Aetheraeon Notebook 34

You need to wonder WHY all these false doctrines even exist. Well they exist to serve the Jewish supremacist plans. The whole Christian Zionist movement is obviously what it claims at face value and they're promoting the degeneracy of Jewish supremacy as "God's chosen people". The alchemical doctrines existed to fool all the ones who bought into the metaphysical studies like I did and exist to keep those people pacified. It's also promoted so hard because it's a universalist doctrine, which I've always been against knowing these data points many years ago. "We are all one" is a disgusting term to use and destroys people. That's the "one world government" and all this peace talk about we're all unified together and work together for a better future. All that stuff is Jewish supremacy at play. That's where it comes from and why all gov talk about it, though not these days but that's to serve the plan since it's time for the persecution of Jews again which we will see as I said in an earlier post. We will see much more Jewish hatred, but that's what they want. Christian doctrine exits for the purposes of the plan. The messiah becomes the enemy of the people, like Hitler was in the end despite helping them for a while like Trump did with some of his acts to deport and such. It's all theatre.

21/4/26

The filth called Jewish elites must be completely eradicated without mercy. All I care about is exterminating the Jewish filth above all else. In order to even come close to being sufficient with the cash necessary I'll need to go HARDCORE in making RS the top model in MONTHS. Somehow.. This filth wants to destroy us all and any response except utter destruction is compromise. What the heck do you think I've been talking about throughout all of my work here in referencing the fact that the collective trajectory sucks so bad and yet we're expected to accept it and cope. No way screw that. Those people who say this is all pre-destined are weak pathetic wimps who have no vitality or value in them worth expanding. They've given up, but I believe those of us who are innately higher level and SUPERIOR people should own that and play out that capacity, else you waste your potential. These INFERIOR people aren't worth saving for they will only perpetuate more degeneracy. The conditioning plays a major role in that and yet some of us despite our conditioned youth still saw through the trash, which I've done, and that constitutes a point for innate nature being a core factor that determines success and how strongly your higher natural striving ignites in you when that's stimulated. Those with more capacity for growth will manifest stronger sensations in the Shen. It seems that some of us have more coherent Shen than others by design.

I'm the ultimate threat to the LOA space. I must own that responsibility.

24/4/26

Here's the thing people especially in the LOA space need to get in their THICK skulls loaded with dead weight. The world around us is ALL in competition, and it SHOULDN'T NEED to be this way but it is, because just like I wrote about back a year ago and had a bunch of low state fools who left my work because I wasn't PC, it's the filthy Jewish bankers that WANT THIS TO HAPPEN that you're not FURIOUS ENOUGH to change. You NEED to live in competition and to live with more fury in order to become well off and have a functional family unit. Everybody in that unit NEEDS to grasp this, and live and operate from that day to day. Literally, if that's not how you're viewing the world around you then you're in cope. Hard cope. It SHOULNDN'T need to be that way but it is, and ignoring the reality and staying small and out of the eyes of possible persecution is NEVER going to expand your state or the state of the people around you through being an example. We need to recognize this 100%. It's the SAME attitude that manifests, because availability of resources is being deliberately manipulated. How would you ever manifest abundance in a world without an economy? All these idiots who think cash can show up out of thin air will never read the quotes from NG saying that he can't solve the economic issue and that poor people should never be given money.

The underlying reality is that you're in competition, and yes that makes things more tense, but that tension will hit you 100x harder by ignoring it instead of mastering it and becoming the one who supplies it through being in a higher state. This means being radical. RADICAL AS HELL! No compromise. That's the way. So radical people think you're insane. Cope manifesting is dumb and never works in satisfying ways. All the fools who preach success stories from these people who claimed to manifest without lifting a finger so to say will never be able to replicate what happened with what they thought caused it, because ALL manifestation is driven through state change. I've said this OVER AND OVER AND OVER since my first video. The concept (thematic current composition) stays the same but the sense of self changes. The sense you get of yourself, how in supply you are of that concept, determines your relationship to it and thus how you're moved naturally to involve and interact with that, and it with you in a supply demand relationship.

Living from this view not of needless tension but through accurate threat assessment. We ARE under threat, and that's not up for debate. Making functional decisions is necessary. Only an absolute idiot who's been in the cope space for years would deny what's around them since that very conditioning has been what's warped their innate nature to stay hidden and small and not be excellent and highly expanded. This is why I return to leadership every time the higher ideal shows up. Leadership especially here in correcting the trash. It's so obvious. There's no way around the fact that in order to make it through, especially as a zoomer guy, you're going to have to basically wake up every day and remind yourself of the facts of the world we live in and operate from this awareness of what needs to change instead of continuing to cope and ignore and deny and numb and make reasons and excuses for why relaxing and feeling fleeting sensations of being abundant is better than expanding into a higher state and cutting through pressure to compromise. You will feel SO MUCH MORE masculine by actually living according to what you're designed for, to lead by example, supply resources and knowledge, to act on your truth, conquer your enemies and out of that you make space and abundance for you and your people. There's no judgement for your acts here, so be willing to make any and all decisions to own that state, and no matter what, hold no mercy when it comes time to eradicating the enemy, because it's coming, as we all know if we get real.

26/4/26

Mirror date.

What I've thought about is consciousness, once again. Filtering. More consciousness is seeing things as they are without filter, or becoming aware of more? I've said consciousness is how much you're aware of, in that a "wider" view as I say is more consciousness which is a function of the Shen being activated yet stable. Well that mechanism holds true, but yet we have a fixed nature that's compared to which this mechanism works through.

There's SO much I've got in my head right now. I've been doing more observations of currents in the channels and how my Shen is impacted. Charisma, determination, clear vision, all of these things are available when you're physically nourished well. The spleen needs to be able to produce substances for the rest of the circuits, and when I fixate on THAT specifically then I notice the greatest difference, You can take hardcore kidney tonics but they have much less impact if spleen is depleted, and blood is deficient leading to stagnations that then activity will resolve but will make the deficiency worse. It's a balance of current dynamics, and tonifying the source of vitality as the earth element is necessary for then the kidney to warm the Shen and the rest of the circuits. You probably already knew that though if you've read my stuff before.

Consciousness is a function of multiple parts coming together, which themselves all have their own relationships to other variables. This is why I can't stand listening to ANY coach in the space talk about "consciousness" like they know anything of value. Consciousness, I AM, it's insane. Coming out and saying on camera how insanely stupid this is will earn me a bunch of lost subs, as expected, because you can't please everyone. This latest video could've been better but did the job and yet somehow people STILL FAILED TO GRASP WHAT I SAID OVER AND OVER. It's the issue where they try and interpret my model with their current mentalism view, and it doesn't compute, and they're thinking it can't work because it's not on line with mentalism because that's the default. People continue to get confused, over and over and over and over and over, that is until I can spend time with them personally and answer questions.

A deeper question about excellence. The framework of expansion implies an end. Well we know now there's no end goal, because the end goal of the psychospiritual biblical doctrine is complete Jewish supremacy. The disgusting trash must be exterminated, the lineages that manifest this sick plan, that is. DO NOT take my words out of context and say I'm genocidal, because a majority of Jewish people on earth DON'T EVEN KNOW this exists themselves, and ARE VICTIMS OF JEWISH SUPREMACY. Quote that. That's leading into my point now. If the last 2500+ years of human history were forged by Jewish supremacists, then what determines greater process that drives us all? How is collective trajectory established? Well, it seems the will of the organized minority who pull strings in accordance with a commonly shared plan. Organization pulls the collective strings. Processes within processes. So it seems to me that since it's clear this reality isn't a simulated one, or a pre-destined cyclic one, but that this cosmology was organized by the man who move the pieces on the chess board according to mathematical codes they themselves created, then we can dismantle divinity as it's commonly thought of, and as I am very familiar with myself having taught this too. The difference between now and then is that I stopped trying to justify the collective trajectory as we hurl ourselves off the cliff every day and accept what is to be clearly stated to be the complete omnicide of this world by a bunch of psychopathic Jewish supremacists. ANYONE with brain calls that work can tell this isn't functional, and that the rewards come from the participation in this play. Shakespeare himself, having said the world is a stage, was correct, because he was playing the role to play the people and was as well part of the organized minority. All these historical figures who had impact in our history, in many cases, were part of this organized minority and had the helping hands of the banking families in order to gain the position of influence necessary to play that part in the script-ure.

The one truth above all else we can prove here is that nothing about our collective trajectory is truly pre-destined through a higher influencing power, though the predictive functions I've explained earlier still hold true. The mechanics do not stop working because the cosmology shifts. What we observe as this phenomena can be more accurately explained with the Jewish supremacy plot, and yet the stupid masses in the LOA space cannot accept this because it's all about this formless faceless potential of illusions and delusions they think up and assume into reality. Assuming something into reality has everything to do with working these mechanics, and nothing to do with the formless faceless God moving the world. The I AM isn't a thing, but a metaphysical idea to explain phenomena. The I AM is more or less how you operate, and nothing about a spiritual potentia of enlightenment to attain.

So again, consider this. The entire reason for many people believing what they do is because it serves the interests of a few Jewish supremacists. Think about that. The history of the world, these powerful figures that were in power and moved entire populations of people over history, these people were SELECTED in order to fulfil what to the Christian is literal history and to the metaphysician is psychological history as examples of arrangements of God, states. States personally are degrees of function of self, and states of everything outside you is according to that idea too relative to the one who's got a fixed point of comparison to grow into. The history of the world has been something I've been keenly interested in since it reveals the underlying structure, or what seems to be. The people who make the claims that reality is a simulation, like some names I've mentioned before, cannot prove this, because there's an entire data set that outlines the seeming invisible magic of God working through all of us as to be psychological influence through the means of the programs forced upon our nations by the Jewish supremacists. What you believe is sponsored by these people, literally, and playing the game is EXACTLY what they want you to do, which is why I've ALWAYS been so adverse to that, INNATELY, even as a young child I knew there was something there. No surprise I turned out to see all of this clearly when my mind expanded more and I gathered the data necessary. I just knew something was wrong. The filtering system was functional and operating clearly. I wasn't operating through delusions. The ones who can see this are unconditioned. The ones who can't are heavily conditioned and their filtering system is dysfunctional, since they deny what their eyes can clearly see but they themselves cannot perceive within that what I can. They can look at the same data set and draw entirely different views from it. I've always had the ability to move between views easily without ever buying into one an attach to it, just like I never really felt deep attachment to people, despite having some abandonment stuff that I had to move but I got over that pretty much fully through hating the people who hurt me and not needing their approval. Hate is so powerful, and yet we're told to avoid it.

Some will say where do I talk about love? Where is the love and light. Well the love and light is within you and is what drives you to feel hate. It's the point of comparison of view without filtering, seeing things as they are, and thus the true nature of self, which is innately loving, can come through. Operating out of hatred and fury is love. How? Because you are expanding into a form that's available for love through cutting out what cannot be loved, the dysfunctional lowly creature who keeps you stuck in the box. Love isn't something you feel which makes you higher than someone else, it's a principle of operation. Yeah you can relate to someone closely and feel attraction to them physically and feel "love" but as I've said many times, love isn't a transcendental idea but is the activation of the Shen, which can be broken down into functions of the endocrine system and their cascading effects. Metaphysical analysis always has a physical analogy for these principles of alchemy which reflect these thematics, else it's not the study of metaphysical phenomena. The non physical structure must tie to a structure we observe, else it's delusion. People who experience seeing into what seems to be other worlds, seeing into walls and seeing people behind them moving, seeing through blindfolds, seeing in a dream what happens in the future, seeing for yourself all of these things doesn't directly mean what your first suggested meaning implies though. God being Love and yet hates Esau means that a being of utter unconditioned love also expresses pure hatred and wrath upon his creation. God hates the body according to NG, God hates the world, and that will never be reconciled. Some will say that this is a mistranslation I can bet, and that it would more accurately imply "doesn't hold faith to" the world or the body, and yet NG in his own lecture has said that you cannot avoid the physical limits of your body and will suffer if you eat or drink too much. Ethanol is poison, and calories must be transformed into some form of substance as fuel, so these examples he pointed to clearly shows that if God hates the body then God hates his creation (which he did repent of in Gen 3) which is obviously another example of Jewish supremacist doctrine in plain sight without a clear explanation for contradictions.

The smarties in LOA who think they understand scripture blow my mind. It's almost like all I see is ignorance, again, like I use to with everybody who supported the very structure that destroys their very vitality and sense of self. Denial of the organized nature of our history sent me into unimaginable rage and fury at the one who promoted such ignorant trash. Why? Because it reflected my feeling of powerlessness to impact what I saw before me and that they suggested unavailability of change, just like any other condition. The spiritual fools will tell me that it's my problem, and give me a method to cope, and yet they still will live in a conditioned reality and deny it because change is way too hard. That's why they don't feel fury, because the stakes aren't real to those people, despite every one of their prior generations being moved by the same supremacists who move the collective trajectory today. The solution to this hatred is to play a part in being the solution, which is why to get over your money and SP and vitality issues you solve the problem. You make cash and expand how you involve in that. To get your SP (or someone functional) you become the highest most functional form of yourself who can be relatable and vital and supportive of your relationship without conflicts. Thing is some people are into conflicts, because it's a means of conflict resolution, despite not wanting that consciously. as I went over in other sections. Explaining this to a public group is just stupid and pointless because like all of my work it'll go over their head. What a waste of time. So the whole "dating market" issues we have now, especially for zoomers, is basically a product of all the coalescing factors engineered by the Jewish supremacists in order to destroy our lives. We can blame ourselves, but this has never happened in history, as far as can be proven, with birth rates through the floor especially, which is literally proof of unimaginable trauma and conflict in the lives of these people. To destroy someone so badly they don't even feel their innate biochemical drive to have a family (which is healthy and functional and necessary for a vast majority of people else we don't exist as we do today or into the future) and so this reflects the Jewish supremacist views directly in wanting the extermination of all the goy. Why do people come to LOA? They try and solve the problem that's been engineered. Then the solution they themselves created (NG teaching mystical kabbalah learned through Abdullah and others) becomes the solution to corner a natural response to correct the influence of the supremacists and make them back off but there's no consequences. It's just more and more and more and more and more dysfunction without end.

I always look towards a higher cause. How can this whole thing be explained? Where does the dysfunction come from? Well if it's not divinely engineered, then it must come from somewhere. If it is divinely moved by greater process that would then mean the handful of Jewish supremacists are directly being played by God as greater process to manifest our extermination and suffering. Does that sound like a divine plan to you? No. That's insane and sounds like cope trash to accept being small and tolerating your own destruction. Why do you think I live with fury like this? It exists for a reason. You cannot honestly look at all of this and think that this is functional and necessary for "consciousness expansion". That's insanely stupid. The alchemist seems to think so, based on what I've heard. It's just cope for the fact that we're being destroyed, and yet a healthy functional response to being destroyed by omnicidal Jewish supremacists is apparently to cope and avoid and look away and go on with your life trying to please yourself as much as you can, or to live in some arbitrary standard of morality and not harm anyone, and to leave things up to God. Even those in my immortality group deny this over and over and think that because they're not responding to it the way I do makes their denial valuable and functional. Fools.

It's insanely stupid. Cope harder or be called insane. LOA doesn't work the way it's taught and I've proven that. History is filled with pre-scripted events, not prophesy, and the phenomena of spiritual mystical experience isn't really extrasensory perception. How else do you put all of this together? How do you respond then in a functional way? Coping isn't functional, and yet speaking obvious facts makes you an enemy, and so you suffer. It's just suffering on top of suffering, and that's why nobody plays that role, though the one who sees the capacity for change feels no real deep suffering despite the surface level pains. The involvement becomes the satisfaction. You can't take anything from these people. It's just a determined person seeking to destroy the Jewish supremacists as they seek to destroy us, as even a child can tell.

Spiritual doctrines exist more or less to either inspire change or to cope. New thought is to cope. The alchemical doctrines were Jewish supremacy dressed up. Quintessence still exists, it seems, as a substance that has psycho-spiritual effects, and yet the effects are still pathogenic just like how gazing can be to induce what I've experiences as vivid waking lucid dreams with my eyes open.

Here's a fact. The reason why the self help industry exists is because the problems are created. It shouldn't need to be that EVERYONE needs help. That's a sign that there's systematic dysfunction at play. The bigger question is why. The doctrine of "anti-identity" or I AM is the cure, AKA the solution to the Jewish supremacist problem, which is us. We lose ourselves, and there is nothing to fight for, and anyone who does want to fight for higher ideals is going against not just the conditioning itself but the hoards of people who promote and are rewarded for it. That's modern LOA. That's modern manifestation, spiritual expansion, and all of it. It's a created model to make people fall deeper into identity crisis, because we can be shaped to fit the delusions of the not self conditioning. There's delusions on top of delusions. You'll find the people who promote such degeneracy often life degenerate sick lives themselves. NG was sick, just like many of the big names in the space.

It's like having to grow in this world often times becoming someone still who you're really not, because that's where the rewards are on a social and material basis. That's a huge issue, because the natural structure of incentive has been manufactured, for the functions of basically keeping those who see that all as dysfunctional trash out of the market and thus get nothing but scraps in most cases. It's like you need to ride the edges of it to get something out of it and yet not fall into it or you be consumed to play a role to get the things it wants you to attain.

Either way, the idea that there's a spiritual attainment to be had through the immortality work is still another case of vitalism being what you're actually doing. You're simply removing the filters that keep your awareness limited and nourishing your vitality to be verile and influence the world.

The biggest issues people have is trying to operate within a framework of rules and conditions without even being aware of it. That's WHAT your "unconscious conditioning" REALLY IS. It's that you're being reminded of "pain" signals whenever you go to be spontaneous and express vitality through acts that would lead you into the experiences you'd want. It's all about the "what if" or this idea of alignment or this perfect life where everything is in your control. Well if we look around, nothing is seemingly in our control, the Jewish supremacists are winning very well, currently. This isn't like something that trying to be tense about will resolve, and yet the fury of being done with who you are will be a tense experience. That's actually ok, but when people sit with the fury and never actually change their behaviors and look at themselves as the same person with what they practically involve with then nothing was done with that current. Everything to use those feelings to cope with is at your fingertips. That's why I will continue to preach radical action is how things get moved forward. It's not constant radical action, but enough so that you break down all the primary suggestions in your life that bind you to lower ideals. Relaxing more while acting radically is also possible, and yet you likely won't end up making the necessary acts from this place because the suggestion of just how bad things are won't be present to drive the radical shifts. These signals exist with all of us, and the ONLY THING guaranteed in your life is suffering. ALWAYS. Think about that. The ONLY thing GUARANTEED, is suffering. Nothing else. Everybody on earth ever to exist has suffered, and yet many went without ever being loved, at least in a substantial meaningful way, and most people live in poverty especially now. So suffering is the default experience, and with that in mind, it's really clear that removing the suffering will be a primary goal of our lives, and yet we continue to cope to avoid that. Spiritual doctrines offer systems of operating with rules that claim to answer this question of suffering, and thus people listen because escaping suffering is the goal, and why alchemical immortality is what allures so many because it's the supreme exit from suffering. Exiting, leaving it behind.

Think about this. What life would you need to live for you to not suffer? What would that look like? Truly. Ask yourself that question, because I think about that and I don't see anything fantastical or anything really. It's pretty basic stuff, just one without conflicts that aren't necessary. Creating cool stuff, going out and seeing fun places with friends and family, not being conditioned into self hating and gaslit 24/7 by the world around me. Just remove the pathogenic influences. So if you're in a place where there's no actual conflicts in your face then you really have made it, except then there's an existential threat that is Jewish supremacy and genocidal filth who want you gone. Again, the ones who say they'd just do it now if that's what they wanted, you must grasp that they operate within mathematical perfection according to their idea of that. They only operate at certain moments when it's according to the script, for example the entire 800+ years leading up to 1948 were scripted accordingly in order to time exactly the year when Israel would've been taken, and the events we're facing now until 2030 are the same. That's what's going on, and so the average person who's ignorant of this reality will simply want to live without obvious in your face conflicts, like abusive people around you who you'd be dependent on and have no way of avoiding, and who are restricting your access to nourishment. In that case, throwing everything away about yourself and getting the resources necessary to move into your own space where it's safe is necessary. That's most younger zoomers, and people in financially dependent abusive relationships. It sucks. I really really despise that this is how things are but it's just how it is, suffering is the default and that's why the sooner someone can see the lowly creature in them and use the means available to operate from a higher state where they don't accept the suffering then the better off they'll be and can manifest functional relationships and all that.

Above that, then what? Well that's up to you. I still see everyone who's not contributing to the prevention of Jewish supremacy as an issue, because eyes away front he existential issue is eyes that are going along with the plan that those who don't even need to know they're participating in will still contribute towards. That's why it's all so insidious and why fury is so powerful. The issue once again is where does that express instead of just being spent and boiling up your own blood, literally? Well that's simple. Organize and execute plans to prevent actions of the enemy. How do you do that? You need to attract those with like minds, and in order to do that you need a way of "marketing" your ideas. So with that then you can gather people who are operating on the same level to then act in accordance with a plan to disrupt the plan of the enemy. Thinking that as an individual you can do anything useful is just stupid because unless you have actual weapons of massive threat then you're not going to pose an issue and won't disrupt anything but your own ability to further organize. What still blows my mind is only 2 people have personally contacted me, so I've either not revealed enough data to show the reality of what's going on yet or they're just too stupid or cowardly to make the step to want to organize. So there you have it. I put out a message of clear intent, make my view known, provide data on how and why, and then the people who see that and cope contribute towards their own destruction. That's exactly why those people also aren't manifesting their SP and cash to get places in life. They absorb data, hide, cope, avoid conflict, don't rock boats. I came out on camera and made bold claims, and my approval ratio was lower than usual, I can see the backend stats and how people responded. I put my neck on the line to lead people away from the delusion, and I got disapproval more so than approval. That's how it works, or you go out and preach mentalism and offend nobody and get all the approval on earth, except from those who have a critical view and care more about the functional reality of manifestation over the cosmology of deluding yourself and trying to maintain states of assumption that are effectively impossible.

The way manifestation is taught today is FAR more depleting than anything else, and the coaches that continue to preach nervous system regulation and somatic body work continue to also delude people into thinking that living the same but then feeling these sensations somehow transforms you. If you've got qi stagnation, it can help but gazing does most of that anyway, especially advanced gazing.

So always remember, I DO NOT deny the PHENOMENA of manifestation, I've experienced it myself, but I deny the cosmology attached to it because it DOES NOT explain all phenomena, especially the collective trajectory. NG says more or less that this world is built for suffering by design and isn't suppose to be changed, but I will say that this is more cope. Yes, I just agreed that reality is ONLY guaranteeing suffering but I will say that this isn't just what we need to accept overall for a collective basis and ignore the obvious source of it. Literally the PRIMARY reason WHY I even got involved with being critical of any of this is because I SAW ISSUES THAT NEEDED SOLVING. Only the people with the perceptions clear enough can see that, and thus they develop systems like this. What's the difference between RS cosmology and everything else? Well I preach a message that's closer to how things are that we can all experience and relate to, as almost all of my greatest insights came from direct experience that's relatable and repeatable and that we all go through to some extent. That's why it's VERY practical, but it's the mentalism delusions that get in the way of application clearly. I literally tell people more or less to not even try to manifest, don't bother trying to imagine, or to focus on manifesting certain things, especially the ones you can't involve in directly because you WILL burn out. If you cannot involve in it then do not bother because you'll deplete your vitality more than benefit.

So the solution to almost all of our issues is to get real with how we feel as a first step and recognize everything that's suggesting to us who we are being that's not working needs to die. Without this first step then you will land in cope to some extent because the ONLY way to break delusional paradigms of the conditioned self is to clearly and fully get real with what's not working and put it in your face. With this in mind, you SHOULD have flashes of images, thoughts, ideas, opportunities to INVOLVE in experiences PHYSICALLY that's breaking the cycles of dysfunction and open up a state of higher function. These flashes don't have to be the full thing you go all the way with, but can be simply starting suggestions to move forward with that will expand. People ask me "what do I do" when you've felt the fury of your trash state. The answer was in the video. You will have flashes of opportunities to grow into something that's greater. Say you saw a video that stuck out to you last week on someone who made a business selling custom bike pedals that were 3D printed with cool designs on them and made millions (that's an idea I just had funny enough, as an example of what I'm preaching here). You might have an artistic idea then for some designs that would look good on certain popular bike models that lots of people would have. You could then get yourself a 3D printer setup for a decent price and get printing some pedals and market to some locals at a store you can setup for like $35 or less. I know places near here where I can do that. So I could make back most of the money I spent on my printer and getting the business going in less than 3 month EASILY with some BASIC work. You simply then have to ACT ON IT, even if it doesn't go as planned, if you have the vision for your higher ideal in mind and you have the vitality for it then you will persist in that higher ideal of what it opens up for you. Say you want a house, an expensive car that's sharp and rumbles like you want. The LOA crowd would tell you to basically keep coping and just imagine every night before bed "and go about your day as usual". that's trash. The examples of him saying that as success stories most have heard like the woman who went to work with the boss who argued all the time can be explained with Shen stabilizing mechanics. What I am saying is that you don't even need to always have the cash, I never said you would need it, because if you RELLY desire that house or that car or whatever, then you will have it in the back of your mind allll the time and it'll come through you when you feel you've made strides towards that. You will have spontaneous thoughts, and THOSE will often be what manifest it, or something far closer to it than before. They aren't conscious thoughts, but simply associated suggestions from your innate nature coming through you from the higher state of operation where the availability for that is felt. In this state you will have fleeting thoughts, OR even day dream type scenes where you'll unconsciously lose yourself in the experience of it. THE IMAGINAL ACT IS NOT THE CAUSE BUT THE AVAILABILITY IN THE CURRENTS THAT TRANSLATES INTO THOUGHT!

I give the secrets away, the insights I've exclusively had on this that NOBODY else in LOA coaching space has had FOR FREE. USE THEM! I am THIS CLOSE to putting together the program that'll cost $14k and crank my coaching price up twice as much for the 30-90 day. It's all here for cheap, for now. So if you really want progress, then follow this process. Get real with how you feel, recognize how delusional you are, how conditioned you are, how compromised and pathetic you are. Get real and feel whatever is necessary. That's step 1. Then with this in mind you MUST make follow up actions from that pressure to expand that align with breaking anything (to any functional degree) out of being in the lowly state. Not tolerating trash, avoiding making the financial plays necessary, leaving certain relationships that keep you small, getting serious with nourishing your vitality physically, sharing hard facts and being seen under pressure by people who will see you critically. Anything that's moving you into a state where you're personally more responsible for your state and involving in those changes, and most importantly, GOING ALL THE WAY, then you WILL have manifestations work for you. The magic and practical expansion goes hand in hand. We use action to expand our state, and to apply common sense. Avoiding this will only take you so far, and you will most likely end up coping and branching off anyway and end up in other delusions in another box avoiding your innate nature that's moved by the fury to expand into a life of REAL abundance.

The people I speak to who make tons of cash all have physical work they do on physical businesses and had to put in lots of hours for it. Myself included in that too, having spent tens of thousands of hours to figure all this out wasn't easy. So practical action is always a part of this if you GO ALL THE WAY. Does that mean that it's ALWAYS needed? No, but I will say this. Actions will ALMOST always open you up more than not. It depends on the conditioning and what's compromised but if it's about cash, relationships, health and vitality, all that type of stuff that's visceral and real, yes actions will ALWAYS take you deeper into the higher state than not. Avoiding that is cope. So that's what's necessary. You must continue to return to the higher ideal and reference the state you have capacity to grow into every day when you wake up. Suggest the expansion, the suggestion of examples of what you want, that drive you into higher states, this will always be necessary. The cope coaches try to fake this, by telling people to think "from the end" and stay still in the same life by going about their day as usual and expecting miracles. This works for AT MOAST 6% of people, really it's less than 1% and upwards of 90% of success stories are faked or exaggerated. If you want REAL results, then the harder you go with getting real all the time the faster it'll show up. For me I can get miracles happening with somewhat simple things, like REALLY moving myself correctly physically, like being a jet with the way I navigate the world. I ALWAYS get attention from those who are functional this way ever since I can remember. Being brainy for me works for my cash situation, and my charisma draws people in when I go all the way with that. Action that's aligned to further pushing my model and hyping it up works. It resonates peoples ideals. Whenever I make these moves and feel activated by speaking the cold hard facts about Jewish supremacy moves me forward, but often also I find when I go hard with this then "bad" things also happen, but it filters the people who are like minded from those who aren't. You'll lose people, but it's for the better.

That's my experience. All explained with meridian system activations and translation mechanics of thematic current into thought. You don't need to know any of that for this to work, but it's nice to know. Simply radically change. If I made a program I'd expand FAR more on each and provide many different case studies as examples of how that worked, but if you want to manifest millions while sitting around thinking and imagining, then good luck, because unless you're operating from functional states already then you'll never get that outcome. That's the deepest truth. States drive it all, because states determine where you are on the line of operation of self function. If you're in a low state 24/7 because you're denying that you're in a low state (not just surface level but GETTING REAL AND GOING ALL THE WAY just like when you get really triggered for REAL) then no progress can be made towards living that life. This isn't about grinding either, it's not about working HARD but operating efficiently according to how you CAN operate in the capacity without all the warped filtering and conditioned responses that keep you from involving in the life you really want.

28/4/26

NG is tricking you into being your own supply. It's so obvious. So he never taught SP manifesting as we know, and he never taught that your mind can overpower everything like your biochemistry. That's fixed and unchangeable outside of the mechanics of TCM. The big thing here to recognize is that NG is basically telling us to always expand into a state that we deserve and are worth more and to adjust our filtering system to see that as the state of the wish fulfilled. I've created some more visual graphics to explain this stuff yesterday as a flow chart and I can more clearly map things now than before. It's a constant learning process to explore and simplify. NG by teaching us to imagine a higher ideal and to move into that state of being there (which will challenge the state the moment you had awareness of it you were in before hence why I felt anxiety EVERY time I imagined something positive for myself) we will be moving away from accepting less. I believe this is a core part of his process of imaginal scenes idea and ACTING FROM the end, AKA crossing thresholds into accepting more. That's why when I do give someone an imaginal scene I make it challenging but available to work with to enough of a degree that there can be growth from that. That's why what manifested the overnight SP that time was when I imagined owning what I wanted under immense pressure and implied I'm no longer tied to the expectation to hide and stay small and avoid what I COULD have if I just crossed that line. When I crossed that line internally I moved supply to be available for me as I was acting beyond expectations of who I was conditioned to be through being abused. I reclaimed my own authority and agency and this higher state of being fundamentally spills over into other areas of life with those spontaneous thoughts coming through and can manifest those things. Thinking that you need to target specific things isn't really the case because in targeting specific things you'll be challenging the baseline always anyway. That's why I use to teach "state interferometry" as I called it, which was that where a higher order state was owned then the surrounding aspects that compromised the other states would be made conscious to enough of a degree to transform parts of them through living into a higher state in other ways.

This is what we observe consistently. Fundamentally you're opening up availability through widening what you accept you have agency to involve in and that you don't NEED to be the way the lowly creature lived. All you need to do is be real with how you feel and crush the delusions of the compromised state by seeing the abuse you faced as dysfunctional and that the responses you've had to life have been coming from expectations and conditions that aren't yours. When you feel that fury you'll WANT to grow out of it, and that's exactly what needs to be felt for a vast majority of people. Is it NECESSARY? Technically not, but I will say why not since it's so reliable anyway. Trying to dance around those feelings is just stupid and keeps you locked into more compromise, thinking that it's "low consciousness" or whatever trash they'll come up with to avoid going all the way. As I've said then, going all the way and growing into that higher state makes it all work and line up. Vital currents surface and make conscious compromise patterns and in contrast to a higher ideal when moved will drive you to act contrary to how that conditioned response wants you to be that you now feel a burning drive to outgrow and accept higher than to be satisfied. How else can it work? It can't work any other way, because imaginal scenes that are coming from a first person view WILL CHALLENGE YOU, just as though they were real, no duh. That's why everyone manifests signs, because the availability is warped from the expectations and you won't imagine something that's actually challenging to your lower state by imagining happy positive things which never cross thresholds into accepting higher ideals. You aren't growing or reclaiming agency you're coping with the fact that unconsciously you're still VERY compromised,

My browser just threw up "out of memory" error as I was typing out some gold. What a joke. There's no auto save so I need to somehow do it again.

When you feel the availability ENOUGH of the CAPACITY to expand and accept higher ideals IN CONTRAST to the lower lacking states, then you'll feel the compulsion to WANT to cross thresholds and reclaim agency in order to move out of the cycles of lack that you keep returning to. This fundamental principle is what makes any act be transformative, it's that natural striving goes all the way, you KNOW you NEED to respond differently because the pressurization is so high to outgrow the compromised state that you won't WANT to give in and that's where the kidney liver heart meridians all light up and you feel the warmth blow through you when you make those acts and cross those lines. That's a sign that you're in a tense experience of crossing lines and you're willing to do whatever it takes to cross that line to reclaim agency and accept the vision. It's ALWAYS NECESSARY to have root pressure for this to work, else the "will" to expand and the vision will not be clear. You can think of the SAME sensory scenario but when you have your kidney warming your heart and the will of the zhi warms and moves the Shen then you WILL feel drive to expand. That's why I will continue to say that hormonal function and endocrine function is really the basis of all work with this manifesting stuff. No matter what, if you lack vital current to nourish and move the Shen into activity that's functional then you will NEVER expand because it's mechanically impossible, and coping on that fact will only keep you stuck. The biochemical basis matters. Remember NG himself said that you cannot avoid the pains of drinking or eating too much, even if you're born from above as he says. He said clearly that there's no bypassing that as "that's the law under which we live". The fixed law of your physical biochemical basis being the root of all pressure that's felt needs to be fully accepted and worked with clearly.

If someone lacks root pressure then it won't matter how triggered you make them, they'll just cope because that's all they can do. THEIR PERCEPTION IS TIED TO THEIR CURRENTS. If you lack vital current you WILL be UNABLE to expand, at least in any significant way. You can always draw from deep Jing reserves if you REALLY get triggered and end up in a dip but that's often a matter of ripeness and availability and the greater context that this trigger surrounds. If you're frustrated that you're broke, that you're a lone virgin loser, that you've been disowned by your family and friends, that you're a mess and have no vital virility, that you're just a lowly creature, then the recognizing of just how badly compromised you are in contrast to a suggestion of a higher ideal, like seeing someone having what you REALLY want, then that can catalyze some Jing reserves into moving the Shen through the zhi via kidney yang warming the mid and upper Jiao. That activation kicks into awareness all the compromise patterns of just how pathetic you are and skyrockets your drive to outgrow. This will be temporary however if you're pulling on Jing reserves, and there's no consistent supply because it was ONLY the perfect storm that catalyzed that. It was a matter of all these different functions coming online through suggestions illuminating what needed to be seen under the context of all the surrounding lacks that amplified the response of just how far you were from that higher ideal. I know this because I lived it for years, having my spleen meridian absolutely screwed up for something like 8 years from 2015 onwards. It was never a permanent thing, but when you take your biochemical vitality seriously then you get places. Why?

TEST for men especially will be the factor that will make you functionally aggressive in terms of not accepting and tolerating less. Just having that won't make you change but it will be the current that puts it in your face frequently and forces you to look at things more as they are. If you had 6-800+ng/dl free test with strong androgen reception function which can be cultivated through fasting and training lower body hard and fasting from stimulating yourself in dysfunctional ways then you'd certainly end up in a place where you'd be so insanely juiced up all the time that compromise wouldn't even be a conscious decision. You'd not even think about the lacking states, they'd not cross your mind, because the consistently warmed Shen won't view things that way. The zhi will literally be the basis for your view and what you filter. Now that doesn't mean you'll operate correctly with this but what it will do is cut out hesitation to involve in something that you'll see as rewarding. This is where the satisfaction cycles play out, where you've got pressure to expand via these currents and you'll use it in a functional way, or at least MORE functional. I mean that's how and why the Jewish supremacists have kept us docile, by killing off the verility of the men who no longer have the drive to fight and tear them limb from limb with bare hands like I do. It's functional, and necessary. They won't submit control and face trial, as it says in their Talmud they bribe and set up court trials to rig it in their favor. This is why I believe that the legal system is not the solution, among many other reasons because every time we won before it was through being the example of merciless ruthless relentless acts of force to provide an adequate threat for them not to cross lines. That's the law under which we live, as an example of NG with his example. You cannot imagine them to change, and no amount of love and gratitude you feel by imagining them actually loving the world and helping the world will change their thousands of years of history of following Jewish supremacist ideology to destroy all the dumb goy. That's what they live and breathe. It's like imagining an elite athlete as a massively obese lazy slob. That's not going to do anything and if anything reveals your own lacking state of wanting to change someone to be lower, and so imagining them being functional instead of wanting to control the world of the goy is the same thing, it's avoiding the necessary conflicts that have always preceded change in power structures. People who cope and deny this are ignorant of history that I've studied and seen the patterns and proven that scripture follows palindromic sequencing because it's a plan to destroy us.

Anyway the mechanics are the same. You feel the necessity to expand through sufficient vital current surfacing the lack in contrast to a capacity to grow that's seen fully and accepted as necessary to be satisfied and to leave the dysfunctional pain of the peak dip. This is why I coach everybody with this principle when I start. Getting real with how you feel is necessary, and then you'll lose attraction for the SP who's dysfunctional because you'll see their abuse and not want anything to do with that person. Can they change? Yes. You changed, so can they, but preventing your own expansion to fixate on the idea that they can change for you is your own compromise coming out. The only way you'll change them to be actually loving and not just throwing you hot cold whatever is to outgrow the need for them. That's going to make them look at themselves, since the power structure has changed and they no longer have access to their own patterns. YOU broke the pattern and it makes them look at themselves differently. If they see the capacity for growth, then they will change, else they stay compromised and you move on and win because they get left in the dust and you leave without giving a damn for someone who's abusive or whatever. Someone who's throwing breadcrumbs to you and then avoids the hard talks about being responsible for what's necessary to change for stability sake will be seen for who they are and you'll recall as flashes in your mind all the moments of this being true and you'll naturally lead the pathways into the acceptance that they won't change on their own because you've had all those talks. You need to change for them to change, always. Something needs to change. Change makes higher ideals come through. So instead of thinking you need to fixate on them at all is just stupid and won't work in any functional way. You're missing the point if you think there's ANYTHING to do to change them because there's not. Leaving them changes them, but you won't WANT to leave them until you're sick of suffering and you won't get there until you see the compromise patterns and constant repetitive promises for change that never happen IN CONTRAST to what COULD be. The feeling of growth into higher ideals gives meaning to leaving the compromise. Unless that's in the contextual experience of the lacking cycles then you won't want to expand meaningfully. You'll just keep coping and then telling me "what do I do to manifest them X way?" to which I'll say the same thing. Live your life outside of their influence on you, live as though you never needed to conform to expectations of them being the only availability for love and such. Open up the availability and become someone who'd be open to that by involving in life in ways that activates your Shen in front of other people who will see and feel that vitality and want to involve in you romantically. You only attach because they're the easy supply, so detaching is widening the supply and seeing you never needed it to be locked into this one dysfunctional package. That's what matters. You'll always be stuck unless you change in those ways.

So when NG said you don't want "that man or no man" and "you want to be happily married" he was implying this change, without explaining it in the details I have, either because he didn't grasp the details properly which I don't think he consciously did or he'd talk about it, or that he was just seeing it as a simple state shift idea that all the details work themselves out, which they usually do when the fundamental principle of looking towards higher ideals as capacity to grow in contrast to the trash. When you see that fully then you make progress. NG never taught SP manifesting, and said to someone who wanted to manifest back an abusive ex that you've got to be a "stupid idiot". So yeah. It's pretty clear what he taught, because the examples of manifesting SP in his work I can point to as clear points of someone he mentioned who got married to the person they wanted was obviously under the context of this mechanism of seeing yourself in the higher state and simply spontaneously targeting that person. When NG said that persistence is necessary and yet also that imaginal acts were necessary and then he said that the nightly act was to basically move you by that state into the next day, it's pretty clear that the act was to catalyze a change in self into accepting higher ideals and to carry that into the next day in persistence of that higher state by responding differently. That's so obvious. All the trash I use to think he was talking about is clear as day now. It's the cope coaches who interpreted it wrong, and so I needed to deconstruct every part of it. They're not reading his work correctly. That's the issue. They're wrong.

Here's an interesting thought.

Hot and cold behavior of your own, and manipulating others with false expectations. You might not consciously do it yourself but that you're living into the lower state and you projecting a higher state to move others turns into your own issue. If inconsistency can condition you then it can do it to others in manipulating expectations.

You can explain a vast majority of manifesting phenomena without ever needing LOA as a thing. Living as though LOA doesn't exist is WAY better than living with it. The less you "do" manifesting the better it will come through you, because it's ALL state expansion then which is what works the mechanisms.

30/4/26

You can feel something is correct and fact but be totally wrong. You cannot refute deduced fact from systematic analysis of every point of data that's necessary to attain a clear understanding of something. Imaginal acts via feeling that something is true doesn't change anything, it can't, what's the substrate by which that can apply? "God"? "I AM?" Yeah good luck with that. Jewish supremacists run the show,

I was putting together the NG program and I found this insane quote.

"Human history and everything man has ever accomplished will prove to be false. Every great accomplishment will be modified in time, many times. Even so-called facts will prove to be error. In the end everything will be rubbed out, leaving no trace of ever having been present; for the only thing that is really forever, is what God is bringing out of humanity . . which is himself. So in the end there is nothing but God . . only God!" - The knowledge of God 1968

Human history. That's a phrase I've not studied much on in his work. This example though, well let's say that there's no reasonable basis for this to be true. This denies anything that's fixed from our past history. Solipsism. So did he teach solipsism then? This would say so. The "facts of life" are determined by you. Man I remember when I said that, I got A TON of approval from people, no criticism. Everybody agreed and clapped their hands. So if NG is saying here that "in the end" all facts will be rubbed out (which in his doctrine I believe explains all the mass killings and such of foreign people, or goy in dual seedline) which can only mean that he's speaking from the idea that the world ONLY exist for consciousness expansion and will all be destroyed and is like a temporary container structure of reality that the work is done through.

Yeah right. Can't prove or disprove that, dual seedline doctrine manifesting over thousands of years and palindromic sequencing will tell us that history and events are fixed on a specific timeline, and not random. This proof goes against his idea that it's people and their seeming free will imagining. Really it's them accepting what's innate to expand through via the vitality mechanics, but he cannot and will not address fixed cycles in history, like what I've pointed out with the Torah and the exodus cycle happening every 360-420 years alternating and 138 years within that again for other major reset cycles of cataclysmic events. If I brought all that data to the table I'd be filling up over 10 pages and I don't have the time or care to bring that here so if you want all of that data then you'll have to speak with me personally. I am one person with so much time of the day to write here so don't expect magic because I'm very close to the end of even doing more entries here considering all the mysteries have been resolved, or at least the ones that matter to practical application of the phenomena of manifestation, RS.

"In telling the story, Paul speaks of predestination . . not of the outer man, but of the inner man. Listen to his words carefully: “Though they were not yet born and had done nothing either bad or good, in order that God’s election should continue, not because of works but because of his calling, he made one he loved and one he hated saying, ‘Jacob I love and Esau I hate.’” They had not yet been born and had done nothing that was either good or bad, but in order for God’s election to continue he loves the one he calls and hates the other." - The forming of Christ in you 1969

So he explains the hatred for Esau as election of God to process the Christ seed further. Damn this work is endless I need to sell to get the cash showing up ASAP and finishing this to a complete level is going to take WAY TOO LONG! Nobody else is doing this work so I have to do it all in my own time and space and somehow collect his entire corpus or work and organize it into a coherent doctrine, including the seeming contradictions.

Keep in mind the above quote is the ONLY example in his whole body of work that has "Esau I hate" or "Esau" and "hate" in the same paragraph, which I believe is a reasonable search filter for finding these quotes. I will use other search terms to imply this same meaning to find more quotes related.

"Jacob love" within the same paragraph is the next search.

"Everything must be interpreted as a symbol, in this world as well as in your dream world. A lady shared this dream with me recently. In it she had a twin sister who died. Loving her twin so much, she pretended she was her; thereby receiving her mother’s affection; yet she knew the role she had assumed. This is a perfect story of scripture. Jacob supplanted his brother Esau in the affection of his father. Coming second, Jacob thought his father would love the first-born most, not knowing (as the world does not know) that the first-born of every creature is the same first-born, but the firstborn from the dead is seen in the order of events, rather than in time." - The battle of Armageddon 1969.

So here's another one. In this he likens the sister of the story and the lady he's speaking of to have assumed the same role and projected basically the experience of being the sister into an experience of being loved. This is his explanation of Esau and Jacob in this context, being the "supplanter" as in the one who takes the role in subjective experience in the NG doctrine.

"Now, God does not become this body of flesh. It is Esau . . the hairy outer form . . he hates. He is in love with Jacob . . the human imagination . . who is the subjective, feminine part of your nature. So don’t be ashamed to admit there is in you that which is feminine and loved by God, for only by fusion with this feminine part of your nature can Christ be formed." - The forming of Christ in you 1969

I just find it funny that NG talks about the hairy nature of Esau to be sensory experience, when it's OBVIOUSLY about the GOAT, Edom as the whites of the world, physically. This is what dual seedline doctrine speaks of, which is 1000000x more coherent than what NG says, and a year ago from about today in fact I wrote about how the NG doctrine has holes in it if you compare it to the coherence of dual seedline. I've always said that dual seedline is the consistent interpretation that holds no holes, and in fact also explains all the physically impossible events such as talking animals and the multiple accounts for the resurrections and birth of the Christ AND the death of Judas, as well as Christ whipping the money changers, which Hitler did. I mean it's so obvious when you interpret it clearly and you see the exodus script where the Israelites (Jewry as a whole) are persecuted by the host nation until then God (the Jewish supremacists pulling strings) then curses the Egyptians unto the "exodus" of the Jews who lived into the wilderness AKA JEWISH EXILE THIS IS WHAT HAS HAPPENED THROUGHOUT HISTORY OVER 1100 TIMES YOU FOOLS! The NG doctrine IS NOT correct, and once again I will say that if it is then it would work clearly as it's said but no there's truly abstract symbolic interpretation and what he's really preaching is what the Jewish supremacists themselves believe about themselves and parroting it as though this is how consciousness actually functions which I've said since the start isn't the case. The instances where NG has some genius quotes don't make up for the fact that the entire basis of his work is rooted in mystical Kabbalah which he learned from Abdullah who was likely linked in with the Jewish supremacists to play a role to deceive the people. I can't prove that with factual data but I can show common threads through WHY these "psycho-spiritual" doctrines exists and what they're really about and show clearly that they're not for our benefit as they operate on coded language that ONLY those who are initiated need to grasp.

Think about this. Unless you're initiated into mystical Kabballah then you CANNOT interpret the NG doctrine on your own. It's not suppose to be interpreted by the average Joe, because the average Joe is a goy to be destroyed and who cannot be let into the secrets. Why did NG reveal these things? Because he played a role to cause over a hundred million people over the world to be deceived by the false doctrine of pseudo mentalism, stemming from the roots in Jewish supremacist ideology. This is what we all experience every day, unlike the NG doctrine which is that it sometimes seems to work and other times doesn't, because it's not operating with assumptive mechanics but also vitality mechanics that TCM explains in more than enough detail.

Last example of NG talking about hating Esau I could find.

"This same story repeats itself all the way through. It begins with Abraham, and then the two . . Ishmael who came first and then Isaac. Isaac was the promise. Then the grandchildren: Esau and Jacob, and God said “Jacob I love; Esau I have hated,” . . the same pattern following all through Scripture coming into the New Testament. And in man it erupted . . the story." - the promise explained 1970

Right there is the final one in his whole body of work. There's no found search terms for the above quotes found in his books. That's why I rarely quote his books because they're pretty limited in scope to be real.

"The world cannot change until you change your conception of it. As within, so without. Nations, as well as people, are only what you believe them to be. No matter what the problem is, no matter where it is, no matter whom it concerns, you have no one to change but yourself, and you have neither opponent nor helper in bringing about the change within yourself. You have nothing to do but convince yourself of the truth of that which you desire to see manifested. As soon as you succeed in convincing yourself of the reality of the state sought, results follow to confirm your fixed belief. You never suggest to another the state which you desire to see him express; instead, you convince yourself that he is already that which you desire him to be.

Realization of your wish is accomplished by assuming the feeling of the wish fulfilled. You cannot fail unless you fail to convince yourself of the reality of your wish. A change of belief is confirmed by a change of expression. Every night, as you drop off to sleep, feel satisfied and spotless, for your subjective lover always forms the objective world in the image and likeness of your conception of it, the conception defined by your feeling." - Feeling is the secret 1944 book

Yeah there's some solipsism, at least if you interpret it at face value. Solipsism doesn't work because Jewish persecution is manufactured as has been irrefutably proven as a true fact of life that's stood the test of time for THOUSANDS of years and yet the people being manipulated, including Jews themselves, didn't assume what happened to them. How can NG possibly make these claims knowing that millions of people can all be impacted in radical ways, through war for example, that one person in power played a scripted role in manufacturing pretense for to justify the fall of that nation. The entire population of that nation would have to all consent to the war happening for it to happen then would they not? How does that work. It's insane to think because if it applies personally then how does the external apply? That's the issue that cannot be resolved and why NG said that all facts of human history are subjective and will prove to be error he said. Well here and now they're not, but we're told by NG that seeing them as they are now is the problem and that they're not actually facts because they're going to be proven error in the end. See the issue there?

I can't let that slide. If NG wants to make claims that human history is effectively only what we assume it to be, then that means he's preaching solipsism, yet in other cases about things being done to us and through us against our will, that's NOT solipsism, and yet if you interpret that as a personal experience that's on an inner level exclusively that can still fit within a solipsistic framework. The thing is that he's also mentioned how people in your exterior when you're coming close to the end of the play will have your friends and family turn from you and there will be conflicts. He said that in quotes I've mentioned before I don't have it on hand but it's there. You know the one. So does that then mean that the external is being moved against our will or consent? This is the struggle I have in writing out the NG program and actually being CORRECT because it seems like there ARE SOME contradictions that I don't see any real way of reconciling. His example of us being born into a life where our birth and death conditions are pre-destined and that we are born as a poor man for the "work to be done in him" after playing as a rich man, that then makes me think he didn't, yet the quotes above point to how it is. It's insane. So what IS fixed on the external within his doctrine? Well the family conflicts is one example, because it's the outer world being moved against your will or consent and on top of that

So now you might know why I DO NOT respect ANY coaches in the space BECAUSE THEY'RE NOT DOING THE STUDY TO BACK UP WHAT'S SAID! There are contradictions, very few, but they're there. The issue is that if it's not all internal, which is the case, then that means preaching NG in a vacuum at surface level is delusion. I can't preach delusion, not even for a million dollars, because I do not compromise on what I know to be true even if it's inconvenient to me. If I made a billion dollars I would preach it, because I can use that cash to further plans to eradicate the Jewish filth, otherwise no chance.

"Once asleep, man has no freedom of choice. His entire slumber is dominated by his last waking concept of self." - feeling is the secret book

Nope. No way. I use to sleep thinking I was a rich man and was vital and had hot girls showing up at my door daily and yet I woke up in pain with anxiety attacks and had dreams about dying and waking up nearly dying and having my head feel like it would explode. It's all insane. I swear I would've died one of those times where my head literally was like exploding with such pressure it was crazy, but I somehow didn't. The ONLY reason I think I made it through those times where I couldn't even think thoughts clearly (which also disproves this idea that consciousness is non local because why can't I think clearly if I'm not my body? Or did I "manifest" that too after sleeping in the assumption that I was highly vital??? Who knows anymore) is because I wanted to complete the work I was doing. So that's an incorrect teaching once again. That doesn't work. We all know this. If you have poor sleep patterns, good luck with what he said. I use to always question back then if I couldn't manifest because I literally couldn't fall asleep without waking up every 15-20 minutes and have attacks in the night some days and then wake up half dead with zero vitality despite sleeping as though I did. It's insanely stupid. I persisted for weeks in that because I thought I could help it but it made it worse, and that's because I didn't apply what I teach now. If I applied what I teach now I'd have suffered less..

Also funny that some people who are in desperation go to a TCM doctor for example who end up getting their deadly disease cured despite being critical of all of those things. Nonsense.

"You will rise believing that you are a free agent, not realizing that every action and event of the day is predetermined by your concept of self as you fell asleep. Your only freedom, then, is your freedom of reaction. You are free to choose how you feel and react to the day’s drama, but the drama…the actions, events and circumstances of the day…have already been determined." - feeling is the secret 1944 book

Yeah I can agree on the part that our choice of reactions is our only free will. Observation of the current state relative to the higher capacity to grow into that's fixed as a higher degree of vital current, that's the ONLY free will we have. That's the only way to change state, aside from external influences, like war and famine. Isn't it also funny that the CV-19 issues impacted the WHOLE WORLD, and yet that would have to had everybody all believe and assume that the world is in lockdown for it to manifest all at once right?

Jesus rising from the dead is the carry over of the messianic "soul" who is used in their exodus cycle. Political leaders typically play Christ. Trumpet is one of them, obviously. All my intelligence is wasted in this LOA space with a bunch of useless idiots who cannot think or do not WANT to think clearly because it's all FEEELING to these people. FEEEELINGGGG is the secret they say. FEEEEEEEELIINGGGGGGGGG! Useless. Current is feeling. Current is vitality. Vitality is the secret. Screw the law of assumption, RS teaches the law of vitalism. Now we've gone way outside the LOA sphere, but I don't care, we're about RESULTS! Results and REAL MANIFESTING is vitality in supply thematically targeted towards what's in demand. Vitality matching, state coherency, states are higher degrees of vitality of self relative to your higher capacity for higher vitality integration. Integrated vitality is dominant state.

These people who read this NG program will completely misinterpret everything. Why do I even bother, like what's the point when the people are to dumb. I got some supposed long term follower whacko comment asking how NG got out of the military without acting on it. Obviously it's the same mechanics I've explained just above. IF acting is part of that then it will be, through the state that determines HOW you see reality around you, WHAT stands and out and suggests availability. He OUTGREW the man in the military. He DID NOT manifest that through an imaginal act, and you can argue that the seeming mystical experience he had was part of it, since the Hun overflowed the Shen at this point and activated whatever the channel would've been to bring him into the state. Most people in this space are heavily conditioned, easily manipulated, don't think for themselves, accept less and compromise on their capacity they KNOW they can grow into, are delusional, are just straight up stupid in most cases. No wonder the coaches who preach mentalism trash get so much approval because it feels so good to be delusional for these people. Going against the established status quo involves the people WILLINGLY breaking down what they believe and leave it behind because NONE OF IT WORKS! That's SEEMINGLY my barrier.

The solution is to explore all of these parts in realtime as the model of RS is introduced. The tangible experiential examples need to be made known. I don't even know why I'm writing this here but who cares. Jewish supremacy is the ONLY valid interpretation of scripture and I dare anyone to prove that incorrect, including the alchemist and those of such kind. NG had no consistent interpretation with what we experience, because it's literally the ideology of the Jewish supremacists themselves, as I AM God. That's all it is. Whatever I believe I manifest, they say, and yet billions of people were put into lockdown all at the time time, within 2 weeks. How does that work? It doesn't. It's another example of how over 90 different countries with 4 billion people participating WERE ALL MOVED AT THE SAME TIME INTO ONE DIRECTION. These idiots cannot ever answer that, how the CV lockdowns manifested if everybody has their own assumptions and that what they consent to is what they believe. I didn't go along with it, I went out and didn't give a damn, so it didn't move me, but the point is about half the world all were influenced by a handful of old men who were following a script brought about through the Jewish supremacist plans written out in scripture. You want to talk about moving the world as NG says, here's the biggest example of that which has NEVER been seen in history. If they can do that, and then force people to get injections for a so called virus that never even was demonstrated as a causative agent of disease under duress, then why do you think the future under this same influence will ever improve without eradicating this parasitic influence. NOBODY IN LOA WILL EVER TALK ABOUT THAT BECAUSE THEY'RE TOO DUMB TO FIGURE IT OUT! Or they just make too much money to care, meanwhile I spend months going over the same material finding holes in the NG doctrine trying to find a consistent interpretation that can be taught which seems like impossible. Going along with what's easy instead of being functional and providing REAL value and facts is EXPONENTIALLY EASIER than doing this work... Never quit.

My own audience is the greatest opponent. Convincing them with doubt in the standard model is the only way. When I got heaps of clients showing up telling me things they liked about what I said it was relating my explanations to things they experienced about manifesting, like signs and all that. Everybody agreed with me in fact, which actually blew my mind, but outside of those few things nobody grasped anything despite the mountain of data I provided for free on this notebook which I've got linked and have mentioned in almost all my videos over the last 2 years. Perhaps I don't NEED to have a full systematic study of NG to make a point clear. It just NEEDS to plant ENOUGH seeds of doubt (seeds being moments of insight that conflict with established narratives and are recalled as a question to the authority of certain ideas suggested after that fact) to have impact in a short and concise way. Yeah no duh, silly me. That's not as a coach how you gain real understanding though, that's not how you really study things, it's just what's easily shared and marketed, not something that should be the basis for a doctrine. RS is so massive I don't even know where to distill it all down at times.

Listening to UCP again, like I did all the time back in 2020, it brings me back to those moments and those sensations surface, those pathways are led through suggestion via music. The same thing happens with anything else, things we've not surfaced in years will be made conscious when a suggestion commensurate with that pathway cascade will cause that cascade to fire and you'll be immersed into that state again. With this awareness, what do you do with it? You change it, you use it to live into a higher ideal for reality and operate this way in ALL ways without exception. Just these tracks in themselves have such an insane impact. Anything that validates being smaller and not looking towards greater and greater ideals and expanded states means you're not outgrowing the trash. You're stagnant. Someone will tell me to what end though? Well root pressure always necessitates growth, because that's what it does, and the innate nature must completely unfold to the degree that it needs to be for new levels to surface, new suggestions to resonate the thematic sequencing of the Jing to catalyze the kidney meridian into warming the Hun and the Shen into activity coloured through those thematic filters of the "steam" rising and turning the turbine of the intelligences housed in the meridians and delivering the experience of desire and vision, spontaneous intuitive impulse. It's all there. Nobody can prove otherwise.

This is the EXPERIENCE of state shifting. The EXPERIENCE is what I've been fixated on exploring more and more and more and more every day now. Seeing some of these cycles within each other switch within a matter of a few hours at a time shows how dynamic this all is. The states are in constant flux. I just wish my audience had the intelligence and care to study this and get what's needed because they clearly don't and even if I made videos on all the details it would go over their heads just like these basic ideas do I've already talked about. More simplification can only be had through the means of exploring the direct experience of each part. That must be made publicly freely available and the formula must be marketable. If imagination creates reality, which it doesn't and CV-19 proves this because it would imply everyone was moved to accept this reality as true either via the media or else, though obviously that's not the case but most people go along with it anyway just like any other totalitarian regime THROUGH THREAT OF FORCE NOT CONSCIOUS HARMONY WITH ASSUMPTIONS, then we'd see this true in all cases, at least as it's interpreted at face value, so how can I create propaganda if you wish to expose these ideas and go hardcore on the info war to so say. It's necessary because they NEED to be SHOCKED out of the lowly state. The ONLY way to get someone to change state is through shock, some kind of high contrast experience that makes them question established narratives and challenges assumptions.

The way I've been going about this hasn't been productive because too many people STILL don't get that getting real and being yourself for real and feeling all the trash is actually functional for state shifting. Those things you feel DON'T WORK are the key to unlocking higher states, and so instead of doing what everyone says and deny and delude yourself as to how you feel you get real and make the necessary tangible and internal changes to get those things aligned into a higher state where availability of vitality can come through you thematically to manifest via supply demand mechanics the targeted outcome. If I said that publicly people probably wouldn't grasp it, which if they really read it enough times they'd get it, then I'd have to either break it down more (which would then confuse new listeners to the ideas because it's multi video dependent and doesn't contain all the parts) OR I present errors in LOA as it's taught and plant seeds of doubt that way. Make it obvious about the clear and obvious outliers in LOA and the NG doctrine that cannot work, in a PC ENOUGH context to not get flagged.

Totalitarian regimes, Jewish supremacy as the underlying cause and how people against their will or consent were moved into death and decay, and how entire populations, up to half the planet at once, can all be moved together at once at the behest of a few old men in politics playing figure heads for the Jewish supremacists. It's funny because I started using this term Jewish supremacists and now I've seen others use it too. Commonly shared source?

You see we must consider the aether. The aether is a very real substrate which can be demonstrated through magnetism most reliably. Wave a magnet and watch a CRT across the room converge the beams according to the flux impacting the trajectory of the beam towards the mask of the tube, These convergence patterns in themselves demonstrate that action at a distance through perturbance of the substrate by which flux is made manifest as it's moved reveals how magnetism uncovers the unseen so called substrate. The idea that I use to have is that we're all integrated thematically within cycles of each other moving each other is a seeming demonstrable fact to SOME extent physically, which surprisingly another recent model came out just like that claiming to have the answers years after I published my work on RS as the first person in manifesting to have a systems model of the phenomena. The thing is that reliably proving that I don't believe is even possible, not physically. You'd have to measure waves that are next to impossible to read because you'd have to read anti-time or the periodicity between cycles that produces the integration constant (phi for example as referenced by Dan Winters work) by which fractality is established and processes move each other unconsciously. There's the thing. It's an unconscious influence a vast majority of the time, and people think they can consciously do it, and yet state STREAKS represent established IMPLIED INVOLVEMENT that's LEADING PATHWAYS in a seeming PREDICTIVE process where pathway cascades operating within each other (hence the thumbnail for the video) can "interpret" the leading cascade that's the product of all the interactions via thematic supply demand vitality mechanics. What the guy who came up with a systems model of this is missing is the vitality mechanics of TCM to explore HOW that "unconscious acceptance" if we'd call it that is established and maintained as a state streak which holds the value that modulates and moves with the integrated processes around it in supply. It's obviously vitality mechanics, as does explain most functional dynamics of attraction of SP and stuff, and that goes for professional and familial contexts too. Vitality supply is what everybody is really looking for, as in someone who can give them access to higher states, OR to cope harder with their compromise out of confirming a conditioned lower state as valuable and the seeming solution. That's why people fall for scams, because people in low states are moved by what they perceive to be supply and are influenced by their low state into more disorder.

Jewish supremacy is still the root of all of our issues here on earth, unless we talk about personal state shifts of course which underlies the resolution of that issue, but practically that's where the real issue is. Really the issue is the idea that we have to accept to be someone we're not. Those vitality mechanics where the illumination that would break that delusion and establish a state streak of higher function and order is always broken by delusion of denying what's in front of you. What NG will never tell you is that when you're in the dips, those times are where you get REAL CLARITY. Those are the moments where you feel how you REALLY feel, where dysfunction is made abundantly obvious to the conscious, though you'll deny it because it's not aligned to the so called wish fulfilled idea. This is my point that I've been making in all my recent videos. The wish fulfilled feeling IS NOT "positive" emotion, or any emotional feeling specifically, but the targeting towards higher ideals and outgrowing the person who's not there fundamentally by leaving behind what suggests trash and moving into what suggests availability of what that higher state has within it, IE, SP, cash, vitality (naturally). I remember all those months and even years I'd spend in "positive" states feeling and maintaining happy positive feelings as often as I could (only to be crushed right after to send me into states of "I NEED TO CHANGE" which I denied a thousand times over) and that NEVER manifested ANY SP situations that were satisfying because I DIDN'T CHANGE. This insane trash needs to die. If I had my SP teleport in front of me back then and tell me all the wonderful loving and fire things I wanted to hear I'd probably have extreme anxiety show up because my lower state would've been threatened by that because it implied the availability was in a massive flux from what my expectations were established to accept, So this is why I cannot even begin to tolerate the trash taught by LOA coaches to persist in the state as they explain it because that's effectively impossible unless you're going to make the necessary radical changes that those emotional sensations are necessitating you make. The thing is that those feelings ARE PART OF THE HIGHER STATE, but they DENY THAT. This is why I say ANY emotional feeling can come from higher states, because emotion is NOT the cause, but that targeting higher ideals and growth within that is what actually makes the magic happen.

I've experienced this more times than can be counted, including that streak I had recently I talked about in the latest video. The issue is that we are not getting things clear as to HOW we EXPERIENCE being IN the so called state of the wish fulfilled. I explained that pretty clearly in the latest video saying that CHANGE is what makes it work and the emotional feelings can be ANYTHING from in that higher state. You just can't explain it with emotional maintaining because that's impossible, nor can repetitive thinking cause it because I did all those experiments and had signs or opposite results with SP for that for years and had TWO specific manifestations of things I was already comfortable with using that, so I wouldn't even say it was the affirming it was the state expansion and the targeting. IF repetitive thinking works the mechanism of continually looking towards the higher state and that stimulates intuitive impulse via suggestion of what that affirmation means for you then YES that CAN work. Any other time, they do nothing and will cause issues. This is why fleeting thoughts are ALL IT TAKES to manifest, and even underlying that you don't NEED to even have a thought that's conscious to manifest the target so long as SOME sensory translation occurs on some level as a representation of the inner currents being available which came through as that sensory stimulus like a flash of an image or something. All it takes is that. So yeah, it's all nonsense to think that manifesting is about constantly thinking the thought of having because the translation does NOT need to direct imply first person present tense availability but that the CURRENTS target thematically in correspondence to the desired end.

Only person on earth who knows those mechanics. Work billions. STILL here stuck with this trash, so change needs to happen else I won't make it past what's coming. All of this sacrifice wasn't for nothing. Operating functionally isn't rewarded, but making the message clear through the means of poking holes in LOA and bringing out peoples frustration with the cope methods needs to be made known. Stating facts won't work, even though they're true, because it doesn't shock them personally and isn't meaningful or relate to their experience. I know that when I do these videos but I don't care enough to speak in that way. I say what I want, and yet I don't get rewarded. so again you STILL need to play games with people because that's how they work. No way around it. Effective propaganda has always been what's worked throughout history to move populations of people into conforming to repeated ideas that serve certain interests. Why not employ the same ideas here.

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More insights. More of the same insights actually, but viewed under a wider lens than before. What I find is that the whole going to the end plays multiple functions. One of them is association to availability with what that implication you're targeting brings out of you. Simply put, if you go to the end where your SP is like begging for your attention all day every day (which is pretty pathetic if you ask me) and you imagine this as though it's real, you will feel as though that was real for you right now and if you feel lacking in comparison in supply/demand and vitality availability thematically associated then you will have that current in your meridians activate and disturb the Shen causing instability of the state and throwing your filtering into low narrow view. That is a reaction to life, virtually experienced. This is proving to you that you don't have the value and worth and vitality and availability to experience this safely and comfortably. The idea of having this makes you uneasy, and if you do the artificial hype up where you go on rampages about how worthy you are of it and then go into that experience you'll find that you won't have the same lacking reaction but more of a natural state. What is this? The suggestions you lead through the pathways of the work to bring out having more vitality and value generated an environment that had "mass" and "momentum" to it which carried with you into the same scene where that was felt as available. The pathways were converged in a different way instead of going straight to having it from a neutral state. If you rely on this to feel worth having the thing then your default state you return to will never feel availability for this thing and you're artificially hyping yourself up to stimulate a response that's dysfunctional and will lead to signs and all that trash because underlying the cope you feel lacking. That's why you rely on success story videos, you rely on affirmation loops that are hyping up your value or anything like that. You simply don't have the thing innately available still and you're attempting to overcompensate because you think that feeling this feeling of the wish fulfilled fully will make it happen when the baseline isn't moving at all.

The fundamental core underlying principle is vitality supply thematically associated to what the suggestion implies you have available or not. That's the mechanism of symbolic association too, and why you react to life the way you do, It reveals the state you're living in. Your reactions to life literally reveal the state you're in, and those reactions are NOT emotional sensations themselves but suggestions of availability that then will surface unconscious conditioning to be made conscious and that will have associated charge where the meridian is activated which is felt as emotions. The emotions aren't the issue, I've proven this myself by manifesting big things while I felt "negative" emotional charge according to the conventional view of what they see reacting badly is. You can imagine and feel what you believe the feeling of the wish fulfilled represents all day every day but until and unless availability is established at baseline through what your implied involvement will naturally bring out of you as available via your vitality supply then you won't get the spontaneous intuitive impulses stemming from the filter working correctly to come through you.

The filter needs to be clear of delusions, and that's the first step. Seeing clearly what DOES NOT WORK, FIRST. This in fact was what NG said in changing the feeling of I, so there. Even NG agrees. To clear the filter of delusions, which are cope methods you'll live into of pseudo satisfaction like I went over above in the whole artificial hype up stuff, then you won't get anywhere and wonder why nothing works. You will manifest signs because you'll be leading the pathways into actual delusion and then wonder why nothing changes when you're not in that state and why you react badly and you'll then be under the idea that you need to maintain this delusional high sensation (which is actually a low state disguised as pseudo satisfaction and cope) and this will only deplete your vitality further and destabilize your Shen further. Jing will be forced to catalyze and you'll end up in lower states at baseline because the vitality it takes to artificially stimulate these cope states will then crash out when the charge dissipates and the Shen returns to where it will rest. The state you return to is where the Shen resides at baseline more or less which is why I've been talking about for years that the Shen when nourished will manifest luck.

The filtering system needs to be clear so that you won't even WANT to live in that cope trash. The core part of that is getting real with what doesn't work and going all the way with it. We need to see things as they are without the delusional filtering over the top that we've been fooled into thinking is how you change reality and change states. That's not elevating your state that's cope trash. You have innate seeds that underlie the delusional projections which can be made conscious when you clear the overlays and you can see clearly. Core thread. The way getting real with how you feel works is through illuminating the fact that the current state you're living from and all the acts and parts that make it up are leading you into dysfunction and lack and suggesting unavailability all the time. ONLY until you see this clearly ENOUGH will you be able to then move out all the delusional trash that's keeping you stuck and you'll WANT to change how you respond to the world, hence the "compulsion" to change. You will be moved by currents that aren't stemming from dysfunctional delusional trash but functional expansion and that will alter thematic supply/demand and the vitality mechanics will manifest through you the thoughts and images and intuitive impulses to respond in ways that lead you into the end imagined.

When you imagine a scene in SATS that's deeply immersive which is in an end state beyond where you are now, then all the parts that need to be coming together to make that a reality will be made conscious TO SOME EXTENT based on what's available and ripe to work with. Gazing is the best thing for this, Gazing is the most effective way to "top off" ripeness cycles and accelerate those insights coming through without waiting for a suggestion in the world to resonate the current that's ripe and waiting to flash in your mind. This is why advanced gazing ends up smashing you with so much juice when you're ripe because it'll surface all of that completely. The reality is that imaginal acts that don't imply expansion are either coming from cope or are coming through you because that's what the state is having surface naturally via what you feel is available or not. There's no getting around that. Imaginal acts as something that magically changes the world around you is insanely stupid because the Jewish supremacists themselves do not operate this way. They still apply with the same mechanics we have to work with. Nobody can do that. Not one person ever to live here can on demand manifest something with the flick of a wrist. Nobody. It's not like that, because the idea of that entirely is flawed and never existed. It's through the mechanics I've explained, and why there is always a "bridge" involved. The compulsion along the bridge is you being mediated in order to become lined up with what's necessary to meet up with your end. If you imagine that end and then do nothing to open your state up to higher levels then you're going to manifest more cope trash and signs but if you do the imaginal scene with the function of expanding your state then yes you can and will be able to manifest that reliably because it's coming through you on all levels and your filtering will be wired to pick up on the suggestions that thematically associate to how and why and where and when and intuitive impulse and the ripeness cycles and thematic supply demand and vitality mechanics via wei qi and other substances will draw the people towards you. It's ALL EXPLAINED. There need not be magic to explain these things.

The "one mind" idea is the aetheric substrate and all integrated processes operating within each other as one greater function. That's all that is. It's not literally that your mind is the mind of God, because even alchemically that's just a capacity but that's all nonsense really anyway. That's never what scripture was pointing to, since scripture is Jewish supremacy disguised as religion which actually pre-dates much of alchemical doctrines anyway so. You can argue that the Sumerian systems that go further back are proof of alchemical traditions but they're not complete anyway. It was only until Egypt and Greece that things started getting systematic and that's right around the time that the Jewish supremacists advanced their script-ure of the exodus cycle. They went in and destroyed Egypt and they did it all the way through until the Roman legions destroyed the Jewish filth and they got their plans all messed up and had to do it again. That's how they operate, it all NEEDS to be in mathematical alignment, which is why palindromic sequencing seems to be accurate, not because it's able to predict events from a greater system of simulation analysis but because it's observing the stages of the script playing out as they do and I'm the only one who's seen that it seems. The trash about NG saying that all of human history is all subjective is nonsense because the patterns are obvious and he was ignorant of that and was missing data with his conclusions which is why he failed to accurately assess what's going on. I just can't stand that. It's so ignorant.

So with all this in mind, what basis is there now in the idea that your mind controls any of this considering all the phenomena that we experience has far more demonstrable and repeatable functions that we can observe and point to as to how these things happen. The bridge and the compulsion, the "feeling of the wish fulfilled". All of these things, none of them make sense if you actually apply them at face value and they don't work. You cannot persist with feeling some high state, that's dysfunctional cope trash. The bridge as it's called is said to be something you're "compelled" along. Well a compulsion is going to come through you because that's what you see and WANT to involve in. We've all got this idea that the entire world will conspire to make your desire true, as though that's real because Jewish supremacists continue to destroy entire populations of people over centuries over and over and those people would've had to have been compelled to their own death as well. Yeah right. So the compulsion along the bridge comes from living in the state that operates with all of the implied involvement coming through you to facilitate mediating that pathway. You CAN manifest things that seem to be impossible, in theory, if you'd accept that you must change who you're being to be compelled. It's like the compulsion along the bridge is the natural effect of your supply/demand experience changing, and that you're just living from that different state. It's nothing else. If people come to you, it's because they want what you now have in supply because you changed and likely the wei qi mechanism of vitality supply on a "projective basis" if we'd call it that then "draws" them to you. I remember Eric Dollard said that qi is the dielectric field, tension stored up as bundles of aetheric pressure. Here there's a capacity to integrate within processes of similar structure via supply demand thematically speaking (the current filtering system that's automatically happening to all of us all the time) and this can mediate someone else to basically be influenced as a factor in that process you're integrated within to bring about the product of what the involvement would represent is available for both parties. The physics of that more or less work through capacities projected as processes you're integrating in and riding in on that'll involve others and on a psychological level that's going to come THROUGH you as pre-cognized spontaneous intuitive impulse that activates the meridians that move you there in this "compelled along the bridge of incidents" where the filtering drives your responses. The state you're in makes all that work. It's not one mind, that's stupid trash that nobody can prove. I've been critical of that idea since the start and having studied alchemical doctrines and applied them myself on the deepest levels and experienced all the things those systems have to offer, I KNOW that it's not what the cosmology people have around them think is happening. The physics studies I did before prove how all of this works, and on a metaphysical level alchemical transformation is still processes within processes, but just because there's line up there doesn't mean they're functionally overlapping and actually confirm each other. That's a trap I fell into in the past that I can see through now, because its VERY convenient to explain things this way to create then a cosmology where spiritual and the rest can seem to line up but in fact when you widen the view further there's more contradictions there that cannot be explained.

The simulation idea, the one mind idea, the spiritual cosmologies of any form that are hyper abstract representations of phenomena we experience, just because they exist and are marketed to us as valid answers doesn't make them all valid because they point to a common experience of manifestation. That's where critical thinking comes in. I feel like all the filtering I've done lately has been so valuable in clearing this all up for me and getting so clear on how and why and where and when and cutting out trash if I need to. It wasn't EASY to come to this level, but I had to make the crossing of the threshold work in order to operate with clarity on what I know and can pretty clearly prove does work. There's just so many variables it's insane.

I've done it again here and proven this. When I go back to music from past when I had experiences of intensity (doesn't mean it was high charge but that it was meaningful from a Shen level to some level) I will have flashes in my mind of what I was doing at that time. I vividly have them show up. This has been the case with many different tracks I have memories tied to. This is the case with all people to some extent and demonstrates the translation mechanism I've talked about endlessly. You're having a pathway cascade activate and that's going to then basically imply something else that will have an association to that pathway activating. This is how all belief shifting works, state shifting, whatever, It's all pathway cascades, vitality supply demand, thematic current, meridian activation. This is what can be proven reliably and why I teach it, even though only a handful of people actually grasp it. Every reaction to life you have is a signal of what pathway cascades are operating consciously and with that they'll be either in balance or out of balance and revealing dysfunction or function relative to the innate capacity for growth, which determines why you feel the way you do, and why getting real with how you feel is how you tear down delusions. This should all line up well to point to a cohesive mechanism of manifesting. Your implied involvement basically establishes availability based on how balanced you are to the fixed point of comparison representing living into the higher states and if you're not there then you'll be feeling that change is necessary, dissatisfaction, and that's the signal to shift how you involve in life to establish availability.

You DO NOT establish availability through feeling positive UNLESS that's what's necessary to balance the currents where the Shen can be nourished. All of these mechanics lead to the Shen being nourished, else no manifesting can work reliably. So what your senses perceive will fire pathway cascades associated which will surface the condition of the thematic currents that relate to their meridians and the somatic sensations will be manifest and you will feel a certain way. This could be seen as brain structure too, but I don't talk about that as something useful because it's not. You cannot point to a part of the brain to isolate certain memories, at least not outside of a lab scenario where brains are experimented on all the time to understand what does what, but that memory really is a culmination of the effect of the cascade and the effects that has that surfaces the sensation of availability that's established that drives feeling. These are your reactions to life. These reveal the state, the baseline availability via the cascades and relationships between all the stages that make up the cascade which hold association to memory and targets of desires and things.

If you have a desire for something, and everything in your life is massive compromise, when you think of that you'll feel tension of some form. It WILL NOT BE natural, and you cannot establish naturalness without actually changing the availability. Coping by settling the currents doesn't change the state to be functional. You're branching off. You're ignoring the necessary changes to naturally nourish and establish availability SYSTEMATICALLY which will be FAR more functional than trying to manifest a specific thing in a vacuum without anything else changing. Doing that while being the same person is just stupid. It's not because you feel stable internally that people will show up, that's a part of it because the SHEN needs to be stable but that's not a systematic availability that's being established because as soon as you're suggested something outside of the box which implies unavailability you'll then need to go patch holes in that "specific belief" and so you'll play whackamole with all these different seeming "limiting beliefs" or whatever to try and stop yourself from reacting poorly when in fact you could've just gotten real and changed the very foundation and basis. The real goal is systematic change, because that's going to have a wider impact on the pathway cascades to be functional and not lead you into cope trash where you're still operating out of delusion. If you want to actually manifest abundance and manifest what you imagine with the senses as a targeted representation to your mind then you must become the person who has it. Faking that is cope, you must actually BECOME the person ON ALL LEVELS, to ENOUGH of a degree that this is established with availability and you're nourished at baseline where that state operates from.

You do not need to target specific things, because when you get real they'll be made conscious in the manner that they need to be seen. Seeing higher ideals, suggesting expansion, the desires you have, that SHOULD in a healthy person surface the necessary changes they need to partake in to line up with a state where that's available. There's SO MANY PEOPLE in LOA who will NEVER accept that they need to actually change because the entire space is just cope trash about bypassing this with some magical method. Think more, think specifically, work on this that the other belief, feel the feeling, bla bla bla. Feeling the feeling and all this somatic body work stuff is just more cope too. Been through all that. ALL of that is explained under TCM and TCM goes WAY deeper than any of those systems can even dream of. So the deeper truth is that manifesting the SP you want, that IS possible, provided you align to the state where that's available, though don't expect magic miracles when it comes to changing highly dysfunctional people. I've never seen it done before. Nobody has been able to prove they can take someone who's a hardcore psychopath and turn them into someone who's functional using imaginal acts. Nobody. Those people will be the ones who are manipulated. The psychopath is created through the associations they have to certain currents. If you imagine the SP that's highly functional for the life you want, and not someone who's going to drag you down into dysfunction, then elevate to that state, and you will manifest them naturally, provided you can actually live the changes necessary for that to play out via the way you're led along the bridge and such to involve in that change. The implied involvement is where all those state streaks are established. I still have people who think that state streaks are some magic method, but in fact they're able to be used as cope depending on how it's applied. You can be in a dysfunctional state streak and feel positive stuff along the whole streak until you get triggered by something and are moved back into the "bad" feelings. Those bad feelings are there to remind you that change needs to happen.

So clearly the approach I've got here to all of this is really the way I should be teaching it, and talking about how we experience these different things and what underlies that as practical experiential basis. There's no avoiding this. If you want to manifest an SP, money flow, vitality, whatever, you will need to change to line up with that and the imaginal act is simply a targeted direction by which the pathway cascades are lining up towards. The changes that happen along that way will be to balance those circuits until you've attained that state, because the way you feel necessitates change and the flashes in your mind of what that looks like to you as to where to change and what to involve in that's going to lead to manifestation working through you, then apply those. For most people it will be a flash of awareness, an intuitive impulse as I called it, which will lead you into the pathway into the manifestation coming through you. That doesn't always have to be some radical thing because I didn't make crazy radical acts in the 2 week streak but I went deep deep deep into seeing myself clearly where I was and accepting the necessary changes. That's why I ended up coming out and saying that Jewish supremacy is the only correct interpretation of scriptural around then too because it is and owning that was part of it to distance from the expectation of having to always tie things into a spiritual system to be valid.

Open up availability for what's desired. Don't see it from a lowly state, see yourself involved in having it and all the established parts that will go along with that. The cascade of implied changes that need to happen will be how the ripeness cycles are led through the bridge and whatnot. Those surface naturally as an effect of internally crossing a threshold when you get real with what's not working. You will feel that you NEED to grow, NEED to change, NEED to be greater, and this will drive what you see in the same scenarios to be different and you'll have flashes of images and things pop into your mind spontaneously when intuitive impulse hits. That's all part of the "compulsion" in a broken down way which NG failed to break down and so everyone and their dog has a different interpretation on it which means different things. What I've said works on all levels, because it's how we experience it systematically. That's all it is. You're operating from the state of the wish fulfilled, meaning you're persisting in the growth into the cascade of implied changes to mediate you into that suggested end which your imaginal act represents as a target. The targeting from that is what you're working with via imaginal acts. You're simply targeting a point of comparison to line up with and that will drive everything because it will surface in what it suggests needs to change, hence why I experienced anxiety with almost everything I imagined for years. I would often go out and do something different to cope and distract myself from the real necessary changes and in those places I'd feel less anxious but as soon as I wasn't in that contextual environment of availability through comfort of pseudo satisfaction then I'd end up dipping. This is why every night I'd imagine something and then end up in a worse state the next day. I'd never sleep properly and I'd wake up all the time feeling trash no matter how I felt when I slept. NG having liver disease would've experienced trash sleep, so he would've known this but obviously didn't talk about it. He would've woken up around 2-3AM or so most nights or even more because that's when that meridian activates and disturbs the Shen. That's also why you can wake up then and have vivid imaginal experiences with your eyes open because the Hun overflows the Shen and you have a spilling of your dream into your waking open eye awareness. I've had this happen and it's usually because of a lack of blood to house and anchor the Hun. The blood or second phase yin substance needs to be abundant enough to house and anchor these aspects of our psyche else they drift and cause crazy things to happen.

People who do advanced gazing with blood deficiency of some form or liver yang excess (possibly though I don't have much data on that reliably as an isolated variable) will have more vivid experiences with the imaginal senses opening up. There is a natural effect of this happening from balance but it's not always some hyper vivid thing that happens. It can be more subtle. The real issue people face is more or less a lack of anchoring for their intelligences. The Hun wanders, the Shen wanders, they have these vivid imaginal experiences that are spontaneous but it's not functional. This is why I don't teach advanced gazing publicly for free because it's VERY powerful at doing this and for many people that can be pathogenic.

We need always to get real. This is why I do not respect mentalism or solipsistic doctrines or some of the things that NG has said because it's delusional trash. There are fixed truths that are necessary to be accepted, so he's either talking about the mechanisms I'm describing to some level with a different cosmology and terminology or he's another straight up false prophet so to say. Nothing in the mentalism space works, because it's about propping up delusions and keeping yourself out of the reality of how you feel because that's not seen as persisting in the state of the wish fulfilled. As I type this I had the "third eye" pulses. It happens a lot when the Shen is activated from the kidney and liver meridians (rot pressure and vision and authority) because before I felt that I had a sensation of "let's go" that was spontaneous. That's when the pulses came up. I can predict when they happen, because this has been a regular thing from back when I was writing the banned pages in the notebook about dual seedline study. I was in that similar "I'm revealing deep secrets what are you going to do to stop me" experience and I had the pulses. It's something that's not a sign of anything spiritual but that it's a signal I believe that the kidney yang is moving through up to the lung meridian and moves the Shen on the way but it's coloured via the liver meridian, it seems. I don't know for sure but that's how I could decode the thematics of what the experience is like and translate to TCM. I've never heard TCM talk about the pineal gland in any text books. But considering the sensation is clearly coming from the root (which is kidney) and rises up to the head (which is lung typically though can also somewhat relate to the Shen via axis connections) and that will manifest as these pulsing sensations in different parts of your head. That's all it's implying, and all these idiots that come on and talk about chakras opening and trash have no idea. It's current moving. That's all it is, and has been known for a long time because these same somatic sensations and such relate. That's how I decode what someone would present with in coaching and pinpoint WHERE the sensation is in their meridians. I'm the ONLY coach in the WHOLE space who knows how to do that, again.

So this idea of spiritual illumination really seems stupid when you look at it clearly. The world is run by Jewish supremacists, obviously, and our history has been almost entirely based on their willful acts. Like what's the "goal" and how do you experience that? Well it's highly abstract again, because I've been into what are considered the higher states of consciousness with advanced gazing and I wake up often and see into what NG would call other worlds, and I have had contact with seeming non physical intelligences for years because of the work I've done to get there. Advanced gazing was fundamental for all of that which is why it's the basis for the immortality work for opening that up. The deeper function is that it's able to surface what needs to change, or it will just surface it so violently that you'll be forced to feel all the compromise and trash on the spot and you'll have to sit with it to discharge it and thus alter the filtering. The state CAN change that way, though I will say that relying on this as the basis for state shifting is very very limited. So the end goal of what's considered illumination, or enlightenment in the east, is just another false idea that you'll attain some higher degree of individuation. Since Jewish supremacist's run everything then wouldn't someone who's illuminated involve to end that? This is my point. It's like the idea of illumination serves the interests of the filth who want to destroy the world we live in. I've NEVER heard of an illuminated figure who wasn't still buying into these delusions sponsored by Jewish supremacists and so someone of high consciousness should be able to see that.

I consider myself to be one of if not the highest consciousness person I know currently considering all the insights I've had lately. The alchemist is no longer there, and I don't know anyone else I can point to who's aware of all these things and most importantly responds to life from that. The acts reveal where the Shen is, not what goes on internally that they think because how they react to life is revealing their state. The acts someone makes ARE their state in a sense.

Feels so "light" when your spleen meridian is activated well. That's what I've fixated on in the last few days especially and I've already seen effects of that in many ways. Spleen meridian was always where I had weakness, which is no surprise because it was a manifestation of the genetic issue and that then led to the kidney being weak in effect. It wasn't really kidney weakness directly but spleen that prevented adequate Jing from being produced. That also explains why I ended up basically sick and in hospital for many of my earlier years up until the cold patterns went away after the Jing activated in my teens and that surfaced the warmth to stop the constant plagues I'd live with. I was horribly sick in my youth all the time, and it sucked, because that's also where much of my parental conditioning stemmed from as well as an effect of how they treated me in those times. Trash again. Getting real reveals it all and then you see how your state is perpetuating those impacts you're conforming to and you can then change it. These things only surface when ripe. You cannot force them to surface. The biggest issue I have with the idea that you can bypass all this with imaginal acts is because it's just straight up propping up the power of the delusions and conditioning and expectations they're conforming to even harder because they're not mastering those things they're avoiding and circumnavigating them basically. Somatic body work as it's called also does this too, because it's under the assumption that feeling into "negative" feelings will surface insights, and at times it can, but that's a function of ripeness and that's a function of how far you go into living into higher states with how you respond to life differently. Any of this trash that any of these methods teach in a vacuum will ALWAYS have limited results VECAUSE it's still not working the WHOLE MECHANISM.

Why do I have to be the one to carry all this. Why did I have to have the filtering system to be able to see through delusions. Beats me, but it seems I'm responsible for it so responding accordingly is necessary else I compromise and cope.

I really do feel like I've gotten so deep into the mechanics of how we experience all of this now that I don't know where else to even refine. The more I cut out of the RS model the better at this point.

We can simply say that not accepting less makes it work. Acting on not accepting less than what you really want makes it work. All of the seeming magic of affirming, visualizing, scripting, whatever, is all because you're targeting that and lining up with the state where intuitive impulse will lead you there. Ripeness cycles unfold the state to represent that end goal as the vision. It's not magical stuff really it's just common sense mechanics of how vitality mechanics and all that apply. Feeling the wish fulfilled can be via ANY emotional sensation, ANY imaginal sensory perception, ANY current, so long as it's suggesting availability from the higher state which will be more of a spontaneous thing where you will actually be "compelled" along the "bridge" towards the end. The bridge towards the end is more or less the effect of how your now different state will lead you to filter reality and see different things in the same stimulus. The innately desired seeds within you, the thing that preceded your vision, will be what manifests. Those currents that comprise what BECAME the translation INTO the sensory representation. Whenever you see an SP you like, it's because they suggest availability of what your circuits desire. They're a supply for the experience you want, and that's why they suggest and stimulate the attractive response. Thing is that you aren't liking specific people for who they are, really, love isn't magical it's mechanical just like everything else. The magical fantasy of the perfect love story is bought into by people who never had love and wish they could be validated by someone who lines up with availability to move their Shen. The SP is someone who moves their Shen, fundamentally, that's what "love" is. You don't love someone for who they really are because there's always projections involved, So the innate capacities for experience to balance and individuate the psyche will come through them as a means of supply for what's needed. Thing is that when you're in demand and they're in supply and they feel you as a parasite that's needy and trash then you won't get it. You're not worth their space or time. You're a pathetic wimp to them who has no value or vitality to give and they cut you out fast. Someone who's functional will establish walls when they feel they're being sucked dry,

I have accepted that what I'm attracted to works this way because I've seen the mechanisms of WHY I feel that towards some and not others. It's suggestion of availability primarily of vitality but on top of that it's formatted in a specific way to meet up with where your expectations and compromise patterns are because people will often end up loving someone who can bring out of them their unresolved conflicts because they associate pleasure and love to the abuse, even though they won't accept that. It's because the signals they were given as examples of what being loved looks like was effectively building a warped expectation as to how they should respond to get approval. The girls I knew who were dysfunctional and would do trash to get my attention were actually bad for me, even though it was stimulating to me, but that's because they're basically handing to you the approval on a silver platter at that point. You're not genuinely in a mutual connection you're in a low state of cope and that's leading you into dysfunction where you'll take these examples that are put in front of you as stimulating examples that makes you "fall in love" with them. The way they act, suggests availability of what you want, and so you involve and you think that's love but it's not it's dysfunction and that's where most people are in the LOA space especially. When you're operating that way, it can feel highly stimulating because the Shen is moved in powerful ways but that's still not high function it's cope. You're ignoring being the supply in order to feel good, and when you come down from that high you'll end up with the experience of lack. You'll feel worse, you'll feel lack, because you were involved with someone who wasn't actually there for you but both of you or one were playing out your unresolved conflicts unconsciously. You saw this person as available to stimulate your supply/demand to see you the way nobody else did and so you lock into that person as the obsession because they gave you an experience you've not had anywhere else. You're hooked on a drug basically, which is funny and why most love songs talk about love like a drug and an addiction and all this trash. It's because those relationships are dysfunctional and not based on stable activated Shen overlapping. It's agitated Shen looking for conflict resolution through this person and how they make you feel, so that you can get the validation you never had, which I clearly can remember experiences of myself. You will get triggered when they don't give it to you, and that's because they're suggesting unavailability of what you never actually had, and so long as they keep throwing crumbs to you then you'll keep coping and convincing yourself that this person will always be there for you in a loving way.

I actually remember this was my experience with the first SP I REALLY wanted back in 2017. She'd be hot cold with me, and I'd literally spend hours at home in my mind going over and contemplating on if she actually liked me, because she'd then be cold and ignore me in other times when some times she'd be touchy and flirty and all that jazz. It was inconsistent supply, and so when you get some supply you get juiced up like mad, because it's like a high, you're like WOW I AM GETTING THIS GIRLS PERSONAL ATTENTION WOOWWW and then once that's over and it's no longer handed to you on a silver platter you'll crash and burn and question if they ever loved you to begin with.

That's what I remember experiencing and there's a single piece of music I remember I played a lot back then which I had TONS of feeling about and charge towards that I used to enter into all of that and understand it. I would very often sit in my room and cope and contemplate and all this when I could've just been real and made a decision to not play games and that's what I finally did near the end and she was HOTTTTT with me for a while at that point but I didn't want her. It's almost like they play games with you, but that's the state you're in. The state of being in this lowly creature and wanting them to give you the supply turns them away and towards others, because they no longer feel a reciprocation. They feel a dead weight that's not stimulating them the way they want, it doesn't suggest availability and so they'll distance. If you operate from high states and be in supply and make your intentions clear and not play games then you get a functional relationship. If there's projections of someone in fantasy reality with someone else and they involve then it will almost certainly end up in a bad state. The dance of giving and taking goes on and on until someone breaks. It's always that way. Because someone or both have expectations which cause issues in terms of what they're really after and what this person can actually provide with their current state. You really don't change anyone by demanding them to give you more if you're in a low state, the ONLY times I EVER changed SP's was when I expanded my state further. It doesn't need to be radical crazy stuff but a lot of the things around that can also come under this idea that you're not worth someone else's time or space and that lack prevents you from actually involving. You likely were never shown love to any meaningful level and your Shen was shut down to some level as a result. Someone who's in that state must provide themselves the acceptance that they didn't get it and won't get it from the sources they're expecting to give it to them, and so widen the availability and involve to a degree where they're able to experience availability of more connection but not attach because they get stimulated by it, instead they return to higher ideals and vision and continue to live there as a means of giving themselves the value and vitality that others will reciprocate who want someone who's living in a higher level. Your value and leverage in that way will bring to you many SP opportunities without trying and that will be big for someone who's lacking Shen activation because it was shut down and devalued, They will establish a sense of safety through detaching needing the supply from sources that are dysfunctional and accepting that the feeling they have for this person and how they stimulate the validation that they are loved and whatnot wasn't actually a functional response but instead was coming from the low state taking crumbs as the whole cake and expecting more.

That's a state issue. You can resolve that by seeing how you feel for real and connecting how you feel when it's not there and when it is there and examples of who's given that to you and the expectations you had for them and how they met up in your mind. With all those parts, which will naturally come through you when you observe the state and the reactions to life to see how that state is manifesting, then you'll be clear to make the decisions to distance from the dysfunctional state. The bridge in a sense is the continual refining and ripeness of these insights coming through you over time as you're expanding the availability. So that's how you detach from SP who are bad for you and involve with ones that are, because you'll know your own supply/demand and your expectations and how they're responding. You'll see red flags stick out more, and you won't justify it, you'll filter out trash. That's how you get the person who's good for you. This was never actually ever about manifesting specific people, which NG himself never taught (this man or no man) and that typically the people who want an SP are locked into these lower states and locking the availability of what they want to a certain person. They also manifest the same person over and over in other forms because they're effectively being stimulated through the same suggestions of availability by these red flags and they go through the whole phase of "loves me loves me not" and second guessing because that's what they think is normal and that they need to do something to get the love of the other person. They don't, they need to leave and become more functional themselves to attract an SP who's functional. Bypassing this is a huge issue and why 99% of people fail with SP manifesting. They need to see that this person cannot love them, and that they're trying to get love from an unavailable source. Instead of trying to change the person to make it available (which for men can often be done through vitality cultivation to some degree or another like seed retention is very clear with this because it amplifies wei qi and makes you literally glow and suggests availability of vitality that way) you become more vital yourself and illuminate in them through you living in a higher state examples of capacities they'd not otherwise see in you to make them look at themselves differently in comparison.

How do you make someone else look at themselves as the lowly creature and make them feel necessity to be critical of their state and how they respond to life? Simple. You become a supply that's so potent that they become a moth to the flame and can't resist but you'll hold firm in what you accept in and not accept dysfunction and that'll make them look at themselves in order to expand into a higher state themselves.

So that's how you actually change someone else's state. The fools who will think you can do this with imaginal acts can't prove or demonstrate this themselves and the cases I've seen where someone claims they changed someone wasn't actually through the means they think they did. They changed to meet expectations. That's why they got approval. When the SP wants you to meet their expectations that aren't lined up with yours then you've got massive issues. The only way to get them to pedestalize you so to say is get real and expand and have other options and threats that they will need to accept as real and so they'll HAVE to look at themselves to get what you have now. If you're not in a high state this won't work, or if they're HEAVILY conditioned and your expansion doesn't suggest higher vitality then it won't work either. This also isn't about having better looks, more cash, more value, status, or any of that in specific, it's more or less specifically how you accept and tolerate people who aren't functional for you. Those factors listed before DO MATTER, but that's not going to make a dysfunctional relationship better because the real value comes from being seen and valued and close and all the relatability stuff, as well as physical attraction of course which wei qi is a primary driver of which will be abundant when the Shen is activated and stable and that will be the case when surrounding the relationship you've got a stable supply of available resources and all that which drops tensions in those areas as the basis for security in relationships.

All of these things contribute towards success with SP manifesting. Remember the very basis of LOA as it's promoted today is SP manifesting above all else. SP manifesting is really the issue, because they're going to try to manifest a change in someone who's not actually good for them nor is who they really want because they only wanted that person because of the stimulation that the hot cold cycles provided, or whatever it was. Usually frequency and reliability of supply from the person is cut off, and that makes the person wanting to manifest a change in the SP to doubt themselves and or get delusional. They'll ignore the signals, and prop up fantasies and delusional projections about how the SP should be. That will absolutely destroy you. I remember doing this and it made my life absolute misery. The whole limerence thing isn't something bad or whatever but it's simply that this person is living in a lower sate where they want the world around them to change without them having to see things for what they are. The people who deny dual seedline and Jewish supremacy will likely be a compromised lovey dovey type, These people are the ones who will never see things clearly because they never got love. They never got supply. They never had access. So they will project what they never got onto everything and that becomes their cosmology. The whole spiritual space is in a sense only created to have a box that all the abused people who never got love can go to. That's God. That's all these solutions to psychological distress, Psychological distress and dysfunction stems from compromising on what's higher to stay safe in some way and continue the delusional projection of needing to be a certain way you never needed to be. Just like with the attractions to abusive SP situations and all that, when you get real you'll end up in the place where you will see them as dysfunctional and your attraction for them will die off. If you're still holding on then it's likely because the sensation you're feeling towards them that's needy is coming from someone else's expectation. The goal in that situation is to see the sensation of attraction as NOT YOURS and continue to see it that way and in that awareness reference function and higher ideals and grow out of needing this sensation to determine who you can and can't accept. If you've got an abusive ex who's still painful to think about even though you don't want them anymore, get real with the same sensation as the last example and see it as a signal of distortion stemming from hot cold cycles and how that sensation is the manifestation of an expectation that they'll abuse you again. because of the pattern you're feeling. Basically this one is actually that you feel pain towards them because you're feeling the expected result of the involvement with them. To break that cycle where your circuits no longer feel the pain from the past cycles of expected abuse, you provide yourself what you expect them to lock you into in supply as open and available and therefore the need to even involve with them falls away since the availability is open and you do that through state expansion generally speaking as spoken about. IF you're STILL feeling trash towards this person, then simply just accept that, provided it's not constantly surfacing. If you can pinpoint the specific suggestion of what that pain is representing and implying you're locked into and are expected to face again, then you can resolve it by going into what that implies you can't have. Safe healthy love. AKA, if you're still stuck with abusive ex patterns haunting you, then open the view to be wider and allow functional love to show up from a filtering system that's more coherent and doesn't ignore the red flags. You can consciously recognize those in the SP but if you're still bound to feeling this person as painful then your best bet is more or less to move on in a way that's functional instead of thinking you NEED to resolve that BEFORE you can move on. That can be a trap, and just because someone from the past has pain on them doesn't mean you're locked into needing that pain to go away. Remember the pain isn't BAD, it's simply revealing compromise you accepted, so seeing what that implies you have to accept that you no longer want to and growing into having that thing be available and stable in supply will resolve the core of that pain, even if slowly over time.

Well overall, there you've got it.

I basically have a what if how to manifesting guide there on a basic level.

All these people who write huge books on all this stuff, I don't get how they can't just simplify it down to this. Yeah there's expansion to be had but it's honestly the same thing I would explain to a client on coaching basically. It would be working the same functions and mechanisms, and working with how the currents are showing up in these ways. There's no magic psychological analysis that can resolve these things, outside of getting real. That's why real psychological analysis is getting real with what's in front of you and pulling back the delusional trash. When you can grasp these mechanics then you no longer see certain types of patterns as "worse" than others because it's al unified under supply/demand and expected outcomes from abusive cycles and breadcrumbs that lead to the delusions. The person in delusion will never blame the other person for being abusive, even though that's the solution. That's how you clear the filtering system.

NG never addressed this and in fact said that people who wanted to manifest back abusive EXs were stupid idiots. That's what he said. Yes it was talking about a dead ex but still, he didn't say someone who wanted to manifest back their dead family member was a stupid idiot. It was someone who wanted an abusive ex back, and if that's a plain and straight forward example of what he is really teaching along with "that man or no man" then we can clearly point to how he never spoke of changing people for your own interests. He always spoke of manifesting for others under the context of basically seeing them in a higher state. ALWAYS. Read it yourself and you'll see it every time. "Do it in love" and all that. Boomeranging was something he taught too, about if you imagine someone else in a low state then if they reject it you'll face the effects of that. I think that's stupid, looking at it from state perspectives. If someone who's in a high state imagines a bad outcome for someone, say someone who abused them and they didn't tolerate it and moved on, they had a (fleeting) scene of seeing that person fall off a cliff or something, that is seen by NG as bad. The imaginal scene should more or less be spontaneous for it to have actual manifesting power and move people. but I'll say again that this isn't the cause it's the effect of the automatic translation mechanism that generates how you think these things. You're not thinking it, it's thinking you, and that's why you have spontaneous scenes or flashes of thought or whatever. It's the effect of the state you're in. You also do not need to watch thoughts, if you're in what you believe is a high state but still have seeming fleeting thoughts of what you'd judge as "negative" then that's really fine. Just because you have those thoughts, like I have towards Jewish supremacists when I'm deep in that work, then it's ok. They can be a sign of not coping and casting judgements on some people who you feel that way towards. That doesn't mean they'll be impacted that way at all. This is just another thing that unless it's actually getting in the way, really doesn't matter.

Just stop patrolling your thoughts and simply observe if you're operating according to where you know you CAN be in capacity vs where you are now.

Isn't it interesting that seeming low state guy can seem to on the surface in some cases I've seen attract what would be considered high value girls. It's actually a thing, but obviously it's 2 compromised people leading each other on.

Want some proof that your intense imaginal acts don't manifest? Fears of things you have don't manifest those things as actual threats.

I want to mention this on top that I remember observing with many clients I talk to and what they tell me they do in the first week. So firstly the most common thing is throwing old trash out and cleaning their space. I actually noticed this in my own life too when I looked back at when I got into a higher state and what I just found myself doing. This isn't magic, this is simply a discontent with mess because it suggests lack. Because you're seeing higher capacities you're going to want to rearrange your environment as it clearly suggests to you who you're being. That's in essence what the whole vision board idea is about, but that the vision board to be effective needs to stimulate discontent and growth, otherwise you don't outgrow the low state. I noticed myself "catching" myself when I'd end up looking towards cope and being disgusted because I saw what it represented and suggested lacking states leading to cope. That's what you'll always see if you watch yourself in hindsight, you'll be "compelled" to act differently without conscious will. The conscious will is to change the state ahead of time to SET UP (which I've said so many times now it's insane) the following filter you view reality through. You're not viewing from the delusional trash. Manifesting isn't magically being moved, it's that you change the ideals you're targeting from lowly creature state into God killer, or whatever. It's something that you don't compromise for, even if it takes weeks months years or however long to fully unfold because there needs to be a lot of changes. If you imagine persistently an end experience, just as the IDEA or CONCEPT of it, and what it means to you is available that you're accepting you can have and grow into and out of lower ideals, then you're going to be targeting that contrast between where you are and where you want to be and that dissatisfaction will surface which will change the filtering system to view the same acts you use to partake in as dysfunctional and disgusting. You will see it all as trash.

So it's really that basic. It's not complicated. It's that most people get lost when it comes to "how" the magic works. WHAT to do they ask, they don't know what to do. This is clearly a sign that they've not experienced the state shift, because they're still deluded, or ripeness with current higher state is still unfolding. How would you know the difference between continuing to be deluded vs waiting for ripeness? Well you'd find yourself responding to life differently in SOME way leading towards function. You'll CHANGE is the point, even if it's not ALL the way you'll still be changing and leaving behind something you use to involve in that's dysfunctional. If you're still responding the same, then obviously your filtering isn't picking up on the signals that are corresponding to dissatisfaction because you're in cope lack trash states of accepting less. This is why when the SHEN is activated functionally via the kidney and liver meridians warming it you'll experience a sense of self that's beyond the current circumstances. So you can see now where the whole "persistence of the wish fulfilled" really is. You're operating from the thing being yours now because that's the view you see reality through, and that's BEYOND who you are now. The issue is that you're told to project yourself into some happy fulfilled state, when that's not the way it works. To bring about fulfilment you need to see the fact that your current state is FULLY dysfunctional and go ALL THE WAY with it and THEN you'll SEE CLEARLY the capacity to grow into and you'll be moved to live into that. That's the compulsion, it's growth. The compulsion to the bridge IS growth, the persistence of change, outgrowing the lacking low state and seeing all things in life that suggest trash as dead to you.

I give all this out for free. When someone gets here and they've gone through all the Jewish supremacy stuff that will kick most people off my notebook eventually wen they reach it. Funny story here. I was thinking about a client I am working with currently and they messaged me about receiving compliments from people as a common thing they're experiencing when they live from the higher state and show up in the ways that represents this to them and it was minutes after. Interesting timing. So the thing I find to be a common thread is that fleeting thoughts can target someone as a suggestion even if it's not ABOUT THEM but that it's associated to them in SOME way and that targeting can have overlap. It could've been coincidence but I doubt it in this one. I've had a few other instances of this happening with other people in my life so.

Shocking people. Shocking them exposes them to feelings beyond the delusions. Breaking the delusions requires a shock type experience to draw contrast between states. So if you're looking to change someone, shock them. Break expectations. That's why when you show up in ways that breaks expectations it pulls an Abdullah and makes NG look at himself, or whoever. That's how manifesting works, that's how you change states, that's HOW you "DO" it. Fools. They still ask HOW to do it but I know you can't manifest using imaginal senses to replicate the imaginal act because the act in itself is what should change the belief as NG himself said. I quoted above, "any change in state necessitates a change in belief". Right there is NG telling us clearly that unless the act changes how you view things then nothing changes, but if that's propping up delusions then you will just get more of the same. People think that it's cope trash that manifests, because they imagine and hear the other person telling them what they want, but that's not the point, it's that this should come THROUGH you and why I DO NOT advocate for conscious imaginal acts that aren't designed to move pressure towards expansion. That's what I did and I got overnight results multiple times. It works. It ONLY works because you look at yourself in the act basically and cross the threshold that needs to be crossed in the process. You should never imagine from a state of doing it to get the thing. I can point to about 3 examples in my whole life where that worked for me out of the hundreds of times I tried. There would've been other variables involved, though I cannot say consciously. There would've been a degree of dissatisfaction involved, to enough of a level that you "made the decision" in that imaginal act to represent crossing the threshold. It doesn't have to be some big high charge thing, though it can be and often the deeper you go there the better.

I just see compromise everywhere around me it's crazy. I see others in such deep compromise everywhere I go, especially involving the system of Jewish supremacy that everyone is sleepwalking into blindly. Leaving that behind is the real challenge, and is in my eyes the true signs of someone who's individuated, or at least far closer than not. The people who do that not for personal benefit are the ones who are at the highest states. They do it because it's correct, and they want to because it's just like when you clean your space out of trash, the same goes for the Jewish filth who want to eradicate all the Goy. Leaving behind who you use to be and growing into a higher state manifests the availability of what's innately targeted that's implied through those changes. Simple. Right? It's all right here for free. Come take it.

The struggle to expand is part of persistence. The pressure to compromise and stay small in the lowly creature. That state needs to be outgrown, and the struggle is another part of the bridge, If NG says that "it's done" the moment you cross the threshold via the act then everything from there is coming from the change in belief, and that necessitates the state changes as he defined clearly. So when "it's done" then you're going to be operating in the bridge, but does that mean it's FULLY integrated? Nope. You can be on the bridge as an integration phase too, cycles of ripening leading to greater insight of the higher state.

I look at myself honestly here and I ask why I do not meet powerful wealthy people who can be of service in negotiation in furthering the cause to prevent Jewish supremacy. This came when I looked at why I've still not met anyone who can actually take my work seriously and put into action on a collective level instead of just the average reader with next to no influence. I see myself as not someone who has that when I look at myself for real. It's unavailable, Why? Because I view it as risky for various reasons, and that the changes needed to be made would be putting me into the targeting line. Staying safe there I believe is the reaction, the thematic from the kidney meridian where zhi retreats and the Shen dips out. Three's no "pursue end" feeling. Being seen by certain types of people such as SP is very different from being seen by leaders in a field. That's something I find interesting because the implications for personal relations that aren't on this greater level of impact have less stakes. It's like you'd be committing to a direction of expansion, and that outgrowing is a challenging experience. I'd be in a position of extremely high stakes where every decision would need to matter. It challenges the certainty of decisions, and that leads to a withdrawal of involvement and therefore the state streak shuts down and you backslide into low states. Continuing to persist here matters to resolve it. Fixating on playing this role more and being in a place where there's real consequences for decisions and yet still making them anyway matters to mediate this pressure as it's not the people really but what they imply the involvement will be surfacing.

This applies to literally anything. Seeing yourself as worth the involvement with what's necessary to attain the necessary end state is really where it's at for state shifting. It's really just that because you don't feel comfortable in those positions you'll avoid them. The same thing happens in business, relationships, vitality, whatever else.

Here's another interesting one.

"Just happened again now - walked passed a guy working in our factory- I said good morning, he said something like you look strong and have different energy and age helps - I said I’m 54 he was in absolute disbelief- he replied a Arabic saying meaning what god has willed - keep doing what you are doing he ended the conversation with ."

This was a quote from a client who I had a message from before telling me it happened again. This isn't some massive signpost of huge changes but the world around him is responding differently from state changes. Wei qi makes a big difference. When the Shen is activated and stable because it's nourished from the rest then you'll get the glow from the flow in the higher state. Vitality mechanics, remember.

Taking on more responsibility as stakes matters. Holes that prevent the state from being owned will throw you back into compromise and avoid growing into the vision. The same thing applies for anything else.

It's insanely clear. You should have ding ding ding going off in your head reading all this. This is the type of stuff for the program I give here for free for the few dozen who read this still after all the Jewish supremacist stuff.

Whenever you feel anxious about an SP or something it's more or less because you're still in locked in limited view of availability. That's really all that is.

If you simply look at the feeling as a delusional expectation to conform to what seems to be limited availability and involve in a way that'll open up availability of what's desired then it'll be clear and work. An example would be fears that people will see you in a certain and and so you avoid. You are buying into a potential that's denying capacity for growth, and that's where you lock out availability of expansion and vitality supply since you're limiting how far you go for a possibility. possibilities are not facts that will happen for certain even if it's a 99% chance, technically. If it's an abusive family member or ex or whatever then leave that alone, do not even try. If it's a varied thing where there's no fixed personalities involved then it's open even if you don't feel it is.

2/5/26

Imagining something out of "needing" to experience it is cope. I've experienced this again myself and found myself in a cope pattern. What I was doing was imagining the thing to be the way I wanted without being involved in mediating that myself, and then when it wouldn't show up the way I'd want I'd get frustrated. So I saw in this that even if it's not conscious imaginal stuff, if you have the EXPERIENCE of this HOWEVER that happens, like you're going into some fantasy of some form about how you want the world to change and you don't involve in that change yourself then good luck. NG said he couldn't solve certain issues. It's not limiting beliefs that you "can't" manifest that. It's just cope trash if you do this and it should be a signal for expansion. What I noticed is that when I looked at WHY I'm not there in this frustrated feeling I had a flash of an image that could lead to involvement. If you ignore that flash which is like intuitive impulse stemming from the filtering changing what you're perceiving then you go through another cycle.

It's all associations. We will feel our state as how we react, not the emotions themselves but more or less how you're outgrowing who you were the moment you became aware of it. Seeing yourself as IN the light of having impact, and growing OUT OF the person who cannot live and breathe that is state shifting to the pure core.

If you imagine something you change who you are to match having that, meaning the implications of what needs to be left behind to accept this growth is the contextual basis for what this experience is changing about you. The sense of self changes, the concept can stay the same. Everything you imagine you desire to experience you grow into the person who has it. This will be interpreted by some fools in LOA to think that we're never enough, and yet NG clearly has stated over and over and over and over and over and over and over that it's all about expansion and individuation and outgrowing lower states in vertical levels, which he says are the 7 eyes of God and the divisions thereof. So in his cosmology it's near infinite growth, which is the "near infinite" states. They're not infinite possibilities or whatever but LEVELS OF EXPANSION AND BEING AS INNATE SELF. NO DUH! Dumb fools can't read. So being in the state of the wish fulfilled is growing out of the person who's not there. His language clearly indicates this if you read it correctly in context, as "fulfilled" is someone who's in supply/ hence they're "full-filled".

So imaginal acts are to outgrow who you were the moment you entered the experience. They're there to project your sense of self beyond where it is now and become a higher form, a higher state, a greater supply of all the things desired. You "target" GROWTH. You do NOT target imaginal sensory details because it's WHAT THEY IMPLY AS NG SAID. So right there. He may have solipsistic mentalism sprinkled in at some points but whatever. These lines are clear as day, along with others that clearly point to that not being what he taught, like the one where he said eating and drinking too much makes you sick even if you're born from above. Use imaginal acts as an awareness expansion tool, to target higher ideals and CHANGE STATE, CHANGE your sense of self, GROW OUT OF who you're being now that's not aligned to the higher ideals that the scene represents. When NG talks about the woman who imagined getting praises at work, it's because it was a sense of self booster, where she saw herself as beyond the lowly creature, just like when NG went to Barbados.

This very thread about imaginal ACTS having the power via implication of the state activated makes so much sense it's not even funny. Crossing more thresholds and explaining better every day. That's something I can market on videos. The act implies the growth, and persisting in the state of the wish fulfilled can do that. NG never taught to make decisions from lower states it seems, as in "don't lift a finger to make it happen". This might be another valid explanation for what he was saying, since the results always come from the state change. The state change works through the mechanics of vitality supply/demand thematically related and the qi might be the "delivery mechanism" by which "action at a distance" can play out with seeming thought transmission. It would be a convenient way of explaining it, and that Dollard said the dielectric field which is resonantly torsional can cause superluminal propagations of the aether manifesting as the "transmission" that makes someone else think of you or whatever. Suggestion that comes through you via ripeness when in the state triggers this natural effect as an overflow of currents that translate into the thought and this also explains how it can bypass language barriers.

If your actions consistently imply you're in a low state then you won't manifest miracles. Miracles happen via growth. If qi is the language of communication between people at distance then there's the answer as to how intuitive impulse can happen to others to show up randomly. Remember that you're not really transmitting as in a point source of aetheric perturbance, you're performing a phase conjugate process by living into a higher state. Vitality and qi quantity and QUALITY (coherency with innate nature) will generate more of these seeming coincidental manifestations like when you're in high state streaks and have back to back manifestations. Processes of higher order nature expanding will naturally align, that's how expansion works, the structure becomes ordered via divine proportionality as I use to talk about.

"But having become you, God is awakening and will give you desires and their fulfillments, far beyond the wildest dreams of those who are still limited to the organs of sense." - All things exist 1968 lecture

"Knowing you need a certain experience embodied, he casts its shadow, yet gives you a cushion, telling you that whatever you desire, if you will but believe you have received it, you will." - All that is divine 1969

Never heard anyone quote this one. God gives you a cushion. There's SO MANY quotes I can dig out if I just have enough search terms to do. I need an automatic way of searching and extracting these quotes and sorting them instead of doing it by hand, but then again I learn more this way unlike the ones who write their own programs to do everything. AI is useless because it would've skipped these, it's not context aware enough to sift through the details and understand implications of them like I do. No AI on earth can replace the work I do.

"I am calling upon everyone to put this into practice. Every desire contains its own satisfaction to be fed upon. It’s entirely up to you. You may feed your hunger by thinking of your desire, or feed its satisfaction by thinking from its fulfillment. It is God who gives you every desire, be it for things of this age or the age to come" - Feel deeply 1969

Yeah that's true every desire does contain the satisfying capacity. The truth is that thinking from the fulfilment of this will lead to involvement. This is naturally how most of us when we're not conditioned to be someone we're not will experience. The fleeting thoughts and day dreams that manifest come through us as an effect of already being in that higher state, hence we thought "from" it already.

"Go all out and walk on the water! Don’t be like Peter, whose understanding told him imagination didn’t make sense (symbolized as his feet), or you will drown in the sea of illusion. Imagination, speaking to his faith, said: “Peter, come,” and as Peter walked, he looked down to see how this was possible, and sank. My friend, who did not look down, walked on the water in the direction of his wish fulfilled . . and it was. All of the Bible stories will be fulfilled literally on different levels of your being. You will experience them all, because you are Jesus Christ. Blake tells us so beautifully: “Desires and perceptions of Man, untaught by anything but organs of sense must be limited to objects of sense; therefore, God becomes Man that Man may become God.”" - All things exist 1968 lecture

This interpretation is really stupid.

"If you really want to be what you call “secure”, . . say, in finances, dare to assume that you are secure, and live as though you were; sleep as though you were; and then it will happen in your world that will cause you to leave your present environment and move on into the state that you have assumed. If you wait for things to change before you dare to assume, you will wait forever. Circumstances cannot change of themselves. You change them by changing your concept of Self." - the pattern man unknown date

I think this right here is a very important quote. He says it all changes through concept of self. He says don't wait to assume it. Present to yourself growth of the state.

"So I tell you, you’re assumption this night need not be based upon fact. Must I wait to have confirmation that I have security before I assume that I am secure? Well, that’s no power, that’s none. When I am not secure, when I’m insecure, let me dare to assume that I am secure. When I am unwell, as you’re told in the Book of Joel, “Let the weak man say, ‘I am strong’” (3:10). If something is going wrong, let me dare to assume that things are as I desire them to be, then I can prove this power. But to wait for things to change in the world first, no, I don’t care what the world will tell you. Test it this night and test Christ in you. Jesus Christ in man is the hope of glory (Col. 1:27) and Jesus Christ in you is your own wonderful human Imagination." - Falsehood is prophetic 1965

Well this right here is a key indicator. I searched "wait for things to change" in his lectures archive and this came up as well. So he's saying everything correct really, if you interpret it through the lens provided by RS and not at face value. Face value doesn't work, because that's cope, that's not changing and outgrowing lacking states. Feeling like you have something without involving in it in any meaningful way will induce anxiety, as we all know.

"What is the technique? In my 21st year when I meditated I became identified with the bliss I contemplated as a sea of golden liquid light. Then I understood. Absorption! That was the secret. If I became completely identified with a state . . and named it . . to the degree that I became absorbed . . it worked. What became absorbed? Not the garment . . Esau. It was Jacob, which is all Imagining. Jacob had to be separated from Esau. “Two nations are in your womb, and two peoples, born of you, shall be divided; the one shall be stronger than the other; the elder shall serve the younger.”

I discovered that the thing divided from this which I washed and fed, was my Imagination. And then I found I could put my Imagination any place in space. I put it into my own nephew, and when my sister looked at her son, who was about to make his exit, she saw not his face, but mine. For I laid down Esau and became Jacob, and became Billie, and determined to be seen by my sister, and my sister saw, not her son lying on the bed, but her brother Neville. That night she wrote to me that she had seen my face and not Billie’s." - Esau and Jacob 1959

This is one that people will point to to prove you can control other people. The part where the sister saw NG instead of the son. When she saw his face, was this with waking consciousness or what? If it was a dream then there's no magic here. If it was supposedly a conscious waking experience of literally seeing someone else's face overlaid on the person then that would more or less require the sister to have perceptions to enable that to happen. Her Hun MUST overflow the Shen, else it cannot work because that's the mechanism by which this applies. I've tested this for YEARS. I don't know if I can agree with that. I'll search for other instances of him talking about this story.

"And then one night in vision, I fulfilled the 42nd Psalm. That night, in vision I found myself leading an enormous crowd in gay procession to the house of God as a voice rang out: “And God walks with them.” A woman at my side asked the voice: “If God walks with us, where is he?” and the voice replied: “At your side.” Turning to her left she looked into my face and, laughing hysterically said, “What, Neville is God?” and the voice replied, “Yes, in the act of waking.” Then the voice spoke in the depths of my soul, saying: “I laid myself down within you to sleep and as I slept I dreamed a dream. I dreamed…” and, knowing exactly what he was going to say, I became so excited I actually nailed myself upon this body in the same manner tradition tells us he was nailed upon the cross, but it was not a painful experience. Six vortices, each an ecstatic, joyful feeling, hold me here." - Eschatology - the doctrine of the end 1969 lecture

Yeah no duh it was just a vision. I can't really find any other instances of the story before with the sister. Only these types of visions or things like that. He's told this story at least 3 times that I can see, the one in the paragraph above so it must be a somewhat significant one. He's mentioned this story 10 times as I study deeper with about 3 other instances of him referencing the same "hysterical" look on people's faces in visions when they see you as God. I mean that's just a subjective inner experience his Hun produced for his Shen to sink into. That's not really divine insight. Just because it's about you being God you could say the same for the Jewish supremacists who believe the same things. Are they expanded? Nope.

"I was in New York City when I heard that my seventeen-year-old nephew, my sister’s oldest child, was in a terminal state of cancer. I knew how she felt and wondered what I could do to comfort her . . to show her that the boy she so loved was not flesh and blood, but spirit. So while in New York City, I went to my bedroom, closed the door, and lay down on my bed. Knowing that my sister lived in the old family house in Barbados, I assumed I was on the bed where I knew Billy to be. I assumed my sister entered that room but could not see her son, only her brother, Neville. I lost myself in that assumption until my sister, Daphne, entered the room. Looking startled, she came forward, stared at me, then turned and left the room. When I was satisfied that I had seen her, and she had seen me and not her son, I broke the experience and returned to our living room to be with my wife and a friend who had come for cocktails." - Brazen impudence 1968

Here's NG telling us about what he personally did. He imagined it and then left it.

"I assumed my sister entered that room but could not see her son, only her brother, Neville. I lost myself in that assumption until my sister, Daphne, entered the room. Looking startled, she came forward, stared at me, then turned and left the room. When I was satisfied that I had seen her, and she had seen me and not her son, I broke the experience and returned to our living room to be with my wife and a friend who had come for cocktails."

This part of the above quote directly relates to the example with the sister and the son. This was him saying what he did with the act, so it was an inner experience on his part.

"Ten days later I received a letter from my sister, in which she said: “Nev, I just can’t understand it.” Giving the day and the hour which coincided with mine in New York City she said: “I went into Billy’s room and I was startled to see you there. I knew you were in New York City, yet I could not see Billy on the bed, only you. I must confess I was a bit afraid, so I left the room and when I returned I could see Billy again. She could see Billy because by then I had departed. If I am all imagination, I must be where I am in imagination. When I gave the scene sensory vividness, with all the tones of reality, I was seen by my sister two thousand miles away. No, I didn’t save Billy. He died, but my presence did convince my sister that her son was not flesh and blood. If her brother, in New York City, could appear to her in Barbados, she knew there was something that inhabits a body which cannot go to eternal death.

I tell you: there is an immortal you that cannot die. That night I gave my sister the conviction of a reality in her son that would survive when the doctor said he was gone. Gone where? Restored to a terrestrial world like this as a young lad, to continue a journey that was set up for him in the beginning" - same lecture

So this is the expansion. This was the story referenced earlier in another instance so there's another detailed example here. I had to search for "my sister" to get this one among 76 other matches so it took a bit of digging. He said that he gave her the conviction that her son survived as she saw NG as her son, in a sense. To me this story isn't very convincing of what he's saying as these things technically are able to be explained in other ways, and considering this was family to him it wouldn't surprise me that it was something that happened through both of them, since I've experienced and talked about this before in my own examples. You'll find that often people who do a lot of gazing will end up seeing things like this spontaneously. I wonder if his sister was doing any of this type of work?

"My sister-in-law . . I have two . . and this sister-in-law of mine always said to me, “You know, I like you personally. I really do, Neville. I like you because you are very kind to my sister . . a good husband and a good father. But I don’t believe one word that you teach, you know, for I am a Christian in the orthodox sense of the word.”" - the divine body unknown date

This is not his biological sister this is someone else called "Al". The real sister is Daphne. So the sister in law isn't involved in any of this but his biological sister might have been into it.

"I sat in my hotel room in Barbados and got comfortable, and then I assumed that I was in a little boat . . a little tender, taking me off to the waiting ship in the bay. I could feel the rock of the little boat. In that boat I placed my family . . a few members of my family: my brother Victor, my sister Daphne, and one or two others, and naturally my wife and my little girl. Then I felt the ship come alongside the main ship that would take us back to New York. And, then, in my imagination I assumed that my brother Victor took my little girl and stepped on the gangplank and walked up with her and I aided my wife next, and then my sister Daphne, and then I got on, and we went up. When I got to the top of the gangplank . . all in my imagination, giving it all the sensory vividness, giving it all the tones of reality . . I have no committed stateroom, so I could not go down to the stateroom. I simply turned at the top of the gangplank, walked three or four steps, and then put my hands on the rail, so I could smell the rawness of the sea, I could feel the salt driven by the wind. I could feel it on the rail, and then I looked towards the island with nostalgia. I was leaving a perfectly lovely island with so many members of my family, and yet it was a divided feeling. I was happy to be leaving because I had to get back to New York on my way to Milwaukee, and then, at the same time, I was split in my emotion because there was a sadness . . like a sweet sadness leaving them and still happy to go. And that’s the mood that I caught. I caught that feeling. I can’t tell you if you haven’t had the experience of going any place being divided between wanting to go and yet reluctantly so, because you are leaving something precious behind you. Well, that was my mood. I caught the mood. And then I kept on looking at the island, and then I broke it and here I am, sitting in my chair in the room in the hotel in Barbados!." - Catch the mood

So here's some bonus stuff. He said the mood was actually the emotion of sadness, sweet sadness as he puts it. That's his secret it seems. To me it's like he's making this up as he goes. Feeling is the secret he says, so apparently according to him the sweet sadness is what manifested his trip back to NY.

"The next morning the phone rang. As I answered, it was the Alcoa Steamship Company calling: “Mr. Goddard, we’ve Just received a cable from New York canceling a passage sailing on the next ship, which could put you in New York on the first day of May. Would you like it for you, your wife and your daughter? It’s a smaller stateroom, really, there are only two bunks, but your little girl is only three years old, and so she could sleep either with you or with Mrs. Goddard, but there are two bunks, and there is a private bath. Everything is perfect but you know; the ship is small. It will only carry sixty passengers.”

I said, “I’ll be right down.” So, I went down, and I thought I would find out some more details. I asked the agent, “Why the cancellation?” “Well,” she said, “I could only speculate. They didn’t tell us: they cabled us. There was a cancellation for the return trip.” I said, “All right, it’s canceled. Why didn’t you give it to any of the others waiting?” There were hundreds and hundreds waiting. “Well,” she said, “we have one lady here . . an American lady who has been bothering us week after week to get her out of Barbados back to New York, so we called her first, and she said, ‘It’s not convenient for me to go now.’ So, then we called you because you have three to go, and I thought you could use the room for the three of you. And we will not notify any of the other hundreds waiting.”

So, I asked no further questions. I took it and got back in time for my place in New York and then my place in Milwaukee." - same lecture

Right so here he's saying that the secret was simply to feel sweet sadness. Well apparently if you imagine anything with feeling like this and have strong emotions then those things will replicate but I've not experienced that and neither have you. We've all experienced imaginal acts of being so happy to see your SP telling you what you want and all that and yet poof nothing.

I also just got another message from my regular client telling me another interesting coincidence happened where after attending the same gym for 2 years he's never had this happen where who he claims the best trained fittest guy there came over and offered personal guidance on how to improve results. That's still not huge sums of money which is the plan for this guy but it's definitely on the way there, as his state is bringing out new responses from people in ways he has affinity with. Interesting stuff right. Real stories delivered in realtime.

So NG telling us that moods and feelings are secrets then how would he suggest you handle an experience you desire that's got massive anxiety tied to it like hearing someone congratulate you for being married for 10 years? I mean that's an "end" scenario? Right? Yeah well many people do this and get nowhere. It's a big joke. He tells us that ANY change in state necessitates a change in belief, and so that also lines up with the change in concept of self as he said just before that I quoted. This means something about how you associate meaning to these experiences inwardly changes you and that changes the world. He says here the mood makes it work, but where's the transformation? Is it him leaving behind his family in Barbados? I doubt that. It's the only link there is to point to, because what is he outgrowing? Critics will think this doesn't work based on this story here, and yet when we test imaginal acts as presented by this story they don't work reliably at all and this would have a sub 1% success rate for sure. Probably under .1%. This is an experience he had more or less because something he was moving into surrounding this was likely setting this up and the meaning of the sweet sadness was growing into something greater as an undertone. That's my guess. We know that imagining bad things doesn't make them happen, because many people imagine scenes that can be vivid of fears and feel fear but never experience that thing happening. Fears of all kinds don't replicate as the exact experience and that feeling, though the feeling will persist because that's the association. Fear of certain things is in cases useful. Fear of walking into a pride of hungry lions is useful. Apparently if an explorer imagines this, which I'm sure many of them would, they'd experience that. Absolute trash. He didn't loop the scene above too either, at least he didn't say he did.

Later on he goes on about the breathing technique as it's called which I've discussed. Overlapping states of fire and water, conscious and unconscious. The alchemy is obvious with that, but again unless the pressure is felt and transformed then you get nowhere.

Well I'll be gone for a few days so no updates here.

Before I leave here, I've got an idea that might be crazy but it's one I've not thought of before. Since Abdullah was likely in league with the Jewish supremacists since he was preaching their doctrine and had to have gotten it from somewhere then it wouldn't surprise me if the experiences of what NG manifested were "set up" for him ahead of time, such as the military discharge and even the Barbados trip possibly. I just don't think I fully buy all the genuine experiences and stories that are told in his work based on what I KNOW works. The issue is that we've still got this insane idea that manifesting is something separate from every other mechanic that exists and can overpower them all like some divine power. If that was the case the Jewish supremacists would use it all the time, yet they lost in the past. You're basically then admitting that Jewish supremacists moved billions of people to conform to a fake pandemic scenario back in 2020, and pretty much all other media propaganda manipulation was their doing too because they assumed the state? It's pretty crazy to think.

3/5/26

I woke up this morning seeing a vivid crystallization of a scroll with runes glowing on it for about 15 seconds. It was glowing golden colour and the base was a dark blue with flared and rounded tips that were silver. Before that I saw more geometry. Don't know what it represents but it was a pretty vivid experience. These are what you'd call "mystical experiences" but I call them overflow of the Hun. Liver blood isn't anchoring my Hun enough, probably because I'm doing too much work here and not getting enough sun again that's why I'm out this time. My girlfriend is affectionate to levels not seen in weeks last night too. Interesting that when I change states it impacts other people. She's looking absolute fire to me lately too, so as I said when I make decisions to value vitality so does she it seems. Happened many times before. It's not your assumptions that's so dumb, it's functional vitality mechanics that drives how they involve with you and how close they get. If you have no supply you have nothing. Thinking you need to be stable all the time is also dumb, the fury leads to wider view and that leads to a change in involvement which changes your integrated vitality supply which brings out and makes available the higher capacities represented as the desires innately within. Living a functional life is manifesting. Period. The things that I imagined come true when I do this. Nothing else. It's because they were already there and imagining them was just making conscious what's available, or not depending on the state. Live into the state and that comes through you and the people necessary via vitality supply/demand and how they want to involve with you.

Nobody can repeatedly manifest specific things in a low state. That's so dumb. Changing states is living in higher capacity and actually changing. Changing makes it work, because it's the same thing as living in the end, living as supply, being the highest state you can be.

"God is forever bringing himself forth by molding himself upon that part of eternity called the human family. It’s a very painful process to reproduce the Divine Imagination in the human imagination, but there is no better way to do it than in this manner." - Revealed truth 1969 lecture

"So, here we find “my glory” is equal to I. “My glory passes by,” and “When I pass by…” What is He doing? He is bringing His sons to Himself. He has chosen His sons . . unnumbered sons, and, yet, there is a number to it, but it seems like an infinite number." - Predestined glory lecture unknown date

So here's the one where I thought he said that it was states which had "like an infinite number" and so I was wrong it was the sons. I made error. Oh well it's whatever. Doesn't really change much. This is the quote I kept mentioning about "like infinite" as states but it was about sons, or individual consciousness's of God as us in his cosmology. This idea also disproves infinite realities which is a bonus I guess. The numbered sons means there's not infinite worlds or timelines or dimensions where everything exists. It's all here and now.

"A man’s state of consciousness is his demand on the Infinite Store House of God, and, like the law of commerce, a demand creates a supply.

To change the supply, you change the demand – your state of consciousness." - Seedtime and harvest book 1956

Wow look at that. Supply/demand. States determine supply demand. There it is folks. He's literally telling us to become the supply of what we want. So instead of being in demand of the thing desired you match it as it since you're in supply and you now have it. That's being in the state and all that. You already know that though, but NG himself said it so nobody can say I was off base with this idea.

5/5/26

"Another thing you may observe in meditation is a lovely liquid blue light. The nearest thing on earth to which I can compare it is burning alcohol. You know when you put alcohol on the plum pudding at Christmas time and set it a flame, the lovely liquid blue flame that envelopes the pudding until you blow it out. That flame is the nearest thing to the blue light which comes on the forehead of a man in meditation.

Do not be distressed. You will know it when you see it. It is like two shades of blue, a darker and a lighter blue in constant motion, just like burning alcohol, which is unlike the constant flame of a gas jet. This flame is alive, just as spirit would be alive.

Another thing that may come to you as it did to me. You will see spots before your eyes. They are not liver spots as some people will tell you who know nothing about it. These are little things that float in space like a mesh, little circles all tied together. They start with a single cell and come in groups in different geometrical patterns, like worms, like trailers, and they float all over your face. When you close your eyes you still see them, proving that they are not from without, they are from within.

When you begin to expand in consciousness all these things come. They may be your blood stream objectified by some strange trick of man that man does not quite understand. I am not denying that it is your blood stream made visible, but do not be distressed by thinking it is liver spots or some other silly thing that people will tell you.

If these various phenomena come to you, do not think you are doing something wrong. It is the normal, natural expansion that comes to all men who take themselves in tow and try to develop the garden of Gethsemane." - five lessons 1948 book

Been completing this NG study guide with all the answers in it. This quote showed up. He's talking about spots in his vision like circles in a web structure. I know what he's talking about, I've seen all of this stuff with my eyes open and even closed. I get vivid imaginal visions almost every day especially when waking up, and the mechanism why I've explained and how it's really not related to spiritual expansion at all. TCM predicts this happens in someone who's Shen is activated and the Hun is not anchored in the blood. I was testing this by riding out a lucid dream while awake with open eyes the other night while I was out and I was able to project a lucid dream into my vision with my eyes open and it formed to the geometry of the world around me, like it was "projected" ONTO what I was seeing as a screen which had depth and dimension to it. This has happened before, but it took me a good 3-4 times to cycle in and out of what could be considered SATS with advanced gazing to make it work. You do not need some kind of magical spiritual experience for this to happen. You will experience when you ride the edge of dream and waking lucidity and you're about to drift into the dream and the Shen gets put away that there will be a "jolt" happen when you're suddenly brought back to awareness and with this you will find that your senses around you are heightened further. Sounds in the environment will sound closer, more visceral, just like when you're in a dream and hear them around you while sleeping. Your vision is the same, you will see things project into your open eye waking consciousness just as though it was real into the world around you like an overlay with actual depth. It can be bright and glow and you can feel that jolt of current rise in you when it happens, similar to a quickening which happens when you do advanced gazing sessions for extended times.

What does all this point to? It points to the mechanism that I and I alone have figured out through the years of experimenting. Via TCM we can explain HOW dreams that happen with the eyes open and how we can predict events in future while in dreams can occur too via predicted pathway cascades. All that's happening is thematic translation. These are not spiritual visions or whatever, and I say that as someone who has had these very regularly for over a year now especially. Ever since I was writing about dual seedline doctrine back in early 2025 I've had this way more vividly and often. The reason why is because of the above mechanism. I find that the more intense my life gets with my expansion process the more these things manifest through me. It's not something magical or spiritually expanded, they're just overflow of what currents are surfacing and translating into that symbolic experience. Dreams combine the world around you and what's happening within you into the nature of the experience, which also explains why I'd have pains in my dreams in my dream body per say and I would dream about dying and then wake up dying. It's because the Hun is floating and unanchored in the blood. Even NG admitted these visions are within you, which they are, but they're not magical. In a sense, these are malfunctions of the circuits where aspects of you are overlapping other aspects. This is the alchemy that's taught in the immortality program which is designed to, in their model, attain higher order states. I know now how that works and what it all means, unlike the alchemist who taught me much of this and conditioned my expectations and cosmology into what it meant. His methods work, but not in the ways he thinks. It's in many cases pathogenic influence. This is why most people who regularly get these vivid experiences are sick in some way, because their Hun is unanchored and is drifting and the Shen is feeling that overflow manifesting as these vivid lucid experiences. Gazing is a way of drying the blood of the liver meridian to activate and move current through that circuit, which is why the advanced gazing connects directly to that meridian and why it's so powerful at making these things show up for you.

Now IF something is necessary to be made conscious that's beneficial to process then the advanced gazing can and will make that conscious. You will feel it fully, and think all the thoughts and have the flashes of memory or whatever come into your mind and in response you will see the projections of those things representative of the vision you'll see manifest in front of you. I'm the only one who's figured that out, again, because I'm the only one testing these things. No surprise.

"When you assume the feeling of your wish fulfilled it is with a minimum of effort. You must control the direction of the movements of your attention. But you must do it with the least effort. If there is effort in the control, and you are compelling it in a certain way you are not going to get the results. You will get the opposite results, whatever they might be." - Five lessons 1948 book

This is the only book worth studying really. There's most of his doctrine in this one. He talked about the cause of opposite results is compelling the act. Well you see Mr Goddard if you're extremely anxious the moment you attempt to enter into the experience then you will end up with opposite results because it's revealing the state. According to this, if you've got an agitated Shen at baseline then you will always get opposite results. Yeah good luck. What I know to be true is that you do not need to be fully relaxed, because I've manifested overnight big things without relaxing at all. I was "compelling" it but it was a releasing of attachment to someone I'm not. It's once more, quotes like these, that really reveal just how particular his method he taught specifically really was. Having to write about his method directly it's clear that most people who think they're doing this really aren't, because a vast majority of people are agitated at baseline. I've found that more relaxation CAN result in those outcomes manifesting but if you're not doing ANYTHING else to aid in releasing that agitation by expanding your state and sense of self then you're just shooting yourself in the foot. Thinking that the ONLY way to manifest is to be relaxed and imagine a vivid scene implying what you want to be true, then you're basically saying that without these things operating exactly as NG says then you will get compromised results. This isn't true. It cannot be true. If you view this from the perspective of "cushion the blows of life" then yeah, I can somewhat agree, but thinking this is the WHOLE thing then no way.

I remember asking myself "what would it feel like if I had my wish come true?" and almost 100% of the time I would feel anxiety in my body. I wouldn't be able to make it stop. The only time it didn't come up was when I was basically living a functional life surrounding it. By getting real and making necessary changes that had obvious solutions I actually was able to go into these imaginal acts easier without anxiety.

"The world and all within it are states of consciousness objectified. Your world is defined by your conception of yourself, plus your conceptions of others, which are not their conceptions of themselves." - Freedom for all 1942 book

This is where NG tells us that other people don't have their own conception of self. This is solipsism, unless of course he was separating your conception of them as an isolated variable and not implying that you're projecting what they believe about themselves and that they don't have their own concept of self.

I've got this idea of "growth space" if that's a good term to use. This idea is that there's a feeling you return to when solutions must be had. I believe this will only be an issue for most people since it will just add needless ritual to a natural process but I'll play with it myself and see what I can experience with this.

6/5/26

"When I was twenty-one, it returned on a different key. One night I was contemplating Samadhi and as I was reading this book on the life of Buddha (The Light of Asia). I fell into an involuntary trance. When I awoke the sun was up and I had not moved for ten hours, but during that interval I became infinite liquid light. I was not then divided; there was nothing but light. I was the One Reality and I was Infinite Light. That was the second experience.

Then came others of a secondary state of this division. I was projected with a certain intensity out of my body. I became aware for the first time of this division and that I was more than just this being of flesh and blood. I was out, and this Reality was in the room looking at this body on the bed. Then I desired to get back into the body, integrating as a unit, and do it consciously. I did it, and then with a deliberate conscious intention I intensified this power and I felt myself moving out again. I desired to come down into the room, and I made a sort of loop. A cloud formation was over the head but everything was in detail. I could see through the breaks in the cloud the face that I see every day in the mirror . . my face. I tried to go through the wall and I could not, and then I made a great leap at the wall and knocked myself back into the body again." - Esau and Jacob 1959 lecture

Here is another instance of NG with his so called astral projection experience. Isn't that interesting though that when he tried to leave his body and move outside the room he couldn't make it and when he tried to go through the wall he woke up in his body. This is the kind of stuff that happens because of the projection mechanism I've talked about where the senses of the Po translate into dream imagery via the Hun that the Shen swims in and experiences dreams like they're real through.

It's become clear to me that in the teachings of NG he speaks of persistent fixation upon the idea to manifest. The idea of letting it go just doesn't apply, because he's spoken many times about observing reactions to life and this necessitates an active application of persistent assumption. If you're doing this internally in a vacuum and not lifting a finger then it's almost certainty proof that you're not living in the end, because if you're living as though you expect the entire world to literally move for you on a whim then good luck with that. I speak to clients who tell me that simple things make a massive difference in how people treat them, in how they present to the world and within themselves. There will be just as many people who tell you they don't notice a change in themselves but the world notices. That's the RESULT often times of this work, and yet people can still treat you differently between these state transitions.

The only real way to explain the phenomena of action at a distance is through thematic suggestion and supply/demand. Someone is in supply of a certain composition (or in lack of that mind you) and that suggests to someone availability of what's either lacking or in abundance and that will cause reactions. Therefore, the reaction stems from already innately available points of supply that's measured relative to what's being suggested. This is in fact how ALL attraction works, without exception. Someone will want to be with you if you give them what they want, and no other time. This is vitality mechanics at play. What someone believes is worn on his being, and we translate that into a sense of availability. If by seeing the other as loved and you feel that within you then you're a supply for them in that way through your own change, which is in a sense leading availability of what's desired by being the supply and examples for suggestion. That's how I changed people. It was done through this means.

Action at a distance comes through us because of who we are, meaning the composition of currents that are abundant or in lack.

Where most people fail and where NG failed as well is to explain the experience of leaving behind the old trash. I've literally gone through hundreds of NG quotes, probably thousands now over the last few days. What I found is that he never gave any clear tools to leave behind the old trash. He did in fact talk about how the past holds us back, but his method was fixation on what we want. This simply doesn't work for most people because most of their lives suggest old state and they react that way by default out of habit and whatnot. NG speaks of old habits and breaking them, twice, but it's not made obvious. What I found in his work is that he repeats the importance of fixation of the attention on the end experience and placing yourself there and not focusing on anything in front of you as though it was meaningful. The issue with this is that he's assuming that you're going to be able to minimize the influence and impacts of the suggestions which resonate old low states.

He's assuming that fixation of your attention in persistence of the wish fulfilled is going to crowd out all other lower states and attachments to that lower state. This simply isn't the case, not with most people, as we know. We are suggested what we don't want 24/7. How you respond determines the state, the default story. You can apply revision as he speaks of it which is useful in cases but applying it correctly is the real issue. People will assume that you're continuously suppose to only imagine the one experience that implies fulfilment of what you want, as though this by default will change your behaviors and habits and stories on all the associated levels but this simply isn't true. If I took very specific quotes throughout the entire body of the work of NG I probably could put together a coherent doctrine, and that's what I'm doing, but it's relying on quotes that are basically one offs in his whole body of quotes and that's just bad teaching. NG never really explores leaving behind the old man in any way other than to not focus on it, but that's also assuming we know what he's talking about. When he talks about not having negative emotions it's not that these are bad (though maybe he does mean that but I doubt it) but that these are "buy-ins" to lower states. If you're accepting the lower ideal as all there is and you get immersed into the story and there's no higher striving within that context of growth out of that then you're going to manifest trash, but if you're operating within that spectrum of burning out the trash by growing into what you want when it shows up then yeah it can work.

So the instances where he talks about fixation on the higher aim and the wish fulfilled and persisting in this no matter what your eyes tell you, it's more or less that functionally you're not going to buy back into old stories and such. It's not that you must feel the same feeling on repeat, because nobody does that and that's next to impossible because we're not robots, but what does work is that you're fixating on the experience of growing out of and away from the trash state. This is what I concluded his whole doctrine was pointing to with all the language used. It does point to this, growth away from lower states, and that's how you take attention away from them instead of doing this whole cold turkey idea of never having doubts again or whatever. It's just insanely stupid and for anyone who wants to accomplish anything meaningful and wants to learn and ask questions and discover reality as it is seems to be unable to experience what NG is speaking of. I know for certainty that observing the thoughts I have on a day to day basis, my involvement leads my thoughts above all else. What you're involved in will suggest the thoughts you hold, though I can recall instances as a child that even when I was in experiences that weren't really positive so to say, I'd still hold this fixation on something I wanted to experience after this had passed. It wasn't long term whatever but it was a desire to be away from what I have and in what I do want. This to some extent seems to be how desire is presented by NG and how the experience of it is assumed.

The experience of desire for most people here in LOA is to be delusional and operate completely incorrectly as someone you're not. The projections keep someone away from actual growth, as though fixation on the desire is all that matters when it's not. If you read NG at face value that's what you'll get. He speaks to constantly fixate the attention on the higher state, which is rarely ever framed under the context of growing out of it and leaving behind all the different parts that are meaningful to you as the bounds holding you in that low state. The higher state, fixating on the object of desire, this will only lead to cope in the lower state if growth is not assumed in response to that. The desired wish fulfilled should imply growth out of lower states, but this is then interpreted by most in LOA to not be what he's talking about. It's said that any focusing on lower states is bad, but that's not the case, it's the buying into the lower state and what it binds you to accept is what you don't focus on. You cannot turn your attention completely from the lower state, it will surface and suggest lack to you, but the continual view of growing out of that lower state into a higher one is what will transition it reliably. The people who don't get any success with NG LOA or whatever aren't growing out of the lower state, they're not changing their default actions and reactions and thus the same suggestions surface to suggest they're lacking and they'll unconsciously buy into those suggestions. When you leave behind the sensory stimulus that suggests to you the trash then you'll either be coping and ignoring it and it'll surface again in future when those impressions are suggested to you again or you'll be in under that context growing out of lower states which are the basis for why you'd even buy into the suggestion at all.

So WHY you'd even buy into the lower state and suggestion surfacing that's all there is to you, that's because you're focused on that's all there is. When you widen the view to encompass what you want then you're in the end, or at least more than not. You're overlapping states. It was never about all or none, because that's impossible. Nobody on earth including NG could do that. So instead of trying to complete mission impossible we should apply it clearly in the direction that's practical by integrating what we want by leaving behind who we are now and growing out of the lower state in any and all ways and with any and all feelings and thoughts that lead us into that. That's FAR more natural than trying to do it the way NG speaks of. According to NG, unless someone has a vivid experience of accepting that they're more than they are now in the lower state then it won't work, but the principle of accepting you CAN be more NOW IS the function of outgrowing and that ALWAYS comes from dissatisfaction. Desire. So my formula still holds true. See things as they are, the state you're currently living from, and if that's aligned to the higher ideal, and to feel the dissatisfaction from that and to begin leaving behind any and all things that tie you into the low state via suggestion and other habits and patterns of behavior which is dysfunctional and coping with the lack instead of transcending it.

Remember the NG method isn't different or some magical way of changing belief, but that if you apply what he says correctly it's going to lead you into and away from the state who's accepting and buying into the lower ideals. The whole function is again, to feel dissatisfied with what you have, to no longer accept that to be all there is, and to grow out of it. We're seemingly told that unless it's in the end then you won't get that result, and you'll only ever get limited outcomes, and yet the way I explained it is effectively how everyone experiences transformation naturally anyway. There is no cold turkey on the old state because you will have the world suggest the trash to you all the time anyway. This is the issue. You're basically shooting yourself in the foot all the time by buying into what NG says that you must persist in the feeling of the wish fulfilled as a form of relaxation or whatever because what happens is that this simply breeds passivity and actually a silent acceptance of the lower state. You're thinking that you can have it while not changing yourself, though the change is always implied via your "compulsion" along the bridge. That cannot be separate from a common sense means, at least not in a vast majority of cases. The few instances where someone did manifest seeming magical miracles and whatnot is more so vitality mechanics at work.

So we get to the root core cause of change. That is change itself. You have a higher ideal in mind that you cannot accept, and you begin to accept it, more and more and more, and that will inevitably spill over into the acts you partake of in life and how your vitality supply/demand thematic current mechanics work. It's not that imagining the end scene will do that for you, because if it's not really leading you out of leaving behind who you're not into what you really have capacity to grow into then it won't lead to any significant change. It can't.

Opposite results comes from compelling the act with effort. Well what does that mean? Is he saying that you get into a sort of "flow" with it and that's the naturalness because you immerse yourself in it enough that it becomes what you just kind of "carry" with you in the act as a momentum. To me it sounds like he's telling us with his SATS method to build a degree of momentum and swing ourselves into the naturalness instead of just "landing" there in an instant. This seems to be his method if you look at it fully and you also take the breathing method and the lullaby method as other examples of a SATS type technique. It seems that you're trying to "lead" the naturalness by "swinging" yourself and each repetition is like hitting the swing at the right time to gain momentum instead of pushing on the person on the swing when they're coming back to you at full force. You need to time it correctly according to the momentum of your naturalness and where it's leading you. This effectively is the breathing method, and mechanically this is actually vitality mechanics of how the meridians move qi. His method requires your Shen to be stable and if you're agitated at baseline then this momentum will be hard to "feel". The Hun and the Zhi and the Shen must all work together while the Po is quiet and the Yi is directing the swings without much effort, meaning to lean into the rhythm and momentum of the experience until it swings on its own in a sense. You want to make the momentum carry you through it, and that to me and in my experience is the only way to make practical sense of it in the way he describes.

So the advanced mechanics of manifesting using a SATS type method to imply a change has happened comes down to generating gentle momentum into a direction that's fixated on the experience of what you want.

The only issue is when unconscious trash shows up in contrast, as in you get anxious no matter how relaxed you are. This is the barrier that many people face, because the moment the idea of what they want shows up they cannot accept it. NG never explained how to resolve this, and it seemed like he was unable to even recognize it as a variable, as though he had never experienced it himself. He spoke about anxiety and all this before but it was under the perspective of persistence more so and that it was under the context of watching reactions to life. NG said that our only free will is to observe and react differently. Yeah I agree, but that's the same thing as just a common sense idea of actually deciding to change. It's not magical. When he says you wake up with the results of what you slept with, it's that your baseline vitality supply is going to carry over.

I've checked this multiple times lately and yes your wei qi does improve your appearance and what you suggest to people. If you don't have this then you're going to suggest a lower state is available for them to interact with,

If we want proof that feeling positive emotions doesn't manifest positive things then look no further than addictions. Everybody who's addicted wants to feel good, mostly to avoid the responsibility of outgrowing conditioning. This then gets to my core view here. When someone isn't living in the higher states, it's because they're accepting that they can't be it, because of X reason, else they'd land there. It's a barrier because there's an expectation against that. NG never spoke about this in detail obviously, but it's a very real factor that shows up in real cases. This is actually why you can feel intense and still manifest specific things because the basis underlying a successful result is still always growing out of and away from the trash that binds you to lower states. It's actually that the effective psychological shift is that you no longer hold to the expectation that's suggesting what you want isn't available. So ANY success WILL have this shift, because that's always what precedes a "limiting belief" as it's called. You cannot and will not manifest by ignoring this, THOUGH the IMPLICATION of an imaginal act that's performed to the contrast of what the condition wants you to accept can and will break that condition down as an effect. This is why the implication has the power. Taking that at face value on a sensory level doesn't work, because it'll just bring out and suggest your conditional access to what you're wanting to experience here and that's why I felt extreme anxiety every time I tried to imagine positive things.

People police their minds as though every single thought that's not aligned to some higher ideal is bad or something. It's not like that, you're suggested to 24/7 all the time by whatever you're observing, and cutting out needless suggestions doesn't dull out those responses when they finally do surface, it just numbs the sensation until it inevitably shows up again. You don't need to police thoughts, you simply need to continually fixate on growth and radically acting on that conviction in any and all ways there is available to do so because you would WANT to. Again, the NG cultists will say that this isn't fulfilment, and yet I say if you're trying to stimulate a sensation of fulfilment then really you're just staying the same and conditioning how you're going to respond. It's not common for someone to manifest by sitting around and imagining what they want every now and then. We have dynamic lives, our emotional states come and go to reveal things about us and they open up greater perceptions of reality. What you'll find is the people who live in this relaxation mode more often than not actually live somewhat more functional lives at baseline. If you're in poverty, you're horribly stricken with disease, you're still a lone virgin, you have no status among people or no real skills, you're going to have next to no drive to act on what you innately would've played out if you'd not been abused into this low state. When we get real with our abusive past that led to where we are today, then we get what we want. I've had too many clients of mine AVOID looking at their past abuse and paint over it and ignore any attempts to surface how they really feel because they're SO conditioned into this view and that they think I'm wrong. I'm the wrong one. Right. All you need to do is ignore the real source of why you're like you are, because when you see that clearly you'll actually instantly shift into a higher state because you'll recognize that YOU DON'T HAVE TO be the way you are anymore. The proverbial jig is up, and you no longer WANT to compromise, you don't WANT to play out the same habits and behaviors and cope with fulfilment feelings. I see ALL of this feeling the fulfilment of the wish as a continual reference to growth away from what binds you from what you really want and to accept that what you want IS available here and now.

This isn't technically as what NG is describing if you take it at face value, and yet that'll be the impact it'll have on you anyway if you do it right. Doing the NG method in most cases, unless it's contextually associated to opening up what's desired to be experienced without conditional acceptance, then you don't get transformation because you're not leaving behind who you are in the low state. Leaving behind that old man so to say is by actually distancing from the influences that bound you there in the first place, which is seeing things as they are and why you feel the way you do and most of the time you'll track down a moment or series of moments where you were conditioned into seeing yourself as less and so your desires were unacceptable for someone of your value and concept of self. Changing the sense of self requires that awareness, and even if you don't look at those things directly, those currents in a thematic nature WILL be moved in some way no matter what. I mean the amount of lucid type experiences that someone has while they're in SATS type states for things they want are wild.

Maybe I should test this ONCE MORE from the conventional LOA NG methodology from my new lens and see how this all plays out and see what changes if anything. I know what does work and I know how to get there, and I've explained it so many times, often to my own cost.

This whole having faith that you're already the person you want to be necessitates that all of the binding forces from the lower state will be moved on from. Outgrowing lower states is accepting you DON'T NEED to be that way anymore. As I've said on the videos from the past videos it's that the insight is "Oh so I don't NEED to be this way anymore" and you'll find yourself acting with different views on the same things. It has EVERYTHING to do with THAT insight. NG is ASSUMING that your immersed experience of what you want will lead to this insight, and that the naturalness of the swinging motion momentum based SATS experience is what will get you there. That's the thing, it CAN get you there, provided that you accept you CAN be that person which is going to more often than not require leading the pathways in such a way that it brings up a dissatisfaction with the current state through the view of WHAT'S been binding you and targeting that brings the growth out of you to land in that higher state. You're not accepting less, not accepting the lower state as things are and have been. That attitude that Abdullah had is similar. It's a non tolerant attitude. The easy going sort of la la land experience of just ignoring those conflicts as though they don't exist is stupid. Now if you can do the NG LOA SATS stuff without having contrast come up then yeah have fun, you'll to some extent or another likely benefit since you're going to be anchoring into that direction of experience further but that's not really guaranteeing you're GOING to outgrow a lower state. What it will do is that if there's obvious and clear decisions you'll run up against then it'll make you complacent in their face.

Welcome to the modern world where everyone is accepting duress from Jewish supremacists to comply. Nobody imagined themselves into this, and saying that they aren't impacted by it is stupid because everybody no matter where you are in this system is dehumanized. By nature, if you cope in this world, you're contributing to that problem by accepting it. That's the same attitude that keeps lower states in play. You want to break down the system? Loving it won't help. NG and his whole love is the highest power is utter trash, because the Shen being activated is what love is, but love carried towards higher order IS the highest power there is because it's what drives humanity to persist no matter the trash we face.

Having written the highest level analysis on NG I can say with certainty that NG did not teach the facts at the core, it's still a cope doctrine rooted in Jewish mystical Kabbalah but at the same time there's nuggets of truth which can be pulled out and refined further. Taking NG at face value will lead you into more suffering, which is why the LOA industry exists, because it's all predatory by design. It's cope trash.

The vitality mechanics manifests what you want.

NG by saying what makes it work is the belief that you already have it is implied by most to be a natural detachment towards it, like you'd have for anything else. Yet who can experience this the way it's taught? Nobody. It's insane. If it's truly about a detached relaxation then those who are the most relaxed would live the most abundant lives but that's not true either. I'm not necessarily someone who's massively abundant but I have what I need and a bit extra on top, and I don't live in a constant state of relaxation. When I did live that way I wasn't having sums of cash showing up out of nowhere all the time or whatever. I did have some interesting things show up, but it was still in many cases signs and limited results. So isolate the variables, relaxation isn't the key. The mood of continual growth where the Shen is activated yet stable and RETURNS to a relaxed detached state in response to living in a growth based state is what will happen. There were SO many times where in my past especially at my parents place where I'd put on the most relaxing music I could and go off into these super deep states and I'd exist there for sometimes 2-3 hours at a time and then immediately they'd come home and I'd be in fight or flight mode the moment that entered my awareness. I tried back in those days to persist in this satisfied relaxed state and yet everything just made me suffer, being forced to experience no way out of the trash. Now the moment I stopped accepting that state, meaning I stopped accepting that this was all I could have and I began seeing myself worth way more than this perpetual lacking trash and coping, I got intense, and I made radical actions to change and guess what? I manifested cash like I never had, I got the most loving loyal girl I wanted where I trust her completely, I have my own space and I have the ability to relax and not feel fight or flight from people entering my space. That wasn't done through the persistence of the wish fulfilled, because this is impossible if you're in that place. You WILL NOT get ANY meaningful shifts because you're in cope. You're denying how you really feel and the issue that I have with NG is that he never gives someone tools to work with whos in that place, at least at face value.

The idea that it's always going to be a sense of satisfaction and relaxation and happiness and abundance and that these emotions are what you'd experience if you'd be the person you want to be now, that's just not the case. They'll say that if you leave behind who you are now and accept the higher state by immersing yourself into the swinging type SATS thing then you can actually experience that, but in my experience wasn't the case. Every time I tried to "blank slate" myself into I AM or whatever I'd get anxiety. I know why, and I've spoken to people who feel the same way. They try to do this and feel a sense of deep anxiety. It wastes time and everything. It's a joke. The real reason why is because the meridians aren't functional and that's surfacing this lacking pressure like sufficient flow in the pipe to spin a turbine. If that's not available then you won't get anywhere. There's no way around it, because my fastest manifestations showed up with high intensity outgrowing of lack and not accepting lower states. It didn't come from feeling more love and happiness and abundance. I feel those when they're suggested, not because I want to. I don't feel anything because I want to, I feel what I know I need to feel that's suggested to me based on how I feel when I'm real with myself relative to where I want to be. If I feel lack then that's what'll drive the pressure to grow and expand my state. According to this idea of applying effort and compelling and willing your way there, this produces opposite results, but that's not been my experience. I have experienced this a few times before, but that's under the context of someone who's applying that from within the framework of the limitations and not actually outgrowing. They're just coping the same way as in the happy go lucky stuff, except it's an intensity. I've done that, I've been there, I can say that's a thing, but what NG and the rest won't tell you is that this stems from an acceptance on a mostly unconscious level that you're still not able to have what you want. You're still operating within the borders of the lower state, instead of completely killing it off by seeing everything that represents this lower state as old trash o be discarded and to grow into a satisfying fulfilling life beyond any cope trash.

So clearly, if we want to manifest abundance consistently, then we must be willing to see ourselves clearly and observe our state and with that view we will have the natural insights that will lead us into manifesting what we want since that's our focused aim. You DO focus the aim in this way, because you're continually outgrowing, except it's practical and not some artificial thing where you're trying to place yourself ahead of your problems and completely shut them out, because a reaction that buys into the lack will send you right back to low states. Feeling hatred is a feeling that can expand your state, make no mistake. ALL emotional feelings can expand your state when applied in the direction of outgrowing lack, because THAT'S THE POINT. The emotion isn't making anything happen, though technically your currents that thematically associate to that will activate and whatnot but that's not really an important matter because they'll fire and then relax anyway. What will matter is are you fixated on growth or not? If you're fixated on growth then you're in the wish fulfilled. That's functionally what's going on, no mater what emotions it is, if the aim is fixated on the higher state and you're being moved accordingly then you're doing it. Then naturally, as you unfold what's already there, as in the desired aim you want to achieve, you will manifest the necessary parts that go along with that to make it a reality for you, because you're moved via thematic supply/demand and that will drive your decisions based on your now clear filtering system to know where to involve and where not to, as well as suggesting to others who will involve with you vs not.

Remember, NG did teach that you can have desire that's false too. You can have desire born of conditioning and he actually mentioned this, which puts a whole spanner in the works, but if he was a good teacher he'd make that clear to everyone instead of marketing the same SATS method every lecture or book.

NG is ALWAYS assuming that the mechanism of action is that once you've experienced it, enough, you will become that person who you act as in your imagination more or less. Yes, I can actually agree, in principle, but doing that is FAR easier said than done and the whole growth out of lack and the then avoiding of conflicts and feelings that surface to suggest unavailability is next to impossible in many cases.

I just read a story on the NG sub about manifesting beauty from lullaby method. I can assure you that most of the results they had were explained via wei qi mechanics of the kidney and heart meridian activating. Safety and satisfaction activate those meridians thematically, provided fuel is available there. If I say this is what happened to them I'll end up in a bad place in the LOA space. It really sucks, like actually sucks. Explaining it will make it WAY too complicated for most people, and yet explaining outgrowing of lower states is met with "what do I do"? DAMN IT! Why are they all so stupid?

Assume the feeling of the wish fulfilled. This. This is what his entire work hinges on, the EXPERIENCE of that, Literally just that is all he's teaching. The feeling of the wish fulfilled. That you are to return to this 24/7. I can agree this is possible, growth, through wei qi, and via thematic supply/demand translation mechanics where you're in a nourished high vitality state these seeming miracles can work. The NG cosmology to explain this is utterly insane though, but I believe there's something to that, the relaxation SURROUNDING making functional decisions. Perhaps I need to talk about this point to cause people to doubt the LOA systems of how it's explained and provide actual mechanics that can be interfaced with and experienced directly. I strongly believe that the kidney-heart axis is what makes most of this work, when the wei qi is nourished and you're able to then "transmit" thought via thematic current as a translation over distance. The qi as dielectric fields that are superluminal at even tiny tiny voltages can impact someone and let them play into your process. They integrate within you that way, in a sense, because you're a supply of wei qi that's like the "divine glow" that manifests people and attracts them to you like moths to a light. It really is like that, and most of the looksmaxx guys don't even know this is what they're doing if they do get results. It's MOSTLY the wei qi and kidney-heart axis at play when it comes to actually influencing someone SURROUNDING the physical structure. The thing that makes you literally glow is the wei qi and I am almost certain that this plays a part, not just up close because I CAN PROVE that someone is more "beautiful" with wei qi that's strong and I can bet big bucks that it also works via this similar mechanism at distance as well.

This is why you don't manifest the Jewish supremacists to stop because they're not enamored by your glow, but that someone who treats themselves like trash might start wanting to glow up in your presence because they feel you as an example of what they COULD be especially if they see you transition from low vitality to high vitality. This is how it works and I've experienced this so many times now. You manifest changes in people if you're vital and the vision you hold innately will translate automatically into current that moves people via the "glow" you OFFER them in supply. So simply put, you'll be a source of beauty to them, beauty in the context of "I want to help this person because being around them is nourishing", just like these loser simps who orbit hot girls. It's the same thing, they're looking for the vitality, but I'll say a better example would be someone who's simply operating and nourished and they have that "beautiful" look to them, the smile, the eyes, the mouth, the stride, the look is just "beauty". The SHEN needs to be activated for this to happen. The feelings and such that NG talks about CAN do that, PROVIDED adequate supply is available. This is almost certainly what I experienced when I was back in my early days of gazing and doing these things in a sense unconsciously. People flocked to me then. When you're vital then you'll be approved of, even if not by everybody, the right people will show up. That's the whole thing, the innate nature can be made manifest through you because you're in supply of all the currents that this CAN represent in CAPACITY as accepted here and now. The imaginal act therefore, is more or less going to activate the Shen if it's from the "wish fulfilled" feeling.

If you lack the underlying currents to facilitate that, then good luck getting the glow, This is also why guys who do seed retention can manifest more easily, because they're on that spectrum of having highly charged kidney qi and the kidney heart axis activates when they target these higher states and they just naturally attract circumstances accordingly. This is vitality mechanics, nothing else, because being functional necessitates that your Shen is activated and the surrounding meridians can support that. This explains literally all of it. Manifesting objects is the same, your filtering is clear and not warped from delusional conditioning that you can't have or be the person you want. The natural detachment stems from this higher state too.

Man it's crazy that it's all there when you frame it like this. The best way to disprove LOA as a "God only acts" cosmology is through vitality mechanics which we all experience and can prove and even measure to most of the variables involved in that. It's just that people in LOA who are ignorant of this will assume by default that it's God playing all the roles because that's the NG cosmology suggested as the default explanation when it never was. One of the most important things to grasp is the function of the thematic translation of vital currents into psychological phenomena and how the kidney heart axis works to manifest the glow that moves you into receiving mode where people will WANT to give you things. This whole idea that it's all assumptions is dumb, stupid, ridiculous, and massively ignorant and ignores the massive data out there about how whole populations of people were killed off or starved or even worse because of a few Jewish supremacist's. WHOLE POPULATIONS. They cannot explain this, other than that it's "part of the play" which is just pre-destiny then which NG said was how we died. Our death was predestined. I don't buy that at all now it's because these people who do this to us are Jewish supremacists and have followed the script-ure for millennia and I'm the ONLY one in the entire spiritual sphere to figure that out and connect the mechanics of vitality supply/demand to manifesting and how dreams work and all this stuff.

You heard it here first. Took years, but it got done. All that time I spent fixated on solutions, not ever feeling "the wish fulfilled" in a relaxing satisfying way. I'm personal testimony that you don't need to feel satisfaction until it manifests because that's not my experience at all. How do ANY discoveries in science or whatever get made without feeling doubt, because I feel doubt very often when I study these things but I KNOW that this doubt is powerful because it's what my filtering is clearly seeing through. The doubt is NECESSARY for insights to show up, because that's the critical look at what you thought you knew to expand further. Unless you feel doubt towards what you believe you will NEVER learn more. That is the ONLY reason why I change my views on anything to gain further understanding. I come across data that contradicts something I know, I don't block out the feeling of doubt, no I embrace it and accept that I have more to understand and what comes out of that is ALWAYS a greater understanding. ALWAYS WITHOUT EXCEPTION!

Nothing about manifestation works this way, where you only ever feel a monotone life of constant satisfaction. That's insanely stupid. NG by saying your mind must have no doubt is stupid and insane and doesn't explain all phenomena of manifestation. It cannot and will not work that way. If not for doubt we would not expand, though at least NG said it was necessary to always feel dissatisfied. That one quote in his whole body of work, plus the few other instances of speaking about the necessity of dissatisfaction, that doesn't overshadow the bulk of the doctrine. The feeling of the wish fulfilled is ANY feeling that moves you out of ACCEPTING LOWER STATES and GROWING INTO higher states, not that you need to already be there.

If you're already there then the Shen and kidney axis can come online, because that's the experience of what that provides. The feeling of outgrowing lower lacks will activate the liver meridian as well, because vision and authority comes through that. The "I CAN be greater than this" is a manifestation of kidney liver and heart, mostly water nourishing the ether then activating the heart of fire. The water doesn't directly overlap the fire though, it's the ether as the container to mediate that overlap, like in theurgy work. Theurgy work seems to activate the kidney liver meridian in a powerful way, especially the Hun.

So in my eyes, the only real functional use of persisting in the wish fulfilled as it's conventionally taught is that you'll be activating the Shen with loving type thoughts and this can attract people, though obviously doing it in a vacuum while being heavily compromised is a complete cope and you'll never be vital and have the basis to attract people to give you things you're desiring. I've had this happen, it's real, but you MUST be aligned to that higher state and live into that with ALL the functional parts of it.

I read Edward art cope trash on the LOA sub and it's all just trash the guy doesn't even know how to explain the experience of being in the wish fulfilled. He'll say it's the feeling of "what would it be like if you had what you want", which yeah I can agree with that, yet at the same time for some people this can be a total cope and even NG said that some desires we have stem from conditioned states. That's why I say getting real is always #1 method. You'd not believe the amount of people who hear that and run the other way though, because they're in delusional cope and know that if they look at themselves they'll need to leave behind what's currently conditioning them and that's not stimulating so they get addicted to the LOA cope trash that keeps their Shen excessively needlessly activated. This leads to qi stagnation long term and you get stuck in this cycle of needing success stories to stimulate your Shen and then you crash and need more. It's an addiction and the reason why it doesn't work is because they're not looking at what's necessary and in front of them to change. All this SP manifesting and trash is so cope. You CAN change other people and get them to come back, but I will say again that JUST because you're vital for a day doesn't mean they'll stick around once they've played with you and used you as a battery. Just because you're vital doesn't mean you're able to filter who's good and who's not, because that's the Hun that does that not the Shen and that's only done through consciously valuing your vitality and walling off vampires. You will invite everyone in but you'll get leeched dry and wonder why nobody commits. That's also because you can get desperate for approval too but in most cases that's stemming from a lack of consistent stability of the Shen where someone who gets seen by someone has their Shen blast open with "I'm being seen" and then crashes and they then internally experience the person not wanting them even if the person is seeing them from the stable view of the Shen. The needy behaviors then come out and manifestation screws up.

So ultimately, you're in the space of cope when you imagine someone changing and they don't and you don't get real with yourself and change your response and actually begin to change how you associate to them. If you're a valuable supply of vitality and you put up walls from vampires then they'll either have to begin respecting your vitality more or they leave. That's what happens. This isn't assumptions controlling people, it's vitality supply, and that's why relationships work this way with a push pull type dynamic often times.

The more I read NG the more clear it becomes to me that he had no idea how to explain the phenomena and was a useful idiot for the Jewish supremacists who needed a player in the game to push these ideas. Now the addictive LOA cope manifesting space exists and is lucrative for all these people who make bank off feeding into it. It's insanely stupid. If I come into the LOA space and offer vitality mechanics as the answer to what NG missed I'll be seen as not understanding NG, but in fact I'm the only one who DOES understand NG and the roots of his doctrine and the role he played and his history as a performer for the audience and WHY he spoke the way he did in most lectures without giving clear instruction. The whole thing was a big joke, and the fact that he drank himself to death and his cult followers justified it by saying they dreamt of him dying as Judas is literally cult behavior. That's insane. Putting the leader on that pedestal when he was obviously very sick and his wife was very sick too. Both of them were sick. His only reason he manifested any success is because he had the charisma and the stage to speak on things without being challenged. He might not have personally done any of this for his own benefit as a primary goal, but it was used that way no matter how you view it.

The mystical Kabbalah interpretation is now out in the open without anyone recognizing that clearly. Almost nobody in LOA knows how to interpret Kabbalah like I do and they think it's all spiritual states and all this which is just another false doctrine to hide from the fact that the roots of this system was stemming from Jewish supremacy which is what we all see and has had our history shaped through, including what's happening right now in front of us all. NG was entirely ignoring of this and never grasped any of that. So just because he said that scripture wasn't the secular history in a vacuum doesn't mean he was right, which is what allures so many people, and I thought there was something to this too but I asked enough questions and saw enough holes to do deeper study and find that it never had a foundation in truth to begin with. If I didn't have the personal experiences of having open eye lucid dream experiences like I do and visions like I've had consistently and predicting things from my visions ahead of time I'd never have really figured out these mechanics, because it would just be something you read about. All of the mystical stuff is so abstract that almost all of it is about this non physical experience that a majority of people never interface with in a meaningful way and when someone does they often take substances to do it instead of cultivating that awareness like I have over years. That's why nobody can tell me they know better because I've seen it all and been through the full range of that stuff from top to bottom. I can assure you that it's not what you think it is, and the only reason why people believe it is because it's convenient to point to an abstract cosmology to explain these phenomena when in reality they can be explained using the mechanics far more reliably I've spent years decoding. You cannot fake the insights that come from extensive deduction. It just doesn't work like that, and so I offer this to anyone who wants to listen and learn, for the ones who are willing to challenge the status quo and follow what can be experienced and proven and pointed to clearly as causal.

Nothing in metaphysics is causal and demonstrable, it's all these abstract cosmologies that have been established to wow dumb people into thinking they're onto some secret teaching that will lead them to higher spiritual experience. What IS higher spiritual experience anyway? Well my insights into vitality mechanics revealed this to me, since it's rooted in direct experience on ALL levels, including the seeming non physical too.

I think that the explanation for why people with high kidney qi still don't manifest is because their Shen is and even Hun are depleted and needs activating. The SATS stuff CAN do that, but it depends if it specifically targets where the currents are. The issue is more so that in some people who SEEM to have high vitality, they can have an isolated meridian be imbalanced and that's going to lead their manifestations to be unsatisfying. Someone who's very depleted on vitality but has awareness and all that, or at least what they THINK is awareness, will be unable to manifest anyone to WANT to spend time giving them attention. The entire basis for this is ALL thematic supply/demand and how that's going to lead SPECIFIC people to be interested in what you suggest is available, and that's what determines also WHO gets activated and mediated to you. They're almost unconsciously being moved like a moth to a light in order to attain that supply, provided they're not heavily stuck in cope trash.

Here's also another thing. People imagine the figures we see in influencer land doing ALL KINDS OF whacked stuff that they'd never do, and yet that never manifests. So if imaginal acts of someone doing something that the person imaging would like, which for the influencers on IG who have millions of simp followers, they'd have TONS of that happening ALL the time. Millions of people with eyes on one person, of COURSE they'd have people imagining them doing whatever and in theory that should be an influence on the influencer but it's not. I'm not saying there's ZERO influence, because there probably would be from some, but it just goes to show that action at a distance as is implied by LOA isn't a thing because we'd see them getting in and out of relationships ALL The time but we don't. The simps stay thirsty and don't get anywhere unless they expand their vitality. That's how I manifested people, the same way. The common psychological explanations still apply too, on top, but those are simply observations of underlying vitality mechanics.

So you can be of high vitality with kidney qi, your hormones can be strong, but your Shen still overcompensating for parental conditioning and that leads you to lack genuine confidence and charisma and you'll wonder why the Chad type gets no girls even though on paper he should. That's why SOME swear by mindset, and others for hormonal work and physical training. It's what THEY NEED to become THEMSELVES, AKA to be BALANCED in their CAPACITY for higher states, to OUTGROW a lower state of function into a higher one through these vitality mechanics. The NG LOA explanation lacks all of this nuance we see in the real world, and none of them will ever be able to explain Jewish supremacy. Never, They don't want to because it's "not in my reality" or whatever trash is used to make up a dumb reason to avoid being responsible for stating what actually does work.

So the biggest holes in LOA are pretty obvious, about how God moves all things. NG makes some wild claims but can't back it up. His system works for about 4% ish of people. 3-5% or so, really it's probably less but that's me being generous. We don't KNOW the exact number but that's what I'd say is the case. The issue we have is that people aren't getting real, they're not looking at things that are challenging, and so they stay stuck. It doesn't work that way, you HAVE TO challenge your view to expand, and this in itself is another hole in LOA.

Different parts of RS apply differently for different people. Gazing helps everyone except those with excessively activated Hun because it will cause more issues. This also explains why some people who do advanced gazing get strange physical symptoms.

How do you explain specific objects showing up on the ground you pick up? Targeting. Comes through you with clear filters, someone who had that dropped it off knowingly or not and your supply was the most available target for them to do that. This could happen for any object. I ended up getting free food from someone for months back in 2022 actually and it was because of who I was being. I wouldn't say I was massively vital but they changed substantially for that time, and they got involved in different things when I involved in a thematically associated target. I don't want to give details about that but simply put I ended up getting a bunch of free stuff during that time, and I remember what I was like too, I was more shameless about things I wanted in a sort of "this is me" acceptance type way. That worked, and they became comfortable with the same idea too which they'd only have avoided before. I had glimpses of it before then but it stabilized when I owned it, and was a leading example. Feeling emotions of sadness doesn't manifest more sadness. Feeling emotions of fear doesn't manifest more fear. Feeling emotions of anger doesn't manifest more anger. The same applies for love. Feeling loved doesn't bring more love. It CAN IF that's what's necessary to activate those currents and move what's necessary. This is why action can make things work when you're stuck. It's just insane to think it's all about imagining and then doing nothing, because that's not what most people experience who DO manifest things. They'll say it works in ways we don't know but that's why it's so stupid because it's just a suggestion of some magical cosmology of God moving everybody as one being and that we shouldn't know how or why because it's beyond us. Yeah right. I say that's cultish behavior, where you can't criticize certain ideas or people. Anyone who goes after NG is attacked as being in a low state, and that other people are just reflections of you, it's just more cope, because then the Jewish supremacists are also in everyone's mind too. See how stupid it is. Does that mean that the people who died in all the events throughout history believe they'd face such events? No. So if it's not true on all levels then it cannot be true period. You're delusional and trying to uphold delusions by thinking so, unless you can provide a clear explanation other than "it's God" or whatever then yeah no chance.

The deeper you go into the data the more clear it becomes, but unless you've done the study over the years to find all this documentation then there's no way you'll ever figure out the how and why and you'll always be prone to believing in ideas that are very convenient to believe as explanations for seemingly unexplainable things, Just like simulation theory used to explain cataclysmic events, which CAN make sense if you stretch it, but it's still got holes and the people who push that obviously stretch certain facts to fit the narrative and I think a lot of people can see that but they don't know any alternative to accept it anyway. If I have holes in my work or I have to stretch I'll feel it and do what I can to fill that hole, and if I can't then I will come back to it later and do that like I've done with other parts of this work.

You'll notice in almost every case that NG always used the example of love and similar type themes to be what is targeted in his methods. You imagine things that make you feel a thrill or that you're grateful or that you're loved or that you're whatever on that spectrum. That is because it works with the heart, the Shen is activated, and the wei qi if abundant in capacity through the kidney qi and the lung qi can then trigger the surfacing of those currents and in theory perform action at a distance for the target via LMD waves. That's been my best theory since 2021. Still think so. Processes within processes still applies too, since that's HOW LMD waves propagate, a resonant interface to "become one" with like a pole connected to 2 ends that push on each other instantly at a certain frequency which activates the currents which translates into the sensory perceptions and changes in filtering for that to stick out. Both parties effectively become one, so in a way NG is right, but it's not that this is always happening to all people all the time by all cases. That's not the way it works, there CAN be direct connection to ONE person, and often the people you're in contact with the most, especially physically, then that connection can be established more reliably.

How does RS explain the ladder experiment? Easy it's the same thing. Thematic translation is always perfect. So if you target climbing a ladder just as NG explains it, and there's no need for high vitality for this, then yeah, you'll be mediated to see that stick out to you and or get involved, It's like seeing certain cars that are rare or whatever, or like me finding things I didn't know I had when I saw it the night before online which I'd not seen in ages. That one spooked me a bit to be honest because it was literally something I had ZERO conscious intent for at all, and yet it still showed up, either by chance or not. So you don't NEED to have conscious effort, and in fact the whole least effort thing can make sense on that level. I was fully comfortable with the outcome, but very few people fully are with the bigger things in life, because it's going to surface their lack of supply in different ways. That's why the ladder experiment or whatever, provided the story from NG is correct, was a reliable test of it. Suggestions that are accepted without stimulus that leads to an expansion simply output what those contain. The supply is already available, and so the direction of movement is clear. People can come to you, though finding specific objects and such involved in that must mean that the subject of your involvement targeted them as a point of closest resonance given what they're available to mediate through your experience, hence the ladder and such. So does this mean that anything can work this way? Well in theory yes. The phenomena of manifestation isn't that reality is generated out of thin air by the mind of God to confirm beliefs, because the underlying structure of that is very very limited in this world, which is why fiction remains fiction and why Jewish supremacists still run the world. You don't control everything, you simply have all the receptors to interface with pretty much everything, because that's what being human is.

NG says the act of placing awareness on something brings to it more of what that experience implies is available. Yes, that's true, though it's working through the meridians and not from the mind of God above all things. If this act works for you, because you're "acting" when you focus on something, and he says that first person present tense is necessary but we know that's not true, it's because the action worked the mechanism of thematic supply/demand translation and mediated an experience to represent what that supply was for you. Say you're manifesting an SP, and you want them to change. You're going to become the person who's well nourished for whom that's available for. They'll feel your supply and want to involve with you, and because you targeted them clearly (which can be done naturally through you anyway automatically as I've established you don't NEED to do conscious work on that) then they'll be mediated to a supply that's going to fulfil what they're looking for. It's that if you're in a higher order state then your ability to influence people becomes exponentially more potent. It's that simple really, vitality supply/demand as I've said for years. If your kidney-heart axis is strong then you manifest like a God. The rest is simply supplemental. That's why beautiful people are prioritized, because beauty is Jing Qi and Shen manifest. It's the same thing on all levels, and targeting is your conscious act to target that experience that's nourishing to you, and hence since it's done out of function and higher vitality then you'll become the one who manifests and mediates that experience. This also explains why parasites like Jewish supremacists will not change, and why NG said all politicians are knowing liars. So I can give him points for that. He admitted certain things can't change, but then he goes on and makes stupid statements that say they can be, but it's under the context of personal expansion obviously.

With that in mind, I believe I've made a solid case and expanded a bit further with refining this more. Explaining LOA simply is thematic current supply/demand. This also explains all physical disease in the exact way it manifests and the alchemy too if you want to go there. Nothing is out of the scope. Manifesting is about living into high states because in a high state what's innately available and targeted from your innate affinities will come through you, and the projection mechanism will flash an image into your mind or whatever and that'll correspond with a phase conjugate event where "sparks fly" to the people necessary to mediate that experience, either on the spot or around that moment. I don't know when or how or what degree or any of that, because we're talking about superluminal "quantum" phenomena where qi supply moves the deactivated meridians of others in a spontaneous manner. It's most certainly an impulse current, but that doesn't mean it'll register with them consciously. Much of this seeming predictive processing we have access to where we can imagine something coming in the future is part of "reading" what's available already within the surrounding field of what you're overlapping and have capacity to move with your supply/demand. If you don't have that then you won't have these predictive events as flashes in the mind. All you'll get is more trash. When you get a flash of something I'll say it's mostly because ripeness is surfacing and you're activating the Hun to spill that over into the heart and the Shen is "impacted" by it and moved, not that it changes you radically there and then but it is a signpost of the availability being at a certain threshold of access for you now, and likely to indicate availability of those around who will play into the process. So it's the availability and overflow of ripe currents surfacing signals then what's already happening consciously, and what precedes this is that the phase conjugate event where the "signal" transmits whatever qi to whoever is necessary to be mediated in enough of a subtle way that you basically become a part of their trajectory. This in a sense works on a collective level too, but that's engineered by Jewish supremacists so.

The thing I'd need to study more is the exact nature of the phase conjugate event. It is mostly likely an impulse current that's connecting to the parties involved like a solid rod pushing on them and that both of your circuits integrate in that specific way that mediates your filtering to see what you need to bring the experience to play. The SP manifestation is very easily explained via wei qi mechanics. Kidney heart axis. That's how this works most of the time. Nourish yourself physically and then activate the Shen specifically targeting an ideal scenario, and thematically that'll manifest, but even if you don't and that's ripe it'll happen anyway because the desire is already innate and in supply it'll flash anyway. This is what I've experienced, and this is why signs manifest when you "try" because you're going to be targeting someone or something but you'll be filtering the signs of how you're not in supply because that's not the composition of your circuits. You're still a parasite effectively, and you're trying to fake it. You cannot manifest something in a satisfying way if your Shen is unstable and you're depleted on vitality on a Jing level. Good luck.

I've explained all the primary mechanisms and examples here. Putting all of this into a text is a pain, not because I don't know what to write but because I have to section specific parts off instead of just writing. Maybe I'll just write and write like I do here and let that be my book, even if it's not organized. Who cares. Could always just put paywalls on the notebook, but nah. I make next to nothing off this these days. It's just dry. All insights and no cash flow. Wonderful. Marketing time, again.

Fixate on the higher ideals.

7/6/25

Pathway cascades opening up as a result of destroying expectations and conditions is like a predictive process of availability and momentum of where that now open supply will lead your experience. In a sense, the bridge being automatic as they say is a function of the pathway cascades automatically providing the supply/demand they have available and so where you're moved will be according to this. If your Shen is sunk still then you won't want to change much yourself, you'll just be this lump moving through life being the same same.

When you feel lack from the world suggesting you don't have what you want it's actually the stagnation it's reminding you of more so than the thing at face value. This is how people overreact. The suggestions surface the locked off availability and send them into a spiral. That's what spirals are, it's the pathway cascades associated to the desired nourishing end being locked off and denied, because of expectations and conditional access. So when you feel the so called wish fulfilled, of "what would it be like" it SHOULD effectively suggest availability and IF you've got massive dysfunctional stagnant trash in the way as an overlay then that will be made conscious. You will end up in the same spot as before unless you get real with the source of these and cut through them all the way by basically seeing their impact as irrelevant. You connect the feeling of unavailability to then the source of this (when you've seen enough patterns of it which you naturally will if you're challenging it over time) and then tie that into all the patterns of your behavior being stuck in the box and how other people have treated you that you accepted from the lower state. From this you will feel the strong fury and dissatisfaction towards staying the same, and that will provide momentum into a direction where establishing the "outgrowing" phase of no longer WANTING to respond the same can process. You SHOULD WANT to change in that way. It can be intense, but at the same time if you want a reliable way to negate suggestions of lack and most importantly NOT BUY INTO IT and OUTGROW the suggestion then that's how most people do it naturally instead of trying to feel "natural" about having something that they'll be unable to consistently accept.

The acceptance that it's available will be unavailable through their day to day. In that case, they need to frame the lacking trash under the context of someone who's already beyond the conditional access and into change where those same suggestions no longer stimulate a pathway that's about buying into the narrative of unavailability but more about seeing the undercurrent of growth into the person who's already there as available in all these suggestions. When they can get there by getting real with what suggests they're not who they want to be is just another carry over of how they've been treated perpetuating further (through their same reactions to life suggesting a dead end of growth) and they begin to challenge the same story and see themselves outgrowing it. So targeting this sensation of total relaxation and quiet confidence is actually not really what NG was saying, even though it seems that way. The "feeling of the wish fulfilled" is actually going to be felt differently depending on the state you're operating in, the emotional current you're moving, and where you're going and how important that thing is for you.

So here's the thing then. When you experience "what would it feel like to be the person you want to be right now" that's going to imply and activate the pathways where availability isn't there and run you up against those sensations, since the idea of being that person brings the unconscious fear of going against the expectations to the surface. What do you do with this? You see them as irrelevant by framing them as a barrier to access what you want instead of buying into the story of what they're locking you out from, and how your behaviors have always conformed to that. This doesn't mean you'll feel relaxed, but it will allow you to not buy into the conditions. That's cutting through the conditions, and in that awareness, in a sense, you COULD relax into it when you can see the wider view of all the parts. With the comfort and safety established for free available access then you can sink into a deeper sensation of "what would it feel like" and stabilize the Shen. That's what happens. So the feeling of "what would it feel like" will surface charge where it's stagnant or deficient or excessive and you'll by seeing all the patterning around that as no longer necessary to buy into, that you don't NEED to follow that anymore, that you CAN outgrow it and frame the sensation in that way instead of "woe is me" or any other feeling, then you'll open up availability.

It's like this. If you imagine what you want and you feel tense in some way, there's a conditional overlay. You need to disown the necessity to then conform to this being the status quo. How you do that is as I've been writing in my entries for a long time now, you get real with the state and how that's a barrier and a conditional overlay against accepting stability and availability and see it as the issue. This CAN be what leads you into the wish fulfilled, because in that state you're not buying into the story, and in essence you're cutting through the condition to ACCEPT the wish fulfilled. The wish fulfilled can feel like ANYTHING that's corresponding to living into the view of the higher state. It does not need to be first person present tense whatever, it just needs to be a sensation of growth, into acceptance of "I CAN be this person" that's elicited from the question of "what would it feel like if". You will over time begin to diminish the feeling of unavailability since the default response of that nature is challenged automatically with momentum behind it, and the fury towards those conditions has worked for me very well before.

Seems that's all there is. Targeting the wish fulfilled naturally as a result of growth is the same thing though.

Your faith is your fortune means that your meridian systems in balance and functional activation corresponds to the belief on a psychological level and that'll drive the vitality supply/demand suggestion mechanics via thematic currents.

I'm seriously clear on all of this. Understanding Jewish supremacy helped me fully understand this. None of the fools who are critical of my view will grasp that because they believe it's mind that controls everything as though it's some all powerful substrate but it's not.

In theory, if your meridian systems can be so coherent then the things that NG speak of MIGHT be possible, There's no data to really back that up other than instances of known success by working these mechanics but a systematic study isn't really available. Either way, I do believe that this is possible, but mostly a waste of time anyway really. Trying to coherently activate your meridians via inner experiences alone is truly a waste of time unless you have no other means of experience that's nourishing. I've developed a way of applying what NG said far far more reliably and it's specifically under the context of activating the stabilizing the Shen. This can attract people to you I'm certain, because I've experienced this before myself as well, to a point where it was almost bothersome, but when you have this state then you have luck. I have said that for years but the way you get there is really with inner experiences most effectively IF no other means of activating the Shen is available. So gazing and applying pathway revisions is probably the method for this, which is what I actually did back then. You will sleep better too. The fury isn't compatible with this method, you don't feel fury in this state, since that will agitate the Shen, but the fury that's functional stems from ridding yourself of parasitic influences and drawing walls between function and dysfunction and making the radical decisions accordingly. This is absolutely possible to be done to manifest overnight outcomes, as I have experienced, using the massive fury method that's born from ripeness of currents surfacing with massive pressure, but the means by which it works is getting real with the state and the underlying conditional overlays preventing free access to the availability of what supports and surrounds the more surface desire which contains within it the core desire.

So if you want to manifest a house and you don't feel safe or secure and you always feel anxious when you think of it, then imagine and experience within you the safety you desire. What would be even better would be to nourish the kidney meridian directly with physical leg training, eating well, doing water qigong, and whatever else. These will all give the basis for the inner work to actually have any impact that's meaningful. With SP, if you were never seen and you want the SP to be the means to carry the availability of what you want underlying that, what they give you, then give yourself that instead of them. This is how you will manifest an SP fast, which is what I did by using fury to decondition myself out of accepting the overlay of parental expectations of who I could or couldn't be with. I had overlays within overlays and that's actually why every time I imagined what I thought I wanted (not what I REALLY "wanted" or NEEDED) because I was ignoring the basis of availability in what the SP being with me would imply I'd have to face. That's ALL an unconscious activation of the associated pathway cascades and you CANNOT manifest the SP UNLESS you address those undercurrents that drive the anxiety or whatever. Provide yourself the foundational currents FIRST. This is what I applied in a coaching session last month with someone and it worked well to rid them of feelings of anxiety towards an SP. It's the same thing.

I know what works. That's why I'm building the definitive SP program as you read this, assuming I'm not sleeping but if I'm awake I will be working on it. The NG program is absolutely massive and has hundreds of quotes in it so far, many of which aren't in the notebook study from earlier pages.

I am more confident now than ever to explain all the phenomena with clarity. These waves and cycles come and go depending on where you're at. Real understanding isn't going to show up because you feel it, it must be challenged. That's why I see nothing but ignorance in the LOA NG space because nobody grasps the depths of his work. The core doctrine is obviously still incorrect but if you dissect it and take apart things and nail down the parts that do work then THERE IS REAL VALUE in his work and this program will prove that. You will find that imagination, desire, acceptance, seedtime, reactions, feeling, persistence, faith, states, sense of self, moods, tones of reality and reality of experience, belief, repentance, acts, assumptions, and all of these terms, that they're all the same thing, It's all pointing to the same basis and that is the activation of meridians which alters the thematic composition of the field geometry and that's where the magic happens. Your view filtering changes, the world filters you differently because your wei qi becomes in abundant supply, and people will WANT to be around you and give you things. This is absolutely possible, but all the meridians must be in balance. Vitality is your sense of self, as I've always said, and vitality is this meridian system balance and the supply/demand mechanics.

Manifesting and changing an SP has also to do with being the light to which the moth will be drawn to and want access to that light. If you become vital and you don't just freely give away your vitality for crumbs to satisfy a lacking supply, then you'll be able to influence people because they will want you as you're a supply for what they now want. That's what I see in looking at the case studies I've seen. It's the same principle. The reasons why people who APPEAR physically to have strong vitality don't manifest abundance is still because they lack the Shen being stable, and their glow isn't real it's an artificial glow. The wei qi must be abundant for "thought transmission" to work at all, I believe. Again, I cannot prove this mechanism with factual certainty but I believe this is indeed the case. I don't see much else that could work. Tying together the superluminal physics, the TCM, the psychological associations, all the means of applications of these uncompromising attitudes of self by valuing your vitality, then you will make it work through these mechanisms.

8/5/26

When you're riding the edge of SATS and lucid dreams and such when gazing or whatever else you'll find you get this "jolt" that snaps you back to awareness. Working with this sensation reveals that the Shen often struggles to anchor into the blood to dream because of most likely stagnant qi and or blood. I do not believe it's excess or deficiency, though it's possible that kidney-liver-heart yin deficiency can contribute towards this sensation as the up surging can be an indication of an ungrounded and unanchored Shen.

I believe I've found proof that NG did teach thought transmission in his post promise teachings using very similar language.

"All imaginative men and women are forever casting forth enchantments, and all passive men and women, who have no powerful imaginative lives, are continually passing under the spell of their power. There is no form in nature, which is not produced by, and sustained by some imaginal activity." - The law and the promise 1961 book

"By the power of imagination all men, certainly imaginative men, are forever casting forth enchantments, and all men, especially unimaginative men, are continually passing under their power. Can we ever be certain that it was not our mother while darning our socks who began that subtle change in our minds? If I can unintentionally cast an enchantment over persons, there is no reason to doubt that I am able to cast intentionally a far stronger enchantment." - Prayer the art of believing 1945 book

Well right there we have the same language. Enchantment. This is how he described thought transmission before that most people dismiss these days and say he changed his teachings. I'll search for more. I wish I had more time in the day to study this stuff there's literally thousands more quotes I've gone through over the last week.

No other examples for "enchantment/s" can be found in his post promise books or lectures. There's still one more example here. His cosmology really didn't change so I don't know why people think he did change. It SEEMS to be that way because he stopped using the same terminology but so have I. I just refined the language.

9/5/26

I've thought about this more. Almost all the examples that NG spoke of, like Abdullah, his own experiences, students, and other cases he referenced and the scriptural interpretations of them, it's pretty obvious that there's a sense of "superiority" to ones self that's attained by living the way he's proposing. This isn't in the sense of supremacy as looking down on others, but that you see the conditions of the world to be stupid and unnecessary to accept as true for you. You just don't accept the expectations of the world to bind your involvement in the life you want. That's actually what an activated Shen is like, it's got a degree of "mania" to it if we could use that term.

I understand exactly what he's saying now with not wanting the person but wanting to be happily married and I think it's very powerful. He is actually telling us to dissolve conditional overlays by seeing yourself as beyond them as a part of his whole "I AM" doctrine. Remember you're not God, but you're seeing yourself in a state where the conditional overlays are irrelevant to someone like that. If we take his cosmology and WHAT IT DOES TO YOUR PSYCHE then we can grasp WHY he taught that and what it's going to impact in someone on a current level. The Shen is moved by all of this. The Shen is where this comes through. The detachment stems from the continual experience of the negation of the importance of the trash, by seeing yourself as in your life now.

The issue I have with the NG method is that he's not telling you HOW to find the exact conditional overlay because for most people this is unconscious. He's said we condition the desire before but that's very rare for him to speak about, like most else. I've literally seen all these quotes again and again over the last week as I write out this NG study program. It's so clear.

Here's a comment I posted.

"The sinking feeling is the Zhi falling out under your Shen making you feel hesitation at if this can work. Your field geometry lacks a holding support of the earth element and the water element cannot catalyse the substance into an upwards and expanding sensation for the Shen to feel availability. You simply don’t feel safe. Establish safety for the Zhi and the sinking feeling will minimise significantly instead of trying to overpower it with will, because in essence you really don’t have will available at baseline. The Zhi is the available integrated will to move in the direction you want. What does living into what you’re looking for provide you in terms of safety? Look at that and imagine an experience of this instead of the success itself, since that’s a conditional overlay that’s attached to the safety you’re really seeking through this success since you don’t feel that you can have safety where you are. Interpret what I’ve said in this post and the replies from that lens then. Opening up availability of what you really want is this. This is literally what NG was teaching by feeling the wish fulfilled, which was really opening up availability of the underlying conditional access to what you really desire that the object you’re looking to attain is leaning on. Safety is what you really want and this is why NG never taught SP manifesting because “you don’t want that man or no man, you want to be happily married”. You see now? That’s giving yourself the underlying thematic current that supports and surrounds the primary person or aim or whatever. This is what I was talking about where I manifested the SP so fast when I fulfilled the underlying condition of being controlled and that was what I did differently since I dropped the delusion that I had to hold to that expectation when I never did. I allowed myself to have the agency I always desired, and the object of fixation as the person lost importance since what they represented I didn’t have was now available."

Well right there is the truth.

How do we know NG never taught being delusional? Well he said you don't want the SP, you want to be happily married.

Fun fact. Neville Goddard never taught SP manifesting the way everyone else teaches it. I've decoded that manifesting an SP doesn't actually involve manifesting the SP specifically, but the state, which is thematically correspondent to availability of already innate targeted desires, which can be an SP or anything else which represents the sensory satisfaction of those currents when in supply.

Oh you don't believe that? Well let me show you what he said.

"What’s wrong with asking for anything in this world for another that you would ask for yourself? Is there anything wrong in being secure? Nothing. Anything wrong in being clean and wholesome and decent? Anything wrong in being one who contributes to the world’s good? What’s wrong with that? Is there anything wrong in being happily married, proud of the girl who bears your name, or she proud of the man whose name she bears? What is wrong with that?.

Forget that. The whole vast world is a field to reap. You don’t pick out this woman or that woman. Pick out the state. I want to be blissfully happy, and if I were, how would I see the world? And how would the world see me? Well, shut out the world and go within and appropriate that state. And from within, you let your friends see you, as they would have to see you if what now you are assuming that you are is really true.." - Catch the mood unknown lecture date

"But I’ll tell you one thing, do not concern yourself with the means. Always go to the end. Dwell in the end, and you will hurt no one. But if you try to devise the means, you are, well, messing the whole thing up. I have had people say to me, “You know, I want that man, and no other man.” I said, “No, you don’t; you want to be happily married. You don’t want that man or no man.” “Oh, yes, that man or no man.” Then, of course, this always shocks them. I say, “If he dropped dead right now, would you want to be married?” “Well, he isn’t going to drop…” “I didn’t ask you that. If he dropped dead right now, or if he is right this very moment accused of being the world’s greatest thief or murderer, do you still want him” “Well, now, why ask those questions, Neville? I want that man.” But, you see, it isn’t that man. They want to be happily married. I have gone to so many weddings where it was either that man or none, and it wasn’t “that man”! And they are embarrassed when they see me standing in the aisle, because it had to be “that man or no man,” and here it isn’t that man at all. And they walk down [the aisle] . . they are happy with their new mate, but a little sheepish as they pass by because they know I know he was not the man.

You want to be happily married. All right, go to the end. You are happily married. Then let him come, clothed in all that it takes to be happy in your world." - Power 1968 lecture

"You and I, however, are anxious and find it difficult to wait. Time and time again, ladies have told me they wanted to be married now, only to confess they are not yet divorced. I have heard them say there was only one man. Either that man or no man, yet they have married another. What they really wanted was to be happily married. Claiming it had to be that man, I have asked: “If he dropped dead right now would you still have the urge for companionship? If you would, then he is not the only man.”
Know what you want in life and do not condition it. If your desire is to be happily married, claim you are. Wanting a certain home, claim you have it. Don’t think you cannot afford it, simply play the wishing game." - I AM is in you

"When my brother, Lawrence, was making his exit from this world, I told my sister-in-law that there was marriage in the next world and she, in a very light vein, said: “I don’t want to go now, but do you think Lawrence will be waiting for me so we can get married again?” Well, I answered in the same light vein, saying: “God is merciful.” I’ll let it be at that and you can give any interpretation you want to regarding what I have said. But just imagine two people who have spent their life fighting like cats and dogs, wanting to perpetuate it? No. God is merciful. He really is. Once you have experienced an unhappy state you would have to be a stupid idiot to repeat it." - Imagination fulfills itself 1968 lecture

"S.E. writes: “Last August, while on a ‘blind date’ I met the man I wanted to marry. This happens sometimes, and it happened to me. He was everything I had ever thought of as desirable in a husband. Two days after this enchanted evening, it was necessary for me to change my place of residence because of my work, and that same week the mutual friend who had introduced me to this man, moved away from the city. I realized that the man I had met probably did not know of my new address, and frankly, I was not sure he knew my name.

“After your last lecture, I spoke to you of this situation. Although I had plenty of other ‘dates’ I could not forget this one man. Your lecture was based on revising our day; and after speaking to you, I determined to revise my day, every day. “Before going to sleep that night, I felt I was in a different bed, in my own home, as a married woman, and not as a single working girl, sharing an apartment with three other girls. I twisted an imaginary wedding band on my imaginary left hand, saying over and over to myself, ‘This is wonderful! I really am Mrs. J.E.!’ “and I fell asleep in what was, a moment before, a waking dream. “I repeated this imaginary scene for one month, night after night.

“The first week in October he ‘found’ me. On our second date, I knew my dreams were rightly placed. Your teaching tells us to live in the end of our desire until that desire becomes ‘fact’ so although I did not know how he felt toward me, I continued, night after night, living in the feeling of my dream realized. “The results? In November he proposed. In January we announced our engagement; and the following May we were married. “The loveliest part of it all, however, is that I am happier than I ever dreamed possible; and I know in my heart, he is too.” - Mrs. J.E.

By using her imagination radically, instead of conservatively, by building her world out of pure dreams of fancy, rather than using images supplied by memory, she brought about the fulfillment of her dream.

Common sense would have used images supplied by her memory, and thereby perpetuated the fact of lack in her life. Imagination created what she desired out of a dream of fancy." - The law and the promise 1961 book

NG is telling us clearly that the state matters, not the thing. States are your degree of function and acceptance of yourself as you'd like to be as the satisfying fixed point of comparison, hence WHY you feel desire. The state is the capacity for growth into a more satisfied from of yourself, where the thematic currents of the meridian systems can be balanced and the Shen can be activated and stable at baseline. THIS is what attracts people to you, because you're in supply of the capacity waiting for you, the state. Can you accept that you don't HAVE TO BE the person who's locked into conditional access for what you REALLY want?

NG said you don's want an SP, you want to be happily married, or whatever the goal is. If you pay attention to the language he uses it's always "happily" "blissfully" "wonderful" "loving" "nice" "congratulations" "thanks" "noble". It's SHEN ACTIVATING thematic currents, to surface wei qi via phase conjugation and longitudinal magnetodielectric standing wave propagation through the aetheric substrate. The field geometry does the talking, which stems from the state and the innately desired target who's most accurately resonant to the state you're in. The standing wave generates a means of communication through the aether at superluminal induction leading to spontaneous intuitive impulse. You're both a polarity of supply/demand with the world between as the insulator for a proverbial capacitor of charge leading both of you to become effectively conjugated as one. I'm the ONLY coach in the entire space who can prove the REAL physics and mechanics of this stuff.

Did you read when NG said that what the person really wanted was to be happily married? He talked about conditioning the desire with the questions he asked, and how this was always under the context needing certain expectations met, IE the specific person to change for you leading you into anxiety when they don't. There's the source of your reaction from the low state, an expectation born of lack from your very basis, likely stemming from conditioning way back in your past that's repeated because you never questioned it clearly. Getting real and feeling the dissatisfaction is how you get there, seeing without the deluded filtering of the expectations clears the state.

Remember what the SP has that you don't have is what you really want, how they make you feel, what they have in supply that moves you into desire for them. To flip that and make them desire you, you become the supply by living in the state where you're the one who moves them. You see that thing you aren't able to accept which underlies them showing up for you and you satisfy THAT, the conditional overlay is where you feel anxious about not feeling able to be with them and what makes you want to change them.

Instead of trying to change them, you change yourself by supplying the currents that draw you to them in the first place. How do you do that? Well NG told you how. You can really do it any way, as I've proven including external acts, but you experience the acceptance that you don't have to feel the unavailability of what they have that you want. You ask "what would it feel like if" as he says and sink into that sensation, not of them, but of what they have that you want from them, instead of imagining with intensity them changing. You can still manifest with intensity as I have, though it MUST be targeted towards acceptance of the core desire, what underlies them being available which can move and stabilize your Shen.

NG said the cause of opposite results is effort, and that's you trying to change the world because you can't let go and accept the conditional availability isn't relevant to get the person. You aren't accepting the change in supply/demand within yourself where you're not fixated on the thing you're obsessed with. What they have suggests unavailability of that part of you which you feel anxious towards in whatever way because of the conditional overlay. Satisfy the conditional overlay and the suggestion the SP has which makes you feel pressure towards will resolve and you can cut through the condition. Cutting through conditions isn't efforting, but what underlies acceptance of change you've been denying yourself this whole time needlessly. That CAN be done in a high charge state, but it needs to target the correct direction of acceptance, and I've done this and have proven it works. You don't NEED to be relaxed or whatever to manifest, only to be able to accept the direction of availability as no longer conditioned. That's how you can get overnight results while feeling the fury towards your conditions, because you break the expectations into dust, and that this state draws to you those who demand that state from you and will come to you.

This will activate and stabilize the Shen, which swims in the unconscious. The Zhi will uphold and support the Shen and the Hun will move freely as the vision to manifest the spontaneous thoughts of them in relation to you. This is why your fleeting thoughts don't have to be first person present tense, because they still imply the state anyway, and that's where the power is as NG said. Effortless inwards acts occur. You will respond differently to life, not out of the same conditional access like before but because it's available to you. You will act differently, with more confidence from a state which isn't tied up in NEEDING someone to respond in a certain way because you don't NEED that from them anymore, since the restriction tied up to needing them as the only supply of it is now open and available. This is where the ONLY power in first person present tense imaginal acts lies, but it can be done in any way that implies availability is open anyway, as we have all experienced time to time.

This is actually the underlying mechanism of NG SATS that I've decoded using the mechanics of thematic current supply/demand broken down to every possible detail and sensation we experience. When you're the one who in the state has what you desire then you move the world, because the world sees in you what it wants that you now possess, and that's the self reflective nature of "the law of assumption". It's not magical, it's the dynamics of the thematic currents and the way vitality moves between the meridian systems (your imagination) and the world around you. You by living in that state suggest availability and so people will see you like you see them from that state, someone to be their supply.

You want to manifest an SP? There's how it's done. You become the one who moves others in who you're being, and by who you're being suggests availability of what they want in you by giving those currents to nourish your circuits and they'll feel that supply and want to be with you.

If you aren't able to see the pattern of your reactions to the SP, and you're fixated on the crumbs someone specifically gave you and you're obsessed, then view the pattern of locking the availability into that person as delusional trash. Tell yourself it's delusional ignorant trash to want it from them, because you'll always push them away by operating from this state of unavailability. Do as NG said and target the underlying theme you desire to experience and open that availability up to a wider view. They will encompass this naturally, and if in that higher state innately you still desire that person, then they can and will show up and can even change for you. I've seen it, I've changed my own SP over the time and seen HOW it happens.

It's all so obvious. Fixating on the thing leads to more fixation and operating from low states where you cycle through peak dip until you finally get real and accept that you don't need to condition the desire like you are. Open up the availability and be the supply for the currents that you'll draw people to you through. That's who you are, satisfied and nourished. Live in this state and things will work.

Concept stays the same, sense of self/state changes. It comes through you. It always has and always will when it works. That's the "compulsion" and the free will is the meridian attraction dynamics. That's why people are moved, because you're a supply for availability to suggest to them what they want to experience in who you're being in that higher state.

That's it.

Mastery of self comes down to not involving in things that aren't yours to involve in. Therefore you feel no pressure to compromise, you become like the wind and allow yourself to move freely without binding to the expectations and conditional access of the world around you. This is where the imagination is God and creates reality comes from in application.

Where does being yourself without compromise via being real come in? Simple. The intensity brings out of you the truth of who you really are. What your innate nature is, and the fixed point of reference comes through this view of being real with what works and what doesn't.

Set the slate clean and start from what you really feel. Get in tune with what you really want. Be real. Clean the filtering system. Drop the delusions.

12/5/26

Thinking outside the box AGAIN.

The sensations are where we learn.

The activations you feel when you experience something correspondent to an innate desire to be available, it breaks expectations that you NEED to conform to the conditional overlays. You begin to open up and accept. The acceptance is the feeling of the wish fulfilled. Whatever that feeling, that sensation and activation, that's the with fulfilled. It's not relaxation or anything specifically, it's a dynamic sensation of "oh so I CAN be that' AND THEN you lose yourself in it. You forget that you ever needed to compromise to begin with, to accept conditional overlays. It's you changing states, the condition of the Shen changes. You genuinely experience what you wanted, in a nourishing safe satisfying and available way. Do remember, this DOES NOT mean you've got to accept it from a loving way, it can be intense, but the overarching vision is accepted beyond buying into conditional access. You drop conditional access, and experience the satisfaction of not needing to be someone you're not, and then lose yourself in that reality to the point where you forget that you ever needed to compromise.

This is why NG talks about forgetting the old state. The process of altering your baseline state is what I just described, You activate the Shen in a way that reveals the necessity to leave behind the trash, the dissatisfaction, and then in contrast to that you allow yourself to experience what you dare assume to be true in the fact of the conditional overlays. Do you dare? That is the question. Do you dare assume to be true that you CAN be who you want to be, and underlying that you have the psychological function of leaving behind dysfunctional states of lack and conditional access.

What's another way that we can "forget" who we use to be? Well you can repeatedly return to experiences that negate the need for responding to life the way the expectations want you to. You're not relaxing your way into a higher state, you're actually opening up to "what if" and living in the dare, assuming that you CAN be beyond the expectations and not NEED to play out conflicts.

Gazing to initiate stability of the Shen and surfacing unconscious expectations and then sinking into "what if it was true" and just returning to this. Meaningfully involving in the experience of the conflicts being irrelevant. Does this mean you'll change people and abuse will stop if you're living in it? Not really, but I will say that you won't react the same way yourself in as much of a "I'm stuck here" way. That's a key because the expectation that "this is all there is for me" is breaking down. The expectation is felt to be less impactful. The Zhi establishes a higher baseline of yin to anchor into and the yang can catalyze into stability of the Shen. Whenever you feel unsafe it's because the Zhi falls out and the Shen becomes agitated and unsettled. To restore safety of the Zhi, you can experience the necessity of compromise to be dead, and the abuse you face won't seem as impactful because you know you're not stuck there forever. The biggest impact of how the abuse conditions us is the continued expectation that it won't change, that you will need to accept the expectation to conform from then on. Opening that up and breaking down the necessity to buy into that's all there is, that's where your underlying state can shift. This can be done through radical acts that break expectations like I did or it can be done the gradual way, but why not go all the way with radical acts? It works the same way anyway, even if it's more intense.

The anxiety reveals conditional access to making decisions to move the pressure to expand into useful acceptance driving actions leading you out of the anxious circumstances. I hope that made sense. If you're financially destitute, you're about to fall off into a pit of despair, nobody listens or cares, so what do you do? Well accepting that temporary financial destitution might be a necessary evil to a greater state, but underlying this we have a vision that we couldn't accept for ourselves before which involved financial abundance. We left that behind and danced around it. Those decisions you had opportunities to involve in will all come flooding back. Making them now moves you into the involvement of that higher state. Pretending to be abundant and feeling relaxed won't get your financial situation going. The necessity to radically change will make it begin to work, as you will find in the story of almost all bust cycles which resulted in booms from various companies that weren't part of the supremacist's plan.

Your anxiety isn't the issue. Feeling anxious is useful, like all other feelings, and so the anxiety is a feeling of uncertainty, but that if you view the vision as necessary to finally involve in and make the decisions you've been compromising on for years to get into that state then you can get the cash flowing. How do I know this? I lived it myself. You get real and start to just do what's necessary that you've been compromising on the whole time because you've been in pseudo satisfaction. Not everything about this manifestation game is just "feel availability" and that's it. No that's almost entirely just activating the Shen, but JUST BECAUSE your Shen is activated and MORE stable than before doesn't mean cash will start magically showing up in your bank balance. The necessary decisions WILL STILL NEED TO BE MADE, and conditions against playing that role will still need to be made. Screw everyone who thinks otherwise, you cannot do it like that, not reliably. Thinking you can relax and feel grateful for having money when you're dead broke will ONLY change the state of your Shen, and in that other people will see you as more of a person worth spending cash on, but it won't make it unexpectedly show up. THAT WOULD BE the unexpected way, because your Shen is now operating without massive anxiety revealing your inner turmoil. People will want to involve with you because you're more nourishing then being in the lowly creature state. Get that in your head. It's meridian system supply/demand mechanics and the state of the wish fulfilled makes miracles happen when they do more or less because you're no longer the person with a depleted sunk Shen.

The ignorance is very obvious from the fools that think it's all spiritual and all assumptions manifesting on a psychological belief level. No. All of that is meridian system vitality supply/demand mechanics thematically correspondent to what you bring out of someone and then how they'll perceive and expect you to provide for then. That's all the state shifting does, but that this configuration of the currents contains the correct ratios of currents in the exact nature they need to be to work that mechanism. Either figure that out or get abused more by the ignorant trash,

So I believe I've got a solid way of explaining the feeling to people and SATS and how gazing and whatnot fits into this. So this isn't going to be something that's involving radical transformation, but instead it's going to bring out a level of moving into a state where you're operating from the "what would it feel like" and allowing people who will show up for that state to be the means by which the manifestation arises. The key component in this is deconditioning who and where and when and allowing exposure to whomever is necessary to play the part in the state unfolding fully to be there. I KNOW this will work for many people, the key ingredient involved in this is the Shen being illuminated and safety being established by which the kidney yang and qi can nourish the heart which can house the Shen in the blood without that "falling out" feeling of anxiety. The Shen needs to be uplifted, but in a way that's not excessive. The "what would it feel like" is huge. The way this will work is through suggestion. The suggestion of thematic availability, as in how someone sees you as a part of what they want and so they'll show up FOR YOU like magic, BUT it will ONLY be from THOSE people who are available to involve in that suggestion your state supplies. The details of who what where when why will come through from the innate seed, the existent supply as a capacity within.

So the capacity is built into the state as to the details, because you'll end up crossing pathways with someone who's desiring involvement with someone who's in that state, and so the sensory details of them giving you money or even if they're a romantic interest, that'll ALL come through the available suggestion via the state in supply. If I explain this I can simplify it all down to dynamic gazing plus "what would it feel like" in persistence with a wider view then of lower state reaction stemming from past treatment as needless and unnecessary to buy into in the now. This will open up the contrast and transition into forgetting about the lower state by involving in the experience repeatedly of being in the higher state. The importance stemming from expectations binding WHO and WHERE and WHEN and HOW will die off via "what would it be like" to stabilize the Shen. Dynamic gazing and sinking into what would it feel like AT THE ROOT DESIRE as the capacity for the state to come through you is the goal. Marketing this as the dynamic solution to robotic affirming will be big because I can claim I'm doing open eye SATS and also in a way having a method greater than affirmation because you're getting more visceral with the experience of crossing thresholds by feeling into what would it be like. If someone does "power affirmations" or whatever like rampages they'll get more activated, but again, this HAS TO come from a degree where you're leaving behind the need to be someone you're not.

The examples of how things should be and how we should respond to life that we've been fed by media examples and such has messed with us the most out of anything. Where do we get our warped ideas for what life SHOULD be like? Both family and media, but media is playing more and more and more of a role in the modern day now than ever. We know who owns all of that. It's all controlled and manipulated for a specific purpose, and it's not benevolent.

14/5/26

The reaction is the death. The feeling is the faith. The feeling is the reaction. The acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled is the feeling. The dying to lower states is the acceptance, faith, feeling, desire, state, being.

So here's something else I've considered. We KNOW that imaginal senses don't manifest, as NG himself said. Thought in itself doesn't manifest. Yesterday I read a quote from NG that I don't know if I can find again, because I was stupid and didn't put it into my notes and into the program but it was basically saying that ANY charge was feeling, He was making the point that it didn't have to be intense to be impactful. But what I wanted to say here is that if you imagine yourself visually in a visceral way with touch senses and all that, that you're in a bedroom that's where you want to be, you can still feel anxiety in that place. I did this with SP, I imagined VERY VERY VERY detailed REAL scenes and I experienced visceral anxiety which ALWAYS made me sick soon after. ONLY TCM can explain WHY that happens, because it's my kidney meridian being absolutely destroyed and then in effect the spleen gets depleted of qi and I break down. That's why my digestion always went and my anxiety went through the roof because my Zhi was collapsing and the Shen was sinking and agitated.

The point is that the sensory stimulus has ZERO power outside of what it suggests. If your SP showed up in front of you right now you'd feel anxious (or whatever other feeling) and you'd feel lack and whatever else in response to that suggestion. Her being there isn't making you feel this way, but the cascade of implications and effects and conditional importance on overlays making access expectational and therefore you cannot freely feel as though you're this person who is natural around her or whoever. This is the biggest thing to grasp about ANY of his work, because I was wrong about what he taught years ago. I've proven that he actually never taught emotions manifest, nor thoughts, but associative implications and how they're accepted as conditional overlays, and that dropping them is dying to lower states. It's not directly stated this way in his work but the deduction you can apply to his work reveals this clearly as I've proven beyond any doubt. Everybody in LOA is wrong about NG. Yeah they'll say "change your beliefs" and whatever but fail to explore how and why and still teach that affirmation and visualization works without grasping associative implications and as I've explained, pathway cascades. That's what his model works with and it's hidden in his work. There's no other mechanism he could be pointing to, because we know the emotion isn't causal, and the thought isn't causal, and we know the sensory detail is only mental and structural and he said it has no power. Imagining in his model is a change of association, or a continued buy in. So BEING in a state fundamentally is that you're BUYING INTO something. NOTHING ELSE! That's ALL "imagining" is. It's literally just you "feeling" strongly for something. Like you feel strongly for a cause, you will fight for that cause, you are convicted to defend this cause. That's feeling, you believe it strongly, you have faith, you have "feeling" and you don't NEED sensory details to represent this because it's just ideas overlapping with each other which you've got a connection and importance attached to which makes you "activate" that state and move into that experience.

With that in mind we need to fixate on the idea of completely changing how we involve in life, what we accept to be true, the ideals we continue to target and grow into the experience of. That's really all there is. Imaginal SATS acts is more or less about doing this, in a controlled way. I actually had a client who without doing any conscious imaginal act or changing in a conscious way manifest a perfect place to move into that meets all the criteria without even doing anything. All I did was be real and challenge them on call about what they really needed to grow into and establish a direction where greater safety can be made available. That feeling of leaving behind the person stuck living in compromise and accepting less likely is what brought this about. I've had this happen with my own life at times before too, going back to 2020 and even earlier. I didn't do imaginal acts but I just challenged a part of me that I no longer wanted to accept. This is my point, again. All we CAN do to "imagine" is to buy into a different set of expectations for how we believe we need to show up in life and how the world should respond to us. That's really all there is, to change association to how we fire the pathways by default. This changes the state, activates and stabilizes the Shen and the surrounding meridians can support that. The mechanics of RS have been once again proven.

There is a difference between "loud affirmation" as he put it and brazen impudence. You may think that they'd be the same on the outside, but inwardly the person is "moved" more by their faith in their difference in association to their desired vision for life. Feeling moves you into this vision instead of looking at it from the outside, as a "felt" sensation of accepting. This is NOT relaxation, OR intensity, but ANYTHING that corresponds to meaningfully imply availability of you being INVOLVED in that vision. The imaginal act that plants seeds more or less as an idea is simply altering your baseline degree of "buy in" for these ideas.

This is an interesting quote.

"She told me that she centered her imagination on being in a car and, although blind, viewed the city from her imaginary ride. She did not think of the ride. She thought from the ride and all that it implied. This controlled and subjectively directed purposive ride raised her imagination to its full potency. She kept her purpose ever before her, knowing there was cohesion in purposive inner movement. In these mental journeys an emotional continuity must be sustained – the emotion of fulfilled desire. Expectancy and desire were so intensely joined that they passed at once from a mental state into a physical act.

The inner self moves along the predetermined course best when the emotions collaborate. The inner self must be fired, and it is best fired by the thought of great deeds and personal gain. We must take pleasure in our actions." - Awakened imagination 1954 book

Searched "expectancy" and this popped up. I don't think I've searched this term before. So this one he talks about "emotional continuity" which "must be sustained". The subjectively directed purposive ride (about being driven to an office implying she's of higher status) was the symbolic structure as he'd put it in other lectures, and the terms he uses where "expectancy" and desire to be "intensely joined" likens to what I've been saying above. I know that it's not emotional reaction but that often times emotional reaction can go hand in hand with a reaction. I mean emotions stem from charges in the meridians, and if charge is being moved then emotional current will surface so it's usually going to involve emotional movement but it's not necessary. What we buy into does, but that can be for small things too, not just big things. I referenced earlier about that quote where NG said even subtle sensations and emotions can cause a movement too, so he's right.

14/5/26

So immersion is being IN it, involvement is immersion, hence why I came up with the term "implied involvement". This is outer level assuming the wish fulfilled. It's how MOST people manifest without knowing it. They simply decide to move forward and live that out. That IS "reacting to life" and "feeling" and "faith" and "imagining". Here's the trick right. In the NG system he speaks of SATS as the way you effectively apply "effortless attention" and he said the only reason why you get into this state is for that purpose. Imaginal senses don't make it work, the reaction stemming from the shift in expectations to accept the conditional overlays and unavailability no longer holds power. You LEAD yourself into it, hence "looping" it, to "stabilize" the state. That's where the magic of "effortless attention" applies, because you actually forget you're doing anything other than what you're immersed in. This is the "feeling" because you're not consciously doing it but that the conscious initiation naturally led you into losing yourself into the acceptance that the wish has been fulfilled. Again. do not forget, this is NOT relaxation, but ANYTHING that leads you into THIS function. Losing yourself into accepting a different state of availability for what you want, as in experiencing more of what you want than buying into conditional overlays and bailing out from the immersion that would lead to naturalness. There's your persistence. The more I read NG and find the nuggets in the pile of dirt the better it becomes clear for me. There IS a system, and I was wrong, it's just so insanely buried that it took years to find enough of those parts to know it's even there. I'll stand on that hill.

Last night I applied this same principle of seeing myself as the best coach on earth and the only one who understands NG fully and I got 2 booking requests in response. I was just thinking before about how this often comes in ways that're already set up with availability and implied involvement overlap like I've explained in the implied involvement video, so already established pathways activate and they show up. Both of them were people I've had interaction with via email in the past and now they're lined up for calls. I did nothing else, though I have been posting written posts on the YT though only a handful of people actually read those so I'm either just lucky with timing or that reminded them to show up for calls. One of them wanted a call a year ago and now they're showing up. The other I spoke to about a month ago about the magic subliminal and now they're in coaching. Works for me. Had a success yesterday so it seems that targeting the core of the wish fulfilled (I didn't feel anything other than this activation of "I'm the best") by deconditioning it and throwing myself into that experience was what either accelerated it or whatever else. It's obvious to me what NG taught, and the underlying mechanism that you're providing suggested supply thematically according to who you're being and the state you wear. The state makes it all work. What's already there comes through, because the desire is innate so you can't do anything other than accept it to bring it about. That's why people get stuck,

17/5/26

Still trying to find a refutation to the view I've seen of the 6 sides star people and the origins of their cult. There's books that claim Judaism isn't as old as is claimed, so I must investigate all the data.

Ignoring just how insanely conditioned pretty much everyone is these days and blocking those "bad" things out won't lead to a better life. Ignoring the evidence of your senses for all things that lead to "bad moods" isn't functional and leads to further abuse. NG mentioning the examples about people in prison imagining themselves free isn't an example that overlaps someone living in a very abusive environment where you're threatened all the time. How does someone exit that scenario? Well they do what I did. You begin to see where you're holding yourself back from exiting that low state and get real with what you ACTUALLY want, which in truth will mostly be safety and security away from abusive environments. Most people in those places will cope and not want to regain agency. This in essence is actually what the core message underlying the NG doctrine would say. The underlying desire is a thing in his work, as I've proven, but we need to get real before we can see that. So when NG tells us to be dissatisfied, this is a key step towards making progress in cutting the delusions out that bind us into low states making the same decisions and reacting the same way so that we can begin to break the bonds of the conditioning we've accepted.

Truly I say that there IS in his work a method to handle these situations, it's just buried and requires a LOT of dot connecting to even recognize that. As someone who denied this was a thing for years I can correct myself, though I will not stand on the hill of saying he taught it in ANY useful way. Just because it's there at all doesn't mean it's something that 99.99% of people who read NG will ever find or recognize how to interpret. I'm probably one of if not the only people in this space who's recognized these things. Putting all this together requires such rigor that I can't even begin to describe. I mean I've got a list with over 100 keywords I've searched through with literally tens of thousands of examples of these things coming up. I've seen EVERY instance of how he defined and used various terms in context. That's WHY I made the study tool and put his books and lectures into one document to search through for keywords. If you just listen and take notes you probably won't get the same degree of surgical precision necessary to do the decode I've done because you'll spend hundreds of hours just compiling those points. 99% of his work is noise. The 1% is what we need to find and filter out and put into a study that can be taken by anyone willing to go through that and learn the truth about his doctrine.

I still heavily disagree with his "one mind" idea as this is just a Jewish supremacist ideology put into manifesting doctrine. There's no difference really, that's why these people at the top call themselves gods. Whenever God acts it's them. That's why Abdullah MUST have known about these occult doctrines. There's no way that he was just someone to randomly stumble into this himself, because as the alchemist has said, you're either initiated into the system by someone who runs it (Jewish supremacists) or you're told by someone who knows the interpretation. I was initiated into the order of the alchemist, who's someone who was taught by his own masters from his past at the age of 17, right near the same age when I found advanced gazing at 18 and reality opened up. The so called mysteries aren't something that you fall into by accident, you are either looking for that as I was or you get chosen by someone on that level to be initiated. Abdullah I bet was chosen for this role he played, in which NG became a carrier for this doctrine to normalize this idea that "I AM" God as this was the age where traditional views were being broken down as a result of what could be considered the "spiritual revolution", which also had other components to it, but it was a liberal ideology that has been what's led to the downfall of our culture really. Everyone thinking of themselves as God, and are free to do as thou wilt. Yeah, we all are, that's true, and yet when certain acts are enabled and encouraged and this ideology is normal then people will fall into traps that are invisible. This is with the liberal ideology has destroyed most white western women the most. They've been ABSOUTELY RUINED BEYOND IMAGINATION. That's putting it lightly.

So the fact is that underlying the NG I AM doctrine is the supremacist ideology, which liberalism is a branch of, leading then into institutional support for a dysfunctional way of life where certain groups and patterns of behavior are encouraged and supported and funded and marketed by the DISGUSTING JEWISH PARASITES who themselves snicker in humor as they watch us be eradicated. I've seen them, they say we'll hate them, I've got video I downloaded back in 2018 of this filth literally saying how Jews will be hated for the role they're playing, and that's exactly correct because it's ALL engineered.

Where does "I AM" fit into any of this? The very basis of our world is manufactured and artificial. It's all artificial. I'm suppose to not react to this poorly according to NG, but what defined a poor reaction from a low state? Is anger an appropriate response? A fury towards a group who actively seeks the destruction of good and just people who have been conditioned since birth to accept the paradigm? I will say yes, and so what's the state where that's able to be transformed and changed? Seeing the freedom of the people will identify you with the state where your Shen is stable and activated and you'll manifest people who are attracted to this current. You're in supply for cope on that level, you're not changing the plans. Changing the plans requires an action with merciless and brutal bloody ruthless and uncompromising eradication of the enemy, like Vlad the impaler. The hero of recent history who prevented Jewish supremacy from subverting the culture of the Romanians of Europe. He singlehandedly held the power over the Ottoman empire and drove back all the degeneracy of the filth called Jewish supremacy into his land and protected his people with unimaginable violence and ruthless slaughter of the enemies. This man was a legend and acted with solid conviction on his truth for a higher state for his people. Tell me how that's "negative" and how NG is correct in saying that "no man desires to kill" when this is the situation we're in? We're under duress all day every day by the Jewish owned gov, and that's what's conditioned us into accepting paying taxes among other things just to pay debt that they themselves created. NG himself said he cannot solve the economic problem, so you tell me where the higher state lives? Ignoring and pretending there's no problem and coping? No that's not a high state, you'll attract people who are resonant to the currents you're in supply with but that's not going to provide abundance. Running a multi billion dollar business won't provide solutions to the conditioning, for you'll still be operating within that system. Running in politics and or using the law as a platform has always proven to be a futile attempt to rearrange surfaces in an arena they run and control and manipulate.

So where does the higher state live? It's apparently everything except eradicating the enemy. We're told that if we imagine a world without enemies that we will have none. That doesn't apply on the collective level, because a majority of people post WW2 and pre 2001 (maybe excluding the cold war) never believed there was really an enemy to worry about and yet their entire history was shaped by this invisible enemy and the culture they lived in and were conditioned by influenced them silently. That's what I mean. You cannot avoid it, it's literally everywhere, and so the core desire is to simply end the problem. How? Vlad had the solution. He was called the impaler for a reason. Someone who doesn't play into the hands of the Jewish supremacist's will be someone who's moved to destroy the enemy with fury beyond your wildest imagination can even conceive of. That's where the higher state is, despite the "all is one" idea that NG thinks. Too bad 99% of people in LOA will run the other way when they hear that. Idiots. They're so conditioned into denying how they feel that it's totally cut off. It's like the abusive parent who's emotionally unavailable and conditions attention behind performance. Unless you conform then you get attacked because you threaten the pattern of availability for that person. It's just disgusting.

It cannot be ignored, and yet every day that passes by without eradicating the entire Jewish system is a day we lose. Being all peaceful and relaxed and passive and cool about it won't change it. It gets worse because it's rewarded, because people are still accepting and tolerating the conditioned world around them. We can make an analogy here that might make sense of this whole thing. The abusive parent cannot continue to abuse you if you're no longer bound to their conditional availability in your own space. The moment that you have your own space to live from without being forced to see them and hear them every day and be forced to accept the abuse, that's you disempowering them. They lose power. So does moving where we are solve this with the filth who want to destroy us? No. They have been expulsed over 100 times throughout history, the exodus cycle, because they manufacture their own persecution and exodus through being parasites. This cannot work, they will move and adapt to continue the plan. We cannot just remove them, and we cannot move ourselves to another land because there is nowhere else. So then what do we do to establish agency over our lives and live in our own cultural climate without external conditioning if you cannot move away and they will always come back? You either isolate them so they cannot escape or communicate outside of their isolation or you just eradicate the problem and move on. Why even waste resources trying to decondition all the Jews out of this racially supremacist ideology of Zionism (which is the basis for Judaism) and require generations to forget about their past as supremacists to raise a functional Jewish people when you can just wipe the slate clean and know that there will never be an issue again. Peace. Wow wasn't that easy?

Tell me how that's bad? You offer a solution that can work given all the variables at play. It's going to take generations to decondition our own people, let alone the supremacists ideology that's propagated over literal millennia. Why should we be responsible for their nature? Isn't that just conditioning them anyway? If they exist by nature to destroy then what's the solution? Any Jew that follows Judaism is following a supremacist doctrine, as the chosen people of God entitled to land they never owned. The Jews who claim to not follow that are either lying to you or they'd be against the Zionist system which is the very basis for their beliefs that have existed for thousands of years. Your really think they'd willingly give that up and lose their identity as a people? No way. So again, what's the solution? When you've got a supremacist doctrine out in the open being marketed as the solution then you know we're in deep trouble. The Jews who go after Israel are in the minority, and while a majority of them don't fully support BiBi they still benefit from the plan in fulfilling their prophesy that they follow and so will believe that it's necessary these things happen, which were just staged events planned ahead of time to play out the way they did. It's crazy to think.

Solutions. Either be responsible for deconditioning Judaism out of the consciousness of Jews as a whole or they'll always come back like they have in the past when the Romans eradicated most of them. It's like a parasite that moves from host to host, and ultimately it's psychological at the core but it's rooted so deeply in the genetic memory of the Jewish people that it'll be very difficult to remove from them culturally without systematic conditioning like what we've got going on here in the west through guilting them out of what they believe and attacking their very psyche to dismiss the Judaism within them. That identity will not be left, and when they find out that this is what they believed then you'll only awaken the beast within to attack us just like the supremacists have today. Those groups will form the new red shields and such who will put our children in debt just like they've done to our ancestors. It'll be the same thing over again. The people are tied to their tradition. Most lights are Christian in the west, and that's also an issue because that conditioning has been a cause for suffering, though it's not a cause for supremacist ideology. That's why Judaism is different and cannot be ignored.

So what's the solution? You tell me. Judaism needs to go no matter what. Don't give me that trash that it's a spiritual alchemical doctrine and it should be taught that way. Nope. Won't matter, because according to these traditions they've never been for the masses anyway. They kept them secret for that reason, not because it was alchemical but because it was a racially supremacist doctrine of death and destruction. Always was and always will be. the mystery traditions were another invention to create branching pathways to waste peoples time, just like the NG LOA doctrine. I only studied this because I saw too many holes that needed figuring out what's at the bottom that nobody else was doing. Now that this is done where is there to go? Solve the problem. Judaism. Forget the LOA space, they're too dumb to figure it out and don't want to be responsible for things of such nature and just want to cope and feel better until they recognize that they believe in fiction.

22/5/26

I can't believe I'm saying this but after running some abliterated local AI models on my dual 5090 setup I can say that I've heard some interesting takes on psychological manipulation. You see using these uncensored AI models to get into the "mind" of someone who plays the roles in polarity who abuse the other and tactics used to influence and manipulate others can reveal more about how a victim would be conditioned. Making a program requires me to go into all the ways that someone would get abused, in order to trigger in them their response of fear or whatever so that the roots can be established and well known. You HAVE TO get them to see the pattern for it to lose power.

I had to use abliterated uncensored models because the full normal models just cope and hide the real stuff behind guardrails in some scenarios you'd go over with it. These abliterated models will do anything. I run the full FP8 models since these quantized ones are more prone to hallucinating and the 5090s has enough vram and bandwidth to handle it well. Most of the extra ram goes into context length, which is still secondary anyway really. If you want a full setup that you can tune all the parameters and caching then you'll want to learn llama.cpp for sure, as it's got way more tuning options than something like LM studio which I use to use because it was easy to get started with. Some models that are abliterated only run BF16 precision so try find the ones that hit 8 bit if you can find them since they're like 97+% the same in "intelligence" with much less memory usage and bandwidth required. Don't touch 4 bit models unless it's native, or you're running low spec cards. I got to say I'm pretty impressed because I've heard of interpretations of these dynamics that even I didn't think of, but only the abliterated models worked like that.

If I was actually rich I'd get some H100's to put in the workstation as accelerators for tensor but I'm not at that level, nor does it even really matter, but HBM is WAY better than GDDR7 for AI work since the bandwidth is significantly higher. That's why 5090 needs 512 bit but which takes up a lot of space on the die that would otherwise be used for logic as the HBM memory controllers on die are much smaller, despite being wider. Remember the old architectures like ampere didn't have native FP8 so that's why they're not good for inference even if you get an A100 card, so stick to ADA or later. Don't fret over 4 bit on blackwell because it's still not good anyway, it's not worth upgrading to newer arch just for native 4 bit tensor.

I've also had very positive feedback from the beta testers for my NG study program. I'll quote you one I got this morning.

"These words written when read are so powerful and the structure of the overall document is laid out so beautifully it just unfolds deeper and deeper. It’s literally changed everything - like my whole life experience."

Keep in mind this is someone who's read a lot of the notebook, not up to this point but most of the core teachings are there. The power this program has is wild. I've learned a lot even just putting it all together.

I've also had more personal SP insights with the psychological shift that my girl has had and is continuing to have. I mean for like 9 months or more now I'd say she's really stabilized in becoming the person I've wanted in pretty much every way. I had a few doubts in the beginning of this period that she might slip back but nope she's solid in this state and has minimal signs of any backsliding if any. I'm somewhat surprised at how radical some of the changes were but they're stable, and I'm talking things she's said she'll leave over if they changed and here we are. No force, no manipulation, no duress or anything it's just pure state shifting by living into a higher ideal as I've always said. For the first year especially things after a few months were a bit up and down into the 18 month mark but I'd say after that especially from around this time last year or so she's radically changed. So my experience of this tells me it's polarity dynamics. You might not see that in your relationship clearly but do understand that the dynamics are thematic supply/demand and not conventional "roles" or whatever. The roles are a general psychological idea placed over the top to describe the thematic currents of the field geometry.

So what I've recognized from the chats with the unfiltered AI is that almost all the examples of manipulation have to do with promised safety. I already knew that anyway, because ZOG uses this all the time with every Selection cycle. They promise safety in place of conflict, and this is how abusive situations become conditioning on the victim. The victim takes these crumbs of safety as the whole pie and so cuddles up to whatever they need to do for the abuser for those promises. This is the same way with how our patterns work, we will literally LOOK FOR those instances where we can get what we want WHILE STILL IN THE VICTIM STATE and you NEED to see that as the problem. WANTING those scraps of whatever it is that's giving you the safety (it could be an SP) is actually what's keeping you in the low state. It's not really about them, but what they represent you don't have that they can give you. This is in fact also what NG has taught that a handful of quotes talk about. Deconditioning the desire fundamentally is going to stem from seeing the issue is the cope pattern to avoid uncertainty of availability of safety through taking the crumb and desiring it. You see the desire for the SP is the issue, because it's representing your lack of safety you feel. You lose desire for the compensations you once thought were core desires.

Your fantasies of being saved or even seeing someone completely in your control (in a caretaker way) is just a warped distortion of a lack of safety within yourself. I know this because I've had these themes come up in my own psychology that I questioned even many years ago, like back in 2018 and up to 2020 I was able to see that what I wanted wasn't good. The thing is that I didn't know how to remove it, and TCM helped me fully recognize that by how the currents move. Like seriously, questioning what you find exciting might be what you need to do to recognize WHERE that desire came from.

Some interesting manipulation tactics are about comparison. This can also be used within ourselves too. We compare between where we are and where we want to be and this elicits in us reaction. That reaction determines the state you're in. If you get anxiety that you're not there then you've likely got conditioned availability, especially if you're not moving closer to that goal. If you feel "yeah I can do this" or something like that then you're comfortable with the implication of that state change.

When you pay attention to the sensations in your body, as the "reactions" and the "motor elements" as NG calls them, then you'll actually begin to see if the contrast elicits tension or availability. Logging these sensations matters a lot.

25/5/26

So I've gone over this once again. Desire, under the mechanics of TCM. Desire is the Shen activating, yang stirs that stimulus into current surfacing and activity of that current into experience as sustained by the underlying supply. So I've once again been observing my own patterns here and contrasting that to what a balanced response would be. Differing states of availability generate different degrees of activation of desire. So do remember, desire is pressure to experience, pressure to INVOLVE I will say as a better term. What overlays that you're conditioned to feel a response via the Shen through will determine WHAT you feel pressure to involve in. The "passion" is basically this necessity to see through the pressure to its end, into a meaningful release of that pressure through fulfilling involvement. Fulfilling involvement is impossible if the Shen is unanchored in the yin, or blood of the heart.

Read that again.

The desire CANNOT be satisfied EVER without the generated activation being BALANCED in the blood to anchor and ACTUALLY OPEN UP the ABILITY to satisfy. Right? You CANNOT satisfy desire (really is to live in a balanced way and not that "it's over" where you don't feel desire at all) unless it's activated in balance. Imbalanced heart yang leads to obsession. You CANNOT EVER live in "the state of the wish fulfilled" while you're still holding conditional overlays, fundamentally. Why? Because there's STILL excess/empty heat agitating the Shen, because it's CONDITIONED. The satisfaction IS the balance, the condition IS the imbalance. Heart fire I believe from my experience and study of TCM mechanics deeper have recognized this likely to be the phenomena I've been talking about for many years now where "an anchored Shen" brings luck, or what seems like it. You aren't often conscious of this, and you'll say "I did nothing else" just as NG says "don't lift a finger" and yet you still are, even IF it's JUST the field geo doing the talking. That's the thing. The heat CANNOT EVER be satisfied without a balanced yin to anchor that heat into. This IS desire, though "balanced" and available desire we could say is actually just activation of the Shen through a balanced supply of anchoring yin. You are activated but not floating or agitated in excess heat.

I experienced a floating Shen for many many years, and I know exactly what that's like and how it physically manifests in the body as somatic sensations, emotional agitation, stagnation and obsessions. It's stemming from accepted conditional access, where you will still need to seek release but it cannot be satisfied meaningfully because you'll ALWAYS be looking in from the outside instead of actually involving in the meaningful ways without pressure of compromise to conform to expectations or anything. There's always an air of anxiety. This anxiety is the biggest issue, because it's a lack of safety. A lack of safety from the kidney will cause the Shen to be agitated 100% of the time and lead then to the heart meridian being conditioned and become out of balance AS A DOWNSTREAM EFFECT. It's UNLIKELY the heart will be immediately impacted since the heart protector or pericardium takes those blows as a buffer, but that doesn't mean repeated exposure cannot wear down the function of it. This is then what leads to obsession (in most cases), a fundamental lack of safety as a conditional availability of supply and that leads to compromise, hiding behind the glass wall to look in on it but never to fully involve to a way that's nourishing. You will become obsessed because you've prevented yourself from seeing the conditional access and cutting all the way through that conditional overlay. This IS WHY getting real as I say is NECESSARY to change states for those who are obsessed, because the function is that psychological clarity opens naturally to restore the kidney to then support the Shen. Even if someone physically appears "strong" from a kidney view with lots of growth physically, that doesn't mean the subtle channels aren't warped.

What really matters is that safety is established, through recognizing the threat and assessing it correctly over the time you've experienced it compared to now, and in that awareness dropping the necessity to continue to buy into it. This is assuming you're not living in an abusive situation because this will not work in those cases, been there done that. I lived in an environment where I was attacked daily and you CANNOT just sink charge in those places. Sinking charge in a way that's NOT doing what I just said above, as in accessing the context of the threat perceived and sinking the necessity of it to be bought into, then you're just coping otherwise. You need to apply sinking charge in this way, not just to relax mindlessly but to target what NEEDS relaxing, what needs agitation cut through by correctly assessing threats that are felt as still present. You do that pathway work every time you assess the situation you're in. This is why when you're actually under threat sinking charge will lead to further cope, because you're INCORRECTLY assessing threats in that place and will lead to further abuse. Fact. Got years of data to back that up, and NG always spoke of not repeating those states, so "imagining" your way out of it is impossible effectively. The way you get out is BY CORRECTLY ASSESSING THREATS and uprooting trauma bonds where you're rooted to the crumbs of safety I was talking about before and are deluded by the light like a moth to flame which will get burned every time.

If you're in that place, then you're still coping. Changing it requires massive amounts of hatred towards the situation and radical action, depending on how bad it really is obviously. If it's a highly controlling environment where you're threatened physically every day or are attacked in some way that's meaningfully preventing you from living functionally, especially if you're having dreams about fearful events or things related to safety on an existential level, then you MUST begin to cut through that by getting real with the state. In other cases where it's not in your face, address it correctly and sink charge. This will allow you to build yin to anchor the heat and allow satisfaction, the wish fulfilled.

All of the NG stuff is about establishing balance of currents, activation of the Shen in a balanced way where it's anchored in the blood of the heart and the kidney is firing in a balanced way to warm and yet also cool the desire in a functional way. Desire becomes naturally available. Naturalness stems from balance, not excess or lack or whatever. Balance involves activation of the currents but without being pathogenic, rebellious, excessive in activation, stagnating, or whatever other pattern. You can manifest physical signs of these emotional disturbances, where the conditional overlay can become a pathogenic current manifesting physically. The lack of safety and the trauma bond can lead to manifestations of kidney heart live lung digestion or any other issues. I've had them all it seems to some extent or another. I've had extreme anxiety where my whole body shut down and I ended up on a drip because my body was deficient after weeks of being unable to digest anything and my heart was agitated having dreams of dying and attacks multiple times a day, and breathlessness where I couldn't even lift anything heavy without my heart racing and my breath struggling to "hold" the air in and breathing would be very shallow. This all signifies my kidney qi was completely out of balance, and desire was burning from the heart fire, this agitated everything else surrounding it and destroyed my Jing. That's why my bone structure was warped, my development was stunted and other issues arose. I lost hair fast when I was in max anxiety phase and my teeth ended up shifting as I'm still resolving to this day. My whole body was breaking down as a result of buying into conditional access.

That's the reality of the "law of assumption" in a mechanical basis. You cannot ignore this. It's literally the link between explaining all the contradictions like not assuming specific things happening to you and yet things you assume you believe never do. It's all very predictable in this model. You just have to know the state, and in RS on a mechanical level, is the balance of the meridian systems relative to the innate supply of Jing So the only way that you can live correctly according to the innate thematic sequencing AKA living without conditional overlays on the unfolding of that Jing. The Jing IS you, in a capacitive sense, the form that's being destroyed every time you compromise and cope. This is where the power comes from. All currents in the field geo come from the Jing. Ojas in vedic systems apparently can translate to "on demand" and become a spontaneous release of vitality according to desire, or a NATURAL affinity or pressure to experience. Pressure is natural and necessary as a "compulsion" leading us along the bridge of incidents. The issue is when that compulsion is conditioned, unavailable and then we lead into coping.

So the ENTIRE model of NG is about this. Deconditioning desire. He fails to explain the details of how to lead yourself into that, and assumes you seem to know how to handle your conditional access, which is also why I say that the LOA interpretation of scripture cannot work as a true single doctrine because "just believe harder" is insanely dumb. You can argue that the whole immerse yourself into "what if" challenges the conditional overlay and actually "does" pathway work on a sort of unconscious level, but I will say that this is in my experience and in the testimony of most people, VERY unreliable IF that's what he's TRYING to get us to naturally do. I KNOW he played games with us in various ways, as I have gone over, by addressing specific conditions, but they're all so narrow and not specific to actual threats of safety and such that are necessary to be seen fully. This is why I will argue that anyone preaching LOA from this "persist through resistance" trash will make the client MUCH worse, because they will CONTINUALLY run up against that wall over and over until they get so depleted they either have an attack from it or they burn out and give up. I had attacks, because I had the fire and desire to persist, but it destroyed me, and that was my "shock" to do this work. Never forget that RS was born out of suffering, and only exists because of that. Nothing else would've made me do this. It was BECAUSE I saw errors and conflicts that this exists. Nothing else.

So how do you decondition threats breaking down the stability of the Shen? Look at it in the eye, even if you're afraid, and dare to see it as below you. NG spoke about this many times before as well, but never applied it to specific psychological states, it was always just an abstract idea with no specific application. AKA he was sweet talking people into following an idea that they believed would work when he couldn't tell them how to apply it to their own state. That's the issue. The specific condition MUST be seen all the way, recognized as a non threat, and that the conditional availability of the crumbs and conforming to expectations to get a sense of safety is the trap that's being played to keep you locked into their control. This is WHAT we're deconditioning from.

Remember it's not JUST that, but that's a common thing I find. Having done TCM analysis on most of my recent clients, a lack of safety shows up a majority of the time as an underlying root. Taking tonics to surface this has helped some clients of mine immensely, to the point of being life changing in some instances.

Desire stems from kidney yang, as the fuel, the heart as the psychological thematic association to the Jing, and the liver to generate a smooth supply that's consistent. Liver often relates to a theme of consistency and reliability and availability that's broad and long lasting without stagnating. Kidney is like the underlying fuel to spark by the Shen when the correct stimulus enters the mind. When kidney yang is excessive you can get signs of someone with insane TEST levels, basically, since kidney yang and TEST relate VERY closely. I'm talking someone with like TEST over 1200ng/dl free. So we're talking 700-800ng/dl as what would be considered balanced and healthy. Lower is deficient, for men at least. Women relatively are much lower in quantity that would be considered balanced, because of the yin yang polarity. So heart fire is then desire and obsession via conditioned access. I don't think that the Shen CAN have excess activation WITHOUT that, unless we're talking about a biochemical activation and not a psychological one. All of my Shen analysis is through a psychological lens, and since there are substances you can take that will amplify heart qi then you can technically surface obsessions more via using these substances. I will not talk about that here, because that's not within a coaching frame where I can be responsible for your application and have follow up post application. This is a psychological view of excess heart activation where the Shen floats or is unanchored or is stagnant and agitated in blazing heat even if it is anchored in the same spot. The Shen can also sink, but this is often due to a true deficiency, though you CAN also manifest what's called false heat, where you can appear to be vital but really be depleted at the core Jing and it's ONLY obsessions of the heart and the stagnations of the liver keeping you going. You're burning up and will age very fast like this, even if you seem to be vital in terms of activity of mind and body. Been there done that too, I've had false heat where my kidney was deficient and yet my heart and liver and even spleen were full of current and I had bounding pulse and all that which would indicate high qi but it's actually a severe root deficiency that's just floating upwards away from where it SHOULD be anchored.

TCM is way more complex than you think, and there's so many ways to explain what obsession is and how it can be outlined on a mechanical level. All the branching cascades of effects can come from so many roots, but in most people it'll go back to conditional access to natural striving. Simple. Unless there's a root biochemical disturbance or you're poisoned or actually starving yourself and deficient on nutrient then it's all going to be psychological as to the cause, then branching into physical issues. The people who claim manifestation healed their physical issues are applying it from that level, not from poisoning or starvation. If you're poisoned or starved then no psychological shift will help you. Your assumptions are irrelevant. If you drink a cup of cyanide you will die 100% of the time no exceptions. Just like if you're shot in the head with a .50 you will die 100% of the time. Facts are facts. If you get crushed under a massive rock and go splat, you're dead. You see. It's no game. Nobody in those above scenarios survived to tell the story of how their assumptions changed their reality. They simply wouldn't end up in those places.

The bridge of incidents and the compulsion stems from these thematic currents in supply/demand, push-pull. You will alter the availability and thus alter the way you view reality and then in response the way reality views you. Subtle signals ARE a thing, though they'll happen only when they're going to happen as a function of ripeness and nothing else. Any so called spiritual experience is either pathogenic current surfacing or genuine insight as ripeness surfaces. That's it. Spiritual reality as we're marketed isn't really a thing, as someone who's been through all those levels myself over a decade now, I can tell you that 99% of that is nonsense when you break it down. There's ALWAYS a story of truth within there, to some level, but the mechanics that led to that are NEVER what they claim. The experience of being outside of yourself is very real, though not as what you think it is. 90+% of the time it's pathogenic in what you're experiencing and leads to no real expansion. I've spoken to a client last week who went through all of that and agreed with me even though they don't know my take on any of that. Funny.

So anyway, balance is what we need to establish. Balance is the state of the wish fulfilled, which as I've recognized in his method, is a deconditioned acceptance of underlying desire, natural striving. It's not subjective, it's there already objectively and you're allowing yourself to accept what you've been conditioned to throw away. You're recollecting that part of you by deconditioning the expectation to compromise on that part. This way, obsession dies off, stagnation and frustration and all that dies off, passivity and lack and this empty depressed feeling dies off, you feel activated but BALANCED. You're anchored but activated. You're not LOOKING for it in an OBSESSIVE way, where you're fixated on that thing alone, which the ONLY reason why is because you're not allowing yourself to feel safe to have it. Really that's it, if I'm honest. The entire parental rescue fantasy idea in relationships is in every SP obsession. Someone wants saving, where someone can make them feel safe and seen, because the parental conditioning from their own family denied those things and since we will always need that to be psychologically functional, then the rescue fantasy is what everybody fixates on. Keep in mind, that I'm talking about someone meeting specific needs here, as a rescue, where someone can provide supply, and not just in a sense of someone literally fantasizing about being saved from something. The whole "sweeping up off your feet" idea in SP relationships CAN be a part of that, which I've experienced with one girl back near the end of 2016, which I wrongly involved with when I could've been with someone else then who was REALLY who I wanted but I wasn't able to accept her because I was conditioned and she THREW HERSELF AT ME but I STILL couldn't accept it. I literally had EVERY opportunity but I COULDN'T DO IT! I kept thinking about the conditioned responses from people around me and that prevented me to accept it. Therefore, I ended up going for what I thought I wanted but didn't, and it burned me because it wasn't sustainable. It CANNOT work. I got with someone who was still VERY good at igniting the fire but it was pathogenic, and the hard and fast experiences I had were NOT functional, despite being "intense" and what most people who look in from the outside would think they want but really don't. That was pathogenic excess current. That wasn't balance, I wasn't in fulfilled states. I was in lack, conditioned lack.

This is where we MUST look at our conditional access and see through it, where you will be disgusted by the lowly creature who bought into the trash you never needed to and you will then be able to decondition without compromise. If after seeing that you backslide, then you're simply not persisting in recalling that pathway cascade, and you're likely coping in surrounding ways in lifestyle or whatever else to draw you away from the pressure to expand. When you get real and cut that out, you'll manifest what you want. That's what works 100% of the time. I can say that with certainty, and having decoded NG fully, the only one who has mind you, then I KNOW this is what he taught. Imagination creates reality CANNOT BE imaginal senses create reality since people with aphantasia wouldn't manifest then since they cannot "think" with the imaginal senses. So it's concepts, ideas, stimulus of pathways and their thematic associations that are imagining. Activating psychological concepts and comparing them in the flow they'd naturally take determines the output. IF they're stagnant then you get frustration and fullness that can't go away. If they're excessive then you can get a similar thing but with racing activation instead of more of a "stuck in the box" thing where you feel like "everything is wrong" and whatnot. Excess is psychological different in the way of being more intense of a stimulus, more blazing and sharp and hard and all that. Deficiency is like a dim light, barely noticeable, You're sinking, existentially helpless, and you can't feel intensity for anything but a fleeting moment. It's the opposite of excess. Intensity isn't available. With excess deficiency isn't available. Stagnation is intensity born in a tiny bubble where you're fixated on it, instead of the entire mind and body being hyperactive so to say. It's localized hyperactivity, hyper FIXATED hyperactivity, since stagnation will typically manifest AS the heat LOCALISED, though stagnation isn't the only cause of obsession since heart fire can do that too, especially with phlegm fire where there's a crystalized format of availability that's all you see. It's like stagnation but very very specific to one idea. Stagnation, like liver qi stag, will come up from a variety of reasons, even if it traces back to a core compromise.

Welcome to the wonderful world of TCM integrated within RS. It's incredibly detailed how well TCM breaks down different psychological states. You cannot learn what I said above in any single book, because they always generalize in the TCM textbooks and often present symptoms on a physical level with very limited psychological aspects. It was only through my experience and interpretation of these things that I had to revisit and see patterns of HUNDREDS of times over to see it at all. This is why I'm a top coach, because I can interpret a client through this experience, which cannot be learned from any book or manual. I'm the only one who carries all this it seems, though I'm sure there's TCM masters who grasp even more than I do out there, they just haven't written on it, not that I'm aware of at least.

24/5/26

More dynamics of the polarities of currents and SP manifesting been explored today, and more after I wrote the entry yesterday. I observed my own currents more and the sensations under different stimulus over time. Did gazing with different stimulus too to elicit responses that made conscious more of these sensations too especially deeper in the lower jiao. I found that I believe the reason I got the overnight SP was through providing supply of kidney heart axis that was strong with sufficient enough liver qi. I believe liver qi flow makes the "transmission" work, through the kidney heart axis, and the satisfaction relates to this liver qi flow. I also believe the reason why guys who do seed retention can get girls messaging them who use to have them blocked is because of this very mechanism that works unconsciously when the currents are supplied. The mental level is just a surfacing of these currents to make conscious the state of their supply, nothing more. This isn't really what most people will believe or agree with in dumb dumb LOA NG space but it's how it works really. The symbolic experience I had that night was killing off the impact of my conditioning and establishing agency, my own decisions, and my kidney heart axis would've fired up for the first time in ages. Since she was targeted unconsciously regardless of if I thought about her, she showed up since I became a supply to "control" her, because I was in abundance of zhi for that time. That didn't last long since I still backslid and it didn't work out between us, as I've said before, but I proved that I was able to elevate my baseline sufficiently by doing the above method I've been writing out where you connect abuse to conditioned reactions and cut through the conditional access to desire.

What I also went deeper into again is seeing more levels of how kidney zhi (yang rooted in the yin) can actually move people who are deficient in it. This is most people by the way. Many of my clients I've diagnosed with zhi deficiency and they confirmed this after going to a TCM practitioner. I've also given formulas to certain clients who are deficient in kidney yang and provided them highly potent warming herbs and it came back and their conditional availability melted away. It's not all mental, though good luck getting the dumb goyim in LOA to care and pay attention because it's not stimulating. The reality is that she wanted me to control her, and that's the reason SHE showed up, and the reason why I targeted her as supply since the polarity could manifest this way. These mechanics are almost always WHY an ex would show up, because your involvement led to providing supply of those currents. Do keep in mind that heart plays a role, though only for the romantic types. The girls I ended up with were less into that fancy romance stuff and were more intense, which I preferred, but that's because of the affinity I had for conflict resolution according to my conditioning. I was looking for girls who were very sub, and because I was depleted on zhi I wasn't able to have anything work with them since I was operating from that depletion. They too were depleted on it as well, to enough of a degree that I picked up in their field geo manifest through their behavior that they'd play into what I wanted in supply, someone who would "let go" for me which was a projection of my own deficiency onto them. This, when I owned my own supply and dropped the root of control in my own life, then they came crawling back. This is why I experience these girls from my past randomly reaching out, because they CRAVE that dynamic, because they themselves were compromised as well. You'd never be able to tell without properly decoding their dynamics, and to be honest, I believe a vast majority of people do have imbalance in the zhi since it's a foundation of vitality supply especially in relationships and what attracts specific people to you.

This is also the reason YOU would be attracted to an SP. It's almost ALWAYS a psychological representation of the zhi or the Shen playing out unresolved conflicts. The highly romantic and dress up types where they're all fun and playful are the ones who got their Shen crushed and want to be swept up, even if they don't show signs of depression or anything. Sometimes the hottest girls out there carry unconscious conditioning relating to being seen, but it's played out so subtly that the probes they throw out will be the only way you'll pick up on it unless they tell you directly. The way they "test" people is an expression of this. How do I know this? Because I found myself doing it in my own case, and I also noticed certain girls I had history with would play a similar thing, often needing "reassurance" when they felt the conditional availability showing up. They didn't believe that they could have it, even if they were with someone who was giving it to them. This breaks the law as it's taught, because if you really pay attention to relationship dynamics you'll see it. You'll see it over and over and over and over and over. There are people IN relationships with people who they feel don't want them even if they are told that every day. I know this because I experienced it myself and probed for similar things at times, and I remember the sensations I felt in the field geo. It was the same or similar thing to the heart being deficient on yin and being in pathogenic heat, needing response from the anxiety. Probing happens in my eyes from someone who's in an empty heat false heat pattern. I had that, I had it in heart and in liver as well as kidney badly at times especially in my extreme anxiety phase. Triple whammy. I was lightheaded 99% of the time and could barely bend over either or I'd feel like passing out or I'd get out of breath. Nothing wrong on bloods, I had them tested and the docs said I was ok. It was not a biochemical issue, though I did have enlarged liver and spleen which indicated damp and stagnation was bad at that point, likely because my kidney and spleen were destroyed badly from all the anxiety I felt, so those physical manifestations stemmed from pushing my delusions further into consciousness instead of cutting through the conditional access.

You better be taking notes if you're reading this. You won't find it anywhere else.

So it seems that you CAN explain EXACT SPECIFIC psychological responses and the roots manifesting the sensations driving those patterns under a TCM lens. It's all there to decode. Nobody in LOA has the brains to figure that out, and having decoded most of it, knowing there's more, I believe it's 100% possible to create a diagnosis and restoration manual just using this model. This is what goes through my head when coaching, I don't need to think about anything else but these current dynamics to get a picture and hearing just what they tell me and their tone of voice is enough. I need to listen to my natural response more often, and trust it, because often I don't until it's later down the line and my first idea was always the first one that was right. Overanalyzing is easy with this, but that's where experience can help more than anything else. Knowing all the differences between patterns matters, else you'll wrongly interpret a case and provide an incorrect interpretation. Wrong moves are easy to make if you don't press for further confirmation in diagnosis. This is why I often ask about sleep habits and such since it's often a very clear indication of where someone is at. What time they wake up, when they feel vitality surface and the cycles of the timing of that will all bring awareness to roots. Most common time to wake up is around 1-4AM, or around 10PM if they sleep before then.

The coaches who preach mentalism are dead. It's over. There's nothing there that works. EVERYTHING works through THESE mechanics, no exceptions. ALL levels.

This is more advanced to grasp but I'll explain it simply. This is probably the most powerful practical insight you can have, When you identify the supply/demand dynamics between two people, you'll know how you move them. If you KNOW how you move them, the currents involved, and refer to examples of when they've conformed in a reliable basis, then you can be calm about when they don't respond because you'll know they've still got that baseline within them, provided they're genuinely not expanding rapidly which I'd say they likely aren't. They can seem to threaten your established dynamic in the moment but that'll almost never happen from my experience. Usually you're the one doing that. So in my eyes, when you KNOW the psychological dynamic of someone in if they Shen is weak or their Zhi is weak, you KNOW they'll ALWAYS come back and resting in that state where you're not anxious over them playing what SEEMS to be a polarity role allows you to genuinely not care and detach.

I will say this actually goes beyond NG SATS by a lot, and is arguably the only method that exists. Revision is pathway cascade exploration. Whenever you do what I just said above, you're doing revision. The psychological state of the wish fulfilled IS what I just said above. EVERYTHING is that. ALL results come through that. You're operating from pathways that recognize availability of supply/demand, thus you don't NEED to react.

I just had a fleeting thought manifest. Literally one I had last night is manifesting right now

26/5/26

Man we've got another mirror date.

So pressure mediation. Talked about this before. Suffering is imbalance. Excess, deficiency, stagnation. Pressure to restore balance.

I looked at how I changed beliefs in different ways, where I left behind old ideas and such. It always came whenever I recognized I no longer needed to stick to something as true. I felt and saw reason of what wasn't working, and moved into what did.

I consider intelligence, pattern recognition, and being able to "think outside the box". Unique insights that stem from ones own built comparisons to see what works and what doesn't. It's a sort of innate view that can see one point from various boxes at once and "feel" into what works or what doesn't based on how the currents are felt as excess deficiency or stagnation. These sensations reveal truth, according to the processing we do, based on the already available and established views we have to compare these ideas to.

Basing an entire system of belief off a single example of something appearing to be true is bad pattern recognition. These people believe truly that this must be a fact because it was so stimulating. Basing belief off stimulus is not intelligence, nor is it recognizing patterns. If that sensation you feel moves you into genuine success and satisfaction then it CAN be a fact, for YOU, though that's not meaning in a systematic study that you'll find that single data point to hold water when put under the microscope.

What I've seen is that when it comes to safety, and manipulation, the spleen or earth is always to some extent involved in the enforcement of that pattern. How? Simple. This is what relies on the kidney to be warmed to be able to transform and transport fluid, and dampness stagnations, crystalized patterns of dysfunction and obsessions. If you read my earlier posts in the notebook about this you'll see that I spoke about how all "self cleaning" so to say is done through the spleen, earth element. It's enabled to work via water. Water actually is what makes earth functional, not fire, because within water is the fuel for the fire that burns within the water itself. Jing raises and catalyzes into yang, the gate of life, minister fire. This stems from water and cascades into fire, fire not being source since fire isn't the source of Jing itself but that fire requires the water to run. You could say the fire is the spark for the fuel of water. Without either nothing really works but in TCM terms it's the fuel that we deplete over time not so much the spark itself. The spark of fire isn't what we lose in aging but the fuel by which the spark runs on to create warmth for the whole body to run.

So my point. Without earth you really don't transform safety limits and delusions of false security. Believing that you're under threat when there's nothing there is stemming from a root kidney imbalance. Existential safety comes from kidney, and the difference between water imbalance and fire imbalance of the heart where the Shen resides is how water is existential function (Jing and genetic matrix) vs how fire is "ego". Someone who's got a depleted heart wants to remove their own life, vs the kidney where they feel existential safety that's under threat. The kidney water depletion is literally the fundamental core of all "unsafe" feelings. Anxiety often stems from empty kidney heat. Kidney heat often ends up causing what's considered a deeper more "underlying" anxiety that's constant and always running unconsciously warping how you view the entirety of reality. Very strong kidney fire that's from excess will be a massive unending drive to conquer the world and to eradicate anything that stands in your way. It's the most pure raw expression of will, which is what we need, since our collective safety is being threatened by disgusting filthy parasites called Jewish supremacists. Utterly abhorrent parasitic filth, words cannot describe. Every one needs to be tortured to levels unimaginable and make them scream in such agonizing pain that their screams will scream and beg for one moment of relief from a merciless onslaught of suffering beyond anything you can even comprehend. That's what lights up my Shen, I felt a rise of fire writing that. It feels so powerful. You have no idea the things I'd do to these people if I ever got my hands on them. YOU HAVE NO IDEA!

Anyway.. Kidney meridian is actually able to be restored to function through earth, which is intellect, logic, thought and pathway work. Isn't that interesting. Wu Xing speaks of the governing and destructive cycles, and other cycles like the generative cycle. I work with the generative cycle with clients when I provide tonics as substances to consume, most of the time. I don't' go to direct tonifiction because as someone who cannot do pulse diagnosis or anything, it's very risky to prescribe herbs for someone who I cannot be 100% certain would require that exact formula. It's not something I'd do since it's irresponsible, and so I work the generative cycle as a means of restoring balance, as well as the governing cycle which some clients who I give qigong to can benefit from specific elemental forms. When the kidney is depleted and weak and requires tonification, then the earth can unlock levels of that which otherwise would be locked up in a sense behind walls of delusions. Earth becomes the means of destroying delusions when kidney requires tonification, and pathway work can provide an acute supply to these elements to work that overlap.

We need kidney fire (functional) and that's coming from logic and reason, and thematically associated stimulus. Anything that furthers existential survival will activate that current, and reason can establish activation. Pathway work, through comparing states. This is WHY pathway work is a thing that works, and why all psychological insight stems from pathway work done consciously or otherwise. It's pathways activating surfacing the insights via earth, through the vision of the hun as the thoughts and images that flash in the mind and move the Shen from that activation. Pathway cascades.

Anything that's going to "fire you up" is more or less an activation of the Shen via the heart. There is a difference between heart activation vs pericardium activation. The pericardium feels more localized to the chest where the heart radiates upwards and that's where the "floating" comes from. The fire flares up and can cause the head to feel warmed in response, a red face can also come from passionate expression. It's all felt.

What's the feeling of the wish fulfilled then? Somatically how do these things work? Well it's ANY sensation, as I've said over and over. Reading NG specifically, he never defined the "feeling" as anything specific in a repeated basis. he made examples at points but it was 90+% open to "what would it feel like" and THAT is the answer. The deconditioned acceptance of leading the pathways/currents into a state of being that's not deluded by false conditions is what that feels like. It can be anything, literally anything. Not relaxation, as I've experienced. It's thematic supply/demand, so even pathogenic current can manifest specific people. It all works. It's just that only a certain pathway cascade represents fulfilment of the wish. Deficiency of heart yang closes in this expressive current from being warming radiating and raising to be sinking and shallow. It's like a sinking pit falling down into the other meridians below, and that's not where the Shen belongs. When it sinks it wants to die, suicidal ideas come out of this place. This is because the psyche has accepted no way out, no way of being seen, no way of being known, the ability to relate is cut off, and the conditional overlay of something going wrong may be the catalyst for that. That's different between kidney yang where the will to survive dies, off, not that your life loses value but you accept less, you don't proverbially penetrate life with your will. Your will and vision dies off. That's what dies, you enter passivity mode where you're depleted and cannot drive forward with passionate expansion. You're able to compensate to SOME degree with the heart yang but it will ALWAYS be fickle and burn out quickly when spent since it's not a consistent supply. The liver qi can stagnate and become "thick" since the warming catalyzing metabolic fire dies off from the kidney being depleted. This is why TEST and kidney yang are almost identical. TEST is the hormone of youthful vitality, virility, fire and desire to "penetrate" life with your will. Literally that's what it does, its function is to expand you as the source of necessary pressure. Without TEST there's no pressure to WANT to expand. That's the difference between those who get lots done vs you, you're just weak and depleted on base fire. Mental fire, heart fire, is NOT the same thing. It can seem to be lined up but it will always falter and you will always end up back in the dip. This I believe is actually where most of the peak dip comes from. Excessive heart activation, either through pure excess fire or through empty heat being set up via overstimulating your Shen with mindless cope manifesting methods. They destroy you.

So again, how does the wish fulfilled fit into this? Simple. I said before at the start of the entry today. There's no compensation for depleted kidney yang. You cannot hide it. You will be a weak pathetic wimp and have no real deep stable reliably available sense of security to involve in life. That will is weak and comes and goes and depends on the outer world to stimulate it. It's not driven from innate vision, because you're so weak. You are weak. I lived in this for years, prior to 2017 I had enough of a supply of this that I had unending vital drive, but it was conditioned, as high as it was. When you're growing up as a guy and you're 18 then you're an unstoppable force. You're literally a tank walking in this world able to be moved to do anything imaginable. The moment that fire of competition dies off then you lose that infinite drive. I can feel my head warming up and tingling writing this so my heart is activating. This is What I felt back when I was 14 and thought there was something wrong with me, but no it's simply the activation of passion, drive, expansion. That's what "being fired up is" but without that basis of kidney fire you cannot act on it and it remains unfulfilled. The wish fulfilled therefore must be an accepted unconditioned availability. It's when the supply is available and unconditioned. If you're unconditioned but in depletion then you will still not manifest what you want, because the thematic current is weak.

Vitalism is how manifesting works. It's how life works. It's life itself. The meaning of life. Believe it or not, most of that can be reduced down to biochemical responses, and their intelligence of operation and organization follows the fractal field geo of the meridians which is aetheric and subtle but "guides" the arrangements of chains of bions and such to form organic structures. Organic structures integrate within each other, much like how we must have a microbiome in order to have earth function within our field geo. The billions of bacterial forms in your digestive tract comprise part of that, a symbiotic relationship. Process within process, and we cannot ignore this observable function. The TCM abstractions don't necessarily point to a spiritual realm, more so that the spiritual realm is what's between the biochemical material, the structural intelligence which is built into the nature of reality itself. God. Vitality as a capacity of organization. Process within process. Energy. It's what I've pointed to since 2019 when I recognized that movement of the aether is what manifests vital current. Movement of the prime medium and substrate is intelligence itself. The whole "mind of God" comes out of this, self recursion was a principle based on points of input process output process, repeat, and that's conscious processing of stimulus according to available supply relative to expectations of yourself and the world. These functions of referencing self and the world external seems to be not a psychological function but a function of vitality itself, which can be reduced to aetheric wave interferometry operating at different ratios of frequency, hence "divine proportionality". Feels good to stretch my legs in that realm again.

Cope coaches are ignorant morons who make up everything for profit and other useless trash. Telling yourself you have what you want will activate a depleted Shen, but if it's not sunk then you're going to eventually lead to excess or empty heat and that will lead to anxiety and peak dips, and eventually bad sleep patterns and other disturbances. The cope coaches are ignorantly on everything manifesting mechanics. Get schooled. The truth is that 99% of people who watch my videos, even if I spoke these facts about somatic associations between the meridians and how we experience peak dips 99% wouldn't grasp it. I know that because of how dumb the comments are, and my responses back in the day wasted my time and theirs. They have no interest in understanding the functions, yet they'll keep getting stimulated and worsen their low state of heart heat. If you experience "heat" in the chest or head or anything when you say what you want is yours now then you're in pathogenic delusion and you're not in the wish fulfilled. That's going to manifest outcomes with people who are looking for emotionally fragile people who cope and have no basis in truth of their innate needs and visions. You don't need the approval of these fools.

Fools everywhere. Not an assumption, just people who are deluded because they've been taught stimulating their Shen is manifesting from the end. Nonsense. That's what keeps you locked into cope and manifests signs. Trash. There's no way around that. You MUST cultivate root kidney yang, balanced, and then stabilize the Shen through gazing and fasting from the world, provided you're not liver qi stagnant or have lung qi deficiency. I've seen both of these patterns manifest pathogenic results when advanced gazing is done. Clients I've spoken to over the years get very fast results with advanced gazing when they're in the right setup to surface what's necessary in that space and lead the pathways into higher states of acceptance. It will be through the spleen and liver moving the Shen, catalyzed through pressure in the kidney that advanced gazing seems to unconsciously "build" up during the session nd cumulative sessions leading to then the "explosion" up your spine into the Shen being moved into insight as the currents of fire and water conjugate out of ripeness and not forced stimulation. I've experienced this more times than I can count, and often that'll manifest a "non physical experience" as you feel the current raise and move the Shen and activate it. If the Hun us ungrounded in the blood then it can float up and overflow and spill over the visual or auditory representation into the imaginal senses and manifest non physical sensations with your eyes open. That's where this takes you. It won't work unless you're lined up and ripe. No ripeness means no insight, only pathogenic cope.

Wish fulfilled, the "feeling" that's the apparent secret is acceptance of deconditioned desire, which can even be pathogenic current, believe it or not. It can be pathogenic but only barely. The baseline level of nourishment will be FAR more available than not, and in that availability on the current level (ripeness) then you'll end up being in the place to decondition the acceptance instead of that current ending up as stagnation like liver qi stagnation or heart or lung stagnation where you try to cry and can't. Do not mistake heart fire for kidney fire. They are VERY different. When you're GENUINELY "aroused" for life, where your will is under pressure to express, in ANY way, then it will come from a deeper warmth than the fire that raises into the head from the heart. It will be visceral and more isolated in your lower body. Damn the filth that think they can eradicate our light kind. Kill them all off without mercy. Shred this filth and tear them down into particles of dust. Merciless fury. NG talks about killing a man as always a false desire. Yeah right. According to NG, self defense shouldn't exist. Cope trash. Every thematic has a place in consciousness for function, as well as dysfunction. Tear the filth to shreds. No compromise. Do not be moved by the heart but by the kidney. Learn to differentiate. This is what separates those who act with will vs those who fantasise. It's HORMONES YOU FOOLS. Kidney yang drives "compulsion" and moves you through the bridge. The compulsion NG speaks of it literally kidney yang and a deconditioned heart. That's where it all comes from. The will is the acceptance of the wish fulfilled with a clear heart. Fire-water axis. I've been over this SO MANY TIMES NOW and I keep coming back so I must be on the target. Refinement is constant and yet these threads never sever.

Grasp all that. Get it in your head. Remember, it's not exclusive quantity but quality of ratio relative to yin within that quantity. The zhi, the will, requires yin to anchor into just like the Hun and the Shen are housed in the blood. The will requires the kidney Jing to be strong which is baseline vitality. You need ENOUGH in correct proportion to manifest the natural "compulsion" which IS the supply/demand drive that moves you and the people involved and targeted into action. You involve within each other and it manifests via those mechanics. Genius. It's Zhi, water intelligence, overlapping the Hun, visionary and consistency of supply and planning intelligence, with then the Shen, the spark of passion to BE "moved" via the will of the water. The will moves you, not the passionate spark of the Shen or the planned vision of the Hun. That cannot manifest radical shifts. My experience was that the girls which I manifested VERY FAST wanted to taste my kidney Zhi when it was in supply, and that's the vital current that mediated involvement and lust on their part to overlap and become one. Overlapping their fire and water with my fire and water. That's what's going on, always was. Love is fire-water axis, the same as innate desire. Love is stimulus of kidney fire overlapping spark of desire via the heart. Heart targets the SP, kidney fire thematically associates supply, and will moves you into involvement. If supply is available then you're in the bridge without even consciously doing any "techniques". All these idiots who preach techniques are depleted on will and their Shen is either overstimulated and heavily conditioned or sinking and isn't able to accept being seen because they were abused.

Writing this program becomes more and more challenging because it'll involve going up against what everybody believes this works through and that's where everyone gets my work wrong. They try and interpret my work through the LOA mentalism lens. IDIOTS! They cannot get it unless they burn it ALL down, and the cope coaches need to get systematically schooled. Running out of time. It's all closing in on necessary action. compromise cannot work. So much cope everywhere. So much ignorance, weakness, conditioned access. People need to accept their innate striving for vital experiences. RS is vitalism. Always was. Kill off the mental trash. The mind swims in the field geo and only alters the point of focus. That's it. Observation of patterns of dysfunction and then the intellect can be useful and functional instead of getting in the way. The spleen has a use, the mind HAS USE but it's not in the way they say it does. Imaginal senses don't make it work, the imaginal senses are ONLY used in the NG doctrine to move currents via symbolic representation of availability which leads pathways into ripeness surfacing. You're either coping when you do imaginal stuff with the imaginal senses or you're breaking boxes and moving forward with deconditioning your trash. How do you break the box. You accept that you're delusional and don't need to be anymore by seeing how the delusion has screwed your life over. Being immersed in the wish fulfilled as it's commonly taught cannot happen without deconditioning IT in the first place. It being the wish fulfilled, the correct natural striving desire. You must decondition it first, else you'll empower the trash further by buying into the story of what the conditional overlay means is unavailable. Screw ALL the trash that says otherwise. ALL The "course in miracles" type work out there is literally a compilation of "challenges" for different stories. That's it. It's LOGIC applied to feelings of unsafety or whatever, and frames the limitation in a light where it seems stupid to follow. That's all there is to this, in most cases at least. Establish safety of the kidney Jing, where the will/Zhi resides, and then allow that to come THROUGH you as natural affinities for the experiences you'll move into and will draw to you. The currents do the talking, not your mind. The thoughts translate via the currents into stimulus in their meridians that correspond which generates a "spark" which they will feel and then think accordingly for. Guess what. If you're not in supply of that relative to what stimulates their reaction to respond to your supply then no matter what you think you'll ALWAYS be deficient.

School ALL the fools. Logic wins, because logic is how safety gets established, provided you allow yourself to apply logic without avoiding it. You have to look at the fear and see how your delusions about it are causing it, unless it's actually a real threat, in which case kill it off with swift merciless fury. We really cannot avoid the reality that all functions have a place, a time and a place, all of them. They all exist for a functional purpose when they're operating out of balance. Delusion is imbalance of these functions, especially of the kidney and heart. Spleen can also sometimes cause excessive self analysis in delusional ways as well,

Do not confuse stimulation of the Shen with feeling powerful and in the wish fulfilled. You are deluded. This is the most powerful teaching of RS above all else. Fact. An excessively simulated Shen is the delusion that 90+% of LOA cope coaching believes is functional when it's mostly pathogenic heat activating and making the balance worse where temporary weak and fickle sense of safety will falter the moment that stimulus fades. The kidney is still weak, and the Shen is still overstimulated and unanchored. Water-fire axis. That's where the magic happens. Kill everything else off. Kill it all off. Mercilessly. Don't get simulated with fire, just act. Learn the art of having "aura" which is having a stable Shen, anchored in the blood and safe through the Zhi being in abundance. Grab life and move it with your Zhi. Don't be moved. Cultivate vitality, physically nourish yourself, common sense. How do you cultivate Zhi? You physically nourish your vitality with nutrition. That's where hormones are built, not through the Shen being stimulated. Get real. You will never be high vitality with an excessively stimulated Shen. This is why when you're stable and not stimulated, that "unexpected' outcomes can show up, because you're not always in the heat of being activated and stimulated. That's why fasting from the world helps with luck, since the Shen is more stable. Damn all the trash that preaches nervous system reg, and all the "somatic body work" without understanding the nature of thematic current in the meridians. We schooled them all. ALL of them are ignorant fools who need to get schooled without mercy and embarrassed to change this space and I'm the only one who can do that it seems. Get real.

My girl gets juiced up just thinking about the Zhi I carry. Any suggestion of contrast stimulates that response for her desire to "let go" and accept being moved, being "controlled" by the Zhi in a way that's deeply satisfying because it's another experience of symbiosis and not parasitism where it's just one depleting the other. That's how I manifested any girls in the past, it was through supply of that Zhi, to ENOUGH of a degree where they wanted the relative supply I had to "control" them with my will. My will "overpowers" their will because they WANT to be moved, and their "juice" gets stimulated just thinking about "letting go" WHICH IS a release of the existential pressure to be IN CONTROL on their part to surrender that to me, or whatever. Welcome to real "desire" and what most think love is, which is an activation of relatability and release of pressure to surrender the Zhi. WELCOME to the REAL vital current of masculine essence. That's why leadership is really the highest example of that, since it's a direct manifestation of will taking over, and why status contributes to aura if correctly cultivated and anything else that suggests availability of will that's potent. That's HOW it works. All the cucks are depleted and conditioned weak pathetic wimps. Cultivate the Zhi. Move them. Manifest the SP and garner respect from the men around you. Uplift them via being a supply. stimulate them into looking at their delusions as a suggestion of supply for a higher state. Vitalism is raw and real and not mental it's a visceral potent and highly stimulating yet anchored and grounded way of experiencing reality and manifestation, the way we always had capacity for. Coping is keeping the Zhi and the Shen depleted. Will drives raw visceral attraction, Shen drives relatability romantic fantasy story stuff where it's a mental ride into the sunset. There's a sense of that heart activation in the romantic side, and yet it ALWAYS culminates in the Zhi being overpowered and moved by the other. ALWAYSSSS. Fact. The Zhi matters, the kidney yang matters, and the unconditioned Shen matters for free unconditioned acceptance of where that wants to move and be moved.

There's no magic to LOA. The only way to manifest experiences where someone will give you their will is if you have it in supply. If you have no Zhi then you cannot manifest those experiences, not in any meaningful or satisfying way at least, since your depletion of yin and or relative yang will lead to an immediate sinking or dip in response since you just depleted yourself further by buying into the lower state. If you want a fire girl to worship you then cultivate the current and stop being a little kid who's needing parental approval to be that way. You've been conditioned and accepted being small and weak and pathetic. Fact. Own that and cut through it. The safety you wish you had, the eyes on you that aren't judgmental, the ability to "just be" without needing to perform and act according to expectations, or fear always being attacked for being wrong, all of that is because you gave your will away, and you accepted that you cannot relate unless those expectations are met. Kill that off. How? Drop the delusion that you ever needed to and persist. That's your wish fulfilled. Problem solved. Availability establishes as the currents cultivate.

I just had a track from back when I use to play competitive OW and shredded masters as trace and I was in flow state that was totally automatic. That was a fire-water overlap. I could feel my heart light up, that heat activated and it was driving all those responses. I know exactly what that feels like, and associating those sensations to the currents is massively insightful. Doing pathway work with these currents leads to massive insights as to the conditioning you've accepted. Kill it all off. You can absolutely transform all of it, easy. Just drop the needless stimulation according to reactions of unavailability and recognize the feeling of necessity is because of how you've been treated, leading into further deeper deficiency because you continued to buy into it without challenge. That's the big boom moment. Go all the way through that, see it all, tie up all those threads. You can see all of the history, the patterns of compromise, cope, accepting delusions, expectations, feelings that you're not safe, that you're being seen as the issue, bad, strange, weak, pathetic, it's all THEM not YOU. Cultivate the currents and you'll garner respect, Zhi, Shen, Hun, Po, Yi. All of the currents overlap and manifest a united psyche of abundant power beyond the disguising Jewish filth and spiritual mental doctrines that seeks to prevent this. Vitalism works, nothing else. Nothing else works. RS is vitalism that's practical and psychologically functional. The only integrated model of coaching that works because it works all the levels necessary to establish order. Doing it is the challenge.

Looking back at when I often triggered my parents HARDCORE where they'd attack me needlessly it was when my Shen lit up, and it threatened their control. I symbolically killed them off in my being where I laugh at their deluded trash they cope and hold onto that keeps them stuck in absolute suffering. These weak pathetic idiots cannot see the forest for the trees despite me showing them all of their unconscious expectations. Deny deny deny deny on loop like they ran a script that always had only a handful of words they could say in response. Cope harder fools. They'll die miserable and I will laugh without giving a damn. They had every chance, and they ran away every time out of fear of actually rebelling against their conditioning. they still have their source of conditioning on the pedestal, and I threatened their false identity they lived by, like the rest of my messed up family. They tried to keep me stuck in their box, operating from this lack where I needed permission to manifest anything I wanted. I felt FEAR EVERY DAY EVERY TIME I THOUGHT OF WHAT I WANTED. It destroyed my Jing, I wasted SO MANY opportunities, and yet that fire in my Shen, despite being depleted in Zhi, I kept going until the end because that vision to me was worth more than anything else in this world. NOTHING else compared. Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel every day, getting closer and closer, it didn't stop. Screw their ignorant trash, I proved all of them wrong and now I stand above their pathetic status as narcissistic manipulative trash. Get schooled. That's how I think about all this. They will not lower me to their pathetic level of depletion. The default responses I got every time was just always coming from the cope, the need to validate the safe corners and zones of their conditional access over getting into the core and dying, because dying was too painful because they'd need to leave it all behind. They couldn't accept the feeling of the wish fulfilled, because they were too scared of making their authority figures who conditioned them mad. They didn't observe their reactions, never tried, never was interested. I don't care then, stay conditioned and pathetic. If you're still holding onto these insanely delusional ideas that you can change these people then keep coping and see where it gets you. They will not change until you change, if at all.

The more I learned to not forgive them the better my life got and the more agency I claimed and the more attractive I became to people. That's how it worked, because that's where my cope was when I was compromised. Break the conditioning. Hate whoever you need to with merciless fury and own it. Do not do it from an overactivated Shen, do it from kidney Zhi being in abundance, the "imaginal" act implying the wish fulfilled. Decondition what you want from the expectation and own it.

27/5/26

Connecting sensation to meaning is state shifting through pathway work. Understanding sensation, currents moving, "emotion", will reveal where you're holding conditioned desire.

Liver qi stagnation. I felt this before. It's able to disturb the heart and generate a similar warming flaring sensation upwards into the throat and head, though it'll originate from below the chest. Heart fire in a vacuum will do this as well, but only in the chest at the origin. Kidney will be more whole body. Lung will be chest and throat, but it will be this sensation of the descending function being stuck. Lung descends, kidney ascends. Breathing in ascends, breathing out descends. If you're struggling to breathe in then it's kidney, if you're struggling to breathe out it's lung, though both can overlap too, but that's their main function.

Being mindful not to aggravate heart and or liver fire through excess or empty false heat patterns will lead to the kidney yin being able to bind those heat patterns and nourish the yin to establish a state of relative balance over time. For excess, actually moving that current and being active can dissolve the pressure instead of trying to relax more which can lead to further stagnation. This is once again why I can't come out and teach "just relax more bro" because that's not how this works. If you're in excess or in stagnation that's significant then relaxing can make it worse. Stagnations can be moved with logic if it's coming from false heat, though excess heat would be challenging. Remember excess is literally an excessive activation of that meridian, so those thematic characteristics are amplified significantly. If you're stagnant then that characteristic becomes "locked" into an activation that's unable to process fully. Deficiency is the lack of activation, though for kidney for example it's got an anchoring function for the qi and the yin to bind the pathogenic rising of yang, activation.

So here's the deal. Negate. If you're not deficient, then you must be stagnant or excessive. Dual deficiency and excess can exist in different jiao, for example lower jiao deficiency with middle jiao excess causing overaction on the upper jaio making the lung become depleted in response even though the lung itself otherwise is in balance without the lower and middle jiao causing issues. This is where the complexity comes in, because then anchoring functions and raising functions must be grasped, and if they're in a pathogenic arrangement. The best way to diagnose an unanchored yang current is where it originates and where it moves to outside of its place of operation. If liver yang raises and harasses the Shen through stagnation or even the stomach (which I suffered when I was with SP from lacking an anchor of liver blood and yin) causing further heat then you know it's currently expressing an excess but only catalyzed through stagnation and not a "full heat" pattern. It's stagnation generating heat leading to excessive activation. Remember excessive activation means the current that is housed in that meridian overacts and leaves its bounds. This is WHY frustration can lead to digestive dysfunction, anxiety, racing thoughts, or breathing issues. It's this very function being made manifest that it's designed to do but in a pathogenic excessive way where it's causing damage outside of its place in the field geo. You cannot have full heat typically without an overaction because yang always rises, unless a stronger anchoring force is available to bind that. So kidney qi when massively powerful in correct ratio with every other circuit can generate immortality, eternal youth, in theory. The currents MUST be available and IN BALANCE. The balance is what generates youthfulness and reverse aging. The substance restores the capacity for Jing to manifest as the structure it contains (like the seed becoming the tree) when the tree is well nourished. IF the tree is not well nourished then it cannot grow, and if it gets too much nutrient it can have issues, too much excess activation. You can get burned in too much heat.

I believe that many people who have liver qi stag, if they decondition the feeling of availability and sink into this (which is core desire) through functional charge sinking towards establishing balance by not buying into conditional overlays making the excess and stagnation worse, then they can result in the state shifts which manifest the outcome. Thematic supply/demand. The delusions fuel the fire that keeps the pattern of reaction to suggestion leading to stagnation and heat going without interruption. That's WHAT limiting beliefs are, really. They're not mental, though they can originate from mental stimulus and suggestions from the senses, but they will impact the field geo in visceral ways because of the thematic association to the currents housed in whatever meridian they're operating from. This is really WHERE the change happens, not in the mind, but in the condition of the field geo, which is WHY it "feels" the way it does when the mind is stimulated. The imaginal senses simply resonate the channels associated, and therefore you get a visceral reaction even if the thing isn't present in your world on a physical level. So the real use of imaginal senses is to stimulate and or sink charges to establish balance. The scene, and its implication, that's what determines the quality of the current when it's being focused. This whole idea about crowding out all lack with mental will is insanely dumb because someone who's got liver qi stag, kidney deficiency and heart blood deficient will get worse. This is WHY people get worse with manifesting methods instead of better, if they apply it wrong. It requires correct analysis of the currents, either through innate pathway cascades surfacing the conditional desire and to then sink into that or activate in a potent way, or through someone doing coaching and pointing that out.

The call I had yesterday revealed to me clearly that the client had no psychological disturbance but they were acutely poisoned on a trip they took and it generated the psychological disturbance they've been stuck with for 8 years. There's no way around that. If there's no obvious abuse pattern, then it's a physical poisoning or starvation and that can amplify subtle conditioning from prior to that acute moment and amplify it 100x over. This person had fainting spells, where they would have their Shen literally "fall out" from the heart and "deactivate" so they lacked heart qi or the qi got so stagnant but it wasn't met with anxiety and this feeling of being "locked up" or frozen before fainting because that's what you'd expect. They simply were exposed to some substance which depleted their heart so much that they ended up with an unanchored Shen which sank and fell out whenever they were under pressure. The qi wasn't able to keep the function of the consciousness going and so he blacked out periodically whenever pressure would surface. With someone in excess it would be opposite where they'd be delirious and incoherent and shouty and just unable to control the activation of the Shen. This person had depleted activation of Shen, they had the opposite where it was falling out under them and they blacked out even from small things. The kidney raising function was depleted as well, since they had lower back pains and weakness they told me about and they were young. This all associates then to a core warming function of the kidney qi being depleted and unable to communicate with the heart especially. Kidney in itself was in deficiency because of the pains and weakness and then the effect on consciousness was through the heart-kidney axis not communicating. It was a lack of activating upwards movement to the heart able to keep the Shen stable and housed in the blood where it would otherwise, due to deficiency of qi, fall out and sink and basically he'd lose consciousness. He didn't have suicidal ideas, so it wasn't a purely heart based pattern of qi depletion but more so a communication between kidney and heart on a raising and keeping the floor under the Shen level whenever a thematic concept that activated the kidney and the heart surfaced. The communication needed to be established, and so I provided methods for this.

That's one case example of someone who benefitted directly from this analysis I've been doing lately. They don't read notebook but whatever.

So since there's literally HUNDREDS of patterns that exist, it's almost impossible to write out a manual for all of them in any reasonable time.

We need to stop studying "beliefs" and start studying the link between psychological phenomena and somatic phenomena of the meridians and how they overlap as the same thing.

I just did an interesting test by focusing on my finger and then onto the wall behind me as fast as I could. I experienced a headache after about 3 minutes of doing this and my eyes feel strained. What does this mean? The headache is 100% liver yang rising into the head. Can't be heart or kidney and spleen and lung don't relate so. This proves my point, that these sense organs we have do connect to the meridians. Gazing. That's how the Hun overflows the Shen.

So resolving stagnations involves correct pathway work. It seems that's the primary means. The reason the qi locks up is because there's a conditional overlay "putting the lid" on natural striving. Unless that conditional overlay is seen as useless then the psychological roots never resolve. Ever. The deficiency cannot be restored fully with anything except nutrition, the vital currents must be cultivated and leaks plugged to aid. The only other way is to catalyze Jing through activating that meridian via pathway leading into involvement which stimulates and activates that current. Imaginal experiences CAN have SOME degree of impact here, at the cost of long term vitality. Excess can psychologically be resolved through simply discharging the current, burning energy. It won't permanently be dissolved with one cycle, though permanent dissolution requires a consistent leaving behind of the fixation excessively activating the meridian associated. This can require pathway work too, since just like stagnation there will be conditioning involved, but the means of permanent discharge of excess requires that this pattern isn't "bought into" which will flare up if accepted continually. Stagnation can seem to manifest like heat and excess too, though excess is more or less going to stem from an overactivated circuit which will pathogenically burn everything else up around it in time. Discharge through meaningful action will be the most powerful way to resolve this, such as FINALLY breaking a box of some kind that you've accepted is stupid and needless, which can also work for stagnation.

Writing this stuff out is way different than decoding someone live.

28/5/26

This is crazy. I believe that each tsubo has a composition of sub currents which are made up of overlapping waves of aether in a self recursive network that "bind" each point to the next according to the sequencing that the Jing unfolds. This is why the disgusting filth must be permanently eradicated, so that sequence cannot replicate.

If the Shen isn't supported by a foundation of Jing in the lower circuits then there's no power to back up movement of the mind. The mind moves qi with focus, yet if there's no qi to move then what's being moved?

All those fight animations I use to make in C4D back in 2016 through till like 2018 for fun embodied this fury I held. It's wild how these currents that seem to be pathogenic can become works of art. I made utterly merciless combat sequences back then it was wild. I just remembered that again, back when I was an infinite stamina hyper agile free flowing legend who never stopped to care. That juiced up whoever I wanted, despite having the physical flaws. They didn't give a damn. The BP guys can get schooled, they lack the damn fire that ignites the spark in their heart. That poetic flow of hypersonic speed embodied as a series of words on a page and a sequence of movement that captivates the crowed can come out of massive unprocessed abuse. Isn't that insane. That pathogenic state of Jing depletion led to experiences which normies would look in on from the outside and think that I believed I could have those things. I NEVER DID YOU IDIOTS! FREAKING MORONS HAVE NO CLUE! Manifestation is ALL DAMN THEMATIC SUPPLY DEMAND NOTHING ELSE..

There's literally nothing else, it's the thematic currents activating through suggestion of availability of desire, a pressure to immerse and involve within that thematic composition. All these idiots and morons and pea brains can get schooled. Screw all of them. All idiots. 100% of them. No care. No desire. No striving for excellence and higher function. No sacrifice for higher function. No death. Nothing but compromise and cope, while they live the life that what they preach had no bearing on success for. You can manifest without ever going through any conscious imaginal experience. Damn fools. Everywhere it's just the same trash all the same compromise. NG never taught imaginal senses create, outside of the suggestion they'd surface to move currents and establish breaks in dysfunctional patterning. Idiots.

It's always when I have my Shen light up in a powerful way, through some stimulus that resonates the napoleon in me that seeks to mercilessly tear my enemies to shreds particle by particle, that's when I feel drive to speak on camera. Nothing else does it consistently. It's all driven through the desire to destroy them and nothing else. Nothing else. Nothing else. Nothing but eradication of the trash. That's it. A living weapon of the intellect, moved to embarrassed and eradicate LOA off the face of the earth. It's wild, observing the state and how it all works through me, all the sensations, all the underlying expectations, all the thematic composition from the Jing and the innate constitutional affinities on a yang level. Just take them all down, tear them all to shreds. I saw a marketing email from "systematic manifesting" saying "Say "I AM" like you mean it". Yeah, stimulate the Shen you fool that'll screw over all the people with excess heart activation. Idiot. No voice to tear that down, because not everyone works with that. Whenever you put "passion" into something you're activating the heart, the Shen feels highly stimulated, it is moved, and you're going to fuel the fire of obsession over the narrow view driving that spark for involvement. The desire to eradicate the enemy is my common thread, the state necessitates that the Shen is highly activated, I can feel the warmth vibe the chest, up into my head, through my arms, legs, this tingling vibration that moves me without conscious intent. It's like this flowing movement of power that's not consciously driven but is able to be "pushed harder" through conscious intent to fuel that fire more. It's wild stuff. This fire can reach INSANE levels of power in me, you have no clue. It's WILD how powerful it feels when it's REALLY blazing. It's literally near manic, that's how it feels, it's crazy how unimaginably strong it feels, without ever having to think about anything of what would feel "pleasurable". Being in that state makes TCM very real, because EVERYTHING it predicts to explain that state of consciousness is all there.

The people with heart fire I find make dumb decisions. The ones in my coaching program who had this lied to me. If that one who was an addict, who is reading this, I know what you did. I saw 3 weeks after it came out. The file stuff. I've got eyes everywhere. Codes, so nobody else reading knows but you will. That's why I've not spoken since. So you're out IMO. No game. Keep blazing that heart fire, and in pathogenic ways. GLHF mate.

I was contemplating last night when I was doing advanced gazing about how I'd be if I never had heart activation of this intensity, that I'd still have that same intensity. I'd probably be a performer, just like I wanted to be back in 2018, and in my cope form which was denying that constitutional Yang affinity doing shiatsu as a pro. I feel that would've been more functional for my long term Jing cultivation and immortality, though it's not constructive towards change on the outside. People demand stimulation now, because they're so on fire. Whenever someone cannot sit still for long it's an indication of heart excess activation, the Shen is juiced up. The massive amount of time I've spent with this reveals that's an obvious outcome, not that I can't sit still for 3 hours in theurgy work but it's there. That activation is very integrated, not in a massively excessive manner, but that there's a LOT of qi that NEEDS movement. Whenever that's not moving then it becomes the spontaneous visions. Welcome to TCM excess heart activation. I don't get drawn into them, I see all of it, I get lucid in the dreams then wake up seeing the contents of that dream "pushed out" into my world around me for about 15-30 seconds. Just because you can "see into other worlds" with your eyes open doesn't mean you are. It's insanely dumb. People who think they're experiencing spiritual reality are fools without comprehensive experience.

I find SO MANY zooms have heart fire to some degree these days. It's wild. No point in history have a people been so manic, a whole gen. Watching how people behaved back in the 60's and earlier reveal's this obviously. People are SO UNIMAGINABLY TRAUMATIZED and it's all there. Liver yang excess isn't as common, to be real, even though every TCM text I read says so. My observation clearly reveals that anything which fuels the spark to ignite yet more fire will only further the momentum into pure lust for that current. It's in a very very different manner than most other forms of qi. It's very stimulating, but not in a sensory detail manner, it's like a powerful buzz in the heart that radiates through the body into the tips. All you feel is the necessity to burn that fire further, and not stop. You don't want to, because stopping that fire feels like you're dead in comparison. It's all brought about through intense passion for a vision. The liver qi isn't stagnant, else you'd feel massive fury and want to stomp heads mixed in. There's a difference between the drive for unrelenting violent force to destroy someone with the blazing fire of the liver yang vs the fire of the heart, which feels a different kind of intense. All of these currents are so powerful. They're all different states. All valid and have a place. All will attract those who are suggested availability of what's desired through you being that person.

The fire I felt when I was making those intense fight scenes, with more flash than these big budget anime fights, I felt that same current. That's when I shredded in TKD, I was a tank that was so mobile and was INFINITE in stamina. I'd freaking tornado kick these fools faces and then spring back up behind them to send them flying in the blink of an eye. No wonder I had these girls dying to show up. I had none of that Chad vibe but I was a highly agile machine, and that's something they didn't have, that stimulated a different affinity. The BP idiots are dumb morons who cannot apply reasoning to opposing views. That's just how it is, showing these pretty boy chads in videos where these girls literally fall over themselves and beg for marriage and children before they even know the name of the guy. Who cares, I had that too you fools. I had girls throwing themselves at me in even more thirsty ways when I was in that state. I spoke to one on Tuesday who had a similar story, with infinite stamina and vitality and was athletic and had girls thirst like you'd not believe. It's not even pure kidney or pure heart but your composition of those in sufficient enough levels expressed when nobody else would've expressed that in a flashy way. That flash IS MY LIFE THAT'S MY DOMAIN OF DOMINENCE. Back when I'd ride down the steepest of hills with one hand on the bars with my body stretched horizontally on a scooter and race these cars down while doing crazy movements and people would either think I was insane or I was a legend. Why so polarizing? Because it's supply/demand. None of it is wrong, because you'll always "manifest" someone who's looking for your supply and will be stimulated by it and want to involve. THAT'S WHAT'S GOING ON YOU IDIOTS THAT'S STATE SUPPLY/DEMAND. It's insane that you still don't get it. So stupid.

Explaining any of this requires a personal explanation on a call to your scenario. That's my domain no other coach in the world can do that, which is why I created the method to apply to destroy them. Too bad explaining the depth on video is next to impossible, other than saying generic things to wow people with fancy language. Fools. That current is just so insanely powerful, that heart activation. You cannot fake it, you cannot hide it. and yet more heart activation and more and more and more intensity will not manifest the SP because you'll end up in a relative excess. The dwelling state is the baseline composition of currents you dominantly live with. It's all just so insane. It's like whenever I think about eradicating the Jewish filth especially I get a mix of liver yang with heart yang overlapping into this wild current of epic proportions. Of course you can just sit with it until it discharges, but the ones who act on it make history. Does stability need to be had? Balance? Does action NEED to be made in balance to be functional? Well my experience says no, and I'd go so far to say that it's impossible and beside the point. The RETURNING state should be as balanced as possible, but waiting and hiding and playing these stupid dumb games trying to contemplate on decisions in every case will lead you to embodying a state where the hot girl you want to drive around and overlap space with will want to run. You won't stimulate the right currents and suggest availability of innate desire. You'll just be bleh, but some I've heard seem to want that too. It's wild because there's also some who want a deficiency pattern, to be like an anchor for their excess in a sense. They won't know WHY they want that on an unconscious level but they'll find the quiet ones to be the ones they want, and this destroys the trash about manifesting SP and ACTUALLY CONFIRMS WHAT NG SAYS.

You KNOW that NG said the state determines the result. Guess what, the state is the relative supply/demand suggestion that your consciousness operates through. It's just so crazy every time I think about it. The NG "infinite states" is these different compositions of currents. Desire is already done, because the receptors already exist in you and the other. The one mind works the same way. Thematic supply/demand. All fools who preach spiritual doctrines. They cannot ever explain this. The spiritual idea of evolution always points to a highly abstract experience which still must operate within these currents. The field geo does transform, but the immortality side of this work always requires working with the exact same functions that everyone has access to. You don't gain more receptors in reality, even though in THEORY you would, but it doesn't SEEM to apply that way, having been through the depths of this work. The ones who preach cope as a signal for "higher consciousness" in this "non attachment" state of being completely in control of the Shen is an Asian eastern specific interpretation it seems of what Deo is experienced as. Greek interpretation wasn't pointing to such a view, nor was Egyptian. All these ancient mythos interpreted through the alchemical view, which tend to have thematic overlap, they are said to be the keys to immortality and yet they'll more or less lead you into the abyss of cope in most cases. The whole higher consciousness states, having spoken to the alchemist who's demonstrated age reversal, is STILL illiterate on various points of consciousness and still fails to interpret scripture systematically in some points. I have yet to find an equal, but that's the thing, where's my point of comparison to learn more from? Where's my anchor? Where is it??? Helloooo?? There's none. It's just me and RS vs the ignorant fool coaches, and yet I still require full complete integration of all of these points in order to have a truly 100% or near 100% success rate.

I know WHY the heart in me is so powerful. My mum suppressed this in me like nobody else. It was a threat to her, because she was denied it too. She holds no power over me now, and I remember she'd be specifically critical of any expression of this current. I killed her influence off fully to the point now where I'm dangerous to her. My dad was different, he didn't go after me for it, unless he was in liver fire excess and was attacking me. That's a different story. My mum was just always in stagnation and liver heat herself, red face constantly, never relaxed, had to make loud banging noises whenever she'd be doing something she didn't want to. Her frustration of repression was intense, and blurted out that trash onto me especially denying ANY response as valid. The continued non responsibility to this day for her actions continues then to fuel my fire to express what was denied. Unless the fire causes suffering then it cannot be pathogenic, really, even if you're burning more Jing than you restore with that.

Creating art without the fire behind it coming FROM YOU THROUGH YOU is dead art. That's WHY we FEEL things when we see stimulating media, or something else. it's the resonation to currents we have bubbling up under the surface which the media allows you to express without filtering overlay. It's all there. You just need a stimulus to surface that, and to live in that current dominantly. If you're deficient on yin you will have fleeting moments of this that come and go and they will never feel satisfying. Excess will lead you to true pathogenic expression where your decisions will be clouded by the fire. Stagnation will keep you locked into being the same, or make dumb decisions to attempt to break that which will still be coming from conditional overlays and conforming to those unconscious boxes. The solution is to look beyond those boxes, go beyond those levels of pathogenic influence, the conditional overlays and abuse cycles, and recognize what you REALLY want, and to live without the fire if it's not serving you. That will attract who you want, IFFFFF they resonate. You really won't make someone who's in excess become deficient because you change your state, that's not how it works, but if you're able to more closely align to their demand then they will want to overlap you and find meaning in their involvement with you and feel you with them. You need to be the person who you really want to be, and the currents in supply as being in that state will express naturally as you representing the dominant state. So the innate desire, the targeting for specific things, when you're operating from that correctly aligned state will be correct. You won't attach and have a neediness for an SP, or whatever. You will continue to manifest

Most of us are afraid of being offensive because we think that it's going to make us unlikable. I have had clients who tell me they like the signals I throw into my videos that stick out to them. The little signals that only they see. The thing to grasp is that a stimulus will always activate. That activation will reveal the established state. It will stagnate and lock up the qi, it will flare up fire, it will feel lacking and dead, or it will feel anything in between, like balance where it will come and go in a gentle and activating way but never pathogenically. Offending someone as an act stemming from unexpressed fury can build a more functional psyche, because they learn they don't need to be afraid. That will manifest an SP who wants that from them, not specifically the offensive attitude but the thematic of what current drives that response. So much ignorance everywhere. States aren't mental, they can't be. That's impossible.,

The entire LOA industry is built off the back of disgusting Jewish supremacist doctrine. All of it. I AM comes from that. The filth that see themselves as God here and now in this world and dominate everything. They make the world bend to their will, not because they're massively powerful in Jing and kidney, quite the opposite, but because they play people off against each other to benefit and use those who have it to manipulate and destroy the world around them like puppets. That's Christ in their doctrine, Christ is their play script for anybody who serves their agenda as usually a known political figure. The fact that social media exists, is proof that this world is not something you imagined to be so. It was created by the filth to destroy us by using all of us as the tools without them ever lifting a finger. Yet all the ignorant masses of idiots continue to wallow around in the muck aimlessly feeding the system without knowing it. I say we kill off all the filth responsible and burn it all down and people will adapt back to a functional way. I dream to get the chance to eradicate a disgusting parasite before 2030. Eradicating the filth has been my long dream for over a decade now when I figured out that we're being lied to about everything by design. LOA is just another one that led me in circles and wasted years of my life, and now they're going to get what they deserve. Someone needs to kill off LOA and nobody else is doing anything to do that, because they're all idiots. All idiots. Useless ignorantly morons who have no pattern recognition and only want to be stimulated for temporary pleasure. Useless idiots. Dumb goy. Same trash as the rest. They're all wrong about NG, yet preach it as though they've got it all figured out. Nope. Idiots be idiots.

The thing that drives me to show up on camera isn't necessarily insight on an intellectual level, but the desire to destroy LOA, as an extension of the Jewish filth who fund and propagate it. According to NG though, nobody desires to kill a man, and yet I desire to eradicate every Jewish supremacist billionaire who has contributed towards the destruction of our world and our people. Is this what I really want? I want peace, true availability of a world without artificially created persecution and creation of reward systems that benefit those who are pathogenic. A world where everybody has a meaningful place to exist within and is loved by that. We all CAN have that, though the numbers are shifting because of the conditioning. People are stimulated by ever more extreme stimulus now, and require specific people who meet these massively warped expectations, because of social media and other media examples, among other things like conditioning from their family and peers. It's all there.

The whole "love" thing is more "hot" because someone is surrendering their will for you. I told you that before in another post, because when I got real with myself and the thematic supply/demand I wanted, it was almost ALWAYS because I wanted to see the girl I was with "let go" and basically end up in my hands but WILLINGLY, not helplessly like incompetence and limitation but because she WANTED to allow herself to be under my will. I believe that this is in fact what love really relates to, it's fantasy of the Shen and heart, in a "romantic" way where there's the whole "playful" nature of that teasing where someone is stimulated and "danced with" we could say and they "flash" signals in the way they interact that they're willing to let themselves play into and play the part of letting go. I believe most people would agree that this is where "hot" feelings come from, right. Fire in the heart igniting through the suggestion of the will being WILLINGLY surrendered. So as I've said over and over and over love isn't about this idea of unconditional "I will always be there for you", because that's not a thing and doesn't exist. That's always under a caretaker role, which still means they're dependent on you to some extent, and that this is simulating which is driving the same feeling. Love is a mutual dependence on that level, where you both "let go" to some extent to ignite sparks and feed into the fire that simulates. That's what "hot" feelings are, and why the playful and suggestive types of expression stimulate. It's thematically signaling someone is available to fit into a role, and so involvement furthers into playing that out fully to the point of release. Believe it or not, climax of this pressure into release is all liver qi building into stagnation (functionally) and then a sudden release. Literally, that's what it is, the fire and water overlap and the liver qi is what makes it "feel" stimulating. Yes it's heart and kidney activation in a fiery way but that will ALWAYS mobilize liver qi and as you build into the peak, that's actually building stagnation which is why your breath quickens and you sweat and you get tense. You're DYING to release the tension, because something suggested to you availability of release, which gradually in a playful way simulated that tension into that point of release. The release then leads to all the bonding hormones flood out, which are the forms of yin, oxytocin for example. Prolactin heightens, which puts a drain under the boiling hot pot so you don't end up with the lid vibrating as the pressure increases. Someone with excess yang won't experience prolactin though, been there done that.

So it's really simple. Love is the availability to release tension. You really want someone who you know can play that role, to play the dynamic of someone who can always be there to "let go" of their control and allow your will to move them, or vice versa. There's always this nature within it, always. Always without exception. It will no matter what who where when, always express in that way. It's by design. Problem is that if you're blinded by the expectation that the pressure release can solve your stagnation when the person is masking and isn't doing that because they REALLY WANT TO, then you'll feel unfulfilled and you'll feel lack and won't bond. No love. Parental love is the same. It's a letting go of control, at least as you're a child growing up, to which then the teen years become the flip of that switch and you become the one who's moving the world because you're in supply now. You develop and that moves involvement to develop connections where this process can take place. All these idiots in the spiritual space who talk about love as some unconditional thing will always point to specific cases where it'll seem to indicate how my explanation is animal or whatever low consciousness they'll describe. Trash. The thing is the visceral experience of love is stemming not from some "higher consciousness" expression of being which doesn't need anything but this seemingly abstract idea that's not really connected to anything but wanting someone who will always be there and WANT to be there. They are WILLLINGLY letting themselves involve in life with you, and it's that WANT on their part that is "hot" or even "loving" without the heat. The romantic nature IS that "WILLING DESIRE" on the part of the SP that's fulfilling, because it SYMBOLICALLY REPRESENTS their attitude of mind, their state, that they WANT to be there, that they NEED to be there for YOU, and to LET GO FOR YOU. That's WHAT "love" is and why I will say that it's NO DIFFERENT from direct fire-water overlap. The love and the sexual experience are the same, else love isn't fulfilling and the sexual experience isn't fulfilling. It's the suggestion of the supply/demand mechanics which is love and all that goes with it. Nothing else. There is ALWAYS a power dynamic involved, without exception. The people who deny this are compromised in how they express their innate nature, which most spiritually minded people will be to some level or another. We WANT to FEEL the person we're with WANTS to involve with us, and the physical characteristics of that are only the icing on top in truth.

Look at female fantasy books that are the most read. It's about being seen, and about being controlled. Power dynamics. Always. Someone is vulnerable, someone is in control. The more extreme that is, the more someone wasn't seen or the more they were controlled and shut down to stay safe. So there is ALWAYS a spectrum of this involved, and love is actually mutual vulnerability on that level. This is why you cannot fake it. The men who fall off from providing supply of what the women want will fail that supply/demand. Hypergamy is insanely stupid. Whatever idiot came up with that can get schooled, because they'll only jump to another man if that other man stimulates her significantly more than you. It's not that women WANT to unconsciously move from one to another or whatever but that they simply need that dynamic playing out or they'll feel the same unconscious conditional overlay that makes them feel tense. Frustration will then surface, and they'll feel unsafe again when before they felt fine. You need to keep the edge to suggest that availability, and not dull down, since that dynamic is fueling it, unless she's pathogenically compromised and conditioned into desiring not self trash and was either performing very well or was influenced during the relationship. I just see soo much trash everywhere about relationship advice. Manifesting an SP really isn't about controlling them with thoughts, but the supply/demand mechanics.

Being loved, and manifesting love, is seeing in the other what you want to experience. Their state suggests availability of someone who's meeting your expected role dynamics. "Seeing someone as a human" is a joke, and every time I hear it I laugh. Nobody is "just me" really, because there's always something in you, in that state, that stimulates and resonates. Nobody likes you for you, unless your state supplies stimulus for what they're in demand for thematically. Tough pill to swallow but that allows you to move on if needed. You can't pull everybody like puppets to be any way you want, that's never how it is. There are people who are stimulated by you, and that you're stimulated by them, through all the ways that those themes express as and through them and yourself. Someone who likes someone as a blank slate person is probably someone who's compromised and doesn't have a self. These people are likely depleted on Shen, which is often why the ones who don't have a self, who were abused heavily, they'll love bomb and latch onto ANYONE who shows them a hope for a glint of being seen, to resolve the qi stagnations in the liver from being overcontrolled and manipulated and their real feelings were buried. All that trauma. These ones who don't have a self would say that, the ones who are heavily conditioned will say "love me for who I am". They're unable to be real, and they'll say that since they feel that their innate nature isn't ok and the expectation unconsciously is a desire to be seen as that form that they won't allow themselves to be. There's the conditioned state. The person who has no self, who has it buried badly, these people are the ones who will "do whatever" and that's why they end up with abusive people in relationships because they have no boundaries because they're desperate for attention and "love". They won't allow themselves to actually be loved though, as who they are, and so they'll blast out "WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME AS I AM" which was done to them. That's their state. It's in their words. This isn't a subjective belief but more so someone who's given themselves away but conditioned that so badly that any peek of that showing up will feel threatening and their liver qi will instantly lock up, because all that fury will surface and they'll feel the compromise to hide and avoid that feeling despite feeling it, and they'll seethe and want to harm themselves. Been there before, back when I use to smash my legs in the shower as hard as I could because I was denied those feelings to wards the people in my life who conditioned it. They'll NEED to harm themselves because those feelings were denied, were punished, and any peep of those feelings is wrong to them, so they attack themselves, only when the liver qi locks up at the idea of getting what they want. This is why often I'd attack myself whenever I surfaced the idea of how far I was yet how close I was to getting what I wanted. It would put me in limbo, where I'd know I COULD get what I wanted but I wasn't allowed to, I was locked up, liver qi stagnates, your body lights up with fury but you're not allowed, and so you smash yourself to pieces, or cut or whatever.

These behaviors aren't illogical. All of them have logic, because it's all current dynamics.

Only makes sense fully though, especially somatically, when you understand TCM. When you like those only who like you, or show signs to you, then it's because you've been starved of being seen, to involve in that pressure release cycle, and your heart will activate strongly. Your face will 100% flush, because that "I'm being seen" feeling will activate that heart meridian and you'll have that warmth rise up into your head. It does that. The reason why all these physiological responses work the way they do is because of these currents, and the state they're in. Nothing else. If you feel like you only like the ones who like you then that's because you've been living in a stagnant baseline where all these feelings of want and need are buried and now can surface. You become someone who "falls for" the girl, not because you REALLY want her, but because she's a way you can release that stagnant qi. The first person who smiles at you, the first passionate kiss, the first time being laid, all that stuff, it feels like magic because you're so pent up with pressure and want. As soon as that pressure releases, you realize you don't want them, but then you'll build that pressure back up because you're still buying into "nobody wants me" even though they're showing it to you. You'll feel they want you and then don't. You'll be confusing yourself, in and out up and down, because you want the release of pressure to be "loved" but still don't want the form they're providing you because underlying that it's still not aligned to your thematic composition that's truly desired. You'll cope and compromise and fit in, and years later you'll resent that person because you didn't give yourself what you really wanted, to be loved as who YOU really are, not the you who's conditioned and that the conditioned you was loved, because that's not you, so you accept burying your innate self to be with her and yet you don't want to keep burying your innate self.

Welcome to all relationship tensions. I hope you enjoy your stay. If you cling to the first person who gives you attention, you're pent up with compromise and will cope with them because it's better than nothing. For many guys, it would seem to be, it's a lesser of two seeming evils, because being alone hurts differently, but at the same time you're able to still resolve your compromise with or without them so being with someone dysfunctional isn't really the worst, so long as it's not costing you more in other ways. They're still a pressure release valve for you, and them, but they'll only like the compromised you because they have control in that dynamic, even if they'll still be sub in the dynamics consciously. Unconsciously they're controlling you because they never had it and they can manipulate you. Woman do this, I know. They'll play games, subtly, and until you end up with someone who's not in demand of a weakling like you, then you'll face the same trash. The ONLY reason that specific SP showed up was because you played the part for them. Always. You don't build your own path built in higher natural striving towards attaining excellence of being yourself, but instead accept the crumbs of affection. The giggles and smiles and playful hits, it's all so INSANELY stimulating for someone who's pent up. Every sign is like a pressure release, but only then further feeds the fire in the spark of what it implies you can have. It's all there. That's why you get locked in and trapped, You lose sight of what you REALLY want.

So this goes back to NG, and how he told everyone that you don't want the SP but the state. The state will manifest the correct person. Being yourself, unconditioned, or at least the most you can be, will bring about the person who resonates in supply/demand with you. You won't want to think to change when you're not really under pressure to change. You'll be in pseudo satisfaction looping the same trash. You will never accept the "unhappy" thoughts or whatever because they're implying you're in lack, but that's exactly what reveals your state and then drives change.

I've said this hundreds of times now. You MUST get real with how you feel to change your state. That is the way you do it, because you'll recognize everything you're experiencing is the result of conforming to boxes you've been put into that were never yours to begin with. You'll WANT to die to that trash.

Men need recognition for effort. I never had that. It drove me manic, and is the seed that became the pathogenic current I expressed. If you aren't recognized for what you do, then you'll be a dead man, inside. Grind culture will destroy you, because what you REALLY want is recognition, at least a majority of men do. You don't want ALL that crazy stuff, you want ENOUGH to satisfy your needs AND to be recognized. NG would tell you to feel recognized, and not buy into the constant need to be better. Be better to the best you that's satisfying, and go above that again and again as many times as is needed. You satisfy, then you'll feel further pressure to expand, but it will come from innate nature, not from the necessity to prove to anyone anything. You will have a vision to create, and that you'll not condition being recognized ON that but that you simply further your already recognized state deeper. Fathers attain satisfaction through the purpose with family. The purpose you attain is specific to what your innate thematic composition desires, truly. That's what you really want, and can manifest, since being in that state must necessitate a demand for your supply.

It's insane. I tell you, how all of this lines up, and how parasitic the filth who have caused all of this are. Disgusting filth deserve to be tortured with unimaginable agony where their agony feels agony endlessly looping in more and more torment of impossibly measurable levels for eternity. That's the explosion in my chest, the massive power that surges to destroy the enemy. The power to throw my hands through their skulls with one swift motion, to truly eradicate annihilate destroy anything resembling a human that once stood before me just moments before. Turning a once human figure into a mess on the wall. Truly powerful explosions I tell you. That's what it feels like every time I think about Jewish supremacists, an immediate response 100% of the time. That unexpressed current burned up my yin, it boiled me inside alive.

The only reason I know this stuff is because I lived it all. I have experience with all of these sensations and studied my own reactions and now you're getting it first hand. All the idiots can get schooled.

You have to proverbially kill off your SP. When you do this you will be free. Kill your SP. Do it. That's how you can die. We collectively are in a pent up state where our hearts are all just exploding with the need to be seen and recognized and have a place with the world around us. We need it, it's innate, and the filth that know this are destroying us. That's why I propose to mercilessly turn their once human forms into a mess until there's nothing left and we can move on without external interference. This will not solve our current issues, but it will prevent manipulation on a further level on a deliberate attempt to deplete us more. If you feel you're the problem, that you're the one who's causing harm to those around you, and you look honestly at your state and what you really want in comparison to how the expected responses from you and the world are, and you find that you're conforming to those and responding from the unavailability, then yes, you need to change state and burn up the lower state forever, else they're the problem.

This "I NEED prefect discipline" in the sense of forming up another mask is just another trap. You'll manifest someone in that state then. Thematic supply/demand.

People who create media that makes you feel things know about those experiences. The psychologists today don't feel these things, they're shut down. Cope trash. Keep affirming you useless idiots! - Scammy Ingram and Loz.

They're all the same useless trash cope coaches. There's so much work to do I don't even want to do it, but I seem to need to. Should I just pack up and go be a performer? Nah. I wanna school these idiots. Let's do it.

Love is messy, always will be. Nobody has a perfect relationship. That doesn't and seemingly cannot exist. It's all compromise on different levels to different degrees.

The cool breeze outside coming through my window right now makes me feel alive. It's one of the few things. I love it so much. It's satisfying.

Love is available for all of us. It is, but you can't accept it. You're conditioning what you want, but even if you're conditioned you'll still get it, but it won't be truly deeply satisfying long term. What do you want? Do you want to live as innate nature and "risk" it and "DARE TO ASSUME" it like NG says or stay in pseudo satisfaction. Wherever you're activated most powerfully is what you've got suppressed. That's where your truth is, the underlying unconditioned desire underlying what the fulfillment of this desire gives you that you can't have now. That's what you really want. I want a peaceful reality, and I feel I need to be responsible for this because of my position and I cannot let go of that responsibility being where I am in this state with all the date I've integrated. I cannot allow myself to cope and accept peace is already available, even if in my life I might feel more peaceful and put out that fire to turn the filth into a mess on the wall, I feel the necessity to actually manifest the state of the competition to this filth. Does that make me a low state being? No damn way. It's necessary to have a state to oppose them, someone must play that role. Someone must turn them into a mess put in the ground. Their eradication is my conditional access to peace. Can I let go to attain more abundance in my person life? I don't think I can, because being here necessitates action. That box keeps stagnations present in me, what do I gain? Possible recognition, not guaranteed, but the recognition and satisfaction of knowing that I played a part in the solution, to be a part of that whole, to play the role, I desire that state innately too. This is the nature of our conflicts, there's seemingly always a compromise and cope on some level within a higher function. It's never 100% function or loss, it's always in the middle to some degree or another. It's all playing out in the middle. All of it, in and out, up and down, in and out. Cycles of pressure and stagnation needing release.

We must always sacrifice something. There's no win win, fully. It's insane. I tell you over and over. It's the same. The end of the Hebrew calendar, the fulfilment of scripture, the end of goy world. The plan. Some will say I manufactured these ideas to give my state purpose. I'm aware of all of this, all the things that get thrown at me, as reasons why I'm wrong. I had that from my family every day, I learned to out logic them to not be hurt, because they'd gaslight me so well. My dad especially was a MASTER manipulator I know and he'd ALWAYS have the perfect little trash thing to say to cut me down and keep me stuck in the box. It was so constant that I couldn't have a conversation with him that didn't involve criticism. I wanted to smash his face into an unrecognizable mess so many times, but I couldn't do it, because it was wrong, it was a stagnant current stemming from abuse that became excess and wasn't an innate response, but also because I was conditioned to avoid harming them and I just took the trash until I learned to defend myself intellectually in which case that became then my worst aspect to him where then other areas of my life would be attacked that wasn't up to standard. No matter what I did or didn't do I'd be attacked, I'd be seen as less, broken. Kill off that trash. Do you let it cut you or do you accept that it's all just their trash? Accepting that it's all their trash is the solution, to see it all as needless conditional access on what you really want. Give yourself the permission to completely distance from the necessity to compete with them. You don't need to compete with them. All those little points they cut you with, that they keep finding something to attack and criticize, that they'll never allow you to have peace, to be threatened and be seen as the cause of their suffering, to make you into the problem, when in reality they're seething and you're the victim of their abuse cycle they too suffered. You cannot help them. Stop trying to help them. Become real.

For me, the necessity to fulfil the expectation to prevent the filth from removing us isn't from the external, but from the sense of necessity that's been recognized after years of seeing all these dots connect and all the money move and the trends over time and knowing their abuse cycles in the game they play with us. It's mirroring my own abuse, in a sense, and I know how to resolve it, but I cannot defeat them with psychological tricks because they own all the platforms where voices are heard, and so since they've cornered all the means and if sharing messages of ruthless violence towards the filth that did this to us and making videos that inspire in the people their heart fire and liver fire into action to destroy them, then I will receive visits from the cope and I will be taken out. I'm aware that it's a real threat, even just writing this, because people have been arrested already for such, but I'm prepared for the knock if it happens with plans on preventing that from happening since 2021 back when I was expecting such from the acts I was making back then going around talking about the Jewish filth to people in public spaces shamelessly. I was shut down 99% of the time. Idiots over and over. So again it's a risky business but it's real. Ignoring won't resolve it, and dissolving the pressure in me will be next to impossible because I see the psychological manipulation and whenever I see it the fire blazes up. I see the filth in their natural habitat. They must be eradicated, the filth won't go down legally I know that for sure because every attempt has failed. All assassination attempts have failed too. I've logged over a hundred attempts on them over time and they all failed. That's why I use to think they were protected by some divine protection for a while somehow, but in truth they're not. They're just aware of this and prepare. This is my point, you're either too dumb to figure it out, but we're under attack and our existential safety is in constant threat. The cope keeps that buried. That's why I feel unimaginable fury every time I think about them, because they must be eradicated. MUST be. My tech isn't able to turn them into a mess at a distance, and nobody else so far seems to have done anything to help that.

The idiots who say there's no Jewish supremacists and that it's all in my head must explain Israel and all the money they give to lobby political action, as well as their history, their exodus cycle of being removed and manufacturing their own persecution, the funding for the world wars and other wars throughout history, as well as the fact that the Stein files have revealed all of the big name political involvement with these PDF Jewish groups that have relations with top tier Chabad Jews. They also need to explain Talmudic filth about the goy, and the manufactured history story they've put on us for scripture when it was always allegory and symbolic for a stage play that involves our eradication in the conclusion. All of this among hundreds of other points point to them. The most obvious is the holocaust narrative, the "burnt offering" that they manufactured as part of the manufactured persecution agenda to gain power. All of it needs addressing. Palindromic sequencing is another one, lining up with their acts over time.

It's all there. So when do we turn them into a mess and get the job done? I'm ok with locking them up, but I don't believe they'll ever be stopped this way, because they're masters of manipulation and will always find ways to benefit them no matter what we do. Eradicating the filth is the solution. Always was. Get over it and grow up and mess them up so we don't have a threat to our safety. Don't be a cope moron and continue to think it's needless violence or whatever when we're being collectively abused by this system they've designed for this purpose and the lives we live are all contained within processes they've created. Can't escape that. The moron in my immortality group who denies there's any Jewish supremacists can also get schooled. Screw you. Get out or get schooled. I shut up for too long, especially this time last year where it came up strong, and I will keep my space clear of low IQ idiots when needed, no matter if you paid. Either bring data to the table to refute me in discussion or get lost. You can't though, so get lost. You stopped reading the notebook back at page 11 because I was too offensive of Jewish supermacists. Too bad. We're up against genocidal filth who shut half the world down in CV-19 over a plandemic that never existed and now are systematically wiping out the neighbors of Israel to expand and manufacture their own persecution so that messiah son of David can come and destroy the goyim as they've been planning for millennia. I'll clean that whole group out if needed, I don't care. Every time the subject returns to Jewish supremacists it's tongue tie mode else voices overlap and dysfunction plays out. No way. I'll threaten your place if needed, because it's necessary to establish order of correct function.

No compromise.

Manifesting is all about states. States are thematic composition of currents that are integrated at baseline. Innate desires will integrate the people in the exact nature that will be satisfying because of supply/demand that's built into that state. You cannot fail then, and your filters will be clear to not accept and cope in compromise.

I'm done here. Spent too long here again I need to keep working on the NG program. Still.

Oh wait. I have another one.

Friends. Brotherly/sisterly love. Love on that level. Mutual benefit. Well guess what, it's both biological kind taking care of their own because that's how they work and on top of that supply/demand still. Currents move us all. That IS the foundation for what we call emotion. Relatability is Shen, heart, always. That playful vital current isn't needing expression through an SP love interest, You want your heart to move in sync with another. That "enjoyable" time you have where you resonate and have fun is related too. It's not a tension resolution in a box but it's still very clearly moving the Shen. There can be a sense of "comradery" in that way, but not real LOVE at the more pure sense. So the companionship level love where you care about someone will conventionally be likened to the love you'd think of for an SP but it's different because your pressure release system isn't operating the same way. You operate with them generally on a level where they're someone you WANT to be around because of the movement their Shen gives to you. Cuteness from animals makes the Shen move too, similar current. It's like seeing vulnerability as something to be stimulated by. Break it down. Vulnerability is ALWAYS involved in that kind of love, the cute type that's even non human involving no kidney activation. That's a play of power dynamics, except instead of inserting control and having them willingly control you're still in a caretaker role. So no matter how you view it, there's always a power dynamic, unless you're resonating with those people on a similar level where you're challenging each other, but that's still a degree of power dynamic anyway. So point is, where can you express consciousness that doesn't involve power dynamics? You must always have a supply/demand. That's what makes relationships valuable to some and invaluable for others. It's the same thing. SP romantic experiences are the same, just with kidney involvement over more of a heart liver thing. Same currents.

It's all vitalism. Point to something that breaks this. Good luck. This is why I see the study of metaphysics now as more of of a study of principle phenomena of abstract principles that have been turned into their own cosmology as abstract ideas instead of keeping them in the world. NG tells us that the meridians are the real world, the imagination is the field geo. Field geo is the "real" world, on a metaphysical level that's taken to an extreme of abstraction seeing entire worlds within your mind which is stupid. I've experienced these with my eyes open, I wake up and see them in my world projected around me. I've seen the walls have perfect projections on them, the sheets on my bed BECOME the window into the other world morphing perfectly to shape and creases of the sheets as they move. This is what I've experienced, I've seen this all and it's not what they think. It's Hun overflowing Shen. Get real. There's not other worlds, been there done that. It SEEM that it can be like this, but you're saying then that every time you dream you're entering other worlds too like the alchemist says. I use to believe that but the mechanics don't lie. The cosmology doesn't work with what I've experienced in reality. Been gazing and seeing overlays on people since I was 15 so my experience with this is greater than anyone else in manifestation land that's for sure.

I've observed my own patterns clearly and I can say with certainty that what causes these overflows of Hun is often powerful activation and movement of stagnation of liver qi when you're in deep states and "letting go" of your own control in a sort of unconscious "trance" state. This is why it seems that the quickenings as they're called happen most often in response to potent cultivation of vital current which then activates and "floods" you in that release. It's water-wood-fire cascade. I've had multiple instances of my so called third eye tapping today too while typing out these entries. It happens when I feel powerful Shen activation, which makes sense because it's supposed to relate to spiritual vision but the Shen is what experiences this. This is why I say that sick people most often are the ones who claim that they're in other realities and such since their Shen are being activated excessively in the way relating towards this rising current from spontaneous liver qi being flushed. This is also why I experience crying tears when I release pent up liver qi, because of the overaction on air element of lung and so the layers of stagnation move. The so called third eye is the same. It's just another effect of the cascade of the currents, and that's why it raises up.

So much of the so called spiritual doctrine out there in various systems is contrived, and I've discovered real spiritual experience as is often spontaneous movements of this type of current moving in a similar manner except it's going to come as a result of lining up with more of innate nature. You're cutting through conditional overlays, and that'll release liver qi and generate the upward movement. It seems that it's often from the base of the spine but not always in my experience. It feels like a "sneeze" coming on within your body, not a nose sneeze but like a "I need to sneeze" type feeling which believe it or not actually relates once again to liver qi. I know that liver qi can cause sneezing because I literally have this thing where if I look at really bright light that takes up most of my field of view it will trigger a sneeze. All of this relates. TCM is the only valid system to study. Nothing else matters because it's all compromised on some level vs TCM.

Also I want to say that action that demonstrates competence in the area that's currently deluded about will do the same thing to move currents that inner imaginal experiences can do. You're altering thematic composition. Acts in the world to change beliefs is just as if not more potent than attempting to do it within, especially when it comes to moving stuck qi or an excess. This is why I say over that it's not always best to do this internally. All I see is trash over and over and over and over and over everywhere I look. Ignorant trash even in the alchemy spaces. Vitalism explains the results someone would get with gazing and quintessence is only able to tonify Jing so much. Elixir of life can kill someone if taken too much because it'll wipe out the spleen qi. This stuff is just insane. I see all the "pills" as all cope trash including black, red, blue, whatever colour of the rainbow pill. They're all trash and miss the point. Black is closer to vitalism than not but it still misses the underlying substrate. Vitalism is manifest through channels of thematic correspondence, and as I've explained earlier you require vital current to make manifest someone who you want attracted to you to show up. They require that supply/demand overlap and without that then they'll see you as not someone who they'd want to involve with to resolve pressure. They won't consciously think that but that'll be how they act and their actions reveal their state. Even NG said this, the reactions to life, actions to stimulus, reveal the state. It's obvious. So Changing belief is changing thematic composition. That'll alter how the world responds and treats you, not because of specific words you repeated in your mind, but because of their implication and impact on the field geo.

All the abstractions on a psychological level that NG speaks of can be explained somatically via the currents and their thematic correspondence. A change in state is a change in what you're aware of being as he says, the I AM of God enters into the state and becomes the state. This is you altering your thematic composition of the currents and that'll determine how you show up and how the world shows up for you. That focused attention is more or less a continual direction of alignment you're fixed on resonating to, the "feeling" of the state being the most resonant way to "tune into" it. It's all there. It's very clear how this all lines up. The LOA NG stuff is no different from the mechanics of the meridian dynamics and how thematic supply/demand works. The ONLY reason that imaginal acts can generate experiences of like nature in the world is because what you're looking for changes and how you present to the world changes. You're looking for the limited story still in low states, proof of it, ONLY because it's charged with stagnation or excess or the story loops because of deficiency. it's the same trash. If you want someone to respond to you truly then you NEED to be someone to suggest supply to resolve their pressure. That may still be pathogenic though, even if it does resolve pressure.

If you want to manifest girls who are literal fire, like pure angelic starlight, then you're going to become the form of yourself who's top tier in terms of what you buy into and leave behind. You filter the trash out and live into that state that's beyond the necessity to deny or overexpress. Balance, will manifest someone who's resonant to that composition. Someone who suggests availability of massive Jing abundance who's truly someone that's beyond expectations, if you saw this person and they're available for you and you felt massive anxiety, lock up in your stomach and chest, and you choke, it's because you're still so expecting compromise and rejection and lack and trash that you can't even respond. Moving those stagnations ahead of time will be far more valuable, but taking your shot and doing it no matter what will still be valuable., I did that with one back in 2020 who I'd call angelic starlight and I got shot down, and I literally said as I walked off "at least I tried" like a fool but it's whatever. I did it, and I learned from it. Getting shot down reveals clear insights into WHY you saw them as so valuable that they locked you up and kept you stuck in powerful stagnation unable to express clearly. You became so locked up that no words came through clearly, no thoughts were automatic, charisma on demand failed. IF the qi locks up then you're screwed, the best thing to do there is to not "try" and impress her but more or less just see them as needless and go to another ideal in your mind as a higher example of yourself. Lose the importance of the interaction, though easier said than done. Point is, don't perform and be fake, though if you want the experience anyway then they might still show up for you. If you're locked up it's likely they'll tell.

Just think if a girl who was fire showed up to you and was locked up in the way she presented, being all awkward. They do that too, it's not just that they feel they don't have options. They have SO MANY opportunities to get fire guys, as we all know. That's why they don't feel more pressure generally, they're rewarded and have such an easy time, because men are overall starving for pressure release. Women are too, though in general it's less intense. The thing to recognize as important is that because you still experience narrow view of what you want as unavailable because you're tense and starving for meaningful pressure release, you'll feel high stakes when you interact with these fire girls thinking it's like you'll never get any opportunity and it'll mess you up. You'll lock up and your liver qi will get stuck. I remember my throat would lock up, I'd shake, I'd swallow constantly and I'd feel super anxious and my stomach would be fluttering constantly and my chest would be on fire and my head would be like it wanted to explode. YOU CANNOT experience functional states this way. It's because you've got so many expectations overlaying what you really want. You've got all these unavailabilitys because of patterns of expected outcome clouding what would otherwise be a clear state. Screw all that trash.

How do you remove it? You need to get real with the expectation and tear it to shreds. If you've got excess, as in fire sensations in the heart that surface, and your liver qi locks up, then it's because you weren't seen, you were judged then for making decisions, and you likely feel that you'll be attacked in some way and a boundary will be broken for involving with this girl and you don't feel safe. The kidney fire will be put out and you'll sink down into a small weak pathetic ant on the ground she'll just step on and see as an awkward mess. There's still a chance she's got affinity for some awkward guys like you because she too might be starving for attention, but for these girls it's that they don't know how to filter function from dysfunction. You on the other hand get no attention and you're desperate for any approval. You can filter somewhat better being aware of patterns of dysfunction but at the same time you'll still be operating from a state of actual dysfunction and depletion of access. You'll show up locked up and your qi will be unable to move with free flow where the charisma of the heart that's activated but not in pathogenic state, That clear expression of interest that's not moved by a need or an anxiety of lack will never be available for you until you recognize the roots of the reason why and trace all the responses you've had to life that continue to accept that expectation as all there is. When you see all of that clearly, about how you've been compromising all the time and holding yourself to false delusional assumptions, then you'll never really be able to move forward.

Man I just want to further destroy more influence of trash just writing this out. You need to work on dying off to the trash.

If I became an SP coach I'd shred all the trash out there that's for sure. NOBODY in relationship coaching works with the stuff I do here, with explaining thematic supply/demand and the meridians and how somatic sensations relate to unconscious conditional access to true desires. I don't work with any of the conventional ideas of attachment styles or whatever and work directly with the currents that these systems seem to attempt to shoebox into too simple of a category which cannot happen. I need more clear outlines and maps for all this on a visual level, though I continue to refine more all the time and the map shifts slightly. Putting all these words into a map is painful. I've tried many times and yet I keep shifting things around all the time and adding or taking away from things that I see that connect differently. Seems it's just a pain to visually represent all of this, even though I know it'll help a lot.

I know for sure that if I stimulate the heart qi I will end up with a massive amount of vital current driving me towards a higher state. The way I stimulate the heart qi is by seeing the unavailability directly, as in seeing what I feel is unavailable and looking at it as just stupid trash and coming from the expectations of the world and seeing capacities of what I CAN experience beyond that and become somewhat "manic" in a sense that just destroys the anxiety. You need to clear the stuck qi, and I experience this as the best most reliable way through looking at higher examples for yourself to widen your view of opportunity for availability and not just feel like "this is all there is" in that moment. You need to learn the art of widening the view using the Yi, so that you'll be able to clear liver qi stagnation with a correctly targeted theme which moves that qi because you won't feel "locked in" when it comes to feeling that you're in a narrow opportunity. Whenever you're anxious and locked into a low state with liver qi stagnation in this "I want to but can't" sensation, you need to widen the view. Just making the action, especially speaking to hot girls while you're locked up, will only end up keeping you in the box more because the rejection will contribute to the narrow box. Widening the view into what you can provide her and how you provide more than she ever will to take her down from the pedestal will make a difference. Advanced dynamic pathway work. Learning the art of widening the view of the state by bringing wider context into the mix. This is what I did years back to get my current girl who I've changed substantially over time in quite radical ways. I believe that I can change her further, and do some more tests on top of this experience to prove these mechanics more. I manifested a change in her last week again, it wasn't massive but it was there.

So overall we're going to need to work with qi stagnations more. This "locked up" sensation matters seemingly the most. Yeah liver qi stag, kidney yang makes that all move, and if you've got a lot of kidney yang then you'll either experience more explosive stagnations because of the pressure if they're hyper rooted and focused on a psychological level but otherwise it'll make the stagnations seem less potent. You NEED to cultivate root vitality for any of this to work. Root pressure is basis no matter what no exceptions. Without kidney yang bring very strong then you burn up quickly and will be unable to maintain any consistent movement forward. It's needed on all levels. More TEST makes the difference. To kill the qi stagnations you need to break down those reasons for the narrowing of the view of what you want being unavailable and to experience the availability of it through cutting through conditional availability, How you do that is by connecting behavioral habits to sensations and the treatment you've had which made you feel this way fully and then apply that to your current dissatisfied state and feel ANY sensations in response to this recognition. If you feel locked up still then look for a physical cause, something on a biochemical level. This CAN cause these things to happen, it's not ALL psychological either, but most of it will be. You can be poisoned by something even subtly and that'll make you feel and think lower. I suggest using media to stimulate the feelings towards the compromise states and move into acts that release the stagnant pressure. The act through that should imply that the unavailability no longer holds true as a rule. You want to experience the thing being available, but also to get real with what you REALLY want underlying what you think you want. Detaching from the SP might also relate to a more basic sense of safety, a more basic sense of community and companionship that you've never established at baseline. You've been buying into these grand ideas of what you think you want to feel simulated and keep the pressure moving but in truth you just want to stop "trying" and just relax more without needing to make all these radical changes. Sometimes that's necessary, especially for those with MASSIVELY excessive heart fire. Relaxing in those places is functional. Liver qi needs movement usually to move it, because of the nature of it. Buying into the heart fire will rarely resolve it. Looking for underlying expectations is how you reveal the contrasting condition that usually resolves the root condition.

Man I just got a message from someone revealing all the specific artificial chemical and pesticide composition of Drescotts berries in the stores here. It's wild. Hundreds of times higher levels than safe, and the regulations for this were removed years ago. I mean all the idiots that think they're not deliberately trying to harm us are just dumb goy to the more pure form possible. If I had superhuman capacity I'd turn all this filth into a bloody mess overnight. I could be covered with these people. You have no idea how unimaginably violent I'd be with them. All those fight scenes I made back in 2018 with fast swift flashy movement, that was an expression of this same current. I imagined so so so many scenarios of this with such ruthlessness that you'd be shocked it came out of me. You have no idea what these people deserve for poisoning millions. Utter filth. Own it. Full on merciless rage has a place when necessary. All of our functions have a place.

All that stagnation people have held that festered into fire will express into their demise, if we actually do it instead of being dumb goy. These fools. This filth needs to be buried in the ground.

If your delusions of low expectations of yourself and the people around you who you want to interact with warp how you show up then apply correct pathway work to resolve. Get real with how you feel, the patterning, the expectations you've conformed to with the behaviors on loop and expected feelings that drive those things. The delusions of "this person is judging me" when they might not be, but that's how you feel. Get real. Is this stemming from systematic abuse or is this stemming from a deluded sensation that led you into seeing yourself as lower and less. We need to connect all of the causes for why we feel this way to see if it's innate or not. When you lay all the parts on the table and see them all in a wider view, you'll feel how you need to feel in response. However that is will be correct. That's how I apply coaching. You apply this method by showing someone why they feel the way they do and this can open up their narrow expectations and recognize that they no longer need to be the way they thought they needed to. There's always a reason why, but is it valid? You need to see if is it. Do that pathway work and you'll see if it is or isn't, and losing that thing you once identified with will become effortless. You'll see it clearly and WANT to dissolve it. When you recognize that the way you feel is because of how you've been treated and not because of other people seeing you as less, then you'll drop the SP on the pedestal down to below your level and you'll be comfortable and not lock up when thinking about them. I'm telling you, as I've been doing since page 29 and earlier, when you get real with your abuse patterns, you'll make 100x more progress than you ever would've before. If there's no obvious abuse patterns then look at vital depletion.

You just NEED to get all that current moving. Vital root pressure first, TEST, nourish your biochemistry because it's necessary to create hormones, which are currents, kidney yang and yin, and build from there into what can possibly surface in response. You can begin to see the stagnations more clearly and where they come from. Open that up. Widen the view. Get it all moving. Then begin involvement.

Nothing more to say here now. This is all just crazy to me to think about how so much lines up, and yet there's more details in specific patterns yet to be discovered to be recognized and learned fully. How do I even simplify all of this into a simple idea. "Imagination creates reality" obviously doesn't line up so why would I preach this trash. Your field geometry creates reality. Yeah nobody knows what that means. Meridians are imagination, people still don't know that. No wonder imagination as God took off, because everyone knows what that is, and yet the subtle anatomy goes under the radar. It's very hard to market this stuff.

Manifesting SP is what people want, because it's highly stimulating and is a way to release pressure. Making it around something they want will matter. The more I do this the more it becomes obvious that the way to gain influence is to become a top tier SP coach. It's just every time I think about it I just get this "crazy" feeling. Like "wow" it's all there. Like it's actually there. Like "it's real". The "it's real" according to NG is a powerful "feeling" of what it's like to be aware of being in a state. All of this lines up. Manifesting SP especially and the dynamics of this. What love is especially needs to be understood and compared to ideals in your experience over time and where you've continued to show up. Written pathway work matters. It all matters. Don't be afraid of feeling all these seemingly excessive activations.

29/5/26

I've recognized that many examples NG uses points to a "relief" which is a release of tension. What do you think this means? Qi stag. That's it. The specific function that the NG modality works through is qi stagnation. Not excess, because excess is massive stagnation and it doesn't deal with deficiency. I've said FOR YEARS that most of the results people get with the NG method is clearing qi stag, not really cultivating more vitality or anything. It's mostly just heart based stagnation, or maybe liver qi stag in some cases. Most of the benefits would be applied to Shen, sinking the charge can benefit Shen the most. It won't always help the Hun that's out of the question.

Many people have qi stag, or a yin deficiency leading to the "wired but tired" sensation with excess peeking in from time to time when triggers arise. Most people who end up doing robotic affirmations long term will end up yin deficient or yang excess, with 100% certainty of stagnations. Spleen qi will become deficient for 100% certain, and the Shen will float and the liver will lock up. The kidney may be impacted too in cases where there's already weakness. All these meridians are what we experience when we play into these methods and go all the way with them. The spleen qi will get destroyed so hard when you do mindless affirming for hours a day. This will excessively stimulate the Shen and cause it to end up unanchored. It's unlikely the heat would boil the heart blood but it might if there's extreme anxiety with it like I had. I was seriously deficient on spleen qi especially which I was already weak in before I came into LOA. I was weak on spleen qi since I was born because of the spherocytosis, which sucks, but it's just how I need to work. The people who have strong spleen qi and apply the robotic affirmation method CAN have more reliable outcomes in terms of activating the states of availability if the pathways are led correctly but in most cases they're not and it will lead to depletion where they stimulate qi stagnation from liver or heart and that'll then burn up the spleen qi long term. That's what probably a vast majority of people who do robotic affirmations get impacted by.

Useless idiots. Everywhere. Seeing clearly. Until we grasp the meridian dynamics we will NEVER be able to isolate WHY a result happened with someone who applied the same method and failed with another. It's not the method, it's what underlies that. These people will never accept this model because it means imagination isn't your imaginal senses and I'm the only one who's proven that NG didn't teach imaginal senses don't matter. Other coaches may say that "the technique has no power" but then they'll tell you that thoughts create, without breaking down how and so contradict on a face value level. People must grasp that the imagination is the meridian systems and dynamic circuits.

Knowing the depths of these meridian systems and how unbelievably accurate this system really is to decode experiences, I can look at the NG doctrine and see nothing but limited views. It's NOT divine word, because there's WAY MORE than what he says even IF it was about what he says it is. The reality is that the relief is just ONE expression of correct acceptance of desire. Desire is pressure to experience, and so this pressure when allowed to move where it wants to move is the feeling, which is accepting what's already there. The thing is that many cases in our lives don't work this way. Intensity is what got my SP overnight result that time, and removed myself from abusive environments, and cultivated vitality. I was on fire and not relieved, but it felt right. That's what I mean, because according to face value interpretation of NG, unless you feel relief that you have the thing you desire then you'll never get it. That's utter nonsense because so many people, myself included, experience things that break expectations and introduce intensity into the mix. If scripture is a complete alchemical doctrine on EVERY function of consciousness and all their mixtures and overlaps, then it should have explanations for each instance we end up experiencing. That just doesn't work though. The idea that it's all inner experience as in imaginal senses creating isn't what he taught, and so you could STRETCH it to encompass all of these aspects but I still don't see that in his work. His methods will never give a way of handling excess. When you're in excess relief is impossible until charge is discharged to a sufficient degree, because the need is excessively stimulated and activated and that's entirely against the idea of relief. Excess patterns aren't explained, and deficiency patterns aren't really explained either. How can someone restore vitality that's not even there with relief. You can move stagnations with this, by sinking charge in SOME meridians (like heart and to some degree liver) but you'll never get more vital current out of thin air doing that. You can technically force Jing in prenatal storage to catalyze prematurely but that's not the same thing.

This makes so much sense though. When I move I attract people SO EASILY. Why? Qi stagnations move. BOOM. No conscious belief needed because it's currents that determine state and states manifest, therefore vitalism works to explain ALL success and failure.

Excess clears, stagnation moves, deficiency is nourished. Welcome to the holy trinity of RS methodology and how success is attained. It's NOT mental, it's current based, then translated into the biochemical reactions that correspond. It's the only unified model of manifestation ever made. Get schooled mentalism cope coaches.

Now I KNOW WHY when I felt all that FURY I destroyed my conditioning and I manifested the overnight success. IT WAS THE CURRENT MOVING IN A POTENT WAY THROUGH A PATH OF LEAST RESISTANCE! That's literally what happened, I did the mental pathway work through recognizing the way I was treated and the way I had been compromising (the stagnation persisting) and I basically just exploded with vitality when I owned my higher state that's how I got the overnight success. Then the innate nature, natural striving that was conditioned and now free could do its thing. Thematic supply/demand worked unconsciously because of the "state" of the field geo. It's so obvious. That's what got me my result. I finally broke the trash down, I cut through the condition, I moved the stagnation by suppressing what I REALLY wanted and owned the sense of safety that I could have and the desire innately integrated within that for SP or whatever else showed up because it's already there waiting to be accepted. That's what NG also said. Results don't come from mentally stimulating the response, it comes from moving stagnation, clearing excess in discharge that's targeted, and nourishing deficiency. mostly on a biochemical level. Jing can represent the material molecular basis for how the structures of the body are built. No nutrients, no nourishment for deficiency, because stimulation on a mental level can only MOVE qi, nothing else. The Yi of the spleen does that, and the Shen swims in it. The liver will be what governs the flow, and when you've got frustration and this massive "I want to explode" feeling then you've got either stagnation of excess, but the deficiency of surrounding meridians can and likely will follow with persistent stagnation. It will begin with stagnation but persist into becoming a deficiency or excess. Those who are nourished become excessive, those who lack nourishment become deficient, though you can end up yin deficient while being in stagnation still without excess yang.

All my success stories make sense. In 2015 when I did gazing constantly I was able to settle the Shen, and to enough of a degree I could move liver qi since I wasn't blocked up horribly like I was years later and became stiff as a bar of steel in all my muscles and lost all my flex. That's why I completely gave up TKD because I was THAT TENSE with SO MUCH FURYYYY it was insane you have no idea. It was all the work I'd done to reveal the conditioning on a collective level because of the filth called Jewish supremacist Jews and then the parental conditioning and the rest of that just SMASHED my liver qi into oblivion. No wonder I ended up having vivid imaginal openings, because my Hun was totally unanchored because the blood was dry and that's why my scans showed liver damage at such a young age while never having touched ethanol or liver damaging food. I was just locked up from so much pressure to compromise and my nature was very yang. That's why I had girls falling over me like you'd not imagine when I was somewhat clear, especially in the 2015 era before I got massively locked up. This is what caused it, even though I never thought or imagined it was possible for me. They all just wanted the juice SO BAD it was wild. Then that all died off after like 2021 for the most part where I was at my worst vitality and ended up in hospital on a drip because my digestion was totally ruined from such extreme deficiency and stagnation. My kidney got destroyed and I know because I had all the signs of yin deficiency specifically in the upper body, and the kidney yang was floating in the upper meridian unanchored making the stagnation worse. My spleen was completely ruined and enlarged back when I had the liver scans too. It was all there. Yang was MASSIVELY potent in my middle Jiao and the lower Jiao was weak and depleted and unable to anchor the yang into activation. That's why I ended up getting cold purple heels despite feeling hot internally. My circulation was ruined on the periphery, and yet I was very nourished in the middle of my core.

All of it makes 100% sense. ONLY TCM can explain this. Nothing else on earth comes close. You'd never be able to break the themes of all this down with LOA mentalism belief work or whatever. The reason why all of my pathology manifest the exact way it did was predictable according to the way the thematic currents manifest, and the psychological level was the seed on top of a constitutional deficiency of spleen qi leading me to overanalyzing everything because that's what you do when spleen qi is ruined. I would contemplate on if this girl actually liked me playing out these same scenarios in my mind on loop while I'd be playing competitive OW and shredding emptying clip after clip into their faces as trace and that same "surging" current would surface when I would play this way. I would feel like I'm on fire, and my performance was unmatched. Whenever I had music going in the background on top I'd be an absolute unstoppable force, and that manifested in my life in the physical too when I was into TDK and my mobility and agility in running and such. I even played competitive volleyball and shredded. Everybody wanted me to perform parkour tricks when I went past because that's how I moved around the place, and the people who wanted to involve in that and taste that current from me as supply would show up. The ones who didn't want that would stay away.

All of this connects too clearly. The fire is rising again writing this out. It's all there. It's currents and not mental thoughts one bit. RS is the only model of manifestation ever created that can explain how manifesting works systematically.

Cataloging all of this is just the challenge. It's so much to explain. SO MUCH..

"What if something happened to the body while you were away? It won’t. Not a thing will happen to the body, sir, not a thing. I know there are many books and many teachers who tell you if you’re out, someone could take possession of it. Don’t you believe it. No one is going to take possession of that body at all. You can have some very strange experiences outside of the body which can be costly. In my own case, it was painful and costly, but I’m glad it happened. And besides I learned a lesson.

Well, what about fire? Oh no, it wouldn’t. Doesn’t take long, just a matter of seconds…just a matter of seconds… it doesn’t take more than a matter of seconds to detach and feel the state and to seal it. No one state I entered this morning if you time it would be not more than ten to fifteen seconds. It was all real, just like this, and then I went back to the body. Went to another state.

So you aren’t gone, really. It’s fun, may I tell you, it’s lots of fun. But you discover the soul and you use the being that you really are. Some things…you go a little far and you might, well, in my own case, where I was I don’t know, some fabulous distance, but I came back towards the body like a meteor falling. I felt in that descent it was so rapid and from such an enormous distance that I would break my neck in the descent. And so I did this, as you would dive in ___(??) not the body on the pool ___(??) and I heard a click.

After I told my wife at breakfast what I’d experienced that morning, and then as the day progressed, it got stiffer and stiffer and stiffer, and that night the pain was excruciating, so she insisted that I go to the hospital for an X-ray. So they X-rayed me, not a thing could they find. But they knew from my face I was in great pain and they tried to put me in traction, but they had no room available, so I couldn’t remain in the hospital because there was no room. Went back home and the next day it eased a little bit, and the next day a little bit better. Then it returned after three days to a norm. But that experience cost me one hundred twenty- five dollars.

The X-rays were twenty-five dollars; for his interpretation was forty; the taxi back and forth; the room that they couldn’t give me was another twenty-five or thirty because I occupied it for a while but I couldn’t remain in it. But all these things…and the family doctor whom we called who recommended the hospital, he sent his bill.

It’s a peculiar feeling. Well, try it tonight and you’ll know far better. I have tried it and I haven’t been very successful at it. Well, I’ll tell you what, don’t go too far. Sit in one chair, imagine yourself on another chair, and don’t break that spell until that other chair seems as natural as where the body was when you started. Make it natural. Feel an object…if it’s next to a bookcase, as though you were taking a book from the shelf, and feel natural.

And then be surprised when you aren’t really here but you’re there. It comes in a peculiar feeling and a surprise that you’re there. It’s a detachment. All this doesn’t make sense, but to me it’s the only sense. Could I, in this state, move an object? It’s been done. Like you said, if I were sitting there, I could pick this book up and, say, set it down on the other… My dear, it has been done, not once but time and time again. We told a story the other night, how many people believed it is irrelevant as far as I am concerned, but there’s no…you can’t rationalize it." - On the law 1965

NG in excruciating pain in 1965. Of course an X-ray won't show it you fool it was liver stagnation like I had. He must've been really locked up. Liver cirrhosis makes your liver dry up, ethanol dries liver yin so much it's crazy. That's WHY it's a poison. That's WHAT it does on a current level and why it gives you the high type feeling because the yin unanchors the yang and it lifts up the Shen. It's all there. When NG talks about leaving the body we know that he's talking about a spiritual "soul" that's WITHIN the body in a local sense. So yeah he did teach a literal spiritual body. Interestingly he considered the body a state too, if you read the last paragraph. He also talks of telekinesis. This phenomena is an aetheric experience. I've done something similar before with flames. In fact, when your liver yang rises lights around you can flicker. I've seen it happen with others as well. These are currents in the aether which have charge to them, very literal charge. Qi. NG by talking about imagination as a body as well, it's clearly pointing to the meridian systems I am talking about as to be the REAL imagination. Only if you have enough experience with things like advanced gazing to see these things happen will you KNOW this to be true from your own experience.

Just destroy al the trash out there and tear it all to shreds until there's nothing left but dust. This is why NG LOA doesn't work for everybody, because it can't. There's different thematic currents that have different properties to how they manifest psychological and unless they're fully expanded out into what they have capacity to become then they remain pathogenic. That's what makes up the "limiting beliefs" on a current level. The psychological level isn't primary as causal, the currents always have been, though a psychological limitation can BECOME a more potent dysfunction in time if persisted in.

"Well, my wife has seen me walk the floor so often and the body was on the bed that she’s not disturbed any more. So often she’s seen what should be on the bed walking around, and she looks and there he is. “I’ve got two husbands—-there’s one walking there and there’s one on the bed.” But, at first it disturbed her, but it doesn’t disturb her any more so often she’s seen it." - same lecture

I mean right there is NG talking about a literal "ghost" type body. This is not an all encompassing mind body or whatever that's omniscient as God, but a cold plasma field. Just remember though, that NG's wife was very sick too around this time. She was seeing things like him because of the same cause. I know older people in my family on other sides of it that have spoken of seeing "apparitions" of people appearing in front of them in bed or something. Yeah, probably because your Hun is unanchoring and drifting into the domain of the Shen and that must be made manifest with your eyes open. This is what I'm talking about. It's all there, and none of these spiritually minded people can make sense of all the details as to how and why. It's just insane. They all lack the experience and the deduction to make sense of it.

Now that I think of when I had a certain friend of mine who vibed like I did, I understand why. It was a shared stagnation. Supply/demand, or resonance. They brought it out in me and I brought it out in them. It wasn't as much a pure power dynamic, but that the power was that we both brought out of each other the stagnations, not in a deliberate triggering way or whatever but shared affinities would stimulate those reactions and then the "game" would begin by leading the pathways of the other via banter and stuff. It was a reaction to bring out of the other how they internally felt, to on an unconscious level make them move the current that was stagnant and since I was a responder to that, they were able to become a "friend". When that stimulus stops being brought out then the friendship falls apart. All friends are based on supply/demand mechanics too, just like relationships. It's all the same. The same meridian systems overlapping and moving currents.

Clear moving qi has been where I've basically had trash as roots for a long time, aside from the constitutional issues. When I fasted from the world and didn't even think of certain things for months, and they showed up, it was not because of my "seed planted' or whatever but because my currents were lined up correctly via supply/demand. It's all there.

You feel these seemingly spontaneous "urges" which are moments of pressure you're feeling from qi getting stagnant and or heat activating that meridian in a powerful way. If you observe it and see where it is, you'll understand the nature of it. If it's in your chest, it's the heart, in your stomach, spleen or liver, or if it's lower in the pelvic region then you've got kidney, liver can also be throat and sides of your stomach too.

When you're in "flow" it's likely because your liver qi is more clearly moving, heart fire is more settled and the Shen is anchored in the blood, and the kidney is nourished enough to not feel fear arise. Stagnation seems to be the most common thread for me, among yin deficiency, and when I think of different times when I had magical results it was through this mechanism that I manifested luck. When you live and dwell with stagnation people won't want to involve if they're not seeking involvement with you in that state. It's that simple. Supply/demand. What do they get suggested to through who you're being in that state. You cannot avoid expression of the stagnation, you will always suggest you're in stagnation and cannot hide it. You especially cannot hide excess.

Look at your life, look at the themes, stagnation persists, and you always feel that trash and the experiences surface to represent this. It's not the conscious thoughts, but that the conscious thought is revealing your state, as in your reactions to life. Then feel beyond the stagnation, as though there wasn't that issue, and you'll begin feeling availability of what's desired that the conditional overlay is preventing access from, generating the stagnation. If you cannot leave the dysfunctional state then you'll keep manifesting like experiences since that's the persistent supply/demand. Stop observing the specific thoughts and decoding what you think they mean and recognize thematics of awareness. What's the state of the currents. Feel into a state without stagnation, that locked up sensation, as though the necessity to compromise wasn't even a factor. Leave that all behind and kill it all off. That's the "feeling of the wish fulfilled" in YOUR case, IF you've got stag as the root of the state which you're reacting to all the time. That's what that is. It's specific currents leading to these different states, and therefore seedtime. It's not even seedtime, the way he talks about, but that if you react and "forget" and you persist in the state of stagnation and never really resolve the baseline you return to, then you're still in a sense in that state. The overarching baseline is still stagnant and locked up on a subtle unconscious level and that's what you're emanating. The subtle sensations therefore that you keep responding to life from indicates then your supply/demand will always be manifesting like types of experiences. So it's the innate nature, natural striving, overlapping conditional overlay, and the specific thematic composition of these currents leads to the felt reality and how you react which is what state you're in and what you'll think and manifest. The currents are the source of all of this, and the seedtime event is just generating a stagnation that if persisted in will bring about a state and manifestations accordingly. Different compositions of currents indicate different states, relative then to the fixed point of reference reveals what's considered "higher and lower" states.

Get schooled cope coaches. Useless ignorant fools.

We've broken into a new ceiling of depth of RS once again, after spending ages going over the same stuff over and over and over. I have said so many times that ripeness cycles work this way. You go all the way to the end and then another breakthrough occurs. It always does. Always has.

"Man’s clarified desires are seeds containing the power and plans of self-expression and, like the seeds within man, these, too, are buried within an oily substance (a joyful, thankful attitude of mind). " - your faith is your fortune 1941.

This is what I mean. NG keeps talking about wonder and gratitude, and joy, thrills, it's all indicating a correctly "felt" state where the condition of dysfunction is no longer present. It doesn't really mean that you'll feel these things, because when someone with heart fire feels these then they don't get the desire showing up in a satisfyingly way still. The stagnant one will feel locked up still. The thing that matters is we clear the dysfunction and what comes out of that CAN be as he says, "a joyful, thankful, attitude of mind". This is NOT about what they tell us, not one bit. You don't attempt to feel these things while in stagnation, you move the stagnation and the results of that will be what's necessary to feel, even IF it's fury still. You don't need anything specific to be feeling to make it show up, though the currents if balanced will likely be closer to what he describes than not.

I've noticed that when I really focus on moving the stag the things I desire shift at times, sometimes quite radically. It's something I've observed for a long time, and because we identify with the trash it's really just a product of us falsely buying into the warped currents on the belief level.

You will think "from" the stagnation when it's present, or the excess, or the deficiency, and claim it's your mental assumption when in fact it was always just a current that's out of balance manifesting the psychological consequence of that. This is why herbs can be used to treat imbalance, because it's got a direct biochemical interface we can use. If you're feeling a certain way, that there's unavailability for what you want, then you need to simply balance the currents into order, and everything takes care of itself. The state is the composition and arrangements of the currents. That's what has the power, not the imaginal senses or anything. You're just using imaginal senses to experience something that has a thematic implication that alters your field geo and thus the composition of the currents representing the state. When that state becomes baseline, then you manifest what it contains, AKA supply/demand according to innate desires.

When you have a balanced activation of each meridian then you're operating according to the state of the wish fulfilled in faith and persisting in imagination. That's it. That's it.

If you read feeling is the secret again under this view you'll make it make 10x more sense. I always said if we view NG through an expansion of state lens it'll work but this is even beyond that, by a lot, because it's defining the specific composition with each person's "expansion" state and what that'll feel like. I believe it's 100% possible to create a diagnosis and prediction program using this model, to automate coaching, effectively, in theory.

Knowing the reality of how it's just vitality that manifests lifts the weight off and you feel easy. You don't need to do mental methods. You will manifest people proportionate to your supply/demand you're living from relative to your fixed seeds and the world around you which has capacity to feel and respond to this state in a way that's aligned to what you desire.

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