Tonight’s subject is: “Predestined Glory” In the Epistle to the Hebrews, the author speaks of God as “bringing many sons unto glory.” (Hebrews 2:10) What is “bringing many sons unto glory”? Well, if you read the Scriptures carefully, you will see that glory and God are synonymous, “I will make my glory to pass before you,” or, “While my glory passes by… I will cover you with my hand,” (Exodus 33:22) and, “When I pass by, I will remove my hand.” (Exodus 33:23)

So, here we find “my glory” is equal to I. “My glory passes by,” and “When I pass by…” What is He doing? He is bringing His sons to Himself. He has chosen His sons . . unnumbered sons, and, yet, there is a number to it, but it seems like an infinite number. And the word glory means to magnify, to “make self many.” So, He is transforming us into Himself . . actually one with God, as God. That is the story . . the great mystery of the Christian faith.

He said, “I consider the sufferings of this present time not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed in us.” (Romans 8:18) Then He tells us that He calls us “according to His purpose, for those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be . . “conformed to the image of the Son…” “and those whom He predestined, He also called, and those whom He called, He also justified, and those whom He justified, He also glorified.” (Romans 8:28-30)

So, here we have five terms: “foreknew,” “predestined, “called,” “justified,” and “glorified” . . the affirmation of predestination. And there is no way of interpreting these terms to avoid such a conclusion. You are predestined to be God!

Now, you may say, “Well, now, look at the things that I have done, the horrible things that I have done!” It doesn’t really matter. We have all done them, or we are doing them, or we will do them, but that does not interfere with God’s predestined plan. There we have in five terms the structure of God’s plan of giving Himself to us, not as something that is great on the outside, but giving Himself to us. So, we actually become God!

Now, I know the priesthoods of the world scare us to death trying to make us conform to their concept of what a man ought to be in order to enter into the Kingdom of Heaven. May I tell you, fitness for the Kingdom of Heaven is the consequence, not the condition, of His glory. When He calls you . . and He calls you individually . . you could be the most unclean being in the world, judged by human standards, but God calls us according to His purpose. Now, when He is ready, He’ll take you into His body, for His body is the Eternal Temple, now made up of living stones . . not dead stones, and only God knows that you are not fitted, but you are fitted by reason of His call. When He calls you, He incorporates you into His body, and that incorporation fits you for the Kingdom of Heaven! So, fitness is the consequence, not the condition, of His glory.

Now, let me share with you my own experience of the Call. It was this month back in 1929. I was then a dancer. I was 24 years of age, searching . . searching for an experience of God. If anyone went into blind alleys looking, I did. I tried everything, trying to find Him. No, I didn’t try dope; I didn’t smoke marijuana. No, I didn’t go in for that. First of all, I couldn’t afford liquor, and Prohibition was on in those days, and I wasn’t in the habit of drinking. I couldn’t afford it, and there was no liquor around unless you went to some expensive speak-easy. Well, I couldn’t afford it. But I was searching for God. I thought maybe a certain diet, like a strict vegetarian . . maybe that would do it. I tried that.

When I was 24, I went to sleep perfectly normally, as I do today, and during the night I was taken in Spirit into the Divine Assembly, and I was taken into the presence of a Recording Angel. And here sat this heavenly being . . a desk at a slant, with a huge ledger open before her, with a quill pen. She said nothing. I said nothing. I was simply taken in Spirit. I had no control of the action; it was all automatic. I stood at her side . . at her left side. She turned, and she looked me in the eye . . turned her left face and just looked at me. Then she turned back to the ledger, and wrote something or checked something in that ledger.

Then I was taken into the presence of the Risen Lord . . Infinite Love . . Man. Yes . . Man! And here is the “Ancient of Days” . . not an old man . . but a man without beginning, without end . . an Eternal Being . . all Love. All I can say of this one: He is the “Ancient of Days.” And he asked me to name the greatest thing in the world, and I replied with the words of Paul, automatically as though I were prompted. I didn’t stop for one second to think. I just simply automatically used the words of Paul: “Faith, hope and love, these three, but the greatest of these is love.” (I Corinthians 13:13) At that moment, He embraced me. At the moment of our embrace, our bodies fused, and I became one with the body of the spirit of the Risen Lord.

Until you experience it, you will never know such infinite love . . just love, sheer love. And while I am embraced by Infinite Being, who is all Love, a voice rang out . . out of the blue, and it said, “Down with the bluebloods.” At that moment, I found myself in the presence of Almighty Power . . Man. Yes, it’s a man! Not the Ancient of Days . . the face differed now, and here is Almighty Power, but a man, and without using his vocal cords, without using his lips, I heard what he thought. He commanded me, without using words by the use of lips, and I heard within me that which he thought, and he said to me, “Time to act.” And with that, I was simply propelled . . catapulted out of that Divine Assembly back into this little body that was reclining on its bed, about 4:00 in the morning in the month of July of 1929. From that moment on, things began to happen within me. I had no idea what it meant to act. But he said, “Time to act,” and then within me things began to unfold.

Everyone will be called. Everyone will be incorporated into this one body, for “There is only one body, one spirit, one Lord, one God and Father of all.” (Ephesians 4:4-6) Each will be called in his own good order. No one can tell me that he feels himself fit for the Kingdom of Heaven. There is not one man in the world . . by man, I mean generic man . . that thinks himself so good that he thinks he is worthy of it. No one can tell me honestly he thinks himself worthy of it. So, forget it when someone tries to scare you into believing you’ve got to make an effort beyond the effort that you have made in order to qualify for the Kingdom, for fitness is the consequence, not the condition, of His glory. When He fuses us, He has already made the choice at the beginning. “Before the foundation of the world, He chose us in Him” (Ephesians 1:4) . . then sending us into this world of horror. This is a world of horror, a world of death, and we pass through all the furnaces of experience in this world, and while we are in it, we are called. At the very moment of being called, the embrace purifies you . . at that very moment. Now, the body of flesh and blood cannot inherit the Kingdom of Heaven, so I was not in this body when I stood before His presence. I was in a spirit body, but I was conscious of being Neville. I was conscious of being all that, as a man called “Neville,” I thought I had done. I wasn’t proud of my 24 years on this earth. I had done many things of which I was ashamed, and yet, in spite of all the things I had done in 24 years, He still called me, for at that moment in time that one stone was necessary. He is rebuilding His temple. The temple has been shattered purposely, deliberately, and we are the fragmented parts of that temple. And the parts go through all the furnaces of experience in this world, and He knows exactly what stone He wants now, at this moment. And He calls that stone. It’s a person . . it’s you! And He is calling you to glorify you, but He glorifies you with Himself.

So, here are the five terms: “Those whom he foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His son, and those whom He predestined, He also called and those whom He called, He justified, and those whom He justified, He glorified.” (Romans 8:28-30) Justification is the Divine Acquittal. Whatever I did in all ages that passed between that moment when I fell with God . . for He brought us all into one body, and one body fell and fragmented itself into the unnumbered races and nations in the world.

Now, He calls us, one by one, and when you are called, though unfit, He justifies you; and justifying you is simply Divine Acquittal. You are acquitted of all the things that you have ever done. Then comes glorification, and glorification is the gift of Himself to you. You become one with God . . because there aren’t two gods; you are God, though you remain in the little garment of flesh for a while. You remain in this little garment of flesh . . still weak, still limited, with all the limitations of the flesh, until that moment in time when He takes it off for the last time, and you awake then as God, without loss of identity.

So, let no one scare you that you are not fitted for the Kingdom of Heaven. That choice has already been made, “You were chosen in Him before the foundation of the world,” (Ephesians 1:4) and you are sent out and told that you are going to suffer. Read it in the book of Genesis, You will go into a land . . a strange land, and you will be enslaved there . . enslaved for “four hundred years” . . not four hundred years as you and I measure time. This cross of flesh [indicating the physical body] is “four hundred,” for four hundred is simply the numerical value of the last letter of the Hebrew alphabet, whose symbol is that of a cross, It is the taw, the 22nd letter, and this is the cross on which God is crucified, and you suffer while you wear the body of flesh and blood. We are enslaved by the body that we wear.

No matter what you own in this world . . if you owned the whole vast world, and all were your slaves, you could not command one slave in your world to eat for you and assimilate for you. You have to eat, assimilate and eliminate for yourself. You are a slave of the body that you wear, and you will wear it for the “four hundred years,” until that moment in time when you are called.

Now, when you are called, you are incorporated into the Body of Love. From then on, you “taste of the powers of the age to come.” (Hebrews 6:5 RSV1) The powers are so fantastic; nothing known to mortal mind compares with the power that is yours to be exercised after you are called. And then the body comes off for the last time. But you could not exercise this power until you are first incorporated into the Body of Love. For, if you had this power, minus Love, you could destroy the universe!

Nothing in the world compares with this power. You could stop the whole vast world, and make time stand still, then change the motivation of these slaves on earth, and make them do your will, and it would be the most horrible will in the world. But you wouldn’t after you were incorporated into the Body of Love; your every motive, then, is governed by Love.

So, first comes the call. Predestined, yes, foreknowledge, yes, before you are called, and He predestined. But now comes the break, and now He calls. And He calls us, one by one, to be incorporated into His own Being, the one Spirit. For, he who is united to the Lord becomes one spirit with Him, So, in the end, you and I, without loss of identity . . we are God Himself! This is the Glory of which I speak. This is the glory that was foretold in Scripture, the greatest book in the world, and the most misunderstood book in the world. It is all about you.

So, we are told, “And the Lord will rise upon you, and the Lord will be seen upon you, and His glory will be seen upon you.” (Isaiah 60:1, 2 RSV)

His glory is Himself. And I am telling you from my own experience, we will be seen by others, and be identified by others as God Himself! And, yet, the friend of the one who sees you . . they will stand amazed, knowing you as their friend, and yet they cannot deny what they now see. They will see you as God Himself, and there will be no uncertainty in their minds when they see you as God Himself . . a face raised to the nth degree of beauty and majesty and character beyond the wildest dream of anything on earth. And, yet, you are God, and they will know it. The day you wear the actual Body of Love . . anyone who sees that will see the most glorious sight in the world.

But the glory of which the Bible speaks is God Himself. “For I will make my glory to pass by; when my glory passes by, I will cover you with my hand.” (Exodus 33:22) And then I pass by. So, the I is equal to “my glory.” “Though you will not see my face, you will see my back, when I pass by.” Why? Because, “Only the Son knows who the Father is.” (Luke 10:22) So, when Paul speaks of this revelation, he speaks of it in the text that “when it pleased God to reveal His son in me.”

When He reveals His son in me, He reveals me as Himself, because “No one knows who the Father is except the Son, and no one knows who the Son is except the Father.” (Luke 10:22)

And, so, no one has ever seen God, but the only Son who is in the bosom of the Father, he has made him known, for it takes the Son to reveal me. When God’s son stands before you and calls you “Father,” then you know who you are. And that son is David. “I will tell of the decree of the Lord, and He said unto me, ‘Thou art my son. Today I have begotten thee.’”

And the Lord is Jesus Christ Himself, let no one tell you otherwise. They will tell you, but don’t believe them. Jesus Christ is God the Father! And David is the sum total of all the experiences that man has ever had in this world. Take all the generations of men and all their experiences, and fuse them all into a single state. The state personified comes out as God’s son, and that is His anointed one called “David.”

And David said, “I will tell of the decree of the Lord. He said unto me, ‘thou art my son. Today I have begotten thee.’” He stands before you, and from then on, you know the Eternal Son, and the job, so far as you are concerned, is over.

Now you will understand the words, “Return unto me the glory that is mine, the glory that I had with thee before that the world was. Father, glorify thou me with thine own self, for I have accomplished the work thou gavest me to do.”

What work did He give me to do? What work did He give you to do? Well, in the world of Caesar, I have been a dancer, I’ve run an elevator for Macy’s, I’ve filled bins for J. C. Penney; I did all kinds of things. And, then, in 1938 I started telling this story, and I haven’t stopped since then, but before 1938 I had many jobs. But they are unimportant . . it doesn’t really matter. The only thing that man has come to do, and must accomplish, is to fulfill the Word of God. And don’t be concerned . . you are going to fulfill it, for the simple reason, God fulfills it in you. He has completed it, and He’s buried in you. The whole thing is brought to a climax already. It’s assured. You cannot fail. No one, in eternity, can fail, because it already has been brought to its climax, and it’s finished.

“I have accomplished the work Thou gavest me to do.” Now, the One who made that proclamation is buried in us. He is the Pattern Man buried in every man, and that pattern will unfold in man, and everyone will be the Lord Jesus Christ. And the Lord Jesus Christ is God the Father! There is no other “God the Father.”

The day will come, you will know it . . you will experience it. And what you know from experience, you know more thoroughly than you know anything else. I can tell you now that you will do it, and I trust you will believe me. I can’t persuade you to the point of conviction, but when you have it, it doesn’t matter what the whole vast world will say. The whole world could rise in opposition . . it would make no difference to you, for the evidence has already been given to you.

“And so, when it pleased God,” Paul said, “to reveal His Son in me, I conferred not with flesh and blood.” (Galatians 1:16) What man still in the consciousness of being a man of flesh and blood could in any way illuminate it for me? How could he analyze it for me? He would tell you, maybe, that you are suffering from some hallucination.

But the great poet saw it so clearly. Robert Browning, in a poem called “Saul” . . as you know, in Scripture Saul was demented; he was insane. He was the choice of man for a king. Israel said they wanted a king, and then the Lord said unto the Prophet Samuel, Warn them as to the result of wanting a king, that he will enslave them; that he will simply take from them their sons and their daughters and everything, and their money, to keep his kingdom going. But Israel wanted to be like other races and other nations, and she insisted on a king, so Israel selected Saul because of his outer appearance. He was tall and handsome and strong. So, they got exactly what they wanted . . a king. He was insane. He was rejected, and the Lord picked David in his place, and anointed David. And so, from that moment on, the Spirit of God came mightily upon David and never left him, for David was the choice of God, and Saul was the choice of man.

Now, this poem called “Saul” is based upon the 16th chapter of I Samuel, where David is explaining to the demented king the meaning of Messiah and the coming of Messiah. And these are the words of the poet Browning. David stands before Saul, and David makes the statement:

“O Saul, it shall be

A Face like my face that receives thee; a Man like to me, Thou shalt love and be loved by, forever: a Hand like this hand Shall throw open the gates of new life to thee!

See the Christ stand!”

They called Saul. Here, David stands before the demented king who does not recognize his own son, for you would have to be suffering from amnesia not to know your own son. So, he stands before him and tells him a prophecy and declares, “A Face like my face shall receive thee.” What is “my face”? Then he tells him:

“…a Man like to me,

Thou shalt love and be loved by, forever; a Hand like this hand Shall throw open the gates of new life to thee!”

Now, said he, “See the Christ stand!”

He was the Anointed One. David was the one whom the Lord anointed. He said, “That is he. Rise and anoint him.” (I Samuel 16:12) And from that moment on, the Spirit of God never left David.

David is the sum total of all the generations of man and all their experiences fused into a single being and personified. And that is the resultant state of our experiences in this world of sin and death.

So, really, in the end, there is only God. And God is Jesus Christ. There is no other God. So, let no one scare you. Your salvation has already been predestined. You are already redeemed because you have already been predestined. Predestined glory, and glory is nothing more than the magnifying . . “making Self many.” So, each becomes the Face of God, everyone knowing that he is God, and everyone knowing that the other . . his brother . . is God. And there is nothing but God!

So, God is made up of the brotherhood behind all the masks . . whether they be male or female . . is the brother, and that brother is God. We are the sons of God that God redeemed and brought to glory. “He is bringing many sons to glory,” as we are told in the 2nd chapter of the book of Hebrews: bringing us all to glory, and glory is Himself. So, He is bringing us all to be one with Himself, because there cannot be two Gods . . only the one God. And, so, you are destined to be that God!

I can’t tell you the thrill that is in store for you the night that it happens. And when it comes, it comes so suddenly –as told you in Scripture, “just like a thief in the night.” (I Thessalonians 5:2) No preparation for it! You go to bed feeling just the normal person that you are; not overly proud of what you have done, not ashamed beyond measure, but you wish it was a better sort of a day. You wish you hadn’t entertained the thoughts you did that day, but in spite of your uncleanliness in your own eyes, and maybe even in the eyes of others, it was the moment in time that was ripe, and God chose you at that moment in time.

So, He chose us. We didn’t choose ourselves. He calls us when that stone is ready to be inserted into the Body of the Living Temple. But while we are here in this world, to cushion the blows . . and only to cushion the blows . . He has given us a Law. And the Law is simple . . very simple. And the Law is:

IMAGINING CREATES REALITY.

It’s a simple, simple law. These are my words, but I only take them from Scripture . . based upon Scriptural words, “Whatever you desire, believe that you have, and you shall.” (Mark 11:24) So, putting it into my words, I say, “Therefore, imagining creates reality.”

I have to imagine. So, if I imagine now that I AM what, at the moment that I imagine it, reason denies and my senses deny . . if the Scripture is true and I persist in that imaginal state, it shall become a fact. Well, having tried it . . and it works . . I share that knowledge with others.

Know what you want. Try not to hurt another. It doesn’t really matter about others. Others will aid you in the birth of that assumption.

So, you assume that you are the man that you want to be, though at the moment of your assumption, reason denies it and your senses deny it. But you dare to assume it and persist in that assumption, and your assumption, though false, if persisted in, will harden into fact.

So, you cushion the blows in this world while you wait for the Call. But the Call will come. You can’t rush it. Everything comes in time. We are all called according to His purpose, and when the stone that you represent is ready in His eyes . . not because of your fitness, but because that is the time for it to be incorporated into the Body of the Risen Lord, you will be called. And you will tell the story that I am telling. And you will have the same reception: some will believe you, and some will disbelieve you. Don’t stop to persuade those who disbelieve you. Encourage those who do, that they too may be called. On the other hand, you can’t promise them that tonight will be the night or tomorrow night. “No one knows the hour” (Matthew 25:13) . . only the Father.

So, they will be called in the Father’s good time. But you can tell everyone they will be called. I can tell that to a Hitler, if he stood before me with his hands dripping in blood, as they are. If I told it to a Stalin, who was a monster on earth, “You will be called,” I am not sanctifying or justifying his behavior as a man . . no. But I can say that the Being behind the mask that is a Stalin, that is a Hitler, is God, and in the end, God forgives all. He said, “Father, forgive them. They know not what they do.” (Luke 23:34)

But you, knowing now what you do know . . you can play this game beautifully, all in love. All you do is follow the Golden Rule: “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” (Luke 6:31) You can’t go wrong! You can’t go wrong. If anyone asks you to hear that someone is dead that he may get their estate, that is not what you want done to you, therefore you would not accept that request. “Go elsewhere, but don’t come to me.” But if they ask you to help them hear that they have a fortune, or that they are secure, or that they are contributing to the world’s good, believe them, because I would like to do those things myself. Who wouldn’t want to be secure? Who wouldn’t want to feel that he contributes to the good of his environment? To the good of his country? Anyone wants to feel that. Therefore, if the request was along that line, believe it when you hear it. So, dare to assume that they have what they now request, and if you persist in that assumption, they will get it. You don’t have to concern yourself as to how they are going to get it.

A friend of mine wrote me concerning my book, “Feeling Is The Secret,” that we never get what we want, we only get what we are. Well, he knows if he reads the book carefully that you can make what you want what you are, by an assumption. I start with a want. Yes, I want to be. By the mere saying that I want to be, I am confessing that I am not. Well, if I dare to assume that I AM what reason tells me that I am not until that wanting ceases to be, because I feel that I AM it . . before I have the evidence to testify and to bear witness to it, I must precede it by an assumption that I AM it.

When you know what you want, you are told in Scripture, “Believe that you have received it, and you will.” That follows your daring mood to believe that you are what, at the moment, reason denies that you are. So, I would not go back on what I have said in that book. I maintain, I’ve said it correctly; that you do not get what you want, only what you are. Through what you want to be, you can live to be what you are. Assuming it long before there is evidence to support that assumption, then the evidence will come like the fruit coming out of a tree. If you do not know the nature of the tree, wait until the tree is bearing, and when it bears, all arguments vanish, for the fruit will tell you what the tree is. So, all of a sudden, things will happen, based upon what you are.

You don’t have to will it. No, people are always trying to will things into being. It is not done willfully, nor even carefully. People gather around themselves everything, and they call themselves “careful operators” . . taking advantage of. No! It is simply the core of integrity. You come right down to: Am I really that? Am I really serious? Well, if I am serious, I should see it all day long as I walk the earth.

My friends know me as I AM now. Any change in me, they will see the change; they will hear it through the grapevine, if suddenly something happens to Neville. Whatever happens, one friend will tell another friend, and the other will tell another, and then finally they all will become aware of changes in me.

Well, now, let the change take place in me first, that I may see them in my mind’s eye. Today I see my wife. She knows all the things that are taking place in me. Any change in me, she observes it. A change in my fortunes, she knows it. If the bank deposit goes down, she knows it . . she keeps the books.

If it goes up, she knows that. If I get a big dividend check one year, she knows it. If the next year, they perhaps don’t give a check . . they simply pass it, she knows it. So, anything that happens to me so far as my fortunes go, she knows it. Now, would I like to change that and see it tripled? Well, assume that it already has been deposited and is tripled. Well, now, let me think of my wife. Wouldn’t she see it in me? Wouldn’t she know it? Certainly, she would. Well, I assume that she knows it. I let her see me as she would have to see me if it were true. And, so, another feeling.

Now, in the course of a day, am I going to go back on that? I think of her whether she is physically present, or if she is absent, I think of her. So, when I think of her, would she see me in that change? She would. Well, then, let me be constant in myself. Let me be constant to that change in me until it becomes the very core of integrity. I am faithful to that change in me, and I use her, and use my friends, as the barometer to register the changes that I have tried to produce in myself. So, if I produce them, they would reflect it. If they are not reflected, I have not succeeded in producing in me the necessary change.

If I succeed in producing the change in me, they should reflect it. So, I will not go back on what I have said: You don’t get what you want . . you get what you are. But take what you want and make it what you are. Let go of what the present state is, and put that in its place as a substitution.

It’s called in Scripture . . I call it revision, but Scripture speaks of it as repentance; but unfortunately the word repentance has been misused. It originally meant, and still does mean, what the ancients intended that it should mean. Originally it meant a radical change of mind. It wasn’t remorse. You don’t go down and be remorseful and regretful. That has not a thing to do with the word repent. Repentance is a radical change of attitude towards yourself, towards the world, and to the degree that you succeed in changing that attitude towards yourself, and therefore the world . . to that degree, the world will change to reflect that . . all taking place within you.

So, you make what-you-want what-you-are come now and then into a sense of being, for whatever I AM, I am going to raise it. I am going to expel it into my world.

So, here, you are predestined to be glorified, and when you are glorified, it is because God at that moment of glorification has succeeded in giving you Himself. That is why we are told in Scripture, “The law came through Moses, but grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.” (John 1:17)

Grace is God’s unmerited, unearned gift of Himself to you. That’s Grace. You don’t earn it, and you certainly do not merit it. It is God’s unmerited gift of Himself to you. So, Grace comes through Jesus Christ. And the Truth comes through Jesus Christ. We talked a bit last night about Truth. Truth: He said, “I AM the truth, I AM the way, I AM the life.” (John 14:6) He is the Pattern Man.

So, when Paul writes his letter to Timothy, he says, “Hold fast to the pattern of true words which you have heard from me.” (II Timothy 1:13, RSV) I have given you the pattern of the true words. Now, read his letters, because they came first in the Bible. They preceded the Gospels . . preceded everything else in the New Testament. They came first by twenty-five or thirty years. He tells us to hold onto these patterns “that I have given you.” There is no other pattern. There is no other way to the Father, other than this pattern “that I have given you.” Now, read it carefully, and you will find the pattern.

When it unfolds in you, you ask yourself: Who is Paul? Just who is he? He is named in Scripture, but he is not named in any book of the First Century outside of the Bible. Well, how could a person like Paul go through all that he claimed that he did? He was imprisoned in Rome . . imprisoned in all these places all through the Near East, and yet there is no record of his imprisonment . . not any record outside of the Bible! If he was imprisoned, and we take it literally, then the record ought to be there, for these records were kept. Yet his name is not mentioned in one book in the First Century outside of the Bible. So, who is Paul? He is you!

He was first named Saul. When that amnesia fades and then memory returns, you are God! God is a father, and as a father, He has a son, and His son is David of Scripture. So, when memory returns, you recognize your son, and you don’t have to ask him, “Whose son are you, young man?”

You see, his first name was Saul, of the same tribe of Benjamin, a descendant of Abraham, the same identical descent and background of Saul the king in the Old Testament is that of Paul in the New. They name him, but the name has changed now. A radical change took place in him from Saul . . from asking, for Saul means “to ask.” [Saul asks David, “Whose son are you?”] So, if I put my daughter before me or my son before me and ask them, “Tell me, whose children are you? I can’t remember.” Well, am I not insane? Am I not suffering from amnesia?

So, Saul looked into the face of the Only Begotten Son . . and he is supposed to be the king, and he doesn’t recognize his son. He can’t, because his name is Saul. Now, his name is transferred from Saul to Paul, and Paul knows the Son. “And it pleased God to reveal His Son in me, and I conferred not with flesh and blood.” (Galatians 1:16)

So, we all pass through the identical pattern, and the pattern will come to you, and suddenly when it appears, may I tell you, it’s like something coming out of the blue. And there is no uncertainty as to the relationship between you . . the Father, and the Son . . who is David. And the Son sets you free. You are told, “You are free indeed,” (John 8:33) for he has promised to set the father free . . the father of the one who destroyed the enemy of Israel. And David destroyed the enemy, the Philistine giant, Goliath. And having destroyed him, the king is looking for his father, and he asks him, “Whose son are you, young man?” because the king did not know his own son, therefore, he is still waiting . . waiting . . waiting.

When the king’s mind returns, he is no longer Saul, his name is Paul. And then Paul recognizes the Son. “And it pleased the Father to reveal His son in me, and from that moment on, I conferred not with flesh and blood.” (Galatians 1:16) What man on the face of this earth would I go to, and ask him to explain to me the meaning of this experience of mine when David called me “Father”?

If I went to the most outstanding psychiatrist, psychologist . . call him by any name in this world, he wouldn’t understand it. What on earth would they know about this mystery of Christianity when, to them, everything is sex? They will tell you, you are simply disturbed sexually, or something, because that is all they have put it on, the Freudian concepts of life . . some sex complex. It hasn’t a thing to do with sex. It is the vision returning, and suddenly memory returns, and there is no uncertainty as to the relationship between you, the Father, and the Son who calls you “Father.”

All you can do, then, is simply go and tell it, and try to change somewhat the prefabricated misconceptions of Scripture. For the whole vast world . . if you are a Christian, as I was born and raised one . . I was taught to believe that Jesus was the Son. My Mother never taught me that Jesus was the Father! When I went to school, they never taught me that Jesus Christ was God the Father. It happened, and when it happened, I knew it, because in Scripture, David calls him, “my lord.” David calls him, “my Father.” “If David calls him, “my Father, how, then, could he be David’s son?” (Matthew 22:45)

So, here is the story. He unfolds within you, and the whole thing is contained within you. It was God’s purpose in the beginning to give Himself to you, as though there were no others in the world . . just you and God, and then eventually, only God . . and God is you!

Just before I came up, a friend of mine who has a wonderful incurrent eye . . an incurrent eye is the eye that actually sees inward in to the world of thought, into Eternity. And that eye is ever expanding within the bosom of God. So, an incurrent state is that which gives passage to a current flowing inward, like a sponge giving passage to a current flowing inward. And she said, “I came in vision into a place and I wanted to borrow some money. It was like a loan company. And I went in to the owner, who was also Chairman of the Board. I went to the door, and as I came through the door, there you stood behind the desk. All the papers on the desk, and you were the owner and the Chairman of the Board. And I became almost hysterical, because I knew that whatever I asked of you would be granted. You were Infinite Love, and granted every request ever made of you. No collateral . . just ask. And I said, ‘He is a victim of his own love,’ to myself I said it, not to you. I looked at you, and I knew you would not say ‘No’ to my request, no matter how fabulous it was. I also knew that you were a victim of your own love. When I went out from where I saw you in the role of Love, I met a woman who was distraught and she was downcast, and she was at her very wits’ end. She had tried every place in the world to get a loan, and was turned down. And here she came. Her last resort was to come here, and I smiled to myself because I knew she was going to go through that door and she would get it, and then I woke.”

Well, that is the God-in-you. He grants every wish that you ask. But when you ask, ask believing. If you ask believing, you will get it. As we told you last night, when you ask believing, it’s nothing more than the subjective appropriation of the objective hope. What do I wish for as an objective fact? Well, the subjective appropriation of the objective hope is prayer. And it never fails you!

So, tonight when you go out, go in the deep conviction that you are predestined to be glorified, and know that the glorification of which the Bible speaks is God’s gift of Himself to you. He doesn’t give you His son as a companion. He gives you His son by giving Himself to you. For if you are God, and God is a father, I must be the father of God’s son! So, God gives me His son as my son, and in that way, I know I AM He.

So, I am told, “Unless you believe that I AM He, you will die in your sins.” (John 8:24) And you will know it, and won’t have reason even to believe it, because you have an assured “I know” after the experience.

Now, let us go into the Silence."

 

Maybe I should have dedicated links to pages with each of the raw text lectures and then add snippets here because I don't want to add anything that's not necessary to the notebook. This isn't an archive this is my notes on what I'm reading. 

 

9/6/25

Alright screw this I'm just going to speedrun more NG lectures and satisfy this movement too. I keep getting this come up as an opportunity but I've been holding back these last few days, considering I've spent so many hours almost every day for this last 2 years now pretty much It's been just constant grinding to go deeper and deeper.

I need to have a lift of all the lectures he ever did and have a checkbox on each one because I'm already losing track. 

 

11/6/25

I've had this idea for a few days now. I believe I'm beginning to feel into a new sense. I call this the "ignorance sense" for lack of a better term. It's not awareness as in how much of your unconscious you're aware of nor is it intuitive sense, though it can relate of course. It's a more compressed form of contextual sense in a specific direction. This is what I consider the sense that you touch into when you also "let go" to a certain extent as in feeling "free" from a boundary you held onto before. It's almost as though you'll willingly let go of responsibility to God, natural striving, and exit the self purifying process. I really can't describe this any other way but you've likely heard me talking about how you can leave natural striving before and I even said that in my video. There seems to be something to this, to an extent at least. It's like you're condensing contextual sense (which is the anchored environment your beliefs navigate and forms "context" for them to you) to allow you to accept your lustful desires in this world instead of partaking on the process of purifying not self and so you'll basically be blue-pilling yourself in a way with this. I find that this is something I can find myself occasionally slipping into, wanting to leave the responsibility of this world and I actually have things show up that I'd never expect otherwise, like it's almost testing me to see if I'm actually going all the way or not but instead of throwing me under further pressure it seems it's that I'm being thrown a bone if I commit to leaving the purifying process of natural striving. We all have this seeming option available to us.

I wondered why Anglo culture continues to erode and peoples lives getting worse despite it being so obvious and I more or less see it as this sense being activated, as in an avoidance that doesn't hurt because it is the ignorant sense of detachment from responsibility itself, like you're almost distant from even recognizing that as a factor. 

 

Finding the balance between working on destroying modern manifestation mentalism LOA trash and working on other stuff that's arguably more important is seriously challenging because it's like I'm pulled towards both many times over the day. Stability of movement seems to be something you can't force naturally, the balance between them IS the stability. I've got like 5 different projects going at once and none of them ever get done because I get an idea to write down something important in my mind that comes up then I get lost on a research path on some question I forgot about for months only to realize 3 hours passed and I didn't even get done what's necessary. When you spend time in dynamic gazing whenever you're not busy you feel that contrast of awareness and being more stable in movements. I want to physically push limits beyond even my peak when I was 18 or so and utterly surpass the old me and own that part that brings ultimate satisfaction (arguably more than working on RS because of how I'm built but expressing myself through movement has ultimately always been my primary source of nourishment and vitality) and the only real way I can do that is to almost forget about doing this work. You really can't get to that level unless you LIVE and BREATHE dynamism in movement MULTIPLE times a day. I know what this is like, and how I even got to the level of power I was at back in 2017 because I was so dynamic with how I spent energy. I was EXTREMELY bursty, probably more than anyone else but a few who could beat me at track, despite NEVER training. I just bolted around everywhere and FELT fast as lightning. Got called Mach 2 for a reason as a name whenever people would ask me to pull of some tricks for them on the spot because that was how I was often known by people younger in earlier grades than me. Mach 2, wushu legend. That version of me feels WAY more satisfied JUST BEACUSE I EXIST than RS working version of me. Truly. It's like the balance between these 2 sides of me needs to find balance. How? I mean I've spent well over half of almost every day for the last few years now dedicated to this study just to complete this work and while I've completed a LOT I still feel there's more. There's a sense of completion but it's not done yet until I've exhausted everything that NG wrote and spoke for deep insights JUST TO UTTERLY DESTROY 110% the mentalism idea that's based on his stuff. My latest video has presented most of those ideas already so it's out there, though I lost many subs from that vid which was expected but it's whatever. I make almost nothing from RS.com these last few months because new clients are drying up fast except those who I've been working with long term and supporting myself is becoming a concern once again, though I always have money show up when I need it in other ways anyway to keep me going. Preaching to the quire is VERY profitable but not authentic. I cannot be satisfied in that, not unless I abandon my inner truth as I partially did before. Balance. Personal vitality cultivation and working on RS and doing the more advanced processes and testing this stuff personally all takes up so much of my "contextual capacity" if we wish where one aspect almost removes the conscious awareness of the others and you almost get lost in that view orientation and the balance is just depleted. Is this because of a lack of space? I do not know, but I know that I have work to do in refining my personal direction. This has become far more conscious ever since I uploaded that last vid, as though I've finally satisfied that movement and now I can have new layers to work with. I swear every day I do extended gazing I get new insights. More 3rd eye pulses every day. It's just constant. Constant breaking down and reforming. It is suffering on one level and on another it's incredibly satisfying when you go through it all. That's just how this works. I'd not trade this life for the ignorant life the normies live who are rich and have all the 10/10's in their lives. I just don't care, that's not me. Being myself is all that matters as that's where ripeness unfolds leading towards completing the great work, the very function of your existence here now reading this. Every day our native Anglo culture is destroyed by Jewish elites more and more and more, collective availability of vitality depletes, birth rates of our people freefall for various reasons and aliens show up on the streets to take our place. Seeing this happening adds that extra layer of bitterness to the matrix. Is that a negative view? No. I see this all as necessary to integrate fully and navigate clearly which compared to back in 2018 has become SIGNIFICANTLY clearer. Integrating all these seemingly contrasting views that seem impossible to reconcile has been the real challenge of my life it seems, and that's seen in RS on all levels I've studied. That's my talent, finding ways to reconcile seemingly impossible points and integrate a new understanding that can come out of this interaction. It just takes decades, though exponential in depth. The first 5-6 years were the slowest and less brutal and then after school it got grueling. Bring it on I say. Nothing has caused roadblocks so far, even if it took years to integrate and understand something. If I am not the one who completes all the work that's necessary then I'm aiding my greater process anyway so it's fine. No matter what, you're always making progress towards higher order on every iteration of existence. You cannot fail. That last lecture that I posted here from NG actually has that as a core theme too. The experience itself qualifies you, because it is the integrative nature of natural striving that operates non linearly in ways we don't always understand but are correct in if we accept that. Justified by faith, faith in the unseen, the intuitive sense, the subconscious reality, the interface we have with the perfect proportionate field geometry template which we unfold through purifying and integrating our components in experiences under pressure. That's what this is doing. It's profound when you really think about it. You cannot fail at life. Seedline doctrine would have me think that the aliens cannot be saved, and to some extent perhaps that's still true, though perhaps it's more or less that their natural striving is a totally different orientation to us more civilized types. The alchemist says that your perfect proportionate aetheric template you see when you do advanced gazing is similar in look to other iterations. This to me would assume that it's racially similar, though he also said that you've existed on levels on a blood level that go beyond genetic lineage. I've personally not experienced this in my advanced gazing with the things that I see, all I ever see are iterations of myself as I am now with slight shifts. Reconciling these points seems to work simply through seeing that if alchemical transformation is truly universal and transcends genetic lineage then the means and operation by which that unfolds could perhaps be different based on the genetic baseline. I really don't want to claim that the aliens are at a lower degree of evolution spiritually when it comes to this work but considering that performing alchemical transformation requires an understanding that's beyond that of beasts I simply cannot see how that's 100% true because those systems don't really exist. Natural striving for them is different it seems. How different and to what end? Well it would just be a less academic form of experience. That's just different, and I recognize that casting baseless judgements is only hurting myself, though viewing things as objectively as possible I don't see how they have a working model of practical lab alchemy. Only the hermetic and daoist systems as far as I know have working models for practical alchemy. That's also no surprise that these cultures are the most intelligent on earth. Journeying seems to be the way these other cultures elevate subconscious capacity, which we also have affinity for as well in theurgy, which is the same thing effectively anyway. So in that case why can we not call things for what they are and recognize that there ARE superior ways? Is that seriously a negative thing to say? They're not me, I'm not them, we have no connection unless we're designed to have that on a trajectory level for work that must be done. Other than these situations that are pre-determined for functions beyond our control I see the traditions of our people to be VASTLY superior in every objectively measurable way. Accepting such and not running from what's clearly observable is part of dissolving the illusion of actual separation and distinction between traditions and how those traditions are effectively IN the blood. It matters, it's a factor, so why not explore and understand it? Integrating such for me is necessary based on my inner truth, and I've done that for the most part. Facing the fire on every level I know is necessary. When I studied seedline doctrine extensively I had TONS of 3rd eye pulses just like I do recently when doing the deeper NG study. That's for a reason, and I will stand by that truth no matter the backlash. It will not ALL be available for obvious reasons as much of that is simply too hard for most to handle but it's just how it is. The LOA stuff I've destroyed in itself is a lot for most to handle anyway only a small handful of people who watch my stuff even understand it properly anyway so. Those who need it will get what they need out of it. That's what this is really for. This isn't really even for me as much as it is to serve a collective function of providing a complete system or platform to further expand on. 

I will just say this to end this session. Being masculine means eliminating threats to the safety of our people. ELIMINATING THREATS means simply dealing with the OBVIOUS problems that exist. If you see them then you see them for a reason. This is NOT for everyone to partake in, despite having that capacity, but those who are called for such and feel that striving must play their roles. Things will continue to get worse until that shifts. The FOOLS who say that this is not for the individual to partake in obviously don't see how evolutionary mechanics work. It doesn't matter what the experience is, if natural striving signifies a movement and orientation to be experienced to integrate components by going through pressure then that's needed. Theoretically this CAN be done without physical action if you can target an inner experience which provides that same theme to the same depth of integration but that's not something that's easily done without already having a solid foundation to work with surrounding that to support that. If aliens are invading your people then deal with the problem so you don't have to needlessly suffer from ignoring it as it gets worse and worse until you can't ignore it anymore. That's why I say to EVERYBODY who says I'm making something up that's unnecessary, that it doesn't impact them, yet. That's why it's not visible. This same mechanism works on every level, the self correcting mechanism. Until it's all been dealt with then it will not go away, that lesson that continues to come up will not be resolved. This IS the collective lesson of our people. Who are we? What is our identity as people of Anglo culture? What defines our nature? Identity defines morals and those define culture. Identity and availability are the foundations of successful civilizations. That's what's under attack. Live in your own world until you can't. Those who have purpose there will perform their functions, no matter how big or small. Seedline doctrine is valid, for a reason. There's levels to both interpretations and area where they overlap, though the alchemical; bible doctrine in a vacuum as far as I know doesn't explain why we have the collective experience we do. The alchemist hasn't picked this up yet fully it seems yet, else he's not talked about it yet as far as I'm aware. I do know he was very critical of theosophy for having certain views on different racial characters that existed for different functions (obviously that's not correct anyway) but his views on the very idea of Anglo culture being superior in any way and the critical view on the events in the past with Germany give me all I need to know about that view and where he's at with that. This is why I say as always that nobody can provide the complete truth because everybody needs to see different things, it's just that I seem to be oriented to see truth in literally EVERYTHING and that's an EXTREME burden and yet also a blessing too. Is there anyone else who's done this level of study on such a diverse set of subjects on different levels? Not even close as far as I know. Being 25 and having done this work blows my mind still. I lose more than I gain in this world from having such views, because this is the punished view currently, though if we go back a century that would be very different. Peoples attitudes towards these subjects over history changes drastically, and for reasons that aren't often obvious. If you're not moved to see that then you won't, and you're still incorrect objectively for denying such a view, People who say that being incorrect is a valid view objectively speaking are insanely illiterate. You can't stretch what defines facts through a subjective reasoning model of subjective synthesis. The collective trajectory exists for a reason as it does and our view of that on different levels is necessary for our personal process through that environment but the environment itself is driven towards certain orientations that cannot be denied. That's the only reason it's the way it is today. Pseudo satisfaction, born out of not recognizing there is an issue yet because the damage isn't visible yet.

No nation is safe with mixed aliens in the midst. It CANNOT work on ANY level because the morality and thus culture is DEFINED BY BLOOD! That's why gen 3:15 is the single verse that sums up seedline doctrine and explains why we exist in the world with struggles the way we do. Contrasting blood at odds with each other. It's built in to open up struggle, and denial of that mechanic is an unbelievably ignorant position to take born from someone who hasn't faced that struggle and been made to integrate that theme yet. I have. I use to talk about this publicly back in 2021 at Christian cafes all the time about Jewish supremacy and I'd get shut down every time, I had a ton of data but it never hit because they never experienced the struggle personally. The reason why it's getting worse is because this lesson was never fully resolved. The solution wasn't actually put into action. That's why I said that being masculine in our world today isn't for personal gain but to protect our people which is our support system that provides us availability of that same like blood and truth in that which is intuitively understood by all of that nature. When you're not around that you feel it, because of gen 3:15. The problem will either be solved or it will destroy us, as in complete genocide which IS their goals as stated. It's funny because I had a dream about being in Jacob Rothschilds private car and I had an opportunity to make the decision I would've needed to to resolve the problem I faced and be a man and I didn't, I was being tested in that dream. I am not fully purified in this belief. I know the feeling. It's clear and present and coming up to be resolved as another opportunity. I felt that compromise when I woke up. It carried with me over the day. It's so lucid. Gazing opens up remembering dream details so much more. Solve the problem that is obviously faced. Living in the end, or the so called state of consciousness desired (moved through in orientation to integrate and understand) means to live in the end of it being complete. The problem solved, the wish (natural striving) fulfilled (satisfied by spending energy correctly and not running away from opportunity under pressure) and under that context it all works. This was never about subjective desire and denial of fixed trajectory and necessary experiences, it was always about facing the not self and being yourself. That's how you become immortal and be blessed by God. 

Find anybody else on earth with that take. You won't, Nobody else has this connected. Why am I the one with this burden? Only God knows. The fools who say I'm arrogant for saying nobody else gets it can get lost and mire in the Maya until it's game over. I can state facts for what they are and not be elitist about it in a parasitic way. Owning that truth is the function, is the acceptance, is the living in the end idea. That's satisfaction and fulfilment of conditions against natural striving. How else could it work? That's what this all does. You either abandon truth or you accept it and fulfil it no matter the cost because that's the very essence of your function in life. When you face a clear and present danger that's collectively valid then you know you are facing something that's necessary to purify. It's revealed for a reason. Until that problem is resolved it will not go away, so do not deny what you're being shown. out of fear. That's just another compromise pattern that's avoiding integrating something. If it feels excessively heavy, then contrast that with praise and love and gratitude for God guiding you to view whatever you need to. Thank God for seeing whatever it is and frame it under a lens of purifying process that's necessary for your own cultivation of higher order substances, because it is. What more is there to say. We're being told to accept being forced to be shamed and guilted out of our valid orientation as men of Anglo nature. Screw that. Be yourself and show them who you are. Hold not a shred of mercy because you know you're correct. Stability. Power. This is entirely driven out of the identification level, of who you are as your people, and how the individuals comprise that, and how operating correctly harmonizes that collective stability to impact availability of vitality which in turn supports you personally further. Clap back the guilt and shaming with hardcore facts about identity being the root which shapes morals and culture and thus a functional civilization. Clap back at it all with stability. When pushed, fear not the feeling to protect that which is valuable, that is a VERY pure masculine trait that we are being guilted out of expressing. You will find support, they just don't feel safe without the one who leads the way as the example. They will support anyone who has enough guts to show their inner fire, and that will cascade out until the normies who deny the obvious will also find themselves on the opposite side cheering you on in time when that availability shifts and they no longer feel comfort and necessity in holding onto delusion. You WILL reprogram them through your actions, because they will become the intolerable fools who will be forced to let go of not self on a blood level. This isn't about changing anyone's mind, but changing the availability of identity and thus vitality for your people. That's how it always was will and is working. We solve problems through facing them and removing them from influence in our lives, no matter the means. That CAN be done internally, though that will lead naturally in the world to similar outcomes anyway, you've just facing pressure ahead of time, but the view orientation and movement will still unfold as the same because it's the natural necessary action that will anchor in the shift physically. Men should've just bend over to obvious evil and pander to the propaganda that's obviously shoved down your throat and agree to get along. Screw that. Crash their degenerate party and be the example of what Anglo truth is about. Don't tolerate, eliminate the threat. That's what your ancestors who had 10x the TEST you did and a moral compass that's aligned with their nature would've done. This doesn't mean be a wild animal attacking everyone without stability but it means provide contrast to threats against your position with equal or more fury in whatever context or view needed to cause them to feel threatened enough to back out and get lost to revaluate. This requires vitality and orientation being correct. It requires stature, stability, spontaneity, explosiveness. Not parasitic explosiveness like someone on substance but the explosiveness that's necessary to strike at the right times with the right jabs to get the job done. Remove the threat, solve the problem. Provide safety and availability for your people so that you may be surrounded by the glow that you crafted with your hands and your actions out of correct responsibility. It's not about glory for your own being, it's about doing what's OBJECTIVELY correct without fear or guilt or shame or giving into any of this Jewish propaganda trash that's been rampant in our media for generations warping who we are and what we tolerate. 

Should be plain as day. This isn't a game. We exist on multiple levels, all of these components need integrating. That's the nature of being oriented to view these things as I do if you see the same way. It's part of the process of a highly accelerated iteration. IT's a blessing and a curse. We play life on ultra nightmare difficulty but we accept the challenge. No compromise. What decisions do you continue to return to that you're compromising on? Fulfil them. Integrate them, no matter how long it takes. That's the function after all. This isn't to get you fired up now and go make decisions in a highly charged state and go over the top, but to simply integrate this at baseline and understand it so that when opportunities come up that present decisions that are under pressure you'll have more of a recognition of what needs to be done and be fearless in that place instead of second guessing and being cowardly like a soy boy. I got up on camera last week and destroyed the LOA buffs, despite feeling immense pressure because of committing RS into that direction publicly. It was necessary, and while I lost subs and made a lot of people see me as the issue for threatening their view it was something that's needed to change the trajectory and solve obvious problems in the LOA space that these false gurus are going without competition. It is the SAME thing with our culture. Problems need to be solved. Takes need to be expressed without compromise and actions need to be had to the point of no return. That's where you impact change, even if it takes years to see the results of that. You will always have the energy for it though because it's correct. That's why we do it. That's why we are here. That's why we exist. That's how we become immortal and become individuated as ourselves. We are not here to let Jews weaponize our good nature against us. That's the ONLY reason why we collectively suffer. Our built in morality and tolerance has been exploited against us. They know this, and so do we. Let's flip the script and punish the evildoers and solve the problem. You won't be able to go back, but that's the very point of why nobody steps over that line. We are the first ones to do that, it's the most painful but it's our role, to blaze the trail and light the way for others to come with us and support us. They're there, they just don't feel safe. That's what being a man means (at least part of it), not any of this trash that's peddled out there on these platforms from people who can't see the obvious. We KNOW what to do and what to say and who's responsible and who's to be held accountable but because we've been blasted with Jew propaganda our whole lives we don't have the guts to accept that innate nature and identity that the entire foundation of our world stands on. Until that is accepted and expressed and taken all the way whenever opportunities arise that feel correct then expect nothing to shift. God moves through us all, and this talk is simply to make conscious those parts to further refine them bit by bit until they're fulfilled. 

 

13/6/25

I just realized I didn't set this page to visible after like a week. Silly me. No new updates. My hands are frozen cold. It's low single digits Celsius here right now so don't expect long entries when every keystroke stings a little. 

So I’ve been remembering my time back years ago when I was more and less clear in different ways. Things were so much different in tone, like this contextual tone over all my activities was consistent. There was peak dips but it was still thematically correspondent. Certain music from that time brings it out of me the most. You begin to feel and become conscious of unconscious trash as a result and the decisions necessary show up to be made. 

The decisions we make to anchor in this stuff are powerful when applied correctly. Own it. Go all the way. I’ve received a response from the alchemist that’s mostly clear now and he basically says that the purpose you live for the most part is to open up further subconscious expansion. He said that when you get to the lesser conjugation then you’ll be able to directly know what is and isn’t self correctly as you’ve integrated the intuitive sense subconscious level fully and will “know/feel” truth as it is. This is something we will struggle with until we get to that level. It’s just part of the process. 

I will say it just feels somewhat refreshing to remind yourself of certain states you’ve been in. Is this temporary? Yeah. Make the decisions which anchor that and you’ll stabilize it. Imagine the fulfilment of it to impact those more subtle aspects too. Enjoy it and at the same time be spontaneous with breaking boxes under pressure. Been going hard with this lately moving outside yet more comfort zones and breaking down limits. When I was writing about what feels heavy vs light before I believe I’ve truly seen the common pattern and what the alchemist has told me lines up. What’s “light” and vital and radiant and that sensation not in emotionality but in terms of that feeling of stability and correctness. Can you distinguish between these different senses? Knowing inner truth vs emotion. I feel (sense something to be important that’s not emotional obviously) that giving people a test they can do will make this clear. Let their own consciousness reveal the truth to them. When I live in my body and move around and make that my foundation of supply everything in my life improves. I swear. I’ve had long stretches where I almost forget about this part of me and when something suggests it then I have this “longing” for the real me and I can’t help but move correctly. The sacral wakes up. It’s like it has cycles of peak dip too. 

This direction of movement you can almost feel as an inevitability. You can sense the distance closing. It’s just something that’s so clear. 

 

16/6/25

I’m not a fan of mobile entries. 

So I’ve learned a lot over the last few days of dropping the “scientist” state as I call it and moving into being the living by embodiment of explosiveness and flair in all things, mostly movement. Dancing my way through life gives me such insane sleep and I wake up feeling like I’ve got more juice in the tank than I could ever use. It’s just let’s go shred. Charisma flies out of me without contrast and I find myself entering into dynamic gazing whenever my mind isn’t active almost automatically now. Watching. I’ve noticed that everything has changed in such a short time. I view myself differently and I find that I hold next to no importance on the continual refinement of RS in the state it’s in now. I’m more having thought enter my mind about community involvement and producing group programs and such of like nature. 

Either way the vibe has shifted. There’s more “life” that’s actually expressed through me physically instead of just contemplated on and circulated internally. That is be try valuable to attain insights that are necessary for various things but the lived experience of that spontaneous explosive and stylized energy is just so insanely nourishing to me. That’s what I remember wanting to do way before I got into my physics study which is when my “eternal youth” I had until that point started to fade off and die out and I experienced what I can only consider near death. It sucked losing a massive chunk of my Jing reserve in no time at all and basically aging way faster than I should’ve but it seems it was necessary to develop RS to what it is today. Those experiences were what accelerated my progress and on some level me I’m grateful God led me through that to see what was needed. I don’t know if I will ever get back to the state I was at before with unbelievable amounts of vitality on supply like literally infinite energy to just go and go and go and go without end. 

my intention is to attain that physical vitality access and fully anchor my capacity on that level. The amount of time I’ve spent doing study for RS has been so much that on one hand I know it wasn’t necessarily depleting me more but it wasn’t also leading to further expansion. I basically plateaued on the vitality side and it seems most of my manifestations that were in relationship to developing RS were utilizing that vitality supply leaving no extra buffer for physical expansion even if I did physically push limits. The mental processing and constant contemplating truly does deplete your vitality more than anything. What I’ve learned most out of this is that balance is how you sustain long term supply of available vitality without much depletion at all while going hard and fast in one direction to fully fulfil an area of natural striving by going all the way will be very likely depleting buffer vitality and leave you as a one trick pony. That’s fine if that’s your path but I know I’ve got other levels here to work with that have become activated lately. I cannot deny the natural striving I’m being moved through and that is simply to become the living embodiment of explosiveness and spontaneity and flair and what I use to do back in 2016-2017 with dancing my way through life. That foundation on the physical level makes visceral manifestation that’s resonant absolutely possible for you. Instead of living in a mental bubble you extend that deeper into the world and have impact through your field navigating the physical environment around you in a visceral way guided by the hand of God. 

So with that in mind I will still be doing more study with the NG stuff, though not on the daily. Only when I feel I have energy for that will I go through it. My energy needs to be spent on my visceral reality. Deep gazing and extending the subtle senses into the world as I did back in 2025 but with the 2016-17 physical visceral power and explosiveness with me just darting around everywhere in the mix will create a new basis for experience. No longer do I contemplate mechanics of RS in everything I experience, I am always thinking about where my energy is best spent next and it’s always automatic. Drive to the hills and dart through the trails or go to the small towns and chat up some interesting people and shout them street food. Tell stories about cool places around and offer to team up and explore more. Living life outside the narrow box and expanding like its second nature. Spontaneity and trust with intuitive impulse built up over time makes it automatic and the contrast batteries dissolve. Attractive people show up and give you the eyes and the licks and want to show interest, sometimes almost exclusively. I use to get that all the time, where a girl would literally get herself in trouble and make a scene just to get my attention. 

This one in a course I was doing back in early 2019 was mad lusting like she literally was basically gazing at me 90% of the time and always asking questions and stuff and I’m just totally ignoring it. The obsession must exist for a reason. There’s something in me they want. I believe that it was that nature of the spontaneous explosive and visceral glowing radiant abundant type of energy pouring out of my body in all directions emanating this vibe for everyone with resonance. The stares and side eyes would be constant. They’d want a piece of that vitality. I was never anything special when it came to appearance to be honest I always knew that but it never bothered me because I know the attraction is because of your light. My girl is attracted to me for different reasons than what I outlined and it makes me wonder about the nature of how attraction shifts and the functions that are there to bring out of us parts of us we don’t have within that are necessary to integrate. What are the themes. The themes underlying how those sensory level experiences mediate people and circumstances into our lives should be explored and understood if we are to really master ourselves. 

What I know for sure is that the less needless stimulus you receive and the more you give in meaningful ways the less Jing you burn. Correctness operates through natural striving and the subtle level of that is the degree of correct stimulus you receive. Are you absorbing sensory data that’s according to the nature of the themes or is there bloat in there taking up space? How can we defrag the drive? Operating correctly and allowing your vitality to reach new spillover points where higher order substances that glow and radiate and naturally attract all kinds of circumstances into your life will be how your unconsciously defined aspects can simply work their function and manifest what’s needed. You don’t need to try. 

With everything we’ve learned through the theory side of things we can take that into the world and push the limits of opportunities we can access and make those available for us as much as possible. Being around others with light instead of this dark heavy energy also elevates you. You expand each other and drive each other through your opportunities. Having physically available groups to explore with is truly the most natural way we sustain vitality between each other. Look back and you’ll see this in your life too. All these factors come together to create the totality. Thinking this is all an internal isolated thing where doing this manifesting stuff in a vacuum is all there is in my option is just coming from someone who’s simply so use to living without that expanded sacral type of energy in a warm inviting and compassionate way which is also a core thematic of the subconscious. Expressive energy of such nature I believe emanates from those who are to some degree more expanded on that level, though it’s not something to be seen in a vacuum. There’s so many different factors it’s crazy. 

Simply put the lesson is this. If you have affinity with a more physical nature like what I’ve discussed at your core and know within you that this truth exists and is knocking at the door trying to come through you then all that to take form and express is going to open up new pathways you thought you were blocked off from. You trust that inner truth and it will open the way because that’s God’s will. Allowing and trusting with faith. There’s many levels here and with all things only you know what’s correct and what’s not. Inner truth drives it all and simply making decisions based on what you know at that point at your truth will only make it more clear or open up another pathway of clarity as it unfolds which is natural for you. Trusting it no matter what is the point, even if that results in seemingly unsatisfactory outcomes in the meanwhile as paths get rearranged. Be ok letting stuff burn down that might feel uncomfortable because those are the necessary bridges you’ll never cross again which will make the new path the only option for you. Embrace it. Take all the experience you learned on those other paths and apply it in the paths not yet fully explored with those new skills and see all the hidden secrets in the map you were unable to see before. You’re basically unlocking new levels to explore by backtracking in a metroidvania type game and accessing passages that were blocked off before that give access to even harder boss fights with even tougher enemies but bigger and better loot that’s yours for the taking. That loot opens up new levels to access and so on. 

that’s how I’d define the details of the so called game of life, unlike how Florence and all those mentalist types explained it.  It’s a non linear metroidvania. We are going through experiences in all these ways to gain access to secret passages we couldn’t see before and each path can take many months or even years to explore. Some are harder than others but that’s the point because you’ll gain the xp to be ready to face what’s next even without knowing what’s coming. God drives you as the character. That’s why you can’t lose. Even if you do you never really do, not unless you’re not from above. 

 

17/6/25

Cultivating vitality is foundational in your day to day life processes which should optimize spending to cultivation for what's necessary. Compromising here is arguably the thing that really leads to depletion because you can life that way without doing much if any work to take conscious into unconscious (if that's not what you're being thrown into by God that is) and thus can effectively live in a sort of freestyle manner without responsibility to natural striving tying you down as much.  That means you won't go beyond a certain level because breaking those boxes you're ignoring is necessary for that but most people don't even get there anyway. People who do the internal cultivation methods while thinking they can bypass the rest of the activity in the world are sorely mistaken. Physical limit pushing comes FIRST, especially if you've got affinity for such. Not everybody gains the same from that but it's always there to be applied to the degree that works for you. Denying this will only shoot you in the foot out of compromise. You WILL find yourself in flow more by optimizing nervous system and endocrine function that's just common sense. 

The RS way to apply all of this together correctly is VERY simple when you see it for what it is. So natural striving physically speaking to break boxes in the physical is where a bulk of "large" resistance is dissolved. The physical process works more on the macro resistances that are more prominent, much like block size when reading data from a drive on a PC, you can use more threads to effectively process more at once because of the related thematic implications of fulfilling a certain condition or limit. These are foundational to all of this manifesting stuff. Period. NG admitted this when you understand the context of some of the quotes he said and the alchemist also said this too. Nobody with actual experience would deny that, and if they do they're trying to profit from your ignorance. The more subtle stuff comes secondary. Always was and always will be, though for some you're forced into working more on that level because of your purpose like I was. I already had a solid foundation in physical reality with quite decent amounts of vitality (relative compared to the rest of my life at least but I was never really above most others around me I just could focus it through my stylistic flair based approach to movement and emanate a more pure current not blocked by this limited feelings of compromise) and that worked for me quite well when I least expected it to support doing the inner work. You don't see or notice that when you're in day to day life until you've got contrast to recognize the importance when you view patterns of what happens when you apply both in a vacuum without their interaction in optimal times. Doing inner work periodically is FAR better in my experience, and I still don't have enough detailed data from others to say that this is how it works for all but I'd assume that's the case based on all the data I've been through so far. Not conclusive by any means but close enough I'd argue. You could get into the whole HD generator and type stuff (which I still am critical of to be honest I believe that TRUE HD has only yin and yang types despite) and view it from that perspective with energy/non energy types but that's unnecessary really everybody regardless of type has vitality they can cultivate and apply, just some apply it more viscerally like me more than others. I HAVE To unload that cultivated vitality through movement or I hit plateaus and I know it feels correct because it's like this "flashing" kind of feeling I get whenever I see an opportunity and spontaneously trust that this movement will work for me. I feel these sudden lightning type sensations that shoot through me (generator sacral screaming at me to trust the movement) where it's like a QTE in a game or something and I can pull off a sequence of actions that lead to like a bonus multiplier, to put it under that context at least. Doing that builds trust in that visceral sensation to drive me, one of the ways intuitive impulse can manifest in the body as an example. 

I've also had many very interesting comments show up lately that happened spontaneously. It's when you're just spending energy correctly that this stuff shows up. The mentalism view of things is a complete scam. 

18/6/25

Early morning post. Vitality absolutely matters. As I was saying yesterday vitality is endocrine and nervous system health mostly and everything from there kind of sorts itself out. Easiness comes from an abundance of vitality. That doesn’t mean you won’t feel pressure but the pressure won’t feel as big and you’ll WANT to break limits. It’s like that because of the abundance of nourishing current on hand to supply that state. I cannot emphasize just how important this is. The alchemist indirectly implies this but let’s be honest here now knowing that your supply of qi is almost directly tied to your hormones and neurotransmitters and the relationship between them in proper functioning of all your systems and how dysfunction on those levels will only amplify dysfunctions in the psyche due to a lack of nourishment on the metaphysical level. This cannot be faked or thought over the top of to overpower it. This is the functional mechanics of negentropic impacts on your field geometry. Qi pretty must represents the radiance that is directly supplying your periphery of that field geometry and when it depletes it depletes on the periphery first and then works its way inwards. When cultivating qi it will first target the internal if its deficiency is significant and then nourish the outer where age reversal can  manifest on the skin which everybody sees. 

Take it back to the beginning. Refine sensory stimulus and nourish vitality physically by having a routine and process that works for you and opens up spontaneous movement to be followed. Natural striving works much easier from here when you’re well nourished. Qi matters. Yin and Yang matter. They provide the very foundation of our basis of psyche. Physically going all the way matters because it enables us to have a more nourished baseline to work with the internal stuff with. That’s not to say it’ll overcome lacking inner work in a vacuum but it will amplify effectiveness of that work. Why wouldn’t it? If all the different currents supply us with core themes that we interface with then if we are supplied through physically correspondences then it would benefit the inner work too at least to come degree on top of having a more stable baseline sense of vitality to navigate the world with. When your unconscious with the nervous and endocrine functions are on point you’ll simply think and feel better about life overall. Remember that it’s both endocrine and nervous system functions that must be made coherent together. Artificially working with one in a vacuum is missing the point and bypassing the natural process. Working on both levels matters. That’s what going all the way is about on that level. 

 

Always remember peak dip cycles that are necessary are temporary. If you’re going all the way but still not getting places soon then just be ok with it and have the courage to face the unknown. 

 

Chatting up a storm with anybody comes naturally when your heart qi is nourished. Charisma on demand. You look back and realize you pulled some smooth moves without even noticing or intending to. I am sure that most people on that level who claim to know tips and tricks are playing stupid games with you to sell stuff you cannot fake that for the life of you it’s either the current is available or it’s not that’s it. There’s no way to intellectually train these reflexes. I never did that’s for sure it’s already within me and by providing supply for the innate nature with vitality it expressed. This is RS foundations where we don’t do much targeted work but instead work with the natural striving to supply us what’s necessary on alll levels. We don’t need to decide because what we need is already there it’s just unconscious. Arguably NG right this too in some ways but I still think he compromised too hard on that for profits. Either way naturally speaking from a charismatic type of energy is easy when you’re well nourished. Even if you’ve got many physical issues with appearance it won’t matter. You nourish the internal sufficiently that it won’t matter if the qi doesn’t reach the periphery when you’re cultivating more buffer. The buffer overflows the heart and that’s what matters. The supply is rooted in water and the fire expands out into the world with who you’re interacting with. It’s automatic alchemy. 

 

I’ve noticed that you can lead people with the context you’re cooking up and suggest things to them they’d normally not buy into when you’re supplied well. This would probably reflect with inner work too. Building context leads current. Current activates themes. Themes activate sensory data. Experience. 

 

Cultivating and utilizing vitality correctly is the way you become more pure. That manifests on every level. This process is the way,  Why? Because we can clearly observe that when you don't intend on making something happen it does and the reason for this is because you're in flow and there's no need because you're spending energy in a satisfying manner. If the thing that NG says is correct about how imagining something to be real for you will make it happen no matter what even if it's good or bad for you then how come I've experienced MANY times where doing this vividly imagined scene ends up giving me OPPOSITE results? It's simply because I was attempting to bypass natural striving and spending energy correctly. SO many people are under this assumption, and you'll find MANY times that this happens where there's this grey area where things you don't care about happen often and things you care about happen rarely if ever and often they show limited or opposite outcomes of the target themes no matter the method you're applying. This is all about psychological purification through natural striving and spending energy correctly to target the unconscious resistance that's necessary. If you fully let go of natural striving towards the direction desired I believe you can in fact manifest those outcomes in satisfying manners but at that level you're just doing the same thing that natural striving is but in a different direction away from becoming more purified, at least to some degree. I hope we can see that. I loathe the LOA buffs that preach manifestation in a vacuum. It's a complete joke. There's so many connected factors it's insane to say that it's just imaginal scenes that do it all. Personally I find that imaginal scenes that result in outcomes that are desired often come with resistances that the experiences leading to that will take you through the dissolution of which my 2nd last video outlined. I believe this was partially what NG experienced with his trip to Barbados where he said he had anxiety leading up to it worried about bad circumstances. He did say he wasn't clear when it happened, which also proves that there's purification IN the event itself and that making things show up often leads you to opportunities and that's why they reveal themselves as they do. If you GO ALL THE WAY then these will be MUCH more likely to happen. That's what you can prove almost 100% every time in case studies. Compromise leads to more compromised circumstances. Going all the way leads to opportunities that may result in fully satisfying outcomes or at least partial with purifying opportunities built in. It's very very open ended on how this can happen. It's not a simple one size fits all thing. If you're already comfortable with something it's likely because you're already grounded in a sense of self that's solid for your correct trajectory (or the opposite but we don't know that) and thus the pressure has already been faced where the themes that are integrated and attuned to can be mediated like the alchemist says in the world through seemingly impossible ways. This isn't just about superhuman abilities like summing lightning from thin air or whatever but I'm talking about synchronicities where you see your imagined outcomes showing up in full without even trying. At that level you could just say it came through you, which really did happen, because an integrated comfortable theme on that level IS part of you that unfolds thoughts and imaginal scenes automatically in your mind. The more subconscious capacity you have realized as well the closer to that you'll be, the distance between imaginal scenes and reality will be minimal because you'll be able to move INTO the body that experiences that just like the earth body. Gazing opens this up, even if it takes years. 

 

Seems that Trumpet and the filthy Zionist Jew BB are going full steam ahead with this war to mask the economic fallout from the scamdemic 5 years ago with the endless money printing because it's all Jewish plots unfolding from top to bottom and to continue to collapsing BB regime in Israel. Jewish parasitic filth. Disgusting Satanic filth who should've been eradicated a long time ago so we'd never be in this mess. The US has zero chance of defending the rogue state of Israel and BB won't allow that because he's a full on parasite who wants to get his way or else. That could possibly mean using tactical nuclear weapons due to the defenses that Israel has and that the conventional weapons US has provided being almost exhausted at this point and if that happens it's end game. Israel KNOWS that Iran has ZERO Nuclear weapons in development and Trumpet was gloating for killing officers involved in promoting that deal some weeks ago. It's insane. I don't see this resulting in peace because Israel is on the brink of collapse and has been for a very long time now which is why they've made such moves in Gaza by wiping the Palestinians out and now the filthy Jew BB Netanyahu is flat out lying to the world saying he's attacking their nuclear sites when THEY KNEW IRAN HAD NO NUCLEAR PROGRAM. Trumpet is flipflopping constantly on his words he's all over the place contradicting his past moves and it's all in response to what Israel demands him to do. He's a Zionist owned puppet 110%. It's all fake news, that's how these Jews run. Everything I said in notebook 11-18 is true about them being satanic seed and the prophesy of the matrix unfolding as it is. Nobody can say otherwise now that it's all out in the open and the lying trash in Israel aren't able to hide anymore. I hope this doesn't end up with bad outcomes for us but it might, as goes the nature of desperate moves from tyrannical Governments. I'm almost certain that this so called war was planned a long time ago and is now playing out as an option for what's happening in Israel. All these people can do is make up fake stories to justify decisions and not bat an eye. These people are so psychopathic it would seem impossible that people of such nature could exist and yet here we are. Once again all the study I've done on Israel since 2018 has proven itself correct just as always. Go figure. I gain nothing from this other than consciousness. 

I also don't care if that's not on the subject of LOA or whatever or that this is me accepting bad circumstances and manifesting it. I've proven over and over that there is a fixed trajectory that God is unfolding through all of us and we're here to move within that collective trajectory. We don't manifest these outcomes personally. The degree to which they influence you will be necessary for you and no more or less.

 

19/6/25

I'm not going to quote him here because I can't get the auto voice transcription working and it'll be a pain to type it all out but the alchemist said directly that you can influence other people like what NG says through overlapping your subconscious mind with theirs and he says that the person who has the most expanded subconscious mind is the one who wins because they won't think it's not their thought being projected. Themes are what we're working with as always but just like how we perceive the invisible stuff when we do gazing that's actually a translation of their archetypal composition into sensory data you can interpret and the alchemist has said many times that how you perceive an intelligence with your eyes open in gazing is how your unconscious will project an interpretation to make sense based on what you believe. Your subjective synthesis determines this. He says here under that context that the thoughts you basically impress based on the LOA idea is nothing more than your higher expanded subconscious state directly overlapping theirs and that part of your field is driving their intuitive impulses thinking it's theirs when it's not. That's the idea that NG had in his early days of "thought transmission" it seems, though he said it was whoever believed the most was the one who wins. Belief has very little to do with this I will say that the expanse of subconscious state which opens up that inverse space to close distance on a field geometry level between you and them since the subconscious is the level of the subtle unconscious mind then you can interact with theirs as though you were a subtle intelligence that makes up part of their field and thus "become" part of their conditioning. We do this all the time anyway where we will "assume" things about different people but this idea that NG preaches from the mentalism idea is the problem because that's not actually how it works it's about power and depth and stability and coherency which all of this work we do enables and opens up access to.

Simply put, the deeper into gazing you go and walk INSIDE the subconscious of the person you're influencing then you'll drive them. I remember someone made a critique of modern LOA and they said that this way of performing manifestation is basically black magic and that most people who do this are only doing it based on their lower mind desires because it would work itself out from God being the source of influence by natural striving if it's really going to be satisfying for you and you're lined up for that in process. She was right about that of course, though the mechanics of this happen regularly but not on a deliberate controlling level. Anyone who says "oh we manifest always anyway" as though it's this belief level interpretation are TOTALLY missing the point. You cannot compare those examples as the same thing because they're not working with the same mechanism. One is simply unconscious conditioning from limited ideology you bought into and have accepted which anchors you to them as your supply vs you deliberately trying to manipulate someone to get something out of them. This idea that you can also manifest for others is possible under this context too, and is explained. 

The alchemist then went on to say soon after talking about this mechanic that those who are weak minded will be easily manipulated by someone who's got a highly expanded subconscious state. He's basically saying that someone who's more manipulative can and likely will get what they want because that's their expanded field impacting other people, IF they've got an expanded subconscious. This all depends on the stability of the field geometry so my idea of someone distancing themselves from natural striving under this context can and likely will manifest their lustful desires and live them out without compromise because they gave up all that instability of the contrast between not self and correct orientation and how that caused them conflicts. That's likely why I never got what I wanted before because I can say that I had a quote expanded subconscious especially back when I was 15 and such when I talked about people literally throwing themselves at me and being involved with me and I never even tried or really assumed I was worth. This explains all the contradictions with the mentalism model where people get things they don't believe on top of how natural striving drives us to go through experiences that are necessary by God's will. The more powerful you are and by that I mean the more subconscious capacity you have, the more you will get what you want in life IF you can solidify and stabilize a direction. 

This will be the doctrine RS will publicly preach to sway people away from mentalism but still with the seeming promises of manifesting the person with actual mechanical basis that explains everything. This was already really what RS was based on but him saying that simply confirmed that 110% more. How many more dots are there to connect? Who knows. We must be getting done now. Surely. We've explained the NG doctrine and the real mechanics so it's complete now? Preaching this doctrine of promises of controlling people through expanding subconscious capacity will open their minds to new opportunities along with a valid path to dissolve not self stuff disguised as conventional LOA stuff. Maybe this is the big ticket. Simply market gazing and other methods of expansion of subconscious space to manifest and link that to certain NG quotes to have his foundation standing with mine for an irrefutable claim that people will buy into. My subs fell through the floor from my last video. I lost a lot for a few days because I spoke the facts, and now that it's out there I don't need to say it repetitively anymore those who need it will see it and get what they need. Time to move on. Taking a break from long entries has helped me a lot in stability of my own state. This also irrefutably proves that the intuitive sense is the sense that manifests because this is the language of the subconscious mind. Knowing something without knowing something is how this happens, both ways. That's what leads to actions being made, given stability and coherency is present. This is why the alchemist said that it'll more often work on "weak minded" people. You really can't just go around doing this to anyone for any reason really because there has to be natural reason for them to want that, as I've said over and over. They CAN be overpowered but the threshold of basically completely opposing someone's belief would require IMMENSE stability of your own psyche and at that point why would you even bother trying to manipulate someone and get in the way? Just let go of the not self trash and move on. It'll save a lot of time and effort. 

 

So I believe I’ve got an even more simple formula figured out than before.

0. What underlies everything else being said here is the principle of going all the way  trusting intuitive impulse is showing faith and satisfies natural striving because you’re spending energy correctly. This is the mechanism that triggers growth in all forms  without this nothing below will work reliably long term. Going all the way is necessary to get places. Period. If you don’t go all the way first time then it’ll come up again in future as another opportunity to take and realize fully. Go all the way. You’ll win and not feel a shred of compromise or guilt for holding back because giving it your all every time is all you can do and that in itself is satisfying. Always remember this. You’ll FEEL if you’re going all the way or not and that feeling of compromise is in itself a signal telling you that you’re still not trusting fully  it’s tough to accept but it’s the facts and this underlies all other methods. 

1. Natural striving is #1 way to cultivate space in a meaningful and reliable manner and is the foundation by which everything works in our lives that’s correct for us. This is God driving us which is our correct impulses. You will likely be unable to reliably differentiate the self vs not self or lower lustful mind and limited mind vs the higher mind in the beginning but simply trusting and learning through experience either way you’ll get what you need. Being inactive gets you nowhere. This is practical through accepting and trusting and letting go of not self in those moments. The way you’d more than likely know if a decision is correct is because there’s pressure underlying it and that there will be letting go involved. These are the opportunities to make highly purifying decisions. 

2. Gazing. All forms of gazing. Deep advanced gazing that’s extended all the way to periodic and dynamic gazing. Dynamic gazing will be the way most people will anchor more space IF they can be consistent with it and focus on living from that distanced state more often. When you’ve not got intellectually based processes in your life you’ll be able to make progress much easier with this. If you’ve got a very busy day using your mind a lot then deeper gazing will benefit. The more time you spend in an expanded state the better. Ideally you want both but either will benefit. 

3. Physically nourishing yourself. This is common sense you don’t need me to explain this. Physically push limits of fitness and eat stuff that’s necessary and at regular intervals. I don’t care what HD PHS says everybody on earth is built with a digestive system and operates under the same rules of needing nutrition and blood circulating to not die. Moving your body the unique way you’re designed to will benefit and eating stuff that you enjoy but that’s good for you is also ideal. Mostly just cut out the not food food, meaning the less processed the better. Obviously this is common sense so need I say more. Simply prioritize your nervous system and endocrine function. These will benefit you the most out of anything unless you need attention elsewhere. 

4. Refine sensory stimulus. Cut out all the trash you’re distracting yourself with and create something. Now let me say that I HAD to spend literally tens of thousands of hours absorbing information in every way possible including reading and listening and watching and even contemplating on ideas and that has put my consumption to creation ratio way out. If I didn’t do that I’d not be able to even create this so I take it very seriously that in same cases more consumption of necessary information on what’s building up understanding can and will benefit you. How do you know? You will have info throwing itself in front of you on the regular that breaks boxes and you’ll look back and realize that was important moths or even years down the track. It’s often non linear. I know this map like the back of my hand because I lived it for most of my life. Studying information on every angle there is on a subject and diving into what my opponents say is my bread and butter specialty. Research and development of new information. RS is one of those examples. If you know this is your path then follow it and own it fully and it’ll work itself out in time. For those who are focused on full time study and have the environment to enable that where you’re basically setup for this to be possible without trying even if you face criticism for it by friends and family then that’s a sign you’re going to need to simply accept that this is your necessary trajectory. Those who often find themselves going in circles and not understanding things properly and going back and forward on stuff over and over and knowing it’s wasting their time (which I also faced at times but it never stuck around for longer than 3 months tops usually less than 3 weeks) then it’s time to leave it and place attention where it’s needed. This is why I say that refining sensory stimulus under this context is so important because that’s now what’s taking up too much time. Needlessly absorbing info you don’t need now or even in the future. 

Refining that to focus on what you know you need and creating that supportive environment for that is your ticket to success. Refining sensory stimulus can also be timing and routine as well because your nervous system and endocrine system will reward you for not stimulating yourself in needless ways and going into that AFTER you’ve pushed physical limits. Pushing physical limits should always come first. Don’t care what anybody says that’s how it works. I’ve fully proven this over and over without doubt. Take royal jelly as your only needed supp because it will give you kidney Jing and qi which are the foundations of basically every other substance. If you’re already well functioning this will be all you need. 5-10g 1-3 times a day. No more. Will boost TEST and help mental processing and give you energy to push limits. One supp to rule them all in my opinion.  It won’t have the same benefits after a month in the fridge though. You will have a loss of effects after about 3 weeks vs when you have it fresh fresh. It matters a lot I’ve been talking it in the regular for a long time now and have observed the effects it has and the effects of freshness. Straight raw royal jelly is VERY powerful while aged stuff that’s like 3+ months old even when refrigerated will taste different and lose impact by a lot. I’d say that after 3 weeks the effects lose about 20-30% of their power. After that it drops off about 1% per day. 3 months is the tops you’d wanna leave it before consuming for really any benefit and at that point you wasted money. So if you’re going to take jelly then you’ll want to take it as fresh as possible raw and not this capsule stuff take it refrigerated because this will boost Jing more due to the quality of it. You will feel the difference. There will be not a single paper published to support what I said but my experience will reveal this to be the case. You don’t need anything else just refine sensory stimulus and take it as often as you feel necessary. Jelly will take you from zero to hero in no time if you take it regularly. How do you know it’s too much for you with your dosage? Headaches or stomach pains or nausea or reflux especially at night will be what you experience. Basically digestive issues or headaches. Back of the dose until those go away and keep that up for about 2 weeks or 1 if you’re feeling ok with testing a bit more. 

5. Deliberate imaginal work. I place this lower because it shouldn’t be the main focus for generating stability. Stability opens up imaginal work to actually have positive impact. Imaginal work through SATS with gazing or eyes closed doesn’t matter. I don’t teach active imaginal work other than effortless assumption sense to trigger intuitive impulse and focus in on purifying areas through action. The other ways this can work is through careless scripting in the mornings. Listing out what you want as soon as you wake up is the way to go for in my opinion the easiest way to have things show up that day. I’ve manifested insane deals this way over and over in the past when I did this on the regular and had a notebook for every day of the week to avoid looking at my prior entries. It’s simply that you’ll log down basic things that are comfortable and watch how they show up. Divine imagination AKA “systematic managing” has created an Ai system that’s scanned apparently over 10k stories and has concluded that list method is the most reliable. Obviously that’s where most of this data comes from anyway and his viewers are biased to support that so his data isn’t conclusive but I’d argue that either way this method does work reliably If it’s something you’re able to get into flow with and don’t have contrast batteries showing up with. I won’t explain why it’s so effective now but it does. Test it and you’ll see. Don’t use this to do anything other than basic things though. Don’t use this to push limits simply use this to get more of what you’re already comfortable with or you’ll likely end up frustrated. That’s my suggestion. Affirmations should be used in the way you do divine pathway work. Affirm and leave space between the affirmation and the “void” that’s between that affirmation you said and when you have a new thought come up. This is how the alchemist teaches a certain method of affirmation which I fully agree with as a powerful way to amplify subconscious space. Deliberate imaginal work should always have a routine to anchor you into the space of the lunar body. You’re literally going to be shifting into making conscious the lunar body and living from that level which is the subconscious level itself. The way you do this is by feeling the environment with the subtle senses. Touch the ground and feel your body and walls and take a deep breath in your lunar body and wave your arms around. Ground yourself for a good 5-10 mins. It’ll be tough at first but you’ll get use to it. The alchemist I believe teaches this in later methods based on how I’m deciding what he means. It’s simply that you’ll place yourself into that level instead of being here and effectively be lucid dreaming. This is for the purposes of extracting the reality of experience in a virtual reality so to say but that’s still real to you. It needs to be real and you need to immerse in it if you want stakes and real impact. 

 

There's more to this but it’s late so I’m leaving it here. Enjoy. This is what RS is currently simplified as is a cohesive model of practical and theoretical methods. 

 

20/6/25

"So it has to do with overlapping states of consciousness so remember just like when we're talking about these very intense things where something with more spiritual power is doing the work on you people who are doing illuminatory work of some kind that are having that that's that's efficient and that works as a process the that overlap between conscious and unconscious states that gradually expands that is your sub your personal subconscious when your personal subconscious is much more expanded than the average person's personal subconscious around you when you're sending that stuff out what you're basically doing from your subconscious mind which is stronger than the other person's subconscious mind is communicating to their subconscious that there's something that you want them to do whoever has the strongest subconscious mind wins basically um because they're not going to perceive the uh the idea to come and talk to you as something somebody else put in their head they're going to think it's their own idea because it comes to their surface of their mind through their own subconscious aspect of their psyche so that is how people who uh have manipulative agendas can actually get um I don't how do I say it the weak-minded to do what they want them to do because those people very charismatic leaders people think that it's just their charisma that gets people to do things But a lot of times those people somehow or another have a more developed subconscious mind and that makes them even more powerful in terms of getting groups of people to do what they want them to do and um so uh a person who is doing this kind of work because it's part of their spiritual path is not going to be the kind of person that's inclined to manipulate anyone and in fact will go out of their way to make sure that they're not manipulating anyone because they don't want any grief or feedback from it um from manipulating in the first place but that being said it is the same underlying mechanic that allows both of those things to happen the purity of the intention of the person doing it um and the ability of that person to actually have a pure intention that's not self- serving is kind of where the line gets drawn right so if you just have the intention of hey that looks like a really interesting person I'd really like to talk to them and you're just putting it out there and then that's what happens then that's not manipulation that's just hey I'd like this to happen um whereas some people will take that mechanism to a much greater level of control for the express purpose of manipulating people and that's um nonproductive as far as I'm concerned um if all you want to do is surround yourself by weak-minded people who can just be manipulated then you have to be a pretty small person to want to be surrounded by a bunch of people who are easily manipulated I'd rather be surrounded by a bunch of people who are not easily manipulated but that's the difference between one intention versus the other we talk about them as isolated bubbles of things in diagrams and ways of looking at things but each of those levels of existence connects to the macro level of that existence so your personal subconscious connects to a universal subconscious which is also connected to their subconscious that's how it passes through because that all of that that entire thing exists as its own level of reality in its own right so it's not necessarily that you have to project a thought bubble from your little thing over here into their thing over there you're already connected on a certain level in a certain way because that particular aspect of your consciousness in your psyche is connected to the universal level of that idea which is also connected to everybody else so it doesn't really require um a whole lot of um pondering to kind of work out at least a rudimentary idea of the fact that that that whole mechanism is there I do find in generally speaking that it works better when you're not really trying to think about making it happen like when you just think something um innocently without any um preconceived ideas or notions or anything like that it just kind of pops out there that's when it works the most efficiently and that has a lot to do with affinity and and and quite a lot that's your higher genius pulling strings their higher genius pulling strings they're conspiring on a whole different level um you know so there's some of that worked into the mix as well but when you feel affinity with someone it's generally kind of what that is uh some connection going on at other levels with someone that you need to connect with for whatever that particular reason is those impulses come from somewhere um providing that you don't have really horrible radar in terms of those particular things and that's all basically usually based on projection so as long as you're not projecting anything on anyone then it's pretty clean"

That's what the alchemist said about manifestation in a quite direct sense. When he said about how if you just think something without much attachment behind is him pretty much saying it comes through you and he also said it relates to what the higher genius has planned as well. This proves that our thought comes through us when necessary to stimulate those functions which drives actions and the full range of components for the manifestation to unfold. When you don't try to make something happen and you don't have massive amounts of energy behind it (which is contrary really to what NG taught on some levels but whatever) then it'll likely show up. This probably explains why nonchalant scripting as I call it in the morning with what you'd like happens FAR more effectively. It seems that the more stable the context is on something the more "clean" the signal is. The more subconscious capacity you have too the more clear that will be by default, which most of the time can be measured by your degree of stability overall I would say because a clean unconscious mind will imply the subconscious is expanded. Less reactions that are visceral (not that you don't feel things but that unnecessary feelings that are dysfunctional to you don't show up) means you're going to by nature have a more clear and impactful subconscious mind. NG never taught us to train the subconscious mind though of course, though he did talk about training his imaginal senses which on some level is doing that anyway though he seemed to either not grasp that mechanic or he hid it from us. Based on the fact that he admitted to hiding things from us then it wouldn't surprise me if much of what he knew as the mechanics was never written or spoken about publicly for this reason so he could sell more and make more money. I find that disgusting to be honest. The alchemist talks about minimizing manipulative agendas, for obvious reasons. All those programs will need to get lost eventually anyway. It's always only temporary gain you get from that. I've never wanted to feed those manipulative agendas and I've been very conscious when they do show up. I don't move into that realm of manipulation for any gain, even if I suffer as a result. I don't want to feed those ideologies I find them abhorrent to a functional psyche and together as individuals in a collective it's only contributing to more collective dysfunction. That's not to make a martyr of myself because that's not the intention, I don't go looking for sympathy or approval for that I keep it mostly to myself unless I'm using an example like here to illustrate a point. You don't NEED to manipulate anyone to live a nourished life, even though there's a certain degree of that we always do on some levels anyway because none of us reading this have clean psyches from top to bottom though when you're conscious of manipulative agendas and still buy into them then I consider that bypassing natural striving and leaving the plan God has for you off trail. In that sense you will reap what you sow. 

Last note for that section. He also said about relationships at the end and how they're really designed to suit certain experiences for your transformation. It's how natural striving works on all levels. You feel a pull towards something, a truth, an affinity. This is God orchestrating the themes we're designed to unfold through us by those relationships to get what we need and if they're going to end once we got what we need then that's fine. I believe that God with the man and woman relationship process in the bible is designed in this way, and that relationships are not always for enteral cases. Judge nobody for needing to move forward. There's a big difference though between breaking up over holding onto compromise patterns and not learning your lessons vs mutually knowing that the end has come for that relationship and both moving forward understanding what they got out of it for their process. Those relationships are what I mean. I do not condone anything from the perspective of relationships to get something you want out of someone, to manipulate or gain influence over someone or their position through marriages. That's degenerate and doesn't serve natural striving in a constructive way, unless in some way that is your path but I doubt that for a vast majority of cases to be the way they're designed. Really relationships should evolve over time, in which case a mutual recognition of those unconscious functions are made conscious and communicated when necessary. 

 

"() and where people get themselves in trouble projection-wise is if there is attraction involved in the process if it's someone that they just have affinity with and they're not attracted to them then it's usually pretty straightforward and it's not a problem when someone is physically attracted to someone else that's when projection becomes a problem and one person thinks that the other person is their soulmate and the other person wants to run screaming and file a restraining order it's all the result of projection that's a made-up story there's no such thing as a soulmate I just said that because that's part of a projection yeah there's a lot of romanticized notions and you know that was that was nonsense 2,000 years ago when they were pushing it around in platonic circles and it just gets regurgitated every 1800 years or whatever loop it's on so and it allows people to project more it's what it does it perpetuates projection found my soulmate now now everything is good now it doesn't really matter what I do because it's my soulmate well and then it all implodes anyway because they take it for granted at that point if it's your soulmate then it doesn't really matter what you do right you're destined to be together but then their relationships implode because they take them for granted any relationship you take for granted is going to implode doesn't matter whether it's your soulmate or not of course doesn't matter because it's not true but I think that that's why a lot of them implode because it takes it's it takes this this weight of this you know this whole thing and um uh it's um it just creates mayhem instead of just you know two people saying that they have affinity with each other and making a commitment to live a life together and do whatever and be supportive they just project all this crap on each other right can survive under that much smothering and that idea was kind of perpetuated by theosophical teaching and a lot of other stuff and then it got taken and now it's now it's even more ridiculous new age people would take it that whole idea now there's soulmates and there's twin souls and twin flames and there's probably like star flames and like god only knows what else they'd made up now um and all the different definitions and and then these poor people that are starting to wake up spiritually have to like wade through all that garbage to get to something more substantial it's really quite annoying but um bunch of made up nonsense"

This is the alchemist on soul mates and divine relationships. They don't exist as we've been told, and I've never told anyone that they have a relationship lined up for them because if they did they'd already be there in that doing what they need right now. It's a needing someone else to be their supply thing with this obsession. I get that all the time especially back in the early days of coaching.

 

"A lot um there well everything everything that exists has a spirit that exists at an archetypal level that is related to that thing so and thinking about all of the different plants all the different animals all the different forms of minerals and all of the combinations of all of those things that exist there there are spirits that are connected to all of those things nature spirits and land spirits there's the genius Loki which is the intelligence of a place or a location some are far more powerful than others um the spirits and mountains are generally far more powerful than other kinds of things most likely because the minerals with which the mountains are made up are more are far older than a lot of the other things but um there are as many kinds of spirits for things as you can probably think of uh and then those are just the spirits that are connected to the things that integrate in this in this level that we call physical but on other levels non-physical levels there's all kinds of other levels the beings that live there are I guess are technically can be looked at as particular races or spirits of beings um in the underworld in the overworld there are particular races of beings um uh that are uh rel they're indigenous to those particular levels they they exist in their own right just like we do and then there are um uh beings that come into existence on a temporary basis that are um created or brought into being by the reactions between other things the elementals are an example of that elementals come into and go out of existence based on the actions of what's going on with the materials that are being uh affected or changed so there are beings that exist in a more semiautonomous not necessarily permanent level but much longer lifespans than humans in general um like races of the fay and things like that that exist on other levels they are not immortal per se but they live much longer ranges of lifespans than humans do then there are um entire categories of spiritual beings that are more hive oriented um like a queen bee and then worker bees and drones and all those things but all of those uh beings that are part of that hive make up the body of a much more powerful being that exists in its own right on that particular level some of the the levels get they're a little weird um we're used to being we're used to being the spider basically we're not in a hive um which is one of the challenges that human beings have because while we have these little family unit things we are much more like spiders than we are like ants or bees because those are hive beings so and and you yourself have seen the psychops that look like bees that's a particular race of being that exists as part of overworld function they're the psychops they shuttle souls around and do things um I don't even pre pretend to know all the things that they do I just know that they exist in their general function um but there are just way more kinds of beings than most people would be comfortable with knowing basically u there's a lot () yeah well I I think that the ones that exist they have a whole lot of madeup stuff in them you know um and and when you get into certain kinds of magical work you're you're going to have interactions with certain kinds of spirits and sometimes they um make their presence known just because they can because at some at a certain point you can actually see them which they're not used to um elementals in particular really like to be seen they're rather um animated except for the earth elementals they're not terribly animated at all um but the air elementals in particular are um quite keen to they're very playful um and they like to pop in and out and do all kinds of things and uh I made the mistake a couple decades ago opening a circle and then deciding to go to bed after having called all the elementals they kept me awake all night long and uh I never did that again but it was interesting to lay there and see all the air spirits they were popping in and out of like from three-dimensional back to two-dimensional like flat cartoons back to three-dimensional back to two dimen They just kept popping in and out all over the place and the earth elementals were just grumpy um I think that I don't even know why they were there they weren't having a good time so well I guess they were there because I called them but um that's maybe that's what they were grumpy about but they looked just like the Grinch now that's So people say Earth Elementals and they all look cute with the little gnome hats and all that crap that's like Irish hold over from folklore but the ones I've seen they don't look like that at all they're grumpy they're not friendly and they're not particularly pleased to be involved in the process at all um or at least they just like to pretend that I don't you know they just rather stand offish and grumpy but they do look exactly like the Grinch which I found to be quite surprising and then I thought you know maybe Dr seuss knew some things that he just wasn't saying in spite of all that squirrely madeup words that he used um maybe he actually saw Earth Elemental and that's how he knew that they looked like the Grinch or it looked like the Grinch because that's the way it chose to appear to me because it found the Grinch in my storehouse of visual uh imagery and decided that it liked that particular image the most also possible but I think they look like the Grinch so so they you know they they all just appear differently when and and that's another thing um because the way they appear to you is built up out of the images in your unconscious mind that it has to work with so a when a spirit until you can see it for its pure form the way it presents itself to you initially isn't necessarily how it really really looks when you can really see it on its own level it will build up its image out of the storehouses of imagery that you have on an unconscious level that are still archetypally valid related to its own nature um uh so if you're interacting with a lunar intelligence uh it it may um have spheres that look like lunar orbs it may it may have moon flowers may have they're all built up in a way of imagery is in order to be able to interact but it's based on your storehouse of images so with all the images of things that we've seen our storehouse of images will be very different how the same intelligence would appear to someone let's say that was part of an indigenous tribe that's never seen anybody but their own people and they live so far remote and nobody even knows they exist how the spirit would appear to them would be radically different because their storehouse of imagery would be much smaller so it would have to find a way to build its image up in a way that was still archetypally valid but with a much more limited set of images to use in order to do that um so that's one reason why different areas have different descriptions or spirits that seem like they would be uh related but the descriptions are radically different in a lot of places um we'll just stick to the Fay that one I can handle i don't know about the yeti but () um within within the FA races the lore has always been that they were capable of going back and forth when they chose to um so there's alreadyial um lore about them in particular so if they in particular can do it if they in particular can do it then it stands to reason that there could be others that could do it i'm not going to speculate on which ones um but there are uh uh overlapping levels of existence i mean there we call this consensus reality but in the work that we're already doing here that some of you have already directly experienced your reality is now different from consensus reality because you've seen things that other people don't see other people don't see full crystallizations of things the way you've seen them some of you so um if we have the ability to do that and you've only just gotten started stands to reason other kinds of beings that exist in their own right in their own level can learn similar things to pop in and out of other levels when they will uh to do so so um I've had visitations from other kinds of beings different kinds of beings that I'd never seen before that I did hadn't seen before and I haven't seen since exactly where they reside most of the time I'm not sure um they didn't stick around long enough to leave that particular level of information i'm assuming at some point I'll find out um but I do think that that there's enough mysteries in the levels of reality to not rule out anything as a hardcore know um particularly when we already have lore in reference to at least one general race of being although there are many subasses within that particular idea um so I don't have a problem with the idea in general"

The alchemist on different types of spirits. 

 

22/6/25

I believe there will be a staged attack from bad actors in an "allied" nation in the coming days or weeks which will give further reason for escalation. Israel is fighting for survival right now and will use anything possible to achieve that. 

 

23/6/25

"just speak a premonition of something. So, so premonitions happen when consciousness expands. You have to remember that time is not linear. So, if your consciousness is expanding, the reason premonitions happen is because you are having a vision of something that's going to come to pass. But that doesn't mean that no one used free will to choose it by the time it gets there.
 It just means that you are seeing it because time is not as linear as we normally experience it in our day-to-day life. So that's half of the answer. Visualize that your normal waking state consciousness, the average consciousness of the average person, the waking state as like a straight line above your head. But you only get to experience the part that's right above your head because your your sphere of consciousness is not a very big sphere.
 As that sphere of consciousness expands, it expands outward along the directions of that line like a bubble that just gets bigger and bigger, which means you become aware of things that are that are happening outside of linear time. Thus they are what we call a premonition because your consciousness is slightly expanded beyond the normal waking state static level. That's all it is.
Free will is a whole separate matter. And we do have free will to an extent. The more conscious we become, the more we are able to actually engage with the true what's more a true free will. Most people are being played rather like sock puppets, by the powers that want them to have particular experiences by the archetypal forces that are um part of what we call the soul cage that are uh ebbing and flowing and moving across each other back and forth in this perpetual dance.
 And we're just human beings sort of stuck in the middle. And as those different energies move back and forth across the sea of themselves, we just get affected and spun around by them. In addition to the fact that higher powers can use less conscious people relatively like sock puppets in order to get them to do the things that they need to do to have experiences they need to have because they're not conscious enough to communicate with them and say, "Hey, you need to do this.
" Part of mystery work is getting to the level where you are actually uh becoming ripe enough to be able to have those conversations on purpose and meaningful engagement to engage in whatever the things are that need to be done for evolution to happen. But because most people are not given training or anything to ripen them to be able to begin to be aware of that, they just get bopped around in the sea of energies in order to bring about a slow but consistent evolution that takes many many many uh rounds in order to accomplish.
Mystery work accelerates that process by learning to fully consciously engage with those said powers and also to dissolve their direct effect upon you in the way that it normally is. When you dissolve the barriers in the soul cage that are related to each of those archetypal powers, then whichever power you fully integrated can no longer bop you around because it's completely integrated with you as opposed to it being something that can push you around.
So, um, as and of course that happens in levels. It doesn't just happen like you just, you know, do one thing and it you pop into that state and you're just there. It doesn't work that way. It's it's a process. But as you work through that process, you at the same time concurrently, which is what enables the whole thing to happen, you're taking things that are that you are currently that are currently part of the unconscious and you are making them part of the conscious. And as you do that,
having free will begins to mean more and more and more conceptually because you have much more awareness of things of which you were previously unconscious. And as you do that process more and more and more, eventually there's a flash point where things happen. And that's where fuller states of illumination occur.
 But along the way, what you're doing is dissolving what we call the bars on the soul cage, which are simply archetypal powers. At the end of all of that though, the ironic thing is that at that point when you have free will as a as a much more conscious person, what you become aware of is the fact that the only truly useful thing to do with your free will is actually surrender it to your higher genius.
because your higher genius is the one holding all the cards and it's the one that pulls all the strings essentially. So even all the things that you're learning in order to get to the point where you can have that arrangement with the higher genius that's all still being orchestrated by the higher genius.
 So in the end, by the time a person does enough work to be able to be responsible enough to be entrusted with complete and total free will, they at that point have the consciousness and the wisdom to know that surrendering it to their higher genius is actually the most intelligent thing to do.
 But by the time a person has worked through all those things, then they are done with needing to do things the way things are normally done. by people who are still doing things in what we call the normal consensus reality way of living. So it's kind of a big deal on one hand and yet sounds somewhat anticlimactic on the other because it's all so integrated explaining it in a linear way helps to make it sound more sensible but it's really multiple things happening at the same time.
pre generally not things that are going to happen off in the way distant future. They're usually things that are just around the corner. Uh that's generally how it's been for me as well. Um even to the point where I've been given the names of particular people. Um, and it's it's just um the thing is is that even though you have a precognition, it doesn't mean that's exactly what's going to happen.
 It means that at the current time that you get the precognition, that is where the nexus of possibility is is currently pointed. It doesn't mean it's absolutely written in stone. um at the same time. So, so if something were to happen and you were able to say stop it or circumvent it, that could resolve the issue, but at the same time, if that particular person's fate is to go through those particular things, if you circumvent it one way, it's just going to pop up another way.
You're not going to stop it. So precognition on our end of things is more about um insight and acceptance of things that are going to come rather than necessarily trying to do anything about it. You're not being given the precognition so that you can try to insert your will into something else that's happening to someone else.
 their higher genius is in control of that and it's not up to us to decide um to interfere beyond a certain point of general caring and trying to be a good person and doing what you feel is the right thing to do. But extreme interference is not um is not the goal. And in fact, if you use extreme interference, you'll find that precognition um will decrease because you're trying to insert your will in a situation and you're missing the point of the precognition in the first place, which isn't to be responsible for changing it. It's simply
to be aware of the fact that something's going to happen. So some of the things that happen in the ripening process along the way can be difficult because all of a sudden you know things that are things that you wouldn't normally know and then you feel like you need to do something about it only to a degree um that borderlines on spiritual arrogance to a certain point because interfering in somebody else's free will is not your job. That can be difficult.
So precognition is not always regarded as this happy wonderful thing. Um depending on of course what you're preconceiving. Uh but it is a faculty that does expand and increase over time and it can be very useful in helping guide certain things. But in the beginning, the experiences that you have uh may be not those things that seem particularly helpful.
 It's just insights of things that happen because your consciousness is ripe enough for them to slip through. It can be a little difficult to accept and process, but there's really no way of circumventing it. Either your consciousness is expanding and therefore you're going to have all the things that go along with that good, bad, and ugly, or your consciousness is not expanding and it doesn't matter.
 But there's no way to pick and choose like a smorgus board of I want these things and I don't want those things. So you have to accept all of it. And that, you know, comes with its own set of complications, but that's how those things basically come through. And when you do have strong precognition, you get if there's enough nosis that comes along with it, then uh even more information can come with it than just the insight of the thing happening.
 Doesn't always happen, but it can. you attempting to change the way some the direction that something's going is going to not the sci-fi route where you're doing all kinds of craziness and causing all the things that they make up in those movies. I'm simply saying that one of the things that happens at a depth level of training is the ability to communicate with the higher genius to be able to find out whether or not you should or should not interfere in a particular thing that's happening.
That's part of knowledge and conversation with the higher genius. If it is your role to do something about a particular thing, then fine. But if you take it upon yourself to do it without having that confirmation, without dispensation for doing it, then you are sticking yourself in the middle of something that you're not supposed to be in the middle of, and there will be repercussions as a result.
 You're messing with stuff. So, it's a bit of a double-edged sword. you become aware of more things, but you also at that point at a later point develop the ability to communicate to find out whether you should or shouldn't do anything. And it's not a um uh it's not a wishful thinking thing where you just imagine that they're telling you that yes, you should do something.
 It's incredibly clear. When you're seeing things about yourself, that's information that's related to you. You have the choice of how you want to deal with that. When you related to other people, that's where the stickiness comes in. You are seeing things that are related to you.
 It's either some part of your consciousness giving you a heads up of, hey, this is going to happen. Not much you can do about it, but just letting you know. It's kind of like a drive by sticky note. And then you just are a little easier easily more easily able to navigate what happens because you're aware that it's coming.
 And other things they're showing you this is the course that things are on and the particular nexus of where things are at unless you change something to make a different outcome. When it comes to yourself, you have of course free range to do those things. You don't just have to accept what's happening if it's not uh for your highest good.
You know, this happens to people a lot in the beginning of um of of this kind of spiritual training where people are in a relationship with someone or they want to be in a relationship with someone and very clear insight comes that this is not the person that you're supposed to be in a relationship with.
Not that there is a supposed to, but being in a relationship with this person is going to obstruct your path. But because people have an emotional attachment to it, they try to make it happen anyway and then all hell breaks loose because they didn't listen or they didn't want to listen or they didn't really want to believe that that was correct information.
 No, that wasn't really a clear message. That was just, you know, my blah blah blah. uh they come up with all kinds of reasons why that information was not actually useful until of course it proves itself to be true in the end because everything is imploded because they wanted something that was not part of something that was on the path that was most productive for them.
 That happens a lot until finally it happens enough that you've been steamrololled enough times because you didn't pay attention that you start to learn. That's called trial by fire. And eventually you come to realize that those particular messages are accurate and they're for your own good.
 And if you don't listen to them, the the masters aren't going to suffer. You are. You're the one going to pay the price. and after a while you get smart enough that you don't do them anymore. That particular level of the process can take a while, longer for some than others.
 Some people learn really quickly, some people do not. I can admit I was one of the thicker cases in some of those particular issues because I was very stubborn. But eventually you get steamrolled enough you stop doing that. So everybody's different but that's for for most people in the beginning that's where the majority of the stickiness comes.
 U there's something that something or someone that they're attached to having in their life even though that particular someone is a complete and total obstacle to actual spiritual progress. And as long as that person is around in your energy field, things that you should be doing that are important are going to always be marginalized by the things that that other person wants to do.
 And people will go along with it until they realize that that's the nature of the relationship. And that that person has been placed in their life as a general obstruction by the powers that like to keep people separate from the things that are evolutionary."

I found a new transcript plugin that has better formatting I had to manually format the old ones and it took ages so this will help make reading it easier. 

This is the alchemist on subconscious capacity and free will and influence and manifestation and stuff like that. The most interesting part is that he was saying that the "steamroll" effect we face is most often because you're not making decisions you FEEL are necessary. Remember that the intuitive KNOWING sense of NEEDING to do something (even if that's very intangible but you still feel what it means as a gnosis) IS the method of communication for most people to receive these insights that you'd otherwise get when you're doing this more advanced work where it comes in dreams or spontaneously as visions and such. I've had people tell me in coaching that they'd receive a voice that told them what would happen before it did or they saw it happen in a dream and it happened in reality too soon after. These people often have had some form of powerful psycho spiritual type experience when they were younger when I have deeper talks with them. Manifesting specific things to happen at specific times and trying to control things only takes you away from natural striving, unless that intent is correct then it would've happened anyway as I've said. This whole deliberate manifestation idea is a scam to be honest because most people aren't clear enough for that to work for them firstly and secondly they're likely going to run into dip cycles over and over and blame my coaching for them not getting the outcome when the outcome was instead God's will trying to show them what's necessary. I can't overpower the will of God. Nobody can. That's really the context of what NG was saying about "nobody has free will" because we're all driven by powers greater than us, at least until that's become integrated and you become the supply. If you need someone else to be your supply then you're going to face peak dip cycles until you learn that's not for you. Theurgy process involves going into lucid dream states and evoking certain aspects of your psyche to interact with them and extract certain info from them to KNOW in a direct manner what decisions need to be made so that this subtle sense is conscious and not just a subtle sense of knowing something vaguely. That's at least another part of it that he hinted at in this talk. It's both purifying AND clarifying. Gazing is the same, though it's a lesser form of theurgy that's not deliberate and specific.”

What the alchemist is saying here is basically that our beliefs don't actually matter to what shows up and that this belief idea that NG throws around that "you must believe it" is a load of trash in reality which is why I still am clearly critical of that point he makes in my videos, despite many people not liking what I say. I don't care because they have no reason or experience that's able to demonstrate how belief is causative to all things. I've said that underlying all that psychological stuff is the thematic elements unfolding which really is all there is. The alchemist says the archetypes, same idea. Thematic elements move us to the degree we're able to be conscious of that movement. Natural striving is operating through us all and the experiences we manifest into our lives show up for functions that are necessary for our expansion of awareness. 

 

Max dosing jelly has given me literally superhuman energy like I feel like I did back when I was the parkour legend in school flipping off roofs between blocks in style. It's there. Vitality from then got totally eaten up and you hit these plateaus that simply can't be broken without breaking through them with MORE qi. Qi is the power here, yang, higher order yang, kidney heart qi. Kidney qi is basically TEST and heart qi is the expression of that made through consciousness. It directs that biochemical power. Heart qi is able to be pretty well measured by the sense of "lightheartedness" you live by. You won't be immune from feeling everything else but the ratios will shift and the baseline will move. Blood and qi move together remember so just because you crank up the qi tonics doesn't mean you'll benefit without the yin based carrier. Every yang has in in it and vice versa right. Either way you go back in time when you supply yourself with massive vitality. You literally go back in time, visibly you'll probably look the same because you have to complete multiple circulations of qi from filling up the internal space from bottom to top inner to periphery. Yes qi generally gathers on the periphery but there's also organ qi especially zang fu organ forms which hold far more yang in vitality buffer. When those fill up, mostly the kidney and heart qi, then overflow can happen on the periphery and you start to "glow" which is why that glow can't be faked. That's the aura that attracts people, even if you really physically look the same in reality. People will view you differently and they'll begin to WANT to interact with you to taste that energy. They won't be able to help it. I don't think this is 100% overlapping with subconscious related themes but it's definitely there. I also will say that these capacities can burn VERY fast too. Like I've been observing how I feel over various phases of the day and different things how they make me feel and I have gained understanding that you can deplete vitality very fast if circumstances are right for that. It's not like "banking" vitality it comes and goes up and down over the day so observe this and you might fine what's depleting it. The goal isn't peaks but stability.  

 

24/6/25

It seems there’s 2 pathways by which manifestation can play out. I’ve said all this before in different parts but it’s not been put together in this way before. There’s manifestation that happens through natural striving where we’re integrating the necessary experiences and then there’s the “wishing” point. NG seemed to have taught both and this is partly why I’m coming to see this. I’ll do more writing on this tomorrow because it’s late but if you go through all the data you’ll find that this whole “effortless” manifestation idea really is legit when it comes to having specific things that you’re desiring show up just with a single affirmation or a single script you wrote or whatever and you leave it and go about your day. When we factor in premonitions as in peering into events yet to happen as well as what comes through us for functions that are necessary for our transformation we will see that it’s very often that facing pressure allows us to integrate and become comfortable with a theme of experience and once that theme has been made comfortable the conditions for effortless assumption have been created. It’s available to us systematically. Thematically related aspects that contextually relate also would need comfort to a certain degree as well. 

My point here is that when doing stuff like effortless assumptions however you experience that with the senses can only exist if you’ve got that available for you, meaning that how manifestation is taught now is backwards thinking that availability is the same for everybody when in reality the comfort comes through facing pressure. You cannot establish comfort without having established availability of something else you don’t have it there within you on that intuitive level where the magic happens and thoughts can flow through you. I’m going to argue that the methods such as affirmations or whatever are simply means by which the already available assumption that exists can make itself consciously available as self recursion unfolds. It’s already there. The method doesn’t make it happen, the method is the proof of already having. The methods exist to create the conditions by burning off not self excess dissolving uncomfortable pressures to make available those themes or that the methods themselves are signs of what’s coming through you being present. 

The only reason someone who’s not comfortable would use a technique and attain an outcome that’s specific is because that’s the box. The alchemist has said before that you can seemingly manipulate things using your will to a degree which I too have experienced with SP manifestations in the past while I was still very warped and I could make them show up but they’d never stick around for me. The reason why is because they needed to show up to show me the limit and provide opportunities to transform that when they arise under that pressure. Those moments of compromise I held onto. Looking for the peak to feel better instead of embracing the natural dip with the lesson. Go with the flow. So the point is to recognise that manifestation as a thing you do to get something doesn’t exist. Anyone claiming it does exist outside of the context of greater process and natural striving driving your experiences and what thoughts come through you to reveal them in the world is missing the entire function of things and NG arguably taught this to some degeee too.

Now the conscious and deliberate level of manifestation works more or less through the means of this same process except this is on the spectrum of optional “side quests” that are off the main story. The main story is natural striving which gives you the most XP for your character and the higher level abilities while the side quests offer bonuses to simply compliment that path. Along the way of the story when integrating different parts of you you’ll be able to have that influence to the degree that can make things smoother. This is in face what NG taught as I quoted him saying that the law “cushions the blows of life” and never said it will make them all go away. He NEVER taught using this to escape suffering, at least in his later lectures but his early ones you could imply that. So with this in mind NG himself saying that there’s something greater than making material stuff show up is saying there’s other functions that are mostly out of our control. This whole thing of conscious and deliberate manifestation is along the lines of control over your path vs accepting what’s already necessary to happen. As I said yesterday theurgy is in part communicating with intelligences to gain access to know what decisions neeed to be made and where to go. You’re communicating with the intelligences of natural striving more or less inserted of relying on intuitive impulse which most people access when those feelings come up. So LOA as it’s taught is based on the complete denial of natural striving of any form with any fixed functions yet that’s what NG taught later on. The controlling reality ideology can only happen to the degree then that you’ve progressed far enough on the main story to integrate the themes or the levels necessary to unlock those optional quests so to say. The optional quests don’t even fully need the story but you’d be a fool to try without that and waste time. 

I’ve found that most conscious and deliberate manifestation works simply through “suggestion” to a greater power. The way NG described the lullaby method actually quoted that as part of it. “As though you’re praying to a higher power” under the context of looping “thank you” when sleeping as the affirmation with the assumption of what you want already being done. That’s still a hope really but it’s this idea of suggesting that something has already happened or will happen. You don’t need to have this done from the end you just don’t but for good practise it wouldn’t hurt. Most of the time when manifestations happen as a function of thoughts coming through you under natural striving context it’s probably not going to be from the end as I’ve proven over and over. You can say “I havnt” and it’ll still happen. You’ve had this happen too if you remember times in the past. I believe that when using methods to influence through what’s already available then simply asking God or writing it down and leaving it or doing anything as though you’re “setting” a “suggestion” for things to happen a certain way really is all there is to it. It’s already available remember. The methods that work the most reliably there involve ZERO effort. Why? Because it’s already there and yet it’s also conscious and deliberate where there’s minimal contrast. If there was contrast then the signature would be warped. Trying to make something happen through persistence is stupid. I’ll say the amount of time you spend on this should be the minimum amount possible for impact. Less is more with this side of things. This is NOT about purification but about influencing on a side quest, thus why facing pressure isn’t part of that equation. If there is pressure to be faced then you’ll be given an opportunity to do so as I did in my last last video. You’ll observe this too, but that’s not effortless effortless because it’s not fully available yet. When it’s fully available and you can hav with come to you without trying at all then it requires you to be the supply, else you’ll be led to become the supply through facing pressure. If you aren’t then that’s main story stuff. That’s how I’m going to categorise this based on my current understanding. There’s main story and side quests. Most people are thinking the main story are the side quests and are not levelled enough to face the bosses when they show up. Natural striving is foundational for all this to work. Doing any form of control type stuff while still avoiding the main story wil destroy your life. That’s what happens to most people in LOA including myself when I had to learn that the hard way. 

Manifesting specific things deliberately is as simple as claiming something without caring about it enough to question your decision. It’s what you want and you affirm it or wish it (same thing really) or just set your intention in a sort of prayer. You do not need to do it the way NG describes you can simply say “wouldn’t it be nice to have a blue Porsche 911 in my garage” and let that go because simply that act was enough to get that desire out of you where it’s just a wish. When it’s more than a wish then you’re screwed. You’re holding on. You need it. It becomes your supply. At that level you’re moving into main story stuff of integrating themes to access those side quests with level requirements to start. You can do it without that but it will be next to impossible in reality and you’ll just give up. When you drop care and importance is when they show up and that mechanic is as I’ve written so much on meaning you have the supply for it already available. If it’s available then it’s a power you have to access in manifesting and influencing as the supply for others. That’s your mastery. The main stony gives you the most XP and stuff while the side quests are just bonuses. If you try and overpower the main story of natural striving with the optional side quests then you’re really going to learn the hard way not to go into situations when you’re not levelled and have high tier gear. You cannot make they work reliably, though also don’t expect the person to show up just because you got over them. These themes overlap between main story and side quests often and when you’ve gotten over someone doesn’t mean they’ll show up anyway. That relationship served its purpose and wanting them back as a cool wish that’s detached probably won’t do anything anyway because you’ve already fulfilled that main story mission so it’s no longer even part of what’s available to you anyway. You’ve run through that dungeon and now it’s locked. You got the loot and you’ve moved onto the next one. You can knock on the door at the start but it’s locked now. Why would you want to run through that dungeon again? 

 

25/6/25

Mirror date.

I've basically concluded that this manifesting thing happens spontaneously and the methods we do can only accelerate the process. There is no "make it happen" method not even SATS or whatever with gazing it's simply you expanding subconscious and yet at the same time on top of that you'd also need the available components for deliberate imaginal acts to work reliably. The way I see this is more or less that naturalness comes spontaneously. You CANNOT FAKE NATURALNESS. This is the BIGGEST fantasy of the entire LOA space thinking you can "do" something to make it happen. It's ALL availability of thematic resonance and supply to what you're tuning into which opens up the ability FOR naturalness to be there to come through you. It's a part of you or its not. There's middle ground and that's more about further refinement. I've gone in circles over and over and over on this idea and nothing further comes up to provide clarity it's just that most people don't want to hear that they can't get it now. You cannot fake it and thinking that doing anything other than being yourself moves you through that is delusion. Integration of those themes that correspond to what's desired gives it to you, even if you DON'T BELIEVE IT, consciously at least. Your body does and it has that glow and that radiance that draws people to you but for you at that point is natural and you don't "feel" that as part of you because it's simply available. That availability is "normal" which IS HAVING IT ALREADY. The mental imaginal thing honestly has next to no impact and trying to manipulate people black magic style is just wasting time. I can't believe I even have to write this out again like what the heck is going on in this space.

Look when you're not trying to do it it's because it's already there. You build these currents ALL the time when you DON'T try and control them. The most direct example of this is kidney and heart qi. When you try and force things you deplete those currents and you'll have to cultivate again from scratch basically in a new cycle. When you leave them to build and overflow where they're oriented naturally without controlling or giving into compromise patters of needing someone else as your supply because you don't feel like you can be your own then you'll almost like magic manifest what you affirmed for days or weeks earlier. Why? Because of the supply/demand of themes that mediate experiences and the expansion of subconscious space that happens when you're not trying to overthink and control things which shrinks it significantly. It's that when you face pressure you build coherency to attaining more of that theme in supply because that is how you dissolve the distortions that warp what would otherwise be in infinite supply in capacity. The belief side of things works this same way. Thinking that feeling good is attuning to it destroys your supply IFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF you KNOW there's compromise under the surface. You will know that because you'll face those patterns in the peak dip cycles and so you only have yourself to blame by avoiding it and trying to feel positive in meaningless ways. You CANNOT let go of that feeling of compromise without facing the pressure. CANNOT EVER, because that's the mechanism that's keeping you stuck in the first place by avoiding it. Why do people never let go? Because they're unwilling to face pressure. If it was that easy we'd all be multi millionaires by thinking but that's got necessary pressure to face to feel normal and integrate those themes. This is what ALL of my videos have been pointing to. There's main story quests and side quests to use game analogies. The main story gives you the most experience for what's truly necessary or your purpose and yet on the side there's also stuff you can do to some extent to accelerate those by the main story will always be playing out and you cannot avoid that. NG taught this too and it's proven in the quotes in my last video about how we face suffering and how "god zaps" us into different roles "for the work to be done in him". I STILL have some whacked fools thinking there's no fixed functions despite quoting NG himself on that. 

The letting go sense is very real though I will argue that as with all this stuff no matter how hard you "try" you won't be able to fully dissolve to a new threshold without sufficient vitality or nourishing current to act as a purifying supply in contrast to make the resistance actually break down in a meaningful way. You cannot process it all at once without sufficient space and nourishing current and all that stuff it just can't work. If you're forced to feel all that at once then you'd probably die. It's blocked off from your access to keep you safe from having your psyche broken in half and the heart qi is what does that. There's actually a specific form of heart qi that does this not just "qi" but "lightning qi" as my qigong master called it. There's different forms of qi. Understand that there's no way you can mentally tap that without performing evocations to contract from an external supply like magicians do. That's not your power though. Kidney qi is responsible for warming the whole body and also holding yin in the body which is why you sweat when you work hard because you're spending qi. 

Also I just manifested 3k for free while writing this. Interesting. No conditions attached money deposit so I'd call that "free". I swear whenever I actually be myself (which is spending energy correctly) then I am more lucky and have stuff show up like this. Doesn't happen instantly but when you cultivate more vitality this works. Why? It's what I just said, it is available and within you when you're supplied with those themes. Physically moving myself the way I resonate with tends to do this a lot, even if it's not what I want it will always work out for me. Also doing this work when I feel necessary too. I KNOW that going through certain subjects I've studied in the past that were VERY difficult to write about (seedline doctrine for example) cracked open my subconscious SIGNIFICANTLY more and lately I've been having lucid dreams where I'm waking up in the dream up to 3 times a night now. It's very interesting. When I lucid dream I still can't fully control things though I find that it's like visualizing or imagining a scene where there's still blurriness on some levels and lack of details like it's almost "difficult" to imagine specific stuff in the lucid dream state. 

Lets make this simple. Vitality supply = integration of thematic component = naturalness of belief where it comes through you spontaneously. It's an overflow kind of thing. I swear that's the most simple I can make this. It's not belief, because how do you quantify belief? Belief in something means you have it available and that's an availability of a thematic current which corresponds to that sensory level experience you believe in. That's a subconscious belief which the unconscious is clear to have available. The "work" is dissolving unconscious trash that muddies the signal of what could otherwise be a clear belief meaning a clear connection to that thematic provides that supply at baseline. 

This doesn't explain fixed trajectory and natural striving with what's necessary vs not but it's simply the functions of what CAUSES it underlying the conscious level you experience. I could write endlessly on all the different levels of that but more or less the experience is that if you have it you don't look for it and you can simply "suggest" the idea like in a single line of writing on a script or a random thought you have you don't even have an intent to manifest and boom there it is. That's normalcy. Feeling emotionally high does NOTHING to benefit you and is more or less going to cause suffering because the only real reason why you'd want to do that (to input a feeling not have it come through you because you're abundant in supply of that theme) is because you're LACKING. Common sense right? This is why simply living your best life and being yourself and making decisions you know are necessary manifests things you didn't even think about, partly because that's the main quest story stuff that's already lined up for you because of the will of God and also because when you integrate those components through those experiences you'll have secondary overflow into side quests. How the heck do you explain it more simple than that!? HOW!? You can't, as far as I'm aware. 

How do you then actually get places and change circumstances from lack to benefit? Follow natural striving which IS being yourself without compromise. Go all the way. Going all the way CAUSES it because it's working the mechanic mentioned above to clean the signal to what's available in capacity. The work is feeling through the trash to process and dissolve it so it can put out a clear signal. That's the foundation above all else and don't let anyone fool you otherwise. That is 110% in fact also what NG taught which I've quoted him implying in his later lectures so nobody can prove otherwise. It's done dammit I can't go deeper! I keep running up against this wall nothing new is coming out. Just be yourself. Just follow what you know is necessary and TRUST. That's having faith. How the heck do you show faith mentally outside of being willing to face pressure? The pressure is the test. DUH. The faith is not intensity of belief because that intensity feeling of effort comes from lack and lack implies there's no clear link to that theme in availability. This means that how people are teaching this doesn't work. The way it works is through cleaning the link by dissolving unconscious resistance which involves both supplying vitality to have as the nourishing current which is like the cleaning agent and your hand wiping it off the dirty glass to make it clear again is the focus of the direction of application. Facing pressure is cleaning the glass, even if you don't feel it in the moment it does and that can take multiple runs on the same theme but so be it. Faith IS being willing to go through pressure, to trust, to know it's possible and to accept that this is necessary. Faith isn't magical or some thing you cultivate by gradually finding proof. Your body believes because it's supplied with vitality, or we could say the unconscious is clean which is the same thing. Body being clear with the signals and the unconscious being clear are the same thing. There's no way that you can "cultivate faith" without facing pressure and or cultivating vitality through similar means but always facing the lessons necessary are going to clear a bulk of the trash. Thinking positive stuff not for the purpose of making those things happen but for the purpose of bringing up the contrast barriers (which is why when I imagined what I wanted in the past I'd feel anxiety for example because it's a "positive" thing running up against trash resistance and that's the same thing mechanically as targeting work doing the ascending practice that the alchemist teaches) and to feel through them, though if you're running up against them consciously and deliberately and you don't have sufficient vitality to process it then it won't do much other than chip away at particles of it each time. You REQUIRE nourishing current of kidney and heart qi (and others but that's the main elements as far as I'm aware) in order to process resistance IN A TARGETED MANNER. If you're doing gazing it won't be a conscious deliberate target and it will pull out whatever it has availability to do, like ascending. It's the same thing. So the real reason why some get results with targeted work over others is because they've got that sufficient (doesn't have to be 100% but even 20-30% perhaps) buffer vitality corresponding to the necessary currents to dissolve that resistance in a meaningful way and thus clean the link to that theme to provide that availability. It can take time, weeks or even months WITH decent vitality though the more vitality someone has (again primarily heart/kidney qi) then the more they'll be able to process at once. You cannot bypass this. There's ZERO chance of bypassing these mechanics because that's WHAT the "law" operates through. All of it runs through this program, if we'd call it that. This program is how consciousness works and can be proven on every level. 

I dare anyone to prove me wrong. Find a circumstance where this isn't explained. I can explain every example without exception, including the miracle ones. I've spoken to clients who have been through NDE's and they told me that they were told to come back and finish certain things before being resurrected. This also proves my point about the necessity of how God or higher genius/greater process or whatever will basically force you through certain experiences because that's actually what that level of you NEEDS from YOU (when NG said "the work to be done in him referencing this same circumstance) to go through that and the alchemist has said that God can literally infinitely boost you in vitality and "zap" anything in the way if it does to give you what you need to complete the work. It's that you need to go THROUGH the pressure to integrate those themes. THERE'S NO WAY AROUND THIS AND THAT'S WHY YOU EXIST IN CORPOREAL FORM! NG also said this in that quote. So once again. I dare anybody to prove this incorrect. If you've read this then you now know everything about manifesting on every level mechanically speaking. Just do it. You're now the one responsible for application. 

Deep and dynamic gazing.
Boost TEST.
Trust and be fearless
Refine sensory stimulus
Experience that "lightness" of the heart
Pathway work and or journaling regularly to identify patterns
Ascending (praise love gratitude compassion relating to greater yin which opens up greater yang to move you automatically when baseline is established)
Read scripture

Specific manifesting methods are simply gazing for 15 mins then scripting (personally I find the best)

 

26/6/25

The grasping for pleasure in the pain is the cause of holding on. You’re giving up a supply that’s outside your correct orientation. Suffering is controlling where you supply vitality from that’s incorrect. Letting go of a part of you means letting go of that supply of vitality which feeds this dysfunction. 

 

Been trying to get this all into a visual graph and it's so insanely difficult. Making an RS flow chart is a nightmare to be honest there's so many parts that all need to interact. 

 

Letting go of (going through) pressure correctly is how resistance is released. Vitality when resistance is present will manifest AS PRESSURE seeking balance through natural striving. BOOM. New level. The latest attempt to make a flow chart connected those dots interestingly. I kinda already knew that but it's abundantly clear now. This is in fact what Wilhelm Reich wrote about. He was the origin of this idea in my mind after all back in 2019. His orgone model mirrors my model of RS very closely when it comes to spending energy correctly to release resistance or what he called character/muscle armoring. He called is muscle armoring because of vegetotherapy as a modality he used to work with the nervous system and dissolve resistance. I believe this is a valuable method but not something you can do over distance. Manual therapy is my origin into "health" work after all. So simply put, when resistance is present (the ratio changes as more dissolves when means more can go to actually nourishing and reversing damage physically speaking) then vitality will not go to restoring physical vigor to the same degree because simply put the more vitality you have available (endocrine and nervous system function) the more pressure you'll feel to discharge that in a way that's going to avoid pressure. The WANT to dissolve pressure CORRECTLY can ONLY be cultivated with expansion of subconscious space, which is why all these guys who have high TEST and insane drive to spend energy still don't actually end up becoming immortal. Testosterone is as far as I know the most direct physical manifestation of kidney qi there is in the biochemistry next to dopamine response (which I'd argue is more related to heart qi but either way they're related) and kidney qi is the root of all qi and qi disperses to the periphery when in abundance manifesting that glow and shine and youthfulness that is why when you're teens/early 20's you look the best due to these functions being peak. I know that NG and all these types don't talk about hormones and nervous system stuff but if we're dead serious and not picking what we want to hear vs want to discard these functions are VERY important because they're the most reliable way we can quantify that invisible vitality I talk about. You can measure subconscious capacity as a function of flow which is what the alchemist literally said to me when I asked this last week and if space relies on the unconscious being clear enough to manifest that then the unconscious is the basis for subconscious capacity which involves the nervous system and endocrine system which manifests as kidney and heart qi which unfolds as the belief you hold. You cannot bypass those mechanics because belief must have corresponding thematic components in supply for you to even "know" that to be true for you which IS having buffer availability which IS having a sufficiently clear unconscious mind to expand that subconscious space to deliver clear signals for those themes to be in supply thus belief manifests. NG is simply teaching you to use that vitality in imaginal experiences instead of physically, which IS possible though VERY unreliable even for myself. We're talking about BREAKING BOXES AND LIMITS, not manifesting things that are comfortable. Anyone can manifest simple things easily when doing scripting or having those thoughts come through you but often that's a function of ripeness and natural striving which is the whole other side of this equation.

That should make things crystal clear. I don't think I can explain it more simply than that. Take this with my explanation above about main vs secondary manifestations as a function of natural striving and you'll figure it out. The degree to which you go all the way is the degree to which you'll utilize available vitality in NECESSARY ways that transform that pressure. The more pressure there is the more you'll want to compromise but also the more potential you have to run up against resistance and clear it out. The alchemist said that accelerating ripeness is how subconscious is expanded but I will say that ripeness is in part at least what I just wrote above today about using pressure to purify not self and clear the unconscious mind out from impurified. The alchemist says that overlapping conscious and unconscious mind is how the subconscious is expanded, and qi is a higher order yang substance which by nature is "conscious" in archetypal nature being the catalyzing factor to burn out dampness or pathogenic yin which is crystalized resistance. I've written about this in earlier pages but simply put qi and yang are necessary to break down resistance meaning that this fulfils the thematic overlap of yin and yang to create higher order yin which IS clear water being earth through fire distilling out the impurities of the unconscious mind by fire AKA pressure AKA nervous/endocrine function pushing natural striving and intuitive impulse KNOWING where to spend energy. At that level it's up to you to "go all the way" in using that cultivated vitality to clear not self resistance and overlap the states. 

There that all came through me. That's the best explanation I've done yet. Best explanation ever written really. It's crazy because every time I say I've hit a wall I break through soon after. EVERY TIME. You've seen that happen. If it worked the way LOA gurus promote then my belief in the end of the line would manifest lack but it never does. That right there proves there's fixed functions to reveal over time naturally and that this build up of understanding over time is simply clearing the not self delusional ideas to make space bit by bit for what is correct. As I said you cannot receive the entirety of RS from being a blank slate with no experience and understand it all. it takes time to process these points in their full depth and to understand how they apply practically. Clearing not self delusions is cleaning the unconscious mind which is done under pressure. Pressure exists as a mechanic which natural striving operates through and intuitive impulse gets louder the more pressure you feel, but also the not self compromise pattern does too and the "challenge" we face with this built in mechanism is can you spend that pressure correctly and do what's necessary or not. That's what this is all about. Making correct decisions. That's the very foundation of what HD is based on, and while I still disagree with the depths of those mechanics in terms of how preictally useful they are in reliability I will say the basic principles are 100% correct and are viewed on every level of reality.

There. What more is there to say? Is that not the more insanely clear explanation of RS ever? I can't just put this all into a video or it'll fall on deaf ears as usual. This community isn't ready for this stuff. My latest videos that are fully going into the depths of denying imaginal work as the method above all have lost my channel significant rep amongst the LOA space it seems, and I don't know if that'll come back because once you cross that line they grab onto for dear life they'll lose interest because it's now in a different cosmology. This is the challenge I face and presenting this in a clear way is next to impossible with those biases in the way. My work isn't the issue, it's how do you lead someone away from the NG mentalism view to fixed trajectory with spending energy correctly and connect that to imaginal acts create reality? Well it's explained here but it needs to be further simplified for their sake. 

What matters the most? Making correct decisions you KNOW are necessary. That's what going all the way IS. Spending energy to the complete degree of your capability in the correct direction, which IS satisfying conditions and shifting belief through the reality of experience. Unless that mechanism can be replicated in imaginal work then there's no overlapping of conscious and unconscious. This means the imaginal scene should elicit the same pressure you'd feel for real if it's going to be impactful to subconscious expansion and clear unconscious resistance. It must deliver to you as they say "proof" that you CAN be yourself, even if not fully but more so. This imaginal method I find requires SIGNIFICANTLY more available vitality to even work on dissolving resistance. Guided work I find can ease that because when you're deficient in your own vitality then eliciting your own response by doing my method of going through the what if scenarios is more challenging to  lead your own pathways. Using a guided audio or something to deliberately trigger them in a specific scenario that's real enough in imaginal work IS the work of going all the way in virtual space. The idea that you can manifest something out of your league without that is just plain ignorant and doesn't work. You'll manifest something but it'll just throw you into scenarios that will force you to face your same resistance you can't face otherwise. This is also something not many people will tell you in the LOA space. Just because someone manifests a person or whatever doesn't mean that person is correct for them outside of the purpose of being there to elicit their resistance and mediate their transformation. This is actually what the alchemist said too in one of his talks that I quoted where he said that most relationships are based on projections of what they want in the person to complete them because the idea that most have when manifesting specific people is that they have what you want and if you have them in your life then you won't need to give that to yourself through integration under pressure. Relationships that are not based on attraction work more functionally as relationships conventionally speaking but aren't as "exciting" as people want because of how that other person can be a supply for them. The ONLY reason why you'll want a specific person in your life is because they have something you want, This is also why I say that you cannot manifest a specific person unless they want what you can give them too in a natural manner, unless you're talking about manipulation. 

What drives us? Pressure. Pressure I will argue is the challenge of natural striving and ripeness is increased through facing necessary pressure which is fulfilling the challenge or conditions against spending that pressure AKA available virality correctly. Is that not clear? This literally explains why everything works, or doesn't. You can do emotionally high work that feels good relating to what you want all you life but that won't actually give you any satisfaction because satisfaction ONLY washes over you from spending energy correctly. You KNOW this if you've ever faced difficult pressure and gone all the way. That relief is what NG is talking about. This relief isn't the relief of manifesting what's already comfortable which means the context of the "it's done" feeling means you've faced pressure all the way. NG was talking about dissolving not self trash, because how can you feel satisfied for something you're already comfortable with as spending energy correctly is what results in satisfaction. Feeling emotionally high isn't satisfying. it's artificially creating this inverse pressure and false reward for not actually dissolving anything which is why it never lasts. Pressure builds up and necessitates release. This IS what libido is, literally. Reich wrote endlessly on this and is how I came to understand natural striving from his cosmology perspective but I've expanded that to what RS has become now in explaining manifestation. Spending energy correctly is being proportionate, being correctly attuned to necessary thematic sequence that is the process of ripeness being further increased which as we said expands subconscious capacity which takes you deeper into those levels of subtle realty. So kidney qi and heart qi when conjugating together as one format will give you that "explosion" of spending energy correctly which is the purifying flashpoint of opening more up to flow and automatically aligned orientation to be correct at baseline. This is how you believe differently, at a baseline level, not from a temporary influence level that comes and goes. This isn't being manipulated to use your limits to shift your beliefs towards serving that compromise pattern but dissolving the compromise and becoming more individuated meaning you've attuned to the themes that provide you the necessary supply for the manifestation of God's will through you which is always unfolding through the mechanism of natural striving and the pressure that opens up opportunity through.  That is what belief shifting happens through. When you're in supply for a part of you that you desire to experience nourished and satisfied then you have to give it to yourself, and since those themes are already in capacity for you all you need to do is be ok without it in the world and accept that more subtle supply within you to resonate to that theme and thus manifest someone who has that in the world for you because then you're the supply for them. You then become a mediator of their resistance. Most men now see women as their supply of vitality to avoid facing the pressure of their libido, but that's the challenge that seed retention necessitates and gives you an opportunity to manifest more abundant relationships. You become the supply for them. If you've ever seen how women act around you when you've got more light (kidney and heart qi) you'll know WHY they're attracted to you. It's not physical in terms of literal sensory stimulus but that you have a subtle supply of vitality that they're looking for, because the yin is looking for the yang to integrate and burn out their resistance. That's their polarity of this challenge, accepting who's necessary for them and not the 666 stereotype that's enabled. There's also psychological levels about how certain people make you feel more safe and fulfil abandonment issues or whatever and that physical vitality isn't really a factor at all which is why often those types end up with narcs so you can see the dynamic of how someone will find their polarity who enables their compromise patterns and that's just another level of this whole pressure thing when it comes to relationships and their function in opening up opportunities to dissolve resistance.

Manifesting specific people that will serve their function in your life is easy. This also refutes the idea about how you can manifest anyone the same without effort, because God is moving certain people to be with you regardless of supply/demand that you want because what you NEED is necessary and that's ALWAYS what God is driving you to fulfil. That's always the function of how manifesting people works above all else. The alchemist has said that God mediates people that you need into your life all the time and the compromise patterns of you holding on just makes things harder until it inevitably ends up exploding when the pressure becomes too great, This is yet more proof that it's not solipsistic and relative to you can be anyone and have anything. Technically you can but it will likely hurt more than you'd think it would long term, and just because you CAN manifest someone when you're expanded a lot doesn't mean you should or that it benefits you in any way. The alchemist has said many times that when you reach a high level of expansion you realize that the best use of this new power is to give it up for natural striving or following what God needs you to do. There are people who get there who want to just go live in the matrix and gain more pleasures but that's not what you're here for. This is also what NG said. "The work yet to be done in him" under the context of God zapping you into a role in life beyond your control. This proves NG didn't teach relativity and mentalism mind magic else this wouldn't have been part of his doctrine, nor would he have said that there's purposes other than manifesting material things in the world either. What more proof needs to be provided? I could talk about all this on video and yet only 5% of people or less would actually get it and take away what they need, because that's the state of collective consciousness and my role to play in breaking through all that trash. I just need to keep going at it when I know I am ready to do so.

 

27/6/25

I’ve realized from experience these days that what I said above is true about vitality and ripeness. Today I had another conversation with the alchemist about ripeness and he actually said that specifically breaking patterns you’re conscious of isn’t a matter of effort but a matter of ripeness. Ripeness under my definition is effectively attunement to necessary themes which opens subconscious space and purifies unconscious. He said that when you’re ripe enough naturally you’ll want to drop off dysfunctional patterns and that when you can see them but can’t dissolve them then it’s a function of lacking clarity and ripeness. Subconscious space, consciousness in the more pure sense. Clarity becomes obvious and this is because vitality has been applied to integrate those themes so that you understand them from that clear perspective vs running up against them from a view of pressure without integration. This is why I said yesterday that pressure that’s been spent correctly is really what accelerates ripeness because you’ll see patterns that don’t work for you often but not seem to be able to dissolve them and that’s because they’re not ready to dissolve fully. Sounds counter productive to manifesting specific things at the times you want but as I also said the control you want with that is part of the problem of why you’re still stuck with those dysfunctions as the attention on getting something that’s unnecessary for you now only holds back ripeness and actually spending vitality correctly. 

Ripeness is simply the measure of what I will say as “suitability of vessel for more of God to integrate within” meaning less dysfunction and more correct function and accelerating ripeness is done through overlapping states which IS burning off not self stuff as an effect of that alchemical interaction. So when the alchemist was saying that trying to break boxes specifically and how it doesn’t actually lead to ripeness it was meaning that actually having the shift in awareness at baseline which makes you WANT to make different decisions instead of like forcing yourself which as I said before comes from a lack of vitality available which makes that contrast visible. Contrast is a lack of nourishment of those themes. When those themes are supplied vitality then they can be spontaneously restored and attuned to. This spontaneous nature is what the alchemist is referring to when saying that doing the psychoanalysis type targeted methods and such other related methods doesn’t increase ripeness. I still still say it can IF you’re vital enough and what does burn off will be particles of it instead of anything substantial though I see what he means. Really he’s teaching that we allow self organizing intelligence to use whatever available vitality we have to dissolve whatever is necessary for us unconsciously without needing to dig stuff up (which is what gazing does) and when time is right then spontaneously that dysfunction will be dissolved. 

The alchemist also said that God can make you act against your will if necessary. If god decides to basically override your corporal awareness then that can happen and God can also hold you back from going too far ahead of where you’re designed to be and you have zero power to stop it. You’re treated “like a sick puppet” as he said in his own words. This is how things work with us and that intuitive impulse. That clarity makes it obvious to you to make certain decisions because that’s what you’re attuned to. That IS belief, really. You’re available for something to be true, and that cannot be faked. This is the seemingly paradoxical nature of LOA stuff because they say we need to shift states but yet forcing state shifts without really having that availability only holds you back more in the dysfunctions where that contrast will persist. Fighting the resistance can only get you to far LONG TERM. You very likely can make short term momentum of beneficial changes that value your vitality but long lasting anchored shifts REQUIRE a shift in baseline availability of vitality and without that you got no chance at consistency. Consistency is the floor of availability raised to a level where it’s feeding functional patterns instead of trying to “maintain” an artificial abundance that’s not there. This is what 90+% of LOA stuff is being taught as. Brute force methods of control using the conscious mind. The alchemist also said that the imaginal senses are conscious mind today too so that’s cool. He said that air is related to that as well. Either way when we raise the floor of vitality then you’ll be unable to fall into dysfunction because the depletion of those currents which led to that dysfunction in the first place has been resolved and supplied and made available in buffer for you to feel comfortable with. Since you then have it within you then you can manifest it at will and make decisions accordingly. This is how manifesting specific stuff works reliably, at least the most reliably that I’m aware of. I have done coaching with many people and the results that come from doing similar processes with these mechanics still aren’t going to guarantee a person will show up even when they do the methods regularly but I find that they’re always much more satisfied and the care for wanting the person fades away in the end anyway. This is why I still say that the result of getting the person isn’t the goal in the end because if the need is satisfied without them then they’ve effectively fulfilled their desire which is being supplied with that current. That’s being individuated. There still seems to be a lack of direct proof that the integration will 100% guarantee that you can influence someone because there’s still subconscious space influences and also God’s will in play too though I did ask the alchemist about that too in a related way and he said that if God isn’t directly involved in blocking someone because they’re getting in the way of what someone needs to go through then you’ll be able to influence them. So long as what you’re doing isn’t against divine order then you’ll have the capacity available to manifest a shift in someone. That’s blasphemy in the LOA space. Who cares let’s just throw it out. I need more quotes from NG to prove it but it seems even the quotes I put in my last vid weren’t enough to convince people so who knows what it’ll take. Repetition might be the method after all. If the illiterate use it and speaks to their compromise patterns of pseudo satisfaction in the limited self deluded peak dip idea then so could I. 

 

28/6/25

Vitality. Using vitality correctly is manifesting. I've really written everything I can about how vitality works at this point. 

 

Cut all the parasites out of your life. Anybody who leeches your vitality needs to get the wakeup call and for you to play your part in facilitating that for them. I swear if you work on doing pathway work and also have a variable on the side of what factors are the most depleting to vitality then you'll gain even more clarity. I've talked about this before though so. 

 

Nourishing yourself is everything. Nobody can say otherwise. Imaginal stuff that's correct is automatic. LOA is a scam the way it's being told. It's half truth. Period. 

 

29/6/25

As if by some coincidence today when I spent almost 3 hours discussing what I call the "secret doctrine of NG" and his history I stumbled upon a post from reddit about the death certificate which concluded that NG died from liver failure. Those assumptions I made before about him dying from liver failure were correct it seems. This post showed up today.

The post is called "Why aren't we allowed to talk about Neville's death here?" and the OP said 

"Mitch Horowitz posted Neville’s death certificate. He died from esophageal rupture and liver cirrhosis, likely from drinking. This isn’t meant to discredit Neville or his teachings. But I’ve noticed that any post bringing this up gets deleted. We should be able to at discuss or at least acknowledge it."

A comment on the thread ignorantly said:
"Neville most certainly predicted his death. His esophagus exploded, something very uncommon if you're not dealing with serious health issues.

You see, Neville talked about The Promise. He literally mentioned being reborn while exploding out of his skull. Exploding = esophagus rupture. He talked about this for many years. So he literally predicted his death. The esophagus connects the head (thought) with the heart (emotion). In mythical circles, the esophagus is sometimes referred to a "reverse birth canal", which again goes in line with what he was talking about:

It was an explosion. It felt as though my head had split in two, and then I came out. - Neville Goddard

But there is no definitive proof that he was a drinker. While the most likely cause of cirrhosis is heavy drinking, it is most certainly not the only cause. It could be autoimmune, non alcoholic fatty liver, hepatitis or overuse of medication. It is a known fact in the latter part of his life, he was not doing so well. He had dental trouble and severe sciatica which made him limp.

This shows us how human he was. Even a man who could move mountains was still what we all are - a living, breathing human being. The physical world got to him as well. He had resistance to particular health problems, like dental trouble, and he said that there was always a block in his mind while he was trying to manifest away tooth pain, so he always went to the dentist rather than trying to make the pain go away. This is also a form of manifestatiton. Dentist helped, pain stopped=Neville very happy.

This shows us that nobody is perfect. His deteriorating health due to age and a failing body witholding a powerful mind that basically completed its designated mission by bringing the knowledge of the Law of Assumption to millions of people - does not point to the fact that his teachings weren't real, or that the Law of Assumption is fake. It just shows us that he was no different than all of us."

I've quoted him saying he went to the doctors because he was physically suffering in his later lectures so this was building up for a long time. This fool believe that NG never died of liver failure and yet every sign points to this being the case. The death certificate being the irrefutable proof of this really, unless that was fake but I highly doubt that. 

Either way the unbelievable amount of metaphysically illiterate takes on the NG subreddit is honestly so bad that it boggles my mind. I've not heard a single person write about the discoveries I've made, but when I've pieced this all together I will make my appearance when the time is correct and have my impact, however big or small that would be. I will prove irrefutably just like I have done with so many other subjects over my time that what people conventionally believe is a load of nonsense and needs to be corrected based on the facts. This has nothing to do with anything other than speaking the facts and not buying into the projection that people put onto NG thinking he's someone he's not. Ultimately as I said in my talk today in the immortality chat I think that NG was a stage performer and I have many different parts to point to this being the case which will be synthesized in the future which will prove the "secret doctrine of Neville Goddard" and put to rest the false ideas about who he was and what he taught. This will be the way that the LOA space is impacted, not through my character but through the facts that cannot be disputed because my character has always been secondary. I don't believe I have the trajectory to out-influencer the influencers, that's not what I was born with the ability to do. There's no delusions involved about that. As much as I think it would be fun to live in that realm for a while I know it's not natural striving. The case will be built and presented as the foundation that people learn about RS through, and then the practical processes will add on top and provide practical methods to work with that actually work. Trying to play competition in their field isn't the method, I will shine light on their field and pull their audience away from their field through revelation of hidden facts about NG. This is divinely planned and I seem to be involved in this purpose in this life. There's no way I've been shown all this stuff over the years without there being a grand finale. I did NOT intend ANY of this to be this way I had totally other ideas in my head years ago as to where this would go but natural striving doesn't care and so long as I did the work I needed to do I was moved. This is what NG taught. NG taught fixed trajectory. Period. 

Another comment said

"I'm fairly certain that he would have wine assisted naps in the afternoon while he did his mid day imagining. I'll edit with a source if I come back to this.

That said, I don't think it discredits his teachings at all. He talks about drinking, smoking, alluding to being with women after his "In Barbados" trip. I think the bottom line was that vices don't matter as much when you know the Law.

He even talked about Abdullah eating a ton of food and ice cream to an unhealthy point, but Ab's body was fairly pristine up until death.

Edit:

Mitch Horowitz, in his Into the Silence article, notes that Neville “often spoke of enjoying alcohol, including a bottle of wine each day with lunch” .

Neville explicitly mentions drinking and smoking and alludes to having sex after 7 years of abstaining in the lecture, I Am All Imagination.

“I said, ‘Ab, how can you do that?’ ‘Oh,’ he said, ‘you couldn't do it… it would poison you, because you have quibbles.’” referring to Abdullah calmly enjoying a large bowl of ice cream despite Neville’s own hesitations. Link"

I'll keep the links in. During a 30 day coaching program I had with someone back in late 2023 the death of NG came up as a talking point and this last quote here from Abdullah was mentioned. I said that Abdullah very likely suffered liver damage from this TO SOME EXTENT and that this idea that your mind can bypass physics without being significantly expanded. If you drink cyanide you're going to die and there's no way around that. Ab likely had other processes he was applying considering he lived to be over 130 as some sources suggest though there's no proof of this. He lived longer than most people apparently though. Either way Ab seemed significantly less damaged by alcohol than others and I believe the biggest reason why is because he simply didn't drink like NG did in a self indulgent manner coming out of a "repressed" state. We know that NG lived life according to biblical law literally speaking, which I still believe is beneficial in many instances because its common sense for a functional society, but on top of that he was obviously holding himself back for false conditions and likely had not self stuff to deal with. In the first linked article it's said that NG took to drinking after every meal, which obviously will cause issues. He then mentioned himself taking to smoking and drinking and indulging in sexual stuff (I'd assume it was excessive to some level because the kidney qi buffer is depleted by upwards of 30+% every time you engage in such EVEN IF you don't climax. That is obvious to any man who looks back on their lives and the impacts such would have on their vitality. Kidney qi is root and kidney qi is almost entirely related to hormones and reproductive health which is literally fertility and vitality and youthfulness made manifest physically. You CAN drink and smoke to some extent and reserve kidney qi and heart qi and not suffer negative impacts, which perhaps Abdullah might've been living by knowing this. If your root of water (especially important in preventing liver damage from alcohol or any excess source of stagnation and dampness buildup because kidney qi emanating from ming men (gate of life) prevents dampness from expanding, just study the wu xing and you'll find that) is depleted then liver issues are certain, though with me I had genetic issues which caused me to be literally born with dampness already present so I had no way of avoiding that which is why I had liver and spleen issues for a while. Regardless though NG wouldn't have taken to drinking and smoking and POSSIVE excessive sexual experiences (which we'd likely not know about if he did anyway) then that would cause the impacts we see. Clearly. 

Almost all these comments are cope for the fact that manifestation as they believe it doesn't work the way they think. Their hero NG clearly had flaws, just as we all do obviously, and they wonder why he wasn't able to manifest health. The reason why is because he was bound to compromise patterns that didn't serve him and he wasn't able to use his pressure to manifest what's necessary and go all the way and thus uses substances to numb that pressure which is what ALL addictions (mild to severe are all based on the same mechanics) are looking to bypass. The substance dissolves the pressure so they don't need to face the responsibility of making correct decisions and since the vitality is then suppressed and deliberately depleted to avoid feeling that self correcting cycle, it will inevitably result in stagnation of those necessary themes and thus physical issues manifesting. I can't believe that people think that children manifest diseases they can't even conceive of with their thoughts or imaginal acts. How stupid. They move the goalposts over and over and over, and this was the question I asked way back in 2021 to a girl I was seeing at the time about this whole idea of "to what extent does this apply". It's actually insane and it's time this mentalism cult comes to an end. None of this is about personalities it's mechanics. That's what RS has always been about. Mechanics. 

This quibbles idea is equivalent to limiting beliefs. Limiting beliefs comes from a lack of clarity over your capacity, which isn't felt because it's not nourished, either because it's not designed to be at that time or because you're compromising on accepting your supply and or spending energy correctly. Compromise means letting your vitality go towards something it's not designed for in that thematic progression. Coping mechanisms like NG had are one. I doubt that anyone who knows that they're suffering liver issues and teeth issues (which also happens when water and ether elements lack qi which happens when you drink excessively and such) and who said they're literally wanting to die in their 60's which NG apparently mentioned openly in lectures (though I've not found source material yet) sounds like someone who's efficiently using vitality. He was simply more open from birth, this was his purpose, else he'd not have found Abdullah or Joseph Murphy wouldn't have either to market "subconscious impression" as it's known today. You see. There's clearly a sort of escapism on his part of not wanting to deal with this world and the responsibilities it has. Towards the end of his career it's also said in one of the lectures that I mentioned before about how his managers tried to control his message because his audience was leaving. He was a stage act and he knew that. NG suffered under the control of his managers, I believe, towards the end of his career, and that's why we hear slips of determinism in his lectures like I've referenced. They're almost all in the lectures that weren't recorded with his voice. I don't think this is by accident. There's been an agenda to push this conscious deliberate manifestation idea that all you need to do is imagine and that's it. This idea has got to go and has been the target that RS has been dissolving the credibility of since day 1. My past entries where I said I'm going to destroy NG was referring to the ignorant doctrine of mentalism, and thus my stance on his doctrine has shifted as I read more of the unseen lectures. There's dozens more to go through still too, but I will get to them in time. 

These people claiming NG "predicted" his death is stupid in my opinion though as I see it now with all the pieces we have in understanding. He didn't predict anything outside of him having the sense of what was coming as a function of his life. It seems to me that his role was finished in terms of propagating the doctrine of mentalism and so was discarded when the deterministic doctrine was to be preached. That wasn't his role, that's my role and people of such nature out there who are connecting these dots. We're here now at this time which is ready to receive this message. We exist and have certain experiences that are necessary for the propagation of the will of God through what we believe are acts we're consciously performing with our free will though the alchemist did say to me in a private order meeting 2 days ago that the higher genius can literally take control over your consciousness and fully drive you to do whatever without you having any say in the matter. The alchemist calls this being treated like a sock puppet, and it's not to disempower us to any degree but it's simply saying that we're not in control of everything in our lives as the mentalism doctrine claims. Most of our control is either to resist flow or not. Spending energy correctly or incorrectly according to intuitive impulse. Trusting in the subtle sense or not. Ripeness is cultivated through such, among other means. 

Anyway an interesting contradiction to this whole drinking himself to death idea is that it's written in some sources that he died from a brain aneurysm apparently claimed by Frank Carter who was with him at the time and his conclusion was simply drawn from the fact that he was bleeding from his ears and nose. This isn't a telltale sign in all cases though a brain aneurysm and the rupture of his esophagus would both be caused by liver wind striking hard and fast which is VERY common in how liver cirrhosis ends people spontaneously. I suffered from liver wind one night after waking up but to a lesser extent and it felt very intense and I felt that yang rising. Proof of this to me is how I had ears ringing and that my eyes were RED like I mean extremely red bloodshot when I looked in the mirror but I was also extremely pale meaning it was a qi stagnation causing the excess heat and wind uprising into my brain which felt like it was going to explode when my ears rang like mad and my vision slightly faded. I know what that's like. I couldn't form a coherent sentence until it faded even in my own thoughts internally. I couldn't do it for the life of me. This happened many times after that to lesser degrees each time but it was not because of any alcohol consumption because I NEVER touch that stuff it was because of other reasons. His death was very much a case of liver wind. qi stagnation, blood coming out of your nose and ears indicates this too. Liver heat, wind, yang rising. That's how his manifestation played out metaphysically. No yin to anchor, which can be a sign of sexual depletion as kidney yin binds yang from becoming pathogenic, and blood feeds the liver in grounding the hun or the liver intelligence from becoming ungrounded. A disturbed hun can and likely will cause the signs of seeming spiritual visions, and the reason why is because that aspect of your consciousness is fragmented from where it should be anchored and you become open to seeing the invisible things you'd not normally see. I don't think this was much of a factor with NG but it's one thing that can also happen, so his daydreams and such he had when lying back and transporting himself to other levels likely was aided in fact by his possibly fractured psyche. I mean he was going on about wanting to unite with God despite him not having completed the work and thus he probably didn't attain anything beyond possibly the lesser conjunction based on the fact that he talked about how he was split in half and he had a baby child child which is actually the BEGINNING of the great work, unlike what he preached, 99.9% of people on the NG reddit are metaphysically illiterate and don't know about anything beyond mentalism so of course you'll hear the same regurgitated takes over and over. His interpretation of his experience of the so called promise was INCORRECT. I've said it before and I'll say it again if you become one with God then you do not physically die because you're immortal physically speaking and any imperfections in the body WILL be purged, His body died of liver wind and yang rising from liver cirrhosis. Doesn't sound like someone who mastered the bible di it? That's not to knock NG as someone who contributed real value to the discussion but him claiming he was already one with God and that his death was mirroring Judas killing himself is just insane in my opinion. He was NOT initiated into deeper understanding beyond that point, and while he did have access from Abdullah to the Jewish mysteries of Kabballah and such it was not taught to him about the great work else he'd talk about that even in his own words but I cannot decode any of the greater work from his lectures. He completed the lesser conjunction at best and thus his soul level became immortal most likely, though his body wasn't because it was not purified. If the body is not purified you cannot complete the work, you cannot become the stone, the vessel for God to fully move through where the 7 archetypal powers are integrated. The alchemist has talked about this just reference his quoted passages I've listed here.

NG fulfilled a limited interpretation of scripture. His doctrine was INCOMPLETE, as far as I know. Seedline doctrine is the one I've studied the most because you don't need initiation into the secrets to understand it fully, and I proved that it's the history of the matrix physically speaking and how manifestation works on that level through the different people of this world. Then there's the higher order initiated view of the bible which is quite far from what NG preached. 

I believe that NG knew his doctrine was losing influence and very likely slowly killed himself over time knowing his purpose was served, from the biblical perspective which was why he considered himself Judas at his death. Everything to him was about biblical characters filtered through a new age lens of alchemy which is obviously backwards in almost every way. Abdullah likely had more understanding of alchemy than NG did. NG did say that he only "came back" to tell people about the promise and later on of course him losing massive amounts of followers and his managers not liking this meant his story of success was over. He had nothing to lose at that point it seems. He welcomed death. Obviously not someone who completed the great work and had become individuated where he can demonstrate superhuman ability which comes with the integration of those more powerful principles over time. I hope we see now why NG as we know him wasn't the person most believe he was or that he had the power most claim he did. He was just tapped into so much and was so open and receptive (you can see it in his HD chart obviously as well as how he was a charismatic speaker with the channel of charisma unconsciously lit up) where he was the perfect stage act to preach the doctrine of manifestation to solve your life problems. This fantasy has been going on because of people back then who wanted to make massive amounts of money from his act. His talents were used to propagate this false doctrine. 

The way he died makes me still think that this whole thing was the will of God. I can't prove that but I have that feeling really. He was only suppose to go so far and reveal certain things for the function he had in his life. One of the main reasons is because NG was in a dream Frank Carter had about him dying as Judas did and when Frank saw the dead body of NG he saw what he saw in his dream. This goes back to the premonition idea that the alchemist talked about where people can see events that are going to happen. To me this all sounds like NG served his function and then he was throttled. He was here to push "the law" as a stage act and be used by his managers to sell the idea to the public for us to have this talk today and expand further. 

 

The feeling of pressure is the feeling that vitality is available to make that process conscious. When you compromise and seek to cope with that awareness you destroy your capacity and need to wait for vitality to build up to make that conscious once again for another opportunity to go through it. There's always degrees to this though, it's not black or white. It's always there but in steps of more or less clarity. 

 

30/6/25

Yeah I had a bunch of girls reach out to me over the last few days, trying to pull me into those games isn't happening of course but the supply is being felt in their end over distance despite not interacting for ages. This same cycle happened last time I nourished vitality as best I could in about the same time frame. I neve thought about them with desire to have them show up, they just did. More proof of LOA being a scam. I had another big sum of money show up for free. I had family reach out to give me good news too. People around me are resolving limits better and my girl has been dying for more of my attention, almost in a needy way. It's like that thirsty vibe that I'm sure they feel from weak guys when they lust after that vitality they lack. I feel more connected to the heart than I have in a while, divine pathway work aids this 100%. I find this interesting. Supply/demand is everything.  Vitality is the currency of body belief. I've also noticed natural scent has been complimented as well which is something different. Heart qi being in abundance does in fact emanate a vital scent. TCM says that. So many connections it's crazy. 

 

My girl told me she had a dream about something I was expecting her to do. Interesting. 

 

I'm still stuck when it comes to explaining in a visual way a reliable method of quantifying belief. Belief relates to vitality/thematic supply of specific functions of your field geometry. Man I have so much energy sitting down doing this is like making my nerves vibrate begging me to go run through the forest again. It's crazy what mega dose magic jelly can do among other things that matter. Can't fake this. When you're dead on vitality you're useless when it comes to manifesting anything of actual abundance that's satisfying because satisfaction requires vitality to be present as pressure that's relieved. I've said this ages ago and I'll say it again. NG and his term of "relief" is PERFECT for describing this relief of pressure because it's spending the pressure correctly. Thing is when he describes what to do about emotional charge it's not really ideal, though not entirely useless either. The alchemist when talking about doing theurgy (arguably which imaginal scenes are also a form of because any valid method IS theurgy AKA overlapping components) mentions about doing ascending processes in the underworld it makes me think that he's simply talking about realtime pressure management. The act of gradually feeling through limiting beliefs over time to dissolve specific parts of dysfunctions in your psyche is just willingly facing the fire to use cultivated and available vitality to focus in on specific themes and dissolve resistance associated to them. How then do we quantify a belief? Well the alchemist I believe has an oracle he designed specifically for this function in using symbols he created to reflect degrees or levels of progress he's at and others are at in different ways. I don't know the details of such but it's there. I don't know of any real way to know or quantify belief in a specific percentage or mathematical equation probably because it's non linear in how it dissolves over time and how thematic correspondence in contextually related aspects also contribute and have layers of conditions that may be guarding the dissolution of a part of a certain dysfunction which you can't measure either directly. This question is next to impossible to answer in a very specific way, as far as I know. Been years on this.

I'd say then that the best way of determining ripeness or progress towards alignment more or less would be to reflect on your experiences and how much "flow" there is which I asked the alchemist for this very reason. He said that's a valid method of measuring ripeness, among other things. How natural you are in being the role you KNOW/FEEL is necessary and the clarity over decisions that are necessary too where timing feels natural and events unfold in an order that's not necessarily predictable in a linear manner so to say but that you can feel timing over the course of how that process unfolds in the world and the circumstances that reflect those themes in process. Hope that made sense. New ideas. The flow we have access to really is the measure but I'd also say hesitation and contemplation on decision making before making them when you recognize opportunities showing up. This is signs of ripeness presenting a to be had decision you're not ready for. Think of the decision you're going to make spontaneously as the already determined decision based on your coherency with the necessary degree of nourishment that would reflect you already being that person who's made it, and thus believing that you have the conditions satisfied against making that decision. This is why I view what NG taught with SATS and specific imaginal scenes and such as simply the spending of pressure. What he describes with the breathing method and this thing with all those emotions he says he feels (I'll argue is just the feelings of the nourishing current lighting up the corresponding thematic channels) really is similar to as he describes it "a psychic sexual act" which IS LITERALLY dissolving pressure. Prolactin and oxytocin elevates and TEST goes down, aka kidney qi and to an extent heart qi goes down in response. That nourishing current reflecting the light being revealed on necessary dysfunction to be dissolved manifesting as the feeling of pressure and emotional sense that comes parallel with it is what is being spent here. Now I will say this is an implosion, not a standard explosive type of sexual act which depletes upwards of 30+% of available qi as in you're instead here with the NG stuff using your own qi to flush the circuits. The thing is WHAT you imagine matters the most, because using this to artificially boost your sense of self because that qi will circulate then you'll crash hard and feel burned out for ages and bad outcomes will likely result. If you do this while already depleted then you're going to end up in a world of pain. If you're already nourished enough then you shouldn't feel as much of a depleted feeling and you'll get the "afterglow" effect so to say where the buffer is still sufficient AND it's circulating as well which means that stagnations are clear, dampness is moved. That doesn't mean it's burned out but it's not impeding flow likely because that boost in qi pressure in the field geometry ended up making the resistance feel less "sticky" to your beliefs and so you'll have a period of time where you'll likely have streaks of good seeming moods and possibly luck, though of course that's not going to last because the restrictions aren't being burned out to begin with in artificial boosts. This is why NO MATTER WHAT in order to burn out trash that impedes natural flow you WILL feel uncomfortable and that pressure will make you WANT to cope and spend it to avoid feeling that pressure (remember the pressure IS the feeling of it coming to the surface because vitality is "illuminating" the resistance) and avoiding it only causes that pressure to be basically wasted. You're wasting opportunity to purify. Pressure you feel IS OPPORTUNITY that gradually builds over time and a trigger reveals that opportunity naturally. This is ripeness being revealed as well, to answer the above question in a different way. 

Ripeness and such is measured as spontaneity of making correct decisions without feeling the intense pressure cycles. You will be able to handle pressure more effectively, is the point. So we can say that the degree to which you can look back and recognize you're able to handle pressure and fulfill further individuating experiences is the degree to which you're spending vitality correctly and thus we could use to "measure" belief which comes out of that as an effect. Belief is feeling as though something is true/available to you. I say they're correlated very closely. Having supply for the themes of that belief and having the above process of spontaneous decision making fulfilled are one in the same thing really. When you're able to move through pressure effectively and to KNOW and FEEL clearly without blinding pressure causing you to WANT to compromise in a powerful way represents having belief, because body belief is unconsciously/subconsciously available. It's in supply. The manifestation of limiting beliefs is a lack of supply of those currents where you're not individuated. Individuation as I've said so many times is about integrating all the necessary components that comprise a fully functional psyche. Do you see how this all connects now? Belief being the goal according to NG cannot be faked, though it seems his methods are about temporarily boosting qi movement to falsely believe something for a moment. Why I say this and that I say his (earlier) methods aren't for the purposes of purifying is because he constantly describes them as feeling good, and never to focus on the lack. Yeah I agree you shouldn't "focus" on the lack but that the lack through pressure will COME UP and you won't need to force yourself to feel, or leading the pathway as I said in posts ages ago. Leading the pathways is how I described the most effective way of temporarily boosting state coherency, which is arguably what NG is trying to do, though he's doing it INSIDE the subconscious mind which does in fact have deeper impact on the psyche by default. There's so many levels of impact to these methods. So when NG tells you to feel positive here it's not going to have a real deep purifying effect, because to burn out resistance it must move through the center of your self recursive circuit for excretion and that involves consciously circulating it as it ejects so NO MATTER WHAT you cannot avoid that mechanic. NG when he says to do it till satisfaction under the context of feeling positive about what you want (which will mostly be interpreted as the lower lust filled mind of lack looking for this experience to be the supply instead of them being the supply which is WHY IT'S USELESS) can ONLY cause you to DIP HARD as a result, and if not the day after then some time in the near future, because opportunities will be presented you WILL NOT TAKE because you've not ripened sufficiently AKA you've still not spent pressure CORRECTLY. You've "coped" using his methods which is compromise. What SATS does the way it's taught and interpreted is a compromise and cope method in reality. Nothing beneficial can show up from this UNLESS you're already clear and have sufficient buffer available for that afterglow effect where you can set such a suggestion (I mentioned this above that suggestion is really how specific side quest type manifesting works which is why scripting or listing is effective) and have sufficient ripeness already present for that to also drive you into making the correct decisions instead of running up against those contrast barriers. I've also said at times that the experience itself that comes out of this can cause you to go through a purifying experience but looking at that idea from this lens of ripeness now I believe that the experience itself is simply leading you through processes to reveal ripeness if it's sufficient or not, and trusting intuitive impulse in those opportune moments is more or less a pre-determined thing, which I did literally say in the thumbnail of that video for a reason. 

I believe this is how we can best answer the question of how can we quantify belief. Naturalness of decision making under pressure, and eventually naturalness of decisions without pressure because it's normal. Feeling good in a vacuum when depleted will destroy your life. Feeling good while already having sufficient vitality will likely lead to circumstances that are challenging which WILL REVEAL THE DEPLETION FROM THAT AS A RESULT, as in the depletion reveals itself. Circumstances that happen as a result of seemingly needless suffering and pressure being wasted in unfortunate ways reveals ripeness because if you were ripe AKA ready/supplied enough to make that decision in clarity without all the contrast barriers then you'd end up in the end automatically. NG did in fact say that the day is predetermined. This is to some extent correct, mostly I'd actually say even. It's correct because the vitality on supply you have determines everything, as this is ripeness and thus your "state of consciousness" as in the coherency you have to different thematic components which then are revealed to you in circumstances in the world and how pressure is felt. Boom? Sounds pretty deep to me and I believe this is another layer that explains more. This actually to some extent solves the question of "what decisions are correct vs incorrect". It's the questions that are based on the above idea about how correct decisions would be made anyway given supply is present anyway because if you're deliberately overlapping conscious and unconscious willingly facing the fire then you're going to be getting the attention of God to move you through the main story more efficiently. The alchemist did mention this when I asked him this question (which I have yet to transcribe) and how God simply doesn't pay attention to you if you're not doing the work and will basically let you do your thing out of ignorance of the capacity you have access to. That natural striving for more and to go deeper is a function of "divine discontent" as he says, AKA you've reached a natural peak of attaining everything this world has to offer when it comes to how deep you can go through where these experiences will take you (though they're still involved but it's that it's expanding from that deeper into the inner work side of things is the point) and so the higher genius won't care about working with you and mediating experiences that are more necessary in powerful ways and basically "force" you into experiences unless you're either suppose to participate because that's God's will or that you're actually willingly participating. The alchemist did use the term "participating" because higher genius needs you to do the work, thus it's a cooperative effort. Doing this work accelerates ripeness, aka integration of necessary themes that God needs us to have. Should all connect more. There's levels and levels and levels. Most baseline vitality cultivation happens naturally as a function of existing though can be sped up by nourishing yourself physically better and of course going all the way to the degree that you're ripe enough to do so, which does have some give to it but it's not much. If you're spending pressure in useless ways then don't expect to go anywhere.

Refining sensory stimulus which has been one of if not the most important factor in RS since the start plays into this closely. Thing is as the alchemist says then it's that the degree to which you find yourself partaking in unproductive processes is really a revelation on your ripeness. How you believe and how you auto respond to reality and spend your vitality corresponds to the supply you actually have. Your whole life is a reflection of these themes if you view it that way, and in pathway work add on top of those things a part about how this impacts your vitality and pressure in your life. Ask does this part of my field geometry graph reveal how I'm spending correctly or wasting pressure? Is this valuing my vitality as I use to say. Vitality and sense of self are the same thing, ripeness is also very closely linked to sense of self too, as who you are and what you believe comes out of this. There is no magic switch to change beliefs, our geometry is designed like this and that's the challenge of existence here. We must learn to make correct decisions and the way we do that is to supply ourselves ahead of time with what we need, and thus when we view the whole cause and effect idea behind imaginal work to manifest it's really working this process. You're giving to yourself the supply by dissolving resistance and thus elevating the baseline floor of available vitality as the channels are more clear. NG SATS seeks to falsely simulate this, and that's why often signs and such show up if you do this on loop, especially with repetitive mindless affirming. Remember this whole conscious deliberate manifestation thing as a side quest is more or less simply a SUGGESTION and nothing more. IF the thing you desire is supplied in those themes then it'll likely be automatic and come through you as random meaningless thoughts that you'll look back on and recognize reflected the condition internally representing how this worked to manifest that without care or effort. Effortlessness comes from having supply. If you have it then what's the effort coming from? Not having it AKA not believing it is a function of a lack of supply and thus you can't effectively suggest without attachment. This is really why you can't manifest. Now does that mean that no matter what if you have it within you that you can just make magic happen and cause someone over the other side of the world to bend to your will like a puppet? Probably not to be honest based on my data because of course the main story of your life will require certain people to be in their places that are necessary and if you're trying to manipulate the main story by forcing someone into a role they're not designed for then you'll face backfire and wonder why it's not working. The reason why you can't manifest a specific person in this case is likely because there's other conditions in surrounding context that need to be explored and unfolded for their insights to give you what you need first before that other belief can unfold. This is why some clients tell me they don't care about the SP anymore after doing the work I tell them and yet the person doesn't show up even though they're VERY well nourished. Why? I ask them about other areas and they feel pressure in other ways that's not being worked with fully and is avoided. That's why, or it's just not for them but if they don't care and the person doesn't come then big deal right so what who cares it doesn't matter. Let it go and allow the right person to show up when necessary who will give you what you need now. That other person you got over, an EX, they gave you the lessons you needed and you're over them now by doing this work so that relationship is basically over and trying to get back with them is pointless and wasting time. They're probably not showing up then for various reasons. Anyone who takes this analogy here and this means of why they don't' show up and apply it to other things such as why a package in the mail might not come is ignorant beyond belief, they're totally different because relationships in our lives serve functions to bring out of us necessary conditions that we'd otherwise likely be unconscious of and fulfilling those conditions we have in us is the entire point. We have attachments to projecting meaning on relationships from the past that is coming from dysfunction instead of proper understanding of their function in our lives. This is why I laugh at the idea of specific person manifesting, though as I always say that's not to say it's that you CAN'T get them, though getting that relationship back better serve a purpose for ripeness as a METHOD of expanding your space and fulfilling your role else your "success" is simply more resistance being brought to the surface you've not resolved and this scam of SP manifesting continues to propagate. This predatory propaganda of ignorant trash needs competition, though it never will because the warped psyche of the one who is obsessed with another person as their supply will justify being with them to the end of the earth and no matter what they'll be stuck. It's INSANE. Those people get what they believe and will face peak dip until the function is integrated. Allow them to circulate in the resistance so that naturally that function can be revealed when ripeness is valid. Nourishing their vitality will be the valid method of opening that up to be seen as valid. Subconscious space primarily, Gazing. 

I believe I've given more depth here to the mechanics of measuring ripeness and belief. This is once again why I struggle to provide simple explanations for these ideas that are valid in videos because it's incredibly complex. I don't know currently but I'm sure I'll find a way. RS is continuing to expand bit by bit. Every time I feel I'm at the end I go deeper and it still boggles my mind how I have new insights over a decade later from the beginning of this journey. Part of me wants to go back to the time when I had ZERO responsibility to this work where it was that "ignorant flow" type reality which I can almost feel into but I know I'll exhaust function there quickly because that's not my function. I face pressure regularly but it's satisfying to my function and I always have enough space to see what I need. A gradual progression of ripeness in a natural way. Once again this cannot be faked in any way, only experienced and unfolded, literally. 

 

1/7/25

Man clocks ticking.

So free flow of qi, vitality, nourishment of the various circuits and channels that correspond thematically to macro level powers that we mediate and manifest though in collective reality. That's the thing we do. What does this mean? Becoming a master at manifesting means having abundance of nourishing current as a concentrate scalar value and also the proportionality of that current relative to other formats that it takes. This is a pressure gradient of the aetheric substrate. Takes me back to the physics days. Free and available vitality in buffer opens nourishment of unresolved resistance spontaneously. Spontaneously is I believe the key word here. We're not doing this manifesting thing spontaneously.

Suggestion can only be done without attachment by having a free channel to manifest though. Take it back to the macro level correspondence. So unless the channel is clear ENOUGH of trash then you'll feel contrast. We know this already, and so in that view we can say that the work is cultivation of available vitality to spontaneously through overflow that happens unconsciously bring UP/OUT the resistance that we feel in the contrast. When you feel that contrast barrier it's nourishing current running up against it, though just having a bit there to reveal it and illuminate it isn't going to dissolve it and clean it out so to say. We need abundance of vitality in order to really wash it out. The abundance cannot be faked. You require that availability and physically nourishing yourself as we should know by now corresponds closely with mental health as well. They're not directly overlapping 100% but there's very close connection and this has been well studied by conventional psychology and so called science. There's the factor of that side of having functional endocrine and nervous system and on top of that then we have the willing expansion of subconscious space, which is always happening very slowly over time but gazing is consciously partaking in that to deliberately expand it.

When expanding this space you're allowing the available buffer vitality that's circulating to be moved by self organizing intelligence to illuminate resistance within the circuits that is at least mostly unconscious and so while in that expanded state you've got spontaneous pressure show up which IS this mechanism in action. Gazing in a vacuum does this anyway but gazing with cultivated vitality that's been available will then take that capacity in potential and use it in the most efficient way possible. You're not doing targeted imaginal work you're allowing that nourishment to go where God needs it to go, because it's unconsciously moved.  This is simply you overlapping the conscious and unconscious and taking that expanded and raising and dispersing qi to clear thick sticky crystalized type resistance in the underworld. This then as a result allows that channel to correctly be "spun" as I like to think of it as current moves through it and manifests that psychological nature naturally, which IS having something and having the belief work for you. This cannot be faked. The channel being clear corresponds 1-1 with the belief. If that thematic component that channel relates to isn't clear then you CANNOT believe. The resistance you feel IS that lack you're TRYING to activate that's stuck and needs clearing. How do you clear it? The above process. How do you cultivate vitality naturally? Live with common sense. It's not hard. People all miss the point with this, though if someone is living common sense and stull has limits they're unable to clear then do more deliberate targeted work with that vitality so it can clear what's necessary.

Nobody I know who has gone through this process has told me they haven't felt more aligned as a result. NOBODY. Even if the benefits are small it's there and stable. How do you make this go faster? Praise. Gratitude. Love. Compassion. That's what the alchemist says is necessary to amplify this further and clear channels. He says that doing this is "reaching up to God who is always reaching down to us" and so by doing this you're allowing that nourishing current that's in infinite supply move through you and reveal and illuminate the trash as a result. The specific thoughts here he says are "divine thoughts" that I've listed before. I can say that when you get into rhythm with this it can result in resistance being run up against though also the dissolution is gradual and less intense in my experience than gazing when that happens spontaneously. It's all spontaneous because it's unconsciously where the current is moving guided by opening up to resistance being illuminated by self organizing intelligence. There's no real way of knowing if targeted work will get to the deepest levels or not from your perspective because it's all unconscious in terms of that web of connected channels and the themes that correspond. Pathway work is the best way of revealing that but it's still not perfect of course. Cultivating vitality and not expending it through coping processes to numb the pressure you feel building up to face the purifying fire of life is the necessary work we must all do. That's painful, and yet it's always satisfying at the end. The relief. 

When people say to sit with feelings I don't see that as really a productive process, at least when we look at it in terms of what's the MOST effective and efficient process. The reason why is because doing this while yes being beneficial won't go far because you're prematurely trying to use the conscious mind to target layers you believe are available to dissolve when underlying those layers can be aspects that are unconscious you don't know are there which really are what need targeting and thus you're effectively wasting time. I see this whole thing as being spontaneous. Spontaneity is correct timing based on not just the cosmic clock but also timing as in when the available vitality is present to work with and on top of that higher genius will move that current where it needs to go instead of you trying to manipulate where it goes by deliberately bringing up limits. That CAN help as I've said and is still better than nothing for most people but the efficient process is simply allowing self organizing intelligence to do that work by opening up to that. Existing INSIDE the subconscious mind by creating that space IS opening up to that intelligence. The intelligence that IS a PART of the higher genius (the subconscious mind ITSELF as a CAPACITY you have) and when you're exposing yourself to it existing on its "level" of "consciousness" (which really just means being CLEAR and aware of more of correct nature) so that the psychological nature of what that level of consciousness can reveal in you can manifest itself in you by moving those corresponding themes using the vitality. Now the alchemist says that most of this work is using power that's greater than you, which I agree, though I will say that from my mechanical understanding it's that what we measure as vitality and nourishment and such is more or less the degree of availability we have to coherency with the themes that correspond to those psychological aspects. It's minimally OUR power, and more so an openness. Think of vitality itself as a concentrate scalar value more so as the idea of "resonance" to universal supply in the corresponding themes. Ripeness is then how much of that you've access to on mass, because it's us bringing alignment to the lower natures that are contracted into the macro scale components that exist in a collective level and thus we can mediate as parts of ourselves through that open channel. The alchemist has mentioned this before too. Cultivation of vitality thus I will say is ACTUALLY simply not SPENDING IT in WASTEFUL ways that are to COPE with the pressure that this OPPORTUNITY is providing you where God is literally revealing unconscious trash SPONTANEOUSLY. That's what I believe this is about.

So the work under this context when I say is about "making correct decisions" is REALLY about NOT running away from the purifying light of God to illuminate your lower nature and burn it out. That relationship is what this whole pressure mediation process is doing to you by allowing yourself to sit with it. The degree to which you can HANDLE that amount of power being "gifted" to you almost by God (which doing physically related stuff OPENS YOU UP TO ON THAT INFINITE SUPPLY LEVEL AND NOT BEING YOUR OWN SUPPLY IN A VACUUM) and not rejecting that gift from God allows that self organizing intelligence to actually further ripen you which is WHAT IT'S TRYING TO DO! It's ONLY because we STEP OUT OF the purifying light when it's shining on us that we lead into compromise patterns. Making correct decisions therefore is a function of trust in the light and illumination that's revealed spontaneously and not trying to approach it mentally and logically, though that's still how you can view it when you've integrated and understood those levels. This is another insight and breakthrough. Praise God, Christ our kinsman redeemer. This insight is amazing. 

By cultivating vitality we're thematically showing ourselves "worthy" more or less of God's attention and THAT is as the alchemist says "partaking in ripeness" I believe. The alchemist has said before that God pays no attention to you really unless you're partaking in the process, and that means not running away when you're in the spotlight of purifying light. God is trying to get you to stay still and have those parts burned out but you're constantly running away when it starts to burn. This is the work. Damn that's deep. Ripeness IS this. How do you measure that mathematically? Flow. The continual working WITH God to dissolve levels of resistance when they arise through trust and repeated exposure to those deeper levels of subconscious space. Being INSIDE those levels as gazing moves you into will basically signal to God you're looking for nourishment. When NG talks about "states of consciousness" therefore under this context it's talking about deeper levels of experience inside the subconscious mind where purification can spontaneously occur due to being under that spotlight. The alchemist has made these mechanics clear. All we do is perform processes (by overlapping conscious and unconscious mind thus setting up the conditions for spontaneous illumination of unconscious resistance when it's ready to dissolve) that will allow God to work through us more directly, because we're coming closer to God in that sense and can have more of that light illuminate us. This seems to be at least part of what the NG doctrine is about, though he never directly said this is the case it's always interpreted this way. He might've said this but he never spoke mechanically so who knows.

Either way manifesting deliberate things to me in SATS sounds like setting a suggestion while CLOSER to God in that sense. More capacity, being open and in subconscious space, that "subconscious impression" more or less is a "subconscious suggestion" as I  would call it. The satisfaction feeling and burning of pressure would have to come from God while in that space. Existing in that space closer to God then would enable this SATS function to work. New level of interpretation of NG's work. What a surprise. I believe then that this thing about feeling good and all that under the NG context must be the RESULT of stepping closer INTO levels of subconscious space where you're almost "licking" that nourishing current in infinite supply from God. This cannot be faked, and the "already being there" idea HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WHAT PEOPLE BELIVE. This whole "go to the end" idea to me sounds like "go closer to God/go deeper INSIDE the subconscious mind" which IS "living from the end" as INSIDE the subconscious mind, in that "state of consciousness". We can see now it can begin to make more sense, and to some extent actually explain the mechanics of satisfaction as the purging takes effect. I will say though that if what he means is how it's conventionally interpreted as needlessly hyping yourself up and just making your vitality burn up like a puff of smoke for a temporary feeling of pleasure then his method is absolutely destructive and is totally backwards. Seeing this though as doing it for what's necessary and you KNOW is what needs to be experienced as in willingly facing experiences you're compromising on under pressure and going through that like I did in that night I manifested my SP overnight by breaking conditions and such then yeah that can benefit but that was more or less me doing the whole moving closer to God thing because I don't believe they can be separated. Going all the way and moving inside the subconscious more seems to have a similar effect, as in self organizing purifying current moving through you zapping the resistance our of you spontaneously (gazing does this best) then you'll recognize why even without doing specific imaginal work that "expanded consciousness" that spills over into waking states can also have purifying effect and it's not exclusively about breaking boxes inside a deep gazing trance like state. I could also say that that night I broke boxes in waking state was when the pressure was too great to handle and instead of coping I just did what I KNEW was necessary, intuitively driven. It's like that subconscious clarity from the intuitive sense spills over into waking awareness and God moves you anyway the same as though you were INSIDE the level. 

More dots connected. Again. Never ending. Oh yeah I also had another message from someone I didn't expect to show up as well looking for private chats that I never asked for. Why is this happening? My subconscious capacity must be overflowing theirs and I'm being moved to be their supply, just as you'd find others to be your supply. These are the circumstances that give you opportunities to reveal and illuminate unconscious resistance the "normal" way without doing the deeper level work we do here with gazing and such. Same mechanics, different level. Levels is the difference, the "closeness" to God in terms of consciousness, clarity and revealing things are for what they are. Clarity is having "higher consciousness" as people say, though that can't be faked and really has nothing to do with anything other than the baseline closeness to God you have, which really as I've said before is having MORE OF GOD INSIDE YOU. It could also be seen as having more of your capacities realized, meaning your lesser components are more purified and more individuated instead of just being gross materials operating out of unconsciousness and dysfunction. Even if you can see the resistance logically from lower mind doesn't mean much because unless you're able to expose yourself to God and allow that purifying process to unfold without running away from it then you're never going to illuminate it and transform it. So the answer to the question of "how do I get over this" is simply "stand next to God and don't look back". That pressure is the way you clean it out, feeling the pressure and not coping with it by feeling unnecessary things to distract and dissolve that opportunity to transform limits. This is showing trust in God and moving closer to God. Imaginal acts really have nothing to do with this though. Thinking that imagining what you want if having an expansion effect is just plain ignorance because any expansion at baseline happens when pressure is felt and relief happens when that nourishment has cleared out the limits. Having availability of vitality IS having opportunity "juice" stored in the tank for God to "grant" you opportunities to clear it out that happen according to the will of God and that self organizing intelligence. We are like sock puppets really, at least to some extent. Distraction from feeling pressure and being moved by it and accepting and trusting where it moves you is what keeps people who say "I can see my resistance but what do I do with it" in the box. They will forever not trust, because they're trying to control and or run away and cope with pressure when it's felt. You CANNOT come close to God AKA cultivate and have that vitality circulate without sitting with the feelings that spontaneously arise out of that. God does all the moving of where that vitality goes. not you. 

Clarity. So the question of "how do I manifest an SP?" can be answered with "trust the process and don't look back. Jokingly of course. All you need to so is recognize through pathway work what depletes vitality/closeness with God/ripeness and all those things and then when they arise and you feel the WANT to compromise (because it makes you feel good when that relief that you've "wasted' that vitality to feel free from that feeling of intuitive recognition of dysfunction to be cleared) you'll simply allow it to be there without acting on it, for this is decisions made with clarity to instead of depleting the nourishment to cope with the uncomfortable feelings you'll allow God to work through you and TRUST it. Really what I said about trusting intuitive impulse still rings true. This idea has been the practical basis of RS since day 1. Trust intuitive impulse. Trust where God moves through you and where that's leading your pathways intelligently to dissolve resistance instead of thinking you can do better from your lesser mind. Allowing and accepting and "letting go" using that sense is really just the :I'm moving closer to God to allow the light to burn out my trash" sense. Sounds crazy but that's how it works. Exposing yourself to different parts of your field geometry on the higher order capacity level IS moving closer to God and we start out that process by expanding subconscious capacity. That's what the alchemist calls "initiatory" work. Same thing. This is the work. Your ability to handle pressure I believe also relates to the degree of trust you have in this process as well, which if you're physically pushing limits is in a thematically correspondent way doing the same thing. You're running up against the edge of comfort willingly to allow yourself to break down and be built back stronger than before. Doing this process in life, making your routines and habits about this process breaking them further and further I believe is the method of attaining a stable foundation to apply when feeling the trash internally because you'll be use to that, just on a different level of course. This is why I said over and over that physically nourishing yourself MATTERS. It's not EXCLUSIVELY going to be the foundational work that will help but it's something important if you're at the bottom. I know it helps me and most people I have spoken to have agreed. Why not? It will make all the inner work easier to the extent that it will, but it's a factor and why not use any methods you know are available to do this work with.

That's it for now.

 

The "state of the wish fulfilled" IS living in that greater experience of clarity. The end and all this stuff is lining CLOSER to God at BASELINE. The state isn't anything other than this, arguably. I've said before that the state of the wish fulfilled is basically the integration of those correlated components as a result of fulfilling conditions and thus opening up clarity, which is really the same thing just done differently. The state isn't a "container of consciousness" as most think which contains thoughts and feelings and all this stuff it's more or less that you're lining closer to authenticity as yourself in clarity and without contrast. So really it's that you're lining in the state of having the thing because you've burned out the trash preventing it. It's living in the state (just more of a degree of subconscious space at baseline thus clarity for intuitive impulse to naturally move you authentically without contrast) as a result of burning out what's holding back that state from becoming baseline, though it was already there. 

I need to go over the NG stuff more, but I just haven't felt the timing is right yet. Perhaps it's because I needed this insight before that could happen to see more in his work. Could listen to audios of his lectures in text to speech. 

 

I don't know at this point what else I can offer when it comes to practical basis for this process. I really don't. The new theory only further proves the practical processes I applied even years ago are still top tier. How much better can it get? 

All processes that RS has here that are primary.

Deeper purifying and manifestation work:

Gazing (including standard, advanced, dynamic, imaginal, dark room)
Pathway work (all forms including standard, revision, divine, vitality, written or not)
Scripting in morning and before bed after gazing
Going all the way and trusting intuitive impulse (comes through you as an effect of available vitality anyway but live consciously where you know you can with common sense)
Advanced theurgy and lab alchemy (not something I share but is available)

Outer physically based vitality cultivation work:

Physically pushing limits (HIIT primarily, martial arts, acrobatics for flex)
Eating correctly (low carb + fasting for autophagy (ONLY FAST IF YOU'RE NOT JING DEPLETED), 
Sleep with common sense without artificial stimulation messing with melatonin and wake up with sunlight in your eyes (if possible)
Sunlight periodically over day and spending time outside in nature
SEED RETENTION FOR MEN (learn to control sexual pressure and lust)

 

This is the RS list of foundational processes that will always benefit your consciousness no matter who you are. That's what I would put in a full RS program if I made one and sold it. Maybe I'll do that. I've given all this away for free and if you read the notebook you'll likely end up hearing me talk about this stuff over and over anyway. Those who see the outer world stuff will say this isn't manifestation if they've not read the theory and understand the connections of course but it plays a role obviously. Really it's all inner work at core because outer work corresponds to shifts internally in attunement to the themes which manifest AS WANTING TO PHYSICALLY LIVE CORRECTLY ANYWAY, but why not apply where you know you can and go all the way. IF you stick to it then have fun. I simply see this as if your physical vitality is peak (which also involves having sufficient mental health as well because they overlap to some extent) then the inner work stuff can and likely will benefit more. There's always edge cases with super focused resistance in some parts that doesn't really benefit from more physical side work but so what if you want to take care of your physical body (because that's what needs to take place for immortality to manifest anyway) then you'll only benefit in how you feel day to day. The overlap is real, don't be stupid and deny this out of lack and looking for excuses. Am I fully nourished physically in every way? No I still have work to do in these areas to some days but I learn through those days of compromise and reveal more about the nature of these mechanics in how I feel through the contrast I experience, so it serves my function to some extent anyway. NG did in fact say he's going to run his body into the ground and wear it out fully. That was his approach to physical vitality, and obviously that happened with how he died from liver cirrhosis so we know he didn't complete the great work. This is required for that side of things. The Daoist's recognize this of course, but they work on a different level using different cosmologies and theoretical models. They cultivate vitality bottom up instead of top down, and RS is a hybrid of both to a degree that's not going to interfere with either. We don't do qigong or Taiichi or anything on those levels we just apply common sense living with deeper top down down. I will not give anyone a qigong routine unless I'm working with them personally and have spent time in understanding their situation. Some benefit from it under their circumstances but not everybody does so it's not a universal method. Gazing can and will benefit everybody, unless they don't have affinity for it of course which is because of past work done that leads them to resonate more with other systems, and that's fine. RS is targeted as the most broad reaching and available that's possible to apply. 

All the theory rests on these processes. Most of it is common sense. I don't add imaginal stuff here because that comes through you anyway. There's no need to imagine specific stuff as whatever is necessary to imagine and think will be natural in the degree of nourishment you're resting in. There is really nothing else.

I honestly feel at this point it's just about further exploring the NG lectures to find more bits to reference. I will might end up making a separate section for that so I don't clutter up the notebook with his stuff but I might also leave it here, I don't know. Probably leave it here, just deal with more pages. 

 

Just the idea of taking care of yourself more when it comes to doing the physically based stuff would represent correct individuation ANYWAY. No brainer. I can't stand the trash arguments of mentalism buffs. All that nonsense needs to be destroyed. I'm going to fully do that without a shred of mercy. The energy I've had lately is crazy so expect new vids coming soons. We've got the explanation pretty much fully fleshed out, and while I've said that many times it just keeps getting better and better and better. If you have vitality physically speaking (not just available resonance to various themes on the psychological level) then you'll have that base level to work with in moving things forward. This is why we need to view reality as a whole and not just imaginal stuff in a vacuum, because imagination doesn't mean only the subtle but that even the physical corresponds as it's all alchemy and field geometry doing its stuff. These parts cannot be separated. They are just different levels by which alchemical functions unfold. Working with one level and having the coherency on that level subtly spill over into a higher order level also works, and that's how the Daoist systems work in the east. They use base elements to overflow into higher order elements, and so do we in western side of things but we more or less minimize working with that stage. It's like plant vs mineral vs metals in lab alchemy. You can still gain tremendous benefits from plant alchemy even if it's technically less powerful and can only really go so far. The thing to understand is that working with ANY level is STILL making progress in terms of cultivating vitality/ripeness and all that stuff. Immortal you would physically be rejuvenated so bypassing this aspect is just straight up stupid and likely comes from an avoidance of wanting to actually go all the way. The formula above is the complete outline of every method available to be worked with. If you do physically based vitality cultivation even without touching any subtle level work then you WILL make more progress, likely more than doing subtle stuff in a vacuum in my opinion especially in the beginning. 

Stepping outside the box and partaking in processes that immortal you would have available anyway is the point. Nobody magically manifests physical shifts without having available vitality on some level. The Bions that Wilhelm Reich talks about relate to this which I've spoken about before. The Bions form in chains along field geometry lines and without a coherent field geometry then perfect skin for example isn't possible, no matter what physical nutrients you feed yourself. Jing. These parts all relate. Ultimately we can see Jing as the available underlying field geometry coherency between the stability of fire and water and their capacities in higher order nature. Since top down approaches work to catalyze impacts through exposing lower structures to higher order natures then that supply of Jing comes top down too as the base components are built into their full capacities over time. Physical rejuvenation happens near the end. The other side is almost the opposite. The Daoist's rely on physically based processes to conserve the Jing so that it can gradually naturally overflow into higher order states and catalyze into effect then the capacities on the greater macro level. This is probably why systems like TCM and other eastern systems like Ayurveda exist. They're all working on that lower level of substances to align them so that the dysfunction which is really just a separation of the components out of proportionality where they'll not function correctly which IS aging. The more disproportionate you are the less Jing you have and the more proportionate you are the more Jing you have. When we talk about Jing as though it's a thing it's really the degree of coherency between the components, anti space almost. That's how I've come to recognize it. It's the alignment of the components to the capacity and "burning Jing" so to say is simply wasting pressure to move away from where natural striving is leading you. Once again I've said the reason why every other creature ages and dies and we don't is because they're not simulacrums in reality and we are which we have that capacity. It's all about capacities and potentials that are innate. That innate unconscious capacity makes human beings unique. So age reversal and restoring Jing is restoring the field geometry arrangement so that the components are where they need to be, and we do that top down over time by integrating all the archetypal powers that naturally will disrupt that by us running into them as they perturb us and thus we aren't actually impacted by them. We're dissolving the ability for the entropy of those components by making our field geometry immune to friction with them so to say. The Jing can be seen as a "seed" which is how it's most directly translated, seed being capacity for something to exist, and thus Jing is in the most pure form then under the RS model about having a proportionate arrangement of the components so that they don't run into each other and cause us to then spend energy incorrectly. The dysfunctions in our psyche represent this, and the capacity for superconscious operation that happens in the lesser conjunction really is where we want to get to in order to avoid most of those impacts. That friction which burns down our Jing, or shortens our telomeres in some sense, can be negated by dissolving ability for our psychology to even be moved by what's outside us. In essence we're becoming individuated where we aren't moved into dysfunction automatically through limited conditioning so that our vitality doesn't get spent (which is moving away from God/our capacity as we spoke about above) in which case then being closer to God means our components are correctly proportionately aligned and thus we operate from that "state of consciousness" which reflects the coherency of the field geometry as the Jing unfolded correctly. That's the seed in the realization of our capacities. Becoming immortal means realizing your capacity, growing the tree fully instead of growing it half way then stunting it. 

Another level. Crazy. This is insane I think it's all done now. Like have I finally answered everything? I've explained deeper levels of literally everything now. Getting closer to God/realizing more of your capacity and whatnot by becoming the vessel by which God can move without resistance seems to be what the other level function of overlapping conscious and unconscious is doing. You're willingly subjecting yourself to the purifying fire which IS God moving through you with that purifying current to burn out anything in the way of actual embodiment. If we're talking about actual embodiment of states as in higher order degrees of nourishment and alignment to correct trajectory then it would seem to me that embodying a state has everything to do with having God do that work and us being open to that purification which IS letting go. The whole SATS method, as in STATE AKIN TO SLEEP IS going INTO the subconscious mind, into the "state" or degree of subtlety of that thematic element and thus inside the aspect of God which can perform its function on us to clear that level out of our field geometry. To me what the alchemist has said about theurgy and stuff  is that you have to interact SPECIFIC parts of your capacity as in the different elements just like you'd work with in lab alchemy which ARE all different functions OF God WITHIN you and so interacting with those aspects and making the correct components overlap like we do in the start by expanding subconscious space to open up superconscious activation over time then we can see what another level of what "states" really are as well. They're not just "snapshots" of seeming infinite consciousness as we've said before but that they're degrees of nourishment as well. This actually answers another level question of what the state of the wish fulfilled is. It's the clearing of the trash to stabilize a new baseline level of operating from more of your capacity. Also I don't know where NG said it but he DID SAY that there are NOT infinite states. HE SAID THAT. I remember he said that "it seems like there's infinite states but there's really not" or something like that, saying "there's too many to count but it's not infinite" if I'd paraphrase as close as I can. That's what he said himself so anyone going on about this trash of infinite possibilities that exist or whatever clearly doesn't actually study NG in his own words. When NG says to see someone else in a "different state" it seems that it means seeming them as more coherent to who they are, and not this controlling and manipulating idea. 

So when NG also says this "If we do not know we’re always expressing a state, then we identify ourselves with the state, and we say ‘I am poor or I am rich, I am known or I am unknown, I am wanted, I am unwanted’ and we go on indefinitely because there are unnumbered states into which we fall." then it could seem at face value that the "I AM" identification is the "state" but in reality the state is the manifestation of the degree of coherency with your capacity and someone who's not wealthy is very likely someone who doesn't have integrated more of their nature to psychologically manifest those aspects into their life naturally. If they have it then they are it, and thus "I AM" is having access to those currents to psychological express those qualities. NG defined states as this. "I simply mean a certain attitude of mind. Well, I mean that state or that attitude of mind to which I must constantly return constitutes my dwelling place. And so I dwell in it. So if night after night I dwell in the feeling of feeling sorry for myself, that’s my state." He said it's an attitude of mind, though because we know that attitudes of mind come from supply/demand on the thematic level of what we have available to us then we can recognize that dwelling in a lacking state is more or less accepting dysfunction and moving into a greater state is the degree of desiring FUNCTION over DYSFUNCTION, AKA being closer to God in supply of the components that psychological reflect that state (degree of nourishment of those components) instead of this idea of mentalism seeing beliefs as all there is. Boom? Have we done it? States and degrees of nourishment corresponding to various psychological manifestations correspond very closely. I can then say from experience that being inside a state that's more abundant is being more myself, being more spontaneous and authentic to how my capacity would express itself. Going all the way. IT CONNECTS, 

"You can start feeling sorry for yourself and all of a sudden move right into the state, and make it a habit, and dwell in it, and remain there for the rest of these days on earth. Or you could believe this doctrine and simply, though everything denies it, you move out of the state." Considering we know that faking a state is effectively impossible as in artificially feeling abundance when you don't have supply and nourishment of that to NATURALLY FEEL that abundance, so instead we view it as almost a sort of "believing in yourself" idea. Going all the way. This IS embodying a state. There's zero contradiction here with this interpretation and even better explains it than before. I've defined states so many different ways before but this one takes the cake. 

Yeah so states can be functional or dysfunctional. Some out there say that "A state is how you experience what you experience" and yeah that's a good explanation though I'll still argue that the deeper level of this that goes way beyond the conventional getting what you want idea is that you'll experience MORE of WHO you are, as in your capacities. They never emphasize the YOU in that, as in being yourself without compromise and experiencing more of you. "you can in the twinkle of an eye move into any state". There's a quote I put on the first page of the notebook I believe, and on another page to mirror it when I found it, and it was about how NG defined the mechanics of appropriating a state and that seeing yourself thinking differently or more so RESPONDING differently is the signs of being in a different state. Remember that the response is automatic, and that's based on what you believe, which underlying that psychological manifestation is the basis of what you're supplied with which is what feeds that psychology in the first place and creates the automatics response. No matter how you look at it, clearing the subtle nearly invisible trash in the circuits that's keeping the subconscious from reaching its capacity is HOW you increase supply to HAVE what you want already here and now. "How do you get out of a state? Through belief!  You must believe in the doctrine. You are told: Whatsoever you desire, believe you have received it and you will.". This is another quote he said about how to get out of a state. A state of lack, or abundance. Believe you have received it. Notice it's RECIEVEDDDDD, as in already happened. This is probably where NG got his idea of "go to the end" from. How most people describe states comes from emotional feeling, not intuitive sense of subconscious capacity. Moving with what you KNOW/FEEL is necessary guided by greater process intelligently driven for your path of least resistance. People think feeling emotionally high is moving them into a state but we KNOW that's not the case because we all tried it and failed. There's no burn off from this. unless you're talking about feeling emotionally high when it comes to bathing in the golden purifying light of life from standing with God deep inside that subconscious space when it's expanded enough. NG did say in his lecture about the 5 parts of manifesting that a strong desire is needed for it to work. This can seem contrary because you manifest things you don't desire all the time but when you interpret that as pressure instead which desire is a form of then you'll see the truth in those words. 

I'll copy paste from "the fundamentals" lecture.

"Having discovered, through an uncritical observation of your reactions to life, a self that must be changed, you must now formulate an aim. That is, you must define the one you would like to be instead of the one you truly are in secret. With this aim clearly defined, you must, throughout your conscious waking day, notice your every reaction in regard to this aim.

The reason for this is that everyone lives in a definite state of consciousness, which state of consciousness we have already described as the sum total of his reactions to life. Therefore, in defining an aim, you are defining a state of consciousness, which, like all states of consciousness, must have its reactions to life. For example: if a rumor or an idle remark could cause an anxious reaction in one person and no reaction in another, this is positive proof that the two people are living in two different states of consciousness."

"Having discovered that everything is a state consciousness made visible and having defined that particular state which we want to make visible, we now set about the task of entering such a state, for we must move psychologically from where we are to where we desire to be.

The purpose of practicing detachment is to separate us from our present reactions to life and attach us to our aim in life. This inner separation must be developed by practice. At first we seem to have no power to separate ourselves from undesirable inner states, simply because we have always taken every mood, every reaction, as natural and have become identified with them. When we have no idea that our reactions are only states of consciousness from which it is possible to separate ourselves, we go round and round in the same circle of problems - not seeing them as inner states but as outer situations. We practice detachment, or inner separation, that we may escape from the circle of our habitual reactions to life. That is why we must formulate an aim and constantly notice ourselves in regard to that aim."

The bolding is from the copy paste. I'll leave it here for that purpose. This is seemingly how NG defines state shifting in the fundamentals way. He tells us to notice our reactions which means doing active pathway work and dynamic gazing. He then says that defining an aim means that you're setting the target, This isn't what he's teaching us in SATS, which is to emotionally "work yourself up into a state and explode" where you feel satisfaction, which is the release of pressure. The method he's describing in the fundamentals here has no mention of pressure, though this is a key component of course. What he's telling us here to do is define the movement of natural striving basically, though obviously if you're targeting something out of the lustful lower mind you're sure to face peak dip cycles because pressure isn't being spent correctly which is once again another lacking element in his expansion. You can probably manifest this thing if you go all the way with it which I've said but that involves abandoning natural striving as in making correct decisions or really accelerating ripeness and moving closer to God which typically means dropping excess desire for things because you'll be exploring the inner world instead.  He says that if hearing some news makes one person anxious and another doesn't feel differently then this is a sign of the difference in state. This reveals a state of dysfunction or function, being more or less individuated where external things move the person into reaction. This is a correct interpretation. I agree fully. This is why observation in the beginning stages is so important. Then he goes on to say that in the beginning when practicing detachment you're going to be unable to separate your reactions and this is in fact normal because you've not build coherency with supply that manifests psychologically. The pattern is rooted still in dysfunction because it's not been nourished. He then tells us that the solution to reacting and attachment is to continually remind ourselves of the aim and contrast ourselves against it. This is actually a half correct way, because most people will assume that their attachments ARE the aim, which is the problem. Wanting a person for example because they don't feel safe without them. This is NOT a purifying process but that the person there is designed to reveal in them their resistances to individuated being so that God can fill more of their being as their capacity. operating from this lack and making the fulfilment of that lack that's based on false expectations and contrast barriers only feeds the issues. On the other side consistently observing yourself and ideally taking notes on that and logging vitality along side it with regards to the feeling of pressure then you'll begin to recognize the patterns of not self in contrast barriers when they arise. He's telling you here to actually notice and become conscious of your dysfunction. Anyone saying that NG told us not to notice the negative (which for the most part is in fact what he taught and all people knew about how work which was to "go to the end" in a vacuum so that's no surprise they all say this) is wrong because here he says otherwise.

So with all this in mind we can surmise that the way of detaching according to NG is to actually recognize our negative patterns and observe them and contrast them to the aim. I find it funny how he said aim here instead of desire. It's like the language he uses here changes vs his lectures and books. "What do you desire" is such a terrible way to approach this because it assumes so much about the coherency of that persons psyche. People all just assume that imagining being in the end is all there is but that's not the case. It's not all about imaginal senses, it's about stability of response because that's indicating where you're at. How do you do that? You face the contrast, either consciously or by allowing God to do that by stepping into those degrees of subtlety where trash can be spontaneously burned out of you. Going all the way physically also happens where you'll manifest opportunities in response to almost test the waters of your responses and reveal where resistances are and yet at the same time that's going to be driven by the measure of ripeness no matter what because the way you view it was determined by the availability before you even reacted. That's the stabilized state. Shifting the stabilized state according to NG involves self observation, which when it comes to running into contrast also involves going all the way when it comes to making different decisions. He will say that you'll make them anyway when you're in the state, and at that level he's talking about ripeness already available. Same idea, and so his work must overlap with what I'm saying. I don't fully agree that self observation is all there is and you should know why because unless you're actually willing to face the pressure in meaningful ways and fulfil those conditions so that you learnt through the reality of experience that this isn't something you need to hold onto anymore then nothing can really change about your reactions or state, The moving forward of ripeness IS moving closer to God, which IS operating more as yourself which IS accepting that your true nature which involves unfulfilled aims that are necessary to fulfil are all coming under this idea of the mechanism NG is talking about. He just doesn't say it. 

I think I've done enough work to prove this point fully. 

"Think feelingly only of the state you desire to realize. Feeling the reality of the state sought and living and acting on that conviction is the way of all seeming miracles. All changes of expression are brought about through a change of feeling. A change of feeling is a change of destiny."

This is NG telling us to make action part of how we apply this. HE SAID THAT. He literally told us that feeling the realty of the state (which is in essence trusting that this is the stabilized direction you're moving in which represents the "aim" which LITERALLY IS a DIRECTION of movement driven by natural striving ideally) and "living" and "acting" on that CONVICTION, which involves TRUST and FAITH innnnnn subtle intuitive impulse which is HOW you FEEL those opportunities which make the magic happen and the magic happens because moving without contrast barriers holding you back IS integrating the components that represent the manifestation of that aim. You seeeee. It's all here guys RS explains it all. There's nothing left I've done it finally. Feeling from the end is more or less seeing your capacities and realizing them. It's like a "I'm this person because this is what I want in life" and accepting whatever needs to happen to make that real. There's no magic delusional trash involved here it's that magic and living common sense are overlapping each other directly and the psychological side of this happens automatically because of how pressure is being spent. Remember having an aim, a desire, a movement of natural striving, this IS the pressure you're feeling that you need to go THROUGH and the experience of making those decisions itself which is real to you IS integrating those components which is why JUST imagining in a vacuum without actually using that pressure properly where it's leading you WILL ONLY KEEP YOU IN THE SAME STATE, You're not purifying anything it's just more limitation and accepting that limitation because you can't go through the necessary decisions under pressure that transform your baseline and reveal to you for real that "oh so I can be myself" or "oh I can actually achieve my aim" or whatever. That way you'll ACTUALLY have PROOF of being MORE in alignment towards that desire instead of denying natural striving and inner truth for this emotional hype up doctrine which causes IMMENSE SUFFERING.

I'm done here. This needs to be made public and the false doctrine of mentalism needs to be destroyed. I have a full explanation now. Maybe I'll just narrate my notebook posts instead in a podcast style talk for simple content instead of trying to record a whole take in one run.

Manifesting without going through a transformational process is as simple as suggesting something without a sense of attachment or contrast. You say it almost automatically because it's within you already. You already have it and thus what's available moves through you. 

 

3/7/25

I've had 4 different girls I know reach out to me in the last 3 days. This is wild. One of them I was genuinely surprised to see reaching out again. I'm not interested in contact with them but it happened anyway. Once asked to go out in the 2nd message so the neediness is real. You can sense it when you're being your own supply. Nourishing and spending pressure where it needs to be discharged instead of needlessly discharging to avoid pressure is how this works. I swear that's the secret ingredient that underlies the success I've seen and even explains this whole "elevated mindset" idea or "attitude of mind" shift idea that NG uses. 

I swear that when you become a "vitality match" for the thing then people will subconsciously feel your impact. Think about this. The alchemist said that subconscious space determines your ability to control people. I say that's correct, but view it like this instead. Your vitality supply depends very closely on that variable being functional and so having vitality and spending it correctly and mediating pressure without compromise IS effectively the same thing because it manifests through that subconscious influence that they feel as what they believe is "truth". That's seemingly how this works.

 

4/7/25

So being in a different state really is just a degree of awareness over your components. As I typed that in the lower left corner of my eye was a deep blue colour that was oval shaped appeared and stuck around for a few seconds. Interesting. So states aren't beliefs but it's that states are degrees of awareness that manifest in your psychology as clarity over those thematic aspects. A "higher" state means more awareness, lower is obviously lower, more driven by unconscious resistances and patterns that don't serve you. The alchemist told me that operating from the higher mind of superconscious is more so that clarity over what needs to be done becomes obvious to you more so than the lower mind does. The way I view this is that the intuitive sense of how to spend pressure correctly to mediate power into where it needs to move is where you operate more from at baseline. That intuitive impulse is already running but it's MORE conscious and more default by nature when you're in a higher state, so when imagining desires being real with the senses you're not REALLY elevating your state at all, or even moving into a "different" state. In reality you're going sideways, because all the experience I've had and have seen and heard is that this results in manifestations that confirm your sense of self, signs, things of such limited nature that will relate to what you imagined but not be what you actually WANTED in terms of what you got out of it. Why? Because there's unconscious trash you're operating from which is the STATE you were dwelling in when imagining. This is often why imagining lusts ends up depleting you SO BADLY and you go through needless peak dip cycles. Operating from a place of functional perception and making your imaginal experiences about higher mind ideas so to say would be how you actually do what NG talks about in truth. Most people here in LOA conventionally approach states as "belief containers" as in you're using imaginal scenes to shift beliefs through the reality of experience as "proof" but as I experienced this more in my own life (I rarely had anyone tell me this so it was difficult to even recognize until years later when observing these patterns) the more I realized that the scenes you have happen automatically when you're "lined up" for them to spontaneously unfold through you. I personally don't believe that most people who deliberately attempt to consciously and deliberately manifest specific things can ever get that reflected in their lives until they're either fully integrated on the degree of nourishment where they have access to those themes to mediate on a macro collective level of influence, or to be in the STATE of having that which is the same thing, then imaginal experience will always be you trying to move through contrast without the necessary components to break through that. It just can't work.

This is now why I always hear when the alchemist talks about manifesting it's under the context of ripeness and we know all about ripeness now. When you're in correct orientation or even incorrect because you're in a "state of lack" as they say, then you'll just experience the effects of what that degree of clarity and perception is which of course leads to the thoughts you have which everybody runs around saying is the cause manifesting when in reality the thoughts you throw in can only have impact to the degree they're integrated. What these people who claim thoughts create are observing the natural effect of a shift in state which gives perspective to seeing things under a more clear lens THAT'S CORRECT FOR THEM. NG did say remember that there are FINITE states, not infinite. He's said both, but I quoted him saying it's not infinite. This means that he's NOT talking about infinite realities or whatever trash people believe in but that he's talking about fixed functions we have capacity to experience. He's not saying anyone can be any of those "characters" and you can actually like change your WHOLE reality but that the desire representing where pressure (remember he also called it an aim which I'd also liken to my term of natural striving meaning an orientation of movement you hold affinity for that's challenging to you and this is REALLY what I mean by operating from your affinities because these have purifying effect more so than the "feel good" ones) is looking to be spent and so you imagine yourself IN THE STATE WHERE THAT PRESSURE IS BEING ORIENTED TO MOVE. This simply means you're expanding your sense of self which is really what I've always said. 

Think of moving into a higher state like this. You can't conceiver of what the awareness of God is because you don't have all those components in the full availability to perceive under that context, that degree of clarity. Where we are in lack is the same thing but shifted down. Seeing things for MORE of what they are IS shifting states, being INSIDE that capacity and viewing things FROM that level is "living in the end". I've always said living in the end should target the correctly oriented sense of self. Nothing more. This is the same idea, though expanded further. 

 

5/7/25

Easy. Expansion into new states requires doing the subconscious space work. Manifesting specific things comes through integration. 

 

6/7/25

Life is like a bowl of spaghetti noodles. They're all tangled up but that tangling is a positive thing that we just can't perceive in the moment. Noodles are like fractal lines or overlapping states and how they all interact is according to the self organizing intelligence. Untangling all the noodles involves decoding the experience by going through it and trusting where it's taking you. You're walking through an unknown but you have an intuitive sense of direction that's your natural striving. This is your inner guidance mechanism to decode the noodles. 

 

There's some interesting insights I've had lately too. A lot of this is some personal experience I've had lately when it comes to manifesting people into my life that have just spontaneously showed up. I mean 10/10's across the board without any specific intention. Why did this happen? Because I went all the way. More importantly though it was because I recognized an area of compromise and I remember doing what I did last time again where I basically FELT (spontaneously mind you which is a function of ripeness as I've said and vitality cultivation to facilitate this) as though I was already the person who was beyond these limits and I was like "I'm done with this" and just made those tough decisions and took risks and opened myself up. It worked. Lately been doing that more and more. Deeper longer gazing with dynamic over the day when I can do that and divine pathway work when I can do that too. Going all the way. I recognize that this sense of continuing momentum is the sort of feeling of "flow" we talk about. You just feel like you're a different person, and the dips don't drop as low. Vitality and facing pressure and actually opening up to experiencing what you KNOW is necessary makes this flow show up. The gazing and such will lead to these physical level manifestations and the shift in attitude. Remember states aren't anything related to having specific things but that those specific things you'd already have lined up would show up when you're in the elevated sense of self/state of having and being because of that supplied nourished field geometry that others feel and thus come to you through. You CANNOT fake this. You MUST move through limits, and you effectively can't do that without sufficient vitality supply which takes TIME to generate which unfolds as clarity. 

So how did I really amplify this vitality cultivation and what did I really do to make this happen the most effectively? I basically recognized where pressure was being moved and flowed with the conditions to fulfil them instead of compromising and wasting vitality in unnecessary places. Distractions for example. Holding stability comes from spending pressure/available vitality correctly. My latest video explained it all. When you feel the compulsion to deplete pressure and avoid responsibility of natural striving then you're going to end up facing bad outcomes. That's the dip that's unnecessary to face. Literally anything that causes you to incorrectly spend pressure/available vitality as an OPPORTUNITY (which is why the pressure peaks under moments of tension) to make a decision to either serve your sense of self or deplete that pressure to avoid that sense of responsibility to elevate your state, anything that depletes that is why you're unable to manifest what you want. We cultivate vitality, hold it to not waste it and allow it to freely go where it needs to go guided by greater process. That's how this works. This explains why people who don't do deliberate conscious imaginal stuff still get places, because that's not the secret. Elevating your sense of self by spending pressure correctly is the secret. I like the term pressure over vitality because you can feel those opportunities arise when they do to shift your orientation THROUGH the experience. 

 

I've talked about this before but I want to say it again. Integration happens where that built up vitality gets "spent" and you'll likely end up feeling after you've used it right a sense of less energy as a result. This is NOT a bad thing, what it actually means is that the energy instead of being used to artificially hype yourself up is now nourishing those currents, mostly you'll notice your psychology shifting and being more stable as a result. So the thing to understand is that you built vitality like a curve going up and then you hit the peak where pressure results in impulse to spend and you either do it correctly or you waste it and dip needlessly. If you spend it correctly you feel a sense of stability with a slow curve going down at the end where that elevated energy feeling begins to taper off as the vitality integrates. This is a good sign that you've done it correctly. It's stable, not high or low but in a middle ground where you're functional and operating more clearly. You'll notice the contrast and not feel the pressure to break more boxes. The satisfaction has sunk in and you're riding the stability until that fades and it's time for the next cycle of integration. This is what I've observed. It can take a few days for the stability of that wave to reach the end before a new pressure is felt to break more boxes. 

The interesting thing you'll recognize after going through this long enough is that to some extent manifesting things that ego/lust wants vs what's nourishing on a deeper level are kind of separate paths. Both work with the same mechanism of course but manifesting ego stuff is different, though part of me thinks it's sort of necessary to go through a bit of that in the original stages for some people to build some kind of basis outside of lack while also doing the purification processes like divine pathway work. NG never told us to imagine what we lust for, though he obviously left it open enough to be interpreted that way by people who don't get it. I interpreted it that way too, as a vast majority of people do. It's his fault for not making it clear enough and we've been over this before. The doctrine of NG was about becoming more individuated, and his doctrine has NOTHING to do with conventional manifestation LOA mentalism stuff. Yeah he taught the mentalism stuff early on pretty clearly but considering the correct parts of his work are there I will use that for what it is. Working with imagining what's NECESSARY that you KNOW needs to be transformed is how you do it, though that imaginal scene will simply "carry" the FEELING of inner truth you're moving into. 

I'm personally coming to the belief that the imaginal scene ultimately has almost no impact at all but that the direction of perception this scene REPRESENTS is what matters, because it's a representation of a part of your psyche transforming. The scene itself doesn't matter any more than it does to the degree that it can purify the necessary themes. This is why I say over and over that imaginal stuff in a vacuum is stupid and wasting time. The only time it can work for you reliably is as a natural thing you do with the themes integrated that scene represents. NG said that looping the scene "stabilizes" the feeling. Feeling is truth obviously, intuitive sense of knowing. I believe that this whole stabilization idea is more so a "focus" idea instead as in a clear direction of movement of contextual sense. The experience I had was more or less one of looking at who I was in the past as someone who I don't want to identify as anymore and I "moved" into the new state. Now you hear this all the time from people and even NG said it's like "falling" though what I will say as I always do is that without sufficient supply and pressure you're going to be unable to make this work. The prerequisites are REQUIRED for the conditions by which that naturalness can exist. This is the MASSIVE problem that everybody who fails to manifest faces and cannot overcome because they're given incorrect teaching. I'm going to argue that the most powerful way to expand space and vitality and such is to not only do regular gazing but also do what I said before about doing pathway work on what you feel is something that's heavily depleting to vitality and with that recognition and contrast to what you know IS necessary being introduced into contextual sense then you can motivate that available vitality (possibly prematurely may I add) and sort of drive yourself into a state of more clarity over what needs to be done. You'll be moved more over the next day to some extent to make better decisions at baseline. Remember states are degrees of nourishment and clarity of sense of self that's aligned, there's more of you that's conscious and thus as an effect you'll recognize correct and incorrect decisions and not WANT to buy into destructive stuff. States are really in that sense degrees of correct perception of what your capacity can provide, and your current state is the current perception you have available based on the nourishment that's there. A lower state is being less clear. Remember you can have intellectual recognition over what's good for you but without that space to actually FEEL it and have that feeling then be VISCERAL to you (because of pressure and now FEELING truth) then you'll be UNABLE to make correct decisions even if you say 10000000000 times that you're past it. There's literally nothing you can do without that availability. NOTHING. You think you can but you're at the mercy of the available vitality that's present, your supply determines what you can and can't do and I know people will probably disagree with that but I've been through this enough to know the difference. When you're heavily depleted the thing that's better off for you to do is actually take qi motivating tonics, or perhaps do deep heavy breathing like Wim Hoff or something. Why? Because that will really be the only way to manifest with what's available in quantity a quality that's actually beneficial. You're moving the current that is there, even if it's a tiny amount, but by circulating it more you'll feel more of that running through you. Liver qi getting stuck and heart qi getting stuck especially will destroy your ability to even WANT to break boxes. 

Breaking boxes that you know are necessary is elevating your state. You're operating from a position that is serving your nourishment more effectively. Feeling worthy and deserving cannot be faked until real experience is integrated. Trying to simulate this in your mind for the most part I've found is almost impossible from the idea that you can control it and use it to change things. It comes THROUGH you as an EFFECT of the components being lined up to manifest that psychological nature in your mind. This goes back on some of my early writings because now I can see the mechanics more clearly. The whole imaginal acts to do anything beneficial in my opinion is pointless because the only way they'll really have benefit at all is to have the currents that can manifest the necessary feeling and pressure to transform the limits. This automatically happens anyway because that pressure will basically move your imaginal senses to naturally think these things and so with that pressure present and the clarity present you can go into that and be able to transform it in a visceral way, to spend pressure correctly instead of wasting it. So this is why I said that to make any progress you MUST create space with gazing, coherency with the subtle and heart qi expansion with divine pathway work, breaking physical boxes to aid kidney qi more as the more dense substances and be willing to go all the way with where that necessary pressure leads you. You don't even really need pathway work but it's going to greatly speed up going through cycles of wasting energy on unclear directions because you still don't trust intuitive impulse. You'll be able to actually use the cycle that's always building and reaching peak and then dipping and rebuilding instead of wasting the pressure on useless trash. 

Let me put this straight. We can only change things with the waves and cycles of our vitality that peaks and dips in us all the time and these moments are opportunities to use it correctly instead of wasting it. Most people when they feel pressure to be in an elevated state (natural striving towards higher order as intuitive impulse) then they'll cope because they don't WANT to feel that. To make you WANT to feel that you REQUIRE sufficient kidney and heart qi, which is that sense of root and desire pressure. This is also why when you do dopamine fasting and stuff you'll WANT to make more clear decisions. Why? Because you're not needlessly depleting your natural peak dip cycle rhythm. Working with this rhythm of current elevating and reaching a point of impact where opportunity exists is where the ability to stabilize the psyche comes from, to impact shifts that are meaningful. You can do it before peak of course but that's what the extremes of the cycle lead to. You can operate with clarity anywhere along these waves really but it's at the most powerful at the peaks, though also the most difficult to have clarity of direction due to all the resistance being illuminated too. Going all the way matters most at those levels, but really always does anyway. Going all the way is utilizing whatever available nourishment you have (even if it's not enough to enter into the higher state because that CANNOT BE FAKED NO MATTER how "hard you go" or whatever) to take you as far as that will take you, AKA living efficiently. The problem people mostly have is easy access to distraction, that makes falling off the natural rhythm built into us get thrown out of whack, I've said this so many times but living with common sense will likely get you most of the way, along with gazing to expand into that subconscious level and such to refine those unconscious levels that would be much more efficient this way than not having those methods. They all work on different levels. 

Think of it like this. Any time you have a negative thought come up it's there to pull you into that context, that state, that degree of nourishment and deplete you so you stay down. A bulk of the work in thought is seeing those for what they are when they surface and being like "no this isn't important" and simply effortlessly shifting your attention to what's necessary. You're not denying that, it's not avoiding feeling the resistance (because we're talking about being active here not observing like with dynamic gazing or something) but instead is more like feeling the hook pulling you into WANTING to be distracted and recognizing the contrast and cutting the contrast off to not even perceive the lower level as an option. That's different though from being inside the subconscious and having feeling come up spontaneously. This does happen too and when you're in those places it's more intense, it's more than just a fleeting thought of "let's compromise" or whatever it's about so that's why dismissing these simple thoughts over the day can benefit (well more or less would confirm where you're at in coherency) like when you're working on something and you get the idea to go do stuff that's unnecessary to what you KNOW is necessary. Continuing to return to the sense of the elevated state as in a version of you who's more abundant FEELING that contrast and moving INTO it and feeling that pressure and welcoming it and making decisions from that will be where the active side of things is done, though that's almost mostly spontaneous from my observation. Trying to do any of this in a vacuum to impact shifts without timing being right is stupid and really won't get far. It's FAR more effective to apply this stuff when opportunity arises that you know is necessary to face because you feel it. That's the spontaneity of this that cannot be faked, because the manifestation of that IS the currents being present to facilitate that. 

It's like you just feel spontaneously a negative thought that's of lower state and you're like effortlessly (because you're supplied well) "screw that" and move through with what's necessary. All of this rests on having nourishment present., Without that none of this works. Period. Prove me wrong. No edge case scenarios either, because God moves us and takes the wheel sometimes too, because we need to be lined up for something and it will be forced. That's different. Seeing compromise and not buying into that is big. Being in the state embodied in the state is going to be making automatic perceptions due to the psychological aspects being illuminated on that level of nourishment. Nourishment in availability creates opportunity to elevate state, and mediating that pressure correctly anchors you into the next state. It's kind of just a common sense progression of moving from lack into abundance. Honestly. This can't be faked. Trying to use imaginal senses to bypass this is just stupid and wasting your time. Being yourself without compromise requires in the beginning when you're in a bad state with lack and all that to recognize what's necessary and face that pressure. You'll feel the want to compromise and at the same time you'll have a subtle sense of truth there in that as well and as you are motivated by that subtle feeling of truth you'll refine that resistance and move through what's necessary. Remember the experience itself is the transformation, on all levels. It's a drawn out transcendental experience. That transcendental transformation requires IMMENSE pressure and availability of nourishment to do anything, and usually they're spontaneous if they have impact. 

Look just live with common sense. Seriously. Live with common sense and do gazing and divine pathway work. Boom. There you go. RS in the most simple form. Drop all the imaginal stuff and just live the way you FEEL you need to and you'll win. If you have a solid aim you'll attain it 100%, especially if it's lined up for you. Does that mean you can't manifest anything thaw's not line dup? No, because someone who's integrated those components and feels natural towards them and has that capacity can and will go through those if they so want. The alchemist I believe commented on this whole idea about side quests I was talking about in a recent talk we've had and said there's nothing wrong with taking some side paths and having fun and playing around, so long as you're doing the necessary work on top of that. The issues come when you make it ALL about that. Those side quests aren't for purification. They're there for going sideways and having different experiences for the sake of it. They might teach you something but if it's not really natural striving that's necessary as in going to elevate your state then it's ultimately a secondary optional quest. 

I've found myself actually not even questioning "having" things that previously would've made me feel contrast. Like the contrast being gone is where that naturalness comes from and MOST of that in my opinion when it comes to REAL WORLD things is through mediating pressure correctly. There's a difference between the stuff that gazing clears vs working the active peak dip cycle. I've said this many times before but gazing will likely NOT target what you want it to, because that's not what it does. That's ok, because that's necessary anyway but it's targeting totally unconscious stuff that you don't even know you have and burning that out. When you do work that elevates your sense of self you're going to manifest "higher level" things into your life naturally. I have experienced this once again. I know what it feels like, it's a feeling, a degree of naturalness and nourishment, not a belief system. This belief system idea is INSANE because the psychological aspect DIRECTLY RESULTS from the themes being nourished. That's probably why NG was all about "nobody has free will" because in essence we don't, we at the mercy of our vitality to provide us that seeming free will. Remember what's natural to you is what you will WANT to make decisions from, and that's what you believe is your free will, though when you shift states that self perception of free will can shift again and move. It's clear as day. When you do this work you will experience a change in the contrast, you will feel more natural as yourself, you will be able to be involved in circumstances that are more nourishing to you and people will respond to you better, though also people who are feeling their own lacks amplified by your coherency that you're bringing out of them will disrespect you more. The people you attract will likely be on your new level, new state. View states as levels, degrees of nourishment of correct orientation. Nothing else. 

We're putting even more together. Take away from this that integration takes time, don't expect just because you feel satisfied one day that the cycles of needing to face the same trial are over. You will likely need to do this for days or even weeks, but when it does integrate it will feel less "intense" with the energy and you'll feel more coherency and stability with less effort put in. This is what it REALLY means to be in a higher state, the state of the wish fulfilled. Persistence is more or less continuing to go through that cycle you feel is necessary, willingly exposing yourself when opportunities arise and allowing those experiences to transform you, even if they're not perfectly what you want, because it WILL benefit your sate I bet. 

 

7/7/25

Wilhelm Reich orgone theory was correct. Everything we do in life is to satisfy pressure, or as NG says "satisfy hunger". Pressure drives all of this. It's all mediated by where vitality moves in our circuits. It's so obvious. It's just so insanely obvious. 

I believe that manifesting specific stuff and doing the immortality work only overlap to a degree. Things are becoming more clear. They overlap up to a certain point. Also "overlapping states" is running nourishing current (the exposure to self organizing intelligence) up against the lack and by going deeper into that exposure INSIDE the state AKA overlapping it, you're purifying the trash. State interferometry. This was an idea I had ages ago in my early RS talks. So much of what I said back then has been further refined. It's really just that we're spending pressure in ways that serves us instead of against us. Like common sense obviously. Manifesting breakthroughs requires pressure. It requires desire. More desire means more pressure, and more opportunity to mediate that pressure to where it needs to go. In my experience the only way to make this work reliably is to have sufficient pressure to expend not out of needless hyping up to bypass responsibility but recognizing that pressure to accept the responsibility of where you're compromising and fulfil that in your imaginal experience. The depth of sensory detail doesn't matter really it's the focus on overlapping the lack with the drive to transform that. "I'm over this" helped me manifest stuff overnight many times before IF there's enough pressure/drive/desire under it. NG himself said this before as I've mentioned in that video about how he said you need a "strong desire". The more you sense that truth of movement into the direction of serving your desire/end the more you can overlap states. IT'S COMMON SENSE DAMMIT. Yeah having less energy into it comes out naturally as a result of already being attuned, because it's normal already. Those who have used pressure correctly then won't feel the contrast to overlap and since it's available that normal feeling can be their experience when the experience comes through them in mind. The ones who have contrast MUST feel that contrast being overlapped to get literally anywhere. 

Get this. If you don't have enough nourishing current TO BE THE CONTRAST to the lack then how will you EVER WANT TO break the boxes and thus "shift states"? It REQUIRES that current to mediate the pressure where it needs to go. That's going to reflect in nervous system and endocrine function. Don't play this stupid game where you think you can bypass that level because you can't. It's a direct reflection of the vitality available, Remember that it's a huge spectrum, not black and white with this stuff. If you're breaking boxes you REQUIRE nourishing current to be the contrast to even perceive that subconscious truth in a degree that's powerful enough to WANT to break that box. This is my point. You won't even have it wash over you that you're not where you want to be, and feeling THAT feeling of I'm not where I need to be is in my experience what leads to actual breakthroughs. I've experienced this many times before, because it's the realization that the pressure gets to obvious to ignore and THAT'S MY POINT. Doing the NG stuff in imagination to buy into limited beliefs and bypass the acceptance of being yourself without compromise by feeling those negative things about yourself that are now conscious, that will cause you to stay stuck. You will waste that pressure, that opportunity, that cycle to cultivate power and momentum towards what serves you. Damn I can't say it any more simply than just do what you KNOW you need to do. It's obvious to anyone who's experienced this before. By just being moved by that intuitive impulse, that opportunity to make a purifying decision under intense pressure to serve your higher state or not, making those decisions is where you "go all the way" and EVEN IF it doesn't "work out" then so what you still used that energy to learn from something new and new cycles will emerge from that. We're not here to feel good all the time, elevating your state involves feeling pressure and that's why people get stuck. You need availability of vitality and pressure to make any changes in life because that's the creative essence that can even have those impacts we're looking for. Without that purifying light then you're screwed staying in the dark forever. Illumination reveals truth, when vitality lights up the lack to be transformed. If there's no illuminating light then no truth about lack can be revealed to transform. People who do NG stuff in a vacuum thinking that they don't need to work this mechanism continue to manifest signs and limited results. 

Just go all the way. Damn it just DO IT. If you don't feel that drive then start cultivating it. Nourish yourself where you know you can and you WILL feel that contrast, that pressure, that opportunity to transform. It will come and it will likely be spontaneous when you go all the way. You cannot fail because going all the way must reveal that truth to you in the most satisfying way possible. 

Gazing doesn't spend this pressure, in fact it balances it to where it should be and to some extent amplifies it.. No compromise. There will be more refinements on this idea I know but here it is. Just do it. Live. Breathe. Be yourself. Spend pressure where you KNOW it needs to go. It can take upwards of 3 weeks to get out of bottom of the barrel states but that's ok because you know what to do. 

I said ages back that dropping needless stimulation is the necessary step for most people to take. Why? Because of the above. Stimulations that's used to burn vitality needlessly only inhibits that pressure from reaching the peak. NG said manifesting is like a psychic sexual act. That requires libido, pressure, a supply of kidney and heart qi. It's THE SAME THING thematically related. They CANNOT BE DENIED. It's OBVIOUS. IT'S SO OBVIOUS THAT ALL THE TRASH OUT THERE IS JUST CHARLATANISM 100%. All this trash from people who have no idea what they're talking about and obviously have no passion for revealing the facts about manifestation. The more vitality you have available in buffer because you're in flow and mediating those macro level connected currents the further you will get with overlapping other peoples field geometry, which is where their sense of truth comes from. You will drive them if they're not on their own path because you become their supply. Their unconscious runs their lives. 

Man I feel so juiced up today it's insane what living more physically can do for you. Just throw yourself out there shamelessly and see what happens. Be yourself. Doing the deeper level gazing and such only amplifies the work you do everywhere else. It doesn't replace that fully. Are you spending vitality correctly? All this HD stuff about making correct decisions from authority and strategy is just using this same mechanism here, the timing is both coming from cosmic clock and on top of that the available vitality present to facilitate a correct interaction that will satisfy that pressure in nourishing ways. It's the same thing. You cannot deny this no matter how you view it the whole 'clarity" thing and whatnot people throw around comes from this current being available to reveal the truth of direction your natural striving is moving through and that cannot be faked and it will be clear to you with enough pressure. There are no techniques to make pressure build more, it's almost entirely a physiological thing in my experience, as in nervous and endocrine system determines capacity and opportunity, though of course that must be directed correctly so just because you're functional there doesn't mean you'll get what you want or need. What we need is unconscious purifying processes such as gazing and divine pathway work and general pathway work to tap into those deeper levels of us that we're unaware of and clean that out to establish a more clear link. Understand that if you've got powerful supply of vitality that's reflected in endocrine and nervous system health then you must also recognize that those unconscious drives will be amplified by that availability as well. This is often why people who are depleted overthink and can kind of see their lack but they can't transform it and those with huge energy that are driven by unconscious resistance don't get anywhere either. Those people with high degrees of available vitality MUST learn to stabilize and focus that where it needs to go with methods like gazing and all that. This cannot be faked. You must go through while under great pressure sitting in that self organizing field which will root out all that unconscious resistance for you so that you don't need to dig for it. It's more difficult often times too to dig for stuff when you're loaded up on pressure because it wants to be released. The way you become "powerful" is to have a high degree of buffer vitality and pressure that you can hold and PROCESS with you in say to day life. This opens up the manifestation of the psychological aspects towards naturalness. If you've been there before you KNOW what I mean. You will WANT to break boxes. Self empowerment RELIES ON THIS MECHANISM. This is a LEVEL of what the deeper illuminating work does, but operating purely from natural striving physically in the world will not take you all the way towards immortality though of course because there's deep unconscious stiff that physically based natural striving doesn't really have the ability to touch on in any meaningful way as far as I know. 

Operating from the lower state, as in perceiving those unconscious resistances as who you are without contrast regardless of nervous or endocrine function is where most people are at, and gazing can and will target the stuff that it can work with on that level. This is why I'm explaining here that doing the physical stuff in a vacuum can only get you so far (and by that I mean towards immortality not manifesting specific things physically in the world) and that this foundation of being driven by that lower state even if you've got high availability of vitality but all these unconscious programs running the show then it won't really matter what you physically do more of because it can't really reach the roots effectively. The alchemist has made this clear to me in fact that doing the gazing and such other work really is what touches into those really deeper root levels of unconscious stuff you'd never be able to reliably touch otherwise. So think of it like this. The degree of unconscious mind clarity you've got determines the degree by which physically based stuff will work for you when it comes to breaking certain patterns and programs that don't serve you. Operating with high vitality but without that subconscious space specifically expanded and BEING WILLING TO SIT IN THAT TO GUIDE YOU, which is what gazing does, then you'll just be driven to want to waste that pressure on stuff that's not needed, but because they're so high on buffer they'd not really experience depletion and lack physically the same way that someone who's hyper focused on doing gazing and stuff would without the endocrine stuff working well. There's always degrees to this and explaining it in text here is challenging really. You need to be aware that breaking boxes requires both sides of the equation being present. Yes more vitality when it comes to subconscious space specifically as a function of overlapping conscious and unconscious through gazing will lead to greater clarity and living a more focused life on making the immortality work the goal to attain, where as nourishing the endocrine functions and nervous system functions exclusively will likely lead you to manifesting in the world what you desire far far more easily. This is how I believe this works, and the relationships between them. I find the more visceral currents of vitality manifest more in that sort of "I get what I want" egoic type of state. The alchemist has told me before about that someone with high ego can still have high power, because having ENOUGH clarity in the unconscious can still open you up to great power, though not all of it is required to be clear of course. I do not have an equation or whatever to scientifically explain this but it's there between the lines. Going all the way physically speaking will be your way to get what you want in life, even if it's not serving the function of expanding states into levels beyond your awareness that are really the deeper function of why you're here. People who are operating with super expanded subconscious states have a sort of "magical" ability to them that they can regardless of physical vitality (to a degree) still influence who they want to and believe naturally from that place. The operation from the state itself, as in a high ENOUGH state to have what you want doesn't require super expanded subconscious space. Again, understand the degrees to this stuff.

I need to map this out more and make this more clear, because I believe there's something here that's important to recognize. All the work I've done to expand my subconscious mind has landed me the ability to see more clearly what is and isn't self, as in operating from a much more clear state of what is and what is not, but my capacity to feel natural towards certain things I wanted wasn't what that often led to. That usually worked on dissolving totally unrelated stuff to what I had in desire. What you have in desire from a sort of worldly level requires that visceral level nourishment to have the psychological level activated to feel natural towards it. This cannot be faked, though I do believe that doing gazing and divine pathway work for long enough will burn out most of those lustful desires of the ego anyway. What is unconscious will be amplified further by cultivating visceral level vitality. To the outside world that may seem what's productive because it gets you things physically but it will not get you closer to immorality. You will be MORE inclined NOT to drop importance of lusts. This visceral level vitality only serves to empower the egoic stuff that may or may not serve you, and the gazing works to root out the trash that shouldn't be there in the first place to warp where that drive takes you. So I have no doubt that when you cultivate vitality on the physical side of things and go all the way there you will be MORE likely to manifest physically based abundance, as is most of my experience, but that doesn't mean it will ACTUALLY satisfy your "hunger" for higher states, because while that intuitive impulse is more potent so is the not self conditioning it seems. This is why cultivating BOTH levels leads to the ULTIMATE expression of manifesting power. 

I know I've said many times that clearing the inner stuff reflects on the outside, and it does, though as I've also said many times the gazing doesn't probably target what you want. By this I'm talking about general gazing methods without any focus of attention in that expanded space. If you bring up specific resistance to be processed with gazing by feeling through them then yeah you can do that but as always if you're "trying" to do it you're going to not get far because it should be available to process with the pressure. Spontaneity is where that works. 

Going all the way. Just do it. I literally can't say anything else. When you're so juiced up you just NEED to spend that energy on something. This is my point. When you feel it's powerful the best thing to do is listen to the subtle sense and trust that. You will know the difference between lustful ego stuff and inner guidance. The more dynamic gazing you can do while holding this degree of pressure and use that to balance it out the more you ill glow. I also believe this is A POSSIBLE way towards slowing aging and stuff, though reversal I can't say. I've never had proper vitality for my age to be honest because of the genetic trash I was born with though the alchemist said that doing the theurgy work enough can and will likely resolve that. It's a process. Stick to it. Go all the way. 

Qi and blood being coherent seems to me to be the reflection of physical vitality, youthfulness, and such. Deficiencies of either leads to breakdown and aging. Having genetic blood deficiency built into me makes this more of an issue, though doesn't mean I'm screwed. Dissolving the unconscious stuff that's causing it will be how that's resolved. That cannot be touched by physically based natural striving as far as I know, but I can't say with certainty that's the case. I believe that in order to impact those levels you'd need to go deeper into the unconscious mind using methods that theurgy opens up. I guess we can more or less simplify this as the more pressure you have then it will WANT to go more to the path of least resistance, and if the path of least resistance is unconscious conditioning then so be it, and that the subconscious space might not be recognized clearly by someone on that level who's not done gazing. How far does that overlap go is the question. That's the equation to answer. The alchemist said that physical health has only small overlap with effective gazing and such with the goal of CLEARING unconscious resistance of course. 

Building pressure leads to growth of SOMETHING. The more clarity you have on that unconscious level the more that can lead to outcomes that are TURLY satisfying and purifying. The less unconscious resistance there the more you'll end up making correct decisions spontaneously, though often someone's ego isn't going to be very strong unless they're totally whacked out I've rarely seen that in the LOA spaces. You'll see what's good and bad for you, that intuitive sense, the subconscious wisdom overflows and you FEEL it. What you're actually feeling is the state of that clarity in contrast to lack, and thus an opportunity to make a decision from that state, being IN the state and operating from it means making clear decisions from that perception. This is NOT subjective belief sequences but is more or less just degrees of correctness, or not. 

Going and needlessly stimulating the release of pressure (vitality gets burned as I've said) then you'll feel less desire to move into an elevated state OR buy into the egoic stuff. It seems to me that most people who are successful with fast manifestations are people who have more of that egoic nature backed up with power, not as much the types who are not as potent in visceral nature but have more clarity in that, to a degree. Grey areas are vast with this.

You see with advanced theurgy work and the relationship between the glands and the endocrine system is that eventually you'll become immortal and the movement of vitality would be mastered as integration of all the components has taken place. 

What I notice with doing physical level vitality cultivation is that it'll often bring up some degree of unconscious resistance but it'll be more related to the more surface level resistance than the deeper stuff, I find. It will come up to serve a certain desire being fulfilled especially. That's why I said that working on that level will likely lead you to getting stuff physically in the world but the thing is that deeper level unconscious resistance may not be dissolved accordingly. Both together work both levels. You win. 

 

Old theurgy texts tell us to loop the name of a power to evoke it. This is an attunement. Think lullaby method. Now if you can see it with open eyes while doing evocation and gazing then you're on it's level, literally. Wouldn't that then mean that NG SATS by affirming for something that's in a higher state put you in that place? If it's a power greater than you that you're targeting then YES it should. Why wouldn't it? I think this is another level. NG SATS and doing evocation while gazing are just different methods to do the same thing. By SATS I mean sleeping at night SATS, looping an experience of some form. That experience thematically connects to that intelligence on that level. This is why imagining what you lust after usually ends up in a bad place especially if you're already depleted. Interesting idea with this.

I'm getting impulse to go play volleyball like I use to. Fun stuff.

 

Came across an interesting idea just now. Lengthening and expanding out is what qi does. You probably know where this is going. I also find myself sitting in advanced gazing with better posture. All this stuff has come up for me to work with lately I don't often factor. It's like my body wants to expand and such now. It's something I've not experienced really much of. Physically speaking raising and expanding your body would correlate to the availability of yang, qi, expanding vitality. If we're "growing into" our capacity then it would correlate to some degree would it not? If our perfect template in the earth element exists for what we will look like then that is what we're moving into by doing this. The alchemist has also said that gazing can literally shift bone structure to align your body more closely to your perfect form because it's cleaning out impurities thematically speaking and so there will be a corresponding shift in the physical structure too. They both overlap of course. Consciously raise and expand your physical and subtle being as much as you can over the day. Possibly overlap dynamic gazing with this. Might sound like it's too much but try it. Expand and raise. Could even do divine pathway work while doing a gazing and expanding. Live and breathe these metaphysics. You will not WANT to unless pressure is there. It must mean I'm running up against this to illuminate it. 

Go look at the structure of older skulls being wider and taller and whatnot and then connect that with what I've said about the depletion of the availability of vitality. Of course this would happen. We're all weaker, physically speaking, because we're growing up in a comfort world. Pressure is avoided at any cost. Pressure is discharged needlessly. That nourishing current that illuminates and transforms must be expressed instead of repressed. Is this not manifesting a higher state in the more pure form? 

There's too much to talk about I can't even describe. I just can't. 

 

8/7/25

Honestly. Just. Just listen. Autosuggestion is very very real. Your environment "reminds" you of contextual sense of self, it brings OUT of you your feeling of lack. NOBODY CAN DENY THIS. That's not a bad thing per say but let's be real here, your pressure to change that trash will have to get so high before anything ACTUALLY shifts. You want to manifest ANYTHING differently in a MEANINGFUL way then firstly focusing on environmental factors MATTERS. Where do you KNOW you can cut out depletion. Do pathway work on this and label the vitality levels on each subject that arises. You will find what needs to be done here. 

9/7/25

I found a post of someone saying that constant fantasizing about what you want fries your dopamine receptors the same way that coping with substances does. This is exactly what I observed. The more I fantasise the worse my life gets. Why? Because it depletes pressure. Dopamine is another aspect of pressure, integrated available pressure that’s manifest as an attunement which others will be attracted to in thematic supply, vitality, a supply of nourishment that is the effect of spending energy correctly. The hormones and neurotransmitters I talk about all the time relating to the different substances in the field geometry directly relate to your ability to be spontaneous as yourself. Without that available you will feel contrast, lack, and the desire to cope instead of press through and experience what’s necessary which you FEEL subconsciously. That inner truth. I can’t believe it I often get goosebumps or something when I connect these dots because it’s surreal that I’m actually breaking down a multi billion dollar industry. 

This marries the common sense ways of living correctly with natural striving and imaginal acts. None of this contradicts. There’s not one bit. It’s all about mediating pressure. That is exactly what Wilhelm Reich talked about decades ago with his orgonomy research. He said libido was the life force of all people, and he’s correct. Kidney Wii is the root which opens up conjugation with heart qi desire where satisfaction can be felt, relief from operating under necessary pressure which is the OBLY reason why the world exists the way it does today. Aetheric pressure gradient mediation, just like I said 3 years ago in my early posts on RS from the physics side. Full circle. No more do we have to connect dots. The dots are connected and reconciled after so much hard work and toiling. 

I also want to say that integrating themes takes weeks minimum. I’m talking about DEEP impacts. This is not surface level impacts. Integration of different currents REQUIRES and I mean REEEEEQUIRES you to NOT COMPROMISE on those themes being expressed. I don’t know how to make that more clear. I have experienced this once again. Integration of those themes REQUIRES that you don’t waste that pressure of that thematic format. If you KNOW there’s a compromise pattern but you’re trying to integrate it without fulfilling that pattern then you will very likely continue to run up against that contrast over and over until you fulfil the compromise pattern. It’s NECESSARY and that’s WHY it keeps showing up over and over and over and over. You’re being shown this stuff all the time but can’t see it. Damn I can’t make it more clear you NEED to cut out trash that you KNOW (subconscious intuitive sense telling you the truth) needs to get lost and move on else you cannot have a clear link yo that theme as your field geometry is still warped and distorted in the signature you’re emanating. You cannot have it come through you or output it. You’ll be stuck dissolving the resistance you keep avoiding. This should all be clear as day. Breaking patterns of dysfunction that keep coming up is a matter of ripeness as the alchemist said, though accelerating ripeness through regularly exposing yourself to higher order nature in that expanded space among other levels of that mechanism (I’ll still argue that making those decisions on the spot constitutes ripening but whatever) is how you get to that. Imaginal acts come through you when they work, meaning they’re already there within you and you’re clear for the link to communicate the information to run through your mind spontaneously. Trying to control this means you’re in lack and results in unsatisfying outcomes. Said it hundreds of times but it’s true. I guess this should be the RS slogan or something that I put videos up every day repeating over and over like the morons who repeat “it’s already done” as if they know anything about manifestation at all. It’s all a scam. The magic and the common sense are the same thing. 

 

10/7/25

Was hanging out the washing and had this one come up. So we're really just mediating pressure and when pressure is felt it's an opportunity to make a decision, along with the naturalness of trusting intuitive impulse when comfort is already present. We're cultivating vitality and this is basically giving us FORWARD opportunities to purify resistance through the overflow of nourishing current that's targeting these themes we're working with intelligently. We're allowing the overflow to happen spontaneously. What's going on is that by building nourishing current over a stretched out period of time and by not depleting that buffer you're going to allow it to "settle" and integrate. I find this takes a bit to happen, like you can feel the energy rising and then it "sinks in" so to say, You'll feel pressure building again after this integration happens which touches on new levels, so instead of waiting for dips to feel that pressure you're allowing the pressure to spontaneously provide insights and opportunity when you're in a more abundant state. This is the primary mechanism that's working here with what LOA is thinking it's doing, I believe. It's that when you build up enough pressure (desire) without artistically stimulating to deplete like when fantasizing about having the thing then you can conjugate because the components are present to do so. I have experienced this lately, and this is often when I say it comes through you spontaneously. You're open and the conditions are right for that to happen. This is why imagining to try and make it happen more often than not results in lacking outcomes, because you're not ready. You're trying to force things, and as a result you'll be led to insight through that experience of lack to self correct your depletion and hope you don't keep artificially stimulating your vitality into burning out needlessly. 

 

Flow is everything. 

 

Everything in life is the "satiation of desire" as NG said. Mediation of pressure. That is correct. It's funny how a post I replied to on the NG subreddit has a bunch of downvotes and the guy who said "it appears reading comprehension has gone down since the days of NG" or something like that had tons of upvotes lol it's so hilarious that's exactly why I don't even bother posting on reddit pages because it's nothing but mind magic there. There's literally zero common sense in the LOA space. NG in his own words said we have roles we're zapped into by God and that we are born with whole gardens. I corrected myself from my incorrect assessment of my interpretation thinking he said we are born without seeds, but he said we are, or at least it's implied using the metaphors he talks about. 

 

Growing into the state. I guess now we're getting more into the general mindset stuff, seeing yourself as capable of being the person who you desire to be instead of focusing on the desire itself. The desire should inspire growth. If it inspires growth then you're doing it right. Also I just found it interesting that over the last week I've had like 5 different comments on my videos talking about how handsome I am and I've gotten emails with people saying the same thing. I've never had it this much before, which I find interesting. I have 

 

11/7/25

I spoke with the alchemist again today and he basically said straight up that your subjective synthesis AKA your belief structures and contextual sense must align to your intention you're looking to manifest X the subconscious space you have access to because without a degree of operating WITHIN the subconscious level where intelligence exists you can't "impress" anything. He said that if you don't believe that something can be true then you're never going to experience it, and he said that in order to have belief to KNOW something you NEED DIRECT experience of it. So, the NG stuff, imagining something with vividness as though it's real, this is simply to generate belief in something through direct experience, and if you're not deep enough inside that expanded subconscious space then it won't really have any impact. Gazing and imagining seems to be what the trick is, which is what NG actually did teach as his method. The problem is most people aren't expanded enough at baseline to make that work, because from my experience most of the time when I'd go to imagine what I wanted it would make me feel physically sick when I did. I didn't intend that at all. I couldn't go deep without being thrown out. What needs to happen in these cases is to clear the unconscious by cleaning the trash out of the way to establish a clear link, and in order to do that you need pressure to WANT to break boxes.

So, from top to bottom, pressure needs to be built, nourishing current and the psychological contrast between a state of lack and abundance needs to be established and experienced. With this contrast revealed you will accept and move through the conditions necessary, either internally with a visceral experience due to extended pressure which opens that up for spontaneous transformation (the alchemist also said that thoughts can "slip through" to the higher genius and manifest WITHOUT YOUR INTENTION) OR externally which still works with the same principles, though is less direct often but still a valid way. It all works. From here you're going to be able to burn out unconscious resistance and feel satisficed. This is main quest stuff, mostly. When you've done enough main quests on the storyline you'll have enough clarity to establish that connection to higher genius and have direct communication where you can simply intend things while in that deep gazing state and basically do what NG says and it'll work. I've done that multiple times lately, and the way I got to that point is to have physically based momentum behind me.

The alchemist basically told me that the way to manifest is to have belief and intention to harness that belief and to also have enough subconscious expansion to overlap and "push out" into realty. It's the higher genius that does this, not us. We're simply clearing the connection. The way you gather space though obviously is through clearing unconscious resistance. I've had people do significant unconscious resistance clearing in coaching and still not be able to manifest the SP, though other things came through very clearly and in powerful ways and their lives became much more abundant but the SP still didn't respond. Why? I believe that as the alchemist said if you're simply not expanded enough then it doesn't matter because that other person has filters. The degree of belief and clear intention that you also have also DOES MATTER, he said. Belief matters, though that's simply under the context of not having conditions in the way really more than anything. He said "subjective synthesis" needs to support intention. Operating from your belief system with that intention is the same thing, so long as that belief system supports the intention then it's going to work for you. That's all you need he said. This is how thought transmission works. It works through intention. Intention also builds your filters for other peoples stuff he said. 

"Intention IS a functional part of intuition and intuition is absolutely part of the subconscious STATE so they're connected". This is what he told me directly today. He told me that intention and intuition are both aspects of the greater yin state, or component of consciousness. Intention and knowing and feeling and that contextual sense and all that stuff is related to the experience of the subconscious sense. 

"At the same time to acknowledge all the half truth nonsense that goes on, just saying that you intend to do something or intend to create something when you are not functioning from a particular state of consciousness does not make it so. You have to be functioning from that state of consciousness for that intention to make a hill beans worth of difference".

"When you do function from that state and you know how that state works, then that does change the complexion of the whole idea. It's just that most people that bump into that idea, they really want to change those things, they aren't functioning from that level (state/sense of self/supply) and you can't change what was created at that level while you're functioning at that level, it doesn't work that way".

"Most of these things are things you stumble into in the course of doing the work and you figure it out in hindsight because it's not obvious in the moment unless you're in a deep lucid state and you have gnosis at the time but if you're just going through the motions you almost don't notice certain things when they fall away you only notice it in hindsight when you think about a thing you use to do you don't do anymore. That's because it's kind of been routed out not because you're trying to route it out but it's a byproduct of doing the process. You don't notice a thing that's not there anymore because it's not there anymore. Usually that's a thing you recognize fairly after the fact".

"If the only thing you knew to do was to throw yourself into the path of more powerful consciousness that would result in a burn off and a purification then you'd just do that. That is theurgy in that way on that level (referring to gazing)".

"I will say that the extent to which your intention can apply depends to do with how much your intention lines up with your configuration that your higher genius wants you to be in. If you're lined up with that then you're going to have flow". 

"The conscious participatory part has probably more to do with being willing to live into whatever is required to deal with whatever weirdness is going to get thrown at you in order to navigate getting where you want to go in theory, but it's not necessarily going to let you over participate in the specifics, which on one hand is really annoying and on another hand is somewhat liberating because you don't have to figure all that out. You just need to get out of the way long enough to sort out what needs to happen, it knows we need to function in the real world. It has a hand in participating in that too, so the degree to which you're surrendered to whatever needs to happen on psychospiritual level and in the consensus reality do need to line up it has to be practical. It may not look the way exactly the way you thought it was going to look".

"There have been plenty of instances where the choice was to just surrender to whatever attunement was going to happen". I like how he said attunement there. Adjusting the arrangements of the parts. 

I asked about healing someone else. He said:

"Those are all things that are possible but the important thing to understand is that having knowledge and conversation allows you to ask whether or not you can or should involve yourself in what's going on with anyone else. Just because you can doesn't mean you should. If in your personal desire to do particular things, you can end up interfering in someone else's free will so the one thing about having knowledge and conversation is that you get to ask whether or not you get to meddle in things consciously that you otherwise wouldn't be previously able to do and most of the time it tells you no, so even having the ability to ask is really anticlimactic at some point because you really don't get to meddle."

 

Your assumptions as NG calls them are really just your subjective synthesis as the alchemist calls it, or what I often call contextual sense of self. This is the body of anchored beliefs you're operating from, the supplied themes which manifest AS psychological belief. 

It seems to me that to make side content work if we'd call it that is more or less simply about generating a self persuasion autosuggestion routine to support this contextual environment you live in day to day where the contrast vanishes. Going all the way. In this sense we can conclude that to manifest anything on a side quest sort of way is to have sufficient space for such and on top of that you'll have a coherent mental environment you'd live in that you're willing and able to believe as your world without contrast in the way. You operate from that place, that state, degree of subtlety AND beliefs within that level. More sense of self basically. Thing is, is that good for your main story? If it's not it'll not be genuinely satisfying. I will just preach this doctrine to the masses and as a higher level of that then the whole correctly oriented main story immortality stuff. Most people dislike my videos talking about deeper alchemy and such because they're not ready for that. They want the person, the worldly stuff. 

 

This is the alchemist here on rearranging physical deformities and other issues with your appearance. The correct configuration in the context he's talking about is the aetheric template you see when you do advanced gazing.

"You are able to connect and ask if this particular configuration that you happen to be in is not actually the configuration you need to have, and if it is possible to be corrected, could it please be corrected. First there's an assumption that you don't really know whether it should be the way that is it, but you can ask that if it's not really how it should be and there is something dysfunctional, that if it could be corrected that would be great, and you let it go. Then weird stuff happens. Sometimes you inadvertently do things that may or may not have been the way to fix the thing that may or may not have been slightly dysfunctional, because if you accidentally upload a picture of something at the time when you make that very innocent request, you can end up with the exact version of that picture. So, just because you did that doesn't mean you can upload a new picture saying "hey that wasn't exactly what I had in mind but that's the picture I know I had in mind though can you do this now" and it's like no. There's a degree of when you're not trying and you have this innocent thought and the innocent thought itself slips through directly to your higher genius (subconscious impression) things can happen near instantly, but you are responsible for the contents of that innocent thought that slipped through and sometimes that's not exactly what you had in mind and you still get to live with it because it gets changed. So I think some of it is a little bit being hazed by the higher genius because it's teaching you to be careful what you ask for and the manner in which you do it and the picture you send while you do it, because some levels of consciousness operate by pictures and not by thought, or combinations thereof, and I have experienced that too, to the point where it's absolutely irrefutably what happened exactly (the imaginal experience/picture) and then you get to live in that particular configuration of how things didn't use to function and that's how they function and now despite your best intentions to upload new images that's not what happens. I don't want to be more explicit than that, but it's a thing".

That's what the alchemist directly told me about specific manifestation as I got to ask the question in more detail finally. I will likely expand on this in future and get more details here to copy. I'm manually transcribing this because the auto transcriber is broken again. Stupid. 

I can't find the exact spot where he talks about this but he does also mention that often times if you try and manipulate other people (through manifesting that NG says you don't need permission to perform) you'll often end up facing circumstances that are unfavorable. He's talking about being in alignment vs controlling to get what you want and how that's just going to lead to you along this path towards immortality being thrown off your progress until that attachment is resolved. What I personally believe is that if you're not going on that track then you can almost let go of needing permission and do what NG says to imagine anyone to be in the "state" you want them to be in. 

 

As I've said many times here, I believe the biggest reason why people cannot genuinely manifest what they desire is because they don't feel enough pressure to break out of the boxes yet. I've proven that you can manifest overnight multiple times IF you're loaded up on supply to make that happen, which needs to be cultivated and utilized. It's a process of working in any means you have available, and denying this and attempting to work in a vacuum in your mind to do this will very likely fail you. 

I will say though that quality is FAR more important than quantity. Repetition is stupid. 

The willingness and desire to break boxes and go through limits matters. This involves feeling unconscious trash to be clear. Pretending otherwise is just plain ignorant. To get started we should all be cultivating space in all the ways we know we can to facilitate the process. Recognizing contrast performs an old technique I called "slingshotting" that sends you into the contrasting view. All manifestation works through communication with God, higher genius, and to establish that clear connection you need a channel that's got little to no resistance, else on the way there to communicating what's needed you'll get distortions. Clarity comes through living into a higher state and that means cleaning the link. No matter how you slice it going through unconscious resistance is necessary to some extent, because if you've gone through deep gazing and set your intention or as I call it suggestion and you don't see an outcome that's related then it's due to the connection being either unclean or that's not for you and you're being oriented to see something else that's necessary by God. Formula is simple.

Get real, cultivate vitality and pressure and go all the way. That pressure is the feeling of the state being mediated into your awareness. It's an opportunity to feel through resistance and purify your link, to the degree that this opportunity is offering you. Take it and go all the way. 

I’m going to paste something here I wrote out just before before bed:

How to become aware of states

Feeling contrast is becoming aware of the space between states. Being in the state fully however is a letting go of the contrast to the direction that serves. How do you bring up contrast? Remind yourself of opportunity and vitality value in a perception you’d accept or not. Does this serve my vitality? Then breathe into it and sink into the surrender if it doesn’t. If it does serve your vitality then allow it to move forward and move with the opportunity to make that decision. Asking yourself the question “does this serve my vitality/state/sense of self” is the important part to establish contrast and in that make the decision that’s necessary. Remember when you ask the question to relax into the answer. Relax into it. Breathe out as you relax into the answer. Allow it.

How do you go deeper-er? You sink further into the state. How do you do that? You gaze into it. Gaze and open up subconscious space to walk inside as the aetheric body where you will bring an image before God. This only works when you’re INSIDE the aetheric body. When you are in that level then you’ve got access to that capacity. To get to that level you must open up to it by clearing the link of impurities. The way you enter into the aetheric body is by gazing deeper and also doing divine pathway work on the regular. This cleans the link and opens the projection mechanism for your consciousness to go deeper.

How do you consistently keep focus on a desire without specifically focusing on it? Themes. The feeling of the state and corresponding themes of experience that relate and surround the context of that overarching desire will support your sense of self towards the main desire. What does this mean? Well what thoughts come to mind in pathway work when you think of your desire. What surrounds it? What supporting experiences and beliefs provide greater context for that desire? Imagine those and write down how they feel in all ways. Define them in every possible term you can. Log down every word or image or anything that you can use to build out that experince. With that then you’ll take that and sum it up into 1 word. If you can’t decide on 1 then go for 2 or 3 at most. Then go to the next series of thoughts for the next part that supports the main desire and build it out. Build out all the details and define all levels of them. Define the complete nature of it entirely. Then sum it all up. Do this for everything surrounding the main desire. From here you’ll take all those contextually related aspects and sum them all up into a single affirmation or image or sound or whatever. A feeling you’ll return to that associated to the representation is what we’re targeting with the reference state. You’ll draw yourself into the reference state on the regular when you feel contrast into lack and remind yourself of how this serves your vitality and relax into the acceptance of that and allow the lack and limitation to melt away. When opportunity arises and intuitive impulse shows up then move with it spontaneously. Trust it. Go all the way.

This is the practical manifestation formula for reality synthesis and works on every level. This is exclusively for the purposes of manifesting specific things and manipulating reality. This is not for the purposes of doing deeper level purification and refinement of the aspects of the psyche. You’re going to simply use this profess day to day as your method of manifesting desires, be they lust based or not that’s beside the point this formula will get you what you want. Working with greater context is the magic because this is the real language of the subconscious mind.

When you view everything from the perspective of truth, the feeling of “does this serve my vitality” then you’ll always get a correct answer. This is how you judge truth, because the sense of yes or no will correspond with lightness or heaviness. This isn’t emotional but a sense of self awareness contextual sensation. It’s a sense of resonance or dissonance with a higher state, and this reveals contrast between states.

Over time you will automatically feel this difference and the contrast between them that you feel will dissolve. You will automatically begin to make clear decisions and not even think twice. The awareness of the contrast and lack will vanish, and you’ll look back and realise that you’ve already. Urned out the trash without trying it would seem. You’re operating more from a clear sense of self which is the higher state. This is how you’re manifesting. You’re operating in a higher state. Imagining what you want out of this state is the trick to actually having influence. You will feel naturally deserving and worthy and it’s all about having that sense of self and available vitality supplied there to facilitate opening up that subconscious level deep enough for impacts with intent and purpose to serve the fulfilment of the desire. This cannot be bypassed while in a lower state. A state is a degree of clarity over your capacity. It’s how much of something you can do experience of it, not just a shift in perception of relationship but actually having more awareness of what it means to you and how it does or doesn’t serve you at baseline intuitively felt and experienced on that level. This is living more from the subconscious, in a higher state. Clarity, intuitive impulse and truth being crystal clear is the goal. How do you get here? You burn out the trash that’s in the way of the capacity that’s already innate within you. That clarity is already there in capacity but to grow into that state you’ll simply be consistently exposing yourself to that level and deepening the baseline degree of operation from that state. You’ll make decisions according to this state on the regular when contrast arises. You’ll be unable to make those decides correctly if you don’t have the necessary components to facilitate that clarity and WANTING to make those more self valuing decisions. How do you get to this from nothing? Pressure. The contrast of one state to another. Generating pressure through fasting from the world and bringing out what is not to begin to make progress and build momentum into the process of exposing yourself to higher states of awareness. Remember that if you’re at the bottom of the barrel with zero clarity then simply fasting from the world and opening up exposure to that uncomfortable space you’re constantly distracting yourself from is the first step. This exposure and willingness to put yourself into that higher state and feel that contrast and consistently doing that is how you build momentum when you have nothing working for you. Cut out all the trash and gaze extensively as much as you can over the day.

So from top to bottom we have the process here. It’s all about exposing yourself to higher states and to do that we work with the intuitive senses which moves us into the subconscious level where we allow that intelligence to transform our resistance.

So that’s how this is done. That’s what came to me to explain this from top to bottom. 

 

12/7/25

Function vs dysfunction. Asking yourself if this values your function of your targeted sense of self gains contrast, perspective, a "higher state of consciousness" as the normies put it. Function and dysfunction. That's all there is really, that's why natural striving exists. Main story and side quests. All of this exists to reveal the contrast between function and dysfunction, and to reveal function as the obvious decision to make and accept and move into such state to value your process of individuation. 

Any method that does what I call "building greater context" IS moving you into a higher state of so called consciousness. THEY'RE THE SAME THING. That's not the ONLY way you can experience it but any time you're experiencing the contrast you're overlapping states, and as I've said with the idea that opportunities come up to move through and purify ourselves along natural striving, this is initiated opportunity. Simply put, if you're operating from any awareness beyond the current limit in a vacuum you're overlapping states, though the degree of impact that has can vary. All methods that are reliable and consistently applicable with minimal effort will involve a form of contextual expansion, and subconscious expansion along with that. Gazing and expanding context as I wrote about 2 years ago now is how someone would view a limit from a perspective of detachment. "This isn't important". "This doesn't value my vitality". Any time that you gain perspective on a limit you're seeing it from a higher state, and thus if you're feeling a limit and you want to purify it then you can watch it, as in look at it from higher perception over buying into it as though that's all you can perceive. Higher states of consciousness burn out unconscious trash, meaning the capacity to purify along with vitality supply depends on the "pulled out" nature of your perception. Here we go back the the roots of RS once again in practice. Same methods come back up and I see all these other people out there claiming to have "new" manifesting methods but they're all just working with this mechanism I revealed years ago for anyone to study and test for themselves. 

How do you break self sabotaging processes that are unconsciously driven? Always operate from "does this serve my vitality" and in that view your life like a zoomed out image with what you want at the end which depends on vitality being available. That's personally how I do this a lot of the time lately. Big shifts happen very fast. Remember the more you can view clearly what is and what is not from that pulled out perception then the more clearly you can operate and clarity is the degree of consciousness or the level you're operating from relative to function over dysfunction as the contextual sense you're targeting intuitively. It's a subconscious sense that's automatically experienced as a result of this overlap, that clarity and intuitive impulse and intention as the alchemist said are all languages of the subconscious mind. 

 

Manifesting is instant as I've said many times, we just don't feel into the state and thus physchologically move with it and trust. You don't need to think or do any techniques all you need to do is use the subconscious feeling intuitive sense and intention and be moved by that. Just "assume" it comes from this sense. The alchemist has laid out in my last quotes that the intention sense and what I've been saying about the intuitive sense being subconscious "feeling" are all you need and mechanically are what connect and mediate thematic powers. Clearing unconscious resistance is spontaneous as we've clearly established. How does this happen? It's a function of vitality supply (ripeness function) where when you're nourished sufficiently the not self surfaces to be seen and transformed in an opportunity where contrast is revealed, AKA you're being mediated by that self organizing intelligence to move into a higher state, AKA operate from more awareness of what is and reveal truth through clarity in contrast. Hope that made sense. If we are to take all the "methods" out and live manifesting as spontaneously as possible it would be this way. Gaze to cultivate space, some might not like this but too bad it's necessary, Eventually you'll have time fly and 45 minutes passes instantly. Then you'll simply assume you have what you want, and if you don't feel comfortable then you do the question and go through the what ifs in contrast to accept natural striving. Recognizing the contrast between current state and higher state through pulling out and feeling that direction of abundance in and of itself should negate the resistance. If you're feeling the resistance it's providing opportunity to transform, though if it's seriously visceral then cultivate vitality further through physically based means of sensory refinement and boosting nervous system function at least. This will give you more sensitivity to feeling correct orientation and trusting that will lead you to making those spontaneously driven decisions to purify resistance. 

How is that not a fool proof formula? It's accessible without doing really any methods, other than pathway leading but I consider that something we all do anyway so. I will say the KEY INGREDIENT HERE is TRULY about viewing the contrasting sense of self and that sensation of resonance from the pulled out perspective is what really makes stuff happen. I consider that the internal way to "go all the way". Going all the way simply represents making use of any available means to commit to your correct orientation and staying true to that direction regardless of limits. The degree to which you will WANT to do that in a sort of "automatic" manner with the "ease" of it being there of course depends on surrounding nourishment to open up that psychological aspect but to cultivate that means to exercise this anyway. The more you exercise this mechanism the more you'll be able to generate momentum and get use to the process. I believe this is the truly "effortless" way to live the side quest lifestyle. This is NOT about main quest stuff, really at all to be honest. That's more so a function of ripeness in a vacuum because it's based on correct orientation and not lower mind desires driving your decisions. The whole point is to move it over from lower to higher mind in main story, where as most who manifest side quest stuff live from side quests and never make progress on main story. Either way to make momentum work in the direction of desire of lower mind you'll effortlessly get stuff showing up through mediating pressure, having that available, naturalness, and a solid direction and contextual sense of self you're going to return to. It's WHO has the thing, the YOU who is there that you'll feel INSIDE of and surround the limited resistance by that context. This is the method I've always used and it worked. You'll have it work too if you apply this. To make it more impactful is to know yourself more with pathway work to familiarize yourself with the end. If you're going to operate from the lower mind in a side quest life then you better go all the way and own it. Surround yourself with it, this isn't about QUANTITY of "saturation" as most think but a QUALITY of focus in stability CONTEXTUALLY related of course. Contextual stability IS THE IMPORTANT VARIABLE. That MEANS the beliefs surrounding this desired end are supportive and AVAILABLE at BASELINE and are FELT subconsciously with that "supportive" sensation where contrast between higher and lower states becomes minimal. I mean doesn't that clearly explain it?

The more clean your unconscious mind is the more clear and easy this becomes, because feeling the higher state IS the feeling of having that clarity in unconscious mind. This is why I say so many times that to generate momentum you'll be so much better off by actually nourishing your body physically than denying that impact while you're filled with resistances and can't feel greater context. Find limits, work on those and clear those out. Gaze more, divine pathway work, clear the trash and nourish your nervous and endocrine systems. Honestly you can't fail. Don't just do those in a vacuum though obviously those should be the foundation by which the above process outlined in the above paragraph can be made to work reliably. You're setting the conditions for it to unfold. Immortality aside living the side quest lifestyle is simply suggesting an intention with clear definition and minimal contrast. The alchemist said that you need to be IN the state and to have a subjective synthesis to support that, AKA a belief system/greater context that's available which supports this. Yeah makes sense. 

When you get "good" at this you simply "suggest" the thing and that's it. What's happening is as the alchemist says you're REQUESTING HIGHER GENIUS, AKA your "higher self/greater consciousness/source of YOUR emanation" to unfold such in census reality. That's it. Seriously. When you're clear. you suggest it, and being clear IS having clear unconscious and a CLEAR link to higher genius which is where you mediate power through. You're talking to your higher aspect, suggesting something, asking. You're actually asking, even if you don't believe it. It's always a suggestion, which is why there's so much variance and such. The more you can clearly suggest something due to being in a higher state the more effortless it is. That's effortless assumption so to say, Seriously. This is also why listing on scripts works for people more because the thing is simply suggested and that's left as is. Look the LESS you "do" to suggest the BETTER because extravagant stuff only adds more chance that the clarity will be warped from that state you're being in when doing that. If you're not clear at baseline then good luck. The best chance still is to simply suggest with list method (as "systematic manifesting" apparently proved) for people who have no clarity. I'll still say though that if you were operating from correct sense of self you'd WANT to break boxes and trash anyway. Why wouldn't you? If you're operating from a state that's valuing your vitality (which is the million dollar question IMO) then you'd be making VERY different decisions and WANT to make them in an instant. That sudden sensation of "let's go" is literally instant manifestation playing out, though obviously the suggestion isn't natural if there's contrast so integrating that and being the supply for those themes to become clear and thus purify the unconscious resistance blocking clarity to establish a clear link means to trust where that leads you and go all the way because until the contrast is gone there won't be naturalness fully in the transition but it will END up in naturalness. Generate greater context and be moved by that. 

How do you rid yourself of "negative thoughts" AKA suggestions that you didn't consciously intend? Well it depends how deep it is, as in how much disconnected from those themes in availability you have as to the process but lets say you're mostly clear but not quite. You get spotty outcomes with money. You can suggest clearly but also have negative suggestions. When you find yourself buying into negative suggestions (which is a function of ripeness and clarity and such aspects among other things) you can in that place bring yourself to suggest that these suggestions are invalid and you're reorienting to the direction of your original suggestions. Take manifesting as a whole side quest style as simply SUGGESTION MANAGEMENT, because in essence that is "the law" as NG puts it. Suggestion management is all it is about really. Truly. If you reverse engineer all the mechanisms here you'll see that, and what the alchemist has told me confirms this idea too. It explains everything. You're literally just managing suggestions like a "list" of suggestions you've got "running" that you've left to unfold. This is the idea of "planting seeds" though as we should understand the side quest stuff doesn't really lead you to deeper satisfaction in fulfilling your purpose. It seems that 99% of my viewers aren't interested in that so I have no audience for that content. Those videos are all very disliked, you don't see it but I see it on the stats. The videos that talk about NG in positive lights instead of questioning his authority on certain areas and bringing up further questions are the ones that seem to blow my rep so don't expect videos in future of such nature from me available on YT in future. I will keep those for what's available here and in private coaching and groups and stuff. Immortality group stuff is where that's talked about. 

Manifesting side quest style is VERY SIMPLY ABOUT SUGGESTION MANAGEMNT. You heard it here first. You don't need to REPEAT ANYTHING. Suggesting is as simple as "effortlessly assuming" though as the alchemist says it depends on subjective synthesis and the state you're operating from, AKA your surrounding context and the degree of clarity surrounding such themes that are available through pure unconscious. 

I want to use an example here to illustrate this point more. Hope you're following along. I'll probably talk about this idea in a video soon. Simply speaking suggestion management is that you suggest from a state of lack you'll perceive that theme from under a lens of "lack is all there is" and your unconscious sends you a signal in your body, a visceral sense of uncomfortable feelings. This happened to me for years, literally wasted so much of my life living like this I hated it. How did I get over it? I told you many times but I exposed myself to situations that would prove to me that it's not so bad after all and process the trash to clear the link. That's not necessary for other people but it's an option. To clear this up without that you'd want to simply FAMILIARISE yourself with it. Now this is a sort of quantity type process as it'll likely take time but you'll pretty much take an inventory of all the thoughts and situations and stories you told yourself over the day. List them out, get use to this. This is just revision standard but using my idea of "suggestion correction" to put it simply. With this inventory you've taken when you recognize what you're suggesting that's not ideal you'll cross them out and replace them. If doing that feels uncomfortable then do the greater context stuff as above. That is state awareness technique 101, created by yours truly. I've been in other paid courses from other so called coaches over the time that cost thousands and they used a similar method that they called different stuff but they never said they created it they said they found it from someone else. Always. Usually these people are high profile business partners the coach coached with, interestingly enough. So they're leading pathways, leading context, generating mental environment and thus establishing subjective synthesis at least temporarily. This is how you shift feeling uncomfortable, or you could IF supplied sufficiently discharge that by going deeper into it and sinking into the feeling and watching it in a dynamic gazing style type process where it can be discharged, though I find this won't uproot it either. Doing both this on the dynamic nature and revisions later in the day will dissolve unconsciously anchored charge that's stuck and also manage suggestions. How do you deal with high pressure situations? Lead pathways as always, I find this to be normal anyway when pressure is great enough because I think "why am I here" and I realize that I am compromising somewhere and so I "feel" that I'm better than this compromise pattern and own the implication of that being fulfilled. "I'm over this situation" or something like this, "I'm way past that", "this doesn't matter anymore". Something like those suggestions I find works well in those places. If I for some reason lack money for something I need I'd always look towards what I can do to bring that in by default and not care. I honestly don't have any negative visceral reactions about money or whatever I always just default to leading pathways in ways I find nourishing without trying. That's how I got out of these lacking states. I got use to refining sensory stimulus AKA stimulating myself with necessary phenomena that supports my suggestions and focused in on fulfilling compromise patterns I knew I was holding to satisfy that pressure which always surfaces in the necessary peak dip cycle to self correct orientation of movement. There's nothing fancy to it. Everybody who's "successful" would do the same thing. 

What about people who have bills due and they are broke and can't pay it. How do you maintain clarity? Well you probably won't, lets be honest, and that's ok. Been there done that in the past. I've had bad outcomes before, though what I recognized is that because I moved my sense of value way away from having any of that stuff it never really was visceral to me. What I'd immediately think of in that place is how I can make more money. I'd not think about the lack for long, because I always think "how can I solve this problem" and the solution arises. If I didn't have options and I was stuck in a job needing a paycheck I'd do deep gazing and imagine myself in a bubble or something with a money dispenser and I'd physically move my arm and pull money out of the dispenser and add it to the stack of cash I'd imagine having on the side. I did this to heal certain issues I had in the past too at times and it worked, to some extent. I imagined this magic pad that if I put my finger on it like on a control panel that was hooked up to a healing station like in a game then I'd recover my HP or whatever and I'd sit there with that and feel the sensation of this green health energy moving through my finger to my hand to my arm to my body and to the issues and stay in that scene (eyes open by the way like playing make believe like children do) for about 15 minutes at least. Then when I'm done there and feel like I'm "satisfied" and the pressure is dissipated (not ignored but satisfied with a solution keep in mind we're not ignoring it but resolving the condition) I'd move on and go do something I knew was necessary. Basically I just live in "problem solving" mode mindset where I partake in necessary experiences without running away from them and anchor into that deeper with contextual sense generation I talk about above leading the pathways. I take an honest look at the situation and recognize is this actually important to hold onto? Is this condition actually a limit? Question the authority of it. When you're SUPER depleted this might not also be possible, again because I've been there before where I'd have physical sickness manifest by doing this stuff. If you're in that degree of lack then work physically on nourishing yourself the best you can and on top apply all of the above. I will bet you're overstimulated and not taking care of yourself to the degree you KNOW you can and really should be but don't. Work on that, find value in your strengths and own them all the way. Build some momentum in a way that serves you and go all the way. That's how I'd suggest starting from the bottom and working up, among other stuff too but that's the basic idea. Simply you need to be able to reframe limits in a way that serves your strengths. That's how these people who manifest stuff are successful. I swear. There's no hidden stuff here this is the pure raw facts and mechanics. There's nothing else to learn, anyone else out there who has an opinion worth listening to would simply repeat what I'm saying in their own words, likely very dumbed down too. That's all there is. Suggestion management and framing limits in a way that can serve you to the degree that clarity opens up for you to do so. This applies to ALL methods. Having clarity MEANS you can frame things and see things in a manner that's open to opportunity for nourishment that's available. The degree to which that's obvious to you depends on state of course but it's the same idea. 

Always remember you can suggest with ANY wording. You can say "I want" and it'll work. You can say "I haven't" and it'll work. You can say "I've not" and it'll work, because you'll still FEEL the contextual basis and intention for that as the alchemist says to imply what you're targeting, though on some levels the details do matter which he did say. I personally can attest to this to SOME degree, though I still don't have a full working model to explain why other than that themes can be mixed based on what's available to us and God's will in some of that too with some things as a self correcting cycle. You don't need to be like "I have" all the time, or "I receive" or any of this stuff thinking that exact thoughts replicate. More so IMAGES replicate than anything, like the senses more than the intended thought and inner talk. If you're going to do a visual then the visual matters in the details, in my experience. I've had exact images and touch sensations replicate but in ways I didn't FULLY feel satisfied with because what surrounded that was lacking on some levels and brought out of me parts of myself I was accepting compromise through. Bringing that up and fulfilling those conditions as I said before is necessary, 

Trust in greater consciousness/supply and solidifying your sense of self surrounding the themes of these suggestions is the way to get "instant manifestations". Trust. You're literally talking to your supply. the intelligence that drives natural striving. That's what you're communicating with. LITEALLY. Treat it like a relationship, don't treat it like you're communicating with a faceless function of your own psyche have an actual relationship with higher genius and trust it and respect it. Trust God. Trust God fully and you'll have faith. That's where that comes from. Trusting God, trusting the suggestion, trusting that even IF you waver and run amuck God will still deliver. Truly, stop depersonalizing the intelligence that drives all this stuff. You don't NEED to see it that way but that IS the way it works. PERIOD. Prove otherwise. If this is the way it works then respect that intelligence. So the other part, how do you solidify your sense of self? Pressure and contrast. You will WANT the desire if you truly have pressure built up. As far as I can say from years of experience this can benefit the most from nourishing your nervous and endocrine systems. THIS MATTERS. The pressure you feel IS in fact a function of these aspects reaching their peak of capacity to hold nourishing current before a force discharge unfolds. That's natural self correction circuit. We all go through this but if you want to make that work FOR YOU then you nourish and move with the pressure, which is what I've been writing and talking about on videos for ages now. Trusting intuitive impulse, moving with the flow of where you're being driven. Mediate pressure correctly. Don't compromise, don't overstimulate unnecessarily to cope. That's all a sign you're in a low state, you're looking to seek false pleasure and pseudo satisfaction to get because you don't feel actually worthy of having the full thing, else you'd be living it for real right now. So to refine this means to simply apply common sense in respecting your vitality. Respect your VITALITY, because it's the function that manifests in the psychological naturalness towards things, as I've CLEARLY explained over all these entries. With that in mind you'll WANT to break boxes, WANT to elevate your sense of self. It REQUIRES pressure, because that IS the DESIRE to WANT to break out of your limited state and stabilize and solidify your sense of self into a higher state at bassline. Go all the way with that. Suggest you're elevating your state, suggest you're moving above all the trash and own the stuff you're moving into. Grow into the state and make decisions on the regular that the state you're moving into would reflect. Compromise only demonstrates you don't feel pressure to make clear correct decisions because pressure is necessary to WANT to NOT compromise and feeling that contrast to what's easy and falsely pleasurable temporarily to get a meaningless kick, all that comes from having momentum on nourishing your VITALITY. Seriously to many this may sound anti LOA or whatever but it's obvious when you see it clearly for what this is. Vitality, nourishing current, degrees of available thematic aspects, these all are ideas that relate to the physiological availability we can access at a default baseline. Without the pressure AKA available nourishing current you'll not WANT to be yourself. WANTING is the KEY part of this because it'll come THROUGH you. you'll be autosuggesting to yourself that truth. 

What more is there to say. There's your free side quest manifesting course. Have fun. That's worth hundreds. Always just remember that just because it's a possible side quest doesn't mean you SHOULD. If you're ever going to go deeper with immorality work you'll very likely have to give up a LOT of that stuff. It's not something that we get to go through for free and have a free ride like is said out there. That's not why we're here. There is a responsibility to greater process to unfold ourselves correctly. Don't care what the mentalism fools love to say NG taught fixed trajectory and I proved it, probably the only one who did. If he taught fixed trajectory under the promise then that's implying to us that simply knowing "the law" AKA how to go off on side quests doesn't mean you're feeling the deep satisfaction from attaining levels from the main story. The main story has the impacts on us that run deeper than anything else. That's why you're here, you play the game to beat the crafted narrative of your life in the main story, not to go off running side quests and give up at that. If that's how you play life then have fun, but you will not live forever and you will die eventually. The only way to become immortal is to do the great work on the main story. NG himself said this too, he said you cannot prevent death. I disagree but if he's saying the law cannot manifest immortality then clearly there's more to this whole manifesting thing than living in a little bubble of stuff you suggest into your reality. That's all secondary to support the main story, not to BE the main story. Keep that all in mind when you go into deep gazing next. The function of your existence is to become the vessel for which higher genius can descend into and operate through, and the full manifestation of all that creative power top down will be yours as your limited corporeal consciousness merges with that infinite expanse of awareness. This cannot be faked, you MUST face your unconscious resistance and FEEL ALL OF IT. There's no faking or getting around that. Deep gazing and divine pathway work are all necessary to get this moving forward and to reach those deeper states of capacity we have to unfold within us. That is the promise, the real promise. When you do the immorality work you become lined up with what's CORRECT for you, not often what you WANT (the lower mind wants because greater mind wants you to be aligned to it instead) and thus the higher genius cannot descend into an impure vessel. You're working to clean the vessel for God to move into and inhabit and the many degrees of clarity along the way are the states we move into as levels of having more of God driving you. Eventually you get to the point where what's necessary to face isn't what you desire and certain things must be let go, usually relationships with certain people and whatnot. The alchemist made clear to me that people get to the point where they're clear and have done all the necessary work but God still doesn't descend because it's not time yet on the cosmic clock and thus we don't have any say in the matter from our corporeal mind perspective. We simply must give up that free will to accept what our capacity has for us, and so living the side  quest lifestyle really is setting a false precedent for how this all works. Yeah you CAN technically do that and leave behind the deeper work to some degree but that will not be fulfilling your purpose here. The higher genius will simply not pay attention to aiding you on that path, and will let you just wander off into whatever if that's what you want. Thing is sometimes the higher genius can and will force control over your consciousness and literally take the reigns to drive you the way it needs you to be going because you're just not paying attention or WILLING to participate in the obvious path in front of you you're ignoring. Remember that when you suggest to manifest something you're communicating with that aspect, and it has intelligence and knows what you need and such. The more you cooperate with that intelligence the more your life will flow without needing to suggest anything of specific detail because it will provide what it knows you need. You CAN live this crazy abundant life but it will never satisfy your deep desire for satisfaction on that greater level. Only doing the immortality work can satisfy that.

If I go out and start talking about this to people on my videos they will instantly dislike and move on. Happened so many times. That's simply not the place that people will want that. I will simply keep it available on my website for those who want it because I know that those who need it will find it and reveal what they need in it. 

The more discomfort you move THROUGH WILLINGLY the more purified as yourself you become. If that discomfort only takes you to the degree that lower mind wants then that's where you stop. If that's going deeper to target what's more unconscious and being willing to have that revealed in deeper gazing then that will be where you go. The degree to which you WILLINGLY face uncomfortable barriers and contrasts between states to overlap them and transform that resistance the more you're mediating pressure correctly. Can't escape that, it's a function of your awareness it's built into your nature. That's there for a reason, and now we know why. Change, breaking out into the unknown, moving beyond what's familiar, all of these things pertain to what it feels like to move into a higher state, and the pressure you feel determines the degree you'll WANT to face that to get what's on the other side, AKA the power of your desire to expand drives why you face limits and compromise patterns of lack you've been buying into. Nothing else does that, and RS has fully explained that process. Intuitive impulse drives this whole thing, driven by greater process and without that you're nothing. That's how manifesting works, you manifest what higher genius accepts you to manifest, and that's simply a higher aspect of your capacity you're unconscious of. Doing more gazing allows you to get to the point where you can have conversation with that aspect and intelligence which drives this to get the direct answers necessary for the deeper levels of the work, and to KNOW if a decision is correct or not because it's the self organizing intelligence which determines all of this. Interfacing with that matters for immortality work. Going all the way is necessary in that sense, and this is way beyond just the idea of manifesting things so we can live easier. That's not doing the work to clean out our trash, and if it is it's very limited because you stop once you've reached a certain level of comfort. It requires you to feel uncomfortable in your current state, not because of material lack but because of a deeper longing for truth that this world cannot provide. That is why the immorality work exists and why I am so into providing the deepest insights for this work that nobody else in LOA grasps even a tiny bit. They all totally misunderstand the so called promise and think it's more of the same. It's almost ALL about Manifesting for most people is all there is to life for them, but to people such as myself and those reading this they know there's more. That's why we're here. We aren't satisfied with things of this world, because that deeper longing cannot be satiated. That deeper pressure cannot be put out with things in this world because we've already got that within us to enough of a degree where it doesn't matter much. There's a deeper state we're looking to resonate with and the only way to get to that level is to go into the immorality side of RS and go all the way with it. 

 

13//7/25

New manifesting method? Lets find out. Just thought about this now. 

So when you ask yourself "why don't I have the sense of self I feel I am growing into yet?" and you think from the lower mind as to the answers you will get reasons. That's pathway work. What if we expanded pathway work to explore the subtle senses of the subconscious intent and intuitive sense and whatnot. Gazing before asking this question would be necessary for clarity if you ask me. The whole point of this is to GET THE PERSON INTO THE EXPERIENCE OF THE HIGHER STATE. This IS the "state of the wish fulfilled" to anchor that perceptive capacity from the expanded subconscious space. The method is to make the "feeling" aka TRUTH aka INTUITIVE IMPULSE (naturally experienced) as easy as possible to recognize and be moved by. To create the opportunity over depending on timed opportunity through vitality work. I have said MANY times that vitality/thematic supply/attunement and all that is necessary for clarity (which it is) but we're applying this in a temporary place to attain insight . THIS IS HOW ADVANCED THEURGY WORKS TOO. The alchemist has said this, about taking that expanded state (you get from the methods such as gazing) and to GRADUALLY carry that into day to day life bit by bit which he calls integration, and I'd consider that the same idea of me talking about gradually attuning to the themes which manifests the psychological phenomena of having those in supply and thus you'll FEEL natural towards them, meaning they'll drive you because they are available and really are PART OF YOU at that level. So that can give some context here to make sense of this idea. 

How do you do this? You have to expose yourself to that awareness to experience it. How do you do that? Deep gazing and the "letting go sense" as I call it, which I believe is a form of intention which the alchemist quoted saying it's a "function of the intuition". Exalted yin communicates to us this way, and vice versa. When you operate inside that degree of capacity you're able to communicate using senses that otherwise you'd not have on tap, or at least not as clearly. The NG SATS stuff is a way to bypass the waking awareness limits to take you into it, assuming you're doing it with a gazing process and not with the closed eye stuff because that's often not going to get you as deep into the overlap. Not saying you can't but it's not as powerful, and if you've done both you'll know. So when you enter into this place you'll have more clarity at baseline, more ability for spontaneous insight, which is really the whole point of advanced gazing because it opens that up. When you're in this space your subtle senses can become more clear, you can communicate with higher genius more closely (even if not directly per say but it's closer is the point) to "impress" an experience in that communication like NG says. Thing is if you're doing this as I've said to cope what you'll get is the communication of that lacking sense of self back to you and it'll reflect lacking signs and such which is what my first longer video explained. The cause of results and such is a lacking sense of self. So how do you bypass this? You create contrast as the "mood" to "slingshot" your sense of self in that experience to operate from that more worthy sense of being and that will be your communicated intuitive impression. Intuitive impression is really the closest thing to "subconscious impression" because it's using that sense, which is why you can't fake being someone you're not because that will be felt underlying that. If you don't have supply you will FEEL that, even if the image you show is positive and what you want. The alchemist said you have to operate from the state (clarity which also constitutes the degree of supply too) along with the subjective synthesis AKA the surrounding context which does matter as I said. If you don't have that then this is a total waste of time. 

Alright so the method is simple here then. Gaze deeply. Overlap the states and enter inside the subconscious. How you'd do this is to walk around inside that space. I mean physically feel yourself walking in that level, the alchemist has talked about this. I imagine myself in my house walking around, you can do this easily because it's a place you're familiar with. It will be vivid enough most likely even if not perfect you'll still get immersed enough. The whole point is to take as much of your awareness inside that expanded space as possible. The more you go there the more you will make this work, and it's not about vividness in the specific sense because that's not the point that matters (I've explained experiences I've imagined so clearly that haven't manifested yet and they're like memories and all they did was make me physically sick later) but the point is to IN THAT SPACE "wake up in the dream" and start living FROM the sense of self you'd otherwise operate from in waking awareness as in breaking boxes with that intention sense imagining doing what you KNOW is necessary in that space. This is what I did before I started posting to RS, I imagined myself being responsible for all the trash DEEP inside that space as much as I could. I never imaged what I "wanted" but I imagined what I knew I NEEDED to fulfil and thus I reflected this attitude in the world. I manifested discipline in my life this way, I believe. So the entire point of this is to be moved into that level where "impression" as in communication with greater consciousness can be more directly influenced through that overlap and clarity can be more established to be able to interact with the themes you're attuning to on a deeper level. The "attitude" of mind matters the MOST and NOT the sensory vividness in this sense. If you're comfortable already then go ahead with details but for those who aren't comfortable you will basically take your waking awareness of doing the methods we discussed yesterday in generating contextual sense and whatnot except you'll "wake up" inside that space and do the same thing. Getting use to this is the goal and should to some extent expand that capacity at baseline, though deeper advanced gazing without specific intent has more of a general purifying effect as you're allowing ripeness to do its job without forcing anything. Remember the functional mechanics of transformation don't change no matter where you're at, as far as I know at least. Doing those methods inside that space SHOULD deal out even deeper impacts, though it's not really necessary of course because either way you're having purifying effect on not self trash by leading pathways. It SHOULD be spontaneously experienced really as a function of ripeness but since this is side quest methods then overlaying this is what you'll want to do. Basically you simply take the sense of self you're moving into inside the subconscious mind, AKA you move into the lunar level of the aetheric body and experience reality on that level. This is more so a controlled lucid dream though the alchemist did tell me that for illuminating purposes (immorality work) this is going to have minimal impact. This is a side quest method, nothing more. All immorality work is spontaneously driven, and takes time. Side quests are really about how far you can go into owning what's desired, ego included in that. It's living in a sort of satanic ideology to some level. Self serving as much as possible, That attitude is the extreme end of the side quest life. 

So if you're not clear and you "feel" resistance then in that space go through the letting go by leading pathways and driving contextual sense and pull out to see the big picture of vitality supply and whatnot to ask that question and with that contextual shift then go into experiencing what's desired and "impress" the image. Never approach this from a perspective of "feeling good". If that's your goal then expect dips. Dips come from using this to cope and as a source of stimulation. Imaginal work that's used to stimulate and "hope" will never provide benefit for you, and if it does then it was going to happen anyway because the scene wasn't what did it but the shift in state AKA how clearly you're operating from the refined sense of self as yourself. Thing is that doesn't have to be correctly oriented self, it just has to serve the desire, and you'll create a bubble around that to manifest it because when a challenge comes up that's unavoidable by that bubble the whole thing will fall apart. Side quests aren't ever deeply satisfying and you'll only feel that if you're being pulled by higher genius to do immorality work or not. Most people aren't, but I have been most of my life, hence why I do this. The methods of manifesting specific things vs the immorality work are TOTALLY different, though they overlap to some degree of course.

Having clarity and such already present when doing this method is as simple as allowing that desire to unfold naturally. You won't have to really lead pathways, all you need is to intend normally as though you're "praying to a higher power" which NG DID ACTUALLY SAY ABOUT THE LULLABY METHOD and thus you'll slip it in. This is what the alchemist said, as I quoted. You're "requesting" by doing this, because until you're able to operate AS the higher genius AKA complete the great work then you're always going to be requesting from contrast. All these people that say you are God and all this trash don't get the relationship to your capacities and how their intelligence is self existent. Yeah it's within you but it's also not integrated and needs overlapping. It's there but needs overlapping and until that happens then nothing can be said that "I AM" else you're taking a request to that intelligence that drives you currently. I mean IT DRIVES YOU. "Pray to your father in secret" means to send a request to superconscious. Praying also isn't JUST imaginal experiences, unlike what NG would say. You can "ask" God to send things to you and if clarity is present you'll get that. You can literally say "I want X" and you may well get it without ever imagining having it in first person whatever BECAUSE THAT'S NOT PRAYER. "Imagination is God" MEANS that's the interface and those senses (among others that NG never talked about) are the language that is spoken. The language is spoken in themes, and those symbolic meanings are expressed by the intuitive sense, which the alchemist said that intention is a function of, and thus simply "requesting" AKA intending something is ALL YOU NEED. This is why every method works, because the sensory details as I've always said over and over and over DON'T REALLY MATTER. They only matter if the level you're at requires clear images to be the communicated language and not intended themes. Just having the "sense" of what you desire is enough, else how would the lullaby method work if that's what NG taught? NG never taught to imagine with 5 sense imaginal stuff with lullaby method, he said to pray to a higher power. I need to find that quote because people probably don't believe that but I remember what I was doing when I read that and it stuck out to me vividly which it why that moment stuck with me.

Any moment of "heightened awareness" will "impress" as a memory, but that doesn't mean it'll manifest as a physical experience. You can have a heightened experience but I will say that a certain degree of "shock" is necessary for transformation using contextual sense leading which is why I talked about the "explosion" method before. What you'll experience if you just "feel" into the state is a feeling of "shock" to put it simply. You can elicit this instantly any time and this is the method I called "waking up in the dream" because that's what it feels like. It feels like you just "shifted states" instantly. It's a subtle sense that you use and I can't explain how to do it with instructions but I know how it feels. It feels that you've instantly "blinked" into another state, another sense of self instantly and it will feel sort of "disorienting" in a second. The most reliable way to do this in my opinion is this. How would it feel to be reborn in this exact moment where there is ZERO resistance present and you were truly clear of all trash and could just live spontaneously right now as your authentic self without limits. This sudden shocking sense of liberation is kind of what it's like, because you're almost "jumping over" the resistance barriers with this is how I'd describe it. Remember there is ZERO emotion or even "thought" involved it's exclusively a subtle sense of "zapping" yourself into a new state. This is how you effectively do the "explosion" method in my experience. So with this whole heightened awareness idea this plays directly in with this sudden shock factor of shifting states in an instant. I believe this is in fact a state shift, because it's using the subtle senses directly to perform it. Three's levels to how this goes, like you can do it and not go all the way, so I'll still say this is like "condensing" a pathway leading process or anything of that nature with those types of techniques into a sudden in the moment shift. You're compressing a time based technique into an instant and using your subtle senses to bring that out of you. I've said this before ages ago but simply put you're just taking a stretched out method of applying the shift into a sudden moment by gathering all that awareness and instantly moving into that. It's so hard to describe with words because it uses senses nobody talks about but it's there and I'm sure you've had experiences with this before too. 

An interesting method would be to take this "wake up in the dream" into the aetheric body on the lunar level and imagine that instantly. Basically go wild with things. That is ultimately what this is leading to anyway, that's how you'd "own" it and have that attitude shift. So you can either do it wake up in the dream style or you can lead pathways and get there in a more methodic approach, both are valid and work but it depends where you're going. As I always say though these methods done in a vacuum just once to make your life change is a stupid expectation. Expect nothing but that this is you ACTUALLY shifting for good from here on. This shouldn't be done like a request, or approached from that expectation if you're doing this to shift. If you don't have a solid relationship with higher genius then you're wasting your time doing this to request things in life to manifest reality differently. This should be a way you establish relationship with higher genius, your greater intelligence that's driving you and to use these methods to "slingshot" you into that experience. All you're doing is "waiting" for this subtle sense to be accepted anyway. Look recognize that to "shift" into a higher state is simply doing what I said above. You're "shocking" yourself into it, more or less, if we're honest. That IS what you're "waiting" to give yourself. FACTS. All of this stuff when it comes to SIDE QUEST LIVING is about that factor. This is NOT an immorality thing, though it does overlap on some levels, doing this stuff expecting immortality is insane and doesn't work that way. This CAN I believe accelerate the process but remember the immorality work is about becoming the clear clean vessel for higher genius to descend into to operate from that capacity at bassline. Shocking yourself into a new state isn't doing that work, you're not exposing yourself to powers greater than yourself on a regular basis to purge not self trash. This isn't leading you towards immorality this is simply to go sideways. Doing advanced gazing on the regular will get you way deeper with that than any of this will. In essence we can say therefore that this is simply that you're willingly shocking yourself into a new paradigm in an instant and that all the "waiting" is because you're being moved into this happening through you by setting it up with methods. If you bypass all the methods and just do it here and now and fully go all the way with that then you'll get the same or even deeper outcomes than doing all that other stuff. Thing is still this likely won't uproot deeply unconscious trash because that's just necessary to be pulled out with vast contrast and availability of vitality, which should be clear by now. The more buffer you have the deeper that stuff can be resolved, and this shock factor in my limited experience with data from this tells me that this cannot dig that out reliably. It might be able to but I never fully experimented or logged data to prove that like most other stuff that I spend months and even years going in and out of to experience the effects. The chock yourself and wake up in the dream method in my opinion is both the easiest and hardest method. You're inducing intuitive impulse in an instant is kind of what it feels like. You're waking up in the dream in a new sense of self and know exactly what to do. You kind of think about what you're going to do beforehand and then just zap yourself into that sense of self of being worthy of fulfilling it to which you'll end up playing it out. That's how I experience this. It's like "what if I never had to worry about any of this" and ZAP you end up inside that experience from that sense of self. It's something that you don't hear much about but I've explained how this works probably for the first time anywhere in this LOA space. It's an intuitive sense, a feeling, a reality of experience bound up in a subtle instantaneous sensation. 

You just need to realize that all you're doing is waiting for the right set of circumstances to line up for it to come through you. That's why I said in my last video and why I talk here about cultivating vitality so that natural striving can work its magic through you spontaneously because that sudden overflow effect is really doing the same thing as the "zap" method except drawn out over time. Natural striving is also leading you through more necessary experiences naturally and so it'll work on different levels in possibly deeper ways than the shock factor method. That's PURELY a side quest method, while following the standard RS methods of vitality cultivation and pressure mediation are the ones that can be "worked with" so to say to generate the conditions for the more advanced stuff to come through you, because that's what it's all doing. The stuff that's working with pressure mediation is what everybody has access to on all levels and is primary principles being applied to open up the spontaneous insights to happen as a function of overflow while the zap methods of "just do it" so to say are taking that and just catalyzing it in an instant. Thing is I've not got much data from other people to say if this is a thing they can reliably experience. Think of it like this. If you could just view a goal you've got or some end experience as right there in front of you and suddenly zap yourself into the state of being as though you've already done all that and all the fear and doubt and lack and stuff is from this point on inevitable to be resolved as you live as that person as an effect of living in that state then you can possibly understand it. You're zapping yourself into the end state instantly and being driven by that. This might be a flash type experience of moving into higher genius consciousness or something to instantly manifest an outcome. I don't know, I've not done this many times myself but I've done it before in the past. It only came up because I'm contemplating on these mechanics again. Will experiment further and ask some regular clients to test.

This method is more or less what most people in LOA are trying to explain and miserably fail at obviously because none of them have any idea what they're talking about when it comes to these mechanics and functions. It's just how it is, and if I came out with this method it would fall on def ears I bet. Very few would recognize the impact of this or understand it, because they all think it's about thinking "from" the state without recognizing what being in a state feels like and that it's a subtle subconscious intuitive sense that's driving all that stuff which I'VE ALWAYS SAID SINCE THE START. That was my big revelation many years ago and now the alchemist has confirmed this so I KNOW this is how it works. States are "felt" intuitively, and if you could instantly go all the way and feel into the state of the person who's already done it all and commit yourself fully to that state then you're doing "effortless assumption" and it's as simple as that. Now it will feel MORE like a "zap" as in there's more contrast if you've actually got more trash to dissolve along the way of mediating that state into baseline but this is actually what's happening. These mechanics drive this whole thing with any "instant manifesting" methods. It's as I said in that 3rd last video, about how "manifestation is done before you imagine" (because it's spontaneous because of the availability overflowing) where you're going to be moved THROUGH the transformation AS the unfolding of the state, either driven by a spontaneous impulse through availability that's automatic OR you induce it through "reaching" that subconscious space out to a vast expanse in an instant and target the end state to be driven to dissolve the stuff in the way. If there was nothing in the way then all that stuff I wrote yesterday about simply treating manifesting as suggestion management is all there is, and most of that will be actually effortless. The degree of contrast is always state contrast, difficulty is unavailability of the themes in supply to manifest that psychological phenomena. This zapping method of waking up in the dream seems to be a way of almost bypassing that it would seem, at least to some extent. I can't say how far this can go but theoretically based on my understanding it should take you all the way into whatever side quest you're looking to unfold. The degree you go all the way will open that up. Everything else relies on availability and as the alchemist said ripeness determines the actions you make and perceptions you buy into. Ripeness really can't be falsely accelerated because it is a time based process of exposing yourself to greeter more powerful intelligences to clean you out. THEY do the cleaning, not us. This is why the waking up in the dream method cannot do immorality work, because it's a different function. You're going sideways. Once again manifesting the way we're taught has almost nothing to do with thinking your way into a new reality or whatever but it's about setting up the conditions by which this mechanism can be triggered automatically because it's an alchemical process. This is also why it all works, to different degrees of course. Immortality work is mostly separate from this work too, for obvious reasons now. If you want something in this world because you desire it then this will give that to you no questions asked. This mechanism is all there is you need to know and work with.

All this trash you read out there can be let go of for what I've said. If they speak from these mechanics then yeah give them some worth but otherwise they're charlatans looking to waste your time and money so they can live more abundantly from that. No value from those people, yet here I am giving all this for free. It's right here and my last video explained most of this too, yet only 3k views. Surprise. Tell people to share and they don't. It's whatever. Gets as big as it's suppose to, but it's all there. I bet if I marketed this stuff behind paywalls people would appreciate it more because they'd think it's super secret important stuff. Giving it for free isn't seen the same way with the same degree of prestige or value. Maybe I should put paywalls behind this stuff. I'll leave this here for those who want it but public access on videos will stop here. They don't realize this notebook is a goldmine to harvest. If you're reading this and still haven't manifested stuff you want then obviously you're not doing the work. You know that. You feel it. You're still probably overstimulated and stuff waiting for things to happen instead of zapping yourself into the role and living there. Just doing it, going all the way. Owning it. Living the side quest life. Just do it. I've literally given you ALL the methods right here so just do it. You're only waiting for yourself to give yourself permission to do it. That's why you're still reading instead of being. You're waiting for something, you think there's timing to living on the side quest life when in reality that's mostly immorality stuff. There is timing but it's beyond living the side quest life. If you want to go sideways you can go sideways at any time because it's already available. You either haven't reached spillover yet to impact that spontaneously (which typically takes a few weeks reliably if we're honest depending on where you're starting at) or you're just not waking up in the dream and don't have enough intensity. Not enough pressure. You're probably someone who's not active, not radiating vitality, not smiling and bouncy in your step. That vitality supply isn't there. When I was at Coles the other say I danced my way through the isles, I spun corners and was like a living embodiment of flair. Posing and moving my body like walking talking art is my vibe. That's what reflects life to me, so get in tune with what that is for you and live it. This will move qi and get you thinking from the state that's available to you but stuck because it's not lit up. Being active physically speaking CAN AND WILL AID YOUR SIDE QUEST LIFE. I don't care what anybody says, it's more than proven and you know that but still deny it because of obvious lack of pressure. You'll wake up when things get bad but when things aren't pressurized enough you'll not care because it's "just good enough" so expose yourself to something that makes you wake up in the dream. View what you want, and that might wake you up in the dream. Anything that makes you feel that sudden pressurized feeling will drive your movements to fulfil that if you actually desire what's on the other end. No matter how you slice it pressure plays a role, and that should be obvious. Create pressure, this is what pathway leading does. If you had pressure forced into your perception through peak dips then you'd wake up but no it's too comfortable. Not enough contrast. DO YOU SEE THE MECHANICS NOW DAMMIT? IT'S ALL THERE. REALITY SYNTHESIS EXPLAINS EVERYTHING ABOUT MANIFESTING TOP TO BOTTOM! There's nothing new nothing secret nothing hidden and you KNOW that because we've SYSTEMATIALLY explored that here. Just do it. 

Just do it. I've proven this so much now that there's no doubt. You don't need anything else. If I turned this all into a program and sold it and made sure that generating a self initiated pressurization process on a regular basis to slingshot you into being that state then you'd take it seriously but because this is free and you can just go over this without pressure it's not real enough for you. Willingly and without mercy expose yourself to stimulus which pressurizes your process into action and motivates vitality to manifest those psychological aspects instead of waiting for the spontaneous insights. That's more immortality stuff overlapping side quest stuff. If you want to make the side quest life go all the way then do what I just said. Create your own supply of pressure to initiate transformation and go through it. Remember that targeting an end state and stabilizing that sense of self will lead you through experiences to mediate and close that gap and provide you all the necessary psychological aspects to realize that at bassline. If that overlaps immorality stuff then great, if it doesn't then whatever, because your goal under that context is side quest lower mind desires. That doesn't mean it's bad or whatever it's just another path to walk for a time. Explore it and own it and go all the way. Target the contrast, feel the pressure, own the sense of self implied and feel into that state to initiate intuitive impulse. You'll then WANT to break boxes and trash because that pressure has been clearly felt and is available enough to motivate transformation. I just gave you the mechanics. I implement this idea in coaching too. Maybe you should book a call with me and we can discuss this on a personal basis. You don't need it but I will give you what you need because I created this whole thing and know how to deliver people into those states and give them working models to take away from the call to continue that momentum. That's actually a big lesson I learned least year. It's very important to have autosuggestion in your environment to bring it out of you because you will most likely forget if we're honest and that's fine. Creating the conditions to open that up and have it unfold through you is the point. That's what all this repetitive thinking trash is trying to do. That's the mechanism. Now that you know it there's no excuse.

Welcome to my free Reality Synthesis manifest anything course. Hope you enjoy your stay! Here we don't screw around we get to the core and cut out all the trash you hear everywhere else. You want the facts, the hardcore facts? Here they are. Now get to work. 

 

14/7/25

The brutal bitter truth is that if we want radical rapid shifts in our lives then shocking ourselves into that state with vast contrast perceptions and accepting that moving through those limits uncompromisingly is the way to go about anchoring in the higher state and sense of self. You will REQUIRE pressure to do this, else the desire isn't present. How do you bring out pressure? Contrast and contextual environment surrounding that desire. That's it. That's the method that everybody works with who experiences radical side quest progress. Just doing it, and not sitting around expecting magic to happen. Actions are required, because they reflect who you are accepting yourself to be and the standard you live by. You'll WANT to make those decisions differently if you feel into that higher state anyway so it's not a limiting belief or whatever to make decisions differently, that's just the mechanisms underlying this function. They all overlap. Find me someone who's an actual loser with no self respect who manifested millions for free. Good luck. Surround that desire with someone who cannot NOT resonate and reflect the person who has that thing. 

You are requesting God to provide an opportunity to you, and if you trust that then you get it. The more your life is in flow because you're spontaneous the better. Living spontaneously is living abundantly. The more you overthink and contemplate on decisions (unless we're talking about work that involves using logic of course not decisions in life otherwise) where you're navigating the contrast weighing options with your mind over just trusting intuitive impulse and moving with it then the less you'll have flow and naturalness of being. You'll literally feel less confident at baseline, because confidence is a trust in available supply to move you spontaneously, truly. If you're confident then you know that you'll be able to make it through something, even if you know there's challenge on the way. Spontaneous decisions benefit sense of self, especially those ones which expand your sense of self by going into NEW experiences that you'd otherwise hesitate and weigh odds up through and not actually involve yourself with. Having confidence to just make decisions from who you desire to be in that "shocked' state we talked about that you're throwing yourself into and living from, going all the way with that and JUST DOING IT means you'll GENERATE the vitality to give the supply. That attunes you because you're learning through the experience "oh so I can be myself". You'll GENERATE  confidence, naturally and not forced because you'd actually BE yourself and you'd KNOW that because you went through it for real. You see why actions are NECESSARY to anchor in a new sense of self. I don't know really ANYBODY who has bypassed this for real where they lived in a bubble in their mind and got big stuff show up. Accept the responsibility of being yourself and just trust intuitive impulse, that subtle sense of knowing what's necessary to go through and fulfil those. That's what I said, I started making progress when I imagined myself doing what I KNEW I needed to do, what I was avoiding responsibility for and I ended up actually feeling confident for once. Did it solve all my problems overnight? No, but it was the correct orientation to continue growing into. That's my point.

What does the most responsible, most confident, most abundant and free flowing expression of you look like in life? Then why are you not there now? What decisions are you making that reflect not being this person? Drop that trash out and move into who is you in that end. That side quest is your targeted sense of self you're going to grow into and win through. The more you target that and make decisions FROM that state (remember about context and leading the pathways to generate a mental environment which opens up the space to see things for what they are instead of seeing the negative in tunnel vision) then the more you'll WANT to continue living AS that person making decisions at that baseline sense of self respect and such. Should be abundantly clear. It's common sense, the magic works through natural means almost all the time. When you're comfortable and confident then you get it. 

 

16/7/25

Man the dates are flying. I remember studying seedline doctrine not long ago.

Operating from a higher state is very simple to explain. You're more clear on what is what, and serves your expansion and what contracts it. Your conscious mind overlaps more of the unconscious mind at baseline, that subconscious expansion reveals through the intuitive sense what you FEEL is correct/incorrect for your state to further expand which is doing more of this mechanic of overlapping lower states with higher functions. This principle process is what causes manifestation fundamentally in my experience, at least under the context of breaking boxes and manifesting big things. Elevating your sense of self means operating through this clarity. Remember that just because you can see that clarity doesn't mean you'll WANT to make correct decisions when moment of opportunities arise to do so to satisfy that natural striving. If you don't make that clearly defined decision in that place because contrast is still too great and that's all your narrow view can perceive then what will happen is you'll FEEL "I'm not worthy of living a better life" when you compromise again. That feeling comes through you because it's a response to the mechanism you responded to revealing if you operated correctly or not. Operating correctly nourishes your sense of self because you've made a decision when an opportunity showed up under that more clearly defined expanded awareness and that feels satisfying. "Oh so I can be myself". It's not black or white either it's a gradient, but more of you serves your intuitive impulse than denies it to buy into compromise patterns and holding into what's familiar in that narrow view. 

That's what you need to understand about this whole state shifting idea. That's the mechanism which works this process of shifting states. Apply that to everything NG said. Interpret NG under the RS lens and it will begin to connect more dots. DO not use his words to interpret what he said because he failed so badly to explain it in a way that's not up for debate on meanings. People STILL don't understand that the feeling sense is the intuitive sense, which is insane and only shows that most people here are NOT qualified to teach LOA and charge for that. They're not fit for the job because they don't even get the very basic idea of what operating correctly is functionally about. We already have truth within us, we just have to trust, which eventually that trust grows into an immediate KNOWING that's OBVIOUS but in the moment of holding on still we have to operate through a degree of faith and illogical confidence in ourselves to further expand and reveal that truth more to us. The manifestation is already there, you're just hiding from it because you don't feel it's available enough. This cannot be faked, there is no way to trick the system. You HAVE TO go THROUGH the experiences that represent the fulfilment of the unconscious conditioning to reveal the clarity of what was always there. Remember the ONLY reason why you can't feel that availability of that supply already there in the wide view IS BECAUSE there's unconscious trash in contrast that's narrowing your view and the way to dissolve that is to satisfy where nourishing current needs to move by making correct decisions according to that FEELING you have that you KNOW is necessary to be moved by. You're operating from the inner guidance mechanism instead of from the unconscious limited feelings that pull you into narrow view in a lower state. This is why when you just break boxes and nourish yourself and ACTUALLY DO IT instead of ARTIFICALLY stimulating that sense then you actually GET PLACES and manifest big stuff easily. You can leave the desire as JUST AS SUGGESTTION and not need to make more out of it than that. If you're not nourished and you feel that unavailability then you'll have to in that narrow view see the desire as your only salvation and thus you attach and NEED it thus fulfilling the mechanism of satisfaction in following natural striving.

That should be PAINFULLY OBVIOUS now. What blows my mind though is that if I came out on camera and read this word for word people STILL WOULDN'T GET IT! They'd STILL only hear what they want to hear in my words and interpret what I say under their INCORRECT view of reality. How the heck will this EVER reach mass adoption? Beats me. Only way is to explain it in a sort of indirect manner like I'm suggesting "hints" using these mechanics but with different words. Most people interpret this mechanism as more or less the idea of "worthiness" work as in "what would version of me who's worthy of X thing think and feel" and they HOPE that the person makes the clear decisions physically as a result. The point is to have the state to make the decisions because ultimately they both overlap and the alchemist said that when you're ripe enough those decisions would be made anyway which is why he doesn't teach us what I just said but functionally the mechanism is the same is it not? If you're consciously experiencing unconscious resistance and are AWARE if that then it means you have an opportunity to transform that resistance in that moment. I can say from experience and if you apply some common sense when looking at how peoples lives actually shift for the better, we can all see that simply making correct decisions we know are necessary for us based on that intuitive feeling of clarity and truth even if it's very subtle will be the thing that takes people to their next level and stabilize a higher state to get places. Is this not true? This literally IS the outcome of what doing the inner level transformation results in anyway, but if we can have clarity in the moments where certain decisions should or shouldn't be made to value or devalue our sense of self then you tell me why there can't be a positive outcome from making decisions from that clear level. Often it's when you feel the pressure to do so, you feel the natural self correcting mechanism kick in to orient your view to see clearly in that place, but of course that's still just temporary. You view yourself currently making incorrect decisions that devalue your vitality as lacking and unsatisfying and compromising to buy into a program that's providing you pseudo satisfaction or something related and in that view of clarity you ARE IN AN EXPANDED SPACE. If you CAN SEE CLEARLY it's implying you're FEELING more of that truth. It means you have in that place a vast contrast between where you KNOW you need to be and grow into vs where you are now and that clarity IS the wider view of expanded space, even if just temporary. If that clarity is there to make an opportunistic decision through to value your vitality more than not and you actually make the correct decisions then YOU WILL notice manifestations going better, even if just in slightly less limited ways.

My point is that if you work this mechanism you'll operate in a higher state, and that's the work mostly of the main quest stuff. This mechanism needs to be consistently worked with, to make satisfying decisions to anchor into us through the reality of experience for real that we can be ourselves and we can feel worthy of what we desire BECAUSE WE'RE MORE NOURISHED IN DOING SO. You GAIN worth through nourishing and operating in satisfying ways. NO DUH? Temporarily hyping yourself up to feel all worthy and such by listening to these people tell you that you don't need to act to get manifestations (technically correct when you're already at that level because you're already supplied which is why I say manifesting for someone on that level is VERY different from someone in serious compromise and lack) and you listen to them and sleep in these positive attitudes and feel all warm and fuzzy and stuff will most often result in manifestations that will only reveal to you that you're unsatisfied and it will ring that lack within you and because you denied it and artificially created a bubble of comfort around it then the moment that bubble pops it will HURT BAAAADLY. You know this because you've experienced this artificial peak dip cycle over and over. You know exactly what I mean. Unless you can actually provide evidence for yourself to represent the nourishment of those lacking themes by fulfilling the compromise patterns and experiencing that effect of "oh so I can be myself" (the scene doesn't matter so long as it elicits this response of working the mechanism) then you're not actually getting anywhere and you're just temporarily hyping yourself up over and over and dipping hard as a result because you KNOW/FEEL the lack and can't hide from it anymore no matter how much you try and ignore and tell yourself otherwise. The unconscious resistance isn't being dissolved through denial and ignoring it, you HAVE TO go THROUGH it, meaning when contrast comes up in opportunities either spontaneously in the world or self elicited through wake up in the dream methods and such, when you have that clarity in that moment to make a self nourishing decision and you compromise then expect things to go badly. This proves to you that it's not available, you can't be operating from functional psyche and you're feeling that lack as a result of needing the thing as your supply instead of you being the supply. 

Any inner work stuff that works this mechanism will cause this to happen SPONATANEOUSLY and it will be involving you experiencing the pressure internally and in that space going through the same opportunistic moment as though it was real. As I've continued to say though, if you try this for yourself internally it doesn't often result in radical shifts like doing it for real in the world does. You know what I mean, you know exactly what I mean, and know what to do. It's just a matter of going all the way with it. 

The people who WANT change will accept this reality and follow this teaching 110%. My like/dislike ratio on my videos clearly indicate to me the people who recognize the importance of understanding this reality are few and far between, and I can see why the most popular channels out there are so approved of because there's no challenge to the message in a meaningful way. There's only superficial pseudo motivational type stuff that leads people to using those videos to cope with how they're in lack and every time they watch those videos they feel higher but it doesn't stick because the moment things get real with facing contrast and resistance they'll fall apart and not know what to do, and yet if I preached the solution to these problems I'd never gain that approval. It's insanely stupid and I see why the LOA space has become what it is. These false coaches need competition, but how can one compete with a message that's designed to artificially hype someone up and motivate them to "get their desire" and all this stuff when there's no basis in actual methods that have impact in such a message. Motivating someone in any other sphere would be more beneficial over the LOA space because people here are weak cowards with no guts and no spine to face pressure and thus it's growing bigger and bigger as a result. It's pathetic! There is a time and a place for motivation of the nature they provide but making the entire doctrine about "what I say goes" and being this "boss" type in life without any consideration for how that will not last when things get real is insane. It's like the whole "limiting belief" doctrine can simply be resolved by just hyping yourself up more, but we know that it's in the moments of pressure AKA expansion of awareness into revealing clearly an opportunity to transform how we feel about ourselves which matter to make that stick. Anyone can listen to a guided talk to boost their sense of self temporarily but what will you do when the whole world around you is falling apart and is against you. Do you really think that a boost in sense of self that's not actually EARNED that you FEEL DEEPLY for that YOU involved yourself in CULTIVATING through BEING REAL would hold water under that pressure? No. You'll crack the moment the wind blows because there's ZERO foundation based on being forged under pressure. Someone who's seen and been through their trials KNOWS their self value and worth and they EARNED it. All this BS about just "feeling" like you're that type is the problem. How the heck can anyone say that without direct experience of having nourishing decisions being made that they are able to stand under pressure as themselves and FEEL that AVAILABILITY of nourishment BUILT ON THE BACK of their life experiences in those moments of pressure, This is really what the deeper hidden part of the NG doctrine is about, the stuff he never spoke about for the very reasons I explained above, because his mentalism doctrine was a stage act to make money and spread a narrative in the new age circles growing at the time. Look at these people and you'll see clearly that people who get places are the ones who feel the deep pressure and still serve their end, make clear decisions as themselves regardless and they hold firm in their faith of their STATE they're growing INTO. That should be abundantly clear. Someone who's not worthy or has value is someone who hides from challenge the moment pressure is felt. NG said we're here to expand, and yet expansion requires pressure does it not? Alchemy is about being torn apart and purified under pressure and put back together again in a new arrangement that's a higher order configuration than before. Look at what happens in distillation. The boiling flask is violent, it's not smooth. The material is being broken down under immense heat, it burns and it separates the components to be purified as a result of that separation under pressure. Wasting that pressure means wasting that fire and that opportunity to actually be transformed. You're running away from the boiling flask thinking you can bypass that stage and throw yourself into the purifying stage without feeling the unconscious resistance and overlapping the conscious and unconscious minds to go through it AKA be purified under the pressure by operating from clarity of the subconscious awareness of truth intuitively driven. 

You will not get anywhere following this false doctrine of artificial positive manifesting. You have no chance of deep satisfaction. NG failed to explain it properly and so we have all these people interpreting it without basis in reality or consistent experience which would demonstrate what he says to be correct. Living in a higher state IS seeing clearly and seeing clearly leads one to making decisions which represent their nourished sense of self being available. They're telling us we can feel ourselves into that by imagining we're already that person. Thing is that the mechanism involves feeling pressure, which is why I actually got places when I imagined things that put me into that place under pressure growing into the state of the wish fulfilled. I recognized years ago that what they told me wasn't doing anything but causing my life to suck more and more and more and more and more and more and more every day. I proved that imaginal depth with vividness wasn't the trick because I still have memories of those scenes that have yet to manifest to this day and I also proved that emotional reality is useless too because I'd fall asleep endless days in hyped up positive moods that I'll make my money and get my SP and move into this luxurious home instead of being stuck in a dump and yet nothing showed up but signs of everyone around me getting what I wanted and I felt more and more lack day after day until I broke down and became totally dysfunctional. That's what forced me to face my trash I was running from and I actually got places for once because I stopped artificially hyping myself up. I was so dysfunctional I couldn't even walk outside without breaking down with panic attacks and crippling anxiety where I'd have my heart beat out of my chest and my head would spin and I'd be breathing deeply and I couldn't stop it no matter what I did in those moments. I was being pulled along for the ride and I had many nights where I'd dream about dying from heart attacks or whatever and then wake up and have panics. It was nightmare mode to say the least. That's what happened to me from following what NG said. It ruined my life, it destroyed me, it burned so much of my youthful vigor away. All that I manifested was lack to a degree that I can't even imagine. Why? because I was operating from a low state. States are degrees of function/dysfunction. It's not a linear sideways progression where every state is even in value, it's that higher states exist and lower states exist because they're more or less illuminated as yourself. They're not equal, all this equality trash needs to die.

The fact is that manifesting changes in your life requires facing pressure. Anyone who points you to examples which say otherwise are either speaking about people who were moved by God for reasons they don't understand in that space or they were already comfortable enough and had a foundation which worked for them to where they felt sufficient availability to be the supply and leave the suggestion as just a suggestion instead of a needing and grasping for like it's their only life line. The more you are supplied and feel available for the thing then the less you feel desire and need for it, thus you can mediate that into your reality because you already have it. You feel worthy of it in that space because you're supplied with the currents that represent you on that subconscious level and in the clear unconscious mind where you're worthy and available for this thing. Until you actually FEEL available and worthy of this thing (enough of a degree it doesn't HAVE to be 100% but really just 51% technically because we manifest things that are still to some level we're unworthy to receive and everybody experiences this at one point or another) then suggesting it and dropping it without contrast will effectively be impossible and thus the mechanics I revealed above will reveal the truth of who you really feel you are and what you're available and worthy to manifest. This cannot be faked. This cannot be half done. This cannot be something to be ignored because it's the very nature of how expansion of consciousness works and we all know that. 

If I got up on camera and spoke this I'd lose subscribers, because I'm in the wrong community and have the wrong audience for such a message on the broad scale. How the heck then do I preach such a message because every attempt I've had before has revealed to me that my availability of clients goes through the floor. Nobody wants to coach if they know they'll have to face pressure. People will tell you that at the door but they won't step in and commit knowing the process that's involved. They'll say they're wiling to do whatever it takes but they're really not. They just want coaching to give them some magic miracle method to bypass the pressure they know they need to face deep down and they feel that but continue to accept the gaslighting by these charlatans telling them to just imagine their wish fulfilled every night before bed and don't react to the 3D which is impossible when you're operating in that lower state. You can't NOT react to the world because THE REACTION IS REVEALING THE TRUTH. DUH? This is the insanity of modern LOA doctrine. Persistence involves repeatedly facing pressure and growing into the higher state you FEEL guiding your decisions which is why you react when things happen the way they do. Telling someone to ignore that causes lack to manifest because you're continuing to buy into the lower state. Unless the coach tells them to "ignore" the circumstances under the context of not seeing the tunnel vision as all there is and seeing the wider view in those moments where reactions come up to be felt and processed then they're going to have VERY low success rates. I mean come on how can anyone ignore without reacting? They'll fell you to stay busy and keep your mind away from thinking about the stuff they're ignoring but that's ONLY MAKING IT WORSE because the ROOT CAUSE isn't being purified, meaning PRESSURE IS ACTIVELY BEING AVOIDED which of course means "I'm unworthy" ELSE YOU'D NOT RUN AWAY. If you felt worthy and deserving you'd face that pressure without looking back because you already feel you're beyond that lack and limit and are driven to WANT to be authentic in those moments because that's FUNCTIONAL and SATISFYING. 

I guess the only chance that this doctrine can replace mindless LOA trash is by sneaking in the back door and planting the right paper trails to gradually lead people to the truth by getting them to ask the right questions in the right sequence for them to come to this conclusion organically. If I came out and spoke the hard facts they'd get rejected, but if the audience were invisibly led and influenced to find this out for themselves by asking the right questions and being offered just enough of the right answers and solutions to lead their insights then they'd figure it out. This requires a program designed for this. A deconditioning program, a paid one. People don't want to take free stuff seriously and I've proven that over and over, so it will need to be a premium program that they'll buy with the public facing image leading them juuuust enough to want to find these "magical secret" solutions or whatever that's behind the paywall. If you market a promise of the keys to getting what they want and lead them carefully through the transformation then they'll get it. Throwing them in the deep end will fail. They'll drown, because there's no context or direct insights or experience to translate that into something meaningful for these people who just want to feel better. I do not see any other way that this can work. I can't out influencer the influencers without doing the influencing with the pseudo charlatan ways myself because that's the standard way of practice which is collectively established currently. Going with the flow to some extent will only aid in this journey of fully replacing the false LOA doctrines. When I was most influential it was when I was still just deep enough in the pseudo stuff and people interpreted what I said under that lens still which is why I was approved of to that degree, then the moment I started questioning LOA more deeply on video was the moment RS lost favor. I do not care what the critics think at all as to what this implies, I simply need a more tactical approach to get this work done. 

 

I just manifested $7000 for free. Put it on a list 2 nights ago. What a surprise. I got a bunch of stuff for free lately, or should I say VERY cheap to the point that I'd basically consider free. Seems to be one of my magic abilities that whatever I want that I write on paper I get. I don't do this very often but I've probably manifested about 20k worth of stuff on lists for free or extremely cheap. I don't think twice about it it just shows up, and that also proves my point because I don't have attachments to this stuff it's just nice to haves. Still haven't manifested a free house or whatever but I NEVER visualized or did any of that imaginal stuff to manifest these things.