Aetheraeon Notebook 29

Interesting quote. " promise this isn’t complicated, but the character who thinks it doesn’t have it will make it seem that way. Think about it-if you have a car, do you sit around actively making yourself think about how great it is to have a car? If you stop thinking about it, does the car disappear? No? Same thing here. You have it. So you don’t need to replace lack thoughts with ‘having’ thoughts. Just stop believing the ones that say you don’t. You already know."

That's true, and it's because of autosuggestion that's based on a sense of availability. That's what I've been writing about for ages now. How do you establish availability? Involvement with it. Is that not what all these people are talking about? This is what Ng said with SATS, "feel it real" AKA the reality of experience as I've always said. It seems that they're talking about anti stimulation, AKA sinking charge, or more like having sunk charge at baseline. How do you establish this basis? You have a clear unconscious, OR you build a rock solid wall around it. Agitation stems from heat, heat stems from stagnant currents that aren't expressed, meaning unresolved abuse and being unwilling to feel how you really do to see the condition that's binding how you respond to the world as irrelevant. Stimulation is activating current, which we should involve with but to be spontaneous and allow the implication of that to unfold through the state streak that the involvement plays out. That's autosuggestion at the core in an efficient way. If you could do this internally in a vacuum it would lead you to either having opportunities to involve in that to show up, or that you'd just do it anyway, to whatever degree is necessary to attain that manifestation. When the availability is setup and established at baseline then you'll have the thoughts come through you and that's when I can speak for when the magic happens if it does. The suggestions are innate really, you don't stimulate to feel the suggestion, because a stimulation is a contrast out of sunk charge of comfort. Current dynamics here matter.

I actually need to make a video on stimulation and the nature of thought. I believe this, while likely not a video to blow up, will be an interesting one. This video should open a lot of eyes as to the nature of how thinking works, as an activation of currents moving through you and how sinking charge works. I'm going to argue that sinking charge while still playing out unconscious trash around it and compromising will get signs at best, but establishing sunk charge and an affinity of comfort for the thing through being in a sense of availability for the thing, then you'll not "need" to sink charge. You will always have sunk charge at baseline, because it's available, which is the "assumption". Looking at all this stuff like you view it through the lens of currents activating and deactivating is probably the best way to see the way thought works. Thought is as far as I can say an activation of heart qi, which can overlap other meridians too, but that's where shen is so it would always be an activated current. Thing is that when the innate seeds unfold spontaneously through you then you'll be stimulated and activated but not because "you" did it. You did it but it wasn't you, it was what was already there that manifested as you without you doing it, if that makes sense. This is what I've observed looking at many of my own successes. The failures most often show up when you're "doing" stimulations. This is why sinking charge at baseline consciously can help because you're not artificially stimulating yourself. That's a core principle I've been teaching for ages but people don't like that one much it seems.

"You don’t stay with a new character. You drop the old one. What’s real doesn’t need effort to stay, it’s what’s left when the effort stops"

Yeah I agree, though DOING that is the thing everyone gets confused with. So if you're dropping the old self then it will mean you're really dropping the currents stemming from dysfunctional pathways which drive those responses. How do you do that? You get real. You know what that means. You don't consciously "hold" stimulation, because that's impossible and will destroy your vitality/sense of self like nothing else. You're experiencing this constant state of contrast without ever really mediating pressure fully. You're just sitting with it and not moving anything. The power comes through being stable and in an available sense, but that can be while you're "doing" other stuff that implies this is who you are. That's the state streak. Since the thought of the feeling of being stimulated in this so called state cannot be held, you need to play out that current in some way. Implied involvement. It all feeds into itself. You don't need to "effort" into a new state, you spontaneously decide to involve yourself in implied experiences which mean that this is who you are. That way the experience carries the implication and that generates availability. Availability generates comfort and you can sink charge and have then innate thought unfold through you as clear suggestion. Simple right?

I simply want to make clear that reactions in the old states, the states of dysfunction representing the cascades built out from an expectation to be met, those stimulations that come from this that activate and "autosuggest" through the visceral nervous system response that carries with it a "knowing" of what's not available to you (what that condition has bound up) will be what you're "dropping" as is said above. The dropping as I said is going to stem from really getting true and real with how this condition is irrelevant, how it stemmed from another person violating you in some way, and that you don't need this anymore since it's not really you. This opens up innate seeds to unfold. It's crystal clear. At this point you'll WANT to value yourself and almost BE a whole new person. It comes through insight of implication of self relating to the conditions that stimulate polarity response from the cascading pathways in dysfunctional states you're being moved into through the autosuggestions. If it works in the negative with environmental factors then it can work in the positive too. No doubt.

I believe that's a very clear way of explaining this idea of stimulation and thought and detachment and such relating to how currents are experienced.

Whenever you feel or experience the stimulated autosuggestion of "I don't have X" or "I can't get X" when it comes to how it feels and what it MEANS about you, even if you don't consciously think that but it's like that voice in the back of your head, that will lead you into a place of needing to pay attention since it's moving through your shen. Now you can actually have these thoughts and not have them hold any power because you're feeling the availability of the contrast to that with how you're involving yourself in life.

What some newer coaches in this space I've seen pop up are talking about is observing the stimulations of the dysfunctions and not buying into them. Thing is when you're agitated and not settled and stable with sunk charge then you'll auto buy into it. Can't not. The point is that the currents need to be stable ENOUGH to contrast that stimulation that's negative. You won't really effectively be able to observe the trash properly if agitation is abundant already in your psyche with lots of heat and pressure that's not moved correctly. It's really that moving the underlying pressure to accept innate feelings that makes the difference. Letting the pressure out in meaningful ways establishes a baseline where you can relax and be stable and such, which is the goal really. You want spontaneous activation with movements and then between that point and how the state streaks unfold, you'll be relaxed and stable, like you're watching yourself which is where dynamic gazing comes in. I find that trying to give people dynamic gazing to replace actually dissolving pressure never really works well. These people who tell us to "watch our thoughts" as in like see them as separate from the I AM, as they day, are effectively living from this perspective of dynamic gazing. That's what I did back in 2015 without knowing what I was doing. Once again proving why coaches shouldn't just be people who are "successful" because you'll naturally be this way if you've got anchor. Anchor is yin, yin holds down and grounds activating raising yang, and higher order yin is subconscious space, which is generated through deeper overlaps of conscious and unconscious. Therefore the mechanics of creating space is to allow your conscious mind to experience the unconscious trash that's the conditions of others binding you and see them clearly as they are, which means often times feeling the fury you've compromised on accepting towards people who hurt you. When you let that out then the feelings that surface when you try and manifest things you'd like with clear suggestion will be impossible not to manifest. You cannot fail because the innate seeds will unfold through you. You don't then do anything.

Picking up from here.

The NG "impotence" idea also plays into this as well. Impotence means pressure has been "satisfied" where you're not feeling agitation, heat, need. These things are all products of innate nature seeking expression that you're conditioning the response to. This is really what conditions are, they're barriers on holding back innate nature from unfolding. I hope we get a clue here on what's going on. This is literally as core as it gets. Yin yang dynamics. Charge and current dynamics through the meridians. I honestly don't know how I can be more simple than this. This is the most practical I can be which includes all core elements of RS. That's really the simple explanation of manifesting, probably one of the best I've done so take it and apply it. Living as "I AM" is living with sunk charge and observing because you're not excessively stimulated by agitating currents that come from repressed innate nature trying to break free. There's no magic to this whole I AM thing, at least the experience of it. It's just integration of more of self, having more of an expanded subconscious. If you're excessively stimulated then good luck getting it showing up. The dysfunctional pathways that someone who's not living as innate nature is playing out can still manifest the thing they want though, to some degree at least, but that's going to require them to have a VERY SOLID wall around their suppressed innate nature where they've effectively locked themselves out from autosuggestions that imply this innate nature is held back. They need to make it totally unconscious, but as I said if you've got consciousness that's expanded enough then that's effectively impossible. That's why you're way better off not doing anything this way and actually just living as innate self, instead of making the most of living as someone else in a vacuum. I believe that this is possible for some but you've got to be heavily suppressed and have enough involvement around you to support this dysfunctional state that is stable enough to live from still.

Gazing of any form will only really expand consciousness, so it's counter productive to manifesting while living in the box. It's not going to work at all. I don't suggest anyone does that at all on any level, living in the box that is. No matter how you look at it you'll need to establish a baseline of stability somehow. Now I also want to say that you can be stimulated a lot but that it's stemming from regular involvement that implies you're the person you want to be. The work I do here leads me to being stimulated quite a lot, because my mind is active most of the day doing all kinds of thought processes so it's more so that the sunk charge is experienced between stimulation periods, but it will bleed into those stimulation periods in itself anyway. Various clients have told me this, though I tend to find that my daily research process takes that space up a lot so I don't really have that degree of baseline expansion it would seem. I'm fine with that really but it's just something to consider.

I believe the thing that most people fail with is knowing what to do with the pressure. That's what saved me. This really is where the coaches with experience are separated from those who are just scammers. The ones with experience will talk about how to move current, in whatever words they use to explain it. I really don't like all the I AM stuff that people talk about though, because you can't experience I AM, or at least not the whole thing directly. You can experience facets of it, through expansion, but here in this world and state of expansion of awareness of inner states/elements, then the most accurate explanation is through sinking charge, which is a yin state at baseline. Yin is where the magic is held, because it's binding and when activation within yin is spontaneous like an impulse current then magic happens for real. I've experienced this and everyone who succeeds does too. I do not teach this idea that "whatever you believe you will manifest" because that's not true. You can be unconsciously delusional and deny how you feel and manifest things you don't believe you'll get, like children manifesting abusive situations as well. Whatever you believe isn't an accurate explanation really, though on some levels it is, but it's not ALWAYS true, because the currents are ALWAYS what manifest. The currents are representing thematic supply/demand. Thematic supply/demand drives what we ACTUALLY believe, which is why I hate the term "law of assumption" so much because many times what you consciously think you believe isn't actually true. The current underlying that does, but then you'd say if you're paying attention, how come the person who puts up walls around their innate nature manifests what they want? Well, those desires will not be from innate nature, they can't be. That's why they're not satisfying, it will be what the condition wants, and thus the contrast to innate nature always manifests. What you will want when you're in conditioning will be different, at least to some level. You'll be disgusted by SPs you wanted before in those places because of how dysfunctional they are, and until you accept how you really feel, meaning move pressure correctly and respond differently as a result since the currents of agitation are satisfied from resolving the unresolved conflict in the past, you'll then manifest seemingly magic.

You'll think then if you're really logically minded, then how would different desires play into this? Well that's simple. Whatever the implication of the repressed current means about what you can and can't experience, that's been conditioned, that's what will be warped in how you desire it. It's not that ALL desire is warped, or all innate nature is warped to fit into the condition, it's that what represents the implication of that PART of you being branched off means and that's what the agitation stems from. It's not systematic, though often times if it's a very core root, such as general lack and such being abandoned and denied all kinds of feelings when they surfaced in a direct way like I had, where any act of being real was shut down instantly and I was punished for showing any single signs of negative feeling, then that can cause a cascade where really ANY positive things can screw you up. I have been there, where NOTHING worked for me. Seriously. I was at a point where I actually couldn't manifest ANY abundance because any time I thought of anything I wanted working it would immediately make me feel unsafe. It meant that I'd be breaking expectations. I HAD to stay in the box and it SUCKED SO BAD I CAN'T EXPLAIN. I was so deeply conditioned that just thinking about manifesting $1 made me anxious. I was on the verge of homelessness and was already digging out my soon to be tree house in the forest expecting it, but something decided that I'm worth more than this and I just decided to act the way I needed to. It was getting real with myself, but it was also from what I remember stemming from a sense of inspiration, that I CAN have this thing. It was a delusional sense, but it still led me to making functional decisions.

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"I'll try and be as simple as possible. Gazing allows you to see things for what they are. This means that the conditions that bind you from accepting the innate nature you have underlying all the expectations you believe you need to conform to can be more clearly experienced and known as a result. The implication of what that condition/expectation means about you can become clear, meaning the core of why it feels important can be made conscious. You're taking the mask off the feeling and seeing what it means and represents and implies about you.

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Gazing allows you to see things for what they are. It opens you up to see through the conditioning that binds you to dysfunctional states by expanding the subconscious mind, which occurs through overlapping the conscious and the unconscious mind which are primary polarities of your psyche. The sun and the moon, fire and water. The subconscious mind is Mother Mary in biblical terms, earth element, structure, though NG never told us this of course. The Hail Mary prayer from Catholicism actually connects you to the same innate subconscious current that gazing does, believe it or not. This is why there's many ways of doing this, but I'd say gazing is the most accessible of all methods to work this mechanism.

Whenever you "feel" something it's rooted in an unconscious-subconscious level activation that your conscious mind swims in and experiences. This has a meaning, or implication about it that has a cascade of implications about how available that thing is for you based on what's rooted in your psyche. If conditions overlay access to something freely as the implication then you will feel this "locked up" sensation, where innate nature will run up against a wall and this will be felt as pressure, discomfort, whatever. Gazing will surface your innate nature to be felt, and in that you'll intuitively understand what something will mean about you, the implication as NG talks about, and it will lead you to responding differently to the same stimulus when it comes up and is transformed.

How and why you may wonder. That's simple. Because the condition has a core meaning to it that defines how the theme of your experience that this represents is unavailable for you to experience unless this condition is satisfied. Imaginal experiences are there for you to experience the negation of the condition overlaying your innate nature, the current moving through you as yourself. Now in most cases this will be based on abuse you've faced from someone in your life, and since you had to suppress innate nature then that needed to become the condition on how you're able to express how you feel. How you REALLY feel innately isn't positive, it's very very very hurt, though you've overlaid that for years with responding to life according to how you've learned you need to in order to fit in with this expectation, else you'll be hurt more since that's how you learned this. Your unconscious mind is putting up this wall of pressure to keep you out of feeling the innate nature which is feeling hurt, to make sure you don't repeat the same mistake again. This is in place to generate stability given moments of heightened awareness from unresolved conflicts of the past. This is really what conditioning is. It's behavioral modification that you accepted, often without option.

So now how do we transform it? It's simple. You get real with how you feel. Gazing can ONLY accelerate this process. It cannot CAUSE this process, because it's always happening. GAZING ONLY ACCELLERATES THIS NATURAL EXPANSION IT DOESN'T FORCE ANYTHING AND NOTHING CAN DO THAT FOR YOU. Gazing with the sub will take you into an expanded space where more of your innate nature can be experienced. That's all, it's a means of seeing clearly what's going on behind the scenes, getting deeper into who you really are, and as a result of this, even if you JUST gaze without anything else, you'll still get benefit since it's working the state overlap mechanic and gradually bring more of what's unconscious to be conscious, making these conditions and their implied meaning about you more conscious since that's what's unconscious.

Getting real with how you feel is how you "do" the transformation of your trash, the conditioning is waiting for you to return to the branch in your psyche, your meridian systems, your pathways and circuits of thematic activation, and when you see that and allow yourself to feel the violation you faced, then the condition that the violation represents you need to conform to no longer holds power over you. This is how I manifested SP overnight, when I felt the fury at the people who hurt me. The gazing opened up ripeness for this, it didn't "do" the work for me but it opened clarity for that to occur. It can only accelerate this ripening process into attaining insight.

The whole "stop waiting and be yourself now" is that same insight. It's you getting real with how you feel and cutting through the condition by seeing it for what it is, just some irrelevant trash that, typically, your abusive parents put onto you. Every parent on earth is abusive to children. PERIOD. Don't gaslight yourself, be real. Those who deny this will continue to stay stuck in the box living in the expectations of those conditions.

So if you're doing gazing and telling me you're not getting results then obviously the ripeness hasn't gotten to that point yet. Persist? Yeah, but also you need to make clear and obvious decisions that represent you going all the way in breaking the meaning that these implications have on you being stuck living as the person you're expected to be by those who hurt you and stifled your innate nature. All the seeds are already there so you don't need to imagine more. You will imagine naturally as a result of clarity being attained. The currents coming through us manifest, not the imaginal scene, because when you imagine THE SAME THING while still holding the implication on that unconscious level that the condition represents about how you can't be that person, then you'll manifest signs of it or something like that.

In order to truly accelerate transformation and be yourself you'll need to be spontaneous in making decisions which imply that the condition you've identified as in the way of the thing desired isn't relevant. One thing I use a lot is "This isn't who I am" whenever I face conditioning, which sets the stage for context being felt about the irrelevance of that condition. When you make those actions, make those decisions, they'll imply about you that this condition isn't the case and generate stability in your psyche without this agitation causing you to feel discomfort when imagining the things you want.

So what is this all for then? Stability of the psyche. Sinking charge. Making the nature of who you're being reflective of who you see yourself as in capacity. It means you'll WANT to make decisions which value that innate nature, you'll WANT to break out of those conditions that others have imposed on you and show them how it's done to be yourself. You don't WANT to stay small and NEEDING others approval since you'll not need to seek it, since the condition that kept you NEEDING it out of agitation from the unresolved conflict is now open and free. Showing up for yourself accelerates this inner level process as well as establishes implied involvement on the outer level which autosuggests the state of being you desire since the meaning and implication represents you living into being that person for real, in state streak.

So listening to the sub while gazing for someone on the threshold of ripeness can be all that it takes, though for others it's necessary to make clear and obvious decisions that represent and imply your growth being realized and that the importance of these conditions that bind you to being the way they expect you to be are irrelevant. The involvement transforms you, and the inner imaginal scene idea is working this same mechanism. It's all about thematic supply/demand without exception. Thematic supply/demand being the implied meaning about how you can experience things, or not, and contrasting that to the fixed nature of the innate nature which determines how you feel. Unresolved conflicts from the past that bind us into expectations are what cause agitation and the discomforts we feel.

Going all the way into cutting through the conditioning means gazing, listening to the sub to deepen overlap, making necessary decisions to represent and reflect you being that person for real and involving yourself in responding differently to the same circumstances. This is what NG said the signs of changes in state would be, a change in "motor response" is what he said, AKA the same response you feel when an implication comes to mind.

So when you think of what you want and you've cut through the condition then the implication of what having that thing would mean no longer holds true, meaning you're WILLING to "hurt" those who wanted you to bind to their expectations to not be that way. You're willing to say no, to have some self respect and value your own decisions that mean and imply you're being yourself for real. That's the reality of experience. Gazing will only amplify this process and make it all come together more coherently.

There's much more gazing can do in the advanced levels but that's not for what most people need. That's for higher level immortality work through a theurgy process. Simply manifesting things comes from stabilizing a state, which is what NG said the point of looping scenes was. You're experiencing a state streak, and the most effective way to really do that more or less is through implied involvement, meaning showing up for yourself and making necessary decisions which imply that the condition doesn't matter and going all the way, burning bridges, cutting people out that keep you you in compromise and sacrificing your innate nature to keep them happy. You need to get out of the box and expand into being the person you desire to be in all surrounding ways because they all overlap and have implication on a thematic level. The more spontaneous and radical the change the more you'll "shock" the conditioning and really open up deep transformation.

That's how the fundamentals of this really work, at least in ways that are relevant here"

5/11/25

I once again had another insight late last night. Seems that they happen a lot lately. I want to talk about charge again, feeling, knowing, space. All these things. So if we established before that a "lack" of current or charge is a knowing of something at baseline, since stimulation would be the opposite and be the experience of contrast to baseline, then we can understand that in order to believe something we will need a foundation of established availability without stimulation being the way we experience it. This doesn't mean relaxing consciously more will make that happen. That will aid and put you on that spectrum more to some degree, but you WILL feel the unprocessed currents if they're not cut through as they surface when ripe to do so. Often times what we're thinking is that stimulating ourselves more will make it happen more, but this only demonstrates a lack of knowing, having, availability. Availability is spacious, at baseline. You can experience availability in a narrow way too, in a stimulating focused way. but I will that that since it's effectively impossible to experience this continually due to the dynamic nature of how yin/yang currents move, then it means we need a carrier to hold implication of having without conscious need for stimulation. There's where implied involvement comes in. Outer momentum. These autosuggestions represent us being that person without us stimulating consciously on a continual basis, because those actions represent what the inner stimulation would imply about us having availability for the thing.

This is the "anti-technique" because being yourself for real is the technique. That's why you can't just stimulate yourself needlessly while compromising and get satisfying outcomes. It cannot work that way, and because NG failed miserably to explain how this works in a systematic way then we've got all this trash out there telling people to just sit around and affirm or visualize or whatever all day. The ones who think they're better will claim that you "just assume it bro". That's still a lack of stimulation, or at least an impulse of stimulation which is what I'd call a suggestion. It's a moment of stimulation that suggests the direction of experience, but what I will say is that if current underlies this that contrasts it which isn't transformed then you WILL dip and feel unavailability. This is what most people go through when doing any of those methods, but especially the mindless affirming stuff. The more stimulated they are the more they're actually just trying to put the lid on the boiling pot and deny how they really feel. If they accepted how they really felt and released the pressure in necessary ways that represents them being real then they'd not need to put the lid on. Therefore, "just assume it bro" can work, to some degree at least. Relaxation cannot be "done", it can only be established through really negating not self, and those who claim they're more relaxed and didn't transform their innate pressure to be real are just disassociated from their innate nature and are in effective denial. Alan Watts was one of these types. Anybody on earth who preaches that "blanking out your mind" is functional is delusional, because that's just you experiencing a solid wall around your innate nature, which is dynamic and spontaneous. Feeling less while holding pressure underlying that is the most profound cause of spiritual delusion and far too many people confuse feeling less for "good", though disassociation by putting up walls and creating barriers to feel how they really do. The fact is that those who are in peak dips vs those who are disassociated are more functional, because they're actually tapping into innate nature TO SOME DEGREE, it's there and stimulating them to respond and transform that pressure. Feeling a lack of that pressure is highly dysfunctional and means they're disconnected from their innate unfolding and transformation. The immortality work necessitates that pressure will be felt from top to bottom as the higher order substances are integrated. We cannot avoid this reality, because to master ourselves we must master the innate nature which is always available but we cannot accept and feel through to understand who we really are. We are dynamic, not static and still. We are always in phases changing from one polarity to another, and avoiding this by doing methods that people like Edward promotes isn't functional for effective transformation, but denial and delusion.

The innate nature will always be underlying, hence why it's still there to this day and will always be there until the end of your days until it's integrated and accepted through doing what I said above. The deeper functions of gazing is actually to spontaneously expose you to illuminating starlight, which will surface innate nature and force you to feel it, or at least part of it. If you do gazing enough, mostly advanced gazing, then this WILL happen, and you will experience stepping inside the subconscious mind and looking around within that awareness. The thing is that gazing in a vacuum will still not force you to make decisions surrounding it, but it will lead you to having more width, having more awareness of what means what and how you should correctly respond. You will know what decisions represent innate truth, meaning that voice of truth in your mind will become more clear when opportunists arise, because gazing establishes connection with that innate nature more. Though, as I said, it's not the one thing that will take you all the way. Theoretically it can, but I've yet to see that. So combining that with action that's stemming from clear and present opportunities to grow into the person you envision yourself as, that comes through you, and allowing yourself to cut through the conditions in the way, then you'll make the most effective use of it.

When you keep stimulating yourself needlessly to put the lid on the boiling pot, to "feel better", it's just going around in circles. There's no expansion there, no growth, no necessary transformation to accept innate nature. Feeling good should come as a result of embodying innate nature, a RESULT, an effect of being yourself in response. The currents will be stable, because you spent your vital current correctly. Imagining positive things isn't spending vital current correctly at all. Feeling how you really do underlying the surface is, since this is innate nature coming through you, which is God, which is who you really are, "I AM". That's how we manifest effectively what's already within us. We don't think, we think we think but we don't. The currents that comprise our psyche which are dynamically moving through us are what manifest psychological phenomena. Moving current correctly manifests satisfying experiences. The drug addicts who seek a high only do it to avoid their innate nature. It's a stronger substance to numb feeling that's coming through them, which is their innate nature, how they REALLY feel, which is how they REALLY manifest automatically what's already there within them. That's why I'm so critical of the NG bible doctrine too because it doesn't work consistently in exploring the functions I discussed here. There's no overlap of states clearly defined. Everything seems to be containerized. The imaginal scenes stuff that's being promoted is nothing more than cope for lack, denial of innate nature. If you apply imaginal scenes the way I said above then you'll get results, but if you're doing them to deny how you really feel and cut through the conditioning by seeing the meaning as clear and needless to hold onto, then you'll be wasting time and aimlessly wander in circles wondering when things will move. Manifesting as it's taught is a spiritual coping process dressed up as self help. It's a scam. RS is the only model ever created that explores all these mechanics from top to bottom.

Every time I see any somewhat useful post out there in this space it's always using spiritual ideas to work the function of sinking charge, to some degree or another. I mean is it not clear that "You already have it now" means, relax and know that it's done. Thing is that this won't manifest for someone carrying clear and present unconscious trash. Why? Because the relaxation doesn't actually overlap states, it just manages pressure in temporary ways, almost as cope for feeling bad. I hear coaches who actually have a decent psychological functioning basis to their methods talk about this, about how it's just "managing energy", as in managing charge as I put it, managing currents. YOU DON'T MANAGE THE CURRENTS THEY MANAGE THEMSELVES! You more or less need to allow them to move, that's where the acceptance comes in.

I just felt a very intense sharp pressure before this towards something I felt show up in my reality, and I reminded myself in that moment of what I felt it meant, and saw the people who placed that on me as irrelevant and that the condition was never mine. I then went back into the pressure of what elicited that and imagined myself in that circumstance while being seen with this thing being the way I'd expect it to be and felt the sudden "sharp" rise and I went deeper then into cutting through that trash and threw it back on them reminding myself that this was never mine and that it's yours to deal with I'm way past this. It dissolved about 70% of it pretty quickly. I wasn't denying how I felt, I accepted the nature of it and what it meant without attempting to overlay a projection on it. I had my feeling, of frustration towards those people and dropped the trash on the spot. It never fully went away but it almost all went away within a matter of less than 3 minutes. It's not difficult when you get use to it. It's a reflex you build up, where you get use to going through the sequence of dropping the trash onto those who conditioned you and getting out how you really feel. This is the key point that's different between my method and what's taught out there. This is about getting real with how you felt in the moment the condition was established, that trauma, and in that place you pick up where you left off and in the revision you're fully unfolding the stagnant currents you didn't allow yourself to have. This way you claim your power back and the condition doesn't feel scary since it's no longer higher than you in authority. What I need to really do is involve in fulfilling this physically in meaningful ways next to imply involvement with being that person. That spontaneous action followed up from an inner experience of such nature is massively purifying. The condition is destroyed in the relevance it has on you. With this experience you can establish a foundation without stuck currents where there will not need to be management of anything to sink consciously. If this method is something you get use to you'll become an unstoppable force. I swear this changes the game, when put together with the rest of this stuff.

I don't know if I'll ever create a more powerful method than this. Here it is for free. Have fun.

If you want to become truly unstoppable then leading pathways using this method is the magic. Everybody who teaches instant rebirth, which I have by the way, is telling you to spontaneously stimulate to "shock" yourself and then relax into the result of that. Now this can and will likely work if you're clear unconsciously but as I've always said, unconscious conditioning sticks, and proof that it does is that you're still aging. Aging is caused by that very thing, aetheric friction. So anyone who comes at me and says that I'm making complicated processes can get schooled. Every method is applying these mechanics, without exception. That's why I teach this stuff, because it's what underlies functional methods. What they're actually leading is that there's nothing to change, nothing to do, nothing to wait for. That's true, and the current of this is stability. What I will say is that even if you carry unconscious conditioning but form barriers around it effectively then you'll likely manifest seemingly satisfying things this way. I've done that with money and things in the past, usually small, but I still did it. What this is really about is a centered and stabilized sense of being, though from a meridian system experience this is more or less relating to sinking the shen into the heart blood. It's all sinking charge really, that's what "It's done" is psychologically representing. Really. Yeah you can manifest stuff without needing to sink charge but I'll say that signs are likely the result. The thing is that if you sink charge in a bubble and can settle it but then get scattered and raise shen like crazy when an environmental factor shows up and you get a surge of discomfort show up, then obviously that means you're not stable at baseline. The only thing you did was create a bubble of comfort. which is what a vast majority of people who manifest things do, but that's not actually stable, because as soon as the conditions surface as meaning in what triggered it, then that stability goes out the window as fast as it came.

The way you'd truly establish comfort at baseline is through obviously what I said before, cutting through it with the method I explained when it shows up, and most importantly getting use to it. "This isn't mine" "I don't need you" "I'm way past this". Things like that hold massive power to cut through conditions because they deny the power that it holds over you, though targeting that towards the perpetrators will fully unfold it. This is what I've experienced. When you can go all the way in feeling all that trash and build greywater context supporting you having that feeling by bringing in all the elements relating to the experiences that their conditioning led you into through compromising to appease them, then I find that really opens up the deeper dissolution. The thing is that people who go into the pressure and "sit with it" never really get anywhere since there's no satisfaction there. There's no "end" to it, because there's no direction it's moving in. They're feeling it but are just static and moving nowhere useful with it. They're needing to direct that into the way they felt but denied, which satisfies where the current was always wanting to go but you never allowed it to go. That is, as someone who I know will read this said, very difficult to do. It is, and it takes a certain level of built up pressure underlying that to really cut deep in one swing and that will most often need things to either be very bad (not ideal) or that you've fasted from needless stimulation enough to surface that pressure naturally since there's no overlay to distract and put that fire out. We want the fire to come up, we want to welcome it because that's where our immortality lies. That dragon within us. We welcome the dragon. Without that illumination then we stay static. Transforming the trash is functionally illuminating because we can't move without that innate nature moving us, which is why I said we think what it thinks as the innate seeds unfolding dynamically.

Getting out of impossible circumstances can be done through spontaneous decisions that break expectations for real. The reality of experience. This is the necessary spontaneous activation I talk about. The activation never should be drawn out, it should be sudden and meaningful, like cutting through conditions that bind you in whatever way you apply that. It's a sudden rapid powerful dynamic activating of innate nature to feel how you really feel in reality and moving with that wherever it goes. I will say that those who say to simply bring up those feelings and "be there with them" is helping some of the heart qi and maybe lung qi stagnation stuff, but that will not move liver or kidney or spleen qi really. That's where this other stuff comes in. Feeling the sadness at your losses is necessary. Feeling that in necessary ways and seeing those who left you behind as irrelevant in the first place who were hurt themselves in so much as that they left you. You should never frame the feeling as to be your own lack. Why? Because that will not satisfy where the current was always wanting to move but was held back. Holding the current back and compromising on your innate expression is the issue. If you got left out and actually felt sad but didn't cry because you didn't want to be seen crying them cry in front of those people who left you out and show them your grief mercilessly. Make them feel the guilt of being that way towards you. Make them feel what you went through and contrast their trash they passively conditioned you to believe about yourself in response. This is how you cut through the sadness effectively. Been there done that. You feel how you really feel but never frame it on yourself, because your feeling is valid and is always self empowering. ALWAYS. If that's not a game changer then I don't know what is. RS is so far beyond what guys like Edward talk about it's insane. Who could support that stuff, just imagine and feel good and cope with how you feel without cutting through the implication of what that means about how you can't be who you want to be. To actually cut the roots is to have your functional expression you denied yourself from the start. Nobody tells you to do that, because it's promoting shut down compromise cycles of building walls around how you really feel to "fake" being functional when in reality you've just buried your innate nature so deep that you think you're happy when you're really not, since there's underlying unresolved stuck current from denied innate nature unfolding and that's going to age you. Only way around that is with this, to recollect yourself and empower your authentic expression and go all the way with it. Have your feeling, move the currents, and thus accept and integrate the aspects of your psyche they represent that are cut out otherwise in a state of dysfunction.

I don't mean to teach anyone that we need to "fix" ourselves, but in truth, if we are to attain immortality and complete the great work, we must get to this level, as it's the only way. It is. That's alchemical fact, and anyone worth their salt knows this. NG himself said you can't avoid death, but I say otherwise. The bible tells us how to avoid death, and it's not how he taught it. Cutting through conditioning is accepting innate self, and until innate self is accepted fully as is then there's always going to be unconscious trash to transform. That doesn't mean you NEED to do that to manifest, because you really don't, if that current is buried enough and you live out not self expectations but in a somewhat functional way, then you can and likely will manifest those. How do I know? Once again, been there done that. We all have. You don't need to decondition the unconscious to manifest, though it's really just shooting yourself in the foot if you're attempting to bypass this stuff. No matter what though, sinking charge will almost be necessary due to how that will manage the currents and establish pseudo stability. It's like you put up solid walls around your innate nature to not feel it and make those walls as functional towards serving having the primary desire as possible, then that will only support the manifestation of that desire. It likely will, though that will involve leading cascades of pathways to autosuggest that in an implied involvement way. That's what I know to be true. If you're establishing comfort, even if it's stemming from dysfunction of innate self, then you can still manifest those experiences. It will never be truly satisfying but you can do it. This is basis of how appearance changes can also occur. So long as the innate current is denied access to be felt and walled off well enough then you can basically manifest like the coaches out there tell you, because you'll have psychological branches away from innate nature you'll operate and live out of which will manifest those things. States are degrees of function, yes, but I see that they can be contained to a degree as well, by supporting them as I said. Your whole psyche isn't shifting, but you're living from a branched off nature as a foundation that's based on enough security in self to work for you. Most often it will be driven by a desire to be stimulated by things of the world, over being stimulated by God.

What I know to be true no matter what is that manifesting comes through who you're being, the pathways and those currents, functional or not, are what drive the thoughts and feelings. So as I said, if you branch off into a cascade of pathways that serve supporting a dysfunctional aspect of self you've identified as and totally shut out the unconscious innate feelings of inner truth, then you can and will likely manifest that life without much contrast showing up. I know people like this. Thing is changing those boxes is challenging without causing the house of cards to fall down as I use to say in the early days of RS, when it was still called "aetherise".

Let's approach this from the perspective of someone who's got minimal conditioning that's conscious and is well walled off from their innate nature. They're living in denial very well, meaning unconsciously they're holding in their true feelings about their past with a lot of unresolved trash. This person would benefit the most from simply sinking charge and not even considering diving into past stuff. They'd be well off applying methods like dynamic gazing I'd say, with the "it's already done and has been since the start" kind of stuff. I'd get them to script out exactly what they want on paper and burn it and then go about living as they do. If they have discomfort show up in some way then I'd not go deep with pathway revision or anything but I'd simply say to in whatever way apply implied involvement to satisfy that condition. The less they dig and work with building more pathways on top to cope then they'd be better off. Digging isn't what someone who has a narrow subconscious should be doing if they want to hold some momentum towards living in the life their not self wants. This person will need to support the delusion in any way possible. The key as I said is to use the expansion of dysfunctional pathways into being that person fully, and that's done best through implied involvement. That should really be the way that's applied to cut through conditions on that level, and that sinking charge and dynamic gazing should apply between that in the medial space. Dynamic gazing isn't there to expand subconscious space in a functional way, it's there to act as an amplification tool for sinking charge and observing. Regular or advanced gazing would be more expanding for subconscious space in this person but that's not productive since it can surface more currents that they'll not want to deal with that would to a degree make them question the dysfunctional direction. Keeping the delusion alive is the point.

Sounds sad but that's really how most people manifest in this space. So long as they're very unconscious and don't expand space much, then they'll get better results. They won't think or see themselves as dysfunctional but that's because innate nature is so cut off due to such intense pain that's being avoided at all costs. Supporting their delusion is how they'd get "results". Feed into the condition and lead them into deeper pseudo satisfaction. That's how it goes. Never stop expanding into that direction, since that target with sunk charge will manifest wonders for them.

It's far more challenging to manifest while playing between dysfunction and function. Why? Because you're WANTING to live in delusion but also WANTING to be real, and you can't be stable. It's the contrast that's swinging you around that's the issue, and you'll be driven to play out the projections and then see them as not self and go up and down. The best thing to do here is to fast from the world for a bit and get real. Fix a solid focused direction of expansion that's innate and live into it fully trough implied involvement and allow the state overlaps to happen automatically. This person would need to settle the shen well, but also cultivating qi would be useful to amplify the innate self to show up and drive you. Nourishing your body is the best way for that, in my opinion, as well as moving the subtle body, at least in my experience helps this a lot too. I honestly don't find gazing boosts qi much, since it works with different parts of your psyche, mostly the subconscious. Where this person would get stuck, as always, is living in their head and not making decisions that are necessary in the world to imply their involvement with that life. Your environment honestly matters the most if you want fast manifestations. I NEVER could've manifested an SP to stick when I was at my parents place. I ALWAYS FELT EXTREMELY ANXIOIUS AND ON EDGE LIKE CRAZY. I had ZERO peace and ALWAYS was easily startled and scared. I was so filled with fear it's insane. I had absolutely no safe space whatsoever. Manifesting in that space is effectively impossible without making radical shifts physically, because you're living around the people who abused you and bring up all your innate feelings. I felt rage just by hearing them talk most of the time and I couldn't stop it. It just showed up when I was minding my own business and heard those voices in other rooms. I just got so filled with fury, fury I wasn't allowed to feel. The only way you can manifest in that space is to feel that stuff and rebel in functional ways which cut through their conditioning. Trying to coach someone who's in that same place I was and getting them stable would be a complete waste of both of our time. That's extremely unlikely to happen, because I KNOW how up and down I was. I'd be able to be stable to a somewhat functional degree when they're not there and then as soon as they come back I'd be filled with unimaginable feelings of fear and or rage. I'd not be able to stay stable, just knowing they'd show up made me feel so intense, even if nobody was there, and I'd always be watching my back when I was alone. That's how bad it was for me, I had ZERO safety and was always on edge. That constantly being on edge served my research though, because that's all I COULD really do. I often went out for walks and stuff in my own space but I'd just loop arguments and trash and those feelings wouldn't go away. I COULD at times relax but it would always be very very temporary. At most I'd get maybe like 2-3 hours a day AT MOST of "safe" feeling, but it wasn't really. Usually it was being on edge 90+% of the day. Zero peace. Zero results. Everything caused my body to viscerally react it sucked. Nothing I did worked. In fact, when I tried to manifest things THEY often got what I wanted and that made me feel even more hardcore rage. I tried to stuff it down but it would always explode, because of the other work I was doing, I couldn't bury my innate nature enough to manifest in that space. Nobody really can, unless they've accepted the conditioning of the family and go along with it and don't feel the contrast.

I wasn't someone to do that though. I had to feel how I really did and didn't deny it. The thing I NEEDED was to get out into a functional supportive safe environment where I COULD FINALLY be able to feel my stuff without getting reactivated. That wasn't easy though, and I didn't know much about what I say these days back then. I still was under the assumption on some level that there was validity to MORE imaginal work matters, but obviously that doesn't work unless someone is having that come through them. It was only when I felt the rage and fury towards those people in my family that ruined my early life that I made proper progress and felt somewhat safe. I swear, everyone like these people such as Edward and such have had no experience with this. I COULD get into those relaxed states but they'd never stick. That's the issue, you try and "hold" stability and you can't. It's impossible, You need to HAVE stability already available through living as yourself, meaning there's no currents boiling over. If what these other coaches say works then I'd get results easily since I did it and persisted but it never worked. Actually, interestingly, the headphones I still wear today when I'm at my desk, I manifested within like 3 days or something at my parents place, as well as other tech stuff. Why? Because I was comfortable with that around them since they supported that. This only backs up pathways as a valid model to map how comfort to assumptions works. I'd always see them manifesting old friends that they'd not have spoken to since decades or they'd get sums of money or they'd manifest something that I'd be working to manifest. It would always go to them, or someone else I'd see out in the wild, like at the shops I'd see someone with an SP JUST LIKE MINE, except wasn't, and it was the one thing actually that filled me with the most rage, because it triggered "You're not allowed that under my roof" kind of stuff I'd hear. "I won't allow that in this family". Like I had to get my SP screened for approval. This is the sick trash I went through, and only when I felt how I really felt I got out of that dysfunction. I TRIED to change them so many times too, I really did, but it would NEVER stick and the red flags I'd gaslight myself out of over and over into falsely believing I was making progress with changing them. I never changed them one bit. This was how I learned the hard way that what LOA buffs teach is utter useless trash. People like Edward, since he was mentioned in comparison to RS I will use his name, are the types that screwed me over, saying that everyone around me is just a reflection of myself. I know now what that actually means functionally, and it's not at all what they teach. These people who teach false manifesting models, or at least manifesting for people who have functional environments already and have things working for them in a walled off way relative to innate nature, they're the ones who utterly destroyed my best years. I have zero respect for that stuff. Merciless refutation is necessary to correct the errors using real experience and data. Also I want to say, some coaches in this space who I've bought courses from, will actually tell you to change your environment if nothing works. It's not just me, because at least they know that you can't override those circumstances if EVERYTHING is triggering you and you're literally unable to sink charge. The times that I was able to "ignore" them in my life I'd often go into mania or something and like laugh at everything and make fun of the trash instead of feeling rage, because I had no other way of expressing this charge. The charge was unsinkable. Either I would feel fury and rage, fear and panic, or I'd feel mania and laugh at literally everything as a sort of shut down response to denying how I felt, as denying the fear and rage would only make me end up seeing the whole thing as funny and ridiculous. That never stuck though it would always be at night or in the morning lick clockwork actually. That's when the laughter would show up to cope with how I really felt. I didn't consciously decide to make fun of it, because my intent was to deny my reality as they say and be delusional but it never was actually useful.

When people come to me and tell me that I'm doing it wrong, that I'm not manifesting the way it's taught, then I'd simply like to say to them, I'd love to see how you'd handle those situations with the way I felt. Good luck. Getting out and being real and raw with what I KNOW I needed to do solved my problem. Physical action. Distance from the problems. Creating a supportive environment that suggested that I'm free. That was the ONLY thing that manifested the things I wanted. THE ONLY THING! I was only able to manifest things that they'd approve of while I was there, and nothing else, because they or someone else would get what I was manifesting. Signs. All I'd get was suffering. Nothing worked and my life sucked so bad, especially when I was digging into the issues with Juize in the collective level of reality. That was the icing on the cake to amplify the rage even more. Good luck manifesting abundance in that environment where everything you experience autosuggested lack and how any attempt to feel stable or ignore was met with dips, because in truth, the implied involvement was confirming that I was disrespecting myself over and over and over for years and nobody ever wanted to stick around me because I'd get viscerally sick every time out of such panic and fear that I'd have to face the conditions of the people at home. I never was able to feel safe in any way, and I had no way out, other than to accept that I was the solution and actually grow up and change.

These utterly incompetent coaches have never experienced such suffering, and have no clue what they'd do to get a result from someone in that place. I know people who came through my coaching who were literally cucks, as they claimed, and they KNEW they needed to move away from parental figures who controlled them and suggested their lack of authority in life, but they couldn't face the pressure and cut through it. That's why they'll go through what I did until you snap and say screw this I'm getting out and actually get a job like I did in massage and just remove yourself from that trash. It sucked. No wonder I lost so much hair and all that. Anyone would. I really don't care what any coach says out there or how many success stories they have, which many would obviously be fake as I've proven time and time again. Those coaches telling someone to "just assume" and let it be, they'd never manifest results with someone like me. They'd blame me for not imagining clearly enough, or relaxing enough, or whatever trash I wasn't watching. Mental diet this that and the other. It's all useless trash when your environment reminds you 24/7 of how useless you are. Until you change what autosuggests to you and brings up those innate feelings over and over that are unresolved then you'll never move forward. What I actually did by moving away and feeling that rage was manifest what was innate, which was what I was denying myself I knew I needed to involve in. My true feelings were to get out and finally feel safe, but LOA tells us that circumstances don't matter, without correct context of course. It's insane how this is interpreted. Who I was being was manifesting all the thoughts of what I didn't want, because the currents that were simulated by my environment would basically be constantly autosuggesting the worst for me, and I was powerless to stop it. Moving out was how I stopped it. I wasn't weak, or doing it wrong, they are. The solution is to empower yourself and make necessary decisions to BE THE PERSON YOU WANT TO BE DAMMIT. I didn't WANT to be bound there with that trash and I tried for years to manifest moving for free but it never worked. It was only when I got a "job" that I made some cash for the first time that wasn't Centrelink money. Those who are Aussie know what that is.

The only solution to me was to grow up and be the person I imagined myself to be for real and not play these stupid games in denying how I actually felt. That's why I have zero respect for ignorant coaches in this space who deny common sense to peddle hope to those who are desperate, like I was. Screw all of them, that's how things are. They're NOT qualified to coach people in this space. The successes don't come from people in dire straits, they come from people who are already on the edge of stability in assumption. It's never big stuff, it's all smoke and mirrors. This whole LOA space is a big scam because it doesn't work the way it's claimed. If I applied mindless affirmations while acting through implied involvement then I'd likely have had results, but without implied involvement then I'd never have manifested it because IT MATTERS. I proved that, even though I didn't want that to be true. I made next to nothing off of any of this work for years, my proves in the start were dirt cheap, my 30 day was like $370 or something back then. Those original clients I still talk to till this day by the way, because it worked. Anyone who comes out and says that RS is incomplete or is a scam or whatever obviously hasn't gone through all the data yet. I've made sure there are no holes, or at least none that I know of or have seen pointed out that don't work. This notebook is part of that, the exploration of the expanding ideas of RS, and some parts can change, but so what. If it works it works. I only started this to provide this space what I wish I had in the beginning, a practical methodology and theory that supports functional manifesting no matter what circumstances you're in. The above is my story and what was necessary for me to get a life I was worth living. It was nothing to do with what NG or anyone taught at face value, because it doesn't work if your environment is bringing up suffering 24/7 and is highly dysfunctional. I only kept manifesting that because I accepted the dysfunction instead of rebelling against it like I learned to do many years later after suffering so hard. All those peak dips. I only really got fed up when I was on a long seed retention streak and my aggression skyrocketed. That aggression was what I needed to actually feel worth more and finally get out. That pressure I needed to feel. Until the pressure was actually high enough that I couldn't take it anymore then I'd not have made radical changes. The radical change was that I'm worth more than this life, and I broke boxes to imply I'm away from the dysfunction and it worked. I actually felt the fury I was holding in and it worked.

Anyone telling you that you have to feel positive and stable to manifest are full of trash, else I'd not be here today. Edward and the rest wouldn't manifest anything in environments that are so unsafe and dysfunctional with constant tension which I was just coping with harder and harder to avoid, but it was just making it worse. The solution from the start was to see myself as worth more than this situation, like I said in my last video, and actually make the necessary decisions. I manifested what I wanted because I lived being worth that change for real, not because I imagined it and sunk charge to cope with how I really felt. It's all freaking cope, I KNOW that because I LIVED IT! There's no way to sink charge in unsafe environments effectively. Unless you've already got a clear stable foundation and you go into that environment while already having available safety established around that, then you'll not be able to feel stable there. It's that the available pathways need to be established to KNOW (which is what the meridian system somatic sensation "intuitive" sense is of somatic feelings and what they mean about you) because if that sense of availability isn't there then you'll constantly be in conflict with how you really feel which is telling you to move on and you're constantly putting the lid on the pot waiting for it to blow up again. Good luck manifesting in that state. If your environment is very unsafe then you'll be screwed. How does someone get out of unsafe environments? They did what I did and see themselves as worth more than that and fixate on that expansion. They WILL get out if that's the focus. They will manifest what's necessary, because they're integrating those parts of them that have self value instead of tolerating dysfunction which is stemming from a cut off dysfunctional psyche.

What people in this space are teaching us is to live in dysfunctional sides of ourselves, and to tolerate other people abusing us and to just imagine them positively. Good luck with that. I believe that if you're in a safe environment and have moved up in worth, then you'll manifest a change in them, because YOU have changed, but until you can face that pressure and integrate that part of you then you'll never change that SP or whoever. I've had clients who regularly get beaten by the person they're with and they want me to change that, where their entire financial situation was controlled where they had no personal money access. They were locked into abusive situations, and that's because they allowed it to happen because they ignored the red flags since they were conditioned by their parents to accept this kind of stuff. This is what I mean, this is what we need to break to manifest. That's not a condition or circumstance that's "too big", it's functional thematic supply/demand and you see it manifest in effectively every example I see out there. There seems to be a few outliers but knowing ALL the variables at play isn't always easy. Don't assume that you grasp the situation just because of the end result because often things aren't as they seem, or those stories are just fake.

All of this is useless trash that's taught because it's all working the functional psychological mechanisms I just explored. Thematic supply/demand. This is what I've spent years decoding day by day by day. What it means to BE the change and BE in the state is to see yourself worth the change, make that change spontaneously and involve in that life. This will autosuggest you're being that person and support sinking charge at baseline. This isn't a condition it's just how pathway mechanics work. Doing this works, and everyone who does it will get the outcome desired. The truth is that the magic moves through us, naturally as a result of who we're being, and that the currents that move through us according to what we've stablished through implied involvement and how that represents who we're being will determine our state, in self respect terms and the details we're going to allow ourselves to accept without contrast barriers. Cutting through conditioning the way I taught, while applying this principle of generating surroundings which autosuggest and support who you're being, will effectively guarantee results. The people who come through my coaching and get results all tell me how important implied involvement is and how important trusting intuitive impulse is and being spontaneous no matter the conditions. This works for everybody. Gazing does too, as an amplification tool for those integrations to expand subconscious and expose to higher order states at baseline where you'll WANT to make those decisions more. It won't make the changes like magic often, but it will open up the ability for that to happen more easily.

You choose people to manifest into your life that you want because they're going to play out your expectations and conditioning. Thematic supply/demand. Some people will say that the NG military discharge story proves it, but he obviously didn't have the sense of discomfort and trash that I had to deal with. He wasn't constantly being in a state of rage from unmet needs and unresolved feelings. These situations can't be compared. The only way I got out is by seeing myself worth more and owning it, but that came through me as ripeness was there for it. Every time you attempt to get into "knowing" it's yours by sinking charge (the same thing as all this "be I AM" and such there's no functional difference) then it just ends up going through the dip cycle because you've not experienced the actual satisfaction of the innate currents, and your surrounding pathways will bring up that trash too that are triggered by others in your environment you've not resolved the underlying feelings with. Those who say for me to make peace with them, I wasn't able to make that happen either, because I just took their attacks on my like a wimp and got pushed over. That's the attitude I had while I was there, I really felt intense fury for being treated this way as anyone with a functional psyche would, and yet I was being told to not react and be calm and sink charge. Do you see the contradiction? I'm gaslighting myself and going in and out of treating myself like I matter when I feel the need to get out and then I compromise and tolerate being lesser when I fit in and do what the coaches say. Various clients of mine have told me that when they had the guts to stand up to those who abuse them and they felt frustration and fury at them for violations, then those clients gained respect. ZERO imaginal scenes or assumptions on a conscious level to change them. They got out how they really felt and the person who abused them changed. Thematic supply/demand. It works. How do children get conditioned? They submit to parental overpowering of their authority and fit in to keep peace, but their lives suck then since they live under constant psychological distress. The child cannot stand up for themselves, and they didn't manifest that scenario consciously, it happened to them. The parent will overpower the child and claim authority because the parent will project their own unmet needs and unresolved trash onto the child and that conditioning will carry over until it's seen as it is and resolved by acting from your own authority and owning innate feelings.

This is the facts that cannot be denied. Every child goes through this without exception, to one level or another. We ALL face this, else we'd be immortal and have zero friction with a fully integrated psyche. That's not how things work though, obviously. Have you ever noticed that NG never addresses major abusive situations with his stories? I wonder why. Maybe because there's none. Maybe because those people need to not do what NG says and imagine the people changing, but actually to respect themselves by feeling their innate self. Where are the examples in what NG says about the constant self gaslighting and stockholm syndrome that victims of extreme abuse face? THEY GET SO TRAUMATICES THAT THEY SIDE WITH THE ONES WHO TORMENTED THEM TO STAY SAFE IN A TRAUMA BOND. I mean isn't that what we're being told to do? To see the abusive people as positive? This is what stockholm syndrome is, that they will support the ones who a highly dysfunctional because they were attacked so badly and deny that any abuse was done to them when interrogated, because they've been so insanely traumatized that they shut off how they actually feel. THIS IS A VERY REAL PHENOMENA AND PEOPLE ACT LIKE IT'S ALL IN YOUR DAMN MIND IT'S NOT! These mechanics are very real and there's endless examples I can point to which prove this wrong. Stalkers are another example of psychological delusion and yet that doesn't manifest. There's so many examples which refute conventional LOA. The psychological functions I discuss here are how it works, and how you change other people. Thematic supply/demand. Always has been always will be. This is why I have ZERO respect for coaches in this space who don't work on that level because they're really just confusing the functional mechanics and yet what they'll say is that I'm somehow overcomplicating it and yet they have no explanations as to why the examples above wouldn't manifest positive changes in people since it's apparently working according to how they claim it does with positive thought and feeling. Those examples lack stability and implied involvement availability, and manifesting changes in people won't really happen until the condition that's driving their delusion is satisfied. Thematic supply/demand.

All of this just assume it, effortless assumption, it's done, state shifting, it's here now, don't lift a finger, you already have it, all of that stuff is just leading your pathways to apply these mechanics. These mechanics drive the phenomena. They drive comfort, stability, and suggestion, as well as the direction of expansion that's implied surrounding that in autosuggested ways. That's not overcomplicating it's being real about what happens when results are attained in almost all cases by recognizing the important variables. There's so many more variables than what runs through someone's mind, but I will say what comes through your mind is caused by the currents in your meridians, not really by what you think. Most of it is coming through you, though a conscious decision that's made as a suggestion that's left as JUST a suggestion can and will manifest as such since that would be thematically available to that person given surrounding variables work to support that. It probably will manifest in all cases if stability is there, though obviously nobody can prove that since there's too many variables to account for scientifically speaking. That's why nobody can prove manifestation really, since it's way too "random" often times, but it only seems random because the variables that contribute to results aren't recognized clearly or understood. RS has mapped these to a very high level, and there's still more being uncovered. If it wasn't for me understanding my conditioning over months of logging out how I felt about things and memories and experiences that related through pathway revision then I'd never have really known how to manifest my SP overnight, and if I did it accidentally I'd not have known how I did it. Manifesting an SP accidentally and claiming it's because they affirmed when in reality they grew up like I did when moving out of a dysfunctional environment is very deceptive, because that's all they know as a relevant variable. They would've seen themselves as worth more and thus thought those things, but that's only due to allowing the pressure to drive them. They would've felt the pressure to expand, and accepted that. Many won't tell you that but it's true, because they just think it's them thinking positive when it comes through them as innate nature unfolds. All that heat you feel when you're making radically different decisions under pressure is literally this mechanic of taking the lid off the pot and feeling the steam. TCM explains this very well.

So once again, manifesting really is at the core, being the person who has the thing, and if a clear suggestion occurs since you're already that person and are comfortable in surrounding ways that support that stability then the suggestion can manifest into a satisfying experience as it's available in all relevant ways. It's just suggesting experiences in a stable inner environment that's stemming from a stable outer environment. Even if the outer environment isn't stable in that place when the suggestion is made, in the back of their mind, unconsciously speaking, they will have somewhere to go and fall back on and can relax and allow. When you don't have any support whatsoever and you don't feel safe on any consistent basis and you're constantly up and down then good luck manifesting. You need to create for yourself by seeing yourself worth more, a stable environment to feel how you really do and transform innate nature into functional processes that unfold the suggestions you desire automatically instead of being thrown around in the rough waves of the ocean of instability. That constant stimulation someone in a safe space would then seek would be their detriment. Gazing will expand them in this place, as well as fasting from the world to open up innate nature to be felt and accepted. That's them accepting that they ARE worth what they desire and establishing that in meaningful ways because they will WANT to. That's why feeling the pressure is necessary to expand. Without that then you're just going to remain in pseudo satisfaction and project fantasy onto someone who can give you what you don't really feel you're worth having. Actually feeling the pressure and cutting through the conditions in the way in necessary ways will be how you establish self worth and value and live in a functional psyche who's not just taking trash from unresolved conflicts in the past you're still carrying. It's still there, else you'd not feel this way, it's not just because you "believe" in it. Utter trash.

These mechanics need to be grasped and integrated. It's not too complex, it's just a different way of looking at the phenomena of manifesting. All the work I did in the past to try and prove mind magic failed over and over despite having countless streaks of feeling "good" and then I'd return to abuse and all that trauma would show up in an instant. Even making fun of it didn't help me, it only solidified the importance of the condition that I can't be who I envision myself to be. Screw that. Go all the way and cut through the trash and be real with yourself and function according to who you really are innately, even if that means "harming" certain peoples feelings who are hurting you in response to you valuing yourself. That's how whacked this is. You by being yourself will feel bad because by you growing up it'll harm the opinions of others. That's where I was at, and until I allowed myself to actually harm their views of me and get properly rejected, even though I was already rejected as a child, then I was able to move on. It never worked the way these coaches said, because they have no clue what they're talking about and are copy paste NG false doctrine trash and deny anyone who claims they're incorrect to keep the fiction going. I'd love to get on camera and talk about this but I'd lose a lot of subs and wouldn't grow my channel much, because taking radical action isn't seen as something promoted in this space, despite that being what was necessary for me to change. I saw myself as worth more and thus I WANTED to act in radical ways that imply I'm that person and value myself enough to get out of dysfunctional environments where conflicts happened daily and feelings were thrown around all the time and fury was constantly underlying every moment I was in that place, which was most of the day every day for years.

Being real doesn't mean you'll be approved of by others, but it means you'll be yourself, and that's what matters. You'll see who's functional and who's not based on how they project onto you. I get this all the time as a coach, especially in the comments. It's terrible the amount of entitlement around there from people who think they can get answers from me just because they put "thanks DJ for the reply in advance" or whatever with a bunch of hearts. It's like go read the damn notebook it's in every description.

When you begin to value yourself for who you are then you'll make 10x more progress than "assuming" this is who you are. ACTUALLY BE THAT PERSON IN ALL WAYS YOU CAN. Implied involvement. I said right at the top of this page about how you establish stability of assumption is to involve yourself in living that life. State streaks in ways that imply you're being that person. It works. Don't even think about saying RS doesn't work when you're still staying in the box and compromising. It works for everybody no matter what because it's the underlying functional mechanics that drive manifestation and I've proven that with near perfect accuracy. Getting results comes down to being willing to expand, willing to face pressure in necessary ways and cut through the conditions that keep you in the box. Just doing that in itself will imply you're living as someone of higher worth since you've broken out of the bonds of others, and this will support having the SP and the other stuff by default even in unrelated ways. It's so simple really, but it's the challenge of life itself that's the difficult part. Being willing to own who you are and being willing to be seen in ways that would imply that you're breaking others expectations. The crippling fear of being rejected by those people for being yourself is what binds you really. Being willing to see yourself as worth more than that condition is what will take you over the line. That's going to lead you to making necessary spontaneous decisions that imply you're involved in the life you want to live and that will establish a baseline of satisfaction and stability since you're moving currents and mediating pressure in functional ways to represent unfolding your innate nature over compromising and giving them permission to run your life through the expectations, That's what happens. You see the conditions as irrelevant, and my method I went over above where you see the people who established that condition as irrelevant to drop the importance of the condition as just second hand resistance from them they projected onto you, this method works wonders. Stability will come out of that, where the currents that are driving instability can settle and be satisfied. That's why I went over in the start of this page the nature of what conditioning and such actually is and how the currents drive these reactions to unresolved conflicts that you've not properly fulfilled yet.

Some will say to not bother with "fixing" anything, and to just be there with the feeling, and allow it to be there, but that's also nonsense and trash, You know why? Because it will force you to think those thoughts that imply you're stuck still. The current has an association to a psychological function and you WILL think those thoughts that mean you're still in the box buying into others conditions and all that. Now there's degrees of intensity of that, I still experience this, as I had an example from today I went over before, but if it's mild and you've got supporting surrounding context as pathways which work for you available unconsciously, then you CAN do that and it'll work. What most people don't know is that I had crippling anxiety to the point where I needed to go lay down in bed multiple times a day because I was so dysfunctional and couldn't even really function in the world. That's why I HAD to fast from the world for 3 months to recover. Really, that was all the unconscious trash from living in a dysfunctional home for most of my life surfacing and I was barely able to handle it all. Point is, in that place, when I was applying this whole be there with the feeling and give it space and observe it and whatnot, all I'd feel is "I'm not safe". My body would feel anxiety at EVERY positive thing I thought about. It lasted years. Literally no matter what I thought about. The only times it wasn't there, or at least not very much, was when I was actively involved in things I enjoyed. Every time I was thinking about what I wanted it reminded me of how bad my situation was, and that was 100% unconscious. I didn't even know what the condition was in specific and it took me ages and ages to even come to an understanding that it was simply meaning about me that I'm still not going all the way. It was there to remind me to grow up more and get involved in what I knew I needed to instead of dancing around it and playing these stupid waiting games trying to make magic happen to justify me staying in the box. I lived for years where every single night without exception really, that I'd imagine ANYTHING positive and I'd instantly feel quite powerful anxiety, this sinking feeling, because it implied that if I had this that I'd be hurting someone else's feelings since I was expected to stay in the box. You tell me how I was suppose to do any of this inner imaginal work with a powerful hole in my stomach EVERY SINGLE TIME FOR YEARS. It never went away no matter what I did, until I actually grew up and got involved more than I ever did before.

This is what I'm saying. Implied involvement is NECESSARY in almost ALL cases. This isn't magic, and if the magic happens it happens because you're stable to do so since you're already in a state of function as yourself, to enough of a degree at least. Do you get it now? All of the methods that are thrown around in this space never worked for me despite wanting it to be that way. Years of unconsciously manifesting physical sickness EVERY SINGLE TIME I manifested an SP into my life, suffering endless rejection. I ended up in hospital because I was so anxious and my digestion literally shut down because I was in such fear at hurting the opinions of people in my life who I was scared to cross. That's why feeling fury and rage manifested my SP overnight. All those suppressed innate feelings came through me and the thoughts and such were automatic. I just needed to allow myself to accept how I felt. Nothing that NG told me to do helped, or anyone in this space. LOA to me was a scam, because in places I was at it never worked. Stability is necessary, not 100% stability but ENOUGH to be functional. That stability will reflect the state you're in. There's also a very very big difference between living like I did and having dips here and there while having a somewhat functional life surrounding it. Having a functional enough state and pathways to move through will be the stability needed. I didn't have that stability in my life for probably at least 7-8 years straight at all, and it was barely there before then too. I'm talking that long with EXTREME instability, internalized of course. I never acted out really, because that wasn't allowed. That's why I felt so filled with fury, because I wasn't allowed to have my feelings that were innate. When I allowed myself to express my innate nature I manifested everything I wanted, because I accepted that how I was told to do it wasn't correct and I just trusted myself for once and did what I know I needed to do.

Anyone who coached me back then, if I did get coaching that is, obviously would've failed me because they'd not have stressed the importance of being real with myself and would've told me to not feel bad about them and stuff when that's how I manifested actual change, because that's how I actually felt. All that trash that's preached needs to just get burned. Too bad the people in this space would attack me for speaking the facts, because it's too hard to handle the truth that they've been buying into a scam.

You can and will manifest what you want if you be yourself without compromise. That means have all your thoughts and feelings and don't try to constantly monitor yourself and just make necessary decisions that represent you being yourself for real and that will autosuggest through that involvement. You SHOULD cut through conditioning when it comes up, and get use to returning to stable charge regularly when state streaks are interrupted, but that takes a bit of time to get use to properly. If you apply all of what's said here you'll be unstoppable no matter how bad things are. Stop trying to meet the approval of others who are obviously harming you and keeping you in the box. The red flags you ignore from people you want to be with, because you project fantasy onto them and see them as your salvation from the sufferings in your life. You're projecting salvation onto a circumstance instead of allowing the innate nature of the currents surfacing to drive you and BE you. You BE the currents, and that's what this is all about. The currents become you because they're stable since you've allowed them to move you correctly in theamtic supply/demand processes representing your value. When you allow yourself to BE the currents, instead of meeting expectations and denying that innate nature, then you'll manifest what's satisfying because those currents automatically generate the psychological condition and state for success to occur. You need to allow it to be you, to move you, to drive you, and to accept however that'll manifest instead of running away as soon as things get real. Getting real and being honest and trusting intuitive impulse, the innate nature, is necessary to get out of deep dips, and often that's not going to feel positive but that's ok.

Most people in this space approach LOA from a perspective of already being somewhat stable. When the currents within you are stable because you see yourself in that place, and are moved accordingly, then (not a condition it's mechanics) you'll be stable at baseline naturally and not need to do anything but suggest and accept the way it's taught. I get tech for free or dirt cheap so easy, always have, because I involve myself in that life. I was into IT for most of my teens, and I was a finalist in a nation wide game dev competition. I was very comfortable with that since I was approved of. Think about this. If your life feels approved and comfortable then you'll clearly be able to apply what these other people talk about, though without that then good luck. Involvement with establishing that availability will be necessary, and you know that but can't accept it. Be the currents, God within, that's your innate truth and your salvation. That's what they won't tell you, that's really what this is leading you through. That's what manifests the life you want. It's that simple to be, you just need to be ok with the implications of that, meaning to break approval of others as that's the bind you're stuck with, most likely. You could lose it all and still manifest what you want because you trusted intuitive impulse within you. That's your inner guidance system and gazing will amplify the feeling of this to make those decisions more clearly. Do it and you'll know. That's why gazing works for everybody, because it aids this functional mechanism in all people. Gazing in a vacuum won't save you but it will contribute. The less you cope with needless stimulation the more you'll feel that innate truth. You will feel how you really feel more, and that will drive you to WANT to be in a higher state and be stable.

6/11/25

Resistance as it's called in this space IS unconscious heat agitating the shen from some meridian that's holding charge that's unresolved. Thinking positive CANNOT EVER move that current, unless that leads pathways and opens the meridian that's housing the heat and move it out.

If you're being violated, then you WILL respond, unconsciously. If sinking charge is the goal, then removing yourself from the source of needless violating stimulation is the goal. Is that not correct? Those feelings stem from innate responses that exist within you built into your nervous system. Everybody on earth has fight or flight reflexes, without exception, and no matter how integrated you are you WILL respond with that if you're put in that place. YOU WILL RESPOND WITH AGITATION. It's a NECESSARY and HEALTHY FUNCTIONAL response to such a situation. Is it not?

This is what I mean, if there are things around you that are causing you harm, being done TO you, then assuming it's not done to you and siding with those who hurt you will only support their actions. They will see you as submitting to their abusive acts and likely feel they can get away with more. Is this not a conventional dynamic of a victim? They deny until they can't no more and finally remove themselves from that situation? The psychology of those who attack you will see it as a signal to further project what was done to them onto you, and thus since you're now receptive and viewing yourself as a victim then you'll get stuck in this cycle, until you enforce boundaries. That's what someone who has self value would respond with, they'd not take the attacks they'd simply cut through it and see that person as irrelevant and unnecessary to involve themselves with and thus will remove themselves from the equation as the abused victim. They'll change the dynamic by changing themselves and how they view themselves, no changing the other. The other in that case will attempt to regain control most likely but will fail, since the attitude of the seeming victim has shifted 180 degrees and now will not accept boundaries being broken. Is this not a common sense dynamic that we see everywhere in how people all over the world respond? Thematic supply/demand. Role supply/demand you could say. Where there is a role for someone to play then there will be a role for another to play in response, since that's available for them and gives them a way of discharging pressure they feel onto this person, which is a projection of their conditioning that they picked up from their abusive past that was done to them.

We're told by NG to imagine lovely things for all people, but does that count for the one who's being physically violated mercilessly in horrible ways? Would we say that the fight or flight response prevents manifesting? No. It doesn't, because that should drive a functional response to manifest the necessary change. The question is, where is that victim "growing into"? If they're staying as the victim and seeing themselves that way and not changing their "attitude of mind" as NG defines states as, then how can the dynamic change? Thinking lovely thoughts of themselves and seeing themselves worth the vision of being free from this is what matters. The lovely thoughts are for the vision of their life, in serving their capacity and expanding into that, which would functionally mean removing themselves from such an abusive violating environment. You don't try and change the person, because you won't. I've yet to see any examples proven of this, not in my life or anyone else's life, and I'm talking about those who have functional psyche's who aren't just siding with those who attacked them to get on good terms and thus "change" them. That's not forgiveness, that's shutting down parts of how you really feel to fit in, calling it change. That's compromise at the core, but dressed up as success when in reality those people put up walls and buried their innate nature to fit in and change the dynamic. That doesn't mean they will be attacked the same way, but they will still tolerate violations in whatever other way that will compensate for. I've seen this happen many times, dressed up as "success".

So once again I challenge anyone to prove "mind control" of another person by imagining them that way. There is almost always a degree of influence over another stemming from a change in how you respond, and how you respond is based on how much you either accept innate nature and live in truth or compromise. Changing others doesn't need to come from innate nature, it can come from compromise too, but that the innate currents are walled off and denied conscious availability to express and they're buried deeply in the unconscious. These dynamics are seen in every example in everybody who ever lived in existence eternally, because it's how our fixed functions of consciousness alchemically speaking manifest. There is ALWAYS a supply/demand mechanic underlying ALL manifestation. Implied involvement works this way too as a means of overlapping people in the world in the way that's implied through to manifest inner experiences into each others lives. This abusive scenario is just one of them.

Must we not forget that NG drank himself to death and obviously wasn't happy. His life was far from how people think it was, and yet he coped with drink. Nobody drinks out of self respect, because it's objectively dysfunctional and numbs out the innate nature. You're drinking poison to numb feelings, alcohol is made of flavored watered down ethanol, literally. You're drinking racing fuel and get stimulated from the high. That's how he lived and suffered with great physical pain towards the end of his life, as I've documented using his later lectures and clues about his doctors visits. He said that it was something within him causing the pain, which is true, but it was that this part of him was being numbed out and denied access because it was too deep to resolve. There was an unresolved conflict in him that was too painful to see for what it was, because the implication would mean too much would need to change that he couldn't accept. That's what happens with all resistance.

Thus the core of this entire page really is about defining and exploring what this idea of "resistance" is. It's a condition that needs to be met to get supply, when in reality the condition is irrelevant. Every coach in this space who tells you circumstances don't matter is saying this same thing, except they don't even know what that's functionally working on the inner level. Every single one of these LOA terms and ideas has a psychological alchemical function. There's no way around that. That's not all separate from this stuff and that all of these mechanics are just by some way automatically assumed the same in all people. No there's fixed alchemical components to each of us that comprise who we are and their interaction defines this. That's REALLY what the bible is about, not the way GN interpreted it as a bunch of containers in a vacuum, or at least that's how it would seem. He did speak of how we go into every state until they've all been fulfilled, which if representing degrees of function of self, then yes, that's correct, but characterizing them clearly in details wasn't something he did outside of defining them in highly abstract and non literal ideas. He never connected real experiences to these states, and that's the issue. Nobody knows what they mean because there's literally zero examples of how we'd experience them. It's simply that I'd say higher states are you experiencing more of yourself, however that'll show up. The scenario is unique but the idea is that you will feel MORE, experience MORE, instead of being numbed out. People in this space are trying to numb out how they feel which is the opposite of experiencing more of themselves, which involves feeling how you really do and not living in projections.

The thing is then people don't know how the "magic" works. They hear me talking about actions and they think that's "working for it" but that's because the propaganda has warped how we approach this whole thing. There's way more variables that go into unfolding states than just thinking positive stuff and feeling stable. yeah those are core parts but how that's established at baseline is what's never spoken about and really where coaching is necessary to establish that in a personalized manner. Coaching is the only way to get that, I never give people a copy paste template like everyone else would. Every single time I discuss manifesting on call it's from a functional psychological and practical perspective and how they interact. Telling someone to relax more and affirm positive things and do things they love isn't functional, because it's not getting them to feel how they really feel and experience more of themselves, thus driving them to manifesting the innate seeds and unfolding that capacity. You don't need to worry about how and why the seeds unfold because that's all coming through you, that's what conditions do, they put a lid on that current, and feeling how you really feel is letting it off and actually being yourself and deconditioning.

I mean what I just said solves all the mysteries about how magic happens. You ARE the currents, and when you deny the currents to move through you then you manifest discomfort and unfortunate circumstances. Being stable means the currents aren't backed up and pressure builds that needs releasing. The pressure NEEDS release, but you're conditioning how that will be released, WHICH IS YOUR SALVATION. The salvation IS NOT YOUR VISION, but the currents that drive you there that unconsciously thematically will associate to it. This is the deepest truth imaginable about the functions of the innate seeds and how the Jing unfolds. You burn Jing by keeping the lid on and conditioning how you can be in the world, and thus experience less of yourself and more of someone else's life. That's not immortality. That's dysfunctional trash that's keeping you stuck in expectations that were never yours to begin with.

Let me say clearly. Being yourself without compromise is allowing yourself to feel how you really feel and being moved by where that necessitates movement. Implied involvement is natural and automatically coming through you, via intuitive impulse, but since we have expectations to compromise and you don't have FAITH IN THE CURRENT AS I AM, then you stat in the box worshipping Satan. You serve all masters except those currents that manifest through you that you've been conditioned to distrust, because trusting those would mean you'll be under threat in some way by others in this dysfunctional world. That's why in truth, everyone and everything in this world is attacking you, keeping you conditioned to their expectations, but that's the challenge of life.

So what IS resistance? It's accepted conditions on who you can be. That keeps the lid on the pot and eventually that current raising through you, activating you spontaneously to be yourself and respond accordingly, that current will explode and force you to face how you really feel and you will either in that place put importance on the condition and blame yourself or accept that it's the truth and blame the people who abused you and kept this condition in place to stay safe through. That's what this comes down to. Are you willing to be yourself without compromise or accept conditions and keep other people happy to avoid being attacked by their dysfunction you internalized and identified with to stay safe? That's what this comes down to, and what's necessary to value your vitality and move the way you're moved. You don't need to control that, you simply need to allow wherever that moves you to be the way, and often times the best way is to in the moment be spontaneous with that movement and trust it. Making sudden radical changes is how you manifest radical changes externally, because that implied involvement will reflect what that change represents about the shift of the conditioning dynamics and who you now serve. You will suggest by default that you serve your innate nature and manifest accordingly. You will not need to imagine anything, because that will all come through you. You already desire it, that pressure of desire is to get you to move in necessary ways to accept it, and to stabilize the currents. The desire is pressure to experience what's needed to take the lid off the pot, and thus you'll establish a "normal" feeling towards it. It will be natural, since it was already innate and now it's come through you and established that suggested state in how you involved yourself in living in that state, via spontaneously initiated state streaks. That's connecting all the dots here of RS.

Nothing else on earth even comes close to comparing. Whatever I touch I turn to gold. Every word I speak is worth more wealth than exists in reality. This is what I do and I don't need to try because it comes through me. I don't think, thinking does me. I am the currents that manifest my state. I AM. You see now how this works?

You submit your control to fit in to God and thus God moves you in the perfect ways to manifest the life that's representing your innate nature that was always there but you couldn't take the lid off and allow that change to happen. This sudden decision stuff all comes out of this mechanism and I'm the only one in this whole space who clearly defined how that works. There's no refutations and no holes it all works after tens of thousands of hours of work, almost all unpaid and done through passion for truth and expansion.

That's what I believe resistance really is and how it manifests through us and why we can't just "manifest it away bro". You need to live the involvement in the life that implies the irrelevance of the conditions that keep that stuck innate current locked up causing heat and agitation. The stability of assumption comes through a stable unconscious mind, which is what houses all your unresolved trash from the past you're still allowing to influence how you show up in life. Resolving those by feeling how you really feel is how you dissolve conditioning and stabilize the unconscious mind, which is what advanced gazing leads you to spontaneously, to one degree or another.

Until you're willing to look at how things really are and blame your family for ruining your life then you'll never figure out how to fully attain immortality. This is the root cause of our suffering, our conditioning at the earliest stages that generated the cascades of dysfunctional pathways we live in today. Blaming them for how screwed up you are is how you begin to open the lid and move into how you always wanted to respond and embody that innate nature who was violated and has a functional healthy psyche waiting to express itself. That's where we must go, to feel the merciless rage at those people who violated us and ruined our lives. All those feelings that are innately buried, that's directed towards all who hurt us that we allowed to stand over us and condition how we are allowed to be in this world. That's why you can't manifest, because you're living in the lives and expectations from the past still into the now, and the only way to get that power back you hold innately is by blaming the ones who attacked you instead of yourself and being real with how you feel. That's how we must move forward.

That's not what NG told us but I don't care, because he failed miserably to explain how manifesting works at the core and died of liver failure in a very unsatisfied state, else he'd not need to drink to numb how he felt. He couldn't accept how he was violated, and that was the end of him. The doctrine he preaches is flawed and should be viewed as such without bias. Anyone comparing me to NG and saying that NG was "better" than what I've come up with RS here, they can't prove that. It will always be attacks that are baseless and meaningless and don't threaten any of the foundations RS stands on. Therefore it's time we move on from following NG LOA and the rest as dressed up psychological and reflected alchemical functions of the psyche designed to be sold to people who aren't technically minded into fooling them into believing in themselves to be themselves. To dare to assume, as NG says. Too bad he never made that a key point, it was always to fall asleep at night imagining what you want. What a joke. If NG was serious about helping us he'd tell us the principles of how things really work, but he either was blind to them, or didn't want to talk about them, or that he did and his wording was coded so deeply that it's next to impossible for his audience to decode, which is his error, not ours. When your message is so metaphorical that it's not understood by 99.9% of people who read it then good luck receiving praise for being groundbreaking. You sold fairy tales dressed up as spiritual advice, just like the rest do, who almost always end up being revealed to have coping addictions that led them to dying horrible deaths, and NG is no exception.

RS is the only model that explains all of these functions in a coherent systematic way with examples that are practical and everyone can relate to. RS isn't excessively complex, it's the propaganda that's projected onto RS that makes it seem that way. Stop trying to fit LOA into RS, they don't match up. RS explains everything LOA does and more, so totally ditch LOA and move on and see that all these terms like "living in the end" and all that are just terms to describe psychological functions and they're not magic miracles. NG isn't the second coming of Christ, because Christ wouldn't drink himself to death to cope with how bad his life was.

A lack of belief in I AM, is a lack of belief in how you really feel. How you really feel and I AM are one in the same thing, functionally speaking. They're not ACTUALLY the same thing, but that the currents that come through us as how we feel as ASPECTS of I AM, which is what we must have faith in. If you view it all like this then you'll finally decode NG correctly and what "feeling" is all about. Implication, intuitive understanding through pathway connections we "know" through how it feels somatically and how the meridians overlap and interact to form "information" we experience almost on an unconscious level. What that sensation represents about us to us is what our conscious mind swims in and therefore will be suggested by. It's not the way we've been told to "reprogram" because the program is already there, that's the innate seeds. This is why I can't stand either NG or Joseph Murphy who both taught useless alchemically illiterate trash that denies the truth about who we are innately. They NEVER made it clear that it comes through us, and that it was because we thought "from" which really is the only way to ACCEPT the "wish" AKA innate currents representing sensory experience, to unfold from our core into our external. That's what happens, to all of us, to some degree or another. There IS magic which happens, even without seeming implied involvement, but that will always be a VERY limited "sign" type of manifestation from ALL the experiences I've had and client stories. The magic relating to changing other people works through the mechanics I explained above. FOR FREE ACCESS.

We're all under attack from expectations of our past we've not resolved. That's why NG told us that revision is the only method he'd teach if one had to be chosen. Why would he have said that if there's no basis in this same idea that I'm talking about? Revision is correcting past mistakes, past compromises to fit in. Maybe he did teach what I'm saying and never wrote about it or spoke about it, or mentioned it in any clear way, though I will argue that if he did then why was it not said in plain words for more than like 5 times? If he wanted to have impact over the decades he did this work, why not tell people to do as Christ said and rebel against the family unit? That's thematic, both physical and inner state alchemical rebellion. It's valid on all levels because it's a thematic principle being spoken about.

We've all been fooled and nobody wants to accept that this is the sad state of how things are because it's too painful to see as it is. That's why I seem to be one of the few who can because I FEEL ALL OF THAT PAIN. I allow myself to not bypass it, and see things clearly as they are, and I can prove it. You're rewarded by the world for being shut down and ignoring how you feel, but you'll never be favored by God. You'll never be immortal. It's impossible. The monks who live in the mountains are solipsistic freaks too, who deny how they really feel and branch off into some fairy land to avoid aging faster. That's not being real, that's not transcendence, that's denial of innate nature which is dynamic and ever unfolding. These people never felt through the reality of their innate nature, they overwrite that innate nature with other branching pathways to operate without feeling those currents moving them to change. You can and will manifest a life that way, but you will never be immortal. If that is possible, then lets see it? Good luck. If you create an environment which doesn't surface unresolved trash then you can and will live a seemingly functional life, and maybe even age very slowly, as many who I've spoken to lately would reveal to me in coaching, but those people are deeply disturbed underlying what's conscious. State overlap is necessary to attain that satisfaction, and that will need to surface that trash to expand into your capacity and clean out your psyche.

You see isn't it funny that I can come on camera and tell people that you're living in the expectations of others and get approval but as soon as I say the people who's expectations you're buying into are your unresolved parental conflicts they'll flip out and go after me and attack me. Why? Because it hurts too much to accept the truth. That's why this entire space is full of snowflakes who can't handle any heat else they crash and burn because they're on the borderline all the time going in and out of function and dysfunction. This is the issue. I can talk mechanics, but as soon as it comes time to "get real" as I say, it's over and they shut down, because they feel all that innate current telling them to change but they can't accept it. Why? Because what those currents represent is too much for them to allow them to be moved by, too much would need to change to involve in that life. This is the error. Those people cannot manifest abundance in truly satisfying ways without cutting through the conditioning at the root levels. That's why they build walls around it and deny it, and prevent themselves from getting real because that's what causes them to dip. I KNOW THIS BECAUSE THAT WAS ME TOO FOR YEARS. That's why they tell us to "stay busy" so that we don't have to surface the trash when in environments which autosuggest that we're not who we really are innately and that the implication comes up with the feeling to face that's too much to handle or understand even. That sharp sudden jolt wakes them up into a state of fear and they WILL think about how they don't have the life they want, helplessly. Unless that's walled off and made very unconscious or that they integrate and master it, they'll forever be putting up walls to attempt to deny it and feel stable. Feeling stable isn't the point in terms of why we do this, because if that's how you approach this functionally as a means of getting into that state of seeming higher function, then you'll just be doing it as a denial of innate nature anyway. You'll be establishing function under the guise of manifesting when it was all driven by hiding from how you really feel and minimizing exposure to anything that would remind you of lack, else it would trigger you and you'd crumble into dust all powerless and weak. You only crumble into dust because you've not mastered how you feel, and allowed yourself to see those who hurt you as they are, which is why you're still avoiding those feelings because it's literally meaning you'll have to face the condition. That's why ACTUALY BLAMING YOUR PARENTS SOLVES THE PROBLEM AT THE ROOT. "Oh that's negative I don't want to do that I've already let go". No you haven't. I have spoken to SO many people in coaching who claim this and yet I see the condition still playing out in how they make decisions and they KNOW it's dysfunctional but can't accept it because they believe that blaming others isn't functional or "spiritual".

Until you're willing to "harm" the views of abusive violating parents (which we all had to some degree or another) then you'll never grow up into being yourself for real. That's necessary to happen to reclaim the power you gave away to them, or whoever else it was that conditioned you into living in an expectation. Stop living in the lives of other people and you'll finally make progress. Sharing love for the people who violated you isn't going to change them because you aren't changing. All you're doing is building a wall around how you really feel, and thus denial occurs where you'll adopt their psychological expectations of you and tell me they were very functional people, when they never were because you'd not need to do this whole sharing love thing to feel better in the first place. That conditioning is what you're denying, avoiding, running away from. That's what resistance is, unmet needs that you expressed functional psychological response towards not getting when you NEEDED them to give that to you UNCONDITIONALLY, and you were attacked for telling them that they failed their job. You got attacked for them not giving you unconditional love. That's THEIR ERROR NOT YOURS; When you allow yourself to blame THEM FOR FAILING THEIR ROLE, then you win. You break free from their expectations to shut up else you'll be attacked. You deny their behavioral modifications to keep them happy and shut down how you really felt so they don't need to deal with your needs they couldn't provide. That's the fact, it's their issue, and blaming them is functional since that's how you felt when you were violated, hence you're effectively revising. Praising them and sharing love to them doesn't resolve how you feel, it's denial. Manifesting changes in people and or circumstances this way is because you're altering the structure of your psyche through allowing them to fully control who you are. You've fully disassociated from your innate feelings, and thus they've beaten you down so hard that you submitted yourself to their behavioral modification because facing the truth is so painful.

I ONLY manifested the SP overnight because I did this. NOTHING else worked, including sharing love for these people. I imagined hugging them telling them I'm sorry. Sorry for what? I didn't do anything, I was conditioned by them into feeling this way that they continue to deny me to feel. They're the problem, I'm saying sorry for having my authentic feelings of violation. How is that attaining self empowerment and higher states of function? You're fitting in. It's like these people who say that the Gov is there to help them, which is so far from the reality of things it's insane. They gaslight themselves out of feeling that way to avoid feeling the fury under the surface at clear and obvious violation. This is what always happens, and none of these people will ever come up with or be able to accept RS as the correct model because they aren't ABLE to accept the implications of what this teaching means about them. That's why this is still like this. It's too much to handle in truth. Yeah, how do you think it felt to put all this together?

I want to explore some more about imaginal sensory experience and what that does.

People still for some stupid reason think that imaginal scenes have power when they don't, it's insane to think that because it almost never works the way that it's claimed. What happens when you imagine anything is that you're illuminating the meridian systems that thematically correlate and imply your involvement with that thing. This is why every single positive thing I imagined brought up deep fear, unless I was in a somewhat functional state when doing so. It seems this variable plays a role, where the environment you're in when doing such determines partly how you illuminate the meridians. I will say that this doesn't mean you'll be operating as yourself to the degree that is available to do so otherwise when imagining when in environments that aren't stimulating trauma responses, but more so that it's burying the greater contextual experience that leaves those aspects out and unconscious in that place, hence you'll have "pseudo" satisfaction. Not the pseudo satisfaction that I talk about in other places which are like meaningless distractions in a vacuum but that you're almost half using seemingly positive experiences to act as those distractions where your busy work in life becomes the thing to deny access to those innate pathways and bury those feelings. If that makes sense. So when you imagine and illuminate those pathways you're suggesting based on what's illuminated, and if there's no trash in the way to imply lack then you won't experience that. This clear suggestion is then the "decision" you'll make in that place and effectively you'll be able to drop it and move in through how that state will lead you. Having a clear suggestion and leaving it as just a suggestion is very important to making this work, at least the way that's claimed. So long as stability is present then that's possible, but in most cases that will come either through distracting yourself from how you really feel and building a life around that thing to avoid facing it for real by putting walls up against it and blocking it out, or by mastering it and cutting through it. Putting walls up IS NOT the same thing as cutting through it.

This means that when you imagine you're just "targeting" meridian systems and that will have a "feeling" attached to it, intuitively felt. It will be a knowing based on how you "feel" on a somatic energy meridian level, according to how the currents move in the pathways that thematically relate to what the imaginal thing represents. Now the exact sensory details DO NOT mean that you'd otherwise intend, not always at least. I've had many examples where I've imagined things that DO NOT imply what I experienced, even though it was related, and still what I wanted or better. The sensory detail doesn't matter. I've called the feeling almost like akin to tuning a radio, and it can be adjusted sliiiightly with "felt" movement. You're just moving current by bringing greater context into the mix of what that experience implies. You're adding in or taking out elements that lead pathways into pressure that makes you feel discomfort. This is why I say that most manifesting methods are just building cope around how you innately feel, because bringing those elements in that are innate will most often lead to discomfort. That's when you get the people complaining that RS doesn't work. They're sitting in discomfort feeling innate nature but not cutting through it. They're just looking at the trash and accepting it still instead of being larger than what that implies they need to conform to. This is why you can still manifest even while highly charged and amped up like I did. It happens, so long as the experience implies expansion into accepting more or innate nature. That's the key aspect of success and setting up stability at baseline, so that you won't need to be buying into unresolved trash that's from the past in the now.

So all the people who tell us to imagine what we want, even if we "just feel it" and "just assume it bro", and feel that relaxation, that's not actually changing anything. You're building walls, because if you don't move in ways that build walls around how you feel those unconscious underlying innate currents WILL surface when thematically your pathways are led through autosuggestion like I experiences on the daily and that seemingly relaxed state will vanish in an instant and you will feel ALL the implication of that lack flood your being. The currents will drive your response and you will be helpless to stop it, UNLESS you cut through it by seeing those who established it as the issue and that the condition and related feeling of needing to stay safe in the box as no longer important and necessary to hold onto. That's the ONLY way to FULLY dissolve conditioning for good. Any other times you manifest seemingly positive things it's stemming from denial of innate nature and putting walls up and moving around your environment to not bring up the trash in your unconscious. I've found that even small feelings of lack in positive states can and will manifest opposite or signs of what you target. It really needs to be a pretty solid wall for that to work, but again it's denial and it's what the NG doctrine thrives on. Not mastery of self through integrating all the components of self in owning your innate feelings and nature and being driven by those currents within but instead denial of what's around you that would trigger and bring that out and coddle the conditioning so that it's not going to bring the fire. You're avoiding the fire, ignoring how you feel.

This is why most coaches worth any value would tell you to relax more, because it DOES work in those cases IF you're not in a place where autosuggestion of the unconscious trash can surface. You're "managing stress" better, but that doesn't make the innate currents vanish. You're building walls around it to avoid it, and thus you're conforming to the expectation and living in their lives and that expectation will drive what you desire in this life, even though you think it's yours.

Tell me this then. If you're conditioned and have reasons against what you can and can't experience, then would the newly shifted desire you get that's what you want, does that come from innate nature or is it stemming from the now implied result of what you need to conform to? If you had an innate response that was denied and violated then you won't want to think about that or involve in it because you're under duress. If you're seen having that thing or whatever then you'll be attacked. That's why you need to wall off that stuff and build a reality around it that feels comfortable but still never deeply satisfies. This is why truly to attain your innate nature and own it you MUST go after the importance of those root conditions at their foundation, meaning to rebel against those who established them as important and reclaim your innate currents that will drive you into satisfaction automatically. It was always there but couldn't be accepted under duress, and that's what you're manifesting. That identification. It's not the thing, but what the thing implies about you and all related cascades of pathways thematically overlapping that thing. This is how all "mental health issues" manifest, as a response to this cascade of pathways that brings out of us our innate currents of lack that are unresolved and we just cycle through them on loop.

Make the decision to own your innate nature and see the conditions as they are, what they mean about who you can and can't be, and rebel. Be spontaneous and involve yourself in that life. That will build autosuggestions as a cascade off of innate nature and support you being that person. This is how you get your innate nature and life back as yourself, instead of living in the lives of others and always dancing around the truth of who you are in an attempt to fit in and still get some crumbs on the side. We go all the way and win.

Now we should know why I said that the intuitive sense is the feeling, targeting, and having a cascade of pathways that connect. "Feeling" is the same thing, since it's implication that's felt as this cascade of currents through the pathways illuminating those psychological functions.

Found this idea from some rando channel talking about characters vs I AM. I can make sense of all of this and then some. I find this interesting what they said though. They said that characters are built to expand themselves and add more onto who they already are, not to change their nature at the core. This is correct, not in their cosmology but functionally. You'll find that what's being said here is to accept innate nature spontaneously and involve in living that life in a sort of radical breaking of expectations on the whim. You just decide that you're done with living this way and become unrecognizable. That is a core part of really manifesting change, and functionally we know why. Spontaneous intuitive impulse is this built in mechanism, and those who apply this I AM thing and shift characters as this example talks about is working this mechanism.

They characterized characters as trying to do things to get things instead of changing to already having it. THIS IS THE EXPERIENCE OF DROPPING CONDITIONING AND BEING SPONATNEOUS. Is it not? Who is that "character" trying to prove itself to? family expectations, usually. They might not be conscious of that but they are doing this stuff and it's only to appease a condition. Doing ALL of this I AM stuff and "instant state shifts" are all about just deciding to move forward and involve yourself however that'll imply you to be. They're literally teaching you to do what I said, to be spontaneously yourself and break expectations. That's been a core part of RS since the first day.

Everybody I listen to now I can interpret through RS fully and 90% of the time it's them using spiritual terms to drop conditions. They never tell you the secret though. The secret is spontaneity, going all the way with implied involvement where available, feeling through your innate nature and owning that without compromise. They tell you to basically lead pathways, but leading pathways is what you do all the time anyway. Effectively leading pathways and navigating the inner landscape is a different story. They tell you to hype yourself up to drop importance on the desire. I say that's useless in terms of getting to the core of why you feel lack in comparison. Hyping yourself is temporary, as we ALL know. It's how you involve using that which really matters if you want to make use of that temporary momentum through state streaks and autosuggestion. Dynamism is what they lack, telling you it's all inner work and no action is necessary. Nonsense, almost all your beliefs you established through regular acts that implied involvement in what that means about you. Without that state streak and or a sudden moment of heightened awareness which "shocks" you, like a trauma, a sudden breaking of expectations, then you'll not actually change. Actually changing works through those ways. Regular spontaneous state streaks through implied involvement and or "shocking" yourself into that place where you'd feel how you really do and accept that the condition underlying what's binding your view into seeing the trash as the only way as effective every time. How do you do the latter? You lead pathways, build context, do what NG did with the breathing method except towards accepting innate currents. You do "work yourself up", but not in a denial way, not if you want to decondition that is. Facing pressure and cutting through the trash you've accepted to fit in deconditions the root causes of all your suffering, because that's where it started.

Regularly reminding yourself of being worth more is just adding onto who you already are, and who you are holds trash in your unconscious. It doesn't negate it, not unless that somehow in some way will expose you to illuminating starlight via ripeness, but that's extremely rare. Gazing would take you deeper than any of that stuff. We don't want to add, we want to negate and take away, because what's innate is already there.

Can I just say something. I've gone out with a friend today to a place where I've been before that they wanted me to go to and I've been treated like a KING. Free food and compliments and people praising my style, which is what I always wear. Strange stuff. I had no expectation or imaginal intent. What I did do was feel more fury last night I was holding. I find that big changes often show up after I cut through a bunch of trash in a very powerful way and get so real that I can't deny how I feel. You need to have a direction to drive that current, and the target are the ones who did this TO YOU. Really what you're doing is taking the blame from yourself onto where it belongs, and that opens up the freedom to make the decisions that the unresolved pressure represented in your psyche. I'm also involving myself in things I know I need to more than before, things I went back and found affinities for that conditions overlaid and accepted those aspects. It's really just integrating your core nature and living it without compromise. That's what "shifting states" is, though getting from A-Z takes feeling that pressure and cutting through it. Anyone who tries to overlay and deny it will only get so far. I see it all the time, they get SOME of the way but never all the way, and never satisfied. They always want more, and this often includes high achievers in the world with lots of cash and hot chicks and big follower counts and such. They're doing it to please a condition, and they just negate all the trash around it that binds them but they're still doing it not for what they really want, but to make someone else happy. I know someone I've personally spoken to back about 3 years now who lived that life, he became a center stage antagonist in some martial arts movies from the early-mid 2000's and yet he wasn't happy despite "making it" in Hollywood. Most people attain things not for themselves, and that's something even I've had to face with RS. This was coming from a need to be seen, be correct, be perfect, else I'm not valued. Those conditions screwed me over because it FEELS like you WANT it, but that "need" feeling is the issue. That sharp needing of "I need to be this/do this" to get what I want. That's the trap, because it's stemming from pain you're not willing to face, and when you look at that pain, no matter how deep, you'll see that the drive to be this way comes from projections of others for you to conform to in order to attain approval. When you see them as the cause of your suffering and you drop all the implied experiences that represent this fully you will win, you will get your life back. You will live the way YOU want, and often that's in a TOTALLY different direction, but not always. It can be a slight shift, but it's enough of a shift that you'll WANT to make because you've cut through it all the way by feeling all that trash you had projected onto you and throwing it back at them and moving on. You reclaim your innate nature and "recollect" yourself.

We are so dynamic. Actions lead to assumption through state streaks of implied involvement. Anyone who says that "action is automatic" and all that obviously hasn't lived the life I have in the past where action was the hardest thing possible because of what it would mean and imply needs to change about my relationship to the people who held expectations of me to be a certain way. Saying "screw you I hate you too" and owning that works, because you fully detach from the importance of that condition. Be willing to hurt them, because that's how they conditioned you to stay in the box and break your true feelings down so that you remain a good person in the box being how they want you to, only so they can feel satisfied and happy that you're not threatening or challenging their power over you. Threaten them and be merciless. Don't lie to yourself. Be merciless and threaten them and challenge their power over you and show them who you are. When I imagined myself with the girl I wanted in front of them and looked into their eyes while I held her with me I empowered myself and grew up into the man I wanted to be but wasn't able to accept. I proved that they hold no power and I imagined that scene while I felt all the fury. That scene was a thematic representation of me breaking the box of expectation because I was so done with conforming. I hated them I hated them so much for doing this to me but I was denying it to stay in the safe zone and avoid conflicts on that level. I was willing to face that unresolved conflict and come out on top.

Screw everybody in this space who tells you to think positive and relax. I went to sleep with RAGE AND FURY and I manifested what I wanted, because of what it implied. That one quote from NG tells us it all. "The technique has no power whatsoever. It's what's implied". That backs up everything I've built up with RS since the start, the house of cards and pathway model of reality. It's implied pathways of thematic cascade which manifest. I remember various members of my family who would tell me that my hatred for certain people in my life that I was stuck with wasn't nice. "that's not nice". They freaking gaslight me out of my feelings and tell me it's bad to actually have a functional psyche, and that screwed me up the most. All that trash needed to go onto who deserved it. They needed to feel my fury. THAT IS SPIRITUAL. The more pure raw spiritual experience possible. Real innate transformation of accepting innate nature without compromise and being yourself for real despite the circumstances and what may or may not come from it. You need to have all of your thoughts and all of your feelings to really be yourself, not to project a fantasy reality. Every coach in this space who preaches LOA is full of useless trash and need to be schooled so hard the earth itself trembles at the thought of such an intense exchange. So much current coming through it's insane. That passion for expansion, that drive to be yourself, that visceral inner nature dying to be let free like lions on chains finally let loose to hunt their prey without mercy. That's the kind of attitude that got me here, not "positive thinking", None of this was built on imaginal methods. NONE. It was ALL hard work. 10-12 hours a day every day non stop for years without stopping. You've seen it here with the notebook and the logs I do here to recount the work I do behind the scenes and the things I learn. This is where you can see and feel the drive I have for this truth. You can't fake that. These coaches however, they fake it all and put on fake stories to sell to people. I talk about failures here, not just the successes. We learn from the failure. We learn from the struggles. We learn from the trash we cut through. That's how we understand and expand for real. Getting real matters. Those who want to pass off their power to some method instead of cutting through the pressure like they innately WANT TO but can't bring themselves to accept, those are the types who actually suffer the most.

When I had the most suffering it was when I failed to act the way I knew I needed to and passed off my power to a method and "surrendered" to it. Then I'd get triggered by my environment soon after like clockwork and get stuck. It's a scam. LOA is a damn scam and I've systematically destroyed and dismantled every part of it. I both proved manifestation as a real phenomena and also refuted LOA as a heap of hot garbage at the tip. Useless trash. Throw it out and move on. RS is here to be that rock to stand on that will never fail you. Nothing else comes close and we all know that.

I'm still blown away at what happened before. I've not experienced that for real in a while. I mean I have had attitude before at a friends place and denied them saying no to me and got what I wanted anyway so. The thing is I didn't feel "positive", I was thinking about other stuff totally unrelated. That's why it hit me in the face, like I was genuinely shocked. Zero expectation. Sinking charge at baseline and feeling the fury in powerful ways at the end is what seems to work for me. I KNOW that feeling worked up when I gaze and feel my trash through before bed works. I've manifested lots of stuff this way. It's NOT what we're taught, and I didn't expect it to work but it did. I often wake up in the night with magical insights I need to write down often too. It just happens when I sleep in that state of higher self respect. The more you own your innate nature in whatever way represents that, the more you win. This is the real work. I offer immortality coaching for a reason, because this works.

NG tells us that doubt is the devil. What a load of trash. Yeah that's true on ONE level, but there's way more there. It's the conditioning we buy into on a psychological level, that's the violating projections from others. The devil is the conditioning field which has infected others with its vile filth and they've propagated it onto you, and thus you now carry this virus of self abandonment to keep the devil happy. Then there's the alchemical perspective where Satan is viewed as a literal functional intelligence that has a role to play to keep you "in the box" and manifests in all kinds of ways to basically keep you beat down and within your threshold of expansion that's comfortable for you. That's effectively what the alchemist said, which I believe I quoted earlier. He said that Satan is "the guardian" in his terms. The guardian of certain levels that you're not expanded enough to pass yet, and he says that until you're "spiritually and psychologically mature enough" that you'll not pass the guardian. So it's not "doubt", as in unbelief that you can have something or be someone, but that it's a personified representation of the barriers binding you to thresholds of expansion that you're not ready or ripe to grow into yet.

I find some very interesting ideas on LOA critics forums. Apparently they claim Abdullah was made up and never existed. Sounds plausible to me. I've done study on Abdullah many times in the past, they claim that because his name is Arabic that he couldn't have been Jewish, and yet we know that Rabbis change their names often times so I don't discount that. Jewish Rabbis almost always have an alias, if you're in the know. They play multiple roles and often have multiple citizenships in various countries. Considering the brash attitude that NG describes him with it wouldn't surprise me he was real since someone who has an attitude of someone who values themselves would likely come off as such in those groups, but considering that the NG bible doctrine is extremely limited in scope and he claimed that he studied the depths of this and yet provided minimal exploration of the details, I've always been critical and to a degree skeptical that he ever actually understood it and didn't just make it up as he went. He studied Kabbalistic traditions no doubt but so what. His model is VERY alchemically limited in scope, and the analysis I've done of his metaphysics shows competency but it's such little to work with that I'm still willing to call it all made up, because in truth it's not complete and hardly works. People only buy into it because they don't know differently, unlike myself who's studied deeper on alchemy probably anyone else in this space. Never forget, NG told us that we can drink and smoke and eat whatever we want and not suffer, that it's just "quibbles" and yet NG himself died of alcoholism and was coping with how bad his life was. His life sucked, and I still believe that most of his successes were cherry picked to sell books. Critical thinking is necessary if you don't want to live out traumas from the past that tell you that conditions need to be met. Those who fall for this stuff are heavily traumatized and are looking for a father figure to play the role they never had. The coaches become the parents they never had. They form connections and bonds with people who keep gaslighting them, because that's what they expect to happen from their past. People in this space are so screwed up.

I'll be real. NG was very likely heavily traumatized himself and never got real with himself. He use to be so against drinking and such and then he ended up in the exact opposite place. He let himself go so bad. Health issues plagued his later years, he was in pain so much and suffered for it. That was his cope, the whole LOA doctrine that an entire industry is built off was a big cope for his life sucking and not providing much of any real value. What did he provide? Nothing. Nothing but a half baked metaphysical model of scripture, and people will defend it and attack me for speaking the facts, even though they can't do any technical breakdown of anything I've said here and demonstrate how RS doesn't work. It's just "you're bad" kind of stuff, because I bring out of them their traumatized past feelings that they can't accept and move on in life away from being stuck in LOA reliving the conditions. The same trash over and over. People believe this and yet can't prove it in any reliable way, and the variable that is attributed towards success is always relating to all the trash that's changing day after day depending on who's talking. There's so much contradicting data and nobody agrees on an interpretation because it's all wrong from the roots. This LOA space is falling apart so fast which I predicted a while back and it's only getting worse. People trust way less now and they know it doesn't work when they finally snap and realize that this whole thing is a joke.

Once again, I do NOT deny the phenomena and the functional variables, it's VERY real, but the way it's taught is utter trash. Suggestion is all that's necessary, suggestion from a clear unconscious that opens innate current to unfold through you.

7/11/25

Big insights. Again. Also the date. Fun times.

This is something that I've recognized after going over more of my other notebooks I have privately. I find that people who live in the expectations of others and go all the way can and will manifest those things, but once again they're doing it out of unconsciousness. They're living to please another person, and they successfully do that perhaps, but it's not what they want. This is what I've found from going through all my client testimony and what they present with and their attitudes. When I do a psychological analysis of these people, many of them to some degree or another who have built high levels of status, fortunes in the world, have hot dates showing up every day with the attention they want ON DEMAND, they live upper class and have private jets some of these people, they've got the life of luxury but they tell me that this one thing about certain relationship situations doesn't work out. That's the most common thing I find, people STILL don't feel loved. They get ALLLL these things and manipulate all these people and live with a degree of psychopathy to influence these people knowingly and imagining them saying certain things and it manifests in a matter of minutes or less (as they claim to me) and they get what they want, but these people in their romantic life STILL LACK something. They're still not able to feel true connection. You'd not believe how many people tell me this, because I get all kinds of very wealthy business people showing up here, since they know I'm the best, but they can't accept what I tell them.

This is the problem. The lives these people have built and manifested all these "great" things was almost ALL to please an expectation impressed onto them from unresolved conflicts in the past. Literally they live the lives their family figures want them to live to attempt to get love and approval. This is why they have ALL these big things working for them and yet still after decades of grinding don't feel like they can get what they want, satisfaction. THEY HAVE EVERYTHING AND CAN'T FEEL SATISFIED. That's what I mean, manifesting isn't something that requires a fully stable psyche, it just requires you to involve in that thing and to grow into what the target you're manifesting necessitates for you. That's what I mean, these people lived the lives of OTHER PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS AND MANIFESTED BIG THINGS, and yet they still couldn't feel satisfied and wanted me to originally tell them that they can just flip one thing to get the SP to conform the way they want and feel stable but that's not the point. The entire autosuggested environment around them is bringing out the lack of love they got, and they built all this as walls around that to try and gain approval and appease the condition. They branched off and buried out how they REALLY feel (which is often profound sadness and or rage and fury) in order to be seen in ways that were safe and comfortable FOR THEM. This whole "make it in the world" was their way of being SEEN by their conditioning. This is the problem, they NEVER NEEDED TO BE SEEN THIS WAY, and to the degree that they went all the way they did in fact manifest that while holding onto deep unconscious trash that's binding them into acting out patterns to conform to that expectation.

This was me with RS for a long time, and to a degree still is if I'm honest, but the clear lesson here is that most often the things we think we want really aren't authentic to us. We will gain approval and be seen and be loved the way we never were if we do these things but that's all in an attempt to satisfy the condition and resolve the conflict in a safe way. That's never how you satisfy it, that's just trying to reason with the abusive trash from the past who hurt you, instead of accepting that you hate them and never wanted to live this way but since they've built their whole lives out like this it's so extremely painful to accept that they never wanted this to begin with, This is how deep unconscious conditioning can show up too, and I really do find this to be the case with a lot of people that come through. They can't get love from the SP because that's the ONE THING that they can't get because they can't "manipulate" it by building it out with actions in the world to satisfy (release pressure) that they're unconsciously feeling from their innate self telling them to wake up. The SP stuff is always the telling sign of someone's conditioning I find, especially if they're very "successful". You can be a heap of trash and manipulate people in business and make bank but you can't hide that when it comes to manifesting functional relationships because other people have feelings too. Conditioning isn't just fear of being involved, it can also manifest as excessive and unnecessary involvement to cope as well. Cope shows up in ANY way that's to stimulate and release the innate feelings underlying how they're compromising to meet expectations of others to attempt to be loved.

This is the facts. A LOT of big achievers in this world have no business being there, and never actually wanted to be that way, but they only did it to gain approval they never got, and since the condition is that to gain approval they need to be the way they were as that's what satisfied the pressure to feel their innate feelings and meet up to expectations, then they've built a life in the expectations of others on the conditional nature of receiving love. That's how childhood neglect and absolutely destroy you, and most often you won't be able to accept that until decades have passed and you've attained all these things and still feel extremely unsatisfied and not know why. It's because you never needed to do any of that, or at least not to that degree. Can those people manifest satisfaction? Yeah, but it will involve feeling all that trash they've been trying to "achieve" over the top of to numb out the feeling of how they really were and how they must reject those who conditioned them as important. Now if someone cuts through the conditions fully then it will bring insights that they don't now WANT to be this way, and you know what that means. All the achievements which were basically the distractions to get love and be seen, that's all now gross to them since that's totally devoid of how their innate nature felt the whole time. The SP's they wanted no longer seem of interest since what they want now changed at the root. Do you see? You change how you see things in radical ways by doing this work. That's what I've experienced and was the insight that actually led me to building out pathway work many years ago and now advanced pathway work builds on that further.

This is the reality of things. I have experienced certain things in the SP's I liked for almost my whole life going away, no longer needing that thing, and thus I started seeing others as who I wanted instead. It wasn't an accident. The more you disown who you think you are to meet up to expectations, no matter how that feeling presents to you, then the more you'll live the life you actually want. The life you think you think you want isn't always that way, and that's why I find so many of these people who show up in my coaching who are high achievers are psychopathic to some degree based on some of the things they tell me. It's not a sign of a healthy psyche, they're troubled deep down and can't see it. They expect me to feed into that projection they adopted but that's not what I do. They don't like to hear that but it's the fact. They'll coach hop and buy into all that trash out there and eventually, I hope, realize that they're just trying to meet expectations to meet the pathogenic needs of their parents conditions they couldn't let go of. Nobody in this space talks about that. Not once person, as far as I know. NG certainly didn't, he was so illiterate on this stuff and it was always "whatever you desire" that you manifest, and yet that's not always functional to your satisfaction in itself. I know this and can prove it on all levels to be true. It's just too painful to accept for the ones who deny it, because it rings their innate feelings that have been buried to fit in with expectations that they feel they need to meet in order to receive the attention they lacked. It manifests in so many ways. Unconscious conditioning is so much more than just far to involve, it's overstimulation in any possible psychological way that's tied to a dysfunctional pattern, but that might not be obvious to the average person at first glance, but the more I experience these patterns myself and I compare the psyche of who I'm talking to to a functional one who wouldn't want to manipulate people to gain satisfaction, then it's clear that these people are very unwell inside and need to crack open their shells and peek into the dark abyss.

They won't do that though, because it means too much needs to change. I don't blame them though, they lived in the lives of their parents expectations. I get them to feel all that fury of having spent so much time meeting these unnecessary expectations and becoming multi millionaires and all this stuff JUST to meet up to needs. They tell me they let go of that in the past, but I know they didn't because of their SP situation. It's not a lack of belief that they can have someone they want, that's utter trash it's what they're looking for and not getting it. Always is, most of the time at least. The solution is to see that they never needed to be this way and see what they think they needed to appease by recollecting themselves in the moments from their past they branched off. My job is to lead their pathways and provide the insight, and yet in an hour-2 I can't undo layers and layers of coping habits that only buried how they feel in reality. They tell me all these horrible things that happened to them and they say they didn't feel bad about it. That's the psychopathy, they literally cannot feel the trash because it's buried so deep. I know I had sadness buried under layers and layers of rage and fury and it took YEARS to surface. I know that it isn't a simple leading of pathways in a surface level sense to bring it out. I often need to ask them what triggers them into fury the most to get clues to unlock the sadness but the call is often over by then. They don't like digging in feelings that are very uncomfortable. They tell me gazing brings up some stuff but they don't know what it always means, as I would expect considering the depth of this stuff. That's why I ask to revisit but they can't do it.

You'd be surprised how many don't WANT to do this work. That's why LOA is so appeasing because it's the OPPOSITE of this. That's the most stimulating cope process possible. They tell me they imagine the scenes of getting what they want all the time and they can't get any signs of it showing up for them it's always just lack lack lack. That's exactly because they're looking to meet an unmeetable condition, because it's not theirs to meet, it's someone else's trash they've bought into and lived out thinking it's what they want. They only want it to basically fit in and defend themselves against feeling the trash of the unresolved conflicts. They're still afraid of hurting the feelings of their parental figures, that's in reality how this is. They're still feeling like if they feel how they do then they'll die, because that's what the child would've felt. They need to own their power and feel all their innate stuff that's buried in order to fully cut through the condition and resolve the conflict. The only way to really do that is to get real with yourself, and the more they live in the LOA space the less pressure they'll feel. They would need to fast from the world to really build the pressure up to get to those feelings. If you're living with addictive pseudo satisfaction tendencies, which business itself may involve, then you'll need to drop that possibly on some levels, because it's meeting the uneatable condition and satisfying the pressure to be real. Their business became the addiction to cope with their feelings, and LOA is an extension of that to validate the addiction.

This is real psychological analysis you don't hear in this space because they deny any of these mechanics exist and that all desires are divine desires. Yeah, core desires are, that stem from the innate nature, but that's what I'm saying. The pressure they feel underlying the stuff they're living out is truly there to get them to feel a certain thing that they'll numb themselves to by feeling the achievements since that's what they consider a safe way to meet up to expectations. That's the issue. They may receive approval from everyone in this world, except their innate self. The money they gained is great and they live luxurious lives but they can't feel satisfied. They cannot stop living this way because that's all the walls they've built around how they really feel in denying that innate nature. If for one second they accepted the innate nature they'd not WANT to involve themselves in those things to the SAME DEGREE, at least. I can't say how they'd feel they want to or not want to involve in living that life in detail because I'm not in their psyche to know but I can say for sure that they'd not want to keep chasing the same SP's and trying to make massive bank on top of the bank they've already made just for making more money sake. They'd finally be able to RELAX. They'd conserve Jing, and recollect themselves for real, and not mask attaining things on top of their innate nature which might want to live a different life.

With me, I've always been a top tier achiever in whatever I put myself to because I just have a big brain. Can't help it. It's who I am what I do, but in that baseline I'd attach a need to be seen to achieving being the best at something and getting all the eyes as a result, totally unconsciously. I've been mostly aware of this for a while now but in the early days it wasn't like that. I never did it to be seen by large numbers but to get the approval of "you're the best" because if I wasn't then I'd not be seen. That's why I felt resentment every time I'd not get my hard work recognized. It was actually my resentment towards my parents and hating them but I never took the hint because we shut that out and go attain more to meet the need which cannot be met. The problem is that we don't allow ourselves to recognize the "negative" feelings as valid. It's sometimes tough to know the difference between just self sabotage trash and actual unconscious conditioning surfacing for a moment. Usually it's when you "fail" to meet that expectation that you feel it the most, because that's feeling like rejection from those figures you're still in unresolved conflicts with. So for me it took too many cycles to begin to see that, just as I realized that every massive anxiety panic attack I'd get was to meet their needs of me and their expectations too. It's this enormous amount of pressure I felt steaming up and blowing off the lid on the pot. That's how deeply rooted my conditioning was, how traumatized I was from that. I just couldn't handle it. It's so tough to face the facts, because that's the challenge of life and immortality but it's necessary if you don't want to die. We need to take an honest look at ourselves and drop all the trash about how you can just imagine and cope with the pressure and discharge that pressure to avoid feeling your innate nature surfacing. LOA is cope trash that needs to die in fire and have the ashes scattered in the wind.

That's my systematic takedown of LOA and the mind magic paradigm. Never made a cent off this work, yet I did it anyway, mostly to be correct, and show everyone that LOA is a big joke that's based on utter nonsense that we all know is fake but can't accept because LOA is the cope for how we really feel. It's the compromise pattern making them want to believe it, not reason from how they actually feel.

I believe that a lot of people who end up in these so called spiritual spaces are very unwell internally themselves and are seeking satisfaction to ease the pressure. The entire so called spiritual space is just dumbed down alchemy anyway. The stuff I teach with the immortality work, real inner alchemy and theurgy, that's where this is at, which involves being broken into fragments and purified under fire and put back together again in a new form that's more complete than before, to house more of you God within you. That's real spiritual work. It's ruthless trial by fire, not blanking out bad feelings. It's entirely self integration and not about attaining any states of seeming bliss all the time, because the more stimulated you are to avoid pressure the more delusional you are and denying your innate nature and going backwards from doing the real work. This is what LOA is. It's a huge scam to avoid doing the real work and keep people stuck in the box thinking they can bypass their innate transformation with magical imaginal thinking and feeling stable more. The so called state of the wish fulfilled, which is a stability THAT COMES OUT OF expansion, purification by fire, or just more cope, like these clients do that I talked about before. The harder you go into the so called spiritual stuff and deny innate pressure to transform, as the Jing unfolds through you, then you'll never actually expand in any meaningful way and you'd have literally wasted your life doing nothing of actual value. Your higher genius doesn't care about this stuff unless it needs you to involve in that, and you can know that based on how you feel. Getting real is how you communicate with God. Suggestions and getting real. That's it, and then God communicates with you through intuitive impulse and such, which as I've said is NOT the same as an impulse to act on conditioning which feels sharper. It's a subtle stimulation, as I've been saying since the beginning. That voice of inner truth gets louder the more gazing you do.

People who say that gazing will magically solve their live issues aren't listening to what I said. I said gazing will allow you to see through things for what they are, and often that's not what you WANT to see, but NEED to see. Advanced gazing pretty much forces this to happen, which is why it's way more powerful. It works with the meridians directly and you see the manifestation of whatever pressure is showing up in front of you. You WILL see the unconscious trash to some degree or another and it will likely frighten you at times, but that's necessary to dissolve the trash you've been holding. It's that willing participation that then manifests the spontaneous moments of heightened awareness with the quickening that advanced gazing facilitates. That moment of heightened awareness is your currents being forced to be felt, the innate nature to raise up and be experiences for what it is, the dragon within. You're exposing yourself directly to yourself and that overlap between lower and higher states IS doing the alchemy of breaking down purifying and putting back together. That is literally accelerated lab alchemy, done internally. Three's only one pattern, and we unfold that pattern completely to attain the one thing, as Hermes says. Not one person in LOA has decoded the emerald tablet correctly like I have, because decoding it correctly means they'd have to accept being wrong about everything.

I might as well say that "whatever you involve yourself in you WILL manifest".

Who knows what else there is to add on here. I've spent 6 hours on call today and I'm just out of new stuff. Spontaneous pattern break? It seems that when I got into R&D mode I don't leave it until I'm done. One track mind.

8/11/25

Well turns out I have another point to add here. Listening to these utter trash heaps in this space has made me feel like I really am the only person on earth who knows how this actually works. NOBODY else in LOA grasps this. NOT A SINGLE PERSON I SWEAR, and that's including the ones who are seemingly praised like Tom from be something wonderful, who totally fails to grasp anything of actual use and always tried to lead your pathways into relaxation instead of dissolving root pressure. If you keep heaping comfort onto discomfort you're just going to branch off into more denial and never really satisfy the underlying current that's agitating you to begin with. Mary Kate is another, from law of attraction, but she's also full o trash. Her highest rated videos literally talk about "repeat the new belief", but without exploring that the whole point of that is to INVOLVE IN THE THING DESIRED MORE THAN YOU DID BEFORE TO EXPAND COMFORT THROUGH DISSOLVING AND MEDIATING ROOT PRESSURE. You're acting to represent "I AM", because it thematically implies that the pathways that trace through to the root pressure are going to be dissolved through expanding past that expectation. ANY time that you expand into negating the importance of conditions and expectations that stem from familial conditioning then you'll be experiencing the end more than before. Why? Because The implied involvement itself reveals who you are being for real, that you're feeling through the trash that WILL surface as an implied effect of making those decisions, since it's going to bring that up as the action is taken as a sort of "rebellion" against the box you're stuck in. That discomfort you feel temporarily is the contrast barrier and of course going all the way with cutting through that however you do will be what changes your beliefs, because your beliefs really are the currents that come through you at baseline based on root pressures, either conditioned or from innate seeds. That's really what's going on. Anyone telling you to do affirmations or whatever to get it working isn't taking you all the way, unless the imaginal scene can be very very specifically targeted to represent what's necessary to experience the breaking of the condition then you're wasting your time really. You'd be 100X better off radically changing your life in meaningful ways and going all the way with it. Being spontaneous and involving yourself all the way in all the ways that those who conditioned you to avoid involving yourself with is the solution. Taking that principle is the most effective and efficient and fast way to change who you are at your core. Just doing what you want for real. It's that simple.

By NG telling you to not lift a finger to make it happen he's already conditioned it, but I give him the benefit of the doubt in saying his interpreted meaning that's correct would be that you're not lifting a finger, the current is, because that's where "free will" comes from, or doesn't in these cases. You WILL think what that current drives you to think, those feelings have implication and you will think what those represent.

I really just want to say that belief in itself is basically established pathways that have a current which regularly activates those circuits manifesting that psychological phenomena whenever those themes come into your suggested environment, or that you consciously engage with them. That's all beliefs are really. Beliefs and charge in different regions of your field geometry are the same thing really, because those will manifest the signs of that belief by default, be it functional or not. I just can't stand hearing coaches in this space talk about mentalism it's insane. You really can't use the conscious mind against the unconscious mind unless it's in spontaneous bursts of implied involvement, be it inner or outer level, though outer level is significantly easier to establish state streaks through and that you'll generate ability to overlap other peoples realities more. That's really all that's going to work, to mediate current by involving with it. Involvement in an implied manner is HOW all manifesting is done, or at least manifestations that come as a result of actually willingly changing who you're being, Involvement that you already have that's comfortable is a solid foundation to build from, for example someone with a business making 6 figures getting to 7 figured will have a way easier time than someone who's broke getting there. There's more established involvement that's necessary. This is why you rarely if ever hear about broke people suddenly being dropped 7 figures out of thin air because they looped affirmations in the mind for 10 hours a day. There's literally like no evidence on any level that this works, because that's not expanding into a deeper overlap of conscious and unconscious mind to mediate pressure and thus alter the currents that drive how those thoughts manifest at baseline that represent you being this person. If that does happen it'll be through repeated involvement. The alchemist said that's actually what faith is based on, repeated involvement and an expectation that's generated out of that, which you have "faith" in. Thing is that it has to be meaningful and actually imply change, and by going all the way then you'll be cutting through the deepest levels of this.

These people tell you to use NLP, or something. Yeah, that's leading pathways, but unless pressure is felt then you're not digging the roots of what generate the trash you're thinking all the time that's stemming from the unresolved conflict representing the pressure you feel. That's the implied experience that roots the pressure in your unconscious manifesting as the feeling of discomfort, even if that isn't consciously thought about but is "implied" by what you're involving yourself with, or thinking of involving yourself with. It's that your unconscious is thinking for you of that implied represented experience from your past that roots you into conforming to the expectation, thus driving your "free will" response, or again in this case a sort of lack of free will.

Unless the pressure from the unresolved trash is moved then you'll always return to that because it's the very core of what's manifesting those thoughts in your mind and the uncomfortable sensations in your body. They exist for a reason, they're not just something you made up to scare you away from things. How did they get there? Parental expectations and unmet needs that you were denied, as well as feelings you weren't safe to have meaning you compromised on an innate response and that aspect of your psyche became dysfunctional because you've now conditioned when that part of you can be safely experienced. Obviously. You didn't just make that up they came from a real source, and trying to override them will only cause more pressure to build up since you're actually giving them power by denying the pressure you really feel underlying whatever you're trying to experience that's implying discomfort from that root. Resolve the unresolved conflict and you get places, meaning experience a radical change and be unrecognizable to that condition. BE the contrast to it, involve yourself in living as though that conflict wasn't ever relevant.

I also want to write about how just being spontaneous and making necessary decisions in itself and just GOING ALL THE WAY INTO THE LIFE YOU WANT FOR REAL IISSSSS revision. That IS revision, because it's all currents and pathways that thematically activate when those are suggested. I found a video from Mae Alice Suzuki on "embodying is the only life cheat code to get whatever you want" and she said "manifestation without action is wishful thinking". Spot on. Because there's no involvement. I literally said this whole time that involvement is the core part of what makes it all work. Involvement is what her video is about. She knows how this works but can't explain the technical aspects of how or why. Her channel has skyrocketed in size and I actually respect that. That's someone I can get behind. She's actually got decent practical tips if you can decode what she's talking about. I've checked the stats on her videos and the section where she talks about actions and needing to put in effort are the most rewatched. That's the thing that trips people up, they can't handle pressure. The like ratios are very low on videos that involve more talk about involvement and action as "conditions" as interpreted by the audience. That's the issue, people have been told that they don't have to involve in any way other than what's in their minds and yet that's just not true. The results that come out of people who just to mental stuff is barely anything at all, they're full of trash. Nothing that Mae talks about is rooted in mentalism. Mentalism is a cult trap that needs to be eradicated because it's going to destroy your life like it did mine. "Don't lift a finger to make it happen". Yeah right. If we interpret that at face value then NG is full of absolute trash and he will keep you stuck in the box.

Here's my bombshell I'm about to drop. Hotter than the sun itself. "Involvement is the measure of your faith".

BOOM. Right there gives the cold hard truth. If you're NOT involving yourself to the degree you KNOW you CAN and you're compromising then you've giving into expectations. To break expectations you involve yourself in what those expectations say you can't. BOOM. There. Done. I summarized NG and everything else in LOA in 7 words. If you understood what I said above about faith and what involvement is and how implication works through pathways and currents that drive thinking and feeling then you'll see how it all connects. After YEARS of writing this stuff out over and over I'd say that's the most simple summary I can give of RS. IFFFF, if we take NG at his word, saying that "your faith is your fortune", then we've got the key that he failed to explain correctly. Involvement. I mean imaginal acts are an involved act are they not? That's the implication. Implication stems from involvement, contextual sense, therefore pathways and currents move through involvement that you've playing out in state streak. Breaking the expectations is "outwitting the devil" as Napoleon the trash bag says. Genius,

The only reason you're not involving yourself in the life you know you can is because you're still giving authority to unresolved conflicts. RS has connected the dots. THIS IS GENIUS. Literally it's all here. I could sell this for TENS OF THOUSANDS PER PROGRAM BECAUSE IT WORKS EVERY TIME NO MATTER WHAT. This beats what NG said by miles, obviously, and anyone who's read all this should know that by now. You need to change SOMETHING other than what's in your head to have a radical shift in realty.

Implied involvement only needs to be involved with to the degree that supports you being the person you desire to be. So long as you go all the way to the degree that's actually satisfying and stabilizes the current to expand then you've done it. What more CAN you do? That's what I can say, it's not about infinite "expanding" but that expansion is to fulfil the current in how it moves through you by involving in that experience all the way. When the current is satisfied then obviously the agitation of not having and being will be gone and you'll be stable, or at least much more stable. I don't know anyone who's fully stable, and that's still not the goal since full unconscious clarity is effectively impossible unless immortality is attained anyway so. You just go all the way to the degree that's available and satisfy the currents, because that's WHAT going all the way DOES.

Just counted. We're up to 3711 pages now on the notebook. Most of that has been in the last 12 months or less really. Seedline bible study took up a lot because of all the copy/paste verses but the rest has been hand written. It's insane to think I've actually gotten so much work done in that time it's crazy. Never thought I'd get here to be honest. It's been a LOT of HARD work, but work that seemed to have come through me for the most part. Been writing out private notes and programs on the back end and building up that glossary and attempting to put together the NG lecture list for reference here on RS in future. My attempt to do up a systematic NG bible interpretation has failed since NGbooks.com got taken down.

I just want to leave this here. I've put together a pretty good list of irrefutably holes in the LOA mentalism model. Another to add to the list is those with body dysmorphia. I know someone who was like this actually, they were hot stuff and saw themselves as trash internally to the point they'd often have extreme anxiety when looking at themselves in a mirror or pictures of themselves. They literally avoided seeing themselves like the plague and yet they got attention from so many without trying. I've experienced this too, not that I was hot stuff externally, though that's debatable, but I never saw myself as hot stuff or told myself such but I still had the girls I wanted throwing themselves at me. Never had to try, I was honestly put off at some of them making advanced way too fast telling me they're in a relationship with me already and some asking for "too much information" about certain parts of my body and such. I even had guy guys chasing me, which was absolutely disgusting and I had ZERO intention for it or expectation or any belief which would imply that, yet it happened. It happens all the time, even to this day. I have security telling me that I'm underage and wanted my ID at 18+ venues I've been at. It's just all these things that would seem like the OPPOSITE of what LOA tells us. Involvement, and outer level "resonance" to the thematic demand of what others are looking for which in this case is appearance, it's something that having regardless of inner mental state will always work for you anyway. IT JUST DOES AND WE ALL KNOW THAT. This once again refutes LOA. The most obvious one is children being born with genetic disease, like I was. Jaundice at birth with a blood condition that's killed most of the people in my family younger than they should've been. It's like did I manifest this? Was I responsible with my thoughts? Another one that refutes this is lab alchemy, though they'd argue for that but I say it is. Lab alchemy and advanced gazing with how you have low level theurgy experiences as a result are more proofs of LOA being dead as a mentalism ideology. History is another one, cycles through time. That's not random. Also stalkers really shouldn't exist according to LOA either, because if someone obsesses over someone like that and actually believes they're in a relationship with someone in a delusional way like they say then that stalker should be with them happily married like their degenerate fantasy would suggest right? Well that's not the case. There's more and more of these irrefutable proofs of LOA not working. Rich and famous people who have a terrible mental state and yet still manifest all these "big" things and have tons of people talking about how they're like idols and stuff, yet in that celebrities head there's a horrific battleground going on. How do you validate LOA with these things in the mix? Can't. Doesn't work.

Stop trying to think to make stuff happen and treat LOA as just activating innate currents to drive you through intuitive impulse into state streak that's implied involvement representing you being that person mediating pressure and revising conditioning to some degree just by partaking in that action. Cutting through conditioning and feeling all that trash that's unconscious manifests too. I slept in fury and yet I manifested magic. It DOES exist as a phenomena, but the way it works is more often than not through involvement, mostly on outer level, and a degree of inner. The celebrities who manifest big stuff easy only get there because they're pleasing expectations and they don't have contrast barriers and see their dysfunctions as good things. I'm still going to argue that many of them are living out expectations and see themselves that way and act accordingly to please that expectation, like I did with acing everything I touched to please my expectations so I'd not get hurt by it. I have SOME clients on that level, but they're not common. I don't have enough data to put a number on it but I'd say at least 15% probably live in that place, though it's likely much higher around ~25% to some degree where people will involve but still have conditions in the way of meeting the false expectation. If there's no contrast surrounding meeting that expectation and living to please it then you CAN manifest seeming success but inside you'll not be satisfied. This in itself, as something I've recently built out to a very convincing manner with those mechanics, is another proof against LOA. People who live internally in turmoil pleasing expectations but never feeling satisfied. They manifest the big stuff but it comes out of a drive from currents that aren't really theirs. They waste their lives. I'm not saying ALL celebrities are that way but I still say many are, obviously. There's obviously unconscious trash they're holding and that plays out through relationship issues, unresolved conflicts with parents unfolding through their attractions to people to resolve. It's so obvious really. We all have levels of that, including some of my own I've recognized. I know that my relationship will not last forever, it WILL end, and that's because I need to cut through the unresolved past conflicts that drive mutual attraction where both sides meet each others unmet needs. That's how ALL relationships are, and the relationships you DON'T WANT are the ones that are the most "healthy" when it comes to psychological function and deep deep satisfaction. The "sparks" only exist because it's an opportunity to meet unmet needs and resolve unresolved unconscious conflicts from the past. That's how it ALWAYS IS WITHOUT EXCEPTION. Most people can't accept that but it's the facts. I've made peace with that, and then when the LOA snarks eventually find out I'm not with my old SP they'll claim I'm a failure at manifesting and share stupid trash about me because it boosts their fragile egos to get a hit off things they can't even comprehend. You CAN'T change people to be EXACTLY the way you want, because that's not how it works, unless of course they're HEAVILY compromised in themselves and that changing to be a love bomb mirror where they'll approve everything you do but it's not actually real love it's stimulating their unmet needs. It's psychologically dysfunctional and yet people call manifesting people who are psychologically very disturbed "success". What a joke. No other coach sees this because they're all whacked morons who need to get schooled.

I can't just go make hit videos on this stuff or I'll face the fury of this community to defend the cult leaders. I'm sure a LOT of people would love me to do that but it's not at critical threshold yet. Not yet. One day though, very soon most likely. I don't see LOA sticking around the way it is now past like 2028. The mentalism hype train is already derailing and in a few years it'll crash out and burn and I'll be left at the top speaking the facts and lead who comes out of that. This seems to have been part of my rile here driven by higher genius but again I see part of this to be rooted in dysfunction as I've said, but it seems that some people live through their dysfunctions to those natures to learn and integrate and have impact in necessary ways for collective processes that must play out through them. We are sock puppets to God after all, as NG himself admitted, remember? That's why I made that video quoting him telling us that God "zaps" us from role to role.

I honestly can't stand this space. It's like greedy money hungry me stands on my shoulder and tells me to teach mentalism but I can't do it. It's not functional. I COULD be that person and probably make more bank than all of them combined with this work but I don't because I simply don't care about living a dysfunctional life and wasting my Jing just to get a kick. That's what most people here gave into, these foolish coaches. Can't stand them. If I ever had the chance to debate them live they'd run for the hills before it even started because nobody in this space is technically minded. NOT ONE. The ones who claim they're technically minded and have technical education like I have in the past still teach utter trash. Useless utter trash. It's insane. They're ALL wrong I've NEVER seen someone be ON POINT on all levels. There's ALWAYS some hole in something they say. That's what I spent years refining so I'd have an unshakable foundation of facts to stand on and be immune to criticism, not to boost my ego or whatever but to be correct above all else simply as a principle I stand by. If it's not correct I must correct it, which I know still stems from part of parental conditioning since I still get slight sharp "need" sensations when I find holes in some things if it shows up but that's WAY less now. Though it could be that since I've done that work it's just not showing up since it's all mostly correct, after probably what's between 15-20k hours spent studying now since I started this. Sounds crazy but I really have put in that much time, like back in 2021 I had clocked in over 10k hours after I did the math and it's been almost another 5 years since then so I'm likely very close to 20k now, or maybe even over since I went full time with LOA study this year especially. 10+ hours pretty much daily, no joke. This notebook is a testament to my daily work studying all kinds of different subjects relating to reality and experience. Nobody else does that. This is what I mean, this whole space is filled with scammers who have less than 1% of the understanding of what RS has provided everyone for free here. Of course the notebook isn't a very digestible format but it's still here.

Overall, LOA should hopefully have been fully refuted at this point to the level where nobody has a single argument to raise that would poke holes in RS.

Listening to old cd's I had from the mid-late 2000's brings back more memories to lead pathways and discover new cascades. It's crazy. Kind of wish that I grew up a bit older in that music culture because the trash that's showed up in the last decade is just absolutely degenerate filth. I have NO IDEA how this stuff sells. It's like more and more degenerate as the years go on. Now I know what the boomers say about our music though. This new stuff really is truly the bottom of the barrel. There was a lot of trash in my time too but nowhere near like now. Music that's popular now is the trash you hear on shorts and stuff, meme music, distraction beats. I just don't like this era, it's so homogenized. I'll say that it's also easier than ever to get rich but it's also easier than ever for dysfunctional trash to surface in people as a result, but that seems to be part of the self correction cycle playing out.

The phenomena of LOA is very real, nobody who looks critically at their lives can say it's not, but it's very rare when "magic" actually does happen. What I do with the higher level alchemy stuff is very real magic, I've manifested superhuman ability like speed when I was 8 years old or something like that and I could argue it happened again when I was 17 I believe. I might as well say too that a vast majority of so called success stories are also either fake or exaggerated or would've happened anyway, and that the real ones that happen 9/10 from what I've seen have variables around them based on the things we discuss here, namely implied involvement and or cutting through conditioning. It's all cutting through conditioning anyway, as implied involvement is in essence living into innate nature through negating not self trash as an implied effect from involvement that drives you to manifest what's already innate. Probably about 5% of stories have those details needed to judge if it's real or not though, because if you ask questions to these people (like on the NG subreddit I ask those who got the success questions at times) and they'll tell me that they did different things before hand but of course that's claimed to be "inspired actions" but I know it's implied involvement stemming from pressure being moved as a result, else they'd not make those different decisions. It would be interesting to ask them more about how they felt BEFORE the actions were taken. This is a variable I've been exploring more of lately too behind the scenes, because I'll say success stems off the back of dips or landing into "inspiring" states.

Just because you COULD manifest someone you've been with before back, why would you when you've outgrown the conflicts you play out through them that've been unresolved. As I said a vast majority of relationships that are "simulating" are based on desiring someone to meet unmet needs and dissolve unconscious conditions and pressure. The less you live as if LOA is a thing the more you'll win. I DARE ANYONE TO PROVE THAT WRONG. If you critically view things and look at ALL the variables you'll find the most successful people who are psychological functional will operate as though LOA isn't a thing. They'll not CONSCIOUSLY think of things, it will be automatics, because that's how it actually works. The thoughts that come through you as translations of innate current is how the magic unfolds, and since that current already exists you'll always win with allowing yourself to move with it via intuitive impulse and implied involvement. You will always win, because it's done before you started to even think that stuff. Pre-determined thematic experience is a real thing. I remember one of my clients I had some months back realized that after going through enough of their life and looking at all the variables clearly. I also want to say that most coaches who haven't been through extremely traumatizing trash themselves wouldn't be able to handle what people tell them on calls. They're not even close to being qualified to be able to lead someone's pathways in that state. They'll almost all be caught off guard and just play the stupid denial game and make that person 10x worse living in delusion. I HATE THAT. It makes me wanna shred all of them I do because I feel for the pain of others, having been in extreme anxiety and panics multiple times a day myself and losing SO MUCH vitality as a result. They need schooling I can't say it enough, these people are scammers and more and more people are coming to recognize that. Nobody is getting success and the only reason people keep coming back is because of that stimulating feeling of "oh I can finally meet my unmeet needs now". It's like the coach becomes the parental figure, and they keep coming back to try get what they never did. I feel that energy from people a lot, and it's like I know that I can't provide them the necessary insights in just one call that they'd need to really live into their capacity and reveal their compromise patterns but I do my best to bring that to them.

The ones who get success aren't often the ones who are living in pseudo satisfaction but the ones who already have a decent degree of implied involvement working for them. It's all implied involvement, almost NOBODY who hasn't mastered this variable and going all the way accordingly gets results. If they cannot let go and trust where intuitive impulse leads them then good luck getting results because it's pretty much a necessity to lead into results. This whole thing that action is always automatic is dumb. I use to say it sometimes is and isn't based on what you're comfortable with, which is true still on some level, but I've defined that far more clearly now as I've explored in this page. Almost all the work to some degree or another is cutting conditioning through spontaneous involvement in state streak that mediates the pressure they're holding to enough of a degree where overlap with the people they're manifesting can happen. Without that overlap on an inner and the resulting outer level momentum then good luck getting SP. Take an honest look at the variables at play surrounding a success and this will pretty much always be true. The other times it's inner level deconditioning, which I had to face. Feeling all that trash that involvement wasn't fully available to mediate pressure to cut through I had to do it internally and for abandonment wounds especially it's not something involvement can dissolve so doing specific inner work can make that work. Some themes just aren't easy to use involvement on the outer level, unless you did what I did and just show up in public spaces and willingly be seen by all these people you're afraid of to get over those feelings. I never did it for attention, but more or less because of stupid internalized judgements and stuff I had that's dead now.

What I see is that the LOA space is gradually dying out because it obviously doesn't work and that this hype is fading faster than possible and as it's dying the coaches and diehards will also get more and more desperate. That's when things will be made obvious. Their really deep innate feelings WILL explode and only coaches like myself will be left standing. It's inevitable, not because I wanted it but because the nature of the self correction cycle MUST play out this way on all levels. Always does and always will, because these psychological functions are core in all things in reality. Yin into yang and vice versa. It's always this way and nobody can avoid it. LOA is a big scam and I can't wait to see it die, along with the trash that NG wrote. What a lost man, totally incorrectly interpreted scripture and missed out the fixed functions of alchemy in any meaningful way and glossed over it all.

9/11/25

Memory coaching.

Had a good talk in my immortality group today about "meditation in action" and so called brainwave states. Higher subconscious space, flow, making correct decisions out of intuitive impulse that imply involvement to cut through conditioning. That's seemingly the mechanism, going all the way with being yourself. It's that a decision is made to fully involve yourself in that state streak in living as that person all the way. Really it's all innate, not "done" as something you consciously do but that you're allowing yourself to be driven. It's like Sleipnir in the Norse mythos who's the horse of Odin that Odin rides on. Odin being akin to God, and Sleipnir being the corporeal consciousness who's "ridden in on" by God, the currents coming through you. This is the only way you can make sense of it, because consciously doing stuff obviously doesn't really work. When you live as I AM/God you manifest what that experience will imply, but you can't live as I AM with conscious application. It's the opposite, as contradictory as that sounds. You get the manifestations by being open for the thoughts to come through you, which in many cases means dissolving the agitation leading you to be thrown out of state streak.

So gazing gets you in tune with intuitive impulse, meaning you'll find yourself WANTING (naturally) to make decisions that are correct for you. That's why it helps everyone, but of course relying on this in a vacuum is mostly wasting your time.

I need to somehow connect all this stuff together. It's all so clear now. It's what comes through you that manifests, as we've established for a long time now, and that is what makes magic happen. It's the subconscious that we live through when expanded enough to accept. Operating out of this level makes the magic happen. The clarity of your unconscious matters, since that will open up state streaks without trash coming up to throw you out of where you're being driven. I need to connect the alchemy, the practical state streak pathway leading stuff, the NG stuff, HD maybe if I can find enough overlap to be functional, psychological aspects relating to the currents, aetheric physics and the technical math stuff maybe, and whatever other levels I can add on. Integrating all this together is next to impossible for me I literally have no idea how to organize all this data. I've had all these pieces for so long but putting it together and with language that works is insanely tough.

In the group chat today I ended up getting an idea that the so called "feeling" that NG was talking about can be also related to the sense of satisfaction that stems from using vitality correctly, as an effect of implied involvement. Someone there also told me that all this mechanism does is act on what's already there, that you're not thinking the thoughts because the thoughts are already innate and you by involving yourself in living the way that's correct for you then you'll end up thinking and feeling that naturally. Therefore you can see that so called naturalness has nothing to do with repetition of conscious acts to "impress" things into your mind but to BE the KEY to unlock what's innate for it to come through you, thus remembering yourself in essence and living that out for real. The magic happens in this way. That's why nobody can control it at will. The flow is the magic, because it's the effect of subconscious expansion working through you, which gazing taps you into more at baseline. All the people that tell you to constantly choose states and be in control of your mind all the time with thinking "from the end" as they say are totally whacked and miss this mechanism, of action. The faith is shown by your involvement and without that involvement then you have no state streak and thus now means of unfolding the innate currents in flow. That's how you get to those "intuitive thoughts" as one of my best clients tells me. You know who you are. They show up as an effect of being involved in living your life, and they don't even have to directly imply with exact wording what manifests, which is actually what usually happens. God is unfolding that through you, as the currents, that you're free in an unconscious clarity sense to unfold without contrast, thus the currents which transcend language can translate their thematic nature into sensory data that the corporeal thinking mind can interpret and experience thinking that this is the cause when it's actually an effect.

We can split this whole RS thing into multiple sections of study, So we can study the innate nature as I AM/God/source of emanation/Higher genius and all this stuff. We can analyze the not self which is the conditioning we've got as false expectations to be someone we're not. We've got the alchemical overlapping of states that purifies the not self through the self and then we have the application of outer world involvement. That's all going to play out through a psychological lens too. There's more there but that's how we can break it down into core parts.

Everything about so called self concept is deconditioning. That's done through accepting innate nature as is. The rest comes through you since pressure and charge is mediated correctly. Outer level implied involvement effectively does the same thing too, though that will almost always work even better for you as a result of inner work, but it still needs to unfold.

When you look at every other teaching out there, including the big names who are full of useless trash, then it's almost disgusting to hear what these people talk about. It's useless and unpractical. None of them tell you how to recondition like I have and none of them explore the importance of implied involvement and going all the way and how that will naturally lead to the relaxation they all seem to be seeking artificially. The naturalness of sunk charge without stimulation throwing's you in and out of flow through contrast. We establish that through involvement with what's innate. By exposure to what's innate by going all the way you will always manifest it. This is once again why nobody can agree on how or why it works, because they're looking at the wrong cause. They all claim it's "awareness" what causes it BUT HOW DO YOU CHANGE AWARENESS. None of them explain it systematically because they've not experienced it themselves like I have. The only reason I have this knowledge is because I saw examples of manifestations show up through doing the opposite of what they tell us. Most people who get results don't do what they tell us in fact, because looping thoughts or imaginal scenes before bed that don't move pressure won't lead to natural flow in being in that state of higher function, being more of yourself and loving yourself. No way around it.

It feels refreshing to have this more complete perspective on things. It just seems so simple when you see it all like this. How do you get there? You start feeling how you really feel to unlock the level of purification. Separate the components is the first stage of alchemy. Feel how you really do. When you're there then break the box by feeling how you're denying yourself fully. Place blame on those who put it onto you and reject the conditions and expectations that they imply you must conform to. Then as release happens from going all the way you'll be put back together and flow can be established to a greater degree. That's how things move forward, your AWARENESS changes through moving current. NOTHING ELSE. They tell us to needlessly stimulate ourselves and this is NOT changing your awareness, not in a functional way at least. We're by following the RS method dropping needless stimulation and mediating pressure correctly. All of the "feeling" stuff should for the most part be interpreted through available currents, and what I mean by that is that implication is a pathway connection phenomena that happens unconsciously automatically. When your pathways are clear through unconscious clarity then flow is available, and the subconscious intuitive level "knowing" of something through "feeling/sensing" that clear pathway cascade you're operating on can establish the flow where what's innate can unfold clearly.

You'll get the fools who say "you don't need to do anything because you already are everything" and that's just stimulating current into activation. That's not going to purify ANYTHING. Purification ONLY AND I MEAN ONLY EVERRRRR happens through feeling HOW YOU REALLY DO, which is unconsciously pressurized all the time and you will SEEK stimulation to numb that pain out. So it's the one who stops needless stimulation that begins to feel the trash and you get places because you'll start to feel how you really do underlying all the overlays which is how the purification stage occurs. Feeling the real feelings of what's unconsciously bound and denied is how you actually establish connection with God, because only God can purify us. By looking into the dark abyss in the underworld you will stand with God and God will clean you out. If you don't look then God CANNOT clean you out, unless God decides to. The key point is to stop trying to stimulate yourself to "feel good" because you're not actually purifying anything and you're going to be feeding the delusional awareness. It's "hard work" especially in the early stages but that momentum will build. Anyone who manifests overnight would've faced enormous pressure OR their environment would've supported the delusional side enough to manifest someone or something that fed into the belief they're buying into. What i mean is that the condition is fully validated and contrast around it is negated in that space, though satisfaction from that really won't likely happen. It's just that you're MORE free than before but in a sort of pseudo satisfaction pseudo flow type way where seemingly positive things can happen but it's things that the conditions want you to have. This is what I'll more or less call regression on expansion functionally since you're deconditioning only the things that are in the way of the expectation being your supply, given that this expectation has you pointed in a way that you think you want, such as needing a certain person or type of person to be accepted by family, or something like that. You'll buy into that and accept it even though it's not really what you want or how you feel. This is what I mean by manifesting this way, it's still a seemingly "success" but not really. Many people who get overnight stuff do it like this, as I have had before too, though facing the deeper pressure matters the most for satisfaction. We know you don't need to be satisfied to manifest, but that pseudo satisfaction that lasts as long as the environment supports the delusion and doesn't trigger how you really feel can SEEM like success and satisfaction but it's surface level and never lasts. That's what's really new about RS that I've established lately. Innate nature isn't always what drives manifesting, since current seems to also be supplied from not self conditions too, to a degree, despite what some may think, but this solves another issue RS had before that is now fully explored.

The more coaching clients I get who challenge me the stronger I get and the more complete I see things. Every day it grows in coherency and I never need to try.

12/11/25

Big insight. Not new in principle but the language is big.

The experience itself through the implied involvement state streak will automatically affirm, automatically visualize, automatically resonate the thematic currents that relate and mean that this thing you're expanding into is available for you. All the morons who say that we don't need to act and that action is automatic, it's actually the other way. Involvement through state streak leads to automatic assumptions manifest through the affirmations and images that randomly flash in your mind when in that state streak though implication. Meaning. That's the point. Because you're comfortable being this person now and how that represents you're going all the way then the affirmations you'll auto think and automatically suggest to yourself will be the exact ones that manifest. That's a function of natural innate ripeness.

I've heard of this point of "giving the burden up to God". What does this actually do? You're not actually doing that, but it's that by saying this you're passing off a sense of unnecessary need to resolve problems you don't actually need to involve in away. That's what I believe this is doing functionally. It's ALWAYS that these "tricks" are to appease a certain compromise theme of experience. After having come far enough now to recognize these mechanics VERY clearly, it's so obvious that almost all the hacks are psychological tricks to get you to orient more correctly, even if just a little bit. They're marketed to us as magic though, which they're not. Spending vital current, Jing, correctly for how you're being moved to be, is how we unfold innate nature. The ones who say to tell yourself positive things in the morning "before action" are simply setting up momentum for expansion to be seen. That really would be something anyone who's actually successful would probably do on some level anyway, so it's a mute point. All of this you'll find eventually comes through you when you're unfolding innate nature more than the day before.

Take an honest look at your patterns and you'll see this to be true. All the LOA stuff is just this. It's all decoded. The more then I decode these things the more I can produce a program that will fulfill all of these core principles that LOA is seeking to secretly tap into and market as magic. It's sick. This industry disgusts me so much honestly.

Some of them say to "trust your intuitive ideas" such as those random thoughts you get and they tell you to write them down immediately. I can actual agree with this, I mean that's most of what this notebook is based on, a sudden intuitive impulse that I had to log down an insight of some form, especially in the early days but I get these all day every day. That's how I get so much work done, because that's just how I identify all the time. This is who I am and I'm so comfortable with that flow that it's automatic. The same thing with being a multi millionaire. The exact same thing. The inner guidance system gives you insights, inner level opportunities, and if we involve with those then we build comfort with acting in that way and it will come through you more and more naturally.

The moment you feel pressure to involve and you compromise you're denying God. Accepting that movement from that subtle intuitive impulse, regardless of what form that comes to you in, you trust it and move with it. That is an expansion opportunity born out of you seeing yourself worth that change, and involvement is the unfolding of it, and is your real measure of faith. Faith as we explored is just your trust in something that's expected to happen based on previous experience. The impulse that you move through and gain experience with is building faith, faith is your measure of involvement. I've defined faith in many ways since starting the notebook but I believe that with this language that's the best way of defining it.

Somehow I need to gather ALL these points into a single program. It would probably be too much then though..

Inspired action comes from comfort as a result of experiencing implication of expansion sufficiently. Everything NG told us to do was to partake in expansion, seeing yourself in the place that involves being who you really want to be and accepting that, meaning negating conditions in the way. He never told us how to do that, and mostly his stuff was for people who mostly were already somewhat comfortable with having it. The rest have to go through the fire. Inspired action is natural intuitive impulse without contrast barriers and such in the way. They're saying that action that's inspired that's automatic comes under "compulsion", which is current driving you and everyone else that's involved. The more you involve in that experience thematically speaking, then you'll automatically be compelled to involve in such. There's no magic to inspired action, it's just action that you're use to taking, or are comfortable with. "Forcing" things as they say comes from when you're in a whacked desperate state and you're just grasping at anything to move things forward. This isn't necessarily a bad thing in some cases, especially if that action comes from a position of willing expansion and not just more half in half out action to say you're going all the way when you're really not. The state of self love you're in determines what happens from that, which is if you're being real or not in that place. All "inspired action" will come from a place of more of a degree of self love, even if it's not obvious at first.

I've just heard a talk from Rhonda Byrne that's a few months old on action and she said that she had the idea for her book in her mind for a year before it was eventually written, which only took her 2 weeks. She said it was like she couldn't stop it from happening. It sounds like they're telling us this happens like magic when we continue to imagine what we want, but in fact it's stemming from a continual expansion into seeing yourself beyond where you're at now, and that those actions would end up being inevitable to be taken because you're implied involvement on an inner level is constantly tugging you through intuitive impulse to involve physically in playing that out. That won't "force" you to act that way, because that's not how it works, but it will compel you to do that under immense pressure from inner natural striving telling you to actually involve in it. It's the conditions which keep you away from that, and in SOME cases it's "divine timing" simply because you're holding that inner momentum while some other outer level momentum is putting together the pieces behind the scenes. Actions have EVERYTHING to do with implied involvement and how comfortable and stable you are with that. So the inner level work is simply getting you to see yourself worth more than the conditions that say you can't be that person, to inevitably unfold the seeds that represent the currents as the pressure innately driving you to actually involve in being that person, where the action is "automatic" if you'd call it that. There's no magic secret there it's just how it is. Everyone that makes action into some kind of magical thing, like "subconscious actions" or whatever, they're totally missing the point of what it is and how you get there. They say "just keep imagining" without grasping WHAT that does to lead to the action, they say it's just like magic when it's not. It's a psychological transformation that's predictable.

When I finally started putting out vids on RS in the early days it was because I was so done with being stuck and keeping all this in my head so I put it out. I DID NOT PUT IT OUT THERE "automatically". It seemed to me to be like conscious willing action and involvement in living that life. Seeing myself in that place and imagining being that person and focusing on manifesting that reality. That's how it was. It was obviously stemming from seeing myself worth more than being stuck still but it was not automatic as most think, not to me at least. I had to get through fear and doubt and conditions in the way, but me actually doing that purified my trash in the process. I was shaky on camera and had tremors in my hands and my voice had a hint of anxiety in it but I did it anyway. I knew I needed to, and I did. That's NOT how we're told to do this stuff, and yet it was how I became comfortable with getting on cam as someone who was basically a ghost online before that. It's insane to me that they think all action is inspired which leads to results, because I'm once again living proof of the opposite. So much of my experience with transformation involved going through things that they don't talk about as a thing, which is partly also why I knew RS needed to exist and I needed to be the one to put this together. Screw all the fools who say otherwise, I've schooled everyone who thinks that inspired action comes from some magic of imaginal acts and that imaginal acts control the world through God, imagination, whatever. It's ALL explainable through psychological transformation, and other lenses too, but that's clearly exploring WHY it's NOT magic and why action that's stemming from effort can lead to comfort for inspired action that's automatic to unfold. IT'S ALL THERE. In most cases the action you take that's implying involvement in WILLINGLY partaking in the life you want WILL be transformational itself. There's no need to wait, just be involved.

All of this is getting you to become comfortable with being the expanded version of yourself for real, however that happens it doesn't matter. Just involve yourself in living that life and your faith will be shown in your acts, your works, clearly.

Some say to just relax more, relax into the feeling of "it's done". Yeah, I remember doing that for a while back in the day, and I got triggered constantly from my real feelings which were NOT calm. My inner truth was that I felt fury the likes of which couldn't be described. I was expected by these people to shut up that voice of fury and tell it to get chill. Good luck taming the wild animal within me that wanted to be let loose. I HAD TO ACT TO BECOME COMFORTABLE WITH BEING WHO I WANTED TO BE. There was NO relaxing my way out of financial ruin. That's absolutely insane to think so, and nobody who preaches that had lived the same way, with ZERO implied involvement in available means for money to show up that was comfortable. It was the end game for me, I needed to act to get through my trash. Relaxing into it is what wasted years of my life continuing to buy into compromise patterns. That utterly trash teaching needs to get lost. That cannot work for you in places where actions are constantly being inspired but never followed through on. I got ideas ALL the time to do that but I never continually willingly saw myself in that expanded space. I never consistently was involved in willing participation in meaningful expansion by involving myself in experiences that would imply this is who I am. When I actually FINALLY did that, then everything changed. Why? Was that because of limiting beliefs or conditions in me? NO YOU BRAIN FART WAKE UP! It was because I was constantly inspired to BE INVOLVED but my conditions told me NO IT'S TOO MUCH TO CHANGE SO GO BACK TO RELAXING. That's what kept me in the box for most of my best years that were wasted listening to pea brains who think they knew how manifesting works.

If only I'd have trusted myself. Honestly, it was also in a big part to do with how I also decided to nourish myself better, and my hormones got better. TEST went up a lot through seed retention streaks, which built pressure to actually willingly participate in expansion. Those hormones DRIVE your thoughts, intuitive impulse, the images and thoughts that flash into your mind in a brief moment to play out something. They become louder and more obvious and that'll "ring the bell" of your expanded state you imagined yourself in the night before. That's how this all connects.

There's nothing special. All of our psychological and biochemical functions are thematic and overlap on that level. Thoughts feelings and the likes are translations of these currents. It's all the currents compelling action, pressure mediation THROUGH implied involvement. When you imagine being the person you want to be you're illuminating those parts of you and activating them more and more as you persist. If you maintain focus and fixation on that willing expansion into being that person and saying no to the conditions that say no then you'll get it. That's not about maintaining any feeling of stimulus but to lead a spontaneous moment of stimulus into state streak of meaningful implied involvement. Then you'll win because you're BEING that person, thoughts will come through you from who you're being that imply the end in fulfillment. If imaginal acts before bed manifest in a vacuum then you've already got all that stuff set up ahead of time to work to facilitate this to unfold naturally. You were already comfortable.

Dropping the technique and all that has everything to do with living embodied as the person who has the thing, implied involvement, meaningful experience of being that person. Nothing more nothing less, that imaginal experience before bed was all you needed to do in order to push things forward just enough to drive intuitive impulse and lead the manifestation according to how it played out. You established a channel by which the currents could drive you naturally as yourself and that's how the seeming magic happened. Thematic supply/demand. That's how this always works. There's no magic in any techniques or methods it's just leading pathways, leading currents in those pathways, leading and building wider context and generating a clear pathway for current to move through to drive the thoughts and feelings and actions and responses you have at baseline automatically. That's how you change who you're being on a systematic level. Be real. Feel how you really feel, meaning allow the currents to unfold as they're moving you to express yourself. That way you win. That's "inspired action". Feeling your feelings and being true to how you feel IS INSPIRED ACTION!

Revision is the same thing, because it works that mechanism. That's all it can do. Revision. imaginal experiences that represent implied involvement on an inner level, playing the role and owning innate truth, feeling how you really feel, that's ALL energy circuit phenomena. That's all it can be. It arguably IS inspired action. ALL "techniques" as NG said are just implication and pathway leading methods. Pathways ARE "implication" based on the thematic composition of how those channels fire. That's all it's doing, that's how psychological phenomena manifests. That's the ONLY way to explain it al. If currents are God, the thematic currents, then we can now explain the magic of manifesting where people are "moved" to aid in the fulfilment of your imaginal scene. It's so insidious how it's marketed, because it's the ultimate scam. They're basically taken mechanical explanations that I've decoded here and turned it into a magical teaching devoid of any reason or logic. They tell us to avoid logic, reason, critical thinking, which is insane. That's why it doesn't work for most people, because logic and reason and that inner truth stems from prime currents that represent the emanation of God extending into and as your corporeal being. Thematic supply/demand explains all the magic, including how people are driven and "moved" to fulfil your imaginal scene.

I don't know what else I can explain. Have I exhausted it all yet? Writing out this program is taking WAY more time than I expected. I despise everyone that tells us to "just know bro". Like how do you do that? Yeah you can consciously stimulate a sensation of "knowing" something as you feel "good" but that's not going to manifest anything. That's not comfortable, hence why you keep dipping. I swear, every coach that talks about "knowing" as though it's a thing you can "do" to manifest are insanely illiterate. There's absolutely NO chance of that working in someone who's got mountains of contrast and resistance stuck in their circuits from unresolved conflicts WHICH WILL be made conscious and WILL FORCE them to be felt. IT WILL be surfaced. That means that the dip is inevitable, until someone masters the implication and involves in the fulfilment of those conditions. Those feelings you have, those "negative" feelings (which don't actually screw up manifestations really but I'll get to that more soon) are actually what you've picked up from someone else and they're telling you that you can't be who you want to be. They're the contrast to condition the acceptance of being that person, to involve there. When you have these feelings, use them to on the spot target that person who conditioned you with this feeling and FULLY feel it and use that current to move you into the fulfilment of what the condition says you can't be involved in as the ultimate act of rebelling against the condition and showing it how powerless it is. The reason why these feelings don't actually screw anything up IS BECAUSE THEY'RE FUNCTIONAL FEEELINGS THAT DRIVE TRANSFORMATION TO ACCEPT THE STATE OF THE WISH FULFILLED.

They CANNOT "throw you out of state streak" unless you buy into the condition that says you need to compromise. The fulfilled state is that you're allowing yourself to be involved in what those conditions say you can't. This is why you can manifest in "negative" feeling states, because emotional current can be moved and mediated to use pressure in ways it needs to move to express that compromised innate nature. You're RESOLVING THE UNRESOLVED CONFLICT AND MEDIATING THAT PRESSURE CORRECTLY. That's why I say you can manifest 100% reliably no matter what emotional feelings show up. Feeling negative stuff mostly screws you up ONLY because you buy into what that means you can't be. I've said before that this isn't always true but I will say now that with more data that this is true all the time, technically it should be. The negative feeling IS THE FEELING YOU WEREN'T ALLOWED TO HAVE, and then you've got the MEANING, implication, that represents the condition, expectation to compromise on expressing that. The issue is that someone isn't allowing themselves to express themselves in the way that pressure wants to move, the way that the condition says you can't. So the condition is the "invisible" meaning and expectation coded into the pathways itself as a stagnant current which is the actual aversion. The feeling itself isn't the aversion, it's what you WANT to feel but can't. That's why "getting over your conditioning" seems sometimes like walking blind in a maze. It's that the condition needs to be "seen" instead of felt, though you'll often times "know" what the condition means that the feeling implies on that intuitive level. This is what keeps most people stuck. They feel the invisible "no you can't do that" along side the emotional current which is actually what they're SUPPOSE to feel to negate the importance and meaning of the condition and own innate nature. Making decisions that represent that condition being irrelevant to them is what matters.

Is this ALWAYS what emotional feelings mean? No. I'm talking about this under the context of conditioning that's relating to unresolved conflicts that keep you stuck in cycles of dysfunction and compromising to keep those expectations happy. The solution is to say "screw you" and show the condition how irrelevant it is, under pressure, to expand. The pressure you feel is both to expand and to compromise, though when you're in a place of willing participation in regularly experienced expansion imaginal scenes, then you'll have more of that built up expectation to partake in involving the way that implies the conditions no longer matter. We need to be willing to cut through the meaning of what this condition says we can't do by involving with what it says we can't. That's really how we cut through it, which means fully feeling what you weren't able to, because that's the involvement you compromised on from the roots which has cascaded out into the modern day today. The way you really dissolve the importance of conditions is to fully empower yourself, to see yourself worth more than the conditions, the circumstances those conditions represent you're experiencing, and to make spontaneous radically different decisions which imply the conditions are irrelevant to you now. Then the conditions won't hold you back because you've mastered them. That's where merciless radical action works. The more you involve yourself in living that way the more radical your reality will change, so long as you understand the implication of the condition enough. Understanding the condition will only make cutting through it much easier since you'll know WHO did it and target them as utter trash and eradicate their influence in your life for breaking your boundaries and not compromising to keep anyone happy. That gives them the wakeup call thematically since they no longer control you and thus you'll transform them, hopefully.

This is also how you manifest changes is SP. You get real and be involved in how you feel, which usually means speaking your mind without filter. That's what I've experienced. It's almost always speaking your mind for real and being honest with how you feel. Radical changes have happened, as well as bringing them into involvement that you're comfortable with for them to expand their comfort since they're being moved by your comfort with it. It's like when a friend encourages you to partake in something you'd not otherwise want to, and you put aside your conflicts to involve and expand into being more comfortable with it like them. That's what happens with transforming others, usually. By you having rock solid boundaries and saying no to their pushing, you'll drive them to reflect instead of playing out their own patterns of abusing you because they can get away with it. You need to know and understand that every change you partake in that's meaningful and changes the supply/demand dynamic will stem from you willingly seeing yourself worth more than the response you've been giving and actually acting on how you feel for real. Those actions will drive them to see you differently and for them to respond differently. That's all this is doing. That's how it works for you. If that action breaks their sense of self down then they'll MAYBE compromise and fit in for you, but that's not going to lead to a functional healthy mutually loving relationship because the power dynamic is whacked. I've been in relationships like this before, and it's not satisfying because the responses from them feel faked, because of their traumatic trash that lead them to retreat whenever you make moves. They retreat because they don't feel like they're worth receiving it and come up with all this absolute stupid trash to excuse the acts instead of getting real because getting real would open up implication for them that would mean their actions were based on compromise and not innate truth. It's all coming from trash from the past, unresolved conflicts that they're still holding onto.

That's why imaginal acts in a vacuum to magically change people is stupid and dumb and almost never happens. There's almost always a means by which it plays out, though I've experienced no contact situations myself before, and I've also found a girl I had contact once again who had her account deleted and I found it again under a new totally random name. Chances of that happening were next to nothing, and since I lost all contact and never had her number, that's how it manifested. I've also had an SP walk past my house once before as well, which was something I had ZERO expectation for at all. I thought she was long gone, I gave up on her to be honest, and yet it happened. It was interesting how it played out. Coincidence? Who knows really. No contact scenarios can work, though you'll need to fully own the role. That's what I've experienced, it will almost always stem from a sense of "willing expansion". If you continually persist in EXPANDING into the state, CONTINUALLY seeing yourself worth more than what you've got now, then you'll almost certainly get it, given my personal experience. The common thread I have observed is that every big manifestation with SPECIFIC PEROPLE especially, is that willing participation in INVOLVING with living in a higher state of self respect and loving yourself more every day and CONTINUALLY EXPANDING MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY, that's what manifests the fastest and in no contact scenarios. It's NOT about the techniques. Since the desire is there, even almost on an unconscious level, then you'll just spontaneously think about them or something related to them and it can be a thought you have flash in your mind for half a second and forget and that'll be what manifests. It's often times the ones that repeat on loop over and over with conscious fixation that cause the signs, though not always. I've not seen enough data to prove that mindless affirming doesn't work, because I don't do that anymore and when I did do it I was heavily compromised and manifested signs all day every day which is why I don't encourage it, but that's more or less because I was not expanding my sense of self I was not going all the way. I was staying in the comfort zone and using the technique as the justification as to why I should have it which is delusional trash.

I believe that, to some degree at least, any and all "techniques" manifest IF what surrounds that is a solid sense of self, a sense of self that's rooted in core principles of expansion of accepting more of innate nature and feeling all that unresolved conflict and acting in implied involvement to satisfy that pressure. That's what I KNOW to work. I can bet with 100% certainty that if someone lives fully this way then they'll manifest the SP or money or whatever. Doing it is the challenge, because you need both the pressure to expand and the willingness to face the darkest pits of despair imaginable, You WILL see the most horrific trash if you go all the way, but that's what opens up comfort and stability in your state where the magic thoughts can spontaneously manifest like I said before. The thoughts themselves are almost like the manifestation itself, because remember currents are translated into psychological phenomena. When the currents move you then they will almost certainly be moving another person too, since that's how the magic works, it comes from the innate level THROUGH you, and you'll see it as the action you took when it was the current on the innate seed level unfolding freely without contrast warping the way it manifests.

Well that's it for me and more insights. Once again I keep thinking I hit the bottom of the barrel of refinement but it keeps getting more simple. That's the goal. It's all there in a super simple way of understanding if you grasp basic mechanics.

Old media from the early-mid 2000's was so much less politically correct. Man it's so much better. Yeah. Better. That stuff brings out feelings in you that's lost and buried now. I honestly believe that this new culture with how insanely boosted the feminine is over the masculine in terms of baseline status is in most cases to do with media, and influencers who promote it. That's really the issue, because looking back the agendas weren't even there at all. Both parties were respected. Now men are made to look stupid and weak, and that impacts the culture on a subtle unconscious level that drives expectations and conditions. It's all psychological really, not innate. Women in old media use to be so much more attractive too, generally. Now they're made to look like figures that are suppose to "represent" different types, when that's totally beside the point. Go back and you'll see what I mean. We're conditioned through so many different sources. Perhaps a big part of why I could see through it all so easy is because I grew up with that stuff and had nothing to do with what's now common. The way you beat this warped expectation is to just be real, your rawness will drive change and manifest functional people into your life instead of the warped ones.

It seems every single LOA video I watch from anyone, except a handful of them, always immediately throws up red flags. I almost can't believe that I use to follow that trash it's insane. They're so all over the place it's unbelievable. None of these people are held accountable for propagating such contradicting nonsense and not speaking clearly on how it's experienced. NONE of them truly know how implication is led, and that's the issue. We're basically told that if we loop a thought enough it'll manifest. Yeah, it will, and it'll show you signs if you're holding compromise patterns because that's what's safe and will reveal how you REALLY feel in response. That's the point. You're not doing it wrong, it's them not telling you to cut through the conditions that bind you to compromising that keep you stuck. Compromising on being yourself for real. Everyone in the comments of these videos just goes along with it blindly. It's insane. They play these stupid ideas that "you are it all" and "everything is proof" and all this trash that's JUST PLAYING PSYCHOLOGICAL GAMES. They're doing that to lead pathways to activate currents. That's what ALL conscious activity is. What they tell us about feeling as God is NOT different from any other stimulus. It can't. You cannot experience God, else you'll die. These coaches who say that are trying to activate currents to lead pathways into changes, except they're making it into an extremely overly complex irrational backwards way of seeing what it's trying to do. The mechanics of RS are the core, the root of how and why. There's ZERO adding onto the core mechanics, therefore everyone ELSE is overcomplicating. If the core mechanics of being yourself through implied involvement is understood then everyone that's speaking in a way to inspire that and get you to expand and feel however that feels to you (usually they're all about relaxation) then they'll just be wasting your time since you'll know that all you need to do is make decisions that imply you're the person you see yourself as, however that plays out. If you go all the way then you win, but these people are telling you to not go anywhere it seems. That's the thing, they're preaching a magical way of thinking that's somehow different and that relaxing more is the way you change reality. Utter trash. Been there done that, even today.

Yes, deep advanced gazing and such WILL spontaneously lead pathways and move currents which you WILL feel but that's not to say it will manifest things out of thin air. I have a FEW examples of this working like that personally and some client testimony but it's not the same thing as actually involving yourself and going all the way for real. I just have no idea how these coaches who claim to have backgrounds in psychotherapy can preach this trash. They're probably lying about that too, but I've not checked their background. Some of them who claim that preach this "your real name is I AM" and "you can have it all because you are it all". They're just leading pathways to drive acceptance of innate nature, though since that's so heavily conditioned it will only manifest in a very narrow way that will not represent them going all the way at all. It will just represent limits over and over on so many levels and waste their time. Feeling how they really feel is doing the same thing, but most importantly recognizing that the conditions are rooted in another persons expectations and to stop playing games in depersonalizing the expectations. I find that those who preach this likely already have either cut through a lot of it or are very deeply disassociated from their conditioning and see it that way to avoid seeing it for what it is. Like Alan Watts. Those who aren't willing to see things as they are, that people hurt them and caused them to compromise hard to fit in, those are the ones who preach mentalism and trash in depersonalizing the resistance so that they can avoid looking at the reality of how they actually feel and be responsible for accepting their innate nature. They teach us to project, and that only reveals the psychological nature of the coaches themselves who teach this, they're totally disconnected from reality and how they really feel as well.

It's just crazy that these people are in such a position of influence, and any word I speak will need an explanation to refute the standard model, and that's just depleting and wasting time. It's like I need to in every point raise a counter point to the mentalism LOA stuff and make sense of it, but then my vids will be so long and ramble on trying to explain away why the standard model doesn't work in contrast. Maybe that's what I need to do. Who knows.

Ok so I was just listening to another video and I can "feel" what they're trying to illuminate to drive more views. They're basically dropping this thing where "you CAN have it" and it's a little stimulating. Even for me, I can feel that hit. It's like "oh I just have to feel like I can have it then", but that's the trap. How you really feel underlying that isn't what they're telling you to feel. What they're doing by saying that "it's about that you are the one and only cause of your entire life" (which is utter trash because children who manifest abuse don't consciously do that and nobody can say otherwise) and what this means is basically that you just have to feel like you're comfortable where you are now because it's all here now, AKA relax into the now. That's disassociate from how you really feel and branch off as I discussed early on in this notebook page. They're telling you to bury how you really feel and not look at the compromise patterns since that's not what you want, but that's the solution to your problem since it resolves the cause of the dips. Feeling like you have it more DOESN'T RESOLVE THE DIPS IT ONLY EMPOWERS THEM BY DISASSOCIATING FROM THEM AND DENYING THEM. You're burying how you really feel, which CAN work, only really IF your environment isn't autosuggesting that trash and you live in a bubble.

Now we've got coaches talking about "decisions" as the next big thing. What a load of trash once again. A decision stems from pressure that's innate seeking expression. That's what I did when I cut through the conditioning about how I was stuck in the box needing to please the permission expectation. When I felt the fury and said to them all the things I needed to say to own that I'm now my own person, then I made the decision, but that was driven by the pressure to expand, not anything else. One of the coaches who preaches this charges 6k USD for a month. That's more than 3X what I charge and only 45 minutes of call time. I've given over 30 hours of call time in some of my 30 day clients to fully explore every aspect of this work that they needed to know. I went all the way. These people aren't interested in helping people, they're absolutely insane charlatans who don't know how to decondition someone by getting real to save their lives and making absolute bank on it.

Does a single moment of heightened awareness manifest big shifts? I've never experienced this as far as I know, other than me owning what I want and being willing to step on other people in the way to get it, meaning to dismiss their walls against my progress. That's how I manifested instantly multiple times. This is what I mean. The only moment of how "charge" manifests instantly was when influencing someone directly by having that "I don't care" attitude. If we're talking about manifesting big sums of money instantly, I've not had that happen as far as I know. It was always coming off the back of something I did around it. I don't know a single person in LOA space who has recorded themselves applying this "decision" method and manifesting cash deposits out of thin air. Why can't they do that if that's what they claim? Why not? Doesn't exist, or they'll say "that's your reality" which is basically a denial of their existence in a solipsistic projection to avoid accountability for preaching utter trash and making massive promises that can't be lived up to. It's that these people lack accountability on all levels it's insane. Surrounding environmental factors matter, obviously, because they'll bring out of you how you really feel. This is a massive problem that the people who preach sudden decisions can't live up to. Environmental factors matter, since that's a source of autosuggestion to pull out of you the unconscious unresolved conflicts that are driving your state and that you'll run away from to avoid being seen in a light that would threaten the views of other people of you.

I swear, when you're willing to step on the toes of others to get what you want, then you'll almost always get there. It's because other people are more important than you that you compromise. That's really why, in almost all cases that's the condition. Some perception that others have of them they'll want to avoid facing that's the reason for compromise and not going all the way. Going all the way usually means being seen in a light that's uncomfortable, and that's going to mean the discomfort stems from feeling how they really do, since that threatens the status quo with these peoples expectations. Now you see why I call conditioning "false expectations"? It's because that's what it is. It's that others in your life, mostly family, project their expectations on you and cause you to compromise to fit in which you never get over. Being willing to step on your abusive parents toes makes magic happen. That's when you get places and respect yourself. Stepping on the shoes of others is loving yourself, assuming there is in fact a violation on their part and you're not just being abusive yourself to get what you want, which isn't satisfying anyway.

I've got WAY more experience than any other coach when it comes to technically getting to the roots of how and why a result shows up or not, and you can clearly see how. Now I know EXACTLY what to make a vid on. Stepping on peoples toes, because if you made a decision that goes against expectations, according to these coaches, that will be necessary to cut through, meaning that's the unconscious condition that will arise as feeling that's contrasting the flow. That reveals the unresolved conflict, so making a decision means deconditioning, meaning you're making a decision TO DO WHAT I SAID AND INVOLVE YOURSELF IN EXPERIENCES WHICH IMLPY THE CONDITION NO LONGER MATTERS THAT'S ALL THERE IS DAMMIT THAT'S ALL YOU CAN DO THAT'S WHAT ALLL INNER AND OUTER METHODS WORK THROUGH. I can't make that more clear. it should be painfully obvious.

I need to share this page too, or at least parts of it. Too bad my notebook is so massive now and most people probably won't reach page 29.

Anyone who makes a decision, will NEED to cut through the conditioning, because it IS unconsciously rooted and WILL come up, just as it always has and always will until it's cut through all the way. You know how to do that. It's not just sit around and live in a positivity bubble, it's be involved in living the life that implies you're way past their expectations. What does this mean? Become unrecognizable to the people who conditioned you. That's the most powerful act of self love you could ever give yourself. Anyone who successfully shifts states in an instant spontaneous moment of insight and makes that decision to just cut through the trash will manifest what they want in less than 3 months 100% guaranteed. 100%. Likely less than 3 weeks but I don't like saying you'll always get it in that time because if someone is manifesting a multi billion dollar business it's going to take longer than 3 weeks, in pretty much all cases unless you inherit that business. Either way my point is that you can totally become unrecognizable in weeks.

If you fixate on that decision, growing and expanding into that state, going all the way, fully involving yourself in that life, becoming truly unrecognizable to the people who abused you and conditioned you into conforming to false expectations, if you just live this way then I bet your SP will be head over heels for you and you'll make money show up out of thin air. I can almost bet 100% that you CAN do that, IF you go all the way. Did I do it in that time? No. It took me a few months, but I got there.

Play time is over. RS R&D is over. What more do I need to discover dammit! Am I just compromising on growing and using this as my loop? Who knows, but I'm planning on moving into a new place and getting out of this one that's probably going to be badly flooded again like every other year. Last year the water was up to the trees outside. The entire town was flooded. It was so bad, but this place will be high up on a mountain and have perfect views. Going to record vids from that view, and I will get that place. Screw everyone that says otherwise. My expectations say I don't deserve that but I don't care. Screw you, get lost and go live in your own pit of despair. I'm going to cut through every fiber of this trash. Seed retention streak going strong and I can feel that extra vitality moving currents. It's powerful stuff. Let's go. I don't intend on updating notebook for a few days at least, need to expand the front end. Oh and yeah, I deserve to sell programs worth their cost, and I'm GOING to make that money I DESERVE for putting in this work. Screw expectations. My programs will have the highest success rates of all. Nothing else compares. That's the expansion. Make 5k+ a week. I'm so done with seeing the housing market here get worse and worse and just spook me I'm gonna crank out the cash flow and rip into the market like I deserve. Screw being small. Stuff anyone who says I can't. Get over it. It's mine and I deserve MORE than that because of the IMMENSE amount of work I've put into this, and that I exist therefore my innate nature is financially empowered with infinite wealth. Screw investing, I don't care. Leave that for the Juize to go enjoy not working a second of the day for infinite wealth. Have fun.

Oh side note. I just heard a coach talk about using psychological manipulation tactics to influence people. What a surprise. Using all these sly tactics to get a leg up and use other peoples good will to influence them into conforming to you. THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN. They're stepping on someone's toes and that's how you influence people, because there's pressure. You're the source of that pressure, and you'll influence someone with lacking self love, which most people lack, and since you'll step on their blind spots, they WILL be attracted to you in SOME way shape or form in response. No surprise.

Always remember that none of these people have shown proof of age reversal. Not one. The ones who make the most cash often show no signs of age reversal, and yet preach they can manifest anything with just a simple decision. Where the heck is the age reversal? Nobody wants to grow older because you're literally decaying. Where is the proof of real age reversal? Nowhere. It's all trash. That's why. What RS preaches works and explains EVERYTHING. It's all here for FREE DAMMIT FREEE!

Oh that's another point. Man these coaches just keep going and giving points. "Earning". Here we are. Earning. They think that doing anything other than "just assume it bro" is "earning" and optional. Yeah right. Your unconscious conditioning shows up on loop every singe time for years even in ways you're TOTALLY unaware of, like how I experienced getting physically sick in visceral ways every single time I went out with an SP for YEARS. Didn't even know WHY, but after a while of connecting the dots I figured it out. It's all because I was still compromising and denying how I felt. I was playing in and out games with myself pleasing expectations and trying to also please me and thus conflict I felt in me was the cause of my problems. Owning who you are and what you do for real is necessary to move on, THAT is the decision. Confidence comes out of unconscious clarity, meaning an absolute complete acceptance of self and how you feel and no matter what you're real with that under all circumstances. It's all about illumination, that's alchemy. None of these people who preach I AM trash can come close to a complete metaphysical model of how ALL of the data works together. RS is the only model of manifestation that does this. Own it.

Owning it for me means stepping on ALL their toes and making a series of videos where I systematically completely and totally utterly destroy LOA from point to point. This notebook page will be a source of points to go over. I WANT TO UTTERLY TEAR EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE GRIFTERS TO PIECES UNTIL THERE'S NOTHING LEFT BUT DUST IN THE WIND! NO DAMN MERCY! I know exactly how to land in that state every time. Fire those pathways. Be moved. Unfold what's inevitable. That fury. That merciless unrelenting unstoppable force that tears all who dare to challenge RS into trillions of pieces. Total eradication of LOA ignorance through pure facts that cannot be refuted on any level. Boom.

Observation. I found a pattern in my life, after going through old game music. It came to me. I remember always needing to follow others around and ask for what I needed to do instead of just doing it myself, because if I did it myself I'd get attacked. I'd have to always wait, always follow someone else's lead. I don't feel a lot of charge here but it's a clear pattern that I held onto till I was probably like 22. I'd physically need permission before actually engaging in what I wanted, and I'd basically have to follow the leader in that case otherwise. This wasn't a hard rule but it was always this feeling like "you're being watched". Felt a slight sense of that again now, interesting find.

Another note. I remember when I ended up watching an old TV show on YT and then I ended up finding a box of old DVDs under my house with the same series in it randomly the next day, it was very surprising to me. That was something I had ZERO conscious expectation for. That's because when I was watching it that it must've suggested to me in state streak in that sort of zero resistance acceptance state where I was going to experience more of that, since I was involved in it. I never watched more but it was there. Totally random. This is the kind of stuff that happens when you're just BEING, meaning you're involved in something in state streak almost operating on autopilot. That's why when you're in that place you're "easily suggestible". Same idea.

I've heard once again another insanely illiterate view of manifesting. Character selection. I've talked about this last week but I'll go over it again briefly. They say that there's a difference between "just deciding to be someone new" and "trying to fix the old you" and yet deciding to fix the old one and moving into someone new is doing the same thing. The trick they're playing is that they're framing this "moving into someone new" idea as something DIFFERENT, and yet never explaining HOW it's experienced differently. I can tell you. You should know by now. It's ALL the same, simply expanding into being who you really want to be, WHCIH IS REVISION BECAUSE YOU'LL RUN UP AGAINST YOUR CONDITIONING ALONG THE WAY. That's why you're not there right now, there IS conditioning on an unconscious level getting in the way, and "fixing" the old you vs moving into the new one ARE THE SAME THING FUNCTIONALLY. They're NOT different IN ANY WAY AT ALL. I just can't stand these people getting away with this stuff. It's so obviously not how they claim it to be but they're selling it like it is. ANY radical change will be a change in involvement, and yes your focus is on what you want but the difference is that you've got a familiarity with the conditions as they arise to throw you out of state streak. It's all so obviously doing the same thing. THERE'S NO DAMN DIFFERENCE. It's so obvious it's insane. SO many people are screwed by this.

Yeah I'm gonna set things straight I know EXACTLY what to say. Need to make it clickbait like, and hide some message about this in the video to screw all the brain dead coaches who love slurping up all the cash from ignorant clients. No mercy. Man words can't describe the "arrow cutting through the air at insane speeds barreling towards a target with laser precision" feeling driving this right now. Translate those words into current and you've got the same feeling. Just merciless eradication of trash in the way of my way. Stepping on their toes and slamming the ground and crushing anything in the way. Righteous fury for truth and passion for reality. We get what we want. Own it. Get use to it. Step on their toes and show them how it's done. No compromise. Uncompromising merciless fury for the passion of your inner truth. Cut through the trash and burn it to the ground. Own it.

14/11/25

I know I said I wasn't going to update notebook but I have something interesting to share. I've experienced some "big" manifestations just since 2 days ago. Won't go over details but let's say that I 've pretty much gotten to the point now where I have tuned how I apply my own application of RS in life.

This is my trick. Every single time I feel like I'm having pressure to expand I immediately involve no matter what. This is what I've had clients tell me works like magic too, as in being VERY spontaneous. SP manifestations work this way, based on the success stories I've had lately, though only about 20% of people can actually properly apply this. You already need to have a degree of outer momentum for this to work, but my point is that if you can get into state streak off the tail of intuitive impulse in a very spontaneous manner instead of hesitating and JUST letting the FEELING of "let's expand" drive you, then you'll get MASSIVE results FAST. I strongly believe that manifestations are in fact "instant" IF we allow ourselves to be moved where God moves us. We don't do anything, we just allow ourselves to be driven, to become a clean clear vessel for God to ride in on, like Odin rides Sleipnir. This is the same example as what RS promoted since day 1 with intuitive impulse leading into state streaks and thus manifestation works. This process is what I discovered back in mid 2022 when I started making progress with most areas of my life. This is in fact how it works, and I'll bet my life on that.

Intuitive impulse - implied involvement - state streak - momentum and faith - belief and expectation automatically manifests thoughts feelings and responses commensurate with desire coming through you from God. God rides you like a blank slate vessel. When the vessel tries to take control and deny God then God will force you to face your trash and wake up. God needs you to wake up. God does all the work, we don't do any work because the work we do come from God THROUGH us as a vessel that God controls through the thematic channels and corresponding currents manifesting as psychological and somatic sensation. This is how it works.

Since the channels are how thematic currents are manifest through us then those channels must be clear. Stagnant qi causes heat, agitation, and thus the corporeal not self nature will become agitated and want to control to solve the agitation, when the solution is always to let go and allow God to do the work through us. We think those thoughts and feelings are us but it's coming through us, and this is the ONLY way you can explain the inconsistencies of how SOME people get results with "techniques" and others don't, because "you" don't do the techniques, God does the techniques through you via implied involvement and state streak of embodied reality of experience which cleans the not self of imperfection. The not self itself is a product of the agitated identification produced through stagnant current, which is where God is not. Not self is where the corporal character is, which is a privation of God, an absence of God. It's the shadow that the light casts in reality, though the object that blocks the light is the stagnant current warping how the pattern of illumination unfolds through the channels.

Manifesting can also be optimized through environmental autosuggestion and availability on that level. I've found that you can indirectly "influence" how and what you manifest this way, provided unconscious clarity is present. This explains many of the "unconscious" manifestations I've had show up, as in what you experienced in state streak that had ZERO conscious intention of manifesting more of ends up showing up in your life not long after again. Common thread I swear. This is another level of optimization. Implied involvement in state streak IS a technique itself.

People always ask "what do I do after imagining" in the standard LOA circles. Why? Because they've been lied to. Involvement out of intuitive impulse leading into state streak is the answer always. You'd naturally find yourself acting on those intuitive impulses the moment you get them if you're comfortable with what that implies. Imaginal acts don't have any power and I've irrefutably proven that.

Groups of accountability partners.

Update. just spoke to the alchemist about making physical gold and profiting from it. Interesting stuff. I'm not going to reveal ANYTHING about that here but it's absolutely possible. That's all I can say. Generative alchemy and transmutation is a very real thing. I've not been given every part of the process as to how to make that happen from top to bottom but I've got some ideas. Too bad my lab alchemy kit isn't built for that work, yet. That's worth over 7k and it's still only good for plant work.

Just have to write this. I've noticed a pattern. I've written this multiple times before over the notebook as I test this but I SWEAR that if I "feel" my subtle body "raising" in me as I sleep as though my whole body is like lifting and being filled with light and substance I almost always tend to have more interesting days. I can't confirm if it actually is the feeling I have in my aetheric body when I sleep or if it's the thematic that I'm activating by doing this as implication of how I feel, but something is having that effect. It's happened upwards of 90% of the time. To me, sleeping in more of an "activating" type of current tends to bring about better days over being super relaxed and such. It's interesting to me, because when I use to do my TCM studies led me to this same idea, that qi and such, a raising activating dispersing current, that's what I'd be experiencing most clearly. Since the alchemist literally said "Qi is generative starlight" I can actually find the connection there. Generative starlight is according to the alchemist the prima materia, which is constantly evolving into higher order functions, which is what biochemical interaction intelligently is driven to do. Literally, biochemical interaction is the alchemy of starlight turning a base lead body into an immortal form that's eternally youthful and connected to innate nature 100%. This doesn't make sense to me how feeling this sensation would have that impact but it doesn't seem truly impossible either. I know the alchemist would laugh at that idea but whatever.

Also I have an idea that since the higher genius/your God/source of emanation/I AM is the only supply of correct function then that would mean everything that's not stemming from that would be not self, effectively. That's really WHAT conditioning is, it's almost like an alter ego if you wish that's feeling this sense of needing to buy into the conditions to survive. Trauma creates it. The alchemist from my talks with him months back actually mentioned this, but he wouldn't agree with how I explained it. He says that the lower conscious mind, fire, is what holds the false identifications. Since in functional alchemy, each part of us or element has it's own intelligence that runs it, then we're really a collection of identifications. TCM views this the same way actually, since each organ hash an element and an intelligence which I've spoken about, but for simplicity sake you could boil it down to being just innate nature and unconscious conditions that drive our not self thoughts and who we think we think we are, as Ra says, which I like how he puts it.

Anyway about prima materia, qi, generative starlight (an offshoot of illuminating starlight as I call it which was my term not his), I believe that operating more as yourself MUST necessitate that you'd have more starlight available to operate through, since you're in a higher overlap of states. Also, according to the alchemist, the Yod in the tetragrammaton actually represents this prima materia, given his explanation of it to me. "They look just like little light tadpoles, or sperm cells, and the Hebrew letter Yod ( י ), and they have been depicted in that exact way in numerous Egyptian hieroglyphic instances, as you can see from the image below where they are depicted as hands passing ankhs.". That's what he says. An interesting connection I've made is to the somatids of Gaston Naessens, the bions that Wilhelm Reich discovered, the ethericities of Viktor Schauberger, the endobions of Gunther Enderlein, the microzym of Bechamp, the turquoise bodies of Raymond Rife. All of these people seemed to have observed what SEEMS like prima materia, considering especially the work of Reich who said it was found in all organic material including rocks, and some of them according to his studies also were radioactive. I've not read bion experiements in years but maybe I can go over it again and see more in there than I did before.

My point here is that the bions and the prima materia seem to closely overlap, especially since Reich said it's found in ALL organic material, and Naessens said they're indestructible. I've head someone say they're cultivated in distilled water, on a forum I read like 4 years ago on a post on Wilhelm Reich, but I can't prove that. It wouldn't surprise me though given my studies into the nature of water as a vessel for transmutation for philosophical substances. As I learn more about physical transmutation and real lab alchemy then it makes these things more clear to me that there is in fact data present throughout time that reveals the innate nature of God as manifest through all these different substances, physical and philosophical as is contained in that physical carrier. If you know ANYTHING functional about real alchemical transmutation, you need a material of some kind that's stable ENOUGH to not spontaneously evolve when put under sufficient pressure (acceleration of expansion/evaluation) but also able to house the concentration of the current necessary to house the philosophical element as it uses that carrier as the vessel to perform the overlaps it needs to transform. You house the sun and the moon in a substance and overlap those elements in that substances but without destabilizing that substances so that the work is destroyed before you can get earth. If you cannot get earth then you cannot complete the quintessence because out of earth comes the exalted fire, air, the star father. The red elixir is hidden within the conjugated fire and water as earth, so earth needs to be destabilized while the carrier material can house the transmutation on the philosophical level. This gives insights also into making gold, as elements go from one form to another in a highly concentrated and accelerated transformation process in the lab. Generation of gold is absolutely possible, just as is possible for physical immortality using the body as the container for the philosophical elements of God in us. Living as ourselves is one way of doing this work, but that's just ONE way of course, and taking that all the way takes MULTIPLE lifetimes it would seem, which is the only real reason lab alchemy even exists at all, else the alchemist who's initiated into this would die. If you come into contact with real alchemical understanding at a very young age then it's highly likely that your higher genius has done this work before in a previous iteration, and if you do advanced gazing enough and get to contact your higher genius, or at least parts of it, then you'll know that because it will literally tell you like it did with me. "you're coming with me". It was the personified elemental earth speaking with me to perform higher order overlap with my unconscious mind by going through the underworld journey. It's all there.

This is why NG, ultimately, was once again way off and all the utterly ignorant morons in this space who love making bank off other peoples ignorance are the highest order charlatans who have no competition and thus can get away with mass deception. I'm correct, they're not, and I can back it all up with mountains of data from years and years of full time study that I did not making a single cent off any of it. I did it because I wanted to know truth, likely for a function of expansion. Remember, I don't think, God thinks as me. You think you're thinking but you're not. Why do you think that the motto of RS is "think without thinking and feel without feeling". That's why. That's been the core of RS since the very beginning, way back when I was called "aetherise". It's all there, and while I've gone off on tangents exploring all kinds of other things, that in their own right still hold value to study, such as seedline doctrine as a physical level interpretation of scripture that works. There's just so many points, that me getting up on cam and putting all this into a coherent talk is truly impossible, as I've attempted many times. I write 100X better than I talk this stuff out, at least when I'm not asked a question by someone and can get my mind spinning for me.

The subliminal I made, if correctly operating according to my theory of how I made it should have an overlapping states effect, though I don't believe it holds capacity to introduce GENERATIVE starlight as prima materia, more or less only optimizing what's already available. That's what I believe is happening, though how do I prove that? Who knows.

"It makes sense that the ancients could have named it “What is it?”. That pure divinity could only be known by its effects"

Well isn't that interesting. A quote from the alchemist more on starlight as the ancient name for generative starlight. "What is it?". Which text is he referring to? I don't know, I need to ask him on that. Point is that this "what is it" sounds a lot like I AM, doesn't it? The nameless shapeless form. I've always assumed I AM is another term used for higher genius, which is God in the bible, though if generative starlight is also thematically speaking "what is it" then why wouldn't I AM come under that too? The burning bush. Some say that I AM from the burning bush physically represents the demiurge of this sphere of reality that operates through certain races here on earth, namely those who own banks, and that it's El Shaddai who showed up to Moses to give the law. The bible is a multi level text that has various interpretations that all exist within each other, seedline, alchemy. I've never really fully connected the dots on this I AM thing and truly pinpointing it without making assumptions based on what the LOA space says from what NG says, who wasn't an alchemist. That's the thing. Almost everything they say is stupid, dumb, ridiculous, and extremely illiterate and ignorant, as you should know by now.

As far as I know, the tetragrammaton in the most high level interpretation, means "star and stone". Quintessence in capacity. "What is it" is the same thing, the elements in superimposition. I AM. God. Starlight. There's overlap here but I believe there's still distinction to be made. The NG interpretation of the elements certainly is NOT alchemically sound, as I went over in earlier pages.

15/11/25

Interestingly I ran into an old friend today. Not heard from them in a while.

16/11/25

If you interpret this NG quote (from his "freedom for all" books) correctly it makes sense. I AM imagines through you, it's all God. VAU could be interpreted as field geometry overlaps, pathways, implications. He is targeted feeling (thematically) and VAU is the innate relationship to that when contrasting your conditioning determining the effect. This also explains peak dip cycle since JOD is always coming through you as the fixed point of comparison.

"Your unconditioned consciousness (JOD) is your I AM which visualizes or imagines a desirable state (HE), and then becomes conscious of being that state imagined by feeling and believing itself to be the imagined state. The conscious union between you who desire and that which you desire to be, is made possible through the VAU, or your capacity to feel and believe.

Believing is simply living in the feeling of actually being the state imagined – by assuming the consciousness of being the state desired. The subjective state symbolized as JOD HE VAU then objectifies itself as HE, thereby completing the mystery of the creator’s name and nature, JOD HE VAU HE (Jehovah)."

He also says that belief here is living in the state, embodied state streak, involvement. That's how I say you build faith, or belief in this case. So interpreting NG through the RS lens can make sense of these things. Interpreting it at face value is what screws everyone over, because they think their conscious willing thinking is I AM but it's not it's the agitated not self showing up which doesn't trust God and tries to control. That's connected to your point above

Sinking charge is dropping agitation of heat from stagnant currents of not self expectations. Cutting through the conditions for good means decreasing baseline agitation, and thus stability surfaces where I AM or whatever can imagine spontaneously through you and leave that as just a suggestion for experience instead of this agitated feeling of need through the shen being raised and scattered. It makes sense on all levels.

"I tell this story only to illustrate a principle. You do not need to ask anyone to aid you in the answer to a prayer, for the simple reason that God is omnipotent and omniscient. He is in you as your own wonderful IAmness. Everyone on the outside is your servant, your slave, ready and able to do your will. All you need do is know what you want. Construct a scene which would imply the fulfillment of your desire. Enter the scene and remain there. If your imaginal counselor (your feeling of fulfillment) agrees with that which is used to illustrate your fulfilled desire, your fantasy will become a fact. If it does not, start all over again by creating a new scene and enter it. It costs you nothing to imagine consciously!"

Brazen Impudence - NG lecture 1968

Here's NG telling us to imagine consciously.

"I urge you not to limit yourself to a little body of flesh and blood, for you are spirit. Flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God, so one day you must take it off. And he who takes it off is immortal. He is your own wonderful human imagination who is God, the Father of all life. When you learn to live this way, life becomes so exciting. Your days are full and you are never alone. I spend all day at home reading the Bible and meditating. I close my eyes and travel the world. It’s fun and educational. It expands me and makes me become more aware of the infinite being that I really am."

Here's NG talking about the magic of remote viewing.

Well that's straight up wrong. The work must be done IN the body, which is the vessel that houses the elements. How can alchemy be done without the body? Without the lab there is no alchemy, and that's why in Daoist Alchemy and TCM they call the 3 divisions of the body "cauldrons", or "burners". They're the lab kit that we have built into us. NG was mostly illiterate on real alchemy, and thus the NG buffs will defend that alchemy is all an assumption when that's obviously not the case considering classical text CLEARLY refer to various parts of the body as biological mechanical lab wear.

"You need no intermediary between you and yourself, who is God. Don’t run from this city to another in the hope of finding something better, because the one person you are going to take with you is yourself; so resolve your problems here. Do not compromise. Decide exactly what you want and assume you have it."

There's NG on no compromise. Straight up facts. It's really the underlying attitude that matters, which remember is what he defined as a state. "An attitude of mind".

"If your mental construction comes close to your fulfilled desire, your little day dream will become a fact!"

Now right there, that's an interesting quote. IF the mental construction "comes close" to your FULFILLED DESIRE (pressure to experience) then it will work, that's the if he says. So what does "come close" mean? Well we know it CANNOT be sensory details because those with aphantasia can't imagine, and yet they wouldn't be exempt from the so called law would they? In that case, the attitude of mind is the most important part. What is an attitude of mind, a state? A degree of acceptance of self, higher function as your innate nature, meaning what's there comes through you ALL THE WAY, till "satisfaction". I still don't like how he tells us to do scenes, because in my experience it's almost never going to work if the scene takes "effort", though if there's EXPANSION underlying that "effort" then it works more reliably. That's what I know to true. The scene or whatever you have should come THROUGH you from God and you'll play out how the pressure is driving you to unfold it, on an inner involvement level in that place. It still has a degree of expansion to it, else my SP manifesting story wouldn't have worked since I had minimal external involvement for that, though it worked. It was that I cut through the conditions that told me no, and I had "brazen impudence" that the scene REPRESENTED, since what I really imagined was scenes that fulfilled the pressure I had, the REAL desire, which was to FEEL HOW I REALLY FELT. That's self love, expansion. NG never explains it clearly here, as to WHAT the scene means about him and such but that's a clear mechanism that works in all people that must be understood, else you'll continue to waste time doing mind magic trash.

The only thing that got me my SP manifestation was OWNING what I wanted FULLY, and I imagined being with her in front of those who hurt me, proving to them I am free and beyond their expectations. It was a moment of intense fury, and that was my "desire", pressure, raising of yang current. NG didn't have the technical basis to explore this, because I didn't really do what he said, my imaginal sensory details NEVER came true either, but the theme and what it meant about me and implied about me did come true. That's the attitude of mind, the state. It's all that really matters. I can explain it all clearly. Your attitude matters the most, and that's dependent on what conditioning you're holding onto still. This is why when you really go all the way and cut through the trash you'll naturally land in the state anyway, because implication built into the feeling of the pathways related to that experience firing will manifest the same thing an imaginal scene would anyway. It's all currents so. Every scene that I did that had ALL the sensory detail that I still have as a memory to this day, never manifested. My attitude in there was very very small, I had no self love, I was still under the thumb of others and I didn't want to accept that and continued to live in projection wanting others to give me what I couldn't love in myself. When I loved myself and told those who hurt me to get lost and grow up in front of their gaze then they had ZERO power over me. That's what mattered, the spark that unfolded into a blazing inferno, and that WAS GOD. The spontaneous intuitive impulse to involve in that life, when you're finally willing to go all the way, that will manifest your desire no matter the circumstances.

Moral of the story is that NG was REALLY telling us to move current, move pressure, unfold it into where it wants to go and don't compromise. Love self and don't hold back even if it means stepping on the toes of others to get where you want to be. How else do you interpret it in a consistent way? Imaginal acts DO NOT create reality, else all those memory scenes I've got still not manifested yet years later should've showed up by now. They were very very realistic and didn't involve much needing to move, and yet I've not even gone to that place and been in the spot I imagined myself DESPITE it being FULLY available for me to do so RIGHT NOW if I wanted to. It's not happened yet, years later. I looped it so many times that it made me sick. It's insane to think that imaginal senses create the world, when there's all the underlying currents that come through you constantly. There's endless examples of thoughts I had which I had seemingly no conscious will to have thought about and yet they had immense power, no attitude at all, but that it was comfortable for me regardless. Those are the ones that come through you BECAUSE it's NORMAL, through implied involvement of course. They show up when you're in state streak, that's what I have experienced most often, or that they come off the back of satisfying state streak flow and you lay in bed and imagine the effects of that as the scene comes through you. NG did also say to "loop the scene" not to make it happen faster because imaginal looping has more power but that it's to "stabilize the state", and a state is an attitude of mind, driven by currents moving through your circuits activating different psychological functions. So I can explain all the mechanics of how and why I manifested things the way I did, and I can tell you that almost every time what I had show up if I did have thoughts pop into my head is that I was comfortable with that, and if I did have one pop up that was uncomfortable and was an expansion for my sense of self, then if I involved in that repeatedly then it became comfortable and more manifestations relating to that magically showed up for me.

Involvement builds faith, and I'll say that till the end of time. Faith and comfort go hand in hand, because there's no underlying unconscious unresolved conflicts ready to surface when those themes are activated. You're clear and able to be moved without contrast. NG never explained this of course, not in any useful detail, but the mechanics are there if you interpret what he says clearly.

If we take this same attitude that manifests things we're comfortable with and apply it for things we're uncomfortable with, and cut through the trash in the way, no matter what, then you'll get it. If I went back to who I was being when I was doing all the imaginal stuff to try control people in the past I NEVER had the same attitude, and if I did it was very very short lived and dependent on environmental support. You really can't manifest this way reliably, because you're BEING someone who's still stuck in the lives of others and you FEEL that meaning as this undertone that "no you don't have it" whenever you imagine it. Even when it comes through you in those places it won't be comfortable, you'll avoid it. I remember I got so whacked that every time the things I wanted came to mind that I'd get really mad, OR anxious. I'd almost always immediately have discomfort along side it no matter what, though I noticed that if I didn't care about the conditions off the back of satisfying implied involvement then I'd have AT LEAST less of that discomfort, though often it would be mostly gone. I'd literally feel different, and I'd notice that contrast and it would surprise me, but it wouldn't stick though because that was in most cases an environmental support not me actually breaking boxes in meaningful ways. I wasn't actually loving myself at the core, it was superficial detachment. This is the issue, thinking that you can bypass those meaningful self loving acts that IMPLY who you're BEING to be WORTH the thing ENOUGH of the way then you'll naturally find yourself thinking about it and it won't have discomfort along side it. Those natural thoughts will be where the magic is, though that still requires a degree of involvement I find to bring that out of you, thematically speaking, and that observation you see in the world that "reminds" you of the SP or the money or whatever will pop that thought in your mind and it'll come through you without trying in a place of higher self love. That's what I've noticed, and when you knowingly compromise and live in the box then you're only shooting yourself in the foot.

Also I believe that "the law of reversibility" as NG says is thematic correspondence, that thoughts and feelings that IMPLY something is what he's talking about. When you experience comfort for something inwardly then you'll find yourself wanting to involve in it externally. True. That state streak that's coming through you will influence others. You're basically putting yourself into the position of involving yourself that means you're no longer wanting and looking from outside in from the conditioning overlay but that you've literally cut through it. Projection - conditioning - inner truth. 3 rings. Cut through the trash and you won't need to project and need and be needlessly stimulated wanting all the time imagining fantasy scenarios that never satisfy what's necessary because you're not actually expanding and loving yourself in that. Actually loving yourself and growing into the state matters, the state of I'm in this position of involvement in this role in this life right here right now. This is a function of stabilizing agitation by dissolving the roots of what causes it.

I hear people saying that the media you consume influences what you manifest through how it suggests to you how you relate to it. I agree, to a point. What we should be looking at instead is how our day to day life autosuggests to us about who we're being, and to expand into areas that support us being the person with the big things. Action that's implied to satisfy the necessary transformations that stabilize the agitation and demonstrate that you're someone with self love can and will lead to satisfying flow. Been there done that. It's the most powerful way to actually transform and manifest bigger things if you ask me, though explaining that to people is basically pointless. You'd be better off fasting from the world and totally distancing yourself from all needless stimulation. I only consume specific media that I know will be necessary and move me into states I want to work with.

I strongly believe that state streaks and "locked in flow" state is a function of having enough available "vitality" AKA nourishing currents available in buffer to activate and mediate pressures through the implied involvement that would represent that in whatever activity you're in. If you're lacking yin to ground the shen and you're very agitated then you're going to find it hard to get there, which is why gazing can be so beneficial for you to initiate that and move into that state streak as a sort of "reset" cycle for breaking dysfunctional patterns.

19/11/25

Being willing to offend people makes you real. That's what's lost in media especially and it's pouring out into collective consciousness. The people who get places don't play by the rules. Go back a few decades and things that get you locked up now were common place. What changed? Laws, and where money goes. Nothing else. The people submitted to rule. This is just another box to break, with expectations attached.

I've also recently been put in a position to make over 7 figures a year, unexpectedly. It's not guaranteed as of yet but it's an Interesting development. That won't change anything I do here. I've always said I could have an infinite bank balance and I'd still do this work. I'm still targeting the 12k per program high ticket sales price, and anyone who thinks that excessive can get their head personally thanked by my bare right hand. I'll probably go even higher, an in fact why not, I'm worth way more than that anyway. My work is priceless. Spent basically 90% of my life living next to being totally broke. Never had reliable jobs because the ones I had in my early days paid almost nothing (red rooster was my first one) and then my IT stuff was short lived because of my schedule shifts and then the massage jobs all got shifted around due to Asians replacing all the locals in the clinics I was at and operating illegally so it's like good luck mate have fun! That's partly due to my utter hatred for the filth called debt banking juize, and that I was full time studying metaphysics and other subjects without getting paid a cent for it because I was still in R&D phase. Nobody saw me as someone of worth status, worth listening to, that I was wasting my time. That's what EVERYBODY told me for years. EVERY SINGLE DAMN PERSON WITHOUT EXCEPTION said that I need to "get a real job". Screw every one of you 10x over for real. Look at me now.

Now that I can explain pathways better technically and such I can make this program work. This is going to be ground breaking and it will all be at that high ticket price because it's worth it and lots more. I am the only person on earth who knows this stuff so I will charge an arm and a leg for it and nobody can say otherwise because I'm the market leader when it comes to the mechanics of manifestation. That doesn't mean DOING IT will be any easier than knowing the free stuff really, it just means that the "proof" is there for it systematically speaking to KNOW that it WILL work IF you do it correctly.

20/11/25

Old media is way better. Objectively.

I want to talk about a phenomena I've observed. It's cancerous trash. It's basically about this idea that there's always something or someone better and that settling where you are is not what you want even though it's what you wanted anyway. The whole point of this is to recognize that a LOT of things we think we want we really don't. This is something that is probably the most uncomfortable thing to do because it's going to be looking at conditioning that brings us pleasure to some extent or another. This is what I recognized many years ago when I was doing early pathway work but I never knew how to work with it. I hear all the time in my coaching, especially when it comes to SP stuff, that they're entitled and deserving to have a relationship with X person. This attitude is cancerous but of course the SP space will blast me for saying that. Get schooled. Here we go. Damn I don't care one bit about holding mercy in for this point. I love tearing ignorance to shreds.

So the point of this is that what's stimulating in a sort of "needing" way is the problem. I've talked about this above and in other places but there's a clear discernable difference between the sensation of intuitive impulse that's stemming from Jing releasing as stimulation to drive natural innate response vs conditioned "needing" response that's sharp and more impactful where it narrows your view. Innate response won't often narrow your view. This is a point that pretty much nobody in LOA will talk about, because it goes against why it's profitable, AKA feeding into this "I need X now" sensation. It's a higher stimulations activation of heart qi in an excessive way. How do I know this? Because I've spent years observing the phenomena in myself and some that I've had expanded time to explore this with confirm my findings. TCM backs it up too, which is the foundation of how this came to be recognized as a factor. TCM is the thing that opens up variables to explore practically. The phenomena is about an excess in heart fire because of being conditioned to think that where you are now you can have the world. You get into a sort of "manic" type behavioral state where anyone who doesn't give you what you want now is seen as attacking you because they're going against the expectations that have been accepted as what should be normal. In the SP space this also means you can have anyone and control them like puppets. This is complete trash, and while yes technically you can get anyone and yes you can influence them, pulling them like puppets is just copium trash for metaphysically illiterate morons who can't accept the realty of how these mechanics work and that you must also offer something in return. None of this is a one way street, EVER.

You don't manifest people by living as a lowly little person, you manifest them because they want who you are because you nourish them. If who you're being doesn't give them a supply for their demand then attraction is impossible, because this is exactly why you wanted them in the fist place. Damn this trash, you don't pull anyone on strings and if it seems like you can then it's because you're offering something to that person that's stimulating their shen. You're not entitled to all this free stuff just because you exist, what a fool. That's not to say you can't get there, and as I said it's not about "being ok where you are" in the same sense that's marketed to us by the LOA space because who you think you think you are often times isn't really who you are and is unsatisfying at the core. You know that due to peak dip cycles but can't get there and accept that because seeing the things that provide you needless stimulation that mask how you really feel is what you thrive on to attain pseudo satisfaction. Therefore, we have all these massively entitled people who think that just because they exist (especially these younger women who need to get schooled and wake up to the conditioning from modern pretty princess media) and that they can have a 10/10 in every way simply because the idea exists in their minds. What they want is NOT the 10/10, but the one who satisfies their innate nature, not the conditioned nature who thinks that in order to be seen as someone of value then you need the 10/10 and that the most stimulating person will be who satisfies you the most when that's never been true on any level. This is the issue, the desire for the 10/10 lifestyle of being rich as with hot dates and all that stuff is the expectation for everyone to live up to when in reality there's less than a fraction of a percentage of people who can play that role. When 60+% of them desire this life, and only literally a small handful of people out there can actually provide that, then we've got mass delusion. It's out there, but it's the issue of those who are conditioned, not the ones who are actually in that place living as themselves in a self loving and functional way. The ones who manifest this don't get there through imaginal magic but through real innate transformation and acceptance of how you really feel, without exception.

How do we make sense of this more practically? Well it's simple. Charge phenomena reveals it all. This is what I've come to really simplify many of these complex processes I've explored over the time into. Charge phenomena reveals how you really feel. Noting the nature of somatic sensations and the intuitive level implication of what that means about you that runs next to the somatic and emotional current will open up understanding of what's real and what's not. Overlap the conscious and the unconscious mind. Whenever you're feeling need for something in an excessive manner that's really just petty and needless than you've got the perfect opportunity to understand where this came from and to throw that trash back where it came from if it's not yours. Most of the time if someone is in a higher state of baseline agitation then they'll seek more and more extreme examples of what stimulates their seemingly innate need in a warped way in order to avoid how they really feel.

That right there that I just said is the irrefutable proof of this mechanism. You will find this to be true in 100% of the cases, and that we never needed X thing to attain deep satisfaction because satisfaction is the only way you prevent aging since it's the marker of vital current spent properly according to how God moves you, which is the subtle intuitive impulse leading to involvement with such. Any time I hear someone come to me and say they deserve the 10/10 and their lives are still in a mess then I KNOW that's not what they really desire, and nobody in this space, no matter their experience, can tell me that this is going to end up in a satisfying healthy loving relationship because it's a one way street. The person who wants them doesn't love themselves and WILL project onto that person. Once again, been there done that, and it sucks. SP manifesting is not how it's marketed, at all. I will market it this way to get eyes though, because it's the only way to get someone into real teachings since the algo loves watch time where people hear what they want to hear from you.

My overall point as I said above is that most of the time it's the baseline state of agitation from unresolved past conflicts which cause this need for a more extreme of seeming love and to manifest a more perfect example of what they view love as to be satisfied since there's so much dysfunctional agitating heat in their circuits that's harassing the shen. They can't settle for a "lesser" example of love because that's not what stimulates them. CAN they get that actual 10/10 example? Yes. Been there before, but you'll find that you're not ready for those places even if you end up there for a while. It's not what you think, because you will project and they will likely as well to some extent and there will be both of your unresolved conflicts running up against each other and it's just trash and unsatisfying where the "dream" relationship ended up being a total nightmare. They're hot as the sun and yet that ends up not mattering at all, because it's a situation where you're not actually feeling seen, you're basically experiencing being with them but not with them. It's an interesting situation because those unresolved conflicts are also very uncomfortable to bring up and discuss for that party as well, else they'd have already gone through it now. I find that a majority of women especially the younger ones my age, they can't handle digging into the unconscious. It's almost impossible for them to accept that they feel this way because literally EVERY SINGLE FACET of their lives have validated the conditioning and put up solid walls around it to empower and support them expressing this warped view of self. It's insane. The men need to learn to say no, because this will force them to face the unconscious then, instead of playing along and validating it in hopes that the SP will change when they won't. I've ALWAYS manifested changes in women through being real with them instead of this imaginal trash that makes you think you can control them. No it's about self love, and if you accept how you really feel which is self love then you'll respond in a way that'll wake them up and call it magic when in fact all the magic of manifesting is the accepted unconditional love of God moving through you and manifesting the way you responded to impact their perceptions. You cannot control people, nobody has proven this. Every time it's a change in someone through seeming magic means it's because that person loved themselves more, and that impacted the way that person felt about them since then the supply/demand dynamic shifted.

I said above that it is ALL supply/demand. Push pull. Yin yang. This dynamic is universal and cannot be refuted on any level at all ever. It's just how it works and I can't stand this idea that NG pushed that from a distance he was the cause of someone else's fortune or misfortune because of what he imagined. What a joke. All you can do is suggest a direction of movement, and that suggestion when backed up by inner and necessary outer momentum will manifest the change, but thinking that the imaginal act in a vacuum can magically shift people is utterly insane and cannot be proven on any level. There's always a corresponding means of shift. Nobody just wakes up the next day and does a 180 flip, though I've experienced this before myself, and looking back there's always a means to facilitate their flip.

My experience is that women are looking for men to be the leaders of involvement, INVOLVEMENT. This is how I CHANGED them to become comfortable with things that were previously out of their way. I know how this works because I can reliably do it, not through imaginal magic but through involvement and implication of what that means about me and their relationship to me. It's ALL THEMATIC SUPPLY DEMAND DAMMIT I CAN'T MAKE THAT MORE CLEAR. It's ALL thematic supply demand. When you BE the supply then they will demand and follow. You MUST play that role though, and that involves self love to be there, else you'll be doing it out of projection and fail miserably. We are not here to manifest changes while being the same person, because we are not ourselves right now. We are living in the lives and expectations of others, else we'd be satisfied but we're not because this isn't our innate nature and how it's desiring expression through intuitive impulse. There's no way around it, if you're looking for someone to be with you, and they're providing supply to appease your conditioning, then you're manifesting someone who is stimulating an artificial pleasure response as a cope to how you really feel. You're into that person because they make you feel like you don't need to face your conditioning. They're your prefect love drug, not someone functional. Yet you'll cope and demand to me that I'm putting conditions on what you can have. I never approach this from validating what someone wants as they tell me but that what they feel is what they want because that's where God is communicating to them most directly. We've been disconnected from that sensation though. Sinking charge, gazing, this connects you to that, but it doesn't mean you'll magically live from it though. All the years I've dedicated and spent almost all day every day doing this work, it's all pointing to this.

I also need to reiterate, that yes, you can change people at a distance, because God plays all the roles through us and a change in your supply/demand will have impact at a distance, but I will always remind you that if this does happen it will happen naturally and without you doing it. It will come through you as God and not as who you think you think you are. The innate self will think, in state streak, a stabilized state. Inner imaginal scenes that reflect a state streak can work this mechanism to some extent too where looped imaginal acts can get you into that sense of flow where you "lose yourself" in that place. That's the goal of NG SATS if you ask me, but getting there is a challenge. It should in my experience if it'll manifest overnight things that you seem to consciously want, be shocking to a degree. That's the reality of experience of being IN thinking FROM. Every other time you'll have the thoughts flash through your mind magically almost and they will manifest like magic. I've had that happen, it does happen, but it's almost never because you "wanted" it to happen and thus consciously did it. You did it, but it came off the back of already established flow to some extent. The alchemist has explored this as well, where expansion of subconscious space accompanies state streaks and satisfying flow, EVEN IF it's "negative" things happening, but that stability is where the power is. Now if you're agitated at baseline you'll always be looking for someone or something to put out that agitating fire, thus we have the clear difference between satisfying flow of implied involvement and this agitating need for satisfaction, pseudo satisfaction that is. You can't get around that. We must learn to cut through the trash. Often times also being willing to "harm" others by putting them into situations that are very very tough because they're still compromising and not doing the inner work, is what's necessary to get them to do the work in actually loving themselves. This means stop being support for others and to leave them without support from pseudo satisfaction which you're enabling, as tough as that sounds. It's in my experience how you get people to wake up, giving them high contrast experiences where they're forced to face how they feel. The more you can put yourself in those places willingly as well then the better you'll have that baseline stability without underlying agitation.

Every one of these younger modern women who demand and demand and have all this entitlement and trash without lifting a finger to do anything of value for themselves innately or another, they need this treatment, to be forced to face how they feel. The only way to get there is to not feed their delusions, but since this is supply/demand, a guy who wants the 10/10 will get lust trapped by the juice and pay for all her demands and she'll suck him dry and he'll not get anything of value in return. What is this dynamic reflecting? Two very self hating people playing out their unconscious unresolved conflicts on each other calling it a so called relationship. Don't fall for any of this trash that you see on the surface about how "successful" someone is. It's that when you demand more than you're actually worth then the people who are desperate for approval form that person will sucker up and hope for them to give them what they want when that cannot happen. How do I know this? Once again, been there done that. It's almost as though I know what I am talking about from experience you think? It's not just the mechanics but observations that the mechanics explore fully. This is the solution. You love yourself and not play into their games. You live the life you know is real for you, and you will become attractive to that person in response if they're someone who loves themselves. If they don't love you back then they never loved themselves and therefore cannot love you in return. It's impossible and Jung himself said this as well. Refute Jung, not me. Good luck mate.

Fact is that this space makes me sick. Coaching these SP clients is nightmare fuel because they all want me to validate their trash that's been smashed into their head that they deserve the 10/10 SP without lifting a finger. Wake up. Every coach behind the scenes if you listen to them enough will tell you they totally changed how they lived and became a totally different person to manifest the ex back. Why? Because you love yourself more and now become the leader of thematic supply/demand that they can ride in on. They'll see you as attractive now because you're able to open space for them to involve in a life that they wouldn't be able to have otherwise. You have what they desire. Thematic supply/demand. Someone who's unconditionally loving doesn't see that as necessary and sees you as minimalistic as possible and loves your innate nature above all else, since they're not agitated and don't need massive stats to feel like they're satisfied. This 666 expectation for guys comes from everyone that's agitated and has issues they're unwilling to look at. Those people are the trash who need to be thrown on the streets and left to burn in their own heart fire until they too throw back the expectations to the ones who conditioned them just as you did. We negate, we remove not self, not add on more to who we think we think we are.

Nobody in LOA will tell you that but me because it's how it works. I've heard them all, I have paid for their programs and seen what they teach, it's all clear to me. It's not mind magic, it never was and never will be and if you still think that then you're still stuck in cope to avoid how you really feel and to involve yourself in living that life for real. Being spontaneous is how that works. This is the truth of how this works because it applies in every example without exception. All the magic is explained. What now? Be real. Be honest. Be raw. Don't tolerate the trash of others. Have solid boundaries of what you accept in and what you reject as trash. Be real. That's self love and that's how you get attraction from those who have self love and will reciprocate more unconditionally than others. Don't get stuck in these trash cycles of holding onto conditions and expectations and living with hope that someone will change. Any change happens in your first. There is no one to change but self - NG. No compromise. That's the only way you win in life, recognizing and accepting that it's not ALL YOUR trash that manifests seemingly unfortunate things. Other people will project their trash onto you, but if you love yourself you will reject that and throw it back where it came from instead of being a doormat who takes their pseudo satisfaction cycle to appease the condition which cannot happen. The only way to win is to be real.

I seriously keep coming full circle with this stuff. It's just more refinement that's minor that simplifies stuff I've already been through. Every time I go to edit the program it makes me need to edit 10 other sections of it to keep an idea consistent. Rewriting it all isn't fun.

Modern media implants these whacked messiah complexes in peoples minds, that they're perfect and can have anything and be anyone and all that without actually being challenged for it in any meaningful way. They're not questioning what they feel they're not cutting through expectations and conditions of others, they're not facing the purifying fire of the heroes journey. It's just "I am therefore I am worth", which is correct in principle, but that's not where we are. God underlies that, not the not self. It's not the same.

Consistently theming your life around one focused direction is the way to greatness. Welcome to how RS exists.

21/11/25

Old media didn't care about how you felt. It challenged you. Now it's safe. This is the missing piece. What's important to us is what expands us, and that's satisfying.

"The man who broke Neville Goddard in half"

22/11/25

Late night/early morning post. Woke up thinking about something I never had answers to. Now I do. I really hate typing on the phone but it’s whatever. Give me my mechanical keyboard for this any day.

So LOA in this space is taught through solipsism. Obviously. Solipsism says we create everything out of thin air. God is dreaming the dream of life and you are in a dream that’s reflecting your feelings about life. They never tell you where it starts off or what those mechanics are (which they should if that’s their claim) but of course they respond with something like how NG said “you come in with a state but it’s getting them out of the state that’s the challenge” (paraphrasing). His quote here seems to prove that other people do exist, or at least as characters. Remember he called other people “slaves” and “mechanised dolls”? I’ve quoted that before. There’s other quotes too.

So my point here is that according to some who preach his doctrine that feeling emotionally about something represents the belief in it and that the feeling is the secret to create new outcomes, meaning we must feel positive for positive things to happen. So here’s my critique of that idea. Firstly these people are telling us that we aren’t supposed to have our full range of emotions because only some of them are actually beneficial for us. According to these people feeling anything except wonder and excitement and bliss is not beneficial to us. If this is the way creation is built and our consciousness exits then I wonder why we even have these feelings and such in the first place if God creates everything through those emotional senses. What funny is that most of the time when you get real with how you feel then other people change, when instead you stay stuck by ignoring red flags and gaslighting yourself endlessly until you snap and then they change. This happens all the time to everyone on earth without exception and we all know it. So the mechanism of feeling positive to make positive things happen and maintaining positive feelings as the cause of a good life is already refuted here in this example we’ve all experienced. There’s nothing beneficial to that trash of “maintaining feeling” which I did many years ago and it destroyed my life. I turned my affirmation into a catchy rhyme in my head and it got looped endlessly and I felt as positive as I could. I slept feeling like I was genuinely happy for being rich and I had all the positive thoughts naturally pop up through the implied pathway cascade and yet I had basically zero positive manifestations. All I got was opposite results. The few days I did get positive results was when I gave up.

So why is it then that the feelings that you consciously hold and maintain more often than not end up causing suffering? It’s when you’re actually satisfied with life and the feeling comes through you that positive stuff happens because it’s available at baseline and you’re not doing it to avoid how life sucks to change things. These people are full of useless ignorant trash. I’ve already recorded another video yesterday that I’ll put up on Monday that refutes this idea. Recorded it before I even had this idea interestingly. These people tell us that we can’t have all of our thoughts or feelings because only some of them are beneficial for us. This is insane. What kind of sick God would create such a torture for self? Oh wait apparently some think also that suffering and death are pleasurable releases from life sucking. Yeah right what a load of trash from people who are totally disassociated from how they really feel.

23/11/25

"Another lady wrote saying she found herself in a huge domed room, which she knew to be her skull. Awake and aware as she had never been before, she was aware of the immensity of space as she awoke. Finding herself awake in God’s tomb, she has resurrected. This event is followed by the birth from above. Although she did not bring forward her exit from her skull, she has been born from above. In her letter, she said: “After this experience the world seemed to change. The people began to take on the appearance of mechanized dolls and the world a huge doll house.” She saw correctly, for the world outside is truly filled with mechanized dolls. Every event in the world contains the capacity for symbolic significance. Everything there is dead, simply bearing witness to the imaginal acts of men." NG lecture - Sharing in creativity - 1968

Right there is that quote that NG said about how everyone are just "mechanized dolls" and that seeing people this was a sign of spiritual enlightenment basically. Very sick and cultish if you ask me. You could argue that he's making the point that the world is the reflection of the inner state (which then has thematic correspondence) but I've heard him speak over and over about how other people are just in states that he can control and he in fact stated that he was the direct cause of the misfortune of some woman he knew because he imagined it to be so.

By the way I just want to mention that coolwisdombooks.com is completely trash and makes you dig in the HTML to extract quotes. That's why I'm so disappointed that nevillegoddardbooks.com went down because it had perfect copy paste formatting.

24/11/25

IMPRES'SION, noun [Latin impressio.] The act of impressing, as one body on another; as a figure made by impression

1. Mark; indentation; stamp made by pressure; as, a seal makes an impression on wax.

2. The effect which objects produce on the mind. Thus we say, the truths of the gospel make an impression on the mind; they make no impression or a deep and lasting impression The heart is impressed with love or gratitude. We lie open to the impressions of flattery.

3. Image in the mind; idea.

4. Sensible effect. The artillery made no impression on the fort. The attack made no impression on the enemy.

5. A single edition of a book; the books printed at once; as a copy of the last impression The whole impression of the work was sold in a month.

6. Slight, indistinct remembrance. I have an impression that the fact was stated to me, but I cannot clearly recollect it.

That's from the original Websters dictionary.

So according to Webster (a linguistic genius) the effect of impression (as in "subconscious impression") is to move current in our field geometry so that we feel that moment as something which holds significance to us. A moment of heightened awareness. It moves us, it takes our attention. A mark that something or an experience we had has on us, which is the first definition. A lasting impression, an effect of experience, a memory or moment or idea associated that holds significance, This is what "subconscious impression" according to defined meaning represents.

So practically speaking, this impression is able to be experienced from moments that stand out and hold lasting meaning to us in how we respond to the world. It's that this "impression" is literally a set response to something you experienced, meaning how you respond when those thematics surface will come through you according to what that meaning represents about you. So an impression that's subconscious is a felt experience of high contrast that means something about you that's significant. It would produce a change in how you respond by default because of that experience.

""My imagination puts me in touch inwardly with that state. I imagine that I am actually where I desire to be. How can I tell that I am there? There is one way to prove that I am there, for what a man sees when he describes his world is, as he describes it, relative to himself. So what the world looks like depends entirely upon where I stand when I make my observation. So, if as I describe my world it is related to that point in space I imagine that I am occupying, then I must be there. I am not there physically, no, but I AM there in my imagination, and MY IMAGINATION IS MY REAL SELF! And where I go in imagination and make it real, there I shall go in the flesh, also. When in that state I fall asleep, it is done. I have never seen it fail. So this is the simple technique upon how to use your imagination to realize your every objective."

Another quote from NG. I've been hearing a lot about this "inner" vs "outer" man discussion. The premise here is that the inner man is the real you because that's able to experience anything at any time (not true because if you try to constantly think of something on loop you're going to go insane and probably harm the outer man) and thus the outer man doesn't matter at all. He also made the outlandish claim here that if you sleep in a state you will always manifest what you slept in. "I have never seen it fail". WHAT A LOAD OF TRASH. That's INSANE. By the way doing advanced gazing and being able to take that state into the void that you can move into is the same thing as entering into sleep with it, because you're operating at the level of space of the subconscious mind. That's all you're doing, and thus NG when he did teach gazing to make it work, is operating the same function. There is NO MAGIC TO SLEEPING IN A STATE. Doing gazing and experiencing the same thing is taking lower base aspects into a higher order level of operation and living there in state streak, Thing is usually that when you're open to that level it'll come to you, which is what happens when you do advanced gazing.

What all these morons in this space don't grasp, because they're alchemically illiterate, is that it's that the imagination should be viewed under this context of the "inner man" as the currents that correspond to the higher levels of operation as self. The real you is the inner man, the activating current, and that holds the blueprint for your thematic processes you're unfolding in life. These are fixed, thematically speaking, and that determines how you feel relatively speaking to who you are. The inner imaginal man is that higher level connection to innate self, the higher genius EXTENDED into and AS your corporeal being that's the container to house more of that illuminating current which unfolds through the seeming outer man. Saying that you ARE LITERALLY the inner man/imagination is correct in that sense, though interpreting that as your imaginal senses are that is stupid. The imaginal senses are not magical in any sense, they're a means of relaying innate thematic currents into sense perception. Everyone has different levels of access to that, and those with aphantasia who don't have imaginal senses (a contracted subconscious mind) can still experience the "inner man" because of the felt reality of experience of "targeting" ideas. They use ideas, the intuitive level subconscious targeting sense (which was my original definition for the "feeling") in order to activate those currents. Those currents stem from the higher innate nature and expand into your thematic supply/demand process. They're not causal and cannot be causal because they're a translation layer, though it also works in reverse where the corporeal being will hold thoughts that translate into currents that drive the not self. The innate nature always comes THROUGH you though, and that's why it's negentropic and leads to conservation of Jing.

"Your unexpressed convictions of others are transmitted to them without their conscious knowledge or consent, and IF subconsciously accepted by them will influence their behavior. The only ideas they subconsciously reject are your ideas of them which they could not wish to be true." - Prayer the art of believing

Well well well. What do we have here. Here's NG telling us that we can't control other people if they aren't able to be suggested to, which is actually how I've experienced this personally and what many of my stories are based on. HE SAID IT HIMSELF. Thing is that people will claim that since this was his early books and he later says people are like slaves and mechanized dolls then this is null and void. Well there you have it, he contradicted himself later on. Which teaching is more valid? Well in my experience the earlier ones are, because I've never been able to totally 180 someone in some insane way. I've been able to make them 180 but that was almost always because I changed as well, as in I was able to cut through deep conditioning within myself and or involve myself with that person to provide a comfortable foundation for them to stand on. Modern late NG LOA doctrine denies ALL behavioral psychology it seems. Calling people slaves is just mentally ill and cultish. He's basically saying that nobody exists in their own right with their own free will to decide what they want, and that they're all just dolls to play with like puppets in a play that your imagination can enact. Very very childish. Nobody who says that can prove it, and they'll say that if I don't see evidence then that's my reality showing me what I believe. Thing is that when I was in the LOA space deeply and ACTUALLY BELIEVED IT I still saw no actual proof, and the proof was very very surface level and probably fake. Nobody was able to systematically as far as I could tell prove manifesting miracles out of thin air. It's all just fake trash.

NG calling people slaves is a new low to me. The mechanized dolls was bad enough but slaves is just insane and tells you about how he really thinks and sees other people. If you're operating as the higher genius, then yes, people are slaves, but he wasn't at that level because he died a horrible death and suffered immense pain leading up to it for years from chronic alcoholism that he seemed to be powerless to stop. Why the heck would anyone WANT TO EXPERIENCE PAIN IF THEY COULD CONTROL IT YOU TELL ME. He was in pain as I've clearly stated many times as his later lectures have him talking about "having a devil of a day" and going to the doctors because of his condition. Doesn't sound like he's a master at manifesting now does it. Also do keep in mind, he also said his wife MANIFESTED HIM, not the other way. So what is it? Does she exist and have free will or is it the other way around?? Who knows. These constant games are just revealing the inconsistencies in his teachings that you really can't reconcile.

The ONLY way to make sense of the slaves and dolls quotes is to see them as explaining that we're all operating from the innate level as slaves, slaves to God that is, and even the alchemist has called us "puppets" many times. I agree with this, because that fixed point of comparison is the source of pressure to expand. That's the only way to make sense of it, though as I've said we really don't know

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"As I said I do not see anything "negative" about your post, though you've clearly not studied my writings which answer all theses questions and 100x more.

Firstly NG himself did in fact say that there are 2 TYPES of states (eternal and created) and that there are LIKE infinite states but there's not. HE SAID THAT. I don't have the quote off the top of my head from which lecture but it's in my notes somewhere. So I'm not cherry picking points, I'm saying that if he said these things then he's either contradicting himself or there's a deeper doctrine that I've decoded that everyone else is missing. Correct? How else can you make sense of that.

The other part is that you still believe that doing something that focuses attention on the thing makes it show up. That's not true. Did you not read my comment clearly enough as I said you're already desiring it anyway and have thoughts of it flash through your mind, else why would you want it? My point exactly. Nobody can agree on how to make it work, and those who are illiterate to the variables that prove causality will say "it all works so long as you believe" and yet there's examples where that's not true in life as well. Children getting abused for example, that's a "shocking" experience that totally goes against what is expected or believed, hence why it's traumatizing. We all have these show up, so it's not a fact of reality, because if it was it would work every time without exception but it doesn't. So my point about why you don't need to do any specific manifesting methods is that you being yourself (operating from intuitive impulse for example) leads you naturally into those places of having those things as clear suggestions for experience that God unfolds through you.

You can desire specific things, 100%, I've made that happen more times than I can count especially with older tech like audio and display kit I wanted that you can't even buy anymore and getting it for free almost every time. It's available to me and I'm comfortable accepting where intuitive impulse leads me, which is where God comes through me to move me where I think I'm doing it but I'm not since I'm fully comfortable with the IMPLICATION of that in my life. With SP, it's the same, where if you want a specific person (NG never taught SP manifesting in his early days by the way he said that if someone doesn't want you then you can't get them as for example in "prayer the art of believing" book) then you can get a specific person as I've done, but they NEVER showed up for me in a SATISFYING way through doing ANY methods to "make" it work. ANY time I fixated on them I put them on the position of being my supply of stimulation, to satisfy me, and thus our psychological dynamics were warped where I'd always be looking for proof EVEN WHEN I WAS WITH THEM. I never changed internally, and that also proves that you can be with someone even if you're in doubt and have fear. I've NEVER taught anything other than to be real as yourself, and every method such as gazing facilitates that, because the desire is already done ahead of time else you'd not desire it. Desire is a wish, as I said before, which NG said comes from God through you, and if you're an open vessel to be moved by that instead of your conditioning as not self then you'll get it 100% of the time WHICH IS THE LAW AND ASSUMPTIONS MADE MANIFEST.

The point is that all you need to do is assume it, correct? That's why it's the "law of assumption" but all these people are operating under not self trying to assume that the not self has it. Now you may think that contradicts what I said before about how you can be in not self and manifest SP as I said I did and felt anxiety still, but how that always ends no matter what is unsatisfying outcomes as I am sure you'll know to be true from experience. Manifesting the "thing" in a specific manner isn't too difficult especially if involvement is available for you to overlap their reality through shared points of interest as an example. The thing that is difficult for most is living in a HEALTHY FUNCTIONAL relationship, WHICH REQUIRES INNER TRANSFORMATION 100% OF THE TIME. You don't "manifest" someone to be that way and become a full on puppet slave to you, because despite what we'd like to think, they do exist and do have feelings and an innate self. They too have compromise patterns and I've manifested SP's who have been this way and compromised to keep me happy, and I called it "success" when in fact they boiled up under the surface in suffering where down the track it explodes. You ignore the red flags and remain in this assumption that they're conforming but isn't that how we all think and that never happens if those red flags continue to pop up? Does NG LOA refute ALL behavioral psychological dynamics and see it as a bunk science? Are those mechanics just a belief in the mind? No. Thinking so is insane and you know that.

Why do I say this? Because it's necessary to ask such questions if such experiences continue to surface that everyone seems to run into. Variables, isolated variables of data that show trends. You see? We're told to continue to basically treat others as our play puppets (NG called other people "mechanized dolls" and "slaves" remember) in order to get what we want but isn't that once again the perception of someone who's mentally ill? Someone sociopathic who denies the feelings of others and overrides them so that you can project your desires onto that person for them to play the role you want them to. This is EXACTLY the psychology of how ALL children are abused, a parental figure in a position of authority who can GET AWAY with projecting. NG is telling us to functionally live like Abdullah and be willing to not give a damn what anyone thinks. You simply assume you have what you want and step on the toes of anyone to get there, and since what you desire comes through you naturally in how you respond if you're in comfort and acceptance of it (the state of the wish fulfilled) then you'll influence that person who's now relying on you as supply in their reality to stimulate their projections. We ALL manifest what stimulates us, which is what "lights us up" and is the activation of shen, heart fire. Desire is this as TCM clearly proves. You can operate in this place and almost bend reality around you, I've done that with people but it takes that shen being active enough to not waver. The degree to which you can truly maintain faith and stability of state when in the face of opposite circumstances is to feel that shen anchored and activated continually.

How do you do that? You live a life you desire in all surrounding ways that supports you being that person. Common sense right? This is how conditions work. Oh I'm not good looking enough for them. I'm not wealthy enough for them. I'm not this or that enough for X thing. Conditions. They don't really matter, but we automatically think about them because of the lack of supply of those currents to illuminate the shen into being confident and activated to being the supply that others will want. Meridian dynamics work and there's many experiments that can prove this I've done over the time which can go totally against what practical methods of LOA preaches because it's building up support on that more principle level of your consciousness which then your psychology reflects. Assumptions stem from available currents. So when you have a desire for something and it comes through you suddenly as a flash of the image of what you want and you're comfortable with that then it's done and WILL manifest in the near future. I've had this happen with thoughts I randomly had that manifested WHICH WERE THIRD PERSON AND DIDN'T IMPLY PRESENT TENSE EXERIENCE IN SENSORY DETAIL, but the implication and "felt reality of experience" as the basis of assumption WAS there, PROVING MY POINT.

Isolation of these variables demonstrates that functionally you don't ever need to consciously imagine to get it, and when NG said that he's doing it to lead you into comfort with the thing. States are degrees of acceptance of self, function of self, self love. The desire comes through you, is already there and done before you even thought about it in capacity, so you tell me then what "causes" manifestation given all the variables being isolated? "Acceptance of the wish fulfilled" is what NG said, which is comfort towards involving with that thing, meaning intuitive impulse leads you into the right place at the right time to manifest it, but it's all God moving you through the current dynamics since you're "acceptance" IS the belief IS the comfort for involvement without conditions to avoid natural striving. I mean if you don't understand yet then I don't know what else I can say.

You do imaginal scenes at night, and maybe 1% of the time those details manifest at best. What if I told you that living a satisfying nourishing day where you're calm stable and secure where you are is one of the most powerful manifesting methods? Because you'll sleep by DEFAULT in a comfortable satisfied place while imagining it AUTOMATICALLY BECAUSE YOU WANT TO. It won't be then a NEED it will be "this would be nice to have" WHICH I'VE EXPERIENCED SO MANY TIMES IT'S INSANE. The AUTOMATIC imaginal acts you perform SPONTANEOUSLY because you're in that satisfied state already through being yourself which is loving yourself will open up that naturalness that NG is getting you to attempt to stimulate consciously but can't succeed because you're operating from not self still in an attempt basically to cope with the fact that your life actually sucks. The desire becomes the escape, instead of the accompaniment. Things you're comfortable with you'll naturally manifest because you'll basically have established patterns of behavior that serve you involved with it. Same thing here.

So the details don't matter because it's perfect already. It's within you already. People with aphantasia manifest specific things all the time without imaginal senses. You can think "it would be nice if ___" and manifest it. IT DOESN'T NEED TO BE FIRST PERSON PRESENT TENSE and me and my client stories IRREFUTABLY PROVE THIS.

So with the idea that I'm just "predicting the future" or whatever, it's not that, because NG himself said creation is already finished, so how in your terms then is that any different? You're "selecting" states, realities, which NG did say there's NOT infinite states remember. It's that God has unfolded predetermined innate affinities on a thematic level as NG himself said as "wishes"/desires come from God and are gifts from God. He said that in the four mighty ones and seedtime and harvest. It's that our wishes are already done, they're gifts to us, and thus those fleeting thoughts can manifest because THEY ARE ALREADY DONE IN HIS OWN COSMOLOGY. Is this not correct?

I just can't emphasize the insane amount of ignorance out there about what NG taught. NONE of these people come at this from a functional alchemical perspective which is the foundation of the bible as an instruction manual on how to overlap states to perform inner alchemy. That's what it is, and NG preached an offshoot of this doctrine that goes way back prior to his work by the way. NG didn't have the deepest interpretation. Christ in occult alchemy is the product of the first order lesser conjugation and is a reflected principle IN EVERY ALCHEMICAL SYSTEM EVER CREATED, especially those in the east like Daoist systems which I've studied extensively too. Mother Mary is the subconscious mind in the bible, the higher order yin, which gives birth to the Christ child through overlapping fire and water, sun and moon, sol and lunar. Until you're born from above then you cannot see the kingdom of heaven, as a level of access to the "stellar" space where I AM is truly housed in isolation for knowledge and conversation with the personified aspects of those currents I talk about. This is what advanced gazing and immortality leads to, you being able to walk inside the "level" of expanded awareness of the subconscious mind itself and to view reality through that lens. This is a degree of self love and function as self because it's only through clearing the unconscious trash through overlapping fire and water that earth or mother Mary of the Christ child can be experienced. Every time you do an imaginal act you're operating from the Mother Mary level, the subconscious earth element level. Remember NG did teach the 4 elements as well, as in the "four mighty ones" and in seedtime and harvest. The interpretation I gave you though is FAR more ancient than what he wrote and is cross references and overlaps between the west and the east and can be irrefutably proven in lab alchemy for preparing alchemical quintessence to be consumed, not as a placebo but a substance that's thematically pure to the elements being integrated through ingestion.

Never forget that NG did talk about astral projection too. "Then I found myself clothed in a garment of light and attached by a silvery elastic cord to the body on the bed" - The Search - 1946. This is proof of what I'm saying. His cosmology doesn't negate the existence of functional alchemy and these levels of experience being FIXED within all of us as capacities for experience. CAPACITIES. Being yourself manifests automatically because all of those thematic currents that emanate from those higher levels that can have influence over reality can lead you and those involved to manifest the things desired (which are already done remember AS CAPACITIES/GIFTS from God as NG himself said) which is why I say that you don't need to consciously imagine to manifest anything. Consciously involving yourself in the reality of experience of being yourself DOES manifest because that's moving the currents that come through you naturally and all that, which is what I teach to "make it work". The techniques have less than a 4% success rate (as clients have told me from being in other coaches who failed them what the rates of results are that they don't tell you), and if you ask me, it's much closer to .5% given ALL the data of all the failures as well that are the silent majority.

I'm here to destroy the conventional LOA doctrine so systematically that there's nothing left but absolute dust in the wind and I hold no mercy or compromise in refuting all the trash out there."

Read through these and you'll find common threads.

https://www.reddit.com/r/NevilleGoddardCritics/comments/1hozhuy/law_of_assumption_failure_stories_index/

These people have been hurt and LOA made them buy into the delusions that they're the problem and nobody else is. They never felt through their pressure to accept who they really are, and make decisions accordingly. Most of the stories where people end up in crazy unlucky situations stem from needlessly stimulating themselves with the highs that imaginal stuff gives you which is never really transforming. The imaginal acts should always be through means of representing owning innate self.

So we’re looking for a way of targeting stable foundation that’s got stable Shen.

Think of things that are relaxing. Nourishing. Satisfying. Experiences that you could just “let go” and surrender to be consumed by. This isn’t really about a bliss but about “peace” more or less. Peace should be our target, the sign of a well anchored Shen. .

25/11/25

Bleh screw this I need more available data for this. The ONE thing I KNOW I will benefit from. What is that you may ask? A highly accessible NG mentalism refutation page with a bunch of quotes and common rebuttals all thrown onto one easy to read page. Be as efficient as possible and throw it around like a meme to propagate the fire that will destroy all the other coaches on earth 10x over. I will reign supreme. Screw all of these people it's time we take them down with hard facts that corner the reader into accepting the reality of things. That's what this will do. Provide basic ideas using his own language and prove that the common narrative makes no sense.

26/11/25

The amount of seeming contradictions in the lectures NG has transcribed is off the charts. I know what he means by the things he's saying but if you read it at face value you're going to be in for a world of pain.

"Well, what has that to do with one entertaining these emotions with feeling, intense feeling, and then forgetting it, not knowing that the effect (when it takes place . . and it is a natural and a real effect) that it is related to a spiritual cause, and the spiritual cause is nothing more than a motion within themselves." - Many mansions lecture 1969

"And God is our own wonderful, human Imagination. So whatever takes place is simply movement within God."

"As I stand here, my adjustment is only in my Imagination. I don’t walk into the place . . I don’t travel into it. I simply adjust it here: close my eyes to the obvious, and then assume that it is here and clothe myself with the reality of the state of my selection." - same lecture and so on unless said otherwise

This for example represents "impression" what is what I explored the other day more with the definition listed from the original Websters dictionary. I'm tapping more into this for practical purposes of refining the use of implied involvement and making manifesting work more efficiently. We know the foundational mechanics but there's more refinement of practical to be done.

Impression as we explored is a meaningful experience that represents something about you. Impression IS a movement of current. PERIOD. That's what's "felt". Obviously it's not emotional because NG himself said it's not and emotional highs don't manifest positive things as we've all tested that and it doesn't do anything. Emotional positivity or really any emotional feeling doesn't have really much power in itself because it's not causal. Implication is causal because it will move currents in the pathway cascades. I believe I've got the perfect way of explaining this on an inner and outer level and how they work the same mechanism even better now. I wrote notes on this last night when I woke up and couldn't sleep again because I had all this magical insight that needed logging down. Again and again and again it keeps happening and I can't seem to stop it, not without deliberate intent. My flow is so established with this work it's insane how locked in this is. I do nothing.

So the "reality of experience" is the thing that moves current. it's not magical it just activates the channels that thematically correspond to what's being experienced and thus activates them to experience the psychological state. The moods, emotional senses, somatic sensations, even 5 sense impressions, it's all in effect of this coming through you. We know that the current drives imaginal senses without our conscious will using it because we think 99% of our thoughts totally unconsciously every day. The currents that move manifest these things, and our environment we're in typically is what brings them out of us through what that experience implies about us. Correct? We all know this. So NG is telling us basically to willingly put ourselves into environments and circumstances inwardly that represent and imply an autosuggested reality of experience to move current and "impress" that as though it's real to us to establish a new baseline of comfort for that thing.

Let me make this make more sense here. You're going to progressively through repeated approach (involvement and thus "faith" is generated) and this will make the movement of going through that micro state streak if we wish more and more automatic and natural because the once highly charged conflicts that we held charge for have been gradually nullified of their importance as the involvement continues as an effect of implication from that involvement. If that made sense to you then you'll KNOW how external work can do the same thing as inner work, though inner work isn't limited to what's tangibly available for you to apply since you can experience anything in the inner level at any time effectively. The problem with doing this inwardly is that you NEED to generate the ACTUAL "reality of experience" under pressure. When I do this, and I imagine certain things while more "distant" from it I feel positive towards it, and yet when I go deeper into the reality of that being real for me (impossible to explain how with words other than you just go "deeper" into immersion/involvement which by the way CAN TAKE A SINGLE SECOND TO FEEL a "shock" from) and I'd feel sadness. Actual sadness like tears wanting to form but not quite all the way. My point here is that the response you get will often be VERY different from thinking "of" as NG says. This MATTERS A LOT for making ACTUAL shifts inwardly. In any other case I find that you're just doing imaginal stuff to dance around the edges of how you really feel while never fully going all the way into and cutting through the implication. Those feelings that represent the reality of how you feel are always there waiting for triggering, for those pathway cascades to illuminate, but you're not going all the way when you just "think" of it. That's the thing, immersion MATTERS ifff you're trying to get this level of the work done. Saying it doesn't matter is just insane really because I've experienced this first hand where when I imagined being with my SP in front of the people who hurt me it elicited all that trash in me that needed cutting through in response. I already felt that before but that was the "impression" for me I believe, because it's what I remember the most clearly, even though I only experienced it for about 7 seconds or so max. I didn't spend much time looping, I just "went into it all the way" so to say and cut off their influence on who I could be.

This is the thing, how you feel when you're in the reality of experience of being that person for real will be often times NOT positive. If you imagining the thing you want and not feeling uncomfortable then it's unlikely you're deep enough into it. Many clients I do pathway work with live experience this by the way, and often deep trauma from decades ago surfaces that they're totally unconscious of as soon as they touch into it for real. It's that they're going deeper into overlapping the water and the fire and the implication of that will be experienced. They're effectively going into resolving the unresolved conflict to own more of who they are to then naturally be moved as such on the outer level. Thing is that you don't need to do inner level stuff like this to make movement there it can just be going all the way on the outer, else people with aphantasia can't manifest, which goes against "the law". It's us making necessary decisions under pressure to be who we really want to be and own our innate nature and how we really feel which allows us to accept what we really want without contrast barriers and conditions in the way.

As you continue to expose yourself to this you'll find yourself no longer running up against those walls and feeling the hesitation because that charge that represents the stuck unresolved conflict you feel as pressure to compromise to keep the expectations happy and those who impressed them in you, those currents are now able to freely move as who you are through you without that contrast. This is what really matters, and is what the causal mechanism is. Moving current through you is how all manifestation is done. It moves through you and through all involved.

Just had this idea. Totally random. God plays all roles. God is the source of emanation of your components that you're here to be the puppet to play all those necessary roles for those components to conjugate into one thing again without a loss of your identification in the process. Lead to gold. So experiencing things more from the frame of reference of God is simply accepting the currents that come through you that are coming from that source, and you have no free will at all to stop it because God always unfolds through all of us. Now this is totally off the cuff but I believe that our perceptions are in fact controlled from above, and the reason why I've already explained before but one such example is people totally independently of each other inventing the same thing within the same year. 911 for example as well, there's at least 18 different references in media talking about an event VERY VERY similar to what happened. You've probably seen many of them, and knowing the impact of this event, it really shows what I'm talking about. It seems that these roles that certain people are cast in, at least thematically speaking, are pre-determined by God "for the work yet to be done in him" as NG says. Juize play a major part in this it seems, and is why I say that the light people continue to play the roles of the protagonists of the story of life according to seedline doctrine which is the only real coherent physical interpretation of scripture. People continue to come to my comments and say "this isn't manifesting", referencing what I'm teaching to not be what NG was teaching. Well obviously if you've read this far you'd know that I've been on point this whole time pretty much, but when NG said that one guy who wrote some story about the titanic sinking years before it happened and that WW2 happened because of a conversation at a dinner table or something with a family gathering, we can actually agree with him IF we interpret it through the lens of this mechanic here that I've explained. God comes through us, and we imagine automatically about all of those experiences that are to unfold in a flash. That's an impression, is it not?

Got 2 messages from 2 different people within 3 seconds JUST NOW. Oh yeah and I also woke up this morning and thought to myself after hearing the car of my neighbor about to drive off, remembering that I needed to hand them something they needed from me before they left (they leave very early for work) I imagined in my mind them knocking on my window to ask me for it before they leave. Guess what happened? A bird smacked into my window LITERALLY SECONDS AFTER I IMAGINED IT AS A FLASH IN MY HEAD. He didn't knock on my window, he drove off and seemed to have forgotten, but the bird that smacked into my window seemed very very eerie in the way it happened. I almost couldn't believe it. That was the first thing I logged down this morning after what was given to me last night in revelation of more of these mechanics. The bird that smacked into my window RIGHT AFTER thinking about how he's going to knock on my window. I imagined the sound of him knocking on my window and a flash of an image in third person of it happening from like the corner of my room or something looking out the window. BOOM the bird smacked into my window and it made the noise. I couldn't believe it. I've had clients tell me similar things happen, most often after being in deep gazing sessions where they get thoughts come through them like their imaginal senses are "forced open" and then that thing manifests either within minutes or hours later that day. It's a thing I observe every now and then, strange almost impossible coincidences. I had ZERO intention to manifest anything about a knock on my window, but the "impression" of it (which by the way the thought to me felt like ANY OTHER THOUGHT I'D HAVE IT WASN'T SPECIAL other than "oh I need to get up like right now" (paraphrased) THEN BOOM) seemed to have this power. Zero conscious will, and NG did in fact say that impressions we don't intend to have also manifest.

"So the one who is now so just . . he may not be conscious of the fact that he has moved into that state literally, and therefore really is a just man, for he is only expressing the state in which he has placed himself. He might have been placed in that state deliberately, or accidentally. If it is done deliberately . . good!"

I mean there's other examples of this playing out too but it seems that this unconscious state stuff manifests fast especially when you've spent time in lucid states operating INSIDE the subconscious mind/aetheric body. I had literally zero intent at all I was pretty tired really and all I thought about was how I needed to get up ASAP from hearing his car start up to get him what he needed and yet BOOM there's the bird hitting my window just as I imagined the scene unconsciously about the window being "knocked" on to get my attention. I mean what's the odds of that. I've never been able to get this to apply to changing others in some crazy radical way on the spot like that but this is proof of an unconscious "instant" manifestation if you'd call it that. I had zero effort it happened through me like it was going to happen anyway.

The more that you operate from this widened awareness AT BASELINE (as a degree of "closeness" with the subconscious level itself through overlapping states in gazing for example) then it seems the more "luck" you have. Agitation keeps you locked into not self trash obviously which isn't functional and so sinking charge and all that stuff is effectively boosting this coherency with the innate nature at baseline.

So if NG by telling us that we need a moment of heightened awareness in order to create, then explain all the examples where things manifest that are the opposite, like you're almost in an unconscious state streak of experiencing an implication. That manifests too, for example when I watched that old TV show and then manifested it again the next day by finding DVD's under the house of that same show I didn't know I had. I had zero intention of watching more but they showed up, interestingly enough. It's like with the bird example. This phenomena is also applied to manifesting SP, money, moving house, getting contact from old friends and such, except it's done through just being involved in living the life you want. That's not even factoring in regular repeated implied involvement of being in the role of expanding into being the person you want to be for real.

All of the NG quotes I've seen about "feeling" almost invariably relate to an experience of heightened awareness, which I can agree with, though it's not the heightened awareness in my experience that manifests because there's way to many examples that refute this idea. The NG buffs will blindly believe it, or whatever the coaches say, and even with what I've said in my latest videos people still throw baseless criticism at me over and over. Can't win, which I accept. I just need to have the necessary impact that represents me being who I am driven to be.

The feeling as I know it is all about movement of current. ALL about that. The theory I've put together so far has zero refutation and works 100% of the time. Applying this into unique scenarios internally is entirely dependent on someone knowing what they actually want and being willing to cut through the conditions. What I find to work most of the time for myself and clients is that they imagine having the thing under pressure, despite what NG said. This works the same mechanism anyway, as I've fully explained, though for those who say they imagine and have things manifest without feeling pressure, those things were supported by external outer level implied involvement that autosuggests the contextual availability of those themes of experience for them by which sinking into having it under a satisfied sense of being can make things work almost like magic since their charge is functioning properly. They've got sunk charge at baseline, there's minimal agitation, and thus as soon as a stimulus arises to suggest the SP is with them then they'll have the flash of the imaginal act and it'll show up. That's how I bet it works in most people. Of course those who read that will say "huurrr durrr that's not manifesting that's predicting" or something stupid. I mean I just don't even care about answering that anymore I've answered those comments and it gets nowhere. These people aren't actually interested in understanding and they waste all of our time. So yeah I really have proven that unless someone is willing to spend the time to study and ask actual questions of what I teach and not just blanket ideas from a first video watch, then I don't even pay attention. It's wasting all of our time, it's not weakness on my part to leave unanswered "questions" but that there's zero point in wasting time for such petty trash. It's not functional. Anyone who wants answers can come and read page 29 here and ideally the rest of the notebook, as well as the NG quotes page and RS glossary. I still need to add them to the header.

The only other thing I really am working on is referencing hundreds of extra NG quotes just to rub salt in the wound. I'm going to go through everything Edward went through just to destroy his utterly insane doctrine of solipsism and tear the entire thing down to shreds.

Waiiiit. Maybe this would work. I just thought. What if I write my hitpieces on that trash on the RS website and make it read only? I could make takedowns of these people in a more "safe" format, instead of having videos. I really do enjoy tearing down the ignorant trash in this space, it's something that motivates me to be honest, because it's satisfying knowing that the correct answers to the trash is out there for people to work with. The fools who read this at face value would think I'm some very angry person or whatever to even want to do that, and yet they cannot provide anything of value to offer in return themselves and continue to buy into solipsistic ideology that's self contradicting from the very foundation. What's funny is the comments I get from people saying that quantum so called mechanics refute my model, when that's the VERY FOUNDATION I STARTED WITH back in 2019. Refuting the sciences and the biochemical models. That's where RS began, in the hard sciences and biology research space as well as history. It wasn't rooted in LOA, and that's why I actually have critical thinking that works because you can't study that stuff and be delusional. Well you can, but you'd be wrong.

Anyway my goal for this next week is to put more vids up and continue to explore the vast array of NG lectures to find meaningful quotes that refute the solipsistic trash. I also need to comment on how since I don't teach anything supporting imaginal methods or whatever that my like ratios to views are way down vs the old days. I've seen what they agree with, and it's anything that parrots the idea that "you are god and can have whatever you want if you assume it", yet NG never taught "YOU ARE GOD". I use to think this but if you actually pay attention he separates God from your corporeal being many times throughout his writings. It's something you don't notice because unless you critically read it very carefully with a correct frame of reference then the suggestions of this doctrine will cloud everything you see in what he said. I will say that some of the things I said about NG back in the day about him preaching solipsism seems to not be the case, at least given all that I've been through so far, but that's still assuming my interpretation IS in fact what he means. The thing is it's the only one that seems to systematically work so.

Anyway I've run into this idea from an AI video that popped up of all things just now. What a surprise the person on camera isn't even real. Their channel is exploding in size too. Totally AI generated content. Person is probably in Asia or something running a few modded 4090 GPUs in a server and generating a weeks worth of content while they sleep. Good for business, bad for actual productive function and impact.

So the video was talking about someone saying that they read NG taught "you don't create anything you select what already exists" WHICH IS CORRECT, depending on the cosmology you really apply that under of course, but RS supports this view. Why? Because it's already done, as we've explained since God is the current that determines the fixed point of comparison within you. That means that acceptance of God and loving your innate self by dropping conditions that say you can't in effect manifest the effect of how that current drives you naturally. You're naturally attuning to the currents that drive you, and are always providing pressure to accept, hence why you feel frustration. The coach in the video said that they just "felt" it as though it was real, after asking themselves the question "in what reality do I already have this client" and then they said they got a flash of an image in their mind automatically. YES THAT'S WHAT I SAY BECAUSE IT'S ALREADY THERE. Just like when you dream of the thing that happens ahead of time, it's already there. I've had numerous clients tell me that during or after gazing they have this happen, where their imaginal senses are "forced open" and they experience what was shown to them. THEY DIDN'T CONSCIOUSLY IMAGINE IT, but that it came through them and they were almost "pulled into" that state. The alchemist has talked about this a few times as well. Where you can go it can bring you there too, especially when you're highly expanded in the subconscious mind. This is what gazing does, it opens up these spontaneous moments of insight and clarity where the images and sounds like I had this morning that popped into my mind after waking up (the same space that you carry with you after doing advanced gazing for example) and thus it manifested near instantly. I've had some highly expanded clients of mine tell me the same thing, where they do high level gazing and see something that shows up to them and they almost get "sucked into it" and then they see the thing not long after, My first client who told me this manifested his SP that night just as the voice said when he was doing gazing. He was also involved in living the life he wanted away from the gazing, so this is also my point in that the "ripeness" of this is seemingly what the gazing and implied external level involvement all builds up, like the alchemist says. The alchemist says that we can only accelerate this process through the methods taught, because it's always happening to everyone all the time, which I fully agree with, and so this idea that you're "selecting" is really just ACCEPTANCE, as NG does say and define "the feeling" as. "The acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled" WHICH can feel ANY way, including sadness, anger, grief, anything negative or positive like joy and such as well, It doesn't matter, because the ripeness is the thing that holds the power as a "measurement" of comfort and expansion into that state where you can naturally wear it as yourself, for God to become more in man as the container holding a certain capacity.

So yeah, that's really what's up with this stuff. I manifested the overnight SP stuff with feeling fury, and I slept in that fury and it worked. It wasn't the emotional fury, or the intensity, but the ripeness of me simply being ready to ACTUALLY ACCEPT that I CAN have what I want, which the image of me imagining having what I wanted in front of those who hurt me represented as the ultimate act of self love that I wasn't able to give to myself. That moved A LOT of stuck current and I felt it. That's what my "ripeness" factor was experienced as, the acceptance of the wish fulfilled. I DO NOT agree that it should be all positive feelings. That's not true in ALL cases, and I can say from all the data I've been through that feeling almost nothing towards it can also manifest it too, like I did with those $3000 headphones I manifested way back in 2020 for dirt cheap and on top of that a pro grade RME DAC made in Germany that I still use today also for dirt cheap that just coincidentally WAS PERFECTLY within my budget at the time. All I did was imagine the sound of them and feeling them on my head as I sat at my desk. I didn't feel ANY heightened sensation, but that's BECAUSE I felt no conditions against it. If I had conditions against it then current would move and I would feel visceral sensations of heightened awareness which is what that really is. It's the same thing with the quickenings you get from advanced gazing where all of a sudden you almost get "shocked" with an enormous amount of power that sends you into extreme states of fear when it happens because it's illuminating all of that trash. For someone else, it may be other feelings, but for me it's usually grief where I cry or fear that's so powerful it makes me want to get up and leave the session but I know I need to sit through it. This is what advanced gazing does and it happens TOTALLY spontaneously, you have ZERO control over it when it happens. That's why consistency of gazing MATTERS THE MOST.

So with all of this in mind, you can CLEARLY tell all of this stuff with LOA and the meridian system dynamics all overlap and interact with each other. What NG says directly overlaps this doctrine or RS.

I also want to talk about the whole "how" thing because that was a subject that came up in the video too. Those are just manifestations of agitation, really. If you get hooked up on the how it'll happen and can't just grow into being the person now and accept that this is already done because it's coming through you then you'll never be able fully involve and land in state streaks of implied involvement that will figure this out through you. You will have the insights, I know this from experience because I live it every day. If you have something you're moving to fulfil that's comfortable enough to involve with then you'll be given opportunities, and even if it's not comfortable, they're opportunities to expand. The whole fixation on the how and planning all this stuff and whatnot ahead of time is honestly not even the issue but your inability to properly settle charge and sink into it being done because it's already available RIGHT NOW and to ACCEPT IT NOW, that you CAN be this person DESPITE the conditions. That you CAN accept the vision for your life, and just fixate on the expansion into that state. You WANT to dwell there because it's satisfying to experience the state streaks and all the involvement of being that person. That's what. I don't tell you to be totally delusional and stuff and totally ignore reason and logic because that's just as necessary as the other side, but it will reveal itself to you. I speak from living this every day. It's that the logic will be done through you, you WILL see "triggers" that illuminate the insights spontaneously in ways that's available for you in your environment and out of that will come the state streak from the intuitive impulse that the stimulus landed you into. You were really already in the state in capacity and it was the built in timing of the currents coming through you at the right place and the right time that had the power and since it's comfortable enough for you to involve in then you'll be autosuggesting to yourself through the entire state streak experience that what you want is available and will manifest. You're being yourself for real and it will be satisfying.

So this whole thing about "selecting" and stuff from before can be seen here too. You're really just accepting innate nature. That's all you can do, because that's where you have no free will to stop from happening. You have ZERO free will to stop that unfolding of God through you, because God needs you just as much as you need God in truth. You are God in CAPACITY, as God unfolds through you by "selecting" the state or in this case "accepting" the current to BECOME you, then you're doing the work correctly. You're accepting your role, your wishes, your gifts from God. These are pre-determined because you didn't consciously decide to experience that as your fixed point of comparison. Your genetics are pre-determined, for example. You cannot change that, though you can "optimize" your genetics according to your innate capacity if they're not arranged accordingly. The alchemist has talked about this as well. This has everything to do with being in flow with what's already innate, accepting the wish which is God coming through you. There's nothing else that you can do. Literally nothing else, other than continue to delay and hold conditions over your innate nature coming through you.

In truth, in summary, spontaneity and ripeness are "what" do it. Involvement, state streaks, going all the way, sinking charge are "how" you do "what", or accelerate "what" to happen naturally via ripeness, which is what what anyway. Ripeness happens. Ripeness can only be accelerated through implied involvement in state streak and going all the way to move current. Current being at the threshold of acceptance is ripeness hitting its peak which is spontaneous. It can be gradual in how you experience it but it's still a threshold that's crossed, and whether or not that involves some radical experience or not it will unfold that's innate through you since the meridians are free to unfold that current, spontaneously. So all the "how" is to accelerate ripeness, ripeness is the process of God being housed more in you as you. Self love. Being yourself. Ripeness and self love and higher order states that you live in at baseline are all pointing to the same idea. So involvement in state streak to move current and sink agitating current is the effect of ripeness increasing, thus you become more of yourself. If you desire it then it's ripening. I mean NG did talk about ripening of seeds, but he says we plant them, which is obviously not the case. The seeds are already there, we unfold them and ripen them by the nature of our existence. We cannot plant seeds with our conscious will, because that would mean the corporeal being controls God, because all the currents supply through us via God as our source of emanation and directing light in life to expand us. You know this because you try endlessly to manifest consciously and fail over and over. That's just the conditioning showing up to throw you a hint to wake up in the dream. It's that we always get these intuitive impulses, these "compulsions" to involve in something. That is the instant manifestation unfolding. The opportunity is right in front of you always but your agitation blinds you to seeing only the how and the what ifs. The intuitive impulse gets drowned out.

NG makes it seem so magical and automatic that when you impress it then no matter what it'll happen, though that's always assuming there's a comfortable means of operating that bridge through. I have experienced this enough to know it's not always a set one and done thing. It is in capacity, though our agitation will more often than not lead to unfortunate outcomes where we will need certain conditions to be met in order to show up in the way we're suppose to that we cannot meet because they're not even ours to begin with. This is why loving yourself fully and throwing out all the trash from the people who hurt you needs to happen to drop agitation, else you'll forever try to please them and make dumb decisions from this "needing' sensation. The sensation of intuitive impulse and needing from the conditioning telling you to stay safe and compromise on an innate expression are very different. Remember, we don't "fix" the not self, we kill it off and throw it away because that's where it came from. It's not yours, or any part of you. It's someone else's expectations. You're living in the lives and expectations of others. Nothing else matters but to ditch the conditions against it, even if they're general cultural or societal conditions on who you can be and not tied to any one person. Drop it, by experiencing having the thing despite the conditions. This is acceptance, because you're having the experience you actually want to regardless of what the conditions bind you into through needless expectations and conforming to their boxes of safe response. When you truly desire what you want, and you can accept it, then you'll freely and uncompromisingly imagine spontaneously the experience of that thing. IT COMES THROUGH YOU AS THE CURRENTS TRANSLATE INTO SENSORY STIMULUS OF YOUR IMAGINAL SENSES. You don't need to consciously imagine anything, and if you do it's ripeness driving that through satisfying flow in involved state streaks which suggest that the conditions and agitation no longer matter. By living the life you want you drop agitation, almost unconsciously bit by bit. You can chunk it or just gradually go all the way. No matter what though you're expanding into the state of satisfaction in being yourself for real and that's going to lead to intuitive impulse spontaneously manifesting the scenes in your mind that you'll have as an idea which was what played out. You'll get an insight, randomly, spontaneously, and that compulsion will move you into all the ways to lead into the end that's been prepared for you.

Does it not say in scripture that God prepared a place for us? Yeah. It's already there, it's already done. It comes through you. You play the pre-destined act "for the work yet to be done in him".

What I know to be true is that if you're comfortable with having it, then you'll naturally land in the state of having it anyway. There's no need to consciously do anything other than accept natural striving that's always unfolding through you. Any deliberate conscious imaginal act is simply a ripeness acceleration ritual to accept what's already innate.

27/11/25

"Spiritual sensation" as NG puts it is about moving current, overlapping states. The experience of overlapping states would be what that means. There's not really any other way of putting it, though living in the aetheric body would be another contender but that's also working the same mechanism effectively. This needs to be fully explored. In the beginning NG talked about "subconscious impression" just like JM did who supposedly learned under Abdullah the Jewish Rabbi.

So the most important part of this whole subconscious impression thing is that all subconscious sense (spiritual sense) is felt intuitively and with intention, but I'm also going to say it's directly connected to the pathway cascades relating to the meridians and currents that activate those functions AS the intention and intuitive sense. The subconscious sense itself is directly what this is, because that's how we "feel" (intuitively) and understand things because it's an activation of those currents through us. Our psychological processes match up with where the currents move. "Knowing things" ahead of time so to say would be because of this, something overlapping your subconscious mind (which the conscious mind MUST experience since it's expanded into that level) which activates those currents. The mechanics of this are driven by wave interferometry sciences, except superluminal propagation of "squeezed" light which is why it's very difficult to measure since light isn't really just a "thing" on its own and that it's made up of at least 4 different components, 2 of which are measurable and the 3rd is as well but I've not been able to practically verify this with my own experiments.

Point being here that manifesting anything must come through the subconscious sense to some degree or another. It's a function of the overlaps we dynamically experience with others based on our thematic supply/demand which is the product of all the components of our psyche in their specific arrangement, relative to the fixed point of comparison. The arrangement of those components represents the state, because you're more or less being yourself relative to that template, which is fixed in the subconscious level. The aetheric template is our capacitive perfected nature that we live into by accepting intuitive impulse which means our conscious mind is transformed as deeper overlaps within that subconscious state occurs and so circumstances and such will arrange accordingly. This is what really drives what we experience metaphysically and alchemically speaking. That's what I explained in that implied involvement video, about how overlap with the realities of others is established. You must have inner arrangement that "extends" out into the outer. Implied involvement state streak is what represents that mechanism most directly. That outer level momentum is driven by intuitive impulse, which is the inner guidance mechanism that effectively "unfolds" the inner level currents into an outer level representation. Remember the outer is simply a representation of the eternal thematic components that we exist AS and thus "manifest" them. The outer level reality is a representation of what everyone exists as on an inner level. Their works on an inner level are known by how they respond on the outer. There's a common substrate by which this works through, the subconscious level on the collective that we all overlap and mediate each other through. You could say the aetheric substrate itself is this collective level subconscious. So the only real way to change the outer is to have an alteration of the inner level substances that will correspond to the relative arrangement of the fixed point of comparison and thus drive who the corporeal character lives as that others will see and interact with according to their views and how they overlap.

So the most important thing here practically speaking is applying processes that build comfort and affinity for the innate currents as the pressure we have to experience what's properly satisfying. Expansion contraction cycles. NG did talk about this too. He said that when your reactions/motor responses to the world changes then you've changes state. What does this mean? It means that the currents that drive those responses have settled, meaning the agitating currents that are activated when those pathway cascades of implication and meaning fire as a "trigger" are no longer holding that unresolved conflict or pressure to resolve to accept innate self, thus innate self can be accepted as "the feeling" and knowing who you are intuitively representing the arrangement of those currents being available.

"So the same thing happens with man and the sperm of God goes through man; and the sperm of God is Jesus Christ, his creative power."

Well if the so called "sperm" of God is the Yod as the alchemist spoke about then that would mean you're also saying that Christ in extension is the same substance. Is he talking about a capacity here? He did say that Christ is to be "begotten" of the father and the Yod most directly represents activating yang current it seems. I still need to fully decode every elemental interaction here, assuming NG is actually correct. His alchemy is very elementary but it seems there's something there. NG says that Yod is the "power of God", Christ, who according to scripture is responsible for all creation. God is the entirety of the tetragrammaton obviously but god is made of multiple parts hence the Yod-He-Vau-He as NG says represents the 4 elemental components and roles of God. Yod is the power of God, but I believe he also says that Yod is the director. This would seem to be the implanting current that drives us through the subconscious level and the facets of sense perception that affords us. According to NG then here it would seem that when you experience in the aetheric level you're also by extension moving Yod, which he's talked about as "subconscious impression". If activating current is Yod as the sperm and power of God that "impresses" in the divine feminine of the subconscious then it would be the "psychic sexual act" as he puts it which he also described having intense sensations of current in his breathing method especially. The act of breathing metaphysically is moving those yang currents, the qi, which according to the alchemist is the prima materia and closely related to Yod, thus circulating the sperm through the meridians of the aetheric body feminine subconscious to "impress/impregnate" the arrangement of those currents or the state, relative to the fixed point of comparison that determines what's satisfying or not as a path of least resistance towards expansion.

Man that was a lot, but I believe that's the deepest level explanation I've got. I will verify this with seedtime and harvest and the four mighty ones lecture to find elemental overlap. If NG says that air is Yod then this works, because that's the divine masculine level of the superconscious that overlaps through the subconscious earth element level. If he calls Yod earth then this doesn't work.

"The first is Spirit, the second is Water, and the third is Earth."

This is from the four mighty ones. So first is spirit, which is correct. Air is spirit. Second is water he says and third is earth. So Yod is air, which can work, then we have He as water and then Vau as earth. I don't see how that can work, because water is the unconscious. Yeah you do overlap the Yod (as an exalted form of lower sun) and the He which according to this are the sun and the moon if we take elemental alchemy as a translation. All you need is the sun and the moon to do the work. He calls water "psychological truth".

"He speaks of water second. The mystic knows water in the Bible, and all scriptures, symbolised psychological truth. The ideas that men entertain as Truth; either true or false, if he accepts it and consents to it, he weaves this into a garment so he wonders who has actually gathered or bound the waters in a garment."

The ideas that men entertain as fact or fiction. Consenting to agree he says water represents.

"Now where we speak of water – he gathers water into a garment and water is psychological truth."

Here he says that water is GATHERED INTO the garment. I do not agree with this. Elemental alchemy doesn't work with this interpretation, because the water may in fact represent "radical moisture" in lab alchemy terms. Need to study more on his terms here.

"And then the third one, who can solidify it? Who has established all the ends of the earth. What is His name ? Go back to the name. We found that the hand was JOD and the second letter in the great creative Power, (known as JOD HE VAU HE) is HE. HE is symbolised as a window. The window of the man is his mind. With my mind I see. With my imagination I see in fashion so I will now gather in my imagination, what I want to be in this world, so I will gather it without the aid of any external force. When I see clearly in my mind’s eye what I would like to be, I have gathered this state into a garment.

Now, how to solidify it! What is the third letter in the name, this mystery name ? The third letter is VAU and VAU is symbolised as a nail. A nail binds together, it joins things together, so I can stand here and first I am aware, just simply aware. Then I become aware of something and I become very discriminating, very selective. There are numberless things of which I am aware but I need not single out one to become identified with it but I will simply let them all pass through the mind, as it were. Then I will hold upon one – I will arrest one – the kind of man that I would like to be. Well, I will fashion that into a garment."

Wait so he's saying here that Jod is the second letter? How? If Vau is the 3rd letter and he's saying Jod is the 2nd then He is the first?

"Let us go back now to the riddle. “Who hath gathered the wind in his fist?” What imagery! – What is the fist? The fist is the symbol of the first letter in the great mystery name of God. The fist is Jod."

Now here he's saying that the Jod is the first letter as wind? What is he going on about is this an error in his lecture? Seems like it. I know that Jod is obviously the 1st so we will interpret it like that in all cases of referencing it.

So Jod is basically according to what he said in the above quote being "the great creative power" would symbolize Christ then? Christ in alchemical terms is the elements conjugated from exalted form, the Christ child that is, is the to be begotten form that you will grow into through the lesser conjugation when you've overlapped states enough to get there. it's when the subconscious has taken enough expansion to open that up.

"We have the same Name, so when you spell the son’s Name strangely enough you start off JOD HE VAU. When you spell Jesus in Hebrew it begins JOD HE VAU. You don’t have to go further – that is the Creative Power – to be aware, to be aware of, and to be aware of being the state decided on and then, but it’s not Jesus, you don’t sound Jesus, it’s simply in the being’s own heart – that’s the Name."

Right so NG views Christ then as the whole tetragrammaton, which can be correct, but under what state? He's already spoken about Christ as to be begotten, but is he talking about that from the frame of reference of simple state shifts of for the greater work?

"The next step is now bringing it into solidity, which is the VAU. But how do I apply the name to the point where I can use the VAU in my name? I will assume that I am that man. When I walk in the assumption, I am walking in his Name. We are told in this state all will walk in the name of his God. I have found the Name – found it within myself as, first, my awareness, my ability to become aware of something, my ability to become not only aware of it but to become aware of being it, so I walk as though I am the man that I want to be, so I solidify it, and the last letter only bears witness of the internal imagery, for the last letter is another HE, so there are two HE’s in the name, a JOD and a VAU."

Right there. "In this state". He's calling the aspects of God states. Right there is him talking about what seems to be the "eternal" states, which are the elements of the psyche.

"When I go to Israel and they ask me who sent you, what is your thought? Just say “I AM” has sent me unto you and then complete it and tell them I AM that I AM. What does it mean – I AM That? Yes, that is as it is because I AM as I AM. Were I different that would have to be different, so I am that that mirrors the being that I am, for what I see the world to be is a measure of my own level of consciousness, for whatever it is seen to be is a direct index to the level of consciousness of the observer of the world. It’s not the world – I am that – I really am,- and that could not be other than what it is, while I remain as I am."

Here he's talking about a level of consciousness. LEVEL of consciousness.

"The slightest change in my level of consciousness, the slightest change in the feeling of I am this, results in a corresponding change in that, which is the world round about me. Let me now desire peace and actually walk in the name of peace, that there is peace in my world, and I will look upon a world and I will see peace where others see conflict, for I am only seeing that at all times: so what is my authority? My authority is “I AM has sent me unto you” and I AM that I AM. Do I know it? If I know it I will never complain. If I broke my neck I would know you could not have done it unto me: I did it unto myself. If I find myself in any state in the world I could not complain for I have found the Law, I have found the Name by which all these things are gathered together."

I can somewhat agree with what he said in the first part but then he tells us that we basically manifest abuse as children onto ourselves. No chance. NG is telling the child who can't conceive of the things that happen to them (even being born into genetic disease) that it's all that child who did it to themselves. Yeah right. Well everything that I know about emanationary metaphysics is that it's God who spawns into that position, for whatever purpose, and not a decision of that person who is "reincarnated" as that child. Thing is then there's examples of people being born in with memories of prior lives in intricate details, but the alchemist has told me that this can be explained by the fact that that child does contain in CAPACITY all the memories of a previous iteration and that the lesser mind who is now no longer connected to evolutionary process since the salt has split from the mercury has moved into the underworld where the child with the memories is the new iteration from that same higher genius extension as that person. Basically the memories of the person who was in the previous iteration are all uploaded to higher genius and then higher genius extends another ray out that lands into this reality as that child who has connection to all those memories which can be recalled, which makes people assume it's "reincarnation" when it's not really. When you die you cannot continue the work, however your greater supply continues to have iterations. Your egoic mind dies off, but your source continues. You don't get to complete the work as the lesser yang egoic mind but the next one after you will. This is the ancient traditional alchemical view on life and death. Souls can be created and destroyed because they're not eternal, as I said in that video.

So it seems that water in the NG bible doctrine is He and water is twice represented. The "window". The senses perhaps? The senses of the water, and the earth. See this is where I have a disconnect from what he's talking about because water to us is the nervous system senses basically, the physical level experience AND buried aspects of self that's been made unconscious manifesting as agitating current. So the subconscious being earth which is Vau is strange to me, and he never mentions fire either as the lower mind, despite the solar references being all throughout scripture.

"Now, today, to make it practical, as we did in the 2nd chapter of my latest book – I treated it as a drama and the Four Mighty Ones in you – play with it. Call yourself a producer. You are going to produce a play – and the producer in man only suggests the theme. He goes no further. Wouldn’t it be wonderful, (and you name it), were I, (and you name it, ) successful, happy, and you name a certain state, but you go no further as the JOD: he only suggests the spirit for he just takes the wind and that he binds in his fist. He only recommends the motive, the little theme.

The second one, now, in man that works out that theme is the author, and the author in man is man’s wonderful inner creative power that can take the theme of success and work out the last scene, which implies the theme is realised. What would I do were I successful? What would I see ? What would I say? How would I act? Well, then construct one little theme or little scene which implies the fulfillment of my desire. That is now the second mighty one’s work.

The third Mighty One’s work in man is the director. The director in man is man’s controlled attention so that my attention must be completely absorbed in the single idea, the idea which implies the fulfillment of my wish.

Now, the fourth one is the one whose form is like unto the son of God. Now, who is the fourth one in man that will now do it? Man’s Imagination. Man’s real being is a splendid Imagination. An Imagination has form but man does not understand it and man doesn’t believe it, but the real being is Imagination. It can be anything in this world, and so he puts himself through the paces by simply inwardly enacting the drama that he himself has constructed, and whatever it would be that he has constructed, which drama implies the fulfillment of his theme, he inwardly acts it over and over and over again until it takes on the tones of reality. When inwardly he feels natural in the part that in which he is now se1f-rehearsed, the curtain will rise and he will see it there. He will cast the inner drama on the screen of space and he will see moving on the screen of space all the characters necessary to complete the play."

Ok my bad I called the 1st letter the director when it's actually the producer. I got that backwards so I correct my error. He called Yod the producer, and so it's the producer (who emanates consciousness, am I right?) who determines the themes of the play. This is our innate truth, the fixed point of comparison we're granted as gifts to accept. THAT'S WHAT IS BEING TAUGHT. The acceptance of the wish, which NG said our wishes are gifts from God, from the Yod, the producer, and "manifesting" that is entering the state which is to accept it and how you really feel. That's dropping the not self conditions and allowing innate nature to drive you, because God does all the work. It's insane to me that people buy into solipsistic trash. USELESS TRASH.

Anyway he called the 4th letter "mans imagination" and "the son of God". Son, implying solar, though can also represent the Christ child. Also notice here that he said "implies the fulfilment of the his theme" which is the producer coming through him and he "feels" this as the currents I talk about. You see I don't know how we can really break down the tetragrammaton into current phenomena other than that the 1st letter is the supply and the water or the 2nd is the substrate that the supply acts on. The aether, but that's substantive in itself, water and earth, though earth element alchemically is the aether more directly. I don't know maybe I just don't see the complete link here or there's something I'm missing that would connect the dots. Either way we've got the important parts figured out about what he's actually teaching here. There's themes that are granted to us as wishes by Yod, then through the substantive aspects of the yin (both water and earth in extension) will enact that through sensory level depth (for anyone without aphantasia) and move the currents via the pathway cascades to then drive your automatic responses in the world. He in the 4th letter is then the representation of the thematic currents taking manifestation in the world through the senses of the water, the nervous system itself physically. It's taken those "impressions" as they're called and translated them through the medium of the substantive aspects into physical level experience.

Also he calls the Vau (earth) the director. He says that this is literally your conscious level attention. So if Vau is like fire, and He is like water/earth and Jod is air then we can make sense of things, though he doesn't call Vau fire he calls it earth. He calls Vau the "man’s controlled attention". "man’s controlled attention so that my attention must be completely absorbed in the single idea, the idea which implies the fulfillment of my wish." I mean is that not basically the experience of implied involvement state streak? It's the same thing, we could though characterize it as earth the way he says it because of the depth of movement being "real". The reality of experience? That is the point of state streak after all, it's to immerse in implied involvement that autosuggests who we are. That to NG seems to be earth, subconscious "impression" I guess we could say. So if that's the case then water would need to be the senses? He called it "psychological truth" though. How does that relate? Man there's so many terms he uses that don't work here. Yeah I could interpret it at face value but that's not how we gain understanding.

"He doesn’t have to consciously direct one of them. They become relevant to his theme, and because they are relevant they are drawn into the drama without their knowledge, without their consent. Any change in the drama must take place within him and not them, so he never appeals to one on the outside to change. He leaves them just as they are and he re-writes the play within himself and changes the end. As he changes the end, the whole cast are cast in different roles and have moved back into his world to complete his play."

Right this is relating to other people, directing them. God directs it all. The people become relevant to his theme that comes from his wish. The changes in them is built into the theme.

"There is only first cause, and the cause of everything is the Name, but when you don’t know it, well then, you blame another and I cannot conceive of a greater tyranny than the belief in a second cause. There is only one God, expressing himself as Four Mighty Ones within the individual."

Here's NG telling us again not to blame others. I know that they're driven by their own innate currents and conditioning as well and can recognize that though that's not to deny the feelings that have been conditioned on their free expression through the acts of others.

"So think now of your personality as something that is informed by this mighty selfhood but informed by it, in respect to its level of consciousness in varying degrees."

Well here's NG talking about "levels" of consciousness in "varying degrees" meaning there's higher and lower states, as I've said.

"On one level I am informed as to the language of birds. On another level the language of trees, and on another level the language of the motion of clouds; every little formed cloud is telling me something. Every little ripple is telling me something. On a certain level the language is revealed. On a lower level it is simply an object moving in space."

Yeah seeing more in something is the consciousness of it. Right here is a big key that I've always tried to put into words properly but I think he explains it decently here actually. Seeing things as they are, not just in the sense of what the senses reveal but what the metaphysical meaning is. The thematics that comprise an experience.

"Lift up the object only, any object, and it takes on increasing significance – and what a thrill when man so lifts himself that everything is talking and telling him of the kingdom within himself that not one little thing is by accident – that the bird that seemingly is wild and simply lit in your yard just for a moment, on its way south or north, did not by accident light, it brought a message – and every little thing in the world is telling you something when you rise in consciousness, and you rise in consciousness the day you find the Name and walk in it"

Yeah right there. He sees more in everything. This is really what a "higher" state of consciousness is, and of course states have never been subjective belief containers. If God is unconditional love, infinitely in supply, and we're to become that, then obviously seeing that in everything is the goal, because it's there underlying all things in truth. That's still not a denial of how we feel, who we are as individuated beings, but that it's that we can see beyond the surface. This goes beyond just "sinking charge" in a sense, because it's what that opens up in you, through an expanse in subconscious space.

You know we could actually teach that "seeing through things" as a goal to be one of the biggest aspects of what this whole process of individuating leads us through. Instead of conforming to at face value conditional expressions of love and such (generally not in terms of SP) then we cut through that and see the underlying essence of something and thus we can "see inside" of it. That once again doesn't invalidate our feelings because they are what they are, though it means we can see the role that the sensory level expression is playing as it is. We're not seeing the "garment" as the cause, but the metaphysical substrate as the cause. This seems to be what NG is telling us to see. See the meaning in things, I mean why else would he say what was in the above quotes if that's not the case then? This is kind of how I lived back in 2015 in fact, when I was gazing I'd see the overlays on everyone and just be curious about it more or less.

"In telling the story, Paul speaks of predestination . . not of the outer man, but of the inner man. Listen to his words carefully: “Though they were not yet born and had done nothing either bad or good, in order that God’s election should continue, not because of works but because of his calling, he made one he loved and one he hated saying, ‘Jacob I love and Esau I hate.’” They had not yet been born and had done nothing that was either good or bad, but in order for God’s election to continue he loves the one he calls and hates the other.

Now Jacob, he who is called and loved by God, becomes Israel; so you see, Israel cannot be those who are descended from Abraham in a physical state. Israel is the inner man, the feminine part of your nature. I have seen that inner man and know he is my own wonderful human imagination. That inner man is he who is loved by and wedded to God. “Your Maker is your husband, the Lord of hosts is his name. The Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer. The God of the whole earth he is called.”

Your human imagination is the Israel of scripture. That’s your inner man, the feminine part of your nature, to whom God is wed. It is to your imagination that God cleaves, and leaves all until the two of you become one. It is in this sphere that Christ is formed. He is the son, bearing witness to the union of your human imagination and the creator of the universe.

Your imagination is God’s emanation, yet his wife, till the sleep of death is past. But how will he know that this union is productive? By the forming of Christ in you, for your son is your hope of glory!" - The forming of Christ in you lecture

This is where NG is talking about some interesting things here. I'm searching deeper through his lectures that are more alchemically based. Now interestingly he talks about predestination, the imagination being the FEMININE aspect and that Christ is FORMED in the sphere we create. Imagination is feminine he says, meaning it has to be lunar, water and or earth. I say it's earth. Subconscious mind. He says your imagination is the emanation of God, which is correct, God is the higher genius or totality of your capacity to become and be housed with. He says that the Yod is the "producer" and suggests a theme. The solar is Yod, and earth is Vau according to NG as we said before. Just above in the quote he says that The imagination is "his" wife, meaning his feminine polarity that's to be overlapped. Alchemy. The sun and the moon, and the air and the earth.

Nah you know what. I'm just going to put together this single massive document with every NG lecture ever written into one place so I can use it to search for every instance of the words I want to find and compare notes. Screw this I'm going to get it done in the next few hours I've been trying to complete this for ages but never did. I need this it will make figuring this all out 100x easier than trying to remember quotes.

"Your ultimate goal is not to become a millionaire or to be famous, but to fulfill the Word of God." - Gods word lecture 1967

"Q: In other words, all acts of God are involuntary, there are none induced?

A: As far as I’m concerned, every mystical experience I’ve ever had was involuntary."

-Neville's thoughts of leaving permanently 1966 lecture

"This “Man Within” is Jesus Christ, the image of God, called in Scripture, “The Son of God.” Now, unless this Christ in us is raised to ever higher and higher levels, then God cannot fulfill His purpose." - the man within lecture

This is obviously talking about expansion and alchemy. Higher and higher levels. More and more individuation as self.

"In the very last chapter, the twenty-second chapter of Revelations we read “I AM the root and the offspring of David.” The creator entered his own creation, then emerged from it; therefore he is now the offspring. But by creating it, is he not its Father? And by entering it, not pretending, but actually becoming it he accepted all the limitations of the human flesh. Now playing all the parts, he cannot come out until the very end of the drama. And when the play is over he, as you, emerge. Then the essence of the whole vast creative world stands before you as a son, and David calls you “Father”." the miraculous child lecture

Here he's talking about the process of expansion once again.

"Then she said, “After this the world seemed to change. I looked upon the people in the world and, Neville, it’s strange to describe it, it doesn’t make sense, but no matter where I looked and saw people, the world looked like a huge great dollhouse filled with mechanized dolls. That’s all that they are, mechanized dolls.” Now, she also went on in her letter to ask if certain things could be related to a major event that happened this past week in our lives. Why, certainly. Everything in this world and every event in this world contains within itself the capacity for symbolic significance. We do not always recognize it. We do not always relate it to anything that is taking place in us. But just as you said, it’s a mechanized dollhouse; everything on the outside is simply bearing witness. And it’s all just as you said, dead as all outdoors, but it’s related to something that is very much alive in us.

And then, of course, you take leave of your senses and you say, “Well now, the world is insane.” Her description of it as a dollhouse with mechanized dolls is perfect." - the remnant lecture

NG is saying again that we're all mechanized dolls in a dollhouse and that also all outer level experiences are symbolically significant.

"So you will find in all the pulpits of the world they do not preach Christ. They discuss the issues of the day, the contemporary things. I am quite sure that yesterday morning from the pulpit across the world they are asking the question, “What must we do and can do to change this moral illness?” That’s not Christ. Tell the story over and over and over until you get a deeper and deeper response from those who hear the story. You will say, well now, you tell the same thing. Well, tell the same thing; there is no other story to tell. What does it matter when the whole thing is simply a dollhouse of mechanical dolls? Are you going to be confused about this departure and that arrival and all these things? The whole thing is an externalized play bearing witness to an inner activity in the soul of man. Now, if you can see it and you become emotionally involved and weep and carry on, and feel the whole thing was a horror of horrors, you are not seeing it objectively and seeing it related to anything in you. You are tied to it, completely tied to it.

But if you can see it dispassionately and see the whole thing as something external to yourself but reflecting an inner activity in you…youhave departed from these that would bind you, these that would curse you. For the word anathema as defined in the dictionary is “a curse that is solemnly pronounced by the ecclesiastical authorities; a curse solemnly pronounced and with it goes excommunication.”" - same lecture

That's an interesting one too. If you see it and get emotionally involved then you're not seeing it clearly he says. You're tied to it. He's talking about having charge sunk.

Just so you know I'm almost completed adding all the lectures to the RS website and I will be also combining them into one large document so that I can search every lecture for key words. This will make study MUCH easier and help provide clarity. I'll be adding a lecture index that you can search through any of them. Adding them all to one page however would be next to impossible because there's a max page size online here so I will need to either split them or sort through the keywords and make pages based on keywords myself, but that's going to take weeks..

"“We have only to raise Imagination to the state of Vision and the thing is done.” (William Blake) Just imagine it! That is all you and I are required to do. No matter what it is we desire, we have only to raise imagination to the state of vision, and the thing is done! Now, when the prophets of old used the word vision in scripture, they meant all of the senses, either individually or in combination. The Book of Isaiah begins: “The visions of Isaiah, the son of Amoz. Hear, O heavens and give ear O earth; for the Lord has spoken.” And the Book of Obadiah states: “The visions of Obadiah. Thus sayeth the Lord God.” Here we find the visions are audio; but scripture records visions of sight, sound, scent, taste, and touch. The last chapter of the Book of Job reads: “I have heard of thee with the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees thee.”

Imagination must be raised to the sense of sight in order to see. The sense of sound seems to be the most popular in scripture, yet in the story of Jacob it is the sense of touch. Isaac, Jacob’s father, was blind and could not see. His twin brother, Esau, was the first out of the womb. He was covered with hair and . . because of his birth . . had the right of inheritance by law. Jacob, who followed his brother, was a smooth-skinned lad, who deceived his father through the sense of touch. Killing one of his father’s flock, he wrapped the skin around his arm, and when his father touched him, he felt its reality and gave Jacob the right of birth.

This is not a story of a man who was blind, or of two sons that came out of the womb of a woman. This drama unfolds from within. Esau is the world you know by your reason and senses. The room you are now in is your Esau, while your subjective desire is your Jacob. Wearing garments of hair, Esau is the outer, objective world, which Jacob, your desire, is seeking to replace. As Isaac . . the father . . you have the power to give reality to your desired, subjective state. Invite it to come near, that you may feel it, to know whether it is as real as your outer world is." - the state of vision lecture

This is NG telling us that apparently Jacob is desire, as well. He also says the senses are what imagination must be "raised" up to.

"But now, when you read scripture always remember that the names Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Moses, and Jesus are personifications of eternal parts of God’s play." - the ultimate sense lecture

Here he's defining that the characters are the eternal sates.

"So, who is Paul?

Paul is that last state of consciousness that man must reach if he would experience the reality of God.

You and I have ambitions in the world. Some want to be dictators, doctors, lawyers, scientists. All these are in order. But there will come a time in the life of man when there will be a hunger sent upon him, as told us in the book of Amos, “It will not be a famine for bread or a thirst for water, but for the hearing of the Word of God.” (Amos 8:11) And only an experience of God can satisfy this hunger. That is that state of consciousness called “Paul.”

Only an experience of God can satisfy him. Not a thing in the world could satisfy him. So, if I wish this night that you would have the experience of Paul, I am wishing for you that you would have the experience of God; that that final hunger would be satisfied within you, that you would actually know the experience of the reality of God." - who is Paul lecture

I'VE FINALLY GOT ALL 344 LECTURES ON THE RS WEBSITE NOW AFTER ALMOST 4 HOURS @_@

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"The slightest imaginal act that is a change (I don’t mean just an act, for you can imagine things you don’t believe), but if you imagine something you believe is a change, a thrill is sent through divine being. At that moment you have actually entered another state and made it alive and real in your world!" - A movement within God - 1967

This "thrill" he mentions over and over and over in his lectures when it comes to applying imaginal methods properly. This "thrill" sounds like the "acceptance" of current moving that you've opened up to, meaning you've accepted how you feel more or less. Thing is that this thrill feeling isn't how it always is, since I know that the emotional expression is mostly irrelevant so long as the current that's stagnant representing what you're accepting about yourself is what matters to be felt. We can say that all emotional experiences have a parallel current to them on a thematic level and that's what really holds the power, as NG himself did say that Yod suggests the theme to us as a gift to be expressed. This really proves what he's saying lines up with my point, except he viewed everything from the lens of "wonder" and such so thrill was his word to explain "reality of experience" that the imaginal scene induced and IMPLIED about the one who's experiencing it. The moment of heightened awareness. Themes are the real underlying substrate by which God manifests through us which our meridian systems are built out of, including our physiology. So the essence that's going on here is we accept what God has given us, that pressure we feel is the natural striving I talk about, and we have zero free will to deny that because it is really what determines our psychology. The fixed point of comparison is what we're accepting. That's the "feeling" and is intuitively (as meaning/implication) and somatically felt.

The movement of current is what NG calls "a movement within God". Since God manifests AS the thematic currents, dynamically, we "resonate" with them in the fulfilment of our fixed nature. This is a function of involvement and is the same thing that happens when you're out doing it physically too. I've felt it, you have too. You do NOT need to do imaginal work like this to make anything happen, though obviously if you get the "feeling" from an inner experience then you'll have the same psychological transformation as though it was external. The only real difference with the inner and the outer is that the outer means of establishing involvement and state streak to initiate the reality of experience feeling is that the outer level allows us to cultivate a meaningful baseline of self respective actions which can feed and support us through autosuggested experiences. That's really the deeper psychological impact of living without compromise on the outer level, it's you basically experiencing the state in the same way as an inner act would except it's that you're involved through overlapping others realities as well which is how the mechanics of how we influence the psychology of others. Most of the time shifts in other people's perceptions happens through outer level experiences, as we all know, though given my experience that's not exclusive. Relying too much on inner level transformation in a vacuum is what keeps most of the people who are living heavily compromised lives in the box. That can't be faked, and most people can only really get out of the box to establish that baseline sense of self respect that forms the platform they can stand on to not have visceral reactions like I did when doing any inner level work. I imagined what I wanted and "felt" the feeling as in current zapping me or whatever but it made me SICK. EVERY TIME. I manifested sickness because I was in fear when I did it. I imagined the visceral sensory details of exactly what I wanted and every time without failure my life got worse and worse. The ONLY thing that helped me go past all that was to live uncompromisingly and drop the imaginal stuff. IT MADE EVERYTHING WORSE AND RUINED SO MUCH OF MY BEST YEARS. That's why I don't teach imaginal methods in a vacuum because for those in that position THEY DON'T HELP.

The thing that will help EVERYONE, to some degree or another, is uncompromising acts of self love in the world for real. Why? Because it's the means by which meaningful transformation can take place where you can drop conditioning and own what you actually want instead of living in the lives of others who are the cause of your suffering. Yeah NG said that we can't blame others, but I say that's not functional for recovery of someone whos at the level I was at. That only made my life worse.

This is why I say what I say. I've been through IT ALL. I've SUFFERED ENDLESSLY because of following those teachings, which should NOT be applied for someone who's at that degree of self disrespect like I was. It's very very destructive and will lead to far worse outcomes for upwards of 96% of people who try it. When you're living a functional life and have some satisfaction to live from then I'll say that doing the inner level work can be somewhat functional, otherwise gazing will be the bridge to get there for those who are still stuck in the box heavily.

What’s wrong with that? Is there anything wrong in being happily married, proud of the girl who bears your name, or she proud of the man whose name she bears? What is wrong with that?. Forget that. The whole vast world is a field to reap. You don’t pick out this woman or that woman. Pick out the state. I want to be blissfully happy, and if I were, how would I see the world? And how would the world see me?" - Catch the mood - unknown date

Right there is NG telling us NOT to pick out specific people. He told us to pick a state, which as I've said are DEGREES OF SELF LOVE AND INDIVIDUATION. Expansion. States are not specific belief containers you inhabit but "levels" and "degrees" of expansion IN HIS OWN WORDS. It's not about there's a "state" where this exists, and NG basically says that here. I don't believe that he says this to play games with us. I HAVE manifested a SPECIFIC person, but ONLY because I loved myself more than I ever had before.

You wouldn't believe the amount of comments from people who don't like that I say you should "get someone better" because they STILL DON'T GET IT and give me flack for supposedly going against their seeming "god given desire". It's insane. The desire AS SAID BY NG HIMSELF is THEMATIC. Yeah specific things can be attained and accomplished through that though at the root it's still a suggestion of a theme as we explored yesterday. The NG lecture archive is so valuable.

"What could I say when I was confronted with the negation of my assumption? Nothing. I simply would not give up, and when the time was right my assumption became a fact." - a parabolic revelation 1969

He says he would do "nothing" and then say "I simply would not give up". I mean that's obviously implying he's doing something. It's this stupid language that throws people off like when he says "don't lift a finger" and then tells people to act feelingly and "not give up" in persistence. At face value he's telling you to keep basically imagining you're where you want to be while not doing anything meaningful. It's just stupid

"The emanation is always feminine. Eve came out of Adam. Every desire is feminine, regardless of what it is, be it a house, money, or a new car. Imagination is the male, which must leave every doubt, every thought of impossibility behind, and cleave to the desired emanation until they are one. To do this, imagination must enter into the shadow and remain there until there is only the awareness of being or possessing the fulfilled desire". - a prophesy 1968

There's NG telling us that the imagination is masculine and the desire is feminine. So if the Christ is the masculine aspect of so called imagination and desire is the gift to be satisfied as feminine then he's saying that his alchemy of sun and moon is the overlap of someone expressing the satisfaction of their innate pressure to be driven. Thing is that desire is activating too, not feminine. Any pressure felt is a sense of activation, yang, so I practically can't see that working but metaphysically since mind is always seen as solar and form is seen as lunar we can somewhat make sense of that. The sun IN the moon, the mind IN the experience of embodied involvement. State overlap.

"You and I have been purposely blinded by the Father in us. Our hearts have been hardened by the Father in us. So the words are true, and when you reach the end you will say: “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” God the Father uses the tyrants of the world for ends beyond their own. Every person in the world is only a mask God the Father wears while playing that part. Man sees and judges the mask; but the occupant he does not see, for his eyes have been blinded and his heart hardened. God is playing each part based upon the environment in which he was placed . . not by his own choice, for we were made subject unto futility; . . not willingly, but by the will of him who subjected us in hope; and we cannot turn back until His predetermined goal is reached. That is when we reach the end of the journey and go through the series of events called the story of Jesus Christ, at which time Christ is formed in you."

Now that's telling. I need to gather more of these quotes. Here he's saying we have no free will against playing our part and says that it's based on the environment we're placed in. So wouldn't that mean the child IS in fact abused by the parent here not by the will of the Child? States are not the role. States are degrees of expansion as self, knowing innate nature as who you are, and allowing yourself to be yourself. Yourself is the role, the you who is individuated is fixed. That current driving you comes through you, as NG basically said. It's just hard to determine that with the bulk of what's said but it's there and I've quoted that.

"I was sifted a long time ago. I now know that I came into this world to be stirred in Christ. I was not satisfied with the environment into which I was placed at my mortal birth and became restless, knowing I was destined to grow into something different; so I started my search to completely unveil the Christ in me, and now I am telling the story. I tell it to the best of my ability, but I know that only a few will hear it with faith. The mass will reject it. There will be those who will hear and believe, but they will be afraid of the reactions of society and, therefore will be silent. This is told us in the 12th [chapter] of John, where it is said that many heard and believed, “but for fear of the Pharisees they did not confess it lest they should be put out of the synagogue.” The synagogue of the ancient world is still with us today, in all denominations of churches where anything that disagrees with their traditional concept of a secular is excommunicated."

This is NG telling us that some of us will be "afraid" of speaking the fact and will "be silent". He said that he was born into an unsatisfying environment, and that's what happens to all of us to some degree really. There's something that's unsatisfying about our lives that we want to change, and that pressure drives expansion. This is what he talks about relating to degrees of expansion and contraction.

"So the whole vast world that lives and moves in my world moves because I animate it. But I do it unknowingly. You are doing it unknowingly. You are making everything alive in your world, but you don’t know it, for you haven’t yet had the experience of stopping it to see it is something that is dead unless you animate it; that nothing is truly and really independent of your perception of it. That it moves, but you don’t know it moves because you are animating it. And one day you are told of a certain law, that you could, without the consent of another, change the attitude of that being towards life, towards himself; and in changing his attitude, you could change the circumstances of his life. So you try it. You don’t ask his consent. You simply represent him to yourself as the man, or the woman, that you would like him to be, and you’re quite sure he would like to be it. And so, you don’t confide, you don’t take him into your confidence and tell him anything, you simply try it. Then when you meet him in the not distant future, he has changed his attitude towards life, and in that change of attitude he has changed the aspects of life. He has a change of environment, change of circumstances.

And so, you don’t brag; you’re just learning a lesson. Where was the activity to begin with? You are the ark of God, and the ark contains everything, nothing is missing from the ark. So you are either the ark of God or you’re simply a phantom from the earth and the sea. By this, you know you’re the ark, because he lives, seemingly, on the outside and he moves independently of your perception of him. Were he truly independent of your perception of him, a change of attitude in you relative to him could not produce in him a change at all, it couldn’t. But it does! It produces a change; therefore, he must be truly in you. And we go back to Blake: “All that you behold though it appears without, it is within, in your Imagination, of which this world of mortality is but a shadow.” So when Blake uses the word “bosom” he means Imagination, which he reveals in that wonderful statement, another passage in Jerusalem, that “we are ever expanding in the bosom of God, the Human Imagination” (Ch.1,Plt.5). So he calls the bosom of God “Divine Imagination,” and we are expanding in Divine Imagination. What’s expanding?—the human Imagination. And they do not differ save in degree of intensity, but not in substance, not in character. They operate in the same way, one is keyed low and one is keyed high. Keyed high, an imaginal act is an immediate objective fact; keyed low as we are, it’s then realized in a time process. It takes time between the imaginal act and its externalization in the world. But it’s still one, operating the entire world."

There's another example of free will stuff and time delay too.

"But while I am learning and experiencing this wonderful thing I must go through, then at moments I am scared to death of my own creation. Didn’t create the lion, I didn’t create the tiger. They are part of the eternal structure of the universe. I didn’t create this garment of hair called John Brown or Mary Smith; I didn’t do that but I animate them. I animate everything in my world. But Mary Brown and John Smith are eternal parts of the eternal structure of the universe, and you simply animate them. And to prove you do do it you simply see them not as they now appear to you but as you would like them to appear to you and to themselves. You don’t consult them, you don’t take them into your confidence, you ask nothing of them, you simply do it; and persuade yourself of the reality of what you imagine relative to them, and wait in confidence. You wait in confidence, and then in this interval of time—because you’re functioning on a lower frequency, you’re down here, and this is the lower degree of intensity than were you raised to the height of the Father—so down here, you must wait in faith, confident that what you have done will come to pass. And then it comes to pass. As it comes to pass, you’ve discovered life in yourself. And the day will come when you take it off…you never know it completely while you are still wearing this garment, for this garment is also part of the eternal structure of the universe. You had to assume it and move above it, but trusting from within the being that you really are."

BOOM WE DID IT! Right there. NG didn't create his body, or the lion or the tiger and the things in nature. God does as a function of the "eternal structure of the universe" implying there is FIXED structure. He also said that the time interval interestingly depends on your "functioning on a lower frequency". Wow there's one for the law of attraction buffs, they talk about frequency all the time. He's saying here that the time delay depends on your frequency, as though that means anything other than self love and individuation. Being yourself for real speeds it all up, because it works the overlapping mechanism I've talked about.

"So you are doing it, I am doing it; everyone contains all in himself. And all that we behold, though it appears without and seems so completely independent of us, it really isn’t. For I know that the night that I saw this thing it frightened me. I was scared by my own being, because it was simply myself made visible. That’s part of the eternal structure of the universe. But I animated it. He said, “Eternity exists, and all things in eternity, independent of creation, which was an act of mercy” (Vis. Last Judg.,Pp.91-92). That act of mercy was the animation of that which exists. The whole thing exists, but it’s dead, it’s frozen, and then you, God, awaken it. You begin to animate it, and as you animate it you don’t know you’re animating it and it scares you. You are afraid of your own life, because you give it life; it has no life in itself. Only the Father has life in himself, and as the Father has life in himself, so he has granted the Son also to have life in himself. "

Here's another example of NG saying that things exist outside of our assumed experience of reality. He says that the world around us exists outside of us. He says it all exists but it's dead. Notice how he never talks about alternate realities and such, where there's a world without lions and tigers and human beings? I've never heard that. Manifesting a world which is physically at the foundation different is denying what NG taught, and yet due to modern quantum lunacy and parallel reality trash I've got all these utter fools buying into such a stupid idea because it sounds smart. It's not and I knew that way back before I even knew NG was a thing.

"Now, what then endures? This is part of the eternal structure of the universe. What then passes away and what endures outside of the eternal structure that God has set up to bring forth himself as you?—-love, love never ends. As for prophecy, it will pass away, as for knowledge, it will pass away; for our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect. But when that which is perfect comes, that which is imperfect will pass away. And so, when we are perfected in his own mind’s eye…when the lowly being that we started as, just trying to make something move and it moved…but we didn’t know we did it. We saw it move, and we didn’t see any contact between the thing and ourselves. We didn’t have a string, like a kite, but we know when we’re flying a kite with the wind we can do certain things and we do know we are guiding the motion, or we feel we are. But we have no sensation of contact between the beam, say, a beam of thought, and we don’t realize we’re just as contacted with it as we are with the string and the kite. We don’t know it. And so, it moves and seems to run from us and sometimes frightens us because of our attitude towards it. And it scares us to death…when it has no power in itself. All the power is in the mind of the one who is looking at it, and imagining whatever he is imagining when he looks at it. And the whole vast world is simply the animated structure of the world, animated by the percipient, and you are the percipient. So the only thing that really remains is love, because God is love. There is nothing but God and God is love."

Another one from the same "all are human" lecture from 1964

"And may I tell you, these garments, not one is progressive from one to the other, they are eternal parts of the eternal structure of the universe. And God actually buried himself in these garments and he’s transforming, individualizing himself. " - eternal states 1968

Right there is him saying that we're in human form to individuate.

29/11/25

Totally random but I don't know why today my SP is like a totally different person. I did nothing special. Nothing at all that's really even different other than get a lot more work done on the backend.

God is known by experience - 1972

"So tonight could be your call. It may be tomorrow night. I hope it is not in the distant future. But He will call all; and when you take off this garment, having been called and having seen the Son, you have taken it off for the last time. Until it actually happens to you, “death” is not death. “Death” is nothing more than simply leaving a room and entering another room, simply like the room you left . . the same terrestrial world. With all the struggles you left behind you? You’ll find them there. You are restored to life, not as a baby; no reincarnation. You are restored . . a young man, a young woman, with not a thing missing. No need of anything to be added because nothing is missing; only you are young . . about 20 years of age . . to continue your journey in this world, to be confronted with all the problems that are here. Yes, and you marry there, too. You marry, and you grow old, and you “die” there, too. And if it hasn’t yet happened, you are restored again to continue the journey until it happens. But it’s going to happen to every being in the world. Not one can fail, because then God would fail, and that’s impossible. So everyone will awaken from the Dream of Life, and it doesn’t end at that moment in time that your senses cease to register that being and we speak of him as “dead.”

Well here is NG telling us that we won't be born again as children. This is the thing I still can't grasp about his doctrine. I've literally gone through more than 50 different examples of the word "restored" in his work that I've filtered through and he always talks about how if you die here you'll then go to a world exactly like this one with all the struggles except you won't be physically born again as a child. So then why are we born as children here? Is this a first go around? I have yet to find that answer in his work to put this together. All I know if that what he's describing is the underworld journey, where someone continues to live as though they never really died since their elements have separated and cannot complete the work. It's pretty clear that NG doesn't preach this, else he would've made the distinction but he didn't. His alchemy is extremely limited.

I found some very interesting quotes from the lecture Esau and Jacob - 1959

"QUESTION: Will you explain further about seeing another part of the room?

ANSWER: Practice bi-location. This is the tearing apart of Jacob from Esau. Sit in one room of your home and view another room, and see what you would see if you were physically there, and you tear yourself apart. Do not walk completely integrated, as a being that is only a garment of flesh: that is Esau. For man is all Imagining and he is always where he is in his Imagination.

If you desire security let no one tell you it is not spiritual. Those who say it is not spiritual are the first who will ask you for a handout! Let no one tell you that you should not have what you want in this world. It is yours if you know who Jacob is and who Esau is. Be ready to go through anything. Esau has to go through it; Esau is the slave of his brother. Jacob is the master. When you break loose from his yoke upon your neck, you are dead. Do not be embarrassed at what you lose. The best thing you can lose is false pride. You may have to go through the furnaces to lose false pride, for it is Jacob’s command.

QUESTION: How do you see this golden light?

ANSWER: I sit quietly and turn my eyes inward as if I am looking into my skull. In a moment a golden light begins to glow. Light begins to appear and it looks like golden liquid light and it comes before my eyes and then it goes out in circle after circle, like smoke rings, and these increase in rate and then they become like a funnel with the big end at my face.

Another exercise I practice: I take a table or a rug. I do not look at it, but focus my attention beyond it, and with my eyes partially open; I try to look below its surface. Suddenly the whole thing will become alive. There is nothing dead in this world. This rug at which you are looking seems inanimate, but suddenly in its depths people will appear. Do not be afraid and you will walk into it. You, the real you, are not contained within the spatial boundaries of this body, that is only Esau. But you are an immortal being and you can step through the seeming solid.

If you would like confirmation of this technique, read the life of DaVinci. He said that is how he got all of his paintings. He was the first one to give us the model of the airplane. Before the Wright brothers were thought of, he drew it. He said that when he wanted to paint he would look into a mottled wall and then all these people came out dressed in costumes, and they were not paid models!

Take a wall in your home, or look at the fireplace stones: they will become so familiar, and then the wall will change its face. It changes with your mood. Often it is a little girl; then it changes and is something entirely different. Your senses begin to expand, for there is something in every child born of woman that is immortal. I personally have no experience to confirm reincarnation as commonly taught, but I do have many experiences concerning worlds within worlds. I cannot tell you if the popular conception of reincarnation is true or false. I know I have always been, and I know I was sent, and that world from which I was sent is real to me, yet I had to go through what this world calls birth, but I do not call that reincarnation. That is the awakening of the sons of God and there is only one and that is Jacob or Jesus Christ.

The immortal being in you has never been tarnished; you cannot tarnish Jacob. Esau has to go through all these things, and fight all the way. We think there must be some redemption for Esau, but it is Jacob who has been given full control of the whole. We clothe and feed . . and even insure . . Esau. The being that cannot die is not insured, but we insure Esau."

Here he's teaching bilocation and an inner gazing I've done myself, in fact I use to do this all the time automatically and I thought something was wrong with me because my eyes would always look towards each other and up, way back in 2015 when I did normal gazing I'd sometimes end up doing this too. I do not believe this is any special method though, but I do know it has archetypal significance due to some of the things the alchemist has trained me to understand about how to use this region of the body to impact certain currents. What's most interesting to me is the idea of bi-location. Separating Jacob from Esau. This to me is clearly relating to the aetheric form that you see when you do advanced gazing as Jacob and the physical body as Esau. Esau will have to go through it NG says. If the subtle underlying innate currents drive everything through Esau from Jacob then it means when Jacob provides Esau the movement via the currents because it's comfortable then Esau must follow through. Thing is that moving Esau also moves Jacob, at least in most cases it will. What I mean is state streaks of involvement. How does anyone get better at a sport? They practice. I am ONLY able to know the things I do because I involve, but I WANT to involve because I see myself there, hence my point. Where Jacob is, which is the vision for your life, Esau will involve to build that into tactile experience through involved state streaks. This is pretty much what everyone experiences. He talks about the separation of the subtle from the dense, much like inner alchemy. It's there, it's just explained in very basic ideas.

In the last section he talks about worlds within worlds, and that he had to go through birth and that this birth isn't what he calls reincarnation. Do keep in mind that the "worlds within worlds" that he talks about is him experiencing the views of his different components that he's opening up to. I've said many times but when you dream you're experiencing a specific part of your psyche that you're otherwise not typically conscious of. It's the same LEVEL of consciousness as gazing offers you access to but it's also coming from the perception of your lesser yang. Your view can be arranged to observe the lives that are going on within you as we speak, "worlds within worlds". This isn't alternate realities or timelines, there's only one. This phenomena is simply the more subtle elements of your psyche operating as they normally do, living their own lives. This is why I say that when NG tells us that we're restored to a world like this, that's what he means, and that's what he's seeing. I do not believe that it's exactly as he says it is, because this goes against what's been established in the alchemical doctrine that's been taught for thousands of years as well as some of my personal experience with having interactions on these levels from time to time, usually accidentally. When NG talks about people and faces showing up when you do gazing, that's a sign of overlapping the conscious and the unconscious mind. It's what advanced gazing is hyper optimized to work the most, to expand the subconscious most efficiently to manifest the phenomena thematically representing this as we're forced to see the translations of those currents into experiences we have when doing it. You're basically seeing the stagnant currents in what shows up, among other things I can't really talk about in detail here.

Also do notice how he called Jacob Jesus Christ as well. I mean in seedline doctrine that works perfectly as well, because Jacob contained Jesus Christ within his reproductive capacity. So I can see how that would work too, Jacob and Christ referring to a similar thematic principle. Imagination is called Christ, and yet also is Jacob, and NG said that the experience of bi-location (being in the aetheric subconscious level body) is also separating Jacob from Esau, so to me this all points clearly to what imagination really is being the aetheric form, and all of the meridians which comprise that which you see when you do advanced gazing and KNOW exist. I see the meridians on my body every day, and some clients in my immortality group can see their meridians with a blindfold on when they look down at themselves or look at the waves of colour that emanate from their hands when doing certain qigong routines. This is real stuff, it's not something you assume, we all have it. That's also my point, the imagination is almost in itself a "level" of awareness, being the experience of being INSIDE the subconscious mind, being IN the aetheric body. That's experiencing a deeper overlap because whenever you're in that state you must be conscious of what's unconscious to some degree or another. Spending time there will only attune you to that level which can ONLY expand through opening space by clearing unconscious conditions, which MUST be felt through, cut through, as I call it. It's the same mechanism of why I teach implied involvement as a means of gaining momentum using outer level movement which only aids the inner level, despite what NG would teach.

I'm honestly so tired of having to debate these ignorant fools who don't have any clue how deep I've gone into this study. They think because I'm still pretty young and such that I must just be making this up to sell coaching or whatever, but obviously those who have read this far know that's not the point. It's just such a pain to deal with. I could school every one of them and find pleasure in it but I just get tired of the amount there is, people who obviously have no interest in understanding greater depths of alchemy. They probably go after me because I know so much at such a young age, which has been what I've always told myself, that I'm the youngest guy on earth who knows all the secrets of reality. That's just what I carried through. It all manifests through me.

Please do know though, I do NOT have all the answers, though I work tirelessly to attain all of them. Attaining answers is all I've ever done. Nothing else matters to me, really. I am at a point now where there's so much connected that I just see ignorance in everyone who's not studied in RS, all that work I put into this system and all the things I've learned as a result just reveal such blindness in basically everyone I talk to. It's not even the depth itself, but the width. The AMOUNT of DIFFERENT areas of depth that I've gone into is what makes my work unique, truly unique. RS isn't a one trick pony, it's the jack of all trades in the most efficient way possible, and yet it's also a one trick pony where is matters. That's why it's so insane just to consider how far this work has come in just a few years since I put this all out.

2/12/25

Man it's already December. So I've been basically logging every thought I have over the day that I can remember and what happened with that. I do daily pathway work, and looking back I can find reference to themes of experience that came through my thoughts in the next day and so on. I've only got like 4 days of logging so far but I've already seen patterns. I need to break pattern to introduce new cycles of expected outcome to break up the predictability and introduce some chaos to the mix.

Here's something interesting. I just want to note that most of the radio lectures NG did in 1951 are probably the best of his material and is quite practical unlike most of his other work. Here's an example from the one called "answered prayer"

"The necessity of persistence in prayer is shown us in the Bible.

“Which of you,” asked Jesus,

“shall go unto him at midnight, and say unto him: Friend, lend me three loaves; for a friend of mine is come to me from a journey, and I have nothing to set before him”:

and he from within shall answer and say,

‘Trouble me not; the door is now shut and my children are with me in bed; I cannot rise and give thee.’ I say unto you, though he will not rise and give him because he is his friend, yet because of his importunity he will arise and give as many as he needeth.”

The word translated as “importunity” means, literally, shameless impudence. We must persist until we succeed in imagining ourselves into the situation of the answered prayer."

So here he's telling us to be perfectly persistent. Now this is the issue most people have, that drive to WANT to actually cut through the trash. You see the issue we face is that we've already got within us the voice of distrust of ourselves because we constantly compromise over and over to keep other people happy. In this case we will look at what the original Webster's dictionary says about impudence.

"IM'PUDENCE, noun [Latin impudens; in and pudens, from pudeo, to be ashamed.] Shamelessness; want of modesty; effrontery; assurance accompanied with a disregard of the opinions of others.

Those clear truths, that either their own evidence forces us to admit, or common experience makes it impudence to deny."

Right there is what is quoted. This is telling us that we need to basically become the opposite of pleasing to others, not in a deliberately disrespectful way where we go looking for trouble but that we simply will stop caring one bit for the expectations of others. That's how I've always framed this. Now applying that to the direction of expansion that NG talks about is how "going all the way" practically applies. You'll WANT to involve yourself in a life that implies you're shameless, because embodied behavioral patterning based on persistent repetition in state streak will normalize and make that comfortable for you. You will then not feel the pang of need to stay silent when you'd otherwise speak facts to people, like I've been doing lately uncompromisingly to everyone in my life. I get flak for it at times but I am shamelessly impudent and stand on what I know to be true regardless of the trash that's thrown my way to make me fall to expectations. It's really easy to then frame persistence. This point is arguably THE MOST IMPORTANT PART of doing ANY of this so called manifesting thing. The seeming magic works out of this. I can tell you from experience that making things show up using imaginal acts in a vacuum is 99% of the time going to be a waste of time, and if you do them and they work then those things would've happened anyway.

"And if you are equally persistent in your dream, no power can stop it from coming to fulfillment. But you cannot deviate. You cannot turn from the dream to see what others are doing, or what they think about it; you must be willing to lose yourself, to be possessed by your dream." - be imitators of God

That right there is true. You cannot think of what others are doing, or what they think about what you are involved in and how they see you. You MUST BE WILLING TO LOSE YOURSELF. That feeling of fear and trash, when you cut through it all the way and involve in the life they don't want you to then you have done what he says above. HOW ELSE DO YOU EXPRESS THIS BECAUSE IF WE'RE TOLD NOT TO TELL OTHERS WHAT WE IMAGINED OR DESIRE THEN THIS WOULD HAVE TO MEAN HE'S TALKING ABOUT INVOLVEMENT WITH BEING THAT PERSON! Right? How else would you frame that? He's clearly talking about involvement here, because he's telling us that we can't give our dream up for what other people think, under the context of deviation. If you continually imagine and see yourself in the place of being that person for real, OF COURSE you'd NATURALLY WANT TO INVOLVE IN IT LIKE WE ALL DO! Common sense right. He's saying to go all the way, and making it apply to some actual examples that psychologically ring home here about these conditions.

Listen carefully. This doesn't mean you keep telling yourself the words, or even always feel somatically positive, because you can't, but that you CONTINUE TO EXPAND INTO THAT VISION AND CUT THROUGH CONDITIONS THROUGH IMPLIED INVOLVEMNET WHICH REPRESENT YOU GOING ALL THE WAY. Even if NG didn't directly say that, it works, for everybody, and is applying the same psychological function he's talking about, OBVIOUSLY. Telling someone to sit in their bed all say and imagine and blank out the world isn't how businesses that are successful are built. Read ANY biography of someone who is in that position as a successful business owner now and you'll find the same thing. They obsessed over a vision, and idea of what they wanted to create, and they went all the way and didn't say no no matter what. That's what this is all about. This has NOTHING to do with continually mentally stimulating yourself, but that embodied state streak experiences will imply this stuff through you naturally. I can't stand hearing the morons tell us to keep affirming and continually feeling emotionally high. That's NOT what he's talking about, though if that works for you, once again, it wasn't those things that caused it but your firm conviction in the shameless owning of that vision for your life regardless of conditions. THAT is the causal mechanism, going all the way. This transcends all types of emotion, because it's NOT the emotion that manifests, like some morons think because they lack real experience and data analysis, but it's the direction of expansion into being more of who you want to be, which is how I manifested an SP overnight before. I did it feeling FURY. It wasn't a "positive" emotion, but it IMPLIED I AM BRAZENLY IMPUDENT. I OWNED my desire through that, and this is what's FUNCTIONAL, in being REAL AS YOURSELF. That IS an activating current, because it's warming, quite literally, and your biochemistry will represent that as well, TEST is the manifestation of yang in the body, which breaks down crystalized trash and reorganizes the yin substances as structure.

You can see now how all this connects I'd hope. When NG says that this is all about where your attention is, that's correct, it's fixated on the vision, being in the person who's in the vision for your life all the time. That's correct. You'll apply persistence practically this way, but as I've said, we do FAR MORE than just sitting around daydreaming when you're in that place. You will EMBODY that person, meaning involve yourself in experiences OR simply carry that attitude around in whatever involvement is available, Point is, you'll BE that person in whatever means is available to you, and opportunities to test your faith will arise.

4/12/25

So it's been a few days of doing constant study from the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep. 24/7 reading of NG lectures and searching for keywords and finding answers directly from his body of work.

There's many quotes I've found which bring further light to things. Too many to list here, I'd fill up a whole page in no time. I will leave that for the program. So what I've found especially under the context of searching for answers relating to this idea of impression, persistence, fear and doubt, and "seedtime" as he calls it, is that singular moments are all it takes to manifest. A single suggestion that's accepted as truth, AKA the reality of experience EVEN IF the wording doesn't directly imply fulfilment, then that will manifest. There's SO many examples of this. Now everything that I know about how we "feel" more empowered as ourselves, to not buy into the conditions of the world, and how this relates to impression and as NG calls it "seedtime", that all points to things being about having supply in terms of available currents which represent that implication having clear pathways by which the suggestion can unfold through in comfort, or at least ENOUGH comfort. Nobody has 100% comfort on anything in life really, unless you're a true master at something. My point is that the acceptance and satisfaction stems directly from a connection to the higher levels of expansion. The more you life into expansion and see a higher ideal for yourself as NG says and PERSIST in THAT, then you'll almost certainly make magic work. I've proven this endlessly, and whenever I backslide into regression of expansion things get worse. Actively involving yourself in what autosuggests to you the reality of experience of that expansion, that will only aid in supporting the seedtime.

I won't go into every quote but I believe there's more than enough data I've dug out to make a rock solid case, and I can also pretty clearly prove that NG never DIRECTLY taught SP manifesting. By implication of some other things he said, you could argue he did, since he often taught seeing other people in higher states and imagining them doing things you'd like to see them experience, though when the subject of SP comes up HE NEVER ONCE EVER suggested you go for a specific person. EVER! If he did, show me. I've gone through every lecture and book and I've not seen a single example of him speaking about manifesting a specific person, as in a clearly defined teaching on that. Not once, though as I said you could infer that in other things he talked about, though if you ask me, if the subject comes up and his default is ALWAYS about the "state" of being happily married, then obviously it's not about the person and he specifically says that many times. He's said endlessly in fact "this man or no man" and he talks about the people who wanted someone specific and how they never end up with who they want and he talks about personal cases where he knows women especially who wanted a specific man and they "sheepishly" look at him when they see him as they're now married to someone else. It's pretty obvious to me how that works. That's not to say you CAN'T manifest a SPECIFIC person you have experience with, but I still will say that in a vast majority of cases, that's a highly unreliable thing that usually causes more issues than expansion, because in most cases unless that person is expanding into a life with their SP then it's very unlikely to work. NG would pretty much support this, as a majority of his doctrine was expansion methodology among other bits.

"Our world is the storm spoken of in the 8th chapter of Luke. Having entered our body, we have fallen asleep to our creative power. But when we discipline our mind, we quell the storms. The disciples of scripture are disciplined aspects of the mind. Once your five senses are so disciplined you see, hear, taste, touch, and smell, only what you desire, then you quell the storms of doubt and fear within you, for you know who you are. No longer will you seek the phenomena of life among your kinsfolk or acquaintances; for when you awaken, you find life in the temple. The world is always looking for new teachers on the outside, when there is nothing there but shadows. Christ is not another. You are Christ, as he is your very self! You will find him, and when you do, you will know that you are God; for a series of events will unfold within you and you will bear witness to your own fatherhood."

So this is on fear and doubt. He says "once your 5 senses are so disciplined". That's interesting to me, because the expansion of those senses IS the experience of subconscious expansion since that IS the "imaginal body" you could say. Now he tells us basically that being more IN that expansion INTO the subconscious at baseline through PERSISTENCE then you'll be able to "quell the storms of doubt". What I believe this means is that through a higher order connection to your innate nature on the imaginal sense level, you'll be able to feel the reality of that more than the world in front of you. Cultivating connection to those subtle body senses, and most importantly what that DOES, being the ability to expand the pathway cascades into a direction that's satisfying on the spot through moving pressure dynamically, then you'll be able to quell doubt and fear. This is probably the most clear instruction of direct nature telling us how to manage how we feel on the spot, and it's simply that you're connected so deeply to the subconscious aetheric body that you'll feel more into that reality than this one. This is what dynamic gazing does. You "block out" the world around you to a sense with the reality of the subconscious level of experience being your baseline more or less and I believe this is how things work on those levels where you can deny the senses. The alchemist has talked indirectly about this very thing, meaning more or less that you're living in a higher state of expansion. NG also did quote saying that when you live in the state of Christ then you don't buy into fear. That would mean you've connected to the superconscious level at baseline in heaven and live more there than here. Here in the world becomes the thing you CHOOSE to participate in, which is different from when you don't have access to those higher levels of expansion and individuation as self where the meaning and importance of things in this world seem overblown and deny your innate vision for life.

So what I know builds coherency with this is gazing, which NG himself talks about many times in fact. I know that meaningful implied involvement also expands this. Nourishing your body does the same thing. Everybody knows that and feels worse when they eat and drink trash, especially without moderation.

"[Question concerning assuming the wish fulfilled]…you cannot allow any conscious fears.

Neville: The question is: having assumed the feeling of the wish fulfilled, you cannot deny that in spite of that assumption there are a few conscious doubts and fears. Well, I do not deny that, but practice will make it less and less so and you will trust God so implicitly, not as an external being who may be quite watching you when you are praying. That is what people say, “I wonder if he saw me?” because your Imagination will always…

As we started off the lecture tonight quoting from the 17th chapter of the book of Acts: “You have an unknown god…I will tell you of that unknown God and he is not far off. In him we live and move and have our being.” Where could I go, departing from my Imagination? I am all Imagination and that is God. So whatever I am imagining, my Imagination is seeing. Eventually you have such complete confidence in Him. Imagination and faith are the stuff out of which man fashions his world. Now, faith is the subjective appropriation of the objective, hope, and faith and Imagination are the stuff out of which we fashion our world."

You can interpret this clearly as the more you're connected to your innate nature the more closely to God you are in capacity and the less fears will feel important to you.

"Listen to your thoughts and you will hear God’s words. A thought that is not felt produces nothing. But a thought producing motor elements reproduces itself! Catch God in a moment of a motor element such as anger, fear, or frustration, being congratulated or congratulating, and you will know what is going to happen in your world. Unless, of course, you arrest your thoughts and revise them. Most of us, however, are not aware of what we are doing, so we do not observe the creator. But we can catch him as he streams into our surface mind least disguised in the form of productive fancy."

A thought that's not felt produces nothing. I can't fully agree with this from my experience, since I've manifested things that I didn't really have intense feeling for many times. Feeling here he's talking about motor responses, nervous system somatic sensations. Once again proving that feeling is in fact not just "emotionally" felt but is a cascade of sensations stemming out of the pathways and what they mean, their charge levels and felt sense of importance and thus reality. Stimulation is in pretty much every case a felt sense of reality.

"The conscious mind forms beliefs and opinions from the evidence of the senses or the perceived outer world. The creative power within each of us accepts as true that which the conscious mind impresses upon it. Your creative power takes those ideas, which are thought of with feeling, and projects them in your outer world. It is important to remember that not all thoughts are creative.

Only those which are believed to be true or which are joined with feeling create the circumstances and events that you will encounter. Therefore, emotions such as anger, fear, love or joy are creative. You must guard the emotions which you allow to enter your consciousness just as you would discriminate in allowing a stranger into your home. You cannot allow negative emotions to fill your mind without suffering the consequences of experiencing the state with which those emotions are joined. Fear of loss brings loss into your world. You could take every outward precaution to guard against loss, but if you fear loss, you will most certainly experience it in your affairs. Feelings of love and joy create happy events and loving relationships. Feeling abundant brings riches into your life. A person who is unloving or suspicious and feels that others take advantage of him, draws to himself that which he believes. No matter what he does externally, his relationships with others will reflect that which he accepts as true. He may want a loving relationship but he can draw to himself only that which he is conscious of being."

Importance is excessive charge, and also depletion. Balance through being supplied by God coming through you makes this all work, because the supply is already available but you need to allow that to be accepted, you switch source from the conditions and need for approval from others and projection to innate nature. Is that not what "letting go" really is?

5/12/25

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"No one knows what the Master is putting the servant through in order to transform him into His own Being. And everyone, whether he knows it or not, goes through hell, . . but everyone. When one gloats because so far he hasn’t touched it or remembers that he’s done something similar, well then, I wouldn’t say, pity him, but he doesn’t know. He just does not know.

Now let me share with you a letter that came today. The lady is here tonight. She said, “In a dream these huge, huge machines that move mountains” . . you’ve seen them . . “and make highways; and there was a man who led me by some magnetic current. I moved like a puppet, as he simply moved me at his will. But inwardly I rebelled and used every ounce of strength I could to break this robot,” . . but she couldn’t. He simply moved her at his will, and she played the part, the part of a puppet." - consigned to disobedience - 1971
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[10:07 AM]Friday, 5 December 2025 10:07 AMThe Legend: Hence the quotes
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"No one knows what the Master is putting the servant through in order to transform him into His own Being. And everyone, whether he knows it or not, goes through hell, . . but everyone. When one gloats because so far he hasn’t touched it or remembers that he’s done something similar, well then, I wouldn’t say, pity him, but he doesn’t know. He just does not know. Now let me share with you a letter that came today. The lady is here tonight. She said, “In a dream these huge, huge machines that move mountains” . . you’ve seen them . . “and make highways; and there was a man who led me by some magnetic current. I moved like a puppet, as he simply moved me at his will. But inwardly I rebelled and used every ounce of strength I could to break this robot,” . . but she couldn’t. He simply moved her at his will, and she played the part, the part of a puppet." - consigned to disobedience - 1971

There's so many of these types of quotes NG references that would seem to point to us having a fixed trajectory to some degree or another here. He's literally saying that the woman tried to avoid being moved, by an external force, outside of her will, while she was seemingly conscious of the fact of it which to me is the strangest part of that quote really but it's still there pointing to how not everything that happens to us is because of our conscious movement The first part of that quote is literally referencing inner alchemical transformation, putting you through the hellfire to transform lead into gold, AKA "his own being", cleaning the unconscious of conditioning and such. And yet he at the same time says that everything that befalls man is his own doing. So it's like is he talking about that being from top down or bottom up perspective? We have no free will to avoid fixed point of comparison moving us into expansion through the pressure we feel, but everything else should be on the table for free will accordingly.

"Then she said, “I saw something forming. He was trying to form something in me, or out of me, or by me. But something was forming and it seemed to form out of hot, liquid glass.”

Well, you know the intensive heat that it would take to reduce glass to a liquid state.

“And then I noticed that the form of a man took shape and it came out of the top of my head. The head was perfect, . . perfectly formed, but the rest was still a mass not yet formed.”"

Quote right after the above part literally pointing to the "forming" of perfection through facing hellfire. Pressure to transform There's always some quote somewhere in his work that could seem to negate something else he said elsewhere it seems so building a rock solid case study without any possible contradiction is next to impossible really unless you stretch meaning

"So this body, . . you put it through hell, may I tell you? But you put it through hell to learn certain lessons. For we are told, “the Law is spiritual.” But man does not know the Law is spiritual until he has gone through all these fires of experience, and then he discovers that it is spiritual; and in the end, when the whole thing unfolds within him, then the Law becomes easy for him to operate, . . but not until the end" Well that's a telling quote right there. "the law becomes easy for him to operate... BUT NOT UNTIL THE END" Which echoes what you said yesterday about going all the way

"Now let me come back to this level and show you how to go about realizing your objectives. What you want, be it health, wealth, or fame, is only a state. Think of the state as an egg containing everything necessary to externalize itself, but dead and must be penetrated and fertilized in order to break the shell and become what the world calls reality. Let me illustrate. As I stand here before you, I desire and will assume that I am in San Francisco, approximately 500 miles from here. (I think I know this city well, but I don’t have to know a city in order to assume a state.) Putting myself in a familiar hotel lobby, I sit there and think of the world relative to the lobby in which I am now seated. While I am here I feel its reality; I feel the satisfaction of being here, the very place I wanted to be. The moment I feel the relief of being here, I have released the necessary sperm, or energy, into that dead state. Then I return to Los Angeles, but in that short period of time I have gone and prepared the experience. Now I will move across a bridge of events which will compel me to go to San Francisco. I may have no desire to go, but I will; for I have prepared the place, occupied it, and although I returned to where I was and later may resist the going, I cannot stop it, for I have created it and I will fulfill what I have done." - conception 1968

So here is NG telling us that the thing that "makes" it happen is relief, satisfaction, release. Relaxation really. Sinking charge, negating pressure. So according to this doctrine planting seeds ISN'T about feeling "excitement" and being highly charged but the opposite, relief, which is a release of pressure. In that case then his examples that he repeats endlessly about feeling the "thrill" that it's done is contradicting when it comes to how the charge is felt as an intensity. I'd say more or less the thing that would tie this together would be the release of "I can't do this because of X condition" and that whatever emotional sense shows up after that is irrelevant. AKA the only functional mechanism is state overlaps by making the unconscious conscious and working through it internally. That's really the only way you can continually make sense of his work else it contradicts all over the place. But he never says it like that.

Interestingly he also called a desire an egg, and a state an egg. States seem to be degrees of self acceptance relative to the fixed point of comparison, that drives how you feel and buy into and thus show up for and "manifest"."

"Do you know you can put yourself into any state? My son actually put himself into the state of war by reading a book about Guadalcanal and falling in love with the pictures of the natives there! He certainly didn’t enjoy his experiences while there, but he asked for it. You see: nothing happens by accident. Everything that happens in the world does so because you and I set them in motion, whether we do it wittingly or unwittingly." - conception.. again.

So once again here we have NG telling us that reacting (assuming that's what he's referring to about his son reading the book) to something causes seedtime to happen and it shows up. Every reaction. He's talked about this many times before too. So how do you become non reactive? Well you settle the unresolved conflicts that agitate you by becoming the fulfilment of what they mean you can't involve in.

"He got a job going to the bank every day with large denominations of paper, and they would be exchanged for silver and copper. So when he came back he had the equal amount of money, this time in silver and copper. And one day, standing before the teller, the cashier, he noticed that the copper and the silver had similar external markings; they looked alike. And he wondered to himself, “wouldn’t it be wonderful if he made a mistake? Wouldn’t it be wonderful if that cashier made a mistake and gave me silver instead of copper?”

At that moment he assumed that the cashier did, and in his mind’s eye he took the things and then walked back to the store. He knew the cashier had not done it, but he simply wiped it out and played a little game. And he walked back feeling that the cashier had made the mistake and he wondered: “Now what would I do? I will go into a restaurant and eat for the first time in my life to where I feel satisfied. I will eat until it comes through my ears, then I’ll buy a pair of shoes and then I’ll buy a pair of slacks.” He knew that it would cover that much. When he got back to the store the man hadn’t made a mistake, but he had the joy of walking in that assumption.

The next day the man made that mistake. And he realized it the minute the man made the mistake. So he went to another bank and changed the money into the right amount so that he could take back the right amount to the store, leaving this money over. And with that extra money, he said, “I wrestled all day with myself, and that night when I went to bed I could hardly sleep. I wrestled and wrestled with myself because that was in conflict with what my dead mother had taught me. ‘Thou shalt not steal, thou shalt not covet.’ The next day my hunger and my desire to have a new pair of shoes and a new pair of pants overpowered what I had heard from my mother, and I ate until it came through, not my ears, but till I was stuffed. Then I bought myself a pair of slacks and I bought myself a pair of shoes.”

No first person present tense sensory depth. It's a "want" and it held no deep emotional feeling of excitement, other than a wonder. Yet he tells us in other lectures that only thoughts that hold emotion (charge) manifest.

"So here is the lady led like a puppet by this current that she could not control. It controlled her, forming out of her and in her that which could perfectly reflect itself. It is the story of Christ. “Until Christ be formed in you,” so we are told. “Christ reflects the glory of God, and is the express image of His person.”" Here he's using the same term as I am, about "current that she could not control" coming from God."

6/12/25

So Walter Gordon, Vladimir Fock and Oskar Klien all discovered the same relativistic mathematical equation to substitute the Schrodinger Equation in 1926. They all discovered the same thing independently. Another checkmark for field info being pulled out by different people... unless of course they all imagined the same thing for each other or something like NG would say.

7/12/25

I believe a big part of the whole "know you're God" thing that NG talks about is more or less functionally dropping the importance on needless things, recognizing "oh so I never needed to be that way" or whatever and just more or less living for higher satisfaction regardless of what level of societal attainment you've achieved. Being ok here and now, and actually feeling it FOR REAL. Like ACTUALLY not giving a damn about problems that are just petty when you really look at them objectively. Having this care free attitude I don't believe is possible when you're constantly comparing yourself, and nowadays 90+% of people live this way and it leeches so much out of them needlessly. It really does. It's either comparison to parental expectations or some stupid societal expectation.

I was thinking about getting into that serious "let's go" kind of attitude where I'm all locked in and ready to go but I stopped and felt the contrast. I thought, why feel this way, it's tense, it's needlessly scattering shen. You can act in meaningful ways without needing the "lock in" attitude. Feeling those feelings, on a charge level that is, doesn't make you act that way consistently because you still burn shen and Jing. That is a recipe for peak dip unless you've got some serious foundation of discipline to stand on. Discipline that's "carefree" or whatever you'd describe it with matters 10x more and if you ask me signals the attitude of a walking God on earth among flawed mortal men. That attitude of actually dropping importance on trash that's needless to hold as important seems to be what the thing NG is getting at with the whole know that you're God.

The alchemist agreed with me when I said that being in higher states of expansion feels more like peace is just always available, even if the world around you falls apart. It's not that you don't know what you need to do and feel the pressure, but that it's not like something that draws you into narrow view mode. What I more or less mean is you've got a wider frame of view at baseline all the time, and can act with meaningful implied involvement but not see it as such a serious task. If you're honest, you'll feel the difference, but sometimes also, keeping in mind, that aggressive attitude IS VERY functional. I can tell you that this function of my psychological makeup got me to fully cut through some crazy conditions for good many times and without that attitude I'd not have my success stories many times. It's that the charge IS there, unconsciously, as unresolved conflicts, and thus that feeling MUST be felt, though when you're just feeling it for the sake of almost reminting yourself and autosuggesting that change needs to be made then you're only continuing to cultivate further conditions in your life to find something wrong with, since that's what you're looking for. THAT IS what your narrow view will perceive and you WILL NOT be satisfied, even IF you attain what you want physically. You can't be, because the end really hasn't been about the THING, but immortality and individuation, and if what's contained within your individuation is the thing then you will ALWAYS attain that thing anyway. It's part of how you unfold the thematic sequence of the Jing at that level, so really we must ask ourselves, why do we feel this way and is this functional? NG DID in fact teach this. I believe that persistence functionally has a LOT to do with THIS idea, and not do much about feeling intensity. It's more or less feeling LESS intensity, which is what I've always really said about being spontaneous with intensity when it's necessary.

Dynamism is the whole point here, balanced dynamism. Fixating on a specific feeling state is partly what NG is trying to raise awareness of in you, about what that sense of intensity MEANS about you and what you're trying to please in response. We must involve, we must expand, though for who and to what end? That is in fact always the reference frame we need to return to because it's the broader picture. You don't NEED to feel importance in 99% of the scenarios you end up finding importance with, though since you're not casually comfortable with that yet then you don't end up in that state.

I've found almost every time that I just involve myself in what I WANT SPONTANEOUSLY, provided I know I'm not compromising surrounding that, then I know I'll end up with surprise abundance in whatever way because it happens on the regular in that place.

I've done experiments with this and I've written about this many times. This might be what I need, and not another, but it seems that whenever I "feel" the sense that I'm "floating" within myself, not in an agitated way but in a sort of "wider" kind of sense of being where I almost feel like every cell in my body is "raising up", then I tend to have good luck show up the following day/s. This is consistent, whenever I sense this feeling however you'd describe it, that would bring me closer to a degree of spontaneous flow and where my shen would be activated but not in an agitated way where I'd be under needless pressure. This isn't a cope method, because I find that my confidence even under pressure is generally higher and that pressure feels smaller. I believe that a lot of this has to do with the heart-kidney axis as I've talked about endlessly where the heart is supplied with qi but isn't filled with heat and can cool down at the same time. The yin and yang cycles through that meridian system where current is available for activation and cooling. Remember we need cooling to avoid excess, be it full or empty heat. Yin is necessary and if the kidney (and to a degree liver) meridians are in fire then your heart WILL be agitated and your shen WILL be scattered and agitated and you will likely end up disassociating when under pressure and seeking cope. This is what everyone who wants to manifest an SP lives in. Needless agitation. This is the issue, that "needing" sense is literally the feeling of the heart overheating, or even being ice cold seeking stimulus to start warmth. Generally it's going to be a release though, a pseudo satisfaction cycle. That's what manifests when the heart holds excess heat. I find that when I feel this "raising" sensation in my body I just naturally seem to smile more, laugh more, feel more confident and have rock solid communication skills EFFORTLESSLY. That's the key word. I talk about needing to move current and mediate pressure to anchor the change, though from my experience you can experience a degree of deep satisfaction just from methods like this, though of course meaningful involvement is still required to properly anchor change into your life that is lasting.

Either way, I see this whole kidney-heart axis as the key meridian system to work with, next to liver qi stagnation. I mean Jing and Shen are 2 of the 3 treasures and they're housed in the kidney and heart meridian. The lung mostly is responsible for the qi or the 3rd treasure of Daoist vital currents. Where you do to integrate them all simply comes down to living a life that's satisfying, though consciously deciding to moment by moment observe your state through methods like dynamic gazing (provided your mind isn't active because then good luck) will open the door to feel this contrast and at baseline actually begin to build that kidney-heart axis connection. When I did my 3 month fast I got that connection formed well, and I will say that in many cases, the chads out there very likely have this circuit online and functional. I don't believe it's possible to be "beautiful" without that functioning. It's necessary, though when your Jing is well nourished, AKA hormones for the most part, as well as your satisfaction from making meaningful decisions and not needlessly comparing yourself all the time and using that comparison to stimulate the unresolved conflicts needlessly, then you'll be able to make ACTUAL headway in making a meaningful change. The comparisons will still exist, though obsessing over them is THE ISSUE. We still NEED to involve and resolve the conflicts, though doing it in a functional spontaneous way is 1000000x more nourishing for our overall vitality than constantly being in this state of agitation and needing to always have intensity to you. I find that this can bring results in a short term sense, living with intensity, but you WILL NOT sustain that long term, because it's just NOT functional and you'll end up with heart fire especially if your hormonal basis in the kidney meridian is powerful to support that constant supply of innate heat. You NEED to get real with yourself in this regard too, and I'm not telling you to "just relax bro" but to hold a higher and wider view of yourself at baseline in how you approach the world instead of always trying to meet an expectation and be agitated because you're not in that ideal yet. You SHOULD focus on the ideal you, but not to appease anyone else or any condition, and most importantly, it shouldn't be agitating when you look at where you're at now. THAT IS EXTREMELY DYSFUNCTIONAL TRASH. We need to be real with that in our lives, because even I get stuck in that cycle at times doing this work and drawing comparisons. I tend to find "motivation" more when I see them, though it's not stemming from a perspective of WILLING SELF involvement in that process, but more or less because I see something that brings out the innate pressure in a agitating way. You can face the trash and deal with the unconscious conflicts in that space when you're involved spontaneously, and that's more or less what I'm saying with this. Don't always needlessly stimulate this feeling of needing to always be agitated and use that as your motivation. That's just SO depleting and is not sustainable. I lived in that state for a very long time many years ago when I was comparing myself to others all the time when it came to how "awake" I was about certain factions in this world doing certain things to us all and disrespecting us on a daily basis.

It comes to a point where you're able and willing to involve in the life you want but from the perspective of satisfying flow, not agitated "need" to involve because of comparison and lack. That's going to circle back now to the start. You need to be real and ask yourself if your involvement is what it could be, and then approach that involvement not in the "oh man I'm so bad I need to improve" agitated attitude, but instead that you're comparing yourself to your own growth to the vision you hold for yourself, not to please another person out there but to please God, the innate natural striving. Some might think if they're "behind" in life, that they need to rush to get it all done, but I don't see that as functional either because it's doing the same thing. I will tell you. once again, having involved in meaningful ways and done that work and pushed through the trash and was agitated 24/7 while doing it, I burned a LOT MORE Jing in the process than was needed, simply because I wasn't in balance with what I needed. Listen, we're dynamic beings with ratios of yin and yang that are always in flux relative to each other. We cannot exist in either one side constantly and expect our state to come out functional in the end. It CANNOT work. Reality is dynamic and being spontaneous with expression is almost always going to work 1000x better than living in a constant state of needless agitation usually drawn out of comparison to appease an unresolved conflict. We all FEEL that but can't seem to just slow down and STOP needlessly agitated involvement when we're in that because the feeling of "I'm going to satisfy this condition finally" keeps coming up. You're always right at the edge of the finish line but it keeps moving ahead of you with every step. You'd always be one step from the edge but never make it, because you can't if the reason for change is to crush the competition in comparison. Living for that will destroy you, just like I've experienced. Just because you do good work doesn't mean it was functional for you, no matter how much approval you'd get out there. You WILL burn Jing needlessly and THAT is the opposite of being yourself. Going hardcore with involvement is just as damaging to your long term Jing than doing nothing in a spiritual expansion side of things really, because both are trying to move agitating current, though materially the one who involves more will get further with having the status and resources gained from working in meaningful ways around that agitated state anyway. Balance. Check in and sink charge, then come back and approach the task at hand. Be mindful of what you're operating from.

This is how I integrate and perceive "persistence" as NG coins it from an RS perspective, and a lot of it feeds into the whole "I AM God" thing he talks about too. Whenever your shen is anchored in the blood of your heart and has "cooling" like a cooling system for a car engine that's running maxed out load. The engine will overheat and burn up, just like your shen. There can also be too much inaction, lack of motivating current that's driving meaningful involvement. There needs to be balance, as with all things in life. Your life must be balances in all ways, and the only one that can guide that is God. You will feel and intuitively know this though not listen to it. That's the issue. You don't trust God, the inner guidance system. When we trust this, you'll make 10x more progress. This is necessary eventually anyway when you get to higher levels of expansion, you'll naturally grow into this sense of being in that balance since that balance opens up width and width is a measure of subconscious expansion and connection to illumination. Periodic gazing, dynamic gazing, having balance instead of being work work work work, it's almost all for the function of "cooling down" the agitated shen. It's just how we're built. If you're really young, then you'll have an easier time with not feeling the effects of this as much, but it will catch up in time, since I've experienced that and know the feeling.

Age reversal is possible, only through true balance of being, which is the most difficult thing imaginable and is the challenge of life. We cannot do alchemy without the lab, the body, and anyone thinking that immortality without the body is possible is insane. Thus why NG and his bible doctrine cannot work. Without the body being transformed then you've failed at the work. The body must participate in the expression of your personalized individuated quintessence that you're uniquely becoming. The body is a factor in that equation. Integrating all of these aspects matters. We must learn to take care of our body, because it's our lab. You don't want broken lab kit when trying to perform transmutation. That's why TCM exists. TCM literally exists to explore these mechanics and that's what I'm exploring with you here. It's because we must become a complete quintessence in ourselves and the only way to do that is to take the base materials and expose them to God. God is the inner guidance mechanism, and through individuation under pressure we transform and expand in consciousness, or as I prefer to say, "width of awareness". Being aware of MORE, of yourself and that which you're contained within. This is why we age, because we're disconnected from the immortal supply that's moving us INTO immortality through that intuitive impulse. It's there to dynamically drive the expansion and correct unfolding of our Jing thematically given available involvement pathways to express that current through. Too bad 99.9% of people won't understand what that means.

The only way for us to become truly immortal is to live in balance of being. Expression and activation and then stabilization and integration. Warming and activating and cooling and relaxing. That dynamic dance of polarity of God is the metaphysical rulebook of living a satisfying life. No matter what you attain to please the temporary conditions of this world and the people around you, your immortality will never be found there. It can't, We can only please God, else we sin. Are you satisfied is always the question. Is what you're involved in satisfying and meaningful to you and always return to this question throughout your day and I bet you'll be surprised what you'll find.

8/12/25

I've been studying NG deeper again and comparing notes and I strongly believe that he taught different methods for different situations. There's many examples that demonstrate this but he has said at times that all you need is the "feeling" of the thing but then he's at times said in other lectures that this isn't the case and that you need to continuously persist and stabilize a state so that it "expels from my consciousness all if its rivals, then that central habitual state defines my character and really constitutes me new world." This is what he taught in most cases when it comes to trying to change other people, through for example inner conversations and talking about making forming a habit out of it. He literally used the term habit many times. I don't know how many times exactly but it's a lot, probably over 100 times over all of his lectures. Habits are involved state streaks that are "normal" and that's a key point.

It's funny I apply what I just wrote out yesterday and today in one of my private discord servers and I get random contact from more girls I don't want. New girls mind you. Multiple in the same day. I almost couldn't believe it. No joke it was like I came back totally unexpected to find DMs. Yeah they're young and pretty but so what. I just don't need that and I'm committed to my girl currently. Like life isn't about looking for any of this validation from out there. They come to you and you either accept or reject them. That's how this works. You become too good to resist, where they basically fawn over you BECAUSE YOU'RE REAL AS YOURSELF. If that means rejecting 99% of them then so be it. Point is that your satisfaction is eternal.

I also want to mention this sense of overwhelming calm and peace that's washed over me today. I feel like the state of being in Jesus Christ, from the NG perspective, functionally speaking, is about simply not giving a damn what anyone outside of you even thinks at all IN ANY WAY WHATSOEVER. You "block out" the world accordingly, like where it ACTUALLY doesn't stimulate a sense of lack at all. You can se someone tell you they hate you and you just have no movement internally, no "motor response" to it. That's what it's like. Because you're EXPANDING WILLINGLY and that your expansion is your supply of worth and raw real responses to the world stem from that, then you aren't dependent on anyone or anything else to validate how you feel. You become individuated, individually yourself for real. No compromise. You simply aren't moved, because you do the moving now. You're the supply. You house more of God within your container. You are free from even needing to worry about circumstances because your fixation is on what you are unfolding above all else and that the trash that try to pull you down don't mean anything to you. Seriously. That's what it feels like, where you are almost the "only person in the world" or whatever. That's not literal but the way that you experience reality is that you decide who you respond to and who you don't. You decide who you feel is even worth your reaction and response. This should be FOUNDATIONAL to attaining results with this stuff if you ask me because no matter what you do in this world or what you attain, living this way frees you from living in the lives and expectations of others which is the biggest hurdle towards success that's truly satisfying. If you really want to make progress then you need to literally look at everyone in your life that you really don't want to bother wasting time with and just, don't involve with them and give a damn if they try to take control again. You know they're only there to pull you down and waste your time. Literally just pack up and move on and only focus on what you're unfolding and wanting to experience.

That's how I'd put it in blunt terms. You more or less see other people as just there to keep you stuck in their projections, which aren't even yours. This I believe is the critically important missing ingredient to making "manifestation" work. When you be the supply and not care about anyone or anything else (not in a dysfunctional way that's parasitic but about holding solid boundaries to what you let in and out of your life and involve with) to the point where you're willing to love yourself so much and you'd remove EVERYBODY in your life from involvement to start fresh, then you've truly gone all the way and freed yourself from the trash. At that point, nobody owns you, controls you, you're not agitated and seeking comparisons and approvals and all that from others. You're creating what you want, living the way you want. They won't satisfy you, you satisfy them. That's how this works. When you're at that level then nothing can control you at all, probably not even the state.

Pay attention to the discussions you have in your head and when you find yourself giving energy to ones that are just meaningless and worthless to prove something that you have value and show your worth, then just drop it and think "oh I never needed to even care about that" and move on about your day. Literally make it that simple. If you've got massive amounts of pressure felt and the emotions and somatic sensations are extreme, then this won't apply to the same degree because they'll still be felt, but when you are in that place and you be real and ask who you're trying to please and honestly see that you're really just wasting time meeting expectations of others needlessly, then you can mostly drop the importance even if you still feel something. Just kill it and move on. Leave it behind. Literally just don't give a damn. This is how it's done. Spontaneous expression when intuitive impulse arises to respond correctly is ALL that's needed when it comes to social level involvement. NOTHING MORE. If you find those stupid discussions show up then just kill them, and how you do that is by seeing them as the issue. They are the problem. Just then as I said that I had a bright blue flash of light manifest above my monitor where my imaginal senses were forced open. Interesting.

You're at the point where you don't care one bit for the approval of anyone or anything other than that your truth is what's necessary to hold to. That's God. That's Christ, on an inner level perspective. That's all that's needed. Involvement in other ways, like nourishing yourself with common sense means, that will only aid your self respect since you're literally increasing your value and vitality and will feel more self confident for real consistently. That baseline availability of vitality will be there to draw from. It will just work for you and you won't need to "try" and struggle to involve and whatnot since the baseline availability is there to just drive interaction naturally. That's habitual. Habits are hard to form when you're agitated, because you're bouncing around all over the place to try and keep all these expectations happy. That's what's important. Learn to just drop the trash and move on. See them as the issue, that you never needed to conform to their trash. Never needed to in the first place, and who you've been playing isn't even really you. Drop that trash and allow all the bridges to burn. That is how you truly set yourself free. So instead of trying to change the people around you by sucking up to them, just dip. Problem solved. You don't need to change anyone but self. That's what NG said. He said that when you can habitually see yourself in the highest ideal then you're highly conscious. That means dropping the trash that binds your state into lack. Don't appeal to any authority. That's a big solution to our issues, including those who are within our social circles and families. Kill off all the trash and be moved by God, not by them. Adopting this attitude is how you free yourself from the trash of this world and all the people who are conditioned to spread it around like the plague because they too are weak and attached to needing to meet the expectations of others to win in life. You're better than that, you drive how things work. You're the one who decides how things work. You're the one who always has the valuable people showing up at your door asking for approval from you. You're the one who's above the conditioning of this world and you don't take no for an answer or answer to anybody,

When NG says that the behavior of others is not in that person but that it's about your attitude towards the response you're giving them. When you can truly detach from needing their approval then you can begin to shape them because they don't move you, you move them. They then rely on your for foundation, else they continue to drown in their own conditioning. You continue to work on expanding yourself into a higher ideal every day and see yourself that way and involve yourself in meaningful action to facilitate those state streaks. That's all that's needed. The rest will be simply opportunities that show up for you and you then decide who you accept in and who you keep out of your inner space. The inner space being the wellspring of vitality that you're using wisely now that you're aware of the necessary involvement that fuels it.

What messed me up the most was bending the knee to my mum's expectations of me especially. She controlled me in the most subtle ways possible. It was so invisible and yet she ruined my innate expansive nature. She did that, and through me now seeing the truth of how I feel and the conflict, I can remove importance from pleasing such expectations and completely fixating on my own expansion. Once again, this isn't about being a degenerate loner who's against everything and everyone, but it's that you decide who enters space, who you give attention to and that you'll be clear and free from reactions that imply lack. If NG tells us that every impression is a sort of moment of reaction that's implied truth to us, then we can understand that how you functionally "stop reacting" is to not play the game and totally distance from needing to even try to begin with. Just leave it all behind. If you're in a place where you're actively being abused and feel intensely towards them, see yourself as beyond their trash and fixate on expanding into the life you want, where they hold no power over who you can be right now and how you respond.

Always be real with how you feel and satisfaction and true freedom of expression will naturally spill out of you since you're living that truth. You CAN be yourself, even IF the people around you totally abandon you, but the important thing to know is that it doesn't even matter and their abandonment was THEIR PROBLEM NOT YOURS. Your feeling of "lack" when you're abandoned is because you're desperately trying to gain approval when you never needed to in the first place. As a child you were helpless, though as soon as you're mature enough to own how you feel and provide your own foundation then you're able to be unapologetically real without compromise and that is the most satisfying thing imaginable, Always remember, the real you isn't holding any masks, that's "Christ consciousness" since you're operating without shadow, or at least very little. You're free from all of that trash. Doing gazing with this insight is insanely powerful too. Carry that with you all day, that you're actually FREE TO BE REAL NOW AND NOT GIVE A DAMN WHO REJECTS YOU OR NOT. That's the insight of a lifetime. You DROP IMPORTANCE UNIVERSALLY. There will still be feelings arise but you'll know what to do with them. Seeing other people as the issue (because they are and they DO project because we all do if we're conditioned heavily into seeking approval of others through conforming to expectations that aren't authentic) is how you free yourself from the traumatic trash that binds your responses and keeps you in anxiety. I had EXTREME anxiety to a point that was VERY DESTRUCTIVE, and it was ALL because I saw the other person as WAY above me in importance. Truly drop that trash and move on. Just cut it all out and not give a damn. Burn the bridges. When you're willing to actually kill off the parts of you that find importance in the expectations of others, you're freeing yourself for real, you're being yourself for real. That's how others lose control, since their control mechanisms no longer work on you since you've seen through them and what it means about you. You don't play the games, and you laugh at the games and make fun of their conditioning and how stupid it all is. You don't react needlessly, you just move on and always return to being the one who's fixated on self expansion above all else.

The thing I think in my mind whenever I find other people projecting trash and trying to elicit a charged response from me is that I see the vision for the life I want to create and block out the importance of the remark they made and see it as just their own compromise talking and basically just brush it off with minimal as possible interaction. THEY'RE NOT WORTH YOUR REACTION. See it that way. They're literally just a conditioned pawn in the system who hasn't got any self awareness, so why burn your Jing to play into the triggers of someone else. If they physically attack you then leave the space and don't come back. Just don't play games with them, simply discard that person as a parasite. That's how you remain stable, seeing things as they are and fixating on your expansion and the vision for the life you're creating. That's what you continue to return to, and most importantly, involve with whenever you can.

"We are creatures of habit; and habit, though not law, acts like the most compelling law in the world. With this knowledge of the power of imagination, be as the disciplined man and transform your world by imagining and feeling only what is lovely and of good report."

This quote from one of the NG radio lectures only reveals the lack of depth in his teachings. When he talks about only imagining and feeling what's lovely and of goodness in this world, he's telling you to continue to return to the ideal view of how a functional life should be. If you're conforming to their expectations and then also expecting them to change by imagining them to be that way, then don't expect anything to happen because what's more real and important to you is obviously not the inner imaginal act but the need to please them and that will go against your vision most likely. That's why learning to totally detach is the key to dropping the reactions that activate seedtime as he calls it, which is the impression of reality that manifests according to what he thinks.

"The states in which we find ourselves are the seed time. The harvest is simply the encountering of events and circumstances of life."

The states, meaning the things you respond to with reality and importance in this world based on your fixed point of comparison which determines how you feel.

"But man’s memory is so short he forgets the seedtime"

That's the reaction you had that you forgot has an implication of importance and meaning that will reflect back to you as an experience to confirm this thing to be true.

"So now let us now analyze what I personally mean by seedtime. If everything is finished and completed, then why the promise there shall be seedtime and harvest as long as the earth remains ? Now seedtime, to those who are here this morning, as we should really know, we are not taking it literally, our seedtime is that moment in time when you and I react to anything in this world. It may be to an object, it may be to an individual, it may be to a bit of news that we have overheard, but the moment of reaction, that emotional response, is our attitude. Our attitudes are the seedtimes of life, and although we may not remember the seedtime or the moment of response, nature never forgets, and when it suddenly appears in our world, that suddenness is only the emergence of a hidden continuity. It was continuous from the moment of reaction until it appeared in the world."

Right there. Attitudes are seedtimes. I like how he said that the spontaneity of seedtime responses is the "emergence of a hidden continuity". "The moment of reaction". Any moment that holds significance of the "reality of experience" to us is what we need to become aware of and respond without attachment towards. To observe our reactions to the world and see them as needless wasting of vitality. So really, the whole SATS thing, as in doing inner imaginal work while in a state akin to sleep, is nothing more than doing it in your own peaceful space. He still tells you in the same lectures to persist though, because you're going to end up reacting if you don't consistently sink into a sense of self not worth wasting vitality over that reaction.

The more you involve in meaningful ways the more you'll find yourself not even wanting to react because your value isn't stemming from comparisons and needing to conform to expectations of others for approval. Notebook 30 link: https://realitysynthesis.com/pages/aetheraeon-notebook-30

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