's not there by the fact that when you come back in it's no longer present. So you become conscious of what you were carrying around with you um by noticing its absence after it's not there because we've become so acclimated to what we're dragging around. We don't feel that we're dragging it around until it's not there anymore and we feel light and totally cleared out as a result of that separation. So that's another way in which separation causes purification. So while it's true on both physical and the non-physical levels, the how it's true and how it's implemented are a little different between the two, but the result is the same idea. So um that is why we approach um the the mysteries approach um particular things in more isolated ways is because it's the only way you can't separate the everything from the everything all at one time. It's not a separation. If there's no separation then there won't be purification. So trying to just surrender to the totality of God while admirable is not really practical from the mysteries mysteries point of view. way that it is practical is taking a piece and separating it and allowing it to have its thing, putting it back, doing another one in a systematic way that results in these specific catabolic reactions that then cause the dissolution of the soul cage where then you really find yourself being able to more easily transcend your body. So those things are all connected, but it's a little I think I explained that actually halfway decent this time. Um I I talk around these things a lot, but um it's one thing to just understand the importance of why we do certain things in the mysteries in the way that we do. And it's not just to be mysterious. They're already mysterious. That's why they're called mysteries. But it's because you you can't change one aspect of something by pushing on it directly. It will push back. If you push, it'll push back. So we have to instigate a kind of a fermentation process where by doing one thing this thing over here is affected in a much more efficient way than if we were trying to push on it. It would not it wouldn't budge. So we have to kind of go in the back door for a lot of the things that we're trying to shift. For instance, if you are trying to push on the conscious mind from the level of the conscious mind, that doesn't really get you anywhere. In order to shift the conscious mind, we have to create a displacement. So, by taking the conscious mind into the unconscious mind, that creates this field of the subconscious mind from the magical point of view. And the more we do that, the more that field grows and expands, the more it becomes the dominant aspect of the consciousness and the psyche. And that subconscious level is um part of the divine level whereas the other the conscious and the unconscious are part of this worldly level. So the only way we can shift the conscious mind is by something more powerful coming into contact with it. But the only way that thing comes and expands is if we take this thing and we go into this thing. It's like three-dimensional chess to a degree because you um you can't create that particular kind of reaction in any other way that's practical. There's there's so you use one part of the mind against another part of the mind or one part of the psyche against another part of the psyche to create this other third event. And that third event is what causes everything else to shift. as opposed to trying to do things through the mystical path where you just open up to everything. And that's a way to go, but it's a much longer route. That's a long path. When we're dealing with things um where we create catabolic reactions and we're doing particular things in transport, that is more akin to the short path. that the thing is is that the short path is not a shortcut. It's instead of going the long way around the mountain in a much more gradual, easy pace, you're going straight up the mountain, which is a much harder climb. And everything that happens on each round of the mountain that would be spaced out is encapsulated in this little itty bitty space from here to here while we're going up the mountain. So the short path while it is accelerated means that we have to deal with the we have to deal with integrating the things the imbalances that are generated or that we perceive are generated by by corrections being made in our being. We're going like this and we don't know we're going like this and the corrections make us upright but then we feel like we're over here. So we're not, but that's how it feels. And there's an integration period where we acclimate, we come back to it. And every time we go up one of those rungs on the straight up the mountain way, we have a good chunk of that we have to deal with and process. And that's why I have you guys learn the process first. Because when you go into doing the work and you create one of these catabolic instances, you need a tool set to help you integrate what's going on without having to dig in it. And by then, by the time you're in the middle of one of those instances, I can't say, "Okay, go learn this. That will help you." We have to do that part first. So you have the tool sets to integrate these things that are happening now in other older say older but just other magical traditions. Golden dawn for instance Israel regard was a psychotherapist and he basically says anyone going through these theurgy processes needs to have psychoanalysis while they're going through them. Of course, this is an older opinion from a different time, but his his point is well made in that if we don't have a tool set to help us navigate those periods where we feel imbalanced while we're integrating the things that were done and then we can spin out or get weirded out by it because we're not going through a therapy process. So while that was valid for the time because they didn't have a tool set um with it as part of the tool set when these things happen you just do more to help integrate and clear whatever is coming up and it will do that and you don't have to dig in it or go analyse it because that's how it works. if there's major major stuff then that not might not necessarily be a bad thing but you have to go to someone that actually knows what you're doing. Um, and while Jungian analysts are for the most part more open-minded than other psychologists and um, psychotherapists, that's not necessarily a guarantee that they're not going to think you're doing something that you shouldn't be doing because they're not initiates in a particular practice. They're not going to know and you're not going to be able to tell them because that's a no no. So you need this tools to help with that process and that's what it does. And the more you do it, the more you'll come to be able to clearly understand the method to my madness."

28/5/25

This will be a totally off the cuff and random spiel on ideas that I have running around in my head lately. Looking at the bigger picture of the function of culture and the place of these things in our world, it's led me to view things on that level of collective impact as almost personifications of the will of God manifest through artforms that evokes certain themes in us that are necessary to be transformed as a more overarching process impacting everybody and intelligently driven to do so in the most efficient manner possible from bottom to top.

Simplicity has been warped into degeneracy that's stimulating to peoples inherent needs and lacks in an almost comedic self derogatory manner that makes fun of both the art and the consumer. Why is this the case now? Where can this go? It will have to burst eventually because it's not sustainable obviously, but that this is here to reveal a lesson that the consumers are missing and know they NEED but aren't willing to accept. This is the EXACT same situation in the personal life, except collectively unfolding. The lesson will loop eternally until it's learned. I go back to the stories I was told when I was younger, always with a traditional Anglo tone, the art was very mid 90's hand drawn style, like old Disney animations, and character was poured into everything from the actual characters to the environment itself. This traditional Anglo type culture "tonality" if we'll call it that, more of a "classical" type of atmosphere thematically speaking, all those elements are DEAD in our modern world. The western world which was once the producer of such formats and ideas have been creatively bankrupt and morally bankrupt as a result. The form of art throughout history determines the collective morality of the people, and the degree to which they're willing to push limits to do what's necessary and correct. Damn manifestation and LOA. Damn it all. None of this is correct, but a warped perversion of the phenomena turned into a marketing gimmick. Damn Jewish banking systems of fractional reserve banking as the underlying driving force for this entire scheme. Cultural bankruptcy is the underlying root we can see manifest on an overarching level that's impacting our individual lives collectively and contributing to the decay of availability of vitality. I've spoken about this all before in earlier pages in other degrees of detail but it just sticks out so obviously. Seeing people who shouldn't be in our countries and having the elites who peddle these policies gaslighting us over and over and over and gradually people begin to believe it because of the shift in the normal, the baseline, the contrast is gone. Nobody knows what we had, or if what we had is seen it will be dismissed as old and outdated, despite offering a significantly more nuanced format to deliver culture through which benefits everybody in a manner which doesn't drive parasitic ideologies.

I despise modernity, not because of what it is but because I know why it's here and what it stands for and who's responsible. If I didn't see those underlying threads I'd be the same as the blind in the grinder. It's all the same trash peddled to make profits and prop up an illusion, almost always. The genuine faces never stick around for long in a consistent form of relevancy because they're only there for a specific highlight that steals peoples attention from everything else. That attention is always temporary. I cannot avoid seeing this, I can ignore it but that doesn't change the underlying view of causality sticking out to me, because the threads are what I see in everything. Ignorance to attain temporary gain is the path of an idiot who has no capacity to face pressure and transform themselves into deeper understanding. The poetic format is long gone and no longer readily available for people to access.. That is the problem. People don't have availability for their traditional cultural thematics which are within their blood, quite literally. It's drowned out with all the trash promoted on the Jewish owned platforms that push slop on mass. Why is this an issue? Look around you. This will continue to accelerate further. Moral and cultural decay is why LOA exists. This isn't about specific ideology other than simply speaking common sense facts. If I can see such a view then I am seeing this for a function.

90's and arguably early 2000's, before on demand online access to consume media on mass in a more unnecessarily stimulating manner, this time is when we can see the threads breaking for tradition. Then again HD says that cooperation will be destroyed in this coming age, but that in my opinion doesn't work because cultural threads have ALWAYS been available, just in different formats. It's like existing in this time is the most excruciating degree of suffering imaginable because despite in the past with all the wars and conflicts and such there was always bonds between people in meaningful ways and people had functional nervous and endocrine health. Now that's dead. Why? Well in my opinion based on everything I see and understand, I believe that the goal is to utterly eradicate Anglo culture from existence. That is what the Jewish ideology thrives on afterall. The eradication of all things that are good. The facts are the fact, and ignoring them doesn't make them go away, not collectively at least. Living in an insulated bubble protected from such can mitigate the impact but it's not going to stop that impact from breaking through eventually. All these forms of pressure that are arising exist for a reason, to inspire voices such as mine to speak of such things simply as a matter of principle. Why is it more so that the Anglo culture is targeted? Being encouraged to be mixed and diluted and destroyed in a subtle manner that isn't explicitly stated and exploits peoples goodwill to tolerate over time what they know isn't good for them but isn't bad enough to outright say no. This is what's being done to us. Nobody can say otherwise. This is being done TO us, make no mistake. I do feel for such a capacity to be realised that's almost been taken away from under our feet and then telling us we're going to fall over while we allow the rug to be further pulled away and no solid ground under to stand on, losing more and more balance as the slow motion action unfolds before our very eyes. How else would someone who can recognise the obvious feel about such? "Classical" and refined stimulus format has been replaced by overstimulating formats designed to deplete and leech vitality. Deplete space, deplete standings with what's correct to open up and push boundaries further into degeneracy and accept that bit by bit.

We can see this mirrored on the internal as it is the external because it's all the same. Why tolerate it on either end of the spectrum? With what's manifested collectively in the western world we can see the psyche that's been moulded by Jew owned media over the time. They have the money to buy and influence and thus shape culture, not by force but by tending to the weaknesses and vulnerabilities in peoples own psyches they're unconscious of. These aspects have been warped and used against us and now we're drowning in it. It sucks. We're so far in decline it's almost impossible to describe. It's not about the technology or any of that stuff, and all this propaganda about living standards to keep real investigation of the past from taking place and dismiss it as outdated ages despite holding the keys to our capacity for abundance. Anglo culture use to represent silent power, the very architecture spoke to who we were as people, because it literally did because that's what we produced. Nobody has access to that anymore. It's dead. That's what I mean. We aren't the same people, not on the level of coherency of psyche but the availability of themes and formats which that psyche can explore. As I said before though it seems this is happening for a function, as all things do, but that doesn't mean it doesn't suck and that feeling that this isn't good isn't an invalid stance to take. There are stakes because the availability of abundance and vitality and kinsmanship is being eradicated where trust between each other is eroded so far that isolation is now the normal. It's already happening and this is JUST the beginning according to HD cycles of the crosses. Blending all these different people together as individuals and watering down capacity for cultural homogeneity and thus coherency is how this seems to be manifesting. This is often marketed as a "political" issue but I say that's not even close to what this really is, it's just common freaking sense that's built into every one of us and that inner truth that exists is being shoved down and tolerance is built despite KNOWING it's not beneficial and THAT is the lesson that seems to be building up here. Trust and tolerance of people we don't understand on the same level as our own. This has been building from as far back at least as the days of Napoleon as was explored. Anglo culture has greater "impact" if that's the word to describe the art, as though there's just a more "refined' and almost "divine" language spoken. That format is how people lived, the expectations that were AVAILABLE and encouraged to pursue. Go back to the days under kind Edward the 2nd when collective abundance of vitality was probably at it's greatest ever since when people on average worked 13 weeks a year when the Jewish debt based banking was removed and debt was paid out where everybody produced surplus and nobody needed to be a leech or feel economic pain needlessly.

These systems of control exist to be transformed, one way or another. Why continue to accept compromise patterns and conditions of limitation when they can be transformed? Why continue to compromise and hold back from actually solving the problem? You see? These cycles ONLY exist for the function of integration of themes of experience collectively speaking. That's what scripture is about, this IS prophesy. The unfolding of every element of the psyche on every level which IS the will of God as was written. How else can this be viewed. If there is a problem why not solve it? Why continue to let the suffering needlessly continue if you've identified it? Well that personal recognition MUST happen on a collective level to ENOUGH of a threshold to satisfy the condition and integrate the themes to thus manifest the shift and this unfolds through us over time naturally as these circumstances push us to viewing things in new ways due to that pressure being present. Ignoring this is just an unbelievably stupid view to have that's objectively incorrect. Your view of that depends on the impact it has on your experience, and you will NOT see it until that pressure is applied sufficiently. My gen is basically forced to see that because of the circumstances we're existing in, but that threshold isn't crossed yet collectively speaking. Doesn't matter if everybody sees it for what it is because it doesn't require everybody to see that to change it. All it requires is enough, 51%. Thing is the people in the lands who live in the west naturally, we are being eliminated and replaced to by the time that happens the numbers would shift so that the threshold is never reached and the transformation never happens and Anglo culture gets destroyed for all eternity because those who saw such never made different decisions that were necessary to remove the threats forcing that to happen TO us. Is that what will happen? I don't know, but that seems to be the current trend. Sounds pretty bad doesn't it, and the impact won't hit until the pressure is great enough and understanding is applied in that direction.

So now we can see why things are the way they are. This is why LOA doesn't work, because this is all being done TO us, not because of us and what we think in a vacuum. It's a challenge that's coming up in the collective psyche to transform and until that pressure is faced then it will reach its conclusion and destroy us as it would an individual or it will be transformed and integrated where it will not become an issue again. Why would it be any other way? It can't. It's fractally represented on every level. Top to bottom. The current target (really as it's always been) is Anglo culture, to water it down so that it ceases to exist and if you look at everything showing up now we can see how that's being made manifest. The birth rates are well below replacement and have been for a long long time, and that's ONLY impacting our people because that's the plan. Objectively, as stated by Jewish interests who are manifesting this because that's their role to play. Denial is ignorance and should be swiftly corrected, those who cannot accept correction haven't seen enough pressure cycles to understand that to contribute to the solution. What does that matter to the personal life anyway? Well almost everybody you speak to on the streets will tell you they're feeling the pressure, mostly of economics, but for some it's also of social and that's the primary impact that leads to further degradation of innovation and production of what's actually valuable.

LOA only exists because this void exists. LOA is the half baked solution to problems that LOA cannot and will not ever solve, because it's marketing to the limited parts of the psyche who wants to feel better and avoid the responsibility of being yourself. No matter what though, pressure exists as opportunities to integrate more than we had before. As individuals our own journey is ultimately what matters, and that will naturally be mediated by the collective trajectory as a natural effect anyway. Focusing on trying to fix those problems isn't for the individual really, because our individual trajectory likely involves things that can be totally unrelated which will shift the things in those who will have a more collective type impact on that overall trajectory. I do not say that you should always be feeling responsible for those outcomes of contributing to the parasitism but that it's more or less simply operating from correct principle whenever that shows up as an option to make decisions from. That's it. Confronting what needs facing and going through what's necessary is how this changes, from individual to collective levels. Natural striving plays that all out intelligently, driven by God, not by our limited perceptions of the conscious mind. Action that's applied correctly solves problems because that experience in itself integrates what's necessary. That's what EVERY LOA guru misses, thinking it's all about techniques when the action itself IS the technique, be it virtual or not. You face pressure, that's the technique. Give yourself the permission to make the moves you know you always wanted to. Being yourself in this shifting landscape will bring about the correct cultural shifts necessary to build what's coming out of this. So out of the outline of what's being destroyed as we speak we can recognise that the pressure only exists to provide a new foundation that's just not available on mass yet, but you ARE that foundation by which others will be inspired to build on. That's how it spreads without you trying. Ultimately the destruction of the old foundation which stood forever isn't the issue, it's the compliance to the fantasy that it'll all be ok if you just play along with things as they are now, meaning ignoring the obvious, though if you don't feel that then you're either not ready to see that yet because the pressure hasn't hit home or you're just not suppose to see it anyway which would be for the older generations mostly. It's simply that we now exist in a collective environment where things aren't there to support us, and we have to now be ok with having less handed to us by default and be willing to step into new directions to build that new baseline that others can then stand on and move with that gradually becomes the norm. Attuning more to our in built humanity and owning it and not compromising on that simply because it's now normal to distance ourselves from what that use to look like and that which formed our world. Being shamelessly yourself, and being the supply of those themes when nobody else will is truly the role of the people who are going to build the new foundation. It's the toughest job there is arguably but it's necessary. Disengaging from the trash and leaving it behind is how you move forward. Just move on. SO what. Big deal. If it feels like you're leaving behind something you held as important that didn't need to be then that's good, because it means you're letting go and that's how you "do the work" as we say.

Ultimately the culture isn't dead, it's just been layered over with trash that panders to weaknesses of the psyche that are on a different level, and that's what's always on the surface for everybody to see and access. The availability is dead, but it's still there and those themes are still available, just not at baseline as standard now. So really it's not "gone" but at baseline where those formats are in each and every family unit, well that's not probably showing up again. These are all just cycles after all. That's the only thing we know is certain. Things come and go. Knowing who's involved in manifesting that and how they're doing it is what identifies the reality of it, and seeing what plays out drives the feelings. That's the pressure to shift and accept.

One of the things you begin to notice is that online access to info is where people can pseudo spend their pressure and feel this temporary relief. It never goes anywhere though. It's not real. Real experience is what's needed, as in feeling THROUGH the pressure on a sensory level instead of just a hyperreality type of real. Simply do the practises that RS is based on and you'll get places you need to be.

I also just thought that using subliminals in order to retrieve pathways and lead them and purify them (which is basically just a "guided meditation" at that point) could be of benefit in fact. If it feels trough pressure then it's transforming not self.

If we boil all this stuff down it's more or less this. Don't get driven by temporary feelings to feel better about things, and instead be ok with facing the pressure and not giving into pseudo satisfaction or compromise on what you KNOW is necessary. Truly.

I've been here before but I believe that having mixed kind of thematics in your environment, meaning various forms of inspiration that pull out of you different states, inspiration that can be on either end of "good" or "bad" but the themes are what matter there. An example of this would be fengshui, arrangement of items in your environment that pull out of you different formats of thinking, and that reminding yourself of a coherent state that's correct through your environment will be of benefit. This is a science that's highly subjective really, though there are objective mechanics, I don't believe that environment is truly something that can be measured for resonance because the goalposts are always moving as you progress through transformation.

Looking back at footage from teens and 20's in the 1950s it seems they all generally had access to more resources, many of them found driving important even at 16. There was no chance I would ever afford my own car at that age, yet many had jobs and had money to afford such things. Many of them who were over 14 earned more than enough to buy a car at 16, though I don't know if that needed parental approval for purchase or not they were SIGNIFICANTLY more independent than anyone I know was. Homes were affordable based on a 14 year old working part time for 4 years to get to 18 and leave school to move into their own place, though that's assuming all the money went to the house which was unlikely, but with some assistance they'd easily be able to move into their own place with someone they liked and start a family in their early 20's easily. No chance doing that now unless you're "lucky". Fact is that now you have to live in a sort of predatory manner to make that much money at that age, you can't just "get a job" and pull that off unless you're making multiple 6 figures at the same time they did. It's insane. This isn't for comparison sake to say how bad things are now but simply to recognise the difference in attitudes people had and the availability of resources and thus vitality in effect. They just look more happy and well put together, family mattered because it was actually achievable. It still is of course but you can't get a job and make that work now. That's what I mean. The pathways to make that work are closing in rapidly. This is REALLY what I mean by the availability of vitality and such. The availability is what I'm talking about, because even if you found a job prices continue to skyrocket and outpace any earnings you'd make. I mean here the property prices at LEAST doubled and in many cases more than tripled in less than 4 years now.

Just imagine if you look back then and place us in their shoes with our economic situations. Most of them would obviously feel disheartened knowing there's no opportunity available. Is that limiting belief keeping them from getting their own place? Not exclusively. There's many factors involved, but I will say this. We have more availability of opportunities that are unconventional and you almost need to be your own boss now in order to succeed. I remember NG saying at one point that during economic hardships "It'll be harder to find employment" or something along those lines. Sounds like a limiting belief doesn't it? Not really, that's what the LOA buffs would say. There's a difference between recognising the reality of circumstances (remember NG taught us not to be delusional but to be ourselves and not let circumstances stop us which is correct) and yet seeing THROUGH them, to the point where the circumstances while you recognise their impact on your opportunities doesn't stop you from moving through what's necessary, even if that's very very painful to you until satisfaction is attained in the end. This insane delusional thinking of modern LOA needs to get lost because it's causing people to suffer far worse than succeed.

I find that it's the reality of circumstances that are bad that people deny over and over the most in this delusional state thinking they can justify staying in the box for that when this was never a valid view that worked. How do you become a true middle class earner in todays world? You need to make multi 6 figures like 300k or so (AUD I'm talking about by the way) and most jobs wouldn't come close to paying that much even if you worked in engineering. Business is the only way really, and that involves then risk because scaling a business to that level based on ACTUAL products that are tangible and physical is not going to be something that any kid out of school can just start because getting a grant requires serious luck (or that to be your natural striving so things work out) or if you're going down the road of providing no actual product and making it be something intangible then you'll have a MUCH easier time scaling but I still see this mostly as a parasitic way of making money because 9/10 the product you sell will not be fully utilised and the money will just be circulated in the virtual world and never put into anything REAL. This is what the modern economy is, a hyper-economy, if that's a thing we can call it. It's not based on real products and real experiences but selling ideas and services, AKA you'll own nothing and be happy. Parasitic ideology. This is once again what I mean, that real tangible opportunities are being sucked dry where everything is virtual simulations of what's real isn't something anyone can access to interact with in any meaningful manner. It's all viewed online, seeing others have what you want and never getting there because of this pseudo satisfaction that LOA preaches where you'll forever live in this magical mental state of delusion. Only the actual wealthy have access to real assets and real experiences that then most will watch and attain pseudo satisfaction from. It's freaking sad to be honest. Real experiences are where the transformations are at.

I actually believe that the main issue that is going on here is that we're being given a pseudo satisfaction as a solution to what would otherwise be a very very unsatisfying life where the smart tech and on demand streaming is used as the distraction to deplete the pressure through overstimulation and thus the Jewish parasites who own all the real stuff can stay in power without issue. People REQUIRE pressure that's great enough in order to bounce back and WANT to actually attain REAL experience. The online media is the vehicle by which people can satisfy their needs in a pseudo manner by watching other people experiencing what they want online to at least be "involved" in it, and then the issue becomes that their whole identity is based on that without having the real experience because it was never actually attained for real. That's what I mean. This whole hyper reality is the biggest cause of why people are suffering in todays world and in part that's actually enabling this new model of personal mini businesses from being available to make enough to live. It's all just parasitic influence stacked on top of each other and nothing real ever gets put into practise. It's a constant cycle of desire for something and then looking for it in a virtual manner to reach pseudo satisfaction where we will never actually life out our capacity in reality. The owners of all these hard assets have done this to us without our permission by subverting expectations and slowly shifting goalposts over the years of what's acceptable and available. This is why endocrine and nervous system health is rapidly declining and birth rates are falling rapidly for our people because there's no REALITY to anything. It's all virtual. You'll own nothing and be happy.

I guess now it's reasonable to say that ripping their heads off is the fastest way to get back what has been artificially taken from our availability. THIS ISN"T ABOUT PERSONAL CAPACITY IN A VACUUM THEY ARE DOING THIS TO US BECAUSE IT'S IMPACTING EVERYBODY. It's obvious. Our environmental factors matter, and how we navigate through them is now requiring MORE pressure than ever to actually live real experiences because of that. It's forcing transformation in brutal ways. Tell me I'm wrong.

So the solution is still to simply follow natural striving as it always was. That's all that we have to work with. Doing the inner work involves being involved in the outer world as well, and not just living in a bubble comfortable and sheltered from the reality around us, I just find it crazy to see the thread that as accepted narratives that were only available to be found via newspapers and TV broadcasts are now seen as useless wastes of time, at least by most people of my generation. Why? Because we never lived without pressure and always had a feeling of lack underlying what we did unlike those raised for example in the 50's where it was always available, even if that was more curated. The point is that if you're living in a world where you're facing (sometimes impossible amounts of) pressure just to get by to the same standard as prior gens had at baseline then obviously you're naturally going to view things from the lens of "I need to solve problems" and art becomes less important. You don't live from excess, art isn't something you can really tap into because vitality is depleted at baseline, endocrine and nervous system health matter for those aspects, and yet being creative is necessary to get by now if you're in your onw field of business. Se the dilemma? It's that basically all the walls are closed in, by design. So really the only way we can gain a way out is to trust intuitive impulse, trust the inner guidance mechanism that systems such as RS have fully explored and revealed the inner workings of that are hidden from our conscious view. That is what HD was apparently created for, to help those in the world to come to navigate, because the support systems of the past are never coming back, not in our lifetimes at least. How do you navigate without this? You really can't.

Let's be REAL. The way out of this mess is to turn your attention away from the distractions and cultivate vitality and trust intuitive impulse, that inner guidance mechanism that we KNOW the decisions we need to make because of that "feeling". You keep returning to these same barriers and that in itself will reveal things that need refining but it shouldn't take that level of dysfunction to make those decisions conscious to you. The feeling you get was always there guiding you but you never trusted it. This mechanism was ALWAYS necessary to follow and trust but now it's more necessary than ever. I will say this. If you detach from the virtual world and live in the real world and spend as minimal amount of time living virtual experiences the more you will experience reality for real, because those themes and that pressure for experience needs to unfold somehow. You will be moved with more intensity because your nervous system and endocrine system will become more functional. You will naturally find yourself solving problems you were stuck with. You'll attract the 10/10's you always wanted in your heart of hearts (not from lust in this temporary sense) and that you will live more like those in the 50's without being in that time, having access to resources when needed if only you'd TRUST what's needed to be moved through. If that's what's available then that will be where you'll be moved. Distancing yourself from the hyper reality is in my opinion a HUGE step in the right direction to getting into the process of actually cultivating more vitality. Cultivating real vitality requires physical experience. There's nothing but pseudo satisfaction that comes from living in the virtual. I am not to say you shouldn't ever partake in that and unplug 100% but you should only spend time on there that's necessary is my point. Spending any time more than what's needed is the issue. Produce on there, don't just consume mindlessly. Don't use it for pseudo satisfaction, to expend vitality in a meaningless way. That is the issue, and that's why you're unable to manifest real experiences. That goes into all the levels we've discussed like vitality functions and environmental factors and the availability of opportunities to transform you through intuitive impulse. AI is only going to make the hyperreality issue 10x worse, where the lines between reality and virtual are blurred more and more and if all interactions are virtual and AI networks can be used to replace real people who can talk and write and be seen on camera as though they're real then it's only pointing to all this being used to literally overlay what is real with a true systematic hyperreality that everybody will have access to as the next evolution of "social media" or whatever it'll be considered, a metaverse type thing where your virtual world will be where you live and pay virtual money to where you'll actually own nothing and the real economy will be run by the rich elites. Seems to be trending that way doesn't it?

I don't want to sound elite, I really don't, but nobody in the LOA sphere has anywhere near even close to the depth that RS has on the subject of manifestation. Trusting the entire ideology of your imaginal senses in a vacuum will solve all personal and world problems is INSANE and has not been proven on any level. What NG teaches has NOTHING to do with mind magic, despite what I have said in the past seeming to elude to that. The vague language that NG uses and his seemingly contradicting statements in some lectures must be decoded with understanding of what's actually being said and if you don't understand alchemy and biblical allegory and other levels like seedline doctrine then you won't know what NG is and isn't saying. This sphere is FILLLED with people who aren't even close to being qualified to talk on such a subject as the phenomena of manifestation. Not even close. As I've said in prior vids and many times here they need ACTUAL competition that's a THREAT to their false sense of authority. Thing is that as I've said the entire LOA sphere is filled with pseudo satisfaction techniques and people wanting to feel better so obviously the market and the solution that's being sold line up perfectly. The pseudo satisfaction methods vs the real satisfaction methods should be the focus, because real satisfaction is SO far above anything that the pseudo satisfaction trash that's peddled in terms of how you feel in stability it's not even close. These people need to be schooled. What more am I suppose to say? I've got the receipts on every level right here in the notebook, I've done the study and have the sources to back up what I'm saying with mountains of supporting experimental and theoretical data. All these people have are statistically insignificant success stories. I got a success story just last night from a client I've been speaking to on and off for a few months now. SP once again, but they were once again VERY consistent. I really really appreciate those people who do the work repeatedly and don't buy into this instant gratification trash. Most people who manifest an SP for real don't just get that from living in their virtual world and imagining pseudo satisfying scenes all day, which I did myself in the past and watched them living a life WAY more abundant than I could ever even begin to dream of experiencing myself. I was the one who always missed out on real things because I was always in the virtual, and I mastered that realm in terms of what it's got on offer to learn from, but it was never properly satisfying until I started PRODUCING in that realm and making something out of what I've learned. That's the reality of it. Unless you actually make something and get eyes on it then it matters not one bit how many times you loop an affirmation. It's insane to think it would, and you know that as well as me. If the baseline wasn't mind magic and LOA became what NG actually preached, these people wouldn't get very far without valid criticism. They're only doing this because they can get away with it, just like the cultural destruction sponsored by certain factions that print money.

Irresponsible coaching on this platform has impacts on real people in negative ways. The few people that NEED to hear what is being said by them justifies them being in that place, but there's no basis of authority to speak from by any of the LOA coaches that make the most money on this platform.

I guess the void needs to be filled by someone.

I just had an old mate of mine I last spoke to back in 2019 send me a link to a video of magicians doing impossible things. Seems I've got another rabbit hole to go down. You see how this works? If you just trust what's coming through you and you unfold it even if it involved being vulnerable things will move forward. Would that have happened anyway? I don't know, but what I did led me here. How else does this work? The alchemist has said to me before that he's personally witnessed impossible things because of people doing this work we talk about here. They mediate primordial currents in their experiences and these magicians who are legit and can do impossible things can only do that because they've basically mastered their reality OR they've made contracts with certain powers that give them this influence at a cost. Thaumaturgy. This is a level of "manifesting" that's beyond what everybody else out there is doing. I did get to ask the alchemist about this when I was discussing NG with him last on the call and he said that usually these powers that interact with you in evocation (which you can do if you get deep enough into advanced gazing) often only give you these powers just because they want to have fun and because you're willing to contract with them then they do this. It's more so that they're bored and want to see people react, the same as you do as the magician who's doing that, and thus you basically integrate them as a supply and they perform "magick" through you. This is what thaumaturgy is about, it's either you integrate those powers from God by purifying yourself or you contract with powers to mediate their influence. This is really what evocation is for, but I don't talk about that much here.

I believe that many of these magicians have made contracts meaning they're tapping supply from another power (which you interact with as a personification in advanced gazing which literally manifests in front of you as crystalized light as I've seen glimpses at this myself and KNOW it's real) and by doing this they're able to manifest instantly in the world. It's what I would assume to be something based on intent There's so many layers to this it's insane. I'll honestly say that without direct experience in such phenomena myself and reaching that level or having had contact with someone who's on that level to ask them questions to understand then I will never fully KNOW the reality behind that and can only make best guesses even with everything I've done and have come to understand over the time. Thaumaturgy is real, the alchemist has made that clear to me, and the processes of attaining that power are NOT difficult, provided you're willing to die to who you are actually designed to be in this world. Often thaumaturgy type power can only really be mediated in a way that gives you benefit in the support of your not self to get away without God interfering with your path to pull you along because you've basically forfeited natural striving at that level and taken on a totally different identity driven by lusts for things in the world instead of purification of your being. The thaumaturgist as far as I know would never be able to manifest full immortality on every level, though they may be able to manifest physical vitality and age reversal without needing to go through the same purifying processes but I don't know for sure.

I've said this before but I believe there's a threshold at which there is an acceptance of natural striving vs a denial where God will simply leave you to your other process to drive you, AKA the power you've integrated within as your supply over where your capacity is held where you're basically becoming a vessel for other influences to drive you because you've given yourself to them. Can you go back? I don't know, but the alchemist said that it'll usually result in negative outcomes in the end, because you're going against the movements of God in natural striving. So in earlier pages I have mentioned how you're able to "disconnect" from natural striving I believe and leave behind that path and basically then do what the mind magic people talk about. Perhaps that's what the few percent who get stuff are really doing on some level without realising it, because it's very rare to just have instant manifestation if that's not either God showing you something or that you're actually manipulating reality with indirect interaction with powers that move reality. The alchemist has said that there's next to no limit on the influence that these powers can have in reality, but they won't do anything they don't want to, because they're the one who's giving you this supply. You become reliant on them to perform, and if you break contract then you'll lose that power because you never actually earned it. The body also needs to be capable of channelling such an amount of current through so training yourself to reach this level over years is likely required and often from a young age. I know someone personally who was involved in this by the way, who manifested about 150k in 3 months when they contracted with who they believed was Satan. He had outbursts of rage randomly show up as a result that some of my friends who were closer to him would tell me about and my qigong master has told me before about demonic possession being very real where impossible things like what you see in horror movies are real and that he learned how to basically fight demons at one point where they'd all flee from his presence because of the specific form of qigong that he taught me parts of. All very interesting stuff. I seem to have had these experiences for a reason looking back, as always.

This whole thaumaturgy thing is why I say that once you get to a certain level of this work you should be able to manifest instantly like a lucid dream, which is what I've been finding more and more points connecting the deeper I go into this work. It's absolutely a capacity, because any alchemist who's sufficiently integrated within the powers that someone who's a thaumaturgist would tap into would also be able to instantly manifest and almost like spawn objects out of thin air like a game world being edited in real time. It's very real, and the way it's done is by mastering the thematic elements that comprise the sensory level manifestation and integrating them so that you can basically become a vessel for those currents to move through you, either because you've integrated them from God himself or from another intelligence you contracted with. That's the ONLY way instant so called mind magic works, and it's not mind magic because unless you've done the work yourself then you're not actually manifesting anything with your own seeming free will because you're just the vehicle by which that subtle form can basically drive due to allowing it to integrate within you. It doesn't even take long to complete one of these contracts, but in doing so you'll be moved away from your path with God, as far as I know. There's a very real difference between manifesting this temporary pseudo satisfaction vs manifesting from genuine process of God unfolding through you according to his will by your submission. You are rewarded with eternal life through God, and nothing but temporary riches and pleasure from the other side which ultimately destroys you.

29/5/25

So the alchemist in one of his talks mentioned this.

"The intuition and subconscious mind are they are part of the same domain. Intuition is a higher faculty. It might be the only part of a higher faculty that people that most people have. People that have intuition that is the the dangling down from the higher levels of mind. that's the thing that they're most connected to."

Boom. EXACTLY what I've been saying. Intuitive sense is the feeling, inner truth, correct orientation aligned to divine proportionality. God moves us through this sense and he also said that this is the sense that most people have access to as the only faculty to interface with God to be aligned correctly. This is crazy I've never heard him say that before, I always said this based on what I thought it was but he's confirmed it. This pretty much 100% proves my model of following intuitive impulse physically in the world as the means that most people use to get into alignment with flow naturally. Works on every level too of course.

There's at least 2 means by which manifestation can unfold too.

This is something I postulated many many years ago before I presented RS publicly. When I would study footage of ghost sightings and paranormal videos I would often find a common thread where they would vanish as soon as the camera would see them too closely. It's almost as though they know they're being watched and are "projecting" themselves into the world based on the camera being there or not, or someone looking or not. It's like they use our perceptions to determine their manifestation and play tricks with us. I believe this has basis at least on some level, as crazy as it sounds, I believe they can almost use our consciousness to feed through theirs and manifest themselves through our senses without others seeing them and they can pick and choose where they show up and where they don't. This has been confirmed by the alchemist to some extent at least, because he's said before that they can take you to their level just as they'd come into ours as well as saying that his teachers could perform impossible feats of magic like conjuration where only certain people would be able to see it who were chosen to see it, like a personal bubble of reality that's able to selectively overflow into other peoples at will. This is the other side of manifestation that I've not really explored in much depth because of the nature of how that works and how you can't really experiment with it unless you're on that level or have interaction with someone who's on that level. I don't know how you'd be able to experiment otherwise. Either way I find it interesting that these impossible things are demonstrated and it makes you wonder about the mechanics of this. The alchemist has never fully explored a systematic breakdown of how thaumaturgy works in action but he's told me that when you can interact with certain archetypal powers in reality that you can basically control the very fabric that holds together consciousness itself on a selective level like what I've been saying and from there that must have a sort of self organising intelligence to move the physical world in the way it does like with these magic tricks.

I believe that to some level when you're engaged with thaumaturgy type processes where you shortcut the power being attained it's going to come at a cost of detaching from God, or at least naturals striving, where you "leave behind" that path towards integration of higher order nature and instead bring down what's desired into this world to make magic happen without really being that yourself. This also brings into question the entire foundation of the belief based idea of LOA, which as I've said is only one level of this phenomena. People in LOA and NG circles don't like talking about these things because they can't explain it. They'll always be able to pull out the belief card which obviously is a factor but that's only a half truth, which is what NG taught, half truths, else he'd be talking about these things but that's not his function. There are intelligences that exist in the subtle levels that you can contract with and unknowingly have drive your movement through life where they'll pretty much be moving intuitive impulse and inner truth at that point because they become your supply. That's always how this works, and I believe that going away from that will cause you to be killed possibly in some way so that you stay in subservience to the intelligence you serve to attain power. Sounds just like making pacts with the devil that the standard Christians talk about. It really is like that, in fact most of these magicians would use demonic symbolism in most of their advertising materials. I wonder why? Was it to cause controversy in those communities and get people to show up because of the demonic symbolism, was it just somehow coincidentally personal flair between all these magicians or was it because the contract required this to take place because of a certain agenda that these magicians are required to play out in how they're seen by the world. It's really that they're possessed on some level and that this is only natural for them. The alchemist has said that when you "take on" identities of other iterations of your existence then it will mean you take EVERYTHING on, like a snapshot of that consciousness then becomes who you are overlaid over who you already were before that in this life. That's like what this seems like, there's the magician and then the overlay, and that contract is what keeps that overlay sticky. I don't know if I'm correct on this I'm just writing out what I believe, because I have next to no data to support this outside of what I'm assuming and have seen over the time, but I often have a track record of being accurate, even if I don't know how or why.

I believe that the psychological aspect cannot be separated from the elemental thematic power level, because they both represent eachother, which is why "all is mind" but not in the mentalism sense that there's no underlying structure to it. There's always a thematic current moving that manifests the psychological aspect. Nobody in LOA understands this but myself it seems, or if they did then we'd not know about them. Discussing these ideas publicly is a challenge though.

Just saw a magician teleport a phone into a solid block of ice. He then digs it out with a knife or some tool and it works fine. This reminds me of the story a friend of mine who was in contact with that person I spoke of yesterday who got rich when he made a "pact with the devil" as he said. My friend is involved in the native tribes around here and he told me that one of them performed "black magic" and teleported a bottle or something under the ground and they dug for it and found it in the earth, like it was teleported into the ground like this ice trick. I've never seen this personally but I wouldn't be surprised if that's legit based on what I've seen. The question is how? Well that's what we've been discussing. Mediating power through you from either God via natural striving to purify not self stuff or move through another supply that moves you.

There's a show where David Copperfield teleports himself to a distant location instantly. This has been done so teleportation must be possible.

I found an act where a guy named Chris Angel ended up getting a random guy to balance a massive vase that must weigh at least 60kg or more (about 130lbs I believe) and he actually balanced it on his head for about 15 seconds and actually turned around in sharp 90 degree shifts as though his head was being forcibly moved. That's what it looked like. It looked like the man became possessed for that time. It makes me wonder how that works. There's also a video of him using a voodoo doll to random strangers on the street and causing them pain, as well as having strangers doing that to him and blood begins to seep out of the places where the supposed strangers poke the doll with a needle. It seems there's no limit to how this works. Some of his clips have him making very visceral groaning sounds and very deep heavy breathing like you see on Hollywood movies. My qigong master told me this was something he encountered as well when he was doing exorcisms professionally, they can even have red glowing eyes and have stenches that are like dead bodies according to him. Typical stuff you see in movies, stereotype stuff, but I don't know why he'd lie about that to make up stories since the work he did was actually very valuable.

The way I see this is that you can manifest from the not self so long as you fully accept it and that you'll be tapping powers that are not directly of God but of another mediating power that supplies you. This goes into what I went into way back in notebook 12 and such when I started studying ideologies over time and seedline bible doctrine. Close links, and when applied along side the alchemical interpretation we can bridge the gaps without holes. Who else has done this work? Who would even want to know this though?

I just saw a video of him doing what's called a seance where he was possessed on live TV and literally ran up a vertical wall all of a sudden and stood upside down on the ceiling and started screeching in a tone of voice that sounds impossible like what you hear in movies that are dark growly almost animalistic noises. I don't know if that's the sound that was projected over the mics or if that was the sound he actually made but that's what the vid recorded. All the people in the room ran out screaming like mad terrified of what happened. This is the kind of stuff that I was talking about before where that guy I knew who got rich (too bad I don't have his number anymore) and had late night convulsions in his sleep and growled in tones of voice that were impossible, according to my friend, but I never saw it personally. Though it wouldn't surprise me as I've said before. There's a video where he teleports someone on live TV from inside a bin way up into an archway that's like 25+ meters in the air. This Chris Angel guy has performed actually impossible things, and even in some shows he teleported money out of thin air. Crazy stuff. All of this an alchemical master can perform too, except they are tapping supply directly from God instead of from others which is what Jesus Christ did.

Part of me thinks that from the seedline perspective this is about how God shows the elect signs in certain ways to reveal truth that only they can see because they can discern what is and isn't from God.

I believe that you don't actually need to make a pact or a contract directly in order to channel power. I can't prove this and there's no source material which relates to this but I believe this is a possibility from God too, if the subtle senses are attuned to correctly in order to make that work. This is something I remember trying to do ages back when I was 15, trying to manifest psychic powers and stuff because that was what I was focusing on at the time I did gazing constantly and had people approaching me and wanting me to show them things or go out with me and stuff. It was so easy, The psychological state was more or less a complete obsession with this direction, that nothing else mattered, at least for that time. My point is that the psychological level you can interface with these seemingly powers with unconsciously is simply by giving yourself to the belief fully, as NG says, which is why part of me believes that some of what he's talking about is relating to this same idea of basically putting yourself under a spell is we could use that term to move you and the world in ways that are necessary. Does it come directly from God? I don't know and I can't prove that but I don't think it would always be like that. The degree to which you submit to the psychological level of that and abandon inner truth that God is moving you through is the degree to which this will work for you because that IS you allowing that influence to manifest naturally in your being. As I said before I really can't prove this but I have had this idea as a great possibility for many of these things for a long time. The method has nothing to do with it, more so the acceptance and surrendering to the ideology and implication and leaving behind, a letting go of self to embrace not self fully. Instead of going through natural striving peak dips to reveal inner truth and attain supply through negation of not self you attune to all the desires of the mind and thus leave behind natural striving and disconnect from God in essence. Based on all the data I've been through it would make me believe that this is in fact the way that LOA can work differently for different people and that all the ways we've gone over here about how it can play out are all valid depending on what you're moving through. That's why this is so extremely complex to explain.

My primary point behind all this is simple. You cannot separate psychological experience from the thematic interaction from a source of that current which provides you that psychological experience. They are one in the same thing. The degree to which you submit to a psychological belief is the degree that you submit to a power that rules over that which feeds the not self which that represents. Same thing. The true work is about negating all that which is not self, but that involves suffering of course, it's the opposite of what people want. That's why LOA is so popular, because for some people they're unknowingly tapping into supply that serves their ideology. It's not just subjective mind magic or mentalism without consequence, there's overlap between all these levels and finding the common threads underlying all those systems is what RS has been exploring and no matter how long it takes me I will find those threads and reveal them. Most of them are already found anyway. This is ACTUAL "black" magic, where your will is superimposed over the world and another being on the subtle level that this belief you submit to represents and supplies you is how the impossible stuff happens and contracts are made. I believe that the more you tune to this the more your subtle senses will basically be forced open anyway just like with gazing and burning off not self stuff. It's going to give you visions and such automatically except to serve the not self, which is probably why many of these people are on the level they're at when it comes to doing rituals and such. They likely have open subtle senses to interact directly with those subtle levels in real time. Some of them seem to say that "lucifuge" is the demon they contract with. I don't know if that's legit, though I need to talk to the alchemist about this more. Thing is getting time to talk for longer than a few minutes is a very big challenge so it's not like I can just sit down and have an hour to rapid fire questions at him.

This obviously has nothing to do with what NG taught but so what.

There's a quote in one of Manly P Hall's books called "the secret teachings for all ages" where he says that many black magicians use ceremonial magic to make contracts with demons to attain power (which is what the alchemist said about what thaumaturgy is about and evoking spirits for power) which involves basically allowing them to come through you and you to submit to their terms to attain their influence in whatever it is you're looking to manifest. People I believe are always doing this with certain intelligences automatically without realising it who are involved with LOA anyway. Any time you do ANY work on that level you're making contracts unconsciously, that's if you're giving into not self stuff. Manly Hall also said that when you make a contract with certain spirit those can bind you to them after death and you'll have to serve them when you die, and you gain the spirit as basically yours to channel until you die to do anything you desire, anything and I really mean literally anything.

You always serve an ideology because you think. You must think because you have a conscious mind, but what you think matters because that's who you serve, the personification of those thoughts will manifest before you and the degree to which you submit to that is the degree to which that will serve you. The belief will manifest if you submit to it. This is the other side of what NG taught, out of ignorance of these mechanics. It's not just following natural striving but following the lusts, and giving yourself to them fully. I have never been able to do that because I always felt it wasn't beneficial for me, and as I've said many times being half in half out makes you suffer the most in unnecessary ways because you're torn between never actually manifesting anything of any value on either end other than gaining experience of both sides, which is how I have revealed many of these patterns in my own life. My failures taught me way more than my successes. You won't read this anywhere else.

I believe that the symbolic and allegorical view of the bible in a vacuum isn't the only thing that it correctly outlines, because seedline doctrine is there, but also that as I said in the earlier pages your ideology determines what you read in the bible. It can be read and seem to prove anything on different levels, though obviously certain doctrines aren't systematically correct. That's why I don't teach anything other than seedline doctrine and the alchemical one because they overlap in many ways. I find it interesting that the term "sorcerer" sounds just like someone who taps source, or supply. A tapper of supply. Someone who supplies. From what? You'll also find that it's often people in families who are already involved with magic who get into this at young ages. Why? The alchemist has told me before and I believe I've quoted here as well at some point that spiritual influences can be familial and be carried through the family over time. This is probably why younger children can develop fascinations with magic very early on and perform impossible tricks. It's in the family, not exclusively, but that a certain intelligence has been working with that family for a long time and thus has attunement to that lineage. The alchemist has told me that most people have had contact with certain intelligences in prior iterations which is who contacts you first when doing advanced gazing. I don't reach out to them, they reach out to me. I sew one last night, this black blob as I call it which morphs into objects and phases into all kinds of strange shapes and flies around me head and sometimes overlays me too. It's very strange, but I've seen it regularly showing up. The alchemist says that often what you interact with isn't demonic per say but that they're aspects of God manifest in these different levels of mind to basically as a personified representations of those themes that you will form connections with in theurgy to understand more about those themes as the way to integrate them deeper. I believe that this same mechanism works with familial spirits as well, as in a lineage which carries a certain intelligence that members contract with at a young age to gain power and influence in the world without earning it through natural striving. Remember anything that's not self would be demonic in nature. That's really what it represents. The not self and feeding that temptation to immerse yourself into that lust driven not self ideology will always end up destroying you.

I believe that the way this magic is performed is through controlled use of the imaginal senses, as in the subtle level overflowing into the tangible collective reality.

After having been through more of the previous age, from the 19th century onwards, there was an enormous amount of slave trade going on from the Jews who owned the industry back then. I have not gone deep deep into this time period, because there's so many, but there's more than enough data supporting the fact that Anglo culture was almost warped around this time, as it seem to always be, and that the children who worked in the factories that popped up then were literally sold all over the world. Most other countries were still basically in the stone age at this time with next to no technology that was advanced and it's after this time period that technology started spreading. Jason from Archaix postulates the cyclic reset theory but I still don't see enough data yet to support this fully. I'm open to that but I don't see enough.

I just find that each generation almost lives in a totally different world. It's crazy to look back and see almost completely unfamiliar and yet also somehow familiar time periods. It's like something lost and yet something that you can almost touch.

I'm willing to explore the Tartarian route further but I don't have the time for that currently. I don't know if that will ever be properly answered because history as we know it is so unbelievable convoluted all over the place that it's next to impossible for formulate a coherent doctrine when factoring in ALL the parts. All I know for sure is that euro Anglo peoples have been exploited over centuries by Jews and this cycle is no different. Gen 3:15. Remember physical and metaphysical exist together as one manifestation. Where one is the other must also be. I AM.

"Mystery training is essentially hacking the universal system. That's really what it is. First, you have to become aware that there is a universal system. Then you have to become aware of how that works. And then you have to stumble upon ideas of how you can actually make one part of the universal system behave when you do something to another part because you can't push on the individual parts themselves. You can't you can't shift the center of something without something more powerful than it coming to interact with it. Does that make sense? So even in exercises, so so imagine yourself, you're the dot in the middle of a circle and you do these meditation that expand your consciousness, but your center is still right exactly in the middle. The only way you can shift your reality is if your center itself is shifted. And you can't shift your center. It can only be shifted by something else that you interact with. And that's why these interactions that we do, these catabolic interactions, this is why they work. So imagine you're this circle. This is a bad circle, but you're the dot in the middle of this circle. Then there's this big circle over here, and it too has a center. And by these two things interacting, the bigger thing is going to have a much powerful force, a much more powerful force on the smaller thing. It's going to cause it to move. And when it causes it to move, your center just went from here to here. Your entire reality just rew itself because your center was shifted. So this is why there are certain things that are helpful meditation and these things that literally expand your consciousness. But this is one of the things that is initiatory teaching. It's my way of explaining this initiatory idea. Nobody explained it to me this way. But you can do all kinds of metaphysical things that supposedly expand your consciousness. But if none of it shifts your center, ultimately it's not really going to do anything significant. The new age is full of all kinds of things that supposedly expand your consciousness. Yet, they're all walking around doing the same thing. Their centers haven't been shifted because they haven't come into contact with anything causes a catabolic event with an evolutionary function. So you can do all the consciousness expanding you want and that's all well and good, but if you're not doing something that causes your center to shift also, then it's still just a long slow path. You just feel good while you're doing it. the general meditative, you know, center yourself, be here now nonsense that's promulgated in the new age community um because it's popular and it's what people can do for the most part. So, they think they're doing something when they do it, but that's like going from um n, you know, 90% unconscious to 89% unconscious. It's not really getting them anywhere. They just manage their stress better while they're doing it, but they're still going the long way around the mountain. The mysteries basically are the short path. So the short path generally is a lot more eventful and um it would be let's say bumpier but doesn't take near the amount of time that the long path does. So there are trade-offs but when and everybody starts off on the long path no matter who you are. Nobody jumps into the short path. You have to do the long path for a while before you understand that there is even a short path. The short path is built on top of the long path. And once you do that, then you become aware, hey, there's a short path. Just because you're aware that there's a way to accelerate it doesn't necessarily mean people know what it is. This has always been the domain of mystery teaching. And unfortunately, most of what passes from mystery teaching out in the world is really rather watered down turn of the century psychological ideas that are not really the mysteries. So, there's a lot for somebody to wade through when they're trying to find to separate what's real from what's just an idea somebody had that doesn't really do anything. That's one of the reasons why we do this open training, so that people can have these experiences of something that's incredibly real, more real than most anything else. And then once they've had that, they've raised the bar for what they're willing to accept as initiatory magical teaching."

The alchemist on shifting center and how evocation fuels that, AKA interacting with powers greater than you are.

"Um it's it's u it's a built-in part of that whole trinitarian idea. Divine father, divine mother, divine child. When we uh raise our consciousness to the point where we've had the conjunction the lesser marriage also the divine child then the divine child has to then grow up and merge with a higher genius. But the interim is basically an anointing of the birth of that level or a more substantiated um creation of that level. So those are tied together. There's really no way to separate them. And at the same time because each of those states of consciousness are levels of reality, every level of reality has a personified being at between the levels of reality that is the living breathing personification of that entire level of reality. So when you deal with a a an intelligence or a spirit that is the personification of a level of reality, interacting with it is the same as passing that level of reality or at least being exposed to it. So um in initiatory magical work when we go through certain catabolic connections with different kinds of intelligences or beings when we have um a a merging with them, an integration with them. It's the same as integrating a particular level of reality that corresponds with them as well. That's why when the archetypal forces related to that thing happen, they can no longer bop you around. Think of it as let's say um we'll pick one the archetype that we would refer to as Mars. Um so Mars stuff is happening all the time. It's woven throughout all of our level of reality and every other level of reality that's anything lower than a certain level of the divine. So when that energy happens, it's always bouncing back and forth, but it only affects its own it only it only hits things that are um that are related to its power. Mars can't affect things that are related to Jupiter, per se, for lack of a better way of explaining this. So we in our soul cage because we are made up of all of these things coming together to keep our psyche kind of in a vessel so that it can evolve. The whole point of this cage it's not really it's not meant to be a cage like a prison although people refer to it that way. It's really scaffolding for your soul for the soul level of being. Because the soul level of being is is not is not permanent. Spirit level is permanent. But on this soul level that has to come together in order to make the physical level and the spirit level connect. The soul level has to come into being. And that happens that soul cage is actually built out of the same fabric of those seven primary archetypes that are the septenary that basically build everything. So when that Mars energy is moving around in a sea of whatever back and forth with everything else, any boundary on that soul cage that has Mars energy in it is pushed around by its own power. When you dissolve a bar on that soul cage, again, for lack of a better way of saying it, you've integrated the that macro level of that archetype within you. So the integration of it and the dissolution of that bar are concurrent. It's the same thing. When you fully integrated it, there is no longer that bar. When that bar is not there, that Mars energy can go back and forth and it doesn't have anything to hit to push you around. So for every one of these archetypal powers that we learn to fully integrate, we essentially become immune to that particular power and we have it within us eventually to wield and mediate as a being that can do that. We can't really wield and remediate it unless we fully integrated it. Once we fully integrated it, it can no longer bop us around. So this is why in Gnostic texts they talk about these powers as the archon and they talk about the Christ as the person who comes to save them from this level of reality. They view it they view the archons as evil and they view it in the context of a religion. But when you look at it mechanically, what they are saying is still technically true. It's the ideas they made up around the mechanism that are subject. So the role of the Christos in this process, the solar intelligence that's connected with the Christos is that it has the highest spiritual authority. It's the one that makes the other powers behave while we're going through this process. If you don't have that, then the process is a little sketchy. And this is why getting to the point where you can learn to communicate with the higher genius is important because that's that connection. So it it's like an anointing or a crowning to a certain degree. When you have that, then the other powers um they have to behave better because they really can't bump you around the same way. Now, mind you, it was a long process as the cliff notes version, but that's the idea. So, think about it as like um another good example is why you can heat water in a microwave. So why does that work? It's because the water molecule is bent. So the microwaves come in and they spin the water molecule. The water molecules and the spinning, the friction is what makes the heat. It's the same way with each of those seven powers. They're all sending their influence back and forth across and through each other. It's constantly happening because it's woven throughout reality. So until we learn to integrate each of those archetypal powers and essentially reknit our soul level, the soul level of our psyche so that the boundary can come down without the psyche dissipating. If you've renit the psyche, the psyche is still cohesive and intact. If you bring those boundaries down before you've renit the psyche, then what you have is crazy people because that's just a cracked psyche. That's why people that are cracked, that's what's happened to them. Some life event has caused that soul cage to become damaged, broken, fractured, and aspects of things bleed through because this those aspects of the psyche were not remit into their personal psyche from a macro level. So almost all of this stuff that we've just discussed is part is it's all part of the depth level work. It's the great work. Um by the time you get to be master the great work's over. You did the work that's done. So all of this heavy work is essentially the depth level work. Initiate level work is coming to understand all of the pieces in the templates so that you can begin actual adept level work safely and with a reasonable working template and then you're left with a crap ton of work because that's what it is. But it's the only thing actually from my point of view personally speaking the only thing really worth doing."

The alchemist on the archetypes and the Christ child.

He's talking about how levels of reality or "states" as degrees of subtlety relating to different thematic aspects have intelligences that represent those levels or states. These states are what NG discusses in his visions, and he sees them in the form of his subjective synthesis based on his bible characters and study he's done there. We can understand now how the magic works, because you basically integrate those powers in order to move them instead of being moved by then where you can mediate that pure aspect of God through you in realtime. The magicians here took the short way, as in they contracted to gain that influence ahead of time without earning it, which is why they're all mentally whacked and believe death is who they serve and such. None of them are mentally stable, they're all driven by lusts and have done zero sublimation of their not self and that runs their lives. They're not adepts they're not even initiates they're fools who bought into some lineage of spiritual teaching without understanding what they're actually doing until the contract is made. What we do here is integrate them in the correct order driven by God and his intelligence driving us through natural striving.

Interestingly he also said that communication with the higher genius AKA your bottleneck of God that emanates your being, that you can use that Christ authority through that commune to basically cause the archetypes to bend their knee to you. Instead of the demonic spirit or whatever it is being your Christ you actually serve God himself and that since God mediates all these powers by his own power then we being in commune with that power can sublimate the products of his creation to wield them just like the magicians except without the downsides. This is TRUE manifestation on the highest level there is. This is ultimately what is beyond all the LOA stuff that they don't even know exists.

"There are a number of factors that play into that idea. Number one is ripeness, which I talk about a lot. So, and then um you know a lot of traditions that approach Cabala from the modern western magical Cabala point of view will talk about working a particular um Sephro and uh interacting with it on that level and that's really um the way they talk about doing it it's very superficial. And it doesn't really result in very much a deeper way of doing it. That is, you know, kind of uh what we're doing with initiatory magic is that each of those main archetypal powers have to be interacted with. And the more you interact with them, the more the things that are out of balance in you related to those archetypal powers are made to come into balance. It's a purification process. So there's this um catabolic reaction to interacting with those powers and then you go through a rebalancing re reintegration process and that's um that's an initiatory magical point of view. There are a lot of ideas circulating about Cabala in the tree of life and the um the the Sepharoth and then the Kipoth which are the dark side of things and all this stuff. It's all very based on this dual duality that really is not part of how we view things and it results in a lot of head tricks. um because there's they've had a long time to make it far more complicated than it really needs to be. And as a diagram, it it can be useful, but people tend to forget that the map is not the territory. So they become far more um enamored with trying to somehow reenact the map than to actually understand what the map is trying to show you. And most most magical community, they're just trying to reenact the map. So but but the idea of evolution and the things that we need to do does can be seen in an overlay on the tree in the in the diagram because it relates to the soul cage and the dissolution of the soul cage which I talk about. I just don't talk about it in relation to that particular diagram because that diagram just confuses people. All of the the point of all mystery traditions is to achieve basically the same thing that we're working on. The thing is is that a lot of them that are floating around are reinventions by people who um who wanted to find a system or create a system that worked for them. So they're really revivalists and there's nothing wrong with that, but some of the things that have created that are sort of on the sidelines of all of that have made everything more complicated. So a lot of people are very stuck on the idea that the Hebrew tree of life is like this map of reality. And in in reality, it's only one map. It's one cosmological abstract of what a particular group of people decided to take the totality of everything that exists and divide it up into a specific number of archetypal powers. All mystery systems are designed on that same underlying framework, but they all generally use a different number of total archetypal powers because the archetypal powers can be combined and separated in ways that someone's saying, "Oh, there's there's 32 over here, but this one says it's 40." And it sounds like, well, one has to be accurate and one has to be wrong. But that's not really true because depending upon what's included in the 40 or included in the 32, it still can be a 100% total and every mystery system has its way of getting around to the same basic ideas. So within our tradition we acknowledge the septenerary which are the seven primal archetypal powers that forge our existence on a soul level. The level in between the physical and the spirit level. But that soul level is not the idea of soul level that most people talk about. It's a construct created that allows us to evolve from this level into the next level of what we can evolve into. It's not something we just already have at that particular level. So by understanding the construct, we do end up talking about the framework and the ideas that are very similar in that framework to what would look like a cobalistic tree of life in its traditional drawing, but we don't relate to the energy centers in the same exact way. And we don't look at it from the viewpoint of duality where there's good stuff and bad stuff. So our particular viewpoint I find to be a little more whole and less fractured because we're not trying to vilify any particular thing just in order to understand the mechanism for evolution. But all of those systems um those glyphs, the tree of life glyph with all the sephra and the path is a way of showing the major powers that exist and different ways in which they relate to each other and different ways those can be experienced. But it's not the only way to approach those powers and the mysteries in general. So it's um it's an interesting way of looking at it and one of the reasons that a lot of magical systems that have been created have attempted or formally adopted that whole idea is because um coalistic tradition is one of the most intact traditions that we have in written record that can be referenced. So between the ideas of the tree of life and the things in the Talmud and the things in the Torah and the things in the Zohar, there is a lot of coalistic information if you really understand how to decode what you're reading. But those people were incredibly clever and they have concealed things inside things inside things like Russian nesting dolls. And unless you are really really Hebrew literate from the point of view of being taught by someone how to read all of those things, it's designed basically to keep people who are not Hebrew literate out of the entire system. And while that was designed that way and was successful for a very long time, there are now a lot of things that are more commonly understood about it because of magical cabala and magical tradition tackling that whole thing and pulling out of it the things that are important for initiatory understanding. But that view is not the only one that's ever existed in the current of western magical tradition. those ideas once you understand what you're looking at that same subenerary um can be seen in the workings of particular ideas within Cabala but then we can also see it in places in Egyptian in Persian in writings. So in Hebrew they call them pars or parcu but in Egypt they refer to them as a lot of times as the seven hathors and other times as the seven scorpion which is a slightly more gnostic viewpoint. But because that Egyptian lineage happened over a period of three or 4 thousand years that we know about at different periods of time every seems like every thousand years or so they changed the name of what they referred to them as but they were always referring to the same thing in Indian tradition they refer to them as the the seven kumaras and it's really interesting because when you understand the differences between um the stories of creation that are initiatory stories within Cabala and then um within the Septenary idea and the taking of one level up into another level um like reversing the emanations. It's not exactly that way, but when you look at it that way, you can see when you look on the cabbalistic tree that all the spheres that are in the bottom part that are not part of the top three eventually all get rolled up into the sphere of Saturn, which is the sphere, which is the sphere that I talk about a lot being ba, sons of God, bendy, all that stuff. It's the state of eternity. So when you look at allegorical myths like the myth of Saturn eating his children, what that's really about is a fermentation myth that where one thing is taken up into another thing. And obviously since Saturn's the one doing the eating, they all end up in Saturn. But that is the same exact process that I've been talking about all along with the dissolution of the soul cage and things being taken up into the soul cage. So when you understand that um Saturn and Brahma are equivalent from a certain point of view and you understand that the seven kumaras are also called the seven mindborn sons of Brahma then you can see that what you are talking about within Hindu ancient Hindu uh cosmology was an awareness of this septenerary of seven powers. powers that are created from that Saturnian sphere. So this initiatory understanding has been around for thousands of years and hidden quite frankly in plain sight. And even within um Judeo-Christian teaching, it's not openly taught. But if you look at the iconography, it's quite plain because they have systems where they will show seven discs on top of each other. And each of them has a patriarch in it. though they use the patriarch idea as the way of relating to the intelligence that rules each of those levels. So inside what looks like a tradition that was devoid of any understanding of initiatory magical training at all, it's actually in there. It's just that it's very very well concealed. So each of those levels has a principal intelligence and when you interact with those principal intelligences you are interacting with that isolated archetypal level of reality. The reason we have to do it that way is because we cannot possibly from where we are now interact with the totality of God. It has to be separated out and broken down or we can't interact with it. Number one, we don't have the right equipment. And number two, it's not designed that way. So, we have to work within the way creation is unfolded. And as we do that, we're working our way back through to a level of an entirely different level of evolution. That's the whole point of why we're here. So, um, when you look at any of those cosmological maps of ideas within different traditions, just understand that that was their way of trying to groc in a pictorial format the totality of everything that they're trying to sum up in one glyph. Um and and for a person working in within an established that has built in layers upon layers upon layers of allegorical understanding, that glyph works really well. But westerners were people not truly initiated in the deep real true um Judaic Cabala. And I'm not talking about the circusy stuff that that you know rabbi whatever that Madonna follows around with a red string on her arm what he's teaching as real Kabala. It's not. It's pop kabala. It's not any more real than anyone else. The real stuff is not taught openly. It's it never has been. and never will be. So, a lot of those ideas have been borrowed and gleaned and taken into magical traditions that are more um Judeo-Christian in framework. Um the Golden Dawn, in spite of being very occult oriented, is definitely operating within a Judeo-Christian framework. So they've adopted that system because they can kind of merge into it in a way that they felt was uh eclectic and useful. I find it to be annoying because I'm not I'm not and there's nothing wrong with it. I'm not saying anything about it. If a person really feels like in their true heart of hearts that they need to follow the Rosicrucian tradition and they're doing their best to do that and try to understand it, that's great. that's part of their path. My path has never been anything related to and I've studied plenty of it, but it's not anything related to the aftermath of ideas of magic within a Judeo-Christian framework. Not Freemasonry, not Rosicrucian. While a lot of everything that I say is definitely hermit in its viewpoint, it's not the Judeo-Christian version of those ideas, it's hermetic because that's how things really are mechanically and the hermeticists figured that out. But they're not the only ones that figured it out. And if it's true in one place, it's true in another. So, there's a lot of places where things line up very neatly and then there's a lot of places where they don't line up at all. And um it can be a lot to absorb and it can be very overwhelming where you're trying to figure out who's got what right. Um and that's just something we come to peace with after quite a time of wrestling with problems. Um, and so the the truth is that that there is truth in what he's saying that you can go to a specific level and you can have an interaction and then something is going to happen. But for the most part, the way that it's taught in normal magical cabala ideas, it's not really terribly useful because they're all doing it on the outside. for one thing. If you take that whole system and you fold it up and you do it on the inside, then you're going to get a whole different result, but that's not how they teach for good reason. Um, because most people haven't had enough proper training and preparation to be able to do that properly without causing trouble. So, does that help or did that go way too far?"

The alchemist more on various subjects.

So with this dual way of approaching the phenomena of manifestation, really it's all one thing anyway but viewing it from the perspective of the underlying processes because if it's true on one level it must be true on all other levels, then we can see this as a conscious psychological level and then an underlying thematic level. All thoughts interact with intelligence of God, personifications of associated components of thoughts which comprise them. The real difference between what's taught in LOA (popular not the NG version) vs RS is that LOA denies there to be a fixed trajectory, and in that sense there is a fixed unfolding of the components that exists as well, else how do you explain birth conditions? So there's a duality here, where you have the option to navigate reality from the seeming solipsistic type where thaumaturgy becomes your method of application where you imagine things and have it be a one and done and move on because that thought from that end experience IS "evoking" if you wish a power related to that and the moment that this takes place is literally any time over your life for good and bad things. It's the general psychological approach to this vs the purifying function. You're manifesting things as an addition to your field geometry instead of a negation. You're adding things in that may or may not be in accordance with the fixed trajectory, and this is a branching path if you wish to the overarching process. They exist within each other, but I believe that when you're doing standard LOA stuff like scripting or lullaby or whatever and you're "impressing" the seed then it's actually evoking an intelligence which will because of that archetypal nature correspond to EVERYTHING imaginable in thematic composition and move all those who are needed to be moved to unfold those themes in your experience which translate into the sensory level data experienced in the world. The other end all comes through us because that's correct trajectory and leads towards actual immortality and the completion of the great work in accelerating the unfolding of the themes to fully integrate them.

LOA is effectively evoking powers that you don't necessarily require to have integrated to move the world where as RS and following natural striving allows you to BECOME those powers. What's the difference? Immortality. That's the thread I've always looking to establish. Yeah it comes through you because that's who/what you serve with the LOA stuff, because that's your supply. It's not God in the correct sense, and what you manifest may or may not be satisfying, but manifesting in the way the alchemist talks about in synchronicity is natural unfolding to progress the great work. There's a difference, thaumaturgy vs theurgy. That's what I've come to conclude at least based on my current view. Manipulation of things vs flow with natural striving, which may or may not involve suffering, and as NG himself said you cannot escape suffering that's necessary. That's because it's the great work, and so NG saying that "the law" can only pad this out is him telling you to use thaumaturgy alongside theurgy to live life at your capacity. Temporarily contract with intelligence through imaginal evocation (I will argue that every imaginal impression is in fact an evocation even on a limited degree) and thus you become a servant to that intelligence because you attuned to it by making that judgement in that experience. That's what I believe is being taught by NG. It's a hybrid model. RS has explored both levels of this and connected the threads. There's really only one process as I said before but it can be applied on multiple levels, either as not self or as self, though cataphatic vs apophatic. Addition or subtraction. It's all just rearranging the components and shifting ideologies that you serve which then move through you because that's your attunement, See now?

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So without consequences people do what they desire, on both ends of the spectrum of natural striving. They'll follow the not self if they have opportunities to do so and at the same time they'll also follow the true self if an environment enables that too, though it's really based on what's available that determines where they'll be applied. The whole idea I see here is that you'll either accept certain consequences as necessary to take part in a direction of movement or you'll compromise based on those consequences, and consequences can also be seen as contrast barriers of false expectations. Basically I se this as if you can do it without contrast or having to think about ramifications or anything negative coming out as a result or that those negative outcomes just don't matter to you as much as the thing then you'll actually naturally engage in it. There's also the other side of this which is that you'll see the ramifications of compromise and want to break those compromise boxes to open up what's on the other side, as in going through pressure and attaining satisfaction.

I believe that there's a certain amount of not self stuff you can hold onto that can serve you in areas like money and still follow natural striving as your main path. There seems to be an opportunity to balance these things out while in transition. It's absolutely possible because if it's something you're comfortable with that's not self then it'll be available in supply if you go into that experience. The alchemist mentioned that often times holding back certain tendencies artificially without it being time to burn them out will only prolong their roots taking deeper hold due to thematic sequence being disrupted. This is a very grey area, and I still don't really know if that factor even really has impact or not but it seems it does.

I guess I look at the reasons why most people in todays world are the way they are as a function of both overarching thematic influences that manifest as consumerism and convenience culture that uses peoples attention as the currency of exchange and how that's leading to the forced lesson to be seen as balance and distance from distraction to actually create something new, which in other time periods wouldn't have existed due to the pressures playing out collectively today. Producing something is almost necessary to get by now. People are reflecting this same internal process where they're almost needing a state or a supply of some form to tell them what to think and believe, now more than ever arguably. The means of delivery has changed though organised institutional religion in the past filled that role in a different way. When you take an honest look at these cycles you really don't see the HD cross cycles switching out, if we're honest. What themes constitute the cross of planning if the cross of planning has happened all throughout the past in other cycles too where empires are built and fall over in succession. How can this be ignored? Viewing something in a vacuum doesn't make it correct when you see a few things line up, only by running that up against opposing views and testing to see if it holds up is how you establish fact.

Is something like scripting an evocational act?

"Well, um, if you've been doing the practice regularly and you've been whittling it down, it by the time you clear it, it could be noticeable and rather uneventful. Or if you encounter a big chunk of it all at once, it can be very intense. I mean there it it depends on the nature of the root stress. Um different people have had some very traumatic things happen in their lives and while it's not necessary to reexperience the event in full as it happens it can happen. So depending on the nature and context of those root stress events, it can be more or less dramatic accordingly. Um, for instance, for lack of a better, more dramatic example, um, people that have had to fight in wars, people that have had to kill people in defense of their country, those stresses lodge in the system, people that have had sexual assault committed against them can relive those events in full. as they as they happen and therefore can be very um can be very stressful which is another reason why when I have that training although we don't do it every week we do it often enough that if people are having these kind of things they have support to come to um rather than just throwing the techniques out in the world and say here you go knock yourself out and never having a support system in place. So the nature of the roots just really depends on um the the stress itself. Uh and you know just because there's stresses we tend to focus on stresses as bad things but I mean you can win the lottery and be really excited and put stress in your system. It's not going to be a you know a root stress that you freak out about when it comes back up. But it's not about being good or bad. It's just something that got lodged in your nervous system because of intensity. And a lot of times those obviously happen around things that are put there when we're younger. And so everything that happens after that is colored by the presence of those stresses in your system. Um, if you have dramatic things happen in your childhood, even if you've learned to cope with them and become a reasonably welladjusted person, you're not really conscious of just exactly how much they color everything you think and feel about what's going on in the world around you from that point forward. And when those kind of root stresses clear, not only is the clearing of the stress dramatic, but also the shifting of the paradigm that you hold about them can be dramatic because the the world you experience around you is very much generated by your current configuration. When something is dramatically shifted, the results can can have repercussions in kind of a an oscillating fashion. Because when you clear that stress that's holding a certain pattern, then that causes you to behave and think in a certain way that's dysfunctional. It's allowing other dysfunctions to be in your surrounding environment. When you correct that, you become highly conscious of the particular kinds of dysfunctions that are in your environment that were related to that thing and that's no longer acceptable to you. So then your outer world has to adjust to the changes that you've made on an inner level. And sometimes that is unpleasant for reasons that I could go on, but that's mostly just examples and hypothesis. So each of the techniques relates to particular levels or kinds of existence and any stresses that are in your systems related to those things to which that's connected um can be triggered by those particular techniques. So it's not that just because you have a technique, there has to be a root stress that goes with it. It's just that if there is a root stress in your system that happens to relate archetypally to the techniques that you're given that that technique will root them out. Well, most peripheral or intermediary things are things that get cleared without you necessarily being conscious of them. Um, it's possible that many stresses can be cleared at one time and it's just a blur. It's just energy. You feel the oscillation. You know, stuff's being cleared, but you're not aware of any specifics of a particular thing. When you hit a root stress, generally speaking, you're going to come upon that root stress more than once. You're going to be aware that that's what's coming up. And because that's what comes up when you do that particular technique, you're going to find yourself avoiding that particular technique because you don't like the results of what happens when you do that particular technique. And that means basically that's the technique you need to do probably more than the others. But you don't have to club yourself over the head with it. But that's why we teach not to avoid the techniques to try to do what you have and do them. Give them equal attention because that avoids that whole I want to not pay attention to this body world technique over here because I know it's going to come up when I push that button. The thing is is that's what the techniques are designed to do. So you want to push the button, you don't want to do it to the point where it's overwhelming. So if you have to back off of it for a little bit, that's fine. But total avoidance is not good. So you you generally become aware if not hyperconscious of what's coming when you do a particular technique because it's kind of hard to avoid. And that doesn't mean you're going to have to relive the whole thing all at one time. It may be that you hit upon the root stress while you're doing your practice and then clear some of it in dream state. Maybe not while you're fully conscious, but you remember you you you have a lucid dream where you clear things. You you don't there's there's no rule that says you have to do it only when you're awake because they're just different states of consciousness. Um, and these techniques in and of themselves blur those boundaries anyway. So, it can be something that comes up and then you become aware of it after the fact when you wake up, you realize you cleared things related to that root stress. Even though you weren't consciously trying to do it, it was ready. It was ripe enough to come to the surface and you were able to see it as it cleared. The thing is is when you do encounter a root stress, if you don't resist it, if you allow it to come up to move through you, breathe your way through it, whatever you have to do to let it clear. When it finally goes through you, it's gone. It's cleared. You don't have to drag it around with you. You don't forget, but it's no longer stuck in your nervous system coloring your reality. So the dysfunction of it is cleared. And some people don't like it when I say this, but don't make your stress special. No matter what's happened, everybody has some kind of stuff and everybody's stuff is not the same. But um making it special is a way of holding on to it. So sometimes people have used certain traumatic events to define themselves by and those people will have a harder time letting go and clearing of the root stresses because they become a form of selfidentity. Um, you know, if if someone is still processing through an event and they're still perceiving themselves as a victim no matter what, that's going to hold on to a level of of victim consciousness. And then by that, by just simple virtue of that, they are allowing that to color everything about themselves. And granted, working through those things might take some time and it might require some professional help because some things are more dramatic than others. But a person has to choose whether they want to be stuck in that place or not. And if you choose to be stuck in one of those places, then that is making special. And you do that until you're ready to be done with it. And then you can move on. So, it's different for everyone, but it's all still just stress."

Thoughts in a vacuum such as with scripting in the morning (which I've also had things show up from as I've said before) have impact in areas that are comfortable and if they're not then you'll be moved through pressure to become comfortable with it, regardless of if that's self or not. What I've recognised is that just because something is uncomfortable doesn't mean it's a correct theme to purify AT THAT TIME, and that this desire CAN be a not self thing which you are also able to go through and transform and become comfortable with that's not in alignment with natural striving at that point. This is the thing, where does self vs not self be determined? It's not relative, the fixed point exists, and often times you'll find that inner truth can feel similar for both ends of the spectrum, The alchemist said that the only way to know for sure is through the higher genius but he also confirmed what I've been saying in that the intuitive sense of truth that you just "know" something is the way most of us interface with God in how natural striving unfolds on the level we're at. All of these parts, all of these aspects, all of this grey area, really I will simply sum it up as going through what you feel is necessary and that IS the trusting of intuitive sense truth. That's really the challenge, giving your authority over to God and that subtle sense. Thing is if you do that does it mean you'll be granted riches and 10/10 dates? Possibly, but not guaranteed. You'll be given what's necessary, and that's how the letting go of false expectations of the not self are going to then automatically be burned way as a result of this process unfolding over time. The alchemist also mentioned which I quoted that going through certain experiences that you do know on some level aren't good will give you the experience in the contrast once it's been satisfied, AKA the false not self desire gets seen for what it is when you've gone through it and realised it's just pseudo satisfaction. There's an infinite number of ways that pressure can be dissolved. There is no black or white here.

Trusting intuitive sense can often also involve going through pressure because where that leads you requires that transformation. Doing the LOA stuff in a vacuum to attune to those themes can bring those things in at times but what I will say is that in many cases those things will only really show up in a reliable manner when you've already had a baseline of going all the way surrounding it, as in you've got a sense of direction that's stable and coherent either through with the not self vs the correct self and trying to manifest things in this way while playing between self and not self will cause peak dips that are unnecessary. Going all the way on either end of the spectrum is what will cause it, but what that doesn't mean is "trying" but a sense more so of the "commitment" towards the direction in the stability of that direction REGARDLESS OF HOW YOU FEEL, and to an extent think as well. Many case studies I've seen and have experienced myself reveal that emotions are always a temporary thing that if you allow to determine your commitment towards a direction then you'll be playing half in half out with the attunement to that direction. This is what I find to be the common thread behind failure in principle. The people who simply write something they desire down on paper without care find those things showing up more often because that stability is present with the direction of the surrounding context already established to give those themes that context to move through in your reality. If there's no comfortable means and you're half in half out then what's going to happen is limited outcomes revealing that limited sense of self.

Simply speaking then trusting intuitive sense truth of what self is and moving through that opens up natural synchronicity without trying and further expands your attunement to what is correct while at the same time burning off not self stuff. Manifestation simply requires a direction that's stable, instability is the cause of issues and instability in my opinion is most caused by depleted nervous and endocrine function along with an inability to trust inner truth OR deny it and indulge in not self, aka going all the way on either end. So those are the common threads behind and underlying the foundation that so called techniques are overlaid on that seem to take the credit. So called systematic manifesting claims that techniques with the new AI system developed to analyse tens of thousands of cases demonstrates this but those variables aren't all there is, obviously. Truly we can say that to make a manifestation show up depends on your ability to simply commit to that and go all the way into whatever is necessary to nourish yourself and attune to those themes in stability. There's like a threshold at which so called techniques can have reliable outcomes, and the basis for that is acceptance and comfort for the most part, vitality and sense of self meaning the overarching acceptance of the direction that having this desire represents and also surrounding context on top of that. These are the invisible variables which play into success, and it doesn't have to be black or white which is why measuring them to any success is next to impossible. How you feel consistently is the barometer.

So with that in mind we can say that the NG doctrine and RS are linked together, where methods and beliefs and vitality and correct trajectory (or not) and all these parts can connect together even better now. Really we can explain so much more with understanding thaumaturgy vs theurgy and how magicians make impossible things happen and how doing the work that's correct can result in that same power if you're moving in aligned trajectory. Whenever NG says you can have whatever you want in this world he's saying that under the context of going all the way, and while there's also a capacity there to perform the stuff of the magician AKA literally conjuring out of thin air money and even teleportation and phasing in and out of solid objects IF you really accept that side of things. Most magicians worshipped demonic forces, invisible subtle powers that they contract with and require to access any of these impossible feats as the magician taps the supply then from the intelligence they're bound to. Instead of this and going all the way into living as a sort of parasite where you don't provide anything of value to yourself or others, you walk the path of alignment with God and purify not self stuff to open up to wielding those powers naturally. That's the way this works from bottom to top. Clarity is stability of direction, and that's a natural sense of availability of trust in subtle truth, be it the supply of true self or not self. If you don't know, then don't worry. Go through whatever you feel is correct and it will result in things eventually coming together. Not committing to any direction and going all the way will destroy any opportunity to manifest either end. Letting conditions of any form stop you is the issue, and if you face data that's totally contrasting that you can't reconcile stop you from moving on either end, then either continue to refine and not go anywhere with the implication that those being fulfilled would represent or go into either one in trust. Nobody lives correctly off the bat, you can't, it takes going through a lot of not self stuff to realise what self is through negation of the not self in how those experiences feel. This is why going all the way and failing is actually better than living in the middle and never committing to either end and lacking vitality really prevents commitment to either end in actions applied under pressure. Vitality opens up more availability of natural commitment. It's not required but it makes that more available.

If I am then to produce a list of aspects that matter the most, it would be going all the way into a direction that is desired and trusting that movement AKA having faith in things unseen (on the level of subtle senses AND of the belief level but they overlap anyway) and cultivating and harnessing vitality correctly AKA not overstimulating and spending it on pseudo satisfaction. There's many many levels to each of those but you can see how they matter. Gazing to attune to subtle senses and purge not self stuff and pathway work of both apophatic and cataphatic forms as well as physically pushing limits to nourish the biochemistry which also relates to the themes which we're attuning to as well. They all overlap, which is why this isn't necessarily special but gazing especially will open up the subtle sense the most.

What I believe a lot of people who do periodic gazing are doing are simply watching themselves waver in their direction and watch themselves going up and down and with that accepting it without actually moving in the direction that matters. They're getting the point with observing but they're not actually moving anywhere, they're just staying in the middle and observing themselves going in and out and that's often why the same patterns show up. To change the patterns obviously observing can have a minor purifying effect as I stated but that's not going all the way. There's levels to all of this, and that's the difficult part to explain in words in a way that relates to all the other overlapping parts of that experience. One technique can rely on other parts being coherent and stable that are unconscious which you don't have awareness of being in lack when doing one part of that. I really do believe that vitality is what will open up all of those contrast barriers to be seen for what they are, instead of just observing. I believe that the more depleted you get the more observation will become your only available tool to apply reliably because it doesn't require going THROUGH pressure, though you can recognise patterns and that's good but that's not going through the pressure which is actually what transforms it. The alchemist has said that advanced gazing or deeper gazing really above dynamic where you begin to run up ageist more subtle levels interacts with the intelligences of those on a subtle level and this is why I believe in my last personal chat to him I first heard him say that advanced gazing is a light form of theurgy. It is theurgy because it's running up against pressures unconsciously through the act of pushing deeper with the subtle senses. You're feeling the pressure of deepening the subtle sense expansion and that subconscious capacity, and out of that then the emotional stuff dissolves in subtle dream states and even spontaneously during the day. Any time you're pushing limits is when you move through pressure and transform resistances. The alchemist says this is the only way to shift your center, regardless of the "expansion" (not the subconscious capacity idea but more about a vitality level of expansion which is why vitality in and of itself isn't purifying but opens up capacity TO purify) and that will ALWAYS be attuning to a personification of the thematic related to what you're moving into in experience. Experiencing something is understanding it and attuning to it and the personification of it, they all overlap as one in the same thing on different psychological stages.

So with all that in mind we can see how breaking boxes generally speaking can be the most reliable way to go about refining anything because that requires vitality (at least enough of it) as well as commitment and acceptance of that trust in the vulnerable unknown place of what ifs and such that most people try and simulate without doing it for real. It all overlaps, but to different amounts. It's so extremely complicated to put everything into frame together in a way that makes sense without writing thousands of pages on this which I've already done and it's still expanding more but I still wonder how much more is there?

We're now on 2600 pages of work. Crazy.

Here's my advice.

Do written pathway revision on all the metrics that you know aren't satisfying and lead you into pseudo satisfaction along with continuing to buy into not self compromise patterns. Write the fulfilment of those as though they never happened and commit. You could do it other ways too but I believe this is a more effortless way to gain momentum. Log it all down. Logging stuff on paper regardless of if you think you should or not will benefit you.

What I believe this is important to do is simply because you'll be able to actually identify limits and begin to attune to the nourished side of those.

What the alchemist was saying about clearing root stress is that it can spontaneously happen as well, as in the technique application can simply accerllerate the clearing of what's already being cleared, like the gradual shift towards comfort, and that it simply pushes the edge just enough for it to then naturally clear soon after even though the technique itself technically never did.

I believe that this idea of "ripeness" is an important factor that the alchemist talks about. How do you measure it? Well, I don't know, but I'd say if you're making progress with actually clearing not self stuff over time then that's an indication that ripeness is shifting. I will say that baseline vitality is likely related to this, as ripeness and moving towards immortality work are related and vitality corresponds closely too. Remember vitality is integrated in cycles, as in you cultivate and allow it to build up and overflow over time, often a few weeks, and that can then raise the ripeness naturally too. There's ALL these factors that play together, none of them in a vacuum will work magic. Going all the way is moving whatever availability of these factors you have to their limits, to accelerate this ripening. The alchemist has said that if you've got less time in your busy day and you spend the most you can doing gazing then you'll get better ripening out of that then someone who's got hours that's wasting it doing things that are not necessary. This is part of my point too saying that unnecessary stimulus depletes vitality and that ripeness is overlapping those effects. You see how this all interacts and that giving people "tests" for this is next to impossible. There's so many factors it's insane.

The alchemist also said that you don't forget memories that once held charge when you dissolve the importance on them. NG said you must forget, which as I said is VERY unlikely to happen. I don't know how he could say that as a condition when he's all about empowering people, unless he's speaking in once again very vague terms where forget doesn't actually mean forget. People say they understand NG, and yet when they come across quotes like that they avoid interpreting it because it doesn't make sense. How do you interpret that correctly? You can't. That's why following what NG says directly is next to impossible. The alchemist also makes a good point in saying that you shouldn't make your stress special, as in saying that you're different because you went through a certain experience that's like a 10/10 on the trauma scale and that's why you can't get better. I've had people tell me this who I've worked with locally here in person. They tell me they can't get better and it's insane because that's just making it special saying that you're the one case that's going to be stuck. That's the avoidance of facing the pressure, the condition, or one of them at least. Going through that and saying it's not important to hold onto this and that it is ok to feel it, that's necessary to clear it out of the way. This is when a lot of people define themselves under their stress and basically block an entire aspect of themselves from being accessed because of making their stress special, making it into it's own persona. Literally they become a totally different person simply because of the inability to be ok with a part of them they're feeling is off limits. That's hard and that's why they make it special because they've got this part of them they feel is off limits. Allowing yourself to experience that TRUE desire (which is more accepting of self) and letting go of not self are one in the same because they touch the same directions of polarity of those themes on the different spectrum.

Art. Living art.

A lot of people who "manifest" really are just establishing a new baseline degree of acceptance over life, nothing too big or whatever but enough to be comfortable. That's an honest goal. You can feel mostly content there, and thinking this is ALWAYS a purifying process just isn't the case if you don't want it to be, because as I said you can ignore certain strivings and God will eventually leave you alone, or he will force you to look at it if it's important. Typing with cold fingers is also very fun. Weather this time of year. Good thing I'm pretty much over doing these entries now as I've mentioned everything in more detail.

One last thing I want to discuss here and this relates to something I've never spoken about before here that I've just recognised based on what the alchemist said in one of his quotes I listed before.

SATS. NG SATS is not about impressing images exclusively, it's really about running up against certain degrees of subtlety as the purifying effect on the highest level. Yeah the specific stuff you imagine matters when it comes to letting go, but since every part of us alchemically speaking can be purified by being taken into a more subtle degree of reality then SATS in reality is about pushing the spheres of awareness into interacting with substrates in the way that advanced gazing does. Now the exact scene doesn't exactly matter for this aspect but I believe that when an imagined experience is taken to that level of subtlety you ARE doing invocation, not evocation but invocation, which is an integration of parts of your own field geometry. I do not believe that this will often be an evoking process, though it could be if you're already open enough for that to happen where interface with intelligences can occur. My point is that the expansion of subconscious capacity I believe has the most important role to play with this whole SATS idea, and the new part of this is what the alchemist said about how running up against more subtle levels can automatically be purifying in and of itself and that the imaginal scene is more or less just something to target to keep your attunement to those aspects stable, which he himself also said. It's more or less about pushing the limits of subtlety and that faith isn't in the scene but in the subtlety. The SATS process arguably is a method of expanding subconscious capacity. This was something I postulated a long time ago but never gave it too much thought. Now most people do that wrong of course, including myself, because the sensory level experience isn't the point, it's taking that into the subtle level and that can only be cultivated over time through pushing that limit where taking the base elements into the more subtle levels can result in a purifying effect. The alchemist said that just doing this in and of itself is a mild form of theurgy where you're standing before an archetypal power (the earth mother Mary for instance) unconsciously and thus are able to clean out not self stuff to "like magic" have things happen.

So once again there's many many different modalities here. The alchemist hasn't said anything about SATS or whatever but I believe based on the alchemy here of taking the conscious into the unconscious on an invocational modality then you're doing evocation but for your own parts. Remember most of what NG really taught was about the movement of subtle themes of experience, or what he called states, and that simply interacting with them would have burn off. Any time you interact with something subtle you're going to be passively purified, provided it's something that's necessary and that draws out of your unconscious resistance to be processed, which the alchemist also said that you can have it spontaneously process during the day which I've had clients that I've given advanced gazing to tell me this as well. It can happen when you least expect it, and that's ripening, so SATS accelerates ripening. That's what it's really doing. Each day you do it until satisfaction is reached is accelerating ripening, but it won't CAUSE it, because techniques don't shift chunks unless ripeness or all the variables surrounding that are aligned correctly to open that up. The capacity is there and ripeness is the fulfilment of that capacity you're naturally moving towards to fulfil. This makes FAR more sense over the SATS stuff and destroys the mind magic mentalism nonsense. All very interesting. I've said all this stuff before in different manners but never in the connected way that I just explained it. It just takes time to go through all this stuff in all the angles possible. Running dry again it seems. Good signs.

New videos coming soon then. Just wait till the LOA community hears this. Nobody has talked about this in that sphere as far as I know. They're all obsessed with processing feelings on the psychology side (which is becoming more popular I find) or they're obsessed with techniques. I still still argue that the most reliable method is listing things in the morning as I've personally seen this work most reliably. Joseph made that popular, but I remember reading a book from the 1920's I believe using the same method of listing what you desire every day so it's not new. It's likely been around way before that too but was never talked about in books the way it's spoken about now. RS has the mechanics, and then the techniques can be decoded. Applying all this properly is very very complicated when you try and go all out with everything and often you'll just get confused but that's how this works. Experience gains you insights from both failures and successes. I've been writing here for almost 3 years now, more so in the last 2 years but whatever. Point is that from my first entries here I've expanded my understanding SIGNIFIACNTLY and without going through all this I'd never have refined RS to the degree it is now. It was necessary and it just takes time. I can't accelerate it other than just doing it and being ok with whatever pace I go at.

With all these points explored I believe that new vids are incoming. Often when the tap runs dry is when I get the movement to show up on cam. I could show up on cam at other times but I don't find repeating the same ideas to be of value. Considering I'm still pretty small it'll be good so that I can reach new eyes with an even more complete model. Growing the channel and being a marketing type might become the path I walk for a while, which I've been laying out the foundation for for a while now. Courses that are actually going to help people understand and not get lost in the nonsense of mentalism using systematic explorations of the phenomena. As crazy as it sounds I always find myself inspired whenever I think about destroying the mentalism LOA stuff. It's like that's where my real deep satisfaction comes from, actually getting some stakes involved and pushing limits for real in the public sphere instead of just prototyping things here where only a few dozen actually read this regularly. Hi by the way. You're all absolute legends, especially those who I have in private groups that we discuss this stuff behind the scenes and help me develop new stuff. Without you all I'd likely not have had these same insights so I throw out my gratitude to everybody who's played a part here.

I will make a few extra comments still. This whole facts of life things, as in the idea that affirming is like stating a fact, is nothing more than an attunement to what that represents. Doing that method isn't special, you don't need the 5 sense because the intuitive sense of knowing is how you communicate with the subconscious. The acceptance through going all the way into that threshold where the breaking of limits can take place and the new expectation is established, be it not self or not doesn't matter because the same mechanics apply. There's nothing special to that, so don't think it's anything different. Remember all there is are themes that we attune to and thus integrate and wield as part of who we are which is what we manifest. That's all we can do. Psychological truth (an NG Term) is the threshold of acceptance that allows us to integrate enough of something to understand and not be moved by it, which is why it doesn't bother you as that current has been attuned to. This is water, unconscious feeling of subconscious, Pushing that up against subtle levels automatically purifies it because it's being taken into a degree of reality where you're open and vulnerable in that space of expanded capacity. There is an innate intelligence that's self organising you're interacting with by sinking into that subtle level. I because SATS and what gazing does with the widened view is very similar. I can do it on the spot, though I never experiment with specific imaginal stuff lately because that's just not what I do I allow things to happen as they do by me entering into those spaces instead of trying to control them which I find is the way you'd really get in alignment best with what's correct instead of trying to manipulate things to become comfortable more with not self conditioning which you may even be able to manifest from but I don't have any interest in playing that path, not even for financial gain. Every cent I earn comes to me when I need it most. I've never had financial issues since I let go of Jewish money being something to be avoided at all costs. Dropping conditions, false expectations, barriers, all this stuff came in an instant when I felt inspired to simply be myself and spread RS online and be open to receiving funds from that however they showed up. That's all.

"There's a a poem that speaks to it. Um what is it? Um tell the truth but tell it slant. Success in circuit lies for the truth must dazzle gradually or every man be blind. think that was Emily Dickinson, which means she was pretty damn brilliant because she summed up the whole idea."

The alchemist on a poem about why we can't just instantly transform. It's because our psyche cannot take too much stress at once, because transformation is facing pressure, physically and non physically it's the same thing. The reason why you can't just mindlessly affirm to be an immortal and have it show up is because that implication would involve literally tearing down everything you are not which you're not going to do if you're trying to do that, so obviously you'll end up in peak dips like I did. It just doesn't work like that, it's a purification cycle through facing the thematically associated pressure. Until this is recognised and accepted in the LOA circles then everybody will continue to be exploited by fools who are not even close to being qualified to talk on the subject. They must be exposed for who they are.

When NG talked about the gazing method which I've quoted before where he said that it's an option for those who can't do it with closed eyes, that it has the same effect. This proves that it's not about anything to do with open or closed eye but the degree of subtlety that you can shift into and allow that shift into that level to be purifying in itself. This I believe is the hidden key to what NG taught. How does the imaginal experience come into this? That's in my opinion the way he teaches you to "stabilise" (which he said is the point of looping that I quoted in an old old video) the themes targeted on that level in that subtle space of expanded subconscious space which. This alchemical method has been warped and turned into mentalism. Exposing this using these facts of what NG himself said proves that it's not about the senses and he also said it's not about the techniques but to get you to believe, which I still don't fully agree with but of course he spoke in language that's very vague and hard to understand what he's really saying so. Either way we have all the parts here for a vid to talk on this stuff. This is likely what I will discuss. "NG NEVER taught conscious manifesting" or something very heretical that will stir up trouble. I can back it up with mountains of data so I say bring it on! Lets rip and tear the LOA gurus to shreds and put RS to the test!

31/5/25

"So well Sophia ultimately relates to wisdom and uh the divine feminine. Throughout history, different religious ideologies, particularly those withnosticism, and which streams ofnosticism and how they position themselves, not only against other kinds of nasticism, but against um teachings of the of the Orthodox Church at the time. So Sophia relates to um a couple of different ideas. It relates to the divine feminine which is from our viewpoint um this all goes back to the sphere of the na basically um uh catalistically speaking but that divine feminine that's that's at the level of the higher spirit not at the soul level is uh basically the it's the higher level of the soul portion of our being. But when we come into being the viewpoint according to the western mysteries that we go by that the the aspect of our nature that's related to our unconscious is a kind of fallen and disconnected version of that higher soul level. So the unconscious is still is the feminine but it is the uh kind of the disconnected microcosmic version of that idea. So because of the different ideologies that existed around certain religious ideas where the feminine was blamed for um the fall of man etc etc etc. Some Gnostic uh viewpoints regarded Sophia as either intentionally bad or ignorant but still essentially to blame. We don't see it that way because we don't do that dual um good versus bad thing. It's simply a mechanic. It's just part of what's necessary. in order for us to come into this level of being. So u when you take the conscious mind and you learn to navigate into the unconscious that energy that is created by that conjunction is essentially an oscillation. So when you take the conscious mind into the unconscious mind, it creates this oscillation of a whole different level of consciousness. And that is essentially the energy the the level of being that needs to be activated in order to connect to that higher soul level. When you can do that and bridge that gap, then the higher functions eventually become more the guiding force for your life rather than the lower consciousness functions. So Sophia is wrapped up in all of that because um it's that wisdom that cultivates compassion and that higher aspect of ourselves that's related to that particular soul idea is a very compassionate um intelligence. It wants you to evolve. It wants you to get to the place where you're ripe enough to do things. It it has a beneficient nature that's a little more accessible to people. For one thing, it's the level of consciousness that is primarily the first level that we can connect with from this level that we're in as far as the higher functions are concerned. So um there's a lot that can be said but different traditions looked at it in different ways. Um major differences between what we call Christian gnostics and then pagan gnostics. Um, but then there are other kinds of gnostics that might label themselves Christian gnostics that still also had a more beneficial view of those particular ideas. So, a lot of it depends on the time in which they existed and what else was going on around them in order for them to differentiate theirel them themselves and their beliefs. kind of in opposition to whatever was going on in their environment. But Sophia ultimately is the level of the the feminine at the spirit level that is personified as that particular being and can be interacted with in that in that personification. So it's one of the core primary um powerful um spiritual evolutionary forces that you can come into contact with and it's basically the blueprint for the divine feminine in total. everything that the divine feminine can be or relate to can be um kind of connected in that way. So on one hand it's a particular aspect of the soul level of being that exists at the at the precipice between the soul level and the spirit level. And on the other hand, it's related to the divine feminine and everything that that archetype deals with. So, that's kind of a short answer that you could actually probably write um as many books about as the books over there behind me and still never quite get to all the things that could be answers to that question. But that's kind of a short answer. Does that did that make sense? The ascension being that upward current and the horizontal current as well. Um even though it's different than the other kinds of work that are more classically like traditional inner work because of the mechanics of the way it works, it does begin to open and connect to those levels um much more than just doing those other things by themselves. And because it is um to say it in a linear way, even though it's not linear, it is the the lowest level of the spiritual level of being. So from our viewpoint, it is usually the first level that we're able to come into contact with from where we are now. So the fact that it's coming up more frequently makes very good sense because you're bumping into it without realizing it. And so these things are when when we get into talking about these levels of being, levels of existence, um we are talking about a divine being that is personified as the things that they embody. But we are also talking about a plane of existence or a level of existence. then the two cannot really be separated from each other. So when you talk about um rising to a particular plane that is related to a certain archetype or interacting with the being that is the personification of that archetype. They exist in and of their own right, but you you're interacting with the same level. Whether it's something you you recognize as the being or just the pure level itself, it's all basically the same thing. So when you come into contact with powerful spiritual beings that have a catabolic effect, what it's doing is is burning off things that are in your current configuration that block a more full connection with that particular level which it rules. So when you bump into them, you can get a burnoff. the same as the general ascending practice. When you're moving stuff, you're going to get this burn off and sometimes feel a little underpar or a lot underpar depending on what you bumped into, but that's just a burnoff that that's actually a really good sign. And it's kind of a a fermentation process. So, um, when it finishes burning that out, you have more access than you had before. So, a lot of what comes later in the work that we do when it's very particular after we go through this period of general clearing to clear a lot of the cobwebs out that are easy to get to, okay? They're not necessarily all evolutionary cobwebs. They're just stuff that needs to be cleared. If you don't clear that out first, then when you start having serious catabolic reactions, not only are you having that to contend with, but the other general cobweb clearing that gets kicked out with it and it just exacerbates everything. So what you're doing now is kind of like clearing the highway of anything that's accessible that can just be generally dealt with. But later on when you do specific levels of work within the practice proper, you're going to interact with those spiritual intelligences quite purposefully and you will have burnoff from that. there is no way around it. In fact, if you don't get much burnoff, then you didn't really go deep enough when you're doing the practice, which is a whole other thing. But, um, these are the things that can kind of be expected from doing that particular kind of work. So getting this little bit of burnoff here and there is a good taste of it, but it's nothing like, you know, feeling like you've been steamrolled by a, you know, a big truck because that can happen, too. Um, so you don't I don't throw you all the way into the deep end straight out the gate because I don't find that for the most part to be things that people can handle and I don't find it productive to over fry people's systems. Um, it's just not good. So you're going to come into an intimate understanding of that particular intelligence um in the future and then you'll be able to interact with it directly. So um there's different ways of viewing that as well um which we've talked about before but not necessarily naming it in that particular way. But um when we take our bodies, earth body, lunar body, solar body and make them one thing, that stellar body that um intelligence Sophia is very much involved with um that process kind of at the at the top of it. So, it's not the first time or the last time that it's going to come up. I mean, yeah, it was the first time, not the last time."

The alchemist on Sophia. I found this one interesting. Sophia or wisdom is the overarching yin principle it seems.

The level or "state" IS the personification of that aspect of God that you are proportionate to and can integrate. Do we see now how all this works? It's alchemy. Manifestation IS this, because any psychological function MUST interreact with these personified components, either consciously or unconsciously, and I've had clients of mine actually tell me that when they do advanced gazing if I give that to them then they often experience things coming THROUGH THEM (such as voices or visions) and those are what will always manifest, even if it's not perfectly what they wanted. The connection between these I believe has to do with opening up to the subtle levels and running up against these personified aspects that communicate with you as a psychological function which you believe is you but is really just something that's fundamental corresponding to the fixed thematic trajectory making itself manifest through you naturally as that level unfolds further. Every time you interact with those levels in and of themselves they'll intelligently dissolve not self stuff automatically and that can often manifest as these voices happening automatically marking that the purification and the "impression" are ultimately one in the same thing for the examples with my clients telling me these things happen. It's the one process, letting go of what's not so that what is can automatically unfold and the conscious experience of that as visions or voices are just the manifestation in that moment of the clearing taking place. It was not the thought, but that the thought translates what's happening unconsciously on the thematic level through that levels intelligence shifting things around in you. Same thing. Kind of complex to understand but I believe that's part of how this works, and in fact why the alchemy side of what NG teaches IS the same as the so called subconscious impression side, because it's all interaction with states, or levels of different themes in subtlety and thus that attunement comes THROUGH you. All these parts have been developed pretty fully in their own right on earlier pages but it's even more coherent now that this aspect has been integrated more completely thanks to going over my notes on the alchemist again that I took many years ago.

All of this has been known before in their individual parts but how have they all come together like this?

"So, my experience is that things sort themselves out. When we take it upon ourselves to try to make things happen, we tend to make more of a mess than we do achieve what's useful for us because from our conscious thinking level of our mind, we decide that we want these things or we need these things and then set about some task to do it and we're working against ourselves and don't even know it. So uh my viewpoint of the goal of interacting with any deity or intelligence or spirit is simply to know it. Learn from it whatever wisdom it has to offer. Teaching things that it where it can help reflect things within you that are related to its domain that it can help you correct. uh bring into balance. Um that that is the productive evolutionary way of interacting with a spirit. Not to you know control them or get them to do things for you or you know try to force things to happen. I mean some of that now and then is okay. Um but my and perhaps that's why I'm so neutral to spirits and why um and I think that's pretty well known. Um on their level that I am neutral to spirits. I don't judge the nature of something just for what it is. where people would judge something as being evil simply because its energy is heavier, darker because the nature of what it's relates to archetypally can be heavier and therefore feel uncomfortable in its presence, but I don't let that cause me to label them. those kinds of spirits also have things to offer and knowing them um is just as productive as other kinds of intelligences. So if you have affinity with a particular intelligence or an intelligence that is known as a particular kind of saint or a particular kind of spirit then that likely is a holdover from past u lifetimes, past iterations of yourself. And therefore that spirit has affinity with you and will probably be one of the spirits that begins to make itself known um more readily than others. So it can come about as a matter of affinity. That I think is also a good thing. You know, I wouldn't have thought that I had this deep personal affinity with a guardian of the underworld, but apparently I did uh and do um and didn't realize it. So, I think those relationships are important and if you have that connection, then fostering a deeper level of connection is a good thing."

Lots here but he was talking about how when you're able to get other intelligences to do things for you on occasion, interestingly enough. That's possibly an evocational process, or an invocation based on interacting with your own parts. I still believe that on some level people who do LOA stuff and manifest miracles (thaumaturgy is literally called miracle working) are interacting with either parts of themselves or external intelligences that have influence in reality and are what make these seemingly impossible circumstances manifest. They often do it for us, and that our psychological aspects that we believe are doing it from our conscious thinking mind really is just interacting with intelligences within us or outside of us. This is why techniques don't matter really, unless they're alchemically based in nature. There's so many layers to this, methods and applications. You can do it with your own power, you can do it with external power, you can do it with just physical processes, you can do it without even thinking stuff and that natural striving will unfold what's necessary. All these levels. It's insane how extremely complex this phenomena is. So many levels that you really can't be sure of until you've expanded understanding and awareness enough to know. How would you be able to know without being able to interact with them? Viewing everything as conscious in and of itself is what we're talking about here, and that they have their own existence and reality on their level they exist on which when you interact with that level you're then automatically interacting with them and that interaction as they communicate with you IS the purifying effect in itself IF there's clearing necessary, otherwise you can simply ask it to help you with something and it will do that. When you put out a wish I believe that a lot of the time it's not "the universe" doing it but God moving through them on the level you're interacting with that's necessary according to natural striving or another aspect of buying into not self and letting you roll around in the dark of that if that's what you want. So wishing and receiving themes as the 1st letter of YHVH plays through us in this manner, either directly from God or through a level of God as an intelligence we commune with and have thoughts come through us that we believe are us but really are just levels of our psyche in stages which those intelligences are who have the power in actually manifesting and moving these things, not your conscious will. This might explain why seeming results are so shoddy, and also why the alchemist says that communication is often very short and to the point instead of long winded type interactions with lots of parts of s discussion. He's said that it's often as MINIMAL as possible. It's that the themes are communicated and then the movement is set and unfolds from there. This is possibly why simple shorter phrases you think to yourself that are less than say 6 words or so can be more effective than longer ones, because the specific details are already bound within that on the thematic level that's integrated in those words as the format the intelligences pick up on and thus the manifestation method to get them to do things for you is always short phrases that are clear, and that even if you feel negative about them they can still show up too. This has happened to me, with for example the story of the SP I manifested overnight while I was filled with fury. I interpreted that as something that unfolded because of my clear direction and commitment to that direction (which it was because that's the stabilised signature I talk about as important which NG also says) but I will say that it's more so that I was going through not self stuff in that place naturally and what automatically played out was what I already had under the surface which is this phenomena I've noticed where people who stop trying get it showing up days weeks or maybe a few months later randomly when there's zero care.

I find that people confuse detachment from lacking emotion. You can detach while in a charged state, because detachment isn't exclusively feeling based, it's acceptance of truth based and yeah that manifests as feelings on one level but there's that intuitive sense that really is what matters most. That is the subconscious sense, as the alchemist said. The intuitive sense is the language of the subconscious, knowing something, and sinking into that even while charged up is what's needing to be stabilised. Dissolving the feelings is obviously going to benefit because they're going to warp the signature due to these unconscious thoughts that come through you that you're not causing is the actual belief and those thoughts are really the threat to the safety net you've established under the contrast barrier we talk about. Moving in the correct direction and by that I don't mean an overstimulating imaginal thing where you're trying to feel better needlessly but where you KNOW you need to be imagining yourself and fulfilling those necessary conditions you FEEL. I imagined myself living more independently before I slept, going to places I'd been avoiding and other situations I felt uncomfortable with. I imagined myself going through those uncomfortable circumstances and I felt more comfortable with them IRL to some degree as a result. I found far more progress happening when this was my focus over the desired things because those can always just come when you least expect it anyway. Holding importance on the desires means you're still in the box and seeking supply from that box which is why you're still stuck.

When I did advanced gazing last night I felt extreme fear too, as in my body was forcibly moved by an invisible hand and my head was being moved straight forward where I was going and it was like I was losing control of myself, I shed tears, I had my right eye literally feel so heavy and the eyelids just wanted to shut when the left one was light as ever. That night I had interaction with another intelligence in a dream. This was after an extended session so I will say doing more than 45 mins can often result in greater outcomes, at least in my experience. You won't want to often either but I find that when you feel that uncomfortable sensation of wanting to end it and get up from the session is when opportunities are given to move through pressure and that's often when the most profound shifts happen. I tell you every time I was about to give up is when big stuff happened. Opportunities. They're spontaneously given to us when we need them most and those will purify not self stuff as you sit with them. The advanced gazing is arguably the best way to dissolve them while you do it because it's a method that can allow you to have focus while you also feel them so that you're not trying to control the thoughts but allow them to move through you so long as the focus is consistent.

The more you read what NG says in his lectures and apply it under this lens the more it can begin to make sense on the levels that it does work. It cuts through all the trash out there about thinking mind being causal.

"Um, but you know, the bottom line of any of that is is to um have experiences with them that open you up to whole different levels of being, that show you things that you didn't know were things that obviously are important for your evolution. Um and uh that in of itself is is a evolutionary experience and and the fact that it's quite humbling um to be standing in in front of a being that's that powerful. Um the you know you're you're so uh filled with such humility while you're doing it that having any wherewithal at all to um even if your plan would have been to try to do something that would be kind of inappropriate by the time you're actually standing in front of one of them it's probably not going to you know like this just that kind of stuff just uh you know it just doesn't work that way. you are affected by what you're standing in front of and it's got a you know a purgative nature and so you may have thought that you were starting off thinking that was going to be your plan and then find out through the course of experiences that that really wasn't the plan at all and not only that but you weren't in charge of the plan anyway. So the only thing that you can do that is constructive that doesn't get in your own way is do things that accelerate the process, not change the course of the process or try to think that you know better than your higher nature what you need to be doing or what should or shouldn't be happening or what's right and what's wrong. All that is just blah blah blah. The only thing that you really can do from your end that's constructive are things that accelerate the development of the process itself, which is what you're already doing. Um, and yes, there are ways to accelerate it faster, but those come with some caveats that for the moment are better left It's one of those be careful what you ask for."

The alchemist more on theurgy.

"Um the evolution comes from sustained regular repeated practice of certain kinds of work and developing that as a habit and a pattern is much more helpful than sporadic enthusiasm followed by nothing. Well, the funny thing is is we tend to think, you know, it's easy to think, oh, if I didn't have all this stuff to do out in the world, if I didn't have all this job stuff to do, and some people really do, you know, they have a lot of it to do, so they have less time. But it's easy for people in that particular configuration to think that if they just had all this free time that they could get so much more of the spiritual work done. And that's true on one hand, but what they're not taking into consideration is that you can't just use all that extra time to just do that spiritual work. If it's real stuff, you're not going to be able to do that much of it because it's you have to deal with the effect of doing that much of it and that's too much to be trying to do at one time. So at a certain point in time when you get to a certain place taking time and blocking it off to do certain very important things that's all very sensible but um you can't really make practice or progress on a magical path by pushing the rest of your life away. You won't even really come into the deeper levels of it until you've essentially mastered what this level of reality is here to teach us. So you do have to straddle, you know, stand in two boats at one time for a while trying not to fall in the water, which is um always fun. But at a certain level um when you come more and more into alignment with whatever your purpose is, the struggle to maintain everyday normal reality is really not something you have to give a whole lot of thought to. It just gets sorted. Yes, you still have to do things, but the stress, the drama, the all that stuff, it just goes away. then you do have a lot of energy to do other things because all that other stuff has just been dealt with. It's it's been sorted and that's all part of the ripening process. You know, a part of the being spiritually mature and it generally has a lot to do with putting your priorities in the right place. That also is something that comes with spiritual maturity. You know, we don't The things we did in our youth that were entertaining are things that don't hold near as much fascination and can be done once in a while when you're older, but they're, you know, they're just things you grow out of after a while. People that don't because they're trying to reclaim the past or have a Peter Pan syndrome or whatever they've got going on. Um, I find that the more I focus on doing the work, the more everything comes into alignment. Of course, that's because that's my purpose. So, um, it is a little from that point of view, but um it doesn't mean it's not without its challenges. Just requires a lot of patience."

The alchemist on mastering the physical level as another part of the work, which is what I've been saying too. Natural striving works on whatever is most necessary to unfold, even if we don't understand it, but trusting that inner truth is the magic. It's what I said in that video about how "NG had is backwards".

"You get to see kind of chains of events based on the current decisions people are making now. But if they change decisions that they're making then the nexus of those events changes. So you it's very fluid. You don't you don't see one fixed like this is going to happen in that particular way. Although I do in lucid dream state get told or shown sometimes very specific things. Um, but that is usually um, uh, an intelligence telling me something specific because it's something I need to know versus some kind of event or sequence of events. And usually they're things that are relevant to me. um it's not like I get a daily broadcast of hey this is what's going to happen you know in other places. So while that can develop for me, it's generally information that I'm given that's relevant to me. Um uh and sometimes it takes a while to figure out even though you heard exactly what it was, what exactly it meant. Um, even it's perfectly clear language, but sometimes the words are words that we we just don't use every day."

The alchemist on viewing the future. Can be seen as related to manifestation.

"But um part of that is because the practices that we do strengthen um the field that is essentially connected or related to our personal subconscious. You know how I talk about when the conscious mind overlaps with the unconscious mind, it creates this oscillation that is essentially subconscious mind. the more powerfully developed that is in someone when someone else comes into your field, you're able to know what they're up to them knowing that you know what they're up to because it's very transparent when because it's your subconsciousness basically mixing with their consciousness pulling that out and you're just getting the benefit of knowing what it is and they um they don't have practices that cultivate their own um field per se. So when someone does do the practices that cultivate that field, it's very if it's a strong field, it's very difficult for anybody else to be poking around in that when they're not supposed to be there. I used to have friends that were very annoyed because they were psychic and empathic and they would be around me and they would basically yell at me because they couldn't get in my mind. I'm like, well, first of all, you're not supposed to be in there. Second of all, it's none of your damn business. And third of all, you're not getting in unless I want you to get in. So, I could choose to lower that and let them in just for the sake of satisfying the fact that I could, but they would actually get annoyed that, well, they can just around everybody else's psyche. They couldn't get through mine because I'm basically built like a castle. It's not just a wall. There's a moat and a draw and a freaking dragon in the moat. And you're not getting past it unless I want you to. Um, and I've been built that way for a long time. Um, I I can only um deduce that it was necessary for me to do the things that I I'm supposed to do. So uh it it is like that other people who are not um doing mystery training or even if they are or or trying to or what they think they're doing um a lot of it's not very effective. So their their subconscious is messy. It's just all flying around and it's very easy to pick up on. and people that are just in normal mainstream society. They're just a wide open kind of disaster for the most part. Um, so even when they think they're being clever, you can see what they're up to. You know what they're up to before they do. Or if they have an agenda or a motive, as soon as they open their mouth, you know exactly what it is. you know, they'll try to drop something in a conversation nonchalantly, but really they're trying to direct the conversation in the direction they want it to go. I see that just instantaneously. So, because because it's a form of manipulation, they hate that. It's a pet peeve for me, so I recognize it pretty readily. Um it's become with some people it's just they're not being malicious or disingenuous. They just don't really re recognize that they do it and because they're not doing it in a malevolent way. It's just be kind of become kind of endearing that you know you just know the patterns ahead of time and they go through the maze just like you know just like the tunnel was laid out for them and do the same thing over and over and over again. But you know what they're going to do because they always do it because that's the pattern. So once you recognize specific patterns and specific people, then you know even further ahead of time what they're going to do. Um you know probably better than they do. Um and it that's just um this kind of way people are programmed. So it becomes very easy to pick up on that without intending to because it it's it's energy and information that's in their um it's connected to them when they come into your field. Um you just become aware of it. So, um, and the the the funny thing is that when people become aware that I've become aware of whatever it is they don't want me to know because it's in their field, if it's something that they're um embarrassed about or don't want people to know, then they tend to not come around anymore because they feel like they're going to be judged. except that I am the least judgmental person that there is because I pretty much understand that even their crap isn't really theirs. It's not it's not really theirs. It's just crap and I don't make it special. So, I don't need to make a thing out of it. But because it's a thing to them, they hide. So once somebody figures out that if they hang around in my field, I'm going to pick up on all the stuff they don't really want me to know, which is kind of annoying because I really don't care. Um then they can tend to kind of stay away. So, um, it's interesting that the people that they're running from because of things they don't want anybody to know are the very people that don't actually judge them for the things that they don't want people to know. But until they get that, like I know if I sit down in front of a spiritual teacher that's more powerful than me, they automatically know all my all of it and it doesn't matter because they don't judge and because everybody has it. The thing is is they don't make it special. I stopped making it special a long time ago, so it doesn't really matter. So, um that's the thing about um spending time with a teacher that that has gotten past where you are because they can help you see your shadow, the places where you're holding shadow, so you can proactively do something about it as opposed to just letting it be in there colouring everything in your day-to-day existence. because that's really all it does."

The alchemist on feeling more stable while doing gazing and other work along with the subject of interaction when it comes to dealing with resistance.

1/6/25

"Everyone is at a different place archetypally speaking spread across lots of different things on an archetypal level and things have to unfold in a sequence but you don't get to see where you are in that sequence. And even though it's not completely linear, we experience it in a rather linear unfolding kind of way. So um you you can't know that and you can't control it. All you can control is whether you sit down and do the work every day like you're supposed to. That's all you can do. If you do that, the rest of it will take care of itself. If you um hold strong positions about things you think should be happening, it's you trying to run the show. And the dragon doesn't need you to run the show. It's evolutionary force. It's in control. But when you do things, when you have attachments, it basically kind of pushes things away. It causes a blockage. So the best thing to do is just have no attachments. sit down like a little kid every day and say, "Wow, I wonder what's going to happen today." And whatever it is, that'll be great."

The alchemist on just doing the work and not worrying about the how and why.

"While that's true on a certain level, um, not every idea held about all of those different components that exist within an esoteric psychology or anatomy are written in stone. So just because there's a couple people that have very very strong opinions about how these things work and exactly what they are, it doesn't mean that their flavor of Kool-Aid is absolutely correct. Which is why it's important to subject yourself to different points of view around those same ideas because when you do enough of that, you have a very different perspective. Um, but people that are really heavily focused in only one particular way of looking at it and that's their thing and that's great because that's their mission. That's their purpose. They're still going to see it through the lens that relates to their purpose. So the things that they're saying can be true, but they're not necessarily the whole truth because they're only approaching it from one particular point of view. So we go back to the story of the emperor and the elephant and the five blind advisors and he asks each of them to touch the elephant and describe the elephant. But elephants are pretty big. So every one of them was touching a different part and just saying the elephant is like a tree trunk. The elephant is like a wall. The elephant is like a hose or whatever a nose would be. And they're not wrong, but they're not describing the whole elephant. And that's what I'm saying about these particular aspects of particular kinds of levels of being whether it's the ruach and the nephesh or uh the king and the queen or however you want to look at it. The things that are taught about that are related to very particular ideas in which those terminologies were recorded and presented. But the same ideas have existed in other places where those ideas were not held as rigidly about that. So, I don't see it exactly the way some people teaching straight up hermetic um initiatory magical stuff see it. For one thing, I've experienced the binary nature of guardians and I know that that is true from my own direct experience. So a lot of the things that are said are only said about the front end on the front side of the experience and the total backside is really kind of left out. Um and it's because that's the way they look at it from that particular flavor of Kool-Aid. I've drunk enough flavors of Kool-Aid that I can see through most of those things. And while they might be the majority correct, there's always a couple little places where you can find some hedging in order to reinforce their particular flavor of the Google. It's always in there and it's because everyone has a little bit of shadow and that's the result. um even when somebody uh is got a really clear understanding on a lot of levels, they're still subject to some kind of shadow. You really have to be vigilant about it and um and not use it to manipulate because just leaving out one little tidbit of information can change the complexion of an entire discussion. So, I just put that out there to you so that you can begin realizing that there is more than one perspective of these ideas that's still accurate, but it does change the nature of the picture just slightly. I think that's important. um after nearly 30 years of going through all this stuff, that's the conclusion that I've come to from my own experience. But everybody has to get there in the way that they're meant to get there. So, anytime someone's explaining something to you, just remember that they're talking about a part of the elephant. It may be the majority of the elephant, but it's not going to be every single piece of it. An easier way to look at it is that the higher is always directing the impulses to us, but because our lower nature is not refined enough, the messages get twisted. And by the time they get to conscious functioning level, they're not the same. So it's like the telephone game with six people who are garbling the message all the way down until it gets to the point of action and then it's not even remotely close to the original impulse. It's not that we're not getting the original impulse. It's that our nervous systems and our consciousness are really not able to receive it accurately because it's the same set of working equipment. You don't just get a whole new set of equipment just because you step into a path of towards elimination. It's still the same set of equipment. It's just that the equipment's been cleaned up and the crap's been drugged out of it. The slime in the ice machine has been removed. However you want to look at it, it it gets to a place where you can get the messages, get the instructions in a much more clear fashion than you could when your system was all bogged down with all that other stuff. Uh, and so that's just a different it's just a different way of looking at it."

The alchemist on the process we go through and the principles we interact with and interpretations on different levels.

I'd argue we receive a clear ENOUGH message but it's that because we've got the false expectation condition barriers then allowing that to be trusted and accepted keeps the trash in the way blocking that clear communication. Every time you clear not self stuff more of correct orientation can be naturally and automatically felt at baseline.

"It's the same um basic thing happening, but it's happening as a result of trauma, which is not a good way to go about it. Um as opposed to it happening as a matter of ripeness on an evolutionary basis. Um but yes, if you find yourself in your etheric body, you're in your etheric body. um regardless of whether you just had a car accident and went through a windshield and you know don't even know why you're there. Now, there is a difference though between transcending your body that way, the way that we're talking about in the etheric body, and simply having consciousness be um uh in a in a place separate from the physical body. um to where you know when people are are um in anaesthesia and their consciousness is above them and they can see the room the view of the room from above. They're not necessarily in their etheric body. they are simply um consciousness is simply loosened to the point where it's um locust is in a different place looking back on what's happening. So that is um a level of mental expansion. It's not the same thing as transcending your body in the etheric body. And a lot of times um those things are confused. People think that what they call the astral when they're doing those things that's part of their um voyaging and their consciousness is moving around. They're seeing all kinds of things. They're thinking that that's the same thing as um transcending the body or being in the etheric body. And those are not the same thing. Um they're cool and they're fine. something wrong with them, but that's not the thing that we're after."

The alchemist on different bodies. The aetheric body is the subconscious level, mental body is different.

"Okay the we have the earth body, the lunar body, the solar body and those three bodies eventually get combined into the stellar body. In the meantime, what happens when we take the conscious mind basically solar aspects and we take them down into lunar aspects that the aspect that gets expanded is that subconscious level and that subconscious level is the level of where the etheric body gets grown. It's there in an embryonic way but when we do these particular techniques that gets expanded and strengthened to the point where it can operate as a functional entity. So eventually all those things have to be brought together. Basically the the etheric body in um in the practical alchemy work that level that exists there is the level of secret salt. It's the it is the secret earth that gets separated from the fire. So in the emerald tablet when it says separate the earth from fire the fire is the the sulphur soul level aspect that solar level and the the earth that it's talking about is that Saturn level archetypal um blueprint that exists of us that exists at the divine level that when we see our atheric form, that's the level that we're seeing. We're seeing our blueprint. Our perfected level of being is what we see when we see that etheric level. And that's why you say when you're doing the work, you of course and you say it one way. I'm not going to say it that way because um you know like the pretty version of you and the ugly version of you. When you see the atheric form, it's hard not to feel that way about your normal physical form, but it's not ugly. It's just that it's not the atheric. So when and even though it might not be full crystallization, which is full on etheric crystallization, um when you begin to see that shifting, everything clarifies. Everything becomes more etheric. And the more etheric it becomes, the more beautiful it is because it's all light. And that is beginning to see into that level of existence that we have that's integrated. It's part of us, but it's not been grown up. It only has an embryonic level of existence. And by doing this mystery work, we take the athetheric body and essentially separate it from the rest of the components in our subtle levels. And by doing that, it strengthens it to the point where eventually we can consciously use it. Um, and that ethetheric form is basically what we will look like when we achieve if we achieve it in this lifetime because that etheric form determines what we look like in the physical. It's just a lovely version. But if we achieve the union of the earth body and the lunar body and the solar body all into the stellar body, that etheric form is exactly what we will look like because it's the part that holds the blueprint. The astral is the mind. There is really no astral body. It's just the way that that was phrased for a long period of time and confused everything. And thanks to the wonderful innovations of um the the theosophy movement where they like to take everything and break everything down into these really linear levels of existence. It's not really like that. Um there are of course many levels of existence but the things that are primary to us are the physical and the mental level. The mental level is the astral."

The alchemist on the different bodies and their relationships.

"But when you understand that a human being is a simulacum of everything that exists in the universe, if if you really hold that to be true, then by default, if we have those archetypes within our psyche, they must exist on a macro level. That's not why they exist on a macro level. It's actually the other way around. But depending on how you want to look at it, eventually you got to get to the same place. So the way um most of the work that is done in adept initiatory magical training has to do with learning to navigate in their own interior. connect with those archetypes that exist within us at an embryionic level and interact with them to the point where a connection is made from the one embryionic archetypal level through the underworld to the macro level. You're building channels essentially. You're you're taking this this um the receiver think of it. So the macro levels up here doing this broadcast thing and we have this little embryionic unit in our psyche that we could consider a receiver. The adept spends most of the time doing the work to reconnect the to to create the connection the tunnel between the embryionic receiver level and the macro broadcasting level. And when they succeed in that, they obtain the ability to mediate the power of the macrolevel version through their own being out into the world. That is what makes magic happen. It's very mechanical. But a person can't do that unless they have made those connections. So that's what the entire level of adept work is all about and it can take a really long time but that's the point. So initiatory work is like all about giving you some tools and the blueprint. Once you get the blueprint then you get to work working through the blueprint. But that is what the majority of adept work is all about. It's making those connections. So the teachers that I had that could mediate certain kinds of power had achieved connections with at least the archetypes that were related to those things or they wouldn't have been able to mediate that power. So we in ourselves actually don't have power. What we do have is the ability to mediate power and at some point become one with certain things which would be basically perceived as having power, but it's really not ever our power. We're just mediator and believe me, they can mediate a hell of a lot sometimes. But those ancient legends of powerful, magical people being able to do things, those are not just legends. Those are truly possible, but they're rare."

The alchemist on bringing into alignment the archetypal powers and mediating those in the macro through the established attunements made. Manifestation, real manifestation, not mentalism mind magic. Thaumaturgy is making contracts with different powers without integrating them, because he said it's not your power. You become a proportionate channel for that power where it can move through you.

"If you're in the void, you're not going to have that. You might be right on the edge of it. But when when you're in a deeper state like that, if you have those kind of lucid events, then they are generally um insights into the current configuration of the way things are. Now, if something changes, then those things may not hold out to be exactly the way they're seen, but because um and time is always tricky. Um just like we have those sessions where, you know, um we think it's only been 20 minutes and then you look at the clock and it's been an hour because you spent part of that time, probably the 40 minutes you're missing. um in a state where you were in a pure void state. When you come back out of it, you don't really realize you were there without being aware of the time difference. Um you'll feel the length of time pass and you won't want it to stop us because there are sensations of bliss that go along with it. So, we tend to like those um even though we shouldn't be attached to them. And um other times you're just not aware of the time difference at all of that of that of what it just doesn't register on a conscious level until you can navigate at will in your etheric body. Then no or you can navigate at will in your etheric body. It is essentially um shifting into the absolutely lucid state. It's just like lucid state only you are in complete control. From there, there's all kinds of things you can do where there really not a lot of limit except for applying your intention to what you want to learn. But getting to the place where you can transcend your body basically, which is what that is, at will is a very advanced level. So, but it's not it's not um as out of reach as a lot of people might think because what that that state that we're talking about that is the same level that state a ben understanding sons of god eternity satnian state that's the level of consciousness that we're talking about it's the level that relates to the higher um spiritual function, the divine feminine that um that level of consciousness is the level at which you have that functionality. So that oscillating level of consciousness that's created and sustained and expanded by continuously taking the conscious mind and overlapping it into the unconscious mind is what creates and expands that state. So when you get to the point where you're doing inner work regularly, regardless of what you're doing while you're in there, you are expanding that subconscious state. You're expanding that particular the oscillation of those two states of consciousness to create the third state that basically is the bridge gaps from the lower level of our functioning to the higher level. connects that. And the more you do that, the more um the word reified, the more permanently stabilized certain levels of that are. When you get to a certain point, there's a flash point. And that's when you become able to not just have experiences now and then of transcending your body rather spontaneously, but actually being able to do it at will. So when you can do it at will, that is the level that um in the east they refer to that as an avatar. um which is a one level underneath what they call a bodhicatta. They have their ways of looking at those things. We don't look at them the same way, but essentially what they're talking about is that etheric light body that is the blueprint of you on a higher level that some of you see when you do seeing when it when when it becomes very lucid and crystallized and you see you except it's the perfect form of you. That's the body you're seeing. And then usually right after that is when it flashes and then you see someone or something else. You see your own first because you're looking into the pure etheric and you're looking at yourself. So that's what you're going to see. But it usually only lasts for a second and then you see someone else. So or at least that's how it happens for me. So you get to see what your pure etheric form looks like. Um, and that is the form. It's the part of you that exists on one level of consciousness that has its own existence. You're not conscious of it in a permanent way. When you expand your consciousness to the point where you have a greater access to that particular level, you do become conscious of it. And that's the part that you're that's what you're running around in when you're walking in other levels, other worlds. It just takes a while to um develop the ability to do it on a conscious basis and that involves basically a lot of inner work, a lot of trans work. So that's the deeper level of initiatory magical training that is all part of why we do this whole ripening process so that when you begin inner magical training, it's far more productive. Taking someone who hasn't done anything and throwing them into that intense training can work, but usually has a very high failure rate, which is not really helpful. So we do seeing for a number of reasons. One of them is to open the vision so that when you're doing inner trans work, you're not groping around entirely in the dark. Another thing is because it activates that mechanism and the quickenings do the things that they do. The same thing with ascending. Quickenings do what they do, expanded consciousness. But it also gives you a tool set to um when your mind is running something that you already know how to do, you can always do ascending to bring yourself back. If I wait until uh you just start with inner work and wait till everybody's freaking out and then try to teach someone ascending so that they can have a tool set to center themselves. It's too late. it's backwards from how it should be done, but that's pretty much how everybody does it. Um, so that's why I do it the opposite way. So that's part of the method to the madness is giving you the tool sets so that once those are fully integrated then when you move forward you have ways of dealing with the um the effects of doing inner work because when you take the conscious mind into the unconscious mind and you created that oscillation. The things that you do while you're in there can, will, and should shift outer reality because the inside and the inside are not separate."

The alchemist on inner work.

"So um because the inner work produces these catabolic reactions um which we seek purposefully in order to have the purifications that come from them. When we go through those purifications the burning off can be rather unpleasant. The feeling of it can be unpleasant. that a level of of um philosophical death or full-on philosophical death that lasts for a period of time and then reintegrating the differences. So whatever gets burned off, if you had particular views or patterns or programs around particular things and they're burned out, they're just not even there anymore. So there's a bit of a vacuum or you can experience it as a vacuum and you're not going to have the same reactions or or choose to act about certain things in the same way you did before. People around you are going to notice um because you're going to be noticing and you're only going to notice in hindsight because it's not because you you don't know when you have those catabolic reactions, right? It's not like you can pick and choose. Okay, burn off this part, please. It doesn't work that way. You're going to get what you're going to get what you get. It's going to be related archetypally to the intelligence that you have a catabolic interaction with, but that can still have some pretty cascading ramifications."

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