Aetheraeon Notebook 25

I've done some experiments today with qi circulation. I believe there's a correlation to qi being "dropped" from the heart to the kidney as a function of this whole conjugation of water and fire when it comes to dissolving resistance and clearing unconscious trash. Most people when I talk about kidney meridian have no idea how important that is because kidney is root. They only hear heart and it brings up this idea that it's more important but it's not, they're both important and arguably for the early stages the kidney qi is what matters more because that's the foundation of how pressure manifests in your psychology. Without both though it doesn't work, but it's arguably easier to cultivate kidney qi. There's a clear "dropping" feeling when you have the inner moment of climax. I'm talking about INNER, not an actual sexual act but as NG calls it the INNER psychic sexual act. You're "hyping yourself up" to get to that, and what I believe is happening is that you're having a heightened awareness at that moment. What does that do when it comes to alchemy? Well is the yang drops into the yin (kidney qi sinking into heart qi which you can CLEARLY feel if you have sufficient pressure available for that) would imply you're taking the conscious into the unconscious mind,

That mechanism is the purifying mechanism. I've always felt there's something here to be had but you need to really go ALL the way to attain that. I've personally experienced this only a few times, but I got to that very edge of the cliff before the implosion which is how I felt that sinking sensation. You literally feel heart qi dropping the water and separating. The desire literally gets released when you do this. Perhaps this method of NG was to basically release peoples attachment through the dissolution of desire? Thing is from my experience this doesn't last. The hunger comes back, it's the same as a physical sexual act. You climax and if you're well nourished you will feel desire again soon after. All this "refectory period" stuff is nonsense it's all to do with the available water and fire elements in communication. Interestingly enough in TCM you can also have high capacity of each element in qi but that they won't be "communicating" together correctly and thus they'll not be able to conjugate correctly. Really they're actually separating if we look at it in reality. Fire holds water up, the fire sinks which you feel (or maybe that's water but I feel is descend from the heart/solar plex region down so I doubt that) and so it seems to "drop" the water out. That's what results in the release of water physically in the same process. You're just separating the raising and expanding supply from the substances so that the substance is dropped quite literally and sinks. So is it really a conjugation then? I don't really know for sure because if this is to have any impact it must overlap the components AKA conjugate them as one thing even if just for a moment. Regardless of the feeling of it we can say that if the NG breathing method has value in any way that's actually beneficial then it would cause the conscious and unconscious to overlap and while overlapped they'd reach a point of heightened awareness and from that I could absolutely see transformation happening because in that "state" if we'd call it that I believe you'll impress a memory. A trauma, good or bad. Negative trauma that sticks remember is just a moment of heightened awareness that's too much for the nervous system to process and thus retreats from the experience and holds onto that moment putting up walls of discomfort when approaching that experience again. This same mechanism I believe to some levels plays a role here.

According to this theory then why wouldn't a physical climax of the same nature not induce the same induction of memory? Well it does, that's why you remember first time, or so I'd think. You don't remember the first time you wrote a word or any of that stuff because it doesn't stick out as a moment of heightened awareness. The reason only certain physical experiences are remembered and imprint you is because you're not really in a truly heightened state, First time usually means you're not heavily depleted and were younger with significant storage of available vitality to run through your circuits. This is also why MANY guys on seed retention get places fast in life when it comes to transforming resistance because that's the very same kidney qi that drives pressure to face trash and go through pressure. It makes you WANT to and that's a manifestation of hormones which relate. Written about this ages ago. How does that relate to manifesting? That should be obvious to anyone not filtering what I say into the mentalism box. There's a clear link between the experience of what NG calls the psychic sexual act and the physical reflection of that in terms of thematic process. One process manifest on all levels. We can learn from viewing the reflections on all these other levels to better understand the subtle levels. The repeated throwing of the conscious mind inside the unconscious AKA masculine inside the feminine and overlap them (we all know that that physical representation means) builds that pressure (which you would also know how that feels) which IS the movement of kidney and heart qi circulating through your circuits and as it gets more intense the heart qi rises more and more and more until it "drops" the water and you basically have a "release" of that pressure or that substantive capacitive current which holds the imprint AKA the seed. You release the desire, literally. I think the page I went into the other details on this is offline right now but I might try dig that out and paste it here some time.

So the whole point of the NG release method if we look very closely is that there MIGHT be a methodology here that's never been explored properly to perform this alchemical function. I don't know anyone else who's talked about this before. The psychic climax technique. I guess that's what we'd call it simply. I'd prefer to call it "pressure release technique" or something because that's what's happening anyway but the name for the method that's going at this correctly could be called the "desire dropping method" that's possibly going to condense all the work on the outer and place it into a single moment of pressurization and release. Thing is that this isn't something that can be easily done, even with the years I've been expanding awareness this still isn't available and I've had long streaks of SR without being able to do this reliably either with highly charged kidney qi. I can come close but getting it done reliably is a challenge. Maybe I need to implement the NG functions more closely and train with breath work. The alchemist calls this the "washing machine" method, not the NG stuff but the principle function of using the conscious mind to expand space through methods like divine pathway work. You're waving back and forward over and over in a rhythm. It's sounding similar to the NG breathing method, the one method I've always talked about as an interesting one that's very misunderstood because nobody here in the NG LOA space has even a single clue about alchemical transformation on a functional level. I don't claim to be a complete guru on that either as I'm still learning deeper levels of this over time myself but I know my way around enough to get these insights come up.

So to me this whole NG breathing method does in fact have basis but the way most people go about it with this artificial hyping themselves up is just insanely stupid. I'm going to say that this is a method of suggestion that does the impression (suggesting to higher genius) and along with that the release of pressure accordingly so that grasping isn't had and it can be "dropped" because you CANNOT drop it while you have pressure to process. It's effectively impossible unless that pressure is spent CORRECTLY. So as I've said those main methods of applying correct pressure mediation involve actions that are often different from what you're use to and that's how you'll be mediated but the NG breathing method might have this built in. I will continue to experiment with this further personally and perhaps do breathing work and get more in tune with that rhythmic nature. Remember that NG had the channel of rhythm in his HD chart unconsciously defined connected to his throat so this was VERY easy for him and Israel Regardie also mentioned this about NG saying that because he was a dancer (implying his unconscious mind was very well conditioned to flow and rhythmic movement of pressure) so we can clearly see that connection with his methods he personally found very easy to do. Just because he could do it on the spot doesn't mean others can replicate that easily. I do have the channel of rhythm unconsciously defined too so it's built into me and I tend to have a way of moving but this method isn't easy for me either, though I've never trained for it. It's not a method I find natural despite having very close overlaps with his design. No matter how I view this I can't escape the fact that there's something here to be uncovered, another level. This cannot be avoided. This could be yet another methodology that RS has to work with through other people to attain outcomes that are satisfying.

I believe a way to do this easily is to actually go into deep gazing first and clear some levels with that before attempting this breathing method. I've often just tried to intend to move the currents around consciously and I can get pretty close to release this way with that internal sensation but it's still not there yet. Doing this with eyes open while imagining the looped scene that I feel moves me into being more of myself under pressure very much would have some purifying effect on some level so this is what I will experiment with and report over the coming weeks. If I find a consistent method then that will be how I apply this. I do not believe this will be useful or work when it comes to operating from positions of highly charged limerence but we will see. If I can get some more clients to test this with that would be great. If you're reading this and want to try this out then please report back to me what happens to my email. I don't' want to put out a video with inconclusive data so attaining that data before talking about the facts is necessary.

22/7/25

So if someone feels like they're comfortable and still hasn't seen the thing show up, I will say there's likely still lack that they've not become conscious of. They think they've made it all conscious but it's probably not. From experience and from clients stories this is a factor that matters very often. Usually this comes from people who create a bubble to live in and can't widen that out to overlap stuff they're not even aware there is to overlap, meaning the contrast the pressure is moving them towards hasn't been realized yet. It's still probably unconscious. So how do you make that conscious? Shock experience. Said this last notebook. You'll want to "surprise" yourself and have a heightened experience that brings out new feelings. How do you do this? Lead pathways and imagine a specific scene that elicits this feeling you're not use to. It needs to come from an expanded awareness. so the elicited shocking experience in itself proves you're in that awareness more and you'll want to loop THAT thing. I believe this is what many of the instances that NG describes SATS in the lay down and imagine method is talking about. You really do need to shock yourself into it. That elicits the feeling, though stabilizing that is much harder than it seems. This to me is doing what was discussed before, about exposing yourself to higher order processes that work on you through you willingly exposing yourself to that and often times it is a letting go sense. The alchemist in our last talk actually said that the letting go feeling as it's described IS a "facet" of the subconscious divine feminine side of things,

So I've spoken to a client who's had MASSIVE success in manifesting literally anything (I really do mean anything for real like imagining on the spot and receiving contact MULTIPLE TIMES) and the common thread was this "heightened awareness" experience. When we ask ourselves 'what would it feel like" you have a visceral response from your body is there's contrast. That's the question NG asked, what would it FEEL like. You're not targeting emotion of course but targeting a sense of self, of having that actually being available for you. That's really what it means, and so imagining it invokes that sudden intuitive language of the heightened awareness of being INSIDE the subconscious/aetheric body. That IS an invocational experience, is it not? You're doing a form of theurgy by exposing yourself to that on a repeated basis, though this MUST be done correctly or you'll end up artificially stimulating. What's the difference. Simple. Leave behind the trash and widen the view. Bring there here now and invoke that experience. Now subconscious capacity must be available as well, obviously. If someone imagining that thing of what would it feel like and faces significant negative aversion from the unconscious mind then allow that exposure to happen as though it were real and under pressure feel through that experience as it shows up. I will say this isn't as easy as it is to do for real in physical experience but it's an option. That heightened awareness in my experience is the sensation of you slipping into the aetheric body in the moment. It's often difficult to hold that but it's possible. Now when you consider what NG says about looping to "stabilize the state" as he says then we can see how it's getting the person to sit with the exposure to that higher order process to run that current through them as they're operating within that higher level, in consciousness that is and in width. Most people who do this aren't really feeling into that level though they're operating seemingly on that level because it's imaginal to enough vividness but it's not invoking that heightened experience and that's often because they're not imagining the thing that represents the fulfilment of their conditions and doing the "dare to assume it" thing NG spoke about. If someone persisted in this along with valuing their vitality along side they'd very likely have the desired outcome show up. Now that I'm becoming more and more aware and familiar with the exact feeling and process here more than I have before in a more linear manner from start to finish it can be connected that there should be some basic questions to ask to move into that space and experience the exposure to illuminating current. You want to basically exist within the subconscious mind in the aetheric body and because that's the overlapping substance that spills over into superconscious mind then you'll be able to directly interact with higher genius/greater process and suggest as a function of that heightened experience as well as be cleaned from it. I guess this is the deeper mechanism of the NG SATS stuff, which can also be done on the spot as my client I spoke to today has told me. This guy has basically mastered this to a degree that's beyond most others I've spoken to yet.

"What if I could get money for free without working for it"? Ask yourself that and if you feel a jolt of juice move through you then you've just received a quickening or a sudden exposure to purifying illuminating starlight. This force is a theurgy process, to some levels. Why wouldn't it be? If you're overlapping the subconscious level and willingly exposing yourself to that illuminating current then it must be a form of theurgy because that's mechanically what's happening. I believe that is the most accurate definition of what NG taught. There's tons of other ways to do this as I've explained and you'll very likely feel uncomfortable when placing yourself into the position of the thing being available for you but that's good because it's proving you're feeling through trash, even if just a bit. What matters is that you move inside that subconscious level. Thing is this is both a suggestion and the clearing at the same time because of the overlap. Someone who's operating in an imaginal experience that's "real" to them and does it to feel better about themselves isn't allowing the transformation. You're actually letting go by willingly looping the scene with the exposure to the higher order process.

Honestly I've been through so many courses and programs and books and stuff from others and 90% of what they say is just asking questions to lead pathways. That's all that NG did. They elicit a question in you to lead greater context to experience and that causes the overlap.

I think I've got the perfect process to actively manifest, capacity aside. Active thought based stuff is very depleting and not valuable. It should be spontaneous and only active when intuitive impulse arises. Contrast reveals opportunity. That's what this means, you FEEL opportunity here and thus that hesitation reveals the contrast to be dissolved through trusting and accepting. Lets go.

23/7/25

I want you to imagine having the thing under a context of your limits being conquered fully. Imagine being SEEN having the thing. That's huge for so many people. Exposure, wanting to hide, running from being known as successful. Making yourself seem small because you're afraid of the what ifs. Go through the what ifs and learn through the reality of experience that this is no longer important to you anymore. That's done.

Also I'm doubling down on the vitality cultivation aspects and how that function plays a part in the whole LOA working or not for someone. I'm way way beyond seeing enough data to support this and I've got the mechanics to prove this fully. I don't care if the alchemist doesn't fully agree or if anyone else out there doesn't agree, I've proven this more than sufficiently that sensory refinement DOES MATTER.

When you have supply you'll feel that exposure to divine pathways and automatically WANT to break boxes as a function of having that feeling of availability of nourishment that is the supportive aspect which manifests the psychological side to move through you. It's so damn obvious. I can't deny this every time I try to disprove this despite what everybody else says I continue to see evidence of this clearly in my life and in various stories I see especially from younger guys. It's that pressure NEEDS to be built, felt, and mediated THROUGH the state you're being moved and oriented to by that pressure coming up. The pressure coming up is the orienting force to transform your trash. Without that pressure you won't WANT to elevate your sense of self, You only feel desire because illuminating current lights up those pathways, the seeds, that are already there. How the heck can anyone say otherwise and say that with a straight face. If you've been manifesting without this function being deliberately consciously worked with then that's probably because you've already been doing it anyway and not felt the contrast of having been at the bottom of the barrel where I was at for a very very long time. You WILL feel differently on every level when you apply this function correctly. Like I can't state the importance of this. I just can't. It's ultimately what I believe most people who attain results through regardless of if they realize it or not. It's that the exposure to illuminating current lights up the trash and with sufficient amounts of contrast revealed with that wider view perspective then you'll be ABLE to say "I can accept this thing" and almost let the trash fade away. You'll feel the pressure, the contrast, the lack, the conditions, the not self stuff try and suck you back where it's comfortable but with enough light and willingness (which is what the nourishing available vitality provides you AKA makes feel AVAILABLE which IS the secret) then you'll almost be unable to NOT want to break boxes and grow into the state and dissolve the trash in the way. It's easy.

The degree that you're able to actually tell yourself that you have what you're oriented towards and holds resonance to is going to determined by the available vitality to feel through the trash. When I was at the bottom of the barrel literally anything positive I thought about happening would cause me to feel anxious, to a degree that I'd get physically sick if I really went hard into it as they say. The deeper I went into "what would it feel like" the more I faced exactly the opposite of what I wanted. Why? Because I simply wasn't able to cope with that level of purification at once. I needed to form foundation, and that took me about 3 months of fasting from the world to build enough capacity. I did gazing and qigong every day often times for hours. For those who are already comfortable are feeling availability, those who are very depleted on space and thus view width and capacity to handle purifying current under pressure and contrast will not be able to handle that all at once. I wasn't able to for years despite everything I threw at it. Stabilizing the nervous and endocrine systems can be the foundation that gets you out of the hole. The people who aren't to that degree of depletion will face light levels of resistance and contrast, and in some cases it can actually be a sort of "positive anxiety".

Different people feel resistances differently. When someone affirms for what they want or imagine it with the subtle senses and they're extremely lacking they will feel physically sick from it, been there done that. You cannot approach manifesting from that angle because you'll get ruined, the best way to approach this is to physically break boxes where you know is available. What I will say though is that only 10% of clients at most are in that position so you're unlikely to be there. Most people are able to feel some contrast without it being too powerful to make their nervous system react in a visceral way. If you're in the degree where you're like 30% of the way there or more then it's likely you'll be able to sit with the starlight shining on you without it causing too much to a level that would cause physical issues. Remember we only really need 51% but of course 100% is full individuation and is the goal. If you're within the 30-50% range which I'd say a bulk of people are within then all you need to do is simple pathway leading and context building methods which I've clearly outlined how to do here many times. That's all you need. So as I said some methods can work for some people and not others, likely because of not just personal affinities but degrees of contrast and availability of baseline vitality to be able to handle your circuits getting shot with too much juice at once. If you're getting pumped with too much starlight then you'll not be able to process that and you'll likely have those intense visceral reactions from your nervous system that can cause physical illness like I experienced for years imagining what I wanted. If you're over 50% and you're still not getting it then further refine surrounding context as often times the conditions aren't even fully related to the primary pathway of the desire but the surrounding pathways and this can be found with pathway work of any form really. Just asking yourself the right questions will take you the rest of the way. That's the complete process of how to go from 0-100% depending on where you're at. It's not hard, it just takes time.

If you're at a high level and want further refinement then you can continue to expand subconscious space and do more advanced theurgy work which would overlap with divine pathway work while in an advanced gazing session. Invoking that power and standing before it and allowing that self organizing intelligence to melt the trash away just as it does spontaneously with advanced gazing is the way to go, except this is more intense because you're deliberately coming closer through more overlap. You're overlapping deeper and thus getting more starlight exposure illuminating your trash. Advanced gazing can get there eventually anyway because it's the same mechanics either way. Advanced theurgy will take that same function to a higher level. Invoke those powers by targeting them as you would with divine pathway work and stand before those personified intelligences that exist within your psyche to feel the full power of their purifying fire. Allow them to break you down as much as you can handle and process the more unconscious aspects that questions can't really get to because you don't even know how to reach those parts with questions. That's why it's unconscious, you're making that which is unconscious conscious through the overlap mediated by the illuminating power of higher genius or at least various facets of that effectively infinite power.

There. That's it. I mean how else can we describe this whole manifesting thing other than standing before greater process with a targeted theme to purify and while standing before that supply of purifying light you'll continue to take that feeling while still allowing your old trash to be burned up in the process. It's literally about facing the fire under the context of growing into what's correct for you, which you intuitively feel. Intuitive impulse drives natural striving and what you're moved to dissolve through such methods in the world. "The work" NG talked about seems to be this very function, dynamically mediated by greater process intelligence. As the alchemist has said you can be next to 100% pure and still not be available for immortality because of things higher genius needs fulfilling first before then. There's intelligence driving all this stuff, all those intuitive inner truth sensations of natural striving. What is correct is what you feel oriented towards. Don't take the HD route and overthink HOW that's felt because no matter what field geometry arrangement you are you'll just know how it feels anyway. That's a subconscious sense. The more space you have the more clear that becomes anyway because more space implies more overlap between conscious and unconscious meaning more clarity over contrast which manifests as the psychological function I mentioned above as how much purifying starlight you can process at once and how wide your view can be relating to that resistance when running against it. It's the same process, and now that idea should make this abundantly clear. It's very simple to grasp. More overlap means more availability to cope with more purifying light at once. Your bandwidth increases bidirectionally. You can move into that level more easily and it can move through you more easily without frying your power cables with too many amps so to say. All we're doing is being able to house more divine starlight and the more we have available the more we can process unconscious trash. This is a process that takes time because to house more starlight we need to be able to overlap more of the trash so increasing capacity comes through interacting with the unconscious in and of itself. Gazing is the way you most effectively improve this capacity in a vacuum. There are many other ways of course that I've explained but that's the essence. Doing the NG stuff while heavily depleted is like trying to lift weights you're not able to handle and you'll injure yourself. You need to build capacity before you go to the big leagues and NG stuff is NOT for everybody. Don't care what anybody says I've lived years in the pits of despair where almost nothing he said worked for me and the harder I went with that the more I suffered and lost years of my life in misery. It sucked so badly I can't even describe.

If you're in that place and don't want to be there then I suggest physically breaking boxes that are available to do so. Do not approach big desires. Do not think that you're going to be able to break through that with mental stuff in a vacuum the best way to approach big desires is through surrounding context at that level. Physically breaking boxes you know you can handle is essential. Without that I'd never have gotten where I am now. Doing the opposite of what NG said and lifting my finger got my SP manifested. I did in fact feel through the trash and the only reason I was able to is because I built the baseline to handle that much current. Always be aware that the more resistance you hold and the more contrast you feel pulling you away from the intuitive inner truth and into the narrow view of lack and limits then the more you'll need to expose yourself to that starlight in ways that are unrelated to the themes of the desire to build capacity in other surrounding areas and gain more overlap so that the comfort relating to the SP or whatever can begin to build.

I will be making a program that's paid in the near future breaking all these steps down bit by bit for everybody to access who wants it. Been waiting years to make this. Always remember that everything in there in principle will be available here, just not in an organized format. Those who want a far more easy to follow version without the extra bits that don't relate will find it there, for the price it's worth and all the time I've put into making this clear.

I will not waste more time contemplating on these concepts further I've done an insane amount of refinement at this point and the icing on the cake with theurgy processes being built into the NG SATS stuff has fully revealed those mechanics. They're revealed enough to meet the needs of 99.9+% of people.

I also just want to say that everybody in this space that claims all you need to do is persist and all this trash without grasping that different people are at different levels of capacity and that determines what CAN work for them or not need to get that understanding or get out as far as I'm concerned. They need to get absolutely schooled, because this space is no joke and having had years of my life ruined for taking their stuff seriously and getting opposite outcomes because I wasn't instructed correctly makes the open space for correct instruction for those who want it available and for that teaching to stand atop the rest. Competition is needed. Real competition. Said this many times. The positive vibe feel good and lead pathways in that sense of things will only work for those who are above the 30% level, and I'd really argue above the 45% level because they're not told that questioning yourself is really the best WAY to lead pathways instead of just trying to "overpower" your resistance. You can't overpower it you simply allow yourself to expose yourself to the starlight that's triggered when approaching that aspect of what's unconscious and continue to orient your view into that direction without wavering your attention and the way you do this effectively while under pressure is making basic statements like "I can have this thing" and "I'm allowed to have this thing" and "This thing is available for me" and "This condition isn't important anymore" and "There's nothing to fear here" and continue to bathe in that light. You're cleaning the nervous system by bathing in the light, bit by bit. Bathing in the light is what purifies the trash, and people in the psychological space call this "letting go" and other such terms which I still believe are outdated ideas.

Funny enough NG criticized people like Jung. I read a quote saying that the idea of the unconscious mind is keeping people from their imagination or whatever it was. I just know he was critical of the psychological view of things and categorizing "imagination" into parts as NG saw it all as mind substance of God who he viewed himself as which obviously can only happen through repeated interaction with that level of power. This is what caused his visions and such to unfold, because if you overlap it then it cam overlap you more easily too. It's always overlapping you but it's more so that the link is clear. It was the alchemist that gave context to my idea of process within process and placed on them various functions of the psyche that we can experience and deliberately expose ourselves to in order to work the alchemical purification process. Without this mechanism nothing works. Period. All transformation happens through the lower order substances being broken down under pressure and separated, once separated they're taken into a more subtle level of starlight where purification takes place, and while there being purified they'll then be reassembled into a new form. This is "the art of dying" as NG puts it. He calls it like "falling back" to quote Blake. I don't think that's an accurate description but whatever. That all depends on the level you're at of course, more capacity can feel this way but obviously when you interact with more powerful intelligences that have a more radical impact on your psyche to separate more unconscious trash that you didn't know you had then the immense pressure that someone who's heavily depleted would feel when interacting with the idea of having their SP or whatever, that person on that higher level would replicate this process too except in a higher octave. This cannot be ignored. There is no way to avoid this function and anyone getting success is working this mechanism. This mechanism of willingly exposing yourself to divine starlight is necessary to make any progress in actually dissolving unconscious trash in a meaningful and satisfying manner.

Divine starlight is more or less what I call the illumination that happens when you overlap a lower order substances with a higher order once, though the subconscious level which mediates greater yang to deliver us the necessary amounts of golden light to clear out the dark dense thick sticky crystalized trash that is impurities on an otherwise perfectly clear base material which hast he capacity to become the stone which holds the star. The star in the stone is the goal. We become the philosophers stone, you literally make yourself into the stone, thematically speaking, because alchemically that's what you have capacity for. "The work to be done in him" IS THIS. You're driven by higher genius intelligently through intuitive impulse to interact with certain themes of experience in the order necessary to integrate what's going to become the structure for your immortal body which can only be built by continually exposing yourself to aspects of higher genius that are able to mediate the necessary amount of purifying illuminating starlight which is what opens up the space further to move into as the next level you're operating from at baseline. So people ask me "how do I improve my sense of self" and I say to simply expose yourself to more of yourself. Take the conscious mind into the unconscious mind, aka be willing to face pressure in meaningful ways, be it physically with breaking boxes which we all have availability to work with or to do it in subtle forms of imaginal work or whatever else. Willingly exposing yourself to pressure IS going all the way, because that's what the self correction mechanism is basically forcing you to deal with by using all the biochemical mechanisms built into you which orient your view to see the pressure for what it is in that place of highest intensity. The degree to which you stand before that pressure and willingly face that and still as mentioned before see what needs seeing underlying that condition and accepting this thing you feel as your truth then is doing the work you're guided to fulfil.

Understand that necessary themes will come up automatically to be resolved when they're ready, though if you try and force things because you've been influenced by these LOA buffs who talk mentalism in a vacuum and that it's alll about belief shifting by thinking "from" the end as they say without grasping how and why that works, if you do this and you're unable to handle that pressure then you'll face blowback to get you oriented where you should be for the level you're at. Natural striving orients you to what you need, all you need to do is trust that and make corresponding decisions under that pressure. You'll not feel comfortable but that's the proof you're in the right direction. If you're not bringing in further purifying starlight then you're not fulfilling your function for existing. That is in fact why you exist, to BECOME the stone and to become the stone the structure of your field geometry needs cleaning. Some will say that we're born perfect, though everybody who is born with genetic issues will say otherwise. Those issues can and will be remedied by doing this work, the alchemist has made that clear to me, as well as making it clear that superhuman capacity is also on the table when you go far enough with this too. So as always take it back to the mechanism at the root. You're overlapping states or components of consciousness to allow the space between that to expand and mediate purifying starlight to clean out what's being made conscious and thus make that newly expanded space your baseline capacity to further approach deeper levels without getting blown up in the approach because you're unable to handle that must power at once. In order to become superhuman you must be able to contain that much power. You cannot magically force beliefs by telling yourself that, because your baseline determines what you can and can't interact with and the proof of that is the fact that you feel lack when you overlap the desire you want.

That in and of itself is proof of this process in action and validates RS as the one and only model that's correctly describing how LOA works the way it does. RS arguably replaces it as the only model to be applied because it has all the answers. Without proper context to understand the mechanism behind what NG spoke about without viewing it from this whole mentalism and belief box where it's all just timelines and realities and trash without any fixed structure and "rules" of operation underlying it, without a solid form to work with then you'll just get lost forever trying to be who you're not. RS provides solid foundation for anyone to work with on any level which has come from over a decade of my experience in doing this work since I started manifesting by gazing. Gazing is the one practice that will give you everything you need if you do it enough. The alchemist says that ripeness naturally manifests the psychological condition to be able to dissolve resistance spontaneously when it comes up. We drop all control when we apply ourselves in this direction, and while people will want money and SP and whatnot before they have capacity for such to handle that purification then they'll just keep getting burned until they realize that slowing down and expanding their subconscious in more efficient ways surrounding the main theme of desire will actually begin to work for them. This is why almost everybody I talk to who does gazing regularly says they feel more stable. Why? Because the space has expanded and contrast isn't viewed in a narrow little box without any room to breathe and navigate. You have capacity to view a wider view at baseline and that's what gazing will do for you the most, among other things. Always spend time interacting with higher order substances because gazing works that mechanism. The more you gaze the more you're doing theurgy and overlapping states, and thus doing the work. Doesn't matter if you believe it won't work or even say it can't work for you because it will always work that mechanism, Even if your thoughts wonder you'll still gain benefit. You can't not gain expanded subconscious space and be doing gazing. It's the one method that if you take anything from RS it's that. Apply the gazing method in ANY form and you'll get places, even if you're still obsessing and all that trash.

All you need to do is gaze, create space, operate according to inner truth when under pressure meaning to go through the pressure towards the light even though you're feeling uncomfortable and continue to liver to expand and grow into that higher state. That's how you expand subconscious capacity, make your imaginal senses more vivid, have exposure to divine intelligences within you and manifest what you desire without really trying. That's the RS way of manifesting and the way that will become the standard set through the years of work I've done here to outline how this works. With all the ups and downs we've had here going in and out of various processes and finding what does and doesn't work under the most critical view possible we can say with certainty now that the process is abundantly clear on all levels and there is no room for doubt. The manifestation mystery is solved fully and we can now do the work with clarity of how to approach things regardless of where we're at in our expansion. This all leads towards immortality. Completing the great work is doing this work. Operating according to the methods that RS outlines is manifesting immorality. It's the only way to manifest immortality because we work the only mechanism there is. That's not to say other traditions and such don't either but we work that under the manifestation context specifically. No matter what doing this work will get you there. Thing is you need to be willing to face that and go all the way. Are you ready for what is to come? That is the question.

27/7/25

It's nearly August that's insane. Still feels like I just finished my seedline bible study that's been cleaned up. I really can't put it any more simply. Your vitality determines success. Charge. Pressure. Not emotional charge but "vibrational" charge, as in availability of vitality. As far as I can say with certainty the insights that can widen your view spontaneously happen through overflow. How do you cultivate vitality?

You already know how. You feel the truth of that come up all the time. Think of the last time you hesitated on decisions that you felt were obvious to make but you let your mind control the decision due to narrow view in that moment. Those are opportunities to cultivate further vitality by not depleting it. You know why you end up feeling unsatisfied after those hesitant incorrect decisions? It's because you wasted it. There.

Man every part of this screams "kill mentalism". Seriously. I might as well come out and say that the "feeling" NG was talking about was more or less the feeling of current moving through your body, because honestly when you go all the way with leading pathways in imaginal experiences it WILL feel like that. It's the SAME feeling you get when you're in a moment of heightened awareness making those same decisions physically. So many people who doubted what I said before have come back recently and told me that I was in fact correct even though they didn't want to believe it. Anyone who has gone through real purification will know that. The rest can stay in the mentalism box and get lost. If you want real transformation then cultivating vitality and using that available pressure correctly is necessary. PERIOD. END OF STORY! No amount of "thinking" will get you anywhere dammit you're wasting your time. The thinking if it does impact your realty through suggestion or whatever else will happen because it came through you because you went all the way and integrated the components that manifest as that psychological affinity for this desire without contrast. The contrast dissolves through realizing the pressure isn't something you see as a barrier or something of importance anymore, at least not to a degree where it causes your sense of availability to waver. That's what the wavering is, it's the misalignment of expectation vs availability. Availability is what you feel intuitively when you think something FROM because if the experience represents you having attained an aim as NG says then you'd not have contrast showing up.

NG said that your reactions (and actions) determine the outcome. If you already did it and experienced that theme being integrated for real then you'd not feel contrast of "I don't" or "I can't" as a lack of nourishment of those themes. This should be abundantly clear. If you felt uncomfortable doing a stage act which most people involved with that will at some level but that's naturally how someone grows in their sense of self no duhhh good luck imagining it then running away at crunch time because if the imaginal act had impact it would make you WANT to be the best you as you'd already have done it. If you can't face that pressure then you don't actually feel nourished but facing the pressure is more or less your way of worshipping your God, your supply, doing lesser theurgy because feeling that lack and overlapping those states of awareness while moving correctly despite the vibes moving through your body, that in itself is purifying. That's WHY someone elevates their sense of self when they do it without exception. You're overlapping conscious and unconscious and in that place allowing yourself to feel without running from it and moving through the contrast to fulfil the conditions. That's the challenge of life. When you do that in any way you have available you win. Imagining with your mind DOES NOTHING IN A VACUUM DAMMIT! Without supply there's no naturalness and no naturalness means there's contrast to face and contrast to face requires feeling that purifying starlight which illuminates unconscious resistance by overlapping your awareness with it meaaaaning you're GOING TO FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE IF YOU WANT TO SHIFT THE LACK!

Why do I get sarcastic about this? Because this community is filled with children who can't grow up. Just like I use to be because of the allure of "you're the God of your realty" idea where your thoughts control things. WHAT A JOKE. There are people on that level and without being at that level then that capacity stays as just a capacity. Living to nourish all the unconscious trash with purifying starlight should be our aim, that's how your cultivate vitality in principle. Overlapping conscious and unconscious. Gazing opens up multiple levels of this obviously and everybody who's done this extensively (even if it takes moment) then they WILL have breakthroughs.

There's these parts of me that just want to utterly destroy mentalism and school all the exploitative ignorant "coaches" in this space because they KNOW that they say doesn't work (their success rates will be through the floor) and yet that's still not going to help because of the aura of critical view. The way it's done in my natural tone of saying things as they are is too hard to handle, hence the massive backlash older videos on this got. Screw that. This whole thing is just so insane. Making an impact with real teachings in a community that doesn't want them is pushing water up hill. How do you win? The early days of my work were interpreted under the NG lens, and then when people say "aren't you just teaching living in the end" I say yeah but how does NG say you ACTUALLY DO THAT? "Think feelingly from the state" as I quoted is USELESS to 99% of people who have no idea what that means, and still arguably can be interpreted in different ways than I say. So as I've really said since day one of this stuff in stating that NG failed to explain manifestation it seems the full circle has come around. People try what they think he says and it doesn't work. If it's a law it should work every time, right?

So if it doesn't work then what do you do? You do what you're not doing. That's what I did. I stopped doing what NG said and listened to my inner guidance system. I got mad at myself and accepted that I needed to make different actions in the world that were necessary. Then you hear all this TRASH about "that's your belief system" and nonsense that other people don't need to and YET THEY'RE STILL STUCK! The mechanism isn't that belief is formed through self talk and trash it's that belief is formed through the realty of experience and that is mediated by a moment of heightened awareness and that involves pressure and exposure to purifying starlight to bring it out of you. That moment of cleansing is the moment of heightened awareness. An experience of high contrast.

These people like "Dr" Dispenza say it's about heightened emotions (thought I think his tune is changing now because that was always incorrect and yet never held himself accountable for it obviously and profited massively off incorrect teachings mind you) but you will eventually find as I have that it's actually a moment of heightened energy availability that moves through you and cleans out the trash from your unconscious mind. That's beyond what I even wanted to accept years ago when I was still incorrect about my understanding of this in that regard of causality. I hold myself accountable for teaching incorrect ideas back then, and thus I say here that a shift in direction is required.

If someone wants to manifest money for free in a way that's meaningful and they have massive amounts of lack in their life then focusing on this fantasy is wasting their time when it could be spent going through more avail bit conditions surrounding money which would provide them what they're actually looking for. All this "I want free money" stuff comes most often from people I hear who have no value in their life or aren't providing anything of value to others. Parasitism. I manifested free money when I started giving. Was that a condition in my mind? I did feel something there but I wouldn't say that was my baseline assumption. Man the language NG uses is so bad. Assumptions. Feeling. State. It's totally useless terminology from a practical or theoretical understanding from the context taught. Assumptions aren't something that can shift long term without repeated exposure to powers greater than yourself to shift that. When you go through experiences which you learn through the reality of experience that "oh so I can be X" THEN you'll have the psychological components and availability to feed that so called assumption. Assumptions manifest from invisible available substances which are themes in different degrees of supply, or not. That's why I've been saying for SO LONG now that availability of the different thematic components that comprise your consciousness determine outcomes, reactions, psychological phenomena, contrast and all that feeds into lack or nourishment. The NG stuff is backwards in process. Yes when you decode it correctly there's a valid process there that is a form of theurgy as I outlined before but NOBODY in this community is talking about that but me and approaching this subject from that angle will have people doubt and question because the paradigm of mental reprogramming is being torn down and that in itself is resistance I have to break through. There's layers and layers of false paradigms that exist around this idea and breaking that down in a meaningful way on cam isn't something that can just be done. Try as I might to develop a simplified method to explain all this stuff I just can't do it. I swear I can't even through all the work I've done here and behind the scenes.

How do you condense down the phrase "how to enter the state of the wish fulfilled" in a way that won't cause alarms to go off? I'd say "expose yourself to your higher nature on a regular basis and sink deeper into that challenge of actually BEING in that role". That could also be simplified by saying "overlapping states", If you're there and you're doing what I said saying "I'm way past this" which is one I use a LOT and see big shifts with then you'll feel the current move through your body like zaps IF you've got capacity available for that. I've had clients lately tell me that after giving this method out to them they're having spontaneous releases of trash over the day and in dreams just like I had. Gazing can do that too but I find that if you're heavily stuck then that likely won't be the thing that helps get you over the line in a quick manner, even with as powerful as gazing is. Often it involves facing stuff physically to get momentum going. Exposure to higher order processes is overlapping states and that's the only way that you clear the lower base substances to make them suitable vessels to contain more of the higher order nature to move through you at baseline. The higher genius needs us to descend into and without that vessel being capacitive to make that happen (which is why we exist) then we've got no chance of getting anywhere. The alchemist told me in a recent talk that we're basically like puppets of the higher genius and have no real influence over anything in our lives. Anything that happens to us is allowed by higher genius and if higher genius WANTS to then it will literally force your consciousness to face trash because it's tired of waiting for you to go through the pressure. He also said that the only reason that your consciousness exists is because you're used as a tool by higher genius to get it's work done. You don't exist separate from higher genius, it created you, and you should be grateful to your God that you exist at all and have this opportunity. That's partly what praise love gratitude and such are about under the context of targeting higher genius. That's also theurgy too on some levels. So he basically said that we exist to serve higher genius, not the other way around. All this "cocreator" idea is misinterpreted ideas about suggestion and requesting higher genius to manifest things in your life because really that's how any seeming magic happens. The alchemist literally said that we have next to no personal power. It's all coming from higher natures that have COMPASSION for us. Without that "ruthless compassion" of the dark mother as the alchemist calls it then you'd have no way of manifesting. It's all facilitated by those intelligences, but when you form relationships with them through performing the overlap as I said then you'll become MORE OF THEM instead of them being just "higher levels" of your capacity. Instead of looking up at them you stand with them because they're functionally still part of your psyche.

This is once again why I go after NG in many ways because his methods are really narrow and lacking in depth. Nobody has the guts to say it but it's there. I heard the alchemist talking about how most of what he taught was totally useless to most people because they didn't know what to do with it. Yeah exactly. That's what all this mentalism stuff is. People thinking that mentally thinking stuff makes overlap happen when it can't. That's the issue. I simply need to teach more overlapping of states and screw trying to fit what I say into what NG says. Why can't we just move on and get real and stop holding onto this "you need to explain NG' stuff. I've already done enough of that what more needs to be done. I don't need to study anything more of what he said really because there's not much more he can add to the discussion that will be of more value than what we already know.

The feeling is the secret means the feeling of availability of vitality that comes through cultivating and focusing that on necessary directions of pressure to "do" theurgy and thus overlap states to clean the trash in the WAY OF BELIEF. This is why over and over and over you can feel hyped up and on top of the world where you say you don't feel resistance and yet nothing manifests when that temporary high dies down. Why? Because you just depleted your vitality to unnecessarily feel high and delude yourself into thinking that emotionally high states are in fact "the feeling" aka the secret. The feeling is being beyond the trash which comes through feeling the availability. It's body sensation, which is lower yin, and on top of that you have the intuitive knowing that washes over you when that pressure is released correctly. That's what he taught. PERIOD. The unconscious mind is cleared through exposure to divine light and that feeling of being cleaned out is the so called feeling and sticking with that until you've gone all the way to the point of satisfaction is the relief and signifies the cleaning is done from that illuminating experience. That intuitive knowing washes over you, so "planting the seed" is realizing that capacity within you for that natural striving and just fulfilling it by exposing yourself to the light which basically just activates what was already there as now belief is available. "How do I get over my feelings" people will ask. Well simply expose yourself to already being beyond the trash AKA put yourself into experiences of pressure to OWN THE RESPONSIBILITY OF BEING IN THAT ROLE. That's really how you initiate the so called feeling and it WILL be somatic in your unconscious and it WILL be spontaneous when it releases.

When you have sufficiently cultivated vitality to a point where it can spill over then you've got the capacity to make it happen.

28/7/25

Exposing yourself to divinity reveals the not self conditioning for what it is. That's the only reliable point of comparison. How do you gain infinite vitality? Become proportionate to greater process. Be witnessed by God face to face. Die to the trash and you'll feel God.

31/7/25

Wow it's almost August.

Suggestion x comfort = efficiency of manifestation. This is my old formula of the simple idea that concept x sense of self = manifestation but more refined in how we experience those things. The clarity of the suggestion x the degree of comfort with such thing is really what determines outcomes. Concept is already there and so really all we need to do is clearly define what that would be like to have that fulfilled in our lives. This can be explained more practically with ideas such as pathway leading. Next part is comfort or sense of self. If you feel worthy and deserving and whatnot of having the thing then you'll not think twice about it because you've got experience with such themes of experience already and so that concept will be comfortable to you. You won't think twice or hesitate, not to any debilitating degree at least. You don't think twice before talking to close friends but this SP you're looking to manifest causes all kinds of anxiety. They're the supply for you, thus they seem bigger than you are in "worth" meaning you feel like it's uneven playing ground to be with that person. How would someone become comfortable in this case? Well what almost everyone in the LOA space tells you to do is wasting your vitality that's for sure. Focusing on imagining the person saying what you want harder and harder is unlikely to yield outcomes that are consistently satisfying in what shows up if anything at all shows up differently.

How would I suggest we manifest an SP that's way out of your league? Well I've been here myself, as in I was almost at the bottom of the barrel and had multiple people show up right outside my door as crazy as that sounds. Thing is this happened during my tech fast that I was on for about 3 months. What happened was simply that I was expanding my available vitality but not depleting it needlessly and I made decisions on the regular every day that I KNEW I needed to make. How did I know this? Because partaking in compromise patterns caused it in the first place. Obviously. Common sense dammit common freaking sense! If you KNOW something is NOT beneficial for your vitality YOU CUT IT OUT! Regardless we should be simply making decisions FROM the version of you who's in the end, AKA that more self respective degree of function and not dysfunction that you'd otherwise be operating from. The more functional you WOULD be living likely VERY differently. How do you get to that point where you CAN make those decisions? Slingshot effect is the way most people experience this where vast contrast comes up through the natural dip cycle that happens when enough compromise is reached and the only way forward is revealed. I manifested an SP overnight when I was EXTREMELY mad at myself for buying into compromise patterns and while recognizing them for what they were I broke them down and didn't allow them to cloud my perception of self in that place. I broke the conditions while they were obviously visible to me. This is actually what most people who correctly imaging being in their end scene will also be doing. They'll be feeling through the trash in the way if it's there. This is HOW you clear the unconscious trash out of the way. You MUST overlap conscious and unconscious mind to FEEL it and while under that pressure to compromise from the conditioning you'll use your resistance breaking phrase such as "I'm way past this" or something and feel through it making the purifying illuminating starlight burn out the trash while you're in that uncomfortable transition phase.

It looks like this in my case. I'll use my past experience as the example here. What I did was imagine her with me RIGHT NOW in the room and I'd then have the doubts and conditions I'd have held onto for years come up automatically. Now keep in mind I was already really mad so they were consciously available as the pressure was intense under that contrast of the dip cycle those who don't have this and are in a pseudo satisfaction bubble will likely not have these doubts show up which is usually what happens when people watch the LOA vids out there which give you pseudo satisfaction and put you in this "I am God" bubble thinking you can control things when in reality as soon as things get REAL you'll FEEL very VERY uncomfortable and NOT feel powerful at all. You know what I mean. I've spoken to SO MANY people now who tell me this same thing happens to them too. They might even do a guided meditation or something and feel all empowered in that place temporarily but as soon as they get into their regular cycles again that confidence runs away. How does this happen? It means that you're deliberately avoiding the unconscious trash and avoiding responsibility for the necessary time spent overlapping that with your conscious mind to reveal and process it. Purifying starlight CANNOT reveal it until you're ripe enough to have it revealed and to accelerate that ripeness you MUST WILLINGLY face it, even though you don't WANT to but that is how it's done. You'll be forced to face it during the peak dip cycle that you face and you know what I mean, when all the false assumptions and bubbles you built pop and you're left standing naked on the stage of life exposed for all to see where those dysfunctions are unable to hide from. Willingly putting yourself into that place on the regular and living with this functional mechanism of overlapping those states in mind as how you make decisions then you're going to make 100x more progress than the person who listens to the pseudo satisfaction false empowerment stuff that only leads you into self delusion and temporary peak cycles that will always end up crashing harder in the end. You've been through that so you know what I mean. Considering NG utterly failed to explain how to manifest correctly in any meaningful and useful way we've all got different interpretations on what he said thinking we have the truth but in reality none actually recognize what he's talking about. Why? Let's not get into that now.

Back to the point. What I did was have those limited beliefs revealed consciously. I imagined her being here with me right here right now and all the conditions that arose to say no I can't because of X reason or whatever else I felt and contrasted with the version of me who is past that. This is why I naturally tell myself "I'm way past this now" as though I'm talking to the conditions and disempowering them placing myself on the pedestal. This isn't in a parasitic way of wanting to be some sort of narcissist but simply to accept natural striving and reveal dysfunction for what it is. You see it for what it is by not denying it's existence in your psyche. You recognize it's a condition and you treat it as such, as just a compromise pattern that no longer serves you and you cut those ties and burn the bridge forever. That's how this works. You have the aim, with me I wanted the SP with me NOW. What did I do to get that under pressure? I firstly had to feel sufficient pressure which arose from the dip cycle and put me in the slingshot effect where I could only see what I wanted and that the conditions were no longer relevant because I was so done with the compromise I hated it with a blazing passion. I allowed myself to feel all of it. I didn't run from anything I was feeling. That's #1 importance. You do NOT deny feelings. They're being revealed for a function, though it will always depend on baseline pressure you're feeling which depends on either baseline vitality and nourishment to feed that contrast and availability of illuminating starlight or it will depend on the slingshot effect form the dip cycle to make those conditions conscious. If those conditions aren't conscious and you go on a pseudo self empowerment spree you're going to be deluding yourself because you're not actually overlapping states in any meaningful way that's purifying. While you're in that place it's very easy to want to buy into the pseudo satisfaction and empowerment feelings that you can do anything and you can even imagine them being with you for real through obviously when that temporary feeling wears off you'll feel the lack surface once again which only signifies you never really shifted anything. Remember NG said your reactions (and actions) determine your outcomes. If you still react negatively and feel lack and default to the narrow tunnel vision view of the lack then you KNOW that the positive seeming state did nothing. That's because feeling good should come as a result, not as the initiating cause. We know this deep down but don't want to accept that of course because of "pop manifesting culture" if we'd call it that and the ignorant spew that NG threw out saying that feeling blissed out manifests stuff. "I am blissfully married". What a load of trash. If you're clear then yeah you deserve it but most people aren't there.

So with the basics there out of the way of clearing unconscious trash and overlapping states we know now how to actually work with the bulk of the limits on our manifestations. Living to consistently overlap unconscious resistance using any and all means available physical or not is how we elevate our sense of self. All the critics of RS will be forced to eat their words when this process is fully proven and the pop LOA trash gets burned to the ground and the ashes scattered in the wind. Screw all that trash man I can't stand any of it I will eradicate this LOA nonsense off the face of the earth no matter what I have to do. I will make that happen. I will NOT hold a shred of mercy. This is CLEAR AS DAY.

Who else can CLEARLY answer the question "how to" dissolve resistance? All I ever hear are the usual copy paste replies because people haven't actually gone through the critical thinking to figure it out for themselves. The reality of the experience as I use to say is what generates shifts in the psyche comes out of the above process. You feel through it. All these Dawkins buffs love to repeat the same old nonsense that doesn't actually describe the mechanisms at play when it comes to clearing unconscious trash. They tell you to "sit with your negative feeling" as though that's actually doing anything of value. I did that and yeah it helps way more than the other side of what the pop LOA buffs preach about feeling empowered in a vacuum without actually overlapping the unconscious trash in a meaningful way. The thing is about the Dawkins stuff is that he and everyone else it seems approaches this from the perspective of how just feeling and witnessing resistance and the uncomfortable stuff in a vacuum is how it's done. NONSENSE. It CAN be useful but I find to be a very inefficient way. The efficient way is what I've been saying for ages. You cultivate vitality AKA a supply of illuminating pressure that's available to you and when that moment of sufficient clarity arises where the pressure to compromise is felt under the context of looking to move through to a direction of natural striving but still wanting to compromise and avoid that part of you that's oriented to fulfil that, unless that part of you while under pressure is accepted as the implication and meaning that this resistance is overlaying and generating the false expectation to be someone you're not, unless that's felt and fully accepted ("the acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled" as NG said to define the "feeling") then you're not ACTUALLY shifting anything other than crumbs.

There's a certain intensity that's required for this to work, and affirmations I believe when done correctly to inspire you to move into the direction of aim is a VERY powerful tool to use and most people do it automatically when they have breakthroughs anyway. I do not know why we would avoid the obvious when the obvious is being yourself even though along the way you're going to feel all kinds of negative stuff. Most people aren't at the level where they're clear enough to be able to interface with the suggestion in clarity because there's trash in the way of a clear link to the higher genius to suggest to and thus we feel that trash come up when we attempt to do so. The alchemist literally says that there's a personification he calls "the guardian" that exists literally as one of the most powerful beings in existence ever who's entire job is to scare you away from your truth and keep you in the box until you're literally "mature" AKA ripe enough to break out of the box. The moment that you're "ready" is the moment you decide to be done with it, though saying that any moment can be that way is in my opinion disingenuous. You can TECHNICALLY do that at any time though pressure needs to be felt to break that box. You will feel a subtle sense to want to but it will not be powerful enough. It's only when you get sick of the same trash coming up over and over that you finally decide that enough is enough. That's when you've reached the point of sufficient pressure and available nourishment and vitality available or you've reached a powerful slingshot phase where you've likely hit a bottom you don't want to feel again and often you'll have pathways lead in a very negative direction for that to happen. If you actually bring up all the trash you're compromise on in your life and use that pressure to slingshot you forward you'd actually make big progress. The stuff you'd avoid or not consciously recognize or feel importance over will become important when you surround your pathways and greater context with it. This is how you'd naturally end up slingshot ting yourself, or if nourishing current is sufficiently available to you (which I'm going to once again argue is a function of nervous system and endocrine function if we want to measure it as directly as possible) then you'll reach a spontaneous realization of these things being necessary to break, or you'll naturally just have a shift in attitude that spills over as a function of that nourishing current working its magic and overflowing to illuminate higher order functions that lead you to shifting past the resistance without necessarily going through the same intense feeling as you'd otherwise feel but that's still something I'm not well versed in so take that with a grain of salt. It makes sense theoretically but my personal experience with this and stories I've heard are limited. As with all things I mark as such please do not take as seriously as you'd otherwise do with what I say.

These functions of building pressure AKA either baseline availability of illuminating current or having that pressure come up through slingshot effect, these are the ways that we actually get over our trash. NG failed to explain this. NG utterly failed and I hold ZERO respect for such a lacking perspective on how to practically get over your trash and manifest. His perception on this is not one I take very serious because of obvious reasons and his work is WAY overblown in terms of importance when it comes to practically applying this. There's useful bits in there but how he wrote was very personally based in how HE experienced it. He didn't write "how to" for everybody. That's not what his work is for, and anyone who says otherwise is wrong. Period. Those who are in tune with their feelings and sense of self and direction of orientation they're being moved to view through desire will know how to use his methods, or those who are already clear, but if anyone gaslights you into thinking you're doing his methods wrong like imaginal SATS at night like he says to do at the end of most of his lectures, tell them to get schooled on how things actually work. What I've outlined here is how things function and if you apply this you'll know for real. If you find that applying this causes friends family work opportunities and all kinds of other stuff to respond unfavorably then good continue to go harder and allow them to react accordingly. This is how you're going to be perceived when you RADICALLY shift sense of self and cut out the trash that's causing you to compromise and stay hard blocked in an identification that doesn't serve your immorality. LET IT ALL BURN! Don't hold back, allow the old world to burn down and fall away around you, even if it hurts. Allow that to happen. I had to deal with this myself but looking back I was glad I didn't hold mercy. You will feel that same thing happen when you apply this most likely if you're heavily compromised. I speak from such an immense amount of experience having lived on both ends of the spectrum so I can communicate how it works to you as well as all the in between questions and what ifs. Allow yourself to let your entire paradigm burn down forever, See the compromise for what it is, allow all those unconscious programs to surface and cut them out. Make those decisions that become obvious under pressure. Emotional clarity is a part of the process, and anyone telling you that physically based decisions under pressure aren't manifesting are once again incorrect because you're owning the sense of self of you who's in the end by doing this. THAT'S THE VERY THING YOU'RE NOT DOING! Duh. When you begin to actually break patterns and boxes you KNOW don't serve you then you're really cooking with gas. No compromise. That's how you value your vitality and go all the way.

The secret is to feel all the trash and allow it to be with you while you don't let it control you because that's revealing the dysfunction for what it is and by going through it then all you're doing is making the clear decisions to whatever capacity you have available to you (sometimes no actions are needed) and that's you moving beyond the false expectations to be someone you're not. THAT IS "BEING" YOURSELF! These magically minded fools allllllllways talk about "just be" as though you can fake it but you KNOW that faking it isn't the magic trick because you've tried it and all you get is dip cycles and signs at best. Why do we need to feel our trash? Because it's OVERLAPPING STATES! DUHHHHHHHHH??

Remember. Explosiveness. Spontaneity,

Why the heck should we be humble in a market filled with scammers who only do this for money. Obviously. There are some genuine coaches out there who are trying their best but they're genuinely few and far between. The appearances on the outside don't tell the whole story. Here you get fully transparency about all my failures and you learn along the way with me.

How do you activate purifying starlight? Face the light. Be yourself. no matter the darkness that tries to pull you in. That's manifesting. Clear the trash and be clear. All these fools who say "all you need to be is clear" when the unconscious resistance that is literally anchored into your psyche holds back naturalness as a function OF having clarity. Clarity results IN naturalness. You CANNOT fake naturalness, because if it was a real experience being in the end you'd FEEL THE LACK because it would imply that those binds are broken which is why you're still stuck. The more you actually VISCERALLY put yourself in the end the more you'll expose yourself to starlight. Starlight illuminates our trash most viscerally under the reality of experience be it physical or otherwise.

1/8/25

The peak dip cycle is your best friend. Another client SP success. He got invited over and they had fun and things are continuing to progress. He willingly faced the trash and it paid off. This feels "normal" and he manifested literal spiritual communication with her and had her in his dreams and he felt her physically touching him even though she wasn't there. None of this was him imagining it came through him. Proof that willingly facing your trash works. The harder you go at overlapping states and the more agonizing pain you feel now the more vitality you will cultivate long term. Willingly facing all that trash you've buried and all those skeletons in your closet you're hiding from is the answer to stabilizing the state as to stabilize a state you MUST dissolve the trash in the way of that clear signal. The reason why we call it unconscious resistance is because it's UNCONSCIOUS. Until it's surfaced and felt in the correct ways and the conditions fulfilled (as I've said for years now) then you'll never do what NG said. EVER! This IS the damn work and I WILL eradicate anything to the contrary I've seen it work too many times not to be the reality of manifesting. The fact that NG hid this VERY important realty from us and danced around it with magical ideas needs to be exposed and revealed for what it is, half truths.

Man I feel ruthless today. Bloodthirsty. Rip them to shreds. The more success I have the more I feel that. Finding some damn visual explanations is the thing I need. They just don't come.

What do you want? What do you want to move into? Who do you want to grow into being? I don't care about the self/not self idea under this context lets just say it's all refined for this example. What do you want? What's regularly coming up in the way? Imagine that this thing no matter matters to you and you're past it. There. That's NG SATS in a nutshell. That's "what would it feel like if you were already the person you want to be" except something that makes more sense practically speaking because until the unconscious has been made conscious nothing can change. He never told you that but it matters for consistent outcomes that are satisfying because you can only be satisfied when you've spent your energy correctly. Until you've actually spent your energy correctly then you can't move forward with natural striving and you'll forever be stuck in the same cycles. You're stuck in that cycle for a reason, it's there to reveal your trash but you're not actually learning from it. The NG stuff works way better when you've recognized that the uncomfortable feelings are the secret because they're the experience of purifying starlight illuminating your trash. Without feeling through them nothing changes. How could it? Why would it? It can't. CAN'T! Overlapping states is NECESSARY. That's the functional alchemical process that exists within all of us and none of us are exempt from this.

NG took this and marketed it in such a way that's avoiding any hint at necessary transformation even though it's built into the methods but he never talks about it. It's there, but he never talked about it because it would be the end of his magical career. That happened with "the promise" as he called it when he lost most of his audience at the time an drank himself to death. He wasn't having fun in this world. obviously. He said the only reason he was here is to share his experiences with the so called promise and that's it. What does that tell you? He was never in this for the facts about how things worked about the law else he'd use actually useful language because for someone stuck in the dips what he says doesn't hit home. It just doesn't and we know that but can't stop censoring ourselves cuz of the cult of NG mentalism magic. Trash. That's what RS exists to destroy once and for all.

Advanced view of this is how the different thematic components or archetypal powers we interact with become integrated bit by bit with basically become power we can wield. This is how we suggest with clarity and have established connections to those powers that we all have capacity to realize. This is the functional mechanism of manifestation, Once again NG never talked about this in any useful language, which is just how he spoke, but saying that his work is the top game and example to compare to is just plain ignorance. His work is not the top and is very difficult to actually decode in a way that makes sense. Took me years to recognize what's going on with his stuff when everybody and their cat seems to have their own opinions on this stuff. Why would there be so many contrasting and contradicting views on what he wrote if it's so clear and simple? Yeah "what would it feel like to be the person you desire to be now?" is the best part along with "dare to assume it" though keeping it in the psychological is the issue, because people disconnect from the means they're having shown to them and will avoid because they've been told not to lift a finger. Now you should see all the numerous issues with how he presents it and the overarching cosmology surrounding it which kind of tells you the types of people who buy into that. It tells you that most of these people likely aren't very physically based when it comes to visceral reality and don't find value in the world like NG did, else why did he say what he did post promise and drink himself to death despite obviously knowing what it's doing to him from his doctor visits and cirrhosis. Obviously anyone can connect those dots and see the clear truth.

Here's what I want you to do. Hyper focus on what you want. Don't worry about the trash people say about attachments and whatnot, we're going to allow natural striving to guide us. You're not going to focus on it exclusively when it comes to thinking of but from, and from is the secret and from means to bring up greater context and unconscious trash. Thinking from under pressure is purifying in itself, and that should drive you to WANT to break boxes and physically live the visceral nature of reality that's beyond the limits and break all the trash you've been buying into unconsciously. Seeing yourself as already way beyond it is necessary because you'll eventually see yourself there anyway naturally. Having this focus is the key. It's not a mental focus and not an unnecessary stimulus but a focus on bringing up greater context under pressure and moving through where that's driving you and cycling through this. How do you manifest the fastest? That's how. The harder you go with feeling through the trash, both internally and in visceral experience physically where necessary you'll blitz resistance so fast. I've already proven this many time now and I've seen it happen. You have to target the correct limits that thematically relate as the contrast to naturalness. Allowing that to surface and facing the trash and allowing yourself to feel whatever is necessary is doing the work. Making the unconscious conscious. You'll end up reacting differently because you're processing the roots which cause underlying reactions in your unconscious meaning your state shifted according to NG as he himself said your reactions determine the state you live in. When you find yourself living a different life reacting differently and feeling normal to things that were previously uncomfortable then you know you've done the work. Until you get there you're still holding onto contrast that's unconscious and thus the work is involving placing your psyche into states of such exposure to bring it out of you and transform it. This IS targeted work like therapy but in a different more self driven and applied manner. As soon as you feel that pressure fading you bring it back up and face the compromise and anchor yourself into the end, as in living FROM the sense of self of beyond the current limits. Living in the end is looking back at your success that's already built into the state AKA view orientation being wider and with more experience already had of facing the pressure., You're placing yourself into the position of targeting the person who's already gone through the purification, but at the same time that in itself must necessitate that your psyche would be cleaned to anchor that state. Naturally NG never talked about this of course. Wonder why? Didn't want to market such an idea, so we all basically speak of manifesting as PC (politically correct) ideas that aren't going to hurt anyone's feelings. As soon as you bring in the necessity to face unconscious trash (which is how you reestablish connection to infinite supply when you've disconnected ass you grow up) then it's run for the hills and find someone who can validate the trash and keep you in the box with the pseudo satisfaction. Clearly outlined yeah?

Just looping the same stuff again no real new insights as usual. Good entry though,

Business matters from here.

The themes of combat between contrasting views exists in reality for a function. Expansion requires struggle, natural struggle, guided by greater process. Natural striving exists within us all. What do you want is asking the question of where is natural striving actually leading me currently in this moment. This is more or less conceptual. What would it feel like to be there is moving through the unconscious feeling based level to process and transform the psyche through illuminating starlight and that in itself is moving into the infinite supply to more clearly establish a more elevated baseline of availability to feel like you already have it.

Can you please tell me how this insight is too complex to understand? If I came out and said that you'd get the usual childish replies of "this is too complex" or whatever because people have tiktok brain and mindlessly watch LOA trash to cope with their sucky lives. No wonder few comprehend it.. That's your issue not mine. This is why I say if I just laid out the facts people wouldn't recognize the deepest insights for what they are or will just downplay the depth to say I'm complicating what NG said and yet they themselves cannot define the process that he outlined in a meaningful way that applies under different contexts and cases. You can't coach someone using NG in a vacuum. Psychological work devoid of visceral experience is useless in my experience. Been there done that. This isn't to say that you CAN'T get outcomes that way which will eventually lead to that but in my experience and with all the work I've done here to make the case I don't see how avoiding that level of experience is useful when it's only another opportunity we have to make decisions out of our correct nature instead of our unconscious trash.

Say someone is feeling like they need to avoid taking gifts because they're not worth it from past experiences of being attacked as a child for receiving gifts from someone and it traumatized them. When they're conscious of this and they're offered a gift, they should feel through the pressure to avoid accepting it and just accept it and learn that it's not something that's actually a threat to them. Manifest receiving gifts instead of trying to manifest the compromise pattern overlay false expectation of you having more skills to get these things for yourself when you don't need to all the time. This is why coaching especially over email is so challenging because until someone KNOWS what their unconscious trash is and understands it on some level then giving specific guided processes isn't always easy. Why? Because if someone tells me they want more skills and such to make their lives better that may come from a perspective that they're not good enough and need to be bigger and better.

Been there done that, as I spoke about early on. That partly shaped how RS was created, for better or worse. I built this to destroy everybody else around me who said I couldn't and thus I went in the other end of instead of compromising on my value I went hardcore in so utterly tearing any and all opposition to what I've done to shreds that nothing could stand against me again to say I'm not worthy. That was what I lived from, and it wasn't fully satisfying despite actually getting the work done accordingly. As you can see things aren't as simple as they seem in coaching land and these influencers have no idea how to handle cases of such nature and are ill qualified for such roles especially when charging such insanely large amounts of money for their services just to send some affirmations. What a load of trash, This is why the LOA space needs actual competition though marketing in a space filled with children about a challenging cosmology over the lovey dovey "Isn't it wonderful" cosmology is the challenge. Though you'll find the more people actually dive into the underworld journey the more they'll begin to make progress instead of avoiding it. This isn't about struggle for the sake of struggle in a needless way this is actually about being as efficient and fast as we can in the purifying process. It's facing necessary pressure in a deliberate and targeted manner to dissolve contrast barriers preventing naturalness. Some of the stories I got from this client who I've been working with for some time now has been very wild. Spontaneous insights are very common AFTER you've gone through the trash all the way and it was after I simply told them to see themselves being SEEN with their SP around friends and family and whatnot in a very real and visceral manner. They did the work to dissolve the unconscious stuff and thus overlap states and to a more advanced view you're integrating within specific archetypal thematic components that exist as deeper personifications of the elements that literally comprise regality and your consciousness,

Growing up avoiding pressure means you don't develop the same degree of literal and metaphysical power. People develop these overlays of false expectations which represent the conditioning levels we have to reveal and transform by going through them meaning fulfilling the conditions we don't feel safe to accept into our lives that we have natural striving to accept. That's how you make something that's uncomfortable comfortable. When you've made what's uncomfortable comfortable you've made what's unconscious conscious, though there's always degrees with this of course. It's not a black or white thing. If I have coaching with someone and they tell me that they want an SP I immediately assume they're not going to get that person. You may think this is a bad thing but a vast majority of the time successes happen with people who are LIKE the other person but aren't them and I see this as a win and the reason why is because that new person is functional to the level that the client is now at unlike before. Someone who's dysfunctional accepts dysfunction into their lives because they too hold false expectations to some levels as well. Only about 15% of people TOPS get a SPECIFIC PERSON into their lives, and I'll say 3% really have an easy time with that from all the data I've been through and client experiences I've had access to understanding. It's a foolish pursuit to chase after a truly SPECIFIC PERSON instead of a template of what satisfies you. You can get someone who looks like them and talks and has the same interests and whatnot but has a more functional psyche. This is most of the time why you'll find someone who's doing this work will lose desire for their old person they wanted to some levels and will WANT to move on. Very common thread. They'll not desire the person as much because of the shift in function vs dysfunctional psyche that's shifted between where they were vs are and how that dynamic in what they find attractive shifts. What we find attractive shifts depending on the function of our psyche, and I'm not just talking physically because men obviously go after the most attractive girls lets not kid ourselves that's how we function but I'm talking about the way the girl treats us and if we put up with that or not. You can still physically like someone but their psyche is dysfunctional and you'll feel that and be repulsed by them despite having 10/10 looks. I've had that myself, in fact there was this 11/10 girl in school who was literally the perfect type for me in EVERY WAY physically to such a precise level I can't even describe, though her attitude towards life was NOT what I wanted and being with her was something that made me uncomfortable. At that point even though I had all kinds of physical issues myself when it comes to appearance if we're being real here I still attracted literally anyone I wanted, likely because of the work I did with gazing and such because I swear the girls could FEEL that light coming from me because they'd come up and give me hugs and touches and stuff ALL THE TIME and call me pet names and stuff like babes and whatnot WITHOUT KNOWING ANYTHING ABOUT ME PERSONALLY. Like it was obvious flirty playful attitude and yet I felt within me that I still wasn't fully worthy and this also proved to me that there's way more to this than just psychological attitude.

I don't' talk about this much but the light that you can contain in your being is what I believe underlying is the most attractive thing to women above ALL ELSE. I know that people will tell you certain physiques and psyche traits determine attraction but in my experience pulling multiple 10/10's in my time (something I'm not proud of to be honest but they were literally throwing themselves at me so what was I suppose to do) it's all about the inner light. That light despite holding certain limits on it still is enough to draw the female gaze. It's the way for them to us too, though less so. We contain high capacity for more light, I believe, but that light also can vanish very quickly. Men can rise and fall easier, women are more stable with this sense in terms of attraction form men. It's more or less that the more light a man can contain (seed retention is one method but I'll argue the idea of RS is dumb because all my experiments tell me it's nervous system and endocrine function reflecting the boost in kidney and heart qi above the actual "retention" itself) the more attractive he will be DESPITE physical imperfections like I KNOW I had. I had TERRIBLE skin and a messed jaw and I was NOT tall compared to most others at the time and all that physique stuff people rave about NEVER came up as something they liked about me. Most of the time girls saw me as attractive because of my gaze and attitude, meaning they must've seen a projection they had of me to fulfil something they wanted within them. That's how attraction usually works anyway, especially from women to men. It's almost always the physical IMPLIES the psychological psyche stuff and they feel and assume stuff about you based on that and patterns you show. Your degree of leadership and stuff isn't even the most important either, despite what we're told. Ultimately it's that you fulfil their projections. Let's just be real here that's how this works and we know that but think we can gamify relationship attraction stuff when that's not how this works. Your light becomes their supply to fulfil their projections, unless their psyche is well functional and you end up with someone who's not projecting and they're not going to pay those flirty games to suck you into their space and then claim you as theirs because that's usually the goal. They want to be the most appealing to you so they appear in a way that they believe you'll want, thus the bonds form in the beginning and things get intense. Then things burn out because the games end and people are seen for who they are under the games where it's not so pretty and things end very fast, This light is both a blessing and a curse, because it will draw in anyone and everyone, but as I was younger and didn't have experience or understanding properly about how these things work you jump into whatever you can get because it's fun and games at that level, despite me telling myself I'd not engage in such but I still did anyway. I mean if we're totally real that's how this usually is because we're enamored by the possibility and the excitement. Thing is I never actually experienced what a long lasting fulfilling relationship is like until just a few years ago when I figured out my own relationship trash for good and transformed my limits. I was able to get into experiences with girls easy and get them talking and asking me out and I could get numbers easy just from casually asking to walk with at shops and on trails and have chats and stuff about issues with the system we live in (most agree with where we're all suffering under it so no surprise there really) and like that kind of common sense stuff to spend time in each others field without getting too involved (obviously not what most creeps do who hold MASSIVE projections and expectations on how the girl should respond to them) and thus the connection builds over time where they'll actually WANT to then ask out or trade numbers and stuff. Sometimes I got numbers and never heard back even though they asked but I'd say half the time it carried over into "I want to show you something at my place" or such simple kinds of excuses to have private time. Surprisingly they never were really outright saying "let's spend private time together" even though that was the goal obviously. I did have some that were up front but honestly it was kind of off-putting even if I liked them. It's almost like there's a certain comfort in gamifying interactions to some levels for both parties until full comfort is established, almost to ease the pressure of accepting what we actually want. I believe that we'd be able to clearly state intentions while still leaving cards on the table if we ere clear and without resistance to accepting such, but you'd also be surprised how many dream of having someone come out and say what they want them to say about "I want to be with you forever you're my hero!" or whatever fantasy it is but when it happens for real it's much different than you imagine if it's coming from compromise patterns. That's why I say that even if you get what you desire often it's not really satisfying like you thought it would be. I also believe that when you're younger the first experiences of playing flirty games get old soon and they stop trying that stuff. I just let my aura speak, but if you don't have that light then they won't want you because there's nothing for them to interact with, Physical in person interactions are 10x more fulfilling than any of this online trash. There needs to be field to field contact. Without that there's no way of KNOWING the person.

Let me say this. Relationship experiences like this mirror theurgy processes of the yin getting overlapped with yang. If the yang isn't powerful then yin doesn't get cleaned. The divine yang or higher order yang moves through greater yin into lower yin. The divine feminine is the one who "oversees" (to use the terms the alchemist does on this idea) the degree of purifying light that greater yang lets in through your psyche to clean the trash,

I strongly believe that when you do the work I'm discussing you will replicate this universal alchemical function microcosmically as that's all that really exists. You mediate higher order functions of consciousness and thematic elements into all aspects of your reality IF they're a part of you. Now the interesting thing I've gained an insight from through the experiences my client has is that he's actually revived contact from atoner girl he had a VERY VERY powerful sexually related scene (I told him NOT to engage in this personally because of the depleting nature of such) come through his mind like flashes of spontaneous open eye visualization with her even though he wasn't thinking about her. I believe that his idea about this being THEM having visuals about you and that since you're so clear and connected to that higher feminine nature (because he's been doing advanced gazing with booster regularly for a few months now) and it's given him the ability to receive these things from their consciousness and the alchemist said that you decide who you let in with intent. If he desired this girl (a different one than this example of who contacted him above) and was open to her as he did say he was on some levels then it would make sense that there was interaction. It's interesting that despite this girl not even being close to him as he said she lives in a way different city she's still reaching out after literally years of no contact all of a sudden once he went all the way into being seen with his SP as I said he should imagine fully and feel through the trash. He said he felt the "explosion" and that all of a sudden these intense visualizations with his eyes open and physical sensations of this girl touching him randomly over the day and like seeing her waking up in bed with him in the morning even though she's not there. All of this implies there's connection between their subconscious levels. This also makes me believe that manifestations that "come through you" are possibly also functions of others psyche interacting with you that you believe are your own thoughts because the alchemist during my last private session with him in the order told me that you CAN in fact implant thoughts in other peoples unconscious and that will often be displayed as images and other sensory stuff. A recent client I spoke to who's at a VERY high level told me this that he was able to literally manipulate people like puppets by doing a method I won't mention here. The alchemist said that's absolutely a valid way of controlling people as well. I'm not going to teach that to anyone who I don't deem ready for such but it's a method. Personally I haven't tested this much but I've seen enough confirmation already from client stories and the alchemical mechanics of this method.

My point of all this relationship and attraction stuff is simple. When you're well expanded in subconscious capacity it's almost certain that your light will be powerful, especially if you're younger like 24 or younger I'd say. You'll have basically infinite light if you do regular gazing and targeted work like I've mentioned today. So all in all, when you're going through resistance FOR REAL instead of playing this STUPID games that LOA plays thinking you can emotionally hype yourself up to manifest stuff or do it with a zero effort affirmation method or whatever the trash is they suggest, whatever that is it obviously isn't going to work. What I've said WORKS because most clients who STICK TO THIS get results 100% guaranteed. I'll alto be transparent and say that many clients who hear about what I suggest they go through in coaching don't actually do what I say and thus don't get results. The ones who stick with me for a while and work with what I say to work with get outcomes. I can't just give you a one and done fix but I can lead you through the underworld journey to the point where you can end up like these people I'm talking about here who can control anyone like puppets basically. That's not saying that's the goal but that's the capacity you can realize even if you're holding onto massive resistance like the client story above who had a LOT of very intense negative feelings that took a while to go through. I prescribed specific qigong sets and he said it helped A LOT which ties into my studies of the elements and their relationship to different parts of our psyche. There's layers and layers of this stuff. You will NOT reach roots first up, though my pathway revision method will take you as deep as is available to you currently. Doing pathway revision for core resistances on a specific theme (even if it's unrelated) is VERY likely going to result in massive shifts in how your SP will approach you in life because of how you're actually housing more light and nourishing yourself correctly and spending energy right.

Man I want to absolutely tear these MORONS in this space to shreds. These ignorant fools who KNOW their stuff doesn't work, they NEED competition and I've got the receipts to prove that RS works without a doubt. Years of work. Thousands of pages of study. This is the real deal.

I will close with this. Most men in the west especially are weak children who have no light. The light of the men drive women to get pulled into line because they're the example of what's available if THEY level up. Beautiful women can inspire men to pull themselves into line, if we're honest and real, among other things, but it's that there needs to be an example of something more powerful than you in light that will make you want to level up to attain that equal level. That means that they become a supply of purifying light to some level to illuminate your lacks, and without that physically available supply that's present and visible to inspire shifts and reveal unconscious trash then good luck getting anywhere with transforming the modern western women who are going into this self empowerment trash to overcompensate for a lack of masculine power. That RAW VISCERAL yang light inspires us through illuminating the unconscious trash. We can become purifying lights for each other to some level. The Jewish filth that run this world want to snuff out that light. If you can see the obvious then we can see the problem and why we're even really in this mess collectively. I believe this is a manifestation of the natural cycle of solar to lunar level as the dominant theme of experience collectively. This means that solar level consciousness AKA the worship of higher solar intelligences such as God as most think of that idea from a religious view is going to go away and we will shift to worshipping the feminine instead, meaning men will become weaker in reflection and that's being manifest collectively through the mechanisms I've outlined over the notebook which depletes nervous and endocrine system functions among other aspects. That's a manifestation of thematic processes unfolding through the psychology of certain groups of people and their natural striving. This is all guided by God of course for functions we don't need to understand, to test us and expand our capacity through these trails. This time is harder than ever to be a satisfied man, obviously, mostly due to financial unavailability and the shift in culture and male female roles and whatnot being warped as well as the physical levels of this playing their part too. NG would never touch this for any amount of money, and in fact he supported this idea out of ignorance as I quoted in a previous lecture, or at least it could be inferred.

My point is that there are very real conditions that exist, do not deny that this is the case, but recognize that these conditions exist to facilitate a stronger expansion now than ever before. You can elevate to higher highs relative to others around you through this understanding and be the shining star that you'll get all the eyes whenever you want. This isn't about ego or whatever that's being fed from this but that you'll be living a baseline level of availability that's not difficult or struggling or lacking and unsatisfying you'll actually be available to manifest what you desire and nourish natural striving when that intuitive sense of correct orientation arises to make decisions from, That's what we must learn above all else here. We are here to expand above the rest and RS is here to provide the map to work with which holds all of your path on it for you to walk. All you need to do is walk it and live it for real. That's all. We will replace the law of assumption and the NG space will never be the same.

2/8/25

The more you do this particular kind of work, the more that the linear distinctions that we normally distinguish between states of consciousness, waking, sleeping, dreaming, lucid dreaming, etc., those boundaries begin to blur much more than they used to and so some dreams you're going to have intense combinations of things that are that that are not how you normally consciously remember dream state to be or lucid dream state to be but you have a functional existence on other levels at the same time as you're having
this existence on a level on which you're conscious so when you pop into certain kinds of lucid dreaming it can it's you but it's not necessarily the you that you're used to that exists in other etheric levels that you can end up experiencing perception through the eyes of that particular level of being it's difficult to explain but basically there's more than one level of you you're generally only conscious of this current conscious level of you that exists within the the level the ether that we call consensus reality there's
many other levels and you exist simultaneously at some degree in each of those levels so as consciousness expands in particular quirky ways that it does for each of us individually we end up having experiences that are rather like peekaboo into entirely other levels of existence that we don't normally experience and so that peekaboo thing can go on for quite a while if things will happen one time and you can't really replicate them or get to experience them again, but yet you're being shown that they exist and you have the direct experience
of it. Beginning, it seems like, oh, well, maybe that was just my imagination. But after you've been showed many, many, many of of them you realize that there is no way of continuing to put it off on your imagination anymore that it is it's not you imagining it it's you being able to retain memory of having experienced it very different so that takes getting used to because it's not entirely predictable it happens when a certain level of ripeness happens and all of a sudden you just happen to be at the perfect level of ripeness in the perfect
configuration of things to suddenly become consciously aware of being in the middle of doing something that you probably already do but normally don't consciously retain like popping into an entirely different level of reality and standing in a neighborhood like okay so that's real and then a giant runs by oh okay so those exist too. Okay. You know, like, um, those things happen.
Uh, and it's certainly not that, that happening. That was not my imagination. Um, I had no, not a thought about, Oh, I think I'll imagine a giant running by no it's not how that works well it was a lucid state it was entirely different level of existence all of the neighborhoods were absolutely perfect it was like the etheric blueprint of what a brand new neighborhood would look like it was absolutely perfect everything absolutely manicured absolutely just perfect no not a leaf blowing around on the ground not anything absolutely perfect like neighborhood so on the etheric level that's how neighborhoods
can look but because other levels other other kinds of beings exist at levels that are just adjacent but just slightly different than this one the frequency is different the vibratory rate is slightly different so when you end up popping into one of those altered frequencies levels you see things that exist there in their own right that we don't normally see here and yet they are just adjacent to the level we exist in all the time so there's all kinds of stuff going on basically in the same space but it's not exactly the same space because it's a different dimension, a different frequency within the same subsets of reality.
So that can happen in your own neighborhood or you can pop into somebody else's neighborhood. But either way, it's still a slightly different level than we normally operate in. So you just sort of get used to it after a while. And you get shown things, and of course the higher genius is in control of what you get to see and what you don't get to see.
And all those things are purposeful. They're not haphazard. They're not without reason. They are reasons that you don't really come to understand until later because they start making a picture that you don't currently have enough pieces of yet for it to make any sense.
But as you collect more pieces it begins to make a picture. The picture always has to do with directing you towards your purpose, towards what your picture of alignment looks like so you just accept the experiences and don't spend too much time trying to figure them out because the truth is you really for the most part can't really accurately figure them out from a waking state level of consciousness anyway.
In terms of archetypes specifically being related to the techniques in certain spheres, some of them are very directly connected to particular archetypes. Some of them are more loosely open, so they still relate in a more macro way than a specific way second sphere is very clearly archetypal solar lunar earth and then consciousness beyond that eventually leads to stellar as far as the cognition is concerned although in the beginning it really connects more with the idea of Saturn but that still
all connects back to the same thing that we're always talking about a banana the sons of God then yeah all that those levels that's that level is the level that's connected in second cognition so when you understand that we're taking a solar body and a lunar body an earth body and we're making them into this thing and that part of that process is basically connecting on a Saturnian level and allowing that fermentation to take in all these archetypes to take all the pieces parts and eventually make them into one thing it makes the insights of second sphere much clearer in terms of its purpose mind you I had
been practicing second sphere for 14 years before it dawned on me exactly what was built into it from the viewpoint of the theurgy level because it wasn't taught from that particular viewpoint when it was taught to me realizing the brilliance of it 14 years after the fact is a little it's kind of funny but that's how it went down so I the more I came to understand about the theurgy process, the more I came to see that was already built into ascending structure and simply never articulated.
So it's quite fascinating, but it's there. Always was there, just didn't register in my awareness for quite a while. And then when I did get it, I spent a couple weeks processing the simple fact that it had been there the whole time and somehow it didn't register in that way.
But my understanding of theurgy is much different now as well, so it makes sense. But it's interesting to have been doing something that was part of a particular thing that you were eventually meant to be doing and understanding in a much deeper way, not realizing that it had been there incorporated into what you were already doing all along and you didn't know it.
Which is basically welcome to my world because that's how it's always been. And it's not really a surprise anymore when these revelations happen it's just it's still always a surprise what was already pre woven a decade and a half before I was aware that it was there but it was so yes there are very powerful archetypal things woven into particular techniques that exist within certain of the spheres for the ascending practice.
You won't have to wait 14 years to figure that out because I just told you. So that's good. So that also means while you're doing ascending, these intuitive things are registering in your conscious awareness because there are, they are things that eventually you're going to come to, you're being led to understand on a deeper level.
You think it's you having this thought of, oh, I wonder if whatever, but the reason that thought landed in your head was because the intuition was already rising that there was in fact something there to understand the way you get it on a conscious level isn't necessarily going to be perfect but it's registering in your conscious awareness because the intuition is already rising and that intuition is connected to that same Saturnian state so the more you do the practice the more these things are going to come up.
It doesn't always mean that by the time we filter them through our conscious perception that we've got them right. In fact, that can lead to false epiphanies of many kinds, but it doesn't change the fact that the underlying impulse for all of that is literally intuition from a pure level of much higher consciousness coming to the surface. The problem is the filter.
So the clearer that filter gets and the better the understanding of the process gets, the more accurately you're able to process the intuition. Process the intuition Something else has to take over or we don't get to do the next part At some point that's a thing that has to happen The thing is is that the lower you the the the ego that? hasn't been totally purified Like doesn't like change Because it it thinks that it's going to die But the truth is it doesn't really die. It simply gets sublimated
Ego you can't ever completely get rid of ego Ego is required to function in the physical body Anyone running around in a physical body telling you that they've totally killed their ego is on an ego trip. Because it's not possible. It's not mechanically possible to operate in a human body in this particular level of consciousness without the faculty of ego.
But ego isn't the problem it's all the things that the ego expands into and gets control over and just runs amok because it's never really kept in check or sublimated but these processes naturally sublimated so over time when you have a sublimated ego the sublimated ego at a particular on its own is not keen to the idea of surrendering any level of control to the higher nature but at a certain point of sublimation and expansion of consciousness on other levels the ego gets kind of pulled into the fold and
doesn't become as resistant to the idea because it understands it's the next level of evolution so and and if it doesn't cooperate with the next level of evolution then it is absolutely inevitable that it will die so once the ego sees that completion of the work is the only way that it can continue to have its individuated existence on some level it stops fighting the process because the choice is you don't complete the work and you die and all your pieces all go back into the levels of existence that they came from.
And the ego basically has nowhere to go. Because it doesn't have a place per se. So the only way for it to continue is to complete the process. is to complete the process. At some point, when your subjective synthesis processes all of this information and it can't help but come to that conclusion on its own, then it stops becoming an obstacle.
And that's not something that's ever really articulated, but that is my own understanding of the dynamics of what happens between expansion of consciousness and sublimation of the ego in terms of coming into alignment with your purpose and higher evolution in general. So it's normal for the ego to kick those thoughts out, shadow crap that it just pulls up and throws out to try to be obtrusive. But at a certain point, there's really nothing left for it to make a mess of.
So you just keep doing the practice and ignoring the nonsense, especially when it's saying things things you already know aren't true it can seem silly because these are very simple thoughts and yet so clearly it's like the last ditch effort of the ego to throw out thoughts to try to undermine the fact that it's happening when you know full well something is um it's just the ego doing its thing and some of it some of that's not even necessarily the stuff that the ego is throwing at you now it's old crap being processed out and it's just
registering in your conscious level so you never really know which one it is you don't need to know you just need to let it clear so you just keep doing the work and it keeps clearing and eventually that the garbage goes away then you get to the point where it's not silly and you do know it's real. And then what you have to process and grasp is because you now know it is real, whether you're going to keep doing it or not.
And that's where the shadow and fear kicks in the most. So there's levels of this that you have to keep peeling and the only way you get past those levels is to want to the best of your ability what you believe or perceive is on the other side of that thing more then you want to continue what you're already doing if you don't want that more you never cross that threshold you have to want that evolution more than you want all the other stuff that you're trying to hold on to that you might or might not have to let go of but being afraid
of letting go of it is what stops the progress So whether you're afraid or not, as long as you keep sitting down and doing it, eventually it comes to a head. So, that's how it goes. When it happens, don't say that I didn't warn you. And it'll be a good thing.

Finally got a functional transcription plugin working again. These things constantly break down it seems.

This is the alchemist on the expansion of subconscious mind and other stuff. Interestingly enough he also used the same term "intuitive impulse" or in his words "The underlying impulse for all of that is literally intuition from a much higher level of consciousness coming to the surface". This is basically what I've been saying for years as the driving mechanism behind how we're led through transformation. Insight comes up spontaneously as both a phenomenal response to clearing trash and also to provide insight as to where your view orientation is to move next as I've witnessed and many others will attest to. It's the deeper level of the HD stuff basically, which in my opinion still isn't tapping the alchemical functions and makes its own cosmology to explain these things that are disconnected from much of what we talk about here. It's still functionally body response along with conscious insights that you register to "understand" it and what needs to be done though, which both agree on. The alchemist has also said that the intuition can also overlap the unconscious and "make clear" to us what feelings mean, AKA it's granting us a wider view perception on body sensation. This is why I call the feeling intuitive because it really is, because it's an understanding of how you "feel" about something from the "I've got a feeling about this" angle relating to understanding something on that subtle level. That's how you know something or believe it, because it comes through you automatically because it's in supply. If what you desire AKA have orientation to move through is in supply then you'll feel natural towards it and you'll interface with it on that wider view that allows you to see it for what it is on that intuitive level instead of seeing it as some big scary thing that the unconscious feels because of the not self false expectation overlays which warps that signal from higher yin. Without the unconscious being clear you CANNOT receive clear intuitive impulse and insight, though you'll still feel some because that's what's available to us it's that the insight relating to being in the end requires that clarity to surface. It's there in capacity but we must realize it. How do you explain this with NG terms? Who freaking cares! Just study this and grasp the functional mechanics. If you can't get it then you're obviously not ready to understand it yet. Does that make me some God at manifesting anything and everything on command? No, I simply have ENOUGH experience to say what's legit and what's not with what I've had manifest in my life. Doing this work here is part of my process to expand further because I must face doubt on different levels to clarity different parts of my understanding even if I don't have anyone to validate this. That's why I'm taking the alchemist as a reference over NG because the alchemical understanding is FAR more complete in his end than what NG says. How could you reliably decode his stuff in details that relate in a CERTAIN manner? You really can't because his language is super vague really. Big deal, accept that fact and move on.

Unless you believe you can interpret it completely (which I don't know anyone who has done that thus far really) then how can you claim that his stuff is the example at the top to compare to? Without understanding it systematically then who's to say NG wasn't just making stuff up. He made money from what he did, I don't make a cent off these entries I do this because I simply am willing to share my thoughts online here that I'd otherwise have kept to myself to show my working notes on how I came to different insights. This isn't a course, it's a notebook, as the title says. It's where we discuss all kinds of LOA stuff and other bits I want to discuss. Point is how can anyone claim that NG has all the answers when a vast majority of his work was for profit despite already having literal fortunes before he even started selling books? He still charged for private interactions and had managers and he had a private driver and all that. He was a stage performer, I mean how could he not be it's in his design he was literally a dancer before he woke up. What a surprise. People who claim NG is at the top can't see clearly about the reality of what his work was really designed to accomplish. It was designed to market to the new thought movement that was growing at the time, and even the alchemist agrees with this. That was the lens he viewed things through and was also why he said that kundalini yoga isn't how you "meet God" despite them working with similar mechanisms. His work I do not attack or discredit outside of the context I am relating to. I', simply referring to the critical parts that need to be seen for what they are, incomplete understandings or at the very least very bad explanations which leave way too much room for interpretation. That's why on my video "NG HID THIS FROM US" or whatever I called it I had A LOT of negative feedback despite there not being an alternative to correct what I said. Do you see what I mean? I'm simply pointing out the errors in the LOA model NG preached and why there's issues with it in the way it's conventionally interpreted. It's like if I put the RS spin on it they'll say that I'm overcomplicating it, or if I replace it then I'm attacking NG for supposed clout and whatnot when I'm only doing this because there's aspects of his work that NEED to be critically viewed and analyzed to understand there's more than meets the eye. Why can't we be critical of others work? I open those to be critical of mine and find error in my work. If I have errors I will correct them.

We should be working towards a complete understanding using language that CLEARLY explains what's being said, even if that's not in the vocabulary of most people. The language that most alchemical texts use is VERY different from what we use today but that's ok because we can learn and study to understand even if that takes us months or years. Big deal if it requires extra study this isn't free coffee time or whatever the heck people think this is we're talking about explaining the most complex thing there is arguably. We're literally decoding the nature of reality to grasp what's happening in the invisible, The NG stuff DOES have valid methodology and such but in the way he explains it that's very vague. Like what does "the state of the wish fulfilled" mean? You'll find a ton of different interpretations out there. NG defines the feeling as "the feeling that the wish has been accepted" which is totally useless because what's this so called feeling operating from? Is it touch feeling? Many coaches still say that it's touch, yet this statement obviously doesn't elude to that. Is it emotional? Well he said the feeling isn't emotional as I've quoted multiple times, despite him saying to work yourself up into an emotional state and feel them all (positive ones usually which I very much disagree with outside of the suggestion side of application which is another reason why I am critical of his work) and yet that's also not the so called feeling. He talks about satisfaction and relief, and those are body sensations more than anything. Blood truth. If you don't feel that knowing that comes over you spontaneously then you don't get it. The feeling arguably is the intuitive impulse revealing that you've spent energy correctly and it surfaces in your consciousness when you've exposed yourself to enough purifying starlight. This position means you can then look back at what you did from the end as the psyche has shifted, aka the state has shifted because you're now operating more correctly having spent energy where it's needing to move under the pressure. How else can you explain the so called feeling? My video explaining this still isn't the complete picture because that's an interpretation from the end position of suggestion born out of clarity of the unconscious. Without that unconscious clarity you cannot "target" something clearly and integrate to suggest without overlays arising in the way. This is why I struggle to this day to explain these ideas because nobody even grasps that there's at least 2 different levels of interpretation of this depending on having unconscious clarity or not. If I point that out then you run up against the barriers of "limiting beliefs" that people have thinking it's all mental and buying into "needs" overlaid on the desire is a sign of bad coaching. Wrong.

This is why you cannot appease everybody in this space. You simply can't have any view that helps people and still keeps them from resisting the teaching due to incorrect understanding. You can't do it clearly, not with theory at least. Being an example like an influencer type almost negates the need for correct theory because of the status and position of seeming authority so whatever you say goes even if it's against their beliefs of NG. Unless you can speak to them on that level then how can you "influence" that perception to follow the correct teaching? More light? I don't know. It's like your appearance has that quality that makes people WANT to listen even if it challenges them. It seems mine has a repelling feeling, and I think I understand why and what's causing that within me. This might be my solution to make RS viable as the replacement to LOA because NG had that light obviously and was clear enough to have that ability to influence others. I've partly disowned that aspect of me if I look honestly at myself and thus it presents through my videos. The solution isn't technical, but a function of clarity of that level of my experience being illuminated and expressed. Yeah technical stuff will still help but obviously to only some extent that's still limited.

Anyway you'll hear the alchemist in the above was talking about the different states and how we interface with them as well as how these different bodies we have literally have their own personified experiences and parallel lives that we can move into seeing through the eyes of spontaneously. It's all that you're expanding subconscious space to receive these things that are already there more clearly to then "understand" them AKA to have the spontaneous insight. This is likely why the alchemist told me that any attempts to force insights without sufficient ripeness is useless. It's that the expansion MUST be sufficient to be able to even perceive correctly. Without that expansion you cannot understand, the insights cannot come clearly, the link to those available parts of your psyche being clear to you require that space to be present. The between space is the magical space. My recent client stories all make this clear and the more I hear about them doing gazing and hearing voices and having spontaneous images projected with their eyes open into their world and literally SEEING their SP in front of them like a hologram, it all makes clear to me that there is WAY more to manifesting than what NG spoke about. My problem is establishing a clear connection with these things to make it understandable by the people who follow his stuff and say "look see there's these things he didn't talk about that commonly happen that we must understand to functionally grasp how manifesting works". If you exclusively approach it from the feeling through the resistance AKA "what would it feel like to be the person you desire to be now" UNDER CORRECT CONTEXT AND PATHWAY LEADING, then you'll very likely get results but if you do it the way most interpret it and how he SEEMINGLY taught it then good luck have fun. You won't get anywhere avoiding the trash because that's LITERALLY WHAT'S CONTRACTING YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS CAPACITY. The ONLY reason why you're disconnected from what these insights can spontaneously reveal is because you're clearing the link to those higher order states. Without that link being clear you cannot experience what my clients are. YOU CAN'T! The alchemist literally told me that there's no way to access superconscious without the divine feminine opening the way AKA without sufficient access to subconscious space you cannot overlap the superconscious and begin to experience those insights on that level. Your conscious thinking mind has next to zero power to shift this stuff.

I would simply say that in order to really expand the subconscious space we should WILLINGLY face pressure we KNOW we can work with physically AND on top of that doing the inner type stuff with regular periodic/dynamic gazing and deep sessions when you can along with divine pathway work with praise and such due to those opening up more of more of that connection to subconscious too and the alchemist makes that clear in this talk. Certain phrases correspond archetypally to different parts of your psyche that stablish those connections and since they're getting illuminated the unconscious trash will spontaneously be burned out so long as you keep up the momentum. Running from this process is ignorance, staying in the dark. There's way more to it than that but this is the big part of the process.

I'll be honest here too. I believe that "being seem" is a very very big belief that's overlaid with resistance from most people. Being small and invisible and whatnot seems to be something a lot of people with SP issues holds. Being seen by the world, standing naked on the stage of reality as I said is a big thing most people can work with and attain further refinement by working on. This is common thread I find, not all the time but it's there.

Also notice that the alchemist said that it's a matter of "you have to want what's on the other side more than you want all the other stuff". That's the feeling of being done, beyond the trash and WANTING to move forward. WHAT THE HECK DO YOU THINK "what would it feel like to be the person you desire to be now" FEELS LIKE? You're beyond the trash. If there's no trash then you simply suggest and move without contrast, and so when I talk on camera saying that there's all this trash in the way that's the assumption I approach from because really that's the reason why you don't have clarity of your correct nature. Most people think there isn't a fixed nature and that it's all just subjective mentalism belief states that are all parallel without an actual higher function to grow into. That's the incorrect interpretation of what NG said and I've also fully proven that as well. States are not these parallel suits of belief you wear, despite NG saying it was like that. It's that there's a degree of "I'm past this" and depending on the amount of contrast to not self trash you'll need to feel that will be a different experience for different people. The more unconscious trash there is the more you'll feel the contrast and not resonate with what NG says because you'll think he's validating the avoidance of negative stuff and SO MANY so called LOA coaches talk about this way as the way that you manifest stuff which is completely insane as a vast majority of people do have contrast to reveal and process and saying that you don't have to feel negative is simply delaying a natural self correction peak dip cycle. There's no way around it. I can't speak any more on the idea of this because it should be obviously clear. Without clarity of the unconscious mind where the conscious mind can then freely receive insight spontaneously when the timing is correct due to you being ready to receive that clarity then you'll NOT receive it. That's obvious, so trying to "feel the feeling of the wish fulfilled" is a stupid and contradictory idea because it CANNOT be forced and washes over you when clarity is attained. How do you establish clarity? Expose yourself to purifying starlight however you decide to do it. No other way around it. Every one of my clients who accepted this fact and went all the way DID manifest outcomes that are like supernatural outcomes. ALL OF THEM. The ones who DID THE WORK GET THE RESULTS. What most people don't want is to face their trash and have the courage and discipline and DESIRE to WANT what's on the other side of the trash. If you can't get to that place of ACTUAL DESIRE then how the heck can you expect to shift anything because you'll not actually be able to process unconscious trash without that pressure. How do you feel that pressure? Dopamine and TEST need to be functional. Without the biological function OR a self correcting peak dip (usually this also comes in response to having depleted massive energy and it "recoils" or slingshots you into correct view for a while) then you won't WANT to break trash. I know most people don't WANT to agree with that but it's just the fact. Look at the examples of these peoples lives and you'll see more DESIRE (pressure as a manifestation of kidney and heart qi overlapping) to WANT to elevate their sense of self, even if that's not in a refined direction that pressure exists. The pressure MUST exist to WANT to go beyond and "want what's on the other side" aka to "feel the feeling of the wish fulfilled", or at least part of that process. NG himself did say you need strong desire to manifest. He did say that remember? I need to find that quote again. It's part of a 5 part lecture that's very short. He said that desire is required, a "strong desire" or something like that. This to me implies him dancing around the common sense language of "I want what's on the other side of where I'm at" because that's how it's experienced. People interpret his stuff to think there's some secret magical feeling or something that you feel when you do these magical methods correctly and that's why technique and coach hopping exists because people are deluded by NG not being clear. The ignorance is off the charts in this sphere I almost can't believe it.

Most people are stuck because they're afraid to be themselves to some level. Plain and simple. If you're afraid of being seen you won't be seen, and that's actually one of the things I worked with first a long time ago by doing qigong in the middle of a busy area where lots of people would see me. I messed up a lot and felt very uncomfortable and visibly looked that way but I had to be under that pressure and still move through to fulfil the part of me that I knew I needed to accept. That was how I did it because every time I tried to make it work in my head I ended up in worse outcomes. I failed using what NG said so many times. Every time I got success it was when I was over his trash explanations and moved on with what I KNEW I needed to work with and just accepted that fully. I allowed myself to feel negative stuff, despite NG saying to never sleep in a bad mood and yet my SP manifested overnight when I felt VERY angary. Prove that wrong NG buffs. Try it. I'd love to see you reason your way out of contradicting experiences to what NG taught. He's full of it with these half done attempts at giving people a working model it's honestly pathetic that this work is the so called golden standard to this day. It needs to be replaced with what does work. Why can't we just be honest and clear and real? It doesn't work and anyone saying it does is missing the point. I don't care if you say it worked for you because what you're doing is likely not even what he described anyway and you're just attaching that his stuff was involved in it to validate the incomplete model. Until I can explain literally every part of manifestation then I don't claim anything as fact because there needs to be experience to directly overlap that understanding ON ALL LEVELS not just some ways of experiencing things. What I experienced DIRECTLY CONTRADICTS what NG taught in many different ways and that's the problem. If his work is so clear and established and the golden standard then why so many incorrect teachings? It's either because they're only applying to certain people operating from certain levels and that's incorrectly explained thinking that everybody is the same in that regard when they're not or that it's just plain incorrect. As I've said many times there is clear correct teaching there, though with all the positive stuff why continue to try and validate the nonsense that doesn't work, like needing to fall asleep in a good mood. For some people that's needed, and others it's not. He did say that it's basically a sin to sleep in a bad mood and it's something he'd never do and warned against it. This is in direct contradiction. If I pointed that out that I proved his so called law wrong then I'd get the attacks from the NG buffs despite a clear example that contradicts his work. It's that he's got this status that's untouchable for no real reason other than because he spoke to a certain cosmology that many people believe in. That's really the only reason why, and most interpret my work under that cosmology when I directly contradict that cosmology of a sort of pseudo mentalism box. Can't go after NG's work or you're the enemy. Can't critically think. Gotta line up and agree or else. Screw that.

The one thing I learned very clearly when I spent most of my tie studying the history of Israel and all that stuff is that agreements for agreements sake only further keeps you in the box. I had MASSIVE shifts in my subconscious space during that time of revealing the control matrix for what it is. I knew ALL about that and then some. I learned that agreements with conventional views on things is almost certainly what is being used to keep us in the box and in the pseudo satisfaction cycle of never actually feeling the reality of the trash that's being ignored. LOA is no different. It's just another false paradigm that's been allowed to propagate for a function. It keeps them in a place of security because nobody lives their visceral reality and feels through the trash to purify their unconscious trash. Same same. Agreeing with conventional views and cosmologies even if nobody else agrees is what causes further satisfaction, even if on some level I wish I didn't have to face this I am glad that I'm the one pushing forward this work as challenging as it is and as long as it takes to make this all clear.

Enough ramble. You know what to do. Do the work. Be yourself without compromise. Don't fall for the pseudo satisfaction self empowerment marketing trash out there. See through it as just good marketing for their business and recognize that they speak this for a reason and that's because it works well to make them very very rich just as it did for NG. It's popular because it's a multi billion dollar industry and the false cosmology must be defended at any cost. It's just like the paradigms we face today. You know what to do. That pressure to avoid it is what we exist to go through. That's WHY you exist. LITERALLY! You exist to be the vessel for higher genius to do this work. You're the puppet, but there's rewards involved for being a good puppet for the master and those should be abundantly clear now. We either accept this reality or continue to life in delusion. This isn't popular for obvious reasons and I've been put in the tough position of needing to universalize arguably the most challenging doctrine there is to replace LOA. Yeah.

There is tons of unconscious conditioning that we're not aware of consciously until we face real experiences which bring it out. That trash must be felt. It's ALWAYS unconsciously manifesting your reality, that unavailability is a disconnect from correct orientation and natural striving will only operate to the degree that it can move you through those levels to clean them out. It's only when things get real that these lacks surface. ALL of that trash is always operating under the surface regardless of it you "believe" that it is or not. How is this true? You get triggered when things get real despite all the distractions and building comfort bubbles around it to avoid that. It will always surface when conditions are present for that to do so, and we should always see it as opportunity to transform. Feel through it, allow it to be felt and don't avoid it. Avoiding and bottling will physically cause disease. How do I know that? I had to face physical health consequences from years of holding onto this stuff which was NOT fun and still to this day I don't feel like I have fully recovered from those days I felt like I was literally dying. Be aware that Jing cannot be restored until sufficient clarity is attained on a high enough level to become more available for that to manifest in your physical nature and then the corresponding psyche. You can and will be able to reverse aging damage but it must be done through the higher order theurgy processes as interaction with higher genius is required. Reaching out to the higher genius on a regular basis IS theurgy, by the way. All of your components are the higher genius in projection, and thus the higher order states are in fact different parts of your higher genius that you can interact with. Theurgy is about making each of those parts conscious and overlapping them just like we overlap our conscious and unconscious mind. That's theurgy and how you reverse aging at the root cause. All this trash about genetic work will only work on some levels and never really be the CAUSE because it's band aid stuff to try and make right dysfunctions that are metaphysical in nature.

Everything that I understand about theurgy is that exposure to higher order states and performing what I use to call state interferometry is how we clear our lower psyche because those higher levels are accessible to some degree and by moving into that higher level we must therefore be purified because nothing of dysfunction can last long on that level. This is why if people truly felt as though they are "I AM" here and now with all their dysfunction they'd never be able to come away from that experience whole and complete because all that power that moved through them will fracture their psyche so ruthlessly and mercilessly that they'd end up significantly more dysfunctional as a result. This is why we approach it from the level of gradually exposing ourselves more and more to higher order states so that we don't have trash we're not ready to process yet show up and break us down in an excessively powerful manner. You cannot stand before so called "I AM" and survive. You will either break down or be obliterated because that blinding starlight will bring out ALL of that unconscious trash you're holding onto and make it conscious for you to feel all at once. Just imagine the trauma you'd have because you'd be trying to run thousands of amps through tiny thin cables that aren't capable of handling such intense current. They'd literally get fried and melt instantly. That's what would happen to your nervous system if you were thrown into infinite power as you are now. You'd break down and be turned into dust. We naturally reach through to those higher levels by interacting with higher yin which is the adjacent state to where we're at now. That then overlaps higher yang to access elemental air which is where heaven is, the above world where there is no dysfunction, or at least not as much dysfunction as we'd have here.

This is the between level operating on the level of Saturn which is the thematic of structural form. Really it's close to Jing, and I believe that the structural thematic when we fully overlap and integrate within that power grants us physical immortality as the perfect version of us already exists there and you see this when you do advanced gazing as it shows up as a projection before you. You literally see your perfect form in that level when you're able to overlap enough of the higher yin to see and perceive those themes directly. If you can see your aetheric body then you can see pretty much everything. At that level all you need to do is consciously target different thematic components specifically to overlap those and allow them to further transform your subtle levels.

If NG said that your reactions to life determine what you manifest then obviously what you react to which is determined by the unconscious conditioning DOES MATTER A LOT! Why wouldn't it? The cause of reaction to things and getting triggered is the stuck crystalized trash in your psyche that's dysfunctional. Months back I was talking about the functional alchemy of how qi breaks down crystalized dampness patterns which metaphysically represent limited beliefs and whatnot which come up as these reactions we have to life in ways that will reveal the conditioning we're holding onto. That qi is equivalent to purifying starlight. The same idea overlaps the TCM daoist system. The more qi you have the more you're going to be functional. Same idea. The daorists quantified higher order yang this way and called it qi. They've got Jing qi and Shen as well but really Jing is built into you already and doesn't actually get depleted like they say. I've doubted this idea about it getting quantitatively depleted like you're spending money out of a bank that doesn't replenish. The alchemist says that physical dysfunction can be restored as well with quintessence or just going hard with the other levels of work but the same thing applies with Jing in that operating more functionally gets you eventually to the tipping point of not burning more Jing but actually replenishing it because you're restoring yourself to your functional template that already exists that the higher genius is moving you through experiences to fulfil. That's what all this is for. You exist to fulfil this function. 100%. Nothing else matters, all this is based on fulfilling the needs of your higher genius who is really the "I AM" of your nature but you can't interface with all of it at once. You could argue imagination is higher genius and higher genius is God because the aspects that it emanates that unfold into your psyche and conscious experience are what enable all of these imaginal things to be experienced as they are. The higher genius can contact you through that medium of dream states and visions and such as well. Higher genius cannot be fully experienced because your lower aspects need to be sufficiently expanded INTO their higher order functions to be able to handle that amount of current, else your connections melt from too much starlight blowing them up. This is why we cannot fake transformation and bypass things. The NG stuff is doing this, working this mechanism. The higher genius in itself is a bottleneck for all of God which is above higher genius as well. Higher genius is your specific ray of emanation that's one simulacrum of the entirety of God as all other rays which is why we all have a personal "God" AKA higher genius from the alchemical perspective. We all are simulacrums and thus have a source of emanation. The more you are integrated within those components the more available they become to you to wield as power and manifest from and influence the world since you LITERALLY BECOME MORE OF THE WORLD IN THEMATIC COMPOSITION. You drive it, process within process. Doesn't mean you drive it without restraint completely because higher genius will not allow you to manifest what it doesn't want you to and it will literally force control over your consciousness and steer you like a puppet if the need be "for work to be done in him".

Remember what NG said about how God will ZAP you from one role to another "for the work to be done in him". Yeah. That's one of the most intelligent things NG said, as here he's clearly recognizing that imagination works through us, just as it says in the bible about how God works through us and in us. I've said this before and I'll say it over and over. Near the end of the career NG had he seemed to have been teaching more of what I'm saying and seemingly contradicts much of what people believe he said. That doesn't change that he failed to explain the mechanisms of manifesting in a useful way that works for different people on different levels but his later work eludes to the fact that he did teach fixed trajectory to fulfil divine functions beyond us, else why would he say what he did about God zapping us into different roles. He saw imagination as God, and if imagination represents all the components we can interact with as parts of the higher genius which is personally God then obviously higher genius zaps us from one role to another for the work that's needing completing. That's why we experience the fiery furnaces of life. If this wasn't' the case then why else would we exist and he speak of these things? You tell me.

4/8/25

There's a difference in feeling between moving through low level resistance vs high level deeper stuff, It's going to be heavier and make you feel more narrow but that's the effect of such a setup. If you're more clear you will have more ability to automatically perceive width when it comes up. Cultivating subconscious capacity with gazing widens view at baseline to help facilitate dealing with deeper stuff. Doing gazing in a vacuum can and will get you to full dissolution but it will take a very very long time. Combining both helps the falsest.

I've been deliberately applying qi circulation methods lately and testing this idea again and it's becoming pretty clear to me that it helps to SOME EXTENT. I would say that if you're on the edge of breakthrough then this can aid. How do you boost qi circulation effectively? I don't want to reveal my secrets here right now because that's not for this notebook simply because I don't want to share them in this case. I'll instead present the mechanism. Qi circulation is driven by pretty much all main meridians. It's not heart, not spleen, not lung, not liver, not kidney, but all of them in their own contributing factors. In order though I'd say obviously kidney being the root of all qi and yang and other substances emanating from Jing transforming into qi and blood and such matters the most. Then I would say lung which descends qi along with the spleen. Then heart and liver. People assume that heart would be more responsible but it's actually not that important because it's more responsible for producing blood which helps move qi through the circuits in that relationship. Where blood is qi must be carried parallel. Lung descends qi and kidney mostly is responsible for raising which is why we have in and out breathing moving the diaphragm up and down, or relaxing and contracting it. When you breathe in you're sinking the diaphragm down, and when you breathe out the diaphragm relaxes and raises back up to cause a shift in negative pressure to move air out of the body. It's pressure gradient mediation. Kidney is actually responsible for the contraction or creating void and negative air pressure to absorb qi more so than the lung as far as I know. Even though I said lung descends qi it's working next to kidney and without sufficient yin your ability to breathe in is reduced. This is why blood and yin deficiency can lead to symptoms like qi deficiency on some levels even though it's that because blood is lacking that qi can't be moved properly either. The lung descends qi as a function of working side by side the "sucking" function that the root has to bind and ground energy into the base which is the vorticial absorption field geometry of centripetal convergence which then the heart operates from as a manifest form representing this metaphysical dynamic,

How does this relate to manifesting? If this mechanism isn't working properly then good luck getting a wider view perception. How do I know this? I lived it for years and recognize the manifestations of dysfunctions in this system since it's built into my blood condition more so than most other people. I've become very familiar with what blood vs qi deficiency and stagnations all feel like more so in isolation. Qi stagnation happens often in liver meridian and causes a frustrated feeling that's heavy sticking and thick swampy sensation that makes you feel like there's haze over your whole psyche. This isn't really brain fog per say but it can be similar, though it's also felt in the body as foggy thick heavy sticking and swampy making your movement feel less spontaneous and more conscious with the efforts. Qi deficiency is just tiredness mostly, but it can also manifest as the inability to hold onto energy too, though yin deficiency can also cause this as well because they carry each other but the thing with qi is that the qi deficiency will feel like your spontaneity is dead. Qi is a higher order substance of yang which is dynamic. So how does this relate psychologically? You'll feel narrow and like what you know you need to do won't work for you. You'll have reasons arise to justify the compromise and your body will feel tired and lacking and not wanting to break boxes. This is why I've said OVER AND OVER AND OVERRRR that endocrine and nervous system function relating very closely to qi availability especially kidney and heart qi to feel DESIRE and SATISFACTION from operating out of this availability. If you're depleted on these substances then it will feel like unavailability.

Anyone who says that qi tonics and working with this metaphysical principle in any surrounding way is incorrect because this mechanism which obviously manifests AS the psychological function implies that all these functions run parallel to each other in capacity to influence consciousness. The psychological functions come OUT OF this, as in if these substances are in the arrangements of lack or stagnation or whatever then the corresponding mental "state" will also manifest accordingly because they are directly thematically overlapping. Those substances ARE Your psychology. THEY ARE NOT SEPERATE THESE PRINCIPLES LITERALLY COMPRISE YOUR STATES. This does NOT mean that you cannot use psychological methodology to impact those substances because you can and will have that ability because they're equivalently exchanged in influence of how they manifest, though obviously saying that qi tonic herbs are placebo IS PURE RAW UNBRIDLED IGNORANCE! Dispenza comes to mind, among many others who buy into quantum trash that should've been burned in purifying fire back when Schrodinger's cat was put into superposition (processes within processes operating superluminally thus becoming "4D") and never written about again after. It's good that this trash is being exposes for the joke it is and these people lose their credibility as valid sources of real mechanical understanding. Either way qi tonics can and will impact your consciousness and give you the capacity (doesn't mean it'll force anything but it'll INFLUENCE how you perceive things. If you desire something and you take a qi tonic your flow will be more available, though it won't move you into flow is flow isn't ready yet with sufficient availability of surrounding thematic structures to support that. This is where leading pathways and such can change that which I've discussed endlessly. Pathway leading is the psychological alchemical equivalent of making yourself into a quintessence and doing the alchemical ritual using this correctly. I personally believe that building greater context and leading pathways is and always will be arguably the most powerful in the moment method to widen view but it just depends on where you're at and how much you already understand and are conscious of your resistance. All the NG stuff is arguably pathway leading, as that's the effect they have on your view width to perceive and transform AKA performing alchemical transformation by overlapping states. Hope that's clear now. Nothing is special about what NG taught, nothing is magical about "the state of the wish fulfilled" it's just clarity through availability of the corresponding elements which when arranged in the form they are to represent that so called state it will bring it THROUGH YOU and often that will also unfold SPONTANEOUSLY. You will know this if you've experienced this many times now, else you'll buy into the marketing trash that most ignorant coaches out there preach to make their business more profitable at the expense of truth and integrity with functional alchemy.

Grasp this.

Understand that moving in the direction you KNOW you need to EVEN IF YOU FAIL OVER AND OVER AND OVER and feel the resistance and cut through it many times over the course of a stretch of time be OK with seemingly failing and not getting what you want because the functional mechanism is STILL BEING WORKED. That's THE MAIN POINT. You should do this KNOWING that even IF applying yourself in the correct direction that magic shouldn't be expected to be had instantly just because you felt through a little level of the resistance. Most people who actually do get their SP go through periods of time where nothing happens and they're putting in time to feel through the trash and they get knocked and and hit plateaus for a while at times but they continue to overlap states and feel through whatever comes up and be OK WITH THAT. They UNDERSTAND the mechanics. This is the important thing to really grasp and if I knew this years ago looking back now with the experience I've gained since and how this whole idea of expecting instant shifts with people is really an incorrect expectation to have. This is NOT TO SAY IT CAN'T SHIFT OVERNIGHT I'VE HAD THAT TOO! Thing is that placing that expectation on EVERYTHING is pure delusion and is disrespecting ripeness mechanics thinking that mentalism applies when it doesn't. Ripeness always applies, spontaneous insights and overflow applies and it will happen when you least expect it through the functions I've outlined. You should be WILLINGLY getting knocked down and KNOWING that this is simply part of the process of owning who you are. Rejection after rejection you continue to be persistent. Persistence of trying to artificially hype yourself up WILL CAUSE FAILURE! We are going to WILLINGLY face and cut through the trash and own who we really are underlying the overlays on a regular basis. I'll be honest here as well, considering I've had multiple long standing clients now tell me about manifesting their specific person and I do mean a SPECIFIC person not just a list idea or archetype here (which is generally easier if we're honest) it's that these people had to feel a certain degree of "rebelling" against their limited self and really move out of that identification to quite a significant degree in VARIOUS different ways. Often it's not JUST the relationship beliefs and such themes to work with but surrounding context that's unconsciously anchored to the primary desire of the SP. Most of the time these other surrounding factors relate to bringing out of them a resonant part of them they disregarded that was correct and they owned that part of them shamelessly and without compromise and shifts happen VERY FAST then. What does this mean in example? One wanted to be seen more as someone who's treated almost like the "VIP" type if we'd say that (their language was different but this is the example word I will use there to best describe it) and that they'd EXPECT things to go their way like magic and the part of them that they needed to own was a certain level of healthy ego to have attitude and a sense of shamelessness. They dressed VERY differently and spoke using different words and cut people out of their lives that didn't fit in the resonant paradigm and basically shifted around a lot of stuff seemingly unrelated to the SP but all of that was actually what being the supply for the SP needed to unfold through. This is why I say like a broken record that focusing on the SP in a vacuum is rarely ever useful. These fools who always talk about that nonsense love to throw around so called success stories without any deeper understanding as to the functional mechanics underlying how and why they got the person because I highly doubt it was due to one imaginal act they were told to do. If it was then that person was already on the edge of transformation.

So with that in mind now we should also understand that bailing out of being yourself at ANY level of discomfort is compromise no matter if it's in the future cycles that arise or not. You OWN who you desire to be to a complete degree and go all the way no matter how many times you get knocked down or rejected or thrown around into seemingly uncomfortable circumstances that challenge you. This is what NG avoided talking about but it does happen to A LOT of people and usually it happens mostly to the people who actually get outcomes. The people who face the trash on the regular no matter how they feel even if they're frustrated and mad at themselves for something they STILL make correct decisions and cut through the trash and are WILLING to face pressure whenever opportunity arises. On the other end they FLOW and THRIVE. You will know what I mean if you've been through this yourself. NG LOA nonsense is NOT a magic shortcut and I've FULLY proven this and will destroy anyone who thinks otherwise with mountains of case study data. Targeting the correct themes and reportingly facing the pressure when it arises shows conviction to being yourself in itself anyway. That's someone who believes in themselves and has confidence and is willing to never say no to their inner truth and trusting intuitive impulse no matter the conditions and doubts. They know how this works and they work the mechanism on the regular because that's how you get results no matter what you believe about it or not. Your subjective synthesis AKA belief systems are simply your subjective interpretation of these fixed mechanics. Your beliefs do NOT override the mechanisms and they never will because those mechanisms arguably ARE your awareness. Cut through all the trash and own who you desire to be and have natural striving to move and grow into and be willing to face pressure on the regular. Clients who get places WILLINGLY face pressure on the regular. That's honestly the difference between success and failure. If you're not overlapping states then you're not manifesting anything. The people who experience radical shifts are willing to BE the radical shift and make MASSIVE seeming risks and throw themselves into very uncomfortable circumstances THEY KNOW they need to face to prove to themselves they CAN be who they desire to be and accept the identification of inner truth they're being moved through. Cutting through the trash there is the work.

Always know that it doesn't matter how you "feel" as in emotionally being worked up or not (this isn't about breathing method or whatever this is just generally how to deal with feelings moment to moment when they show up as contrast to natural striving) because that's an effect of overlapping states AKA being exposed to purifying starlight, or not. It's a function of expansion and becoming aware of the trash in the way of the clear signal that's ALREADY THERE WITHIN YOU! All you're doing is clearing the trash WILLINGLY to become more authentic to who you are. Why can't we just be real and say that manifesting is "being yourself without compromise" as I say and just using common sense to interpret that instead of trying to overlay some magical imaginal sense concept on top of it because we've been sold this trash about how imaginal senses are God WHICH IS ONLY A HALF TRUTH. Yeah each of the senses has thematic association because each state has a means of interfacing with it and it with you, but working with that part of the whole in a vacuum which to most people isn't even very accessible in the first place is the biggest mistake anyone can make. They're running around in the dark.

I also just want to comment on something here. This so called kids safety act coming out. How do you shut this down? Old school style. People who are done with messing around and don't want to accept compromise patterns of being abused by Jews in suits claiming to be there for their benefit. Filth, Clean out the bottom of the barrel of all the scum and move on with our lives. Get the job done, then it's over and we can be satisfied, just like NG said. Facing resistance is satisfying, is it not? Why would this physical example be any different, Inner and so called outer experiences under pressure both work the same mechanism. There's no difference. Why would there be a difference? We're talking about overlapping conscious and unconscious mind here you don't need to imagine anything with your imaginal senses this is all about moving through and cutting through trash to clean the link to natural striving without contrast. What else could it be, other than setting a suggestion from a position of comfort and acceptance? "The feeling is the acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled" NG says. The acceptance, the comfort, the satisfaction of cutting through trash to reveal the spontaneity of true self. If people had enough courage and self respect we'd hang all the filth in the political sphere and elect people of integrity but nope we want to continue to run away from the responsibility of being a functional adult in this world and pretend it's not an issue, just like people who live this way trying to manifest things with their imaginal senses without actually cutting through pressure. What don't we understand? Is that too harsh? Is that not realistic? Why would examples like these be any different in mirroring the functional mechanics of collective consciousness expanding more into its capacity? There is none, the people who avoid this either aren't impacted enough yet to see the problem or if they do see the problem they're too small to solve it and don't have courage to take risks and be seen under a light of discomfort. This is something I held onto for many years myself, about 3 years, before I finally got over that trash and said screw it if you don't agree then too bad this is what's going on. I will also defend your right to have your opinion so long as it doesn't harm others or exploit their ignorance which is what dysfunction thrives on.

If I have to put in ID info to access these platforms I post on then I won't and the reason why is because they already have my ID tied to my accounts here anyway and have ZERO reason to enforce such. Doing so would only bring out of me merciless fury on the malicious intent to utterly destroy it into an unrecognizable pile of dust scattered in the wind. Screw that. Are the people who conform in the right? Well let's frame it like this. If someone requires this to keep a roof over their head (which is how Jewish filth target and manipulate us into conforming as the stakes are too high) then I still say they're not in the right to hand it over. Why do I say this? I will quote one of the greatest quotes of all time. "Those who would give up essential liberty, to purchase a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty or safety" - Benjamin Franklin, founder of the USA who understood biblical dual seedline doctrine. That's why I hold no respect for anyone who conforms and in fact I apply more pressure on these people to break the contrast barriers and grow up and make functional decisions IF they were involved in my life and held space in my field. I hold zero respect to cowards who know the difference because throughout history that's why we end up with situations like what's happened with power structures rising and falling. Jewish banking always at the foundation of it all.

"If the American people ever allow private banks to control the issue of their currency, first by inflation, then by deflation, the banks…will deprive the people of all property until their children wake-up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered…. The issuing power should be taken from the banks and restored to the people, to whom it properly belongs.” – Thomas Jefferson in the debate over the Re-charter of the Bank Bill (1809)"

That right there is what's happening as we speak. How do you stop it? Well NG was useless as ever because he never saw this as an issue and I'd argue would to some extent support this saying how much prosperity it would bring, despite the very mechanism of money creation being tied to debt in parallel. Every $ has debt tied to it by default. Sounds very prosperous doesn't it? What an ignorant fool. He supported progressive ideology as I quoted him supporting and often those sides go hand in hand. That's disgusting. Grow up. Can't take the pressure? Good. Cut through it all and accept the truth or get steamrolled by the program because of willingly avoiding the pressure to transform. Self correction cycles exist on a collective level the same way, If it's happened many many times before throughout history it will happen again because that's how consciousness expands. Same within your life, same in the collective expansion. Grow up. "I'm looking after myself" says the person who wants to validate compromise from making clear mature decisions that are clear and present to be made. Always remember that continuing to compromise is the only reason WHY it can get to the point it does where it forces hands. Same self correction mechanism.

The parallels between these examples and what NG talked about (the functional level interpretation) are clear as day. This is what RS reveals that nobody else has even come close to. Functional mechanics of transformation and manifestation. Reality CAN be magical IF we live as ourselves. When we compromise we allow the shadow trash to run our lives which causes suffering. Innate to your being is abundance and vitality and nourishment and all that good stuff, and the only way to feel that availability at baseline is to just cut through the trash and clean it out by making correct decisions and experiencing that pressure all the way to the point of satisfaction. NG himself said this if you can see it in his words. There's nothing special about LOA.

Suggestion and overlapping states (to purify and expand) is all there is, Suggestion is also an overlap but it's an overlap in a clear direction instead of having trash in the way of the signal which warps the signature you emanate unconsciously. You want people to respond to you the way you really desire? Respect your own vitality and be the supply for that to present others affinity for them to respond favorably to. Just because you tell yourself what you want doesn't make it happen because of the unconscious trash in the way. Once again it doesn't need to all be clear it just needs ENOUGH to clear, and even sometimes stuff slips through despite the resistance but those things will never stick around for long or be satisfying. Clearing the connection we have to mediate power in the correct way is what NG taught. Period. That's what we're doing. That's all we can do, because that's alchemical function unfolding which IS arguably WHO you are. You ARE the alchemical process unfolding are you not? You ARE The elements, the qi, Jing, Shen, and all those substances which manifest AS the psychological aspects we experience as self. Self is not so called "I AM", that's your supply of emanation and your CAPAITY to realize for that infinite supply to become one with you. Anyone saying they can experience "I AM" is totally ignorantly because to experience that means you'll need to be clear enough to face the most powerful purifying starlight directly. This is why you cannot stand before so called I AM and not feel immense pressure and overwhelming feelings of fear. When you do gazing this happens and you'll know what I mean by facing the pressure spontaneously as you're only overlapping a SMALL part of I AM when that happens. Just imagine if the full power of higher order nature overlapped you fully and integrated instantly you'd literally explode. Just imagine that quickening, that purifying starlight you're having move through you, imagine that X9999999999999999999999999999999 reoccurring. You'd be torn to shreds. You can only interface with small amounts of the divine at once to allow your psyche to not be obliterated in the process. This is why I believe there's biblical stories of God killing people directly for seemingly innocent acts when we view it from a metaphysical perspective. There's levels within levels of understanding, and biblical doctrine does in fact view those who are still operating unconsciously as the twice dead who are not holy AKA set apart who are not of the chosen lineage. Physically and metaphysically this works, because it's a thematic that manifests on all levels to reveal itself and we reverse engineer those mechanics. Why wouldn't it manifest physically in the ACTUAL covenant peoples whom are being eradicated as we speak day by day and by which the adversary literally states their involvement with. Jude. Duh. It's clear on all levels and when we view what's happening with the identification plans it's plain as day who's involved and their role biblically speaking. "uhhh that doesn't impact me" says the person who's fine with handing over liberty for temporary safety just as it's always been throughout history. Prove this wrong.

Let's just be honest. The real reason why this is happening so fast is because of Israel being revealed for what it is especially after the recent humiliation they faced. Most people who view this stuff get scared and see big bro as some powerful entity but I see them as a bunch of filthy little creatures who accepted their trash fully and went full on parasite to suck the life out of everyone else around them because they have no other value to offer. I see them like bugs to be squashed and the prey to be taken out not as a threat at all. There's no contrast. I solve problems. I see politician who's being a leech I squash the bug. Problem solved. Satisfaction follows. Free expression of natural striving unfolds. Abundance. How easy is that? It's not a big deal it's only a big deal because the contrast that I've spent most of my life dissolving is dead and the solution is simple. NG would probably say to imagine them being abundant and helping everybody, yet when he lived the parasites still operated at high efficiency. Seems like he missed the plot too. Why can't we just be real and honest and have clear correct perception of what is and what needs to be done? "Oh that's buying into limited conditions" the mind magic fool would say. No it's not, there's no contrast, there's no dysfunction, there's no compromise pattern. It's a clear and present issue that we can resolve. Those people still hold contrast and avoid the clarity. Things will have to get worse before they face enough pressure to see clearly and view the contrast for what it is. Dissolving contrast reveals things for what they are, clarity. Wide view. Higher consciousness. No duh. There's no magic in what these people promote, but that's not to say that magic doesn't happen because it can and will happen through us being ourselves.

We are the magic, our clarity IS the magic. There. Clarity is the magic, consciousness is the magic. Does that reconcile these points? Seems like it.

I was having this discussion with a private group the other day about how many so called success stories online are very likely fake. Dead internet is a real thing most traffic in comments are bots especially on trending subjects. There are many real stories but there's also a lot of fake ones, by real people and by bots to drive engagement. It's a matter of both.

We also discussed many examples from real peoples stories who went and threw themselves under pressure on a repetitive basis to learn that it's not so bad afterall to face possible rejection in the face of owning your passions. Comedy was one example, stand up artists get bombed a lot if the crowd doesn't agree. The good ones will have stories of that happening to them and they eventually got to the point where they made humor out of their bombed performances and didn't care. There was no contrast, no pressure, tension, whatever. It was just them doing what they want standing naked on the stage of reality for all to see. Another guy was scared of getting rejected by women and never had a GF before so he went out and basically asked every girl he liked and got rejected a ton but he kept going and eventually stopped caring about the bad feelings and he gained confidence to approach the girls he actually liked. He put a little effort into his style and presentation as we should to the degree that's common sense for us and just go for it. He got the girl he wanted. A trader failed over and over and he eventually got so good that he could go spend a few hours once a week doing his nightly swings or scalps and he'd walk away with tens of thousands. The guy who lived next to me last year told me about that one, I can't prove if that's legit but he faced immense pressure but he got good and realized he can master the mindset. He said that it was usually that people make trades they feel like they need to out of desperation and it's not coming through them. When you're clear and psychologically stable you're able to clearly determine the right trades to make and he wins almost every time. Again I can't prove this personally but I don't think that he would lie to me like that. It makes sense.

I really do believe that this principle is the very function of why NG preached persistence. It's repetitive exposure to purifying fire and illuminating starlight to gradually overlap the states more and more until they're clear enough to allow natural striving to unfold without contrast blocking the clear signal from the inner guidance mechanism coming from top down. Any time you run into comfort patterns of pseudo satisfaction like coping to feel good in a sort of mindless passive way like needless distractions then you're also compromising. Does that mean that we can't have chill time? Of course we can chill but when it's destructive then good luck getting satisfaction out of that.

When Abdullah taught NG to be "you are already in Barbados" every night and slammed the door in his face he basically told NG to not give a care whatsoever to the trash and just go to Barbados. You want to go to Barbados? Do it. That's what he said. Own it. If NG imagined himself there he'd have felt the reality of it and it would've likely challenged him, because NG did in fact say he felt doubt before it manifested but it still showed up. Why? He kept exposing himself to that starlight,. The repetitive imaginal stuff works this mechanism. Feel the pressure. Welcome it. Welcome the wider view and awareness of contrast. Welcome the opportunities to clear the trash out and move on. Be yourself.

"I am only a conduit for a message that eludes my understanding" - Ezio Auditore

Interesting plotline. Lower and higher natures interacting. Theurgy. I remember sensing that with this story a very long time ago.

The more time you willingly and knowingly spend playing into pseudo satisfaction the harder the dip will be to correct course.

What more can I talk about I've hit the bottom of the barrel again, or at least it feels like that. I've given commentary on basically everything now, multiple times over really. Feel that being in the end, that sensation of this is who I am. Be driven by that reference frame here and now. Grow into the end state. Own it. What more is there to go through? That's the work. Face the contrast and own it. That's how expansion of consciousness works. That's overlapping states. That's gaining experience for transformation. That's manifestation. You'll automatically suggest everything you desire because it will come through you and it will be naturally in flow. You will not need to play these stupid games of imagining to make things happen because you will WANT to imagine it when it comes through you instead of this idea that you're controlling to feel better and make things happen to validate your boxes more. No screw that paradigm break it all down and move forward. Just go all the way. Feel the truth. Feel the reality. Go all the way. Own it. Get to that point of explosion with your degree of commitment. Don't waste energy buying into not self trash spend energy correctly. The shortcut is cutting through the weeds instead of going around them only to find another wall in the way. Cut through all the trash and all those weeds. Be as Abdullah said. Go to the end, meaning continually draw reference to correct orientation relative to breaking trash and burn it all to the ground. Stand naked on the stage of reality exposed for all to see and laugh at the endless abyss before you. Make fun of the trash and transform it with divine providence and imminence of transformation. It all moves through you. You're as Ezio said, you're a conduit connecting lower elements to their corresponding macro thematics to mediate them in this world. You become the world in extension channeling divine providence. That's your power. Isn't that insane. Own it. Reference it on the regular. Wake up and reference it. Feel grateful to be guided by God, our kinsman redeemer and infinite supply of all of reality itself. Do theurgy. Become the living breathing walking talking theurgy ritual. Walk as one with God. Open yourself up to God. Become the perfect conduit, the perfect puppet that God plays like an instrument on the stage of reality itself. Compromise not and please God. This is why you exist. You exist to serve God's will. What are you doing then wasting time on this trash burning your Jing up only to continue to fall into the abyss of death and destruction depleting your infinite supply only to die a sinner who failed at their function of life.

Make no mistake. If you do not become immortal you FAILED at life. Objectively. This is the objective measure of success. This should be our number one objective. As soon as we wake up we recognize what trash needs purifying and swiftly and without compromise cut the weeds. You will be blessed when you go all the way. Screw ALL THE TRASH! Blow it all away with your infinite power on tap just from overlapping it and being OK with feeling the pressure. YOU HAVE INFINITE POWER ON TAP DO YOU REALISE THAT? Any and all times you feel pressure to transform trash you are tapping that infinite supply. Think about this. You already have it there. This is WAY more empowering than all this LOA ignorance let's break that trash down. Every opportunity is a spontaneously initiated alchemical ritual driven by divine order for you to have a chance at taking upon yourself your capacity that GOD IS WAITING FOR YOU TO ACCEPT! All this work is to satisfy this truth. ALL OF IT! THIS IS WHY YOU EXIST DAMMIT! If we look at this from the most pure and raw functions that's why. The way you play the game of life and win is to be yourself and play your role as God. God is playing you as you as the invisible guiding hand in the process that we must learn to trust and move with, Opposition exists. Contrast exists. It exists under the context of necessary transformations to face to individuate who we are.

Right now. Pull up one part of a compromise pattern you know you're conscious of. How would the fulfilment of this look like. What would you being yourself in contrast to this pattern be experienced as to prove to you that you're way past this trash already? The compromise pattern needs direct targeting with this, don't mess around with stuff that doesn't bring it up. The reason why we go to the end is because that's you placing yourself directly under the fire and illuminating the most trash for purifying starlight to burn away. You're facing the direct opposition. There's no magic here it's just alchemy. The magic IS the alchemy not the senses. At the level of going to the end and having already integrated those themes, all you need to do is suggest. It will be natural. You will have desire, you will experience it as a sort of curiosity and satisfy it without contrast. It will manifest. This is how people think LOA always works but most of the time there's trash in the way of the signal and the mechanics I've explained here and the stories outline the process of becoming natural towards what you desire fully and without compromise.

You affirm to bring out the trash and process it. These are active transformation processes. You bring up the trash and by doing so you're illuminating the not self with starlight to transform it. If in that place you continue to buy into not self conditioning then you're going to face a self correction cycle to make that lost energy thrown back at your face to force consciousness of the compromise pattern. God gives you mercy, yet you spit in his face every time you buy into the trash and think you actually are what it implies, that you are that not self expectation and that this is who you will always be. Screw that cut through it and hold no mercy. Build the pressure, fast from the world and make that illuminating current so abundant within your circuits and circulate that qi so that the weeds will be seen and you will WANT to cut through them. This is a key part of the process. Fasting from ENOUGH of the world to bring out that pressure by dropping pseudo satisfaction cycles. This is what the functional effect of dopamine fasting and all this stuff does to your pressure cycles. It brings more vitality to the circuits to run up against the trash AKA illuminate it with purifying divine starlight shining down without a shred of mercy for your not self to be burned down.

Imagine a blinding ray of light blasting through your trash causing a camera shake effect from the sheer impacts of how powerful that divine light is. It's so powerful is shakes the ground and kicks up all the dust around you into the air slowing time for a brief moment as all your unconscious trash is consciously revealed and you know exactly who you are. You suddenly cut to a closeup of your face, off angle with a wide aspect ratio and your eyes go from closed to open in an instant with this blue flaming light piercing the screen with lens flairs with how much juice is flowing through your circuits. You call out with sheer power as an extension of that starlight blasting through your circuits as the pressure reaches the peak and your not self is blasted away and it explodes in an instant! Suddenly silence. Gravity returns to normal and the dust proverbially and literally settles. It's so quiet that it's eerie. You wake up in the dream and it's over.

Cool scene. You want illumination to emanate from you like you're a living embodiment of that power of God lighting up the trash of everybody around you? You want to draw everybody to you like a moth drawn to light unable to help themselves in the presence of your divine luster? Wear that divine luster like your only clothing. Stand naked on the stage of reality with this luster and glow that radiant illuminating starlight and clean the trash from everybody around you simply because you're so purified and functional that everything will just work out for you wherever you go. You've done the work, and thus you walk with God as one. God walks IN YOU and AS YOU THROUGH YOU AS ONE BEING. You have clear links to all macrocosmic effects and can perform literal miracles. This is the power of purifying starlight which we gain access to by overlapping states. This is all we need to do. You live to overlap states, not to be a good slave to your unconscious not self conditioning. You exist to slay that stuff without a shred of mercy. You are uncompromising, spontaneous expression of power in an instant and lightning fast clear decisions made from the one above all. HHIT training reflects this as it produces the most vitality in response from any method of breaking down your physiology. We don't have to assume this we KNOW this and it's OBVIOUS. Hold yourself accountable to operate as your true self, your most purified version. You're afraid of that power but it's there in capacity and eventually you will realize that. Why not go into that reference state, make that your end and branch off.

Reference your complete integration. That is the end. Do we see what the end looks like in the bigger picture? What is it functionally doing? It's a grater degree of going deeper into the overlap until it's integrated. Seeing living in the end as anything but going further into a degree of nourishing and purifying trash is just a limited scope you've got to view the end as more or less the degree to which you're going to expose yourself to purifying starlight and willingly accept natural striving fully. The implication simply represents the fulfilment of the compromise pattern under that pressure you feel when you're ACTUALLY there under correctly built context or a suggestion from an integrated place. The end from the integrated place is more or less simply you viewing the experience looking back at the contrast from being in that space and that's implied suggestion. If the contrast is there still as unconscious trash then the feelings will be felt in the way and that heightened awareness will be triggered to the degree that you'll willingly expose yourself to the exposure to being that way and feeling all the implications of being in the end to reflect what you'll need to let go of to accept this. DOES "the acceptance of the wish fulfilled' MAKE SOME DAMN SENSE NOW!? That's what NG defined as the feeling, the acceptance, which is the satisfaction of the conditions to the point where you've exposed yourself to the pressure and overlapped enough of your unconscious mind with starlight that it's done. It's cleaned out. Once it's cleaned it can't be uncleaned because you've passed that test, you've fulfilled that condition and now have an established link to that higher order level to wield that power, thus the so called feeling AKA "I can be this person" in naturalness is available to you without the contrast blocking that signal. Right there is the way this works. "I remember when" is placing yourself into deeper overlap and going to the end. NG spoke of go to the end under THIS context functionally but obviously FAILED TO explain it. HE FAILED SO BAD! To him it was suggestion, though I've fully decoded this stuff now and can present it in a format that makes sense and can link to practical terms which we can understand, if you get the language that is.

Best explanation of that I've done I think. So many levels I've gone through today. When I manifested my SP that night I went right to the end. To me the end wasn't anything extravagant in some far off event it was what I knew I needed to face and the implication which would bring the pressure through me to cut through. That's how I manifested the SP overnight. I felt all that trash through and denied any power it had over me because I was filed with the fury of life to destroy anything that got in my way. I feel that so much when I'm on big streaks. It's intense "screw you" energy and some of my clients feel this too. I don't believe that everybody resonates to this degree of functional egoic transformation on the level I'm talking about as some have affinity for a less egoic intensity. There's intensity, that's what matters, how it's experienced depends on your design functions but I will say that you will naturally land in this place when pressure hits a peak and needs to be faced. That attitude is how we will approach this. NG was all about love and gratitude and whatnot but I will say that to some level both ends of egoic owning of your trash to cut through it and transform it is necessary. Most clients I talk to tell me about transformations that happened through owning their ego in a functional way and accepting that they can have X thing/s and go all the way and that's how they drew the end to experience the process of sitting with the starlight. This is one of many ways it's not just the way I experience and sometimes I experience it as a more loving type with a sort of satisfied almost "let's go" attitude where it's like more casual intensity without the fury and passion being as powerful. The way you process this will be however you need to, and likely will correspond to the elemental dynamics of TCM that I've gone into before on earlier pages. Those dynamics likely relate to how you're moved to feel through it but I would need to study deeper into various case studies to prove this. No mater what you will feel what you need to feel when you viscerally place yourself into the end and welcome all the trash that comes up in the moment of heightened awareness where you'll be willing to sit under that starlight and let it burn out your trash. Just don't run away. Loop the scene means to stay in the light shining on the trash. It's so obvious what NG was teaching and yet failed to explain it in a useful way because how he explained it and spoke about how it's experienced almost nobody goes through and those who do are shut down as not doing it right.

Well screw you too! I know more than anyone on the NG forum about how NG taught manifesting and there's receipts right here to prove it. Come on lets see the response. Bring it on. 1.314 million words. pi. 2975 pages of work.

5/8/25

So it turns out YT (and probably other platforms) are in fact aware of there being masses of bots commenting on their platform. What a surprise. Remember FB also had admitted to this. I use to spend a lot of time browsing marketplace when I would be looking for good deals on stuff and let me tell you that even marketplace listings are very likely posted by bot accounts considering upwards of 30% of listings that I found had accounts that were created recently to the listing date and had no profile details. When you reach out to these people they don't respond in any useful way, or they're straight up scamming. It's like about 20% of the interactions on there are legit. Why would we assume that all these groups filled with so called success stories are legit and are just mindlessly affirmed quite literally out there into LOA space to set the expectations which never were realistic to begin with. It's so obvious. Pointing that out though, oh boy you're buying into apparent limiting beliefs, and there runs the solipsistic ideology of the law that has no laws.

I swear qi stagnation causes this narrow view it's not even QUANTITY but stagnation more so I believe. Quantity in significant lack obviously also causes narrow view but from my experience it seems stagnation causes it more than quantity but perhaps I'm just more than nourished enough to not notice the difference in contrast due to buffer. I know that the blood issue causes stagnation at baseline with me more easily and so when I consciously deliberately move it through then I get that "lighter" feeling to resistance where it's easier to transform. It's not even quantity fully in the sense of total available qi but also integration AKA having the higher order spillover into buffer. The spillover matters the most because you can feel juiced up for a bit but that won't manifest much until it's "sunk" in. I've talked about this before but there's cycles to which qi integrates and reaches buffer points. Same with the other substances. Qi is what cuts through dampness and crystalized trash though so that's why I'm focusing on this, If you're not deficient to a significant degree then obviously the way to go with expanding view width is qi circulation more than quantity because higher quantity that's stagnant causes heat and thus dysfunction like frustration and narrow view where the resistance will still seem big even if you approach it from that egoic perspective of heart.

You can almost describe more qi flow as time being slower and things being more "steady" and present. Your mind isn't jumping all over the place with this and that and whatever else.

Imagination is the intelligence of God manifest through the sensory level of awareness that exist within you. It's comprised of multiple components. You could argue that the imaginal senses themselves are the intelligences themselves being mediated through intent into forming thematic substance and stabilizing it or you could say it's also the interface between your lower consciousness and higher awareness too.

Said this before many times but feeling AKA the feeling of something and your relationship to it is an intuitive sense and as the alchemist also said it's based on intention as a function of intuition. Feeling is another way of targeting something even if you can't describe it fully, AKA a knowing of something without reason. That IS a higher feminine sense, subconscious sense thematically speaking. The realness with the senses simply builds context, awareness and width of surrounding themes. It doesn't always make more specific stuff happen that's more so for transformation sake. Feeling and cutting through unconscious trash. Feeling it real is something that should come through you for it to work reliably because it's available to you. So many times I've said this, and it cannot be faked without the nourishment there to facilitate that. This is why 95+% of people fail with manifesting, including myself at many times. Why? Because it's obviously not about sensory data and I can't stand ANYONE in this space who claims that. They'll backpedal when under pressure and say "oh no that's not what I meant" when they're called out yet that's how their massive profit margins rolled in for years. Feeling sense is targeting sense, and in extension intuitive knowing and for the most part that's going to happen spontaneously. The relief and satisfaction should be the feeling as the result of spending energy correctly. Most people who get SP manifestations do it under this context. Feeling can also to some level be body sensation, somatic stuff, the feeling of the visceral heightened awareness of the reality of experience but that in itself would likely be because you're INSIDE the subconscious ENOUGH to overlap the trash and since we know that the more overlap you have the deeper that starlight goes and the more trash surfaces that you're otherwise not conscious of. This is why it's so complicated to just give someone an A-Z process because some people might need more space on a surface level by building context and others need more depth by focusing on specific somatic stuff. There's levels to this that all function to process the level they're working with. As far as I know you can't process multiple levels at once with any method.

If you feel the desire is available then you've done it. That's satisfaction, relief, feeling, satisfied desire, unconscious clarity. It is available. Availability is what NG is talking about under the integration suggestion side of things. When clarity is there then this opens up. It's then done. Why? Because you've already cleared the pathways and those are firing as they're designed to, since they're likely already there within you. Clearing the pathways is really how you do this stuff. Outside of that then it's stability and naturalness but again that's a function of availability and qi circulation and other related ideas. Remember that when NG talks about the explosion method where you work yourself up that you become impotent at the end, AKA you've moved a LOT of qi through your circuits and flushed the trash out. Thing is that's also got levels. Just because you have an inner explosion doesn't mean it's done and I MUST be critical of NG here. If you're clear and you flush the circuits that are already operating well enough then obviously the satisfaction will linger and you'll not peak dip. Dysfunction and lack shows up due to deficiency and or stagnation or such themes where it doesn't feel available. Feeling availability isn't a one and done, it can be but that's rare, even for me. Most often there's unconscious layers deeper that need more visceral depth to transform and that's what the higher order work is doing to go deeper inside the subconscious level for deeper overlap and illumination of unconscious trash to cut through. The NG stuff technically is describing this but it's VERY vague as to the different levels here that you only learn exist through years of experience and critical thinking.

The biggest trip people have with the NG stuff is actually wasting energy in these artificial hype up imaginal moments. That's totally useless in 99% of the cases I've experienced it with. I can get stuff to show up that way at times but I will say the WAY it comes in is RARELY satisfying. That's only reflecting the fact that I spent more energy on this than I really had available and overdrew from the buffer. Feeling that relaxed satisfied nourished state results from buffer AND clarity of unconscious trash. The buffer would SEEK the unconscious trash if it's there otherwise and send you through the natural striving peak dip cycles. You're just wasting so much energy trying to do the NG hype yourself up method to try and get the explosion because enough clarity really needs to be available before that's accessible and it can take minimum of like 2-3 weeks to build that pressure up to feel it. How do I know this? Personal and client testimony. I still need more data on this to prove with 100% certainty because double digit sample size isn't very big but it's enough. I really need hundreds but I don't think that'll happen any time soon. Who cares though it's clear enough anyway. When you have something you've got high qi flow. Things slow down, it's like I described before. That's a higher state of function because you're nourished. I still believe that qi tonics CAN and WILL aid manifesting given the equivalent exchange of these themes and how they manifest. Either way no matter how you look at it when you're more natural towards something you've got stability. I've had clients who have unconscious resistance still present in their circuits but focusing on stability and dynamic gazing over the day without reacting as much as they can often brings in abundance more than otherwise not doing that, but that's not purifying to the same degree always either. It CAN be but I'd say it's slower than willingly facing the fire and cutting through the trash actively and making that your focus because that's ultimately where stability shows up naturally anyway. That's an expanding process in itself. Trying to dance around that is pointless and will never last long term. Relaxing more and being more stable as a deliberate willing attempt to manifest can bring stuff in but good luck facing pressure spontaneously when the contrast shows up and it throws you out of that and you won't be able to help it. You WILL dip eventually, though how you handle that matters. Why not live to transform the trash then so relaxation and satisfaction can unfold through you automatically? Looking back when I was at my most powerful in 2015 I had that stability always there it seemed along with the light and all that stuff so manifestations always showed up without effort. Thing is I never consciously tried to make specific stuff happen back then though but I do know that many things I was experiencing did reflect in my world but not all of that was belief stuff a lot of it was a sense of availability through regular gazing process and seeing myself as someone special with powers to view into other worlds and stuff which is how I operated genuinely back then. Never told anyone though.

We should also say that any degree of overlap is enough to transform resistance so long as it's deep enough to illuminate the trash,. Saying that "I will get X thing" is WAY more practical for most people than going ALL the way and throwing themselves in the deep end when they're still barely able to swim. The NG stuff is just throwing you in the deep end without floaties and people get lost and drown. The thing that matters is to not always be on this idea that deeper is better under this "live in the end" idea. That is NOT practical for a vast majority PLAIN AND SIMPLE. Overlapping ENOUGH to purify chunks of unconscious trash to cut through it is what matters. "I want X thing" and "I will get X thing" is going to work far more reliably to overlap trash and give you sufficient amounts of contrast to process with a wider view than trying to go ALLLLLL the way into the deep end. Yeah that's obviously better but most people aren't connected to their depth fully yet to get there and transform the trash. That's really what held me back thinking that I ALWAYS needed to go to the end above all else and you'd just be screwed if you didn't have enough vitality available to process it. If the baseline doesn't have ANY overflow into higher order substance then good luck with the end stuff, and I mean under the context of going ALL the way to the point of explosion like NG says. That's a fantasy for 99% of cases PERIOD. You will be mostly unable to even hold the heightened awareness inn that place enough to get explosion anyway. It's very difficult and relies on enough cultivation to work, All these fools who preach trash without experience don't get that because they haven't experiences what they're even talking about it's just common talking points to sound smart there's no unique critical thought to add something new and useful to the subject. We all know that.

"I'm way past this" is to me the best term to use to describe the happy medium between fully in the end vs stepping your toes in the kiddie peel. I believe that most people can work with this one and get places. Else you can say "I'm going to make this happen" and go where that takes you. It's about the degree of overlap that these phrases bring up in us, which of course determines the degree of exposure to unconscious trash we have.

I had to run back and forward over and over and over with these different ideas to even come close to refining them to this degree. Those receipts are right here. Imagination is basically everything that you are, all the components that you can interface with, on all levels. Imagination is consciousness arguably when you look at it like that, and functionally how we experience it is like an interface that provides us sensory level interaction vessels which contain intelligence which we can use to "play" consciousness like an instrument. The more expanded your space is the more of these parts of the interface you can access and have come through you spontaneously as insights. So called spiritual power and whatnot is that function at play.

Why do so many authors on the subject of LOA and psychological transformation in general have to make poetry out of this stuff and totally miss any practical connection to actual experience and the visceral embodied awareness that's involved in doing the work. They use these useless terms practically speaking to explain something. Utterly useless trash. Why can't these people actually say that X is what you can feel and when you feel Y do Z thing like how I've said when you feel pressure arise AKA a feeling of contrast to natural striving that's pulling you into false identification and security and I say to show that part of you what it needs through experience no matter how it feels. That's what cutting through it means. Why would it mean anything else? That's HOW you experience this stuff not some magical idea of "just feel it" which is TOTALLY USELESS for a vast majority of people because there's almost ZERO context as to how or why or whatever else. These people that tell you to JUST feel the somatic sensation or whatever it is they're talking about are taking the VERY slow approach to resistance dissolution. The real powerful way is to feel it under pressure that's WILLINGLY exposed to in a VISCERAL way, AKA facing pressure for real however you do that, The thing to understand about resistance dissolution is that it's all a function of illumination because processes that are greater than us clean it out as we overlap them. Lucky for us we have a pathway built in that's available which is the subconscious intuitive level. This is why the RS way of processing trash is SO POWERFUL. Why? Because you're going directly to the source of purifying light working this mechanism which bypasses any ideologies about how people believe it should or shouldn't be processed and gets you into the visceral nature of feeling all of it as much as is available to process at once. Why do all these psychological teachers and LOA buffs avoid working in the world to expose yourself under pressure to experiences that you KNOW will be purifying. Why is it always avoiding the harsh reality of experience under direct pressure? Too soft. Divine starlight isn't soft, it's merciless and ruthless in how it tears you to shreds and burns out the trash. it's just that the greater yin subconscious intelligence limits how much you access because it doesn't want to literally blow you up in an instant because it needs you to expand. If that illuminating power was run through you at 1000000000 amps and you had 24 gauge wire then you'd be screwed and those proverbial cables would melt instantly and probably explode instantly combusting the moment that current moves through it. You'd be the same. Subconscious intelligence drives how much you get shot through you, and that intelligence KNOWS if you're trying to bypass and trick it by pretending you're standing in the illuminating starlight or not. You can have one foot in and one foot out and still benefit but it'll be slower and that's how most of what's taught is being taught. Yeah if you feel it you'll benefit but it's so painfully slow and unresponsive that it's not even worth it. The spontaneous insights are what we target. To get to that point we really must be willing to face the fire to the degree that we can go all the way,

Just had a BSOD and lost like a half hour of work. Wonderful.

When you do IFS type stuff and you get to know the nature of the resistance you're just exposing it to more illuminating current. Remember that greater process is what dissolves our trash not us. We just allow that exposure to move through us and we cut through the trash by not allowing it to prevent us from operating correctly and spending energy correctly. Why do these people always try and tell us that we should make friends with the resistance? It's literal trash, even the alchemist calls unconscious conditioning "garbage" the same way I call it trash and will continue to. It's literally dysfunction we shouldn't be trying to make friends with the trash in our psyche. If you find that works then have fun but I don't see how many people benefit from this. Some may argue that's a "higher awareness" perception of it but I'd beg to disagree. It's more or less you're simply becoming aware of it and making friends with it to not give it the same degree of importance, meaning it's not going to prevent naturals striving the same way by taking it off the pedestal. That's just another way of doing this work that can work obviously but you still need to make correct decisions that fulfil what you're avoiding in natural striving. You can make friends with it all you like but when things get real and the pressure arises where you're needing to make those spontaneous decisions then hesitating and buying into the "oh what if X person thinks badly of me" and you feel that contraction so you don't follow natural striving and you suffer. When things get real is when the work is revealed, your responses to life. How you respond to life moment to moment determines the clarity you operate from at baseline. I did all the making friends with it years ago thinking that this would change the game for me but nope all it did was keep me forever making friends with it instead of getting real with myself and doing what I KNEW I needed to do to get over my trash.

With the making friends stuff the best way to really approach it is more so to understand what it's WANTING PROOF OF to satisfy that condition. What is it that this aspect of your psyche need to dissolve. It needs you to fulfil the condition it represents. Also remember that just because it feels like it's unwinding importance for a moment when you make peace with it doesn't mean it's not going to come up when things get real. All you're doing is managing pressure somewhat more efficiently instead of actually transforming the trash under pressure because that's where the REAL shifts happen. Even the alchemist considers a vast majority of what's taught on this stuff in the psychological space to be simply "stress management" more than anything else and not actually alchemically transformational. These people in the IFS spaces and stuff will say that when you make friends with the resistance it'll give you insight and tell you what it needs. Yeah that's valid but once again knowing that doesn't transform it. Being there for it and seeing it like a child that you're coddling isn't transforming it. It CAN on some levels but all the experience I've been through with this only leads to at best a lessening of importance when it shows up because you're more familiar with it, which is good, but the pressure still exists and needs to be cut through, They'll say when you get this insight it'll be like "I want safety" or "I want love" or "I need help" or something as though the child inside you is calling for you to pay attention. Remember that's simply shining illuminating starlight, purifying current, cleansing blue fire. It's all the same stuff. When it's illuminated under pressure it's being seen, you're fulfilling the condition by giving it what it wants really, or what the inner truth needs you to experience more correctly that the not self dysfunction is overlaying false conditioning over the top of for you to avoid experiencing this thing. It's LITERALLY a dysfunction, any insight you gain is NOT from the resistance itself but from the inner truth that's UNDERLYING the resistance. It's that the real you under that trash is calling out for help, it's WANTING you to cut through the trash to purify it. None of these people in the psychological space seem to get that. Why? Because they're all programmed by the same cultish attitude that has a cosmology that things work the way they describe it does and that's that. It's backed by billions of $ and is involved in being seen in a certain prestige, not that it works but it's more so about being "professional" which is a load of nonsense. These people are trained in all the same ways there's next to no critical thinking and that's why I am critical of most because I've been through this stuff and much more to know the difference. I am NOT knocking the method but I am recognizing the effectiveness they claim it has and how it's propped up as a valid method to manifest stuff. Nonsense. The valid method is being yourself without compromise. That's how you really transform your life and make magi work. We all know that intuitively anyway but don't trust it. Just do it.

All you need to do is just do it. Trust inner truth. I've said all this on video. What in that language leaves room for interpretation? People might think their not self conditioning is inner truth, and sometimes that can be the case I will agree, though what I will say is that inner truth more often than not is experienced as a repeating theme that arises that you are granted opportunities to experience the fulfilment of but continue to run from it. It's intuitively felt often if you're really disowning it and it's subtle but it's there, those decisions YOU want to make not the ones others in your life want to make and that's mostly why I consider resistance to be "false expectations to be someone you're not" and the inner truth is who you want to be, the decisions YOU want to make and to OWN. Going through THAT is how I manifested my SP overnight. I clearly remember what I had come up and what I did to get through it.

I also want to speak on how when doing the IFS stuff and you're basically doing pathway leading to some extent that you have a spontaneous visual show up. That is because if you do have that it's you're expanding width. That's why it CAN work as I've said though that's less common than they'd make out. Try it for yourself if you don't believe me, though the more expanded you already are the more reliable it will be for you I will say. Basically all not self conditioning it telling you that you need to be someone you're not to stay safe, and sometimes that can be an overachiever like my conditioning was.

I was the most intelligent at my school by insane amounts back in the day being way ahead of basically everybody. This was partly because I had expectations on me to be that way by my parents, and while it got me places it never satisfied me. My parents used my intelligence to show off how good they were and it wasn't about me. They used me as their item to show off. Unless I performed the best I wasn't as valuable. Straight A's were the expectation so of course I manifested that to stay safe along with other stuff. That shaped me so deeply that to this day it seems I carry some still as that's the only reason that I even created RS to begin with to utterly eradicate the ignorant trash in this space the way I did with the physics space and the history sphere and other stuff around that years before. Everything I did was the best and needed to be perfect, else it's not worth. I still feel bits of that with me today to be honest but I also consider that part of my integrity to truth and fact so it's not something I have an unhealthy relationship with. I didn't perform back then in school for me it was to not get spoken to about my grades in bad ways. This is different. I don't have that false expectation now. This is why I view resistance and not self conditioning as false expectations because that's how they're experienced. Critics will say that this is too coloured based on my own experience but the fact is that it's this way with pretty much everybody. There's naturals thriving then there's resistance towards that. Period. Resistance is called that because there's vector the current is propagating through around a conductor (really it's between conductors if we're technical here because conductors only act as spatial boundaries for fields to propagate as a medium without attenuation which is why wires are used for transverse wave forms) has a degree of aetheric friction that different materials have and so the more friction the substrate that carries the signal has the more attenuation over distance there will be of voltage and thus signal integrity is ruined. This is what the telegraph equation is for created by Heaviside, someone I studied extensively back then among others. All those people made fun of the idea of particles carried on conductors and saw the field existing between conductors in polyphase systems. That's also how I got into matrix and versor math to explain this stuff because they both describe the same phenomena interestingly enough. Most people who come into LOA are NOT technically minded like I was where I had experience in system architecture before then when it came to IT and whatnot. I use to study the different data busses on processors and memory controllers to understand how computer science worked before I even knew that was a subject to study, not that it ever got me anywhere. All I can say is I've got experience in so many different things and I was so young at the time. That obviously meant that I didn't have a life outside of my study and that was where most of my suffering came from. It sucked so bad. I had an insanely expanded mind but nothing else. Never had any romantic relationships that lasted long and it was always just tastes of that stuff for most of my younger life which probably cut me the most. All this work I did was seemingly for nothing. I was broke and hated money because of disgusting filthy little Jew bankers and that led me to even further suffering and poverty for a while where I ended up at the edge of digging holes in the forest and was going to live in a DIY shelter to avoid needing money to pay bills just to have somewhere to sleep. That's what happened to me. I had a full setup that I could carry with me on my 85L Bergen that I'd carry around and I'd plan to live off grid fully and totally disconnect from the system that wanted to destroy me. I held an insane amount of anger that it made my liver condition even worse. Every somewhat competent naturopathic doc told me that I had anger issues and I did because I hated EVERYTHING about how this world was built to destroy our vitality. That is in fact true, it is, but that's there to expand us not destroy us. It's the necessary pressure to force transformation. That's why I say these things, because once again as someone who's still very young but has a wide range of experiences I speak from experience that's very wide and deep. Nothing much about my life has been "normal" really it's been pretty crazy, but in a different way than most would consider a "crazy" life to be. I had success in a very different way.

The only reason I got here instead of living under a tree stuck in life is because of the hope LOA gave me that I COULD manifest the life I wanted. I WANTED these things even if I didn't feel like I felt worth them and that was the wake up call I needed which is why I'm so insanely passionate about destroying everything about how we're being exploited in life by the false paradigms of manifestation and I've dedicated my time to figuring out these seemingly impossible questions.

More about IFS. When they tell you to "be with the feeling" and you're ACTUALLY there with it as in you're literally interacting with the intelligence of that part of your psyche you're doing a sort of theurgy type process where you're going inside yourself and playing with the stuff that's there. Thing is that without sufficient expansion this isn't very useful because the ability to hear and see and have insight depends on that availability of subconscious depth. Many people don't have that baseline. This is another barrier which holds back people and explains often why most people who do this stuff and expect to receive insights spontaneously don't get them. It's either not time yet or they're not expanded enough INSIDE the subconscious level to interface with the unconscious trash because being inside the subconscious means there's more overlap of the conscious and unconscious by default through illuminating starlight consciously expanding and widening the view to receive those intuitive insights so the mechanics simply are that when someone does IFS correctly and they hold awareness on the feeling they're simply doing deeper into overlap. This as I said CAN be very powerful in the right conditions but still is a very repetitive process that often will not result in the same depth that something like gazing can pull out of you spontaneously as well as open up the sight. IFS works on the same ripeness mechanics as anything else. The more subtle trash you clear the deeper you can get until the critical threshold is crossed and spontaneous insight shows up. It really is spontaneous, which is why there's no "forced release" method. Doesn't exist. It's all about getting to the overflow effect with the nourishment to build buffer and apply that correctly where spontaneous insight can naturally show up when you least expect it. The same goes with what NG says. Explosion in imaginal acts are spontaneous. Anyone telling you they have a magic method to force stuff are lying to you. There are methods that can force feelings to fully show up but they're going to fry your circuits and melt your connections. I've spoken to someone who did that. Not fun. The method that can do this is EMDR by the way. Be careful with that one. It forces heightened awareness AKA throwing you DEEP into vast overlap in an instant.

Techniques of going there and bringing there here now and the idea of the end and living there now and that God is here now and you already have it, all of that is just shifting you into deeper overlap in an instant to create a moment of heightened awareness and this does what I wrote about a few weeks ago about almost "shocking" yourself and waking up in the dream in the sense of self of being that person. Thing is most of the time holding awareness there is next to impossible for most people. The more you CAN live there the more purifying starlight you'll expose yourself to and thus transform not self trash because overlapping unconscious with conscious means you're more inside subconscious. Whenever unconscious space is cleared the more the conscious overlaps the unconscious and that overlap IS the subconscious space. The baseline is what manifests when applied through suggestion. So when you're going all the way and doing what any of these other so called LOA gurus are talking about is THIS. I've explained it in a way that's actually mechanical and a way that actually is practical and visual and QUANTITATIVE because we can understand what being MORE in the end feels like and how that's experienced vs less. I MEAN COME ON WE'VE EXPLAINED IT ALL RIGHT HERE HAVE WE NOT!

Need to write that damn book before someone tries to rip off my work. Can't reinvent the wheel, though I probably could if I had to. Screw limits I make and break those limits.

The IFS stuff tries to box up spontaneous insight. Gazing leaves it open fully. Gazing is by far superior. Gazing is the way to reach the depths naturally and spontaneously and can scale no matter where you're at. When you master gazing and open the inner vision you've got a new level to work with that's now available. None of these other systems come close.

Whatever makes you feel uncomfortable that you know you need to go through. Own it. Fulfil the conditions so that they don't hold importance.

What's my top formula from TCM for vitality? Gui Pi Tang granulated formula from KPC. Have fun.

Want the age reversal for reals. How do you do it? Kill your not self. That's what's causing aetheric drag and burning Jing. How do you kill the not self? You cut through it when it becomes conscious. Good thing is that gazing cuts through it automatically because of the way it works. Intensity. Ruthlessness. No flakiness we go all out. That's how you become immortal and become the living embodiment of reality itself to integrate all aspects of your capacity. This is how you become faster than light, literally.

I want to make this CLEAR as day to everybody here. This is the thing nobody wants to hear but NEEDS to hear. Even I need to hear this a lot. BE WILLING AND OK TO "FAIL" OVER AND OVER! Now that doesn't mean you're doing it wrong per say, but that you're going to gradually shift bit by bit through exposure to divine starlight moment to moment when opportunities arise to transform and be OK with things not TURNING OUT THE WAY YOU EXPECT. That's really why I put fail in quotations. It's that basically we can laugh at our outcomes that don't turn out like we imagined, and be able to say "that's fine I'm moving through this I'm not stuck" because you actually faced pressure. This is the biggest issue people have when they face pressure. They see unfavorable outcomes (not in terms of how you FEEL but WHAT happens) which show up IN RESPONSE TO FACING PRESSURE (THE MOST IMPORTANT PART HERE) and think that this proves that feeling pressure and cutting through it means bad things happen. THIS ISN'T ALWAYS TRUE! Sometimes it is but it doesn't always end up this way, but when it does it can be demoralizing though those who have a wider view recognize that this work is step by step and not one feeling changes the whole world. It's something that we should be WILLING to face seeming negative outcomes and this is why I've even said in my videos that if the outcome ends up not being what you expected but you realized out of that that you can in fact be more of yourself anyway then that's what we need to gain from this. You made an AUTHENTIC decision. If you decide to pour out all the trash and rebel against all the nonsense you've accepted in your life and cut out a ton of people without mercy then go for it and own it. If you face backlash then be ok with that, be ok with having negative responses from people as a result. Be ok with losing friends, family, whatever. That's not ideal obviously but it's whatever if it needs to be that way. So what. Big deal. It's not important to hold onto in YOUR path towards immortality. You follow natural striving and nothing anybody else thinks you need to do. That is your pathway towards immortality that's built into your own psyche.

People who actually get places go at it OVER AND OVER AND OVER. This notebook is a testament to my personal refinement of RS for everybody to see here. These ideas have been refined so much over the years and it's been crazy to look back and see the transformation and amount of doubt I had to go through to get here. I had to face a LOT of doubt to get here don't mistake that. I didn't KNOW for SURE other than to trust my feeling sense that something was correct. I knew it within me but my mind didn't know. I trusted, I walked in that dark space and I felt the doubt and I said no I can do this I can be the best in this space just like I've been the best everywhere else to the best I can be. It's always the same process I am so familiar with this now it's crazy. You think you understand it before but looking back you feel the difference in correct orientation. That's the sign of progress.

Things will get "worse" before they get better and when you're facing the fire and I mean the depths of that purifying blue fire of life you WILL feel like bailing out to not feel that pressure but this part of you that KNOWS there's more to go through will GIVE YOU THE ENERGY TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN! You're supported in this by your higher functions. The alchemist has said this too, about how flow doesn't mean things always go well but it means you're becoming more individuated and facing an insane amount of pressure and trash coming up and thrown in your face on a regular basis AND BEING OK WITH THAT is the sign of A FREAKING WINNER!!!!!! That right there is someone who's uncompromising and unrelenting and merciless. That stuff should be my known series of phrases that relate to what it's like to DO Reality Synthesis. Doing this work is being involved in that, How the heck else can it be done?

If someone feels like a loser and yet they want this person, what should they do? They shouldn't fake being some high and mighty person who's past all the trash what they should do is bring awareness to what it would feel like to be in that place for real and get to that place of heightened awareness and under the pressure under the limited trash which is in that contextual mix with that wider view move deeper into that overlap and imagine an experience which to them would expose them to that pressure the most and yet still experience what they KNOW they need to experience to feel natural towards this thing. Say you don't want to be seen with a certain person by your family because of how they'll cast judgement and you're avoiding that and it's causing relationship issues. Imagine yourself showing off your relationship to them and NOT CARING ONE DAMN BIT WHAT THEY DO OR DON'T SAY BECAUSE THAT'S YOUR BUSINESS! Get real here go into that heightened awareness and build that contextual environment. Bring up ALL the trash you're UNWILLING to normally face and WILLINGLY face it here and now. Bring it ALL up and overlap those states. Widen the view. Expand into the subconscious and build the pressure to a peak. Feel all that trash to the point of agonizing torturous pain where you just can't take more and dwell there and LOOP THAT EXPERIENCE AND CUT THROUGH IT. NO I CAN BE ME I CAN I"M WAY BEYOND THIS NOW I'M SO FAR PAST THIS IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY! Cast yourself into the fire and hold not a shred of mercy on your trash. BURN IT ALL TO THE GROUND. That's what I did when I manifested my SP overnight. FALL ASLEEP IN THAT FURY! Don't be afraid of feeling this stuff own who you are and don't play these false identity games of pseudo satisfaction where you're artificially hyping yourself up in a vacuum and hope the bubble of false comfort doesn't pop, because it will and you KNOW that. Right there is the attitude that NG talked about. The RADICAL shift in attitude, quoting him directly. Right there is how this is done. A RADICAL SHIFT. Merciless, unrelenting, UNCOMPROMISING! Do you see how you break trash down now. That intensity matters. Suggestion is more so about stability and whatnot, but that's not going to have a radical purifying effect.

The above experience of facing the fire is MAXIMUM purification and suggestion is all about stability and steadiness and spontaneous power ready to be bursty. Being bursty is powerful spontaneous impression, suggestion, request to higher genius, God. Your imagination. It can happen with simple intent. "I want X" and let it be so. Spontaneous suggestion and because you're clear it can be left as a suggestion. That's the ONLY way you can "drop" the so called seed, which is already there. Having clarity opens up the capacity to drop the seed. Clearing the ground is facing the fire. Facing the fire makes the ground fertile and ready to be impressed, suggested, impacted. That's how you manifest dammit not this utter TRASH propagated by all the IGNORANT MORONS on this LOA space.

Go tell them I send my regards. They're about to have a big wakeup call when they begin to be overshadowed by the most hardcore manifesting theory ever created and ever will be. This is Reality Synthesis. Come get some.

I desire nothing more than to utterly rip these false teachings to shreds until there's nothing left but dust that's been scattered in the wind. That FURY is very real. Sleep in it and manifest the shift overnight. Don't fear your power. Overlap those states and realize your immortality. This is why you exist. What else even matters. Nobody else's opinion matters. Do the work. You know it all.

6/8/25

Once again proven that qi circulation matters more than quantity. There's a quality to vitality that relates to qi circulation and this actually makes more sense than quantitative measurement. I've manifested a shift in lost of different ways over this last week or so just by working this aspect more. It's more so that the heart qi is clear to flow and turn that meridian like a waterwheel with more pressure running through the channel which manifests as that psychological charisma. Made moves I'd not have spontaneously made before. It was effortless, came through without contrast, or at least very little contrast where it didn't matter. Having experienced this and now knowing HOW to make that happen (which I've also used before at times too and had an idea of this mechanism) it's clear to me too that qi movement is like water in a stream and each meridian are like dynamos. You almost can't help BUT make moves without those somatic sensations of lack in that visceral way showing up to greet you as the contrast. You find yourself smiling more, laughing more, holding rock solid eyes on eyes, having a spring in your step, all that fun stuff. It's more childlike. I believe that my experiments with long term qi cultivation in the sense of quantity was helping but not to the degree it could due to stagnations that I've been able to clearly move. It's something that isn't psychological really in how you apply it, and I'd still argue that the most effective way of clearing dampness and crystalized trash in the circuits is to simply face pressure. That gets your juice moving most easily else you'd not feel the unconscious trash come up if there wasn't starlight present. This after effect is like basking in the radiant glow of the light that bounces around the room instead of being in direct contact with it. You've opened the window more and the global illumination effect radiates the light through the room lighting up more of what was already there in the darkness. This only happens through widening the curtains open more to allow more light to spill into the room and flood your perception with light. That's what it's like.

There's more naturalness to "hold" living in that expanded width. It's like your baseline enables this degree of width to be available and not because you're putting effort or whatever to hold it. This is the IGNORANT TRASH that most people who follow NG throw out there and like the rest who follow them pander to without experience of what they're bla bla bla-ing on about which I consider brain spew of the highest order, Utter trash it's so dumb. Anyone telling you that you have to use energy to feel good is screwing with you and has no idea what they're talking about. The baseline availability shifts through clearing the not self trash out of the way. That's how this works. Screw all that ignorant nonsense peddled by the rest. The glow is real. Every time you put effort into feeling good without feeling an after effect from spending energy correctly you will dip to correct the compromise you're continuing to buy into.

One of the most powerful beliefs to target is around being seen. Master this and you master most of your unconscious resistance because at least from my experience and from what many people tell me they had levels of this to face that went deeper than they expected. It's usually that you don't feel safe to be exposed being yourself. Nobody wants to do what they want because of being seen and perceived under that light. I remember when I was VERY VERY young that I'd consciously and willingly dumb myself down at times to appear like I'm not how I was uncomfortable with being seen and thus I compromised and built up an identification which screwed me many times being uncomfortable with what I wanted. It was just this absolute trash that kept showing up and I'd run into it and avoid the pressure over and over. Every opportunity that presented itself was something to run from and hide away in my comfort zone. Those comfort zones are what we need to be exposing and stepping outside of it. Revealing that there is in fact a comfort zone and to burn it to the ground whiteout a shred of mercy is the way to go. Burn the damn bridge forever and never look back. Feel the agonizing torment of dying and allow it to happen. Allow yourself to feel all that trash surface and transform it without compromise.

Last night when I did advanced gazing I shed tears because I was being torn apart and my body was literally convulsing with these waves of energy pulsing through me. It was very intense. It comes up spontaneously and you can't avoid it, though usually it happens when you feel it coming as though you sense something big is about to happen and it makes you feel the need to stop the session and move away but you sit through that fear and it cleans you out. It's merciless when it destroys your not self trash so why should we hold mercy on utterly eradicating filth from our circuits? Why should we compromise? Because we're afraid we compromise. Are you scared of success? Are you scared of being seen as who you desire to be? Are you a little coward who's still not grown up yet? The child in you who wants to feel safe from being seen still hasn't learned the harsh lesson in reality and that there's really no need to feel scared. All the IFS buffs love to baby the baby within, to coddle the child, though when I tried to coddle the inner child it only revealed to me that I'm not worth what I want because I'm giving it space to expand more without running up against it with pressure to not compromise. The harder I went in disciplining my inner child with the cold hard truth and teaching it that there's nothing to be scared of by just DOING WHAT I KNOW I NEEDED TO EXPERIENCE then the child would chill and stop chucking hissy fits whenever pressure would arise and I'd be able to dissolve the contrast. This is how the east handles this type of stuff usually. Not everybody needs to deal with it that way to be most efficient I'll be honest but I find those cases to be more rare and when those heartfelt moments arise they will show up spontaneously in gazing and such. IFS targeting stuff isn't special, that stuff comes out in gazing too. I will simply say that if you're doping gazing and disciplining your child while making correct decisions day to day then you'll get places because you're targeting all the levels. You're showing yourself that you can be yourself without compromise and often that leads to even more insights spontaneously arise in gazing. I find that when I've gone through high pressure scenarios my gazing is more intense, often, not always but often.

In my experience, the only thing that imaginal scene work can do for you over physically transforming trash when comfort zones come up to transform by you WILLINGLY facing them is that you can target stuff that you can't physically access to bring it up in you. Really the physical experience side of things to transform not self trash only goes so far if we're real but it goes far enough that pretty much everybody can transform deep resistance here anyway. I've done it and proven that over and over, and most people I coach with who aren't resistant to this idea (you'd be surprised how many don't want to do this which also proves my point about people avoiding pressure and staying in boxes because it's easy) actually are THANKFUL to my suggestion to move them into those uncomfortable experiences and transform their trash. It's abundantly clear. I was just thinking about this while I was out earlier today again about how when people face pressure in the world when circumstances arise (which can also happen in RESPONSE to imaginal stuff to provide a pathway for further refinement which is why I made a video on that and yet that still flew under the radar for most people) they're almost always going to feel a somatic sensation try and suck them into narrow view. It pretty much forces your view to narrow because that's what it IS arguably, the somatic sensation is the unconscious level being illuminated in response to that current being available for transformation. Just go all the way. The more you face pressure willingly the faster you transform. This accelerates the process of transforming unconscious trash. How do you know it's working? Your default reactions to the same context shifts FIRST and then you'll notice people responding differently. People target the people changing as signs but in reality it's that you will notice yourself changing first. You can look at the same circumstances that before would make you feel lack and now they don't feel bad at all or at least very little.

What more needs to be understood? How do I manifest what I want? NG himself said that your reactions determine the outcomes. Your reactions are the default response based on who you're being that comes through you which is the measure of your thematic composition in higher or lower states of order. When your state is higher and you're more functional and awareness is wider. Remember this isn't about emotional feeling but simply capacity of perception to experience more clarity at once vs narrow view which is really what "higher consciousness" is because you're the higher order process driving the lesser components proportionately as one process. So if we have wider view, we have dissolved the contrast by allowing purifying light to burn out the trash and we bathe in the effects of that (which happens naturally as satisfaction from spending vitality correctly of course) which unfold AS naturalness of being "the person you desire to be now". It's available to you, the link is clear. If the link is clear then what else is left? Clarity. Clarity and width of experiencing yourself completely without contrast and compromise. No satisfaction and somatic resistance telling you that you can't have X thing or be X person or whatever. You can simply suggest and accept it. NG said the feeling is the "acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled" but we know this as KNOWING that it's available which CANNOT be forced it must become the BASELINE CONDITION that you operate from. People think that manifesting methods provide knowing but in fact they can't and all you can do is bring up trash to transform to clean the link to establish that condition of clarity to unfold THROUGH you spontaneously in response. This is the delusion of modern LOA based on purely ignorant nonsense. Nobody has to believe this, because it's undeniable. Every level is connected directly to experience we can go through and verify THIS law. This is law, real law, alchemical function of overlapping states to illuminate not self trash and establish clear links to your higher order nature. This is why you exist. PERIOD. From top to bottom the RS cosmology fully explains everything about consciousness and every part that the majority of us can experience.

Feels so satisfying going through this stuff and connecting things in slightly more refined ways. It's like that exponential curve. You start off slow and barely even see progress and then you reach critical levels of release of trash and it becomes more easy than not because of the flow.

We should just view this whole process more or less like spending vitality correctly over anything because that's principally what's happening anyway. You're being yourself. The resistance is just the level of visceral compromise we get sucked into because it's there to narrow the view, but if there was no narrowing of view we'd just be making decisions as ourselves spontaneously regardless anyway. There wouldn't be any of this contrast and hesitation and stuff it would just be intuitive impulse and your spontaneous response, but there's no expansion in that so we're designed the way we are to facilitate this. We get the opportunity to become the vessel for this power. "Screw this trash I'm way past this". Get use to saying such stuff to yourself, in whatever language you use it doesn't matter. Just make correct decisions, spend vitality where it's being driven to be spent without holding it back from unfolding THROUGH you. You become the embodiment of that thematic current. I've talked about this ages ago on immortality talk but this is the function we have within us in capacity and the only way to actually thus manifest what we desire is for us to literally become the conduit for transformation to play out THROUGH us. You making correct decisions no matter what is the work. Imaginal experiences simulate this and the better you get at this sense of release and letting go of trash and moving through the pressure the easier things will be physically too, and vice versa generally because it's really the same mechanisms. Grow some and get to work. That's how you lv up for real. Can't frame it any other way because most people out there simply want to coddle the uncomfortable parts and validate them, which that has times and places, but it's wayyyy too overblown in how important that work is. Radical transformation involves fury. Blazing fury, passion, desire to expand and the WANTING to face the trash to get what's on the other side. BOOM right there is the sensation that people live from often when they're getting what they want even if they're not "in the end" because all this live in the end stuff is also way overblown. Yeah that's a part of it and it has function too but you're not always going to be able to stand under such intense overlap for long. Most of the time you're overlapping ENOUGH to expand and that's what matters.

This is what flow is about. You're consistently overlapping and facing pressure and feeling that natural cycle of peak dip but it's not artificially stimulated and the dips are processed instead of reactions to heavy compromise in the self correction cycle. This is the way it works for most people. It's real and we know this. We experience this. That's what RS is based on, actual experiences that we all go through and that's why it works.

You shamelessly be yourself without giving a damn. That's what individuation is and the reason you exist. That is manifestation. Nothing else. There is nothing else. That IS the law. Clarity and suggestion. Period. If you think otherwise then refute the 3000 pages of work I've done here to explain this systematically. Good luck have fun! :)

If you go all the way with this you WILL manifest suggestions well. The difficult part is NOT the suggestion because that can happen easily the difficult part is clarity and feeling through the underworld journey. That's the pressure underlying expansion. Expansion into integration of those components leads to clarity and availability. IT'S SO OBVIOUS! How the heck else do you become worthy of something? You cut through the trash and own it. PERIOD. You face the trials and you come out the other side genuinely a different person who responds differently to the world and you value your vitality more than before meaning you're not going to compromise and feel unsatisfied and buy into the false expectation pseudo satisfaction conditioning processes that sucked the life out of you before. THAT IS WHY THIS WORK LEADS YOU TOWARDS IMMORTALITY! If that's not like crystal clear beyond comprehension now then I have no idea how much more I need to explain this page has it all.

How do you manifest literal magical superhuman power? You die. That's how. You face the most agonizing torment that's buried deep within your psyche and transform the only barriers to that infinite power. Why do you age? Because there's unbelievable unimaginable agonizing torment unfolding right now deep within your unconscious mind. It's right there just waiting to be brought to the surface but those personifications absolutely exist. Illuminating that will be the only way to become immortal.

If you don't have your SP it's probably because you feel uncomfortable being in experiences you WANT to be in but are denying yourself because of that discomfort. Cut through the trash. How does imaginal experience work here? You simulate the experience to experience the pressure and transform it to the degree you have capacity for. Simple. There's no magic required to explain this. If you transform the pressure that somatic response won't exist within your nervous system in reaction to intuitive impulse arising to signal movement. If that pressure isn't there then you will make that movement spontaneously, and thus you will be moved (NG said you'll "feel compelled") and thus "manifest" it as if it's magic. The people who claim it's all mind magic are freakin morons to be honest. Apparently ALL manifestation so called is magic, and yeah if you really want to look at it from a principle perspective I guess you could make a case for that but that's NOT what they actually mean in how they see it. It's validating an idea to sell stuff. That's what this all is. The REAL magic happens through theurgy process which you should know all about by now.

Making magic happen. Theurgy. Conversation with higher genius who is "God". Your source of emanation which is your bottleneck for the infinite supply of the totality of all things imaginable, this is where all your power manifests and comes from. That is your supply. You are a simulacrum of the totality of all and higher genius is one of those components. The alchemist says we have 21 components, I believe based on what I've heard him say. These are different states of consciousness, degrees of width we can experience of awareness to open us up to higher order and individuation. Existing as a greater process which drives other processes means you can suggest as a personified representation or manifestation of the thematic connection happening on that higher order function. The language is a translation of the thematic processes intelligently mediating how you're intending, which is a subconscious sense which represents structure and form of course. This is how all these states connect, based on what I currently understand. I believe there are in fact higher order states above this that I have yet to fully grasp but for practical purposes they're not needed for what 99.9999% of uses will be outside of superhuman type stuff.

Understanding the deeper dynamics of superhuman ability is something I believe is really what's next in store for me really. I've explored mountains of LOA type manifestation data and gone over pretty much everything. I don't know if there's more levels to uncover but I'm at that level again or at least that's how it feels in this moment. I can't go deeper.

Whenever I feel a sense of lack around something I immediately go to the perspective of being seen with it and shamelessly owning this part of me in any way I can experience to imply that I'm in that end place. Remember the implication represents both suggestion AND the depth of overlap that's going to bring up unconscious trash to transform. The subconscious space we have at baseline makes unconscious trash processable by the conscious which is why I say that being super narrow at baseline with stuck qi and whatnot is only going to limit the degree to which you can go all the way into deep overlap. I wish I knew this when I was younger, I really do, like if I was 15 and started off with this study and came across my own work and resonated to study deeper where I'd realize that pretty much everything out there is just nonsense, that would change everything. The allure of LOA is that it's mental and thought based, mentalism. UTTER IGNORANCE! You cannot manifest with your mind in a vacuum outside of suggestion work when in higher states AKA deeper overlaps of higher order substances which gazing is your best bet to access. The NG SATS stuff as in a deliberate imaginal scene in a near subconscious level of overlap is a sort of hack to get you closer to the suggestion level but the fact is that when you do this stuff you'll still only manifest stuff that will reflect to you who you're accepting you can be in life as in you'll only go as far with manifestation this as the clarity will take you. This is why I rail against NG and the trash he promoted without explaining that we need clarity first, or in whatever language he'd use. Please explain to me where in the work of NG across his entire career does he VERY CLEARLY explain this dynamic? If he knew about this stuff so clearly then why not talk about it? Well we know why. Many different reasons of course but it's not what he taught mostly because he seemed to think that everybody was on that same level as he was which is just stupid. Even back in his day he received criticism from other metaphysicians for this very point which is why I mention that. I've already mentioned Israel Regardie and how he said that it's only because NG was a dancer that this was so easy to him because of his connection to the unconscious which obviously matters for many obvious reasons but there's other levels to this too, either profit based or just plain ignorance. Anyone with a large enough data set would see people not getting what they imagined if they're doing it under this idea of artificially hyping yourself up thinking that's manifesting in the so called "state of the wish fulfilled" but it's really not it's just cope, it's a drug. That's why you suffer in peak dip cycles with temporary results and you never feel satisfied. Why? Because you're still not the supply. Until you BECOME the supply within you then you've got no chance at making this work and we know that.

Can we go deeper with this than what NG spoke about? Obviously we can, and that in itself in my opinion invalidates the work that NG did. Why do I say that? Unless we're talking about resonance to the subjective synthesis that NG preaches then there's no deeper value to his methods for a VAST MAJORITY of people. PERIOD. Want proof of this? Look around. Pay attention. Be honest and real. It doesn't work, and I said that on video and got masses of people being critical of me for pointing out obvious facts because they're such children and can't handle the pressure of being wrong. Getting to this level took years, many years of DAILY pressure mediation OVER AND OVER it's not something that you can just pick up one afternoon. Most people who were critical of that comment have no idea about how much data went into the decision in saying that as fact. How do you push through the bias of the LOA NG community? You can't, not until they're ready. The harder you trigger their trash the more they'll reject you unless they're ready and ripe enough to move on. I need to just move on with this stuff and play games with people on the front end of RS with the YT and stuff promoting programs from a general LOA sense and GRADUALLY lead them into the depths of the underworld journey instead of trying to insert stuff on top of LOA that's radically different. My early stuff was more respected for the reasons that related to how it wasn't critical of NG directly but the LOA space in general. As soon as I go after NG himself then I'm the bad person. It's not even me going after NG as a person it's me being critical of his work, and why I believe his WORK was in many ways very limited in scope to explain stuff correctly. They'll claim he was just speaking to the people of his time and that's all he was here for, which I mostly agree with when it comes to the audience he was involved with but considering he took personal clients and was paid fortunes for propagating objectively incorrect understandings about things (such as needing to fall asleep in a positive mood and how he says that "catch the mood" is so important which it's NOT even under a suggestion perspective) which looking with a critical view is necessary to point out if we're going to expand beyond the dark ages. We must move on. Why can't we leave behind what NG said. Yeah there's theurgy there, yeah there's go all the way stuff there with the end scene idea and other bits of actual gold but it's like digging for nuggets in a pile of dirt. So much commentary, and the deeper commentary I did on his promise stuff has next to no use when it comes to APPLICATION. I agree with a lot of what seemed to be valid alchemical grasping using his own cosmology that I hope I was interpreting correctly, because who knows really if we're honest since his language is very vague and lacks reference to a cohesive system. I agree with that stuff, but MOST of his PRACTICAL advice is just plain bad. Living in the end was never explained clearly and the few times it was it's still vague because he never tells you CLEARLY what to do with negative stuff that comes up.

NG experienced a lot, and never had a system to put it together correctly. His work was thrown together haphazardly and without regard for completing a system coherently to actually help people transform from top to bottom. His work is NOT to be used as guides to manifest or apply the law but as simple metaphysical studies and nothing more. That's how I view his work, mostly. If you think otherwise then lets hear it. He made fortunes off selling ideas and promises just like all these other LOA teachers market. Just "think and grow rich" they say. What a joke. Every time I tried that it failed because I still held unconscious trash that warped my perceptions. NG never made clear this crystalized function and never told us to bring it up and transform it or that it would even reveal itself when we tried to be ourselves. Persistence is often interpreted as "thinking" more regularly and with more energy instead of persisting in being yourself with the DECISIONS you make and what you accept into your life and tolerate that you KNOW doesn't work. HOW HAS NG EXPLAINED THIS IDEA? He didn't. If he did his magic model would fall apart and him saying that this logic is outside the so called law would be the most ignorant statement imaginable if he did, but we don't know because he avoided any seeming critical views of his work. I never also claimed that there isn't magic and often people take what I say as a black or white view where I say it's all physical decisions which has never been the case either. It's always been a dynamic interplay of drawing awareness to correct orientation no matter where you're operating. The persistence of RS is the persistence to regularly and WILLINGLY (most important part for acceleration) face the purifying fire of illuminating starlight. The feeling to NG he says if the relief, or "the acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled" AKA feeling availability and supply. If someone with unconscious trash tries this (I know because I lived this for years and failed 99% of the time) all they'll get is experiences to provide them opportunities to BE the person who has the thing but we're not told that those will show up. You cannot manifest things in this world that you KNOW you're not worthy of and I say that from the level of the decisions you're WILLING to make to BE who you want to be. You're not feeling worth it because of the responses to life you play out, that's the proof of who you are. If you're not worth the thing you'll not expose yourself to purifying starlight and you'll run away and coddle your resistance like your life depends on it like a coward.

Those who die in battle go to Valhalla. I've mentioned this quote before from Norse mythos about how dying in battle is cutting through the pressure to compromise and being yourself regardless of how you feel. Giving to yourself means cutting through the trash. Being with the resistance means cutting through it, which is how you INTIMATELY UNDERSTAND IT FULLY. Intimately understand under this context being a full overlap to illuminate it which is HOW you come to understand it and we know how that's experienced. Dying in battle is the work, they go to Valhalla, which represents a higher order state of awareness AKA clarity. Metaphysically speaking access to Valhalla is access to superconscious mind as far as I am aware but my Norse metaphysics are probably way off lately so don't quote me on that. It's said that Odin AKA higher genius (I believe0 DECIDES all battles in Midgard. Battles are expressions of natural striving, striving as in the natural struggle with pressure, the cutting through resistance holding back your access to immortality and individuation and is the built in expansion mechanic. Odin decides who's in charge of all this stuff, he also decides who dwells with him who fell in battle, AKA who gets anointed AKA illuminated AKA TURNED INTO A QUINTESSENCE AKA MERGES WITH HIGHER GENIUS. Those who DIE in battle GO TO VALHALLA AKA GAIN UNDERSTANDING AKA ACCESS TO THE HIGHER ORDER STATES. This is my interpretation of the Norse mythos alchemically speaking, I have never read about this anywhere else. Maybe I'll do a breakdown on Norse mythos since it's in our blood if we're true Israelites. Those who know know who's who and who's Joo.

Either way you've got a full system here to work with. More work to do, as always. Perhaps Norse mythos is my way of getting in the door since the biblical symbolism that NG preached (which much of which I still disagree with based on what I've heard but not all) though near the end he preached fixed functions over mentalism cosmology it would seem which I respect. He said we are born with a whole garden and the ONLY way to interpret that would be that all the COMPOENNTS are available in capacity. You must interpret much of his biblical language as states in capacity we can grow into AKA DIE TO GAIN ACCESS TO. Gazing works this mechanism and those who have done it know this because of the VERY powerful experiences that happen. Do gazing. Don't run away from it just do it more and feel the pressure arise. Understanding the theamtic nature of this work is the most important part and NG seemed to recognize that to some degree at least however narrow that scope was it was there.

When it comes to deeper level suggestion, it can only really come through awareness of higher genius. How else can it be mediated? Making a clear decision and sticking with it is how you suggest with power. Conviction. It doesn't have to be with energy or effort, if clarity is present in the mix that is. If clarity is not present then you cannot suggest without contrast arising to dissolve. If contrast exists to pressure you into compromise then you need to apply the cutting through methods of owning that conviction but that's the challenge is how much vitality do you have to mediate that because obviously you can't expose yourself to all of God at once or you'd explode so we do have limits on the degree of transformation we can process at once. Many people still don't like that idea but it's true. This is why things take time, your capacity is limited to transform so much at once. Your system only has so much ram and bandwidth to shift data through the busses at once to be processed no matter how fast those cores are on the processor. You could MAX OC all the cores on that processor up to 10ghz+ and it won't change a thing. The only way we can expand how much we process at once is through increasing YIN more so than anything else. Jing. I believe that being younger opens up more of this too under that context but only to some degree and that's more so because a full disconnection from those higher order substances isn't yet made. If you get on this stuff before you fully develop then you're going to live a life of much more ease and flow. Getting in flow signifies capacity is available, on deeper levels especially.

Getting clear with your direction of suggestion and cutting out all the trash that causes wavering. If you find yourself wavering with what you're growing into then you're probably not targeting the right stuff and you're just taking a small step into something without any commitment. You need to be clear about the direction, the sense of self, the limited unconscious trash that you're exploring and transforming which moves your psyche and center. When you're clear then the movement will be more focused, but indecision and an unclear direction often shows up in the mind of someone who's heavily coping and lost in pseudo satisfaction cycles because their balance between pressure and pseudo release of pressure is warped and they'll have all kinds of compromised desires show up to validate this comfort zone. The indecision and lack of clarity is literally a sign that you're being warped by the pseudo satisfaction because when the pressure hits you look at it and think no way do I want this and yet when you're in this artificial bubble it's all sunshine and rainbows with that, until the bubble bursts of course. Lack of clarity of direction and just the idea of clarity as a function of unconscious clarity and subconscious space, that lack of clarity in direction sense is more so a function of buying into the compromise pattern without contrast and under a context of pseudo satisfaction. That's why. The lack of clarity isn't often an issue with suggestion really because when you can actually suggest clearly you'll have clarity in your unconscious mind without conditioning getting in the way making you waver. Remember it's your unconscious mind that runs the show because it WILL come THROUGH you if there's conditioning there. You can avoid it but it WILL make itself known because you don't exist here to avoid it you exist here to expand under pressure. That's your life. Accepting that this is the nature of reality and that all this trash about life being some magical fairy tale is just a load of ignorant nonsense peddled to fool those who want to believe they can bypass reality and alchemical mechanics. Fact is that if you're not where you want to be you're not facing pressure enough. Plain and simple. You know that, and when you're under pressure it's abundantly obvious but when you're at "normal" pseudo satisfaction type levels of feeling and having a more narrow view you don't see that and this is a DEGREE of this whole wavering perception and how it's so easy to fool you into complacency. Intuitive impulse WILL spontaneously feed you insights over the day to make a decision to do X thing even if it's totally unrelated to what you're experiencing like a little alarm bell goes off and tells you hey it's time to face pressure and you ignore that. What happens through ignoring this is you suddenly begin to feel lack out of nowhere. I believe that a lot of people with so called depression and even so called bipolar and whatnot are just experiencing a denial of inner truth which sends them into these narrow views. I know what that's like because I've seen it in other people, and I experienced this to a lesser degree myself at times. I'm very familiar with these cycles. I'd avoid natural striving intuitive impulse and all of a sudden later on I'd have this feeling of this pit even if it was unrelated that I was lacking something. That intuitive impulse was there to guide you to supply but you denied it because you didn't trust that and you didn't trust that because the contrast was too great and the view was too narrow. Context and higher pressure wasn't present to kick you into gear and get moving. You had no incentive to get moving because you were in a pseudo comfort zone and lacked motive to transform in that space. This is why most people who have dysfunctional nervous and endocrine systems can't get work done for any period of time or just be moved spontaneously and they're seen as basically lazy and stuff because in effect they ARE due to a lack of pressure. PRESSURE IS NECESSARY IN OUR LIVES! We should know this. Higher TEST means you have more kidney qi, more root pressure, more drive to WANT to transform but that also comes at the cost of narrow view in the perception of getting what the need to release that pressure will feel like and often that's doing dumb stuff for quick satisfaction which isn't satisfying to your purification process. It will come back hard and fast very soon after. High test helps those the most who are on this path, and despite what anyone in this space will say about this I have experienced more of this at times where that intensity is present to WANT to conquer and destroy trash and it's VERY powerful it feels like you're just being pulled along this path towards something to release the pressure and the work you do is ideally designed to make best use of that pressure, that abundance of illuminating current. It's like having higher TEST makes everything more conscious to a very very small degree, and it means you're unable to target certain stuff as clearly from my experience, but that simply making spontaneous decisions when they arise for better or worse is easier and generally things work out better but I know that's not always the case with guys that are highly juiced up. You also get way more attractive too so you get eyes more. Obviously. That qi is literally glow, radiance. More functional endocrine health IS youthfulness. PERIOD. PROVE ME WRONG. There's no way you can see it any other way. Endocrine health and the efficient use of Jing go hand in hand. These functions overlap almost 100%. If you've got high kidney/root qi but lacking heart then good luck using that pressure correctly. You'll be driven by pseudo satisfaction cycles over and over and you'll be blind because that's all you'll see. This is why it's a blessing and to a degree a curse, and when you've got high TEST doing gazing is VERY important to expand that space to perceive clearly what's necessary to see and having more of that qi in my experience can drive gazing to work even more powerfully through you. I've not had enough experience with this yet to be 100% sure and I don't have much data on that but from what I understand I believe that's the case. After you're done with long streaks of breaking limits in any way and you go to sit in yin states to cultivate space after facing pressure and illuminating trash then often the speed at which depth of awareness comes up when gazing is quicker. Much quicker at times, and the focus is more intense without effort. You can go deeper without trying, not that trying makes you go deeper because it's a degree of letting go more than anything and that's simply an allowing awareness but explaining that in words is difficult. You just have to accept more so than anything that this is necessary. That's how I'd explain this letting go idea. Recognizing that there's nothing more to do than to feel through what's necessary and get it done, and also on top of that there's a degree of compassion from divine awareness that washes over you which nourishes you when you're actually "letting go" in these places and that can manifest as these spontaneous insights which come up. IFS thrives on this idea that they themselves seemingly don't even grasp properly. Either way this is how it works at least based on my experience being in those places and those states.

All these functions become clear when you experience them. Reading this without experiencing it is next to impossible. This is why I'm so critical of the work others put together because if they experienced these things they'd be able to explain it, or if they do explain it it's always in these metaphysical magical ideas without a sense of reality to the experience that anyone can relate to. It's all just fairy dust being thrown around without any grounded visceral reality to their terms and expansions. If they understood that these experiences are like from having been through the full range then they'd know that it's not something that can be faked or just "accepted" like these people should know that if they've experienced the depths of contrast that it comes THROUGH you as a RESULT and not as a function of technique itself. The effects that come AFTER transformation AKA the integration cycle is delayed often times and that's fine but they never make this clear that expecting instant shifts is foolish and leads to false expectations. Can it instantly shift? Yeah. I've had instant manifestations many times myself but it's never really something that I can make happen on command. I'm talking about receiving things I want "without lifting a finger to make it happen" to quote the mighty NG.

All we need to know is how to face pressure correctly by leading pathways and building context to move you more into a deeper overlap with illuminating current and as a result of that you'll have generated an opportunity to transform within yourself. When I say that it's more difficult to do the inner work it's because you need to generate the visceral nature of reality of experience to be as though it's real right now and that generates a heightened awareness which cannot be faked. This is real to you and you are experiencing pressure. That's what it's like, that's what it needs to be like. That's not saying that sensory detail needs to be there but the realty of experience does, however you get there it doesn't matter. So long as you're in the end or as close as you can then you're overlapping more. When you transform the trash and place yourself in the end with clarity then you're doing the magic because the contrast is gone and you're suggesting to God through this act. You're INSIDE the subconscious mind which overlaps superconscious and from that level you're the closest to stellar consciousness and THAT is where the quintessence magic is worked with higher genius driving everything from top down. That's how actual magical power is mediated. Clarity is necessary to manifest clear experiences in satisfying ways.

Is this not the greatest work on manifesting ever written? How can we not recognize that it's really that simple. Face pressure, become more of yourself, suggest with clarity. Manifest. Yeah? How is that difficult to grasp. The difficulty is the childish mentality people have to not wanting to face pressure and that's why LOA and NG are so popular because they don't make it clear that to START manifesting you must overlap the unconscious trash and feel it and cut through it. When people who hear this can accept that their lives WILL require temporary suffering to come out the other end with the bliss that their capacity holds then they'll unlock infinite power. That's the difference between an immortal and a mortal. Someone who's immortal is fully individuated and has integrated everything. Those who avoid this reality will die in their sins and eventually cease to exist. Do you want that? I don't. Do the work. Even if you don't get your SP, or your money, or anything worldly, still do it for the immortality. You can't buy that with all the money on earth. What's more valuable than a process to attaining this. People will probably be critical of this because I'm still not showing immortality but how do you show immortality when I'm not there yet fully myself which for most people takes MULTIPLE LIFETIMES. I'm still really really young, so I'm just getting started anyway. You'll see. The more I work here on this the more clarity I get over the immortality stuff anyway. It should be with you too. Do the work. Face the pressure. Cut through the trash and be yourself. That's all you CAN do anyway so just do it. Imagine tonight you being seen in a visceral experience with your desire. Manifest it overnight. Go for it. Lead those pathways and bring up all that pressure. If I did it you can too. The difference between what I'm saying and the snake oil salesmen out there is that I give you the real methods to apply so go work them because that's all there is. You know that so just do it. Lead the pathways. Build context. Go to the end. Cut through the trash and go all the way. Die in battle. Die to your own hands as the most glorious act you could ever perform. That's alchemy, taking a lesser substance into a higher order one and creating quintessence out of yourself. That's magic.

7/8/25

"When tyranny becomes law, rebellion becomes duty." - Thomas Jefferson.

We crossed that line a LONG time ago. Don't like to hear it? Grow up.

I've got more insights. Personal success once again. SP change stuff. Had a hard talk last night about some stuff that needed saying. Tension was present for a good 2-3 hours then she changed and agreed with me after trying to gaslight me. I maintained rock solid direction of movement and said what I needed to say and now that's over. She's now showing approval for things previously that were viewed under bad light. When you apply the pressure and respect your boundaries they get thinking because now they're under pressure. This is why being real matters for manifesting shifts in people, else they don't have contrast to contemplate and explore with their own psyche. You don't ever really "manipulate" people FROM MY EXPERIENCE (though I've had clients that claim they can yet I still haven't seen FULL PROOF of this as in like an experiment to people on the street randomly chosen to repeat pre-determined affirmations like they claim) and so what I've realized is that transforming other people MOST OFTEN involves being REAL with them despite the pressure to want to fit in for more approval. The more you value your vitality the more you realize this source of depletion needs to either get lost or change. That's what I did. When you get real and throw down the facts AND DON'T LET UP WHEN THEY REVERT BACK (persist) then you're actually manifesting changes in both yourself and them. You're gaining more supply and on top of that they're seeing you as more of that supply since they're now thinking about needing to change FOR YOUR APPROVAL. You become the supply. I've said this SO MANY TIMES in videos too, yet somehow people still ask me how this works. I mean come on you're just not listening.

Becoming the supply means you're not reliant on others to be authentic. You do what you KNOW you need to do, because it comes up and you either compromise and deplete or you value your vitality and you manifest what you want because manifesting is really just a function of having clarity to suggest an experience and thus it unfolds without contrast.

I have just come across Eugene Gendlin. Very interesting stuff. They say "You can't force change. You can only create the conditions under which something new can arise. The body knows the next step". YES! Right there. Eugene doesn't get the deeper alchemy here obviously but he seems to grasp that there is an intelligence that's organizing stuff. When we be ourselves we're spending energy correctly meaning being accepting of the orientation the body wants us to go. This isn't the emotional or somatic sensation telling us to run away because of fear but understanding the compromise pattern overlay and trusting the body that it can make it through this fear or whatever, When he said you can only create the conditions, that's in fact what I've almost said quote for quote too in my last video. All we're doing is setting up the conditions by which spontaneous insight can arise, because the ripeness is mostly up to that intelligence to drive us through not our limited narrow thinking mind and its desire.

Also want to mention I had another girl I last spoke with a few months back randomly reach out to me saying they miss me. This was someone I had contact with back in 2019 first and lost contact in 2021. Long story short they randomly reached out a few months back and we spoke about what's going on in our lives for a few days then moved on and now they're still reaching out. This kind of stuff happens when I break boxes. It happens REGULARLY in fact when I REALLY go hard. I manifested SP overnight going super hard as I've said before. I told the story of how one girl literally deleted her account and I still ended up randomly finding her again. Crazy stuff, Can't make that up. We had contact for a few weeks before she pulled some hard no go stuff on me and made me wake up and realize how much compromise I was holding onto. You WILL get contact from people when you break boxes. YOU WILL I swear it happens all the time to many people I talk to when they work the mechanism I've been talking about.

It's what comes through you as a function of what's available that manifests, not what you will with thought directed towards manipulation. Your "imagination" speaks TO YOU, not you to it, not at all levels at least. It moves through you. That's the real secret behind the so called secret from NG. What else could it be dammit. It comes to you just as you allow it to move through you when you clear it.

Another level. When you be yourself you EMPOWER the body intelligence, do we not? If it feels comfortable by negating the not self at baseline then disempowerment of the body is the MIND continuing to give power and authority to external conditions NOT THE BODY. I remember Ra said that the body isn't scared, even though that's what we feel often times thinking the body intelligence is causing it. The body intelligence has to respond that way to release tension and pressure, but the fact that it's even doing this instead of continuing to hold means the body IS NOT AFRAID BUT YOU ARE. Your conscious mind is what holds on. Your conscious mind makes the judgment. I have quoted the alchemist actually something saying about how it's the conscious mind that holds the judgements and stores them. I wondered why he said that because if the unconscious mind is storage then why would the conscious mind do that? It's that the conscious mind is what continues to keep bound in storage the false judgement, not that the conscious mind HAS storage but it's functioning as the binding agent for unconscious conditioning. The mind must cut through it, instead of bundling up those weeds and planting more of them by buying into it. The more you buy into it and the more unsatisfied you feel the more that body intelligence is telling you that you're making wrong decisions. Self correction cycle. How else could this make sense fully?

How does your body feel moment to moment when making decisions. If there's satisfaction, discomfort, whatever, then it's a signal to the conscious mind to let go. We're never taught how to do this though. How do you let go? You allow the fulfilment of the false expectation to take place, meaning that you're cutting through the compromise and recognizing that you don't have to conform to the condition and experience the direction it is revealing that your truth is moving though. This is how you clear unconscious conditioning. IFS stuff seeks to interact with it and gain insight in different ways. I don't really do much work with this way because I find gazing to be far more powerful in clearing trash than this and it happens faster and with more side benefits too so I don't bother with IFS or any similar systems. You'd be surprised how difficult gazing is for more people where they say they'll do it and can't even last 5 minutes before the anxiety kicks in. It's a good sign they're going to make big progress with gazing if they sit with the anxiety and not let it control them. If they get up when the discomfort shows up it only reveals they're unmilling to cut through the trash, Their body WANTS to get rid of it and because they're still they have space to surface the trash and to observe the illumination of it and transform it. This is why I say that gazing is more beneficial because these processes of fasting from stimulus as well are also ways of experiencing illumination and what comes up is spontaneous. We don't lead the pathways with this (though you can still anyway) because it comes through us. It always does.

The less you imagine (experience) to feel that artificial "I have this now" idea and the more you end up on the other end of the spectrum the more beliefs and such move. Even neutrality is better than feeling artificially good and most of the time you'll notice that simple affirmations that come through you can manifest outcomes. Basically you're going to allow the feelings you have to lead where the energy goes instead of trying to use energy and burn vitality to generate feeling which is the trash that LOA teaches and NG also taught, CLEARLY with his breathing method. Just listen to his explanation, you breathe yourself into a worked up state in a "working yourself up" method which is obviously the opposite of what we want really. No matter how you look at it any time you're avoiding pressure to transform you're running from the truth of who you really are being moved to be who is not the person that the compromise pattern of false expectation wants you to be. That's the unconscious conditioning, though since it's now conscious and experienced you're able to transform it. The more you move into that degree of the spectrum of experience the better because that's where illumination takes place and illumination is where power lies. You don't need anything more than to be yourself. THAT IS EVERYTHING!

Any time someone tells you to "just change the assumption bro" or something like that you know they're of mentalism mentality. How do you change it? They'll say to afform or imagine the opposite. I say that this is basically useless, having tried all those methods personally for many years especially if the context of the experience lacks the pressure necessary to transform unconscious trash which then changes response you have to the world and your emanated signature which others pick up on. The only way to change that in a MEANINGFUL and RAPID way is facing pressure. Affirmations, scrips, whatever else like visuals or sound experiences, none of that brings up pressure if it's based on low level application. The context and the way the method is applied should ALWAYS put you into the visceral reality of experience in heightened awareness of being under pressure and that sudden moment of realization of "this is real" to your body and how it reacts reveals to you that you're there. If this response doesn't happen then you're really not transforming trash to become comfortable with where you're not comfortable, These people who think shifting assumptions is just this quick little phrase you say to imply opposite is dumb and insane and lacks any experience. You can probably use that for stuff that's low level in terms of impact but if being around a certain person makes you WANT to please them to get their attention which means you overextend (something I've not spoken about for a while on here but that's a coaching thing I go through a lot with SP stuff) and the issue is not how they're reaction like "everybody always leaves me" but it's that YOU'RE not comfortable with them leaving and so what do you need to accept about yourself which represents that you're ok with them leaving or not. When that vulnerability isn't coming up all the time causing you to overextend and push them away then you shift what these FAKE TRASH COACHES love to peddle. Just affirm the opposite of the belief you see. UTTER NONSENSE! To shift that stuff you need to recognize where YOU are uncomfortable and become comfortable and the ONLY way to do that is through facing the illuminating light and allowing that to be burned out of you so that you CAN be yourself without compromise AT BASELINE. This is how you "manifest" someone. You can make them show up with the stuff they say (which I've done many times before too though often it's only signs of them if you're really in lack and this only continues to bring out more compromise and discomfort about who you are) but keeping them around is a totally different story. How do I know that? I lived and breathed this thing where attracting 10/10s on the regular was EASY for me but getting them to stick around for long was impossible. That's why I said I never actually had a relationship really at all for pretty much my whole life until my current SP showed up. None of them stuck around, usually because of unconscious trash I was doing to please them unnecessarily because I didn't feel like I had permission to actually receive them and so I'd end up pushing them away. I'd ALAWYS also feel physically sick whenever things got physical. EVERY SINGLE TIME. Any time I was in their presence for long my stomach would churn and bad things would happen and I couldn't stop it. I had EXTREME discomfort and the ONLY way I could process that was to do what I did by imagining all the things I was avoiding. I imagined what I NEEDED to experience to be myself and that's not how any of these FAKE coaches do their stuff.

This is how you really manifest. You imagine what you keep running into and avoiding. You experience the full thing to the complete degree you can by leading pathways and building greater context. This is something that no other coach in this space works with as far as I know and I've created this formula over many years of experience. Nothing even comes close. The formula is perfect, though it depends on the person to take it all the way. The clients who I talk to who have been working on this formula for a while always tell me they get places, big places, and in ways they didn't expect themselves. It's VERY powerful when you go all the way. That's how this works. You do the above and gazing along side and physically pushing limits to build extra vitality and get the qi moving and just respect your vitality and your body intelligence. Be yourself without compromise. Be the immortal you here now. That's game.

Late night phone entry.

I looked back on how I got contact from an old girl I use to spend time with without directly intending it and I connected this dot clearly here. I think this is big. So when I thought of her last night it was in response so the talk I had with my SP about things I didn’t like and how I thought this other girl wouldn’t have been like this and she’d be better than my girl now. That was all I had come up in my mind. This makes me wonder if the compromise pattern that’s being transformed has anchors based on other memories which thematically overlap what you’re transforming now and what’s most available about that will manifest as proof that you can be this person and since she was most related to this then she reaches out to me as now it’s my field geometry signalling to her that I’m available and it influences her. I can’t fully process this but the signature we emanate is very real and it happens on multiple levels. This also makes me think about all those times when you’re usually in flow and you have a thought “I’ve not heard from X person in ages” and boom they reach out. This thing about it coming THROUGH you is SO DAMN COMMON that you can’t ignore it. It’s so so so common and obvious as to the “cause” of manifesting if we’d consider it that. I cannot deny this factor. When you break patterns you know don’t serve your sense of self and become comfortable with what’s previously uncomfortable there will be an experience which thematically overlaps and will naturally send out that signal to anyone involved.

This is why I find most commonly that when you go all the way it’s going to make things that are seemingly unrelated show up as I’ve said many times. These are valid observations and decoding these mechanics is a very difficult task because they’re all invisible and only somewhat revealed in patterns. This gives me further clues to create new techniques. When you break compromise patterns things begin to flow that was previously almost off limits for comfort and those manifestations show up through the implication that breaking this limit represents. That’s why people reach out when you don’t intend it, even though you did think about them. This is the trash people preach they think that you can replicate the flow through you stuff but you can’t it has to some through you because it’s been organically set up to do so. How do you do that? You actually be yourself. All this trash needs to be fully debunked and destroyed and I believe I’m being shown this stuff lately to do that. Nobody else has had these mechanics revealed it seems. There’s so many levels to this.

Summarising all of this is just the same same. Be yourself without compromise and satisfying experiences will show up. Spend energy correctly. What don’t people understand about that? Everything that people “do” do manifest is useless trash and my point is that when you do what you’re not doing you get the outcomes you’re not getting. It’s so damn obvious. If you’re clear and you live in that “try less” mentality then you’ll see corresponding outcomes likely show up because you’re not responding to life from unconscious trash which warps your outcomes which NG himself said. From my experince doing the repetitive affirmation trash is useless and extremely inefficient because you’re only doing it to repetitively stand yourself in the end under illuminating starlight without really getting anywhere with it you’re like putting your foot in the ring one second then taking it out the next. Unless that affirmation sequence leads pathways to deeper overlap then you’re wasting time. It should set up the conditions for spontaneous insight but that’s very rare. If the pressure is not felt and surfaced through deep overlap then you’re wasting your energy in more pseudo satisfaction methodology. Put simply, if the method generates pseudo satisfaction when compromise patterns are still anchored in the unconscious and intuitive impulse is further willingly ignored to continue the pseudo comfort streak the affirmations are building in context (because the intuitive impulse leads you to making decisions that are uncomfortable usually IFFFFF there’s pressure you’re holding) which means you’ll only end up in unsatisfying park dip self correction cycles. You’ll be wasting so much vitality and deplete space. It’s all a big scam. All this LOA pseudo satisfaction technique stuff is all a big scam because it keeps most people in the box and keeps them coming back for more.

Knowing what I do about how reality works and how the so called program manifests itself through systems like modern Judaism it makes me wonder if this is promoted and funded so much because it’s keeping people docile. There’s no TEST there in these spaces there’s no WILLINGNESS to die in battle it’s all pseudo satisfaction and useless ramble about I AM this and that and trash. It’s like get lost with that nobody cares we just want to get over our unconscious baggage and move on. Any time you try and create a pseudo satisfaction comfort bubble around your discomfort to avoid it then you will end up in a world of unimaginable agony like I did. You’ll want to throw yourself off a cliff because it never works out and any time something positive happens like a sign you grasp at it as proof that you’re being yourself as though that’s the next big thing in your life since you’re so use to nothing else ever working out for you. These people are full of ignorant trash and it needs to be revealed for what ist is. This recent insight gives one more piece to that puzzle. We should know by now that willingly avoiding pressure only causes it to roll over you and cause all kinds of very very negative outcomes and signs and all this stuff to play games and get you to pay attention. Duh wake up fools were being played and psychologically manipulated by these scammers.

Notice the comments on most of these videos. You know what they say usually? It’s all about pseudo self empowerment and control to market the deepest fantasies someone has to live with. It’s all full of traps to suck in people with this mindset it’s like the perfect trap for people who think that they can change reality with their mind. That’s why when people “stop trying” things move. Why? Because you’re not constantly avoiding pressure willingly and you’d likely be facing at least some of it because if you gave up it’s because you broke down and couldn’t do it anymore. That realisation and acceptance is “the feeling” to some degree because you’re closer to being in the end than before. How else can you explain this? People call it this “needy” energy but I don’t think that’s a good way of interpreting this mechanically we should be viewing things from the pressure mediation perspective. This is the base function of aetheric physics afterall.

8/8/25

88. So we’ve got this phenomena where when we have intense desire for something and we almost obsess over it and go through peaks and dips and then eventually we get over it and “drop” it through transforming the pressure to compromise, that’s when it often shows up. You can build a ton of momentum towards the thing with all the suggestion stuff but the moment you clear the unconscious trash it’s like the momentum floods out and everything moves so fast.

I also believe that the NG thing about dropping seeds is actually about transforming unconscious trash. There’s no way you can drop a seed without the body being comfortable it’s impossible they’re literally the same thing because your automatic reactions determine the outcome which is based on conditioning. If the program is there then it will run no matter what. It’s what you do with that when it shows up that matters.

It's good to see more Saxons owning their intolerance to mixing. Isn't it wonderful! I'm going to argue that the devaluation of white western nations and pure blood Germanic and other Anglos like myself has led to most of us grasping onto the propaganda that's warped our ideology we live by for decades. We're collectively devalued by little Jooz who think they can destroy all things that are good about us and water down our actual values as a people. This is how we're being gaslit to compromise by the trash who own everything. It's time we slaughtered them for what they've done without a shred of mercy. That's the correct action, utterly eradicate any example of their work in our lives and totally grow up. We're here to grow up not to be systematically devalued and told that mixing makes us better people. No. Screw you we don't have to accept this filth and there WILL be consequences for such actions. We're just gonna reveal all the historical trash that's been thrown out there and burn all the false ideologies. LOA is one of them and I've been at the forefront of burning this trash heap to the ground systematically.

Feel like going more into money stuff as this is something I'm kind of wishy washy myself with too. I'll say this. You are the money. Drop all this trash about supply of money and whatnot and anything I may have said before about money showing up and I want you to view your vitality/sense of self/correct orientation and all those things AS money itself. Because I'm being myself automatically I must therefore have the corresponding abundance to facilitate that because it's already within me. I already have what I need to manifest money and I don't need techniques or anything else. This is my unique take on money. I don't see it "flowing" or whatever like everybody else does and I don't see external stuff as a supply of money I just see correctness AS money. Money as availability of correctness (and vice versa) based on who we're being, or not. Money in general and love and all this stuff shows up in your life when you be yourself. That's all there is to do. All this stuff about imagining money coming in while still living compromised NEVER felt right to me and I knew there was something wrong with this approach since I first heard about it. If you follow that advice will you make money show up? Yes. In my experience you will, but it won't be any meaningful amount or be in ways that are nourishing. I've manifested hundreds of thousands for FREE and I mean TRULY FREE over the years totally separate from any work or business stuff I got this was totally random occurrence money in ways I kind of had expectation but also often ways I never really expected.

So here's what you'll realize if you view money the way it should be viewed. There is no lack, because being yourself which is nourishing must therefore correlate to an overflow of abundance in your life. You don't need to manifest money consciously or deliberately. Money comes to you as a function of your path, to support and enable you to be yourself where necessary. The reason, arguably the only reason, why you don't have money, is because you're still compromising on being yourself. You're still uncomfortable being seen, having success, having wealth, being known, having the things you really desire, having the people and business partners, the clients, the whatever it is that you don't have that underlies money in progression of outcomes. All of these things come automatically as a response to being yourself.

That's it. Money problems solved. Become comfortable, individuated, natural, non-reactive, shameless and carefree towards this money idea. If you're lacking significantly and you don't know where to start then simply work on the principles of recognizing your compromise patterns of discomfort in being authentic and fulfil that. This is how you make money show up. Drop all the IGNORANT TRASH that everybody else talks about that you need to work on X belief in a vacuum or whatever about money I don't care my experience and the limited experience I've had with clients on this personally has been that money shows up when you just stop caring about the limits you're holding onto and letting loose. Let go, literally let yourself go, in the way of opening doors that you're holding shut because of conditioning you believe is more important than you actually making decisions to nourish yourself. Yeah we do live in a world where that line between being an actual parasite and being honest and real with wealth are blurring more by the day but so what you're not ill intentioned.

The only thing that got me out of ending up living under trees was opening up when I HATED money with blazing passion. I was 100% correct about everything I said about how "bad" the money system is and all that but I literally couldn't do this work now if I didn't grow up back then and face the fact that living under a tree with no platform to talk (though I did imagine myself being a nomad public speaker and I'd go to community events to gain influence but either way) so the only thing I could do is to just break that trash off and move on. I didn't even feel a released of negative stuff really because most of the pressure wasn't around money itself but actually around BEING SEEN and other parts relating to HAVING WEALTH. Judgement. This is common threads. Bring that trash out and imagine like I say to, do be SEEN with wealth. I went out in the kit I had that to me felt like I was showing a degree of wealth when I roamed the plaza and I ate at high grade places. I felt like people were watching me at first and I was uncomfortable (even though nobody actually cared because it's business as usual) but I got over it pretty soon. I legit had nerves where I'd be shaking a bit. Yeah that's how messed up my nervous system was even though all the gazing, but it only came out when I was in REAL experiences. This is what needed to happen to me to learn about this stuff. The way I transformed my relationship to money was to just be seen with money, show off a degree of wealth, even if it was next to nothing really, but I went all the way with what I had. I just stopped caring. You can't tell yourself "I don't care" because you will feel like you do and unless that affirmation takes you into deep overlap with the end then you're not getting anywhere. The reality of experience is necessary, that visceral reality of "oh this is real I feel uncomfortable" is what we should be targeting and nothing less for actual changes. Avoiding this like most people do who are searching for magic secrets to bypass alchemy.

You watch it happen (thinking of) or you be a part of it (thinking FROM) and thus you change everything. This matters. The secret is that this isn't about sensory depth but using context leading to generate the visceral reality that your unconscious responds to.

Just spend energy correctly and you'll feel satisfied. There's no secrets here it's just common sense. Seriously. When you grow up/grow into the state as above reveals then you get what you want.

9/8/25

The reason why you keep obsessing over it and thinking about it (not from obviously) is because you don't feel like you can have it for some reason. You're not worthy of it under whatever context that is because of the contrast you're afraid of facing. People can have dreams about a specific person being with them their whole lives and the moment they go from wanting them thinking OF to thinking FROM meaning to viscerally face the pressure and feel the trash to imply they're avoiding is being experienced. You should switch every word NG uses for desire with pressure (specifically to compromise on accepting natural striving) and thus we can make more sense from his doctrine. The language he uses is just terrible if we're honest. Desire doesn't imply what we need to experience about how contrast will be present. There's way too much room for interpretation and it boggles my mind why so many people praise his stuff. If you imagine having it like you'd do anyway then you'd be suggesting the experience so regardless if the desire itself moves through your awareness then it's really done if there's clarity present. This is why scripting works, and random phrases like I told about my example the last few days.

Point is this. The more you obsess WHILE STILL COMPROMISING the more you'll face unsatisfying outcomes. This is common thread that cannot be denied. I've obsessed over things before and had minimal contrast and I got them for free or very cheap multiple times. By obsessed I didn't mean this unhealthy obsession but a very intense fascination with what it would be like to have it, which many of us do a lot which is natural and fine. We don't NOT think like this often even when we feel we deserve it so that's irrelevant what we need to grasp is that the thematic supply is present to manifest it. If we don't feel like we have it and we're obsessing to reach pseudo satisfaction (which would often involve discharge of pressure to cope with the feeling of needing to break boxes and compromise) vs someone who's just intrigued who's not holding back their RESPONSES to how they can involve themselves with relationship to having the thing or experiencing it. It's the RESPOSNES that matter. Once again, NG himself said this.

I also want to say about how when you do the work with the SP stuff and you realize that you CAN be loved by your person and they CAN approve of you and that you ARE worthy and this it's going to be through realizations that will often arise spontaneously as an effect of the conditions being SET UP CORRECTLY for that to happen through transforming unspent pressure that's boiling up. Releasing that tension is the way, this is actually what Wilhelm Reich wrote about as the cause of all psychological problems decades ago before any of this was said. He saw people having excessive pressure built up that needed discharge. It was his work that inspired my understanding, yet he died in prison for being a threat to the establishment. Did I make up in my head that everybody who has valid models on how things work get attacked by this world? No. Tesla died broke too. Steinmetz was a cripple. The most impactful people in the realm of presenting work that's truly groundbreaking and really works on the deepest levels rarely are without issues in their own lives. I believe that it's because of their own personal issues that they learn about these struggles, as I can say that this is also how I came to KNOW these things.

Either way it's when you learn to love yourself, as in not compromise for the false expectations others place on you that you can manifest stuff. It's damn common sense the magic is just a functional part of these mechanics we don't have to try and justify the magic because it can all be explained without it anyway. People buy into the magic because that's all they WANT to hear. They think that this can give them a valid bypass to feeling their trash through and transforming to BE worth their desire. You can have anyone you want in principle, but you will only want who you actually resonate with, and thus that "you can be and have anyone" is just a stupid fantasy sold to people who are stuck un compromise and are desperate for approval. This whole thing is a big scam if we're honest. There IS magic, but that's beside the point. You make what's unconscious conscious, meaning practically you face the pressure to compromise and own who you are underlying that overlay. Why can't we frame it in this way? Why is that so hard? Why is it always danced around? Why? Profit. I bet it's problematic for business to not keep this in the dark. The whole thing is a scam all you need to do is be yourself. Love yourself the way you know you can and should. Make the decisions you know you need to to move forward. If you don't see them arise in the moment them allow them to reveal themselves over time in patterns of response because the responses will show you who you're being as well as expand your time gazing to reveal these insights spontaneously.

The Greek philosophers like Iamblichus called these moments of subconscious expansion through unconscious and conscious overlap "epiphanies", AKA sudden insights or seeing into what's really there. Epiphanies is the perfect word because they really are. Seeing inside the aetheric level IS an epiphany because you must have a sufficiently clear unconscious mind to even perceive on that level regularly anyway. There's no way around it.

People still ask the question. How do you love yourself? Well what do you think? What is love? Love is order, I'd argue. Proportionality. Higher functioning. Drop this emotional connection and look at the mechanics of what love DOES. Love is really about stepping into higher function. You cannot receive or even give love if you're dysfunctional. Why? Because it's a function of higher function, and those who have love receive love. Expansion is love. Breaking boxes is love. Dropping not self conditioning is love, loving yourself, giving yourself to higher order, overlapping states and exposing yourself to purifying starlight, God, love. You see why basically everyone else is warping these ideas? It's not about emotional love, that's like saying feeling good manifests. It's insane. Your responses and decisions to life matter WAY more than some forced conjured up feeling to think you're working a non existent mechanism of "the law" in reflection. Ignorance. Say it for what it is shamelessly and without compromise. That's how you love. You respect higher order, you "worship" higher function. Purifying starlight becomes your love not because of some idea about what you think it feels like but because of what it does and what it represents in how it tears you to shreds and puts you back together again in a new arrangement that's greater than the sum of the parts before you willingly exposed yourself to it. That's how you die. Death is love, under that context of transformation and rearrangement of components that is. Do we see what love is now? It's not about feeling sensations in specific but about operating uncompromisingly for the truth of who you are. Dying in battle is love. "Those who die in battle go to Valhalla". Heaven. Air. Superconscious mind. We gain access to higher order spiritual fire through being ourselves, no other way, that's the lock and key mechanism. Stop trying to fit these ideas into holes with the wrong shapes on them that you can't fit through. Just follow what you KNOW works and go all the way with it.

This is an interesting thread I've been contemplating on for a while when I look back at how I manifested changes in other people. I'll say that with most client stories too this thread works quite often as a last crutch. It's that by you being you, you encourage the SP or whoever to come OUT OF THEIR SHELL AS WELL. Remember, nobody is fully clear, both have conditioning on some levels, and so if they're holding onto a degree of dysfunction that's not obvious but still present then you playing your role by default encourages them to open up to you more to get a taste of your confidence. This is why confidence is SO HOT! Ask anyone who's not heavily compromised and they'll tell you that, Confidence is fire, and it spreads like real fire too. You light up the people around you, you by being yourself clear trash in other people by encouraging them in LEADING THE WAY. That's THE most important part, because you acting involved in something they want to involve with too but don't feel comfortable fully yet to WANT to reach out and involve themselves, when they see you initiating and involving (this would be about you taking leadership role in imagination and owning that) then you'll end up basically tipping the scales of dysfunction in their psyche to switch to comfortable move because you're there as a sort of insurance and reassurance addon to their process. It's like when enough people say no to Joo overreach, the ones who were previously afraid to own what they KNEW they needed to do but now have the confidence BECAUSE THE CURRENT IS ALREADY ESTABLISHED AND CLEARED BY OTHERS WITH HIGHER FUNCTION then they can WILLINGLY partake without worrying about being seen under immense pressure the same way. It takes load off their shoulders. This same principle I believe applies for these scenarios too with manifesting changes in people, willingly or not. This is to me how I often saw shifts in others, family and friends and in SP stuff. I found it was often relating to me being willing to push comfort zones and thus I emanated that confident fire they're wanting a taste of and thus they show up for me because I become their supply of encouragement. Makes sense. There must always be a common sense explanation for this stuff and never just "mind magic" in a vacuum. People who say it's all magic are full of horse manure.

In the early days of me using the term "intuitive impulse" it was as I felt this sudden insight where I was like putting myself IN the end thinking FROM where I felt like I NEEDED to move through what I was inspired to involve myself in REGARDLESS of the conditions.

The people who have what you wasn't aren't special. They just accept who they are IN the experience without running from it because it's too challenging for expansion.

When you're leading pathways you're more so moving the yin aspect to willingly open up and accept to be seen, to be illuminated. I believe this is a core theme of how yin expands through yang which is radiance. Yin expands through yang.

10/8/25

Techniques can ONLY setup the CONDITIONS for shifts to happen SPONTANEOUSLY.

11/8/25

Safety has always been the language that the not self speaks to justify compromise. Being willing to feel unsafe for the sake of your inner truth is the act of an immortal.

I personally believe that western media especially movies which portray men as incompetent losers, I believe that this has spilled over into the psyche of those same targeted people and it impacts how they feel about themselves. The media you consume matters. This needs to be recognized that often certain media that feeds into compromise patterns is comfort for many because it props up the illusions and projections you want to be true but can't accept. It's another fantasy that leads to pseudo satisfaction where you lack and suffer while others who get over their stuff actually enjoy living an abundant nourishing life free of this dysfunction.

The more that you willingly and consciously bring up contrast and cut through it the more you're doing the work.

The feeling of qi nourishing an area of your field geometry is like a tingly sensation, except a good one.

"I'm way past my old limits". Anything to put you "in the end" will cause more overlap, wider view, more awareness, expanded experience. It will break pattern. Breaking the pattern of conditioned response. That's what we're really "reprogramming".

13/8/25

I literally said last night "I wish I had more 30 day clients" and I was talking about this with my SP and then I wake up and I've got multiple 30 day clients booked in. Can't fake that stuff. One of them has been on and off interacting with me for over a year now and another showed up in the last week. It's funny because so many times when I say "I wish I had" or "it would be nice if" or something like that it actually causes the thing to show up instead of "I have X thing" or whatever. Yet more proof that "living in the end" has nothing to do with affirming present-future tense or even imagining that stuff but that it's a clearing function of deeper overlap, which I also did do quite intensely before sleeping last night after gazing. A lot of the time when I do this more things move forward. I just can't believe people still buy into the idea that you need to have affirmations always be future tense already done, because you don't. If the context is leading that way then it doesn't matter if the words are future present or past tense because the contextual sense of the feeling you're cutting through to establish clarity does. You can only really negate to reveal what's already there. This is why you can't "make" it happen unless you go all the way which is always working this mechanism anyway. The same mechanism works no matter what because you're overlapping and establishing clarity.

Cycles of tension and release. This is natural striving. Life is not all relaxation. You'd never experience satisfaction without release of built up tension. Tension, striving, is natural. It's part of the procession of yin and yang into and out of each other. We must thank Wilhelm Reich who had no real exposure to Daoist metaphysics or such systems, for it was really Freud who inspired this through seeing libido as life force and thus the supply of pressure and relaxation. The cycle of pressurization and relaxation and release. Neville Goddard imaginal acts works with this mechanism, as this is the only mechanism which causes expansion. Expansion is the key point here, this is not a suggestion through clarity that moves through you because that's the EFFECT of the condition of clarity being available. Without clarity being available then contrast arises to be resolved through tension being correctly cut through and released. The mysteries of LOA are solved by Reality Synthesis.

I'm the only person on earth ever to figure this out and connect it to the work that NG did, as far as I know. We're up against a multi billion dollar industry with this. Does this mechanism open up specific manifestations to show up? Not necessarily, it can, but it's not certain. What is certain is that the specific manifestation stuff that the LOA industry promotes and promises through a mentalism paradigm cannot be reliably proven, though RS can reliably prove that satisfaction in life can be attained through working this mechanism and that whatever is within you, that seed, that thematic expression, that WILL ALWAYS unfold through you 100% of the time if clarity is present. This means that what you ACTUALLY desire at core IS GUARANTEED TO YOU! This doesn't mean the false projections and overlays you place on top of the discomforting unconscious resistance will manifest but what's underlying that which you're uncomfortable to accept WILL manifest. What you're avoiding due to discomfort WILL manifest. That's what's CERTAIN! This is what the LOA industry ignores and what I've proven through YEARS of daily grinding at this because I had a vision that LOA would be eradicated off the face of the earth as an ignorant pile of mentalism trash to be discarded forever. That was what drove me, my truth, despite the challenges I accepted this and owned it. Now that work is done. Your truth isn't something that people will often agree with, but having faith in your unseen wish (direction that pressure is moving to be expressed freely THROUGH YOU) will manifest whatever that wish within you is. We've all been wrong about the NG stuff. I rightfully criticized his work from the at face value perspective, and through properly interpreting his language in a coherent system I've decoded every core part of his doctrine and established what does actually work. Now it's time to tear all the ignorance out there to shreds without mercy and show the world how wrong they've all been. The facts that cannot be refuted are clear as day and we are about to witness history as this industry will begin to lose relevance from this point onwards as it's already dead and people are sick of being manipulated by mentalism. We accept how we really feel and use that to destroy the well funded institutions that have warped how we live our lives using all that pressure we've been avoiding. That pressure is the end of their influence, and RS gives us a way of transforming it into manifest outcomes that actually satisfy us and value our vitality, personally and collectively. This is Reality Synthesis.

The only level yet to fully prove is suggestion through clarity. FULL clarity is something that very very few people have. I am VERY FAR from that, so experimenting with this is going to take a long time and a lot of work but it will be worth it. Everybody who's reading this. Copy and paste what I said above to whatever other platforms and share these mechanisms.

Also the 100th monkey effect is VERY REAL. When it SEEMS like there's a mass agreeance or disagreeance on something people will deny their own feelings to fit in with group think because it's available and safe to think that way. Own who you are, your opinions, even if it's in the fraction of a percentage and you feel alone in your position. So what. That truth is what will move the world. That truth within you even if not recognized until decades later like what I said about Wilhelm Reich and his orgonomy, unless we have the courage to own that truth and accept that we WILL face discomfort for that position, it's OUR job to own that and express it without compromise EVEN IF there's REAL consequences. If your natural striving leads you into battle to die then that's your truth. That's your role to play, and you're not to judge it because that's the will of God. That's an extreme example of course but it's functionally the same. Inner truth cannot be denied or we suffer and collectively we suffer too. The work we have here is individuation, not projection of fantasy. We are not here to project fantasy. All of that possibility is way behind me. WAY behind me, I've fully moved on from that as I've irrefutably disproven all of that stuff 100% over time and time again for years and we all know it's just a load of trash because it's not consistent at all. The manifestations that play out there usually happen when you give up, and I've explained why that is too.

My original vision many years ago, back in like 2016-17, it was to shift collective consciousness through inspiring them in media I'd make. That's why I use to make videos on my old LDJ channel which got nuked when I uploaded the holohoax newspaper video. We're being gaslit out of our truth, this is real, this is happening TO US BY THEM! This is reality, not a fantasy in our minds. Why is this still a constant variable that we can still observe all throughout time over decades and going back centuries these narratives existed too about certain historical events not playing out the way they really did and that being used to push a specific perception that normalized devaluing groups of people out of their inner truth. Why is this a thing? Why are we still facing this today? Why is the LOA space all about self gaslighting? It's because we're living in a world run on projection and fantasy, and thus the collective psyche is HIGHLY traumatized underlying all that pressure and dysfunction we're holding onto to fit in. That boil over WILL happen, and it cannot be stopped. This is the natural peak dip cycle of the human psyche, individually and collectively. This is EXACTLY the same functional mechanism as I observed in the correctly interpreted NG doctrine. The truth that's being buried through carful psychological manipulation and gaslighting through propagating false doctrines that devalue certain targeted groups of people and stifle their availability of social cohesion and vitality, among other things like economic value and such. This is being done TO US by Jooz, yet we're told by the fantasy mentalism buffs to imagine the opposite. Where's the satisfaction there? Where the heck is the release of pressure? The acceptance of inner truth? THERE'S NONE IT'S ALL A SCAM! Wake up. LOA is just another fairy tale to market to us a projection as reality just as all other anti-individuation doctrines that seek to destroy the individual psyche from functioning correctly via social conditioning and gaslighting so that people WILLINGLY silence their inner truth and thus suffer and wonder why things get worse and worse in their lives and the lives of those around them. It's because you're still denying your truth. You're holding the lid over your unconscious conditioning and hiding from the face of who you really are and how you REALLY feel underlying all the fantasy projection to distract yourself from the discomfort of how things really are. It's only when things get bad enough that you realize that you've been living a delusion but those moments don't last because you're going to go right back to the pseudo satisfaction cycle of accepting devaluation for crumbs of safety and comfort that never even satisfies the deep truth within you.

The only way to move forward, to manifest abundance, to be a successful manifesting legend, is to accept who you really are. Drop all this metaphysical stuff about "I AM" and whatnot and be as practical as we can here. Be as fully real and drop all the illusions and projections we're putting mountains of effort into upholding without getting anything in return but temporary little blips of approval that really don't mean anything to the deeper truth of who we are. Making the clear and present decisions we really know we need to make is the solution. Breaking the boxes we've run from to seek approval, to be seen in a certain way that's safe, to be towing a certain line that will give us pseudo satisfaction and partaking in limits willingly to avoid criticism for going beyond your line of acceptable nourishment which breaks you out of the standard mediocrity of life living the same way every day. Break pattern. Take a left turn instead of a right one. Talk to that person on the street when you feel compelled to instead of "what will they think of me" Go to that store and be seen buying that thing you really want that others may judge you for. Speak your mind when you feel that truth being available and be ruthlessly and mercilessly honest with that inner truth. Do not compromise, be real, brutally real. Be so real is scares people. Does that mean it will cause sufferings and blowback every time? No. But be ok with that, because that's just the scenario we're in. You cannot control other people to conform in a certain way and anyway seeming they can deliberately pull everybody in their lives like puppets is lying to you. Nor I or anyone else can do that. Being yourself will elicit the response that you need to have from them, regardless of what that is. The right people will show up to give you what you need in the end no matter what though, that's the guarantee because you're clear. That's really how manifestation functions. Being in flow as yourself without contrast leads you to satisfying manifestations 100% of the time no matter what in the end. Mediating pressure is what satisfies us, and corresponding experiences which reflect our baseline state of nourishment and supply will always follow. Signs follow not precede, as NG says.

NG himself said that this whole experience of life is about the satiation of hunger, the hunger for the expression of inner truth, which is fixed according to how NG interpreted what the wish is in later lectures and is a gift from God. Interpreting this as mentalism and solipsistic will ruin your life. That will only lead you to living in delusion, adding on projection to avoid the negation of the not self conditioning. There's no way around that. The sooner we can accept the reality of this the better and the less vitality we burn in the attempt to be satisfied. NG imaginal acts was always about mediating pressure correctly, not just suggestion and request. Your desires AKA inner truth are already there, it's just pressure to avoid it that needs releasing, AKA relaxation from satisfaction of correct expression and ACCEPTANCE. Remember that NG defined "the feeling" as "the acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled" and it makes sense when you put it all together this way about acceptance of the wish, desire, pressure to be. That's why you exist, of course there's natural striving pressure to express, that's your built in vitality seeking expression through the path of least resistance but the lid keeps getting put on the pot until it eventually explodes and you face the truth of who you really are.

When you become your own authority in life then you win. If you let others be your authority and supply of influence then you lose because they manifest your life instead of you. If you want to manifest your life then you be your own authority and your own supply. If this means being real with the people around you then so be it, big deal, it doesn't matter. All that matters is that you play your role and the perfect people who you need to fulfil your satisfying role WILL show up. They're WAITING for you to play your role to come into your life. Stop wasting time. You already know what to do. Drop the projections, drop the illusions, drop the trash and move forward with accepting that you already are enough as you are and that these projections don't need to be there at all. Your path of satisfaction is already available, in capacity, and as soon as you accept it AKA do what NG said, then you win.

Always remember, You don't have to see or even FEEL what you're doing WILL WORK, you JUST HAVE TO TRUST INTUITIVE IMPULSE. Those decisions that you have spontaneously arise, those ones that you're like "this can't work" but you put it out and it does anyway and does way better than you expect. People will say "oh look he detached and it worked HURRR DUURRR" but in fact it's that it was already within you before you even thought about it. It's being moved through you, and you're the conduit. Doesn't matter what you think, how you feel, or anything. If you have the insight/s to make a decision you think will fail but you just "have this feeling" then you've got God on your side. That's all you need. There are endless examples where doubt persisted in through to the end will manifest abundance. RS is one of those things. I never imagined this end, though I felt worthy of whatever it was leading me through. I didn't question an entry, I didn't judge what I felt was truth, I didn't compromise, I just followed my intuitive sense and trusted that it would work out in the end and it did. The end is ALWAYS about sense of self, not about the details of the thing, because those details are encoded in the thematic composition of the experience that sense of self goes through and represents. It's already there implied by your association to that idea. This whole idea about dropping seeds is insane, because unless you've got clarity and have the conditions by which seeds can be dropped (they're already there anyway and even later NG said this too) then you CANNOT "drop the seed". All you can do is establish clarity as the condition for contrast to be negated, which is why I say this is all about negation not addition. Adding on projections and fantasy and overlays that are the pseudo satisfaction cycles you grab onto to feel better when you're avoiding feeling the truth, those projections will ruin your life and force you to face reality in a harsh and brutal way to get you to wake up.

How do we have spontaneous "move on" moments where we just "get over" our trash? We become ripe enough for that to happen. It doesn't happen with techniques. It just happens because we're ready for that.

Participating in your process instead of being all hopeless and seeing it as something that won't work will make it work. It doesn't matter if you think it won't work, because what you continue to return to over and over WILL WORK EVEN IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN IT! I've said this so many times and some common sense will allow you to see through the mentalism delusion. Stop thinking that thinking does anything other than suggest experiences and even then the exact words don't matter which I've also proven over and over. The thought comes through you based on the conditions of what's available. The subtle feeling matters 10x more. Get knocked down and get back up again. Why is this phrase so real? Because it's what we all experience. You get sucked into the dip cycle and you get back up again and go at another round, until you eventually break through the trash and see clearly without contrast.

To change the collective trajectory there needs to be REAL consequences for attempting to continue to gaslight and propagate a false narrative. There needs to be consequences for decisions made so that the availability for them to continue to get away with this trash is taken way out of an option.

Just learned that light coming in through the eyes can cause liver wind. Interesting stuff.

So I belive that all psychological patterns can be explained with TCM terms, though I can’t fully prove that. The thing is I have no idea how you’d reliably categorise psychological levels with the corresponding thematics that TCM uses and then have treatment processes too. I’ve tried using some AI models locally run to pull this off and it’s next to impossible they’re all just trash at this stuff they contradict themselves way too much to be useful. I know some people have said they’ve turned my notebook into a trained model and I bet the results it outputs would be very bad. Do not use LLM to interpret RS. Don’t care what model it is they all suck for technical analysis like this and have consistency issues.

When you do deeper imaginal work you’re entering inside the subconscious mind, aka living in the body of the aetheric template. This is yin, higher order yin. It’s a substantive aspect which if you’re doing advanced gazing should also have a balancing effect on yin and yang as the alchemist says. I also want to say that this expression of Yang should always be spontaneous. I belive we have a built in system of balance that’s always there but because we don’t listen and trust we get out of balance with yin and yang. I’m far from being fully balanced with these aspects but I’ve observed a clear contrast in mental stability when I consciously live more spontaneously, meaning I trust spontaneous intuitive impulse more and then relax into the effects of that after I’ve made my movement. This matters a lot. Spending time on both an active and still level matters. Most of us have lacking yin, and the work is really to establish lish higher order yin, but that’s done through correct application of yang. Excessive and unnecessary yang expression such as mindless affirming and imagining and stuff doesn’t do anything of value and only depletes yin more. We need spontaneous dynamism.

So many factors to track with this it’s insane. Really these should all come through us if we’re clear though. Establish clarity and you will be operating correctly.

When we’ve got conscious level cognition of certain feelings, those justifications are not actually the full picture because your mind must recognise and interpret the dysfunction in that channel which corresponds to a psychological level manifestation as well. Memories and such can almost get locked into that as anchors to explain to the thinking mind why you’re feeling lack here. This is just another layer to the false expectation compromise pattern. On one level it is psychological and on another it’s thematic dysfunction in the corresponding channel. What’s primary? Well I’d argue it’s all thematic supply/demand and psychological level experience is what results from that, because we know the body intelligence runs the show. With this in mind what we can do to process that resistance is to consciously immerse yourself in the depths of it and while in the depths cut through it via illuminating starlight. Just the feeling of the lack itself is the experince of overlap, so go to the end and deepen that overlap and transform that lack.

Say someone has kidney yin deficiency and heart blood deficiency. They’ll have empty heat most likely and that’ll manifest psychologically as anxiety. Their anxiety would be tied to parts of them they’re denying expression of which relates fo the yin depletion. The time of day that certain thoughts show up can even be a clue here.

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The map I’ve created seems pretty consistent. I believe I’m on the edge of another breakthrough in treating limiting compromise pattern stuff with this. So one of the biggest issues I see people face is yin related substance deficiency. I’ve dealt with this since birth, because I was actually born with significant depletion in that area and it impacted me in ways that were leaving me open and vulnerable to MORE LIKELY develop certain psychological tendencies due to that constitutional deficiency. I cannot gaslight myself and say it doesn’t exist, because the clear patterns through my life revealed this to be a fact going back to when I was like 5-6 years old and even younger. I was born with jaundice after all from the blood condition. This must’ve been a challenge I was forced to face to understand these things, else why would I be here now talking about it and decoding the nature of psychological manifestations of deficiencies and excesses and stagnations in different substances.

Yin is the biggest most common thing people lack, then they get stagnant qi, then deficiency of qi. This is what I’ve observed, though my sample size likely isn’t large enough to draw solid conclusions with this but it makes sense. Men can and up with yin and qi deficiency (caused by a cascade from yin deficiency) faster than women, but women can seem to end up with stagnations easier it seems. Women have higher baseline of yin and so qi is more vulnerable. Men have more yang, so yin is more vulnerable which can then lead to blood stagnations and such. Those are just facts about polarities and thematic composition and the physical manifestation of that is revealed in the sex that someone develops as, clearly. So these natures do exist irrefutably, but to what extent.

If someone is deficient yin then their subconscious mind will be contracted more at baseline, but it’s not a direct overlap because I’ve been deficient and yet have shown clear signs of expansion. There’s an influence. Now mental thought is Yang, feeling is yin. The language of communication is yin with spontaneous yang rising when necessary. Yang that’s excessive burns yin to steam causing restlessness and anxiety and such. Taking specific herbal formulas targeted to resolve lacks on the thematic substantive level can clear the EXPERIENCE OF CONTRAST and make psychological narrowing of the view less intense when compromise patterns arise. It’s not going to make the beliefs magically vanish but it will provide a wider perspective. If you’re yin deficient then fears and such will seem bigger, and being yin nourished will make them smeller. You ever wonder why some are able to power through it easier than others? It’s because they feel it less, even if the conditions are bigger in reality. Makes me think that TEST then has to do with kidney yin too, as that’s where men gain that ability to face fears head on even ones that seem massive, but then there’s heart and circulation benefits which can come from more yin (really blood) but qi would make more sense due to physical performance being enhanced and spleen qi being wanted to build the physical structure of the body from that earth element.

My point is that there is in fact a direct connection between psychological dysfunction TENDENCIES and WEAKENESSES in facing PRESSURE AND CONTRAST that reveal an additional way to amplify benefits of this work. You see there’s the deficiency pattern itself or excess or stagnation or even it can be a floating or sinking pattern there’s so many but then it can be organ specific or even channel specific within that organ. Many layers that make specific targeting next to impossible just by hearing what someone presents with and this is the challenge. I could talk about all this stuff about TCM terms and how they relate but if that can’t be reliably practically applied then what’s the benefit? Nothing really, because there’s an insane amount of variables you’ll never really figure out exactly to a pinpoint what the core issue would be unless it’s painfully obvious. There’s layers in layers that can often have seeming contradicting diagnoses because yin and yang deficiencies can present with similar conditions depending on if it’s full or empty or floating with qi deficiency and constitutional stuff the person might not be aware of would make it more clear but who knows. That’s what I would like to have as an extra diagnosis method for exactly what to target and using certain herbal formulas to benefit but that’s rarely been useful. It’s there, it’s just how do you turn it into something practical.

No matter what though if we create space through negating unnecessary stimulus we build yin, and by being spontaneous we allow yang to be bursty and expressive when necessary. This is the way that a functional psyche operates. If yin is deficient it can signify someone who’s always active, and to the point external eye that might seem like a good thing but really they’re actually an empty heat pattern that’s generating restlessness that they’re having to internalize and psychologically make sense of and so they identify with this thematic arrangement and make it part of them even though it’s not. The compromise pattern here would be “I’m always working and can’t relax” and the solution would be to deliberately relax but it will feel painful and uncomfortable because they’ll feel the empty heat when in expanded space. They can’t relax, and so relaxing becomes the discomfort and they’ll WANT to go back to being overstimulated not because they don’t want to relax because they know they need to but because their psyche is warped by this seemingly excessive need to stimulate. This is why I say that there’s many layers to what presents as dysfunctional patterns in the psyche. Someone who can’t relax is someone who will have a very very hard time manifesting specific stuff. Been there done that. I have yin deficiency built into me, so I know exactly what that’s like on all the levels, Jing and blood and yin like kidney yin. It’s all going to present as worth lack, physical developmental lack, energy lacking, mental instability, frustration, fear seeming bigger because yin can’t anchor expanding yang which is already pathogenic and so has an easier time seeming bigger then it is, all kinds of stuff. We feel these different contrast responses often as movements of Yang, and if the polarity yin isn’t there to anchor and limit the expansion of that signal or contrast response manifesting as the somatic and emotional level deficiency then it will seem bigger than it is which is where we get stuck.

This is why I believe that grasping this can be very beneficial in treating psychological level dysfunction and clearing compromise pattern to make those massive contrast batteries seem much smaller and manageable because that’s really what I believe causes people to get stuck. The lack itself isn’t bad but the response itself when visceral to the point of it making you physically sick like it did with me EVERY time I had things manifest that were what I wanted like an SP physically showing up for me I made me actually extremely anxious to a degree where I was completely dysfunctional and I couldn’t stop it no matter what I wanted. I also believe this is why people who actually develop weaker have a harder time in relationships with seeing their SP as the supply instead of themselves. Since they’re actually in lack by constitutional makeup they have a built in deficiency that cannot go away without direct targeting to resolve it through tapping the root that generates this within their psyche which can be many many layers deep and inaccessible to the conscious mind for a long time. Someone with genetic stuff that’s qi related perhaps wouldn’t have as hard of a time with it as a Jing deficiency like what I’ve got. Why? Because Jing deficiency is the most debilitating of all because a lack in baseline Jing supply means you literally have less buffer to pull from to handle contrast and so psychological dysfunction is FAR more likely to develop leading to compromise patterns and thus manifestations that get stuck in them as seeds that never unfolds through never having the conditions to open up that natural striving to play out without significant contrast warping how its manifest.

How do we make sense of these different patterns? Well yin deficiency can cascade into many other patterns. Qi stagnation usually first through heat disrupting qi flow usually from liver heat which smooths qi flow and is responsible for storing blood at rest leading to restless shen and bad sleep. So you can see how a simple deficiency can cascade into totally different patterns which then seem to manifest as their own psychological dysfunctions that are all tied to a root issue that went unchecked. This was the basis of the house of cards idea I had years ago. Never fully developed all the way but pathway work is the way we’d come closest to tracing thematic limits to recognize core patterns.

Someone who’s very sensitive to stress will almost certainly have yin deficiency of some form, be it Jing or yin or blood or related patterns. The mind swims in the body of substances it’s not causal. The mind will make sense of how these deficiencies and stagnations feel and form psychological responses to make sense of how these lacks feel. When someone undergoes immense trauma they often have a moment of heightened movement of Yang or qi which damages the blood or yin and that never gets resolved and that’s how it can spiral into much worse scenarios because of the holding on. The thinking in itself that comes from these lacks in the substances DOES NOT MANIFEST because there’s no actual seed there to unfold. It’s really the arrangement of the substances that matters, because there’s body believes and the psyche swims in that and identifies with that. NG never spoke about this though of course and so it’s alien language to those types who are foment beyond belief on how to actually coach someone.

If someone has kidney yin deficiency due to never resolved trauma that led to the lacking yin in contrast to a functional baseline, that person can probably live for years with that deficiency without realizing they’ve even had it because all this stuff is mostly invisible. That kidney yin deficiency can lead to the psychological development of ungrounded Shen which leads to bad sleep and a constant anxiety and even when eating highly yin depleting stuff like sugars can cause more anxiety that the docs will say is psychosomatic like they did with me out of total ignorance of the cascading effects that they could see otherwise. If these docs learned TCM they’d probs be critical of the Joo funded trash. Also if someone has lacking spleen qi developed over years of overthinking (mindless affirming to try solve issues) it can make their anxiety worse. How? Because spleen qi is responsible for generating kidney yin and heart blood through gu qi which is “food qi” that’s derived from eating as well as stuff that’s bad for spleen can also cause more anxiety and the lack of yin and blood will cause the Shen to rise up into the head and constantly think at baseline with no way of stopping it until it becomes grounded again through anchoring by yin. You see how this works? It’s a cascade of impacts that can actually make sense practically to how someone presents with patterns but without enough info from a client on their condition which would feed into this understanding specifically it’s hard. Getting someone’s story is very useful but without this more detailed symptomatic analysis of what helps and makes it worse, then I can’t figure it out.

Considering seed retention helps so many younger men especially drop their anxiety I think this proves my point. The mechanism is clear. It’s not just that it holds energy (because it still needs unfolding or it becomes pathogenic heat from stagnation and it’ll result in night wettings as a result of kidney qi getting sucked out from stasis) it builds the anchor by which energy can be held and circulated better. Also just thinking “hot” thoughts can also burn more Jing because that HEAT literally rises through you and causes the Shen to run loose again and that’s why people get lost in fantasy and have narrow view when the heat gets turned up and they end up spilling seed seemingly helplessly. So many people get addicted to this stuff and have no idea why or what’s happening but this all makes sense of it. You need an anchor to widen the view, else you end up in narrow space where you can’t experience clarity. Clarity is an unconscious thing burn from illumination and cutting through the lack to see what needs to be seen in the wider view. Without the yin substances which are unconsciously and subconsciously related, how can space be expanded and the view widened. The experiences of space seems to be a function of Shen anchoring and yin filling the circuits to act as a highly efficient conductive medium for qi or the aspects of mental psyche which process naturally through those channels and manifest the psychological levels of experience we unfold. Why does everyone have such low level views on this stuff? It’s crazy that everyone out there has such narrow understanding of these mechanics, but it makes sense because I’ve spent ages figuring this out and it was partially born out of my own lacks as I said. Whenever you’re yin deficient the last thing you should be doing is stimulating yourself unnecessarily because this will make the deficient worse in how it manifests and then you’ll be helpless to stop the spiraling thoughts and the dip will follow because you didn’t spend available vitality correctly. Depleting it over and over will destroy you.

I know people in this space seem to think that thought controls reality I but it doesn’t. It’s at most a suggestion that can manifest, else it’s all the seed AKA built in substance which unfolds into manifest reality. Suggestion out of thematic integration can and will result in outcomes that are specific but again I’m not even close to that level yet to test this systematically. How could I fully know this? I can only partially know due to experiences I’ve had, but my baseline isn't to the level as some of my clients and I’m ok with that. I learn a lot from them too. Decoding the hundreds of variables. The impossible puzzle. I can say that and still unfold it, the thoughts you have are irrelevant for the most part. If people in this space think coaching is targeted thought management then you’re way off and need schooling. That’s a part of it but that’s not the cause, the thought management only really applies when you’re actively involved in facing contrast to stabilize a wider view to open up deeper overlap to starlight. That's why I believe that NG said what he did about looping thoughts or scenes which are still just mental. They’re used to hold over the illumination till explosion happens, if it does.

The deeper you go into this the more devoid it becomes of what’s taught about LOA normally as mentalism. I still see so many people calling this “the law of mentalism” shamelessly. Yeah they get massive profits but that’s irrefutably wrong and needs schooling. How the heck do you lead someone into that position of understanding though.

Part of me thinks that my Hung weakness which most directly relates then to a weakness in spleen qi and kidney yin would manifest as the “intelligence” I’ve always had. Isn’t that interesting. I mean I’ve never really seen myself as some super smart guy I’ve just spent ages studying stuff and learned a lot. It’s almost like intelligence is linked to patterns of lack in some ways, which is usually why people with certain deficiencies end up extremely high IQ even though they’re dysfunctional. Why? Because their Shen is floating and they’re not embodied and that’s how they identify because that’s what they experience. They circulate thought helplessly because that’s the thematic composition of their psyche. They CANNOT stop that with their mind because the mind is swimming in it. They HAVE TO feel truth and cut through the projections and see reality for what it is.

I also believe, as crazy as this sounds, that sexual kinks and stuff can be studied under a TCM perspective to understand where someone has deficiencies because that’s the most direct thing that people have awareness of of what they’re not that they’re needing supply for. Someone with certain things they’re into would likely have thematic correlation, and of course as I said since the mind swims in that dysfunction then stuff that’s addition to clarity as an overlay to avoid feeling the truth will be their retreat from pressure to dissipate responsibility to resolve it. Preferences here can provide insights, as crude as it may be. I don’t have much data on this but it’s just another aspect of the pseudo satisfaction cycle that most people buy into and having watched certain things I’ve had previously been into fall away effortlessly when I started valuing myself and facing the truth I can say that it does have a degree of practical basis in taking a case study. I did have one client willingly tell me about being into cuck stuff, meaning willingly feeling lower than others who have what they want and being overpowered but that context is usually under the perspective of someone they like being taken by someone else and they gain heat from the thought of them having their person being with someone else or even watching them with someone else. Typically someone with strong kinks for this would be someone with yin deficiency leading to heart heat or fire or it could be fire in excess but that’s not always common. There is in fact a link between how certain people look and what they’re into, because the themes will overlap from the conditioning to the physical manifestation of their appearance as a warped version of their clear potential to appear. With the cuck stuff, they had blood deficiency that was clear with some qi being stagnated likely in liver meridian. This caused a tendency to release pressure through that frustrating feeling of “I can’t get what I want” as the unconscious overlay and so the pseudo satisfaction cycle led to them actually finding pleasure in not getting their SP but when they felt the fire and felt that held back frustration then they’d be able to manifest it by bringing nourishment to that circuit they weren’t opening up to before. Liver blood deficiency can manifest as preferences to themes that unfold as frustration releases because liver blood keeps frustration from rising out of its channel into touching the heart which is where a lot of the feeling of the desire comes from remember when the heart is warmed you feel strong intense desire, and so we can say then that cooling the heart satisfied desire but cooling it can also be done through pseudo satisfaction which leads to the release of oxytocin and prolactin at climax which is just a reflection of what happens when fire is put out and desire is no longer felt. It that all these feelings we have in the body with rising heat feelings gives us indicators as to what the vitality is doing and how we can cut through the lacks to see what’s compromised and how to fulfil that.

People can become addicted to the feeling of heart fire and that spike in dopamine is a signal that they’re feeling intense desire for something. This is why when I remember studying people with Parkinson’s they also had dopamine responses being warped because liver yang was constantly elevated due to lacking blood anchor and so the wood out of control harms the fire leading to heart heat and tremors. It was a big aha to me. TCM is truly incredible. I still have people that scoff at this being a legit science but the amount of connections that are able to explain stuff that biochemical so called medicine can’t explain is insane. When my house was getting badly flooded and I woke up in serious anxiety in the night from what was happening I did acupressure on I think it was heart 3 and it calmed me down sooo fast it took like 3 mins and I was cooled down and I could approach things clearly. This was when my anxiety was insanely dysfunctional and I’d get so stressed over small stuff so you can imagine what this would’ve done to me. It was like I went from 10-2 in a matter of minutes because of the acupressure. It’s not psychosomatic if there’s an actual mechanical explanation for why something the mentalism fools say is magic when it’s really not. I mean it’s all magic but not “magic magic” as in mentalism placebo effect kind of magic. It’s common sense. How can anyone believe in mentalism when RS exists to destroy that paradigm.

There’s so many levels to how TCM can apply it’s crazy. In truth any kink is really a function of dysfunction, as hard as that is for most people to accept because they’re identifying with it which is the problem. Seeing it for what it is through the widened view is how you make it conscious, but as I’ve said many times the conditions for that widened view need to be established. Leading pathways is a sort of forcing width that really only goes so far anyway but usually it works well, but technically it does have limits. The substances being available as they should be at baseline is what matters because then you’re operating functionally.

Understand this. When you feel that rising heat and desire it’s a function of dysfunctional patterns that you’re identifying with because you’re swimming in it and are unconscious of its impacts on your psyche, meaning there’s no width established to view and cut through the conditioned response. If you respond to that sensation by buying into it and making decisions from that then you’re going to be stuck in the cycle of peak dip pseudo satisfaction. How you escape that is by observing that fire rising and laugh at it. That's a wide view of mastery. You can see the pattern for what it is, unconscious conditioning leading you to want to compromise on being authentic aka functional to your nature aka living in the end. You can actually manifest experiences which feed these pseudo satisfaction cycles which I’ve done many times before in the past but they never satisfy you and when you see this pattern enough you’ll know what’s consigning and what’s not, even if the conditioning feels good to buy into, temporarily that is, but the depletion and lack that comes after only reveals the dysfunction because that desire of lack was born from dysfunctional patterns in the field country leading to false identification and compromise. Breaking that cycle nourishes the dysfunction through illumination and thus you become more of yourself and manifest satisfying outcomes at baseline because your responses are now functional. Common sense right? Basic logic.

Being ok with feeling the fire, feeling the pseudo desire for not self conditioning and seeing it as dysfunctional and not compromising even though you feel like you want to is essential to grasping how to actually shift the conditioning in the psyche felt from the dysfunction in the field geometry. This means that understanding that function is available to you always when clear from contrast and these warped dysfunctional patterns of channel disruption manifesting the psychological impact that it has on you is essential to breaking the box. It’s all about “I feel X way and I’m ok with that because I know this isn’t me” as “it’s just dysfunction I can cut through by not buying j to it” and thus because you don’t expand the dysfunction by buying into the rising yang that disturbs the function of your field geometry we can actually have a systematic explanation of manifestation without needing any magic of placebo effects or whatever. Grasp that this mechanical view of things explains literally everything about the phenomena of manifestation including suggestion and request from clarity leading to an unfolding of integrated capacity, usually in a natural way where you just affirm or something and it shows up. Facing contrast means there’s substantive dysfunction in the field geometry and that obviously will warp how others will perceive you. You’ll manifest people just like who the pseudo satisfaction cycle is leading you to identify as desiring when that’s not actually what you desire. The dysfunction when identified with feeds more dysfunction. When you widen the view and see the dysfunction clearly AKA you can observe the body energy movement of excess heat rising up for example and see it as just that instead of who you are then you’re on the right track. You will be willingly feeling the discomfort of how that dysfunctional pattern is manifesting the desire for compromise but you will allow it to be there without buying into that conditioning. You can observe with clarity and thus make correct decisions which will then clear the dysfunction instead of feeding it. Buying into it only makes it worse because you’re going to make the field geometry with the lacking yin for example only more intense with that depletion of grounding substance to keep the Shen from floating and being activated unconsciously. When you don’t buy into the desire you allow the fire to settle without it causing more cascading effects. This is what cutting through the trash is about from the TCM view. When you allow the correct decisions to take place instead of worsening the thematic arrangement of the field geometry then you’ll feel at baseline more nourished and able to operate more clearly as yourself aka more functional to your fixed capacity to grow into. This is why the decisions you make matter a lot too because willingly compromising and dealing with people who cause you stress and are dysfunctional will only work that same false identification mechanism that keeps the lack in place you’ll continue to buy into thinking and justifying why you should stay when they’re causing your lack cycle to repeat. Cutting out that trash will provide clarity and you’ll escape the suffering which you’ll then obviously not be depleted as systematically from not having them to cause it and so in a higher state or function you’ll manifest someone who’s better for you like magic, be it someone specific or not it doesn’t matter.

Having attachments to someone specific is typically a sign of heavy false identification with compromise patterns and dysfunction in the field geometry and thus the psyche grasps at it because it causes that excitement that’s always temporary. This is what mentalism marketing thrives off, hyping you up and getting you bought into the possibility of satisfying the false identification when that’s exactly what’s keeping you stuck. This is why I despise mentalism so much because it’s a cancer to this world that needs to be surgically removed. RS is that treatment. Why do you think I’ve been saying that the decisions you make matter infinitely more than the thoughts you have? Because they do and the mentalism crowd can’t explain a single mechanism of causality to prove their idea to be correct it’s a house of cards waiting to fall over and I’m blowing it down. Mental stimulus from an artificially stimulated psyche imagining the fulfilment of their projection overlay does NOTHING to satisfy their actual natural striving it’s all just trash and ignorant moronic filth propagated by low life people with no critical thinking skill and obviously know it doesn’t work because they don’t have high success rates and they know this because they see it all the time and yet have no consequences for continuing to rake in the money profiting off others ignorance and conditioning cycles. Utter garbage that should be taken out for what it is. Mentalism is a cancer and should be treated as such.

The reason why this has continued for so long is because breaking down the false expectation conditioning that someone has been willingly buying into for pseudo satisfaction is extremely painful and letting that go involves nourishing the very thing that causes their artificially derived identification with. You’re literally breaking off a supply for the mind to buy into as an identification to explain their lives and often that will be held onto because of the attachments they’ve formed in the world through making incorrect decisions from that conditioning. So we can see that to nourish false expectation conditioning means to literally be ok with nourishing a part of you that you know is dysfunctional and losing that part of you and all the cascading effects it’s had from the decisions you’ve made. That’s why letting go is painful and difficult for many people. The consequences of letting go and being more authentic feels less nourishing then the temporary peak dip cycle because they’ve been so identified with it for so long. They don’t even know what they feel like without it and that unknown of how their life will operate without this is scary and makes them afraid of stepping into the illuminating starlight. Any time that you feel like you’re releasing something that’s inauthentic it’s going to be painful unless there’s minimal dysfunction there. The deeper the overlap needs to be to touch the conditioning the deeper the pressure to compromise will be and the harder it will be to widen the narrow view of contrast to natural striving. It can be aided of course by herbal formulas among other stuff that’s thematically associated to the optimal arrangement and function of those psychological aspects.

There’s a reason why post compromise clarity shows up when the fire to trigger the pseudo satisfaction pattern is gone, and you know what to do but that doesn’t last long. Those clear decisions to make will quickly be overshadowed by more dysfunction when the heat rises up and disturbs the Shen again to warp your psyche into buying into the compromise pattern. Facts. It’s all about pressure and using it correctly. These insights can come through you spontaneously due to the substances not being further depleted that would balance the dysfunction leading to the false identification and compromise pattern. Remember that the dysfunction showed up originally as just a moment of weakness of a certain substance but because the mind needs to explain this feeling it’s having of that substance being out of proportion then it’ll identify as someone who has this thing which usually happens as children when we don’t know differently. From that point on the false expectation builds and pressure amplifies and the original slight dysfunction cascades into systematic depletion and confusion of the psyche as to who it is. This has all been totally misinterpreted by “I AM” magical doctrine totally devoid of any common sense mythology of shifting such dysfunctions or how they ever even showed up. My biggest reason to criticize that model in the early days was how they couldn’t explain how dysfunction shows up in the first place, such as how a child could be born with genetic blood disease that everyone in their family has had for generations. The child has no idea about these concepts to even think or manifest them under a mentalism model. It doesn’t work. The child is bound by their narrow view and identifies as someone who has X condition until the conscious awareness of the truth underlying that false identification is made clear. Mentalism cannot explain any of it. It’s total and utter trash.

More often than not what you actually desire doesn’t excite you the SAME WAY as pathogenic desires of the not self do. This is why they manifest even if you don’t feel “good” about them in the same sense. They don’t have to be stimulating to manifest. Often it’s the opposite. This is why I’ve said that sinking charge helps manifesting because you’re not activating pathogenic yang as much to trigger the not self trash into conscious experience. How do we define trash? Cycles of compromise that you keep returning to that are dysfunctional. Obviously. Willingly breaking that cycle nourishes the dysfunction and brings illumination to that channel. NG said we’re just “mechanized dolls” and when you view it under this context it makes sense. We can view these. We can view these dysfunctional patterns as just mechanics within our field geometry that are out of balance and thus since our mind swims in them then it almost can’t help but buy into it.

It's almost like there's a baseline level of "normal" human function with a clear enough unconscious mind and then there's the expansion above that which is what we're looking to attain to manifest specific stuff. Unless you're at least clear enough unconsciously without all these pathogenic dysfunctional patterns manifesting as psychological conditioning then you'll need to clear that before clear suggestion can be effectively integrated and manifest.

All the "hype" work to break boxes is more than likely just going to lead you into the pit once again because you'll buy into false identification patterns unknowingly.

Each of your meridians has a certain capacity of function before it gets warped and turned into a whacked dysfunctional one. As soon as the tank with baseline vitality reaches a certain level and the buffer tank is fully depleted then there's dysfunction that creeps in.

Looking back at how things manifested for me many years ago I believe there's a degree of impact that actively thinking has on yang and how other people feel this projection. I don't have much else to add other than when I had lots of yang current with sufficient yin to anchor still I seemed to have manifested more stuff, even if it wasn't satisfying but things were more "dynamic". Perhaps there's a link there. Can't say,

I believe that general sense of energy and vitality also matters to feeling if something is available or not. This is a sleeper part of us that needs paying attention to. People ask me for courses, and yet there's hundreds of variables that I somehow have to decode enough for everybody to understand and also put into practical methods that people can apply in their own examples of the resistances and suggestions they're processing. How the heck is that possible in any short period of time. Giving someone fundamentals of facing pressure under greater context that they lead through following pathway work is probably the most reliable and simple method that exists but there's more layers than can be applied to expand what pathway work can reveal through making unconscious stuff more conscious in recognizing feeling patterns of somatic sensations primarily and then going into those feelings for the house of cards trail of thought to find roots and then recognize what this needs because sometimes there might not be a psychological level impact that can be applied due to a fundamental deficiency.

Opening up to starlight and illumination of unconscious trash makes more vitality available. The experience of it is contradicting, but facing the fear in the dark abyss of your unconscious mind brings more abundance after the fact and it will show up SPONTAENOUSLY EVEN IF YOU DON'T EXPECT IT CONSCIOUSLY OR THINK ABOUT IT! Why. Because the field geometry, body belief, available nourishment of each substances, thematic supply/demand that operates automatically, this is what manifests MAIN QUEST STUFF, mostly. Side quest stuff that's optional coming from suggestion is more of the conscious manifest stuff that's more on the direct level of subconscious experience IN the aetheric body communicating directly to higher genius AKA "God". That language can be simply imaginal acts or whatever or thought. It KNOWS what you want though, it's aware of everything you are of course because it's literally what you're an emanation of and are contained in. It oversees everything you do and can force conscious control over your mind and body if it so pleases. It has the final say, always. If it doesn't allow you to manifest something then it will deny that, or if it allows then it will allow, even if it's to your determent.

My qigong master talked about manifestation as something that worked under the "universe granting you what you need" kind of idea. It has everything waiting for you to get into action. He stressed the importance of action, over and over and over and over. I have refined this understanding to be far more than just "action" which IS important because those CLEAR decisions you KNOW you need to make DO MATTER but that's not the ENTIRE picture obviously we're talking about RS here with so many variables. When he said it's that reality giving you stuff when you "didn't let up" it was under the context of repetitively going all the way to the best of your ability to make something happen. This is how I would say it's best described, and why persistence matters under this context because even under RS we know that manifestations don't show up first time when you face the starlight it will show up when you're clear enough and that can take multiple runs and even action that fails. I've faced this and you have too, we know and understand this process. You can make fearless actions but they will seem to cause failure. Now don't see the "fail" as you not doing the work to shift, because if you're facing pressure then NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE FACING STARLIGHT. No matter what you WILL be moving forward, and this is also why when you feel you're at the end of your attempts to make something work all of a sudden like magic it shows up. Why? Because you've faced all the fire, and that's not instantly like magic going to register consciously as some big transcendental feeling but that it will reflect in the continued facing of pressure and fire that you KNOW is necessary and thus that process is what provided clarity UNCONSCIOSULY, which we know what that does. When clarity is available unconsciously, even if you're consciously feeling lack, then it doesn't matter because abundance is at baseline available. This may seem to contradict what I said before about how the conscious mind swims in the unconscious mind and thinks what the body feels but I will say that there seems to be wiggle room for this if you look back at experiences where you're like fully "satisfied" in how you've spent energy but "exhausted" kind of satisfied where you've done all you can do and you're just laying back to recover. THAT is the kind of "depletion" I'm talking about, this feeling like you've done it all and it SEEMED to not work and yet it worked out in the end like magic where some circumstance lines up after all options and possibilities are exhausted.

This idea of "going all the way" DOES APPLY ON EVERY LEVEL INCLUDING ACTION. NG preaching "don't lift a finger to make it happen" is UNBELIEVABY IGNORANT! That's an insanely moronic statement that someone with actual experience with this being on both ends of transformation wouldn't have said if they're being genuine and real. NG either lied to us or that the context was under PURE internal shifts but you CANNOT KNOW if that's all you need to do. Your conscious mind has no idea. Satisfaction is the feeling that's closets but it's the "I've done all I can" feeling, as in "I've faced fire as much as I can" feeling and that can be exhausting and yet it still can make stuff show up because the language the field geometry speaks is what matters. There's infinite examples that you can point to in your own personal life where this mechanism played out. You spent energy correctly and you felt like it wasn't coming but yet it worked out. You could've felt anxious, fearful, thought opposite, and yet it still happened. Why? Because you went all the way, you didn't compromise. That's all that matters, you unfold truth, you go all the way as yourself without conditioning layers preventing natural striving from literally unfolding like a perfect pattern. Your actions into exhaustion and satisfaction reflect this metaphysical unfolding as you being the literal embodied manifestation of higher genius seeds unfolding in as you. You become the seed the root the vine the fruit and all the rest of the parts. You cannot become the whole plant with contrast barriers compromising natural striving. This is why natural striving exists to continue to apply pressure for us to face our reality within us that's invisible and only really communicates through feeling sense of the un/subconscious. Body sensation and intuitive sense. If you're clear enough to tap intuitive impulse then you'll have a direct link, and you'll KNOW what to do, and trusting that and going all the way is you unfolding the seed. You're never in the dark, you just don't trust subtle impulse to make correct movement. The overlays which cause false expectation to become the identified response is the issue. If you feel the pressure to make compromise decisions and still under that you sense inner truth no matter how small or big and you trust that, then no matter what you think or whatever, that truth and its implication WILL manifest because that's your infinite supply. That's your main story seed.

There's no way around that. We have fixed functions. NG in his later lectures said we're born with a whole garden planted. This means we have all the capacities within us, and their realization has built into them experiences that are necessary to realize as the embodied unfolding of those themes into their full manifestation through you. You become the whole plant, the whole garden, but playing as not self will deny that function. If you continue to source supply from pseudo satisfaction you will get stuck. That's what I guarantee. That's the primary mechanism that keeps us locked into not self trash playing out and us denying inner truth,

How would we give an example of this then. People always ask for this stuff, they want practical examples. Well firstly I want to make the clear point here. People who claim that the NG stories about them imagining at night and made something happen DON'T PAINT A CLEAR PICTURE AT ALL. Why? Because we should KNOW BY NOW that there's HUNDREDS of variables at play. Saying that because someone imagined and felt good that it made it show up doesn't prove anything. There's many surrounding conditions that the person might've been processing through before that that they didn't talk about and because ripeness was sufficient that this came through them without effort because it was available and in supply. That's happened to me with big ticket items I wanted. I've no joke manifested probably over 30k worth of items I wanted over the last few months for either free or dirt cheap because I was ripe for them. I've never consciously tried to manifest anything because I "wanted" it as in I was in contrast and was projecting fantasy. This is the key point to understand. Just because someone did a technique doesn't prove that the conditions in their psyche (by conditions I mean their thematic arrangement and proportionality not conditioning kind of conditions) were correct for that to work. We know this. If you're holding contrast and you do an imaginal scene, even with minimal contrast coming up (though it's unconscious and pressure isn't high to be felt so it's still unconsciously rooted) because they didn't lead pathways correctly and imagined sensory vividness that doesn't mean it'll work vs someone who just randomly had a thought move through them and it showed up hours later. I've had clients I talk to on the regular who tell me they hear what I say when we chat even over text like they get a thing where they receive for example my reaction laughing at something they said and tell me that they heard my voice clearly that I was laughing right there with them even though three's no way they could hear me. This is what I mean, there's subconscious capacity variables that also play a role where someone who's been doing advanced gazing for literally years now can experience these things of random "thought transmission" and manifest this way as well almost on accident. It's not that the imaginal scene does anything really, other than either provide clarity through leading pathways and building greater context to face pressure as themselves or that they're clear already and thus it comes through them as effortless suggestion, and then you got subconscious expansion over the top of that to do stuff like spontaneous insights and such which manifest in an almost forceful way where your imaginal senses are forced open. You see things with your eyes open, hear voices, feel touch, even though nobody is there. I've spoken to other people who are clear on this level by the way and who STILL can't manifest their SP. Why? Because they don't want to pick up the phone and call them. They want to do it "no contact" or it doesn't count. Idiots.

So the example scenario here you can tell isn't a simple straight forward follow X step and get Y result. It's not like that, because there's tons of variables at play. Pretending like it's all just "mood" and encouragement and momentum and trash is insane because yeah that can overlap certain variables but you can be hyped up following projection and end up burned. This is functionally why manifestations that show up when you're on the end of giving up feel SO MUCH MORE rewarding, because you actually went all the way. You went that extra step past what you were otherwise willing to face. Again I can't see any way of refuting this. You see this as the functional mechanism that's always been true on every level. Persistence should only really apply here, to going all the way. Willingly facing pressure is the closest thing to what represents that.

So an example. Someone (X) wants an SP. Let's say they've got projections on this person to be a way they're not currently and they want them changed. X person knows they're holding people pleasing to feed into abandonment to attempt to keep people around and have approval. This false expectation leads them to being unable to accept that this person can be there for them and show them approval and so they imagine scenes to fulfil this theme but they always do it under the context of "feel good" to bypass the pressure and avoid leading pathways through the compromise barrier. There's no heightened awareness of reality of experience. They're immersed into a fantasy. Let's say they get contact one day from the person and they get excited. They feel high, they're seeing the reflection of their imaginal work. Then they end up arranging meetup. The time comes and the SP doesn't show up and they're hot cold ghosted which is VERY common. X person feels abandonment again. Their reaction is confirmed in the manifestation and the pressure is forced to be processed. They now feel the truth of who they are more closely. They're closer to their unconscious resistance and truth here because the overlay they projected as fantasy thinking it was manifestation came crashing down. Now they're experiencing that they're not X person. Their unconscious condition IS depleted, but in this space of lack when pressure is felt they have an opportunity to recognize this compromise pattern and cut through the trash and recognize that they aren't actually abandoned, left behind, lacking, and that this feeling isn't permanent. They can imagine themselves seeing this experience of them actually being seen and committed to while under that pressure to reject themselves having feelings of contrast. This is a wider view, having polarities in awareness. Felt compromise feelings and while that's consciously illuminated they experience the fulfilment of their truth, that they aren't abandoned and it will hurt because they'll be leaving behind their attachment to their identity of being abandoned and expecting it but if they fully feel the trash and transform it then that will no longer be rooted in their psyche as how they identify. The substances will shift. Their Shen will be nourished with qi and their sleep will improve and they will feel more free and joyous at baseline. They can be vulnerable instead of being closed off out of fear that they'll be left. When they can accept this part of them that's functional and not give energy to the depletion that keeps the substantive lack pattern in place then they'll restore it, even if it takes multiple cycles.

That's the example I'd give with breakdown. Basically they go through the artificial peak dip and manifest unsatisfying outcomes. I've personally experienced this one myself where I got an SP to show up (something I never really had trouble with but having them stick around was even if they showed CLEAR interest in me right before they left) and so I'm familiar with how those feelings can narrow your view. The person who gets sucked into the lack and buys into their conditioning process that's the role they're not designed to play will only continue to project fantasy over the top to mask cutting through it when the dip settles down. They'll go back to watching LOA success story vids and reading posts on this and getting more and more hypes up again thinking that they can get the person to stay if they affirm that they're married or something stupid like that. They'll project an even more intense fantasy to bypass the responsibility of being themselves and deny that there's even any pressure to face because the context isn't overlapping that resistance when they're projecting fantasy. They're narrow view and they don't even realize it, narrow view into the projection. When that crumbles down next time it doesn't work they'll face more negative stuff. If they get sick of failing they'll say "screw you I'm done with this" or something like that and the negative conditions and past experiences they keep having show up in their mind will surface and they'll face those feelings and see themselves as the person they want to be. This is the truth, not a projected fantasy because the view is wide and now narrow. They're overlapping states, because they have opportunity to face it. This isn't always the optimal way to do it when you get steamrolled by the self correction cycle but it does work because I've done it here before. This likely won't fully resolve the trash in one cutting through session of deep overlap but the more they can place themselves into the end while under pressure the deeper they'll clear out the trash and experience their truth for real in a visceral embodied way. Remember that the feelings in the somatic sense when they're coming up means that the inner substances are able to facilitate this overlap. The projection nd fantasy artificially keeps yin depleted and lacking to avoid facing that pressure of depletion. They don't have grounding when they're living in projected fantasy. As soon as their shen is cut off from that temporary artificial yang that licks the heart and gives them that warped desire then that dies down and the yang is snuffed out and the desire fades for the projection. This is when opportunity to rebalance yin and yang opens up. Also keep in mind that when someone has surrounding conditions that genetically overlap then often times the core limitation will involve fulfilment of those other conditions as well and this is what I observed as a big part of what got me through a bulk of my resistance was that things totally unrelated to the resistance I had at core was able to actually spill over and interact with that core resistance and resolve parts of it spontaneously.

When you willingly face this pressure by consciously bringing it up after spending time sinking charge and living without unnecessary stimulus that only burns more yin you can facilitate deeper overlaps easier. It makes this process more natural, it still burns but it's more available. That's a practical breakdown of these mechanics in a simple way. Remember that making correct decisions for yourself also exposes you to illuminating starlight as that doubt creeps in and if you just make the correct decision when under that pressure you're performing the same act of faith towards your truth and thus supply correctly what you need. There's many ways this works. It's not just sit down and build greater context because it comes up all the time as spontaneous opportunity over the day. We're always given opportunities but ignore them to keep the fantasy propped up so we can avoid feeling the pressure to make actually self valuing decisions which will cause us to leave behind false identification we've spent years building and attaching to. That's letting go. That's the work of individuation. That's how you become supply and manifest even if you think opposite and this irrefutable proves the standard NG LOA stuff totally wrong and deep down we all know that because it's within us.

Consider this. Even if you don’t have any real conditioning process born from trauma on a psychological basis leading to then substantive depletion, if you have substantive depletion it can also lead to you developing conditioning to actually manifest the psychological result of that depletion. You will do this totally unconsciously and think that the reasoning is legit when you never really had traumas. I’ve found this in coaching come up where people can say they don’t identify root conditions through pathway work that are meaningful to them and so it makes me think that in these cases it’s more so a substantive depletion born out of disregard for that part of their function of their body and field geometry. Without that being cleared then the psychological effects linger. It’s not all psychological at root, though it’s likely a psychological level experience could have impact there but I’d say it would just lead that person to making nourishing decisions instead of feeding the dysfunction more.

14/8/25

So all we need to do is trust ourselves. Trust how we really feel and not project illusions. All these metaphysical texts talk about seeing the reality of things as if it's magical or whatever, and to some levels it is, but that's a half truth. Seeing realty is what's being shown to you over and over that you're projecting over to ignore and dance around the responsibility of accepting.

You don't need to imagine or affirm or whatever to get anything, or to integrate and "saturate the subconscious mind" which is just going to consume yin, space, capacity for inner truth to be more clearly felt. Excessive and unnecessary mental stimulus eats Jing, especially if it's highly stimulating and emotionally charged. That's why most people peak dip. All of the info for the desire that's within you already exists. You to some degree could say you ARE the seed and you ARE the unfolding of it into the tree. You BECOME the tree through trusting how those subtle sensations of movement drive you. Trusting natural striving is growing up and realizing the capacity that's innate.

Just got another message from some girl I spoke with ages back. Literally wrote a letter and took pics of it I don't know how that's suppose to prove anything but it's all a big joke. I just find it crazy that people from your past show up randomly even when you don't think about them AT ALL. Explain that with "your thoughts create your reality".

Most so called coaches out there think that validating clients feelings through projecting imaginal fantasy is how things work to "override" or "reprogram" their psyche and yet that's only feeding the overlay. The truth of who you are underlies the most agonizing discomfort you can think of, and that's why the feel good happy mind trick trash out there is so popular. The other coaches are homogenized not self reflections of the collective unconscious psyche that's still traumatized and unsafe being authentic with people. THey only buy into what they do because they themselves can't get past the authority biases with seeing certain narratives as the acceptable story to preach even though it doesn't make sense and most of them don't even want to look at that probably because it's painful, which is exactly my point. I went through that false authority stuff when I was 16 or so when I realized IshRaEl was not what it says it is. A decade later I want to rip their heads off with my bare hands. These projections that are propagated and normalized need competition but that competition in itself will bring out of them their worst qualities and surface the dysfunction. That's the game we play in LOA space, it's the advertisers who are profiting off of trauma vs Reality Synthesis here to illuminate all the not self trash for what it is without a shred of mercy, It feeds their not self projections of who they feel safe being on top of their resistance. When you recognize and see in your life that you're still not satisfied with who you're being, that there's parts of you that are still unseen, unheard, un expressed in a meaningful way, when you ACCEPT that this is a FACT and not some temporary feeling but who you're avoiding looking at then you'll recognize that you can go into that trash and resolve the not self conditioning to see that you CAN be seen and CAN be heard, and CAN be loved, and CAN be yourself and be FREE to express however you desire without self censoring for the case of conditions you believe are bigger than your own individual truth that's coming THROUGH you. As I gave with the example yesterday the truth is often only felt in times where the projections fall apart, when "triggers" come up, when the deficiency is felt that you've been holding up barriers and forming bubbles of pseudo comfort around to avoid feeling your truth because it hurts to see that you feel this way.

You don't want to see that you're currently not who you want to be in life, you want to overlay projections to make it SEEM like it's all ok when it's really not. That's the biggest scam that LOA promotes, gaslighting. Self willing gaslighting. "I'm not feeling sad I'm happy" with a forced smile even though your yin deficiency says otherwise. Your body tells you the truth because it's the fixed point of comparison which reveals the state and condition of your field geometry. You keep overlaying false projections to hide the inner guidance mechanism. Until you get so sick and frustrated and feel enough lack and things go bad enough for you, you'll not WANT to wake up because the projections at least guarantee a feeling of comfort temporarily. Those temporary feelings of comfort are what you're helplessly addicted to getting surrounded by for as long as you can prop them up. They'll always pop though because that projection is an illusion that takes EFFORT to keep stable and since you're depleted at baseline you're GOING TO eventually have to take a breath of fresh air to not pass out in the misty illusions of your imaginal fantasy overlays. You will be forced to feel through all that trash one day and that pain under the surface will be your best friend when that happens. It will drive you to WANT TO CHANGE instead of relying on the same pseudo satisfaction TRASH that kept you comfortably uncomfortable before. No more being fake living a projection of your true reality underlying all the trash you've bought into and tolerated for so long. You don't need any of that.

You have everything within you already that you need to live satisfying life, you just need to touch it, overlap it, become one with it, despite how you feel about that right now. That inner truth is waiting for you to own it, and while all of it might not be visible, you know those surrounding conditions that are breaking down your sense of self you can provide support for and go through to fulfil. Those surrounding conditions are the starting point to unlock deeper access to core themes and be capable of deeper overlaps with what's really bothering you. There's secondary "main story" quests that you can go through at their own time. Instead of trying to attack the big boss all at once level up with the secondary quests built for that purpose that keep sending you requests to complete and complete them. You'll gain experience, you'll lv up your character and build sense of self stats. When you've done the secondary main quests (not side quests that are optional) then the main boss will be MUCH easier to take on with less contrast between your starting lv and their lv that now you're able to match and beat. Vitality matters. Availability at baseline matters. It cannot be faked, and while if you try go up against a lv100 boss as a lv1 with a starting kit you'll most likely get 1 shot but you can learn about its attack patterns and see that there is in fact a way around this. You can overlap bits of it and get to understand it to some levels but the work to gain access to enough vitality to really take it on requires a consistent willing attention to fulfilling surrounding quests that will give you better kit and higher character levels. That progression is necessary to the ease of access to deeper overlap. You can't just overlap God or you'd die, the same works here too. This mechanism is fixed, so trying to attack stuff that's way higher lv than you thinking your lv 1 can beat it is just plain stupid. You will have available to you themes to target that give you that experience to support the bigger objective of the main story. You're not weaker or less for taking that route, it's how it's designed really. There will probably be some crazy skilled player who can take on the lv100 at lv1 but that's likely because they've played the game before and intuitively know what to do, AKA had many iterations of experience consciously and are starting their final run of NG+. It's all about where you're at and having enough nourishing current available to CHANNEL from illuminating source to do the work without your cables burning up from too much current at once. Build the nervous system, the endocrine system, they correlate to yin substances to contain and transmit yang and qi. It's necessary for this work to be efficiently done, even if it takes longer. So be it.

It's one of the things that bothers me at times. Self censoring. The less you self censor to keep other people happy the more you're going to be able to clear your unconscious trash by not conforming to the false expectations to be inauthentic. Most people WANT to speak their truth about how they feel about certain things but don't feel safe obviously because of the conditions they feel are more important than them. That's what keeps us stuck. When you get so sick of facing the consequences for self censoring and things getting worse in your life then you break and snap open and all that held onto feeling will EXPLODE in MERCILESS FURY! Good. Let that all come out, all that bottled trash. Break down the conditioning and say screw this limit I'm doing it anyway. Stuff that I don't care one bit about the imaginal fantasy consequences I'll show them. Go get em. Have some ego that's grounded in your truth, not in your fantasy that's as fragile as the wind blowing through the trees.

When you can see through something/someone then you see through the not self and the projections. How? Because they will get uncomfortable. Common thread isn't it? Discomfort reveals who someone really is, for better or worse. When we get uncomfortable it's an opportunity to learn that you're not the projection because that projection gets destroyed until illumination, unlike your true self which gets amplified under illumination.

People still ask this question. What's real me vs conditioning? Consistency of dysfunction and dissatisfaction is obviously not self. Self is supplied by God, not self is supplied by imperfect people in this world who you agree to play a role you're not designed to play. That's the difference.

It's like as soon as you give up so to say and move on and stop projecting onto the desire and how it'll solve your problems it shows up, and yet then when it shows up and you start projecting onto it then it runs away again. Why? It's because you're STILL not clear. You're clear enough to have stuff show up but not clear enough to recognize projection for what it is when an opportunity to have it comes into your feeling of availability of it being there. As soon as you can feel like you have it and all the great things it'll do you're going to cast fantasy and projection and all these thing it'll give you that you can't get otherwise. You're going to lose focus on surrounding conditions and fulfilling those because the pseudo comfort and satisfaction shows up at the door again to distract you from the real work. Been through this more times than I can count and I'm very very familiar with this. This very mechanism people end up accidentally triggering more often than not when they think that thinking causes it to show up only end up then pushing it away once again without intending to. They feel good, they feel like they're on track, then boom it's gone. They get an invite to go to the SP's house for the night, fun times right? Nope. They're just playing games in the end. You go from respecting yourself when you feel how much you're actually holding back how you're really wanting to be in this world to then compromising as soon as things start to show signs of not needing to face the fire anymore. It's that trap that keeps many people stuck. They don't go all the way, and that's why I say that even if NEGATIVE outcomes happen through you facing the fire you're STILL going to go deeper and deeper and deeper in faith because you KNOW that this is how it works. EVEN if the whole world around you is falling apart you continue to illuminate trash and not project. This is the primary function we must work with and consciously recognize is what we're often buying into when we get hot cold signs. I get this a LOT with coaching questions. It's hard to break it to them a lot but they just need to go harder. What they're doing is working when they face the pressure but the thing is they let off the WILLINGNESS to face pressure when things start to get easier for them and they think that they can bask in the fruit without continuing their purifying process. Yeah you WILL feel some kind of satisfaction as a result but leading into it fully and then going back to projection on some level will only take steps back in the process you just went through. There's grey area there to walk through still with more conviction of the end. Focusing on the end and continuing to draw that contrast willingly and facing pressure willingly is how they show up and stay and you become the supply. Common sense.

One person thinks they can think their way out of their problems without actually physically facing real transformative pressure that's meaningful to their limits and shows them that they DO have value and so LOA will be right there to hold their hand through that to keep them in the safety box where it's nice and comfy. NG never told us to face pressure, though my interpretation says that living in the end has pressure implied under the context you're leading yourself into. The other person goes all the way and does what they KNOW they need to do to value their sense of self and vitality and all that. The person who looks in on both and studies them will see the person who's living in compromise has a bad sense of self and the LOA buff will tell them to imagine what they want fulfilled and they'll never actually expand and face pressure meaningfully instead thinking that the magic happens with the imaginal senses. That's the delusion. The other person when studied will have the LOA buff see all the pressure they faced as inconsequential to their normal thoughts and imaginal acts they'd do from a place of satisfaction and deny every other variable in their psyche only focusing on the imaginal thought and sense of self stuff while missing what's underlying that. Authentic expression of their sense of self WILL run up against pressure NO MATTER WHAT because that's the challenge of being human.

The person who gets what they want owns it, THEY own it, THEY are the one who's owning it and that's called a "state" and yet we're told that imagining what we want without facing pressure is how you embody a state. That's insanely ignorant and really really dumb to anyone who's got actual experience with this. The fact is that you expand your sense of self when you go through pressure authentically. That's individuation. How many times do I have to provide examples of this? That's the core process. There's truth, unconscious trash overlaying that and then the projection you cast to bypass cutting through the pressure from unconscious trash in the way of truth.

You feel intuitive impulse to call X person. You've not heard them in 10 years. It goes away 2 seconds later but the moment you think about doing it you're filled with "what will they think of me they're probably successful and I'm a loser" or something and they'll not want to be seen as they are and whatever else is going on in that unconscious layer. They'll feel aversion to being seen, that and the other conditions are the false expectation. "I can't be seen in this way because this is unsafe" and so they compromise and instead they'll go to what NG says about "don't lift a finger to make it happen" and sleep imagining that person contacting them. Nothing happens for 4 days and they give up. They imagine having money to fufli a condition they're stuck with in projection instead of facing pressure to make certain decisions they're afraid of, such as leaving their "safe" job to make travel videos or whatever and so they keep compromising and they feel safer imagining themselves getting a raise at their job (after the raise is irrelevant don't throw that trash at me about that mattering because it doesn't) which "implies money is more abundant" or whatever. They feel "good" in this scene and it is a successful projection to deny the rejection of their truth which leads to another pseudo satisfaction cycle. The next day they meet in a shop but the other person doesn't notice them. The person with the conditioning of not being seen hides from their view EVEN THOUGH their intuitive sense says to go talk to them. Their inner truth is to simply say "Hey how's things going it's good to see you again" but they've got tons of conditioning about "what will they think about me if they ask how my family or career is" and so they'll compromise and deny natural striving. Later that day they get an extra charge on a bill they're owed and it confirms their lacking sense of self. Notice how this played out? This is an example case study I just came up with because people ask OVER AND OVER for examples. There it is. That's very relatable to a lot of people I'm going to assume and relates to all the things I've said. Seasoned RS vets will know how these mechanics work and what this person can do better. They'll know how to coach this client. What they did wrong obviously was deny their natural striving but what made it worse was the projection to cast another layer of dysfunction and validate their fear of being who they want to be and they imagine something that implies they're not going to have to face pressure. That's what all these people do. The moment I stopped this and started imagining myself responsible in my life and feeling the pressure and feeling all that frustration on top of it I was denying to own who I really wanted to be and break all the mental thoughts and conditions that told me no I ended up getting places. If you dance around making decisions you KNOW are necessary then you WILL manifest unsatisfying outcomes. If this person went to speak to the friend in the shop or wherever they met then even if they'd be seen as a "failure" for not being up to a certain standard or whatever it would've meant that they're still making decisions and valuing their inner truth because that feeling is only temporary and shouldn't dictate what decisions they made. Facing rejection might've been what that person NEEDED TO WAKE UP FULLY and so as I've often said if you cast projections it will likely lead you into experiences that REALLY challenge you but since you're obviously not clear enough then it'll result in deeply unsatisfying outcomes. There's no part of this that relates to the person telling you what you wanted to here, and that's totally irrelevant for natural striving to unfold because what they do or don't approve of you in different ways is 100% beside the point to experiencing what's necessary for you to break the conditioning that you're led to cut through but run away from because of the pressure. That's why this person is stuck. It's not difficult.

Thing is I remember getting to this level with SP stuff years before and I'd end up physically sick around them EVERY TIME FOR YEARS. I'd physically feel so much rejection just by being around them (even if they said what I wanted) and I'd just get totally warped and be unable to maintain stability. My nerves were on edge like crazy. I was insanely yin deficient, especially liver yin like blood, which the blood issue obviously doesn't help at all. and amplifies the effects of. So no matter what I did in that case the outcomes would always be seemingly negative but what I needed to learn was that it's ok to face rejection in those places because it's not meaning anything that I'm less or not. I took what they said to heart and used them as my supply instead of me having the courage to own it. Most of my resistance wasn't even about their approval but permission, as I've said. I thought in my head that I'd never be able to be with them because of what other people would think even though I wanted them. So I'd be feeling unconsciously this parental and family rejection but thinking about what I wanted to hear and my body would react with throwing up 100% of the time around them and I was unable to help it. That's a sign that my liver yang was totally out of control, I was feeling INCREDIBLY POWERFUL frustration at my family but I didn't drop the projection and instead thought I could bypass it by just having them around which never actually solved the root of my conditioning. The conditioning was me rebelling against my family and OWNING THAT despite what others would say because THEY WERE DYSFUNCTIONAL. I never felt safe having a girl I wanted in my life because of that. This is why even though you're not getting the person the way you want it's actually other conditioning that's binding the manifest outcomes. It's not even your confidence with them it's the false expectation to conform to your family needs and placing their approval over your own. I denied EVERY part of my natural striving and continued to wallow around in the suffering because for a long time I was dependent on my family who SCREWED ME OVER SO BAD to just have a roof over my head because I wasn't worth anything. I had next to nothing to afford my own place back then so all I could do is compromise or grow up and get right where I needed to be to be responsible for what I needed to fulfil my conditioning and break co-dependency. That needing permission became MUCH more approachable then over time because it wasn't as big in my life and thus I was gradually able to work through it. Focusing on the SP being the way I wanted instead of operating from unconscious conditioning was my error because it had NOTHING to do with them it was ALL ME but since we don't want to see ourselves as lesser than our idealized projection then we bypass owning that we need to transform parts of us we're disowning and fulfil those conditions.

Those examples should make sense of this.

Detachment is dropping the projections. Also do keep in mind that we're not all just operating from projections and overlays a lot of our function is correct but that's not what we're even aware of really because the dysfunction sticks out the most. Not all of this is just dysfunction to resolve there's levels here to work with and different parts of the psyche to integrate.

I've recognized pretty clearly the mechanisms behind how sensory stimulus depletes Jing, It's yang that enters the liver meridian and radiates out from there warming (or burning in the case of already present heat) the spleen and kidney. This also can explain why when I'd concentrate and look at screens when I use to get plagued with colds and stuff that my cough would get exponentially worse and the nose wouldn't have a good time than if I was just relaxing and minimizing stimulus. These "lab scientist" types often end up with glasses and lose a lot of hair. Why? Jing depletion, through constant stimulus of the mind. Always overthinking also causes issues too. Yang becomes excessive, heat forms, qi stagnations and things cascade if not properly fixed. Sleep is essential for recovery. Why? Because sleeping time is Jing/yin restoration and literally "cool down" time where you're not warming the circuits with yang.

Doing what you're not doing is the solution. Obviously.

Thematic supply/demand. HD mechanics basically.

The more you live in a natural spontaneous expression-relaxation cycle or I guess you could say natural rhythm of expression, is how you most efficiently spend vitality. When there's work to be done like RS, how does one balance that? Whenever you've got hours to work on some project how do you balance that spontaneous expression? Who knows. I'm just talking mechanics here. Just don't waste hours on something, as hard as that is, because part of you needs to but overall vitality would obviously benefit from more yin-yang balance.

If I'm totally honest here, it's like living to efficiently use yin, Jing, is our core function, and on top of that then we access greater yang spontaneously to receive intuitive impulse through the subconscious mind which we overlap at low level and so that higher order function can effectively trickle down into base consciousness. It's really all yin. What kills us is excess yang, heat, lack of yin. That's why we die for the most part, not really qi depletion itself but Jing depletion. The template falls apart so much that it can't be put back together again and living in entropy is deviating from that which IS resistance AKA not self conditioning.

War and alchemy are overlapping. There will always be a breaking down of necessary parts to transform the base substances into higher order.

"Why Neville Goddard makes manifesting difficult" - picture of Goddard holding up feeling is the secret with red glow around it with a cartoon exaggerated hand. Talk about projection and "desire" and detachment of not self trash from making correct decisions that overlaps the necessary thematic supply to mediate your decisions and the seeming magic into your life. Bombshell video?

All you're doing with this imaginal method stuff is shifting around thematic currents in your psyche to be more or less functional. That's states. That's alchemy. That's immortality capacity that's innate through operating correctly. The only source of lasting satisfaction and the fulfilment of human ability. Nothing else is there, the NG mentalism paradigm is a big scam that doesn't exist.

Are the dysfunctions in the psyche just malnourished themes relating to the substances of TCM? The substances should in this model overlap the different aspects of our psyche.

Also whatever you imagine or suggest (can’t imagine without suggestion) that you want will likely lead you to experiences which will unfold a transformation process but since you’re holding contrast that wouldn’t happen naturally in flow it would be discomforting to live in that end, thus why you often stop at signs because you don’t feel worth the full thing. You don’t have the thematic supply to mediate that into full manifestation. I’ve already made a full video on this before it’s not a new idea but we need to understand this when also relating to the layers of being with truth and unconscious conditioning and then the projection we imagine to bypass the pressure and pseudo satisfy our desires thinking we’re doing what NG said when we’re not at all. If you’re holding unconscious resistance then it doesn’t matter how satisfied you feel in the temporary because it will surface if that imaginal experience doesn’t fulfil the conditions you’re holding onto for comfort.

As I’ve also said many times, allowing yourself to feel the discomfort but at the same time having enough width to move into the end more so is just what most people need to actually dissolve some of that discomfort and normalize making those decisions without contrast coming up to block them from natural striving. As always that’s really all that this NG satisfaction pressure remediation stuff is doing. It will either come through you spontaneously because the conditions are right and the overflow happens (which is rare but does happen) or it will be you willingly facing pressure to become comfortable with being more individuated as yourself. What else does it do? Suggestion, but that is built into the natural self anyway as the natural striving that’s unfolding. So with this perspective what about manifestation is magic? Thaumaturgy is magic that’s devoid of personal transformation (to some degree) but there’s no satisfaction there. The NG loa stuff is a big scam the way it’s marketed. Nobody can prove that techniques do anything, and remember suggestion AKA thought or intent is a technique. You’re always thinking but obviously many thoughts you have that you also seem to “drop” according to their definitions also don’t manifest either. So how does it work? Persistence? At that level you’re just breaking boxes because thinking more doesn’t cause it to happen it’s the decisions. If you’re yin deficient you WILL face frustration by overthinking because that’s exactly the cause of your stagnation, lack of substantive decisions and changes you know are necessary and keep returning to but run away from because you’re uncomfortable being seen as successful or whatever. You see? WHAT ABOUT NG LOA IS ACTUALLY REAL AS THEY CLAIM? NOOOOTHINGGGG!

If you do what NG is ACTUALLY saying then you’re doing Reality Synthesis. You’re imagining the fulfilment of necessary conditions to become comfortable with being yourself. Imagining projection only feeds not self expectations because you’re willingly avoiding feeling them and it only makes them boil up unconsciously until they explode and you end up in the peak dip. Sometimes that can be helpful but it’s not pleasant to end up in that place.

I really don’t know what else to say. I’m just running loops again. More conclusive loops but still loops. Broadening the branches of knowledge in places like alchemy and TCM and stuff would flesh things out more and I want to connect more of TCM and alchemy to the somatic sensations and recognize just by the location what themes it can relate to and how they feel, if that’s actually a science, but I believe it is. Main marketing points should be on imagining what you want through correctly leading pathways generating context to shift comfort to be more of yourself as the activating mechanism of illuminating starlight over this projection and fantasizing method that most people follow.

I do believe that there is capacity that when you’ve really expanded yin and are highly nourished on that level that you can suggest specific stuff more easily and do stuff like what NG says but that’s just being more of yourself. How can you separate that from manifesting desires because it’s already within you as supply and you think it as an effect of the invisible currents manifesting psychologically. It’s crazy that I’ve actually logically cornered the seemingly irrefutable law. Isn’t that wild. I even thought it would’ve been impossible to fully disprove it systematically but it’s been done right here. They said mentalism can’t be disproven but it’s been systematically disproven through fixed metaphysical processes that aren’t relative to your mind to exist, as well as obviously birth conditions and other stuff that these other LOA coaches when questioned cave and admit that “children pick up patterns from their parents” because they know it’s ignorant to say they manifest assumptions without stimulus to feed it, or if they were smart they’d say the child was determined for this but then it would bring fixed functions into their model and deny relative solipsism so no matter what their model doesn’t work.

so once again. To the mind magic fools. How do you make manifesting work the way you claim? You imagine before sleeping, aka you imagine in a more expanded subconscious level. Now if you imagine fantasy and it does show up (which it can don’t get me wrong it can show up if you fully buy into that and have enough yin to make that work for you) but that it will ALWAYS be unsatisfying in the end. You know that. Even if you buy into a projection that’s overlaying discomfort that you’re trying to please who your family wants you to be and not who you want and you go all into overachieving and because you’re comfortable with the involved themes you’ll build a very unsatisfying life for yourself doing what you’re comfortable with but denying a deeper truth that’s underlying the very reason you’re even in this direction in the first place. As I said RS was actually born out of that mentality for me. It was born out of this part of me that said I needed to be the best of the best to feel worthy, else I’m not valued. I only did this work to attain approval, not for the truth, even though my mind told me otherwise which it was correct on still but the feeling in my body was frustration. How did I resolve this one? I fully disconnected from pleasing them and manifested the girl I wanted and lived the life I wanted surrounding this work. It wasn’t that my work changed here it was that my discomfort that got brought up at times was dissolved because the surrounding conditions that anchored it were resolved in my life and this is what NOBODY in LOA talks about. Ignorant fools. How do they now understand this or have that experience? Do they all just lack experience or are they hiding this stuff? I think they’re hiding something, there’s too many people staying in the mind magic box for it not to be clear to them that tough decisions need to be made to move on. Yeah it can spontaneously resolve too but the substances would overflow into buffer and thus the imaginal experience would move through you as a result and so they’ll see the imaginal act as causal when obviously the underlying themes in supply that represent those TCM substances in abundance activated and nourished the psychological level of that channel to unfold the seed in their consciousness. This happens to me a lot when I manifest free stuff because it’s in abundance and it’s available to me and comfortable to do so. I get random contact and that’s unconscious I don’t even think about it. Plenty of guys who do seed retention report old contacts showing up after a while too, because the lower circuit yin and qi becomes functional. It’s so obviously not mental and so I challenge them to prove now with all their data the proof that LOA can work like a science by doing X technique to make Y happen. It’s a law is it not? If it’s a law then show us the mechanics. If not then get schooled and learn Reality Synthesis.

I need to have like an RS certification program and copyright all this stuff and make my own LOA system to replace that trash over there. If enough people start talking about RS they’ll move on from mentalism because they’re sick of being lied to and gaslit. I’d have my own coaching model that I teach others and they become certified by me my way to know that they’re going to fully grasp how to coach using this model. Most of it is common sense anyway so. Identify compromise patterns with pathway work and fulfil them using whatever availably practical means is there or if not then imagine themselves fulfilling the compromise and go through the pressure this way. Doing the imaginal stuff when you’ve got big pressure felt is better then when you got less pressure, usually. This whole RS coaching thing won’t be for ages anyway, I still have more work to do in expanding various branches of RS theory still in the details and technical bits. Most of that is going to be very valuable for metaphysical diagnosis systems in development. Since I don’t have a point of comparison to learn from that already exists I have to be the one to create that. Must use up a ton of energy for this you know it’s no wonder I plateau in other ways in my life surrounding this. This work is seriously consuming.

Stone a ton of study these last few weeks it’s paid off. More refinement.

Psychic sexual act NG says. When you peak it’s that the Shen lifts up and scatters like qi scattering and rising up (which is why you feel those waves) and then the Jing or yin substance sinks and drops out in the waves that the qi is dispersing up and out with as the circuits flush. NG says that you’re basically letting go with the breathing method version. He’s saying that you’ll “fall back” as Blake did. This really has to do with heart Shen and qi and how sufficient yin can act as the substantive component that’s “released” when you peak with the inner act. It’s something that should light up the heart liver and kidney. Heart holds the desire and starts it off, liver disperses qi and blood through the circuits since it stores blood and kidney holds dense Jing. If there’s not enough Jing then it would mean that yin is deficient and it can’t “drop”. Makes you think that this whole detachment thing is having enough grounding ability to not let the heart get out of control with projection and fantasy to feel desire more qi the out recognizing grounded authority and acceptance is a part of it. So peak involves heart qi dispersing, meaning desire is fulfilled, core natural striving is satisfied, but that would represent the resistance held as heat being put out by the kidney yin. The yin determines capacity to overlap with subconscious for illumination I believe, as the subconscious is higher yin in buffer. NG climax imaginal act disperses Shen to “drop” desire but that much also have the conditions of sufficient liver qi and blood and kidney yin and yang to lick the heart and then drop out when peak hits to “plant the seed” so to say. The seed is already within you obviously and you’re just dropping it out, activating it like fertile soil. These inner truths of core satisfaction and nourishment must be available sufficiently for the alchemy to work. Why wouldn’t they? This overlaps physically breaking boxes with motivating Shen and kidney substance with blood to circulate and clear. Same mechanism and you feel it when you’re in the pressure. It’s felt as pressure because it is.

15/8/25

Sin means "to not be a part of unity" according to the alchemist. Not a part of God in living your capacity. NG defines it as "missing the mark" and the alchemist told me that's completely insane and said "It's got nothing to do with your actions" in the sense of sin being good or bad it's an attainment of consciousness, a state. A degree of function, individuation, and that's the common thread I'm finding over and over again. NG has holes in his metaphysics, which we can see clearly in some cases but others aren't as clear.

Someone operating in a lower state is someone with contrast barriers as unconscious conditioning preventing natural striving from unfolding effortlessly, or as close to it given their availability and pressure still to mediate correctly. The whole thing about states is more or less degrees of function, access to "higher" states means wider view, MORE consciousness at once. States as belief containers instead of proportionality conditions and critical thresholds that unlock certain abilities is just stupid and if NG really saw states that way then he's flat out wrong. States are really degrees of function or dysfunction, and can be seen as width of view at baseline. More subconscious capacity means more width, less narrow unconscious trash driving our conscious thinking.

16/8/25

I found an interesting quote on a comment talking about economic decline. "As with all painful realities, the longer we pretend it isn't happening, the worse it will be." This is exactly what happens in our personal lives. When we deny the truth and continue to live in compromise the only escape is to either face the truth or continue to put up projection and deny it's even a problem. Welcome to modern LOA. "Put up your projection bubble today :)" and charge a few thousand for a course and call it a day. Utter trash. The unconscious conditioning is ALWAYS there, even if it's not felt in the moment. I just had a client bring up that very unconscious conditioning yesterday on call and accepted the fact that it's not going away until they cut through it like I've been saying. They've done all the projection fantasy trash for years and nothing worked, obviously. These people need to recognize that the "feel good" bubble isn't what manifests a damn thing and even some coaches who have a degree of common sense STILL think that feeling and thought manifest things WHICH HAS NEVER BEEN PROVEN EVER! There is NOBODY on earth who can be given a list of manifestations to have happen within a time frame and under observation make them all happen in that time. This has never and will never be done, not unless that person is extremely expanded and individuated, but at that point why would they care about what some stupid experiment would seemingly prove because nobody would be able to do it anyway. It's a joke, a scam. The whole thing is a scam and it should be seen as such.

Manifesting specific things is a waste of time and we all know that. We all experience that. If you desire something and it comes into your life because you played your role then it was already pre-determined and you simply accepted your truth, as I've ALWAYS SAID. Always remember this. Cutting through the illusions is state coherency, coherency under the context of recognizing what is and what is not for what it is. That's illumination. Illumination is truth, clarity, reality, not fantasy. The dead end fools project their way into some desired reality thinking that this is how it's done. I get so many clients who come to my coaching thinking that affirming or visualizing with more sensory details and lucid dreaming things they want and all this stuff is the magic. No. Unless you cut through pressure NOTHING CHANGES AND YOU KNOW THAT! That's why EVERYBODY experiences peak dip cycles when they compromise and all that fantasy falls away under the pressure they've been avoiding cutting through. EVERYBODY experiences this and so if it's a function of the self correction mechanism of the psyche to reveal truth even in deep fantasy then you'll realize that everything we're taught about living in the end is JUST PROJECTION. We know this because it keeps happening TO US. There is truth and then there is ignorance. If you're not getting where you desire to be that's satisfying regardless of how that looks then it's obviously because you're living in compromise and ignorance. Ignore-ance. Ignore the truth, pretend it's not an issue and cast projection to distract and deny and avoid and circle around and do all these sly low tactics to manipulate.

Said it more times than I can count. Being yourself manifests everything you desire. The not self trash will fall away, desires you hold onto will dissolve. People you thought you wanted seem dysfunctional to you, and you wonder why you ever wanted this person. You only desire them because they have something you want that you don't have, and I highly doubt that if you're reading this and still not manifesting stuff that the person you're with or are trying to manifest are dysfunctional and you know that but can't accept it because this person has you sucked into the narrow view of projection and fantasy. Cutting through the fantasy is getting to the truth. The harder I go into this direction the more success I have. I cannot deny this. The more you just DIE to your projections and that unconscious trash , even if you don't want to, the more satisfaction you have in life. You can feel VERY UNEXPECTANT and still your perfect person will show up. SCREW ALL THIS FEELING STATE TRASH IT'S ALL ABOUT FUNCTION! SCREW ALL THAT UTTER IGNORANCE!

Manifesting is 100% about function/ MORE FUNCTION OR LESS FUNCTION. BEING YORUSELF OR COMPROMISING. BLACK OR WHITE. There's grey area of course but there's no subjective nature to any of this. It's objective and your body doesn't lie. They're all wrong, this entire LOA industry. ALL OF THEM ARE WRONG. Unless you're interpreting what NG says under a perspective of function/dysfunction as in living in the end and all this stuff representing the experience of truth and cutting through the trash through seeing reality for what it is then you'll never figure this out EVER. You can cast endless projections and "manifest" stuff with mindless affirming but it will never satisfy you. You will ALWAYS deplete more energy than you attain, you'll be accepting partial dysfunction and casting projections to deny that to continue to live in the pseudo satisfaction trash cycles because you're still unable to accept the reality of your truth and how it's not involved in this stuff you're accepting in ignorance. The fury, the blazing passion for truth, this undisturbed unwavering confidence for your truth and trusting intuitive impulse to lead you into decisions you know are necessary is how we win. Go all the way. Cut out the trash and bask in the satisfaction that follows, even if it doesn't look like you wanted but you will realize that what you wanted wasn't even you in the first place anyway. You're playing a role you're not designed for and then going after anything that attacks that projection because you can't feel the discomfort of your unconscious trash telling you that your truth is off limits and that this person isn't for you. You can't accept that. We should never try and manifest specific people, because it's a waste of your time and vitality.

I never had any damn expectation that my person would show up I just felt so sick of things sucking and unsatisfying and I just said screw you I'm going to do what I want. I never fully understood this back then but it was in the back of my mind. Our goal should always be to cut through the trash, not to project temporary unsatisfying desires. Onlookers new to RS would look at this and think that my approach to letting it all burn isn't what NG taught but if NG was correct then this will be the only way. You're either operating in sin or you're not. You're either in the higher state or you're not and states are degrees of function implying expansion and capacity realized. If you're in sin then it means you're not set apart, not holy, whole, and the only reason why is because you're still not individuated and you're playing roles you're not here to play. This function exists, ALL metaphysical alchemical functions are about DESTROYING WHAT IS NOT TO REVEAL THAT WHICH IS. IT'S A NEGATION PROCESS. All of these alchemical transformational functions have been warped and turned into a cult of imaginal senses creates all your experiences it's total TRASH. Not a single person can prove that mechanic exists, no matter what you do. People ONLY believe it because it's this infinitely available escape into projection and fantasy. It's LITERALLY the religion of "project to experience" because the opposite of this is "break down to experience" and that's really how you satisfy hunger as NG said. Your hunger is for truth, higher function, not to feed projections that hold desire out of not self conditioning to appease expectations to be someone you're not. That's why when you have expectation for something and you get it then it's like what's next I'm not satisfied. Never ending unsatisfying experiences. Wasting your time. Wasting your vitality, Aging you day after day. Denying over and over. Ignorant trash rules your life.

Cut through that trash and move on. Become totally unrecognizable. Screw EVERYBODY who says otherwise and do it anyway. Stand naked on the stage of reality shamelessly as yourself and laugh at yourself carelessly because it never mattered. None of that trash mattered but it seems so big and scary because of how visceral it feels. I don't know what else to say. More of the same. It's validate the projections and people's expectations to "feel good" vs the facts.

"I think therefore I AM" is a function of what comes THROUGH you DAMMTI! It's not meant for projection. Your truth is already there, because that's what illumination reveals. Everybody who's like "the senses are the illusion" (which by the way context matters for that one) fail to see that it's really the not self conditioning manifest through the senses AKA somatics that warp and narrow your width that are the illusion. An individuated person who's clear has senses on all levels and can experience them all at once. They're not the illusion, you fools.

Defeating evil is operating in function. My qigong master called his methods "spirit fighting" because they destroyed the personifications of our dysfunction as they were made manifest before our eyes. Having the courage to face the trash is heroic, functional, higher state operation. Anybody who willingly faces the dysfunction and calls it what it is is breaking the illusion, they're destroying projection, they're MANIFESTING TRUTH, That IS how manifesting functions in satisfying ways, for everybody.

We're playing against the tactics of trickery and deception. "By way of deception thou shalt do war" - Mossad. This is who we're up against, thematically, manifest on every level of the inner and outer world. We are at war with Mossad internally, psychologically. If you're not at war then how come you keep coming back to the front lines every time you face a self correction cycle? Explain that. It's consistent, it's unwavering, the deception fools you and you fail to wake up. Influencing perceptions and creating narratives that tend to provide acceptance for your compromise patterns and support their roots in you. They validate your false expectations to play a role of someone else and thus propagate dysfunction. This is what you're buying into. It's the same on the inside and the outside. It's the same "war" against the self. We're up against the same patterns every day, the compromise we validate and buy into and accept is us denying out truth. Every time you cast projection you empower the compromise. You accept dysfunction, and thus your life gets worse. Screw this entire specific thing manifestation paradigm, that's like blasphemy in this sphere but who cares because it's a joke and what NG really taught was functional operating over projecting fantasy (mostly) if you interpret the mechanisms he talked about. Pressure - desire - natural striving towards higher order. Satisfaction - pressure relief from operating correctly NATURALLY. Living in the end - deeper overlap and acceptance of self. Feeling - Intuitive sense of truth and knowing "I've got a feeling about this". It's all there.

"Go to the end, view the world from that end. Don't think of it (not leading pathways correctly), if you think of it you're not IN it. I must actually occupy the end. Now act in it, how would it be if it were true. What would the feeling be like if it were true? For this is simply taking the end and drenching it in feeling". NG said that you must be IN the end, meaning IN truth, IN pressure, IN your acceptance of the wish (which NG also defined in 4 mighty ones as desire too which comes FROM GOD). Always remember that when NG talks about the feeling it's "the acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled" and not emotionally high feelings of projection. THIS IS HOW HE DEFINED THE FEELING HIMSELF. So put it all together and you'll see how this has all been interpreted backwards. I can assure you that feeling emotionally high will crash down if you're casting projection. What he teaches has no basis in manifesting mechanics and nobody can replicate this reliably because that's not the truth. Truth and illumination is what happens when you do this. It's a negation process, not an addition process. Manifesting specific things if it happens would've happened anyway because it's coming through you. It can be a simple small thought and you see that show up in your world later that day or a day later or whatever, That is functionally a part of it but that's those themes unfolding from God through your experience into embodied reality reflecting your truth and how you respond to that determines your sense of self. NG also said that how you respond determines your outcomes, your state. Your responses determine if you're functional, obviously. More or less function is higher and lower states, degrees of clarity and function that's correct. That should be obvious. If it wasn't for this mind trick trash that's been propagated that validates peoples comfort zones and safety nets (unconscious conditioning for false expectations that keep you safe from exposing yourself to truth which negates by nature) then we'd never even need to deny this because it would be obvious. There is no way around this. You either keep returning to the peak dip or you face the pressure and grow up, literally, grow into the state of being more of yourself and more functional by willingly exposing yourself to purifying starlight.

What else is there? If you keep casting projection you'll return to the same end. You know this. What else is there? You tell me. It's check mate for the LOA buffs. If there's no other methodology other than "just believe bro" then obviously they're done because they're so cornered and out of explanations. RS destroyed LOA. When NG said that imagination is the only reality it means that all your aspects of psyche are the only realty, all those receptors for thematic elements that comprise reality because you're a simulacrum. That's all there is. Imagination is the entirety of your psyche, because it really is. Imagination is NOT just your imaginal senses, and most people dislike that idea but it's the cold hard facts that cannot be refuted. Imagination is EVERY part of your capacity to experience. He might as well just say "your state is the only reality" and it would mean the same thing and it would've been more accurate because a state is a degree of acceptance of self (a wish is an expression of natural striving of course because it's unfolding through natural striving and intuitive impulse as opportunity to accept) and function of self, an opportunity to be delivered out of sin and into holiness free from sin. Being holy means having done the work to individuate, and thus you cannot sin, compromise. Sin is a state, everything below completion. That should make it make sense. We're all sinners, that's why we're all born in sin according to scripture. If you're not a sinner then it means you're not like the rest, you're fully functional. A holy being cannot sin. Those who are chosen cannot sin. Those who are chosen are one with God, AKA they've turned themselves into a quintessence, they've been transformed by illuminating starlight, they faced pressure, and thus cannot compromise because it's not within them. They cannot sin. That's how this works. Each "state" are degrees of function, and accordingly hold thematic arrangements, and NG himself also said that there's "like unnumbered states but they are numbered" (paraphrasing) NOT THAT THEY"RE INFINITE, even though he did say that, so this infinite parallel realities doctrine is CONTRADICTINE WHAT NG SAID!

LOA is dead. I rest my case. I'm going to need to make a video FULLY explaining the LOA NG doctrine and explaining it using RS for them to wake up. Just go all the way and fully reveal all the ignorance and lay it all on the table. If I can speak to their dissatisfaction of their peak dip cycles (which a lot of people don't like but ignore because of the propaganda) then perhaps I can wake them up. I need to lead the pathways in a correct way and I have a feeling (there's that inner truth again) that I can wake them up.

17/8/25

Funny idea. Preppers. I wonder how these people can go their whole lives thinking about some impending doomsday event that never came. The amount of time "acting as if" would be off the charts. Acts of faith all day every day. Where's the event for them to manifest their imaginal end? I can bet that a lot of them would've imagined vividly those end times scenarios because that's what they're so invested in. Where's the manifestation? As far as I know there's never been such an event. Then there's people who always worry about bad things happening to them from what they hear on the news. Where is that? Yeah there are people that it happens, to, and just like most people who manifest deadly diseases they never imagined that or intended that but FELT (understood truth to some capacity) that there was something there they were denying and this festered as disease. TCM is the only system that I know which fully demonstrates from start to finish how ANY pathological disease can manifest. I've tried to disprove TCM using all kinds of specific unique diseases (even rare genetic blood stuff) and none can be outside the scope of TCM. TCM is a key component in RS going forward.

Either way my point is this. If it works through conscious and deliberate thought to make things happen, how could you even tell the difference between thought that comes through you from function vs dysfunction if there was no intuitive sense of truth underlying such thought which unfolds the thematic level experience into sensory data we go through. I've spoken to one of my oldest clients that I've had over 2.5 years with now and they're literally living this every day and KNOW that the way to make things happen that they want (even SEEMINGLY specific stuff) is to be in flow as themselves. The thing that MAKES specific manifestation WORK is just to play the main story and stop being afraid of censoring yourself to stay safe for the conditioning. Safety, this is what Mossad thrives off peddling. Warping peoples sense of self safety and social ostracization. This is the very game we're being forced to play whether you like it or not. We all have levels of this, me included. Being individuated means to not give a single bit of care in the world towards anything except inner truth. Living with this as your frame of reference is the way we MAKE IT WORK. Specific stuff SEEMINGLY can show up this way, but I will still argue that it'll be coming THROUGH you, but even if you view it under the perspective of integrated themes unfolding naturally (which is them coming through you anyway so it's not really different) then that works too. If your unconscious is clear then you can manifest it. It's that simple. The more you own who you are EVEN IF IT'S AGAINST ALL ODDS then you win. THIS IS WHAT FAITH IS REALLY ABOUT. Faith in your vision, your truth, your feeling of what YOU want to say and who you want to be. It's not about the THING, because then you're outsourcing your supply to the world.

Most people can understand this idea by drawing collective parallels. We're facing a factual reality where parasites run the show. These people WILL NOT LEAVE unless threatened. Who's going to play the role to bring about their expulsion? Look throughout history. Even when I was like 15 and younger I always recognized this as a common pattern. People lost freedom, they self censored to stay in line, and eventually when the people got sick of being devalued they pushed back and said screw you you're going to lose your head! Pogroms. Magical times. People valued their vitality and eradicated the problem. THEY DIDN'T MAGICALLY THROW OUT THEIR ABUSERS THEY SHOWED THEIR ABUSERS WHO'S BOSS IN THEIR COUNTRY! It's the same thing with your life. This cycle happens over and over and over and over and over and I personally believe that it's a function of our existence here to metaphysically replicate this alchemical transformation on ALL levels, personal and collective. Why did people get mad at the people who were objectively abusing them? Because they eventually had to face their feelings and drop the projections and stop going along with something that was literally destroying their lives. Obviously this is going to happen again soon. It's the same self correction cycle. People eventually don't want to continue being devalued and so they willingly face pressure and fight for their rights to have peace and freedom.

Here's a fun fact for all the spiritual magical fools who love to preach that fighting is for "low vibrational" people or whatever trash they'll peddle. All of the rights that you yanks have embedded in the constitutional amendments were paid with blood. Were they not? Did these people who fought over a single tax on tea imports (among other things) not envision their lives being free for them to end up in the place they did? What did it take to get there. Was this simply the limiting beliefs of people over thousands of years of facing tyrants? "Oh no they're all just low vibe small consciousness people we can't be like them we can share peace and love to our enemies like Christ said" and all this trash will be the answer. Well Christ our kinsman redeemer was not peaceful for starters and yes he did physically walk the earth despite what NG says. Metaphysical doctrines have physical manifestation too. Most of the time when peace was found without shedding blood it was because there was never peace bought out at all, and it was simply the appeasement of temporary conditions to create complacency in the very people who continued to thrive off casting projections and ignoring or even denying pressure exited to face. I still have to this day people I know who are VERY metaphysically aware deny the pressure boiling up on the collective over obvious systematic disrespect and just like that friend who continued to disrespect you it only takes one last move to cut them off and stop wasting your vitality with anyone who's abusive to you. The people who deny this stuff obviously hold onto patterns of agreeing with abusers because it's comforting and props up the illusions that bypass the pressure.

The point of this explanation is to illustrate that we're ALL in this game together playing with the same mechanics of consciousness and nobody is exempt.

The people who manifest miracles is because they're showing willing participation in their expansion through whatever pressure they're facing implies. That's why. That's what makes it work. Imaginal acts in a vacuum don't do a damn thing and we all know that because we've tested this so called law but what we DO know is that making authentic decisions as yourself are always going to result in satisfying outcomes. That's because you're a WILLING participant in your expansion and thus you're growing into a state of individuation. COMMON SENSE RIGHT? No duh you'd manifest positive outcomes without trying and have more flow in your life. You're trusting intuitive impulse and things are working.

The common thread behind abuse of peoples rights is especially in the west about making people willingly gaslight themselves out of their rights and their feelings and their truth to give power voluntarily to the filth that run the show and thrive off people willingly accepting the gaslighting, most often under manufactured social contraction. There's a divide between groups of people and those people who don't want to self censor and so they're looked down on by the other side. There's pressure to conform to a social norm. Instead of parental conditioning to be who they want you to be as a child it's then transformed into social conditioning to fit into a certain box that they want you to be in, and in some cases, fight for their cause. I say fight for your truth. As expected many will see the word "fight" as bad, but once again your ancestors would roll in their graves thinking that they had any other option. Nothing changes under the sun. That's the illusion we want to project to deny how things really work and deny how you really feel about something. That's why the peak dip cycle exists, and we all know that those underlying feelings can be very very intense when you ignore them for a long time. Now take that and apply that to a collective group who's sick of being abused and presto you've got people who are WILLINGLY going to FIGHT for their vitality to be available again because they it get taken away by not saying no before. There's no magic here, it's common sense. Working with the flow of where vitality is moving, which is always towards expansion, will obviously lead to manifestation working for you. This is why the Jooz never win long term. They can't because they're always going to be the arbiters of the peak dip cycle and will always face consequences no matter what. The self correction cycle is metaphysical and thus is built into the very fabric of reality itself. We're living the embodiment of these realities.

How much abuse are you willingly accepting? I had a talk with the alchemist about this actually on out last chat. He basically told me that ALL taxation is illegal and anyone who had enough money to fight in court could exercise their right to not pay tax. It is illegal. Filthy parasitic banking Juize are responsible for this. Nobody has the guts to call things for what they are obviously, and they continue to devalue us and stomp on us because they have influence we don't. All of this is boiling up in people who are sick of being abused and violated and tolerating their devaluation just to "fit in". In truth, you could say screw you I'm not participating in your illegal contracts (any law that's bypassing constitutional rights is by definition illegal obviously and yet they still do it which irrefutably denies their right to govern as a legitimate authority) and with enough legal resources you could show them how things really go. This is my point. What are you going to stand for that's correct and VALUES VITALITY. "Oh no we can't go there that's too dark" says the love and light spiritual fool who exalts their abusers to feel safe and fit in. These people are contributing to collective depletion of the availability of vitality. If a leader, and I mean a STRONG leader showed up to show the way for everybody who felt that they never had enough of a voice to be themselves, if that leader actually had a degree of authority that was legitimately threatening to the establishment then things would change and many people would gather the guts to break their boxes and no longer accept being devalued and self censoring to stay safe. Their attitudes would change overnight if they had the opportunity to do so. This has happened many times over history. The history of banking demonstrates this, where all the Juize who wear small hats were eradicated or thrown out and de-platformed, the economy became so abundant under King Edward (can't remember which number) of England he threw out all these abusers and the population went from impoverished to all of a sudden VERY WEALTHY AND FREE OF DEBT. HURAH.

You tell me how this happened? Was it the people who all of a sudden started all imagining positive bank balances and manifested this or was this the same type of scenario I outlined above where people got sick of being devalued, quite literally, and took back their rights to financial abundance from being on mass in massive debt and barely scraping by because of tolerating a few greedy sods being parasites on their vitality. You eradicate the parasites out of your life do you not? Is that not common sense? HOW MANY EXAMPLES DOES IT TAKE TO GRASP THAT MAGIC WORKS THROUGH MAKING SELF VALUING DECISIONS? That's the common thread. You make correct decisions that value your vitality/sense of self/inner truth and all this stuff and you manifest abundance that shows up regardless of what your thoughts are or are not. The decisions you make, internally or externally, these are what anchor in who we serve and prove what state we're in.

Think about this. If you're willingly and knowingly abusing a group of people because you're using gaslighting tactics and preying on peoples good will and tolerance, what do you think will happen if you keep pushing their buttons? You're going to eventually be held accountable for your decisions. It's just like the decisions we'd make if we compromise. We will be forced to face compromised manifestations and signs and limited outcomes that always confirm to us our bad feelings and limited sense of self we're buying into. Same mechanism of self correction. Why would this not apply to them. Thematic supply demand, both play the role of the abuser and the abused, the one being a parasite and the host. The person who's looking to abuse to gain power they wouldn't otherwise have, even if just temporarily, they'll have to face consequences on some level if that continues if that's really denying their inner truth, The fact is that you'll willingly play the role of the victim and by nature you're going to attract someone who will play the role of the abuser to exploit your devaluation which gives them a psychological loophole through your willing participation (even if you don't like it) to profit from you. Is this not how it works? The child doesn't have any authority to say no, they have to accept to stay safe or they'll be abandoned and then since the body feels depleted as a result the mind will swim in that somatic sense and generate a story to explain why it feels this way. Common sense.

Nothing here denies objective reality we all experience and deal with, with varying degrees of course. There's no denying these mechanics which are fixed in all of us as the built in challenge we're here to learn from and expand through. Applying these functions correctly is conscious and deliberate manifestation because your truth unfolds as satisfying experiences through mastering individuation mechanics. THIS IS THE LAW, NOT MENTALISM. SCREW THAT TRASH! We all know that's a false doctrine that's here to exploit us and prey off our ignorance of these underlying mechanics I've dedicated years to revealing and synthesizing into a whole system of application.

Here's what we need to say. If it works on one level then it must also work on all other levels. The people who cling to mentalism and "I affirmed and got what I desire" as the cause of their seeming manifestation deny everything else that's demonstrating otherwise. One small piece doesn't refute a systematic exploration of how the mechanics work on literally every other level of reality imaginable. They can't demonstrate deliberate manifestation willingly anyway, it's always wishy washy and they too know this but will continue to lie. Abusing us, gaslighting. It's degusting. I personally don't believe that approaching this from a half truth perspective is the best way to go to have impact. It will be far more profitable to share half truths because by nature they're missing important details to keep people paying more for a non existent answer to an invalid question from the very premise, but my goal is impact, not financial riches. I've mastered the art of manifesting what I need on a material basis. It's simple. I trust my truth and I get what I need. I don't even deliberately manifest money or whatever else i just get it when I play my part and it always works, even if I doubt the money showing up, because that's not what causes it. What causes it is my faith in my intuitive impulse, trusting my truth, trusting what's unfolding through me. That's all I need to do to manifest anything. All these fools who propagate "what have you manifested' as though it's some kind of test to validate if I fit in a box. It's showing the desperation of these people. Here we are grinding behind the scenes developing the revolution and the rest continue to dig their graves by knowingly abusing their audience. How can I say that? Because they know it doesn't work. They're not that stupid. It's all a big fantasy that's being held up, this conscious and deliberate manifestation trash. The way you make it work is by being yourself and that's been my message since the start because it's all that works. That's the test, the faith, the truth.

What more is there?

The willing acceptance of devaluation has been why things suck now. That's why things are changing, because pressure is being felt to break boxes and be authentic. That's the only time shifts happen. That's the biblical cyclic shift, metaphysically speaking. Why can't philosophers from times past recognize this? It's so obvious. It's never been about belief shifting and all this ignorant trash it's always been about feeling safe to be yourself and having the courage to own your truth, meaning to face pressure and be real, not to project fantasies to cope with pressure and deny truth. This causes contraction, and death,

Ah I just saw another one of these. "Manifested free coffee" and lists the thousands of times it's worked. I remember trying this and it never worked either. I don't do coffee anyway so I never cared. Times that I wrote on a list "I receive free ____" it usually happened if it was something I was comfortable receiving. It was something that the mentalism crowd jumps on to prove their ideology and the so called law. What this doesn't really show is typically that when you've become comfortable with something that it basically becomes your ritual process. Obviously these people were able to normalize such a simple thing to happen, just as you'd normalize with what you do on the regular. I get free stuff all the time too, not just free drinks, I'm talking VERY expensive stuff. These experiences go hand in hand with my main story often times it seems and facilitate a greater process. Often these so called coaches will show that these free drinks prove the law and that you can manifest anything but obviously miss that NG taught fixed functions "for the work to be done in him" later on that none of them will recognize. I've heard stories of people who "regularly win the lottery" though I've never seen proof of this or if the sums are large. I know many people personally who "win the lottery" and end up winning money but not jackpot money. If you pay attention to lottery and buy tickets every day then no duh you'd win the lottery more especially if that's for whatever reason what comes through you. I don't knock anyone in that place if their natural striving leads them to manifesting lottery wins that's cool, but pretending as though anyone can be that is just plain ignorant. Everybody has THEIR way of manifesting money for what they're resonant with.

I'll simply say this. If you're comfortable with something, meaning you're in a place where you're not projecting and you can leave suggestion as just suggestion, then listing what you want for free LIKELY will yield results. Suggestion is the key. Making it more than suggestion obviously will be LIKELY to cause outcomes that are limited. Doing constant scripting and affirming and whatever trash is popular doesn't do anything because all you can do is be yourself and request, as a sort of side quest type scenario. Manifesting using list method as it's called is more or less side quest manifesting. It's side quest because you still need individuation for it to be left as just a suggestion. Just to reiterate once again. If you're going to want to manifest something specific then suggesting and leaving it as JUST a suggestion is the most likely way to make it show up. Making it MORE than a suggestion IMPLIES that you're still casting projections and denying the main story you know you should be playing. Living the main story unlocks more side quests. You seee.

A test I've never seen these people prove is like filming themselves finding sums of money for free on the ground. You'd think that these people who can seemingly master their methods could do this, but I've never seen that. No I don't claim to be someone who could prove that either, because I simply don't care. What we need to question always is why doesn't this seeming simple scripting method apply to stuff that's much "bigger". Manifesting bigger stuff is just as easy as small stuff, but only because it's within you already and is supplied by the same source, That doesn't mean there'll be less trials though of course. Someone who's got main story where they travel a lot and see themselves truly in a certain light of value will almost certainly end up in a place where they get free drinks on the regular and be treated like a VIP. I spoke to an old client again today who was at a wedding and got a ton of free stuff and was treated like an actual VIP. Had a bunch of engineers and stuff show up who had what they needed for big main quest projects. It all happened by coincidence. There was no deliberate specific intent for this but it worked out.

Individuation opens all this stuff up no matter how you look at it. That's always what works. Techniques open up opportunity for further individuation and expansion. Having tested all this stuff personally for many years it's clear to me that denying inner truth and living in projection always fails. Living in flow, suggesting, being yourself, it always works. Main story opens up side quests to work reliably, How do you build assumptions that work for you? You be yourself, you don't tolerate being devalued and accepting that. You grow up. That's how you change assumptions. Taking responsibility for your reality and not trying to pass it off for magic is how you manifest what you want, big and small stuff. The vision itself is what you're moving through, so thank God for your wish as NG says and accept that wish. "The acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled". Remember that NG said we receive wishes from God and that God "zaps us" from one role to another "for the work to be done in him" AKA individuation playing main story. Inner alchemy. Manifesting small free stuff is simply a side effect of that flow, meaning you can suggest. Mr Ali still hasn't figured this out which boggles my mind. I'll show him how it's done. The so called list method is simply a suggestion method, which is why it's reliable. This is what "dropping" the seed is about, because if you're disproportionate you'll need it to be more than a suggestion because it's your supply instead of you being the supply. If you're projecting with this method than it's going to manifest in limited ways if even at all.

Prove me wrong. Modern "conscious deliberate manifesting" is simply suggestion from within flow in your main story line. That's it. How else could you have assumptions that work for you and to have confidence in yourself and all this stuff. Faith. Courage. Naturalness. Acceptance. All of this is a SIDE EFFECT of being yourself. Faking those things while avoiding the main story IS THE EFFECT OF PROJECTION AND DENYING INNER TRUTH. Can someone write out what they want and have it happen? NG said no. NG said you NEED to believe, and I'd rather say you need to accept your truth, the feeling "the acceptance that the wish (vision from God) has been fulfilled". Connect the dots.

18/8/25

I believe that the bridge can often be the thing that reveals the comfort, or discomfort. When you're able to suggest something that doesn't mean it's going to be comfortable all the way through and that there won't be challenges. When I look at all the free stuff I've manifested over the time, things up to 14k in value for free and sums of money up to 200k for free, it almost always came in ways I had SOME DEGREE of expectation towards, or comfort relating to. It didn't always show up at my door "without lifting a finger" and sometimes it did, but usually not.

There's a feeling about something I've been trying to put into words for days now. It's more to do with the heart fire and kidney water conjugation. So it seems that kidney yin rises as well as the fire rises too. It's something I've been trying to experience within me to make sense of this but it's so difficult to really know what exact substances you're feeling when they can be so similar. Yeah I know that yang is like an uprising warm sensation and yin is like more of a "deep" kind of pulling feeling that's kind of more intense and fixed over yang as a more sort of "tingly" and spread out sparse sensation. Yin is like feeling liquid light and yang is like feeling an area of light shining in a spread out sense. Yang is more like warm and tingly that's typically what it's like, and it usually rises, while yin can do the same too but it's more localized. Blood stasis in TCM is always felt like a stabbing sensation that's localized where as blood stagnation or even qi stagnation to some level is more of a "full" kind of sensation where it's just uncomfortable but not planful.

The essence of this is more so that I believe yin and yang both seem to have a role to play from both sinking and rising at the same time. The kidney yang obviously plays more of a role because it's pulled up to "drop" the yin but it seems yin also raises to some level because yin DOES get liquified from being a sort of "jelly" like consistency and it turns more liquid. This is what happens from heat, but only to certain yin substances. Blood becomes thicker when it gets hot unlike kidney yin itself. Whenever heart yin/blood becomes deficient then the shen will be ungrounded. This seems to be what happens to people with fractured psyches where they experience all kinds of seeming hallucinations and such and trying to connect these things to the explosion of NG breathing method is next to impossible really it's so hard to determine what's what and what's not. I know there's something here but I have literally zero sources in any capacity to confirm if I'm on the right track. Kidney and heart must connect, fire and water must conjugate, specifically kidney yang and qi gets pulled up into the heart which is why sexual experiences are considered "hot" because that's literally what happens. NG explosion replicates this act internally. He said that himself multiple times. What does this do to pressure to seemingly satisfy it. Well liver qi plays a role I believe. as stuck liver qi is probably the most common source of "frustration" which is caused by heat from below in the kidney constantly burning liver yin and causing more of a rising until then the heart gets warped. I'll go about explaining this assuming the example person has a function psyche and field geometry.

So the explosion NG talks about has to do with shen being literally dispersed out of the heart into the whole body. The focus of the shen dictates the "focus" of consciousness to be either like a laser or a very soft light that's being scattered over a distance where there's no precision to focus. It's like a projector casting a light from a lens out over a larger surface vs a beam where all the information is in a very small space. Shen when the explosion happens according to what NG says is scattered and dispersed at the moment of explosion, given he uses sexual terms directly to make a correlation. It's a creative act, though obviously we're not creating anything new per say we're negating what's not suppose to be there so that overflow can naturally occur which the mechanics automatically unfold into conjugation. The explosion is not itself the thing that "causes" conjugation but more so that the negation of conditioning through higher order illumination causes the explosion as a result. This can explain why trying to force the seeming explosion is futile and that clients that had explosions happen ended up having shifts in their role to be aligned to their truth instead of not self conditioning to be roles they're not in truth. The explosion more so is the experience of the effect of moving into your role, and can explain why you can't fake it. It has to be genuine. Can this happen too for truth in truth? Suggestion? Yeah I believe so, though there's not much data to prove this. Thing is once a conjugation happens then it's done. That's why he says "it's done" because alchemy done right is alchemy done right. What more is there to do? You've burned the trash so why would you feel pressure if you've accepted your role? You've felt the relief. You've cut through the conditioning. You've participated WILLINGLY in transformation and exposing yourself to purifying fire. That's why it's done. It's not done for any other reason. NG himself said this using these terms to explain how it's experienced. Thing is people do it wrong, thinking that suggestion in itself is clearing not self trash when it never was.

Anyway so when you've got Shen that's being disturbed by fire and excess warming energy either through yin depletion which binds and anchors yang or that yang is simply out of control, you'll have fantasy and projection. That's ALWAYS what happens when shen gets excited. You can't NOT do it. That IS mechanical. People in LOA who hype themselves up get all these fantasies run through their mind and that's exactly what an overexcited shen represents. In TCM this condition itself is considered pathogenic. Excessive excitement actually damages the shen, there's been ancient texts talking about this for thousands of years. I don't know which manuscripts they're in but they're there. The fact is that doing mindless affirming to constantly stimulate shen when you're yin depleted will destroy you. You NEED the anchor to bind the shen so it doesn't project and remain ungrounded where it's floating off avoiding the body sensations of truth. We need to understand that it's the desire of the shen in truth that we need to be following and not these unanchored desires of projection. Often in the moment you will find it difficult to know especially if you do have pathology there but it's simply that if you are in a regular peak dip cycle and you end up excited over nothing of substances again and realize that you're buying into more projection then you'll be able to sink charge and not buy into the projection and instead actually feel the underlying conditioning that's causing this aversion into fantasy. The shen needs to be able to focus to illuminate certain aspects of the unconscious condoning that are necessary for transformation. This means that heart blood and to some degree spleen qi and kidney yang all play a role in illuminating and dissolving unconscious conditioning.

So what I believe happens is more so this process now looking at all the point. In order to shift from playing the role of false expectations and unconscious conditioning into accepting truth and cutting through it all to get to the core of truth involves bringing both the mind and the kidney fire (which is also a primary substance for qi circulation as yang "pushes" qi manifesting as blood in the yin aspect of qi) into laser focus to illuminate a certain area of the unconscious mind to allow illuminating starlight to channel through and burn it out. It's never our power remember. It's our willing participation which enables this mechanism to work over just projecting fantasy. So the process is this. Shen feels desire, Jing raises up from its storage from between the kidneys and travels up this short channel into where the sacral would be located, or around that. This King is catalyzed over the minster fire, the gate of life, which opens the way with intensity to warm the liver and move liver qi to distribute that fire through all the periphery circuits. The liver plays the most involved role in generating the coherent feeling for what I call building greater context, and if liver qi is stagnant then I believe that illumination of all the necessary pieces of a layer of unconscious conditioning will not be effective. That's not to say it won't work period but that's clear to me that whenever you move your body more you feel resistance to be smaller. So with liver qi distributing around and that warming feeling now radiating back up to the shen, the shen will have feedback from the body as to the availability of movement through the circuits based on how it feels. Then the shen can focus deeper, focus deeper and deeper into narrowing into the necessary feeling to cut through it. The feedback loop happening every moment of the process from top to bottom. The focus of the shen bringing more catalyzing of Jing and fire to move the yin, move the substances through and illuminate crystalized trash. So when the shen has illuminated in a very focused beam and the resistance is "flushed" like it's being dislodged and processed for dissolution then that sudden shift in pressure through the circuit would cause the gate from below with the Jing opening up the catalyzing force for fire to rise should open more and thus the sudden pulsating opening and closing of the gate as illuminating starlight from the stellar level of your being surges through you it causes the shen to be forcibly scattered, thus "explosion" is felt. The point behind what takes a feeling that may seem small and bring it into the explosion level is that there must be a release, a shift in pressure to cause the minister fire to be fueled in a powerful way to disperse the shen. That's the "high" people look for except they never get there with what they do in a meaningful way. The dropping of kidney yin in this case with the inner explosion is more so I believe this idea of "subconscious impression" AKA a shift in the expansion of the subconscious through burning off unconscious trash with associated suggestion that's implied in the release.

The reason why most people get almost addicted to that feeling of the shen being dispersed it because the anchoring of the shen causes the unconscious trash to become conscious. If the shen is more dispersed and not present then it's living in projection and not in truth which comes to you spontaneously. It's why the way to avoid pressure is to stimulate and disperse the shen, the mind, the focus, from feeling pressure that's trying to surface. Why does pressure always surface in stillness? Because the shen is forced to feel the truth that's always in the body, the dysfunction. That's why people can't sit with themselves for long or do extended gazing and why most people give up soon after they start. It only reveals their own dysfunction that they don't want to face. Most people live in the zone where they feel their shen partially scattered in fantasy but it's never satisfying, there's never release that's meaningful and the reason why is because the unconscious conditioning they're running from ALWAYS surfaces again the moment that dispersion wears off and they settle back into the body. This constant search for stimulation is what destroys people. The continual dispersion of shen burns the blood, burns the yin based anchor to keep their mind in the body and they end up floating in this fantasized reality depleting their vitality day in day out until eventually they are forced to face the pressure in the deep dip. Being in the dip is seen to be a bad thing according to the "metaphysical bible interpretation" by what's his face. That's utter trash. The underworld is where we train ourselves to expand. How can we possibly negate not self conditioning that DOES NOT GO AWAY UNTIL WE CUT THROUGH IT WHICH REQUIRES FOCUS? It can't be negated without focus on it. This is the contradiction of LOA. They tell us that feeling good makes good things show up (which is nonsense because every high has a low and we all KNOW that from experience which is why the point is stability) and even NG says to never sleep in a bad seeming mood and yet that's helped me and many others more than anything else.

There's no way around this. Cutting through the pressure means we negate through focusing the shen on what it KNOWS it needs to face. It's really relating to owning parts of you that you've discarded to fit in and feel safe because you value other peoples opinions and judgements and approval of you more than your own truth. As I said in prior posts that's what unconscious conditioning is. It's the ADDITION to your psyche that SHOULDN'T BE THERE. People then think they're "adding" beliefs with LOA and so called reprogramming which is utter trash because anything you add on causes dysfunction due to it being an overlay over truth. It will always be a dysfunction.

Kidney yang, heart yang, those yang substances represent "excitement" or anything that's related to high levels of dopamine being released. It's a highly stimulating experience, but obviously that also burns yin, substance. That's why I've said since the start that sinking the charge is the way to go. The expressions of ego and owning your truth should still exist but be spontaneous instead of some long drawn out "holding" that you try and continually raise which only depletes yin and burns you out. We want heart yang to really be descending to warm kidney yin and kidney yin to circulate and cool heart yang. When heart yang gets pathogenic it causes projections. Welcome to modern LOA. People are ungrounded because it's not as stimulating BUT THAT'S THE POINT! That's how you can experience truth more consistently. Blood, yin, substances that are dense, cooling and anchoring current is required for this. The stabilizing substances for the shen are depleted when you're always stimulated and never rested.

I also want to say this as well to add onto the suggestion thing I was exploring yesterday. I believe that any successful manifestation should work like this. It's role based. Every abuser has a victim. Every winner has someone losing. NG himself said this too, he said that success will mean envy exists in parallel. Remember that quote I did commentary on before. It's about truly taking on the role that's already there for you to play. If God suggests to you with a wish/desire to play a role and you deny it then you'll only manifest circumstances that confirm the lack of it. Manifesting through this means implies that a suggestion is present. It's that you're taking the role you're here to play, and thus the corresponding people must see you differently accordingly. I see this relief and satisfaction as in having completed the experience of being in the role as the goal of the imaginal act which has cascading impacts of course. Being in the end is being in the role of the truth despite feeling adversary to this. You're resisting Satan and serving God, thus you don't sin. Serving God is willingly participating in your expansion, accepting who you are, individuation leads to more of God existing within you. Be the person who has it means play the role which has others partaking in that to be reflecting the way you're seeing yourself and participating in the experience of that role you play. If you were the person you want to be they'd see you that way because there's always corresponding surrounding context.

When the shen is anchored in the body it will WANT to make correct and nourishing decisions to FEEL the satisfaction through operating according to natural striving. It will want to make decisions that are valuing the vitality because it's not flaring up into fantasy to cope with discomfort and instead works to actually fulfil that role for real. The shen will hyper focus on the fantasy when it's uncomfortable with facing pressure because it creates a new hyper-reality to generate the sensations it's denying itself through avoiding pressure only to dip and feel that discomfort again inevitably again and again until it faces that pressure out of pure frustration. The frustration literally is a sign of heat, AKA excessive stimulus through blood being burned and being unable to anchor shen.

I believe that there's POTENTIAL for a mechanism to work if someone has good blood to ground shen in how constant affirming can work. I believe that's really the thing with most people, but that would also imply your unconscious is clear enough anyway, that heat from stagnation is minimal in the circuits.

This is an interesting idea. Giving up trying to understand and gain logical certainty and just experiencing directly. This shouldn't be a forever philosophy but if you have periods where you dedicate to this and just be spontaneous and relax between those decisions then you'll keep yin stable, which is the point.

Being ok with change. Being ok with changing who you are and everyone you associate with who will all see you differently. Feel what that feels like.

I look at old inventors, physicists, people with visions on what they knew they were moved to fulfil. Think about this. We have innate desire, things we have to unfold through us. It's just the same with me and RS. We have insights, things we're unfolding, value being provided, This is what we're led through by intuitive impulse. We have insights, ideas, things we feel we need to experience, even if it doesn't work it's fine because we're trusting the process. We're playing third person.

Side note. When we stop using media for stimulation and instead to EXPERIENCE, to be SPONTAENOUS, and FEEL, and BE, then we be more efficient. This is the trash we've all been conditioned into. Constant burning of yin, anchor for shen. I believe this is the new overarching condition for the collective. Excess heat through depletion of the anchor to restrain pathogenic fire. Experience reality not to stimulate the mind but to feel, to cut through your stagnations and be free from the trash. Go back in time a few hundred years, be in a small village without excessive stimulus. Music and dance was A VISCERAL EXPERIENCE that was DEEPLY SATISFYING. It was a time of gathering, people worked and then flowed. Moving the body, getting the qi to move, to move the blood, to anchor the shen into the body and focus the contextual sense through movement sensation. Being, letting go, allowing the current to move. You see. This is manifesting techniques. It's the same thing. Reference the above mechanics of conjugating heart and water to explode. When you move you feel the sadness you never felt, the good kind of sadness, the relief of finally letting go, of finally being anchored and nourished instead of floating for meaningless needs we've bought into. All this trash that's been building up which only depletes. Burn it all out and move forward. Spontaneous.

I really need to go on another tech fast. I really really really don't like saying this but it's very difficult to not be overstimulated to some degree if you have modern tech. I'd argue that it's engineered with this in mind. When I did my 3 month fast from all the stimulating sources and lived more in the moment anchored and relaxed in a sunk charge state where spontaneous sensation was more visceral, I healed so much stuff. I've healed more since then but I know that so much of this work that's done here is only contributing to the problem. I just can't believe we got tricked into this degenerate lifestyle by men who wear small hats. we exist here at this time for a function though, so railing against how trash everything is right now is stupid we need to use this pressure to expand more than we'd otherwise have the ability to do. That's the acceleration of expansion. More pressure means more transformation opportunities, because things move faster and there's more availability of insight in different ways.

If you think back to those times gone and wish for better reality feeling lost and stuck, it's ok, anchor, sink charge, get embodied and be spontaneous. Drop the thinking. Gaze, dynamic gazing. Live this way and watch magic unfold. I really need to go all the way with this again some time and really test this. I just can't really say any more than just to feel, be, go all the way, make correct decisions, feel the pressure and be ok with it, release and let go, give control to God. This idea, this thematic idea, that's what we're working with above all else. Surrendering, the feeling of knowing through intuitive sense. Feeling is the secret, letting go of trash, cutting through the conditioning, just throwing yourself in the wind. Make this theme your target, sink charge and be spontaneous. Does that summaries this? Vulnerability, willingly feeling vulnerable, willingly being filled with the passion and fury for your truth, and making those decisions when opportunities arise to transform under that pressure and vulnerability. That's what I always return to over and over. That's how you switch roles from dysfunction to function. You will get excited and want to be stimulated and be real under that context. That's expected and normal, but when that becomes the source of projection through subtle shifts of inner authority to go from your body to what feels stimulating then you lose yourself.

Knowing what I know though, some people will need ego, others will need to lose it, some will need activity, others will need passivity. It's all personal and only you know what you need. Know. Feel. Feeling is the secret. Thematic experience of truth and surrendering to that, that's the secret. Being yourself is the secret. Yeah? It's the feeling that's brought up through willing participation in exposing yourself to pressure to have a target to release conditioning for, thus generating comfort and normality to express truth spontaneously without contrast. I can only write so many variations on this. The mechanics I've explained with TCM about heat and dampness and cold and all these themes all correspond to the different psychological profiles here.

Be seen by the people who you feel discomfort being yourself around as yourself. This in my opinion is the most common thread behind resistance we're unconsciously holding onto. I believe that these themes are the roots of general conditioning. Just do your thing. I spoke to one of my first clients again recently and they told me that everything in their life changed when they became fearless and just threw themselves to the wind as I say. They speak their mind without a single care. They went to places they'd compromise before. They'd contact people and form gatherings with people worth their time and enjoy the conversations that are insightful. They spend regular time gazing. They don't compromise on their truth is the point. Common thread, be seen being yourself and don't care. Sink charge and be spontaneous. I've said that so many times. If you're use to being an overthinker then just say screw it I'll break pattern and show them how it's done. Get some ego involved. Just do it. Who cares about your mood going into it, don't buy into that NG trash about needing to sleep in good moods either that's all nonsense and I want you to prove that to yourself about how your temporary moods don't matter. Stability matters and spontaneity matters above any of that. Build yin, anchor for shen. All that inner truth, all that pressure, all that sitting around having it boil up inside you burning your yin to anchor your inner intelligences, those inner stars, those archetypical connections, do not allow yourself to be destroyed by dysfunction.

Break the patterns of compromise and own it. Who the heck else in LOA grasps a single thing I just said? It just shows how illiterate this space is and how disconnected from functional mechanics this space is. It's a joke. Disconnect from all the trash and drop excessive unnecessary stimulus and move on. Be spontaneous. Allow insights to arise to you when they're ready and move with them. That's how you gain influence, insight, naturalness as yourself, confidence, presence, that higher capacity to suggest and leave it as just a suggestion. We will blow all the trash out there out of the water 10x over and then some. I don't know what more mechanics I can go into at this point. You don't need to force any beliefs, all you need to do is allow that feeling of truth to come through you and to accept it without the conditioning getting in the way. The conditioning gets in the way more when there's excess heat and less anchor. You need spontaneous expressions of functional movement, yang, qi, over this drawn out chronic exposure to fire and depletion. Always know that you don't need to force yourself to think anything. If the desire is already there then it WILL come through you. IT WILL AND YOU KNOWN THAT! Don't try and force suggestion, allow the innate suggestion to unfold through you in an acceptance of it. If we knew our contrast patterns on the spot to conjure context and lead pathways dynamically as they need to be then we'd be manifesting gods. That's really the nature of what dynamic gazing can do if you apply it with that method, but you'll need to KNOW your resistance to know how to lead pathways and explode it on the spot. Being able to recognize contrast on the spot I believe is the next level to explore deeper and have a solid method to work with.

How can we efficiently understand our resistance on the spot and recognize it? You need the shen anchored. If you're living in projection then it's unlikely you'll WANT to break that projection and feel truth. This requires dynamic gazing. If you feel depletion in this state then that's good focus in on it, bring up known pathways of dysfunction and generate that context to feel the pressure to compromise. Then feel that in relation to where you're avoiding and make clear decisions that fulfil the conditions on the spot, if physically available, else do it internally if you can. The belief that you can have what you want comes through this function of availability. Telling yourself you can have it doesn't dissolve the unconscious resistance, though it can create conditions for spontaneous moments to dissolve it to arise, which the coaches obviously won't tell you and the people who have success with this get "lucky" to some degree with opportunities and the drive to say screw it I'll do it anyway. It should be common sense "I can have it so I'll do this anyway" because end you would've already done it and looks back on themselves knowing their truth, Be that person, own that position, feel into it.

Late night entry. The Hun is the intelligence within us that seems to most directly overlap with subconscious mind, or super conscious but it seems more sub considering it’s housed in a deep yin organ. This is different from the zhi and po intelligences. These houses within us must be archetypically related. Anyway the hun needs blood to be anchored in the body. Think about this. When the hun is not anchored in the body you’ll manifest psychological dysfunction in the realms of being unable to accept yourself, unable to be seen in creative and new ways, unable to be spontaneous effectively because I believe the hun plays a role in the spontaneous intuitive impulse circuit and you’ll have a hard time accepting your own dreams. You’ll be more self critical needlessly and to some extent end up frustrated when you can’t feel satisfied within the box and you’ll mostly experience this as resentment type feelings towards someone or some condition. Solution I simple. Anchor the Hun to restore function. How? Make correct decisions obviously, but on top with the inner manifestation type stuff you’ll want to more or less bring up that resentment or whatever feeling and allow it to be brought to focus through pathway work and then experience the fulfilment of it by “falling back” as NG says. Be vulnerable in the experiences that represent the fulfilment of this thing and play them out for real. Loop it to stabilize the sensation. “I’m way past this now this doesn’t matter to me this is old news there’s no ties here anymore” just loop that type of self talk as though you’re fully through it and experiencing your truth. Experience your truth under pressure. That’s how you learn you can be yourself. What does this do? It helps restore liver blood and anchor the Hun. This leads to the thematic supply of that archetypal intelligence in your psyche to be functional. You’ll manifest now all the integrated levels that the Hun represents because it’s part of you. Owning your desires is one of the most powerful ways to anchor the Hun. Compromising on your truth festers heat which boils the blood and causes the Hun to float, just like the Shen. Shen gets lost in projection when heart blood is warped and this most often manifests as totally warped dreams and bad sleep too. The hun is frustration and resentment towards either yourself or another but usually towards another especially if you’re supplied with kidney yang. Weak kidney yang will make the Hun turn inward because of the raising and dispersing current being depleted so the tendency will be self harm but then you’re overlapping Shen floating symptoms too. Self harm tendencies comes from heart blood deficiency too, but considering my history in the past with this I can say that hun plays a role too. Po being anchored means your ability to process ideas is efficient, which is a cascade from Hun and Shen. Hun more so initiates the involvement and also the reward. The Po note relates to the between time when you’re actively involved in the process you’re playing out. The Po when dysfunctional will mean you’ll place excess emphasis on testing things over and over needlessly not ever getting anywhere. Considering my spleen which houses the Hun is dysfunctional at baseline (for now at least) we might see some degree of that reflecting here. Surprise. So how do you anchor it and keep it from becoming pathogenic? You stick to the path you’re led to and not deviate. This is the metaphysical “digestion” that the Po does. You digest what God feeds you as it is and don’t try and second guess his infinite wisdom. When the Zhi is anchored then you have the power to press through challenge. Always remember that blood and yin substances anchor the intelligences of the psyche, not yang. The intelligences are arguably Yang in nature, and they need yin to bind them to their meridians to manifest functional psychological effects.

We must therefore see the importance of space, subconscious capacity as a manifestation of these intelligences being anchored through the base yin being available in all our circuits. Perhaps this is the better systematic way of viewing deeper overlap of conscious unconscious and the expansion of subconscious through more anchored and functional archetypal connections to the intelligences that have affinity with these meridians within us.

19/8/25

I've pretty much proven to myself once again that anchoring yang matters. This is just another way of viewing the mechanics of subconscious space in another way, I believe. They're not directly overlapping fully but they do overlap to a significant degree it seems. Stability is a key point, just like the rest of them. Putting them all together into a common thread though, that's the challenge. Sinking charge matters, stability comes out of that if excess yang is floating. Projection unfolds through having unanchored mind. I will say that with pretty much 100 certainty. Negation. Cutting through and burning out. Spontaneity of intuitive impulse, flow without contrast through comfort. It's not even really just comfort in a vacuum but the WILLINGNESS to surrender to natural striving and be ok with wherever that leads you. Zhi is willpower, the intelligence governing the kidney meridian. I will argue that this is like a resource that's not just "efforting" ability but an availability which makes itself manifest through you automatically and if it's depleted then you'll feel more contrast. You need to see all these intelligences as functional parts of the psyche that SHOULD be available, functional as they should be, and just there without needing to experience the contrast of them being in excess or depletion. That's why I say stability is power, but TRUE stability and flow and naturalness shows up when that availability is MAKING ITSELF MANIFEST THROUGH YOU ANYWAY. Trying to fake this isn't going to work, because really you'll just end up in opportunities to break compromise anyway which would be what builds more zhi.

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